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Seo Yeon, in the end, had the child.

On the way home from the hospital,

she cried silent tears, the teardrops falling onto the baby's face.

From that day, Seo Yeon fell into a depression, coming and going.

From rough to soft, from dark to light, going back and forth,

coming on to seven months.

Oh, you haven't left yet?

Episode 19

Yeah, I'm on my way out.

- Would you like some coffee? - No, thank you.

- It's Monday at 4pm. - I know.

- You'd better come. - I'm going to.

I feel so terrible toward Aunt, but the help we hired,

Seo Yeon made her quit after four months.

She said she didn't like someone criticizing her.

For this and that reason, we've had three different helpers.

In the end, I leave work in the afternoon,

and my time at home has increased.

The child she so stubbornly wanted to have,

she doesn't seem to have much interest in.

The way she looks at the child doesn't seem quite right.

Everyday, she and I seem to take a step farther away from each other, I know.

The woman I love,

mumbled that she was afraid of the day she couldn't recognize me or her brother,

as she used my leg as a pillow last night.

She even said she didn't know who she is.

It's been a long time.

Yeah, oppa.

Let's sit.

You were shocked.

Yeah, a little... , a lot.

I would like the A Coffee Set.

I'll have the same.

How have you been doing?

Well.

It's the same.

Go exercise, meet my friends, play the piano.

Oh, just jazz piano. It's just for fun.

Oh.

To appease my mom, go on a matchmaking date once in a while.

I hear you watch my Ye Eun really well.

Did Ahjumma say that?

Aunt.

My mom doesn't talk about you.

I saw her twice.

On her 100th day and last month.

Once was an errand for my mom, and the other time,

your mom did some ink drawings.

I went to pick up the picture she wanted to give me and Ye Eun was there.

Ahjumma said it was strange I always stopped by when Ye Eun was visiting her grandpa.

Once a month I go over so that she can spend time with my father.

She must have grown more since then.

Yeah, she grows every day.

She's so pretty.

I've never seen a baby that close up before.

How could she be so cute and cuddly?

Her eyes are bright, thinking, �Who is this ahjumma?�

and she stares so intently. She is so cute.

She smells so good also.

Are your mother and father doing well?

Doing well.

This looks good.

What is it, oppa?

Sure, I'll tell you.

I have a favor to ask you.

What is it?

It's a strange request and I feel terrible about it.

Seo Yeon wants to meet you.

Why?

She's wanted to meet you from a long time ago.

I thought it'd pass, but she keeps saying it everyday.

That she has to meet you. She's really requesting it.

Oppa, I ... was really curious too.

I wanted to see her even from far away.

How different is she from me for you to choose her.

I just wanted to see for myself.

But not anymore.

I think she wants to apologize.

She doesn't have to.

She doesn't.

I'm asking this favor.

I want to do everything that she wants.

Because there's nothing I can do for her that she needs.

I know this request is out of line.

No, oppa. There's no need to think that.

It's all in the past.

It was painful to endure at the time,

but I couldn't hate you.

Because I had everything.

Mom and Dad's love,

my home,

and health.

If we had married as planned,

and you later found out you had abandoned someone who's sick,

you could have been disappointed in me.

If I were in your shoes,

I would have done what you did.

I'm perfectly fine now. I have no regret.

So, it's all right.

Forget what's happened in the past.

You... remember what I told you, Hyang Gi?

You are someone who leaves me speechless.

Yeah. You did tell me.

What do you think?

It's pretty.

Do I look like an important madam?

The president's wife.

This is new, Seo Yeon.

Yes.

Myeong Hae told Jae Min said that I wear the same thing to all the family weddings.

That's why I bought a set.

If you wear the outer piece, you can't see what's on the inside.

This is a free bonus from the dressmaker.

Doesn't it look nice?

Yes.

Aigoo, your mother-in-law is here, Seo Yeon.

Yes!

Hello.

Yes, hello.

Seo Yeon.

You're here.

Open this up and put it in the refrigerator.

It's fish soup. Let's heat it up and have it for dinner.

Yes.

I'm so sorry to cause such inconvenience.

It's a family wedding that I can't get out of.

How could you say such a thing?

You need to go attend to your affairs.

We're the ones causing you inconvenience, so don't say such a thing.

I'd be embarrassed.

No, of course not.

Give it to me. I'll hang it up for you.

- Could you? - Yes.

Let's see my Ye Eun.

Oh, you smell so good.

Is this the scent of an angel?

You took a bath.

Right? You took a bath, right?

Grandma will have a cup of tea.

What shall I drink?

Green tea will be good, right?

Will you have one too?

Seo Yeon, you don't want any tea?

Yes, Mother, I'll have some.

Let's go.

Here, Ye Eun, what is this?

Oh, here! I'll do it.

- I'll do it. - No, it's all right.

Ye Eun, want to go to mommy?

Here, take Ye Eun.

Here... I'll...

Oh... my baby...

You won't drop the baby.

Don't be afraid and hold the baby.

Yes.

Yeah.

Has her mother-in-law arrived?

Of course.

Are you dressed?

We're here picking up Dad.

It's cold so don't wait outside. Come when I call you.

We'll be ten minutes. Yeah, ten minutes.

I won't be late, don't worry.

Mom, Mom! How's Seo Yeon?

Oh. Okay.

Dad, what are you doing? We'll be late because of you.

Hurry up and come out.

Honestly, it's so dirty.

You said you would buy property when I asked to buy a new car.

It looks dirty in the light.

What about Seo Yeon?

She's the same.

I wish I could go inside her head to know what's going on.

It's not like a walnut you can crack in half.

She's such a smart and clever girl.

And seeing her become useless... even in my sleep...

You feel bad, don't you?

You probably should.

That's why I told you many times not to treat her like that.

That's why you shouldn't do things you'll regret later.

You were so bad to her!

What did I do?

Oh, Dad.

When it's spring, let's all go see the flowers bloom.

Aunt is already looking forward to it.

Father even said he'll take a day or two off.

Yes.

Oh, it must be Ji Hyung.

My mother hasn't arrived yet?

No, she's here.

Mother.

I'll change my clothes and come out.

All right.

Go on in.

Did you play well, princess?

Daddy. It's Daddy, Ye Eun.

You didn't give Grandma a hard time, did you?

Did she act up while you gave her a bath?

Not at all.

She's not like her mommy. Why don't you like baths, missy?

Her mommy likes baths so much, she got scolded for a high water bill.

She doesn't like being naked.

Did Ye Eun tell you that?

Yeah.

Is that right? Is that it?

She's acting like she didn't hear me.

Aigoo! It's time to eat.

I'll do it. I'll take care of it.

I missed you. I love you, Seo Yeon.

I missed you. I love you too.

Did you use it? The treadmill.

Yeah, I did.

Did you read a book?

Yeah.

What did you eat for lunch?

Rice.

With what?

I told you not to test me.

I'm not. I'm just asking because I'm curious what you ate.

Kimchi, soup, fish, vegetables.

Seasoned radishes... spinach.

Soup.

Spinach soup? With clams?

With miso.

That's what I like.

What can we do to lift her depression?

What is it that we're not grasping?

Mom, Seo Yeon ...

knows very well it's not about effort.

She knows very well that whatever she does, it'll happen on its own.

Every day she uses the computer to learn more about the disease.

Reading. And reading.

She reads to me to remind me to get ready.

Want some coffee?

- I'll make it for you. - I'll do it.

Ye Eun ate her dinner and had her diaper changed.

Give it here.

Tomorrow, Aunt will be here.

Your father and I have a prior engagement.

Tomorrow will be fine.

Her Aunt will be too tired.

I've already spoken to her. We'll help out.

It's all right, Mom. There's Moon Kwon and Seo Yeon.

There's a lot of food to eat. I'm going to tell Aunt to rest.

Then if it gets too stuffy in the house, Seo Yeon can bring Ye Eun and eat with Aunt.

All right. We'll see tomorrow.

Seo Yeon, come here.

Yes.

No, Mother.

Eat.

Sure.

Oh yeah.

Aunt was telling your father she wants to go to the hot springs with you guys.

Want to go?

What about Ye Eun?

Couldn't we ask Seo Yeon's Aunt to watch her a couple of days?

Shall we go?

Mother, I'm afraid of ... unfamiliar places.

I'm there so what's there to worry about.

What if I do something wrong in front of Father?

You take them. I'll stay home.

We'll skip it.

Do what is comfortable for you.

I'm sorry, Mother.

It's my fault.

Forgive me, Mother.

There's nothing to forgive.

Believe my words.

I'm someone who doesn't say empty words.

OK?

Yes.

I'm going.

Be well.

Good bye, Mother.

Go inside.

Oh, you're here?

Yes.

- Honey, your brother's here. - I'll be going now.

Yes.

- Have a safe trip home. - Yes.

Noona.

Yeah.

- Why is Ye Eun crying? - I don't know.

Ye Eun. Why are you crying?

Did you wake up? Did you have a dream?

Uncle. Uncle.

Here, let's sleep. That's enough.

That's enough.

Crying stopped.

I'm going to eat.

Just try.

It's all right, Noona.

Noona, you're being really strange.

What if I drop her?

Why would you drop her? You can just hold her like this.

It's easy. It's not that difficult.

What if I throw her?

Why are you saying such nonsense?

Because I'm nonsense. Am I making sense to you?

All right. All right, Noona.

I'm scared.

I'm scared I might kill her.

That won't happen, Noona.

Why do you think such ridiculous things?

I could even start hallucinating.

What if that suddenly happens?

What if I have the urge to kill?

Noona!

Stop nagging me!

I've thought about it too.

You have no idea.

That boy thinks I'm stupid.

Can you teach him?

Mother is gone.

Shall we listen to some music?

Yeah.

Sure. Let's listen to music.

I love you.

I'll love you tomorrow.

Tomorrow I'll love you 7,000 times more than today.

Eat. The vegetables are really fresh.

I think Ye Eun should be sent to Bangbae-dong.

What are you saying?

I�

� think � I'm dirty.

Like someone inside a place with blackened windows.

That kind of feeling.

Or else... like the sun has set and it is dark, in a place I don't know...

In a fog where I can't see even ten meters in front.

You know,

how much I like to be sure.

To be clear.

I know.

How hard I tried to be like that.

To turn a sense of inferiority into self-esteem.

I kept it close so I wouldn't get caught.

That's what I did.

Back then � everything � the world�

I knew everything by name.

But now�

� a lot of things have changed.

I have lost confidence in everything and I �

I feel like I'm wearing layers and layers of clothing,

and I have become dull, like a giant ball of snow.

I�

I don't have confidence in anything.

Above all else�

I can't trust myself.

Shall we go into the room?

What was I talking about?

Ye Eun.

What about Ye Eun?

Bangbae-dong.

Oh.

Yes, send her to Bangbae-dong.

I think it is better for her there than here.

But Seo Yeon,

Ye Eun is our child.

I'm the daddy and you're the mommy.

I don't want to start soiling myself when Ye Eun is here.

That's still hasn't happened.

It'll be that way soon.

But that'll be all right.

It doesn't matter.

It's too hard on my aunt.

What if she has a relapse because of me?

My aunt has had cancer.

- Let's look for other help. - The help is not it.

Give your mother a call.

I feel so terrible, I can't do it.

All right, Seo Yeon.

All right.

I'll do it.

I'll do it.

The lonely flower.

If all my blood flows,

Then � I won't be able to see you again.

Buried in the cold ground.

Like my disheveled mind.

Don't forget.

Remember.

My � sad love, remember it.

My sad love, remember it.

Ji Hyung.

Ji Hyung.

Ji Hyung.

Ji Hyung.

Yeah. What?

Noona �

Noona �

Noona �

What's the matter?

Noona.

She jumped, Ji Hyung.

Your noona is sleeping. What are you talking about?

She's sleeping?

Noona is sleeping? Are you sure?

Did you dream it?

But why is it so cold here?

Turn on the lights.

Let's clear out everything in the balcony.

Let's clean it all up.

Yes.

You're making it a prison.

What is that? It's ugly.

Why do we need that?

Because I may fall and die?

Are you crazy? Anyone falling from there would become ugly, so why would I?

I told you it's because of robbers.

Even if I die, I'll die pretty.

I'm not going to fall and die bleeding.

It's not like that.

Did Aunt say something to you?

No.

Then why are you suddenly doing something like that?

I said it's because of robbers.

Don't think I'm stupid. You're doing that because of me.

Fine.

It's because of you.

You went out there one night and stood on a stool.

Me?

Me?

You.

I'm sorry.

I don't remember.

Moon Kwon.

Yes?

It needs to cool a little longer.

Yes.

Look at me.

Lift your head, Seo Yeon.

I know what you're thinking.

Never.

Don't ever betray me.

Don't make me go crazy.

Don't think you're making me miserable.

Throw away the thought that you have to do something for me.

That's not what I want.

What I want is to talk to you as we look at each other,

feel your presence,

see you.

I'm sorry.

Those words are unnecessary. Don't say them.

I'll tell you why.

I am you and you are my life.

We know each other.

You shouldn't say sorry to me, as you would to a stranger.

I don't like it.

I know.

I hate it.

I know.

I � want to disappear.

No.

If you disappear, then I disappear too.

Getting married � we shouldn't have done it.

No.

It is a good thing.

I wanted to be happy.

I thought we'd be happy.

We are happy.

I �

I am an empty house without an owner.

But you are still my wife and Ye Eun's mother.

Don't run away from me.

For my sake � don't think about those things.

Just think of me.

I love you.

I love you, Seo Yeon.

Wasting space in a research lab is foolish.

It's not just a place for the patients and family to be together.

No architect thinks merely of the practicalities of the building.

They also want to express their philosophy or create art.

That's fine. I pretended to hear half of what you said, so let's move on.

What construction company are you thinking of going with?

The Sil Moo team is talking to a couple of places.

What about the people you used before?

The Sil Moo team is the most precise.

Let's leave it to them.

All right.

I'll leave it all to you.

That's what you say, but then get involved in everything.

Oh, your granddaughter has grown quite a bit?

Yeah. She's gained a lot of weight.

Her hands have grown a lot.

I don't know what's wrong with my kids.

Hyang Gi is as is, so I can't do anything about it.

Young Soo turns his head every time I mention marriage.

When will I get to hold my grandchild?

When their time comes it'll happen.

How's your daughter-in-law's condition? How bad is it?

Well �

I heard it's gotten quite bad after giving birth.

Birth is tough even for a healthy person,

but she stopped taking medication during her pregnancy.

Of course it's gotten worse.

Yeah, of course.

Want me to show you my granddaughter's picture?

You just go around carrying your granddaughter's picture.

Yeah.

Oh she's cute.

Her eyes are twinkling.

She's going to be smart.

I'm jealous. I am honestly jealous.

It's strange.

Whenever this kid is at the house, it becomes warm and I feel all mushy.

That's enough, OK?

Sorry. I'm sorry.

That loser girl.

She's going around trying to find a second Park Ji Hyung.

You think I'm just saying this?

Aigoo, I'm going to fall backwards and die.

Too short. Too fat. He's bald.

Eyes are cold. Voice sounds too feminine.

I don't like hairy guys. The guy's complexion is too pale.

He talks too much.

He's too fickle, too stupid, no personal taste.

Turn that all upside down.

She's looking for Ji Hyung.

But at least she's not refusing to go out.

That girl is just teasing me.

No way.

- Hyang Gi is not � - You don't know.

Hyang Gi is corrupted because of your son.

She's patronizing me.

�Yes, Mom.� �I know, Mom.�

Her doing that is just to shut me up.

But in the process, she may find someone she likes.

Think positive.

I try. I think it's better than her being holed up in her room.

I try.

If she finds someone who's meant for her, I'm sure she'll change.

Of course.

But she was always saying �Park Ji Hyung, Park Ji Hyun�, so who will catch her eye?

Just looking at her gets me so annoyed.

We're finished.

We've prepared everything, madam.

We're finished.

Let's go out.

Go on ahead. I'll be 10 minutes.

Do it later.

Want to eat dinner with these clothes and stink up the place?

Wait for me. I won't be more than ten minutes.

- Let's go in. Let's go. - Yes.

You haven't gone out yet?

I'm going out now, Dad.

I thought you'd already left.

We're just about to start, so eat lunch before you leave.

I'm going out because I'm supposed to meet someone.

Eat here before you go out. Food outside doesn't taste good.

Ahjumma.

- Have a good time. - Yes.

- Ahjussi, enjoy your meal. - Oh, yeah.

Let's go.

I'll clean up the rest.

I'll leave it to you.

You need to get ready.

We have a guest coming.

Oh, I'm finished.

Play.

My face looks strange.

What is?

Face. It looks strange.

Not at all. Not even a little strange.

It looks gloomy.

That's because you're looking at it with a gloomy expression.

Try smiling.

I need to take a shower first.

You already did.

You just need to brush your teeth.

Could you get me some cold water?

I need to be alert.

All right. Wait a minute.

Brush your teeth.

Ye Eun. Ye Eun. Peek-a-boo!

You need to look over here.

Ye Eun. Ye Eun.

You're not listening to me.

Cock-a-doodle-doo!

We're having a guest coming over.

Take Ye Eun into the room and play.

Yes. Who is it?

Noona's guest.

Who?

Later.

- That one. - Yes.

- This one also. - Yes.

Doesn't it look too office?

What about this one?

That makes me look stupid.

Why does it look stupid? It makes you look cute.

You're not helping. Go outside.

All right then.

I'm here. Can I come up?

Come on up.

Welcome.

Come on in.

Hyang Gi is here.

Come here.

This is Ye Eun's mom.

I am No Hyang Gi.

I am Lee Seo Yeon

Yes.

Honey, could you make us some tea?

Sure.

Hyang Gi, what do you want?

- Coffee. - Me too.

Sit. Sit and talk.

He's such a nagger. Sit.

Yes.

Here.

Flowers and mouth are both tender.

On the ends of branches, frost covers them all in white.

But my body, is aching and cold.

It's frighteningly cold.

All the spring days in my life are gone.

Kim Yong Taek's poem.

Sit.

Yes.

Hyang Gi.

Yes?

The name No Hyang Gi has never left my mind.

Thanks.

But it's all right.

I thought about this a lot.

Then you don't need it.

You're much prettier than the picture I saw on the cell phone.

I saw your wedding album at ahjumma's house.

So it seems like I know you.

How much pain and hardship you must have endured.

Even more so than when I left him so he could be with you,

you probably hurt a lot.

Yes.

I was hit by lightning.

I wanted to meet you and ask forgiveness.

I know I have no right.

I'm sorry.

I told oppa that's not necessary. It's the truth.

The two hearts are in love.

Oppa and I never felt that.

Oppa never loved me.

I was hit then shattered.

Oppa is �

I'm calling him �oppa� also.

Oppa, what are you doing?

Making coffee.

I don't have much time.

If by that time, your feelings for Oppa haven't cooled,

when I am gone, if you could stay by his side �

I know I'm being shameless,

Perhaps � Park Ji Hyung � more than me �

You know him very well.

I'm sorry. My head is splitting.

Oppa! Oppa!

Head. She says her head hurts.

Medicine, Seo Yeon. Take your medicine.

What should I do?

I am so pitiful. I can't.

What should I do? What should I do?

Just � she said, �sorry� � just ...

It's all right.

It's all right, Seo Yeon. It's all right.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I've ruined everything.

I'm sorry. Sorry.

I don't blame you at all.

Don't cry. Don't cry, unnie.

It's Pororo. Pororo.

Isn't it good?

Oh, it's a shark.

Yes, aunt.

Is noona sleeping?

What guest?

Did you eat lunch?

No. I overdid it at the wedding, so I'm not feeling well.

Is Ye Eun doing well?

That's fine. All right.

Don't do anything and just lie down.

Drink this while it's warm.

Wait a moment.

Don't let her do anything.

Yes.

Don't come out.

Good bye, Father.

A shot will heal you faster, Mom.

No, I'm fine.

I just need to sleep under the covers.

Sleeping is better than ten shots.

The child is playing well and nothing to worry about.

Yes.

Seo Yeon has a guest.

Must be from the publishing company.

Maybe that youngest staff.

That girl and Seo Yeon got along the best.

Cute and makes a good impression.

Yes.

If it were her, Seo Yeon would also approve.

I feel bad towards the baby, but maybe she shouldn't have had the child.

Doesn't feed her milk.

Doesn't hold her.

If she's just going to stare at her, why did she have the child with her body?

Why didn't they take me?

Why don't they take me and leave her?

Buddha and God �

� so evil.

Lie down.

All right. Go and read your books.

Don't worry about me and read your books.

Want me to raise the heater?

No. No, no � no need.

Rest.

How's mom? Is her fever down?

It's down.

I bought some kalbi and pork for Seo Yeon.

Yes.

I don't think she's eating these days. She's lost weight.

Where are you going?

For a walk.

I'm going.

Sorry. And thanks.

Not at all oppa. Just �

It hurts.

It really hurts.

Oppa, I'll think about it.

Honestly.

OK. Thanks.

Tell her that I'm happy I met her.

That it's clear that you love her

Noona, are you taking a shower?

May I open the door?

Noona, this isn't it.

You didn't take off your clothes. You'll ruin them.

Noona. Noona.

All right. Come on out first. Come on out.

Don't touch me.

Don't touch me. Don't touch me.

Don't touch me.

Your noona?

Go inside.

She didn't realize the bathtub was overflowing.

She was fully clothed in the bathtub, then came out and is lying down.

It's because you're too tired.

You must be tired.

Let's change your clothes and go out, Seo Yeon.

Let's listen to some music and rest.

Then you'll be better.

You'll be better.

Ok.

Who was the guest earlier?

The person whom I was going to marry.

Why did she come to our house?

That's what your noona wanted.

Probably to apologize.

She must have concentrated hard not to make any mistakes.

She must have been so stressed.

Yeah.

Noona wanted me to bring this to you. New set of cookies.

Noona is sleeping.

Oh. What about Ji Hyung?

In his room. Go in.

What is he doing?

Noona made a mess, so he's changing the bed sheets.

No, not like that. She went on the bed with wet clothes.

Why?

Jae Min hyung is here. I'll do this, you go out.

I'm going crazy.