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Sex is an important part
of being a human being.
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We are not talking about sex
in the trans community.
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When people in our
community say,
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"Don't ask me
about my genitals,"
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I have to disagree, and I want
to talk about my genitals
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because I live an amazing
life with a vagina.
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[ Cheers and applause ]
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**
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Karley:
I love talking to my girlfriends about sex stuff.
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It's like a sewing circle,
but for sluts.
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[ Telephone rings ]
Oh, that must be one of my slutty friends now.
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Nomi: Hey, girl.
It's Nomi.
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You know what we don't talk
about enough?
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-What?
-Sex in the trans community.
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True.
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I wonder why.
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**
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I'm not transgender
and therefore cannot speak
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to the trans experience.
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But as a sex-positive,
slut-positive feminist,
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I've always found
talking openly
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about sex extremely
valuable and fun.
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My friend Nomi Ruiz
is a singer, performer,
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and an outspoken voice
in the trans community.
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I really appreciate you
talking to me about sex
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because it's
my favorite subject.
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Oh, my God. Mine too.
That's why we get along so well.
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Sex is a big part of my brand.
It's a big part of my message.
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It's a big part
of my music and my art.
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I would love to, like,
see it more in pop culture
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and people having more fun
with conversations with it
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and, like,
not taking it so serious
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and just, like,
having fun with sex. I agree.
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Last year, I interviewed Nomi
in an article for Vogue,
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where she described
her experience
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going through gender
confirmation surgery
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and how it affected
her sex life.
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How do you think
the conversation around sex
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within the trans
community has evolved
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over the past
handful of years?
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We've really made
a big impact on culture,
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which is amazing.
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At the same time,
in Hollywood,
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they have been exploiting
the trans narrative.
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When people think of
Laverne Cox
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and other prominent trans
people were saying,
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"Stop talking about surgery,
stop talking about sex,"
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did you agree
with them to a degree?
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Your private parts
are different now, aren't they?
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I don't want to talk about it
because it's really personal.
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The preoccupation with
transition, with surgery,
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objectifies trans people,
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and then we don't get
to really deal
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with the real
lived experiences,
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the reality of trans
people's lives.
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I feel that, you know,
my community has done a lot
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to create boundaries
with society
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that let people know they don't
have access to our bodies
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and that we are entitled
to our privacy,
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and we shouldn't
be objectified.
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If you wouldn't ask
that to, like...
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-Tom Cruise.
-...Nicole Kidman, yeah,
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then why would you feel like you
have access to that information?
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But, at the same time,
I feel like those boundaries
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have made it a little difficult
to talk about sex and sexuality.
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Not talking about
something sometimes
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makes it feel shameful,
and it isn't.
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And so, somehow, we have to,
like, break the barrier
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because there is a time
and place to talk about sex.
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It's okay
to talk about sex.
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It should be your choice.
It should be...
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You know, you should be
in control of that dialogue
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and that narrative.
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Sluts.
Sluts for life.
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[ Laughs ]
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Karley: Clear boundaries
have been set
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in regard
to conversations around sex
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in order to respect the privacy
of transgender people,
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but there is a movement
within the trans community
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to open up a dialogue
around sex and sexuality
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in a respectful, healthy way.
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So I came to LA to meet
Cameron and Aly,
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a couple who have a particularly
unique personal story.
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Hey.
Hi, how are you?
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Hi.
Come on in.
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Thank you.
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I was born in the same town
Cameron is from.
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Small world.
I know.
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But that's not
how you met, right?
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-No.
-No. Not at all.
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We actually met through
social media initially.
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-Millennial.
-Yeah.
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Yeah.
It was Instagram, actually.
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We started
following each other.
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I remember I got
that message from you.
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The modern-day rom-com,
like, "I slid into your DMs."
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Seriously.
Slid into the DMs.
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[ Laughs ]
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You should make breakfast.
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You can help me.
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Well, we'll make it
together.
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Yeah, buddy.
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How would you like
your eggs?
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Scrambled.
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Things don't always,
you know,
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appear as they are
at first glance.
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A stranger would maybe assume
that we were cis and straight.
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We do receive that
cis-hetero-passing privilege,
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and we should be bringing
to light the fact
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that
we're actually trans,
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and then we've had, you know,
surgeries and whatnot,
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so we can kind of challenge
people's perceptions
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and assumptions.
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Aside from, like,
the serendipity of meeting each other,
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both being trans,
both being from the same place,
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you guys also were going through
the experience of surgery
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at almost
exactly the same time.
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Yeah, it's crazy that,
within months of each other,
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we had surgery.
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It also seems like
a very difficult
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and intense time
in your lives.
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I don't think there was a lot
of difficulty for me, at least.
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We had different surgeries,
right, and so just, for me,
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like,
adjusting to a new body,
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which I talked
before with you,
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yeah, it's --
I mean, you change.
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You change physically.
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It's something that takes
time to adjust.
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10 --
T-minus 10, 9...
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Put extra love into it,
babe.
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[ Chuckles ]
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[ Microwave beeps ]
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Yes.
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There's been changes in our
intimacy as far as, like, sex.
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Before, I was awkward
because I wasn't comfortable
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with what I had,
and then now I'm awkward
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because I don't know
what to do with what I have.
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I think that's been
a difficult part.
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Why did you guys think it was
important to talk publicly
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about your relationship
and your sexuality?
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I wanted to just talk
about it and, like,
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so someone
doesn't feel alone.
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Like, they might be
feeling like,
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"Oh, I'm a freak.
I can't figure out my body."
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They're not alone.
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Yeah, I think it's just great
to bring visibility
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to all the different kinds
of trans experiences out there.
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I mean, there's not just
one way to be trans.
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It's important to just shed
light on all the different,
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you know, ways that trans
people can be sexual.
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[ Laughs ]
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It's painful.
It's really painful.
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Yeah,
I'd be scared of that.
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Gender is all
socially constructed.
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People are so hung up on it,
and it's all bullshit.
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I remember you said, "Oh, I
don't like oral sex from guys."
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And I didn't even realize it was
just because the guys sucked.
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Karley:
Cameron and Aly have supported each other through recovery
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after their
gender-confirming surgeries.
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But of course they each had
their own unique experience.
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Today,
Cameron is getting back
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to his regular
iron-pumping routine,
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so I am joining him
at the gym
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to sit on the sidelines
in a leather skirt
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and lazily watch him sweat.
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I honestly identified
as a butch lesbian for, like,
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the first 25 years
or so of my life.
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And, also,
I'm a very physical person.
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I was a semi-professional
rugby player at one point.
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My journey, discovering
my trans identity,
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came during the years
that I was playing rugby.
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The fitter I am,
the better I pass.
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And is this the first time
you're working out?
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Yeah, 7 weeks post-op,
and this is the first time
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I've been back in a gym,
so it feels really good.
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You got top surgery.
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Yes.
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Can you explain
what that means?
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My surgeon was able to reduce
the size of my breast tissue,
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and he did a procedure where he
actually kept the blood supply
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and the nerve ending
attached to the nipples,
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and then made them
more cis-looking,
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which means smaller
and farther out to the side.
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I feel much more
comfortable in my skin now
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after having top surgery.
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I would oftentimes wear shirts
or tank tops during sex,
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never be completely
naked with your partner.
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And now I can be, so that's,
like, another level of intimacy
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that you can achieve,
right?
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You know, fuck
having tits, right?
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It's like...
[ Laughs ]
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Do you identify
as a straight man?
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To be technical,
it is heterosexual
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because I'm attracted
to the opposite,
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but I say, overall,
I identify as trans queer
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because I still want to honor
my queer experience of,
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you know, those 25 years of
being a stone-cold butch dyke.
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It just
is so complicated.
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It feels like, at a point
with sexuality and gender,
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it's, like, should we just,
like, have no labels
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because
it's, like, too much.
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Gender is all socially
constructed anyway,
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so it's all bullshit.
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People
are so hung up on it,
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and it's so important
to just realize, like,
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the fluidity of people's
gender expression
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and then their sexuality,
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and it so beautifully
evolves for a lot of us.
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It's not just fixed
in one way.
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Karley: For Cameron, surgery has
increased his confidence
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and his ability
to be intimate.
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But the process of recovery
can be complex.
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Aly: I had my surgery
about 7 months ago.
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Everybody just thinks like,
"Oh, a penis or, like,
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a clitoris are not the same,"
but they're very similar.
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And so they just, like, reshape
it and, like, reposition, right?
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There's a very physical process
that you have to go
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through in recovery
to surgery, right?
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Mm-hmm.
There's a muscle in that area.
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That muscle is not used
to having a cavity,
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so if you don't
keep it open, it'll close.
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So it's really
important to dilate.
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You have to dilate
every day.
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Can you explain
what dilation is?
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So you pretty much get this
silicone rod dildo-type thing.
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It's not as erotic
as it sounds.
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It's just really hard.
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Do you want to see them?
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Yeah.
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It's made perfectly
to fit,
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and it has little dots
to indicate the size.
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They're a little thicker
at the ends,
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but they're
all the same length.
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I started with this one.
This is the one I learned with.
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My depth
is about right here.
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And then this one, I'm terrified
of just because it...
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I mean, it's not that thick,
but it looks...
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Yeah,
I'd be scared of that.
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It looks big.
It's painful.
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It's really painful,
and your nerves,
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they become numb
from kind of the trauma
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they go through,
and they start coming back,
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and it hurts like hell.
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There's depression too.
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I'm still depressed,
I feel,
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and I didn't think
I would be depressed.
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You would think that
I'd be really happy, and...
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What do you think
the depression is from?
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As a trans woman, I guess
I have expectations for myself
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that I've created
since I was very little
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of what
I want to look like.
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I thought, "Once I get surgery,
I'll be happy,"
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but I'm still not.
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Do other people in the community
or other trans women
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who have gone through surgery
talk about something similar?
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So when I looked online to see
if it had the information
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regarding
post-op about sex,
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about post-op life,
it was really hard to find.
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There seemed to be kind of,
like, shame
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and kind of a stigma
to talk about it.
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It takes a lot
of courage for Aly
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to open up about how she's still
struggling after her surgery.
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It reminds me
of what Nomi said
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about going through
similar struggles.
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When I decided to have my
surgery, I just felt so isolated
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and so alone,
and I was, like, terrified.
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There was just so much
that I didn't expect, you know,
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and it's been
a learning process.
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Still, to this day, I'm learning
more and more and more.
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If we just talk about it more,
I think it doesn't have to be
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so isolating and so scary.
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What do you want to say to
young women of trans experience
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about sex
and about sexuality
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that you wish someone had
told you when you were younger?
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I feel like a lot of girls
going through this journey
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blame their body, or, like,
they blame their trans-ness.
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I remember there was this
one guy going down on me
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for, like, an hour,
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and I'm trying to get into it
because I'm like,
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"I have to enjoy this.
It would suck if I don't."
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And I'm like, "It's a disaster.
I can't focus. I'm in pain."
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I'm just like, "What is...
something..."
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And I would blame it
on myself.
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And I didn't even realize it was
just because the guy sucked.
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And then, like, when I kept,
you know, trying,
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and I met something
that was amazing,
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it was,
of course, heavenly.
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Oh, it's real.
It's so real.
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That's what I want to share
with other people.
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There is, like, a beautiful
light at the end of the tunnel.
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It's liberating to a woman
who has been forced
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to have this open mind
with sex
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and sexuality and gender
and the human body.
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It's sexy, you know.
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I think so.
I think so too.
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Sluts!
[ Laughs ]
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It was embarrassing to be
a man with a vagina.
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And there were my fingers,
inside of me,
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and I had the most
amazing orgasm of my life.
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Karley: Few people have
advocated for the importance
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of an open
conversation around sex
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in the trans community
more than Buck Angel.
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Buck is an LGBTQ activist,
a sex educator,
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a sex-toy inventor,
and a pornographer.
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Respect.
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Karley: Do you think that now
we're finally getting to a point
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where the idea
of transsexuality
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is something
that we can talk about,
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and people are
more accepting of?
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No. I don't think so.
[ Laughs ] No.
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I tend to be one of
the only people
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out there really pushing
for talking about,
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you know, sex within
the trans community,
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and I get a lot of pushback
from parts of this community,
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of the trans community, that I
don't speak for the community.
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I don't speak for
anybody but myself.
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Some of us choose to talk
about our genitals,
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and some of us don't.
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But I think, by not having
the conversation,
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we have shut down
our own needs
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and our own desires
and our own self-awareness.
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Buck also holds
workshops to promote
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an open conversation
around sex.
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And, tonight, he's invited me
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to join one of his
candid group hangs.
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I started my workshops because
I wanted to start to help guys
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to figure out
how to get to that
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next level of accepting
your body sexually
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and actually
engaging physically.
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Hi, everybody.
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Thanks for coming.
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It's so awesome that
you guys all showed up.
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[ Laughs ]
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Sex is an important part
of being a human being,
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and one of the things
that totally changed my life
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was learning how
to have sex in my body,
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which was the body
I hated most of my life.
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So I started to have
to think to myself,
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"Will I be a man
with my vagina?"
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because the world
says no.
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So this is exactly how
I decided not to get a penis --
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masturbation.
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One day, in my secret
little masturbation club
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that I would have at home
under my covers,
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I would jack off.
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And there I was,
jacking off all crazy,
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and then my fingers
slipped inside of me,
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and I had never been
penetrated before.
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Never wanted to.
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That felt very feminine
to me.
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It felt like it was
woman's stuff,
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and I'm not interested
in that.
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And there were my fingers,
inside of me,
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and I had the most
amazing orgasm of my life
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that I will never forget.
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That is definitely
when the clouds parted,
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and I was like,
"I saw God,"
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and I was like, "And why would
I get rid of my vagina?"
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Now, I don't want you to think
that my whole process in that
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is to discourage people from
having surgery because it isn't.
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My message
is to be yourself.
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If you want to have
bottom surgery, do it.
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If you don't, no.
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But the point is is that I live
an amazing life with a vagina.
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When I used to go
to trans support groups,
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the most important question
that the facilitator
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had said one day is like,
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"What you need
to ask yourself is,
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'When is it going
to be enough?'" Right.
370
00:16:20,102 --> 00:16:21,303
"'When are you going to
be enough?'" Right.
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Because, yeah,
it could be XYZ,
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and you're still not happy,
so...
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Happiness comes from inside.
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Exactly.
That's the key.
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It's so simple.
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Like, this is your journey.
Do it your way.
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Like, I'm not on testosterone,
and I'm comfortable with that,
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00:16:34,249 --> 00:16:35,650
and guys ask me all the time,
"Yo, bro, like,
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how did you
get that beard?"
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And I'm like, "Oh, well,
I went another route,"
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because a lot of bros
don't know
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you can have beard
transplant surgery.
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There are options that
you can do for yourself.
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You don't have to compare
and contrast
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yourself to other people.
Every single one of us in this room
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have been brainwashed to feel
gender is a certain way,
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"You don't have a penis,
you're not a man."
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That's controlling.
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With that said, a lot of
trans men are not at the level
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I'm at with my vagina.
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So what I said to myself was,
"How do I get trans men
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to feel comfortable
in their bodies?"
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So I kept thinking, "How can
I get them, how can I get them,"
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00:17:09,384 --> 00:17:12,020
and I'm like, "A toy."
395
00:17:12,054 --> 00:17:15,557
This is the very first
transgender male sex toy
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in the world.
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So I designed it specifically
to have the look
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of a penis a little bit,
right?
399
00:17:22,530 --> 00:17:25,667
So this fits over top
of the clitoris like that,
400
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so now when you're masturbating,
what are you doing?
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You're jacking off.
402
00:17:30,405 --> 00:17:32,474
So instead of touching
your vagina,
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00:17:32,507 --> 00:17:34,342
you're jacking off
like a guy.
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00:17:34,376 --> 00:17:37,545
So that was an amazing thing,
to be able to create a product
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that gave men permission
to masturbate
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00:17:41,183 --> 00:17:42,384
and gave men permission
to say,
407
00:17:42,417 --> 00:17:44,419
"My body is okay,
and I'm okay."
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So I have guys writing me
now and saying,
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00:17:46,721 --> 00:17:50,758
"I don't even use it anymore.
I now touch myself."
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That, to me,
is everything.
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If you do not love your body and
you don't understand your body,
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however your body is,
nobody else will love your body.
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I equate a lot of myself
and my confidence to sex,
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and it's why I like
to talk about sex
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and why I think, within
the trans community,
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we better start
to talk about sex.
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[ Cheers and applause ]
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I thank you guys.
I appreciate it.
419
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Karley: Buck's talk was such
a great experience.
420
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It was really clear how
important his work is to people.
421
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I just think that
it's so healthy for people
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to talk about sex in, like,
such a raw and honest way, like,
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whether you're trans
or not trans.
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People are looking
for an opportunity
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to have that conversation,
and him being so open about it
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00:18:34,369 --> 00:18:35,603
is really giving
people permission
427
00:18:35,637 --> 00:18:36,871
to start talking about that.
428
00:18:36,904 --> 00:18:39,307
What up, bro?
Nice to meet you finally.
429
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It's kind of been, like, taboo
to talk about sex
430
00:18:41,309 --> 00:18:42,810
within the trans community.
431
00:18:42,844 --> 00:18:44,679
So with Buck inviting
this conversation, it's like,
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00:18:44,712 --> 00:18:46,448
"Wow. Okay.
433
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It is uncomfortable.
It's different.
434
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We're different,
but we're valued, we're human,
435
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and we deserve
the right to have sex."
436
00:18:52,187 --> 00:18:54,456
Sex is fun.
Yeah. It's great. I love it.
437
00:18:54,489 --> 00:18:56,658
Aly: As a person,
I finally feel free.
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00:18:56,691 --> 00:19:01,263
I feel liberated, but I don't
feel that way around sex.
439
00:19:04,499 --> 00:19:08,903
**
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Aly:
When it came to transitioning,
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I've never thought
about my sexuality.
442
00:19:14,342 --> 00:19:16,511
I've transitioned for myself.
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But being post-op, I want to
feel pleasure with my partner.
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Karley:
How would you say that the way that you guys are intimate
445
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with each other
has changed as you've gone
446
00:19:30,425 --> 00:19:33,661
through these parts
of your transition together?
447
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As a person, I feel free.
448
00:19:35,330 --> 00:19:36,698
I finally free.
449
00:19:36,731 --> 00:19:39,534
I feel liberated,
but I don't feel that way
450
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around sex right now.
451
00:19:41,403 --> 00:19:45,273
Do you have goals
for your sex life?
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00:19:45,307 --> 00:19:47,909
I have a goal I guess just to
be comfortable with my body
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00:19:47,942 --> 00:19:52,947
so I could just be
as freaky as possible... [ Laughs ]
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...without feeling
uncomfortable.
455
00:19:54,782 --> 00:19:57,385
You know, having penetrative
sex, that is a goal,
456
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I think, of ours.
457
00:19:58,986 --> 00:20:02,657
We're still so freshly,
you know, out of Aly's surgery
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that we're still
in a stage of her
459
00:20:04,592 --> 00:20:05,827
getting used to dilating,
460
00:20:05,860 --> 00:20:09,231
getting used to
having penetration.
461
00:20:09,264 --> 00:20:12,267
We understand that that's,
you know, going to take time,
462
00:20:12,300 --> 00:20:15,903
and I think it's just
being respectful of her
463
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and creating that
safe space for her
464
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to be more and more
comfortable it key.
465
00:20:20,375 --> 00:20:21,776
-So respectful.
-Like, literally.
466
00:20:21,809 --> 00:20:22,810
It's so funny.
467
00:20:22,844 --> 00:20:25,913
It's just it feels good.
468
00:20:25,947 --> 00:20:29,217
I think that dating a dude
who is really concerned
469
00:20:29,251 --> 00:20:30,552
with your sexual pleasure
is literally the
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00:20:30,585 --> 00:20:33,821
Holy Grail for anyone.
471
00:20:33,855 --> 00:20:35,523
Yeah, definitely.
472
00:20:35,557 --> 00:20:40,462
**
473
00:20:40,495 --> 00:20:43,398
That's what I love
about being with Cameron.
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I understand him.
He understands me.
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00:20:45,867 --> 00:20:48,570
And, you know,
we talk about sex.
476
00:20:48,603 --> 00:20:52,940
We have communication,
and I think it's very unique.
477
00:20:52,974 --> 00:20:55,610
I think, and I hope that,
as a culture,
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we are finally
beginning to understand
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or to expand the definition
of sex beyond just,
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like, this heteronormative
idea of,
481
00:21:01,583 --> 00:21:03,518
like, you go like this,
you know what I mean?
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-Right.
-Right.
483
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And that's true
for straight people, cis people,
484
00:21:07,822 --> 00:21:09,991
queer people, right?
-Yeah.
485
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People, whatever they are,
trans, cis,
486
00:21:13,361 --> 00:21:17,632
it's not just about parts
fitting together, absolutely.
487
00:21:17,665 --> 00:21:22,670
It's, you know, it also
takes place on a higher plane.
488
00:21:22,704 --> 00:21:25,039
No matter what your gender
or sexual orientation,
489
00:21:25,072 --> 00:21:28,410
engaging in open conversations
around sex and sexuality
490
00:21:28,443 --> 00:21:31,813
can be transformative
not only on a personal level
491
00:21:31,846 --> 00:21:34,682
but for society at large.
492
00:21:34,716 --> 00:21:37,285
Plus respectful
conversations around sex
493
00:21:37,319 --> 00:21:40,822
are just undeniably sexy.
494
00:21:40,855 --> 00:21:46,861
I'm hopeful that it'll get
better as the months go by.
495
00:21:46,894 --> 00:21:51,499
It's wonderful that I have
Cameron who is understanding.
496
00:21:51,533 --> 00:21:54,469
Learning how to please
the other partner
497
00:21:54,502 --> 00:21:56,938
is just kind of something
you're always learning
498
00:21:56,971 --> 00:21:59,774
and always constantly
evolving in a relationship.
499
00:21:59,807 --> 00:22:01,843
I don't think you ever stop
learning your partner
500
00:22:01,876 --> 00:22:04,346
no matter how long
you're together.
501
00:22:06,481 --> 00:22:09,083
I was able to experience,
you know, love and intimacy
502
00:22:09,116 --> 00:22:15,357
in giving Aly pleasure
before and after surgery.
503
00:22:15,390 --> 00:22:18,326
It's just reinforcing the fact
that it's about the person.
504
00:22:18,360 --> 00:22:22,096
It's not about
the plumbing.
505
00:22:22,129 --> 00:22:24,599
Sex is more
than just physical.
506
00:22:24,632 --> 00:22:27,101
It's also, like,
the spiritual connection.
507
00:22:27,134 --> 00:22:32,540
**
508
00:22:32,574 --> 00:22:37,779
**
509
00:22:37,829 --> 00:22:42,379
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