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Kyle and Mauricio

have officially split.

- Did they grow apart?

Their kids are leaving the home.

- There's always been rumors about Mauricio.

- Holy sh...

- I had no idea.

- You think they're hiding something?

- I think she's been lying.

- Complete strangers are like,

you made us believe in true love, and now it's over.

- This is true love.

Everybody else's opinion can off.

- This season on "The Real Housewives

of Beverly Hills"...

- Vegas, bitch. Vegas, Vegas, Vegas. Ha!

My God. We have red Phantoms.

- Bring on Magic Mike!

- So sexy.

- This is a million bucks.

- You have to give a BJ every day.

- Gladly.

- This is your horse?

- How much did you pay for Santos?

More than your Birkin.

- Do you wanna come to Barcelona?

- Viva Espana!

- Yes!

- I'm the chef. I hope you enjoy the house.

- Thank you, Chef.

We can tag team him.

- Any time you want.

- You know what else I want from you?

I wanna thank you. - For what?

- For giving you something to talk about

and making your ass relevant. - Ooh!

God.

- This group wants me to scream all the... ing time.

- I saw my friend in distress,

and you say, you insert yourself.

By the way, you.

- Hi, girly!

- Did you know that it's $7 for a naked bundle

of Denise Richards on OnlyFans?

- You think I'm not gonna go as... ing low as I can?

- You are one evil woman.

- I am.

- You don't understand the severity of the PTSD.

- There are elements I understand.

There are also elements I consider more obnoxious.

- I wanna be back on stage.

I wanna be making new music.

But does that translate into people

wanting to work with me?

- How are things with you and Mau?

- If there was infidelity, would you stay?

- I don't know.

- Every time I go online, I see something

about someone cheating.

Where there's smoke, there's fire.

- I don't wanna talk about that right now.

- I just want you to know.

- I don't wanna talk about it.

- Kyle's not wearing a wedding band.

Is there something going on in your personal life?

- Her marriage.

- This is Morgan.

- You put the first letter of your name on her body.

What is going on, Kyle?

- I'm just glad it's you out there having an affair.

- For once, it's me.

We are a very strong family, and we always will be.

We always will be.

Nothing is gonna change that.

- Kyle? Where is she?

- In denial about something.

- Bubba?

What the... you're out of control, PK.

You've got two bags open.

My God, I leave you for 15 freaking minutes.

My God.

I can't keep this in the house.

Honey, listen.

Remember I told you about Eaglewoman?

- Yeah.

- So she's coming over today. - Is she?

That'll be interesting.

- Love, love, love for you to meet her.

- How is she getting here?

Is she flying?

- She... wait.

She's here.

- Hello.

- Hi, hello.

- Who's Eaglewoman? - I'm Eaglewoman.

- Hi, Eaglewoman. - Hi.

Nice to meet you. - I'm PK. Nice to meet you.

- Nice to meet you. - Hi, PK.

Nancy. - Hi, Nancy.

Have you got a name like Eaglewoman as well?

- I do, Blue Raven.

- Blue Raven?

Dorit, this is Blue Raven, also known as Nancy.

- Yes. - Sorry, I'm just...

I'm just gonna apologize right now for my husband.

- Honey, that's her name.

I didn't say anything wrong. - Is it?

- I can't believe you're making excuses for me already.

- I have to, Bubba, because I'm petrified

of what's gonna come out of your mouth.

- Don't be petrified.

- PK has a habit of putting his foot right in his mouth.

- I asked whether I call you Eaglewoman, Eagle, or Woman.

- No, no, no, not just putting his foot in his mouth,

jamming it down his throat.

I have a group of friends.

We had a really rough year.

- Okay.

- There's definitely a lot of healing that needs to happen.

I would like for you to help the women

talk about their feelings so that we can actually move on.

- I'm what you call the doctor of the soul.

My job is to make sure everyone feels safe

in this collective consciousness,

in this sacred circle.

What I would do is take everyone on a vision quest,

let them start to feel spirit within them.

Through my experience, people are

able to express how they're feeling,

what they they're feeling towards each other.

- I'm a little cynical for you being able to achieve that

with this group of ladies.

There's a lot of weird sh... that goes on.

- Honey, could you not swear, please,

in front of the ladies?

- They like me.

You know, they're at... They're at one with me.

- Honey.

You never know how people are gonna react when you're

offering new-age healing.

But I've sent text messages to all the ladies

inviting them to the retreat.

I hope you can all attend.

Lots of love.

And, to my surprise...

Okay, Erika, I see you.

They were all very open to it.

There are six of us.

I've got a nice, intimate space

so the women can feel comfortable to open up.

- I work with this talking stick.

- But they're not the sort of ladies that

are gonna sit there and only speak when

they've got a talking stick. - That's not fair.

We know how to abide by rules.

- Good luck.

- Honey, we're not a pack of wolves.

- I'm up for the challenge.

- In the real world, what does one wear to a retreat?

- Are we gonna do one of those trust things

where we fall back into each other's arms?

I'm not doing that.

No one's gonna catch me.

- It is supposed to be windy and cold.

I need a jacket.

If I've got a good Chanel one, then I would

definitely go that route.

- Well, I go in looking happy.

- Aw.

- I don't know how long this lasts.

- Do you think you're going to a beauty pageant?

What are you doing?

- Well, good. I'm glad you...

- Hello?

- Wow. You look so hot.

- Yeah.

- I know. Please, do not drop that towel.

She's so sexy.

- We made it.

Why do I feel sick to my stomach?

- That's how I felt, too, earlier.

Let's just see how today unfolds.

No predictions, no expectations.

- I'm gonna let Eaglewoman...

- Her name is Eaglewoman?

- Yes.

- Her God-given, government name cannot be Eaglewoman.

Is it? - Yes.

- Okay, great.

- I love that rock, how it's looking right at us.

It looks like a grandfather.

Grandfather protection.

Look at the horses.

So beautiful.

Stay close by, yes? - Yes, ma'am.

- Okay, super. Thank you.

- My relationship changed with everyone

since last year, honestly.

- How would you think I would feel to hear that you

wanna destroy your sister?

- I never said that.

I said other things.

- The only one it hurts here is me.

I'm the one who gets... ed.

I was very hurt by some of the ladies last time I saw them.

It's so secluded, just how I like it.

So I am nervous about seeing them today.

- Hi!

- This looks so pretty.

- Isn't this beautiful?

- Hi, how are you?

- Look at us.

- Hi.

- Thank you, Colleen.

This is really pretty.

This is not where I thought our first outing would be,

on top of a mountain.

I thought maybe we'd have cocktails at a cool lounge,

but here we are at a spiritual retreat with Dorit.

Hi.

- This is not what I was expecting.

- How are you?

- How are you? - I'm good.

- I love seeing the horses.

- I just bought a horse. - What?

I did.

- Congratulations.

- Thank you.

- What'd she say, a horse?

- She got a horse in the Netherlands.

- You got a horse in the Netherlands?

- And I was telling Garcelle, he can pull a carriage.

- We're gonna take the horse and carriage down Rodeo Drive.

- What on Earth?

- What is this place?

I come to the retreat feeling two things.

One, I knew I was vicious at the time.

- All I think about are victims.

I don't give a about anybody else but me.

- Honey, just take a deep breath in.

- No, I'm not taking any deep breath.

Two, I was also protecting myself,

and I had to stick up for myself.

There's a teepee here?

What is this?

So I am walking in like a man on my own island.

My friend is gone.

All smiles, Erika, all smiles.

And we'll see what happens. I don't know.

- Hello. - Hi, everybody.

- Are you the Incredible Shrinking Woman?

- You're so skinny. - No, are you?

My God.

- What the hell?

- So skinny.

- Hormones.

- "Hormones."

Hormones? - Hormones.

Is hormones spelled...

I don't know.

- People think I'm on Ozempic?

- No, I'm not, but I'm on some really good hormones.

And they should be, too.

- The woman that's coming to lead the ceremony.

- What's her name?

- Eaglewoman.

- Okay. - What is she gonna make us do?

I'm gonna lead you into the circle.

- All right, I'll see you outside.

What the hell?

Only Dorit.

- And you may take a seat wherever you feel

you would like to sit.

- This is a chair.

- That's a chair? - Yeah.

- Welcome, ladies.

It is an honor to meet each and every one of you.

My name is Eaglewoman.

You met Blue Raven.

She's my apprentice, my right hand,

because I'm left handed, so.

But right now, what she wants to do is just pass out...

- Thank you so much.

- Some sage tea.

And this is part of our ceremony.

You know, open up the soul.

In the teachings of the eagle,

it's about being able to see everything

from a higher perception.

The eagle flies the highest.

It flies close to the sun.

And then it travels behind the sun

to meet with Creator, with the ancestors,

and then it brings back the wisdom.

Forget what you know and remember what you forgot.

- I love meditation. I love yoga. I can relax.

Eaglewoman.

Ooh.

- Fly on down.

- We all had a rough year, and there are certain things

that have been difficult to move past.

My hope would be for us to move through some issues,

heal, and then be able to put it behind us.

- Agree. - Totally agree.

- Yeah.

Well said.

- I mean, listen, I'm very happy to go first.

I feel very hurt by you, Erika.

Obviously, I'm sure you know why.

- What Bravolebrity relationship do you think

is headed to splitsville next?

- I think it's Dorit and PK.

- To see you behave like that was deeply hurtful.

- Coming up...

- Dorit, is your marriage strong?

- It feels like there are certain things that have

been difficult to move past.

I feel very hurt by you, Erika.

What you said about PK and I was mean-spirited

and deeply hurtful.

- I didn't wanna answer that question, and I asked not to.

I don't wanna answer this question because I feel bad.

But...

Wait, but.

- You delivered that answer like someone who

really wanted that attention.

- Dorit, I'm a showman.

I walked right down to the edge of the stage,

and I gave those people what they wanted.

- Standing up, going to the center stage,

delivering the line, and then flipping her hair,

coming back, and feeling very good about herself.

That's not a showman.

That's a bitch.

I kind of thought that you were gonna lead with an apology

rather than defending it.

- Well, it's not a defense.

It's just an explanation of how it went down.

It was a shady question.

And I gave a shady answer.

Dorit, is your marriage strong?

- The only thing that I've ever heard about PK and Dorit

was the night PK got pulled over for a DUI.

He may have or may not have had a woman in the car with him.

That's the only rumor I've ever heard.

- My marriage is very strong.

- Right, so when someone says something like that...

- First of all, I went through a very challenging year.

You're hurting.

And so you lash out, and you're mean-spirited.

- The last two years of my life have been very complicated.

But we all hurt each other's feelings in this group.

- I think it was when the "LA Times" article

came out after you left.

It seems like, she must know this.

- I don't believe that you knew most of the things, genuinely.

- Then why are you torturing me about it?

- What does $750,000 earrings look like?

- They're 1.3.

- Why wouldn't you pay the victims?

Have a heart.

- You know what I say?

I'm not guilty, and how... ing dare you

say that sh... about me?

I was getting hit from all sides

when I just needed a moment to catch my breath in this group.

But as your friend, I'd like to apologize

if I was rough, if I was vicious.

I've never felt so low.

I've never felt so unheard.

I love you all.

And I'm very sorry.

- It's interesting to see Erika

be emotional and vulnerable.

But I also feel like, do I trust that completely?

I don't know.

That being said, yeah, I wanna give Erika a chance.

I wanna see who she really is.

Maybe we'll be surprised by her.

- That's a breakthrough.

- You get what you give.

- Let's take a deep breath in.

Let's keep the circle alive and moving,

everything moving through.

That's it.

- Ooh.

- Can I go next?

- Yes.

- Something that was hanging over me that was bothering me,

obviously, you know, we have never had issues before.

But the stuff with Kathy strained

all of our relationships.

- Lisa, here are some of the things

that you claim that Kathy said to you.

"Dorit is a stupid, useless idiot."

"Crystal and Sutton are pieces of sh..., useless idiots,

should be fired."

"I can't believe I have to be around these... ing peons.

They need to go away." - Lisa.

- "I will destroy Kyle and her family

if it's the last thing I ever do."

- Whoo.

- Kathy, do you remember saying any of these things?

- No, I don't.

All of that, no, I don't.

- I was so upset, and I was so emotional.

And I, like...

I... it felt like I looked up, and I wanted,

like, somebody to come up to me or something, you know?

I'm sorry, I have a lump in my throat.

I can't talk now. Give me a second.

- You have a lump in your throat?

- Yeah.

I was literally sitting there, and I felt like

I was, like, drifting out to the sea or something,

you know? And I was so upset.

And I looked up, and everybody was just like...

And it really hurt me a lot.

I did expect more from Dorit and Sutton.

I was very hurt by that.

I've known you guys longer.

Sutton is a very social person.

I get it.

You wanna be friends with Kathy.

Do I think it's because she has a lot of parties?

I do.

I mean, yeah, you wanna go to Kathy Hilton's parties

and all the people there.

- I felt for you, but I was also confused by you

because I thought you're not going to the people that

are coming for your family.

- Coming up...

- I want to show my success to the ex-husband.

- I was confused by you.

You're not going to the people

that are coming for your family.

- She had bad behavior in front of all of us

in a public place.

And so there's consequences to that.

- You're only punishing me, just so you know.

- Your sister is punishing you. - That's right.

Your sister is punishing you. That's right.

- Why is Garcelle not getting that my sister

created all of this by coming for my family and for me?

There's a time where you say enough.

I'm not a punching bag.

I didn't feel like defending someone

who's hurt me repeatedly.

So I kept my mouth shut.

I've had so many incidents where my sister has called me

and lost her temper.

- It is hard to get you on the phone.

I feel like a pest.

- Well, you often call me to rant.

When the phone will ring and I see her name,

I get sheer panic.

I know I'm an adult, but it affects me like I'm a child.

I'm sorry.

- Just take a deep breath in.

- There's a lot of hurt.

There's a lot of pain.

But there's a lot of love.

- Well, we can't be hurt by people we don't love.

- That's true.

- Well, I think what I'm hearing in this group

is we all have a lot of regrets that we've

done to one another.

And I would like to see us all try to be

better friends collectively.

- Absolutely.

You know what I'd love to do?

Would you mind if we move? - Yeah.

- Would you like that? Thank you.

- Thank you so much.

Thank you, Eaglewoman.

- I want you to get closer.

- Yeah.

This feels good.

- We needed that.

- Well, we've gotten through the day,

and everyone's now hugging.

Hell hath frozen over, or at least Beverly Hills has.

- Whoo!

- Thank you so much. - Thank you, Eaglewoman.

Thank you.

- What's going on today?

- Review spring order.

- Okay.

- Cashmere order. - Cashmere order.

- Then we have a few horse issues to go through.

- Define "horse."

- Okay, it's my money.

I can do whatever I want.

I happen to be half-Texan.

I grew up riding, and I wanted to ride again.

Now, some people would say, well, just lease a horse.

It's on my AmEx.

But I'm not normal.

And Santos spoke to me with his eyes...

on the internet.

- Oy vey.

- It'll be fine.

- Hey!

- You can...

- How are you?

I haven't seen you hardly...

Paris, since Paris. - I know.

- Yeah, I know.

- You look so pretty. - Well, thank you.

That's my job.

- We've got lunch.

I just put this out to be decorative.

- Well, that's very nice.

We have enough to feed an army here.

- Jennifer Tilly is one of my best friends

for over 10 years.

We travel so well together.

We love to go to fashion shows all over the world.

I did put one of her salted caramels

in my ear on an Air France flight.

I thought it was the earplugs.

And they were stuck in my ears, and we couldn't get it out.

- Avi, we need some alcohol.

- And then she said, is that my salted caramel I gave you?

Yes, it was.

I don't know. We're so stupid together.

- Hi, honey.

- We gotta do another Paris trip.

- Yes.

I cannot believe, Sutton, you made

Avi come out for two days.

All he got was Sutton yelling at him

like, Avi, where's my suitcase?

Avi, you're not taking good pictures.

Avi, this... we're trying to do a TikTok.

- I rest my case.

- Avi is my assistant but also house manager.

- Thank you.

- Excuse you, sir.

You're not on camera right now.

- Ladies, are we ready for lunch?

- Yes, we are, Avi. - Thank you.

- It's so elegant. Look at this.

It's so nice.

- Chinese chicken salad.

Did you make that, Avi?

- Where's the dressing?

- It's on the way.

He only has two hands, Sutton.

There you go.

- Can you believe almost four years?

- I can't believe it. I remember when you opened.

I was here.

Sutton, I'm really proud of you.

- Thank you.

The business is my true focus right now.

- And it's really important to me.

- Because this is your time.

You spent the last 20 years raising your kids

and being a good mom, and now you're in a new metamorphosis

of your life. - Thank you.

I want to show my success to the ex-husband.

- I just do.

When my ex-husband and I got married,

we were on equal footing.

I was working.

He was working.

Then I got pregnant.

And it was, you're not gonna work anymore.

My power diminished.

This became, here's your allowance.

Financial freedom is a big thing.

I think, in that, comes my children and showing them

financial autonomy is liberating,

especially for my daughter.

Once the allowance got taken away,

because it could, I realized, wow, I allowed that to happen.

I will never allow that to happen again.

When you are divorced...

- There's two words, spousal support.

- Yes.

- They come with an anchor.

I'm not gonna give that up because only

stupid people would do that.

But I don't want the anchor.

I don't want it.

I want complete freedom.

I earned it.

Well, he didn't have any... - Every single dime.

- He didn't have any money when you married him.

You guys built his fortune together.

- We built that together.

And I earned every single dime.

And I have no guilt about that.

But for me to take and build myself

is very important to me.

I want my ex-husband to say, I remember you.

You are smart, and you are capable.

You don't just make lunches and dinner.

- Avi, can I have some more champagne, please?

- I hate to quote Cher, but I will.

I'm strong enough.

- Thank you.

He's a sweetheart.

- Applications for what?

- No!

- Coming up...

- I didn't deserve the way I was treated by her.

I didn't do one... ing thing.

- Hi. - Hello.

- I love your outfit. - Look at this lady.

You look so beautiful.

- It's so good to see you in person.

Come sit down.

- Thank you.

- I know we're used to, like, the Zoom thing.

- The Zoom in our sweats.

I really risk becoming hateful, becoming mean,

something that I don't wanna be.

I've been in therapy for the last two and a half years.

Therapy has given me tools to organize my emotions.

You can take the anxiety and the sadness and the anger,

and then you go, you know what?

That doesn't serve me any longer.

So I'm gonna put it away.

- How are you feeling?

- Good.

Listen, I was married to one of the most unsupportive

humans probably known to marriages,

and then Tom being indicted.

- It's such a terrible fall from grace.

- The indictment was everywhere.

And it was very difficult to deal with.

- "Fraud on a massive scale."

That's how federal investigators today

described the indictments against attorney Tom Girardi.

The Department of Justice says the 83-year-old used

the stolen money, tens of millions of dollars,

to pay for himself and to support

his much younger wife, Erika Jayne.

- Do I feel better that I'm not included in an indictment?

Absolutely.

But does that stop people from thinking

I did something wrong?

No.

- Old man Girardi, he's going to jail.

- Yeah, she's watching her back.

- She may not have been responsible

for stealing the money.

She is responsible for spending the money.

- Yeah.

- You know, Tom is older, and he's gonna die.

- Yeah.

- Have I come to a point where I'm okay and I let go?

- You're gonna start a whole new stage of grieving.

- Really? - Yeah.

- God damn it.

- When he actually passes away, I think it will surprise you...

- How hurt... how hurtful it is.

- How sad it is. - Will I slide back?

- Look, as long as you're not mixing Lexapro and alcohol...

- Yeah, no.

What are you doing here?

- Flowers.

- Get the out of here. - Don't cuss at him.

- Get the out of here. - My God.

- Before you get in trouble.

I'm off Lexapro now, so that's actually pretty good.

- You've done a lot of work on yourself since to make sure

that that never happens again.

- Dorit was very upset with me about what

I had said at BravoCon.

- I think you crossed a line as a friend.

You're hurting.

And so you lash out, and you're mean-spirited.

- I need to be a better friend.

- Yep. - How can I do this?

- You're gonna need to be able to look at what your friends

are going through, and you're gonna need

to have some empathy for them.

- So where does that come from?

How do you develop that?

- Because it's relative and...

- But how do I get that?

- You imagine being in that person's shoes

with their background and their history.

Try to imagine what that feels like emotionally.

Yeah.

Your job is to take the high road.

- It's very honorable for you to say that.

- Yeah, look, you've done low.

It didn't work for you.

Let's try high.

- Let's try the high road.

- Bubba, are you only gonna have two bites of your salad

that I got you?

- I had a lot of salad earlier.

You missed it.

- Do you think Kyle will want some pizza?

- There's no way she's eating pizza.

Judging by the photographs that I've seen of Kyle,

I think that she'll like a nice glass of water

and nothing else.

- Pizza on Hermès.

I mean, it doesn't get any better than that.

- Is that Kyle? Hello.

- Hi! - How are you?

- I'm good. How are you? - Good.

I've got nonalcoholic gin, if you want it.

- I mean, with a personality like this,

do you think I need alcohol, PK?

- No, you do not, my darling.

- It's been seven and a half months now

that I have not had one drop of alcohol.

My behavior at Garcelle's party was terrible.

- So if you wanna be a mother... er...

- Excuse me.

Sutton, don't talk... don't talk like that to her.

Don't talk like that to her.

I just really felt like alcohol wasn't serving me.

- Don't be a stranger, okay?

- I wanted to do whatever it took to make me feel better

physically and spiritually.

- We've got a nice, romantic dinner.

- I know. Look at this.

Aren't we so cute?

- Baby, listen, it's just a little bit of salad

and a little petrified pizza.

I am so happy to see you in such a good place.

Even though it was probably a sh... y journey,

you're coming out the other side.

You're not gonna get that resolve.

You know that's not gonna happen.

And as much as you...

- We were supposed to fix it.

- You are gonna fix it.

- No, you don't know.

I can tell by the way that we ended there, it's not.

- It's out of everyone else's hands,

and it's in yours and Kathy's.

- I saw her at Sutton's holiday party.

- Yep.

- It was fine. It was like, hi, how are you?

You know, like, civil, but it's just, I'm at a place now

where I'm just not going to be mistreated by anybody.

- You are entitled to your feelings.

- I didn't deserve what she said about me.

I didn't do one... ing thing to deserve that.

Kathy's used to a lot of people allowing her

to get away with a certain behavior.

Growing up as the baby sister,

I also allowed that because I'm not

speaking up to my big sister.

You know, it's taken me this long

to be like, I'm not going to allow you

to continue to treat me like this.

I just said, okay, you know what?

- Enough is enough.

- Enough is enough.

You know?

- Listen, my darling, talk about hard years,

and I really understand.

Obviously, different circumstances, but I had

such a difficult year, Kyle. - I know.

- I had a difficult year all around because of the PTSD,

and I was struggling.

- Babe, don't cry. Please, don't cry.

Come on, come on, come on. - I'm scared.

- No, it's okay.

You don't have to be.

- My husband, the one that you depend on the most,

was spending a lot of time in London.

I started to feel like PK and I weren't connected.

For the first time ever, I thought,

is it possible that, like, PK and I would not make it?

- I've had those thoughts.

I think that's normal to have those thoughts.

- And I felt it, and he felt it.

- Well, I think there are times in a relationship where

life happens, and it can pull you apart.

And you can either grow in different ways

or you can pull it together like you guys have

and start from scratch and put in the work

like you're doing with a therapist and...

- Yeah.

- You know, come out the other side.

- I walked down that aisle with PK

because I truly believed I was gonna spend

the rest of my life with him.

Or the rest of his, anyway.

It's normal.

A lot of marriages go through it.

It'd be one thing if, like, he cheated on me,

or he lied to me, or he did something, and I can say,

you know, there was an incident.

- Right. - It wasn't.

It was, like, a period of time that, like, I just needed him.

He wasn't there.

- You needed more from him. - I needed more from him.

- And he wasn't capable of doing it at the time.

- Yeah.

- Coming up...

- Guess what I'm writing? - Ashlyn.

- Yeah.

- I'm getting off to get gas.

Who's putting the gas in?

- Jax.

- Come on.

- Jaid, Jaid, Jaid, Jaid, Jaid, Jaid, Jaid.

- Here, Jaid. - Paper, scissors, shoot.

Damn it.

- Yeah, go get the gas, dum-dum.

- Do I insert card first or do we get the fuel in first?

- Insert card, 'cause you gotta pay for it.

Now press the gas you want.

Do you know how to make it stop?

- Do I have to hold it?

- No, you can put the little lever.

You see the lever?

- Yes.

- Awesome, babe.

- Thanks.

When do I stop it?

- It'll click when it's done.

What?

- I smell gasoline.

- It's okay.

- There's gasoline out here.

- That sucks.

Just put it away, Jax. - Jax, just...

- Nothing's gonna explode? - No, it'll be fine.

- You sure?

I seen those cartoons where they...

- Just close it tight.

- I don't... okay.

Wow, I'm so ready to start driving.

- So Jax and Jaid are 15 now.

I remember the day when I would carry them both like this,

like footballs, and now...

- Hi.

- They can carry me.

They're huge.

- This is the Jaid vlog.

- Jaid, put the camera down.

- Yeah, I was just doing some buffoonery.

- Some buffoonery.

- All right, let's go have a picnic.

- Wow, this is nice.

- This is so pretty.

I've been going back and forth shooting this show in Atlanta.

All I wanna do is spend time with my kids,

but I also have to work.

And I also love to work. - Can you do this?

- No, you can help me do it.

So you just make quality time when you can.

Jaid, what are you doing?

That's good.

You're hungry. - I am hungry.

- I got a mini, so whatever is small.

- Guess what I'm writing? - Ashlyn.

- Yeah.

My God, you're so in love with her!

It's actually romantic.

- I wanna stay at your house another week.

- You can stay with me as long as you want,

as long as Dad's okay with it.

But I do wanna talk to you guys.

You said something yesterday.

Going back and forth sucked.

- I think it would be much better if we didn't.

I mean, we were with Dad for, like, a year, so it's fine.

- I wasn't gone for a year.

I was gone for three weeks, and I could tell that you were...

- Three weeks is basically a year.

- And how did that make you feel?

I felt like when I was talking to you when I was away,

I could tell that you were annoyed

that I was gone so long.

- My friends don't live around there.

And it's boring.

- I definitely feel guilty that my work

takes me away sometimes.

Like, you can say, Mom, I wish you didn't go or...

I don't know if that would change me not going

because it's work. - I told you.

- Wait, no, no, because it's work commitments, right?

But I'm saying sometimes I wish you would just vocalize it.

This is your chance to say how you feel about how

we run the household.

- I would like more freedom.

- You get enough freedom.

- Not as much as I would like.

- I feel like you're not letting me parent you.

Like, if you're sick and I go, can I give you something?

Can I take your temperature?

And you're like, Mom, Mom... - That's fair.

That's fair. - I can take care of it.

I feel like you don't let me parent you.

- And I understand where you're coming from, that you want

to be more of a parent to us.

But I needed that two years ago instead of now.

Most of the parenting and teaching me how to live,

I know already how to do all of that by myself.

I needed...

- So are you saying I wasn't your mom then?

- Yeah.

- There's a lot of pressure as a working parent.

I feel like I've always been there for my kids.

Can I say I was there 100%, all the time?

No, I can't.

Hearing it from him is like a knife to the heart.

- There was times where I think I needed

more than you were giving me, in terms of parenting.

But as of now, I don't need that much parenting anymore.

It's that simple.

You know my intention isn't to hurt you.

I just think that what needs to be said needs to be said,

whether if it hurts or not.

- I'm happy he's being honest,

but it makes me feel like a failure.

For the times that you felt like I wasn't there enough,

I'm sorry. - And I'm sorry, too.

I'm glad that both of us can admit faults from the past

and mature from that.

- Who are you?

- I'm the same kid that you've raised.

See?

I think I turned out fine.

- I think you're gonna be great.

- Thank you.

- Listen, these boys, although they're twins, Jax and Jaid,

they couldn't be more different.

Back in the day, you didn't parent differently.

My mom blanket parented all of us.

But nowadays, you have to look at the child.

What does he need? What doesn't he need?

Like, I didn't grow up like that.

What do you have to say?

- Who, me?

- Yeah, you.

- About what?

- Anything.

- I miss Ashlyn.

Good lord.

- Coming up...

- How many tattoos do you have right now?

- Five.

- Seriously?

- What do I want? What do I want?

Do I wanna be healthy or no?

- Hi, Jane. How are you?

I'm good.

So I have to go to New York and then to Portugal.

And then that's Portia's

spring break, too, right?

Is she the previous week or that... or the next week?

- Portia is next week.

So I can't go to Coachella

weekend two is what you're telling me?

Can you send me notes on all of this stuff

so I can talk to Kyle about it?

Because, like, I can't do this alone.

- How much longer are you on the phone?

- I'm sorry.

Is that first class?

- How long is he gonna take?

- Jane, if I do that, then I could

golf with Bob on the 27th.

- Psst.

How much longer are you gonna be?

- Hold on.

Honey, I'm working...

- Well, as soon as you can wrap up your golf schedule,

let me know.

- Okay.

All right, Jane, listen, I have to run real quickly.

Let me catch back up with you.

Thanks. Bye.

- I can't with this whole day. I hate everything.

Sorry.

- Hi, honey.

- Hi.

- How are you doing? - Good.

I heard you talking to Jane.

- Yeah, I was just talking to Jane.

I gotta talk to you a little bit about our calendars.

- It sounds like you're really booked up.

- I'm supposed to go to Portugal

during Portia's spring break.

I don't know if you guys wanted to all go to Portugal

and make it fun.

- I have stuff I have to do here.

I don't think I would be able to go anywhere like that.

I can't go to Portugal. - At all?

- Not during that window, no.

- Got it, okay.

- Mau and I have had a challenging year together.

You know, he has been working nonstop.

I've been working.

When you have to schedule a meeting

to go over your schedule, you know it's a problem.

- On another note, you look amazing.

I mean, you're gonna go work out right now?

You look so good. - Thanks.

- You're, like, working out like a beast right now.

You're eating well.

You're not drinking.

Like, you're changing your life.

- When you go through painful times in your life,

it changes you as a person.

My sister, feeling let down by my friends,

feeling disconnected from my husband, you know,

you have to find an outlet.

I feel good about it.

And I hope... I hope Mau does, too, because here I am.

- You look amazing.

- Well, thanks.

- How many tattoos do you have right now?

- Five.

- Seriously?

- This is the first.

- That one, I know. - This is the second.

This is the third.

This is the fourth.

This is the fifth.

- I only knew of three.

- Well, maybe you should be looking at my body closer.

This is clearly a big symptom of not spending time together.

Years ago, he would have noticed a freckle on my body,

and now he doesn't know that I have two more tattoos.

- I think that's enough, yeah?

I don't know.

I think I'm gonna get another one.

- Lovebean, that's enough.

Five tattoos is a lot.

- If I want to, I will.

- I will not allow that.

- You didn't even know how many I had.

So if I want one, I'm gonna get one.

It's my body.

- I... Lovebean, stop that.

You don't need any more tattoos.

- You don't have a choice.

- Honey.

- You don't have a choice.

- Lovebean. - I don't know.

I mean, sometimes you're married,

and they can do no wrong, and other times,

they breathe, and you wanna punch them.

Right now, I'm irritated.

I'm at a point in my life I don't

have to explain anything to anybody anymore,

including you.

I went from doing everything my mom told me to do

to being a mom myself and having to be

a good example to my girls.

And I just realized that you can do all that,

and things can still go to sh...

I don't know if it's what happened with my sister

or what, but I just don't feel like

I have to answer to anybody.

- Well, you don't, but don't become a rebellious person

and do it out of rebellion.

Do it because you want it.

- Listen, I am very ing clear right now.

I'm not rebelling.

I'm just really clear.

- Next time on "The Real Housewives

of Beverly Hills"...

- What's an ideal partner for you?

- Tall, handsome.

And we'll talk about the wealth part later.

- I need to let go of being defensive

and being ready to fight. - Yes.

- I want to work on repairing this friendship

because I don't have many.

- I think Jax thinks I'm doing it all wrong.

He asked to go live with his dad.

I feel like I failed.

- You think that this just happens?

There's a lot of effort that goes

into dressing a certain way, looking a certain way.

- I think maybe I'm not gonna bother with surprises anymore.

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