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Kenichi, isn't it time to study?

Yes, but...

Then you have to do it.

But what will happen if a person like me is not taught?

It's decided.

Do it for yourself.

For yourself.

People have to study for the rest of their lives.

You've been talking nonsense. It's past 3 o'clock.

It's time to take a bath.

I'm fine today.

What do you mean?

I don't want to go in today.

I don't feel well.

You must take a bath.

You must take a bath at 3 o'clock.

Why?

Because it's the rule of this house.

Rule?

My mother often uses this word.

And we live according to the rules,

as if it were a purpose for the world to be achieved.

Even though my mother and I are the only ones in this house.

What are you doing?

Come in.

I'll wash it myself.

Why?

You're a parent, so you don't have to worry.

It's strange to be a parent.

You shouldn't think about weird things.

It's strange that a mother washes a child's body.

Since my dad left this house, my mom has been taking care of me.

I'm sick, but I think it's strange.

Honey.

What?

Don't make any noise while eating.

Sorry.

You!

Stop it!

You're making a noise because you don't shut your mouth.

If you eat like that in front of me, you'll lose your appetite.

What do you mean?

Please eat properly.

You're acting like a noble again.

You're the one who eats so much that you lose your appetite.

Mama.

Mama.

Yes?

What's wrong?

Nothing.

After dinner, go back to your room and finish your study.

Mama decides everything in the house.

And she tries to follow it.

This desk was chosen by Mama when I was little.

I will be 20 years old next month.

What will happen to me?

I will be 20 years old next month.

I'm so tired.

I can't live with a woman like you.

I will pay you back when I get a divorce.

What?

It's your day off, right?

I was just thinking.

No, I can't do this.

Why not?

Men can't wait 3 days.

So I decided to do it once every 3 days.

I can do it myself.

What are you saying?

You can't do it on your own.

Why not?

You can wait 3 days, right?

Then you can do it.

I'm not a machine.

It's not like that.

Don't do it on your own.

I don't want to imagine.

You're doing this because you can't leave this house.

I'm not doing it because I want to.

Then stop it.

I can't do that.

I've already decided.

It can't be helped.

3 years ago, after my dad left this house, this ceremony began.

Is this also a rule of this house?

It's not like that.

What's wrong with you?

It's normal for a man like this.

It's meaningless.

Meaningless?

What do you mean?

A couple sleeping together is for reproduction.

I can't believe you're saying that.

You're crazy.

What are you talking about?

Are you serious?

Yes.

You're so vulgar and want something that's not right.

It's disgusting.

I'm sick of it.

Do as you please.

The seriousness that can be said to be the mother's business enemy

It made the people around me hard to breathe

A life alone with my mother, where no one else is

It was like a maze that I couldn't reach anywhere

It was full of peace and vague pain

The same thing happens every day

Maybe nothing will change in the future

Only light moves in this house

What are you doing there?

I told you not to touch my piano.

How many times do I have to tell you?

I'm sorry.

You're terrible.

No one should touch the piano.

You should not break the rules.

Kenichi

The guest is coming, so go to your room.

He's coming again?

We have no choice.

We can't live without him.

When my mom takes a shower in the afternoon,

that's when he comes.

I know that my mom is frustrated and hysterical on that day.

But my mom and I couldn't do anything.

Stop it. The child is here.

It doesn't matter.

If I'm not here, you'll be lonely.

And you'll be sick if you don't eat.

You are...

I'll introduce you.

He's my old friend, Kato.

He said he wanted to meet you.

I'm not good at it.

I can't take care of you alone.

You can join us.

No, it's against the rules.

Rules?

What rules?

I decide the rules.

You're a woman who has to sell your body.

What are you talking about?

You're a better woman than I imagined.

I'll be happy to ride on you.

You're a good woman.

You have a hard head and a scar on your head.

It's fun to make a woman like you dirty.

You're funny.

I know what my mom is doing with him.

I know there is no other way for my mom and I to live.

That was the reality.

Well, well...

And...

Sorry, but I'm more familiar with this, so I'll go first.

Yes, yes.

You don't have to be so surprised.

You're excited, aren't you?

I'm sorry.

It's okay.

This woman...

She's a woman, but...

Once it starts...

It's not going to matter anymore.

Once it starts...

I'll be concentrated.

It doesn't matter what happens around me.

I'm going to show you the flowers for the first time in my life.

It doesn't matter if you feel it.

I want to be with you.

Really?

I love you, but I can't help it.

I love being teased by men, but I can't help it.

I'm living like this.

I think I shouldn't show it.

I'll show you.

I'm the one who will pay you.

With this.

I'll make you feel better than me.

My body is starting to ache.

I'm starting to feel like that.

You're holding back when you're alone, aren't you?

Are you doing something?

I'm sorry.

You're afraid to touch it yourself, aren't you?

You can't hold back the feeling of touching it yourself, can you?

I can't feel it.

I can't feel it.

Look at this.

You're being watched.

Stop it.

Stop it.

You're being watched.

You're being watched.

I can't feel it.

I don't want to be a bully.

I don't want to be bullied or teased.

I don't want to get wet.

I don't want to.

I'm letting my body to be free because I want to live.

I'm so wet.

I don't feel anything.

I don't feel anything.

I want to be a bully.

I want to be a bully.

I didn't know that.

It's fun, isn't it?

It's really fun.

I hate touching such a vulgar thing.

I agree.

This soap is ridiculous.

Touch it.

Damn.

Let's see how it goes.

For your son and your life...

You're giving up your body for no reason.

Poor thing.

But you love him so much, you can't help it.

You want to do it, but you can't.

You're so full of yourself.

You're so full of yourself.

You're so full of yourself.

Show me.

Show me.

Show me your dick.

Open your mouth.

You have a big buttock.

I want to put you in here.

Don't lick my embarrassing part.

Please stop.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

You're so wet.

I can't stop.

I want you so much.

Who's the best?

Is that so?

You want me to poke you, don't you?

I want you so much.

I want to be forced to have sex.

You're not a woman.

No, I'm not.

I'm not that kind of woman.

I'm being licked by a dog.

I'm being licked by a dog.

This is how it is.

As you can see.

I want to be killed by you.

I want to be killed by you.

Look, look.

It's a hole in your butt.

I'm going to stab you.

It's a hole in your butt.

I'm going to stab you.

It's a hole in your butt.

It's a hole in your butt.

I'm going to stab you.

I'm sorry...

I'm so sorry...

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I can't feel my neck.

I'm sorry.

I'm glad.

I'm glad, right?

I'm glad.

But, it's not over yet.

Well, this is...

Enjoy it slowly.

You always make me feel good.

Yes.

Good boy.

I'm glad you're here.

I'm sorry.

I'm counting on you to take care of us.

I'll come back.

The moon is beautiful today.

I like winter because the night is long.

It's time for dinner.

I'm sorry, Mom.

I'm not healthy.

If I wasn't sick...

If?

I'm sure you know, but...

...you hate imagination.

You know what I mean.

I'm allergic to light.

I can't stand direct sunlight.

Light burns my skin and makes me unable to breathe.

I can't leave this house until I die.

This house is my world.

I'm not allowed to leave this house.

If I leave this house, many people will live here.

But I'll live alone with my mom and die here.

I can't go anywhere.

You don't have to leave.

You should stay here.

I want to be with you.

I want friends.

And someone I love.

But I can't say that.

Because I'm sad.

I'm sorry.

I'm not healthy.

I'm not allergic to light.

I can't leave this house until I die.

I'll die here with my mom.

I'm sick.

I'm sick today, too.

What are you doing?

Your life is my business.

So I'll take care of you.

I don't want to do that.

Are you being a hypocrite again?

He's right.

He's right.

He?

He's your husband.

The truth is more important than the novel.

Your ex-husband is working for me.

I found out about your wife by chance.

He was surprised, too.

He?

I'm sure.

He's never been angry.

He's a good husband.

Please go home.

Are you kidding?

If you don't like us,

I'll kill you and your sick son.

Yaburo!

Don't make me laugh.

You're a sick kid.

Get away from my mother!

I'm going to kill you.

You're right.

Kenji, please come here.

I'm going to go.

It's time for adults to start.

The kids go over there.

That's the rule.

I'm sorry. I'm the one who's always been bad.

I've become like this.

Be strong, Kenichi.

From now on, you and I have to live together.

It's nothing like that.

I'm sorry.

What are you thinking about?

When did you become like that?

Did you change your body?

Stop it.

What are you doing?

I'm going to die.

Stop it.

I've never sucked a man before.

Is it open?

I'll do what I hate the most.

What are you going to do?

You won't eat it?

Try to eat it with your mouth open.

It's your first time, isn't it?

It's your first time eating my food.

Come on, eat it.

Come on, eat it.

You can eat it.

Ouch!

You're a rich bastard.

You don't eat my food.

Come on, open your mouth.

You're a total loser

You're the one who's a fool

See?

You like it, don't you?

You like it, don't you?

Say something

Say something

Say something

I'm sorry.

Look at the back of your head.

You didn't let me touch you when you were a baby.

I'll touch you a lot today.

It's my first time

I've never seen you so close

Oh, it hurts

It's my first time

I'll hide you.

No!

Stop it!

I'll hide you.

Show me how you look like when you are in the hospital.

Like this.

Ouch!

See?

It's not cool.

Like this.

I'll make you nice

for it

for it

for it

for it

for it

I'm gonna puke again

You're just following the rules.

You do whatever you want.

You don't care about my upbringing,

or my parents' health.

You're just a burden.

Is that what you want?

I'm not making fun of you.

You're only thinking about yourself.

You only follow the rules you set.

You don't care about anything but yourself.

No.

I just wanted a family.

I've been alone since I was a kid.

I just wanted a real family.

You're lying.

You wanted to leave me.

That's why you rejected me.

No, I didn't.

You shouldn't have left.

I loved you.

I just wanted a family.

Then tell me.

Is Kenichi your family?

No, he's not.

He's...

He's your toy.

I knew it.

Kenichi isn't sick.

You're sick because you want to keep him here.

No.

Then what's wrong with him?

The doctor who took Kenichi to the hospital...

...is your ex-boyfriend.

He was so violent with the doctor.

I ran away from you because you were so stubborn.

You're going to take full responsibility for Kenichi's life.

Listen.

Kenichi isn't sick.

You're the one who's sick.

Mama...

Kei, it's not like that!

I'm going to sacrifice my own son.

I'm not sick. I wasn't sick.

What was I living for?

I won't forgive my mother.

No, you're wrong.

You really...

Cut it out.

I won't be fooled anymore.

I'll protect you.

Genichi...

Genichi, you should do as I say.

Genichi...

I'll always be with you, okay?

You have to believe in me, Kenichi.

Only I can protect you.

Yeah.

Keiichi...

I'll always be by your side, Keiichi.

Keiichi...

Chie...

You know the most about Genichi.

I'm sorry.

I'll be back.

Sister...

Sister...

Keiichi...

Come on, Keiichi.

You should listen to me.

I'll protect you.

Keiichi!

Keiichi!

Keiichi!

Keiichi!

I was like a dream last night. No, everything I've lived so far was like a dream.

Ah, it feels good.

I'm going to get my life back.