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You okay?

I think I'm having a panic attack.

Oh, man.

I can still breathe,
so I don't know if it counts as a panic attack

if I can still breathe, but my heart is really...

Maybe slowed down.

Are the kids still in there?

In the classroom where you left them? Yeah.

Great, great.

Apparently, Ashanti
brought a gerbil to school in her pocket

and crushed its brain,

so they've moved on
to bigger and better things.

Is that something that happens a lot?

There's just been a lot going on lately
with my family.

Yeah.

My dad decided that he's, um...

Well, I don't know if he decided,
he just figured...

- He's not...
- You know what? Don't need to tell me.

Okay.

I'm gonna go back up there in a second.

I just need to breathe a little,
and then I'm gonna be ready to rock.

Everything's under control up there.

You take as much time as you need.

Is this okay?

So I was really inspired
by working on his campaign

and seeing all of the change

that he's already been able to make
in his neighborhood

regarding the traffic lights.

It reinvigorated my job search, so here I am.

And I don't think
that I need to overplay my resume, you know?

It's not exhaustive, but I have really stuck
with the jobs that I've had,

and I am incredibly educated
about the current corporate climate

and also what marketing means
in the digital age.

Well, I think you just really
hit the nail on the head.

I mean, that's the company ethos,

and we want employees

who understand the lifestyle
and the message,

so I think there is a position
you'd be perfect for.

- It involves marketing...
- A passion area.

- And social media...
- Okay, also, like, a joy of mine.

And acting as a liaison
between our Japanese brand leadership

and our American sales team.

Amazing.

Um, but how would you feel
about relocating to Tokyo?

At least for the time being.

Um...

- Me?
- Yeah, you.

Tokyo.

It's the coolest.

We have a great team of expats
working in Tokyo,

and they've all found the city
hijo ni subarashii,

which means "very nice" in Japanese.

Japanese is super easy to get the hang of.

It's just, like, four sounds

that you kind of, like,
loop around and put together.

It's like, "Hi," and then like, "Jo."

Um, so, like, how frequently do you go,
uh, travel to Japan?

I have not been.

But I get

- a lot of visual aids from the Internet...
- Uh-huh.

...and I have skyped with people in Tokyo.

I'll go, like, "Hi!"

And they will do, "Hi!" back.

Um...

Can... Uh, is it possible
to think about it just for a moment?

Totally. Think about it.

Um, I probably need to know
by Wednesday, probably.

- Okay.
- Okay?

To be completely frank,

Lydia, who is currently holding the position,
is, um, bipolar.

- Oh.
- And we are gonna fire her

pretty much the minute
she's on a manic upswing.

- Japan.
- Yeah.

Yes!

Oh, yes!

Oh!

- Hannah.
- Hey, Laird.

Wow, glad you made it.
Uh, come in, shoeless, of course.

You sure everything's okay in here?

- 'Cause...
- Oh, yeah, yeah.

Those are just shouts of maternal celebration.

Hon Bun, look who it is.

Oh, Hannah.

It's my birth, Hannah.

Yeah.

No, it's great. It seems fun and relaxed.

And, like, you just... You got this, girl.

So, I'm gonna head back upstairs. Bye.

No, no, Hannah.

- Stay, stay, please stay.
- Yeah.

Laird is my doula,

and between you and me,
he could use a little help.

Well, I'm not officially trained.

Caroline just told me everything she knows,
and I already cried once.

Is Caroline even a doula?

Yep, almost. She is almost a doula.

Okay, well, I don't actually think this is legal,
to self-doula.

Yeah, this is pretty legal, right?

Fuck the legal system.

Uh...

We're trying to keep a positive spin on things.

This baby is a month and a half early,

but it knows that we are ready, right?

We are ready and waiting for you to come out.

Oh, you want Hannah to stay?

Oh, you want Hannah to stay?
Yeah, that's a great idea.

- That is so beautiful. Congratulations.
- Antique. Yeah.

Oh, My God,
you're a record company president.

- You do not care about my ring.
- No, of course I do.

I'm such a dork!

- Oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed.
- No, it's beautiful.

- Congratulations.
- Thank you.

Thank you. We're so happy.

Marriage is such
an antiquated concept on so many levels,

but until they discover something better,

you know, this is really
the only way I know how

- to express my eternal devotion to Marnie.
- Oh, my God.

Plus, I don't believe in tattoos,
so this is our only option.

All I can say is that marriage
is the best thing I ever did.

- I love hearing that. I love that.
- God, yeah.

How long have you been married for, Marcos?

Um, ten years now,
including this most recent separation.

- Oh.
- I'm sorry to hear that.

I mean,
actually, the hardest part is actually

just trying to facetime with Piper,
and she's only three.

She keeps trying
to touch Daddy's face through the screen

and gets really confused and starts...

Wow, I'm really sorry.

No, I'm sorry.

- Holy shit, I'm sorry.
- No.

You guys are not lunatics,
so you're gonna make it.

And let's talk about the showcase.

I just want to get your equipment needs

so I can get them
to the guitar techs and everyone.

Wow, totally.

I can't believe how hands-on you are.

- You're the label president. This is crazy.
- No, oh, no.

Let's just pretend we're all doing this
together in a garage somewhere.

Okay, well, all of our gear
is in the back of Desi's truck,

so it won't be that hard to pretend.

Great, I'll be your roadie.

Why don't you guys do that?
Let me get this.

Bye, Ray-Ray.

Ray.

I gotta settle up.

We had three espressos,

two of these delicious scones,
and, um, one glass of water.

- Water's free.
- Oh, that's a very generous policy.

Hey, Ray, let me ask you something, man.

Are we solid?

Excuse me?

Are you and I solid, you know?
Are we simpatico?

Because sometimes I get this sense that

there's some tension, or like a bad line.

Not really between us,
but specifically from you to me.

Well, I really wouldn't worry about it,
if I were you.

Okay, but you know what?

I do worry about those kinds of things

'cause I'm exactly
the kind of person that needs to know

that none of my lines are faulty, you know?

That I'm making everybody around me happy.

- That make sense?
- It does, it does make sense.

Unfortunately, Desi, you're not gonna get
that assurance from me today.

- Okay.
- Okay?

Can you expound on that?

You're not gonna get that assurance from me
because I fucking hate you.

Well, I totally get that we're from
very different parts of the world,

and I don't expect everybody here

to fully understand my kind
of Pacific Northwest thing.

Your whole Boston vibe can be very abrasive.

Okay, Desi, this isn't about where you're from.

- Okay.
- Okay?

- Uh-huh.
- This isn't about geography.

This is about that distressed shirt
you're wearing.

This is about the fact
that you have eyeliner on your face right now.

This is about the fact
that your musical sensibility is insufferable.

Don't ever think that you
get onstage anywhere

where a vast majority
of the crowd doesn't think, "Douche."

Douche.

You know how you feel
when you watch Imagine Dragons play?

Well, that's how we feel about you.
And you know what?

Imagine Dragons are great,
and you're the douche.

You know, if we just take a minute

and put our hearts together,
you and me right here,

I think we'll both find

that we're not really all that different.

But we are different.

We are very different,
because I would never treat her like shit.

- Who, Marnie?
- Yes, Marnie. Marnie Michaels.

Okay, now you're talking about my fiancée,

and I strongly suggest, Ray,
that you proceed with caution.

Yeah, I know she's your fiancée.

I also know that you
absolutely do not deserve her.

Even remotely.

You string her along for months,

and now you've proposed to her
in some desperate bid

to make it seem like you're not
the most selfish person

in the western fucking hemisphere,
but you know what, Desi?

I'm onto you.

Marnie isn't some tool
for you to stroke your ego with.

She's a beautiful, fully-formed woman,

dazzling in her complexity,
maddening in her mystery,

and you underestimate her every fucking day.

And because of that, you will never, ever
make her truly happy.

Truly, deeply, fundamentally happy.

You're gonna try and fuck up
and try and fuck up again.

And every time,
she will smile and take you back.

Well, thank you for that.

Keep your fucking blood money.

I love it when you join me for lunch.

I go back to the office and I'm invigorated

and I have all these great ideas,
and it's all because of you.

Oh!

So this weekend, Amagansett.

Bryce is having
one of his famous, crazy, weird parties.

I think he has, like, half of the cast
of the Cirque du Soleil.

I can't remember. The sexy one?

Anyway, it's gonna be really great.

- Hey, I have to tell you something.
- Mmm-hmm.

Um...

I got a job.

- Oh, my God!
- Yeah.

- That's so cool.
- Yeah.

Um...

In Japan.

It's really... It's incredible.
It's a very high-level job.

It's in marketing, it's kind of...
No, it's my dream job.

It's totally my dream job.

You know, I'm totally down
to be your Japanese booty call

- and that's so fine and amazing, but I just...
- Don't...

- You know, we can continue on the phone.
- Don't take the job.

- Shoshanna, don't take that job, okay?
- What?

- Okay?
- Just... What?

Just don't take it.
You can work at Madame Tinsley's, okay?

And move in with me. Yes, move in with me.

I know that's fast, but you can't go to Japan.
Don't take that job.

I'm gonna be in love with you soon.

Oh, okay.

Uh, Laird, this whole thing
seems kind of crazy.

Uh, how can it be crazy, Hannah?
It's happening.

Okay, yeah, but just
because something's happening

doesn't mean it's not crazy.

Doesn't it?

No, crazy things happen every...

Hey.

No.

Oh, I'm so happy you're here.

What the fuck are you doing?

Even for you, that's a dim little question.

This is the dumbest idea
that's ever happened.

That's what I was trying to tell them,
only just in less kind of combative words.

Oh, don't be so Western, you two.

- Cover your boobs, please.
- Fine.

But for obvious reasons,
I'm not gonna cover my vagina.

We got it on lock, brother.

What's that?

Uh, we got the situation under control.

We got it on lockdown.

Oh, good to know.

Because if there's a problem,
those are usually handled

by modern fucking medicine!

Fuck the modern fucking medicine, okay?

I am not going to distance myself

from the beautiful
and natural process that is birth

by tubes and drugs
and fucking white lab coats.

I'm going to inhabit my body

and bring this baby into a world
of aware, peaceful individuals,

and not fucking drug-addicted robots.

So you would have
open-heart surgery in your living room?

Maybe, yeah. Maybe I would.

You know, I watched
the Ricki Lake-produced documentary

The Business of Being Born,

and it let me know
that there's a lot of different angles on this.

I agree.
There was a Tom and Jerry episode.

They were on the plains in frontier times

and Tom was having a baby
and Jerry was a cowboy...

Shut the fuck up!

You listen to me.
That is the father of my child, okay?

And that man loves me
and treats me as I should be treated by a man,

and you don't talk to him like that, ever!

Ray?

Ray?

- Ray!
- Ahhh! Shush!

You're making my migraine twerk.

Hi, Hermie. Um, is Ray here?

Because it's a little bit of an emergency
and also has a little bit of a clock on it.

- Break a heel in a subway grate?
- No, actually.

I was offered a high-powered job in Japan

and I need his advice
on whether or not to take it.

Well, Ray's not here right now.

- Okay, well, do you know where Ray is?
- Ray's a politician now.

He's shaking hands and kissing babies.
That's his life. We're no longer part of it.

Job offer in Japan's not a bad thing to have.

Yeah, I guess so.

I don't know if I'm gonna take it. I just...

I'm kind of on the precipice
of, like, possibly falling in love

with a very successful, very kind,
very fashionable man,

and I just feel like
if I don't give this relationship a shot,

that I'm gonna regret it my entire life.

And he offered me a job
at his company, so I...

Stop, stop, stop, please.

What, does that not make sense?

It makes sense like a Danielle Steel novel
makes sense to a woman with emphysema.

I'm gonna tell you something.

Be the walker, not the dog.

What?

You familiar with the work
of the writer Sheryl Sandberg?

Um, yes, I'm familiar with the works
of the writer Sheryl Sandberg. Are you?

Yes, my wife left a copy out
and I saw an attractive woman,

I read the book. I'm a convert.

This is your "lean in" moment.
This is your moment to lean in.

You don't want to be
dependent on some guy, some nerd.

Don't give the power to your partner.

Grab a seat at the table and lean the fuck in.

And if this guy's worth his salt,

he'll be waiting for you
at the airport when you return.

This is for you, taking what's yours.

Attainment, achievement,
this is your time to grasp your destiny.

- Yeah, no, I get it, I get it, I get it.
- What you...

Thank you.

You are very strange.

But you're very wise.

I want to go in there
and see what's happening so bad.

Do you think it's gory?

No, it just looks like me
after I've eaten, like, a big Mexican dinner.

- Hannah.
- No, but, like, her actual pussy.

- What's happening?
- Oh, I didn't get to see her pussy.

Adam, did you see it?

I didn't fucking look. That's my fucking sister!

Adam, maybe you should look
because it's your sister.

Okay, something is not right.

- Motherfucker, I told you.
- I think something is really wrong.

Okay, Laird, we need you
to be more articulate

if you want us to help you.

Okay, uh, she is writhing in pain

and she is really feeling it,
and she is screaming,

you can all currently hear all that right now.

And even I know that
that should not happen unless...

You're supposed to be
5 to 10 dilated for that kind of pain, right?

And she is only three fingers wide.

I'm calling an ambulance.
Motherfucker, I know where you live.

No, you are not calling an... Hey, no.

She will not go to a hospital.
That is not in her birth plan.

- What the fuck is a birth plan?
- I think it's pretty self-explanatory.

It's the plan you have
for the way you're gonna give birth,

like, "I'm gonna take the stuff
that Michael Jackson took to sleep," all right?

We need to call a doctor.

We are not calling a doctor,
we are not going to the hospital.

She will murder me. Are you kidding? No.

You guys are all pussies, every one of you.

Okay, Caroline, talk to me.

It hurts like a motherfucker, Jess.
Low, real low.

I think she might be breech.

- I need you to check, okay?
- Holy shitfuck.

Uh, wait a minute, I can do that.

Stay the fuck away from me, Laird.

Laird, this isn't for you.

- I saw a foot.
- Oh, God, oh, God.

Okay, okay, it's breaching.

I can deliver. People do it every day.

Baby, we need
to go to a hospital right now, okay?

Oh, God! You're just like the rest of them.

You're all part of the fucking
birth-industrial complex!

It's a goddamn conspiracy!

- Okay.
- I'm gonna deliver this baby by myself

like a teenager in the heartland if I have to!

Caroline, listen to me.

- Listen to me right now.
- No. I'm shutting everybody out.

I'm not listening
to any more bullshit with my ears.

I'm not gonna hear any of you ever again,

not ever, not ever, not ever once again.

- Laird?
- What?

You need to get your wife out of the tub.

We're not married, okay?
I just wear this 'cause it makes me feel good.

Laird, I need you,
and she needs you, to be a man right now.

But I'm not a man.

I'm a Jewish recovering junkie,
and I weigh 135 pounds!

Okay, I know you're scared right now,

but if there was ever a time to not be pathetic,
it's now.

I think later is my time.

That's when my time usually is, is later.

I'm gonna walk out the room,
you guys are gonna have a moment,

and you're gonna get her out of the tub.

Caroline,

you need to get out of the fucking tub!

Eat shit, bitch!

Desi, you really have to call me back.

We go on in half an hour.
You missed our soundcheck.

It's fine. I'm honestly just worried about you,
but please, sweetie, just call me back.

Bye.

Any news we can use?

No, but, I mean, I'm sure
he'll be here any second.

Yeah, he's probably just,
like, around the corner.

Okay, all the blogs are here,
Brooklyn Vegan, Pitchfork,

The Fader, Iron Throng, Bad Breath.

I know, and it's really unlike him.

Like, when it comes to his music,
he's usually so punctual,

so I'm sure he's, like, about to get here.

Well, I mean,
let's just hope he didn't Jeff Buckley it, right?

Do you mean drown?

Yeah, you know, Amy Winehouse it,
Janis Joplin it, Hendrix himself.

Um, yeah, I hope he didn't die either.

Hey, dudes. Ready to rock?

Is the ambulance here?

Um, I just wazed it,
and I think it's actually better if we walk.

I'm not walking, you fucking
baby-murdering cuntmonster!

- Baby, it's okay.
- Damn it, no, it's not okay.

Okay.

Stop fucking touching my feet, you asshole!

Get this fucking thing out of me!

What? Don't drop me, don't drop me.

This is pretty fucking disappointing.

I know.

No, I mean, like, madly disappointing.

I know.

But you're the one who said that it should feel
like we're all just in someone's garage.

No, that's actually not what I said.

What I... If you listened
to what I said, what I said is,

"I like it when it feels
like we're in someone else's garage," okay?

Don't twist my words around
at your own convenience.

- Listen to what I actually say.
- Okay. Um...

I'm really sorry.

No, no, please don't cry.

- What's going on?
- Well, uh, Desi is not here,

and it seems like he won't be here.

- What?
- Listen, let's just hope he's alive, okay?

Jesus Christ.

Yes, let's always hope
everyone we like is alive.

I'm gonna just go introduce Violent Ron early.

You can go home, take a bath,
and we'll check in tomorrow, okay?

What? No. Fuck, no.
No one's going home, taking a bath.

You're gonna go up there,
and you're gonna do this by yourself.

What? No, I can't do that.

I don't think she's much of a solo artist.

- I don't think...
- No, I actually got my start as a solo artist,

and I am perfectly capable
of commanding such a crowd,

but these are Marnie and Desi songs.

I can't just do them alone.

Marnie, listen to me, okay?
And forgive the following sentence,

but all that matters right now
is that you keep the music alive.

That's what Desi would want.

Look, you want me to play guitar?
I'm actually pretty good.

No.

I'm pretty good, too.

Don't worry about it, man.
She cries all the time.

All the time.

Pack up your suitcase, put on that dress

We can make the 7:45 express

And never look back, and when we grow old

It'll be a life of all the stories we told

'Cause there's something in the air tonight

Maybe there's a fire
burning out in Riverside...

We have a baby, guys.
We have a bouncing-ass baby.

- Where is it?
- They put her in a nice, warm box.

- Thank fucking God.
- What is it?

She is a sweet, sugary girl child.

Her name is Jessa-Hannah
Bluebell Poem Schlesinger-Sackler.

Four-and-a-half pounds
of pure love and forgiveness.

- You named it Jessa?
- Well, they named it Jessa-Hannah.

As the... Yeah, hyphenate, right.
Oh, my God.

I mean, you saved us.

You brought Jessa-Hannah
Bluebell Poem into this world.

Oh, my God. I mean, I just talked.

Well, you said more than words.

I did, didn't I?

So you're closing the case
as you're walking away

Maybe the truth would've helped up to now

But what you'd say you could never just say

Out loud

That now it cannot be denied...

I'm going to become a therapist.

I'm moving to Japan.

Oh, my God.

You're gonna be such a good therapist!

I know!
You're gonna make a really great geisha.

Maybe there's a fire burning out in Riverside

Thank you. Thank you so much.

- I'm shaking.
- I can see that.

Oh, my God.
That was the scariest thing I have ever done.

- How was it?
- It was good, yeah.

It was really good. Really good.

- What's wrong with you?
- Nothing. I'm fine.

- Where's Desi? Did he come?
- I don't know.

Jessa-Hannah.

You were just born.

- Jesus Christ.
- That's your Uncle Adam.

And I'm gonna
tell you some things about being alive.

Life, man...

I can't guarantee perfection,
but I can guarantee intrigue.

The idea that I had an ambilicord is insane.

- Umbilical cord.
- Umbilical cord.

You wanna just know that.
It's a word you wanna know.

- Umbilical cord.
- Yeah, good job.

Mimi-Rose and I are over.

Really?

I'm sorry to hear that.
I know you really cared about her.

Hmm, I don't know that I did.
I don't think I really knew her.

Yeah,
but isn't that how we always feel?

Like, when a relationship ends, you're like,
"What was that? Who was that?"

And then, you give it a few months
and all the good memories come back,

and you can kind of live with it, I think.

No, I just think I was confused.

And I think I made a mistake.

I miss you so badly.

I think I just got lost in it all.

And I didn't hold on to the right stuff,
and I let my center move.

And I just got lost.

Hannah?

I think you're just really tired
and that you had a really long day

and that you're gonna get some sleep
and you're gonna feel all better.

No, I'm serious.

I'm sorry.

Really, I don't know
where the fuck I've been at.

But, you know, I'm here now.

Yeah, I'm...

I can't do that.

Please?

I can't.

Yeah, you can.

I can't.

Okay.

That's fine.

Okay.

Honey, it's late.

- Were you sleeping?
- No.

Mommy, I just saw a baby get born, okay?

Not a whole baby. First it was just the foot,
and then it was the rest of the baby.

But I did. I saw a baby.

It was the cutest thing in the entire world.

She's so small,
but her name is Jessa-Hannah,

and she seems real feisty.

That's nice, honey. Babies are sweet.

- Are you okay?
- Oh, I'm fine.

I'll be fine.

The sad part is I don't really have a future.

You have a future, though, Hannah.

You're not like me,
giving your life to one man who ate it all up.

You have time to go out there
and forge something new.

You have time to go out there
and forge 10 new things,

not just reenact, reimagine

the same old thing with the same foolish man.

Can I talk to Daddy?

Oh, sure. She wants to talk to you.

- Hello?
- Hi.