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Shaun, did you undress me?

Except your underpants.

How long have you been here?

All night.

You should be at work.

I'm taking the day off.

No, you should be at work.

You're sick all the time,
not just after hours.

Shaun, you shouldn't
give up your life.

You have my number.
You check in with me.

I have 15 paid vacation days
and 10 sick days per year,

but I can only
take sick days
when I'm sick,

not when you are,
so this is a vacation.

(SIGHS)

The plan is
to align your eyes

using what's called
distraction osteogenesis.

We cut the bone
and implant posts

on either side
of your eye orbits.

Then we slowly expand
that distance,

allowing for new bone
to grow in the gaps.

MOLLY: Will it hurt?

Mmm, for mere mortals
it would,

but with your
pain tolerance,
it'll tickle.

You up for this?

So I'll have
perfectly aligned eyes

but still look like
a wad of chewing gum.

Molly...

You lost an awful lot
of bone and soft tissue
in the accident,

and in terms of
facial reconstruction,

we've actually come a long way
in the past two years.

CLAIRE:
And after 12 surgeries,

you get your own
personalized coffee mug.

Oh, I forgot about that.

Okay, when can
we get prepped?

Is now too soon?
(CHUCKLES)

Car accident.
Karin Tindle, 14.

She was sleeping
in the back.

Trucker in the oncoming lane
fell asleep.

She wasn't
wearing a seatbelt.

Head trauma,
not responsive,

GCS of 5 with
decorticate posturing.

Sounds like
a bleed in the brain.

And she has a 25-point
difference in blood pressures
between her arms.

Possible aortic dissection.
Head and heart.

Page Dr. Melendez.
Have him meet us
in the OR.

Have you contacted
Karin's father?

He passed away
three years ago.

Let's go.

Why isn't she waking up?

We're gonna take
good care of her.

(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)

DR. PARK: CT confirmed
an aortic dissection.

She needs a thoracotomy.

Aorta hasn't ruptured yet...

And she has
a pseudoaneurysm.

We need to get after
her head trauma first.

I don't see
any major brain bleeds

and we can monitor
pressures.

In this case,
the heart trumps the head.

Okay.

I have two major symptoms,

nausea and boredom.

I didn't know boredom was
a symptom of chemotherapy.

It's a symptom of
sitting on my ass all day.

I used to run
a 700-bed hospital

with a staff of thousands.

Now all I have to think about
is how I keep my food down

and how many bowel movements
I've had all week.

Four.

And I don't have to
think about that.

You know what I need?

My meds.

Will you do me a favor

and run
and pick these up?

When I come back,
we can do Mad Libs.

DR. MELENDEZ: Unclamp.

Graft is holding.

DR. LIM: That's one
fire out. Drill.

DR. REZNICK: Pupils are blown.

DR. PARK: ICPs are
spiking way up,

brain perfusion CPP
is down.

She needs
a hemicraniectomy.

Let's sit her up.

It's marijuana.

Yes, it is.

It's marijuana.

Medicinal marijuana.
Hold on.

One for the boredom.

One for the nausea.

Can I try one?

I met someone
who said cannabidiol

improved his ASD symptoms.

A person?

You met a person once?

Shaun, have you heard of
the scientific method?

I'd like to perform
a practical,

albeit anecdotal,
experiment.

Since you're on vacation

and we can keep an eye out
on each other...

One. One. Uh, whoa.

One. Take one.

DR. LIM: Cruciate
wide incision of the dura.

Brain edema.
She's bradycardic.

Push another 50 grams
of Mannitol

and ventilate down
her CO2.

DR. REZNICK:
No corneal reflex.
No overbreathing vent.

DR. MELENDEZ:
No brain stem reflexes.

She's brain-dead.

(SIGHS)

(MONITOR BEEPING)
(VENTILATOR HISSING)

(GLASS SHATTERS)
DR. GLASSMAN: Fore!

(BOTH LAUGH)

You broke my house.

You got to club down.
It's just 12 yards.

It's a little dogleg.

Here. Watch this.

(THUDDING)

(LAUGHING)
It's in the cup.

Nice shot, Glassy.

You're gonna
call me Glassy?

All right.
I'm gonna call you Smurf.

Smurf. This...
This is very
interesting.

I find that
very funny.

But it's not.

It's not. Am I high?

I think you're
pretty high, yeah.

Am I acting more...
Normal?

No, you're acting high.

Smurf. Smurf.

Why is Smurf funny?
I don't know.

It's... It's, um...

You take the first letter
of the first name

and you attach it
to the first syllable

of your last name, see?

S-S-S-Murph. Smurf.

We did it all the time
in high school.

So your name was A-Glass?

Yeah, no,
it didn't work for me.

Okay, serious now.

Where's the next hole?

Right there.
Careful of the hazard
right behind it.

Okay, Sam Snead.
Dr. Glassman.

DR. GLASSMAN:
See what you got.

(CLUB HITS GOLF BALL)

**

(INAUDIBLE)

How's Lea?

Lee-Ya.

(CHUCKLES)

Lee-Ya!

There should be a "Y"
in her name.

Lee-Ya.

She still into Jack?

No.

She is into Jake.

Who the hell is Jake?

Jake is the guy

Lea is into.

You okay with that?

I don't think
you're okay with that.

I think that's why
you're here.

I'm here to help you
through chemo.

When a guy is stoned,

he can tell another guy
anything that's in his heart.

You know, all the messy,
scary, embarrassing stuff

that he would otherwise never,
ever, ever tell anyone.

So what are you thinking?

A dog pooped on your lawn.

(CHUCKLES)

(EXHALES SHARPLY)

(DOOR OPENS)

You were right to insist

that we deal
with the aorta
before the brain.

I appreciate you
saying that.

Don't let guilt make you
second-guess yourself.

Why would I have guilt?

You shouldn't.
That's my point.

Good.

I'm hungry.
Are you hungry?

I think I am.

When a man's hungry,
you know what a man wants?

There's an open
can of chickpeas
in the fridge.

Mallomars.
What are Mal...

What are... What...
What is the Mallomar?

Pure chocolate,
fluffy marshmallows

on a crispy bed
of graham goodness.

Get us an Uber.

**

The next few days
are going to be filled

with many
difficult decisions.

Decisions no parent
should ever have to make.

We've kept your daughter
on life support

because we...
You

want to ask
about organ donation.

Yes.

You want her what?
Her heart? (SNIFFLES)

Unfortunately, her heart
was injured by the trauma,

as were
several other organs.

We have a 16-year-old girl

who had a tragic accident
a couple of years ago

that destroyed her face.

And we were hoping
that you might...

You want to take
my daughter's face

and put it
on someone else?

This young girl's life
has been devastated,

and you have
a chance...
No.

I'm sorry, Dr. Andrews.

No. (SNIFFLES)

**

Okay, how
about this one?
Mmm-hmm.

"The ugly
can be beautiful.

"The pretty, never."

(CHUCKLES)
Seems a little judge-y.

Yeah, well,
it was Oscar Wilde.

Hmm. Fair enough.

So I'm guessing you didn't see
the Quakes last night.

The San Jose Earthquakes?

Your home team?

Yeah, I know who
the Quakes are.

I recorded it.

No, you didn't.

Don't worry.

I watch enough soccer
for the both of us.

(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)

They won 3 to 2,
by the way.

Beautiful goal
in extra time.

They didn't have any either.

Well, that's all
the major chains.

We're 0 for 4.

Our next place
is on Thornwood Drive,

just west
of Santa Teresa Boulevard.

That's in Alamitos.

Yes.

There are still 28 stores
in the greater San Jose area
that we can try

and I've devised a route
starting in the south

working counterclockwise
around the city

to best avoid traffic.

We'll buy you a box,
I promise.

Okay, guys, I, uh,
like a big fare

as much as the next driver

but racking up hundreds of
dollars on a munchie quest

is starting to feel
exploitative.

What do you say
I order ahead for pizza

and then we just pick it up
on the way home?

I don't want pizza.
I don't want pizza.

What takeout food
do you like?

I like pancakes.
I don't want pancakes.

I don't want to go home.

(CLEARS THROAT)

We're paying you
to drive us.

You want these cookies?

What is the real reason?

You'll laugh.

What's the funny reason?

(SIGHS)

I had a crush on a girl.

Robin Demayne.

Senior year in high school.

Her favorite snack.

(SIGHS)

Okay.

Are we going
to get Mallomars?

Nope. You have been harboring
feelings for this girl
for over 40 years.

That is a worthy quest.

Now, how do you spell
"Demayne"?

D-E?

You're the same sex, race,
approximate age,

share compatible blood types
and antigens,

and a whole bunch
of other things

that make you
the perfect match.

And we just
received permission
from her next of kin.

**

Yeah.

Our donor's on life support
but her heart is compromised,

so we are very much
on the clock.

Cancel all elective surgeries,
all personal plans,

and all hopes of sleep.

(LAUGHTER)

This is your home
for the next two days.

Let's give Molly a new face.

(APPLAUSE)

**

There is another
Robin Demayne
living in San Mateo.

That's less than
half an hour from here.

Ooh, I found one
in Los Gatos,
even closer.

You realize
how stupid this is, right?

This is a quest.
A quest is never stupid.

A quest is, by definition,
almost always stupid.

Why would I want to see
Robin Demayne
after all these years?

To tell her
you love her?

I just want a cookie!

I wasn't in love with her.

I was a teenager.

I was infatuated.

And whenever you thought
about her,

it made you happy.

And you thought about her
all the time.

And every time you saw her,
you felt a rush,
light-headed...

Is that how you know
you're in love?

That's how it starts.

And when you're not
with that person,

you miss them so much
you're willing to drive
to 32 stores

to find a sensory reminder

that might bring back
those memories.

(NATHANIEL RATELIFF
AND THE NIGHT SWEATS'
YOU WORRY ME PLAYS)

**

* I'm all right today

* You gonna find
a way to cross
and you gonna get there

* I'm gonna leave it all
out there to dry

* I'm gonna leave it all
out there

* I'm gonna leave it all
out there to dry up

* I'm gonna
leave it all out there

* But you worry me

* You worry me

* You worry me

* You worry me

* You worry me

* You worry me *

Ride home's on me.

Flake.

Flake's a guy
from my high school.

He knew everyone,
he kept track of everyone,

and I guarantee you
he never left Livermore.

We need to go to Livermore
and ask Flake about Robin.

We're going to Livermore.

(TURN SIGNAL CLICKING)

(KNOCK ON DOOR)

CLAIRE: Every lab
and imaging test
that comes back

just reinforces the fact
that this really is
a one-in-a-million match.

Nice.

Yeah, it is.

It's also very scary

and natural to be having
second thoughts.

It's just...

I-I don't know how to
accept a gift like this...

Someone else's face,
someone else's identity...

The face is just a mask.

It's what's...
Underneath that counts?

(LAUGHS) Really?

Those lame quotes
we've been mocking,

you're gonna use them
on me?

Yeah.

(SIGHS)

**

Molly.

Right now, your face is
the only thing anyone sees.

This operation
will change that.

It'll let the world see
not your new face,

but what has always
been behind it.

Will it count towards
the coffee mug?

(BOTH CHUCKLE)

SHAUN: Flake lives at
your old high school?

DR. GLASSMAN: He was
the janitor back then.

He's the janitor now.
He'll probably be the janitor

when this planet
crashes into the sun.

Flake.
Findlay Lake
was his name.

Hey, Flakey.

Hey yourself,
Glaaron Assman.

(CHUCKLES) Your name
was Glaaron Assman.

(LAUGHS)

His name was
Glaaron Assman.

1973 state championship.

He threw for 460 yards.

And if you squint hard enough,
you'll see who was named MVP.

DR. GLASSMAN: You said you had
something to show us?

Oh, yeah.
Wait right here.

**

(VENTILATOR HISSING)

Shannon?

(VOICE BREAKING) I keep
thinking she's just sleeping.

(SNIFFLES)

How can I say goodbye?

(SNIFFLES)

**

We call it
the Walk of Honor.

To thank your daughter
for her sacrifice.

**

Do you remember a guy
named Bobby Juarez?

Tall kid but too clumsy
to play hoops?

He told me that Robin
married a dentist
named Scaplin

and moved out of state.

You couldn't tell me that
when I called?

I wanted to see you.
(CHUCKLES)

SHAUN: I found her.

Robin Scaplin
is in Portland, Oregon.

It's an 11 hour
and 27 minute drive.

Fill up the tank,
I guess.

We're going to Portland.

(EXHALES SHARPLY)

(MONITOR BEEPING)

**

DR. MELENDEZ: 10 blade.

DR. ANDREWS: 10 blade.

Proximal facial nerve
isolated and dissected.

Okay, let's start
the heavy lifting.

(TOOL WHIRS)

(WATER SQUIRTING)

(TOOL WHIRS)

DR. LIM: Clamping the left
and right common
carotid arteries

and jugular veins...

Cutting the carotids
and jugulars...

Let's do it.

(VENTILATOR HISSING)
(MONITOR BEEPING)

(FLATLINE)

(EXHALES SHARPLY)

It's a long way to go
to visit a married woman

you haven't seen
since high school

who may not even be home.

She's home.
I called at the last stop.

What did she say?

"Hello."

What did you say?

Nothing.
He hung up.

When you sober up,

you are gonna want to
turn around and go home.

Probably.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

**

DR. ANDREWS: As rehearsed,

veins, arteries, nerves,
in that order,
from the chin up.

Yes?

Can I get the osteosynthetic
plates and screws, please?

DR. LIM: (SCOFFS) Damn it.

I tore part
of the donor's artery.

I need more
interrupted sutures.

Let's keep our focus,
people.

NURSE PETRINGA:
Dr. Browne,

Molly's parents
would like to see you
on your next break.

Take it now.

You, too.

Uh...
Dr. Park?

**

**

I had a huge crush
on Robin Demayne.

A thoroughly
unrequited crush

that slowly turned
into a grudge.

Last day of school,

kids were passing around
their yearbooks,

and I signed in hers

something that was
borne out of anger

and resentment
and pettiness.

It was designed to be
somewhat humorous,

but was really just
mostly hurtful.

Later that day,
at the award ceremony,

I was skimming through
my yearbook

and saw what
she wrote me...

"I have only two regrets...

"My haircut
in junior year

"and that you never
asked me out."

And just then, I looked out
in the crowd and saw her.

Her eyes were red,

obviously crying,
obviously very hurt.

And at that exact moment,
I was awarded my trophy.

I looked for her after,
but never saw her again.

Is that all the scary,
messy, embarrassing stuff

that guys never,
ever tell anyone?

**

Pretty much.

(CAR DOOR OPENS)

Dean and Lori?

This is Shannon.

LORI: Thank you
for meeting with us.

And for...

Everything.

DEAN: If you don't mind,
we have so many
questions for you,

about your daughter.

We'd like to know
what she was like,

what she liked to do.

Molly wants to know, too.

Uh...

Her name was Karin.

And I killed her.

**

I'm supposed to tell you
to get back in.

Don't let him get to you.

It's not him, it's you.

Your advice
that I shouldn't be
second-guessing myself

is making me think you must be
second-guessing yourself.

About what?

You're the one who insisted
we deal with the heart
before the brain.

And you didn't fight me.
Why not?

Because you were right.
I was right.

But you have never thought
anyone other than yourself
was right in an OR

since you first
stepped foot in one.

You backed off 'cause
we're sleeping together.

**

The car accident
was my fault.

It was my idea
to leave so early.

It was my idea
to let her sleep
in the back.

It was up to me to make sure
she was wearing her seatbelt.

CLAIRE: None of which
would've mattered

if the truck driver
hadn't fallen asleep.

It's natural to feel guilt,

but you have to understand
this wasn't your fault.

It doesn't work that way,
Dr. Browne.

It was my handgun
that hurt Molly.

And you can say that
it was a freak accident

or that Molly knew
she wasn't supposed
to touch it

or some other BS,

but it was my fault.

I had one job,

and that was
to protect my family.

I didn't do my job.

And you could try
to make sense of it,

try to find something,
some pleasure somewhere,

some meaning.

But there just isn't.

**

And then your daughter

does this for us...

(SIGHS)

Hi, Robin.

Aaron?

**

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

He had
a huge crush on you.

Yeah. Uh...
(CHUCKLES)

That's not
why I'm here, though.

I'm here to apologize.

For what I wrote
in your yearbook.

Yearbook?

Yeah. Uh...

I wrote something, um...

(CHUCKLES)

...hurtful and untrue
and really stupid.

And then I read
what you wrote in mine.

What did I write?

She had a bad haircut
in junior year.

Oh. (CHUCKLES)
I certainly
remember that.

Yeah, well,
it was a long time ago.

Anyway, I just...
I wanted to say I'm sorry.

Well...

Apology accepted.

Thank you.

Mallomars.

Robin's favorite snack.

**

DR. LIM: Right side donor
to recipient vessels
are anastomosed.

DR. MELENDEZ:
Ditto on the left.

Let's see
how our plumbing works.

Unclamp them, please.

(VENTILATOR HISSING)
(MONITOR BEEPING)

DR. PARK:
She's pinking up.

**

Moving on.
Motor and sensory
neurorrhaphies...

How's our girl doing?

She's just waking up now.

(CHUCKLES)

Hi, Molly.

How are you feeling?

MOLLY: Terrible.

Then we're right
on target.

You want
to have a look?

MOLLY: No.
DR. ANDREWS: No rush.

It is going to look...

Surreal.

Like you're looking
at a stranger.

But it won't always.

Because nobody laughs
or holds their head

or looks someone in the eye
exactly the way you do.

**

(QUIETLY) Okay.

**

(DOOR OPENS)

I apologize

for telling you how to react
to losing a patient.

Thank you.

When I accused you
of second-guessing
yourself,

that's because
I'm doing it, too.

Our relationship has me
questioning everything I do
and everything you do.

You're making this way more
complicated than it has to be.

It is complicated.

The fact that
we're seeing each other

changes the context
of all of our interactions.

I guess that's why
there are rules against it.

I think I can keep
being a jerk to you at work
if that's what you want.

You think
we should end it?

No.

**

See you tomorrow.

(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

(BAG ZIPS)

CLAIRE: So,
once you're feeling
a little less woozy,

we'll set you up with
a whole bunch of therapists.

Speech, occupational,
physical.

LORI: Shannon.

Please come in.

SHANNON:
I'm Karin's mom.

Hi.

I brought something
for you.

**

(SIGHS)

She was beautiful.

Thank you.

And thank you for timing
that elevator ride
so perfectly.

(EXHALES)

Can I ask you for a favor?

I'd like to say goodbye.

**

(DOOR OPENS)

DR. GLASSMAN: Eh,
we'll clean up tomorrow.

SHAUN:
And buy a new vase.

Yeah, buying
a new vase
is easy.

Vacuuming up
my grandmother's ashes,

not so easy.

Are you glad
you apologized?

Yeah.

Do you still
feel guilty?

Yeah.

Guilt must be a bad thing
if it makes people feel badly

about something
they can never fix.

Or maybe it's a deterrent
so we do the right thing
the next time.

You loved Robin,

but could never be
with her.

Do you wish
you'd never met her?

Not for one second.

I'm not okay
that Lea is into Jake.

**

Good night, Smurf.

Night, Glassy.

**

**