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You taping me now?
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I'm sorry.
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Say something!
Anything!
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What do you want me to say?
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I'm out of words now.
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I already said what I said.
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Say it all again one more time!
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Do you worry, what this doc...
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How this documentary is gonna affect your life?
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No.
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You're not bothered about that?
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No.
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I don't have nothin' to hide.
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There's nothin' that I have to hide.
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Is that a new tattoo?
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This one might be new, this one is new...
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and this one, and this one.
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I only had this one.
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What's up with the hair?
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Low.
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No haircut but low.
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Lemme see.
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"aggressive"...
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I used to get excited about that word,
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I don't wanna be labeled.
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So you're serious about it?
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You're, totally anti being labeled "aggressive" anymore?
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I don't wanna be a label.
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I don't wanna be labeled,
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I...
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call me "Kisha," man.
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Call me "Kisha."
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♪ exciting house music slowly fades in ♪
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I was raised in the street.
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I'm like a motherfuckin' legend!
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You see me.
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Because I'm aggressive?
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That doesn't matter!
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Let me be feminine!
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Salt and peppers and...
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One Christmas, I bought myself a camera,
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and I fell in love with photography instantly.
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I taught myself how to shoot.
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And I realized, that's it!
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I wanna share what I see.
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I want you to see the beauty in it as
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Smile a little bit, because you got nice teeth!
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I have so many queer friends,
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so many trans-masculine and non-binary friends,
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and I decided I wanted to make a new series of portraits.
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That's beautiful.
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I like that.
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And I wanted to start with the BIPOC folks,
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who are still underrepresented.
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♪ Uplifting piano music ♪
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I also wanted to meet the younger generation and see who
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they are,
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and how they were impacted by our first film.
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When I first saw the documentary
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'The Aggressives, ' I finally saw a representation of me.
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I actually appreciated the rawness because it allows for
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evolution.
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Seeing that representation, for me,
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opened up a door.
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I don't wanna be boxed in.
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My masculinity is mine to make.
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For me, masculinity is not about being society's definition of a
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man, but about being in harmony with my femininity.
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The first time I saw 'The Aggressives, '
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I was a freshman in an all-female Black college.
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I instantly felt connected, because I always felt like I was
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extremely different from everyone else,
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and then seeing the film and saying,
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You're not different."
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That film is what helped me kick off my transition,
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feel comfortable in changing the way I was presenting,
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and carrying myself in confidence.
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We have always been looking for people who reflect
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us and look like us.
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I'm very thankful.
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I consider all the people in 'The Aggressives' to be my
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"trans-cestors."
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their existence was affirming.
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Because they have existed and lived through their experiences
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and have gone through their adversities,
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I'm able to be more free in my body.
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I feel like "AG" or "an aggressive" is kind of a
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dated term.
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The language has changed and some of the stuff that was in
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'The Aggressives' originally might not correlate,
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with how someone like me would identify.
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The one who I identified the most with was probably Kisha.
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I thought she was absolutely beautiful,
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but still able to own her masculinity without having to
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compromise who she is.
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Even that's cool, what I'm saying?
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Because you're
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doin' you, you're being you.
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Exactly.
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This series is close to my heart.
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I see myself in all of their faces.
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I wanted to capture their strength,
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and grace, as human beings,
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and show you how to see past the labels and the tags.
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Because they are me,
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and I am them,
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and we are you.
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I'ma hit you up in,
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a half an hour, and I'ma come link with y'all.
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Like in the old movie!
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I'm getting flashbacks, too!
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It's like...
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super strange.
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What's up?!
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Her eyes were like summer!
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To you.
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Don't wear it out.
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There's a thing called "femme aggressive,"
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and that's what I considered myself when I was younger.
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And it's probably still what I would consider myself now.
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Good.
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But personally, I'm not into the labels
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anymore.
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After the first film, I kinda got stuck with the tag,
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because that was the time and the film and...
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we've all kind of outgrown those labels.
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I came out a little bit cocky,
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and I kinda was, because I was young and crazy,
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and it's grown from being,
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cocky to, confident and understanding life and
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experiencing life.
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I'm still the same person, I'm ...I don't have so much of a
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six pack.
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I feel like I had a six pack back then.
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I might have like a two pack.
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My weight kinda fluctuates because I'm older.
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Through the years, you k I've had difficult times.
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Everybody has difficult times,
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good times, bad times.
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Because there was parts of that film that I was very vulnerable,
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because I was still so young when we finally released it and
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showed it around the world.
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And it made me emotional to see all the things that other people
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in the film went through, what I mean?
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And it made me feel"
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we need to support each other more."
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Everybody should be helping each other.
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You don't have to be from someone's community,
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you could be walking past.
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If somebody's laying down on the floor with a cut,
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look for a t-shirt, take the t-shirt off your back!
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Since the film, I spread my wings.
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Worked on a couple different independent films,
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couple television shows, couple of Spike Lee films.
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Art, acting...
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sometimes, that's what you gotta do as a creative,
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I'm hustlin' and bustlin'.
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I have a 1964 Dream 305,
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and then I have a TMAX with a Yoshimura pipe on there,
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I have a Honda Reflex,
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and I have a Can-Am Spyder.
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That's my latest baby, because the trunk on a Can-Am Spyder,
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you could put a newborn baby and a weekend bag
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and we're outta here.
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♪ Smooth funky music ♪
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Approaching my 40-year mark, I feel like I've been reborn.
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I feel as happy as I was when we did the first
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documentary.
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Sometimes I'm dating women and they act like they've never seen
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the documentary, and then they're
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"you're a player!"
and I'm...
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eventually, I find out that they saw the documentary,
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and I'm " that was like 100 years ago,
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And I was a child, and I was single,
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and I was living my life."
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I usually have a special woman in my life.
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Almost all the time.
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Because I'm a one-woman woman.
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I'm not necessarily a player,
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but I like to be free.
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Since the first film,
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I've grown.
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I've learned to not have so much expectations in life and,
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to work through things with patience and love.
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And to, never take moments for granted.
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In the first film, the thing that connected all the cast
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members was that they were all assigned-female-at-birth
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people of color with masculine presentation.
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But the character I identified with the most was Trevon because
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I feel like they embodied both masculine and feminine
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characteristics.
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The late '90s/early 2000s, there wasn't language to
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describe what that was.
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♪ Ethereal R&B music ♪
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To be honest, when 'The Aggressives' came out,
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I didn't think that it would...
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become what it was.
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I didn't think that people in my neighborhood and stuff like that
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would see it,
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I was embarrassed of my lifestyle.
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It's 3 o'clock!
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Run around and be me.
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I was young.
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I was headed down the wrong path.
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It wasn't too many good things in my future if I kept doing the
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same things that I was doing.
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It makes you wanna change something.
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One day, I sat in my house...
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The one that you filmed me at last.
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I told myself that there was some things that I needed
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to work on.
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I started writing down some goals...
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GED, college, work, name change.
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It took a while.
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Three years later, I had my GED,
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I was in a better living situation,
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changed my name.
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'The Aggressives' helped me evolve.
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It pushed me.
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When people started hitting me up and telling me that I changed
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their lives, that... That was a big thing for
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me, and that is why I still live my life in a unapologetic way.
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These days, I don't consider myself to be an aggressive,
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mainly because of... when I hear somebody say a "AG" or
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"aggressive," of an aggressive female.
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I consider myself to be male.
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I'm not a cisgender male...
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I wasn't assigned, that gender at birth...
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But I'm a transgender male.
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I've always been a trans man,
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I didn't know the terminology,
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so I stuck with the fact that I was an "aggressive"...
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a "AG"... because that's what I was taught.
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When I look at other trans guys and I see that they
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have the full facial hair,
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the full beard, or they have their top surgery,
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or they're...
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swole up, I tell myself,
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"First of all, not every man is like that."
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Overall, I'm probably more considered "non-binary."
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But I'm not sure.
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I still have an insecurity with my chest.
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I don't want them there, I don't like them,
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I want a flatter appearance, for sure,
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but with the scars, I'm gonna be... I'm gonna feel
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uncomfortable.
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That makes me think, what's the point of going from
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one uncomfortable state to another?
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I call it like a spiritual warfare,
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because I fight with myself probably almost every day,
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with the bordering or the straddling of the fence.
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Why change myself for people?
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'The Aggressives' showed me a side of myself,
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that I may not have been as aware of.
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I did connect with Octavio...
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How unapologetically queer they were.
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"This is who I am.
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If you have a problem with it, get out of my face."
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When I watch 'The Aggressives, '
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I see my growth.
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I was what, 18 years old?
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It do remind me of things that I don't wanna go back to.
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It's like a lesson learned.
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Things was difficult for me back then.
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So this is... it's like a whole story with me where you young,
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you in a group home, and you in the street and things like that,
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your parents is on drugs, and you gotta fight for yourself.
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21 years later.
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I'm always gonna be aggressive.
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I am the dude.
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I am that man.
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I am that motherfuckin' fly guy.
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Do you feel like your identity has changed
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since the last time we filmed you?
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If I had a choice to change my gender,
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I would.
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How many friends that's men now?
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A lot.
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I'm, still stagnated in this.
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The reason why I don't change my gender is because I have a son.
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I'm probably the only one out of my friends that have a kid.
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You understand?
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And I didn't have a kid...
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like I willingly wanted a kid.
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I was 15 when it happened.
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That's something that...
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I don't even wanna, have a conversation about.
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If it wasn't for my son, I would be trans.
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I don't want him to have to deal with society judging him for who
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his parent is.
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My aunt adopted him when I was younger because I didn't have a
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choice at that time.
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It was difficult.
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Being that she had adopted him, and she knew my lifestyle,
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she said, "Don't come by here.
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If you come by here, I'ma call the cops."
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I already had a criminal record.
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If I go by there, it's like I'm harassing them.
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When she passed away is when our relationship got closer.
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He thought that, I didn't want nothing to do with him,
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so I had to explain all of that stuff to him.
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I wanna live different.
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You think I wanna die in the hood,
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go to jail in the hood, with my rest of a life?
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Hell no, man!
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I want a fuckin' house with a motherfuckin' boat and go out
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there and mind my motherfuckin' business;
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that's how I wanna live.
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Last year, I cut my hair off,
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and...
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a lot of people have been calling me "sir,"
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and I kinda like the confusion that...
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I cause people.
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The way the people in the first film,
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'The Aggressives, ' said it was:
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"I am me; this is who I am."
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I'm excited to see what happened with Chin.
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♪ Ominous ethereal music ♪
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Hello, this is a prepaid collect call
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from...
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Chin.
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An Inmate at the Irwin County Jail.
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Hello?
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My God, Chin...
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What's up?
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How are you?
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How are you mentally doing?
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But...
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Boy...
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This call will be terminated in one minute.
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I was born in the Bronx,
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I was raised in Brooklyn, and what I say is that I grew up in
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Harlem.
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Let's get a Spanish coffee.
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♪ Upbeat bachata playing ♪
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I've been in Harlem since my late teens.
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This is where I had my first apartment,
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and this is where I've been ever since.
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Harlem got flavor, almost like Hollywood.
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There's a certain swag.
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You like my tattoo of Jesus?
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Thank you.
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Nice!
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Thank you.
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I got back in touch with my father after being
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with my mother for many, many years.
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He was Christian, and he tried to give me a speech
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about my sexuality.
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"the Bible says this, and the Bible says that."
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That's not the way I read the Bible,
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and that's not the way I grew up spiritually.
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It was believing in God,
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believing a higher power,
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helping others...
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It was instilled in me from my mom.
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As a little girl, Kisha was always on the go,
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always wanted to experience things.
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She loved the outdoors.
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Very curious.
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She was very strong-minded.
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She was more boyish.
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As a mom, you're always putting cute dresses on little girls,
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and it got to the point where Kisha didn't wanna wear dresses
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anymore.
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So I said, "Okay, so we'll go for the pants."
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A lot of my family was involved in the church.
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I didn't see any kind of...
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same-sex love.
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So for me, it was trying to understand me
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and what I was feeling.
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She started getting very angry and
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rebellious, and...
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I got a call from her school that she was up on the roof...
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threatening to commit suicide...
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and that they had called the cops,
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and they were gonna take her to the hospital.
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The social worker said to Kisha, "Tell Mom what's the problem."
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And she said, "I'm gay."
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I said, "Okay.
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You are who you are.
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You're my daughter."
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Finding out, it opened up my heart.
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She started not being so angry all the time.
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We started getting closer.
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I loved her for who she was, and I still do.
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She's come a long way, and she's accomplished a lot of things
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that she wanted to accomplish...
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her way.
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♪ Tender ethereal music ♪
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Which I'm also very proud of.
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It's quiet, there's no New York City traffic,
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there's no horn honking.
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It's peaceful.
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I like to be out here in Joshua Tree,
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about 45 minutes away from home.
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We moved to Palm Springs because of how open it is to the LGBT
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community.
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We're doing food delivery and
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stuff, still trying to figure it out.
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I met Jade in 2013, downtown in the city at a club
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called Esquilita's.
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Jade had one of her, buddies approach me
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and ask me if I liked girls.
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Because of the film.
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I got to know him through the film.
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He was into transgender females, so I didn't know if he was still
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into cisgenders.
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Because I'm not trans,
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that's why I had my friend approach him.
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I always get asked am I trans,
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and I don't take no offense to it,
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because trans women are beautiful.
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♪ Tender synth music ♪
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- So our first date was...
- Was it the steakhouse?
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No... our
first dinner date.
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Or was it church?
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It was church.
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- That's what I was...
- It was church.
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I fell in love.
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We've kind of been together ever since.
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Trevon is the first trans guy I ever dated,
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so it was something new to me.
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He's very charming and sexy.
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Before that, I was dating aggressive females.
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I did identify as being a lesbian,
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and he says he's non-binary
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our relationship is our relationship.
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I don't put "lesbian" or "straight" on there.
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It's us,
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When I first came out,
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like most trans guys, I identified as an...
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as an aggressive female in the lesbian community,
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especially because, "trans" wasn't a thing.
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I don't even know if I wanna consider myself "non-binary."
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I don't want these stereotypes.
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Let me be who I wanna be.
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Let me be the individual I wanna be.
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If I don't wanna play basketball,
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I don't wanna play basketball.
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If I don't wanna...
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sit on the wall during the club and I wanna...
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do a one-two switch, let me do my one-two switch!
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You k what's the problem?
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Even Jade still expects different things from me
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sometimes, because she looks at me as a man,
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and that that's not fair.
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It's a touchy topic for her sometimes.
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Jade and I moved out here because I had messed up
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in our relationship.
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I cheated,
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and...
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we needed a fresh start.
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I couldn't see myself without being with him.
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I'm about to get emotional.
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I realized how much I loved him.
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We ain't dealt with a lot of stuff.
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We kinda left it back in New York.
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Once we get stable, we wanna have kids.
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We're looking into freezing his eggs.
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I'm 36.
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And I'm 32, so I can carry his child,
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so we wanna do one and one.
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It's a lot with that, with money and stuff.
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And then getting married.
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In like two year...
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- In two... in two years?
- I hope
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I hope so.
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Some bug spray.
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I was about to say, please,
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they trying... the bees trying to eat me and everything over here.
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I would never have thought,
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the last time I interviewed you back in the day,
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that I would be interviewing you by a pond.
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Daniel...
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When I get home from work, I sit here.
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I enjoy this because it's peaceful.
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When you're younger, you do foolish things, and...
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the foolish things left me to being incarcerated,
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and at some type of point in my life,
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I've had to think,
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"Okay, do I wanna keep going back to prison?
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No.
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I wanna actually enjoy my life, be free,
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don't have to look over my back, worrying about the police or
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people after me because of the foolish things I was doing."
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That's what made me wanna go back to school and continue
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education and to do better for myself.
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I went to Hudson Valley Community College for my degree
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in electrical construction and maintenance.
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I'm a mechanic maintenance worker.
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Back then, I wanted to be around a whole bunch of noise.
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Where I'm like of middle age and I wanna relax.
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That's why I decided to move up here.
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♪ Cool jazzy hip-hop ♪
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♪ Lights ♪
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♪ Camera, action... ♪
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I stopped taking my hormone therapy when I moved out here,
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because they didn't have no service out here.
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This year is the year that they actually started that service.
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I take my injections once a week.
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I'm changing, Daniel!
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I'm getting little hairs.
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I'm starting to slim down, I've noticed.
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My face and stuff is starting to get a little bit masculine.
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I believe the reason why I didn't come out on the first
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documentary as me being a trans man is because of my family;
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I was so young when you was interviewing me and I was living
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with family, so I didn't wanna have that problem where I would
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have to be homeless...
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because of who I am.
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There's never a time where... Ever!
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That I ever felt like a woman.
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I never wanted to have breasts, never.
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I'm hunched, and my spine is starting to shift
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because they're so heavy.
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I heard about top surgery, but I didn't have the funds to...
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actually do that.
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I have to pay for that out of pocket.
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My whole life I had to deal with this,
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I want to get rid of them.
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Then I can actually be who I wanna be and who I need to be
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for myself, who I should be.
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♪ Tense hopeful music ♪
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I agreed to take Chin's case because,
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when I watched 'The Aggressives, '
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I was able to connect to Chin on more of a human level,
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and I realized that Chin's experiences as a trans man were
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of historical significance to the LGBT community.
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I was moved to try to see a little bit of hope in
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his case, where other attorneys may have seen it as
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a done deal.
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He came here when he was nine years old
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with the rest of his family.
534
00:30:45,030 --> 00:30:47,900
They entered as legal permanent residents.
535
00:30:49,200 --> 00:30:51,950
When he was young, he was living as a lesbian.
536
00:30:52,660 --> 00:30:56,620
He was living with his grandmother and had a girl over.
537
00:30:56,910 --> 00:30:59,310
His grandma flipped out, put his stuff in trash bags,
538
00:30:59,330 --> 00:31:02,750
and put him and his belongings out on the curb.
539
00:31:03,250 --> 00:31:07,300
Then, he ends up joining thousands of other LGBT youth
540
00:31:07,340 --> 00:31:10,430
who were living homeless in New York City.
541
00:31:12,010 --> 00:31:16,310
Around this same time, he loses his ID and green card.
542
00:31:16,350 --> 00:31:19,640
Immigration confuses his with somebody else's,
543
00:31:19,690 --> 00:31:22,480
and he's not able to get it reissued.
544
00:31:43,250 --> 00:31:46,000
So he resorts to, some kind of survival:
545
00:31:46,050 --> 00:31:46,840
crime.
546
00:31:46,880 --> 00:31:50,380
There are various points where he's incarcerated in one state
547
00:31:50,430 --> 00:31:52,140
or another.
548
00:31:52,340 --> 00:31:55,180
That's why, in 2016, you know he's kind of...
549
00:31:55,220 --> 00:31:57,350
he got his life turned around.
550
00:32:13,610 --> 00:32:15,720
He has this employee that says,
551
00:32:15,740 --> 00:32:17,720
"I got this friend that works at the DMV,
552
00:32:17,740 --> 00:32:20,830
and she can get you an ID."
553
00:32:21,250 --> 00:32:24,540
So he ends up forging his own social security card,
554
00:32:24,580 --> 00:32:27,420
and she issues him the ID,
555
00:32:27,460 --> 00:32:29,260
And so for...
556
00:32:29,300 --> 00:32:32,090
about two months, actually, he's...
557
00:32:32,130 --> 00:32:32,680
doing great.
558
00:32:32,680 --> 00:32:34,410
For the first time in,
559
00:32:34,430 --> 00:32:37,060
20 years, he legally exists,
560
00:32:37,100 --> 00:32:39,270
he's on the books, he's paying taxes,
561
00:32:39,310 --> 00:32:41,060
he's happy.
562
00:32:42,100 --> 00:32:44,560
And then, early 2017,
563
00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:47,570
the Sheriff and ICE come knocking at the door.
564
00:32:47,610 --> 00:32:52,700
♪ Tense ethereal music ♪
565
00:33:00,290 --> 00:33:03,370
They've been holding him since.
566
00:33:03,660 --> 00:33:07,710
He's been in solitary for over a year now.
567
00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:11,760
This is simply because he's transgender,
568
00:33:11,800 --> 00:33:12,970
period.
569
00:33:15,970 --> 00:33:19,930
They're doing this to try to force him to give up his case
570
00:33:19,970 --> 00:33:22,560
and to self-deport.
571
00:33:23,810 --> 00:33:26,310
There's no way that that is constitutional.
572
00:33:57,010 --> 00:34:00,600
Art has been my life from the beginning of time.
573
00:34:01,140 --> 00:34:03,660
This is actually the first time in my life where I fell in love
574
00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:05,830
with a process that I feel like I can never fall
575
00:34:05,850 --> 00:34:07,980
out of love with.
576
00:34:08,150 --> 00:34:12,110
I always loved textures and working with my hands.
577
00:34:16,360 --> 00:34:19,950
The black takes nice into the wood.
578
00:34:25,250 --> 00:34:26,000
Sometimes I add paint,
579
00:34:26,040 --> 00:34:31,170
sometimes I wood-burn, sometimes I carve things into the images.
580
00:34:31,380 --> 00:34:34,300
There's spray paint on some of these.
581
00:34:37,550 --> 00:34:39,740
It seems like it's simple; it's not.
582
00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:43,010
It's super tedious, it's super sensitive,
583
00:34:43,060 --> 00:34:44,180
super...
584
00:34:44,220 --> 00:34:46,020
complicated.
585
00:34:46,060 --> 00:34:48,690
But I've learned to... to love it.
586
00:34:48,730 --> 00:34:52,520
♪ Cool R&B music ♪
587
00:34:52,570 --> 00:34:55,570
I call this series "A Gentleman Never Tells."
588
00:34:55,610 --> 00:35:00,490
It's a series of ex-lovers that I've had intimate moments with.
589
00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:04,410
The thing between two people learning each other
590
00:35:04,450 --> 00:35:06,080
is beautiful.
591
00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:09,730
I'm the gentleman that never tells,
592
00:35:09,750 --> 00:35:13,040
and that's why they're images that you don't see straight-up.
593
00:35:13,420 --> 00:35:17,510
My art allows me to savor these moments.
594
00:35:17,800 --> 00:35:22,050
It allows me to also move on a little easier if... if it's not
595
00:35:22,090 --> 00:35:24,350
the greatest break-up.
596
00:35:26,140 --> 00:35:27,730
I used to get hurt a lot.
597
00:35:27,770 --> 00:35:30,230
I used to fall in love a lot.
598
00:35:30,270 --> 00:35:32,230
Because I love beautiful women!
599
00:35:32,270 --> 00:35:35,230
And that's how I ended up making this art!
600
00:35:35,610 --> 00:35:39,240
I would love to be in a relationship and settle down.
601
00:35:39,280 --> 00:35:41,800
Actually, I would prefer be in a foreign country somewhere in
602
00:35:41,820 --> 00:35:45,410
love with a complete stranger, but I wouldn't mind being
603
00:35:45,450 --> 00:35:48,450
committed, and I wouldn't mind falling in love,
604
00:35:48,500 --> 00:35:50,600
and I wouldn't mind it being temporary either,
605
00:35:50,620 --> 00:35:52,920
because the temporary moments,
606
00:35:52,960 --> 00:35:55,800
is what gives life to this work.
607
00:36:00,630 --> 00:36:03,120
Art has always been my first love... my mother will tell you
608
00:36:03,140 --> 00:36:04,760
since a child.
609
00:36:05,140 --> 00:36:07,890
I feel like my art is for everyone.
610
00:36:08,980 --> 00:36:11,940
I socialize with all types of people.
611
00:36:12,810 --> 00:36:15,270
I travel with an open heart.
612
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:18,730
I could learn something from everyone.
613
00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:24,570
By sharing your story, that's how you bring people together.
614
00:36:27,660 --> 00:36:31,000
I like to go to where the party is,
615
00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:35,580
and I like to come home in quiet and peace.
616
00:36:37,170 --> 00:36:41,630
I've grown to appreciate my solo time more;
617
00:36:41,670 --> 00:36:43,470
I do.
618
00:36:47,180 --> 00:36:51,310
I wanna create art, love, be loved,
619
00:36:51,350 --> 00:36:55,150
take care of my animals, take care of my family,
620
00:36:55,190 --> 00:36:57,770
share my life with the world.
621
00:36:58,860 --> 00:37:00,940
The hell?!
622
00:37:09,870 --> 00:37:13,830
When my mom died, my aunt was my second mother.
623
00:37:16,540 --> 00:37:17,840
She did take me in.
624
00:37:17,880 --> 00:37:19,670
She changed my life a lot.
625
00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:21,340
My name is Greta Allen.
626
00:37:21,380 --> 00:37:24,720
I'm a 76-year-old young lady.
627
00:37:24,760 --> 00:37:26,390
How you like that one?
628
00:37:26,430 --> 00:37:27,010
You're my aunt!
629
00:37:27,050 --> 00:37:31,560
My... I'm Tr... Trevon's mother's sister.
630
00:37:31,600 --> 00:37:33,980
She was the greatest.
631
00:37:34,770 --> 00:37:37,020
This is my mom.
632
00:37:37,060 --> 00:37:40,360
My mom passed away when I was 13.
633
00:37:40,650 --> 00:37:42,210
She was going with this guy,
634
00:37:42,230 --> 00:37:44,400
and he had the virus,
635
00:37:44,450 --> 00:37:46,820
and she didn't know it.
636
00:37:46,910 --> 00:37:49,870
AIDS, that's how she passed.
637
00:37:49,910 --> 00:37:52,220
I wanted it to be in a spot where everybody could see
638
00:37:52,240 --> 00:37:54,000
my mom.
639
00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,380
When his mother passed,
640
00:37:57,420 --> 00:37:59,540
I was right there for him.
641
00:37:59,590 --> 00:38:00,900
We used to do a lot of things together:
642
00:38:00,920 --> 00:38:02,900
play together, play basketball together,
643
00:38:02,920 --> 00:38:04,420
you k different things.
644
00:38:04,470 --> 00:38:06,050
But we was always together.
645
00:38:06,090 --> 00:38:08,220
When Trevon was young,
646
00:38:08,260 --> 00:38:11,100
She always told me, she says, "I wanna be like you one day."
647
00:38:11,140 --> 00:38:12,910
I never knew what she was talking about.
648
00:38:12,930 --> 00:38:14,390
What he was talking about.
649
00:38:16,600 --> 00:38:20,360
I loved it, because we could relate!
650
00:38:22,440 --> 00:38:25,860
Me and my wife, we've been together for 21 years.
651
00:38:26,150 --> 00:38:28,910
Never broke up, I never cheated on her,
652
00:38:28,950 --> 00:38:30,740
and I love her to death.
653
00:38:30,780 --> 00:38:34,080
Love is a very important thing
654
00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:38,620
And I'm proud of who I am, even though I'm gay as hell.
655
00:38:38,670 --> 00:38:39,770
I don't care what people think.
656
00:38:39,790 --> 00:38:40,940
You think I care what people think?!
657
00:38:40,960 --> 00:38:42,630
Hell fuck... Excuse me.
658
00:38:42,670 --> 00:38:44,920
Hell no, I don't.
659
00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:46,610
Now you know where it comes from.
660
00:38:51,140 --> 00:38:54,270
♪ Pensive hip-hop instrumental ♪
661
00:38:54,310 --> 00:38:55,790
Uncle Purcell.- ..
662
00:38:55,810 --> 00:38:58,170
- That's...
- That's Grandpa on the end.
663
00:38:58,190 --> 00:38:59,650
I k and that's you.
664
00:39:00,520 --> 00:39:02,270
And who's this?
665
00:39:02,310 --> 00:39:03,940
Because you my great-grandmother.
666
00:39:05,360 --> 00:39:07,470
- Take it up!
- Yes, Grandma.
667
00:39:07,490 --> 00:39:10,450
That's Daddy's, father.
668
00:39:10,490 --> 00:39:11,640
Grandpa!
669
00:39:11,660 --> 00:39:13,850
That's my great-great-great-grandfather.
670
00:39:13,870 --> 00:39:16,620
And these all my grandchildren.
671
00:39:16,660 --> 00:39:18,310
I'm my mother's only child
672
00:39:18,330 --> 00:39:20,500
Once... once I go, that's it!
673
00:39:20,540 --> 00:39:22,170
There's no legacy
674
00:39:22,210 --> 00:39:25,130
I feel like I need children.
675
00:39:25,170 --> 00:39:26,960
This is my grandma,
676
00:39:27,010 --> 00:39:29,430
That's my dad.
677
00:39:30,220 --> 00:39:32,600
And this is my pops.
678
00:39:32,890 --> 00:39:35,680
I don't know if I got too much to say about him.
679
00:39:35,720 --> 00:39:38,930
My grandma sent it to me when he passed away.
680
00:39:39,560 --> 00:39:42,810
To me, legacy means bloodline.
681
00:39:44,190 --> 00:39:46,340
During your transition, especially if you want more
682
00:39:46,360 --> 00:39:47,990
masculine features,
683
00:39:48,030 --> 00:39:50,010
you wanna take hormones, of course.
684
00:39:50,030 --> 00:39:52,050
I was taking hormones for a short period of time,
685
00:39:52,070 --> 00:39:55,620
we decided to have children.
686
00:39:55,740 --> 00:39:57,660
It had to be soon.
687
00:39:58,040 --> 00:40:02,330
When going to my GYN one day, she told me that she found,
688
00:40:02,370 --> 00:40:05,340
a stage of cervical cancer,
689
00:40:05,380 --> 00:40:09,300
and that I should get a hysterectomy.
690
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:13,510
I've been a little taken back by that,
691
00:40:13,550 --> 00:40:16,010
only because my main purpose in life, I felt
692
00:40:16,060 --> 00:40:18,180
was to have a family.
693
00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:23,350
I told myself that I'm not gonna take any hormones until
694
00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:27,650
we can get the money up and I at least freeze my eggs.
695
00:40:28,070 --> 00:40:30,650
Taking the hormones, no kids.
696
00:40:31,610 --> 00:40:34,490
I pray on it for healing.
697
00:40:37,580 --> 00:40:38,890
- Free!
- Chin!
698
00:40:38,910 --> 00:40:40,180
- Free!
- Chin!
699
00:40:40,200 --> 00:40:41,440
- Free!
- Chin!
700
00:40:41,460 --> 00:40:42,730
- Free!
- Chin!
701
00:40:42,750 --> 00:40:44,060
- Free!
- Chin!
702
00:40:44,080 --> 00:40:44,670
- Free!
- Chin!
703
00:40:44,710 --> 00:40:45,290
- Free!
- Chin!
704
00:40:45,330 --> 00:40:47,840
- Free!
- Chin!
705
00:40:47,880 --> 00:40:48,550
- Free!
- Chin!
706
00:40:48,590 --> 00:40:51,050
My brother is Chin.
707
00:40:51,090 --> 00:40:53,590
He's been locked up for the last 15 months,
708
00:40:53,630 --> 00:40:56,050
and it's inhumane.
709
00:40:56,100 --> 00:40:57,890
It's not right.
710
00:40:57,930 --> 00:41:02,270
We have to free Chin, because we sure miss him a lot.
711
00:41:02,350 --> 00:41:04,940
Because Chin is trans,
712
00:41:04,980 --> 00:41:07,900
ICE doesn't know what to do with him!
713
00:41:07,940 --> 00:41:11,610
So they have placed him in solitary confinement!
714
00:41:11,650 --> 00:41:15,740
It's a form of torture under human rights conventions!
715
00:41:15,780 --> 00:41:17,740
We must free Chin now!
716
00:41:17,780 --> 00:41:19,410
Free Chin now!
717
00:41:19,450 --> 00:41:21,370
Free Chin now!
718
00:41:22,790 --> 00:41:24,420
This is so hard.
719
00:41:24,460 --> 00:41:26,710
Chin met the wrong people.
720
00:41:26,830 --> 00:41:28,710
It's sad.
721
00:41:31,130 --> 00:41:33,920
All he did was credit card thief.
722
00:41:33,970 --> 00:41:36,970
It's not like a... a crime that he's killing somebody!
723
00:41:37,010 --> 00:41:38,260
He did his time!
724
00:41:38,300 --> 00:41:39,950
He did his time!
725
00:41:39,970 --> 00:41:41,450
He doesn't need to be locked up,
726
00:41:41,470 --> 00:41:45,270
and then for have Immigration to put you in isolation?
727
00:41:45,310 --> 00:41:47,610
It's like putting my child in a closet!
728
00:41:47,650 --> 00:41:48,940
No ice for Chin?!
729
00:41:48,980 --> 00:41:50,270
No peace for ICE!
730
00:41:50,320 --> 00:41:51,030
We shut this down!
731
00:41:51,070 --> 00:41:53,610
- Who shut this down?!
- We shut this down!
732
00:41:53,650 --> 00:41:55,970
- Who shut this down?!
- We shut this down!
733
00:41:55,990 --> 00:41:58,140
- Who shut this down?!
- We shut this down!
734
00:41:58,160 --> 00:42:01,410
- Who shut this down?!
- We shut this down!
735
00:42:11,170 --> 00:42:13,150
My name's Tyquan Sanders.
736
00:42:13,170 --> 00:42:15,300
I'm Octavia's son.
737
00:42:17,010 --> 00:42:20,430
I kinda started to get to know Octavia.
738
00:42:21,140 --> 00:42:25,850
What made me do the top surgery now versus then
739
00:42:25,890 --> 00:42:28,310
is because of my son.
740
00:42:28,350 --> 00:42:31,270
I didn't know how he was gonna feel about that.
741
00:42:31,480 --> 00:42:35,320
I was wondering if...
742
00:42:35,360 --> 00:42:37,820
she was gonna actually transition...
743
00:42:37,860 --> 00:42:38,990
or not.
744
00:42:39,030 --> 00:42:41,620
She mentioned it to me one day.
745
00:42:41,700 --> 00:42:44,500
"This month, I'm actually gonna be doing surgery
746
00:42:44,540 --> 00:42:45,660
to get rid of this."
747
00:42:45,700 --> 00:42:48,000
Kind of did, hand signs or whatever.
748
00:42:48,040 --> 00:42:49,500
And...
749
00:42:49,540 --> 00:42:51,630
I was "Okay, that's nice!"
750
00:42:52,710 --> 00:42:55,170
I'm happy for my mom.
751
00:42:56,760 --> 00:42:59,010
He's very supportive of me.
752
00:42:59,050 --> 00:43:01,050
♪ Hopeful ethereal music ♪
753
00:43:02,890 --> 00:43:04,700
I can't wait to be sleeping,
754
00:43:04,720 --> 00:43:06,560
and then wake up and...
755
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:09,850
don't have to feel this on my damn... damn near my damn stomach
756
00:43:09,900 --> 00:43:11,190
anymore.
757
00:43:14,070 --> 00:43:16,050
I've always been top-heavy,
758
00:43:16,070 --> 00:43:19,700
and always had, a complex behind that,
759
00:43:19,740 --> 00:43:22,910
because I don't feel like a woman.
760
00:43:25,240 --> 00:43:26,930
My best friend is my fiancée;
761
00:43:26,950 --> 00:43:29,830
everything we do, we do together.
762
00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:33,540
The thing is with her is she's into feminine women.
763
00:43:34,040 --> 00:43:36,030
How we got together, Daniel,
764
00:43:36,050 --> 00:43:38,400
I don't k because... you see... there's nothing feminine
765
00:43:38,420 --> 00:43:40,050
about me.
766
00:43:40,090 --> 00:43:43,430
If you truly love a person, I don't think that that will stop
767
00:43:43,470 --> 00:43:45,560
your relationship.
768
00:43:46,310 --> 00:43:49,390
We're gonna start giving you some relaxation medication,
769
00:43:49,440 --> 00:43:51,730
so why don't you say bye.
770
00:43:54,270 --> 00:43:56,020
Love you!
771
00:44:16,300 --> 00:44:21,380
♪ Tender ethereal music ♪
772
00:44:26,310 --> 00:44:28,620
how many years we know each other?
773
00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:29,980
How long, Daniel?
774
00:44:30,520 --> 00:44:32,330
Say it right please?
775
00:44:32,350 --> 00:44:33,810
Daniel...
776
00:44:33,850 --> 00:44:34,770
a little.
777
00:44:34,810 --> 00:44:36,480
Soundbites.
778
00:44:36,520 --> 00:44:38,980
What do you want me to talk about now?
779
00:44:41,530 --> 00:44:43,570
What should we talk about?
780
00:44:45,490 --> 00:44:48,240
I've been incarcerated for three years now.
781
00:44:48,660 --> 00:44:53,460
In that solitary confinement, I wanted to kill myself,
782
00:44:53,500 --> 00:44:55,130
because I was gonna...
783
00:44:55,170 --> 00:44:57,290
I didn't know what to do.
784
00:44:57,340 --> 00:45:01,170
When they put this in facility out here in Texas,
785
00:45:01,220 --> 00:45:02,970
they treat me better.
786
00:45:03,010 --> 00:45:07,430
I want people to know the life that I went through as a...
787
00:45:08,220 --> 00:45:10,100
immigrant.
788
00:45:10,430 --> 00:45:12,350
I have three strikes, okay?
789
00:45:12,390 --> 00:45:14,650
One, Asian;
790
00:45:14,690 --> 00:45:18,480
two, I'm a transgender male;
791
00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:22,110
and three, I have a criminal background.
792
00:45:22,740 --> 00:45:25,820
In 'The Aggressives, ' I never spoke about my personal
793
00:45:25,860 --> 00:45:27,280
life.
794
00:45:27,990 --> 00:45:32,500
Me and my sister, we raised our own selves.
795
00:45:35,370 --> 00:45:39,710
We grew up not a typical Asian family.
796
00:45:39,750 --> 00:45:42,340
Our parents separated when we was young.
797
00:45:42,380 --> 00:45:44,360
We was all at home, and my mom said,
798
00:45:44,380 --> 00:45:45,820
I'm gonna run out real quick;
799
00:45:45,840 --> 00:45:49,180
I'm gonna go get something," and she never came back.
800
00:45:49,560 --> 00:45:52,520
Our dad was left to raise three kids on his own with his
801
00:45:52,560 --> 00:45:54,180
mother's help.
802
00:45:56,400 --> 00:45:59,190
My grandmother, she used to say bad things to me,
803
00:45:59,230 --> 00:46:03,190
you could say, and kinda made my self-esteem low,
804
00:46:03,240 --> 00:46:05,530
made me feel ugly, and...
805
00:46:07,070 --> 00:46:10,030
I didn't look...
806
00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:12,540
like the granddaughter she want...
807
00:46:12,580 --> 00:46:17,040
feminine, pretty, playing piano, stuff like that.
808
00:46:17,330 --> 00:46:19,330
I was different.
809
00:46:19,540 --> 00:46:23,050
Chin turned to the street because he felt unloved.
810
00:46:23,090 --> 00:46:26,380
He didn't have the support system that he wanted,
811
00:46:26,430 --> 00:46:30,850
where to be loved, to be accepted for what he is.
812
00:46:30,930 --> 00:46:32,910
Him being on the street was hard.
813
00:46:32,930 --> 00:46:35,570
No one can ever say what you would do when you don't have a
814
00:46:35,600 --> 00:46:37,230
place to lay your head,
815
00:46:37,270 --> 00:46:39,730
don't have clothes, don't have food.
816
00:46:39,770 --> 00:46:43,570
And Chin got caught up in the wrong crowd of people.
817
00:46:43,610 --> 00:46:45,740
That could be any of us.
818
00:46:45,780 --> 00:46:47,860
Chin served his time.
819
00:46:48,950 --> 00:46:51,120
What happened to second chances?
820
00:46:51,160 --> 00:46:54,950
What happened to, how the ice system is supposed
821
00:46:55,000 --> 00:46:57,040
to actually work?
822
00:46:59,170 --> 00:47:00,980
Chin ended up in this situation...
823
00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:02,980
Stuck in immigration detention...
824
00:47:03,000 --> 00:47:07,380
Because, initially, of a mistake made by the US government.
825
00:47:07,590 --> 00:47:11,800
Unfortunately, he ended up in a situation where he was coerced
826
00:47:11,850 --> 00:47:13,790
to engage in some illegal activity.
827
00:47:13,810 --> 00:47:15,620
That's called "human trafficking."
828
00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:17,460
Trafficking victims are not supposed to be held in
829
00:47:17,480 --> 00:47:18,060
detention;
830
00:47:18,100 --> 00:47:21,480
it's in the Trafficking Victims Protection Act!
831
00:47:21,520 --> 00:47:24,440
They know his convictions are tied to trafficking.
832
00:47:24,480 --> 00:47:27,110
The reason he was vulnerable in the first place was because of
833
00:47:27,150 --> 00:47:29,150
Immigration's own mistake!
834
00:47:29,200 --> 00:47:32,240
I want to win my case and stay...
835
00:47:33,700 --> 00:47:35,620
in America.
836
00:47:35,660 --> 00:47:37,020
I have to take care of my father,
837
00:47:37,040 --> 00:47:38,620
no matter what.
838
00:47:38,660 --> 00:47:40,420
I'm his first child.
839
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:50,130
I get asked a lot why Chin is being targeted to be
840
00:47:50,180 --> 00:47:51,800
held in detention like this.
841
00:47:51,840 --> 00:47:53,300
"Is it because he's transgender?
842
00:47:53,350 --> 00:47:55,310
Is it because he's Asian?"
843
00:47:55,680 --> 00:47:59,940
I actually do think it's because he's transgender.
844
00:48:00,230 --> 00:48:03,690
What happens now is we continue to fight.
845
00:48:03,730 --> 00:48:05,840
There's one thing my attorney said to me;
846
00:48:05,860 --> 00:48:06,980
she said...
847
00:48:07,030 --> 00:48:10,150
she's gonna fight for me until...
848
00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:14,120
her hands... I mean her hands against the wall.
849
00:48:15,240 --> 00:48:16,490
That's...
850
00:48:16,540 --> 00:48:18,200
that's real.
851
00:48:31,050 --> 00:48:33,300
I never liked New York.
852
00:48:33,590 --> 00:48:36,470
New York's never been my thing.
853
00:48:37,890 --> 00:48:41,690
Most people, that are born here
854
00:48:41,730 --> 00:48:43,230
fight to get out,
855
00:48:43,270 --> 00:48:46,820
and most people that aren't from here fight to get in.
856
00:48:55,910 --> 00:48:57,580
Eight long years.
857
00:48:58,910 --> 00:49:01,830
Never thought I would be with somebody this long.
858
00:49:05,130 --> 00:49:07,880
We decided to come back because
859
00:49:07,920 --> 00:49:09,900
it was too far from the family,
860
00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:12,550
and then Jade has to get surgery.
861
00:49:12,590 --> 00:49:16,680
I do too, but overall, Jade's surgery is set first.
862
00:49:20,270 --> 00:49:23,390
I have to remove my butt implants and my silicone
863
00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:25,060
injections.
864
00:49:25,350 --> 00:49:29,520
My doctor said it's gonna start becoming a health issue for me.
865
00:49:29,940 --> 00:49:32,740
I was in the dancing industry, and,
866
00:49:32,780 --> 00:49:35,740
looking at the other girls and the money they was making,
867
00:49:35,780 --> 00:49:40,200
and, me being small... and I was only 18.
868
00:49:42,290 --> 00:49:45,920
If I could change something, I would have never got it.
869
00:49:48,790 --> 00:49:49,750
Since I've been back,
870
00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:51,880
I haven't been to the doctor.
871
00:49:52,090 --> 00:49:54,470
When I tried to call a clinic to,
872
00:49:54,510 --> 00:49:58,260
start talking about the hysterectomy process,
873
00:49:58,300 --> 00:50:00,260
it was bad.
874
00:50:00,310 --> 00:50:01,950
The phone call went like this:
875
00:50:01,970 --> 00:50:04,310
"Are you calling the right clinic, sir?"
876
00:50:04,350 --> 00:50:06,120
"Yes, I'm calling the right clinic."
877
00:50:06,140 --> 00:50:08,810
"You calling to make an appointment for your wife, sir?"
878
00:50:08,860 --> 00:50:09,480
"No.
879
00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:12,110
I'm calling to make an appointment for myself."
880
00:50:12,150 --> 00:50:13,610
So then I explain:
881
00:50:13,650 --> 00:50:14,400
"I'm trans,
882
00:50:14,400 --> 00:50:17,450
my doctor thinks it's best that I get a hysterectomy."
883
00:50:17,490 --> 00:50:19,120
"Okay, miss."
884
00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:21,310
"No, I told you that I'm trans."
885
00:50:21,330 --> 00:50:23,910
I never went with them.
886
00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:27,080
I don't know what's going on with me.
887
00:50:28,040 --> 00:50:29,290
Once settled in the apartment,
888
00:50:29,330 --> 00:50:32,630
I plan on taking all the necessary steps.
889
00:50:33,550 --> 00:50:36,630
As a trans guy, it's hard.
890
00:50:53,020 --> 00:50:54,610
Come up!
891
00:50:56,570 --> 00:50:58,110
Come here!
892
00:51:01,030 --> 00:51:02,490
You filming right now?!
893
00:51:08,420 --> 00:51:11,330
I feel like somebody done, pulled the carpet from under my
894
00:51:11,380 --> 00:51:13,300
feet, like...
895
00:51:13,380 --> 00:51:15,840
because it happened so sudden.
896
00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:18,240
I feel lost and confused.
897
00:51:18,260 --> 00:51:20,340
♪ Melancholy music ♪
898
00:51:20,390 --> 00:51:22,890
I'm preparing for my mom's memorial,
899
00:51:22,930 --> 00:51:24,510
and I'm getting...
900
00:51:24,560 --> 00:51:29,640
all my mom's images together so we could do a slideshow.
901
00:51:30,060 --> 00:51:34,230
She had been fighting bladder cancer.
902
00:51:34,270 --> 00:51:35,820
She had a stroke.
903
00:51:35,860 --> 00:51:38,050
And, we rushed her to the hospital,
904
00:51:42,240 --> 00:51:45,870
This is her when she was pregnant with me in the '70s.
905
00:51:46,290 --> 00:51:49,370
And this is her famous fur coat.
906
00:51:49,580 --> 00:51:52,380
And this is all of us together...
907
00:51:52,420 --> 00:51:55,170
My and all my siblings with my mom.
908
00:51:56,800 --> 00:51:59,880
She was so sassy when she was young!
909
00:51:59,930 --> 00:52:02,180
We look alike.
910
00:52:03,260 --> 00:52:05,680
These are her memories.
911
00:52:07,600 --> 00:52:09,580
The fact that it was sudden,
912
00:52:09,600 --> 00:52:11,520
it wasn't...
913
00:52:13,610 --> 00:52:16,400
it wasn't expected.
914
00:52:23,320 --> 00:52:25,700
I...
915
00:52:25,990 --> 00:52:29,410
I put myself on timeout for a bit.
916
00:52:43,800 --> 00:52:46,470
You think that there's more time and...
917
00:52:46,510 --> 00:52:48,810
you never know?
918
00:52:48,850 --> 00:52:49,430
And...
919
00:52:49,470 --> 00:52:51,770
that's the thing with that, with life,
920
00:52:51,810 --> 00:52:53,100
it's like...
921
00:52:53,140 --> 00:52:55,900
you don't know.
922
00:52:57,690 --> 00:53:00,320
Sometimes I feel sad, but sometimes I feel extremely,
923
00:53:01,860 --> 00:53:03,740
powerful.
924
00:53:04,860 --> 00:53:07,580
Because I feel like she's with me
925
00:53:09,490 --> 00:53:12,250
And I know that she's proud.
926
00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:17,790
It's beautiful.
927
00:53:28,430 --> 00:53:31,600
I'm carrying the torch of my family now.
928
00:53:32,230 --> 00:53:35,690
It wasn't 'til I became adult that I realized she took
929
00:53:35,730 --> 00:53:37,170
the time to get to know me.
930
00:53:37,190 --> 00:53:39,320
She's dragging me to the park.
931
00:53:39,360 --> 00:53:41,010
That made me become more and more
932
00:53:41,030 --> 00:53:43,110
appreciative of her.
933
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:47,160
And it showed me that she accepted me for who I was.
934
00:53:47,320 --> 00:53:49,490
That made our bond stronger.
935
00:53:49,530 --> 00:53:50,790
Come here!
936
00:53:55,210 --> 00:53:56,860
This feeling I'm feeling right
937
00:53:56,880 --> 00:53:58,960
it's temporary.
938
00:53:59,040 --> 00:54:00,960
That, I know.
939
00:54:03,720 --> 00:54:07,800
It takes time to get to a place of healing.
940
00:54:24,110 --> 00:54:27,490
I am so excited to be here.
941
00:54:28,950 --> 00:54:31,700
It's a culmination of a lot of work for a lot of people.
942
00:54:31,740 --> 00:54:34,370
There have been a lot of people who got us here today,
943
00:54:34,410 --> 00:54:36,870
and I can't wait to see Chin.
944
00:54:42,920 --> 00:54:44,380
Hi!
945
00:54:44,420 --> 00:54:46,220
You look great!
946
00:54:47,260 --> 00:54:48,390
Hey, Daniel!
947
00:54:48,430 --> 00:54:49,890
Gimme a hug!
948
00:54:49,930 --> 00:54:53,260
Can you believe I'm standing here talking to you?!
949
00:54:53,310 --> 00:54:54,600
And Lynly!
950
00:54:54,640 --> 00:54:56,730
- My God!
- And Mr. Bailey!
951
00:54:56,770 --> 00:54:58,250
- Yes!
- We won!
952
00:54:58,270 --> 00:55:00,090
All my legal documents and stuff.
953
00:55:00,110 --> 00:55:01,560
For two years!
954
00:55:01,610 --> 00:55:02,400
How do you feel?
955
00:55:02,440 --> 00:55:05,240
Excited...
956
00:55:05,280 --> 00:55:07,780
ready for my new journey.
957
00:55:07,820 --> 00:55:12,910
♪ Uplifting emotional music ♪
958
00:55:19,460 --> 00:55:21,610
I got the call, and I was
959
00:55:21,630 --> 00:55:23,250
"What?!"
960
00:55:23,420 --> 00:55:25,420
Lynly was not giving up.
961
00:55:25,460 --> 00:55:27,280
No, not.
962
00:55:27,300 --> 00:55:29,780
Okay, Chin, what's the first thing you're gonna do?
963
00:55:29,800 --> 00:55:31,800
Eat some good food.
964
00:55:31,850 --> 00:55:33,690
Take a bath.
965
00:55:35,140 --> 00:55:36,330
- Thank you.
- Welcome home.
966
00:55:36,350 --> 00:55:38,560
Thank you, thank you.
967
00:55:39,640 --> 00:55:41,100
Daniel, you okay?
968
00:55:42,440 --> 00:55:42,940
- Thank you, Daniel!
- I love you!
969
00:55:42,980 --> 00:55:45,000
I love you too! I'll call you tomorrow!
970
00:55:45,020 --> 00:55:46,780
Enjoy your night!
971
00:56:11,010 --> 00:56:14,100
It's a year and change later.
972
00:56:14,300 --> 00:56:15,870
Words can't even sum up how I feel;
973
00:56:15,890 --> 00:56:19,430
that's how excited I am about myself right now.
974
00:56:20,850 --> 00:56:22,830
Most of the time, it didn't hurt.
975
00:56:22,850 --> 00:56:25,190
I wasn't in, pain or anything like that.
976
00:56:25,230 --> 00:56:27,110
It was itchy.
977
00:56:27,730 --> 00:56:30,210
Seriously, if anybody wants to do something like that,
978
00:56:30,240 --> 00:56:32,990
that's the best investment you can do for
979
00:56:33,030 --> 00:56:34,620
yourself.
980
00:56:36,530 --> 00:56:38,180
I'm not with that woman anymore;
981
00:56:38,200 --> 00:56:41,660
we was..., we was together, we're not together.
982
00:56:44,040 --> 00:56:45,570
Did the surgery have anything to do with the
983
00:56:45,590 --> 00:56:47,000
break-up?
984
00:56:47,050 --> 00:56:49,630
No, that didn't have nothin' to do with the break-up.
985
00:56:50,380 --> 00:56:54,340
But right I don't think I want no committed relationship,
986
00:56:54,390 --> 00:56:55,050
no.
987
00:56:55,050 --> 00:56:57,560
Sometimes, when you get out of a long relationship,
988
00:56:57,600 --> 00:57:01,180
seriously, you need to have time to...
989
00:57:01,230 --> 00:57:03,850
heal yourself, you get what I'm saying?
990
00:57:04,350 --> 00:57:08,530
Regardless of what changes I go through in life,
991
00:57:08,570 --> 00:57:13,240
for me, I'm still... I was still born a woman,
992
00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:13,950
you get what I'm saying?
993
00:57:13,950 --> 00:57:16,910
So I can relate to them a little bit more than,
994
00:57:16,950 --> 00:57:18,990
the average guy.
995
00:57:19,910 --> 00:57:25,000
♪ Uplifting ambient music ♪
996
00:57:29,960 --> 00:57:33,050
I'm still the same person; that doesn't change you,
997
00:57:33,090 --> 00:57:34,590
you get what I'm saying?
998
00:57:36,590 --> 00:57:38,580
You change your appearance,
999
00:57:38,600 --> 00:57:40,410
It's doesn't change you, your inner soul,
1000
00:57:40,430 --> 00:57:42,520
like your inner self.
1001
00:57:45,440 --> 00:57:47,230
I'm still the same person.
1002
00:58:19,100 --> 00:58:21,160
I'm a relationship person;
1003
00:58:21,180 --> 00:58:23,310
that's what I do.
1004
00:58:23,350 --> 00:58:26,390
My end goal is a family, marriage, kids.
1005
00:58:27,810 --> 00:58:30,150
Jade is not gonna have one,
1006
00:58:30,190 --> 00:58:32,280
going through reconstruction
1007
00:58:32,320 --> 00:58:34,900
and having to get everything fixed up.
1008
00:58:38,030 --> 00:58:40,830
I put your tea bag in at...
1009
00:58:40,870 --> 00:58:44,290
I guess 8:20, so 8:35, you gotta come up.
1010
00:58:44,330 --> 00:58:46,410
I'ma run to the store.
1011
00:58:47,540 --> 00:58:49,150
I'm going to grab these eggs.
1012
00:58:49,170 --> 00:58:50,130
Okay.
1013
00:58:50,170 --> 00:58:51,820
Can you make the sausage patties?
1014
00:58:52,550 --> 00:58:54,750
Because I'm assuming you're gonna get up when we leave.
1015
00:58:58,640 --> 00:59:03,140
We're back in Palms because Jade had her surgery on her
1016
00:59:03,180 --> 00:59:06,140
butt, she got it removed, so overall,
1017
00:59:06,180 --> 00:59:08,850
she doesn't wanna be in New York
1018
00:59:08,900 --> 00:59:11,690
with her appearance, I guess, being like that.
1019
00:59:11,730 --> 00:59:15,280
But for me, I prefer it here.
1020
00:59:15,780 --> 00:59:18,820
Hopefully, we can be bi-costal and be snowbirds,
1021
00:59:18,860 --> 00:59:21,620
and, go back and forth.
1022
00:59:24,370 --> 00:59:27,500
I've been coming back and forth to Palms...
1023
00:59:27,540 --> 00:59:29,790
kinda since I met Jade.
1024
00:59:33,210 --> 00:59:36,050
We made a trip out here about seven years ago
1025
00:59:36,090 --> 00:59:36,840
and we loved it.
1026
00:59:36,880 --> 00:59:39,840
We thought it wasn't affordable because of how beautiful it was,
1027
00:59:39,880 --> 00:59:42,800
shockingly, it was affordable.
1028
00:59:43,100 --> 00:59:44,910
That was it, babe,
1029
00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:50,350
Don't film my butt, please.
1030
00:59:50,400 --> 00:59:53,400
My butt is flat and I'm very self-conscious about it.
1031
00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:57,030
Going on, social media, when you see certain girls
1032
00:59:57,070 --> 00:59:59,700
looking a certain way, you start feeling self-conscious.
1033
00:59:59,740 --> 01:00:03,160
You start finding little things wrong with you.
1034
01:00:03,660 --> 01:00:07,200
I do think that I have body dysmorphia.
1035
01:00:07,910 --> 01:00:10,080
I never liked my nose.
1036
01:00:10,120 --> 01:00:12,880
Last year, I went and did my whole face;
1037
01:00:12,920 --> 01:00:14,880
I went to Istanbul, Turkey.
1038
01:00:14,920 --> 01:00:17,550
I did cat eyes, I did a cheek lift,
1039
01:00:17,590 --> 01:00:22,550
a lip lift, a rhinoplasty, and I did fat fillers to my chin.
1040
01:00:22,590 --> 01:00:24,410
And I also did a hair transplant,
1041
01:00:24,430 --> 01:00:26,220
to my eyebrows.
1042
01:00:26,720 --> 01:00:29,890
I looked so different, he made me feel
1043
01:00:29,930 --> 01:00:32,730
a little like he didn't like it.
1044
01:00:32,770 --> 01:00:34,920
He was "Where's my Pippi"... he calls me "Pippi,"
1045
01:00:34,940 --> 01:00:37,090
so he's "Where's my Pippi face?"
1046
01:00:37,110 --> 01:00:39,240
I discouraged Jade to get surgery.
1047
01:00:39,280 --> 01:00:41,430
That she's perfect the way she is.
1048
01:00:41,450 --> 01:00:43,260
I don't think Jade needs surgery.
1049
01:00:43,280 --> 01:00:47,030
It's not about him, it's about how I feel about myself.
1050
01:00:47,240 --> 01:00:48,770
How many sausage you want?
1051
01:00:48,790 --> 01:00:49,910
Four!
1052
01:00:49,950 --> 01:00:52,210
My baby puts it down!
1053
01:00:52,830 --> 01:00:56,750
Being with Jade taught me to appreciate...
1054
01:00:56,790 --> 01:00:59,130
my body in a different way.
1055
01:00:59,170 --> 01:01:02,800
When I look in the mirror, I'm okay with what I see.
1056
01:01:02,840 --> 01:01:04,260
They're, so small.
1057
01:01:04,300 --> 01:01:05,460
I shoulda made more of these.
1058
01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:09,470
I went to the doctor and,
1059
01:01:09,520 --> 01:01:13,600
thank God, I was able to find out that I don't have
1060
01:01:13,640 --> 01:01:17,570
cervic cancer, I had some abnormal cells.
1061
01:01:18,980 --> 01:01:20,570
One more!
1062
01:01:20,650 --> 01:01:22,430
For a lot of trans men,
1063
01:01:22,450 --> 01:01:26,120
it can be triggering to go to things like the OB-GYN because
1064
01:01:26,160 --> 01:01:28,790
you have to deal with your feminine parts.
1065
01:01:29,200 --> 01:01:32,960
It's uncomfortable to go to a woman's clinic as a man
1066
01:01:33,000 --> 01:01:35,120
and need services.
1067
01:01:37,040 --> 01:01:40,800
To be honest, I avoid healthcare because it triggers an emotion
1068
01:01:40,840 --> 01:01:42,300
for me,
1069
01:01:42,340 --> 01:01:45,090
so that's why I don't do it.
1070
01:02:02,860 --> 01:02:04,490
It's hard.
1071
01:02:04,530 --> 01:02:05,890
It's hard to go through,
1072
01:02:05,910 --> 01:02:07,990
what I'm going through right now.
1073
01:02:08,370 --> 01:02:11,330
I don't have a stable home.
1074
01:02:11,370 --> 01:02:15,290
I'm living with my sister and my brother-in-law.
1075
01:02:15,790 --> 01:02:18,330
I still don't have a job because I still have to wait for
1076
01:02:18,380 --> 01:02:20,670
Immigration to...
1077
01:02:20,710 --> 01:02:23,170
give me my green card back.
1078
01:02:24,720 --> 01:02:27,680
The trauma that I went through in my past, and...
1079
01:02:27,720 --> 01:02:32,470
being in the Immigration, and how I was being treated...
1080
01:02:32,890 --> 01:02:35,850
because of me being trans,
1081
01:02:35,890 --> 01:02:37,980
it breaks you.
1082
01:02:38,060 --> 01:02:42,190
I had to be strong and have faith in God.
1083
01:02:42,230 --> 01:02:44,530
♪ Tense hopeful music ♪
1084
01:02:44,570 --> 01:02:48,070
In the beginning, my PTSD was, bad.
1085
01:02:48,110 --> 01:02:51,370
I'd wake up thinking I'm still in the detention center.
1086
01:02:52,950 --> 01:02:55,540
I don't k it kinda messed me up.
1087
01:02:55,580 --> 01:02:58,830
Right I'm focusing on...
1088
01:02:59,250 --> 01:03:03,210
being there for my father, making sure my father is okay.
1089
01:03:03,250 --> 01:03:05,670
I'm living day by day.
1090
01:03:06,170 --> 01:03:09,050
What do you see your future like?
1091
01:03:09,090 --> 01:03:11,180
What's your dream?
1092
01:03:12,310 --> 01:03:14,560
I don't have any dream right now.
1093
01:03:14,600 --> 01:03:17,060
I'm gonna be honest with you; I don't.
1094
01:03:17,100 --> 01:03:20,770
Immigration had took my dream away from me.
1095
01:03:23,110 --> 01:03:24,590
I'm living day by day,
1096
01:03:24,610 --> 01:03:27,030
and whatever comes, comes.
1097
01:03:50,300 --> 01:03:53,720
This reminds me of something years ago.
1098
01:03:55,310 --> 01:03:57,600
This park situation and bench,
1099
01:03:57,640 --> 01:03:58,640
and this damn cigarette.
1100
01:04:00,650 --> 01:04:02,630
I was sitting like this in that damn
1101
01:04:02,650 --> 01:04:03,940
video, man!
1102
01:04:03,980 --> 01:04:05,300
I'm sitting there smoking a damn cigarette,
1103
01:04:05,320 --> 01:04:07,070
thinking.
1104
01:04:08,820 --> 01:04:10,610
I did mature a lot.
1105
01:04:10,660 --> 01:04:13,280
I'm nowhere near, the same person.
1106
01:04:13,570 --> 01:04:16,950
I don't wanna be categorized.
1107
01:04:16,990 --> 01:04:19,120
I wanna be called my name.
1108
01:04:19,160 --> 01:04:21,750
I have a name for a reason!
1109
01:04:22,830 --> 01:04:24,460
That's it!
1110
01:04:28,050 --> 01:04:32,130
I feel like him identifying as a male
1111
01:04:32,180 --> 01:04:35,260
kind of contributed to a lot of the trauma.
1112
01:04:36,510 --> 01:04:39,640
He's already been through, the worst.
1113
01:04:40,230 --> 01:04:42,480
There was a point in time where,
1114
01:04:42,520 --> 01:04:44,500
I kinda didn't wanna speak to him or whatever,
1115
01:04:44,520 --> 01:04:46,940
but I've made peace with it.
1116
01:04:48,070 --> 01:04:50,820
If it was in his ability to be there,
1117
01:04:50,860 --> 01:04:52,950
he would've been there.
1118
01:04:55,030 --> 01:04:58,490
There's, this weird stigma with...
1119
01:04:58,540 --> 01:05:01,160
Black men in general that, like...
1120
01:05:01,210 --> 01:05:03,670
you do a certain thing, you look a certain way,
1121
01:05:03,710 --> 01:05:05,960
you wear a certain thing.
1122
01:05:07,880 --> 01:05:09,860
So when they see me and I'm, not that,
1123
01:05:09,880 --> 01:05:11,700
I guess they think, like...
1124
01:05:11,720 --> 01:05:13,070
"I guess he's gay" or something,
1125
01:05:13,090 --> 01:05:15,390
and I'm
1126
01:05:15,430 --> 01:05:16,680
me."
1127
01:05:16,720 --> 01:05:20,020
♪ soft uplifting music ♪
1128
01:05:20,060 --> 01:05:22,850
Being authentically yourself,
1129
01:05:22,890 --> 01:05:26,190
despite what everybody else is saying is,
1130
01:05:26,230 --> 01:05:28,650
inspiring to me.
1131
01:05:28,730 --> 01:05:31,030
I'm proud of my mom.
1132
01:05:37,240 --> 01:05:39,220
My old ass can barely climb up the edge,
1133
01:05:39,240 --> 01:05:41,330
and I gotta help you out!
1134
01:05:42,250 --> 01:05:44,500
He is happy.
1135
01:05:44,920 --> 01:05:46,900
He always tries to remind me that,
1136
01:05:46,920 --> 01:05:49,210
I'm his son,
1137
01:05:49,250 --> 01:05:50,780
nothing's gonna change that,
1138
01:05:50,800 --> 01:05:53,720
and how, if anything happens to me,
1139
01:05:53,760 --> 01:05:56,010
he's gonna be there for me.
1140
01:05:56,430 --> 01:06:00,390
If you can have any kind of tag associated to you,
1141
01:06:00,430 --> 01:06:03,060
first and foremost, he's a mom.
1142
01:06:03,100 --> 01:06:05,850
My son is my everything.
1143
01:06:13,440 --> 01:06:15,860
Let me know what you wanna eat for lunch.
1144
01:06:19,990 --> 01:06:21,100
- See you later.
- You always shocking somebody.
1145
01:06:21,120 --> 01:06:22,600
- See you later.
- Love you.
1146
01:06:22,620 --> 01:06:24,370
I love you too.
1147
01:06:25,620 --> 01:06:28,420
When I watched the first film,
1148
01:06:28,460 --> 01:06:30,090
it showed...
1149
01:06:30,130 --> 01:06:32,760
how Trevon grown from that.
1150
01:06:32,800 --> 01:06:35,260
He was young at the time.
1151
01:06:35,340 --> 01:06:37,720
I didn't know him back then.
1152
01:06:38,640 --> 01:06:41,060
It's a total difference.
1153
01:06:43,020 --> 01:06:45,290
We workin' overtime and double time for
1154
01:06:45,310 --> 01:06:48,560
Jade's reconstruction surgery.
1155
01:06:48,850 --> 01:06:52,070
No sleep, no rest, straight overtime.
1156
01:06:55,820 --> 01:06:58,450
I've come to this point where I'm not comfortable with
1157
01:06:58,490 --> 01:07:01,950
not having kids, but I've accepted it,
1158
01:07:06,040 --> 01:07:07,790
Before I was doing DoorDash,
1159
01:07:07,830 --> 01:07:10,580
I used to work for an adult group home.
1160
01:07:10,670 --> 01:07:12,360
When I was a kid, my mom was ill.
1161
01:07:12,380 --> 01:07:15,630
My mom passed away from HIV-related symptoms,
1162
01:07:15,670 --> 01:07:19,640
so by the time I was like 12, my mother was sick,
1163
01:07:19,680 --> 01:07:21,970
to the point where I did everything,
1164
01:07:23,180 --> 01:07:25,600
I'm kinda used to taking care of people.
1165
01:07:27,850 --> 01:07:30,600
I make sure my people is.
1166
01:07:41,700 --> 01:07:44,660
I love working DoorDash because it gives me flexibility to do
1167
01:07:44,700 --> 01:07:45,410
what I want.
1168
01:07:45,450 --> 01:07:48,660
I don't like authority, so I like being my own boss.
1169
01:07:48,710 --> 01:07:49,850
You're welcome, have a good day.
1170
01:07:49,870 --> 01:07:51,330
You too.
1171
01:07:54,040 --> 01:07:55,360
This is the best part of the day:
1172
01:07:55,380 --> 01:07:57,170
buying weed.
1173
01:07:58,260 --> 01:08:00,200
It's crazy how, in the first film,
1174
01:08:00,220 --> 01:08:03,350
Octavio went to jail for weed.
1175
01:08:03,390 --> 01:08:05,810
- Thank you.
- He lost his kid.
1176
01:08:06,430 --> 01:08:08,910
He went through a lot, essentially for something that
1177
01:08:08,930 --> 01:08:10,980
is now legal.
1178
01:08:14,570 --> 01:08:16,550
If we go back there, there's people that,
1179
01:08:16,570 --> 01:08:18,360
live, like right...
1180
01:08:18,400 --> 01:08:21,200
they could reach out their window and grab 'em.
1181
01:08:21,240 --> 01:08:22,870
I wish that was me.
1182
01:08:22,910 --> 01:08:25,490
I wanna climb a mountain.
1183
01:08:27,290 --> 01:08:32,370
♪ Uplifting ambient music ♪
1184
01:08:33,750 --> 01:08:36,750
I live a surfer, nomad lifestyle,
1185
01:08:36,790 --> 01:08:40,510
and it takes balls to live the way I live.
1186
01:08:40,840 --> 01:08:46,060
I don't live my life as what society would...
1187
01:08:47,430 --> 01:08:52,390
deem your ideal man or your ideal successful person.
1188
01:08:53,270 --> 01:08:55,400
A lot of people...
1189
01:08:55,440 --> 01:08:58,900
tend to live in the boundaries and the restrictions and the
1190
01:08:58,940 --> 01:09:02,570
constraints, and I guess I'm living for 'em,
1191
01:09:02,610 --> 01:09:04,760
because I'm being me, living my life,
1192
01:09:04,780 --> 01:09:07,790
doing me, and riding the wave of...
1193
01:09:07,830 --> 01:09:09,580
of faith.
1194
01:09:10,950 --> 01:09:15,120
That's probably why my life gives off this light.
1195
01:09:17,790 --> 01:09:20,050
I can't vogue out here.
1196
01:09:21,130 --> 01:09:23,110
Come on, Daniel, I gotta go to work!
1197
01:09:44,990 --> 01:09:46,320
I didn't have no...
1198
01:09:46,370 --> 01:09:49,240
nobody to guide me to...
1199
01:09:49,700 --> 01:09:51,750
to transition.
1200
01:09:52,950 --> 01:09:55,020
When I had gotten my top surgery done,
1201
01:09:55,040 --> 01:09:58,090
it was not about my appearance.
1202
01:09:58,290 --> 01:10:00,960
I was uncomfortable, because once you take off your clothes,
1203
01:10:01,010 --> 01:10:02,630
you see...
1204
01:10:02,670 --> 01:10:04,820
what you and I was very uncomfortable,
1205
01:10:04,840 --> 01:10:07,090
and I've always been uncomfortable.
1206
01:10:08,680 --> 01:10:11,930
This is, where I sit when I take my break.
1207
01:10:12,220 --> 01:10:13,640
It's hot in there,
1208
01:10:14,390 --> 01:10:16,310
Lemme take off my apron.
1209
01:10:17,400 --> 01:10:19,340
I enjoy working in this restaurant.
1210
01:10:19,360 --> 01:10:22,150
They treat me good and...
1211
01:10:25,110 --> 01:10:27,820
I guess you could say "a normal life" now.
1212
01:10:30,910 --> 01:10:33,500
I've been taking care of my dad.
1213
01:10:33,660 --> 01:10:35,540
I've been saving up my money.
1214
01:10:35,580 --> 01:10:38,670
Got myself a nice apartment in Flushing, Queens,
1215
01:10:38,710 --> 01:10:41,210
and me and my father is living together,
1216
01:10:41,250 --> 01:10:43,300
and we're doing good.
1217
01:10:43,590 --> 01:10:45,840
When I first came home,
1218
01:10:45,880 --> 01:10:48,010
I Googled myself.
1219
01:10:48,050 --> 01:10:49,470
I was stunned.
1220
01:10:49,510 --> 01:10:52,640
I couldn't believe how much people supported me.
1221
01:10:54,560 --> 01:10:56,850
I'm very grateful.
1222
01:10:58,060 --> 01:11:02,690
It's a very emotional issue to me because...
1223
01:11:03,940 --> 01:11:07,360
I mean, America is all I know.
1224
01:11:21,090 --> 01:11:23,000
I am Chin...
1225
01:11:23,500 --> 01:11:27,840
and I live my life as a man, and that's it.
1226
01:11:28,260 --> 01:11:33,010
I don't need a label to define who I am.
1227
01:11:36,140 --> 01:11:37,920
Next month, I'm gonna be 50 years old.
1228
01:11:39,730 --> 01:11:42,400
This the best...
1229
01:11:43,440 --> 01:11:46,240
best days of my life.
1230
01:11:47,440 --> 01:11:49,530
I'm at peace.
1231
01:11:54,620 --> 01:11:59,710
♪ Soft uplifting music ♪
1232
01:12:05,170 --> 01:12:07,710
It's a new day.
1233
01:12:07,920 --> 01:12:11,260
It's a new season in my life right now.
1234
01:12:11,550 --> 01:12:14,220
I'm getting back to my work.
1235
01:12:16,180 --> 01:12:18,730
Back to my passions.
1236
01:12:18,930 --> 01:12:20,480
Taking pictures.
1237
01:12:22,810 --> 01:12:24,730
Making art.
1238
01:12:26,190 --> 01:12:29,780
I've been doing a lot of painting... abstract form.
1239
01:12:29,820 --> 01:12:34,120
Coming out and being a creative person and an artist,
1240
01:12:34,160 --> 01:12:36,790
that's pff, shit, you're not coming out,
1241
01:12:36,830 --> 01:12:39,830
you're trying to discover yourself!
1242
01:12:39,870 --> 01:12:41,810
An identity is something that you create
1243
01:12:41,830 --> 01:12:43,460
yourself... something like art.
1244
01:12:45,710 --> 01:12:48,760
It's a process, and it's always changing.
1245
01:12:49,260 --> 01:12:52,340
It's an alignment of self and soul.
1246
01:12:57,010 --> 01:12:59,020
I rap, I make...
1247
01:12:59,060 --> 01:12:59,980
punk music.
1248
01:13:00,020 --> 01:13:02,980
It's expressing my...
1249
01:13:03,020 --> 01:13:04,650
intense ways.
1250
01:13:10,070 --> 01:13:12,490
It's what we artists do.
1251
01:13:14,320 --> 01:13:17,660
We feel deeply, we reflect...
1252
01:13:19,040 --> 01:13:23,330
take the pain and the pleasure,
1253
01:13:23,370 --> 01:13:27,210
and we try to make sense of it all through our art.
1254
01:13:27,250 --> 01:13:30,340
Come out... come out again soon.
1255
01:13:35,680 --> 01:13:39,010
A lot of my gifts came from my mom.
1256
01:13:42,560 --> 01:13:44,850
Count of three!
1257
01:13:44,900 --> 01:13:46,020
One!
1258
01:13:46,060 --> 01:13:47,190
Two!
1259
01:13:47,230 --> 01:13:48,360
Three!
1260
01:13:51,780 --> 01:13:55,200
I am beautiful, I am talented.
1261
01:13:59,080 --> 01:14:00,990
I'm joyful.
1262
01:14:01,790 --> 01:14:04,250
I'm always evolving.
1263
01:14:06,120 --> 01:14:08,840
I define myself.
1264
01:14:09,800 --> 01:14:12,380
And I choose to be free.
1265
01:14:20,760 --> 01:14:25,850
♪ Uptempo house music ♪
1266
01:14:27,310 --> 01:14:28,750
♪ Left ♪
♪ Go right ♪
1267
01:14:28,770 --> 01:14:30,420
♪ Baby ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1268
01:14:30,440 --> 01:14:31,070
♪ Don't stop... ♪
1269
01:14:31,110 --> 01:14:34,280
Most of the lives of my trans-cestors are kind of
1270
01:14:34,320 --> 01:14:38,620
invisible, so a documentary like 'The Aggressives' brings
1271
01:14:38,660 --> 01:14:41,910
something important to light, and...
1272
01:14:41,950 --> 01:14:44,040
I'm very grateful for that.
1273
01:14:45,290 --> 01:14:46,940
♪ Move left ♪
♪ Move forward ♪
1274
01:14:46,960 --> 01:14:48,610
♪ Move right ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1275
01:14:48,630 --> 01:14:50,150
♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Right now ♪
1276
01:14:50,170 --> 01:14:52,750
♪ ♪
♪ That's how we do it ♪
1277
01:14:53,800 --> 01:14:55,280
♪ Left ♪
♪ Go right ♪
1278
01:14:55,300 --> 01:14:56,820
♪ Baby ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1279
01:14:56,840 --> 01:14:58,450
♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Keep going... ♪
1280
01:14:58,470 --> 01:15:02,600
Some might refer to me as "an aggressive" or an "AG."
1281
01:15:02,640 --> 01:15:03,180
I don't mind.
1282
01:15:03,180 --> 01:15:04,960
I still think it's very relevant.
1283
01:15:06,270 --> 01:15:07,830
So we will be screening 'The Aggressives, '
1284
01:15:07,850 --> 01:15:10,460
which we are excited to be sharing with you right now.
1285
01:15:10,480 --> 01:15:11,980
"Aggressive"...
1286
01:15:12,020 --> 01:15:13,610
is...
1287
01:15:13,650 --> 01:15:15,780
your strength, your courage...
1288
01:15:15,820 --> 01:15:17,900
your whole aura.
1289
01:15:18,320 --> 01:15:21,950
I love the evolution of the language we now have.
1290
01:15:21,990 --> 01:15:24,450
I feel it's very liberating for a lot of people.
1291
01:15:24,490 --> 01:15:26,480
We're moving towards language that's a little bit
1292
01:15:26,500 --> 01:15:29,630
more inclusive because we are understanding this variety of
1293
01:15:29,670 --> 01:15:31,130
gender identities.
1294
01:15:31,170 --> 01:15:32,630
People have evolved
1295
01:15:32,670 --> 01:15:33,980
♪ Left ♪
♪ Go right ♪
1296
01:15:34,000 --> 01:15:35,960
♪ Baby ♪
♪ Keep going... ♪
1297
01:15:36,010 --> 01:15:38,840
We all have masculine and feminine energy within us.
1298
01:15:38,880 --> 01:15:41,680
If a person's presenting themselves the way they are,
1299
01:15:41,720 --> 01:15:42,850
accept it.
1300
01:15:42,890 --> 01:15:44,660
There's still room to kinda,
1301
01:15:44,680 --> 01:15:48,520
challenge perceptions and ideas around... around gender,
1302
01:15:48,560 --> 01:15:50,980
and, honestly, not to be reduced to your parts.
1303
01:15:51,020 --> 01:15:53,550
As humans, we're all different, but there are certain layers
1304
01:15:53,570 --> 01:15:54,650
that are the same.
1305
01:15:54,690 --> 01:15:56,860
If we do another one of these in 10,
1306
01:15:56,900 --> 01:15:58,680
20 years, it'll be completely different.
1307
01:15:58,700 --> 01:16:01,010
As the world changes, the way people identify will
1308
01:16:01,030 --> 01:16:04,330
change, the way people exist in that world will change.
1309
01:16:04,370 --> 01:16:07,000
It's part of, human progression.
1310
01:17:05,430 --> 01:17:06,740
♪ Left ♪
♪ Go right ♪
1311
01:17:06,760 --> 01:17:08,410
♪ Baby ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1312
01:17:08,430 --> 01:17:10,080
♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1313
01:17:10,100 --> 01:17:11,750
♪ Move left ♪
♪ Move forward ♪
1314
01:17:11,770 --> 01:17:13,420
♪ Move right ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1315
01:17:13,440 --> 01:17:15,090
♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Right now ♪
1316
01:17:15,110 --> 01:17:17,520
♪ ♪
♪ That's how we do it ♪
1317
01:17:18,610 --> 01:17:20,090
♪ Left ♪
♪ Go right ♪
1318
01:17:20,110 --> 01:17:21,590
♪ Baby ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1319
01:17:21,610 --> 01:17:23,260
♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1320
01:17:23,280 --> 01:17:24,930
♪ Move left ♪
♪ Move forward ♪
1321
01:17:24,950 --> 01:17:26,600
♪ Move right ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1322
01:17:26,620 --> 01:17:28,270
♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Right now ♪
1323
01:17:28,290 --> 01:17:30,870
♪ ♪
♪ That's how we do it ♪
1324
01:17:31,790 --> 01:17:33,100
♪ Left ♪
♪ Go right ♪
1325
01:17:33,120 --> 01:17:34,770
♪ Baby ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1326
01:17:34,790 --> 01:17:36,440
♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
1327
01:17:36,460 --> 01:17:38,110
♪ Move left ♪
♪ Move forward ♪
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♪ Move right ♪
♪ Keep going ♪
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♪ Don't stop ♪
♪ Right now ♪
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♪ ♪
♪ That's how we do it ♪
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