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MATT: 'You OK getting home?' LISA: 'Yeah, I'll call a cab.'

Here. Thank you.

Here we are.

For your number. LISA CHUCKLES

Aren't there rules about doctors dating their patients?

I hereby pronounce you discharged... out of my care.

UNSETTLING MUSIC

HOST: You can go straight through.

Good evening. Hi. Um...

GENTLE CHATTER

I can't imagine how it must feel to save someone's life.

Yeah, you get a high. It's a rush. It doesn't last, though.

You know, the sicker the patient,

the more that they hope that we can put them right.

And when we can't, we have this jargon to hide behind,

"terminal"... "end stage"...

or the trusty stand-by,

"irreversible cessation of circulatory function".

Those are the ones that you really remember...

...because you've failed.

And you know that you will again.

LAUGHS SOFTLY

PHONE BUZZES

It's my mate Izzy.

Checking to see how the first date went?

Go on, report back.

It's not over yet, is it? So the jury's still out?

LISA GIGGLES, PASSIONATE PANTING

It meant nothing to her,

that his wife was to be made a widow and his daughter an orphan.

Now, what is Dickens saying here about justice?

Anyone who's ever felt injustice, put up a hand.

I'm feeling it right now, being lumbered with you lot.

PUPILS LAUGH

SCHOOL BELL RINGS Ah-Ah-Ah!

Wait for it!

This week's assignment.

Why is A Tale Of Two Cities still relevant today?

An original thinking piece, guys.

No copying and pasting off the internet!

You know who you are! ROWDY CHATTER

When do I get to meet him, give my seal of approval?

Er, he wants to meet all my friends and find out what makes me tick.

I dunno, it scares the crap out of me, Rosie.

Feeling so consumed by someone so quickly.

Mm. How can you trust that?

OK. In one sentence, what's his... appeal?

His spontaneity... his passion...

...and his commitment to his work.

Honestly, the stuff he must deal with every day.

And... he never boasts about it.

It's quite the reverse.

MATT: So, how short are we?

Who's on leave today that we can pull in?

No, he's visiting his folks in London.

Find out who's available. Call me back with a head count.

Offer them decent rates.

Who's this? Shit, I thought I'd chucked that.

Helen, my ex.

You look happy.

Well, we were for the first few months.

I actually thought we might be heading somewhere.

And then she started getting totally paranoid on me...

...interrogating me over every text, every phone call.

I'd come back knackered from a 12-hour shift of mayhem,

and she starts it all again.

When someone gets into that kind of jealous mindset,

nothing you can say or do will ever reassure them.

God knows I tried.

So I ended it. For her sanity as much as mine.

Thank you.

You do know how to say grace, right?

Huh? LISA LAUGHS

You have the sensitivity of a kerb stone sometimes,

do you know that?

Oh, well, it's a gift, what can I say?

That was a feast. You spoil us. Hope you've got room for dessert.

LISA LAUGHS Let this go down first!

So, does medicine run in the family, Matthew?

No, no. I, er... I broke the mould there.

So, what made you choose emergency medicine?

The challenge of it.

Never knowing what's coming through the door next.

You-you see more of life's extremes in a single day in A&E

than most people do in a lifetime.

One minute, you're delivering a baby,

and then the next, you're trying to bring back a cardiac arrest.

Must be so stressful. Hmm!

It's about developing the right mindset.

You can't let yourself get derailed by thinking

"This patient is somebody's wife or somebody's father."

You have to vacuum seal off that part of yourself

and focus on the clinical problem in front of you.

Can you really do that? Just cut off your emotions like that?

It's better that than to suffer burnout.

Survival of the fittest.

Sorry, Lisa should have warned you

that I can bore for Britain about my work.

Oh, no, don't be silly! Not at all.

So, no-one's told me yet how you two met. Blind date.

Ah, like Trevor and I, your brother set us up, didn't he?

Bullied me into it more like. MATT LAUGHS

QUIETLY: You've landed on your feet with this one.

LISA CHUCKLES No, you really have!

So, why would you tell them that we met on a blind date?

A doctor chatting up a patient. How's that gonna look?

MATT: OK. Let's say one thing that we're most proud of

and one thing that we're most ashamed of.

Mm-hm. You first.

Urgh! HALF-LAUGHS

Blimey, my... proudest thing.

OK, it sounds banal... but it was buying my flat last year.

Even though I'd long since left home,

my parents were all over my finances. Hm.

Even my bank statements still went to them,

and even worse, they knew all of my debts.

SHE SIGHS

I guess... owning my own place...

...it was like taking ownership of myself. You know? Hm.

I did say it was banal.

The truth often is banal. SHE CHUCKLES

OK, the main event. What are you most ashamed of?

SHE SIGHS

It was... a few years back...

...at my first teacher-training placement.

One of my Year Seven girls showed classic signs of sexual abuse.

Sexualised behaviour and...

...I reported it to our safeguarding leader.

He knew the family -

the father was a big-deal school donor.

He said it was just adolescent acting-out stuff.

I didn't stand my ground. I never followed up on it.

What happened to the kid?

I don't know.

I was only there a few weeks.

It's always haunted me that I let her down.

OK. Your turn.

Your most ashamed thing?

I...

...I was at med school...

...I was doing my clinical practice on the wards...

...and I got the call that my mother was dying.

But I... I didn't go to her...

...or to her funeral.

She had MS.

Advanced MS.

You know, when some people are ill,

it really brings out the best in them.

Not my mum.

Can't remember a single day of my childhood

when she wasn't at me.

I was a "useless son".

I was "an embarrassment".

I was "worthless".

Classic case of "doctor heal thyself", eh?

And are you?

Getting there.

How's it going? Nearly there. Yeah?

The last from my car. Thank you for your help.

HE CLEARS THROAT

You take care, Lisa.

This the bathroom stuff?

Oh, yeah, don't worry about that, I'll deal with it.

May as well make a start. How about we order a delivery?

Don't know about you guys, I'm famished!

I, er... I booked us a table at the Italian tonight, remember?

Babe, we can't just chuck her out after all the help she's been.

STIFFLY: Fine.

I'll just change the reservation for three.

It's not a big deal if she comes too, is it?

I just thought tonight was about, you know?

The two of us, celebrating this new chapter

that we're about to...

You're right, you're right, I'm making too much of it.

No, no, no. Look, of course you're not.

It's fine. I'll explain, she'll be cool.

I just... I don't...

I don't wanna share you with anyone tonight.

It's not a crime, is it? Mm-hm.

Go and do the deed, woman! Mm-hm!

Hey, Izzy... about eating...

...Matty's actually booked a table at the Italian. Mmm. Fab, I'm in!

I mean, just for the two of us to kind of mark him moving in?

No worries. I'll just finish here and be on my way.

You don't mind, do you?

Hey. It's a big deal for you, I get it.

Anyway, I shouldn't leave Banjo for so long.

You're the best.

Wow! Mm-hm?

You've totally nailed it this time.

Hm-hm! It's not rocket science. It is a science, though.

Do you know what today is?

Six months to the day since I moved in.

LAUGHS Check this out. I, er...

I saw it when I was at the bank today.

It's an application to remortgage.

So, we can put it in both our names... share the cost.

It's a good deal, it's fixed interest.

I should probably speak to Dad about it first.

I mean... he did pay the deposit.

It's too soon, I get it. No. It's not that!

No, I got ahead of myself.

It's fine, honestly. It's just, er...

...paying you rent every month

makes me feel more like a lodger than your...

Really, sweet, forget it. It's... it's just a stupid impulse.

Subject's closed.

Oh, good, you're still here. When you're ready, I need a word.

I was just leaving when the Head came in

and said she's creating an extra Deputy post,

and I should apply!

SHE CHUCKLES Can you believe it, Dad?

She must think highly of you. OUTER DOOR BANGS

It still has to be advertised, though.

A formality! So proud of you, Lise. Thank you.

Hey, Trevor, I thought it was your car outside.

Ah, not stopping. Evelyn needs the car for her book club.

I just popped by to drop this off.

We celebrating something? Mm-hm.

I'll leave you to do the honours.

Enjoy. Moments like this don't come every day.

Love you, Dad. Love you.

Deputy Head, Matt!

The Head's asked me to apply. CHUCKLES

I'll report directly to her,

developing teacher training programmes.

Oh, I have tons of ideas on that already.

And this would be in addition to your current teaching load?

Yeah, erm, with experience in team leadership,

never mind overseeing the curriculum.

Do you really think you're ready to take that on?

I mean, you're not great with the pressure

that you're under now, are you?

SHE SCOFFS

Who says I'm not?

Look how stressed you got over those damn GCSE results.

I was just nervous for them.

I try and keep a lid on the stress of my job... not bring it home.

I-I may not always succeed, but I do try.

But if you're under pressure too...

It's-it's about our quality of life, Lisa.

The precious time that we have together.

I can't tell you the amount of times that I've turned down

invitations to medical conferences.

I'm talking high-end. Shanghai, New Orleans.

That's awful! I would never expect you to...

No, I wanted to!

Because what we have is the most important thing in my life!

Being apart isn't good for any relationship, is it?

I'm not prepared to take that risk.

I'm being selfish... Ignore me.

You worked really hard for this...

...do what's right for you.

DOOR BANGS

FOOTSTEPS APPROACH

DOOR OPENS

A late one! Tell me about it.

God, I am totally JP FROGGED.

Just-Plain-Fucking-Run-Out-of-Gas. SOFT SCOFF

I tried calling you a couple of times, but your phone was off.

I was with the Head.

I withdrew my application for the Deputy job.

Why did you do that? For us. Like we talked about.

I never asked you to do that, Lisa. Well, not in so many words, but...

No. I remember exactly what I said. I said that it's your career

and that you must do what's right for you.

Don't put this on me if you're having second thoughts about it.

Trick with making a decision is to own it.

If it was a mistake, learn from it, and move on.

Anything else is just self-indulgent.

How about this? I know that you've been banging on

for me to talk to your students about emergency medicine.

Name a day... I'll book it off. That's my consolation prize, is it?

Don't say I didn't offer.

Is that my phone?

Mine was out of juice. You don't mind, do you?

Here. Have it back!

Come on, baby, how can I fix this?

Next Thursday... two o'clock...

...in the assembly hall.

CHEERING, MUSIC BOOMS

♪ Strumming my pain With her fingers

♪ Singing my life With her words

♪ Killing me softly with her song

♪ Killing me softly with her song

♪ Telling my whole life With her words

♪ Killing me softly With her song. ♪

CHEERING ♪ Hey, everybody... ♪

DRUM BEATS ♪ Let's have some fun!

♪ You only live the once And when your dead, you're done

♪ So let the good times roll

♪ Let the good times roll

♪ I don't care If you're young or old

♪ Let the good times roll... ♪

MUFFLED MUSIC, WATER TRICKLES

If I ever found a fella who'd treat me like yours,

I'd think I'd died and gone to bloody heaven!

Matt should start a fan club.

Listen, I've gotta to go soon, Lise. Dawn run to the flower market.

The party's barely just got going!

And I thought you'd outsourced the flower run

to your new assistant?

What is it, Iz? Has someone upset you?

Tell me who and I'll go fucking sort 'em out, babe!

What's going on, Izzy? Talk to me.

I wasn't gonna say anything tonight,

but... I can't know something like this and not tell you.

Something like what? Jasmin, my cousin?

Yeah, when I suggested she come here tonight,

she didn't realise that Matt was your partner.

She used to work with him at A&E. He told me. He used to mentor her.

Right! Is that what he calls it?

She said he was always coming on to her.

He never left her alone. Then, in the end, she had to transfer to

a different hospital just to get away from him.

This was barely weeks after he'd moved in with you, Lisa.

And did she make a formal complaint about him?

Well, he's senior to her, isn't he?

It's her word against his. Exactly.

So, what? Is she still here?

Let's go and find her, let her tell me to my face.

Listen, she thought it best to just leave.

But yeah, I think you should talk to her,

hear it from her first-hand and make a judgement then.

Do you know, I want is

for you to have some bloody trust in my judgement!

Do you really think that I would be with him

if I thought he was capable of anything like that? No! But...

Look, I didn't believe it at first either.

But Jasmin has no reason to... I don't even wanna hear it, Izzy!

You're right. You should go.

Lisa! Just go, Izzy.

She said what?!

She said that that's why Jasmin transferred to another hospital.

I was half expecting something like this when I saw her tonight.

It wasn't me harassing her... it was the other way around!

She was always trying it on with me. I mean, full on.

At first, I thought she might have assumed

that my offer to mentor her meant something else.

SLURPS WINE I told her, as senior registrar,

it's part of my job.

Didn't stop her. Finally, I said, "If you don't back off...

"I'm gonna go to HR and lodge a formal complaint."

Next thing I knew, she'd quit... gone to another hospital.

Why would Izzy buy her story?

Think about it, you've been best friends since forever.

Suddenly, you're no longer at her beck and call.

So she poisons you, makes me out to be

some kind of philandering shit.

We break up, mission accomplished, she's got you back.

Izzy would never do that! You're loyal to her, I get that.

But I can't think of any other reason

why she would wanna buy Jasmin's bullshit about me, can you?

Of course, if you don't trust me... No, I believe you.

Don't say it if you're not sure.

I am sure.

Let's get you to bed, birthday girl. Mm-hm.

Rosaria's asked us to stay at her parents' villa near Barcelona.

Any time after term ends, she said. It's free board, an infinity pool,

and all we've gotta do is cough up for the flights.

I'd rather go away without Rosaria tagging along.

I thought you liked her?

It doesn't mean that I wanna spend my precious holiday time with her.

She's probably only asking you

because she's bored shitless, stuck there on her own.

You're beyond gullible sometimes, Lise.

People do what works for them... what's in their own interest.

It's one thing seeing the best in them,

it's another letting them use you.

So, my talk to your students... Mm-hm.

...I thought I'd kick it off

with how science is the apex of human achievement.

Without it, there'd be

no electricity, penicillin, internet, etc.

It's only science that got us through the pandemic,

alerted us to climate change.

What've their airy-fairy arty subjects ever contributed to mankind

compared with all of that?

Why do you have to turn everything into a competition?

Science saves lives, yes,

but it's stories, music, theatre... it enriches people's lives.

Tell that to the guy driving a truck... or digging up the roads.

Who's to say they won't get anything from it?

Culture is the sign of a civilised society.

It's there for everyone who wants it.

Everyone who wants to understand who we are as human beings,

our internal lives, and how we feel and relate to each other.

Honestly, it's like the idea of that threatens you somehow.

SOFTLY: OK. Come here.

There's a nerve... here...

called the branchial motor.

It's part of the facial nervous system.

If you were clumsy, press too hard,

you risk paralysing the entire facial nerve structure,

causing unbearable agonising pain.

You know I'd never really hurt you, right, Lisa?

TRAIN HORN BLARES IN DISTANCE

VOICE QUIVERING: Turn it off.

Matty, what's wrong?

I'm no good for you.

We're polar opposites in every single way.

If we felt the same about everything,

how boring would that be?

It's good to challenge each other.

See things through each other's eyes. And do you?

See things through mine?

I want to.

Maybe we both need to try a bit harder at that.

You deserve better than me.

I don't think I can face being here when you figure that out.

And you will.

Look, we'll face bumps in the road... I know that.

But if we're honest with each other and keep talking...

...we'll ride them out together.

The remortgage.

You really want this? I want us.

Now, Dr Goodson has taken time out of his very busy schedule,

so be sure to show your appreciation when he arrives. All right?

Cutting it fine, isn't he? LISA SIGHS

I know.

Did you call him?

I've been calling him all morning.

I've no idea what's going on. I'm gonna try him again.

ANSWER MESSAGE: 'Leave me a message, and I'll get back to you.'

Matt! Where are you? We're all here waiting for you!

ROWDY CHATTER

OUTER DOOR BANGS

MATT WHISTLES CHEERILY

DOOR RATTLES

WHISTLING CONTINUES

I know. I just couldn't get away.

I called A&E, Matty. They said you'd been off shift for two hours.

Who the fuck said that? Someone on reception.

They checked the rota to confirm it.

The bloody rota changes every five minutes.

But the one time that you don't call or text!

VIOLENT BANG Jesus Christ!

We had multiple injuries from a pile-up.

A baby with suspected meningitis.

And a guy who had managed to amputate half of his arm

with a chainsaw, and this was before lunch.

So I'm sorry if that took priority!

They were disappointed, that's all.

This isn't about THEIR disappointment, it's about yours!

That you couldn't parade me around like some kind of trophy!

Well, if that isn't an inflated ego talking.

Coming from the spoilt only child! URGENT KNOCK AT DOOR

KNOCKING CONTINUES

Everything OK here?

Have you done something to your hair, Layla?

It's taken years off of you, hasn't it, Lisa?

It looks gorgeous.

We'll keep it down. Sorry about that, my love.

What's going on with you, Matty? You're seriously asking me that?

You need to learn that other people's needs

take priority over yours, Lisa.

Less of the first person singular. The "me, me, me".

It's a really ugly trait.

You'll get there.

And I'll try and be more patient until you do.

You just promise me that you'll work on it?

Deal?

Good girl.

Hello, stranger.

Ian! THEY CHUCKLE

So, are you with anyone now, or... An A&E doctor.

Wow! Yep. I mean,

he can fix me if I'm ever broken.

No need to ask the same of you.

I've got you to thank for that. SHE CHUCKLES

You always said I should be more spontaneous. Yes.

So, after we split, I thought, "What have I got to lose?"

So I joined a dating app.

"Like-Minded Professionals Looking For Love."

Oh, no. And I found it.

I'm happy for you...

...really.

PHONE PINGS

Time for one more? If you do.

Two more, please.

MATT WHISPERS: All right, all right. No, tomorrow.

I'll call tomorrow. I promise. OK?

You're still up.

Been working on next year's lesson plans.

If you say so.

When I texted you earlier, you were in a bar, weren't you?

Wh... How did you even know?

That's not the point. The point is why you lied.

I ran into my ex, Ian.

We had a quick drink for a catch-up.

How cosy. He just wanted to tell me he's happily married and...

If it was so innocent, why'd you fucking lie about it?

To avoid the exact conversation we're having right now

cos I knew you would go off on one!

I see. So-So you deliberately lie, and then it's my fault?

You're always texting me, checking up on me.

Dear God! So now I'm too attentive. I can't bloody win, can I?

All right, well, if that's being attentive,

then you won't mind telling me who you were talking to just now?

Outside, just now, I heard you. I don't believe I'm hearing this!

Someone from work needed advice about one of her patients.

And are you "mentoring" her too?

What, so I can't even talk to a fucking colleague now?!

Listen to yourself, Lisa!

You blatantly lie, and then you try and turn it around

so that I'm the one that's in the fucking wrong!

Matty, this isn't us, this can't be us! It's YOU!

HE GRUNTS, SHE GASPS

LISA WHIMPERS

SWING SQUEAKS

WOMAN: Lisa? It's OK. We've been looking for you.

Thank God.

I was at my wits' end!

When the call came in, I recognised your name

from that D&D the other night in A&E.

He was a handful. And the rest.

Come on. Let's get you out of the cold, my love.

Can't thank you enough.

Tea with a shot of whiskey.

Listen, Lisa... No, you listen.

I am not... one of those women who can't walk away

from a toxic relationship.

And you've made a very big mistake if you think I am.

I know. I am...

I'm so sorry.

Lisa, I...

...I don't know who that was...

...but it wasn't me.

I swear to God that I'm not that man.

Everything I touch, I fuck it up... everything.

If I lose you...

...what hope is there for me?

HE SOBS

Please tell me that I haven't fucked this up?

Please?

It must never ever happen again. Never. Never! I swear to God!

I can take it from here.

SHOP BELL DINGS

I miss you.

You want us to be friends again?

SIGHS SHAKILY You have no idea how much.

And how's that gonna work, Lisa?

You lying to him...

...sneaking around to meet me on the QT

like we're what, illicit lovers?

You made your choice.

DOOR OPENS, SHOP BELL TINKLES

SHE SNIFFLES Hi.

Apart from being overworked and underpaid,

how's the gorgeous man? He's fine.

But we're not, Rosie. We're far from fine.

LISA SIGHS

It's like I'm always treading on eggshells around him.

Sometimes, I feel like I'm losing my mind.

One minute, we're OK, we're talking...

...but... if I say the wrong thing or I don't say the right thing,

it's like a gear changes in him.

All I seem to do now is apologise to him, but I don't know what for.

Lisa. Lisa, sorry, I lost you. Wi-Fi is so fucking crap here.

What were you saying about eggs? PHONE BEEPS OFF

LOUNGE MUSIC

DOOR OPENS

What a welcome!

Your mother will be sorry to miss you.

Haven't seen much of you.

Matt working all hours? Pretty much.

Anything you ever wanna talk about...

can stay between us, Lise, OK?

DOOR OPENS

What are the bloody chances?

It's good to see you, Trevor. It's been too long.

Why aren't you at work? Split shifts this week, remember?

It's in one ear and out the other with this one, isn't it?

Just popped to the dry cleaners. This looks yum.

What's going on?

I want you gone, Matt. Out of my flat and out of my life.

What? You put spyware on my phone, didn't you?

How sick do you have to be to do something like that?

Where the hell did you get that idea?

Don't tell me it's all in my head.

I'm not going down that road again. It's over, Matthew.

But we've... We're done!

We've-We've made a home together!

SHE SCOFFS A prison, in my case.

Small but salient point. It's not your flat.

I own half of it, remember? I'll buy you out.

Whatever the price, it'll be worth it to be free of you.

I'm not going fucking anywhere! Get your hands off...

Get off me! SHE STRAINS

HE PANTS HEAVILY

It's you who's making me do this! You!

Lisa!

Lisa!

TRAIN HORN WAILS, TRACKS RUMBLE

MATT: Are you fucking insane?

TRAIN APPROACHES, HORN BLARES

BREATH QUIVERS WITH ANGER

SHE GRUNTS, GLASS SHATTERS

How did you do that?

What's happening to me?

GLASS SMASHES

What the fuck was that?

Just me.

Only me. GLASS CRUNCHES

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