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- Paul, Gideon's mate, the first one he handed me to.

- What about him?

- He was there with Gideon.

- I'm looking for Paul I think works here.

Scottish, big fella.

Names, addresses, numbers, write the best you know.

- [Jennifer] These places, they're all Gideon's.

- [Gideon] Where else did you give them?

- Well, here, your brother's in Hampstead,

and the old place in Stepney.

- You made me lie to the police for you.

He put it on me, Daise, sat right there.

- Hello, Daisy.

- Richard's bar.

Well, I'm here because this one says you're someone to know.

Where are they going? - He'll be back.

- I just need a minute away from him.

Now that I know it'll be me, him,

and that we're having a girl,

I'm gonna stay at my sister's for a while.

- [Nelly] I didn't clock until I just now remembered,

but you drove past me when I was getting there.

She didn't hear you, but she did hear the fella.

- What fella? - Paul.

- I didn't see anyone.

- She killed that man, Nelly.

She killed him.

- [Grace] I know who it was.

Didn't have to see him.

- [Gideon] You, you have to go.

Just go.

- [Grace] Something he does to the air around me.

(door slams)

- You scared the hell outta. me.

- I'm leaving.

- Last person I expected.

- Just wanna leave, Gid.

- Making my puttanesca, funnily enough, your favorite.

- Don't wanna be anywhere near ya.

- Well, the kitchen's probably the quickest way out.

(food sizzling)

I think I'm burning.

I'm not angry with you, if you think I am.

I'm not.

Those fools.

What to say?

Furious.

Making you go through all that.

Plate, if you change your mind.

- Can I have my money?

- Hmph.

- Money you promised me.

Don't act like you didn't.

- I'm not sure there any promises left between us, Grace.

- A fucking grand to stay in that stank caravan.

- Is it that much?

- You said yeah, to wait in there, make out I was her.

He said that'd be me done.

Last thing he'd ever ask of me.

I never would have if he hadn't promised.

He said the buyer wouldn't give a shit once he got there.

Wouldn't care if I wasn't...

- If you weren't Jody.

- I waited in there for ages,

a fucking chain around my ankle.

- [Gideon] Lower your voice, please.

- [Grace] Gimme my grand.

- I have that sort of money just sitting here in my pocket

the whole time, don't I? - Your fuck-off bag.

- Let me have a little look. - Don't laugh at me!

- I said, voice down!

- Look, you're running, so you've either got it,

or you're gonna get it.

Where is it?

- That really is all I have.

- You said that it would be enough for me

to get away for good.

A grand's nothing. - You're very welcome to stay.

Sit.

Have a feed.

Or, Gracie, you're very welcome to fuck off,

quite frankly, but that's it.

You need to stop being silly now.

- No more promises.

* Why *

* Why don't they understand *

* Why lead us by the hand *

* Why don't they understand *

* Why *

* Why do they smile and say *

* Love can't be ours today *

* Then they will understand *

(brooding music)

(phone ringing)

- You have to help me, you have to help me.

He's here, Gideon.

* He's just a stereotype *

* He drinks his age in pints *

* He has girls every night *

* He doesn't really exist *

- This has all tumbled on from me

carrying around at the caravan park.

I'm just not walking her into the nearest pigpen,

and be like, ta-da.

I ain't doing that just yet.

- She stabbed him.

- Yeah.

- When she was out, after she was out,

she came back from where she didn't have to come back from,

to stab the life out of him, Nelly.

- Well, it's done, years he had hold of her.

Christ, wouldn't you?

I promised her I would see her good.

- I know you did.

You know, how are you're gonna keep that promise?

Help her to look this in the eye, Nelly.

She has to.

Wanna see her good, call O'Halloran.

Grace knows her, she's a friendly face.

- When I'm sure.

I have to be sure, soon as I'm that.

- Then yeah, I want you out today.

I want all this away from this close to me and 'Son.

(ominous music)

(cellphone buzzing)

- [Ella] What are you doing?

(man speaking in foreign language)

- Do you want a bit of this?

Look, Ella, Ella, look.

(man speaking in foreign language)

- [Samson] Is Nelly not my father?

- [Zita] He is.

He is. (cellphone ringing)

- [Nelly] Stace, it's me, yeah?

Bell me back when you get this.

I just need to beg, please, please.

- What's this? - I'm gonna go.

- Hey, where, hang about.

- You don't need to know where.

- Hey, just-- - Don't touch me like that!

Don't touch me like that! - Like what, like what?

- Don't fucking touch me like that!

- I didn't, I didn't, I just, well, I'm sorry.

- I never asked for you to bust up with your woman for me.

I never said do that for me. - Ain't busted.

- I heard her, she said out by today.

- That ain't for you.

My, uh...

My sell-by's up with Zeets.

Matter of time, so...

You heard it wrong.

- I should go, anyway.

- Hey, wait, wait.

You're 18, darling.

I mean, can't believe you're a day over 15.

- Ain't meant to.

- They said so in court, 18 coming up.

- Yeah, a couple of months.

- It means where they put you for Gideon,

they'll put you there for proper time.

- Whatever.

Between now and then, just gonna breeze out

for as long as I can.

What?

Why are you eyeballing me like that?

What?

- Where's the knife, Grace?

Lemme see.

Paul.

Why did you pick him?

He's cruel,

sick,

dead in his soul.

Told you, he comes at you like,

like he wants to be your last.

- Really don't know where to find him?

He never took you to his place?

- No, I don't do that.

- And what's Gideon's, um, you called it his, uh, his what?

His, um, fuck-off bag, what is that?

- Yeah, it's what he'd need if he needed to get away quick.

Enough money, keys, passport,

thumb drive, keys to a place abroad.

- What's that?

- What, a thumb drive?

- Yeah.

- He'd keep files, photos.

He had pictures of their faces, other grunters.

I think he wanted it for security or something.

Pictures of them with us.

And he joked with them about it, but...

- You at home?

- Who are you calling?

- Yeah, do you mind if I pop by?

No, let me tell you that when I get there, can I?

I-- (knocking at door)

- [Shola] Hello, Nelly?

Is that you?

- Who's that, Shola?

- [Shola] Can I have a word, Nelly?

- Getting some trousers on, can I?

I'm, um,

I'm on Towers hours.

You, uh,

nearly woke me.

I'm on my way.

So, what have I not done now?

- Can I come in?

- But what's happened?

You've got your po-po face on, so what and what?

- Best done inside.

Give me a minute.

Grace Mavella, have you seen her?

- I haven't, no.

- Spoken to her?

Best thing she can do right now, Nelly,

is come in and speak to us.

- Speak to you about what?

- We need to speak to everyone

who might've had reason to cause Gideon Charles any harm.

What is it, Nelly?

- I, um...

I have spoken to her.

Yeah.

I have, yes.

- [Shola] When, when did you speak to her?

- [Nelly] The night Gideon got himself killed.

- Do you know where she was calling from?

Nelly.

- I do wanna tell you what I know.

I want it done official, though.

I want a brief sat next to me, interview room around me.

I want it on tape, like you do.

On the record, and as proper as can be.

- What are you playing at?

- You be ready for me first thing tomorrow.

I will come in,

and I'll give you everything I know.

- Don't try and be smarter than you are, Nelly.

- Well, I couldn't do that even if I wanted to, Shola.

Not on my life, I wouldn't know how.

He killed Gideon.

Paul did.

So, tomorrow, yeah?

You heard me say.

I'm going into Shola's lot,

and that is what I'm gonna tell 'em.

Paul did it, either for the money, or for the thumb thingy.

But from here on in, you say as you said to me.

You were hiding out, you heard voices,

time you came downstairs, he was already brown on the floor.

The other voice, you're damn near certain,

was Scottish Paul.

You're gonna need to put this up.

- What for?

- [Nelly] Who killed Gideon?

Who was it?

- Like, I just say it, and that's it?

- No, 'cause we have to find him, still.

I've gotta see him up close, see if I can make him real.

Put this, this knife in his hand, if I can.

Scope out all the places Gideon took you to their mans,

starting at Richard's bar.

But meanwhile I'm gonna put you somewhere, a friend of mine,

and I need you to promise that you'll wait there for me,

so will you promise that?

- You don't care, what I did to him?

- I probably should, eh?

We probably both should.

We should feel away, I mean,

his life's lost, and all that, but I just don't.

I don't give a shit about him as much as I do you.

The thought of you out there, and all,

not knowing where you are or what's happening to you.

So, fuck it, there you go.

Who killed Gideon, Grace?

- Paul did.

- Fucking right.

- What the fuck, Nelly?

(brooding music)

- So, just how you walked with me last time.

Keep me in sight, but as much distance as you can,

like we ain't together.

- [Tam] Jesus Christ, you don't ask much, do you?

- I'm begging, mate. - Don't.

- Be for today, tomorrow at the latest.

- Christ, Nelly. - Then today.

Word on it.

- It's a bit steep being a mate of yours these days, Nelly.

- She had nothing to do with killing that shit pig.

She had nothing.

- And you?

- Fuck's sake, Tam. - Well?

- How's this gonna be me?

- Well, that's what it smells like.

- It weren't me, and it weren't her.

That's why I wanna sit her down in your place for a minute

so I can get out there and fucking

prove it crystal to everyone.

- Isn't it better if the Old Bill do that?

- No, it's not.

You have to trust me, because it ain't.

This kid needs me, Tam.

I'm near enough all she's got.

- Dear God.

Poor cow.

(both chuckling)

- [Grace] You ain't gonna leave me here?

- I'm not.

- And you'll be back when?

- Soon, later, soon as I can, whichever comes first.

And think where else I can go in case Richard's place

turns out to be bollocks, please.

Need to hunt down that bag, that thumb thingy.

Anything that gets me to Paul.

- Do I look like a frog like this?

I feel like I do.

- You what?

Well, you do now, come to do that.

Yeah, nice one, Kermit, but,

number 52, my mate Tam's.

- Don't leave me here.

- [Stace] Not again, Nelly.

I thought you and Zita were darling.

- We are.

Saying Samson's feeling a little bit crowded, that's all.

- Well, you've buggered it some way, Nelly.

- Ain't buggered it, either - You may as well tell me how.

- Zeets just wants a sec for the little'un to adjust.

That's it.

- What, adjust to you and her?

- It is something like that, yeah.

- Nothing to do with that Grace?

- Why would it?

- Well, Shola's been in.

So,

where is she?

- Who, Shola?

- You were there in a dream of mine the other night.

Dancing with me mum.

Up on her feet.

Stood on her feet for her to dance you round the room.

And you were tiny, Nells.

Like yourself here, now,

but tiny, and you were holding onto my mum for dear life.

Stood on her feet.

- What's that meant to mean?

- I don't know.

- Then what you going on about it for?

- A measure of my worry, Nells.

Can't even escape it sleeping.

- Yeah, well, you don't have to worry about me, Stace.

- Fuck off lying to me, Nells.

If you can't hear that from me, then piss off out.

- Grace is in trouble,

and no one else will help her if I don't.

- Did she kill him?

- On my nuts, she did not.

Think I know who did,

and I just need some place to stay until I find out.

If you wouldn't mind.

- If you don't want me to go, I won't.

- [Daisy] You should.

- Then tell me not to, Daise.

- [Daisy] You're right, it's better you're there.

Make sure nothing he's doing don't come back at us again.

- Me out there for what Nelly's doing.

I know you're worried.

I won't let it touch us.

I ain't risking it.

I would never.

What?

- Actually, I'm gonna do what you said I could.

I'm telling you not to go.

- Home early?

Hello, good morning to you.

Where have you been?

- Jumped out of a plane.

- You did? - I did.

Just getting back now.

- Now, where did this come from?

I mean, I'm not worried. - It's nothing to worry about.

- What, because obviously you did it with a parachute?

- Yeah. - I mean, with,

somebody showed you? - Yeah, tandem, yeah.

- You just woke up this morning with that in mind,

and then just went and did it?

- Not exactly, but, well, yeah.

- You didn't say.

- Because I didn't think I'd do it.

- You're a bit giddy with it.

- Yeah.

I think I am.

A few days ago, someone on the missing kids forum,

there's maybe six of us left in the chat,

it was late, and someone asked,

what scared us most at the minute.

I just decided to be honest.

There's no point in signing in if you're not gonna be.

- What did you say?

- Everything.

- Everything?

- That's what I typed, everything.

- Is it still like that?

- Is it not for you?

Not still like that, in the pit of you,

fists clenched, right there?

She's gone, I know she is. - Yes, yeah.

- Because it happened.

Something that happens to almost no one.

But it has happened to us.

- Yeah, it has.

- So, yeah, everything scares me.

- And one of those you chat to said

jumping out of the sky might help with that?

- Yeah, one did.

Said it saved her.

Something you're absolutely shit scared of doing,

that you would never do.

- [Barry] And how was it?

- I hated every second of it.

Like I was on the edge of losing my mind,

from top to bottom,

start to finish, until we landed,

and then I wanted to do it all again.

I wanna do it again.

- Because?

- I don't know, because...

Because it totally took over.

(horn honking) - See you later.

- What was it, best out of three?

- You mean, like, I lost the toss?

- Or you won it.

- Where are we going?

- You don't have to do this, Daise.

If Goz ain't allowed out,

I'll beg or borrow and do this on my tod.

- I look like Teens to you, Nelly?

- Heh.

Cambridge Heath, by the Overground.

Long as you're sure about yourself out here with me, Daise.

- Seatbelt. - Okay.

(brooding music)

- It's only Goz being who he is,

loving his mates how he does.

- That was me being clumsy.

- Puts everyone in front of himself.

- That's all it was. - I hate having the ump

with him for that.

You know he loves you, don't you, Nelly?

- Feds at your door was because of me.

I shoulda given myself time enough to think.

Shoulda.

Actually, can you pull over?

Here, please. - What?

- Can ya, just here, yeah. - What's going on?

- Can you stop?

- We haven't gone anywhere, Nelly.

- I'm gonna get out and get going where I'm going.

- What's going on? - You should head back.

I'm just gonna get clumsy with you and all, Daise.

And I've asked enough.

- [Daisy] You don't have to get out, Nelly.

I'll take you where you're going.

- I know you will, I know.

But I'm gonna let you off the hook.

And tell Goz he's off it, too.

In fact, tell 'em all they are.

- Lemme just drop you where you're going.

- I'm not gonna stop, Daise.

I said I wouldn't, and I won't,

and it don't matter who thinks I should,

or wants to call time.

I fucking can't, I don't know how.

I'm even wondering what I've done.

- You worry us so much, Nelly.

- I know I do.

But, you know, the thing is, I'm all right, I am.

I mean, really and truly, sounds mad,

but I do have a hold of myself somehow.

I don't know where I'm going, I don't.

But I ain't lost, you know?

- Well, I'm out now, lemme just drop you.

- No, head back.

- Nelly?

- What are you doing here, Mel?

You can't...

You can't sit out here like you're doing.

- You all right?

You look like they say you do, glowing, and that.

You look lovely.

- I asked you to leave me alone.

To let me think through what I'm thinking.

- Yeah, but I'm not stopping ya.

I just don't want ya to have to go too far

for whenever when.

- What are you on about, whenever when what?

- You've gotta ask me, Bern.

- Ask you what?

- I'll tell you the truth, I promise.

- I'm going in.

- No, Bernie, look, wait.

Look, that kid, yeah, our little girl,

she needs you to be certain.

I know that, I know that. - You're being bloody weird.

- I need you to be certain-- - Why don't you just stop

sitting out here talking shit

like I know what you're on about?

- I won't lie.

I swear.

- Gonna call Nelly, get him to come get you, make you stop.

- No, look, Bernie, look, I know it's upsetting.

Right, and I'm so sorry.

All the thoughts you must be having.

But what you saying, you know,

you want me to leave you alone so you can think about it?

Well, that's not us, Bern.

I'm fighting for me life here, Bern.

- I want you gone by the time I get inside.

I'm not pissing about, Melon.

I'm not.

(brooding music)

- [Nelly] How's she doing?

- Feels like an old soul.

Been here a few times before,

and each soul more pissed off than the last.

- [Nelly] Well, I'm sorry about that.

- She's doing well, all things considered.

- [Nelly] Can I have a word with her, please?

- Yeah, sure.

It's Nelly.

- [Nelly] How's it going, darling?

- You caught me in a bad mood.

- You know, Tam's a giggle, you give him a chance.

- When are you coming back for me?

- [Nelly] Someone's been through Richard's place already.

They've gone at the walls.

- So, it ain't there?

- Nah, nothing like a fuck-off bag anywhere.

No cameras, no nothing.

You had a think about anywhere else?

- [Grace] No.

- You mean nowhere?

- I don't know anywhere, I told ya.

I don't know, like, addresses and that.

Every time they'd take us places, we'd be smashed, so.

I know places from the inside, some of 'em,

but the place you're at is the only place

I know from the outside.

- Okay, and you've proper thought about it?

- Gonna come for me now?

- I am, yeah.

Yeah, I'm on my way.

Fuck.

Christ, what now?

(melancholy music)

Fuck's sake.

Mayfield Lane, Mayfield Lane.

Bethnal Green, chasing my arse.

How's Bernie, you with her now?

- [Mel] I am, yeah.

She's having a kip, that's why I've come outside.

- [Nelly] Everything sweet with ya?

- It is, yeah.

We've just taken ourselves away for a few days.

(Mel speaking indistinctly)

Mel?

You're what it looks like for me, you and Bern.

You know, when I'm trying to work it out with Zita,

when I'm trying to do that.

You're the picture on the box.

So, if I've caused anything that's still bothering Bernie--

- I've gotta go now, she's just woken up.

I've gotta go, mate.

- [Nelly] Yeah, yeah, absolutely, mate.

- Ta-ra.

- We haven't got long.

Hurry up, let's go.

I come back, I want you finished, dressed.

Can we go?

When I say go, I mean ready, now!

(brooding music)

(woman yelling indistinctly)

- You fucking move in here,

you budge a fucking inch, and I'll end ya.

Don't move!

You don't know who I am.

I swear to God.

- Fuck you. - Stay down!

Don't piss about.

Oh, sweet Jesus.

Oh, dear God.

Dio, please, please.

Please.

I'm sorry, I don't know what to do here.

This is not...

This is nuts.

Sorry.

You don't know who I am, do you?

I'm Nelly, and I'm your...

I'm...

You thought you were chatting with me.

Thought you were coming to see me at the library.

You thought that was gonna be me.

It's okay.

We probably shouldn't stay here.

We should...

Um, will you let me take you to your mum?

Will ya, Jody?

She's really missed ya.

And she'll be so happy to see you.

She's been worried sick every day since...

It's Oak Hill, yeah?

I can take you there.

I can take you there straightaway.

I promise.

Well, this?

This is, um, you made it for me, your mum said.

You made, you made one of these in yellow for Dylan,

and your mum gave it to me for my birthday,

and I ain't taken it off...

I can thank you now that you're here.

Thank you, Jody, for my bracelet you made.

(melancholy music)

I love it.

Claire.

* Still *

* Falling *

* Breathless and on *

* Again *

* Inside *

* Today *

* Beside me *

* Today *

* Around, broken in two *

* Till your eyes shed *

* Into dust *

* Like two strangers *

* Turning into dust *

* I could possibly be fading *

* Or have *

* Something more to gain *

* I could feel my eyes *

* Turning into dust *

* And two strangers *

* Turning into dust *