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SHE SIGHS
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Don't fuck this up.
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What's going on?
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Oh, you're here.
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Thought you were at Alex's. I
was working on my portfolio.
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Right, we ready?
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Family meeting. Now?!
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I have my interview. He
got the idea from you.
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Dad, I... DOOR BELL RINGS.
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Oh, that'll be
Mina. Mina's coming?
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Yeah.
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Right. Um...
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I just... Thank you all
for coming, by the way.
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Some things have arisen over
the past few weeks that affect,
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well, all of us.
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And I thought it might be an
idea for us to sit down...
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Sorry. Sorry to...
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I think it's great we're
having a family meeting
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and talking about stuff.
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I just have an interview later,
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so I might not be able to stay
for the whole family meeting.
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Can I ask a question
about the family meeting?
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Er... Sure.
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Why is Mina here? Are
you two back together?
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Uh... No.
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No. But, uh...
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Cos I thought only family
members were at a family meeting.
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Oh, what about Finbar?
Finbar's my partner.
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If Tom and Mina aren't partners...
I'm here as Tom's friend.
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For support. Jesus...
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Actually, Bernie, if I might...
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I think it's wonderful
that Mina is here.
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For Tom and...
and for all of us.
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I've sat on many a committee
throughout my academic career,
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and believe me, there is
no substitute for diversity
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of opinion.
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All voices welcome here.
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OK, er, right.
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I'm aware that we might
have thrown a curve ball...
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We? I.
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In mentioning selling the house,
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which is why I wanted to
give everyone a chance
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to air their feelings in an
open and a reasonable manner.
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Very sensible. So,
who wants to go first?
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I'll go first.
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I don't want to sell this house.
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Oh. Bernie...
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This is the house where
I raised my family,
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where Ant was born,
where my mother died,
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not to mention my
first-born son.
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You might as well cut out my heart
and stamp it into the ground!
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Anyone else?
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Do we have to sell the house?
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Well, I wish we didn't...
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But, like, is it the best time?
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Just feels very sudden and, like,
there's a lot of uncertainty
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and, uh, choices
and... Mum's recovery.
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I'm not the problem here.
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I know. I know that...
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Tom can't live in a shed forever.
No-one's making him live in a shed!
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Yeah, but where else can
I go? What about renting?
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Have you any idea what the
rental market's like these days?
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He's plenty of money!
He's not working.
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I mean... Why's he not working?
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You've been using my car.
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Er, um, we can talk
about this later, OK?
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What's going on, Tom? Nothing.
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Well, you told Shiv.
Oh, he didn't tell me.
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So how do you know?
It doesn't matter.
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Oh, is this another of
your little secrets?
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What? I thought we
were here to be honest.
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I'm just respecting
Dad's privacy, OK?
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Why, what's he done? Nothing!
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Sounds a bit fishy, Tom.
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Yeah, look, can
we just please...?
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So you're not working, and
you haven't told anyone...
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Except Shiv. Can
we just leave it?
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He's going through a lot.
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What's he going through?
Nothing! Oh, for God's sake!
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Just tell us what's
happened! No! Why?
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Because! Because what?
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Because it's not
for me to say! Why?
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Because! Because what?
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Because he was
smearing shit on a van!
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Whose shit? Uh...
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It was just some dog shit.
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Whose van? My boss'.
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Ah, Tom, no. They, uh...
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They let me go.
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They fired me. Before
the... dog shit thing.
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Is this why you
came to see me, hm?
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What, you went to see Mina?
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Well... She asked
me to visit you.
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Oh, is
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that why you...?
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Ah, I see. I see. Uh...
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Look, I admit, it hasn't
been the greatest few weeks.
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And, uh, maybe I didn't
handle things as well as I...
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But I've had some time
to think now, and, er...
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We've moved on, Bernie.
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We don't need this house.
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We could, uh, sell up now,
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and both of us come out
of it pretty all right.
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Now, Ant's, er,
got some figures...
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Yep. So, er, in the current market,
you guys could sell this place,
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split the cash, probably come
out with an apartment each.
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An apartment?
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Yeah, nice little
one-bed somewhere local.
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So this is what my
life has come to?
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A windowless one-bedroom
apartment? Huh!
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Not... Not windowless.
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No, we-we can't stay
living like this, Bernie.
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You know, we've worked
hard all our lives.
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We're mortgage-free.
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Well, almost, yeah. Almost?
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Which is quite a privilege
when you think about it.
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I've been meaning to tell you.
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I re-mortgaged the house.
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When? A few weeks ago.
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For what?! This and that.
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What?! "This and that"? What
are you saying, Bernie?!
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Tom, if-if I might, erm...
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I found a little
pied-a-terre in the west, er,
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between the mountains and the
sea. Very reasonably priced.
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It would have been a
crime to let it go,
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and I've, uh, taken
on a little mortgage.
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Bernie has kindly
provided the deposit.
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FINBAR CLEARS HIS THROAT
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It's where I'll
write my next book.
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TOM YELLS
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How could you do this?!
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It's an investment! For who?!
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If we could all
just calm down...
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You don't even know this man,
and you're buying him property.
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I have a lot of experience
with conflict resolution.
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First rule - stay in the room.
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I'm not staying in
that fucking room!
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Wha...?
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How did you re-mortgage
without my signature?
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Did you forge it?
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Look, Tom, the payments
aren't that much.
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I can manage it. Jesus
Christ, Bernie! That's fraud!
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Oh, don't be so hysterical.
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Why did I bother calling
a family meeting?
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Clearly, we only make unilateral
decisions around here.
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Ant! Yeah?
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Tell your boss to come
do that valuation.
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Are you sure? Yes!
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So, what? You're gonna
just go ahead with this?
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Why not? You did.
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Look...
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It's only 100 grand!
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He'll pay it back now if
you're so upset. Won't you?
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We're selling the house, Bernie.
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You can do what you
want with your share.
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I don't even know you any more.
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I bought that.
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DOOR SLAMS
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Well, I hope you're
happy! Me?! What did I do?
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You brought her back.
That woman! That witch!
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She's the one putting
ideas into his head,
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he was grand out there till now.
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Mum, did you forge
Dad's signature?
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What if I did? It's my house!
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What the fuck?
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FINBAR CLEARS HIS THROAT
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They made peace in Northern
Ireland. They'll make peace here.
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MOBILE PHONE CHIMES
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Shiv? Caroline, I
really have to go...
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I'll give you a lift. OK.
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And it's not just the fact that she
blames me for literally everything,
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it's the total self-absorption,
too, you know? Yeah.
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Like, the lack of interest
in anyone else's life!
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Shiv, there's something
that I... And do you know,
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not one person has asked me what
this interview is for? Shi...
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I, um...
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And I'm not saying that to
make you feel bad, by the way.
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But, you know... you haven't
asked me, either, so...
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How could she do that?
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So you're definitely
up for this, yeah?
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Cos if I go to my boss and
you change your mind, it's...
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I won't change my mind. Cos
I really need this, Dad.
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I'm done.
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I'm fucking done.
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Thanks, Dad. You're amaze balls.
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Eddie! Caught that fish.
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♪ I look at her, she looks at me
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♪ In her eyes, I see the sea
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♪ And I don't know
What she'd see in me. ♪
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KNOCK ON DOOR
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Cuppa? Sorry. I just
needed to think.
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You don't need to explain.
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I probably should have
said something to Tom.
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Little white lie for
the greater good.
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Totally understandable.
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I'm going to the shops.
Do you need anything? No.
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Have a soak in the
tub. Bit of me-time.
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FINBAR: Text if you
think of anything!
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DOOR SHUTS
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OK, I accept not everybody
gives a shit about art.
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Can you slow down?!
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It's not like medicine is
so fucking riveting, either.
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Shiv... OK, it might
save a few more lives.
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Oh. Will you shut the fuck up?!
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I'm... Shiv?
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Oh, for God's sake!
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Jack, wh...? What
are you doing here?
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I'm here for the interview.
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What are you doing? Are
you here for the interview?
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Erm, kinda, yeah. Right.
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And what time is your...? Can
you hold Stevie for a sec?
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What? I'm just
bursting for a piss.
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Oh, erm...
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What is he doing here? Wha...?
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He doesn't need this,
it's for emerging artists.
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He's not emerging, he's emerged.
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Unless he's on
the judging panel.
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Oh, my God, he's on the
judging panel. Of course he is.
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This is fucking typical!
He's on the fucking...
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CAROLINE SNIFFS
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Why are you crying?
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Oh, my God, you're
pregnant. Shh!
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How far along?
Almost four months.
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I only found out
the other week. I...
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I thought it was just
really bad indigestion.
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Oh, Caroline...
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Is it Shane's?
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Yes, it's Shane's! Of
course it's Shane's!
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I'm like... 84%
sure it's Shane's.
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So you've told him?
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Of course I haven't
told him! OK.
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So, what are you gonna do?
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Get rid of it, obviously.
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Really? Yes.
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You sure?
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I've booked the flights, I'm
going Saturday, it's done.
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I just needed to tell
someone in case...
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I don't know, something came up.
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Do you think maybe you
need some more time?
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This wasn't meant to happen,
Shiv. It's not on my timeline.
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What the fuck am I supposed
to do with a fucking baby?!
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There y'are!
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Thought you'd kidnapped my kid.
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Why's she crying?
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Everywhere I go, women crying.
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Hey, Max. Thanks for seeing me.
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God, I'm... I'm sorry,
Tom. That sounds awful.
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So how... How could
I...? I need a lawyer.
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Tom, I respect both
you and Bernie.
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I don't think I should...
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I'm not trying to put you in
an awkward situation here, Max.
252
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I'm not. It's just, you know,
I've always felt you and I have a
253
00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:17,280
special connection, you know?
254
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Anyway, I value your advice.
255
00:15:20,880 --> 00:15:25,256
Yeah, well, divorce is
a nasty business, Tom.
256
00:15:25,280 --> 00:15:27,816
My advice is, try
some mediation.
257
00:15:27,840 --> 00:15:30,480
Ah, no, no! No mediation.
258
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We're past that.
259
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I need a shark.
260
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Have you ever had an abortion?
261
00:15:50,680 --> 00:15:51,880
Yeah.
262
00:15:53,200 --> 00:15:54,400
When?
263
00:15:56,400 --> 00:16:00,000
Five years ago. In London.
264
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Do you ever regret it?
265
00:16:12,680 --> 00:16:13,880
No.
266
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Then I won't, either.
267
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I'm a different person to you.
268
00:16:29,920 --> 00:16:32,456
Look, I don't think anyone
should have to be a mother
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if they don't want to be.
Life's hard enough without that.
270
00:16:37,280 --> 00:16:41,496
Just make sure it is
what you want... for you.
271
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Not just cos it doesn't
fit into some timeline.
272
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Siobhan Sheridan?
273
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Good luck.
274
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Dearbhla... Shiv.
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Didn't realise that was you.
276
00:17:16,880 --> 00:17:19,016
Your leaflet
inspired me to apply.
277
00:17:19,040 --> 00:17:22,936
Well... it did
say YOUNG artists,
278
00:17:22,960 --> 00:17:26,520
but never mind, the judges
liked you. Come on in.
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Hello, Shiv.
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Hi. This is Caroline Sheridan.
I've an appointment this weekend.
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I'd like to push it back.
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Just putting out the bins.
283
00:18:28,440 --> 00:18:29,720
Hello.
284
00:18:39,840 --> 00:18:43,960
So you call this A Cycle Of
Shame: Meditations On Addiction.
285
00:18:46,920 --> 00:18:49,576
Can you talk about that? Sure.
286
00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:53,376
I'm drawn to both the abstract
and figurative in my work,
287
00:18:53,400 --> 00:18:54,736
so I've used harsh lines
288
00:18:54,760 --> 00:18:56,496
and a repetition of
colour to evoke...
289
00:18:56,520 --> 00:18:59,936
Yes. But why shame as a theme?
290
00:18:59,960 --> 00:19:02,920
Have you done something
to be ashamed of?
291
00:19:04,320 --> 00:19:06,456
Well, the piece is
about addiction.
292
00:19:06,480 --> 00:19:08,536
Yes, a brave choice
of subject matter,
293
00:19:08,560 --> 00:19:10,560
given that it's such a cliche.
294
00:19:12,120 --> 00:19:13,520
I'm an alcoholic.
295
00:19:15,120 --> 00:19:19,296
I tried getting sober in my
early 30s and kept failing.
296
00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:22,416
Last year, I was doing pretty
well, made it to six months
297
00:19:22,440 --> 00:19:26,320
before I fell spectacularly
off the wagon.
298
00:19:27,920 --> 00:19:29,800
I did some things
I'm not proud of.
299
00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:33,096
We addicts drink to
get rid of our shame.
300
00:19:33,120 --> 00:19:34,936
And then we do things
when we're drunk
301
00:19:34,960 --> 00:19:36,216
that make us more ashamed,
302
00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:39,776
so it kind of becomes
a vicious cycle.
303
00:19:39,800 --> 00:19:43,000
And what about the things you
did when you were not drunk?
304
00:19:45,720 --> 00:19:47,880
Are you ashamed of those, too?
305
00:19:49,000 --> 00:19:50,520
Of course.
306
00:19:51,840 --> 00:19:53,936
That's what I'm
exploring in this piece
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00:19:53,960 --> 00:19:59,576
how one can be sober
but still... messy.
308
00:19:59,600 --> 00:20:02,336
But aren't we sick of the
trope of the "messy" woman?
309
00:20:02,360 --> 00:20:05,016
What about the women
who just get on with it?
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00:20:05,040 --> 00:20:07,136
Who have jobs and raise kids,
311
00:20:07,160 --> 00:20:11,400
and aren't endlessly talking about
their problems or their... pussies?
312
00:20:14,240 --> 00:20:15,520
Well
313
00:20:17,080 --> 00:20:19,896
would that make great art?
314
00:20:19,920 --> 00:20:22,856
Is this great art?
315
00:20:22,880 --> 00:20:25,456
I just don't think young
women relate to this any more.
316
00:20:25,480 --> 00:20:27,656
They're bored by it.
317
00:20:27,680 --> 00:20:29,456
I think it's easy to
be bored when you're 23
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00:20:29,480 --> 00:20:31,336
and you haven't
made any mistakes.
319
00:20:31,360 --> 00:20:33,136
You know, come back
to me when you're 40
320
00:20:33,160 --> 00:20:34,656
and your life's in the shitter.
321
00:20:34,680 --> 00:20:37,696
If you ask me, women are owed
at least several more centuries
322
00:20:37,720 --> 00:20:39,856
of "messy". I mean, Jesus,
323
00:20:39,880 --> 00:20:43,256
we've had a millennia of just
being baby factories or whores.
324
00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:45,496
So you consider
yourself a feminist?
325
00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:46,696
Oh, yeah.
326
00:20:46,720 --> 00:20:50,136
So would you consider it feminist
to, erm, accept a job from a woman
327
00:20:50,160 --> 00:20:51,576
who is eight months pregnant,
328
00:20:51,600 --> 00:20:54,376
and then fuck her
boyfriend behind her back?
329
00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:57,880
Or would you simply put that
down to being... "messy"?
330
00:21:12,040 --> 00:21:13,240
Oh.
331
00:21:14,600 --> 00:21:16,560
Apology Champagne. Oh?
332
00:21:19,160 --> 00:21:21,816
Did you get my flowers
last week? I did.
333
00:21:21,840 --> 00:21:25,016
I am really sorry about
what happened. Erm...
334
00:21:25,040 --> 00:21:27,376
Er, but I've got good news.
335
00:21:27,400 --> 00:21:30,536
My folks are selling the house,
and I brought it to Eddie,
336
00:21:30,560 --> 00:21:32,456
which means I'll be
getting commission,
337
00:21:32,480 --> 00:21:35,496
which means I won't need
mates rates, which means...
338
00:21:35,520 --> 00:21:37,976
I'm ready. To move in.
339
00:21:38,000 --> 00:21:41,136
Is it OK - I took your
washing out of the machine?
340
00:21:41,160 --> 00:21:43,296
Yeah, yeah. Of course.
341
00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:48,160
Er, Ant, you
remember Mikhail? Hi.
342
00:21:49,600 --> 00:21:52,776
He's subletting Pete's room
for a couple of months.
343
00:21:52,800 --> 00:21:55,016
Oh. OK.
344
00:21:55,040 --> 00:21:58,376
It just seemed like, you
know, after everything, that
345
00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:02,576
it might be better for us
to take it slow, you know?
346
00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:05,696
Right, yeah. Yeah.
We're not in any rush.
347
00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:07,016
God, no! No!
348
00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:09,536
Sure. You were the one with
the foot on the accelerator.
349
00:22:09,560 --> 00:22:11,656
Are these yours?
350
00:22:11,680 --> 00:22:14,056
Oh, come on! Did they shrink?
351
00:22:14,080 --> 00:22:18,376
Hey, give them! Give them to
me! Give them to me! Give...
352
00:22:18,400 --> 00:22:20,496
You're such a dick!
353
00:22:20,520 --> 00:22:21,776
He's such a dick.
354
00:22:21,800 --> 00:22:24,320
Yeah. Yeah, I can see that.
355
00:22:55,120 --> 00:22:59,416
This feels firm to me. No,
this is not a proper melon.
356
00:22:59,440 --> 00:23:02,480
Here, this one. OK.
357
00:23:04,080 --> 00:23:06,416
Caroline! Hey, hi!
358
00:23:06,440 --> 00:23:09,416
What are you... doing here?
359
00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:11,280
Fe-Feeling the-the melons...
360
00:23:13,040 --> 00:23:16,416
Hi, I'm Caroline... Er,
this is Marie-Luisa.
361
00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:17,880
We work together.
362
00:23:21,120 --> 00:23:23,736
And I am his girlfriend.
363
00:23:23,760 --> 00:23:26,880
Right. Wow.
364
00:23:28,600 --> 00:23:32,336
And you're Spanish? Half
Spanish, half Portuguese.
365
00:23:32,360 --> 00:23:35,336
Yes. Erm, I think Rory
might have mentioned you.
366
00:23:35,360 --> 00:23:38,896
When did you mention me? Er,
are you having a party or...?
367
00:23:38,920 --> 00:23:43,696
Oh, no. Just... sugar cravings.
368
00:23:43,720 --> 00:23:46,016
Period?
369
00:23:46,040 --> 00:23:48,200
Yep. Yeah.
370
00:23:50,480 --> 00:23:53,016
Er, anyway... Er, yeah.
371
00:23:53,040 --> 00:23:55,640
It was nice seeing you,
Rory. Yeah, you too.
372
00:24:03,600 --> 00:24:05,736
Why didn't you say I
was your girlfriend?!
373
00:24:05,760 --> 00:24:08,760
Ow, Jesus! Argh!
374
00:24:11,240 --> 00:24:14,240
Kristen? Yes?
375
00:24:17,040 --> 00:24:20,800
I just wanted to say I'm
sorry... for everything.
376
00:24:22,520 --> 00:24:24,376
I know I've caused
you a lot of pain.
377
00:24:24,400 --> 00:24:27,096
And I know you and Jack
aren't together any more.
378
00:24:27,120 --> 00:24:29,656
And I feel terrible for the
part I played in... Oh, please.
379
00:24:29,680 --> 00:24:31,920
Don't make yourself more
important than you are.
380
00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:36,616
It's not like you were the
only one. It was Christmas.
381
00:24:36,640 --> 00:24:40,056
Apology not accepted.
382
00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:42,120
Go fuck yourself.
383
00:24:55,560 --> 00:24:58,976
Hey, Shiv. How'd it go?
384
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,816
Why didn't you tell me
she was on the panel?
385
00:25:01,840 --> 00:25:03,616
I didn't wanna freak you out.
386
00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:05,176
She tore me to pieces in there.
387
00:25:05,200 --> 00:25:08,496
Fuck it! It's some shitty
little parochial bursary,
388
00:25:08,520 --> 00:25:11,816
you don't need it.
Actually, Jack, yes, I do!
389
00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:13,776
And by the way, that's
easy for you to say,
390
00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:15,656
you weren't in there
being totally fucking...
391
00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:17,776
HE CHUCKLES What?!
392
00:25:17,800 --> 00:25:21,376
You look great when
you're angry. HE CHUCKLES.
393
00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:22,560
Oh, my God.
394
00:25:24,480 --> 00:25:27,320
It doesn't matter
what they think!
395
00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:30,360
WHISTLE
396
00:25:39,160 --> 00:25:42,896
So... how'd it go?
397
00:25:42,920 --> 00:25:46,600
It was a total fucking
shit show. What?! No!
398
00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:50,456
Is it something to do
with your ex being here?
399
00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:54,016
No. God... Were yis fighting?
400
00:25:54,040 --> 00:25:56,840
He was just being himself.
401
00:25:58,120 --> 00:25:59,536
It wasn't just my ex.
402
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:03,280
His ex was on the
panel, my boss.
403
00:26:05,800 --> 00:26:08,056
So what's your news?
Your text this morning.
404
00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:10,416
You said you had something
to... Ah, it's not really...
405
00:26:10,440 --> 00:26:13,120
Oh, come on. It sounded important,
and I need a distraction.
406
00:26:18,400 --> 00:26:20,536
Look, I... I didn't
wanna do this here.
407
00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:22,040
Erm...
408
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:26,896
I've been offered
to go to Australia.
409
00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:29,496
Australia? One of my
business partners,
410
00:26:29,520 --> 00:26:32,496
his brother lives in Melbourne,
411
00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:34,816
and he wants to open
a restaurant with us.
412
00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:38,536
When? Soon.
413
00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:41,696
And obviously, there's
some considerations...
414
00:26:41,720 --> 00:26:44,296
Yeah, like what?
415
00:26:44,320 --> 00:26:45,760
Like you.
416
00:26:47,760 --> 00:26:51,120
The fact that I'm
falling in love with you.
417
00:26:54,080 --> 00:26:55,480
What do you think?
418
00:26:57,160 --> 00:26:59,760
You wanna ride off into
the sunset with me?
419
00:27:03,160 --> 00:27:06,576
♪ Hey, baby, swing
for the fences
420
00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:10,120
♪ Whatever consequences
421
00:27:12,320 --> 00:27:15,320
♪ I'm smiling like
an idiot again
422
00:27:16,280 --> 00:27:20,440
♪ I'm smiling like
an idiot again
423
00:27:23,840 --> 00:27:26,880
♪ I'm smiling like
an idiot again
424
00:27:28,280 --> 00:27:30,840
♪ I'm smiling like
an idiot again
425
00:27:31,920 --> 00:27:34,960
♪ I'm smiling like
an idiot again
426
00:27:36,080 --> 00:27:38,296
♪ I'm smiling like
an idiot again. ♪
427
00:27:38,320 --> 00:27:40,360
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