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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:22,022 --> 00:00:24,608 This is the story of mind control. 2 00:00:25,275 --> 00:00:27,110 Some of those engaged in that search 3 00:00:27,194 --> 00:00:30,030 have agreed to talk about it for the first time. 4 00:00:30,739 --> 00:00:34,076 You succeed and survive if you accept the program. 5 00:00:34,159 --> 00:00:36,119 If you don't, there are punishments. 6 00:00:36,203 --> 00:00:38,580 You are manipulating children. 7 00:00:39,790 --> 00:00:42,209 Well, you are certainly having an effect. 8 00:00:42,876 --> 00:00:44,545 You are changing their behavior. 9 00:00:44,628 --> 00:00:46,129 No. 10 00:00:46,213 --> 00:00:47,965 No. 11 00:00:48,048 --> 00:00:49,258 It's a tough program. 12 00:00:49,341 --> 00:00:50,217 Yes, it is. 13 00:00:50,300 --> 00:00:51,927 It's also a controversial program. 14 00:00:52,970 --> 00:00:55,430 The seminars were the worst part of the program. 15 00:00:55,931 --> 00:00:59,393 They used time-tested brainwashing techniques to control us. 16 00:00:59,893 --> 00:01:02,938 To be honest, I blocked out a lot about the seminars. 17 00:01:03,021 --> 00:01:05,232 But there are a few things I'll never forget. 18 00:01:05,816 --> 00:01:09,111 Like having to crawl around on the floor like a baby for an hour. 19 00:01:09,194 --> 00:01:11,280 And the towels wrapped in duct tape. 20 00:01:12,114 --> 00:01:15,742 Since we couldn't get out by force, this was our only option. 21 00:01:15,826 --> 00:01:18,203 Surrender, stop fighting. 22 00:01:19,204 --> 00:01:20,706 Give in to the program. 23 00:01:37,222 --> 00:01:41,351 That song, the one from A Space Odyssey, 24 00:01:41,435 --> 00:01:44,104 was used repeatedly in the seminars. 25 00:01:44,688 --> 00:01:47,232 The day-to-day life at Ivy Ridge was bad enough. 26 00:01:47,316 --> 00:01:48,734 But once every six weeks, 27 00:01:48,817 --> 00:01:51,611 we were required to participate in these pseudo-psychological, 28 00:01:51,695 --> 00:01:55,032 emotionally abusive , and humiliating seminars. 29 00:01:55,115 --> 00:01:58,535 Seminars are two-to-four-day events 30 00:01:58,619 --> 00:02:03,165 that happen about every four to six weeks at every one of the WWASP programs. 31 00:02:03,749 --> 00:02:07,252 And you have to get through one to get to the next one. 32 00:02:07,336 --> 00:02:09,338 So it's the backbone of the whole program. 33 00:02:10,047 --> 00:02:11,882 In order to graduate the program, 34 00:02:11,965 --> 00:02:14,968 you had to complete the seminars, and there were a lot. 35 00:02:15,052 --> 00:02:18,305 Completing the seminars meant not questioning their ideology 36 00:02:18,388 --> 00:02:21,099 and conforming to the groupthink of the program. 37 00:02:21,183 --> 00:02:23,352 Where the seminars were very, very effective 38 00:02:23,435 --> 00:02:26,355 is that they use physiological experiences 39 00:02:26,438 --> 00:02:29,024 to manipulate the mind and manipulate thought processes. 40 00:02:29,107 --> 00:02:31,693 So, for instance, all of a sudden, we become food deprived, 41 00:02:31,777 --> 00:02:33,278 and we become sleep-deprived. 42 00:02:33,362 --> 00:02:35,197 Not just sleep-deprived, but time-deprived, 43 00:02:35,280 --> 00:02:37,115 because these windows weren't open in seminars. 44 00:02:37,199 --> 00:02:40,911 We didn't know what time of the day it was whenever we were in the seminar room. 45 00:02:40,994 --> 00:02:42,954 For all we knew, we were in here for two hours, 46 00:02:43,038 --> 00:02:44,164 or we were in here for 20. 47 00:02:44,247 --> 00:02:46,625 In addition to that, every single seminar 48 00:02:46,708 --> 00:02:49,211 involved some type of physical exertion component. 49 00:02:49,878 --> 00:02:52,047 Oh my gosh. These. 50 00:02:52,547 --> 00:02:53,507 Okay. 51 00:02:54,216 --> 00:02:55,550 So, this… 52 00:02:57,469 --> 00:03:01,181 This is a towel wrapped in duct tape. 53 00:03:01,682 --> 00:03:03,517 They had us sit on the floor. 54 00:03:03,600 --> 00:03:05,477 And they were like, "Okay." 55 00:03:05,560 --> 00:03:09,398 "Now, I want you to start hitting the floor as hard as you can and scream." 56 00:03:09,981 --> 00:03:11,566 It was an hour of doing this, 57 00:03:11,650 --> 00:03:15,529 and if you stopped, they would call it, "You chose out of the seminar." 58 00:03:15,612 --> 00:03:17,280 You'd get kicked out of the seminar. 59 00:03:17,364 --> 00:03:19,991 So, when you choose out of seminar, 60 00:03:20,075 --> 00:03:24,913 they send you to a new seminar called "breakpoint." 61 00:03:24,996 --> 00:03:26,998 And the reason that it's called "breakpoint" 62 00:03:27,082 --> 00:03:30,210 is because it's meant to break you. 63 00:03:30,293 --> 00:03:34,381 Alexa and I went to one particular breakpoint, um, 64 00:03:34,464 --> 00:03:40,095 and this was an all-day event with only one activity for the entire day. 65 00:03:40,178 --> 00:03:42,806 We sat here and just repeated the same thing 66 00:03:42,889 --> 00:03:44,891 over and over and over again 67 00:03:44,975 --> 00:03:49,396 until we finally just disassociated and left our bodies and-- 68 00:03:49,479 --> 00:03:51,732 -And broke. -And broke. Yeah, breakpoint. 69 00:03:51,815 --> 00:03:54,401 -We reached the breaking point. -So if you'd like to see that… 70 00:03:54,484 --> 00:03:56,695 - What was it like? Do it! - Okay. 71 00:03:56,778 --> 00:04:00,157 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 72 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:02,951 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 73 00:04:03,034 --> 00:04:05,829 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 74 00:04:05,912 --> 00:04:08,748 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 75 00:04:08,832 --> 00:04:11,835 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 76 00:04:11,918 --> 00:04:14,713 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 77 00:04:14,796 --> 00:04:17,799 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 78 00:04:17,883 --> 00:04:20,677 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 79 00:04:20,760 --> 00:04:23,472 Palms up, palms down, palms together, palms apart. 80 00:04:23,555 --> 00:04:25,223 - Okay. - Yeah, it's… 81 00:04:25,307 --> 00:04:26,683 I gotta throw a chair. 82 00:04:27,684 --> 00:04:30,187 Literally, I am feeling a certain way in my body right now. 83 00:04:30,270 --> 00:04:32,272 And that was only a minute. 84 00:04:32,355 --> 00:04:34,900 - Was that only a minute? - How long did you do it for? 85 00:04:34,983 --> 00:04:36,776 -About eight hours. -At least. Uninterrupted. 86 00:04:36,860 --> 00:04:37,861 Yeah. 87 00:04:40,947 --> 00:04:43,784 Different programs are gonna try different techniques. 88 00:04:43,867 --> 00:04:47,746 And by sort of inventing these things 89 00:04:47,829 --> 00:04:51,249 for people to do that sometimes are completely ridiculous, 90 00:04:51,333 --> 00:04:54,669 they're getting you to give up yourself, give up your individualism. 91 00:04:54,753 --> 00:04:58,131 It's part of this thought-stopping process. 92 00:04:58,215 --> 00:05:01,384 The seminars at Ivy Ridge were modeled after self-help workshops 93 00:05:01,468 --> 00:05:05,222 known as LGATs, or large group awareness trainings. 94 00:05:05,305 --> 00:05:07,766 The micro lab has now been together five hours. 95 00:05:07,849 --> 00:05:11,061 They've told each other secrets, shared fears and dreams. 96 00:05:11,144 --> 00:05:13,313 These types of workshops became popular 97 00:05:13,396 --> 00:05:15,857 during the human potential movement in the '60s. 98 00:05:15,941 --> 00:05:18,318 You had groups like EST and Lifespring. 99 00:05:18,401 --> 00:05:19,986 They were just springing up all over. 100 00:05:20,070 --> 00:05:23,823 And they use what we call "high-arousal techniques." 101 00:05:23,907 --> 00:05:26,159 Psychologically, the breather achieves 102 00:05:26,243 --> 00:05:28,036 an altered state of consciousness. 103 00:05:28,703 --> 00:05:32,165 The experience may be pleasurable or extremely painful. 104 00:05:33,458 --> 00:05:35,710 They consist of unconventional activities 105 00:05:35,794 --> 00:05:39,798 that are meant to increase self-awareness to bring about a desired change. 106 00:05:39,881 --> 00:05:44,427 If you put people through a intense emotional experience, 107 00:05:44,511 --> 00:05:47,722 you can make them believe that they changed their lives. 108 00:05:48,223 --> 00:05:50,350 By the time this physical exertion is done, 109 00:05:50,433 --> 00:05:54,521 it feels like I beat this part out of me, and now I feel clean. 110 00:05:54,604 --> 00:05:57,774 Instead of, "Wait. I was just crazy manipulated 111 00:05:57,858 --> 00:06:02,571 into exerting myself so intensely because I was just being told to." 112 00:06:03,822 --> 00:06:06,491 Keep it on "Cristofori's Dream." It's more fucked up. 113 00:06:08,743 --> 00:06:11,371 - Oh God! - Oh my God! 114 00:06:11,454 --> 00:06:12,622 In the seminars, 115 00:06:12,706 --> 00:06:14,874 they would play all sorts of meditative music 116 00:06:14,958 --> 00:06:16,918 and guide us into a trance-like state. 117 00:06:20,005 --> 00:06:23,174 They would know so many personal details about your life, 118 00:06:23,258 --> 00:06:25,885 and that's what they would use to break you. 119 00:06:25,969 --> 00:06:28,597 They knew my mom died a week before I turned two. 120 00:06:28,680 --> 00:06:30,682 And they're like, "Yell at your mom." 121 00:06:30,765 --> 00:06:33,768 "Pretend the floor is your mom and tell her how mad you are 122 00:06:33,852 --> 00:06:36,229 she abandoned you, that she died." 123 00:06:36,313 --> 00:06:39,482 And I'm like, "She died of cancer! She didn't… It wasn't her fault." 124 00:06:41,109 --> 00:06:45,196 Some of the stuff they did to me that I think was the worst was telling me 125 00:06:45,280 --> 00:06:48,199 that I needed to be accountable for my dad dying. 126 00:06:48,283 --> 00:06:51,870 And my father died in a car accident when I was a toddler. 127 00:06:51,953 --> 00:06:54,289 We rolled numerous times and landed upside down. 128 00:06:54,372 --> 00:06:55,832 Like, it was horrific. 129 00:06:56,625 --> 00:07:01,004 The car accident should be the worst thing that ever happened to me. 130 00:07:01,087 --> 00:07:02,380 It was being at Ivy Ridge. 131 00:07:02,464 --> 00:07:04,716 It was the worst thing that ever happened to me. 132 00:07:04,799 --> 00:07:06,384 -Worse than your dad dying? -Mm-hmm. 133 00:07:07,469 --> 00:07:10,263 Seeing him die too, which was really hard. 134 00:07:10,347 --> 00:07:12,432 But, um… 135 00:07:12,515 --> 00:07:14,392 Yeah, I just think being here was way worse. 136 00:07:14,476 --> 00:07:16,353 Because they made me relive it. 137 00:07:16,436 --> 00:07:19,022 They were like, "The world would've been a better place 138 00:07:19,105 --> 00:07:21,733 if you had died in that car accident and not your father." 139 00:07:21,816 --> 00:07:23,401 I actually have an essay 140 00:07:23,485 --> 00:07:26,029 where they made me write, "It is my fault." 141 00:07:26,529 --> 00:07:28,657 It was really hurtful to write those words. 142 00:07:29,199 --> 00:07:32,243 They had a name tag for me, and it just said, "Mistake." 143 00:07:32,327 --> 00:07:35,163 'Cause it was a mistake I lived and my dad died. 144 00:07:35,872 --> 00:07:39,584 So no one could call me by my name. They had to call me "The Mistake." 145 00:07:44,464 --> 00:07:48,802 It taught us how to destroy people with words. 146 00:07:48,885 --> 00:07:51,680 It's horrible, and our only form of nonverbal communication 147 00:07:51,763 --> 00:07:53,348 is an insult, right? "Victim." 148 00:07:53,431 --> 00:07:56,267 And not victims like, "Oh my gosh. You're a victim of a horrible act." 149 00:07:56,351 --> 00:07:59,145 But like, "Victim." You know? "You're playing the victim." 150 00:07:59,229 --> 00:08:01,189 It's a shameful thing. It's an insult. 151 00:08:01,272 --> 00:08:03,775 That's where it's like, "Okay, they're breaking you down." 152 00:08:04,609 --> 00:08:06,194 Oh shit. Is this… 153 00:08:06,277 --> 00:08:09,030 - This is the makeup for… Okay. - Oh wow. 154 00:08:09,114 --> 00:08:12,742 You'd have to do these performances based on, like, 155 00:08:12,826 --> 00:08:15,120 how they're trying to psychologically torture you. 156 00:08:15,203 --> 00:08:18,581 'Cause the whole point of these seminars is public humiliation. 157 00:08:18,665 --> 00:08:21,418 That's how you really break people down. 158 00:08:21,501 --> 00:08:25,380 They issue you a song to perform in front of everyone 159 00:08:25,463 --> 00:08:28,550 in this vulnerable way that usually involved cross-dressing. 160 00:08:28,633 --> 00:08:31,678 And mine was Right Said Fred's, "I'm Too Sexy," 161 00:08:31,761 --> 00:08:33,304 where I wore a red dress. 162 00:08:34,222 --> 00:08:37,058 Pranced around in this cult-like circle. 163 00:08:37,684 --> 00:08:39,978 They ruined so many good songs. 164 00:08:40,061 --> 00:08:43,314 Cyndi Lauper and "Girls Just Want to Have Fun." 165 00:08:43,398 --> 00:08:47,485 Now you can never listen to those songs again without thinking of the seminar. 166 00:08:48,236 --> 00:08:51,406 The seminars were to break you down 167 00:08:51,489 --> 00:08:54,117 so that they could build you back up in the image of the program. 168 00:08:54,200 --> 00:08:56,369 It is behavior modification. 169 00:08:56,453 --> 00:08:58,288 It is literal brainwashing. 170 00:08:58,371 --> 00:09:00,707 It is coercive persuasion. 171 00:09:04,044 --> 00:09:07,213 Palms up, palms down, palms together… 172 00:09:07,297 --> 00:09:10,425 Everybody's screaming. I need to be involved in the screaming. 173 00:09:10,508 --> 00:09:14,095 Knuckles would be ripped open, and their hands would be bleeding. 174 00:09:14,179 --> 00:09:16,639 What the fuck is going on in there? 175 00:09:16,723 --> 00:09:21,019 Sensory deprivation, food deprivation, sleep deprivation, public humiliation. 176 00:09:21,102 --> 00:09:24,022 Because you are worthless, because you are a liar, you are deceitful. 177 00:09:24,105 --> 00:09:25,273 Let's amp it up! 178 00:09:25,356 --> 00:09:28,526 Tell me your deepest darkest secrets! It's gonna change your life. 179 00:09:28,610 --> 00:09:29,903 You are at fault. 180 00:09:29,986 --> 00:09:31,154 You are to blame. 181 00:09:31,237 --> 00:09:33,406 Anything that has ever happened to you is your fault. 182 00:09:33,490 --> 00:09:36,117 You're weak. You're pathetic. You're a victim. 183 00:09:36,201 --> 00:09:39,996 And the only way you can take control of your life and be accountable 184 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:41,247 is through the program. 185 00:09:41,331 --> 00:09:43,374 …palms together, palms apart. 186 00:09:43,458 --> 00:09:45,960 The program's cruel tactics make a lot more sense 187 00:09:46,044 --> 00:09:48,421 when you realize that they stem from an abusive cult. 188 00:09:49,547 --> 00:09:52,008 The troubled teen industry began with Synanon, 189 00:09:52,091 --> 00:09:55,011 which was a cult that started in Santa Monica in 1958 190 00:09:55,094 --> 00:09:56,805 by Charles E. Dederich. 191 00:09:56,888 --> 00:09:59,891 He got involved with Alcoholics Anonymous. 192 00:09:59,974 --> 00:10:02,894 And he thought that AA was not tough enough, 193 00:10:02,977 --> 00:10:07,190 that what we should do is take the principles and the steps 194 00:10:07,273 --> 00:10:08,900 and impose them on people. 195 00:10:09,484 --> 00:10:12,570 He created a residential treatment community of heroin addicts, 196 00:10:12,654 --> 00:10:15,824 in which he pioneered harsh behavior modification tactics 197 00:10:15,907 --> 00:10:17,867 known as "attack therapy." 198 00:10:18,660 --> 00:10:21,079 You would basically find somebody's weak points, 199 00:10:21,162 --> 00:10:23,623 zero in on them, and attack them. 200 00:10:23,706 --> 00:10:25,333 How many fights have you had? 201 00:10:25,416 --> 00:10:27,710 You've had none! You've had none! 202 00:10:27,794 --> 00:10:31,339 This could go on for 24 hours, even longer. 203 00:10:31,422 --> 00:10:35,093 And people would just whale on people till they'd be completely broken. 204 00:10:35,176 --> 00:10:36,761 Y'all happy? 205 00:10:37,345 --> 00:10:40,515 The more anxious you become, the less clear your thinking is, 206 00:10:40,598 --> 00:10:43,852 and you become vulnerable to being influenced by the leaders 207 00:10:43,935 --> 00:10:46,187 into adopting their ideology. 208 00:10:46,271 --> 00:10:48,022 Once Synanon was disbanded, 209 00:10:48,106 --> 00:10:52,318 its members went on to create other programs modeled after Synanon 210 00:10:52,402 --> 00:10:55,280 but serving troubled teenagers. 211 00:10:55,363 --> 00:10:57,282 These teenagers are the raw material 212 00:10:57,365 --> 00:10:59,284 of a growing industry that treats troubled kids. 213 00:10:59,367 --> 00:11:02,078 Nancy Reagan popularized these programs 214 00:11:02,161 --> 00:11:05,373 with her "Just Say No" campaign in the war on drugs. 215 00:11:05,456 --> 00:11:07,834 There is nothing as awful for a parent 216 00:11:07,917 --> 00:11:10,169 as having something happen to their child. 217 00:11:10,253 --> 00:11:12,714 She even brought Princess Diana to a program 218 00:11:12,797 --> 00:11:14,132 in one of her US visits. 219 00:11:14,215 --> 00:11:15,842 In the '80s and '90s, 220 00:11:15,925 --> 00:11:19,679 parents were told tough love was the only way to go. 221 00:11:19,762 --> 00:11:21,764 I'm really disgusted with you. 222 00:11:21,848 --> 00:11:23,892 You're really selfish and arrogant. 223 00:11:23,975 --> 00:11:25,685 That's how I feel about you. 224 00:11:26,603 --> 00:11:28,563 -I love you. -I love you, Mom. 225 00:11:28,646 --> 00:11:32,442 Humiliation and emotional attacks put people off balance. 226 00:11:33,484 --> 00:11:36,070 And they use that to create compliance. 227 00:11:36,154 --> 00:11:37,989 If you break one of the rules, 228 00:11:38,072 --> 00:11:40,533 or your attitude isn't right, you get yelled at. 229 00:11:40,617 --> 00:11:43,036 You don't even have enough self-esteem, okay? 230 00:11:43,119 --> 00:11:44,120 That all depends… 231 00:11:44,203 --> 00:11:46,289 They're tearing apart your self-esteem 232 00:11:46,372 --> 00:11:48,583 and tearing apart your trust in yourself. 233 00:11:48,666 --> 00:11:51,044 And, eventually, tearing apart yourself. 234 00:11:51,127 --> 00:11:54,422 Everybody went around and told you, in so many words, 235 00:11:54,505 --> 00:11:56,925 they think you suck as a person. 236 00:11:57,008 --> 00:12:00,970 And that if they had their way, they'd cut your throat 237 00:12:01,054 --> 00:12:02,513 and relieve the human race 238 00:12:02,597 --> 00:12:04,974 of having to deal with an ingrate like you. 239 00:12:05,058 --> 00:12:06,517 You could do a chart 240 00:12:06,601 --> 00:12:09,938 and trace the influence throughout the troubled teen industry. 241 00:12:10,021 --> 00:12:12,982 Every program is based on Synanon 242 00:12:13,066 --> 00:12:15,985 or based on something that was based on Synanon. 243 00:12:19,030 --> 00:12:20,198 Oh yeah, right? 244 00:12:20,281 --> 00:12:23,368 Molly, what correction did you get for tripping over me? 245 00:12:23,451 --> 00:12:26,412 Unauthorized communication. 'Cause we laughed. 246 00:12:26,496 --> 00:12:27,997 -Two times. -No, you tripped over me. 247 00:12:28,081 --> 00:12:30,500 -I tripped over you? That makes sense. -You tripped over me. 248 00:12:30,583 --> 00:12:31,793 But yeah, this. 249 00:12:31,876 --> 00:12:34,254 Molly was one of my best friends in the program. 250 00:12:34,337 --> 00:12:35,964 We'd always get in trouble for that. 251 00:12:36,047 --> 00:12:38,174 You weren't allowed to have friends in the program. 252 00:12:39,384 --> 00:12:43,596 Molly had never touched drugs or alcohol and was a straight A student. 253 00:12:43,680 --> 00:12:46,307 But her little brother had been sent to Majestic Ranch, 254 00:12:46,391 --> 00:12:50,478 another WWASP program that targeted kids as young as seven years old. 255 00:12:50,561 --> 00:12:52,855 Her parents loved the program so much 256 00:12:52,939 --> 00:12:55,692 that they decided to send Molly and her brother to Ivy Ridge, 257 00:12:55,775 --> 00:12:58,444 because they thought it would bring the family closer together. 258 00:12:59,028 --> 00:13:00,613 Molly was in my "family," 259 00:13:00,697 --> 00:13:04,200 which was basically a small class we were divided into. 260 00:13:04,284 --> 00:13:06,077 Each family was given a different name. 261 00:13:06,744 --> 00:13:09,247 Faith, Hope, Valiant. 262 00:13:09,330 --> 00:13:11,833 My family name was "Congeniality." 263 00:13:13,334 --> 00:13:15,795 Every weekday, we would sit in a circle with our families 264 00:13:15,878 --> 00:13:19,132 and give each other feedback in this thing called "group." 265 00:13:19,215 --> 00:13:22,010 After I shared, I'm like, "I had a hard time this week." 266 00:13:22,093 --> 00:13:24,220 "I was just transported by two strangers 267 00:13:24,304 --> 00:13:26,931 who kidnapped me and brought me here to this place." 268 00:13:27,015 --> 00:13:29,309 "I don't know where I am. I can't talk to my sisters." 269 00:13:29,392 --> 00:13:32,103 "I don't know where my dad… What is happening? What is this place?" 270 00:13:32,186 --> 00:13:34,147 "How long am I gonna be here? Blah, blah, blah." 271 00:13:34,230 --> 00:13:36,065 And then I would get feedback. 272 00:13:36,149 --> 00:13:38,860 Who wants to give me feedback based on my share? Alexa. 273 00:13:38,943 --> 00:13:40,737 -Katherine, are you open for feedback? -Yes. 274 00:13:40,820 --> 00:13:43,573 Katherine, my experience of you is that you're acting like a victim. 275 00:13:44,157 --> 00:13:46,951 My encouragement for you is to do some deep soul-searching 276 00:13:47,035 --> 00:13:49,954 because clearly, again, you are doing some very nonworking behavior. 277 00:13:50,038 --> 00:13:53,124 You're not gonna be able to go home, and your parents won't want you home 278 00:13:53,207 --> 00:13:56,502 until you start owning your greatness and get out of your image. 279 00:13:56,586 --> 00:13:59,172 - Ooh! - Great jargon! 280 00:13:59,255 --> 00:14:03,051 This was daily life in the program. This was every day. 281 00:14:03,134 --> 00:14:06,721 And this was the only time we were allowed to talk 282 00:14:06,804 --> 00:14:08,973 and communicate with our family rep. 283 00:14:09,932 --> 00:14:14,062 And our family rep was our only communication and lifeline 284 00:14:14,145 --> 00:14:17,315 to the outside world, to our parents, and to our family. 285 00:14:18,149 --> 00:14:19,942 Family reps would monitor 286 00:14:20,026 --> 00:14:21,986 all of our letters and phone calls to our parents. 287 00:14:22,070 --> 00:14:25,948 And if we said anything negative about the program, we'd get a correction. 288 00:14:26,032 --> 00:14:28,117 They would have weekly phone calls with our parents 289 00:14:28,201 --> 00:14:31,829 where they'd reassure 'em that keeping us in the program was the best thing for us. 290 00:14:31,913 --> 00:14:35,541 Our families, our parents accepted them in our place. 291 00:14:35,625 --> 00:14:39,128 They trusted them over our letters, over our words. 292 00:14:39,212 --> 00:14:43,299 The most illuminating thing we found in the files 293 00:14:43,382 --> 00:14:45,176 were the family rep talking points. 294 00:14:45,760 --> 00:14:47,637 Family reps were given talking points 295 00:14:47,720 --> 00:14:49,472 for how to address abuse allegations. 296 00:14:49,555 --> 00:14:50,848 "They are not credible." 297 00:14:50,932 --> 00:14:52,892 "We do not use 'isolation.'" 298 00:14:52,975 --> 00:14:54,769 "We do no 'brainwashing.'" 299 00:14:55,269 --> 00:14:57,855 "We will only believe half of what they say about their parents 300 00:14:57,939 --> 00:15:00,817 if they only believe half of what they say about us." 301 00:15:01,317 --> 00:15:03,236 We thought they were here to help us. 302 00:15:03,319 --> 00:15:05,071 But then you just start realizing 303 00:15:05,154 --> 00:15:07,532 the family rep doesn't give a shit about you. 304 00:15:07,615 --> 00:15:10,118 And as we found in the files, 305 00:15:10,201 --> 00:15:14,580 family reps are literally incentivized to keep you here longer. 306 00:15:15,998 --> 00:15:19,043 So, no, they're not gonna help you get home. 307 00:15:19,127 --> 00:15:23,005 Their whole job was to sell the program to parents. 308 00:15:23,840 --> 00:15:25,925 If your family rep didn't like you, it was like… 309 00:15:26,008 --> 00:15:28,010 you weren't going anywhere in the program, ever. 310 00:15:28,094 --> 00:15:30,638 Our family rep, when I first came to the facility, 311 00:15:30,721 --> 00:15:32,473 she gets my file, my intake file, 312 00:15:32,557 --> 00:15:35,143 which is essentially the form that your parents fill out about 313 00:15:35,226 --> 00:15:37,270 "This is why we are sending Alexa here." 314 00:15:37,353 --> 00:15:41,816 And then in the intake file as well is your pregnancy test and your drug test. 315 00:15:43,025 --> 00:15:45,737 She told me that my drug test "lit up like a Christmas tree." 316 00:15:45,820 --> 00:15:48,614 And I was like, "Is this a fucking joke?" 317 00:15:49,198 --> 00:15:50,366 I'd never done drugs! 318 00:15:50,449 --> 00:15:53,578 But I had no way to refute it. I had no way to refute it. 319 00:15:53,661 --> 00:15:55,705 How am I supposed to prove to you that it didn't? 320 00:15:55,788 --> 00:15:58,458 But then after a while, like, hearing from my parents, 321 00:15:58,541 --> 00:16:01,294 things coming from the facilitators, my peers around me, 322 00:16:01,377 --> 00:16:02,920 "You need to talk more about drugs." 323 00:16:03,004 --> 00:16:05,882 And, like, "Until you're able to take accountability for your actions, 324 00:16:05,965 --> 00:16:07,383 until you stop playing the victim, 325 00:16:07,466 --> 00:16:09,427 you are never gonna progress in your program." 326 00:16:10,428 --> 00:16:12,638 So it's like, "Okay, for me to go home, 327 00:16:12,722 --> 00:16:14,515 let me start talking about drugs, right?" 328 00:16:14,599 --> 00:16:17,810 So then in group, I'm like, "Yeah, you know, I was doing drugs, and…" 329 00:16:17,894 --> 00:16:20,563 "I don't know, I guess I was smoking crack or something." 330 00:16:20,646 --> 00:16:22,732 So then I start making up these stories to be like, 331 00:16:22,815 --> 00:16:24,400 "See? I'm working the program." 332 00:16:24,901 --> 00:16:29,238 Teenagers, especially, are really vulnerable to making false confessions. 333 00:16:29,322 --> 00:16:33,409 And the way to create them is to just push, and push, and push, 334 00:16:33,492 --> 00:16:36,412 then say, "We'll let you go if you confess." 335 00:16:36,495 --> 00:16:38,247 The confessions pour out. 336 00:16:38,331 --> 00:16:41,834 I wanted to feel better, but I didn't want to stop using drugs. 337 00:16:43,044 --> 00:16:46,380 They would say they had prostituted themselves for drugs. 338 00:16:46,464 --> 00:16:50,843 How they'd had sex with dogs. How they'd shot up in their eyeballs. 339 00:16:50,927 --> 00:16:54,388 But most of them had never even seen a needle. 340 00:16:54,472 --> 00:16:57,683 But if they didn't tell horrific tales about their drug abuse, 341 00:16:57,767 --> 00:16:59,310 they wouldn't be believed. 342 00:16:59,393 --> 00:17:02,480 And they wouldn't be able to advance to the next phase of the program. 343 00:17:02,563 --> 00:17:05,274 I had never done drugs in my entire life, 344 00:17:05,358 --> 00:17:07,193 but in order for me to graduate the program, 345 00:17:07,276 --> 00:17:11,614 I had to confess to using heroin, crack, you know, cocaine, LSD, PCP. 346 00:17:11,697 --> 00:17:13,991 And it kept growing, and growing, and growing. 347 00:17:14,075 --> 00:17:16,661 The drugs I've done are pot, alcohol, speed, cocaine, 348 00:17:16,744 --> 00:17:22,375 prescriptions, over-the-counters, PCP, LSD, THC, uh, mushrooms, hash… 349 00:17:22,458 --> 00:17:25,795 By getting people to confess things, 350 00:17:25,878 --> 00:17:28,297 sometimes true, sometimes made up, 351 00:17:28,381 --> 00:17:30,258 you end up having collateral 352 00:17:30,341 --> 00:17:33,386 that can be used against them in many different ways. 353 00:17:34,220 --> 00:17:36,556 NXIVM does it. Scientology does it. 354 00:17:36,639 --> 00:17:39,433 The moment you walk in a Church of Scientology, they have folders on you. 355 00:17:39,517 --> 00:17:42,270 Everything you've ever said is written down and videotaped. 356 00:17:42,353 --> 00:17:45,523 It's, "What do we know about you that we can use against you?" 357 00:17:45,606 --> 00:17:48,734 And then you're given a nickname by the facilitators. 358 00:17:48,818 --> 00:17:50,403 So for me, it was "Crack Whore." 359 00:17:50,486 --> 00:17:52,613 And you have to talk about, "I'm a crack whore." 360 00:17:52,697 --> 00:17:54,782 And, "I was sucking dick for crack." 361 00:17:54,865 --> 00:17:56,534 Since day one of the program, 362 00:17:56,617 --> 00:17:59,245 I have been labeled as somebody who I wasn't. 363 00:17:59,328 --> 00:18:03,374 So, my only goal was if there was any way for me to retrieve this drug test, 364 00:18:03,457 --> 00:18:04,417 that's all I wanted. 365 00:18:04,500 --> 00:18:08,588 Because it would prove to my parents that I was telling the truth the entire time, 366 00:18:08,671 --> 00:18:11,549 and we could finally move on from this terrible chapter 367 00:18:11,632 --> 00:18:15,386 that has eaten up so much of my life. 368 00:18:16,137 --> 00:18:20,057 And so somebody found my file, and then she mailed it to me. 369 00:18:20,141 --> 00:18:21,517 And so I open up this package, 370 00:18:21,600 --> 00:18:24,645 and the first thing that's on top of my file is my drug test. 371 00:18:24,729 --> 00:18:27,898 And in all caps, circled, is "negative." 372 00:18:29,984 --> 00:18:31,152 That bitch lied. 373 00:18:31,652 --> 00:18:33,613 Like, that bitch lied. 374 00:18:33,696 --> 00:18:36,365 And that lie is so fucking deep 375 00:18:36,449 --> 00:18:40,953 that even being presented with the evidence of my drug test, 376 00:18:41,037 --> 00:18:44,415 my parents still believe the program. 377 00:18:49,462 --> 00:18:51,922 We decided to leave a copy of Alexa's drug test 378 00:18:52,006 --> 00:18:54,467 in her family rep's mailbox while we were in town. 379 00:18:58,387 --> 00:18:59,263 Whoo! 380 00:19:00,848 --> 00:19:04,477 I'm… I'm so curious if she's actually gonna contact me. 381 00:19:06,646 --> 00:19:09,940 When we were at Ivy Ridge, the first time we got to see our parents 382 00:19:10,024 --> 00:19:12,276 was at a seminar called "PC-1, " 383 00:19:12,359 --> 00:19:14,612 or "Parent Child 1." 384 00:19:14,695 --> 00:19:19,617 By the time I made it to PC-1, I hadn't seen my dad in six months. 385 00:19:19,700 --> 00:19:22,495 They say, "Your parents are inside. When you go inside, 386 00:19:22,578 --> 00:19:25,456 your parents are gonna be standing in a circle with their eyes closed." 387 00:19:25,539 --> 00:19:28,751 Like, "Find your parents, and go up and stand in front of them, 388 00:19:28,834 --> 00:19:30,544 but you have to be outside of arm's reach." 389 00:19:30,628 --> 00:19:34,757 "If they put their arms out, they shouldn't be able to touch you." 390 00:19:34,840 --> 00:19:36,425 And so, we all run in, 391 00:19:36,509 --> 00:19:40,346 and I just see my dad and stepmother holding hands with this… 392 00:19:40,429 --> 00:19:43,182 Like, all these people in a circle with their eyes closed, 393 00:19:43,265 --> 00:19:45,267 in this guided meditation. 394 00:19:45,351 --> 00:19:49,063 And I was, like, so excited to see my dad again. 395 00:19:49,146 --> 00:19:51,524 But I had to just stand there in front of him, 396 00:19:51,607 --> 00:19:53,442 not being able to touch him. 397 00:19:53,526 --> 00:19:54,985 And they're like, "Reach out." 398 00:19:55,069 --> 00:19:57,405 "Keep your eyes closed, but reach out your arm." 399 00:19:57,488 --> 00:19:59,615 They're like, "You can't touch 'em, can you?" 400 00:19:59,698 --> 00:20:02,118 "Isn't that how out of reach they felt at home?" 401 00:20:02,618 --> 00:20:04,912 "You just couldn't get them." 402 00:20:04,995 --> 00:20:07,248 And I'm standing there, my dad's reaching out, 403 00:20:07,331 --> 00:20:09,500 and I just want to hug my dad. 404 00:20:09,583 --> 00:20:12,795 So, you're just standing there, crying. 405 00:20:12,878 --> 00:20:15,506 I remember, like, finally seeing my parents and being like, 406 00:20:15,589 --> 00:20:19,009 "They look just like the picture." 'Cause I felt like… 407 00:20:19,093 --> 00:20:21,345 I really felt like I didn't know them anymore. 408 00:20:22,346 --> 00:20:24,473 And I'm like, "They look so pretty in real life." 409 00:20:24,557 --> 00:20:26,642 Like, "They're so crisp and real." 410 00:20:28,185 --> 00:20:31,147 At the end of PC-1, they allowed siblings to visit, 411 00:20:31,230 --> 00:20:32,606 but only for one hour. 412 00:20:33,107 --> 00:20:35,276 My sister Julie came up for it. 413 00:20:35,359 --> 00:20:37,319 Katherine was the one who got… Here. Talk to her. 414 00:20:37,403 --> 00:20:39,488 If anyone could help me, she would. 415 00:20:39,989 --> 00:20:43,659 Julie flew all the way up from DC to Syracuse, 416 00:20:43,743 --> 00:20:45,328 rented a car from Syracuse, 417 00:20:45,411 --> 00:20:50,040 drove two hours to see me for that one hour in the seminar. 418 00:20:52,668 --> 00:20:56,047 You ran up to me and hugged me and looked so relieved that I was there. 419 00:20:56,130 --> 00:20:59,008 And I was like… I think, in that moment, I'm like, "Oh." 420 00:20:59,091 --> 00:21:02,720 "I should have been more aware. This seems bad." 421 00:21:02,803 --> 00:21:06,223 I know, I should have whispered to you, but we were so brainwashed and scared 422 00:21:06,307 --> 00:21:08,475 that if we said anything to try to manipulate, 423 00:21:08,559 --> 00:21:10,895 I would have been sent back to level one, zero points. 424 00:21:10,978 --> 00:21:12,897 - Mm-hmm. - And having to be there longer. 425 00:21:12,980 --> 00:21:18,068 So, they really instilled this fear to just not say anything. 426 00:21:19,153 --> 00:21:22,573 I didn't even realize it was only an hour 'cause I have such limited memories there. 427 00:21:22,656 --> 00:21:25,910 I was just like, "I'm going to throw her in the back of this Ford Taurus." 428 00:21:25,993 --> 00:21:28,078 - Drive away. - "And drive away." 429 00:21:28,162 --> 00:21:29,872 Yeah, it was like, for the longest time, 430 00:21:29,955 --> 00:21:33,667 I could never tell the story of you coming to visit me in the seminar without crying. 431 00:21:33,751 --> 00:21:35,961 I might even cry now if I think about it, 432 00:21:36,045 --> 00:21:39,715 'cause it just meant so much to, like, see you. 433 00:21:39,799 --> 00:21:42,301 And just, I, like… "Get me outta here." 434 00:21:42,384 --> 00:21:44,303 What do I do 435 00:21:44,386 --> 00:21:48,265 to try to get you guys to take me out of this place, 436 00:21:48,349 --> 00:21:50,351 or realize how bad it was? 437 00:21:50,434 --> 00:21:52,770 We didn't have a lot of contact with you. 438 00:21:52,853 --> 00:21:57,024 And me, in particular, because I was in a different country. 439 00:21:57,108 --> 00:21:59,777 I was just so in my own world, freshman year of college, 440 00:21:59,860 --> 00:22:02,446 and Jane called and was like, 441 00:22:02,530 --> 00:22:04,823 "We're just gonna send her off for a few months." 442 00:22:04,907 --> 00:22:07,618 "She just needs to be scared a little." 443 00:22:07,701 --> 00:22:09,328 "She won't be there long." 444 00:22:09,411 --> 00:22:11,455 But I was there very long. 445 00:22:11,539 --> 00:22:12,873 Yeah. I don't know why. 446 00:22:12,957 --> 00:22:15,084 It just didn't really click in until I got up there. 447 00:22:17,962 --> 00:22:20,589 The second day, I stayed up late French braiding my hair, 448 00:22:20,673 --> 00:22:22,424 'cause I'm like, "I wanna look really pretty 449 00:22:22,508 --> 00:22:24,969 so they'll want to take me home." 450 00:22:25,678 --> 00:22:28,055 And I asked my mom when I had a moment just her, 451 00:22:28,139 --> 00:22:29,181 and I was like, 452 00:22:29,765 --> 00:22:32,434 "Can you please take me home before I graduate?" 453 00:22:32,518 --> 00:22:34,687 "It doesn't have to be today, but before I graduate?" 454 00:22:34,770 --> 00:22:37,147 She's like, "No, we're committed to graduation." 455 00:22:37,231 --> 00:22:39,483 And I'm like, "Okay. I'm sorry I asked." 456 00:22:39,567 --> 00:22:40,568 Like, "Please don't…" 457 00:22:40,651 --> 00:22:43,279 In my head, I'm like, "Please don't tell anyone I asked," like… 458 00:22:44,864 --> 00:22:47,533 Our parents were pressured into writing commitment letters 459 00:22:47,616 --> 00:22:49,034 upon admitting us into the program. 460 00:22:49,702 --> 00:22:52,496 Family reps were instructed to call parents every single day 461 00:22:52,580 --> 00:22:54,623 to pressure them until they wrote it. 462 00:22:54,707 --> 00:22:56,458 So parents were committing to the program 463 00:22:56,542 --> 00:22:58,627 before they even fully understood what it was. 464 00:22:59,837 --> 00:23:02,715 Once we realized our parents weren't gonna take us home, 465 00:23:02,798 --> 00:23:05,759 our only other option was to work the program. 466 00:23:06,260 --> 00:23:07,636 Fake it till you make it. 467 00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:10,890 There's a point where you're like, "I'll do whatever you tell me to do." 468 00:23:10,973 --> 00:23:13,475 "I'm just gonna be a robot, and everything's gonna be fine." 469 00:23:13,559 --> 00:23:16,103 "'Cause all I want to do is never be in trouble again." 470 00:23:16,186 --> 00:23:18,647 And that meant becoming an upper level. 471 00:23:19,231 --> 00:23:21,775 I don't think we can stress enough that 472 00:23:21,859 --> 00:23:25,529 the only people on the girls' side that are real people are upper levels. 473 00:23:25,613 --> 00:23:28,449 It's a completely different world! 474 00:23:28,532 --> 00:23:30,743 - Lower levels and upper levels. - Yes. 475 00:23:30,826 --> 00:23:34,538 Once you get upper levels, and you get that taste of normalcy, 476 00:23:34,621 --> 00:23:36,665 of being able to talk and wear your hair down. 477 00:23:36,749 --> 00:23:37,875 Something happens. 478 00:23:37,958 --> 00:23:41,086 Going back to lower… like, it's miserable. 479 00:23:42,171 --> 00:23:44,048 You'd also earn an off grounds, 480 00:23:44,131 --> 00:23:45,966 an unsupervised visit with your parents 481 00:23:46,050 --> 00:23:48,219 where you were allowed to leave the building, 482 00:23:48,302 --> 00:23:51,722 as long as you stayed within a two-hour radius of the facility 483 00:23:51,805 --> 00:23:53,932 and returned promptly by 8:00 p.m. 484 00:23:54,016 --> 00:23:55,142 Before you went, 485 00:23:55,225 --> 00:23:58,646 you had to sign a contract agreeing to certain rules for the off grounds. 486 00:23:58,729 --> 00:24:01,398 But the number one rule they drilled into our brain 487 00:24:02,066 --> 00:24:03,943 was, "Don't ask to go home." 488 00:24:04,818 --> 00:24:08,364 There are Katherine and Julie out on the point. 489 00:24:08,447 --> 00:24:11,825 It was exciting to be outside in the real world and see my dad, 490 00:24:11,909 --> 00:24:13,619 but I was terrified of making a mistake 491 00:24:13,702 --> 00:24:16,288 that would send me back to level one all over again. 492 00:24:16,372 --> 00:24:20,584 My dad was like, "Why didn't you tell me how bad it was on the off grounds?" 493 00:24:20,667 --> 00:24:24,588 This was the contract they had me sign before all the off grounds. 494 00:24:25,214 --> 00:24:27,299 Phil Elberg was one of the first lawyers 495 00:24:27,383 --> 00:24:29,551 to ever successfully sue one of these programs. 496 00:24:29,635 --> 00:24:32,471 And he's been a big advocate for kids ever since then. 497 00:24:32,554 --> 00:24:33,973 It just makes me sad. 498 00:24:34,723 --> 00:24:35,724 It's sad. 499 00:24:36,725 --> 00:24:39,353 Julie and Katherine, taking a little stroll. 500 00:24:40,729 --> 00:24:46,026 This piece is the hardest thing for parents to understand. 501 00:24:46,110 --> 00:24:48,278 I've heard so many parents say, 502 00:24:48,779 --> 00:24:51,198 "Well, why didn't my child tell me when they came home, 503 00:24:51,281 --> 00:24:53,701 when there was nobody monitoring their conversation?" 504 00:24:53,784 --> 00:24:56,704 And I remember one young woman telling me, 505 00:24:56,787 --> 00:25:00,165 "It was easier to just try to do what I had to do to finish." 506 00:25:00,874 --> 00:25:04,503 I mean, that's just the nature of being in a coercive atmosphere. 507 00:25:04,586 --> 00:25:07,047 Talk to the camera, 'cause there may be people back home 508 00:25:07,131 --> 00:25:09,633 that would like you to say something to them. Can you say-- 509 00:25:09,717 --> 00:25:11,927 Well, take me home, and I'll say it to them in person. 510 00:25:12,010 --> 00:25:14,555 - Well, can you say hello to Rachel? - Hi, Rachel. 511 00:25:14,638 --> 00:25:16,598 And tell her how much you like it here. 512 00:25:16,682 --> 00:25:17,683 I hate it here. 513 00:25:17,766 --> 00:25:19,393 - Oh, you do? - Take me home. 514 00:25:20,519 --> 00:25:23,147 I took a big risk by saying this. 515 00:25:23,230 --> 00:25:26,567 I would've lost all my points and started at level one all over again, 516 00:25:26,650 --> 00:25:28,193 lost a year of progress. 517 00:25:28,694 --> 00:25:32,072 But my stepmother wasn't within earshot, so I took my chance. 518 00:25:32,156 --> 00:25:34,825 I don't know, Dad. This is weird. Stop. 519 00:25:42,291 --> 00:25:45,586 We are heading to Katie's place. 520 00:25:45,669 --> 00:25:48,714 We are going to go look at the files that… 521 00:25:50,507 --> 00:25:52,801 …that Katie has been storing. 522 00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:56,472 She has really been going down her own rabbit hole. 523 00:25:58,015 --> 00:26:00,601 Katie was also in my family at Ivy Ridge. 524 00:26:00,684 --> 00:26:03,604 She was only 13 years old when she was sent there. 525 00:26:04,104 --> 00:26:05,522 She's been coordinating the effort 526 00:26:05,606 --> 00:26:08,108 of returning files to people who have been requesting them. 527 00:26:08,192 --> 00:26:10,819 Oh my goodness. So, is it both containers? 528 00:26:10,903 --> 00:26:12,696 - Yeah-- - How many files do you have? 529 00:26:12,780 --> 00:26:14,656 Probably about a little over 1,700. 530 00:26:14,740 --> 00:26:17,076 - Seventeen hundred? - Yeah. 531 00:26:17,159 --> 00:26:18,994 I just kind of went through them individually 532 00:26:19,078 --> 00:26:20,746 and started alphabetizing them. 533 00:26:20,829 --> 00:26:24,958 And then, from there, I just started putting them in envelopes. 534 00:26:25,542 --> 00:26:27,795 - This is the rest of it. - This is overflow? 535 00:26:27,878 --> 00:26:29,171 - Yeah. - Wow. 536 00:26:30,130 --> 00:26:32,091 Wait, there's, like, literally so much! 537 00:26:32,174 --> 00:26:35,260 It was a long process just organizing everything. 538 00:26:35,344 --> 00:26:37,805 That probably took a good, like, six months. 539 00:26:37,888 --> 00:26:40,557 I mean, at one point, this was all in my apartment. 540 00:26:40,641 --> 00:26:41,725 What's this? Group notes? 541 00:26:41,809 --> 00:26:44,978 Some of these are the dorm parent notes. 542 00:26:45,062 --> 00:26:47,606 - Yeah. Dorm notes. - Yeah, the dorm parents. 543 00:26:47,689 --> 00:26:49,483 "How many people got a bloody nose?" 544 00:26:49,566 --> 00:26:53,403 Yeah, pretty much. "How many bottles of water did Katherine drink today?" 545 00:26:53,487 --> 00:26:56,406 -Seriously, they wanted to keep track of-- -They have that? 546 00:26:56,490 --> 00:26:59,326 I don't know if it's yours specifically, but they kept track of-- 547 00:26:59,409 --> 00:27:02,037 It would probably be, like, none because the water there… 548 00:27:02,121 --> 00:27:05,040 Remember, it was yellow and smelled like toilet water? 549 00:27:05,124 --> 00:27:07,751 And I think that's why I'm so dehydrated, 550 00:27:07,835 --> 00:27:10,003 like, all the time now, and why I got a kidney stone. 551 00:27:10,087 --> 00:27:12,756 Same. I did not drink that water unless it was a new bottle. 552 00:27:12,840 --> 00:27:15,300 Oh my gosh, this is a 12-year-old. 553 00:27:15,384 --> 00:27:17,970 - What the fuck? - Wow! 554 00:27:18,053 --> 00:27:21,390 Okay, so this poor little 12-year-old has a very thick file. 555 00:27:21,473 --> 00:27:26,061 Yeah, usually the thicker those files are, the harder time the child had. 556 00:27:29,439 --> 00:27:34,027 These people need to know what happened to them wasn't their fault. 557 00:27:34,653 --> 00:27:36,572 I want to say it's like a weight lifted off. 558 00:27:36,655 --> 00:27:38,198 For me, it definitely was. 559 00:27:38,282 --> 00:27:40,868 Just to, like, prove you're not crazy. 560 00:27:40,951 --> 00:27:42,494 Like, this did happen. 561 00:27:43,495 --> 00:27:45,706 So a lot of people are grateful to have that, 562 00:27:45,789 --> 00:27:48,208 like, in writing, right in front of them. 563 00:27:49,209 --> 00:27:51,378 To have the proof and validation 564 00:27:51,461 --> 00:27:53,922 of all the insane shit that went on there. 565 00:27:54,006 --> 00:27:56,633 That's now, like, what I'm trying to do 566 00:27:56,717 --> 00:28:01,263 is get all this evidence together and present it to my dad. 567 00:28:03,307 --> 00:28:05,058 I had cut off contact with my dad 568 00:28:05,142 --> 00:28:07,853 when I first discovered my files in the building. 569 00:28:07,936 --> 00:28:09,980 I needed time to myself to process everything, 570 00:28:10,063 --> 00:28:11,273 and I'd never taken the time 571 00:28:11,356 --> 00:28:13,901 to be properly angry at him for the program. 572 00:28:13,984 --> 00:28:17,946 At first, when I stopped talking to him, I didn't know how long it was gonna be. 573 00:28:18,030 --> 00:28:20,824 Then I was like, "You know what? I'm gonna make it 15 months." 574 00:28:20,907 --> 00:28:25,537 Because that's how long I was in there, and I want him to feel what it's like 575 00:28:25,621 --> 00:28:28,665 to just be suddenly cut off from communication. 576 00:28:28,749 --> 00:28:31,585 And I felt like a jerk when it was his birthday. 577 00:28:31,668 --> 00:28:34,087 But any time I felt bad, I would just remember, 578 00:28:34,171 --> 00:28:36,131 "Well, he kept me there for my birthday." 579 00:28:36,214 --> 00:28:40,802 "He kept me there for Christmas, birthdays, prom, all of this stuff." 580 00:28:40,886 --> 00:28:44,848 And he never really apologized or really understood what had happened. 581 00:28:44,932 --> 00:28:46,975 And I think that's the only thing that can happen 582 00:28:47,059 --> 00:28:48,602 before healing can happen 583 00:28:48,685 --> 00:28:51,188 is to get them to understand what to be sorry for. 584 00:28:51,271 --> 00:28:52,731 To understand what we went through, 585 00:28:52,814 --> 00:28:56,276 and the hopelessness and abandonment that we felt there, 586 00:28:56,359 --> 00:29:00,489 and the psychological torture that we went through. 587 00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:03,116 So, I'm not really looking forward to that. 588 00:29:03,200 --> 00:29:06,578 So, if you have any files that would help me be like… 589 00:29:06,662 --> 00:29:07,996 "See, Dad?" 590 00:29:08,080 --> 00:29:10,082 You know? Like… 591 00:29:10,165 --> 00:29:12,292 After 15 months of no contact, 592 00:29:12,376 --> 00:29:16,171 I decided to start communicating with my dad again, but only in writing. 593 00:29:16,672 --> 00:29:18,423 He'd have to earn his phone call. 594 00:29:18,507 --> 00:29:21,385 But that didn't stop him from leaving me a ton of voicemails. 595 00:29:21,468 --> 00:29:23,178 Hey, Katherine. It's Dad. 596 00:29:23,261 --> 00:29:27,182 It'd be nice to be able to sit down and have a long conversation with you 597 00:29:27,266 --> 00:29:29,643 about this stuff, so you could tell me at length 598 00:29:29,726 --> 00:29:31,520 and we could hear each other. 599 00:29:31,603 --> 00:29:32,854 My response was, 600 00:29:32,938 --> 00:29:35,190 "I can empathize with the frustration you must feel, 601 00:29:35,274 --> 00:29:37,901 with just wanting to hop on the phone to talk things through, 602 00:29:37,984 --> 00:29:40,237 because that's how I felt when I was in the program." 603 00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:42,572 "But I was not able to just pick up the phone." 604 00:29:42,656 --> 00:29:45,450 "I'll talk to you when I'm ready, but right now I'm in the thick of it, 605 00:29:45,534 --> 00:29:47,869 of sorting through all these files we found." 606 00:29:47,953 --> 00:29:51,915 "It's a lot to process, and you still have a lot of learning to do." 607 00:29:51,999 --> 00:29:53,417 "Work your program." 608 00:30:00,006 --> 00:30:02,509 There's no book on parenting, so you just don't know. 609 00:30:03,468 --> 00:30:04,845 Well, you blame yourself. 610 00:30:04,928 --> 00:30:07,097 "What'd you do wrong? What…" You know. 611 00:30:07,180 --> 00:30:08,307 I mean, she's 13, 612 00:30:08,390 --> 00:30:10,934 and I would go to the school bus, and she wouldn't be there. 613 00:30:11,476 --> 00:30:13,604 I mean, that's just a horrible feeling. 614 00:30:13,687 --> 00:30:16,440 Um, you know, "Where's your daughter?" 615 00:30:16,523 --> 00:30:19,234 She didn't want to come home, and it was scary. 616 00:30:19,318 --> 00:30:21,028 And you just get to that point 617 00:30:21,111 --> 00:30:24,114 where you just want to do anything to help 'em. 618 00:30:24,614 --> 00:30:26,867 So, they catch you when you're very vulnerable, 619 00:30:26,950 --> 00:30:30,787 and you make that phone call, and then they ease your mind, and… 620 00:30:31,580 --> 00:30:34,207 "This is the best place, and we can help with this, 621 00:30:34,291 --> 00:30:36,168 and we can help with that, and…" 622 00:30:40,130 --> 00:30:44,259 The people the program most wants to influence is the parents, not the kids. 623 00:30:44,843 --> 00:30:47,804 And so, the key to understanding this industry 624 00:30:47,888 --> 00:30:50,432 is to understand the manipulation of the parents. 625 00:30:51,349 --> 00:30:56,021 When a child is acting out, parents get terrified. 626 00:30:56,104 --> 00:30:58,356 Our family was being ripped apart. 627 00:30:58,440 --> 00:31:00,609 And these programs say to the parents, 628 00:31:00,692 --> 00:31:04,863 "If you don't put your child in our program, your child will die." 629 00:31:04,947 --> 00:31:07,366 If we didn't do something soon, he was going to die. 630 00:31:07,449 --> 00:31:10,827 And there's gonna be a death. There's gonna be something tragic happen. 631 00:31:11,369 --> 00:31:14,706 Then somebody comes along and says, "I have the answer to all your questions." 632 00:31:14,790 --> 00:31:16,333 "All the problems go away 633 00:31:16,416 --> 00:31:18,668 by just buying into what it is I'm selling." 634 00:31:18,752 --> 00:31:20,504 Parents get convinced 635 00:31:20,587 --> 00:31:23,465 that this is the absolutely only thing that's gonna help their kid. 636 00:31:25,175 --> 00:31:27,427 You think about people that join cults. 637 00:31:27,510 --> 00:31:31,682 It's people that are looking for a simple solution to a difficult problem. 638 00:31:32,432 --> 00:31:35,352 And so the kids weren't in the cult. 639 00:31:35,852 --> 00:31:37,187 The parents were in the cult. 640 00:31:38,897 --> 00:31:44,361 And they're probably gonna have someone, in the community where your dad was, 641 00:31:44,444 --> 00:31:50,033 who's got a kid at one of the facilities, call your dad and recommend them. 642 00:31:50,117 --> 00:31:53,537 How did so many members of our, like, Evangelical community… 643 00:31:53,620 --> 00:31:56,289 How did so many children from this group end up there? 644 00:31:56,373 --> 00:32:01,461 Alexa Brand's parents referred multiple families to the program. 645 00:32:01,545 --> 00:32:05,173 That was one of the big things they tried to push about referrals. 646 00:32:05,257 --> 00:32:08,176 If you got people, you got, like, a free month, I think. 647 00:32:08,260 --> 00:32:09,594 So that was a big deal. 648 00:32:09,678 --> 00:32:13,307 Using the parents as walking billboards, it was brilliant. 649 00:32:15,517 --> 00:32:19,312 The next thing the program convinces parents of 650 00:32:19,396 --> 00:32:22,190 is, "Your kid's been able to manipulate you, 651 00:32:22,691 --> 00:32:25,819 and they're gonna try to manipulate you now." 652 00:32:26,319 --> 00:32:27,362 They're told, 653 00:32:27,445 --> 00:32:29,948 "Your kid's gonna call you and tell you all this crap." 654 00:32:30,031 --> 00:32:32,742 "Don't believe them. Don't let them get out early." 655 00:32:32,826 --> 00:32:35,620 And these desperate parents go along with it. 656 00:32:35,704 --> 00:32:39,374 "Any parents identified as wavering on their commitment 657 00:32:39,458 --> 00:32:42,544 will be called immediately by committee." 658 00:32:42,627 --> 00:32:45,213 This is so culty. This is like, "You cannot leave." 659 00:32:45,297 --> 00:32:49,926 Alexa's parents would communicate with family reps at the program 660 00:32:50,010 --> 00:32:54,347 when Dad started bringing up different red flags. 661 00:32:54,431 --> 00:32:55,682 And so, literally, 662 00:32:55,765 --> 00:32:59,394 the family reps there would fill out a form called a "red flag report." 663 00:33:00,270 --> 00:33:02,230 I found a red flag report about my dad 664 00:33:02,314 --> 00:33:05,275 that included an email from Alexa's mom that said, 665 00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:07,652 "To hear him call Ivy Ridge a prison 666 00:33:07,736 --> 00:33:10,530 is typical of how he can fly off the handle at times." 667 00:33:10,614 --> 00:33:12,824 "Jane is the more levelheaded of the two." 668 00:33:12,908 --> 00:33:15,619 "Definitely sounds like she and Ken are on different pages, 669 00:33:15,702 --> 00:33:19,456 so the three of us are planning to meet sometime next week to support her." 670 00:33:19,539 --> 00:33:23,084 "The good news is that Katherine's still at Ivy Ridge." 671 00:33:23,752 --> 00:33:26,296 So, they would use the Brands 672 00:33:26,379 --> 00:33:30,300 to then have a support group with them and make 'em feel better. 673 00:33:31,051 --> 00:33:35,388 They had this internal messaging board for parents called the BBS, 674 00:33:35,472 --> 00:33:38,975 where they would only let parents who were supportive of the program post on it, 675 00:33:39,059 --> 00:33:40,268 and they would monitor, 676 00:33:40,352 --> 00:33:42,938 and so curate this perception of what was going on there. 677 00:33:43,897 --> 00:33:47,108 As these things get said to them over, and over, and over, 678 00:33:47,192 --> 00:33:49,903 and they're in an environment where everybody's saying yes, 679 00:33:49,986 --> 00:33:52,447 and you've got somebody saying, "This really helped my kid," 680 00:33:52,530 --> 00:33:54,366 and they all reinforce each other, 681 00:33:54,449 --> 00:33:56,076 parents buy into it. 682 00:33:56,159 --> 00:33:57,744 They get duped into it. 683 00:34:00,705 --> 00:34:03,416 Parents were put through a series of seminars of their own, 684 00:34:03,500 --> 00:34:05,085 designed to make them feel supported 685 00:34:05,168 --> 00:34:07,712 and dedicated to keeping their kids in the program. 686 00:34:09,714 --> 00:34:10,924 Pen test. 687 00:34:11,758 --> 00:34:14,594 These programs are so secretive that it's almost impossible 688 00:34:14,678 --> 00:34:17,263 to get footage of what's really going on inside. 689 00:34:17,764 --> 00:34:18,932 But I tried. 690 00:34:19,432 --> 00:34:21,393 I was able to sneak into a WWASP seminar 691 00:34:21,476 --> 00:34:23,895 for parents who currently had children in the program. 692 00:34:24,479 --> 00:34:26,523 The parents were standing around in a circle, 693 00:34:26,606 --> 00:34:28,692 holding hands in a guided meditation. 694 00:34:28,775 --> 00:34:32,279 Similar to how my dad was when I first saw him in PC-1. 695 00:34:32,362 --> 00:34:36,074 They had the same stupid posters on the walls with program jargon. 696 00:34:36,157 --> 00:34:38,034 "There are no accidents." 697 00:34:38,118 --> 00:34:39,786 "What you fear, you create." 698 00:34:39,870 --> 00:34:42,539 Every time, I think. 699 00:34:42,622 --> 00:34:45,458 What are you… Are you doing a seminar here too? 700 00:34:45,542 --> 00:34:48,253 Oh no. I'm just here working. How often are they? 701 00:34:48,336 --> 00:34:49,170 Once a month. 702 00:34:49,254 --> 00:34:51,339 You've taken this seminar how many times? 703 00:34:51,423 --> 00:34:53,341 This is my tenth in 13 months. 704 00:34:53,425 --> 00:34:55,177 What's the goal of the seminar? 705 00:34:55,260 --> 00:34:57,011 Whatever you get out of it is the goal. 706 00:34:57,095 --> 00:35:00,849 I don't know what issues you have, but if there's something you want to heal… 707 00:35:00,932 --> 00:35:03,602 It, uh… It's transformed my life. 708 00:35:04,102 --> 00:35:08,606 I mean, it was helpful. There was a lot of good learning from the seminars. 709 00:35:09,524 --> 00:35:12,360 They really get you pumped up, and they really wanted you 710 00:35:12,444 --> 00:35:14,738 to get outside your comfort zone, and I did. 711 00:35:15,530 --> 00:35:19,242 I went against everything I believe in and wore what they told me to wore. 712 00:35:19,868 --> 00:35:23,330 It was hard for me to imagine my dogmatic, Evangelical dad 713 00:35:23,413 --> 00:35:24,956 participating in the seminars. 714 00:35:25,040 --> 00:35:28,543 Prancing around and cross-dressing in front of a room full of people. 715 00:35:28,626 --> 00:35:31,504 How could the seminars, which were so psychologically damaging 716 00:35:31,588 --> 00:35:35,258 and harmful for us kids, have such a hold on our parents? 717 00:35:35,342 --> 00:35:38,678 One, the parent seminars were very different from the kid seminars. 718 00:35:38,762 --> 00:35:40,513 And, two, parents could go home. 719 00:35:40,597 --> 00:35:42,348 - How you doin'? - Hey, guys. 720 00:35:42,432 --> 00:35:44,559 We're gonna graduate at 5:45, 721 00:35:44,643 --> 00:35:47,187 so if you want to go get a bathroom, air, whatever, 722 00:35:47,270 --> 00:35:50,690 be back here around 5:40 when they open the doors. 723 00:35:50,773 --> 00:35:53,610 This is David Gilcrease. 724 00:35:53,693 --> 00:35:56,696 He's the guy that created all of the seminars for WWASP. 725 00:35:56,780 --> 00:36:00,950 Prior to that, he had been a facilitator at Lifespring for ten years. 726 00:36:01,034 --> 00:36:03,745 The facilitators were known for being dictatorial 727 00:36:03,828 --> 00:36:05,622 and outright mean toward participants. 728 00:36:05,705 --> 00:36:07,832 Asshole! 729 00:36:07,916 --> 00:36:09,793 You're all assholes, every one of you. 730 00:36:09,876 --> 00:36:12,337 He pretty much copied everything from Lifespring 731 00:36:12,420 --> 00:36:15,465 and repackaged it as seminars for teenagers and their parents. 732 00:36:15,548 --> 00:36:17,968 And the importance of program completion 733 00:36:18,051 --> 00:36:20,637 was hammered into their heads relentlessly. 734 00:36:21,137 --> 00:36:23,640 If you leave the program before you finish all seminars, 735 00:36:23,723 --> 00:36:25,392 you are a half-baked cake. 736 00:36:25,475 --> 00:36:28,937 You might look done on the outside, but you're not finished in the middle. 737 00:36:29,020 --> 00:36:31,147 You must complete the program. 738 00:36:33,942 --> 00:36:37,362 When I look back on it now, you can see things that happened, but… 739 00:36:37,445 --> 00:36:39,906 You can see it now, but you couldn't see it then. 740 00:36:39,990 --> 00:36:43,326 I felt like I did everything. We went up there. We saw the building. 741 00:36:43,410 --> 00:36:46,079 We talked to people. We personally dropped her off. 742 00:36:46,162 --> 00:36:48,373 The grass was mowed. The building looked nice. 743 00:36:48,456 --> 00:36:51,709 And then they take you in a nice room, and they're talking to you. 744 00:36:51,793 --> 00:36:54,963 Which one of these rooms does not belong, right? 745 00:36:55,046 --> 00:36:57,590 Yeah, this office is ridiculous. It's wood paneled. 746 00:36:57,674 --> 00:36:58,508 Yup. 747 00:36:58,592 --> 00:37:01,136 All the rest of the rooms do not look like that, 748 00:37:01,219 --> 00:37:02,345 but they were very careful. 749 00:37:02,428 --> 00:37:04,764 Whenever parents came in, they were only in this room. 750 00:37:04,848 --> 00:37:05,682 Yup. 751 00:37:05,765 --> 00:37:09,102 Jason's office. Wood paneling. Could be prestigious, I don't know. 752 00:37:09,185 --> 00:37:10,020 Yeah. 753 00:37:10,103 --> 00:37:12,730 Basically, student council gave the parents all this. 754 00:37:12,814 --> 00:37:14,983 So they have you meet the parent in here. 755 00:37:15,066 --> 00:37:17,819 Then as you come in, you're like, "Hi." You put on the whole fake… 756 00:37:17,902 --> 00:37:19,779 "Hi! How you doing? It's so nice to meet you!" 757 00:37:19,863 --> 00:37:23,908 You know, "I was really bad. I was into gangs, but once I came here, 758 00:37:23,992 --> 00:37:26,286 it opened my eyes, and I saw something totally different." 759 00:37:26,369 --> 00:37:28,747 And you had to put that movement on 'cause it's like, 760 00:37:28,830 --> 00:37:31,249 if you tell them no, or, "I'm not doing a parent tour…" 761 00:37:31,333 --> 00:37:33,877 If the parents said anything negative about you, it's over. 762 00:37:33,960 --> 00:37:35,795 Your program's over. You start all over again. 763 00:37:36,671 --> 00:37:38,798 I mean, I asked questions, so if any… 764 00:37:38,882 --> 00:37:40,842 if I would've thought there were any red flags 765 00:37:40,925 --> 00:37:43,887 of her being hurt or anything in any way, 766 00:37:43,970 --> 00:37:46,097 I would've definitely went up and got her. 767 00:37:46,181 --> 00:37:50,560 Seeing, kind of, how they severely manipulated everybody, 768 00:37:50,643 --> 00:37:52,228 I can understand… 769 00:37:52,312 --> 00:37:55,648 I know that my parents just wanted what was best for me. 770 00:37:55,732 --> 00:38:00,487 But it… I mean, it sucks. At the time, I definitely felt abandoned. 771 00:38:00,570 --> 00:38:02,364 Like, I was scared. 772 00:38:02,447 --> 00:38:04,032 I was sad. 773 00:38:04,115 --> 00:38:07,952 I feel like… could have had a closer relationship 774 00:38:08,036 --> 00:38:09,913 if things went a different way. 775 00:38:09,996 --> 00:38:12,374 If we could have figured things out as a family, 776 00:38:12,457 --> 00:38:15,793 instead of me just being isolated from my family. 777 00:38:15,877 --> 00:38:17,879 And their life goes on, 778 00:38:18,421 --> 00:38:22,717 and mine just, like, came to an end for 19 months. 779 00:38:23,426 --> 00:38:24,260 So… 780 00:38:24,344 --> 00:38:26,221 Well, I mean, it wasn't meant to… 781 00:38:28,056 --> 00:38:32,811 make you feel, I mean, isolated, and that hurts. 782 00:38:32,894 --> 00:38:35,646 It just really hurts to hear her story. 783 00:38:37,190 --> 00:38:40,318 But I can't go back and change it. 784 00:38:45,531 --> 00:38:46,699 I'm sorry. 785 00:38:56,292 --> 00:38:58,586 The marketing photos of Ivy Ridge did a good job 786 00:38:58,670 --> 00:39:01,214 of convincing parents that kids were having a good time 787 00:39:01,297 --> 00:39:04,884 and let outside the building regularly to do fun activities. 788 00:39:04,968 --> 00:39:06,219 They called it "activities," 789 00:39:06,302 --> 00:39:08,721 but literally, these were publicity stunts. 790 00:39:09,555 --> 00:39:11,766 In an attempt to seem like a normal school, 791 00:39:11,849 --> 00:39:14,602 they decided to host a dance for levels three and up. 792 00:39:15,103 --> 00:39:16,312 This was definitely a shock, 793 00:39:16,396 --> 00:39:19,274 since normally, we weren't even allowed to look at the boys. 794 00:39:19,357 --> 00:39:21,234 They even put me, Molly, and Diana 795 00:39:21,317 --> 00:39:23,903 on the cover of the Parent Support newsletter. 796 00:39:23,987 --> 00:39:26,573 This was the closest thing we ever got to a prom, 797 00:39:26,656 --> 00:39:28,241 and even it was a sham. 798 00:39:28,324 --> 00:39:29,367 It was for show. 799 00:39:29,450 --> 00:39:32,412 It was like, "Look, we have extracurricular activities." 800 00:39:32,495 --> 00:39:34,330 "Here is our cheerleading squad." 801 00:39:35,331 --> 00:39:38,876 As a student who had been locked in a facility for 18 months, right, 802 00:39:38,960 --> 00:39:41,796 you're excited to just go pretend to be normal. 803 00:39:41,879 --> 00:39:45,175 Deprive us of everything, offer us something fun, 804 00:39:45,258 --> 00:39:47,594 and it's like, "We'll go with no question." 805 00:39:47,677 --> 00:39:49,178 And then you come back, 806 00:39:49,262 --> 00:39:52,098 and it's this instant reminder that you're not free. 807 00:39:52,182 --> 00:39:53,558 You're not free at all. 808 00:39:54,225 --> 00:39:58,563 The person responsible for the marketing photos was Tom Nichols. 809 00:39:58,646 --> 00:40:02,609 Tom was the public relations coordinator for Ivy Ridge. 810 00:40:02,692 --> 00:40:06,863 He was a local politician they brought in to put a positive spin on the program. 811 00:40:06,946 --> 00:40:09,574 He even took upper levels door-to-door after the riot 812 00:40:09,657 --> 00:40:11,534 to reassure locals about Ivy Ridge. 813 00:40:11,617 --> 00:40:14,120 Molly was one of the kids he brought with him. 814 00:40:14,704 --> 00:40:18,041 Turns out Tom is now a pastor at a nearby church. 815 00:40:18,124 --> 00:40:20,209 So we thought we'd stop by to pay him a visit. 816 00:40:20,710 --> 00:40:21,544 Here we go. 817 00:40:22,253 --> 00:40:23,421 Who'd have thought 818 00:40:23,504 --> 00:40:25,798 we'd be doing a sting operation on a local pastor? 819 00:40:26,799 --> 00:40:30,761 I think about some of the efforts being made today in different areas 820 00:40:30,845 --> 00:40:33,723 to go after people… 821 00:40:33,806 --> 00:40:35,642 wrongs that people think need to be righted. 822 00:40:35,725 --> 00:40:37,977 Hi, Tom. I'm Katherine Kubler. 823 00:40:38,061 --> 00:40:39,979 Um, do you recognize any of us? 824 00:40:40,063 --> 00:40:40,980 Uh, no. 825 00:40:41,064 --> 00:40:43,107 We all went to Academy at Ivy Ridge. 826 00:40:43,191 --> 00:40:44,943 - No kidding! - We did. 827 00:40:45,026 --> 00:40:48,738 Does it kinda scare you that some Ivy Ridge kids are coming back here? 828 00:40:48,822 --> 00:40:50,490 I expected it would happen someday. 829 00:40:50,573 --> 00:40:51,657 - Really? - Yeah. 830 00:40:51,741 --> 00:40:54,369 Yeah. Everyone has a judgement day, I guess, you know? 831 00:40:54,452 --> 00:40:58,498 I've been working on a documentary about Ivy Ridge for over a decade now. 832 00:40:58,581 --> 00:41:01,709 As you know, you managed PR for Ivy Ridge. 833 00:41:01,793 --> 00:41:03,169 I was a PR coordinator. 834 00:41:03,252 --> 00:41:06,506 What I offered that they didn't have was a chance to get out of there 835 00:41:06,589 --> 00:41:08,132 and do some fun things for a change. 836 00:41:08,216 --> 00:41:10,510 So, do you feel like the pictures you took 837 00:41:10,593 --> 00:41:14,097 were representative of what life was like at Ivy Ridge 838 00:41:14,180 --> 00:41:15,973 for the kids that were there? 839 00:41:16,057 --> 00:41:17,809 - No. - No, it wasn't? 840 00:41:17,892 --> 00:41:18,851 No. 841 00:41:18,935 --> 00:41:20,770 How do you feel about that now, 842 00:41:20,854 --> 00:41:23,606 knowing that a lot of parents were conned out of their money 843 00:41:23,689 --> 00:41:26,526 to send their kids to a place like Ivy Ridge, where they were abused? 844 00:41:26,609 --> 00:41:28,236 First of all, if this is gonna be 845 00:41:28,319 --> 00:41:30,113 one of these ridiculous 60 Minutes exposés, 846 00:41:30,196 --> 00:41:31,948 frankly, I'm not interested in being involved. 847 00:41:32,031 --> 00:41:34,826 Okay. Bye, thanks. Happy Sunday. 848 00:41:39,038 --> 00:41:41,499 Tom, like a lot of staff at Ivy Ridge, 849 00:41:41,583 --> 00:41:43,376 said he was just doing his job, 850 00:41:43,459 --> 00:41:46,045 but that's how institutionalized abuse works. 851 00:41:46,129 --> 00:41:48,464 Everyone plays their part in allowing it to happen. 852 00:41:49,090 --> 00:41:50,425 Come on. Get in. 853 00:41:50,508 --> 00:41:52,427 It was those pictures of Ivy Ridge 854 00:41:52,510 --> 00:41:54,846 and the well-orchestrated PR campaign 855 00:41:54,929 --> 00:41:58,683 that conned a lot of parents and hurt a lot of kids. 856 00:42:03,021 --> 00:42:09,235 When somebody has been humiliated and spent a lot of money for a treatment, 857 00:42:09,319 --> 00:42:12,155 it's really embarrassing to say, "I was a sucker." 858 00:42:12,238 --> 00:42:17,910 It's really embarrassing to admit that, and horrifying for a parent to admit 859 00:42:17,994 --> 00:42:20,788 that they sent their kid somewhere and hurt them. 860 00:42:22,123 --> 00:42:25,668 For your dad, I mean, it's probably difficult for him 861 00:42:25,751 --> 00:42:28,963 to face the fact that he put you there. 862 00:42:29,589 --> 00:42:33,218 If he hadn't done that, you'd be a different person now. 863 00:42:33,301 --> 00:42:36,471 And it's hard for people to accept that. 864 00:42:37,055 --> 00:42:38,431 Yeah. Yeah, no, absolutely. 865 00:42:38,514 --> 00:42:42,226 I feel like I've been going through a years-long process 866 00:42:42,310 --> 00:42:44,479 of trying to deprogram my dad. 867 00:42:45,104 --> 00:42:48,357 Um, to try to get him to even understand that this was a cult, 868 00:42:48,441 --> 00:42:49,692 and that this was a scam, 869 00:42:49,776 --> 00:42:51,861 and just to understand 870 00:42:51,944 --> 00:42:56,782 the depths of the pain, and hurt, and abuse that happened. 871 00:42:56,866 --> 00:43:00,078 How… Any tips on how I can deprogram my dad? 872 00:43:02,497 --> 00:43:05,291 - For real! Like, he's still… - Have him read… 873 00:43:05,375 --> 00:43:06,667 "Dear Katherine, 874 00:43:06,751 --> 00:43:09,712 by now we've discussed the program to the point of repetition." 875 00:43:09,796 --> 00:43:11,506 "I can't really add much constructively 876 00:43:11,589 --> 00:43:14,801 by writing more letters and continuing to repeat myself." 877 00:43:14,884 --> 00:43:18,262 If your dad is saying, "Why are you still talking about this?" 878 00:43:18,346 --> 00:43:22,266 he doesn't understand the effect of that trauma on you. 879 00:43:22,934 --> 00:43:26,354 "You may feel the program has been discussed to the point of repetition, 880 00:43:26,437 --> 00:43:27,897 but you don't know the half of it." 881 00:43:27,980 --> 00:43:29,440 "You don't have my lived experience 882 00:43:29,523 --> 00:43:31,442 of being forced into a psychological experiment 883 00:43:31,526 --> 00:43:33,027 and being systematically brainwashed 884 00:43:33,111 --> 00:43:35,530 during the formative years of my brain development." 885 00:43:35,613 --> 00:43:38,115 "So, no, I'm not done talking about the program yet, 886 00:43:38,199 --> 00:43:39,951 and I don't think I ever will be." 887 00:43:40,034 --> 00:43:42,829 It's part of the processing of that experience 888 00:43:42,912 --> 00:43:46,040 and trying to understand, "What the hell happened to me?" 889 00:43:51,170 --> 00:43:52,797 This is gonna trip you out. 890 00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:55,174 It literally looks like The Blair Witch Project. 891 00:43:55,258 --> 00:43:57,510 - Oh shit! - And it's both sides. 892 00:43:57,593 --> 00:44:00,304 I remember… Oh my gosh, I just feel… 893 00:44:00,388 --> 00:44:03,933 - I feel nauseous for some reason. - Look at all the hands. 894 00:44:04,016 --> 00:44:06,894 - Oh my gosh. - My hand's on here three times. 895 00:44:06,978 --> 00:44:09,563 This is the culty part. This is the, uh… 896 00:44:09,647 --> 00:44:12,608 This is this wall that all the upper levels signed. 897 00:44:13,401 --> 00:44:15,862 Yeah, so that's me. 898 00:44:16,362 --> 00:44:19,699 I remember after you made level four, this was like the indoctrination. 899 00:44:19,782 --> 00:44:20,908 Like, "You're in now." 900 00:44:20,992 --> 00:44:23,160 - Yeah. - You get to sign the wall. 901 00:44:24,036 --> 00:44:26,456 Alexa was the poster child for the program. 902 00:44:26,539 --> 00:44:30,251 Oh my gosh! Here's Alexa on the float parade. 903 00:44:30,334 --> 00:44:32,128 There's Alexa at the cookout. 904 00:44:32,211 --> 00:44:36,090 After all, if they could reform this out-of-control crack whore, 905 00:44:36,173 --> 00:44:38,926 think what they could do for your troubled teen. 906 00:44:39,802 --> 00:44:43,723 When I see kid me in all of these promotional materials, 907 00:44:43,806 --> 00:44:46,350 I hate that person. I hate that person. 908 00:44:46,434 --> 00:44:50,062 I literally should have known better. I think that's the thing I struggle with. 909 00:44:50,146 --> 00:44:53,816 Like, "You are so fucking stupid. How did you not know?" 910 00:44:55,401 --> 00:44:59,071 One of the most pernicious things about the way these programs work 911 00:44:59,155 --> 00:45:04,535 is that in order to advance, and in order to graduate the program, 912 00:45:04,618 --> 00:45:07,914 you have to prove that you have bought into the ideology. 913 00:45:07,997 --> 00:45:13,085 And the best way you can prove that is by being mean to the other kids. 914 00:45:14,211 --> 00:45:18,883 You know, you've got upper-level students acting as enforcers. 915 00:45:18,966 --> 00:45:21,427 Alexa's signature. 916 00:45:21,510 --> 00:45:24,388 Yeah, I think she… I think her name was on a lot of those. 917 00:45:25,014 --> 00:45:29,227 In order to save yourself, you have to betray your friends. 918 00:45:30,395 --> 00:45:33,397 We know from things like Milgram's experiments 919 00:45:33,481 --> 00:45:34,941 and the Stanford Prison Experiment 920 00:45:35,024 --> 00:45:38,653 that people's character is very much determined 921 00:45:38,736 --> 00:45:40,947 by the situation in which they find themselves. 922 00:45:41,656 --> 00:45:45,660 Very good people can be induced to do very bad things. 923 00:45:46,827 --> 00:45:50,539 I found a document that I wrote 924 00:45:51,124 --> 00:45:53,876 that kinda blew my mind because I have no memory of it. 925 00:45:53,959 --> 00:45:57,338 No memory of it. And I know for a fact that it probably happened more than once. 926 00:45:57,421 --> 00:46:00,925 But it was a statement of fact that I wrote because I restrained somebody. 927 00:46:02,802 --> 00:46:06,263 By becoming an enforcer and doing it to others, 928 00:46:06,347 --> 00:46:08,808 that damages another part of yourself. 929 00:46:09,433 --> 00:46:11,686 My first response was like, "I… I can't…" 930 00:46:11,769 --> 00:46:14,188 "That's not something that I can have in my brain now, 931 00:46:14,271 --> 00:46:17,566 as far as, like, 'Man, I was actively hurting kids.'" 932 00:46:17,650 --> 00:46:20,653 "Like, actively hurting kids as a kid." 933 00:46:20,736 --> 00:46:22,780 And I'm 16 years old at that point. 934 00:46:22,863 --> 00:46:26,700 And if I'm not assisting with the restraint, that's my program. 935 00:46:27,493 --> 00:46:30,121 When you leave, that carries a lot of shame and guilt. 936 00:46:30,204 --> 00:46:31,998 I mean, that's the moral injury. 937 00:46:32,081 --> 00:46:34,708 It's like, "Why in the hell did I do that?" 938 00:46:36,043 --> 00:46:41,841 What concerned me most about programs like this wasn't the kids that got broken. 939 00:46:41,924 --> 00:46:43,968 It was the kids who were successful. 940 00:46:44,051 --> 00:46:46,929 Yeah, I think there's still a lot of shame and embarrassment 941 00:46:47,012 --> 00:46:49,056 when I see the pictures and stuff, 942 00:46:49,140 --> 00:46:52,768 or when I know about stuff that I did, because I'm just, like… 943 00:46:54,020 --> 00:46:55,855 Yeah. I'm so ashamed of that person. 944 00:46:57,606 --> 00:47:02,778 I saw how much the upper levels suffered. I saw how painful it was. 945 00:47:02,862 --> 00:47:05,323 You guys couldn't have any loyalty to each other. 946 00:47:05,406 --> 00:47:07,283 If you got close, you got torn apart. 947 00:47:07,366 --> 00:47:10,870 I kept saying, "This is a cult. This is brainwashing." 948 00:47:10,953 --> 00:47:12,621 It was like, "What is her deal?" 949 00:47:12,705 --> 00:47:14,957 Yeah, it was really annoying to people, I'm sure. 950 00:47:15,041 --> 00:47:17,209 I wouldn't follow the rules. I just wouldn't do it. 951 00:47:17,293 --> 00:47:20,796 I was like, "I cannot be on upper levels." 952 00:47:20,880 --> 00:47:24,008 "It's so wrong, and I can't do that to someone." 953 00:47:24,091 --> 00:47:25,551 I suffered here horrifically. 954 00:47:25,635 --> 00:47:28,012 Physical abuse. Every type of abuse you can think of. 955 00:47:28,095 --> 00:47:30,514 But then when I got out, I didn't have the… 956 00:47:30,598 --> 00:47:32,850 I didn't have to undo the brainwashing trauma. 957 00:47:34,810 --> 00:47:36,354 Man, I will be damned… 958 00:47:36,437 --> 00:47:41,484 I will be goddamned if I let anybody have any type of influence over my life… 959 00:47:41,567 --> 00:47:42,568 like, ever again. 960 00:47:45,154 --> 00:47:49,074 "Dear Dad and Jane, I am not going to graduate the program." 961 00:47:49,158 --> 00:47:50,534 "You don't want me home right now 962 00:47:50,618 --> 00:47:53,162 because I am only a Level 3 and not a Level 6." 963 00:47:53,245 --> 00:47:55,498 "You may be able to keep me here until I'm 18, 964 00:47:55,581 --> 00:47:57,041 but you can't make me graduate." 965 00:47:57,124 --> 00:47:59,043 "That is the only thing that is up to me." 966 00:47:59,126 --> 00:48:03,089 "Why am I doing this? Because I hate you for not wanting me." 967 00:48:05,466 --> 00:48:08,094 "To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best 968 00:48:08,177 --> 00:48:09,470 to make you somebody else 969 00:48:09,553 --> 00:48:12,556 is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight." 970 00:48:13,057 --> 00:48:15,977 "Never stop fighting." E. E. Cummings. 971 00:48:18,562 --> 00:48:21,398 ♪ Some boys take a beautiful girl ♪ 972 00:48:21,482 --> 00:48:27,947 ♪ And hide her away From the rest of the world ♪ 973 00:48:28,030 --> 00:48:32,952 ♪ I want to be the one To walk in the sun ♪ 974 00:48:33,035 --> 00:48:36,413 ♪ Girls, they want to have fun ♪ 975 00:48:37,623 --> 00:48:42,294 ♪ Oh, girls just want to have fun… ♪ 976 00:48:42,378 --> 00:48:45,923 Okay, everybody graduated at this table. 977 00:48:46,007 --> 00:48:47,717 -Except Katherine. -Except me. Sorry! 978 00:48:47,800 --> 00:48:51,804 - You dropout. - I'm a dropout. 979 00:48:51,887 --> 00:48:56,225 But I have to stress, to get to the end, 980 00:48:56,308 --> 00:48:58,269 the games you had to play… 981 00:48:58,352 --> 00:49:00,312 It was a crazy chess game, right? 982 00:49:00,396 --> 00:49:02,648 And it was a popularity contest. 983 00:49:02,731 --> 00:49:06,360 But more than that, it was such a mind game. 984 00:49:06,443 --> 00:49:09,113 And the only way to get to the top 985 00:49:09,196 --> 00:49:12,658 is to play this high-stakes, high-stress game 986 00:49:12,741 --> 00:49:16,537 where winning is you get to win your freakin' freedom back. 987 00:49:25,671 --> 00:49:27,923 Hi. This is Alexa. Who's this? 988 00:49:28,424 --> 00:49:30,509 Did you leave a paper in my mailbox? 989 00:49:30,593 --> 00:49:31,969 I did. 990 00:49:33,012 --> 00:49:35,181 I never said you were a crack whore. 991 00:49:36,348 --> 00:49:38,225 What's going on? I don't get it. 992 00:49:38,309 --> 00:49:40,644 No, you didn't say that in particular. 993 00:49:40,728 --> 00:49:42,271 I was called that in seminars 994 00:49:42,354 --> 00:49:45,691 because you told my parents that I had been addicted to drugs. 995 00:49:45,774 --> 00:49:48,194 And I found my drug test, and it was negative. 996 00:49:49,820 --> 00:49:53,198 I don't remember lying to your parents about that. 997 00:49:53,282 --> 00:49:54,575 I remember. 998 00:49:56,744 --> 00:49:59,455 Okay. So, where are we going with this? 999 00:49:59,538 --> 00:50:02,458 Well, actually, I was curious if you'd be willing to talk with me 1000 00:50:02,541 --> 00:50:04,877 about some of the things that happened at Ivy Ridge. 1001 00:50:07,213 --> 00:50:09,423 What are we going to discuss? 1002 00:50:09,507 --> 00:50:11,717 You know, the sad part of this is 1003 00:50:11,801 --> 00:50:17,014 is that you girls have had nothing but bad things to say about me. 1004 00:50:17,097 --> 00:50:20,518 And out of anybody, I'll bet you I was one of the true people 1005 00:50:20,601 --> 00:50:24,104 that really fucking loved you all and cared about what happened to you. 1006 00:50:24,688 --> 00:50:27,024 If you really want to help the girls, you'll help us now. 1007 00:50:27,107 --> 00:50:29,318 But why… Why did you wait that many years, then? 1008 00:50:30,611 --> 00:50:32,112 Because we finally have proof. 1009 00:50:32,196 --> 00:50:34,323 We have the documents. We have the emails. 1010 00:50:34,406 --> 00:50:37,076 We have security footage. We have everything. 1011 00:50:39,453 --> 00:50:41,789 I… I believe that… 1012 00:50:41,872 --> 00:50:46,710 Yeah, some of the shit they did… was not nice. 1013 00:50:48,087 --> 00:50:50,005 Did you really believe in the program? 1014 00:50:50,089 --> 00:50:52,591 Did you really believe that this was the best thing for kids? 1015 00:50:52,675 --> 00:50:55,511 To be honest, maybe I was a little brainwashed 1016 00:50:55,594 --> 00:51:00,641 that the program would be helpful and to work and to keep you kids alive. 1017 00:51:00,724 --> 00:51:02,393 Would you talk to my parents? 1018 00:51:02,893 --> 00:51:04,186 And tell them what? 1019 00:51:04,270 --> 00:51:07,940 That the entire program was a lie. That they were duped. They were conned. 1020 00:51:08,023 --> 00:51:09,191 They were lied to. 1021 00:51:09,274 --> 00:51:11,318 That there were lies told about their daughter 1022 00:51:11,402 --> 00:51:13,404 that has completely splintered their family. 1023 00:51:13,487 --> 00:51:16,198 That you take accountability for your participation in that. 1024 00:51:16,824 --> 00:51:17,992 That's what I want. 1025 00:51:21,161 --> 00:51:25,124 I'm not taking accountability for something that I do not believe I did. 1026 00:51:25,207 --> 00:51:28,252 Then you are not working your program if you're not taking accountability, 1027 00:51:28,335 --> 00:51:30,087 and you're playing the victim. 1028 00:51:30,170 --> 00:51:34,508 And it's not about you as an individual. It's about you as part of an institution. 1029 00:51:34,592 --> 00:51:36,719 That's the problem right now, Alexa. 1030 00:51:36,802 --> 00:51:38,137 That's the whole fucking problem. 1031 00:51:38,220 --> 00:51:41,223 Because you're trying to make me be the only fucking person accountable-- 1032 00:51:41,306 --> 00:51:44,643 - No, I am not. Believe you me, I am not. - Yeah, you are! 1033 00:51:45,478 --> 00:51:46,312 No, I am not. 1034 00:51:46,395 --> 00:51:50,816 You are one of many people who contributed to a lifetime of trauma. 1035 00:51:56,780 --> 00:51:57,698 And? 1036 00:51:57,781 --> 00:51:59,324 And? 1037 00:52:00,326 --> 00:52:02,161 That's the response, "And?" 1038 00:52:06,123 --> 00:52:10,336 I've gotta go. I'm driving, and cars are passing me, 1039 00:52:10,419 --> 00:52:12,546 and my gas light's on. 1040 00:52:13,339 --> 00:52:14,381 Sure is. 1041 00:52:14,882 --> 00:52:16,383 - All right. Bye. - All right. 1042 00:52:20,345 --> 00:52:22,848 - Wow. - I have to smoke. I am, like… 1043 00:52:22,931 --> 00:52:25,684 My heart was… Are you okay? My heart was… 1044 00:52:25,768 --> 00:52:27,645 It's like the Les Mis song. 1045 00:52:27,728 --> 00:52:29,771 "Don't kick a dog because he's just a pup." 1046 00:52:29,855 --> 00:52:31,857 "You better run for cover when the pup grows up." 1047 00:52:33,317 --> 00:52:34,443 We grew up. 1048 00:52:35,027 --> 00:52:36,195 We got out. 1049 00:52:37,321 --> 00:52:39,240 And we're not scared of you anymore. 1050 00:52:40,365 --> 00:52:43,035 Abuse thrives in silence. 1051 00:52:43,535 --> 00:52:48,082 We stay silent because there's shame and humiliation. 1052 00:52:48,165 --> 00:52:51,126 Because all this stuff is embarrassing, honestly. 1053 00:52:51,210 --> 00:52:53,879 Like, I'm embarrassed for my dad. 1054 00:52:54,630 --> 00:52:56,215 -Hi, Dad. -Hey, sweetie. 1055 00:52:56,298 --> 00:52:58,759 You know, it's hard, 'cause he's… 1056 00:52:58,842 --> 00:53:00,928 he's a victim in this in a lot of ways. 1057 00:53:02,262 --> 00:53:06,350 He fell for this fuckin' scheme. 1058 00:53:07,226 --> 00:53:09,645 And it's embarrassing to sit there and say, 1059 00:53:09,728 --> 00:53:13,148 "Yeah, I sent my kid to this place, and these horrible things happened." 1060 00:53:13,232 --> 00:53:15,609 "I was taken for a fool, and they took a lot of my money." 1061 00:53:15,692 --> 00:53:17,444 No one wants to admit that. 1062 00:53:17,528 --> 00:53:20,364 The people who are willing to admit that, that's something. 1063 00:53:20,948 --> 00:53:23,951 "Dear Katherine, I hope you hear my apologies for failing you 1064 00:53:24,034 --> 00:53:25,828 and can find forgiveness in your heart." 1065 00:53:25,911 --> 00:53:28,664 "I would like to sit down with you, literally if possible, 1066 00:53:28,747 --> 00:53:30,541 and revisit some of those decisions." 1067 00:53:30,624 --> 00:53:32,084 "So how about it?" 1068 00:53:32,167 --> 00:53:34,711 "I think a visit would be healing for both of us." 1069 00:53:34,795 --> 00:53:36,463 "Love, Dad." 1070 00:53:37,548 --> 00:53:39,091 Testing, testing. 1071 00:53:42,886 --> 00:53:46,473 What do you say? What do I say to Dad? How do I greet him? What do you… 1072 00:53:46,557 --> 00:53:48,309 -What do I do? -Just be like, "Hi." 1073 00:53:49,476 --> 00:53:53,981 -"What's up?" -"Hi. You hired strangers to kidnap me." 1074 00:53:54,815 --> 00:53:57,693 Wait, is that Dad, or is that an old woman? 1075 00:53:59,153 --> 00:54:00,446 That's scary. 1076 00:54:01,280 --> 00:54:03,031 I think that's an old woman. 1077 00:54:03,615 --> 00:54:05,325 That was a false alarm. 1078 00:54:05,909 --> 00:54:07,453 I was not prepared. 1079 00:54:11,623 --> 00:54:12,750 Yes! 1080 00:54:14,084 --> 00:54:15,377 How you doing? 1081 00:54:15,460 --> 00:54:18,172 -What's that? -Um, we're recording there. 1082 00:54:18,755 --> 00:54:20,716 Well, you going to record giving me a hug? 1083 00:54:20,799 --> 00:54:22,092 Sure. 1084 00:54:22,676 --> 00:54:23,802 How you doing? 1085 00:54:24,344 --> 00:54:26,764 I'm doing good now that I'm seeing you. 1086 00:54:28,807 --> 00:54:29,808 Ah. 1087 00:54:31,101 --> 00:54:32,811 I hope you don't mind that I'm recording, 1088 00:54:32,895 --> 00:54:34,980 but considering what you've done to me in the past, 1089 00:54:35,063 --> 00:54:37,483 I feel like I need to document everything 1090 00:54:38,025 --> 00:54:41,945 in case you have strangers hiding in the bushes about to kidnap me 1091 00:54:42,029 --> 00:54:44,948 and incarcerate me for 15 months. 1092 00:54:45,532 --> 00:54:47,784 Well, there are none. 1093 00:54:47,868 --> 00:54:49,745 What do you have to say for yourself? 1094 00:54:49,828 --> 00:54:52,206 I'm really sorry for that. 1095 00:54:55,167 --> 00:54:56,335 All right, well… 1096 00:54:56,418 --> 00:54:58,587 There we go! That's a wrap. 1097 00:55:03,133 --> 00:55:04,802 And really good to see you. 1098 00:55:06,053 --> 00:55:07,304 I really missed you. 1099 00:55:07,387 --> 00:55:10,140 I have complicated feelings about seeing you right now. 1100 00:55:10,224 --> 00:55:12,684 I know you do. I know you do. 1101 00:55:14,269 --> 00:55:18,649 I wish that I had figured it out really quick. 1102 00:55:18,732 --> 00:55:22,986 But, uh, it was a terrible mistake, and I'm so sorry. 1103 00:55:23,529 --> 00:55:28,408 Do you know how long 15 months is for a kid? 1104 00:55:28,492 --> 00:55:30,202 Yes, it was terrible. 1105 00:55:30,702 --> 00:55:33,205 You sent me away to a place where I was… 1106 00:55:34,706 --> 00:55:37,417 vilified, and told I was the problem. 1107 00:55:37,501 --> 00:55:38,543 I was a kid. 1108 00:55:38,627 --> 00:55:41,130 I didn't know they were gonna do that to you. 1109 00:55:41,213 --> 00:55:43,841 You wrote in your letters. I can read them back to you… 1110 00:55:43,924 --> 00:55:45,759 You know what? They… 1111 00:55:45,843 --> 00:55:49,262 That's something you and I are in agreement on. They… 1112 00:55:49,346 --> 00:55:52,766 Those programs, and this is why I'm with you on the programs, 1113 00:55:52,849 --> 00:55:56,437 they manipulate parents, and once, uh… 1114 00:55:56,520 --> 00:55:59,898 I'm so sorry, Katherine. I am so sorry, sweetie. 1115 00:55:59,982 --> 00:56:01,316 Um, they… 1116 00:56:01,400 --> 00:56:03,569 Seeing my dad for the first time in years 1117 00:56:03,652 --> 00:56:05,028 was a lot to process. 1118 00:56:05,112 --> 00:56:06,572 - We can take a break. - Yeah. 1119 00:56:06,655 --> 00:56:09,658 And it wasn't something we could fix in one conversation. 1120 00:56:10,867 --> 00:56:13,829 To his credit, he did eventually pull me from Ivy Ridge. 1121 00:56:15,080 --> 00:56:16,999 It only took him 15 months. 1122 00:56:17,708 --> 00:56:19,710 What happened was I was a level four, 1123 00:56:19,793 --> 00:56:24,298 and Miss Elva comes stomping over into the gym, and she's like… 1124 00:56:24,381 --> 00:56:28,969 "Katherine Daniel, you're coming with me to the boys' side, 1125 00:56:29,052 --> 00:56:31,513 and we're going to Jason Finlinson's office!" 1126 00:56:31,596 --> 00:56:33,598 And my brain is just racing, 1127 00:56:33,682 --> 00:56:36,727 trying to figure out, "What did I do? What's happening?" 1128 00:56:36,810 --> 00:56:40,063 And she's yelling at me the whole way, and then we opened the door, 1129 00:56:40,147 --> 00:56:45,277 and right there, where the camera is, was my dad. 1130 00:56:45,777 --> 00:56:48,989 And he was just like, "Hey! I'm here! We're going home!" 1131 00:56:49,072 --> 00:56:51,366 And I'm like, "What? Wait, I'm going… I'm going home?" 1132 00:56:51,450 --> 00:56:55,412 Like, you can't process it, and it was all just a blur. 1133 00:56:56,038 --> 00:56:58,415 I can't remember really too much, 1134 00:56:58,499 --> 00:57:01,418 except I think they try to get you out kind of in a hurry. 1135 00:57:01,501 --> 00:57:03,670 - They don't want people to see. - Yeah. Right. 1136 00:57:03,754 --> 00:57:06,256 - You can't say goodbye to anyone. - Yep. 1137 00:57:06,340 --> 00:57:08,550 Couldn't say goodbye to any of you guys. 1138 00:57:08,634 --> 00:57:12,304 You know, I'd been in this building for 15 months. 1139 00:57:13,472 --> 00:57:16,266 And next thing I know, we're speeding down the highway. 1140 00:57:16,349 --> 00:57:21,021 I just felt physically ill 'cause it was sensory overload. 1141 00:57:21,104 --> 00:57:25,901 I was seeing trees in the sky. And this world I'd been in, 1142 00:57:25,984 --> 00:57:28,028 that it felt like I had almost always been in 1143 00:57:28,112 --> 00:57:31,114 and would never be able to leave, was just gone. 1144 00:57:31,198 --> 00:57:34,701 And it was this weird mix of emotion, 'cause you're overwhelmed, 1145 00:57:34,785 --> 00:57:37,579 but you're also like, "Oh my God. I'm out. I'm out." 1146 00:57:37,663 --> 00:57:40,957 "I'm free. I'm out. What does this mean? What am I doing?" 1147 00:57:41,458 --> 00:57:46,838 And, you know, that just started my lifelong anxiety disorder. 1148 00:57:49,341 --> 00:57:54,262 'Cause I didn't know how to adjust to real life after all this bullshit. 1149 00:57:55,680 --> 00:57:59,309 Adjusting to life outside of the program was very difficult. 1150 00:57:59,393 --> 00:58:01,895 I would wander the grocery store, overwhelmed with the choices. 1151 00:58:01,979 --> 00:58:04,564 I'd have panic attacks while trying to figure out what to order 1152 00:58:04,648 --> 00:58:05,941 at the Taco Bell drive-through. 1153 00:58:06,024 --> 00:58:07,901 Taco Bell, may I take your order? 1154 00:58:07,984 --> 00:58:09,319 Yeah, just give us a sec. 1155 00:58:09,403 --> 00:58:11,238 - Um, Pepsi. - Pepsi. 1156 00:58:11,321 --> 00:58:13,240 Oh no, not Pepsi. 1157 00:58:13,323 --> 00:58:16,368 I had extreme social anxiety. 1158 00:58:16,451 --> 00:58:18,286 I still do. 1159 00:58:18,370 --> 00:58:20,956 I'd missed out on a year of pop culture. 1160 00:58:21,456 --> 00:58:24,501 There's an Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt joke in there somewhere. 1161 00:58:24,584 --> 00:58:29,089 That's gonna be, uh… you know, a fascinating transition. 1162 00:58:31,717 --> 00:58:33,510 - Yeah! - Yes! Yes! 1163 00:58:34,302 --> 00:58:36,054 Martha Stewart turning herself in. 1164 00:58:36,137 --> 00:58:39,057 My friends, we cannot win this election. 1165 00:58:39,141 --> 00:58:41,059 I was so confused when I got out 1166 00:58:41,143 --> 00:58:42,853 and Lindsay Lohan was the new "it girl." 1167 00:58:42,936 --> 00:58:45,897 The girl from The Parent Trap? Okay. 1168 00:58:46,481 --> 00:58:47,858 I will never forgive the program 1169 00:58:47,941 --> 00:58:50,777 for denying me the theatrical experience of Mean Girls. 1170 00:58:50,861 --> 00:58:53,572 Get in, loser. We're going shopping. 1171 00:58:54,698 --> 00:58:55,699 Peace out, homie. 1172 00:58:59,578 --> 00:59:02,372 But just because I was out didn't mean I was free. 1173 00:59:02,456 --> 00:59:06,084 The threat of being sent back was constantly hanging over my head. 1174 00:59:06,168 --> 00:59:08,253 I was walking on eggshells around my stepmother 1175 00:59:08,336 --> 00:59:10,213 and biding my time until I turned 18. 1176 00:59:10,714 --> 00:59:13,049 After my friend Diana was pulled from Ivy Ridge, 1177 00:59:13,133 --> 00:59:16,219 she was only home for a few months before she was sent back. 1178 00:59:16,303 --> 00:59:18,430 But this time to a different WWASP program, 1179 00:59:18,513 --> 00:59:21,016 Midwest Academy in Keokuk, Iowa. 1180 00:59:21,099 --> 00:59:24,478 The director of Midwest Academy, Ben Trane, was recently convicted 1181 00:59:24,561 --> 00:59:26,771 of sexually abusing children in the program. 1182 00:59:26,855 --> 00:59:29,941 He took Diana and a few other girls on a cross-country trip 1183 00:59:30,025 --> 00:59:33,278 to PC-3, where she graduated from the program. 1184 00:59:33,362 --> 00:59:37,407 When I graduated, we stopped at Lichfield's estate. 1185 00:59:39,451 --> 00:59:41,995 I call it an estate. It was like a canyon. It was like a valley. 1186 00:59:43,538 --> 00:59:44,540 I was like, "What's that?" 1187 00:59:44,623 --> 00:59:46,667 And they're like, "That's where the maids live." 1188 00:59:46,750 --> 00:59:50,504 "And that's where the ranch hands live who take care of the animals." 1189 00:59:51,004 --> 00:59:57,594 They had basketball courts, multiple pools, ponds, rivers. 1190 00:59:57,677 --> 01:00:00,305 They had multiple guesthouses. 1191 01:00:00,388 --> 01:00:02,641 They had a whole room dedicated 1192 01:00:02,724 --> 01:00:05,101 to when they went on safaris and killed animals. 1193 01:00:05,185 --> 01:00:11,483 And there was this elaborate fountain of, like, statues of all his children. 1194 01:00:11,566 --> 01:00:15,404 And they were like this, and water was coming out of their hands. 1195 01:00:15,487 --> 01:00:16,947 It was just very bizarre. 1196 01:00:17,030 --> 01:00:19,115 After 22 months at Ivy Ridge, 1197 01:00:19,199 --> 01:00:21,785 then another year and a half at Midwest Academy, 1198 01:00:21,868 --> 01:00:25,163 Diana ended up spending three and a half years in the program, 1199 01:00:25,247 --> 01:00:28,667 which cost over $175,000. 1200 01:00:29,250 --> 01:00:33,005 And I remember when I got to PC-3 and told my mom what I saw at Lichfield's, 1201 01:00:33,088 --> 01:00:35,590 and my mom, I remember her face, and she was like… 1202 01:00:35,674 --> 01:00:38,302 "So that's where all our money went." 1203 01:00:40,845 --> 01:00:43,598 In The Count of Monte Cristo, Dumas writes, 1204 01:00:43,682 --> 01:00:46,351 "If you wish to discover the guilty person, 1205 01:00:46,435 --> 01:00:49,020 first find out to whom the crime might be useful." 104686

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