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Dan,

can I have a word with you?

Dan, you have to be strong now.

Your father...

He's in a coma.

Oh.

I see.

I'll apply for a leave of absence for you.

You can go and pack your things.

It's okay.

I have an afternoon class.

Excuse me.

Right.

What did Master Joe talk to you about?

He didn't look happy.

Oh.

My dad's about to die,

so Master wants me to visit him.

Huh?

Aren't...

Aren't you going to?

You saw what I saw.

Your dad probably wants to see you.

Your Master is here, yet you're still talking!

Take out your Civics lecture notes.

Turn to page 21.

Hey.

What are you doing here this late?

And what's all the stuff you're carrying?

- Can I stay the night with you? - Huh?

I can't close the window in my room.

Tell Uncle Rerng to fix it then.

I'm too lazy to go downstairs.

Please? Pretty please?

Please? Let me bunk with you.

What do you say, Dan?

Your call.

All right.

You can sleep in the middle.

But if you snore, you're going to sleep with the mosquitoes.

Fine.

Can I put these here for a bit?

The window isn't actually broken, is it?

Are you worried about me?

Yes. And what are you going to do about it?

You're looking for trouble again.

We'll get in trouble if someone catches us in the same room.

Anyway,

you're not close with your dad?

No.

And does he know

you've been having nightmares and had to transfer here?

It's okay if you don't want to tell me.

It's not that I don't want to tell you.

But I don't want to remember it.

What are you guys talking about?

Surat might hear you.

Turn off the lights.

The switch is next to you.

Well, you were talking.

Ugh.

The cancer in Korn's brain has spread elsewhere.

I've administered painkillers intravenously

along with antibiotics.

How can you play such a lame hand?

The side effects of the medications will

cause him to be half-conscious

- or delirious. - Come on.

And from now on,

the only treatment available is chemotherapy.

He seems to enjoy playing chess very much.

He does.

He used to play almost every day.

I see.

Hey, it's your turn. Come and make your move.

It's checkmate.

How are you going to make a comeback now?

Shoot...

Who's that?

It's so early.

Don't you know...

Shoot! It's Brother Anurak!

Hide!

Come on in, sir.

Why did you slam the door in my face, Josh?

I'm sorry, sir.

I was startled. I thought a friend was pranking me.

And why is there bedding on the floor?

I've been tossing and turning recently.

So it's just in case I fall off the bed.

Dan,

hurry up and get dressed.

We're going to the hospital.

I don't want to go.

Dan, this might be the last time

you get to see him alive.

I strongly believe he wants to see you no matter what.

Please do it for me.

This will be his last dose of morphine.

Then I'll remove the respirator

so he can go slowly.

If you'd like to say anything to him,

now's the time.

Dan,

I'll go and talk to the doctor about making preparations.

Some people might see a house as a safe haven.

But to me,

a house is a ticking time bomb on a battlefield.

Time is counting down until everything is obliterated.

Where were you?

I was at the market.

Why are you home early today? Don't you usually finish at six?

If I didn't come home early,

I wouldn't have found out you're leaving me!

Where are you running off to?

I asked you a question!

Go ahead and slap me!

Slap me like how you always do.

You're having an affair, aren't you?

You'll never be able to run away with your lover!

Don't think I don't know.

And if you run away,

I'm going to go after you and kill you both!

Ugh!

Did all the alcohol addle your brain?

Is that why you think I'm cheating?

Look at the state of you.

Who'd be able to put up with that?

You said you're going to work

but come home reeking of alcohol every day!

No one would be stupid enough

to stay with a loser of a husband like you!

Vi!

Mom!

I'd been putting up with you for ten years.

I cleaned up after you.

But I won't put up with you anymore!

Let me tell you.

Without our son,

why would I put up with a piece of garbage like you?

You!

Dad, don't hurt Mom!

You're not going anywhere.

You have to stay with me for the rest of your life.

I might not be able to today.

But I'll try again tomorrow!

I'll run away from you!

Keep this in mind!

I don't love you anymore!

I don't love you anymore!

Dan,

pack your mother's things!

I told you to go and pack her things!

I told you to do it!

I ordered you to! Why are you disobeying me?

Huh? Are you going to defy me?

Stop!

If you hurt our son,

I'm going to shoot you!

Dan, get out!

Don't touch him.

Go ahead.

Shoot me!

Shoot me in front of our son! Do it!

If you hurt him, I'm going to shoot you!

Have you gone insane, Vi?

Have you gone insane?

- Let go of me! - Give me the gun!

- Let go! - Give me the gun!

- Let go! - Hey!

- Ow! - Let go!

- Give it to me! - Let go!

- Ah! - Ugh!

Dan!

After that day,

My mom was admitted to a psychiatric hospital.

When the doctor saw her,

she was diagnosed with mental instability and mood swings.

And that was when

I started having dreams about the shadow.

Dan? Where's Dan?

Dan?

Dan?

Dan!

No, he's still alive!

Dan! Dan, wake up!

Wake up!

Dan!

Dan,

if she recovers,

I'll do my best to look after you both.

I'll stop drinking.

Dan,

it seems your father wants to hold your hand.

Dan?

Please wait outside.

This way, please.

Sir?

You still haven't forgiven him?

It's not necessary.

For a man like him,

he's very lucky to die painlessly.

The world is so freaking unfair.

Don't swear in my presence.

I'm sorry, sir.

It's not important

whether death is painful or not.

At least this is his final moment.

He probably wants you to release him from guilt.

How would you know him better than I do?

If he's truly guilty,

he wouldn't have treated Mom like that when she was alive.

Think about it.

He's about to die,

but he hasn't even forgiven you.

Father, do you think

my son is going to forgive me?

He's still very young.

I don't want him to believe...

I'm scared...

I'm scared that might be what he believes.

I don't want him to hate me.

Your son has been

visiting you almost every day.

If that's what he believes, he wouldn't have come.

The unforgiving voice you're hearing

isn't your son's voice.

But it's your own.

You still haven't been able to forgive yourself.

If you still feel guilty,

the best way to atonement

is to focus on recovery.

Oh.

May the Lord protect you.

Thank you.

I have to excuse myself now.

Oh, Dan!

Did you pick him up from school?

Yes.

And who's this?

I'm a priest. The church has sent me

to look after the patients here.

Father Anurak is a priest

and my doctor's assistant.

Ever since he started looking after me,

I feel much more at peace.

Dan, say hello to him.

- Hello. - Hello.

I shouldn't interrupt your family time.

Excuse me.

Oh, okay.

Did you lose weight?

- Have you eaten? - Yes.

What did you do at school?

Are you hungry?

How was school today?

We can't change the way other people think.

Because if it was possible,

I would've been able to convince you to forgive your father by now.

Honestly,

if your mother was still alive,

I believe she would want you and him

to be on speaking terms again.

Brother Anurak?

Excuse me. You have a call from the school.

Dear Father Anurak,

I feel lonely.

And it seems no one else can actually hear me.

I think of the times when you'd sit in this room

and let me speak my mind.

You told me

feelings aren't reality.

It's only temporary.

Once the time has passed,

our feelings would change.

When I think of your words,

it always brings my consciousness back to reality.

I'm still on antidepressants.

But I do have a goal of reducing the dosage

according to the doctor's recommendation

if I show signs of improvement.

I'm happy to know

you're feeling better, Vipha.

On the days you feel lonely as if there's no one else,

I'd like to remind you God is omnipresent.

He is always happy to listen to you.

With good intentions, may the Lord protect your family.

Brother Anurak.

What are you doing?

Why did you burn my letter?

You wrote a letter mentioning God,

but in fact, you behaved inappropriately

and slept around with a priest!

I guess you don't care about your husband or son anymore.

Is that the extent of your thoughts?

Is seeing me being happy going to kill you?

What's wrong with you?

If you're happy with him, then go and live with him!

There's nothing between me and Father Anurak.

Our hearts are pure.

There's nothing in the letter either.

Who'd be able to put up with you picking fights when you're drunk?

- I shouldn't have come back! - Then why did you?

Get out!

Let the world know

you're a harlot!

You slept around with a priest!

And don't ever think

that I'll let you have Dan.

Oh, I'm going.

And I'm taking Dan with me.

- Away from a scumbag like you! - You!

Stop.

Stop contacting him.

If you don't stop,

I'm going to tell the hospital to come and get you!

And I'll tell them you're insane!

And just you wait.

Let's see who'll get custody of Dan!

Here it is.

There.

This one's for you.

Wow, why does the food look so tasty today?

Then eat up. The school bus will be arriving soon.

This is a lot. I won't be able to finish it.

Can you pack it up so I can have it for lunch at school too?

The school also provides lunch.

You're just trying to make me feel better.

It's okay. We'll keep the leftovers, and you can heat it up later.

I'll put it away for you.

The bus is here!

So soon.

Dan.

This is all I have on me.

It's the best I can give you.

Spend it on whatever you want, okay?

Keep it.

Keep it with you.

She's at peace now. It's okay.

Thank you.

I'll check on Dan.

Thank you.

How is it? Is it delicious?

You should buy another one for your dad.

What's his favorite flavor?

I don't know. I've never had ice cream with him.

Why don't you go inside to see my mom?

I don't think it's appropriate if I go in now.

I came here because I wanted to know if you're okay.

I thought you didn't want to go in because my mom's a sinner.

Why do you think so?

My mom used to say killing yourself is a grave sin.

She killed herself, so she's a sinner.

That's not the case.

Sometimes, people commit suicide

because they might want to make a sacrifice.

You probably don't understand.

You'll realize

when you're grown up.

Okay.

And how are you feeling now? Are you doing okay?

I am.

But recently someone has been coming to stay with me.

A friend?

Is it a friend from school?

No.

I met him at home.

He often spends time with me when my dad's away.

He always lies next to me at night

and takes me somewhere when I'm dreaming.

When you're dreaming?

What does he look like?

Hm...

I can't remember.

But he doesn't have a face.

I don't really enjoy it when he visits.

Eat up.

Why aren't you eating?

Dan!

Why aren't you eating?

I made this for you! So eat!

Eat!

Come on!

Finish it!

Why aren't you eating?

I made this for you! Be grateful!

You're as arrogant as your mother.

If you're going to be a picky eater,

then no dinner for you!

Clean it up now.

Clean it up if you're not going to eat it.

Clean it up!

Dan,

take your medication.

Take it and clean everything up.

Dad, where are you?

Dad, help me!

Dad, help!

Help me, Dad!

Please look after Dan for me. From Vipha.

Thank you.

I already sorted out the documents.

The hospital will contact the district office.

Thank you.

Sir,

I'd like to stay here tonight.

Of course.

- Here. Eat up. - Eat up.

I like it.

Can you eat it?

You've gotten a lot better.

I'll probably lose to you this time around.

What are you waiting for?

It's your turn.

Dad,

have you ever loved me?

That's a stupid question.

Of course I love you.

Is what you did your whole life

something you'd call love?

And what do you want me to do?

What fathers should do.

When I needed you,

did you ever hold me or say you loved me?

I'm just a kid, Dad.

What kind of men hold each other?

I can't pamper you like your mother did.

Don't use Mom as an excuse.

What Mom did deserves to be called love.

But what you did isn't

even comparable to what she did.

If she truly loved you,

she wouldn't have abandoned you...

She left you!

Not me!

And you know what?

I tried my best.

I made so many sacrifices since you were born.

No one ever told me

being a father would be this difficult!

Are you saying that since you had me,

you've never been happy?

Ever since you were born,

your mother and I had the utmost happiness.

And you're like

an emotional bond between her and me.

So in the end,

I've just been a tool for you to hold Mom back.

Good.

Good thing she left you.

For a horrible man like you,

even if there were ten of me, Mom would still leave you.

You have a sharp tongue like your mother.

Do you know something?

I'm very happy

to see you so close to death, Dad.

But it'd be better

if you're conscious and die a painful death.

You came to see me today

because you wanted to torment me?

I know how much you hate me.

But I don't need anything else now

except for your forgiveness.

Forgiveness?

Do you think what you did can be easily forgiven?

You probably don't even know

how much you've ruined my life.

Can you forgive me, Dan?

No.

A man like you doesn't deserve forgiveness.

- Can you forgive me, Dan? - No!

- So I can finally leave! - No!

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me!

Dan, please forgive me!

Shut up! I said shut up!

A man like you doesn't deserve a peaceful death!

I'll never forgive you!

No! Korn, you jerk!

I'll never forgive you!

Never, Korn!

Never!

It's funny, isn't it?

You grew up to be exactly like me.

I'm very proud of you, Dan.

You might feel like there's no one else left.

But there are people around you who are worried about you.

They're also your family.

Are you okay?

Hey.

Are you for real?

Is this how you're going to do it?

Right?

Today's also Sunday.

The infirmary's closed if something happens to you.

That's why I brought you guys with me.

I think it's time

for me to finally grow up.

I don't know what you've gone through.

Your dad just passed away.

But I never saw you cry.

You're very strong.

Right. I'm...

I'm fine.

That's enough.

Know your limits.

Don't push it.

I think

you should try swimming across the width of the pool,

from this side over to that side.

Mm.

Dan?

Can you tell me the truth about Trin?

I'll find it out myself

if you don't give me a straight answer.

I saw something following Master Joe.

Anan has something to do with Trin's disappearance?

That's why I want to look into it.

Do you really believe Trin died from the side effects of narcotics?

There's proof of what happened to Trin.

The drama club and Master Joe

really made me happier.