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Anything! 4 00:00:36,680 --> 00:00:38,160 What do you want me to say? 5 00:00:38,180 --> 00:00:39,810 I'm out of words now. 6 00:00:39,850 --> 00:00:42,430 I already said what I said. 7 00:00:42,640 --> 00:00:45,600 Say it all again one more time! 8 00:00:45,810 --> 00:00:47,340 Do you worry, what this doc... 9 00:00:49,190 --> 00:00:52,320 How this documentary is gonna affect your life? 10 00:00:52,360 --> 00:00:52,990 No. 11 00:00:53,030 --> 00:00:54,680 You're not bothered about that? 12 00:00:54,700 --> 00:00:56,110 No. 13 00:00:56,410 --> 00:00:59,160 I don't have nothin' to hide. 14 00:00:59,200 --> 00:01:01,950 There's nothin' that I have to hide. 15 00:01:03,870 --> 00:01:06,170 Is that a new tattoo? 16 00:01:06,210 --> 00:01:10,460 This one might be new, this one is new... 17 00:01:10,880 --> 00:01:14,170 and this one, and this one. 18 00:01:14,220 --> 00:01:16,180 I only had this one. 19 00:01:16,220 --> 00:01:18,340 What's up with the hair? 20 00:01:18,390 --> 00:01:18,680 Low. 21 00:01:18,720 --> 00:01:20,010 No haircut but low. 22 00:01:20,050 --> 00:01:21,050 Lemme see. 23 00:01:25,270 --> 00:01:27,650 "aggressive"... 24 00:01:28,770 --> 00:01:32,030 I used to get excited about that word, 25 00:01:32,070 --> 00:01:35,530 I don't wanna be labeled. 26 00:01:35,570 --> 00:01:37,220 So you're serious about it? 27 00:01:37,240 --> 00:01:40,580 You're, totally anti being labeled "aggressive" anymore? 28 00:01:40,620 --> 00:01:42,080 I don't wanna be a label. 29 00:01:42,120 --> 00:01:43,730 I don't wanna be labeled, 30 00:01:43,750 --> 00:01:45,370 I... 31 00:01:45,450 --> 00:01:46,710 call me "Kisha," man. 32 00:01:46,750 --> 00:01:49,170 Call me "Kisha." 33 00:01:52,920 --> 00:01:58,010 ♪ exciting house music slowly fades in ♪ 34 00:02:31,790 --> 00:02:33,960 I was raised in the street. 35 00:02:37,800 --> 00:02:39,450 I'm like a motherfuckin' legend! 36 00:02:40,300 --> 00:02:41,300 You see me. 37 00:02:45,140 --> 00:02:46,450 Because I'm aggressive? 38 00:02:46,470 --> 00:02:47,770 That doesn't matter! 39 00:02:47,810 --> 00:02:49,270 Let me be feminine! 40 00:02:53,980 --> 00:02:55,940 Salt and peppers and... 41 00:03:17,510 --> 00:03:20,130 One Christmas, I bought myself a camera, 42 00:03:20,170 --> 00:03:23,970 and I fell in love with photography instantly. 43 00:03:24,010 --> 00:03:26,470 I taught myself how to shoot. 44 00:03:26,510 --> 00:03:28,810 And I realized, that's it! 45 00:03:28,850 --> 00:03:31,480 I wanna share what I see. 46 00:03:31,640 --> 00:03:33,980 I want you to see the beauty in it as 47 00:03:34,020 --> 00:03:36,340 Smile a little bit, because you got nice teeth! 48 00:03:37,900 --> 00:03:40,320 I have so many queer friends, 49 00:03:40,360 --> 00:03:43,490 so many trans-masculine and non-binary friends, 50 00:03:43,530 --> 00:03:47,160 and I decided I wanted to make a new series of portraits. 51 00:03:47,200 --> 00:03:48,950 That's beautiful. 52 00:03:49,540 --> 00:03:50,960 I like that. 53 00:03:51,160 --> 00:03:53,680 And I wanted to start with the BIPOC folks, 54 00:03:53,710 --> 00:03:55,690 who are still underrepresented. 55 00:03:55,710 --> 00:03:58,380 ♪ Uplifting piano music ♪ 56 00:03:58,420 --> 00:04:00,860 I also wanted to meet the younger generation and see who 57 00:04:00,880 --> 00:04:02,680 they are, 58 00:04:02,720 --> 00:04:05,680 and how they were impacted by our first film. 59 00:04:06,390 --> 00:04:07,140 When I first saw the documentary 60 00:04:07,180 --> 00:04:12,190 'The Aggressives, ' I finally saw a representation of me. 61 00:04:12,230 --> 00:04:15,860 I actually appreciated the rawness because it allows for 62 00:04:15,900 --> 00:04:17,520 evolution. 63 00:04:17,810 --> 00:04:19,760 Seeing that representation, for me, 64 00:04:19,780 --> 00:04:21,690 opened up a door. 65 00:04:23,400 --> 00:04:25,740 I don't wanna be boxed in. 66 00:04:25,780 --> 00:04:28,700 My masculinity is mine to make. 67 00:04:28,990 --> 00:04:33,040 For me, masculinity is not about being society's definition of a 68 00:04:33,080 --> 00:04:37,210 man, but about being in harmony with my femininity. 69 00:04:38,750 --> 00:04:41,050 The first time I saw 'The Aggressives, ' 70 00:04:41,090 --> 00:04:46,180 I was a freshman in an all-female Black college. 71 00:04:47,760 --> 00:04:52,060 I instantly felt connected, because I always felt like I was 72 00:04:52,100 --> 00:04:54,250 extremely different from everyone else, 73 00:04:54,270 --> 00:04:57,110 and then seeing the film and saying, 74 00:04:58,650 --> 00:05:00,230 You're not different." 75 00:05:00,270 --> 00:05:04,400 That film is what helped me kick off my transition, 76 00:05:04,450 --> 00:05:06,930 feel comfortable in changing the way I was presenting, 77 00:05:06,950 --> 00:05:10,700 and carrying myself in confidence. 78 00:05:12,950 --> 00:05:16,920 We have always been looking for people who reflect 79 00:05:16,960 --> 00:05:18,790 us and look like us. 80 00:05:18,840 --> 00:05:20,750 I'm very thankful. 81 00:05:21,130 --> 00:05:25,930 I consider all the people in 'The Aggressives' to be my 82 00:05:25,970 --> 00:05:27,300 "trans-cestors." 83 00:05:27,340 --> 00:05:30,140 their existence was affirming. 84 00:05:30,180 --> 00:05:33,140 Because they have existed and lived through their experiences 85 00:05:33,180 --> 00:05:36,100 and have gone through their adversities, 86 00:05:36,140 --> 00:05:40,110 I'm able to be more free in my body. 87 00:05:43,530 --> 00:05:45,630 I feel like "AG" or "an aggressive" is kind of a 88 00:05:45,650 --> 00:05:47,280 dated term. 89 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:51,120 The language has changed and some of the stuff that was in 90 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:54,120 'The Aggressives' originally might not correlate, 91 00:05:54,160 --> 00:05:57,250 with how someone like me would identify. 92 00:05:57,960 --> 00:06:02,340 The one who I identified the most with was probably Kisha. 93 00:06:02,380 --> 00:06:04,320 I thought she was absolutely beautiful, 94 00:06:04,340 --> 00:06:07,800 but still able to own her masculinity without having to 95 00:06:07,840 --> 00:06:09,970 compromise who she is. 96 00:06:10,010 --> 00:06:11,450 Even that's cool, what I'm saying? 97 00:06:11,470 --> 00:06:12,310 Because you're 98 00:06:12,350 --> 00:06:14,020 doin' you, you're being you. 99 00:06:14,060 --> 00:06:15,140 Exactly. 100 00:06:16,520 --> 00:06:19,980 This series is close to my heart. 101 00:06:20,270 --> 00:06:23,820 I see myself in all of their faces. 102 00:06:25,030 --> 00:06:27,650 I wanted to capture their strength, 103 00:06:27,700 --> 00:06:31,160 and grace, as human beings, 104 00:06:31,200 --> 00:06:35,500 and show you how to see past the labels and the tags. 105 00:06:36,370 --> 00:06:38,330 Because they are me, 106 00:06:38,370 --> 00:06:40,500 and I am them, 107 00:06:40,540 --> 00:06:42,000 and we are you. 108 00:07:01,060 --> 00:07:02,380 I'ma hit you up in, 109 00:07:02,400 --> 00:07:04,240 a half an hour, and I'ma come link with y'all. 110 00:07:06,230 --> 00:07:07,880 Like in the old movie! 111 00:07:07,900 --> 00:07:09,200 I'm getting flashbacks, too! 112 00:07:09,240 --> 00:07:10,530 It's like... 113 00:07:10,570 --> 00:07:12,530 super strange. 114 00:07:13,070 --> 00:07:14,830 What's up?! 115 00:07:16,410 --> 00:07:18,830 Her eyes were like summer! 116 00:07:20,410 --> 00:07:22,420 To you. 117 00:07:22,460 --> 00:07:24,540 Don't wear it out. 118 00:07:24,630 --> 00:07:27,210 There's a thing called "femme aggressive," 119 00:07:27,260 --> 00:07:30,550 and that's what I considered myself when I was younger. 120 00:07:30,720 --> 00:07:33,070 And it's probably still what I would consider myself now. 121 00:07:33,090 --> 00:07:34,740 Good. 122 00:07:34,760 --> 00:07:36,740 But personally, I'm not into the labels 123 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:38,220 anymore. 124 00:07:38,850 --> 00:07:43,060 After the first film, I kinda got stuck with the tag, 125 00:07:43,100 --> 00:07:46,230 because that was the time and the film and... 126 00:07:46,270 --> 00:07:49,740 we've all kind of outgrown those labels. 127 00:07:51,860 --> 00:07:54,240 I came out a little bit cocky, 128 00:07:54,280 --> 00:07:57,450 and I kinda was, because I was young and crazy, 129 00:07:57,490 --> 00:07:59,270 and it's grown from being, 130 00:07:59,290 --> 00:08:03,750 cocky to, confident and understanding life and 131 00:08:03,790 --> 00:08:06,420 experiencing life. 132 00:08:07,130 --> 00:08:10,260 I'm still the same person, I'm ...I don't have so much of a 133 00:08:10,300 --> 00:08:10,840 six pack. 134 00:08:10,880 --> 00:08:13,090 I feel like I had a six pack back then. 135 00:08:13,130 --> 00:08:15,260 I might have like a two pack. 136 00:08:15,300 --> 00:08:18,100 My weight kinda fluctuates because I'm older. 137 00:08:18,390 --> 00:08:20,450 Through the years, you k I've had difficult times. 138 00:08:20,470 --> 00:08:21,960 Everybody has difficult times, 139 00:08:21,980 --> 00:08:24,400 good times, bad times. 140 00:08:25,100 --> 00:08:29,280 Because there was parts of that film that I was very vulnerable, 141 00:08:29,320 --> 00:08:32,280 because I was still so young when we finally released it and 142 00:08:32,320 --> 00:08:34,610 showed it around the world. 143 00:08:34,650 --> 00:08:37,950 And it made me emotional to see all the things that other people 144 00:08:37,990 --> 00:08:40,020 in the film went through, what I mean? 145 00:08:40,040 --> 00:08:41,810 And it made me feel" 146 00:08:41,830 --> 00:08:44,420 we need to support each other more." 147 00:08:44,500 --> 00:08:46,190 Everybody should be helping each other. 148 00:08:46,210 --> 00:08:48,630 You don't have to be from someone's community, 149 00:08:48,670 --> 00:08:50,300 you could be walking past. 150 00:08:50,340 --> 00:08:53,300 If somebody's laying down on the floor with a cut, 151 00:08:53,340 --> 00:08:57,090 look for a t-shirt, take the t-shirt off your back! 152 00:08:58,180 --> 00:09:01,270 Since the film, I spread my wings. 153 00:09:01,560 --> 00:09:03,830 Worked on a couple different independent films, 154 00:09:03,850 --> 00:09:07,440 couple television shows, couple of Spike Lee films. 155 00:09:07,650 --> 00:09:10,150 Art, acting... 156 00:09:10,190 --> 00:09:12,190 sometimes, that's what you gotta do as a creative, 157 00:09:12,860 --> 00:09:14,820 I'm hustlin' and bustlin'. 158 00:09:15,200 --> 00:09:18,820 I have a 1964 Dream 305, 159 00:09:18,870 --> 00:09:23,500 and then I have a TMAX with a Yoshimura pipe on there, 160 00:09:23,540 --> 00:09:25,870 I have a Honda Reflex, 161 00:09:25,920 --> 00:09:28,540 and I have a Can-Am Spyder. 162 00:09:28,580 --> 00:09:32,510 That's my latest baby, because the trunk on a Can-Am Spyder, 163 00:09:32,550 --> 00:09:34,740 you could put a newborn baby and a weekend bag 164 00:09:34,760 --> 00:09:36,340 and we're outta here. 165 00:09:36,380 --> 00:09:38,390 ♪ Smooth funky music ♪ 166 00:09:38,430 --> 00:09:42,520 Approaching my 40-year mark, I feel like I've been reborn. 167 00:09:42,560 --> 00:09:44,910 I feel as happy as I was when we did the first 168 00:09:44,930 --> 00:09:46,810 documentary. 169 00:09:47,440 --> 00:09:50,400 Sometimes I'm dating women and they act like they've never seen 170 00:09:50,440 --> 00:09:51,710 the documentary, and then they're 171 00:09:51,730 --> 00:09:53,380 "you're a player!" and I'm... 172 00:09:53,400 --> 00:09:56,200 eventually, I find out that they saw the documentary, 173 00:09:56,240 --> 00:09:59,030 and I'm " that was like 100 years ago, 174 00:09:59,070 --> 00:10:02,740 And I was a child, and I was single, 175 00:10:02,790 --> 00:10:05,660 and I was living my life." 176 00:10:06,870 --> 00:10:09,540 I usually have a special woman in my life. 177 00:10:09,580 --> 00:10:11,710 Almost all the time. 178 00:10:11,750 --> 00:10:14,340 Because I'm a one-woman woman. 179 00:10:14,550 --> 00:10:17,590 I'm not necessarily a player, 180 00:10:17,630 --> 00:10:19,720 but I like to be free. 181 00:10:23,430 --> 00:10:24,560 Since the first film, 182 00:10:24,600 --> 00:10:27,020 I've grown. 183 00:10:28,600 --> 00:10:31,440 I've learned to not have so much expectations in life and, 184 00:10:32,820 --> 00:10:36,190 to work through things with patience and love. 185 00:10:36,690 --> 00:10:40,870 And to, never take moments for granted. 186 00:10:48,660 --> 00:10:52,250 In the first film, the thing that connected all the cast 187 00:10:52,290 --> 00:10:56,760 members was that they were all assigned-female-at-birth 188 00:10:56,800 --> 00:11:00,430 people of color with masculine presentation. 189 00:11:00,470 --> 00:11:05,140 But the character I identified with the most was Trevon because 190 00:11:05,180 --> 00:11:08,810 I feel like they embodied both masculine and feminine 191 00:11:08,850 --> 00:11:10,440 characteristics. 192 00:11:10,480 --> 00:11:14,770 The late '90s/early 2000s, there wasn't language to 193 00:11:14,820 --> 00:11:17,610 describe what that was. 194 00:11:18,320 --> 00:11:23,240 ♪ Ethereal R&B music ♪ 195 00:11:23,870 --> 00:11:26,620 To be honest, when 'The Aggressives' came out, 196 00:11:26,660 --> 00:11:29,330 I didn't think that it would... 197 00:11:29,370 --> 00:11:31,750 become what it was. 198 00:11:32,170 --> 00:11:36,000 I didn't think that people in my neighborhood and stuff like that 199 00:11:36,050 --> 00:11:38,130 would see it, 200 00:11:38,170 --> 00:11:40,470 I was embarrassed of my lifestyle. 201 00:11:40,510 --> 00:11:41,970 It's 3 o'clock! 202 00:11:42,010 --> 00:11:44,260 Run around and be me. 203 00:11:44,600 --> 00:11:46,100 I was young. 204 00:11:46,140 --> 00:11:48,000 I was headed down the wrong path. 205 00:11:48,020 --> 00:11:50,640 It wasn't too many good things in my future if I kept doing the 206 00:11:50,680 --> 00:11:52,690 same things that I was doing. 207 00:11:52,730 --> 00:11:55,270 It makes you wanna change something. 208 00:11:55,690 --> 00:11:57,510 One day, I sat in my house... 209 00:11:57,530 --> 00:12:00,150 The one that you filmed me at last. 210 00:12:00,240 --> 00:12:02,180 I told myself that there was some things that I needed 211 00:12:02,200 --> 00:12:03,860 to work on. 212 00:12:05,530 --> 00:12:07,520 I started writing down some goals... 213 00:12:07,540 --> 00:12:12,620 GED, college, work, name change. 214 00:12:13,210 --> 00:12:14,830 It took a while. 215 00:12:14,880 --> 00:12:18,170 Three years later, I had my GED, 216 00:12:18,210 --> 00:12:20,840 I was in a better living situation, 217 00:12:20,880 --> 00:12:22,220 changed my name. 218 00:12:22,260 --> 00:12:25,140 'The Aggressives' helped me evolve. 219 00:12:25,220 --> 00:12:26,970 It pushed me. 220 00:12:27,390 --> 00:12:30,680 When people started hitting me up and telling me that I changed 221 00:12:30,720 --> 00:12:33,730 their lives, that... That was a big thing for 222 00:12:33,770 --> 00:12:38,860 me, and that is why I still live my life in a unapologetic way. 223 00:12:39,570 --> 00:12:43,530 These days, I don't consider myself to be an aggressive, 224 00:12:43,570 --> 00:12:47,200 mainly because of... when I hear somebody say a "AG" or 225 00:12:47,240 --> 00:12:49,700 "aggressive," of an aggressive female. 226 00:12:49,740 --> 00:12:52,200 I consider myself to be male. 227 00:12:52,250 --> 00:12:53,890 I'm not a cisgender male... 228 00:12:53,910 --> 00:12:57,380 I wasn't assigned, that gender at birth... 229 00:12:57,420 --> 00:13:00,210 But I'm a transgender male. 230 00:13:01,420 --> 00:13:04,050 I've always been a trans man, 231 00:13:04,090 --> 00:13:06,070 I didn't know the terminology, 232 00:13:06,090 --> 00:13:09,390 so I stuck with the fact that I was an "aggressive"... 233 00:13:09,430 --> 00:13:13,020 a "AG"... because that's what I was taught. 234 00:13:13,640 --> 00:13:16,600 When I look at other trans guys and I see that they 235 00:13:16,650 --> 00:13:18,750 have the full facial hair, 236 00:13:18,770 --> 00:13:21,090 the full beard, or they have their top surgery, 237 00:13:21,110 --> 00:13:22,610 or they're... 238 00:13:22,650 --> 00:13:25,450 swole up, I tell myself, 239 00:13:25,490 --> 00:13:28,870 "First of all, not every man is like that." 240 00:13:30,620 --> 00:13:34,370 Overall, I'm probably more considered "non-binary." 241 00:13:35,460 --> 00:13:38,420 But I'm not sure. 242 00:13:39,040 --> 00:13:41,920 I still have an insecurity with my chest. 243 00:13:41,960 --> 00:13:44,470 I don't want them there, I don't like them, 244 00:13:44,510 --> 00:13:47,300 I want a flatter appearance, for sure, 245 00:13:47,340 --> 00:13:49,760 but with the scars, I'm gonna be... I'm gonna feel 246 00:13:49,800 --> 00:13:51,430 uncomfortable. 247 00:13:51,470 --> 00:13:54,140 That makes me think, what's the point of going from 248 00:13:54,180 --> 00:13:57,390 one uncomfortable state to another? 249 00:13:57,600 --> 00:13:59,500 I call it like a spiritual warfare, 250 00:13:59,520 --> 00:14:02,820 because I fight with myself probably almost every day, 251 00:14:02,860 --> 00:14:06,570 with the bordering or the straddling of the fence. 252 00:14:08,530 --> 00:14:11,620 Why change myself for people? 253 00:14:18,000 --> 00:14:21,290 'The Aggressives' showed me a side of myself, 254 00:14:21,340 --> 00:14:23,630 that I may not have been as aware of. 255 00:14:23,670 --> 00:14:25,630 I did connect with Octavio... 256 00:14:25,670 --> 00:14:28,010 How unapologetically queer they were. 257 00:14:28,050 --> 00:14:28,760 "This is who I am. 258 00:14:28,760 --> 00:14:31,800 If you have a problem with it, get out of my face." 259 00:14:35,890 --> 00:14:37,830 When I watch 'The Aggressives, ' 260 00:14:37,850 --> 00:14:39,650 I see my growth. 261 00:14:40,520 --> 00:14:42,980 I was what, 18 years old? 262 00:14:43,270 --> 00:14:48,450 It do remind me of things that I don't wanna go back to. 263 00:14:51,740 --> 00:14:54,280 It's like a lesson learned. 264 00:14:58,710 --> 00:15:01,630 Things was difficult for me back then. 265 00:15:03,250 --> 00:15:08,340 So this is... it's like a whole story with me where you young, 266 00:15:08,510 --> 00:15:12,050 you in a group home, and you in the street and things like that, 267 00:15:12,090 --> 00:15:16,020 your parents is on drugs, and you gotta fight for yourself. 268 00:15:17,730 --> 00:15:20,350 21 years later. 269 00:15:20,390 --> 00:15:21,690 I'm always gonna be aggressive. 270 00:15:21,730 --> 00:15:23,020 I am the dude. 271 00:15:23,060 --> 00:15:24,190 I am that man. 272 00:15:24,230 --> 00:15:27,320 I am that motherfuckin' fly guy. 273 00:15:27,820 --> 00:15:30,700 Do you feel like your identity has changed 274 00:15:30,740 --> 00:15:33,030 since the last time we filmed you? 275 00:15:36,240 --> 00:15:39,710 If I had a choice to change my gender, 276 00:15:39,750 --> 00:15:40,370 I would. 277 00:15:40,410 --> 00:15:44,040 How many friends that's men now? 278 00:15:44,080 --> 00:15:44,540 A lot. 279 00:15:44,590 --> 00:15:47,710 I'm, still stagnated in this. 280 00:15:47,760 --> 00:15:52,180 The reason why I don't change my gender is because I have a son. 281 00:15:52,680 --> 00:15:57,350 I'm probably the only one out of my friends that have a kid. 282 00:15:57,930 --> 00:15:58,310 You understand? 283 00:15:58,350 --> 00:16:00,730 And I didn't have a kid... 284 00:16:00,770 --> 00:16:04,270 like I willingly wanted a kid. 285 00:16:04,310 --> 00:16:06,730 I was 15 when it happened. 286 00:16:06,820 --> 00:16:08,900 That's something that... 287 00:16:08,940 --> 00:16:12,240 I don't even wanna, have a conversation about. 288 00:16:12,610 --> 00:16:16,240 If it wasn't for my son, I would be trans. 289 00:16:16,280 --> 00:16:19,750 I don't want him to have to deal with society judging him for who 290 00:16:19,790 --> 00:16:22,080 his parent is. 291 00:16:22,120 --> 00:16:24,760 My aunt adopted him when I was younger because I didn't have a 292 00:16:24,790 --> 00:16:27,210 choice at that time. 293 00:16:27,420 --> 00:16:29,590 It was difficult. 294 00:16:29,630 --> 00:16:33,260 Being that she had adopted him, and she knew my lifestyle, 295 00:16:33,300 --> 00:16:35,090 she said, "Don't come by here. 296 00:16:35,140 --> 00:16:37,550 If you come by here, I'ma call the cops." 297 00:16:37,640 --> 00:16:39,100 I already had a criminal record. 298 00:16:39,140 --> 00:16:42,560 If I go by there, it's like I'm harassing them. 299 00:16:43,310 --> 00:16:48,770 When she passed away is when our relationship got closer. 300 00:16:49,150 --> 00:16:53,490 He thought that, I didn't want nothing to do with him, 301 00:16:53,530 --> 00:16:56,910 so I had to explain all of that stuff to him. 302 00:16:59,700 --> 00:17:00,950 I wanna live different. 303 00:17:00,990 --> 00:17:02,810 You think I wanna die in the hood, 304 00:17:02,830 --> 00:17:05,150 go to jail in the hood, with my rest of a life? 305 00:17:05,170 --> 00:17:06,960 Hell no, man! 306 00:17:07,000 --> 00:17:09,630 I want a fuckin' house with a motherfuckin' boat and go out 307 00:17:09,670 --> 00:17:11,490 there and mind my motherfuckin' business; 308 00:17:11,510 --> 00:17:13,590 that's how I wanna live. 309 00:17:20,010 --> 00:17:21,830 Last year, I cut my hair off, 310 00:17:21,850 --> 00:17:23,350 and... 311 00:17:23,390 --> 00:17:25,330 a lot of people have been calling me "sir," 312 00:17:25,350 --> 00:17:27,980 and I kinda like the confusion that... 313 00:17:28,020 --> 00:17:29,650 I cause people. 314 00:17:29,690 --> 00:17:31,840 The way the people in the first film, 315 00:17:31,860 --> 00:17:33,990 'The Aggressives, ' said it was: 316 00:17:34,030 --> 00:17:35,990 "I am me; this is who I am." 317 00:17:36,030 --> 00:17:39,990 I'm excited to see what happened with Chin. 318 00:17:40,870 --> 00:17:43,660 ♪ Ominous ethereal music ♪ 319 00:17:46,370 --> 00:17:49,170 Hello, this is a prepaid collect call 320 00:17:49,210 --> 00:17:50,670 from... 321 00:17:50,710 --> 00:17:52,500 Chin. 322 00:17:52,550 --> 00:17:55,510 An Inmate at the Irwin County Jail. 323 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:02,310 Hello? 324 00:18:02,310 --> 00:18:04,040 My God, Chin... 325 00:18:04,060 --> 00:18:04,560 What's up? 326 00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:06,640 How are you? 327 00:18:39,260 --> 00:18:42,390 How are you mentally doing? 328 00:18:48,310 --> 00:18:49,310 But... 329 00:18:54,610 --> 00:18:56,610 Boy... 330 00:19:02,120 --> 00:19:05,200 This call will be terminated in one minute. 331 00:19:37,990 --> 00:19:39,630 I was born in the Bronx, 332 00:19:39,650 --> 00:19:42,450 I was raised in Brooklyn, and what I say is that I grew up in 333 00:19:42,490 --> 00:19:43,280 Harlem. 334 00:19:43,320 --> 00:19:45,240 Let's get a Spanish coffee. 335 00:19:47,370 --> 00:19:49,960 ♪ Upbeat bachata playing ♪ 336 00:19:50,000 --> 00:19:53,460 I've been in Harlem since my late teens. 337 00:19:53,500 --> 00:19:55,790 This is where I had my first apartment, 338 00:19:55,840 --> 00:19:58,960 and this is where I've been ever since. 339 00:19:59,010 --> 00:20:02,470 Harlem got flavor, almost like Hollywood. 340 00:20:02,510 --> 00:20:04,470 There's a certain swag. 341 00:20:06,180 --> 00:20:07,310 You like my tattoo of Jesus? 342 00:20:07,350 --> 00:20:08,520 Thank you. 343 00:20:08,560 --> 00:20:09,520 Nice! 344 00:20:09,560 --> 00:20:11,100 Thank you. 345 00:20:11,730 --> 00:20:14,480 I got back in touch with my father after being 346 00:20:14,520 --> 00:20:17,650 with my mother for many, many years. 347 00:20:17,820 --> 00:20:20,990 He was Christian, and he tried to give me a speech 348 00:20:21,030 --> 00:20:23,490 about my sexuality. 349 00:20:23,780 --> 00:20:26,370 "the Bible says this, and the Bible says that." 350 00:20:26,410 --> 00:20:28,520 That's not the way I read the Bible, 351 00:20:28,540 --> 00:20:31,330 and that's not the way I grew up spiritually. 352 00:20:31,370 --> 00:20:33,870 It was believing in God, 353 00:20:33,920 --> 00:20:36,290 believing a higher power, 354 00:20:36,500 --> 00:20:39,130 helping others... 355 00:20:39,340 --> 00:20:42,170 It was instilled in me from my mom. 356 00:20:43,930 --> 00:20:47,220 As a little girl, Kisha was always on the go, 357 00:20:47,260 --> 00:20:49,370 always wanted to experience things. 358 00:20:49,390 --> 00:20:51,680 She loved the outdoors. 359 00:20:51,730 --> 00:20:53,560 Very curious. 360 00:20:53,600 --> 00:20:56,020 She was very strong-minded. 361 00:20:56,060 --> 00:20:58,360 She was more boyish. 362 00:20:58,400 --> 00:21:02,240 As a mom, you're always putting cute dresses on little girls, 363 00:21:02,280 --> 00:21:05,030 and it got to the point where Kisha didn't wanna wear dresses 364 00:21:05,070 --> 00:21:06,530 anymore. 365 00:21:06,570 --> 00:21:09,490 So I said, "Okay, so we'll go for the pants." 366 00:21:11,080 --> 00:21:14,370 A lot of my family was involved in the church. 367 00:21:14,410 --> 00:21:18,380 I didn't see any kind of... 368 00:21:18,420 --> 00:21:21,000 same-sex love. 369 00:21:21,300 --> 00:21:26,390 So for me, it was trying to understand me 370 00:21:26,430 --> 00:21:28,760 and what I was feeling. 371 00:21:32,430 --> 00:21:34,580 She started getting very angry and 372 00:21:34,600 --> 00:21:36,900 rebellious, and... 373 00:21:37,190 --> 00:21:42,360 I got a call from her school that she was up on the roof... 374 00:21:42,780 --> 00:21:46,240 threatening to commit suicide... 375 00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:48,100 and that they had called the cops, 376 00:21:48,120 --> 00:21:51,200 and they were gonna take her to the hospital. 377 00:21:51,490 --> 00:21:55,750 The social worker said to Kisha, "Tell Mom what's the problem." 378 00:21:55,790 --> 00:21:58,130 And she said, "I'm gay." 379 00:21:58,170 --> 00:21:59,960 I said, "Okay. 380 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:02,550 You are who you are. 381 00:22:03,340 --> 00:22:05,720 You're my daughter." 382 00:22:05,920 --> 00:22:09,720 Finding out, it opened up my heart. 383 00:22:10,010 --> 00:22:12,930 She started not being so angry all the time. 384 00:22:15,980 --> 00:22:19,060 We started getting closer. 385 00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:22,980 I loved her for who she was, and I still do. 386 00:22:23,020 --> 00:22:27,450 She's come a long way, and she's accomplished a lot of things 387 00:22:27,490 --> 00:22:29,950 that she wanted to accomplish... 388 00:22:29,990 --> 00:22:30,950 her way. 389 00:22:30,990 --> 00:22:32,280 ♪ Tender ethereal music ♪ 390 00:22:32,330 --> 00:22:34,950 Which I'm also very proud of. 391 00:22:47,260 --> 00:22:50,800 It's quiet, there's no New York City traffic, 392 00:22:50,840 --> 00:22:53,930 there's no horn honking. 393 00:22:54,680 --> 00:22:56,140 It's peaceful. 394 00:23:00,400 --> 00:23:04,150 I like to be out here in Joshua Tree, 395 00:23:04,190 --> 00:23:07,320 about 45 minutes away from home. 396 00:23:08,030 --> 00:23:12,370 We moved to Palm Springs because of how open it is to the LGBT 397 00:23:12,410 --> 00:23:14,120 community. 398 00:23:17,700 --> 00:23:19,690 We're doing food delivery and 399 00:23:19,710 --> 00:23:22,790 stuff, still trying to figure it out. 400 00:23:24,340 --> 00:23:28,670 I met Jade in 2013, downtown in the city at a club 401 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:30,840 called Esquilita's. 402 00:23:31,430 --> 00:23:34,680 Jade had one of her, buddies approach me 403 00:23:34,720 --> 00:23:36,180 and ask me if I liked girls. 404 00:23:37,890 --> 00:23:39,980 Because of the film. 405 00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:43,980 I got to know him through the film. 406 00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:49,190 He was into transgender females, so I didn't know if he was still 407 00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:50,900 into cisgenders. 408 00:23:50,950 --> 00:23:52,200 Because I'm not trans, 409 00:23:52,240 --> 00:23:54,700 that's why I had my friend approach him. 410 00:23:55,580 --> 00:23:58,410 I always get asked am I trans, 411 00:23:58,450 --> 00:23:59,890 and I don't take no offense to it, 412 00:23:59,910 --> 00:24:02,060 because trans women are beautiful. 413 00:24:02,080 --> 00:24:03,540 ♪ Tender synth music ♪ 414 00:24:03,580 --> 00:24:05,900 - So our first date was... - Was it the steakhouse? 415 00:24:05,920 --> 00:24:07,400 No... our first dinner date. 416 00:24:07,420 --> 00:24:07,840 Or was it church? 417 00:24:07,840 --> 00:24:08,460 It was church. 418 00:24:08,460 --> 00:24:10,740 - That's what I was... - It was church. 419 00:24:11,720 --> 00:24:12,880 I fell in love. 420 00:24:12,930 --> 00:24:15,350 We've kind of been together ever since. 421 00:24:15,850 --> 00:24:18,930 Trevon is the first trans guy I ever dated, 422 00:24:18,970 --> 00:24:22,020 so it was something new to me. 423 00:24:22,350 --> 00:24:25,360 He's very charming and sexy. 424 00:24:25,770 --> 00:24:29,400 Before that, I was dating aggressive females. 425 00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:31,740 I did identify as being a lesbian, 426 00:24:31,780 --> 00:24:35,070 and he says he's non-binary 427 00:24:35,120 --> 00:24:37,140 our relationship is our relationship. 428 00:24:37,160 --> 00:24:40,250 I don't put "lesbian" or "straight" on there. 429 00:24:40,290 --> 00:24:43,080 It's us, 430 00:24:46,290 --> 00:24:47,040 When I first came out, 431 00:24:47,090 --> 00:24:50,920 like most trans guys, I identified as an... 432 00:24:50,960 --> 00:24:54,090 as an aggressive female in the lesbian community, 433 00:24:54,130 --> 00:24:57,390 especially because, "trans" wasn't a thing. 434 00:24:57,890 --> 00:25:02,060 I don't even know if I wanna consider myself "non-binary." 435 00:25:02,270 --> 00:25:05,060 I don't want these stereotypes. 436 00:25:05,270 --> 00:25:06,650 Let me be who I wanna be. 437 00:25:06,690 --> 00:25:08,500 Let me be the individual I wanna be. 438 00:25:08,520 --> 00:25:10,130 If I don't wanna play basketball, 439 00:25:10,150 --> 00:25:11,480 I don't wanna play basketball. 440 00:25:11,530 --> 00:25:13,740 If I don't wanna... 441 00:25:15,030 --> 00:25:18,120 sit on the wall during the club and I wanna... 442 00:25:18,160 --> 00:25:22,160 do a one-two switch, let me do my one-two switch! 443 00:25:22,200 --> 00:25:24,750 You k what's the problem? 444 00:25:26,170 --> 00:25:29,630 Even Jade still expects different things from me 445 00:25:29,670 --> 00:25:33,630 sometimes, because she looks at me as a man, 446 00:25:33,670 --> 00:25:35,930 and that that's not fair. 447 00:25:37,180 --> 00:25:40,100 It's a touchy topic for her sometimes. 448 00:25:40,390 --> 00:25:44,810 Jade and I moved out here because I had messed up 449 00:25:44,850 --> 00:25:46,940 in our relationship. 450 00:25:48,690 --> 00:25:50,190 I cheated, 451 00:25:50,230 --> 00:25:52,190 and... 452 00:25:52,230 --> 00:25:55,110 we needed a fresh start. 453 00:25:55,740 --> 00:25:58,990 I couldn't see myself without being with him. 454 00:25:59,030 --> 00:26:01,330 I'm about to get emotional. 455 00:26:08,710 --> 00:26:11,630 I realized how much I loved him. 456 00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:15,030 We ain't dealt with a lot of stuff. 457 00:26:15,050 --> 00:26:17,220 We kinda left it back in New York. 458 00:26:20,930 --> 00:26:24,640 Once we get stable, we wanna have kids. 459 00:26:24,720 --> 00:26:26,710 We're looking into freezing his eggs. 460 00:26:26,730 --> 00:26:28,190 I'm 36. 461 00:26:28,230 --> 00:26:31,190 And I'm 32, so I can carry his child, 462 00:26:31,230 --> 00:26:33,360 so we wanna do one and one. 463 00:26:33,400 --> 00:26:37,320 It's a lot with that, with money and stuff. 464 00:26:37,400 --> 00:26:39,320 And then getting married. 465 00:26:39,410 --> 00:26:41,200 In like two year... 466 00:26:41,240 --> 00:26:43,700 - In two... in two years? - I hope 467 00:26:43,740 --> 00:26:45,500 I hope so. 468 00:26:59,090 --> 00:26:59,590 Some bug spray. 469 00:26:59,630 --> 00:27:00,390 I was about to say, please, 470 00:27:00,430 --> 00:27:04,510 they trying... the bees trying to eat me and everything over here. 471 00:27:06,100 --> 00:27:07,580 I would never have thought, 472 00:27:07,600 --> 00:27:10,100 the last time I interviewed you back in the day, 473 00:27:10,150 --> 00:27:14,900 that I would be interviewing you by a pond. 474 00:27:16,940 --> 00:27:17,940 Daniel... 475 00:27:20,950 --> 00:27:24,700 When I get home from work, I sit here. 476 00:27:24,910 --> 00:27:27,870 I enjoy this because it's peaceful. 477 00:27:28,160 --> 00:27:31,920 When you're younger, you do foolish things, and... 478 00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:35,590 the foolish things left me to being incarcerated, 479 00:27:35,630 --> 00:27:38,760 and at some type of point in my life, 480 00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:40,090 I've had to think, 481 00:27:40,130 --> 00:27:42,930 "Okay, do I wanna keep going back to prison? 482 00:27:42,970 --> 00:27:43,510 No. 483 00:27:43,510 --> 00:27:45,760 I wanna actually enjoy my life, be free, 484 00:27:45,810 --> 00:27:48,600 don't have to look over my back, worrying about the police or 485 00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:51,980 people after me because of the foolish things I was doing." 486 00:27:52,020 --> 00:27:54,610 That's what made me wanna go back to school and continue 487 00:27:54,650 --> 00:27:57,730 education and to do better for myself. 488 00:27:58,280 --> 00:28:01,320 I went to Hudson Valley Community College for my degree 489 00:28:01,360 --> 00:28:03,950 in electrical construction and maintenance. 490 00:28:03,990 --> 00:28:06,450 I'm a mechanic maintenance worker. 491 00:28:08,500 --> 00:28:12,960 Back then, I wanted to be around a whole bunch of noise. 492 00:28:14,670 --> 00:28:19,760 Where I'm like of middle age and I wanna relax. 493 00:28:20,050 --> 00:28:22,470 That's why I decided to move up here. 494 00:28:22,510 --> 00:28:27,600 ♪ Cool jazzy hip-hop ♪ 495 00:28:31,350 --> 00:28:33,190 ♪ Lights ♪ 496 00:28:33,230 --> 00:28:35,810 ♪ Camera, action... ♪ 497 00:28:35,860 --> 00:28:38,820 I stopped taking my hormone therapy when I moved out here, 498 00:28:38,860 --> 00:28:41,010 because they didn't have no service out here. 499 00:28:41,030 --> 00:28:44,610 This year is the year that they actually started that service. 500 00:28:45,740 --> 00:28:48,280 I take my injections once a week. 501 00:28:49,040 --> 00:28:49,870 I'm changing, Daniel! 502 00:28:49,910 --> 00:28:51,500 I'm getting little hairs. 503 00:28:51,540 --> 00:28:53,230 I'm starting to slim down, I've noticed. 504 00:28:53,250 --> 00:28:56,460 My face and stuff is starting to get a little bit masculine. 505 00:28:58,880 --> 00:29:01,880 I believe the reason why I didn't come out on the first 506 00:29:01,920 --> 00:29:05,680 documentary as me being a trans man is because of my family; 507 00:29:05,720 --> 00:29:08,510 I was so young when you was interviewing me and I was living 508 00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:12,060 with family, so I didn't wanna have that problem where I would 509 00:29:12,100 --> 00:29:14,310 have to be homeless... 510 00:29:15,020 --> 00:29:17,190 because of who I am. 511 00:29:18,610 --> 00:29:21,230 There's never a time where... Ever! 512 00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:24,700 That I ever felt like a woman. 513 00:29:25,910 --> 00:29:28,990 I never wanted to have breasts, never. 514 00:29:29,280 --> 00:29:32,910 I'm hunched, and my spine is starting to shift 515 00:29:32,950 --> 00:29:35,080 because they're so heavy. 516 00:29:35,120 --> 00:29:39,090 I heard about top surgery, but I didn't have the funds to... 517 00:29:39,130 --> 00:29:41,170 actually do that. 518 00:29:42,460 --> 00:29:45,380 I have to pay for that out of pocket. 519 00:29:48,430 --> 00:29:51,010 My whole life I had to deal with this, 520 00:29:51,220 --> 00:29:53,680 I want to get rid of them. 521 00:29:54,390 --> 00:29:57,440 Then I can actually be who I wanna be and who I need to be 522 00:29:57,480 --> 00:30:00,360 for myself, who I should be. 523 00:30:09,450 --> 00:30:14,540 ♪ Tense hopeful music ♪ 524 00:30:18,790 --> 00:30:20,610 I agreed to take Chin's case because, 525 00:30:20,630 --> 00:30:22,230 when I watched 'The Aggressives, ' 526 00:30:22,250 --> 00:30:25,470 I was able to connect to Chin on more of a human level, 527 00:30:25,510 --> 00:30:28,470 and I realized that Chin's experiences as a trans man were 528 00:30:28,510 --> 00:30:31,760 of historical significance to the LGBT community. 529 00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:35,100 I was moved to try to see a little bit of hope in 530 00:30:35,140 --> 00:30:38,100 his case, where other attorneys may have seen it as 531 00:30:38,140 --> 00:30:39,900 a done deal. 532 00:30:40,980 --> 00:30:43,270 He came here when he was nine years old 533 00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:44,980 with the rest of his family. 534 00:30:45,030 --> 00:30:47,900 They entered as legal permanent residents. 535 00:30:49,200 --> 00:30:51,950 When he was young, he was living as a lesbian. 536 00:30:52,660 --> 00:30:56,620 He was living with his grandmother and had a girl over. 537 00:30:56,910 --> 00:30:59,310 His grandma flipped out, put his stuff in trash bags, 538 00:30:59,330 --> 00:31:02,750 and put him and his belongings out on the curb. 539 00:31:03,250 --> 00:31:07,300 Then, he ends up joining thousands of other LGBT youth 540 00:31:07,340 --> 00:31:10,430 who were living homeless in New York City. 541 00:31:12,010 --> 00:31:16,310 Around this same time, he loses his ID and green card. 542 00:31:16,350 --> 00:31:19,640 Immigration confuses his with somebody else's, 543 00:31:19,690 --> 00:31:22,480 and he's not able to get it reissued. 544 00:31:43,250 --> 00:31:46,000 So he resorts to, some kind of survival: 545 00:31:46,050 --> 00:31:46,840 crime. 546 00:31:46,880 --> 00:31:50,380 There are various points where he's incarcerated in one state 547 00:31:50,430 --> 00:31:52,140 or another. 548 00:31:52,340 --> 00:31:55,180 That's why, in 2016, you know he's kind of... 549 00:31:55,220 --> 00:31:57,350 he got his life turned around. 550 00:32:13,610 --> 00:32:15,720 He has this employee that says, 551 00:32:15,740 --> 00:32:17,720 "I got this friend that works at the DMV, 552 00:32:17,740 --> 00:32:20,830 and she can get you an ID." 553 00:32:21,250 --> 00:32:24,540 So he ends up forging his own social security card, 554 00:32:24,580 --> 00:32:27,420 and she issues him the ID, 555 00:32:27,460 --> 00:32:29,260 And so for... 556 00:32:29,300 --> 00:32:32,090 about two months, actually, he's... 557 00:32:32,130 --> 00:32:32,680 doing great. 558 00:32:32,680 --> 00:32:34,410 For the first time in, 559 00:32:34,430 --> 00:32:37,060 20 years, he legally exists, 560 00:32:37,100 --> 00:32:39,270 he's on the books, he's paying taxes, 561 00:32:39,310 --> 00:32:41,060 he's happy. 562 00:32:42,100 --> 00:32:44,560 And then, early 2017, 563 00:32:44,600 --> 00:32:47,570 the Sheriff and ICE come knocking at the door. 564 00:32:47,610 --> 00:32:52,700 ♪ Tense ethereal music ♪ 565 00:33:00,290 --> 00:33:03,370 They've been holding him since. 566 00:33:03,660 --> 00:33:07,710 He's been in solitary for over a year now. 567 00:33:08,000 --> 00:33:11,760 This is simply because he's transgender, 568 00:33:11,800 --> 00:33:12,970 period. 569 00:33:15,970 --> 00:33:19,930 They're doing this to try to force him to give up his case 570 00:33:19,970 --> 00:33:22,560 and to self-deport. 571 00:33:23,810 --> 00:33:26,310 There's no way that that is constitutional. 572 00:33:57,010 --> 00:34:00,600 Art has been my life from the beginning of time. 573 00:34:01,140 --> 00:34:03,660 This is actually the first time in my life where I fell in love 574 00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:05,830 with a process that I feel like I can never fall 575 00:34:05,850 --> 00:34:07,980 out of love with. 576 00:34:08,150 --> 00:34:12,110 I always loved textures and working with my hands. 577 00:34:16,360 --> 00:34:19,950 The black takes nice into the wood. 578 00:34:25,250 --> 00:34:26,000 Sometimes I add paint, 579 00:34:26,040 --> 00:34:31,170 sometimes I wood-burn, sometimes I carve things into the images. 580 00:34:31,380 --> 00:34:34,300 There's spray paint on some of these. 581 00:34:37,550 --> 00:34:39,740 It seems like it's simple; it's not. 582 00:34:39,760 --> 00:34:43,010 It's super tedious, it's super sensitive, 583 00:34:43,060 --> 00:34:44,180 super... 584 00:34:44,220 --> 00:34:46,020 complicated. 585 00:34:46,060 --> 00:34:48,690 But I've learned to... to love it. 586 00:34:48,730 --> 00:34:52,520 ♪ Cool R&B music ♪ 587 00:34:52,570 --> 00:34:55,570 I call this series "A Gentleman Never Tells." 588 00:34:55,610 --> 00:35:00,490 It's a series of ex-lovers that I've had intimate moments with. 589 00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:04,410 The thing between two people learning each other 590 00:35:04,450 --> 00:35:06,080 is beautiful. 591 00:35:08,080 --> 00:35:09,730 I'm the gentleman that never tells, 592 00:35:09,750 --> 00:35:13,040 and that's why they're images that you don't see straight-up. 593 00:35:13,420 --> 00:35:17,510 My art allows me to savor these moments. 594 00:35:17,800 --> 00:35:22,050 It allows me to also move on a little easier if... if it's not 595 00:35:22,090 --> 00:35:24,350 the greatest break-up. 596 00:35:26,140 --> 00:35:27,730 I used to get hurt a lot. 597 00:35:27,770 --> 00:35:30,230 I used to fall in love a lot. 598 00:35:30,270 --> 00:35:32,230 Because I love beautiful women! 599 00:35:32,270 --> 00:35:35,230 And that's how I ended up making this art! 600 00:35:35,610 --> 00:35:39,240 I would love to be in a relationship and settle down. 601 00:35:39,280 --> 00:35:41,800 Actually, I would prefer be in a foreign country somewhere in 602 00:35:41,820 --> 00:35:45,410 love with a complete stranger, but I wouldn't mind being 603 00:35:45,450 --> 00:35:48,450 committed, and I wouldn't mind falling in love, 604 00:35:48,500 --> 00:35:50,600 and I wouldn't mind it being temporary either, 605 00:35:50,620 --> 00:35:52,920 because the temporary moments, 606 00:35:52,960 --> 00:35:55,800 is what gives life to this work. 607 00:36:00,630 --> 00:36:03,120 Art has always been my first love... my mother will tell you 608 00:36:03,140 --> 00:36:04,760 since a child. 609 00:36:05,140 --> 00:36:07,890 I feel like my art is for everyone. 610 00:36:08,980 --> 00:36:11,940 I socialize with all types of people. 611 00:36:12,810 --> 00:36:15,270 I travel with an open heart. 612 00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:18,730 I could learn something from everyone. 613 00:36:20,360 --> 00:36:24,570 By sharing your story, that's how you bring people together. 614 00:36:27,660 --> 00:36:31,000 I like to go to where the party is, 615 00:36:31,040 --> 00:36:35,580 and I like to come home in quiet and peace. 616 00:36:37,170 --> 00:36:41,630 I've grown to appreciate my solo time more; 617 00:36:41,670 --> 00:36:43,470 I do. 618 00:36:47,180 --> 00:36:51,310 I wanna create art, love, be loved, 619 00:36:51,350 --> 00:36:55,150 take care of my animals, take care of my family, 620 00:36:55,190 --> 00:36:57,770 share my life with the world. 621 00:36:58,860 --> 00:37:00,940 The hell?! 622 00:37:09,870 --> 00:37:13,830 When my mom died, my aunt was my second mother. 623 00:37:16,540 --> 00:37:17,840 She did take me in. 624 00:37:17,880 --> 00:37:19,670 She changed my life a lot. 625 00:37:19,960 --> 00:37:21,340 My name is Greta Allen. 626 00:37:21,380 --> 00:37:24,720 I'm a 76-year-old young lady. 627 00:37:24,760 --> 00:37:26,390 How you like that one? 628 00:37:26,430 --> 00:37:27,010 You're my aunt! 629 00:37:27,050 --> 00:37:31,560 My... I'm Tr... Trevon's mother's sister. 630 00:37:31,600 --> 00:37:33,980 She was the greatest. 631 00:37:34,770 --> 00:37:37,020 This is my mom. 632 00:37:37,060 --> 00:37:40,360 My mom passed away when I was 13. 633 00:37:40,650 --> 00:37:42,210 She was going with this guy, 634 00:37:42,230 --> 00:37:44,400 and he had the virus, 635 00:37:44,450 --> 00:37:46,820 and she didn't know it. 636 00:37:46,910 --> 00:37:49,870 AIDS, that's how she passed. 637 00:37:49,910 --> 00:37:52,220 I wanted it to be in a spot where everybody could see 638 00:37:52,240 --> 00:37:54,000 my mom. 639 00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,380 When his mother passed, 640 00:37:57,420 --> 00:37:59,540 I was right there for him. 641 00:37:59,590 --> 00:38:00,900 We used to do a lot of things together: 642 00:38:00,920 --> 00:38:02,900 play together, play basketball together, 643 00:38:02,920 --> 00:38:04,420 you k different things. 644 00:38:04,470 --> 00:38:06,050 But we was always together. 645 00:38:06,090 --> 00:38:08,220 When Trevon was young, 646 00:38:08,260 --> 00:38:11,100 She always told me, she says, "I wanna be like you one day." 647 00:38:11,140 --> 00:38:12,910 I never knew what she was talking about. 648 00:38:12,930 --> 00:38:14,390 What he was talking about. 649 00:38:16,600 --> 00:38:20,360 I loved it, because we could relate! 650 00:38:22,440 --> 00:38:25,860 Me and my wife, we've been together for 21 years. 651 00:38:26,150 --> 00:38:28,910 Never broke up, I never cheated on her, 652 00:38:28,950 --> 00:38:30,740 and I love her to death. 653 00:38:30,780 --> 00:38:34,080 Love is a very important thing 654 00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:38,620 And I'm proud of who I am, even though I'm gay as hell. 655 00:38:38,670 --> 00:38:39,770 I don't care what people think. 656 00:38:39,790 --> 00:38:40,940 You think I care what people think?! 657 00:38:40,960 --> 00:38:42,630 Hell fuck... Excuse me. 658 00:38:42,670 --> 00:38:44,920 Hell no, I don't. 659 00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:46,610 Now you know where it comes from. 660 00:38:51,140 --> 00:38:54,270 ♪ Pensive hip-hop instrumental ♪ 661 00:38:54,310 --> 00:38:55,790 Uncle Purcell.- .. 662 00:38:55,810 --> 00:38:58,170 - That's... - That's Grandpa on the end. 663 00:38:58,190 --> 00:38:59,650 I k and that's you. 664 00:39:00,520 --> 00:39:02,270 And who's this? 665 00:39:02,310 --> 00:39:03,940 Because you my great-grandmother. 666 00:39:05,360 --> 00:39:07,470 - Take it up! - Yes, Grandma. 667 00:39:07,490 --> 00:39:10,450 That's Daddy's, father. 668 00:39:10,490 --> 00:39:11,640 Grandpa! 669 00:39:11,660 --> 00:39:13,850 That's my great-great-great-grandfather. 670 00:39:13,870 --> 00:39:16,620 And these all my grandchildren. 671 00:39:16,660 --> 00:39:18,310 I'm my mother's only child 672 00:39:18,330 --> 00:39:20,500 Once... once I go, that's it! 673 00:39:20,540 --> 00:39:22,170 There's no legacy 674 00:39:22,210 --> 00:39:25,130 I feel like I need children. 675 00:39:25,170 --> 00:39:26,960 This is my grandma, 676 00:39:27,010 --> 00:39:29,430 That's my dad. 677 00:39:30,220 --> 00:39:32,600 And this is my pops. 678 00:39:32,890 --> 00:39:35,680 I don't know if I got too much to say about him. 679 00:39:35,720 --> 00:39:38,930 My grandma sent it to me when he passed away. 680 00:39:39,560 --> 00:39:42,810 To me, legacy means bloodline. 681 00:39:44,190 --> 00:39:46,340 During your transition, especially if you want more 682 00:39:46,360 --> 00:39:47,990 masculine features, 683 00:39:48,030 --> 00:39:50,010 you wanna take hormones, of course. 684 00:39:50,030 --> 00:39:52,050 I was taking hormones for a short period of time, 685 00:39:52,070 --> 00:39:55,620 we decided to have children. 686 00:39:55,740 --> 00:39:57,660 It had to be soon. 687 00:39:58,040 --> 00:40:02,330 When going to my GYN one day, she told me that she found, 688 00:40:02,370 --> 00:40:05,340 a stage of cervical cancer, 689 00:40:05,380 --> 00:40:09,300 and that I should get a hysterectomy. 690 00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:13,510 I've been a little taken back by that, 691 00:40:13,550 --> 00:40:16,010 only because my main purpose in life, I felt 692 00:40:16,060 --> 00:40:18,180 was to have a family. 693 00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:23,350 I told myself that I'm not gonna take any hormones until 694 00:40:23,400 --> 00:40:27,650 we can get the money up and I at least freeze my eggs. 695 00:40:28,070 --> 00:40:30,650 Taking the hormones, no kids. 696 00:40:31,610 --> 00:40:34,490 I pray on it for healing. 697 00:40:37,580 --> 00:40:38,890 - Free! - Chin! 698 00:40:38,910 --> 00:40:40,180 - Free! - Chin! 699 00:40:40,200 --> 00:40:41,440 - Free! - Chin! 700 00:40:41,460 --> 00:40:42,730 - Free! - Chin! 701 00:40:42,750 --> 00:40:44,060 - Free! - Chin! 702 00:40:44,080 --> 00:40:44,670 - Free! - Chin! 703 00:40:44,710 --> 00:40:45,290 - Free! - Chin! 704 00:40:45,330 --> 00:40:47,840 - Free! - Chin! 705 00:40:47,880 --> 00:40:48,550 - Free! - Chin! 706 00:40:48,590 --> 00:40:51,050 My brother is Chin. 707 00:40:51,090 --> 00:40:53,590 He's been locked up for the last 15 months, 708 00:40:53,630 --> 00:40:56,050 and it's inhumane. 709 00:40:56,100 --> 00:40:57,890 It's not right. 710 00:40:57,930 --> 00:41:02,270 We have to free Chin, because we sure miss him a lot. 711 00:41:02,350 --> 00:41:04,940 Because Chin is trans, 712 00:41:04,980 --> 00:41:07,900 ICE doesn't know what to do with him! 713 00:41:07,940 --> 00:41:11,610 So they have placed him in solitary confinement! 714 00:41:11,650 --> 00:41:15,740 It's a form of torture under human rights conventions! 715 00:41:15,780 --> 00:41:17,740 We must free Chin now! 716 00:41:17,780 --> 00:41:19,410 Free Chin now! 717 00:41:19,450 --> 00:41:21,370 Free Chin now! 718 00:41:22,790 --> 00:41:24,420 This is so hard. 719 00:41:24,460 --> 00:41:26,710 Chin met the wrong people. 720 00:41:26,830 --> 00:41:28,710 It's sad. 721 00:41:31,130 --> 00:41:33,920 All he did was credit card thief. 722 00:41:33,970 --> 00:41:36,970 It's not like a... a crime that he's killing somebody! 723 00:41:37,010 --> 00:41:38,260 He did his time! 724 00:41:38,300 --> 00:41:39,950 He did his time! 725 00:41:39,970 --> 00:41:41,450 He doesn't need to be locked up, 726 00:41:41,470 --> 00:41:45,270 and then for have Immigration to put you in isolation? 727 00:41:45,310 --> 00:41:47,610 It's like putting my child in a closet! 728 00:41:47,650 --> 00:41:48,940 No ice for Chin?! 729 00:41:48,980 --> 00:41:50,270 No peace for ICE! 730 00:41:50,320 --> 00:41:51,030 We shut this down! 731 00:41:51,070 --> 00:41:53,610 - Who shut this down?! - We shut this down! 732 00:41:53,650 --> 00:41:55,970 - Who shut this down?! - We shut this down! 733 00:41:55,990 --> 00:41:58,140 - Who shut this down?! - We shut this down! 734 00:41:58,160 --> 00:42:01,410 - Who shut this down?! - We shut this down! 735 00:42:11,170 --> 00:42:13,150 My name's Tyquan Sanders. 736 00:42:13,170 --> 00:42:15,300 I'm Octavia's son. 737 00:42:17,010 --> 00:42:20,430 I kinda started to get to know Octavia. 738 00:42:21,140 --> 00:42:25,850 What made me do the top surgery now versus then 739 00:42:25,890 --> 00:42:28,310 is because of my son. 740 00:42:28,350 --> 00:42:31,270 I didn't know how he was gonna feel about that. 741 00:42:31,480 --> 00:42:35,320 I was wondering if... 742 00:42:35,360 --> 00:42:37,820 she was gonna actually transition... 743 00:42:37,860 --> 00:42:38,990 or not. 744 00:42:39,030 --> 00:42:41,620 She mentioned it to me one day. 745 00:42:41,700 --> 00:42:44,500 "This month, I'm actually gonna be doing surgery 746 00:42:44,540 --> 00:42:45,660 to get rid of this." 747 00:42:45,700 --> 00:42:48,000 Kind of did, hand signs or whatever. 748 00:42:48,040 --> 00:42:49,500 And... 749 00:42:49,540 --> 00:42:51,630 I was "Okay, that's nice!" 750 00:42:52,710 --> 00:42:55,170 I'm happy for my mom. 751 00:42:56,760 --> 00:42:59,010 He's very supportive of me. 752 00:42:59,050 --> 00:43:01,050 ♪ Hopeful ethereal music ♪ 753 00:43:02,890 --> 00:43:04,700 I can't wait to be sleeping, 754 00:43:04,720 --> 00:43:06,560 and then wake up and... 755 00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:09,850 don't have to feel this on my damn... damn near my damn stomach 756 00:43:09,900 --> 00:43:11,190 anymore. 757 00:43:14,070 --> 00:43:16,050 I've always been top-heavy, 758 00:43:16,070 --> 00:43:19,700 and always had, a complex behind that, 759 00:43:19,740 --> 00:43:22,910 because I don't feel like a woman. 760 00:43:25,240 --> 00:43:26,930 My best friend is my fiancée; 761 00:43:26,950 --> 00:43:29,830 everything we do, we do together. 762 00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:33,540 The thing is with her is she's into feminine women. 763 00:43:34,040 --> 00:43:36,030 How we got together, Daniel, 764 00:43:36,050 --> 00:43:38,400 I don't k because... you see... there's nothing feminine 765 00:43:38,420 --> 00:43:40,050 about me. 766 00:43:40,090 --> 00:43:43,430 If you truly love a person, I don't think that that will stop 767 00:43:43,470 --> 00:43:45,560 your relationship. 768 00:43:46,310 --> 00:43:49,390 We're gonna start giving you some relaxation medication, 769 00:43:49,440 --> 00:43:51,730 so why don't you say bye. 770 00:43:54,270 --> 00:43:56,020 Love you! 771 00:44:16,300 --> 00:44:21,380 ♪ Tender ethereal music ♪ 772 00:44:26,310 --> 00:44:28,620 how many years we know each other? 773 00:44:28,640 --> 00:44:29,980 How long, Daniel? 774 00:44:30,520 --> 00:44:32,330 Say it right please? 775 00:44:32,350 --> 00:44:33,810 Daniel... 776 00:44:33,850 --> 00:44:34,770 a little. 777 00:44:34,810 --> 00:44:36,480 Soundbites. 778 00:44:36,520 --> 00:44:38,980 What do you want me to talk about now? 779 00:44:41,530 --> 00:44:43,570 What should we talk about? 780 00:44:45,490 --> 00:44:48,240 I've been incarcerated for three years now. 781 00:44:48,660 --> 00:44:53,460 In that solitary confinement, I wanted to kill myself, 782 00:44:53,500 --> 00:44:55,130 because I was gonna... 783 00:44:55,170 --> 00:44:57,290 I didn't know what to do. 784 00:44:57,340 --> 00:45:01,170 When they put this in facility out here in Texas, 785 00:45:01,220 --> 00:45:02,970 they treat me better. 786 00:45:03,010 --> 00:45:07,430 I want people to know the life that I went through as a... 787 00:45:08,220 --> 00:45:10,100 immigrant. 788 00:45:10,430 --> 00:45:12,350 I have three strikes, okay? 789 00:45:12,390 --> 00:45:14,650 One, Asian; 790 00:45:14,690 --> 00:45:18,480 two, I'm a transgender male; 791 00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:22,110 and three, I have a criminal background. 792 00:45:22,740 --> 00:45:25,820 In 'The Aggressives, ' I never spoke about my personal 793 00:45:25,860 --> 00:45:27,280 life. 794 00:45:27,990 --> 00:45:32,500 Me and my sister, we raised our own selves. 795 00:45:35,370 --> 00:45:39,710 We grew up not a typical Asian family. 796 00:45:39,750 --> 00:45:42,340 Our parents separated when we was young. 797 00:45:42,380 --> 00:45:44,360 We was all at home, and my mom said, 798 00:45:44,380 --> 00:45:45,820 I'm gonna run out real quick; 799 00:45:45,840 --> 00:45:49,180 I'm gonna go get something," and she never came back. 800 00:45:49,560 --> 00:45:52,520 Our dad was left to raise three kids on his own with his 801 00:45:52,560 --> 00:45:54,180 mother's help. 802 00:45:56,400 --> 00:45:59,190 My grandmother, she used to say bad things to me, 803 00:45:59,230 --> 00:46:03,190 you could say, and kinda made my self-esteem low, 804 00:46:03,240 --> 00:46:05,530 made me feel ugly, and... 805 00:46:07,070 --> 00:46:10,030 I didn't look... 806 00:46:10,080 --> 00:46:12,540 like the granddaughter she want... 807 00:46:12,580 --> 00:46:17,040 feminine, pretty, playing piano, stuff like that. 808 00:46:17,330 --> 00:46:19,330 I was different. 809 00:46:19,540 --> 00:46:23,050 Chin turned to the street because he felt unloved. 810 00:46:23,090 --> 00:46:26,380 He didn't have the support system that he wanted, 811 00:46:26,430 --> 00:46:30,850 where to be loved, to be accepted for what he is. 812 00:46:30,930 --> 00:46:32,910 Him being on the street was hard. 813 00:46:32,930 --> 00:46:35,570 No one can ever say what you would do when you don't have a 814 00:46:35,600 --> 00:46:37,230 place to lay your head, 815 00:46:37,270 --> 00:46:39,730 don't have clothes, don't have food. 816 00:46:39,770 --> 00:46:43,570 And Chin got caught up in the wrong crowd of people. 817 00:46:43,610 --> 00:46:45,740 That could be any of us. 818 00:46:45,780 --> 00:46:47,860 Chin served his time. 819 00:46:48,950 --> 00:46:51,120 What happened to second chances? 820 00:46:51,160 --> 00:46:54,950 What happened to, how the ice system is supposed 821 00:46:55,000 --> 00:46:57,040 to actually work? 822 00:46:59,170 --> 00:47:00,980 Chin ended up in this situation... 823 00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:02,980 Stuck in immigration detention... 824 00:47:03,000 --> 00:47:07,380 Because, initially, of a mistake made by the US government. 825 00:47:07,590 --> 00:47:11,800 Unfortunately, he ended up in a situation where he was coerced 826 00:47:11,850 --> 00:47:13,790 to engage in some illegal activity. 827 00:47:13,810 --> 00:47:15,620 That's called "human trafficking." 828 00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:17,460 Trafficking victims are not supposed to be held in 829 00:47:17,480 --> 00:47:18,060 detention; 830 00:47:18,100 --> 00:47:21,480 it's in the Trafficking Victims Protection Act! 831 00:47:21,520 --> 00:47:24,440 They know his convictions are tied to trafficking. 832 00:47:24,480 --> 00:47:27,110 The reason he was vulnerable in the first place was because of 833 00:47:27,150 --> 00:47:29,150 Immigration's own mistake! 834 00:47:29,200 --> 00:47:32,240 I want to win my case and stay... 835 00:47:33,700 --> 00:47:35,620 in America. 836 00:47:35,660 --> 00:47:37,020 I have to take care of my father, 837 00:47:37,040 --> 00:47:38,620 no matter what. 838 00:47:38,660 --> 00:47:40,420 I'm his first child. 839 00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:50,130 I get asked a lot why Chin is being targeted to be 840 00:47:50,180 --> 00:47:51,800 held in detention like this. 841 00:47:51,840 --> 00:47:53,300 "Is it because he's transgender? 842 00:47:53,350 --> 00:47:55,310 Is it because he's Asian?" 843 00:47:55,680 --> 00:47:59,940 I actually do think it's because he's transgender. 844 00:48:00,230 --> 00:48:03,690 What happens now is we continue to fight. 845 00:48:03,730 --> 00:48:05,840 There's one thing my attorney said to me; 846 00:48:05,860 --> 00:48:06,980 she said... 847 00:48:07,030 --> 00:48:10,150 she's gonna fight for me until... 848 00:48:10,200 --> 00:48:14,120 her hands... I mean her hands against the wall. 849 00:48:15,240 --> 00:48:16,490 That's... 850 00:48:16,540 --> 00:48:18,200 that's real. 851 00:48:31,050 --> 00:48:33,300 I never liked New York. 852 00:48:33,590 --> 00:48:36,470 New York's never been my thing. 853 00:48:37,890 --> 00:48:41,690 Most people, that are born here 854 00:48:41,730 --> 00:48:43,230 fight to get out, 855 00:48:43,270 --> 00:48:46,820 and most people that aren't from here fight to get in. 856 00:48:55,910 --> 00:48:57,580 Eight long years. 857 00:48:58,910 --> 00:49:01,830 Never thought I would be with somebody this long. 858 00:49:05,130 --> 00:49:07,880 We decided to come back because 859 00:49:07,920 --> 00:49:09,900 it was too far from the family, 860 00:49:09,920 --> 00:49:12,550 and then Jade has to get surgery. 861 00:49:12,590 --> 00:49:16,680 I do too, but overall, Jade's surgery is set first. 862 00:49:20,270 --> 00:49:23,390 I have to remove my butt implants and my silicone 863 00:49:23,440 --> 00:49:25,060 injections. 864 00:49:25,350 --> 00:49:29,520 My doctor said it's gonna start becoming a health issue for me. 865 00:49:29,940 --> 00:49:32,740 I was in the dancing industry, and, 866 00:49:32,780 --> 00:49:35,740 looking at the other girls and the money they was making, 867 00:49:35,780 --> 00:49:40,200 and, me being small... and I was only 18. 868 00:49:42,290 --> 00:49:45,920 If I could change something, I would have never got it. 869 00:49:48,790 --> 00:49:49,750 Since I've been back, 870 00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:51,880 I haven't been to the doctor. 871 00:49:52,090 --> 00:49:54,470 When I tried to call a clinic to, 872 00:49:54,510 --> 00:49:58,260 start talking about the hysterectomy process, 873 00:49:58,300 --> 00:50:00,260 it was bad. 874 00:50:00,310 --> 00:50:01,950 The phone call went like this: 875 00:50:01,970 --> 00:50:04,310 "Are you calling the right clinic, sir?" 876 00:50:04,350 --> 00:50:06,120 "Yes, I'm calling the right clinic." 877 00:50:06,140 --> 00:50:08,810 "You calling to make an appointment for your wife, sir?" 878 00:50:08,860 --> 00:50:09,480 "No. 879 00:50:09,520 --> 00:50:12,110 I'm calling to make an appointment for myself." 880 00:50:12,150 --> 00:50:13,610 So then I explain: 881 00:50:13,650 --> 00:50:14,400 "I'm trans, 882 00:50:14,400 --> 00:50:17,450 my doctor thinks it's best that I get a hysterectomy." 883 00:50:17,490 --> 00:50:19,120 "Okay, miss." 884 00:50:19,160 --> 00:50:21,310 "No, I told you that I'm trans." 885 00:50:21,330 --> 00:50:23,910 I never went with them. 886 00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:27,080 I don't know what's going on with me. 887 00:50:28,040 --> 00:50:29,290 Once settled in the apartment, 888 00:50:29,330 --> 00:50:32,630 I plan on taking all the necessary steps. 889 00:50:33,550 --> 00:50:36,630 As a trans guy, it's hard. 890 00:50:53,020 --> 00:50:54,610 Come up! 891 00:50:56,570 --> 00:50:58,110 Come here! 892 00:51:01,030 --> 00:51:02,490 You filming right now?! 893 00:51:08,420 --> 00:51:11,330 I feel like somebody done, pulled the carpet from under my 894 00:51:11,380 --> 00:51:13,300 feet, like... 895 00:51:13,380 --> 00:51:15,840 because it happened so sudden. 896 00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:18,240 I feel lost and confused. 897 00:51:18,260 --> 00:51:20,340 ♪ Melancholy music ♪ 898 00:51:20,390 --> 00:51:22,890 I'm preparing for my mom's memorial, 899 00:51:22,930 --> 00:51:24,510 and I'm getting... 900 00:51:24,560 --> 00:51:29,640 all my mom's images together so we could do a slideshow. 901 00:51:30,060 --> 00:51:34,230 She had been fighting bladder cancer. 902 00:51:34,270 --> 00:51:35,820 She had a stroke. 903 00:51:35,860 --> 00:51:38,050 And, we rushed her to the hospital, 904 00:51:42,240 --> 00:51:45,870 This is her when she was pregnant with me in the '70s. 905 00:51:46,290 --> 00:51:49,370 And this is her famous fur coat. 906 00:51:49,580 --> 00:51:52,380 And this is all of us together... 907 00:51:52,420 --> 00:51:55,170 My and all my siblings with my mom. 908 00:51:56,800 --> 00:51:59,880 She was so sassy when she was young! 909 00:51:59,930 --> 00:52:02,180 We look alike. 910 00:52:03,260 --> 00:52:05,680 These are her memories. 911 00:52:07,600 --> 00:52:09,580 The fact that it was sudden, 912 00:52:09,600 --> 00:52:11,520 it wasn't... 913 00:52:13,610 --> 00:52:16,400 it wasn't expected. 914 00:52:23,320 --> 00:52:25,700 I... 915 00:52:25,990 --> 00:52:29,410 I put myself on timeout for a bit. 916 00:52:43,800 --> 00:52:46,470 You think that there's more time and... 917 00:52:46,510 --> 00:52:48,810 you never know? 918 00:52:48,850 --> 00:52:49,430 And... 919 00:52:49,470 --> 00:52:51,770 that's the thing with that, with life, 920 00:52:51,810 --> 00:52:53,100 it's like... 921 00:52:53,140 --> 00:52:55,900 you don't know. 922 00:52:57,690 --> 00:53:00,320 Sometimes I feel sad, but sometimes I feel extremely, 923 00:53:01,860 --> 00:53:03,740 powerful. 924 00:53:04,860 --> 00:53:07,580 Because I feel like she's with me 925 00:53:09,490 --> 00:53:12,250 And I know that she's proud. 926 00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:17,790 It's beautiful. 927 00:53:28,430 --> 00:53:31,600 I'm carrying the torch of my family now. 928 00:53:32,230 --> 00:53:35,690 It wasn't 'til I became adult that I realized she took 929 00:53:35,730 --> 00:53:37,170 the time to get to know me. 930 00:53:37,190 --> 00:53:39,320 She's dragging me to the park. 931 00:53:39,360 --> 00:53:41,010 That made me become more and more 932 00:53:41,030 --> 00:53:43,110 appreciative of her. 933 00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:47,160 And it showed me that she accepted me for who I was. 934 00:53:47,320 --> 00:53:49,490 That made our bond stronger. 935 00:53:49,530 --> 00:53:50,790 Come here! 936 00:53:55,210 --> 00:53:56,860 This feeling I'm feeling right 937 00:53:56,880 --> 00:53:58,960 it's temporary. 938 00:53:59,040 --> 00:54:00,960 That, I know. 939 00:54:03,720 --> 00:54:07,800 It takes time to get to a place of healing. 940 00:54:24,110 --> 00:54:27,490 I am so excited to be here. 941 00:54:28,950 --> 00:54:31,700 It's a culmination of a lot of work for a lot of people. 942 00:54:31,740 --> 00:54:34,370 There have been a lot of people who got us here today, 943 00:54:34,410 --> 00:54:36,870 and I can't wait to see Chin. 944 00:54:42,920 --> 00:54:44,380 Hi! 945 00:54:44,420 --> 00:54:46,220 You look great! 946 00:54:47,260 --> 00:54:48,390 Hey, Daniel! 947 00:54:48,430 --> 00:54:49,890 Gimme a hug! 948 00:54:49,930 --> 00:54:53,260 Can you believe I'm standing here talking to you?! 949 00:54:53,310 --> 00:54:54,600 And Lynly! 950 00:54:54,640 --> 00:54:56,730 - My God! - And Mr. Bailey! 951 00:54:56,770 --> 00:54:58,250 - Yes! - We won! 952 00:54:58,270 --> 00:55:00,090 All my legal documents and stuff. 953 00:55:00,110 --> 00:55:01,560 For two years! 954 00:55:01,610 --> 00:55:02,400 How do you feel? 955 00:55:02,440 --> 00:55:05,240 Excited... 956 00:55:05,280 --> 00:55:07,780 ready for my new journey. 957 00:55:07,820 --> 00:55:12,910 ♪ Uplifting emotional music ♪ 958 00:55:19,460 --> 00:55:21,610 I got the call, and I was 959 00:55:21,630 --> 00:55:23,250 "What?!" 960 00:55:23,420 --> 00:55:25,420 Lynly was not giving up. 961 00:55:25,460 --> 00:55:27,280 No, not. 962 00:55:27,300 --> 00:55:29,780 Okay, Chin, what's the first thing you're gonna do? 963 00:55:29,800 --> 00:55:31,800 Eat some good food. 964 00:55:31,850 --> 00:55:33,690 Take a bath. 965 00:55:35,140 --> 00:55:36,330 - Thank you. - Welcome home. 966 00:55:36,350 --> 00:55:38,560 Thank you, thank you. 967 00:55:39,640 --> 00:55:41,100 Daniel, you okay? 968 00:55:42,440 --> 00:55:42,940 - Thank you, Daniel! - I love you! 969 00:55:42,980 --> 00:55:45,000 I love you too! I'll call you tomorrow! 970 00:55:45,020 --> 00:55:46,780 Enjoy your night! 971 00:56:11,010 --> 00:56:14,100 It's a year and change later. 972 00:56:14,300 --> 00:56:15,870 Words can't even sum up how I feel; 973 00:56:15,890 --> 00:56:19,430 that's how excited I am about myself right now. 974 00:56:20,850 --> 00:56:22,830 Most of the time, it didn't hurt. 975 00:56:22,850 --> 00:56:25,190 I wasn't in, pain or anything like that. 976 00:56:25,230 --> 00:56:27,110 It was itchy. 977 00:56:27,730 --> 00:56:30,210 Seriously, if anybody wants to do something like that, 978 00:56:30,240 --> 00:56:32,990 that's the best investment you can do for 979 00:56:33,030 --> 00:56:34,620 yourself. 980 00:56:36,530 --> 00:56:38,180 I'm not with that woman anymore; 981 00:56:38,200 --> 00:56:41,660 we was..., we was together, we're not together. 982 00:56:44,040 --> 00:56:45,570 Did the surgery have anything to do with the 983 00:56:45,590 --> 00:56:47,000 break-up? 984 00:56:47,050 --> 00:56:49,630 No, that didn't have nothin' to do with the break-up. 985 00:56:50,380 --> 00:56:54,340 But right I don't think I want no committed relationship, 986 00:56:54,390 --> 00:56:55,050 no. 987 00:56:55,050 --> 00:56:57,560 Sometimes, when you get out of a long relationship, 988 00:56:57,600 --> 00:57:01,180 seriously, you need to have time to... 989 00:57:01,230 --> 00:57:03,850 heal yourself, you get what I'm saying? 990 00:57:04,350 --> 00:57:08,530 Regardless of what changes I go through in life, 991 00:57:08,570 --> 00:57:13,240 for me, I'm still... I was still born a woman, 992 00:57:13,280 --> 00:57:13,950 you get what I'm saying? 993 00:57:13,950 --> 00:57:16,910 So I can relate to them a little bit more than, 994 00:57:16,950 --> 00:57:18,990 the average guy. 995 00:57:19,910 --> 00:57:25,000 ♪ Uplifting ambient music ♪ 996 00:57:29,960 --> 00:57:33,050 I'm still the same person; that doesn't change you, 997 00:57:33,090 --> 00:57:34,590 you get what I'm saying? 998 00:57:36,590 --> 00:57:38,580 You change your appearance, 999 00:57:38,600 --> 00:57:40,410 It's doesn't change you, your inner soul, 1000 00:57:40,430 --> 00:57:42,520 like your inner self. 1001 00:57:45,440 --> 00:57:47,230 I'm still the same person. 1002 00:58:19,100 --> 00:58:21,160 I'm a relationship person; 1003 00:58:21,180 --> 00:58:23,310 that's what I do. 1004 00:58:23,350 --> 00:58:26,390 My end goal is a family, marriage, kids. 1005 00:58:27,810 --> 00:58:30,150 Jade is not gonna have one, 1006 00:58:30,190 --> 00:58:32,280 going through reconstruction 1007 00:58:32,320 --> 00:58:34,900 and having to get everything fixed up. 1008 00:58:38,030 --> 00:58:40,830 I put your tea bag in at... 1009 00:58:40,870 --> 00:58:44,290 I guess 8:20, so 8:35, you gotta come up. 1010 00:58:44,330 --> 00:58:46,410 I'ma run to the store. 1011 00:58:47,540 --> 00:58:49,150 I'm going to grab these eggs. 1012 00:58:49,170 --> 00:58:50,130 Okay. 1013 00:58:50,170 --> 00:58:51,820 Can you make the sausage patties? 1014 00:58:52,550 --> 00:58:54,750 Because I'm assuming you're gonna get up when we leave. 1015 00:58:58,640 --> 00:59:03,140 We're back in Palms because Jade had her surgery on her 1016 00:59:03,180 --> 00:59:06,140 butt, she got it removed, so overall, 1017 00:59:06,180 --> 00:59:08,850 she doesn't wanna be in New York 1018 00:59:08,900 --> 00:59:11,690 with her appearance, I guess, being like that. 1019 00:59:11,730 --> 00:59:15,280 But for me, I prefer it here. 1020 00:59:15,780 --> 00:59:18,820 Hopefully, we can be bi-costal and be snowbirds, 1021 00:59:18,860 --> 00:59:21,620 and, go back and forth. 1022 00:59:24,370 --> 00:59:27,500 I've been coming back and forth to Palms... 1023 00:59:27,540 --> 00:59:29,790 kinda since I met Jade. 1024 00:59:33,210 --> 00:59:36,050 We made a trip out here about seven years ago 1025 00:59:36,090 --> 00:59:36,840 and we loved it. 1026 00:59:36,880 --> 00:59:39,840 We thought it wasn't affordable because of how beautiful it was, 1027 00:59:39,880 --> 00:59:42,800 shockingly, it was affordable. 1028 00:59:43,100 --> 00:59:44,910 That was it, babe, 1029 00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:50,350 Don't film my butt, please. 1030 00:59:50,400 --> 00:59:53,400 My butt is flat and I'm very self-conscious about it. 1031 00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:57,030 Going on, social media, when you see certain girls 1032 00:59:57,070 --> 00:59:59,700 looking a certain way, you start feeling self-conscious. 1033 00:59:59,740 --> 01:00:03,160 You start finding little things wrong with you. 1034 01:00:03,660 --> 01:00:07,200 I do think that I have body dysmorphia. 1035 01:00:07,910 --> 01:00:10,080 I never liked my nose. 1036 01:00:10,120 --> 01:00:12,880 Last year, I went and did my whole face; 1037 01:00:12,920 --> 01:00:14,880 I went to Istanbul, Turkey. 1038 01:00:14,920 --> 01:00:17,550 I did cat eyes, I did a cheek lift, 1039 01:00:17,590 --> 01:00:22,550 a lip lift, a rhinoplasty, and I did fat fillers to my chin. 1040 01:00:22,590 --> 01:00:24,410 And I also did a hair transplant, 1041 01:00:24,430 --> 01:00:26,220 to my eyebrows. 1042 01:00:26,720 --> 01:00:29,890 I looked so different, he made me feel 1043 01:00:29,930 --> 01:00:32,730 a little like he didn't like it. 1044 01:00:32,770 --> 01:00:34,920 He was "Where's my Pippi"... he calls me "Pippi," 1045 01:00:34,940 --> 01:00:37,090 so he's "Where's my Pippi face?" 1046 01:00:37,110 --> 01:00:39,240 I discouraged Jade to get surgery. 1047 01:00:39,280 --> 01:00:41,430 That she's perfect the way she is. 1048 01:00:41,450 --> 01:00:43,260 I don't think Jade needs surgery. 1049 01:00:43,280 --> 01:00:47,030 It's not about him, it's about how I feel about myself. 1050 01:00:47,240 --> 01:00:48,770 How many sausage you want? 1051 01:00:48,790 --> 01:00:49,910 Four! 1052 01:00:49,950 --> 01:00:52,210 My baby puts it down! 1053 01:00:52,830 --> 01:00:56,750 Being with Jade taught me to appreciate... 1054 01:00:56,790 --> 01:00:59,130 my body in a different way. 1055 01:00:59,170 --> 01:01:02,800 When I look in the mirror, I'm okay with what I see. 1056 01:01:02,840 --> 01:01:04,260 They're, so small. 1057 01:01:04,300 --> 01:01:05,460 I shoulda made more of these. 1058 01:01:06,800 --> 01:01:09,470 I went to the doctor and, 1059 01:01:09,520 --> 01:01:13,600 thank God, I was able to find out that I don't have 1060 01:01:13,640 --> 01:01:17,570 cervic cancer, I had some abnormal cells. 1061 01:01:18,980 --> 01:01:20,570 One more! 1062 01:01:20,650 --> 01:01:22,430 For a lot of trans men, 1063 01:01:22,450 --> 01:01:26,120 it can be triggering to go to things like the OB-GYN because 1064 01:01:26,160 --> 01:01:28,790 you have to deal with your feminine parts. 1065 01:01:29,200 --> 01:01:32,960 It's uncomfortable to go to a woman's clinic as a man 1066 01:01:33,000 --> 01:01:35,120 and need services. 1067 01:01:37,040 --> 01:01:40,800 To be honest, I avoid healthcare because it triggers an emotion 1068 01:01:40,840 --> 01:01:42,300 for me, 1069 01:01:42,340 --> 01:01:45,090 so that's why I don't do it. 1070 01:02:02,860 --> 01:02:04,490 It's hard. 1071 01:02:04,530 --> 01:02:05,890 It's hard to go through, 1072 01:02:05,910 --> 01:02:07,990 what I'm going through right now. 1073 01:02:08,370 --> 01:02:11,330 I don't have a stable home. 1074 01:02:11,370 --> 01:02:15,290 I'm living with my sister and my brother-in-law. 1075 01:02:15,790 --> 01:02:18,330 I still don't have a job because I still have to wait for 1076 01:02:18,380 --> 01:02:20,670 Immigration to... 1077 01:02:20,710 --> 01:02:23,170 give me my green card back. 1078 01:02:24,720 --> 01:02:27,680 The trauma that I went through in my past, and... 1079 01:02:27,720 --> 01:02:32,470 being in the Immigration, and how I was being treated... 1080 01:02:32,890 --> 01:02:35,850 because of me being trans, 1081 01:02:35,890 --> 01:02:37,980 it breaks you. 1082 01:02:38,060 --> 01:02:42,190 I had to be strong and have faith in God. 1083 01:02:42,230 --> 01:02:44,530 ♪ Tense hopeful music ♪ 1084 01:02:44,570 --> 01:02:48,070 In the beginning, my PTSD was, bad. 1085 01:02:48,110 --> 01:02:51,370 I'd wake up thinking I'm still in the detention center. 1086 01:02:52,950 --> 01:02:55,540 I don't k it kinda messed me up. 1087 01:02:55,580 --> 01:02:58,830 Right I'm focusing on... 1088 01:02:59,250 --> 01:03:03,210 being there for my father, making sure my father is okay. 1089 01:03:03,250 --> 01:03:05,670 I'm living day by day. 1090 01:03:06,170 --> 01:03:09,050 What do you see your future like? 1091 01:03:09,090 --> 01:03:11,180 What's your dream? 1092 01:03:12,310 --> 01:03:14,560 I don't have any dream right now. 1093 01:03:14,600 --> 01:03:17,060 I'm gonna be honest with you; I don't. 1094 01:03:17,100 --> 01:03:20,770 Immigration had took my dream away from me. 1095 01:03:23,110 --> 01:03:24,590 I'm living day by day, 1096 01:03:24,610 --> 01:03:27,030 and whatever comes, comes. 1097 01:03:50,300 --> 01:03:53,720 This reminds me of something years ago. 1098 01:03:55,310 --> 01:03:57,600 This park situation and bench, 1099 01:03:57,640 --> 01:03:58,640 and this damn cigarette. 1100 01:04:00,650 --> 01:04:02,630 I was sitting like this in that damn 1101 01:04:02,650 --> 01:04:03,940 video, man! 1102 01:04:03,980 --> 01:04:05,300 I'm sitting there smoking a damn cigarette, 1103 01:04:05,320 --> 01:04:07,070 thinking. 1104 01:04:08,820 --> 01:04:10,610 I did mature a lot. 1105 01:04:10,660 --> 01:04:13,280 I'm nowhere near, the same person. 1106 01:04:13,570 --> 01:04:16,950 I don't wanna be categorized. 1107 01:04:16,990 --> 01:04:19,120 I wanna be called my name. 1108 01:04:19,160 --> 01:04:21,750 I have a name for a reason! 1109 01:04:22,830 --> 01:04:24,460 That's it! 1110 01:04:28,050 --> 01:04:32,130 I feel like him identifying as a male 1111 01:04:32,180 --> 01:04:35,260 kind of contributed to a lot of the trauma. 1112 01:04:36,510 --> 01:04:39,640 He's already been through, the worst. 1113 01:04:40,230 --> 01:04:42,480 There was a point in time where, 1114 01:04:42,520 --> 01:04:44,500 I kinda didn't wanna speak to him or whatever, 1115 01:04:44,520 --> 01:04:46,940 but I've made peace with it. 1116 01:04:48,070 --> 01:04:50,820 If it was in his ability to be there, 1117 01:04:50,860 --> 01:04:52,950 he would've been there. 1118 01:04:55,030 --> 01:04:58,490 There's, this weird stigma with... 1119 01:04:58,540 --> 01:05:01,160 Black men in general that, like... 1120 01:05:01,210 --> 01:05:03,670 you do a certain thing, you look a certain way, 1121 01:05:03,710 --> 01:05:05,960 you wear a certain thing. 1122 01:05:07,880 --> 01:05:09,860 So when they see me and I'm, not that, 1123 01:05:09,880 --> 01:05:11,700 I guess they think, like... 1124 01:05:11,720 --> 01:05:13,070 "I guess he's gay" or something, 1125 01:05:13,090 --> 01:05:15,390 and I'm 1126 01:05:15,430 --> 01:05:16,680 me." 1127 01:05:16,720 --> 01:05:20,020 ♪ soft uplifting music ♪ 1128 01:05:20,060 --> 01:05:22,850 Being authentically yourself, 1129 01:05:22,890 --> 01:05:26,190 despite what everybody else is saying is, 1130 01:05:26,230 --> 01:05:28,650 inspiring to me. 1131 01:05:28,730 --> 01:05:31,030 I'm proud of my mom. 1132 01:05:37,240 --> 01:05:39,220 My old ass can barely climb up the edge, 1133 01:05:39,240 --> 01:05:41,330 and I gotta help you out! 1134 01:05:42,250 --> 01:05:44,500 He is happy. 1135 01:05:44,920 --> 01:05:46,900 He always tries to remind me that, 1136 01:05:46,920 --> 01:05:49,210 I'm his son, 1137 01:05:49,250 --> 01:05:50,780 nothing's gonna change that, 1138 01:05:50,800 --> 01:05:53,720 and how, if anything happens to me, 1139 01:05:53,760 --> 01:05:56,010 he's gonna be there for me. 1140 01:05:56,430 --> 01:06:00,390 If you can have any kind of tag associated to you, 1141 01:06:00,430 --> 01:06:03,060 first and foremost, he's a mom. 1142 01:06:03,100 --> 01:06:05,850 My son is my everything. 1143 01:06:13,440 --> 01:06:15,860 Let me know what you wanna eat for lunch. 1144 01:06:19,990 --> 01:06:21,100 - See you later. - You always shocking somebody. 1145 01:06:21,120 --> 01:06:22,600 - See you later. - Love you. 1146 01:06:22,620 --> 01:06:24,370 I love you too. 1147 01:06:25,620 --> 01:06:28,420 When I watched the first film, 1148 01:06:28,460 --> 01:06:30,090 it showed... 1149 01:06:30,130 --> 01:06:32,760 how Trevon grown from that. 1150 01:06:32,800 --> 01:06:35,260 He was young at the time. 1151 01:06:35,340 --> 01:06:37,720 I didn't know him back then. 1152 01:06:38,640 --> 01:06:41,060 It's a total difference. 1153 01:06:43,020 --> 01:06:45,290 We workin' overtime and double time for 1154 01:06:45,310 --> 01:06:48,560 Jade's reconstruction surgery. 1155 01:06:48,850 --> 01:06:52,070 No sleep, no rest, straight overtime. 1156 01:06:55,820 --> 01:06:58,450 I've come to this point where I'm not comfortable with 1157 01:06:58,490 --> 01:07:01,950 not having kids, but I've accepted it, 1158 01:07:06,040 --> 01:07:07,790 Before I was doing DoorDash, 1159 01:07:07,830 --> 01:07:10,580 I used to work for an adult group home. 1160 01:07:10,670 --> 01:07:12,360 When I was a kid, my mom was ill. 1161 01:07:12,380 --> 01:07:15,630 My mom passed away from HIV-related symptoms, 1162 01:07:15,670 --> 01:07:19,640 so by the time I was like 12, my mother was sick, 1163 01:07:19,680 --> 01:07:21,970 to the point where I did everything, 1164 01:07:23,180 --> 01:07:25,600 I'm kinda used to taking care of people. 1165 01:07:27,850 --> 01:07:30,600 I make sure my people is. 1166 01:07:41,700 --> 01:07:44,660 I love working DoorDash because it gives me flexibility to do 1167 01:07:44,700 --> 01:07:45,410 what I want. 1168 01:07:45,450 --> 01:07:48,660 I don't like authority, so I like being my own boss. 1169 01:07:48,710 --> 01:07:49,850 You're welcome, have a good day. 1170 01:07:49,870 --> 01:07:51,330 You too. 1171 01:07:54,040 --> 01:07:55,360 This is the best part of the day: 1172 01:07:55,380 --> 01:07:57,170 buying weed. 1173 01:07:58,260 --> 01:08:00,200 It's crazy how, in the first film, 1174 01:08:00,220 --> 01:08:03,350 Octavio went to jail for weed. 1175 01:08:03,390 --> 01:08:05,810 - Thank you. - He lost his kid. 1176 01:08:06,430 --> 01:08:08,910 He went through a lot, essentially for something that 1177 01:08:08,930 --> 01:08:10,980 is now legal. 1178 01:08:14,570 --> 01:08:16,550 If we go back there, there's people that, 1179 01:08:16,570 --> 01:08:18,360 live, like right... 1180 01:08:18,400 --> 01:08:21,200 they could reach out their window and grab 'em. 1181 01:08:21,240 --> 01:08:22,870 I wish that was me. 1182 01:08:22,910 --> 01:08:25,490 I wanna climb a mountain. 1183 01:08:27,290 --> 01:08:32,370 ♪ Uplifting ambient music ♪ 1184 01:08:33,750 --> 01:08:36,750 I live a surfer, nomad lifestyle, 1185 01:08:36,790 --> 01:08:40,510 and it takes balls to live the way I live. 1186 01:08:40,840 --> 01:08:46,060 I don't live my life as what society would... 1187 01:08:47,430 --> 01:08:52,390 deem your ideal man or your ideal successful person. 1188 01:08:53,270 --> 01:08:55,400 A lot of people... 1189 01:08:55,440 --> 01:08:58,900 tend to live in the boundaries and the restrictions and the 1190 01:08:58,940 --> 01:09:02,570 constraints, and I guess I'm living for 'em, 1191 01:09:02,610 --> 01:09:04,760 because I'm being me, living my life, 1192 01:09:04,780 --> 01:09:07,790 doing me, and riding the wave of... 1193 01:09:07,830 --> 01:09:09,580 of faith. 1194 01:09:10,950 --> 01:09:15,120 That's probably why my life gives off this light. 1195 01:09:17,790 --> 01:09:20,050 I can't vogue out here. 1196 01:09:21,130 --> 01:09:23,110 Come on, Daniel, I gotta go to work! 1197 01:09:44,990 --> 01:09:46,320 I didn't have no... 1198 01:09:46,370 --> 01:09:49,240 nobody to guide me to... 1199 01:09:49,700 --> 01:09:51,750 to transition. 1200 01:09:52,950 --> 01:09:55,020 When I had gotten my top surgery done, 1201 01:09:55,040 --> 01:09:58,090 it was not about my appearance. 1202 01:09:58,290 --> 01:10:00,960 I was uncomfortable, because once you take off your clothes, 1203 01:10:01,010 --> 01:10:02,630 you see... 1204 01:10:02,670 --> 01:10:04,820 what you and I was very uncomfortable, 1205 01:10:04,840 --> 01:10:07,090 and I've always been uncomfortable. 1206 01:10:08,680 --> 01:10:11,930 This is, where I sit when I take my break. 1207 01:10:12,220 --> 01:10:13,640 It's hot in there, 1208 01:10:14,390 --> 01:10:16,310 Lemme take off my apron. 1209 01:10:17,400 --> 01:10:19,340 I enjoy working in this restaurant. 1210 01:10:19,360 --> 01:10:22,150 They treat me good and... 1211 01:10:25,110 --> 01:10:27,820 I guess you could say "a normal life" now. 1212 01:10:30,910 --> 01:10:33,500 I've been taking care of my dad. 1213 01:10:33,660 --> 01:10:35,540 I've been saving up my money. 1214 01:10:35,580 --> 01:10:38,670 Got myself a nice apartment in Flushing, Queens, 1215 01:10:38,710 --> 01:10:41,210 and me and my father is living together, 1216 01:10:41,250 --> 01:10:43,300 and we're doing good. 1217 01:10:43,590 --> 01:10:45,840 When I first came home, 1218 01:10:45,880 --> 01:10:48,010 I Googled myself. 1219 01:10:48,050 --> 01:10:49,470 I was stunned. 1220 01:10:49,510 --> 01:10:52,640 I couldn't believe how much people supported me. 1221 01:10:54,560 --> 01:10:56,850 I'm very grateful. 1222 01:10:58,060 --> 01:11:02,690 It's a very emotional issue to me because... 1223 01:11:03,940 --> 01:11:07,360 I mean, America is all I know. 1224 01:11:21,090 --> 01:11:23,000 I am Chin... 1225 01:11:23,500 --> 01:11:27,840 and I live my life as a man, and that's it. 1226 01:11:28,260 --> 01:11:33,010 I don't need a label to define who I am. 1227 01:11:36,140 --> 01:11:37,920 Next month, I'm gonna be 50 years old. 1228 01:11:39,730 --> 01:11:42,400 This the best... 1229 01:11:43,440 --> 01:11:46,240 best days of my life. 1230 01:11:47,440 --> 01:11:49,530 I'm at peace. 1231 01:11:54,620 --> 01:11:59,710 ♪ Soft uplifting music ♪ 1232 01:12:05,170 --> 01:12:07,710 It's a new day. 1233 01:12:07,920 --> 01:12:11,260 It's a new season in my life right now. 1234 01:12:11,550 --> 01:12:14,220 I'm getting back to my work. 1235 01:12:16,180 --> 01:12:18,730 Back to my passions. 1236 01:12:18,930 --> 01:12:20,480 Taking pictures. 1237 01:12:22,810 --> 01:12:24,730 Making art. 1238 01:12:26,190 --> 01:12:29,780 I've been doing a lot of painting... abstract form. 1239 01:12:29,820 --> 01:12:34,120 Coming out and being a creative person and an artist, 1240 01:12:34,160 --> 01:12:36,790 that's pff, shit, you're not coming out, 1241 01:12:36,830 --> 01:12:39,830 you're trying to discover yourself! 1242 01:12:39,870 --> 01:12:41,810 An identity is something that you create 1243 01:12:41,830 --> 01:12:43,460 yourself... something like art. 1244 01:12:45,710 --> 01:12:48,760 It's a process, and it's always changing. 1245 01:12:49,260 --> 01:12:52,340 It's an alignment of self and soul. 1246 01:12:57,010 --> 01:12:59,020 I rap, I make... 1247 01:12:59,060 --> 01:12:59,980 punk music. 1248 01:13:00,020 --> 01:13:02,980 It's expressing my... 1249 01:13:03,020 --> 01:13:04,650 intense ways. 1250 01:13:10,070 --> 01:13:12,490 It's what we artists do. 1251 01:13:14,320 --> 01:13:17,660 We feel deeply, we reflect... 1252 01:13:19,040 --> 01:13:23,330 take the pain and the pleasure, 1253 01:13:23,370 --> 01:13:27,210 and we try to make sense of it all through our art. 1254 01:13:27,250 --> 01:13:30,340 Come out... come out again soon. 1255 01:13:35,680 --> 01:13:39,010 A lot of my gifts came from my mom. 1256 01:13:42,560 --> 01:13:44,850 Count of three! 1257 01:13:44,900 --> 01:13:46,020 One! 1258 01:13:46,060 --> 01:13:47,190 Two! 1259 01:13:47,230 --> 01:13:48,360 Three! 1260 01:13:51,780 --> 01:13:55,200 I am beautiful, I am talented. 1261 01:13:59,080 --> 01:14:00,990 I'm joyful. 1262 01:14:01,790 --> 01:14:04,250 I'm always evolving. 1263 01:14:06,120 --> 01:14:08,840 I define myself. 1264 01:14:09,800 --> 01:14:12,380 And I choose to be free. 1265 01:14:20,760 --> 01:14:25,850 ♪ Uptempo house music ♪ 1266 01:14:27,310 --> 01:14:28,750 ♪ Left ♪ ♪ Go right ♪ 1267 01:14:28,770 --> 01:14:30,420 ♪ Baby ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1268 01:14:30,440 --> 01:14:31,070 ♪ Don't stop... ♪ 1269 01:14:31,110 --> 01:14:34,280 Most of the lives of my trans-cestors are kind of 1270 01:14:34,320 --> 01:14:38,620 invisible, so a documentary like 'The Aggressives' brings 1271 01:14:38,660 --> 01:14:41,910 something important to light, and... 1272 01:14:41,950 --> 01:14:44,040 I'm very grateful for that. 1273 01:14:45,290 --> 01:14:46,940 ♪ Move left ♪ ♪ Move forward ♪ 1274 01:14:46,960 --> 01:14:48,610 ♪ Move right ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1275 01:14:48,630 --> 01:14:50,150 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Right now ♪ 1276 01:14:50,170 --> 01:14:52,750 ♪ ♪ ♪ That's how we do it ♪ 1277 01:14:53,800 --> 01:14:55,280 ♪ Left ♪ ♪ Go right ♪ 1278 01:14:55,300 --> 01:14:56,820 ♪ Baby ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1279 01:14:56,840 --> 01:14:58,450 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Keep going... ♪ 1280 01:14:58,470 --> 01:15:02,600 Some might refer to me as "an aggressive" or an "AG." 1281 01:15:02,640 --> 01:15:03,180 I don't mind. 1282 01:15:03,180 --> 01:15:04,960 I still think it's very relevant. 1283 01:15:06,270 --> 01:15:07,830 So we will be screening 'The Aggressives, ' 1284 01:15:07,850 --> 01:15:10,460 which we are excited to be sharing with you right now. 1285 01:15:10,480 --> 01:15:11,980 "Aggressive"... 1286 01:15:12,020 --> 01:15:13,610 is... 1287 01:15:13,650 --> 01:15:15,780 your strength, your courage... 1288 01:15:15,820 --> 01:15:17,900 your whole aura. 1289 01:15:18,320 --> 01:15:21,950 I love the evolution of the language we now have. 1290 01:15:21,990 --> 01:15:24,450 I feel it's very liberating for a lot of people. 1291 01:15:24,490 --> 01:15:26,480 We're moving towards language that's a little bit 1292 01:15:26,500 --> 01:15:29,630 more inclusive because we are understanding this variety of 1293 01:15:29,670 --> 01:15:31,130 gender identities. 1294 01:15:31,170 --> 01:15:32,630 People have evolved 1295 01:15:32,670 --> 01:15:33,980 ♪ Left ♪ ♪ Go right ♪ 1296 01:15:34,000 --> 01:15:35,960 ♪ Baby ♪ ♪ Keep going... ♪ 1297 01:15:36,010 --> 01:15:38,840 We all have masculine and feminine energy within us. 1298 01:15:38,880 --> 01:15:41,680 If a person's presenting themselves the way they are, 1299 01:15:41,720 --> 01:15:42,850 accept it. 1300 01:15:42,890 --> 01:15:44,660 There's still room to kinda, 1301 01:15:44,680 --> 01:15:48,520 challenge perceptions and ideas around... around gender, 1302 01:15:48,560 --> 01:15:50,980 and, honestly, not to be reduced to your parts. 1303 01:15:51,020 --> 01:15:53,550 As humans, we're all different, but there are certain layers 1304 01:15:53,570 --> 01:15:54,650 that are the same. 1305 01:15:54,690 --> 01:15:56,860 If we do another one of these in 10, 1306 01:15:56,900 --> 01:15:58,680 20 years, it'll be completely different. 1307 01:15:58,700 --> 01:16:01,010 As the world changes, the way people identify will 1308 01:16:01,030 --> 01:16:04,330 change, the way people exist in that world will change. 1309 01:16:04,370 --> 01:16:07,000 It's part of, human progression. 1310 01:17:05,430 --> 01:17:06,740 ♪ Left ♪ ♪ Go right ♪ 1311 01:17:06,760 --> 01:17:08,410 ♪ Baby ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1312 01:17:08,430 --> 01:17:10,080 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1313 01:17:10,100 --> 01:17:11,750 ♪ Move left ♪ ♪ Move forward ♪ 1314 01:17:11,770 --> 01:17:13,420 ♪ Move right ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1315 01:17:13,440 --> 01:17:15,090 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Right now ♪ 1316 01:17:15,110 --> 01:17:17,520 ♪ ♪ ♪ That's how we do it ♪ 1317 01:17:18,610 --> 01:17:20,090 ♪ Left ♪ ♪ Go right ♪ 1318 01:17:20,110 --> 01:17:21,590 ♪ Baby ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1319 01:17:21,610 --> 01:17:23,260 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1320 01:17:23,280 --> 01:17:24,930 ♪ Move left ♪ ♪ Move forward ♪ 1321 01:17:24,950 --> 01:17:26,600 ♪ Move right ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1322 01:17:26,620 --> 01:17:28,270 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Right now ♪ 1323 01:17:28,290 --> 01:17:30,870 ♪ ♪ ♪ That's how we do it ♪ 1324 01:17:31,790 --> 01:17:33,100 ♪ Left ♪ ♪ Go right ♪ 1325 01:17:33,120 --> 01:17:34,770 ♪ Baby ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1326 01:17:34,790 --> 01:17:36,440 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1327 01:17:36,460 --> 01:17:38,110 ♪ Move left ♪ ♪ Move forward ♪ 1328 01:17:38,130 --> 01:17:39,780 ♪ Move right ♪ ♪ Keep going ♪ 1329 01:17:39,800 --> 01:17:41,450 ♪ Don't stop ♪ ♪ Right now ♪ 1330 01:17:41,470 --> 01:17:44,220 ♪ ♪ ♪ That's how we do it ♪ 98187

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