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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:18,018 --> 00:00:24,107 Advertise your product or brand here contact www.OpenSubtitles.org today 2 00:00:52,302 --> 00:00:55,180 - Statewood Hospital, please hold. 3 00:00:55,221 --> 00:00:57,515 Statewood Hospital, please hold. 4 00:00:57,557 --> 00:01:00,435 Statewood Hospital, please hold. 5 00:01:00,477 --> 00:01:02,145 Statewood, thank you for holding. 6 00:01:02,187 --> 00:01:05,982 Yes, give me a moment, I'll page her, hold on. 7 00:01:08,610 --> 00:01:09,986 Dr. Sanders, you have a call in line two. 8 00:01:10,028 --> 00:01:13,782 Dr. Sanders, please pick up line two. 9 00:01:13,823 --> 00:01:15,575 It's not time for your medication yet, Mary. 10 00:01:15,617 --> 00:01:17,786 Go back to your room. 11 00:01:17,827 --> 00:01:18,661 Now. 12 00:01:19,954 --> 00:01:20,789 Now! 13 00:01:24,167 --> 00:01:27,796 Will someone please pick up the lobby phone? 14 00:01:30,840 --> 00:01:32,467 Thanks for holding. 15 00:01:32,509 --> 00:01:35,637 Hi, yes I have the patient record you requested. 16 00:01:35,679 --> 00:01:37,764 I'll bring it to you now. 17 00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:52,278 Roll down your sleeves and get these patients 18 00:01:52,320 --> 00:01:54,072 back into their room before the evening 19 00:01:54,114 --> 00:01:56,199 medication rounds please. 20 00:01:57,242 --> 00:01:58,034 Hello? 21 00:01:59,035 --> 00:02:00,537 Yes, I'll get her. 22 00:02:00,578 --> 00:02:04,499 And next time, please call on the main line, thank you. 23 00:02:09,254 --> 00:02:11,131 Back to your room, now. 24 00:02:18,596 --> 00:02:23,226 Elizabeth, you have a call on the lobby phone. 25 00:03:23,119 --> 00:03:23,953 - Hello? 26 00:03:25,663 --> 00:03:26,873 - Hi, Lizzy. 27 00:03:26,915 --> 00:03:29,751 - Mom, please don't call me Lizzy. 28 00:03:30,752 --> 00:03:32,587 - How are you feeling? 29 00:03:32,629 --> 00:03:34,172 - I have news. 30 00:03:34,214 --> 00:03:36,800 - What kind of news, Elizabeth? 31 00:03:36,841 --> 00:03:39,010 - I'm going home tomorrow. 32 00:03:39,052 --> 00:03:41,388 - That's wonderful, honey. 33 00:03:41,429 --> 00:03:42,722 I wish I was able to be there. 34 00:03:42,764 --> 00:03:46,309 But your stepsister has a recital and your, 35 00:03:48,728 --> 00:03:50,355 Richard's coaching Thomas, and, 36 00:03:50,397 --> 00:03:51,815 - It's fine, Mom. 37 00:03:52,691 --> 00:03:55,110 Grant's coming to pick me up. 38 00:03:56,361 --> 00:03:57,946 And he's moving in. 39 00:04:01,199 --> 00:04:05,328 - Well, [clearing throat] that's, um, 40 00:04:05,370 --> 00:04:06,955 Am I ever gonna meet him? 41 00:04:06,996 --> 00:04:08,415 - Do you really want me to get into the reasons 42 00:04:08,456 --> 00:04:10,625 why you haven't met Grant? 43 00:04:11,710 --> 00:04:13,461 I said I'm going home tomorrow. 44 00:04:13,503 --> 00:04:15,171 I have a new doctor. 45 00:04:18,258 --> 00:04:20,927 I plan on getting well, Mom. 46 00:04:20,969 --> 00:04:23,805 I wanna have a life and be normal. 47 00:04:25,265 --> 00:04:26,349 - That's great, sweetheart, but-- 48 00:04:26,391 --> 00:04:27,600 - No more buts. 49 00:04:28,476 --> 00:04:29,978 I don't want to be upset 50 00:04:30,020 --> 00:04:34,190 or have feelings of resentment towards you anymore. 51 00:04:37,360 --> 00:04:40,739 Right now I just need to do what's best for me. 52 00:04:40,780 --> 00:04:41,948 - I just, I don't want you 53 00:04:41,990 --> 00:04:44,784 taking your mental health lightly. 54 00:04:46,161 --> 00:04:50,165 Moving in with someone is a big deal, Elizabeth. 55 00:04:52,792 --> 00:04:53,626 - Mom, 56 00:04:56,004 --> 00:04:59,591 Grant asked me to marry him and I said yes. 57 00:05:05,096 --> 00:05:05,930 Mom. 58 00:05:07,182 --> 00:05:08,183 - Yes? 59 00:05:11,227 --> 00:05:12,854 - You're not happy. 60 00:05:15,315 --> 00:05:16,816 - It's just, 61 00:05:19,110 --> 00:05:20,820 I had a very different idea of what your life 62 00:05:20,862 --> 00:05:22,405 would be like, but, 63 00:05:23,990 --> 00:05:26,493 you can make your own choices. 64 00:05:28,203 --> 00:05:31,790 - He makes me happy, mom. 65 00:05:31,831 --> 00:05:35,251 - Then that's all that matters. 66 00:05:35,293 --> 00:05:39,089 Look, I'll try to make a trip up from San Diego soon. 67 00:05:39,130 --> 00:05:40,590 I have to go. 68 00:05:40,632 --> 00:05:42,676 But I'll see you soon. 69 00:05:42,717 --> 00:05:44,094 Gotta run. 70 00:05:44,135 --> 00:05:48,306 ♪ Birds flying high you know how I feel 71 00:05:49,557 --> 00:05:53,728 ♪ Sun in the sky you know how I feel 72 00:05:56,064 --> 00:06:00,235 ♪ Breeze drifting on by, you know how I feel 73 00:06:02,529 --> 00:06:06,658 ♪ It's a new dawn, it's a new day 74 00:06:07,659 --> 00:06:10,787 ♪ It's a new life for me yeah 75 00:06:10,829 --> 00:06:13,581 ♪ It's a new dawn, it's a new day 76 00:06:13,623 --> 00:06:16,835 ♪ It's a new life for me 77 00:06:16,876 --> 00:06:18,920 ♪ Wooooo 78 00:06:20,714 --> 00:06:22,674 ♪ And I'm feeling good 79 00:06:30,306 --> 00:06:35,020 ♪ Fish in the sea you know how I feel 80 00:06:35,061 --> 00:06:39,232 ♪ River running free you know how I feel 81 00:06:41,484 --> 00:06:45,613 ♪ Blossom on the tree, you know how I feel 82 00:06:47,782 --> 00:06:50,493 ♪ It's a new dawn, it's a new day 83 00:06:50,535 --> 00:06:53,913 ♪ It's a new life for me 84 00:06:56,249 --> 00:06:59,419 ♪ And I'm feeling good 85 00:07:04,215 --> 00:07:05,050 - Hey. 86 00:07:07,427 --> 00:07:08,511 Give me your bag, I'll go pack it away. 87 00:07:08,553 --> 00:07:09,429 - I got it. 88 00:07:18,063 --> 00:07:22,067 I'll go take a shower, put this stuff in the laundry. 89 00:07:22,108 --> 00:07:23,651 - Okay. 90 00:07:23,693 --> 00:07:25,278 Well, I'll be here. 91 00:07:26,446 --> 00:07:27,322 Yeah, I'll give you some alone time 92 00:07:27,364 --> 00:07:30,075 so you can get settled in. 93 00:07:30,116 --> 00:07:31,534 Can I get you anything? 94 00:07:31,576 --> 00:07:32,410 - Tea? 95 00:07:33,286 --> 00:07:34,788 - Coming right up. 96 00:10:27,085 --> 00:10:28,920 I didn't throw it out. 97 00:10:30,171 --> 00:10:33,550 I figured we could heat it up and share. 98 00:10:33,591 --> 00:10:34,759 - You read my mind. 99 00:10:34,801 --> 00:10:36,469 I've been craving wonton Chinese food. 100 00:10:36,511 --> 00:10:39,222 - I had a feeling you might. 101 00:10:39,264 --> 00:10:40,515 Drink your tea. 102 00:10:53,111 --> 00:10:54,154 Good? 103 00:10:54,195 --> 00:10:56,489 - Mhmm. 104 00:10:56,531 --> 00:10:58,742 - Feel good to be home? 105 00:10:58,783 --> 00:11:02,954 - Yeah, I never want to go back to that place. 106 00:11:06,291 --> 00:11:07,250 - When do you want to go over 107 00:11:07,292 --> 00:11:08,960 your new medication? 108 00:11:10,170 --> 00:11:11,296 I think we should do that 109 00:11:11,338 --> 00:11:12,547 before your next doctor's appointment. 110 00:11:12,589 --> 00:11:13,757 - Tomorrow. 111 00:11:13,798 --> 00:11:16,634 Just wanna be with you right now. 112 00:11:16,676 --> 00:11:17,969 - Okay. 113 00:11:21,473 --> 00:11:22,682 - So what did your friends say 114 00:11:22,766 --> 00:11:25,143 when you told them you were moving in with me? 115 00:11:25,185 --> 00:11:28,188 - They said, "Can we help you pack?" 116 00:11:29,147 --> 00:11:30,899 They didn't say that. 117 00:11:30,940 --> 00:11:34,944 All joking aside, everyone is real happy for us. 118 00:11:36,071 --> 00:11:37,906 - That's nice to hear. 119 00:11:39,157 --> 00:11:40,325 I told my mom. 120 00:11:41,826 --> 00:11:43,161 - How'd that go? 121 00:11:46,164 --> 00:11:47,248 - It was a conversation filled 122 00:11:47,290 --> 00:11:49,793 with grief and disappointment. 123 00:11:49,834 --> 00:11:52,837 So all in all it went pretty good. 124 00:11:52,879 --> 00:11:54,297 - Do you think she'll want to meet me 125 00:11:54,339 --> 00:11:56,174 before we get married? 126 00:11:57,676 --> 00:12:00,095 - I don't know and I honestly don't care. 127 00:12:00,136 --> 00:12:02,013 - Come on, you care. 128 00:12:02,055 --> 00:12:05,558 It's your mother, I know you care. 129 00:12:05,600 --> 00:12:07,143 You can pretend to be tough all you want 130 00:12:07,185 --> 00:12:11,606 but I know you better than you know yourself. 131 00:12:11,648 --> 00:12:13,400 - You think you know me? 132 00:12:13,441 --> 00:12:14,442 - I know so. 133 00:12:16,111 --> 00:12:18,530 I know you better than you know yourself. 134 00:12:18,571 --> 00:12:19,656 - Oh yeah? 135 00:12:19,698 --> 00:12:21,157 - Yeah. 136 00:12:21,199 --> 00:12:22,409 And you know what else? 137 00:12:22,450 --> 00:12:23,284 - Yeah? 138 00:12:24,911 --> 00:12:28,873 - There is no one else's plate I'd rather steal food from. 139 00:12:29,916 --> 00:12:31,126 - I hate when you do that. 140 00:12:31,167 --> 00:12:32,711 Why do you do that? 141 00:12:34,629 --> 00:12:37,132 - 'Cause I want what you have. 142 00:13:07,454 --> 00:13:08,663 - He's never going to marry you. 143 00:13:08,705 --> 00:13:09,873 He's never going to marry you. 144 00:13:09,914 --> 00:13:10,749 Please kill yourself. 145 00:13:19,341 --> 00:13:21,801 He's never going to marry you. 146 00:14:11,935 --> 00:14:13,853 - You know, some people, 147 00:14:15,105 --> 00:14:16,648 and I don't really know these people 148 00:14:16,690 --> 00:14:19,943 but some people might consider that a compulsive behavior. 149 00:14:19,984 --> 00:14:21,486 What do you think? 150 00:14:23,988 --> 00:14:25,573 - Well, dear sir, I don't know if you know this 151 00:14:25,615 --> 00:14:27,534 but I'm also obsessive compulsive 152 00:14:27,575 --> 00:14:29,953 and currently on medication for it. 153 00:14:29,994 --> 00:14:32,414 - Yeah, and it looks like it's doing one heck of a job. 154 00:14:32,455 --> 00:14:34,165 What was that medication called again? 155 00:14:34,207 --> 00:14:37,127 It's 250 milligrams twice a day of, 156 00:14:38,336 --> 00:14:39,254 no I might not be saying this right. 157 00:14:39,295 --> 00:14:41,089 It's not working, is that right? 158 00:14:41,131 --> 00:14:42,882 Did I say that, it's not working? 159 00:14:42,966 --> 00:14:44,426 - No, you jerk. 160 00:14:44,467 --> 00:14:46,302 It's called Luvox and I think it's the only medication 161 00:14:46,344 --> 00:14:48,346 that's actually working. 162 00:14:49,514 --> 00:14:52,976 This is more my anxiety and my obsessiveness. 163 00:14:53,018 --> 00:14:55,478 - Well did you take anything? 164 00:14:58,189 --> 00:15:00,442 - No, I don't like the Ativan, it makes me itchy. 165 00:15:00,483 --> 00:15:02,277 It must be some weird side effect. 166 00:15:02,318 --> 00:15:04,195 - Or it's a rash. 167 00:15:04,237 --> 00:15:05,280 I'm just saying. 168 00:15:05,321 --> 00:15:06,781 Mm, that's lovely. 169 00:15:07,824 --> 00:15:08,658 Thanks. 170 00:15:13,913 --> 00:15:16,875 We need to go get your medication. 171 00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:17,751 - Okay. 172 00:15:19,210 --> 00:15:20,462 - It's important. 173 00:15:20,503 --> 00:15:21,588 - Yes, Grant. 174 00:15:21,629 --> 00:15:23,256 - Don't yes me. 175 00:15:23,298 --> 00:15:25,258 You said yesterday that we'll go over your medication today. 176 00:15:25,300 --> 00:15:26,384 Now I'd like to have a handle on it 177 00:15:26,426 --> 00:15:27,719 before we meet with Dr. Bowman. 178 00:15:27,761 --> 00:15:28,845 - Don't start with me. 179 00:15:28,887 --> 00:15:30,138 - I'm not starting with you. 180 00:15:30,180 --> 00:15:31,931 I just don't take your mental health lightly. 181 00:15:32,015 --> 00:15:33,016 - Oh and I do? 182 00:15:33,058 --> 00:15:35,643 You sound like my mother. 183 00:15:35,685 --> 00:15:37,145 - I'm just saying that you should-- 184 00:15:37,187 --> 00:15:38,646 - Both of you think you know what to do for me, yeah? 185 00:15:38,688 --> 00:15:39,856 Have you been talking? 186 00:15:39,898 --> 00:15:40,565 You guys should go ahead for lunch maybe. 187 00:15:40,607 --> 00:15:42,108 No? 188 00:15:42,150 --> 00:15:46,154 Everyone knows what's best for me except for me, huh? 189 00:15:48,323 --> 00:15:51,159 Yeah, fine, let's do it right now. 190 00:15:54,204 --> 00:15:58,208 - Any of these treat rant and bitch syndrome? 191 00:15:58,249 --> 00:16:02,420 You might want to double that dosage, I'm just saying. 192 00:16:05,715 --> 00:16:07,217 I didn't mean that. 193 00:16:11,513 --> 00:16:15,684 ♪ No sign in her leaving anytime soon 194 00:16:19,604 --> 00:16:23,191 ♪ No sign is saying either of us sides 195 00:16:23,233 --> 00:16:26,528 ♪ Are in the same room 196 00:16:28,738 --> 00:16:31,324 ♪ If she wasn't in arm's reach 197 00:16:31,366 --> 00:16:35,412 ♪ I'd say she's gone and off too 198 00:16:37,914 --> 00:16:41,209 ♪ If it wasn't for me I'd say 199 00:16:41,251 --> 00:16:44,546 ♪ We'd have nothing to lose 200 00:16:44,587 --> 00:16:48,341 ♪ It's all in my head I know 201 00:16:50,468 --> 00:16:53,596 ♪ I ain't right above the neck 202 00:16:53,638 --> 00:16:57,434 ♪ It's all in my head, I know 203 00:16:59,686 --> 00:17:02,647 ♪ No one else is making air 204 00:17:02,689 --> 00:17:06,526 ♪ It's all in my head I know 205 00:17:06,568 --> 00:17:10,488 ♪ She's only everything I give 206 00:17:11,698 --> 00:17:15,452 ♪ It's all in my head I know 207 00:17:16,661 --> 00:17:20,790 ♪ Shouldn't be all right with death 208 00:17:23,001 --> 00:17:27,130 ♪ Always comes and goes 209 00:17:39,768 --> 00:17:41,603 - Dr. Bowman's office. 210 00:17:42,771 --> 00:17:43,605 Hi. 211 00:17:53,156 --> 00:17:55,575 - Did you just read that whole magazine? 212 00:17:55,617 --> 00:17:57,285 That was impressive. 213 00:17:59,245 --> 00:18:01,956 I knew you were special, but wow. 214 00:18:21,601 --> 00:18:23,937 - Elizabeth, I'm Dr. Bowman. 215 00:18:25,021 --> 00:18:26,648 Please, do come in. 216 00:18:41,788 --> 00:18:44,666 I've heard so much about you from Dr. Saunders. 217 00:18:44,708 --> 00:18:47,377 It's a pleasure to finally meet you in person. 218 00:18:47,419 --> 00:18:49,087 Please, have a seat. 219 00:18:50,839 --> 00:18:52,007 - It's nice to meet you too. 220 00:18:52,048 --> 00:18:54,134 This is my fiancee Grant. 221 00:18:56,553 --> 00:19:00,348 - I'm so glad you are able to make it in safely. 222 00:19:00,390 --> 00:19:04,060 It's terrible this time of day with traffic. 223 00:19:05,812 --> 00:19:08,857 I see you're currently taking Haldol. 224 00:19:10,108 --> 00:19:12,277 - Yes. 225 00:19:12,318 --> 00:19:15,405 - And how is that working for you? 226 00:19:15,447 --> 00:19:17,949 Do you feel that it's helping? 227 00:19:19,159 --> 00:19:20,827 - It's awful. 228 00:19:20,869 --> 00:19:24,706 Between the headaches, difficulty in peeing, 229 00:19:24,748 --> 00:19:27,709 muscle stiffness, I feel like it's making me 230 00:19:27,751 --> 00:19:29,753 crazier than I am. 231 00:19:29,794 --> 00:19:31,046 And with all the other pills, 232 00:19:31,087 --> 00:19:33,965 the dry mouth is enough to make me wanna scream. 233 00:19:34,007 --> 00:19:36,176 - All very sexy side effects, I might add. 234 00:19:36,259 --> 00:19:37,052 - Shut up! 235 00:19:41,264 --> 00:19:44,392 - And how long have you been on Haldol? 236 00:19:44,434 --> 00:19:45,268 - Um, 237 00:19:47,270 --> 00:19:49,522 Dr. Sanders put me on it when I was admitted 238 00:19:49,564 --> 00:19:51,900 to Statewood, so five weeks. 239 00:19:59,824 --> 00:20:03,661 - And before that, I see you were on Seroquel. 240 00:20:05,914 --> 00:20:10,043 Do you remember why they changed your medication? 241 00:20:12,170 --> 00:20:13,713 - I was escorted out of a grocery store 242 00:20:13,755 --> 00:20:17,926 for having an argument with a fireman that wasn't there. 243 00:20:20,887 --> 00:20:24,391 - So you were experiencing hallucinations? 244 00:20:24,432 --> 00:20:25,225 - Yeah. 245 00:20:26,685 --> 00:20:30,897 Police were called and I was taken to the hospital. 246 00:20:30,939 --> 00:20:32,190 - And is this the first time 247 00:20:32,232 --> 00:20:35,068 you received inpatient treatment? 248 00:20:35,110 --> 00:20:35,944 - Yes. 249 00:20:37,362 --> 00:20:38,154 No, um. 250 00:20:39,489 --> 00:20:40,824 I've been in and out of hospitals over the years 251 00:20:40,865 --> 00:20:44,869 but it was always voluntary and more for evaluation. 252 00:20:49,749 --> 00:20:52,961 - Would you say you've seen change in sudden behaviors 253 00:20:53,003 --> 00:20:54,337 of recent years? 254 00:20:57,799 --> 00:20:59,426 - I would say that it started getting worse 255 00:20:59,467 --> 00:21:00,927 about a year ago. 256 00:21:02,387 --> 00:21:04,848 Right around the time we started dating. 257 00:21:04,889 --> 00:21:05,724 Lucky you. 258 00:21:10,353 --> 00:21:11,146 - I see. 259 00:21:17,610 --> 00:21:20,030 So I see that while you were under the care 260 00:21:20,071 --> 00:21:24,242 of Dr. Saunders, he took you off Seroquel, 261 00:21:24,284 --> 00:21:27,495 placed you on Haldol for schizophrenia. 262 00:21:28,663 --> 00:21:32,083 But I also see that you are currently taking 263 00:21:32,125 --> 00:21:35,253 Luvox for OCD and Ativan for anxiety. 264 00:21:37,839 --> 00:21:38,673 - Yes. 265 00:21:41,134 --> 00:21:44,429 - Other than the side effects that you mentioned, 266 00:21:44,471 --> 00:21:47,015 do you feel this current combination of medication 267 00:21:47,057 --> 00:21:49,017 is actually working for you? 268 00:21:49,059 --> 00:21:52,187 - I hate the Ativan, it makes me itchy. 269 00:21:52,228 --> 00:21:55,148 But the Haldol isn't working either. 270 00:21:55,190 --> 00:21:58,193 I'm hearing voices almost every day. 271 00:22:00,362 --> 00:22:01,738 I feel like the only thing that's working is the Luvox 272 00:22:01,780 --> 00:22:03,281 but not 100%. 273 00:22:05,325 --> 00:22:08,370 - And did you mention this to Dr. Saunders? 274 00:22:08,453 --> 00:22:10,372 - Yes. 275 00:22:10,455 --> 00:22:13,500 - And what did he say? 276 00:22:13,541 --> 00:22:14,834 - Give it time. 277 00:22:16,753 --> 00:22:18,755 I did, it's not working. 278 00:22:31,726 --> 00:22:32,560 Sorry, um. 279 00:22:34,062 --> 00:22:38,108 I see raccoons sometimes and I can't help but pet them. 280 00:22:39,025 --> 00:22:40,402 I'm really sorry. 281 00:22:44,072 --> 00:22:47,409 - That's perfectly okay, Elizabeth. 282 00:22:47,492 --> 00:22:51,746 You don't have to apologize to me for anything. 283 00:22:51,788 --> 00:22:54,082 Mental illness doesn't need to be treated 284 00:22:54,124 --> 00:22:56,501 like a dirty secret. 285 00:22:56,543 --> 00:22:59,045 This is a safe environment. 286 00:22:59,087 --> 00:23:01,840 Nobody's going to judge you here. 287 00:23:05,093 --> 00:23:06,594 - I want a doctor who listens to me 288 00:23:06,636 --> 00:23:08,805 and not just medicates me. 289 00:23:24,529 --> 00:23:27,073 - Tell me about you, Elizabeth. 290 00:23:35,915 --> 00:23:39,586 - Well, I'm 30 and I'm getting married soon. 291 00:23:41,921 --> 00:23:43,715 I wanna go back to work but I wanna make sure 292 00:23:43,757 --> 00:23:46,885 I'm capable enough before I do. 293 00:23:46,926 --> 00:23:48,053 - What do you do? 294 00:23:48,094 --> 00:23:49,721 - I'm a book editor. 295 00:23:49,763 --> 00:23:51,431 I was a book editor. 296 00:23:52,974 --> 00:23:54,976 - That's stressful work. 297 00:23:56,061 --> 00:23:57,062 - It can be. 298 00:23:58,355 --> 00:23:59,898 You're being trusted to edit someone else's work 299 00:23:59,939 --> 00:24:03,902 and if you cut too deep and make the wrong edit, 300 00:24:03,943 --> 00:24:05,278 it could be bad. 301 00:24:06,780 --> 00:24:09,032 - Yeah, I can see 302 00:24:09,074 --> 00:24:11,576 how that could be challenging. 303 00:24:13,787 --> 00:24:16,164 - So, what do you think, Doc? 304 00:24:19,209 --> 00:24:21,378 - Yeah, what do you think? 305 00:24:22,837 --> 00:24:25,840 - I think I can help you, Elizabeth. 306 00:24:27,425 --> 00:24:30,011 Based on your mental health history, 307 00:24:30,053 --> 00:24:33,807 I believe with the proper combination of medication 308 00:24:33,848 --> 00:24:37,519 and psychotherapy, you can have a significant improvement 309 00:24:37,602 --> 00:24:39,521 in your quality of life. 310 00:24:43,608 --> 00:24:46,986 Would you excuse me for one moment? 311 00:24:47,028 --> 00:24:50,490 - Sure. 312 00:25:12,929 --> 00:25:13,930 - Elizabeth. 313 00:25:17,017 --> 00:25:21,187 I'd like to start you on a medication called Invega. 314 00:25:22,897 --> 00:25:25,817 Have you been on this before? 315 00:25:25,859 --> 00:25:26,693 - No. 316 00:25:27,652 --> 00:25:29,237 - Here's the sample. 317 00:25:29,279 --> 00:25:32,073 I'd like to start you on a low dose. 318 00:25:32,115 --> 00:25:34,242 Three milligrams per day. 319 00:25:34,284 --> 00:25:36,828 That way we have room to go up. 320 00:25:38,872 --> 00:25:42,834 Now, for the anxiety, even though the itchiness 321 00:25:44,169 --> 00:25:47,672 is a highly unusual side effect of Ativan, 322 00:25:49,466 --> 00:25:52,552 I'd like you to start using Clonopin. 323 00:25:54,846 --> 00:25:58,016 Once in the morning and once at night. 324 00:25:59,184 --> 00:26:03,188 That should balance out the anxiousness. 325 00:26:03,229 --> 00:26:04,314 Here you go. 326 00:26:04,356 --> 00:26:05,357 - Thank you. 327 00:26:06,858 --> 00:26:10,570 - And I'd like you to continue using the Luvox. 328 00:26:10,612 --> 00:26:15,158 But I'd like to increase the dosage to 150 milligrams a day. 329 00:26:15,200 --> 00:26:16,618 Once in the morning, once at night, 330 00:26:16,701 --> 00:26:18,370 same as the Clonopin. 331 00:26:19,829 --> 00:26:23,500 I feel very optimistic about this new stuff. 332 00:26:25,126 --> 00:26:27,879 Do you have any questions for me? 333 00:26:32,926 --> 00:26:35,553 - Babe, you have any questions? 334 00:26:37,180 --> 00:26:38,014 - Mm, no. 335 00:26:40,308 --> 00:26:43,061 - Okay, shall we make an arrangement 336 00:26:43,103 --> 00:26:45,438 to see each other next week? 337 00:26:46,606 --> 00:26:47,774 - Sounds good. 338 00:26:48,983 --> 00:26:52,028 - And please, don't hesitate to call me 339 00:26:52,070 --> 00:26:54,030 if you have any adverse side effects 340 00:26:54,072 --> 00:26:58,868 or if you experience any other extreme behaviors. 341 00:26:58,910 --> 00:26:59,911 - Like what? 342 00:27:20,682 --> 00:27:22,350 - You hear that? 343 00:27:22,392 --> 00:27:24,394 Hear that, hear that? 344 00:27:24,436 --> 00:27:26,771 Do you hear that, hear that? 345 00:27:28,898 --> 00:27:30,525 The train is coming. 346 00:27:30,567 --> 00:27:31,776 The train is coming. 347 00:27:31,818 --> 00:27:33,111 The train is coming, the train is coming. 348 00:27:33,153 --> 00:27:35,238 The train is coming, the train is coming. 349 00:27:35,280 --> 00:27:37,574 The train is coming, the train is coming, 350 00:27:37,615 --> 00:27:38,825 the train is coming. 351 00:27:38,867 --> 00:27:40,952 The train is coming, the train is coming. 352 00:27:40,994 --> 00:27:42,245 The train is coming, the train is coming. 353 00:27:42,287 --> 00:27:43,496 The train is coming, the train is coming. 354 00:27:43,538 --> 00:27:44,706 The train is coming, the train is coming. 355 00:27:44,789 --> 00:27:45,582 The train is coming, the train is coming. 356 00:27:45,623 --> 00:27:46,374 The train is coming! 357 00:27:47,250 --> 00:27:48,793 - Hey! Hey! 358 00:27:50,086 --> 00:27:50,920 Relax! 359 00:27:52,005 --> 00:27:53,214 There's no train. 360 00:27:53,256 --> 00:27:54,007 - The train is coming, the train is coming! 361 00:27:54,049 --> 00:27:55,508 You can't hear that? 362 00:27:55,550 --> 00:27:56,343 It's so loud and getting louder! 363 00:27:56,384 --> 00:27:58,053 - Hey! Listen to me! 364 00:28:00,347 --> 00:28:01,556 There's no one here. 365 00:28:01,598 --> 00:28:02,807 Relax! 366 00:28:02,849 --> 00:28:03,892 Elizabeth! 367 00:28:03,933 --> 00:28:06,144 Relax, relax, listen to me. 368 00:28:07,479 --> 00:28:08,480 - Get off! Get off! 369 00:28:08,521 --> 00:28:09,439 - You need to calm down! 370 00:28:09,481 --> 00:28:11,316 Listen to me, stop it! 371 00:28:13,109 --> 00:28:14,944 Come here, relax. 372 00:28:14,986 --> 00:28:15,737 You're just hearing things! 373 00:28:16,654 --> 00:28:17,947 Relax! 374 00:28:37,342 --> 00:28:39,427 I didn't mean that, okay? 375 00:28:43,765 --> 00:28:45,183 You know I would. 376 00:28:46,559 --> 00:28:48,186 I didn't mean that. 377 00:28:51,106 --> 00:28:54,025 I just didn't know what else to do. 378 00:28:54,901 --> 00:28:56,069 I just didn't. 379 00:29:03,410 --> 00:29:07,789 ♪ Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry 380 00:29:07,872 --> 00:29:12,002 ♪ He's all I wanted all my life and even more 381 00:29:13,461 --> 00:29:17,716 ♪ He smiled at me and gee the music started playing 382 00:29:17,757 --> 00:29:19,801 ♪ Here comes the bride when he walks 383 00:29:19,884 --> 00:29:23,346 ♪ Through the door 384 00:29:23,388 --> 00:29:27,559 ♪ Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry 385 00:29:28,768 --> 00:29:31,187 ♪ The boy whose life and dream and love 386 00:29:31,229 --> 00:29:33,940 ♪ I wanna share 387 00:29:33,982 --> 00:29:36,359 ♪ For on my hands have been the gold 388 00:29:36,401 --> 00:29:38,820 ♪ And tears before me 389 00:29:38,903 --> 00:29:43,033 [singing muffled and water bubbling] 390 00:29:44,701 --> 00:29:49,581 ♪ When we kiss I get a sweet sensation 391 00:29:49,622 --> 00:29:53,793 ♪ This time it wasn't just my imagination 392 00:29:54,961 --> 00:29:59,090 ♪ Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry 393 00:30:00,508 --> 00:30:04,262 ♪ He's just what I'd been waiting for, oh yeah 394 00:30:05,347 --> 00:30:08,058 ♪ With every kiss oh, this is it 395 00:30:08,099 --> 00:30:10,518 ♪ My heart keeps saying 396 00:30:10,560 --> 00:30:14,731 ♪ Today I met the boy I'm going to marry 397 00:30:16,441 --> 00:30:17,275 - Babe. 398 00:30:35,877 --> 00:30:38,838 You've been in here for a long time. 399 00:30:48,598 --> 00:30:50,517 Can I get you anything? 400 00:31:01,903 --> 00:31:04,864 Did you remember to take your pills? 401 00:31:10,662 --> 00:31:11,830 Okay. 402 00:31:11,871 --> 00:31:12,706 I'll, um, 403 00:31:14,457 --> 00:31:16,543 I'll give you some space. 404 00:31:25,218 --> 00:31:29,389 ♪ Today I met the boy I'm gonna marry 405 00:31:31,474 --> 00:31:35,645 ♪ He's just what I've been waiting for, whoah yeah 406 00:31:36,938 --> 00:31:39,190 ♪ With every kiss oh this is it 407 00:31:39,232 --> 00:31:41,901 ♪ My heart keep saying 408 00:31:41,943 --> 00:31:46,114 ♪ Today I met the boy I'm going to marry 409 00:31:49,868 --> 00:31:52,620 ♪ Yeah yeah yeah 410 00:32:00,962 --> 00:32:02,714 - Babe, hey, hi! 411 00:32:02,756 --> 00:32:04,049 Get up, it's December. 412 00:32:04,090 --> 00:32:05,633 - So? 413 00:32:05,675 --> 00:32:07,594 - So, I was just jogging and the lot that's normally empty 414 00:32:07,635 --> 00:32:08,428 is full of Christmas trees. 415 00:32:08,470 --> 00:32:09,637 So let's go get one. 416 00:32:09,679 --> 00:32:11,097 - It doesn't feel like Christmas. 417 00:32:11,139 --> 00:32:12,640 - It's Los Angeles, it never feels like Christmas. 418 00:32:12,682 --> 00:32:14,976 So we're gonna remove this, oh look at this. 419 00:32:15,060 --> 00:32:16,770 Ooh, goodness, what is going on under here? 420 00:32:16,811 --> 00:32:18,313 - Okay, I'm going. 421 00:32:18,355 --> 00:32:19,147 - Okay, okay. 422 00:32:19,189 --> 00:32:19,981 I'm not your patient. 423 00:32:20,065 --> 00:32:21,066 Please, after you. 424 00:32:21,107 --> 00:32:22,650 No problem, I'm just right here. 425 00:32:22,692 --> 00:32:23,860 Oh, ooh. Do you feel that? 426 00:32:23,902 --> 00:32:25,153 - You are so naughty. 427 00:32:25,195 --> 00:32:25,737 - There's a lot of meat in that one. 428 00:32:25,779 --> 00:32:26,821 - Stop! 429 00:32:26,863 --> 00:32:27,947 - It was. 430 00:32:27,989 --> 00:32:29,074 But you love me though. 431 00:32:29,115 --> 00:32:29,991 You do love me? 432 00:32:30,075 --> 00:32:30,867 - Sometimes. 433 00:32:30,909 --> 00:32:32,535 - Hey, you love me. 434 00:32:34,204 --> 00:32:35,288 Ooh. 435 00:32:35,330 --> 00:32:36,164 Hurry up! 436 00:32:45,256 --> 00:32:47,592 So what kind of tree do you want to get? 437 00:32:47,634 --> 00:32:50,679 I really like these blue green ones. 438 00:32:50,720 --> 00:32:53,973 I know they're soft needles and they last longer 439 00:32:54,015 --> 00:32:55,350 than most trees. 440 00:32:57,394 --> 00:32:59,020 - Hey, are you okay? 441 00:33:00,105 --> 00:33:01,147 - Yeah. 442 00:33:01,189 --> 00:33:02,357 - Where are your parents? 443 00:33:02,399 --> 00:33:03,441 - Over there. 444 00:33:03,483 --> 00:33:04,526 - Wanna go stand by them? 445 00:33:04,567 --> 00:33:05,402 - Yeah. 446 00:33:10,782 --> 00:33:12,409 - Cute kid. 447 00:33:13,993 --> 00:33:14,828 - Yeah. 448 00:33:20,250 --> 00:33:21,042 - Hey. 449 00:33:22,293 --> 00:33:23,545 Where'd you go? 450 00:33:25,046 --> 00:33:27,007 What you thinking about? 451 00:33:28,758 --> 00:33:31,594 - Do you wanna have kids? 452 00:33:31,636 --> 00:33:34,973 - Um, I haven't really given that a lot 453 00:33:35,015 --> 00:33:36,725 of thought, you know. 454 00:33:40,645 --> 00:33:42,897 But yeah, sure, eventually. 455 00:33:45,233 --> 00:33:47,610 - Do you want to have kids with me? 456 00:33:47,652 --> 00:33:50,739 - Who else would I be having kids with? 457 00:33:50,780 --> 00:33:52,032 Don't be silly. 458 00:33:54,451 --> 00:33:56,578 - You just never spoke about that. 459 00:33:56,619 --> 00:33:59,831 And I figured because of the way that I am 460 00:33:59,873 --> 00:34:01,708 you might not want to. 461 00:34:03,543 --> 00:34:05,879 - Well I guess since we're talking about it now 462 00:34:05,920 --> 00:34:09,382 maybe you don't want to have kids with me. 463 00:34:09,424 --> 00:34:11,051 - Why is that? 464 00:34:11,092 --> 00:34:14,512 - I don't know, I was quite the unpredictable child. 465 00:34:14,554 --> 00:34:16,514 I got in a lot of trouble, fights. 466 00:34:16,556 --> 00:34:19,100 And I even stole from the store 467 00:34:21,311 --> 00:34:23,229 in the corner of my street. 468 00:34:23,271 --> 00:34:25,023 - What did you steal? 469 00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:29,110 - Candy bars. 470 00:34:29,194 --> 00:34:30,987 Everyday before school. 471 00:34:31,029 --> 00:34:32,781 I was out of control. 472 00:34:32,822 --> 00:34:34,199 Couldn't stop me. 473 00:34:34,240 --> 00:34:36,409 So all I'm saying is that my genes 474 00:34:36,451 --> 00:34:38,953 are probably worse than yours. 475 00:34:40,413 --> 00:34:42,207 - Don't joke about that. 476 00:34:42,248 --> 00:34:44,751 - Babe, we have to joke, okay? 477 00:34:46,544 --> 00:34:47,712 We have to. 478 00:34:47,754 --> 00:34:50,256 Otherwise we'll both go insane. 479 00:34:50,298 --> 00:34:51,091 Literally. 480 00:34:52,467 --> 00:34:55,303 And our kids are gonna be amazing. 481 00:34:56,221 --> 00:34:57,847 You know that. 482 00:34:57,889 --> 00:35:01,976 They're gonna be happy and healthy and beautiful. 483 00:35:03,061 --> 00:35:04,229 Just like you. 484 00:35:05,397 --> 00:35:07,440 Probably a little bratty too, but, 485 00:35:07,482 --> 00:35:09,776 you can't win them all. 486 00:35:09,818 --> 00:35:11,695 - What are they gonna get from you, huh? 487 00:35:11,736 --> 00:35:15,907 - Um, probably, and just off the top of my head, 488 00:35:15,949 --> 00:35:17,701 probably my charisma. 489 00:35:19,744 --> 00:35:22,580 And my charm, and my lovely smile. 490 00:35:23,998 --> 00:35:27,168 - And your conceitedness too, maybe? 491 00:35:27,252 --> 00:35:29,754 - It's a package deal. 492 00:35:39,889 --> 00:35:42,642 - What if they end up like me? 493 00:35:42,684 --> 00:35:43,518 Sick. 494 00:35:49,024 --> 00:35:50,692 - Listen to me, hmm. 495 00:35:52,986 --> 00:35:54,029 Listen to me. 496 00:35:55,572 --> 00:35:59,409 There's no one else I want to have a family with, okay? 497 00:36:00,535 --> 00:36:03,997 I am prepared to share my life with you 498 00:36:04,039 --> 00:36:05,957 and that means the good and the bad 499 00:36:05,999 --> 00:36:08,585 and whatever happens, I don't care. 500 00:36:08,626 --> 00:36:11,588 'Cause I know, if we stick together, 501 00:36:11,629 --> 00:36:14,299 we can make it through anything. 502 00:36:17,344 --> 00:36:18,595 You believe me? 503 00:36:22,182 --> 00:36:24,184 Hmm, maybe a little bit? 504 00:36:25,393 --> 00:36:26,853 I'll take that. 505 00:36:26,895 --> 00:36:28,104 Come on. 506 00:36:28,146 --> 00:36:29,814 Let's get this tree. 507 00:36:39,240 --> 00:36:43,411 - Can you just pick one so we can go home? 508 00:37:18,405 --> 00:37:21,366 - What do you think? 509 00:37:36,006 --> 00:37:37,424 - It's beautiful. 510 00:37:40,301 --> 00:37:42,929 - It's our first tree together. 511 00:37:45,473 --> 00:37:49,144 It just, I wish it had a ring to go with it. 512 00:37:51,604 --> 00:37:55,483 - Hey you know I don't care about that. 513 00:37:55,525 --> 00:37:58,111 I've got this, it's all I need. 514 00:38:18,423 --> 00:38:19,257 Grant? 515 00:38:21,009 --> 00:38:22,010 - Yeah babe? 516 00:38:24,429 --> 00:38:26,264 - Thank you for today. 517 00:38:27,932 --> 00:38:32,103 The tree, the lights, the decorations, everything. 518 00:38:33,563 --> 00:38:34,898 - That's my job. 519 00:38:39,944 --> 00:38:43,907 - Sometimes I wish I could run away from myself. 520 00:38:43,948 --> 00:38:47,327 - Well, you can't run away from yourself. 521 00:38:48,787 --> 00:38:52,040 Because then you'd be running away from me. 522 00:38:52,082 --> 00:38:53,917 But I could catch you. 523 00:38:59,756 --> 00:39:02,175 - Why do you love me so much? 524 00:39:13,353 --> 00:39:17,023 - You remember the day after our first date? 525 00:39:18,525 --> 00:39:23,154 When you called to ask me what color your eyes were? 526 00:39:23,196 --> 00:39:26,324 Without any hesitation I said blue. 527 00:39:26,366 --> 00:39:28,243 And your eyes are blue. 528 00:39:30,370 --> 00:39:33,998 I could hear you smiling through the phone. 529 00:39:36,334 --> 00:39:39,546 And then when I asked what that was all about, 530 00:39:39,587 --> 00:39:43,758 that you would know if someone was truly in love with you 531 00:39:45,760 --> 00:39:48,263 if they could remember the color of your eyes 532 00:39:48,304 --> 00:39:49,973 after only one date. 533 00:39:54,352 --> 00:39:58,523 And that was the day you became my Elizabeth Blue. 534 00:40:03,278 --> 00:40:05,113 I love you, Elizabeth. 535 00:40:08,241 --> 00:40:11,286 ♪ what I'm dying for 536 00:40:39,898 --> 00:40:42,567 - He's never going to marry you. 537 00:40:45,070 --> 00:40:48,740 He doesn't want you, he doesn't want you. 538 00:40:48,782 --> 00:40:49,949 He pities you. 539 00:40:51,117 --> 00:40:52,202 He hates you. 540 00:40:53,203 --> 00:40:56,081 He thinks you're disgusting. 541 00:40:56,122 --> 00:40:58,041 He wishes you would die. 542 00:40:58,083 --> 00:41:00,168 Did you hear what I said? 543 00:41:12,764 --> 00:41:13,598 Elizabeth. 544 00:41:14,891 --> 00:41:16,810 Look at yourself. 545 00:41:16,851 --> 00:41:19,229 How could he possibly want to marry you? 546 00:41:19,270 --> 00:41:20,438 You're a mess. 547 00:41:22,190 --> 00:41:24,526 You're a charity case. 548 00:41:24,609 --> 00:41:26,486 You're pathetic! 549 00:41:26,528 --> 00:41:28,279 What's keeping him here, what's keeping him here? 550 00:41:28,321 --> 00:41:31,116 You're ruining his life. 551 00:41:31,157 --> 00:41:34,160 He has to watch you like a child. 552 00:41:34,202 --> 00:41:37,330 He looks at you with pure repel. 553 00:41:37,372 --> 00:41:38,748 What are you gonna do? 554 00:41:38,790 --> 00:41:40,125 Wake up your knight in shining armor? 555 00:41:40,166 --> 00:41:41,334 And then what? 556 00:41:41,376 --> 00:41:42,419 Is he gonna defend your honor 557 00:41:42,460 --> 00:41:44,129 and throw me out of the house? 558 00:41:44,170 --> 00:41:45,171 Look at me! 559 00:41:47,173 --> 00:41:48,925 Did you really buy all of that crap 560 00:41:48,967 --> 00:41:51,386 about him having kids with you? 561 00:41:51,428 --> 00:41:53,430 Why he insists on filling your head 562 00:41:53,471 --> 00:41:57,100 with these fairy tales is totally beyond me. 563 00:41:57,142 --> 00:41:58,643 I said look at me! 564 00:42:01,104 --> 00:42:03,773 - He loves me, he loves me, he loves me, he loves me, 565 00:42:03,815 --> 00:42:07,944 he loves me, he loves me, he loves me, he loves me. 566 00:42:09,487 --> 00:42:12,490 - Love, what do you know about love? 567 00:42:14,701 --> 00:42:15,535 Nothing. 568 00:42:17,162 --> 00:42:20,040 Why you wouldn't just put you and him out of your misery 569 00:42:20,081 --> 00:42:21,833 is totally beyond me. 570 00:42:27,088 --> 00:42:31,092 I've been telling you this for years, haven't I? 571 00:42:31,134 --> 00:42:32,594 You didn't listen to me when I told you 572 00:42:32,677 --> 00:42:35,597 to kill yourself when you were a teenager. 573 00:42:35,680 --> 00:42:37,390 You didn't listen to me when I told you 574 00:42:37,432 --> 00:42:39,934 to kill yourself in your 20s. 575 00:42:39,976 --> 00:42:42,812 Time and time again, I've been there 576 00:42:42,854 --> 00:42:46,024 as a friend telling you to just end this life. 577 00:42:46,066 --> 00:42:47,567 It's really no life at all. 578 00:42:47,609 --> 00:42:50,278 But instead of taking my advice, 579 00:42:51,404 --> 00:42:54,282 you get mixed up with this poor slob 580 00:42:55,950 --> 00:42:59,287 who has no idea what's in store for him. 581 00:43:01,039 --> 00:43:03,875 If you loved him, truly loved him, 582 00:43:04,876 --> 00:43:06,544 you'd do him a favor. 583 00:43:08,046 --> 00:43:12,217 Go ahead into that kitchen and slice open your throat. 584 00:43:16,179 --> 00:43:19,140 But you won't do that will you? 585 00:43:19,182 --> 00:43:20,600 And you know why? 586 00:43:22,894 --> 00:43:26,314 It's because you're selfish and entitled. 587 00:43:28,733 --> 00:43:29,943 - Stop it, you're not real. 588 00:43:29,984 --> 00:43:33,029 You're not real, you're not real. 589 00:43:33,071 --> 00:43:36,074 - I hate to be the one to tell you this, Elizabeth. 590 00:43:36,116 --> 00:43:38,076 But I'm all you've got. 591 00:43:39,577 --> 00:43:41,663 You can't trust anyone but me. 592 00:43:41,746 --> 00:43:45,041 I'm the only one that's ever told you the truth. 593 00:43:45,083 --> 00:43:46,543 They're all against you. 594 00:43:46,584 --> 00:43:48,628 The doctors, your mother. 595 00:43:51,673 --> 00:43:55,635 And even your sweet precious Grant, most of all. 596 00:43:57,595 --> 00:43:59,264 I wouldn't be surprised if he's secretly planning 597 00:43:59,305 --> 00:44:00,598 on leaving you. 598 00:44:03,935 --> 00:44:04,769 Do it. 599 00:44:06,187 --> 00:44:08,148 Go in the kitchen, find the biggest knife you can. 600 00:44:08,189 --> 00:44:09,107 Just do it. 601 00:44:11,776 --> 00:44:12,902 End this hurt. 602 00:44:14,237 --> 00:44:15,655 End Grant's hurt. 603 00:44:16,656 --> 00:44:18,074 Don't make him suffer anymore 604 00:44:18,116 --> 00:44:21,036 because of your selfishness. 605 00:44:21,077 --> 00:44:22,162 Do it, do it. 606 00:44:28,251 --> 00:44:29,085 Do it! 607 00:44:30,545 --> 00:44:33,340 - You told me do something, so devious, so devious. 608 00:44:33,381 --> 00:44:34,174 - Do it! 609 00:44:34,215 --> 00:44:35,050 - Stop! 610 00:44:36,259 --> 00:44:37,844 Stop! 611 00:44:37,886 --> 00:44:38,678 Stop! 612 00:44:45,226 --> 00:44:46,227 - Elizabeth? 613 00:44:51,858 --> 00:44:52,692 Elizabeth? 614 00:44:58,365 --> 00:44:59,199 - In here. 615 00:45:06,623 --> 00:45:07,624 - Babe, babe, babe! 616 00:45:07,665 --> 00:45:08,917 Hey come here. 617 00:45:08,958 --> 00:45:09,876 What's wrong? 618 00:45:09,918 --> 00:45:11,878 What happened, what happened? 619 00:45:12,754 --> 00:45:13,546 What? 620 00:45:13,588 --> 00:45:14,964 No, you're not. 621 00:45:15,006 --> 00:45:17,258 Baby I promise you're not. 622 00:45:17,300 --> 00:45:20,595 No you're not, I promise I need you. 623 00:45:20,637 --> 00:45:22,472 I need you in my life. 624 00:46:10,186 --> 00:46:11,187 - Elizabeth. 625 00:46:13,565 --> 00:46:15,567 I'm sorry for the delay. 626 00:46:16,735 --> 00:46:20,655 - Thank you for seeing me on such short notice. 627 00:46:26,286 --> 00:46:30,457 - What's happened that has you feeling so unsettled? 628 00:46:32,542 --> 00:46:33,543 - I saw Tim. 629 00:46:37,172 --> 00:46:38,006 - Hmm. 630 00:46:39,174 --> 00:46:40,008 Hmm. 631 00:46:43,386 --> 00:46:44,721 From here I see, 632 00:46:46,222 --> 00:46:48,933 it's been a while since you last saw 633 00:46:48,975 --> 00:46:53,438 or heard from this particular hallucination. 634 00:46:53,480 --> 00:46:54,814 Is that correct? 635 00:47:02,530 --> 00:47:05,241 Is there anything currently happening in your life 636 00:47:05,283 --> 00:47:09,579 that could have triggered this recent incident? 637 00:47:09,621 --> 00:47:10,830 - Well, my fiancee moved in 638 00:47:10,872 --> 00:47:13,875 and we're trying to plan our wedding. 639 00:47:15,418 --> 00:47:16,878 I'm working on getting better first 640 00:47:16,961 --> 00:47:18,838 so it could be perfect. 641 00:47:21,299 --> 00:47:23,718 I just need it to be perfect. 642 00:47:25,595 --> 00:47:28,973 - Tell me what you remember about last night. 643 00:47:29,015 --> 00:47:30,517 - Bits and pieces. 644 00:47:31,476 --> 00:47:33,895 And always bad though. 645 00:47:33,978 --> 00:47:35,397 - Were you alone? 646 00:47:37,899 --> 00:47:40,485 - Until Grant was there. 647 00:47:40,527 --> 00:47:42,904 - Elizabeth, are you experiencing 648 00:47:42,987 --> 00:47:45,073 hallucinations right now? 649 00:47:50,745 --> 00:47:51,579 - No. 650 00:47:53,081 --> 00:47:55,083 - Do you feel that you're a danger to yourself 651 00:47:55,125 --> 00:47:56,626 or to anyone else? 652 00:47:59,462 --> 00:48:00,296 - No. 653 00:48:02,757 --> 00:48:05,719 Besides driving Grant crazy, but no. 654 00:48:13,643 --> 00:48:14,644 - Elizabeth. 655 00:48:17,856 --> 00:48:20,734 I need you to listen to me very carefully 656 00:48:20,775 --> 00:48:24,904 and try to understand what I'm about to say to you, okay? 657 00:48:28,033 --> 00:48:30,285 Now the best thing that you can do 658 00:48:30,326 --> 00:48:34,497 is to ignore the voices and hallucinations at all costs. 659 00:48:35,915 --> 00:48:37,959 Don't make friends with them, don't talk to them. 660 00:48:38,043 --> 00:48:40,337 Don't even acknowledge them. 661 00:48:40,378 --> 00:48:43,214 Even if they're nice to you. 662 00:48:43,256 --> 00:48:45,508 We don't want you to engage with any 663 00:48:45,550 --> 00:48:47,385 of the hallucinations. 664 00:48:48,762 --> 00:48:52,724 It could potentially worsen your state of mind. 665 00:48:52,766 --> 00:48:54,934 Now I understand how well these hallucinations 666 00:48:54,976 --> 00:48:57,896 may feel when they're happening. 667 00:48:57,937 --> 00:48:59,856 But they're not. 668 00:48:59,898 --> 00:49:02,108 And you're gonna have to try your best 669 00:49:02,150 --> 00:49:04,152 to try and tune them out. 670 00:49:04,194 --> 00:49:06,446 Turn the TV up extra loud. 671 00:49:06,488 --> 00:49:08,990 Listen to music with headphones on. 672 00:49:09,074 --> 00:49:10,992 Call someone, anybody. 673 00:49:11,076 --> 00:49:13,828 Anything at all to distract yourself 674 00:49:13,870 --> 00:49:15,872 till the episode passes. 675 00:49:18,958 --> 00:49:20,210 - Do you know how scary it is 676 00:49:20,251 --> 00:49:23,254 when you don't know if life is real? 677 00:49:24,172 --> 00:49:26,800 Sometimes I feel cursed. 678 00:49:26,841 --> 00:49:29,928 Like I'm living in a bad dream that I can't wake up from. 679 00:49:34,891 --> 00:49:36,976 My relationship is suffering. 680 00:49:37,018 --> 00:49:40,522 He says it's not but, I don't believe him. 681 00:49:44,984 --> 00:49:46,820 I want to believe him. 682 00:49:49,864 --> 00:49:51,032 And I don't want him to stop loving me 683 00:49:51,116 --> 00:49:52,450 because of this. 684 00:49:56,663 --> 00:49:59,666 I can't stop loving because of this. 685 00:50:06,881 --> 00:50:07,966 I'm so tired. 686 00:50:14,639 --> 00:50:15,640 - Elizabeth. 687 00:50:18,685 --> 00:50:21,187 Love is a very strong emotion. 688 00:50:23,648 --> 00:50:27,569 It cannot be forced or created out of thin air. 689 00:50:28,945 --> 00:50:31,573 Some people believe we can't even teach others 690 00:50:31,614 --> 00:50:32,574 to love us. 691 00:50:39,039 --> 00:50:43,543 Love is something that can only come naturally. 692 00:50:43,585 --> 00:50:47,756 And it finds us when we are ready for it. 693 00:50:47,797 --> 00:50:51,301 But only after we learn to love ourselves. 694 00:50:54,095 --> 00:50:56,848 Love is not a dream that you have to be afraid 695 00:50:56,890 --> 00:50:58,767 to wake up from either. 696 00:51:00,769 --> 00:51:04,272 Real love, unconditional love is possibly 697 00:51:04,314 --> 00:51:08,860 the greatest achievement that we have as human beings. 698 00:51:08,902 --> 00:51:11,988 And it's also often the most elusive. 699 00:51:14,407 --> 00:51:19,120 And because of that, we can often find ourselves 700 00:51:19,204 --> 00:51:21,623 clinging to our idea of love. 701 00:51:24,334 --> 00:51:26,086 Our perception of it. 702 00:51:27,045 --> 00:51:29,798 But when we find love, true love, 703 00:51:34,719 --> 00:51:38,223 it comes with unconditional circumstances. 704 00:51:43,395 --> 00:51:47,565 And a love like that cannot be broken by anything. 705 00:51:49,859 --> 00:51:51,945 Including mental illness. 706 00:51:54,322 --> 00:51:58,076 It can only make the love you share stronger. 707 00:52:19,723 --> 00:52:22,726 - Thank you, Dr. Bowman. 708 00:52:23,685 --> 00:52:25,562 I wanna get better too. 709 00:52:27,647 --> 00:52:30,150 And I won't be afraid anymore. 710 00:52:32,027 --> 00:52:35,864 - That's the right approach, Elizabeth. 711 00:52:35,905 --> 00:52:37,949 'Cause life is about choices. 712 00:52:37,991 --> 00:52:41,119 You have to choose for yourself. 713 00:52:41,161 --> 00:52:44,622 And the fact that you desire to get well 714 00:52:44,664 --> 00:52:47,083 shows that you're a fighter 715 00:52:47,125 --> 00:52:51,338 and you will not let this illness overcome you. 716 00:52:54,215 --> 00:52:55,800 Shall we take a look and see where we're at 717 00:52:55,842 --> 00:52:59,346 in terms of medication and dosing? 718 00:52:59,387 --> 00:53:00,180 - Yeah. 719 00:53:19,366 --> 00:53:21,618 I thought you said you couldn't make it. 720 00:53:21,659 --> 00:53:24,621 - I thought you said it was important. 721 00:53:24,662 --> 00:53:26,748 You ready to go? 722 00:53:26,790 --> 00:53:27,624 Come. 723 00:53:39,260 --> 00:53:40,345 - I'm going to need you 724 00:53:40,387 --> 00:53:42,931 to be very honest with me. 725 00:53:42,972 --> 00:53:45,392 Are you skipping your doses? 726 00:53:45,433 --> 00:53:47,435 - No, not at all. 727 00:53:47,477 --> 00:53:49,145 - Good. 728 00:53:50,563 --> 00:53:54,401 I'm going to prescribe a medication called Saphris. 729 00:53:54,442 --> 00:53:56,361 It's a dissolvable tab that comes 730 00:53:56,403 --> 00:53:59,406 between five and 10 milligram doses. 731 00:54:00,365 --> 00:54:02,367 Now it's very effective. 732 00:54:03,576 --> 00:54:06,287 And it's generally well tolerated. 733 00:54:23,763 --> 00:54:25,682 Now if you happen to have an episode 734 00:54:25,724 --> 00:54:28,560 similar to the one that you had last night, 735 00:54:28,601 --> 00:54:31,855 simply place the tab under the tongue 736 00:54:31,896 --> 00:54:34,107 and it can act very quickly to diminish 737 00:54:34,149 --> 00:54:38,278 all voices, hallucinations and disruptive thoughts. 738 00:54:40,947 --> 00:54:44,492 - It sounds too good to be true. 739 00:54:44,534 --> 00:54:47,328 It's all a process. 740 00:55:01,926 --> 00:55:05,722 - This'll probably be the last time I pet you. 741 00:55:07,849 --> 00:55:11,227 See the doctor gave me some new pills. 742 00:55:11,269 --> 00:55:14,606 If I take them, I won't see you anymore. 743 00:55:39,673 --> 00:55:40,840 It's all okay. 744 00:56:18,003 --> 00:56:19,546 - Babe, you okay? 745 00:56:19,587 --> 00:56:21,214 - Mhmm. 746 00:56:21,256 --> 00:56:22,507 Just trying to decompress a little 747 00:56:22,549 --> 00:56:23,842 and read my magazine. 748 00:56:23,883 --> 00:56:26,094 - Oh you mean the one that you stole? 749 00:56:26,136 --> 00:56:29,097 - I didn't steal it, I borrowed it. 750 00:56:29,139 --> 00:56:30,181 - Are you finally getting excited 751 00:56:30,223 --> 00:56:31,516 about wedding stuff? 752 00:56:31,558 --> 00:56:33,643 - I don't know, maybe a little. 753 00:56:33,685 --> 00:56:35,603 - Maybe a little, yeah. 754 00:56:35,645 --> 00:56:36,813 Why, I like it. 755 00:56:36,855 --> 00:56:39,024 It gives me hope. 756 00:56:39,065 --> 00:56:41,234 - Why is that? 757 00:56:42,444 --> 00:56:45,947 - Because it makes our future seem 758 00:56:47,073 --> 00:56:50,118 full of memories and old experiences. 759 00:56:51,536 --> 00:56:52,662 Full of life. 760 00:56:57,792 --> 00:56:59,461 I'll see you later. 761 00:56:59,544 --> 00:57:00,712 - Where are you going? 762 00:57:00,754 --> 00:57:03,006 - I'm going for a run. 763 00:57:03,048 --> 00:57:04,591 - Didn't you just go for a run? 764 00:57:04,632 --> 00:57:07,802 - Yeah, but you read bridal magazines and decompress 765 00:57:07,844 --> 00:57:09,012 and I jog, so. 766 00:57:13,683 --> 00:57:14,851 I'll see you later. 767 00:57:54,349 --> 00:57:56,643 - Grant, did you forget your keys? 768 00:57:56,685 --> 00:57:58,770 - It's your mother. 769 00:58:11,866 --> 00:58:14,452 - Mom, what are you doing here? 770 00:58:15,870 --> 00:58:17,956 - Well, your stepfather had some business in town 771 00:58:17,997 --> 00:58:22,335 so I thought I'd take a ride up and surprise you. 772 00:58:22,377 --> 00:58:24,629 - Yeah, well I'm surprised. 773 00:58:26,631 --> 00:58:28,008 Can I get you anything? 774 00:58:28,049 --> 00:58:30,051 - Oh, no I'm fine. 775 00:58:31,469 --> 00:58:32,637 Are you alone? 776 00:58:33,680 --> 00:58:35,557 - What does that mean? 777 00:58:35,640 --> 00:58:38,810 - Why I simply meant is there anyone here? 778 00:58:38,852 --> 00:58:40,228 - No. 779 00:58:40,270 --> 00:58:42,480 - Where's Grant? 780 00:58:42,522 --> 00:58:44,190 - He went for a jog. 781 00:58:47,652 --> 00:58:49,529 - Your hair got longer. 782 00:58:51,156 --> 00:58:53,283 - I know, I was actually thinking of cutting it. 783 00:58:53,324 --> 00:58:55,285 - Oh no, don't do that. 784 00:58:56,536 --> 00:58:58,371 You look so beautiful. 785 00:59:03,918 --> 00:59:04,753 - Hi, Mom. 786 00:59:09,507 --> 00:59:13,303 - Let's put some makeup on you and go shopping, Lizzy. 787 00:59:13,345 --> 00:59:17,557 - You know I hate when you call me Lizzy. 788 00:59:17,599 --> 00:59:20,101 - What happened to you, honey? 789 00:59:21,728 --> 00:59:23,355 When are you gonna get out of this rut 790 00:59:23,396 --> 00:59:25,982 and get back into living, for Christ's sake? 791 00:59:26,024 --> 00:59:27,150 - Rut? 792 00:59:27,192 --> 00:59:29,194 I see someone's still in denial, mom. 793 00:59:29,235 --> 00:59:30,070 - Denial? 794 00:59:32,280 --> 00:59:36,451 I'll tell you who's in denial, Lizzy. 795 00:59:36,493 --> 00:59:38,828 A Christmas tree, we're Jewish. 796 00:59:38,870 --> 00:59:40,955 - No, you're Jewish, mom. 797 00:59:40,997 --> 00:59:42,207 Daddy was Catholic and so is Grant 798 00:59:42,248 --> 00:59:43,833 and we like Christmas. 799 00:59:43,875 --> 00:59:47,170 - Okay, do not mention your good for nothing father to me. 800 00:59:47,212 --> 00:59:48,380 - Don't say that about him. 801 00:59:48,421 --> 00:59:50,215 - Oh clearly you've forgotten who raised you 802 00:59:50,256 --> 00:59:51,466 after he walked out on us. 803 00:59:51,508 --> 00:59:52,884 - Forgot? 804 00:59:52,926 --> 00:59:54,511 How could I when you constantly remind me 805 00:59:54,552 --> 00:59:57,931 what a terrific single parent you were? 806 00:59:57,972 --> 00:59:59,557 - If you weren't living in your little make believe world 807 00:59:59,599 --> 01:00:02,435 maybe you would have noticed. 808 01:00:02,477 --> 01:00:06,648 - That's what you think this is, make believe? 809 01:00:06,690 --> 01:00:09,067 I would tear off my skin if I didn't have to play 810 01:00:09,109 --> 01:00:11,027 make believe anymore. 811 01:00:11,069 --> 01:00:13,363 - You call it what you like, I call it make believe. 812 01:00:13,405 --> 01:00:14,656 You always needed attention 813 01:00:14,698 --> 01:00:16,199 and this is the way you got it. 814 01:00:16,241 --> 01:00:19,452 And you know what, I did do my best. 815 01:00:19,494 --> 01:00:22,372 You think it was easy after your father left? 816 01:00:22,414 --> 01:00:23,873 All those day to day worries? 817 01:00:23,915 --> 01:00:26,876 I had no job, I had no car, I had no money. 818 01:00:26,918 --> 01:00:28,378 - Yeah, no man. 819 01:00:28,420 --> 01:00:30,296 And I hate to break it to you. 820 01:00:30,338 --> 01:00:34,509 But your best is the only thing that's make believe here. 821 01:00:37,971 --> 01:00:40,473 - What exactly does that mean? 822 01:00:41,725 --> 01:00:43,560 - Nothing except that maybe 823 01:00:43,601 --> 01:00:47,063 you forgot to ask some questions. 824 01:00:47,105 --> 01:00:49,274 - To whom, Elizabeth, you? 825 01:00:52,986 --> 01:00:54,446 - Yes, me! 826 01:00:54,487 --> 01:00:57,323 You know a parental figure would have been nice. 827 01:00:57,365 --> 01:00:58,867 Someone who asked their kid if maybe 828 01:00:58,908 --> 01:01:00,535 something's going on inside their head 829 01:01:00,577 --> 01:01:02,537 and expressing some concern. 830 01:01:02,579 --> 01:01:04,497 That maybe I wasn't quite right. 831 01:01:04,539 --> 01:01:05,832 Oh what the hell would you know about that? 832 01:01:05,874 --> 01:01:07,709 You were so wrapped up in your own needs 833 01:01:07,751 --> 01:01:10,253 you couldn't be bothered by my suffering. 834 01:01:10,295 --> 01:01:12,505 Don't smoke in my apartment! 835 01:01:12,547 --> 01:01:13,715 - Your apartment? 836 01:01:13,757 --> 01:01:15,717 Oh god, unbelievable. 837 01:01:15,759 --> 01:01:17,594 Who do you think pays for this apartment? 838 01:01:17,635 --> 01:01:19,095 - Oh don't start with that. 839 01:01:19,137 --> 01:01:22,098 - Between this place and all the extra health insurance 840 01:01:22,140 --> 01:01:24,768 and all those fancy doctors you think you need. 841 01:01:24,851 --> 01:01:26,227 - Stop, oh. 842 01:01:26,269 --> 01:01:27,437 - I mean what do you think, your disability check 843 01:01:27,479 --> 01:01:28,855 covers all that? 844 01:01:28,897 --> 01:01:30,398 And you know what? 845 01:01:30,440 --> 01:01:33,026 Don't you dare point your finger at me, young lady. 846 01:01:33,068 --> 01:01:34,778 You are the reason your father walked out 847 01:01:34,861 --> 01:01:36,071 in the first place. 848 01:01:36,112 --> 01:01:38,615 All your neuroses and all your fits 849 01:01:38,656 --> 01:01:41,701 and all your constant crying! 850 01:01:41,743 --> 01:01:43,411 I should have slapped you! 851 01:01:43,453 --> 01:01:45,288 I wanted to but I didn't! 852 01:01:45,330 --> 01:01:46,414 - I was sick! 853 01:01:47,999 --> 01:01:49,542 - Your father would have beaten you 854 01:01:49,584 --> 01:01:52,754 within an inch of your life if he'd stayed one more day. 855 01:01:52,796 --> 01:01:55,340 You are the reason that your father left 856 01:01:55,382 --> 01:01:57,425 and never looked back! 857 01:01:57,467 --> 01:02:00,595 - You can't keep blaming me for that! 858 01:02:00,637 --> 01:02:03,348 Okay, you don't think I remember? 859 01:02:03,390 --> 01:02:05,767 I remember all your mood swings and screaming 860 01:02:05,809 --> 01:02:07,977 and how you sat at that kitchen table 861 01:02:08,019 --> 01:02:10,105 and smashed his watch with a hammer 862 01:02:10,146 --> 01:02:12,273 and how you tore apart our living room furniture 863 01:02:12,315 --> 01:02:14,317 in a fit of rage? 864 01:02:14,359 --> 01:02:16,111 Don't you remember that? 865 01:02:16,152 --> 01:02:18,405 Oh wait, how could you when all you did 866 01:02:18,446 --> 01:02:23,243 was mask your own issues with a cheap bottle of wine? 867 01:02:23,284 --> 01:02:24,953 Or is it something stronger now? 868 01:02:24,994 --> 01:02:28,623 By the smell of your breath I'd say Jack and Coke. 869 01:02:28,665 --> 01:02:29,624 Am I right? 870 01:02:34,295 --> 01:02:36,047 - You always did like to make me look 871 01:02:36,089 --> 01:02:37,841 like a bad person. 872 01:02:37,924 --> 01:02:39,801 - Yeah you keep living in your fantasy world 873 01:02:39,843 --> 01:02:41,344 where your hair doesn't move 874 01:02:41,386 --> 01:02:43,471 so you don't have to take responsibility for your actions. 875 01:02:43,513 --> 01:02:45,515 - My actions? My actions? 876 01:02:45,557 --> 01:02:46,766 - Do you think I enjoy coming home 877 01:02:46,808 --> 01:02:48,810 and you not being there? 878 01:02:48,852 --> 01:02:50,603 Constant men in and out of the house 879 01:02:50,645 --> 01:02:54,774 as you took applications for a new husband? 880 01:02:54,816 --> 01:02:58,028 All you had to do was love me after daddy left. 881 01:02:58,069 --> 01:03:00,989 But you sat high and mighty in that pedestal, 882 01:03:01,031 --> 01:03:02,824 looked down at me with disgust 883 01:03:02,866 --> 01:03:05,994 from my mental issues and you think I made them up? 884 01:03:06,036 --> 01:03:07,662 They stem from you. 885 01:03:07,704 --> 01:03:09,456 - Oh you keep telling yourself that! 886 01:03:09,497 --> 01:03:10,665 - Shut up! 887 01:03:10,707 --> 01:03:13,376 Shut up and listen to me for once! 888 01:03:16,129 --> 01:03:17,297 You know what? 889 01:03:19,049 --> 01:03:23,011 I'm not gonna let you make me feel bad anymore. 890 01:03:23,053 --> 01:03:24,971 I know I'm a mess. 891 01:03:25,013 --> 01:03:26,890 But I'm getting better. 892 01:03:29,726 --> 01:03:31,353 And I don't need you to pretend 893 01:03:31,394 --> 01:03:33,646 to take care of me anymore. 894 01:03:34,564 --> 01:03:35,857 Or be my mother. 895 01:03:37,567 --> 01:03:39,069 Or even my friend. 896 01:03:41,571 --> 01:03:42,405 I'm done. 897 01:04:04,803 --> 01:04:07,013 - Elizabeth, we can't leave things like this. 898 01:04:07,055 --> 01:04:10,767 - Okay, things have always been like this. 899 01:04:10,809 --> 01:04:14,813 And there is nothing good here, there never was. 900 01:04:16,940 --> 01:04:17,857 I love you. 901 01:04:21,653 --> 01:04:23,154 But you should go. 902 01:04:24,739 --> 01:04:27,659 Your new family needs you, I don't. 903 01:04:50,974 --> 01:04:51,808 Hey. 904 01:04:51,850 --> 01:04:52,684 - Hey you. 905 01:04:56,855 --> 01:04:58,106 I am exhausted. 906 01:05:00,734 --> 01:05:03,945 What are you doing sitting in the dark? 907 01:05:03,987 --> 01:05:05,905 Should I be concerned? 908 01:05:05,947 --> 01:05:07,240 - No, I'm good actually. 909 01:05:07,282 --> 01:05:08,700 - Okay. 910 01:05:08,742 --> 01:05:10,577 - My mom was here. 911 01:05:10,618 --> 01:05:13,913 - Here, like in the apartment here? 912 01:05:13,955 --> 01:05:14,789 - Mhmm. 913 01:05:16,541 --> 01:05:18,877 - when? 914 01:05:18,918 --> 01:05:22,213 - She showed up about 20 minutes after you left. 915 01:05:22,255 --> 01:05:23,423 Where were you for so long? 916 01:05:23,465 --> 01:05:25,091 - I lost track of time. 917 01:05:25,133 --> 01:05:28,470 I mean who cares, tell me what happened? 918 01:05:29,554 --> 01:05:31,097 - We said everything we had to say. 919 01:05:31,139 --> 01:05:33,308 I feel like I got closure. 920 01:05:34,559 --> 01:05:36,102 Real closure going all the way back 921 01:05:36,144 --> 01:05:39,230 to when I was in love with Ken. 922 01:05:39,272 --> 01:05:41,691 Do you think that's possible? 923 01:05:45,153 --> 01:05:48,239 - Sometimes we hold on to things 924 01:05:48,281 --> 01:05:50,992 that we know are not good for us. 925 01:05:52,243 --> 01:05:54,913 Because we're afraid of what will happen 926 01:05:54,954 --> 01:05:55,997 if we let go. 927 01:05:58,333 --> 01:06:01,378 But when we finally do it's like this, 928 01:06:01,419 --> 01:06:04,130 this weight lifted off our chest 929 01:06:06,174 --> 01:06:07,926 and we're truly free. 930 01:06:09,302 --> 01:06:11,638 It's a good thing, trust me. 931 01:06:14,808 --> 01:06:16,017 Sorry I wasn't here. 932 01:06:16,059 --> 01:06:17,811 - No it's better that you weren't. 933 01:06:17,852 --> 01:06:19,145 I don't think I could have said everything I did 934 01:06:19,187 --> 01:06:20,355 with you here. 935 01:06:22,440 --> 01:06:24,567 - You're amazing, you know that? 936 01:06:24,609 --> 01:06:26,194 Absolutely amazing. 937 01:06:33,618 --> 01:06:34,619 - You smell. 938 01:06:36,287 --> 01:06:37,747 - I smell? 939 01:06:37,789 --> 01:06:42,252 You're gonna ruin that sweet moment to tell me I smell? 940 01:06:42,293 --> 01:06:44,379 Yeah, I'ma take a shower. 941 01:06:45,547 --> 01:06:49,009 But you know what, you should come with me. 942 01:06:51,219 --> 01:06:52,512 - Sorry mister, and you know what kind of girl 943 01:06:52,554 --> 01:06:54,014 do you think I am? 944 01:06:54,973 --> 01:06:56,891 - A naughty one I hope. 945 01:06:57,892 --> 01:07:00,061 So I'll drop a pin on your GPS 946 01:07:00,103 --> 01:07:03,898 and that way you'll be able to find me, okay? 947 01:07:04,983 --> 01:07:08,236 ♪ In the morning 948 01:07:08,278 --> 01:07:11,031 ♪ In the morning 949 01:07:11,990 --> 01:07:15,326 ♪ And the lover 950 01:07:15,368 --> 01:07:18,872 ♪ Smiling for me 951 01:07:18,913 --> 01:07:22,584 ♪ While she's falling 952 01:07:22,625 --> 01:07:25,795 ♪ While she's falling 953 01:07:27,339 --> 01:07:31,051 ♪ Man I must have been blind 954 01:07:32,761 --> 01:07:36,056 ♪ To carry on such 955 01:07:36,097 --> 01:07:39,267 ♪ For most of my life 956 01:07:41,811 --> 01:07:45,815 ♪ These days I'm hanging around 957 01:07:46,900 --> 01:07:50,403 ♪ You're out of my heart 958 01:07:50,445 --> 01:07:53,531 ♪ And out of my town 959 01:08:07,295 --> 01:08:08,088 - Hey. 960 01:08:10,423 --> 01:08:12,717 What's going on with you, you look tense. 961 01:08:12,759 --> 01:08:14,969 I know you're going to try on wedding dresses right now. 962 01:08:15,011 --> 01:08:16,054 I thought you were excited. 963 01:08:16,096 --> 01:08:17,138 - I am excited. 964 01:08:17,180 --> 01:08:18,264 - Yeah? 965 01:08:18,306 --> 01:08:21,017 - Just my anxiety, babe. 966 01:08:21,059 --> 01:08:23,311 - Did you take your Clonopin? 967 01:08:23,353 --> 01:08:24,145 Good girl. 968 01:08:26,606 --> 01:08:29,734 You know what, just take out your pills. 969 01:08:29,776 --> 01:08:30,819 Yeah, take them out. 970 01:08:30,860 --> 01:08:31,903 - Why? 971 01:08:31,945 --> 01:08:33,738 - Just take them out. 972 01:08:34,823 --> 01:08:35,949 Now give them a shake. 973 01:08:37,158 --> 01:08:39,703 Shake it one more time. 974 01:08:39,744 --> 01:08:41,204 You feel that? 975 01:08:41,287 --> 01:08:42,080 Oh, oh. 976 01:08:42,122 --> 01:08:43,581 I can't even control it. 977 01:08:43,623 --> 01:08:46,918 - You're so stupid I hate you. 978 01:08:46,960 --> 01:08:48,169 - Am I embarrassing you? 979 01:08:48,211 --> 01:08:49,170 - Yeah. 980 01:08:49,212 --> 01:08:51,214 - A little bit? - A little bit. 981 01:08:51,297 --> 01:08:53,842 - Well I made you smile, didn't I? 982 01:08:53,883 --> 01:08:56,803 And you don't hate me, you love me. 983 01:08:59,139 --> 01:09:01,641 - That's it. 984 01:09:01,683 --> 01:09:03,518 - There it is. 985 01:09:05,103 --> 01:09:06,688 Looks um, expensive. 986 01:09:08,648 --> 01:09:12,819 - You know I found it in a bridal magazine. 987 01:09:14,154 --> 01:09:16,364 - Do you want me to go in with you? 988 01:09:16,406 --> 01:09:17,782 - No, I'm fine. 989 01:09:17,824 --> 01:09:19,868 Plus it's bad luck if you see me in a dress. 990 01:09:19,909 --> 01:09:21,244 - I don't think it's gonna be a tragedy 991 01:09:21,327 --> 01:09:23,538 if I see you in a dress. 992 01:09:23,580 --> 01:09:24,622 - Do you think we need another thing 993 01:09:24,664 --> 01:09:25,790 for me to obsess over? 994 01:09:25,832 --> 01:09:27,792 - Good point, enough said. 995 01:09:27,834 --> 01:09:29,961 No seeing you in a dress till the big day. 996 01:09:30,003 --> 01:09:31,880 I won't even ask again. 997 01:09:33,006 --> 01:09:34,466 Okay, I'm going in. 998 01:09:34,507 --> 01:09:35,842 - All right, I'll be back here in an hour. 999 01:09:35,884 --> 01:09:38,136 You got this, okay? 1000 01:09:38,178 --> 01:09:39,220 - Okay, go, go. 1001 01:09:39,262 --> 01:09:40,347 - You'll be fine. 1002 01:10:13,296 --> 01:10:14,381 - Hello. 1003 01:10:14,422 --> 01:10:15,965 - Hi. 1004 01:10:16,007 --> 01:10:17,967 - Hi, you must be my two o'clock. 1005 01:10:18,009 --> 01:10:19,177 - I am, I'm Elizabeth. 1006 01:10:19,219 --> 01:10:20,762 - Hi Elizabeth, I'm Jane. 1007 01:10:20,804 --> 01:10:22,222 It is so nice to meet you. 1008 01:10:22,263 --> 01:10:24,557 Welcome to our little shop. 1009 01:10:25,642 --> 01:10:27,519 - Thank you, it is so beautiful. 1010 01:10:27,560 --> 01:10:28,645 - Thank you. 1011 01:10:28,687 --> 01:10:29,854 - And you're so pretty. 1012 01:10:29,896 --> 01:10:31,231 - Oh, you're so sweet, thank you. 1013 01:10:31,272 --> 01:10:33,108 Well are you shopping alone today 1014 01:10:33,149 --> 01:10:34,734 or will someone be joining you? 1015 01:10:34,776 --> 01:10:35,944 - No, just me. 1016 01:10:35,985 --> 01:10:37,278 I sent my fiancee away but he'll be back 1017 01:10:37,320 --> 01:10:38,822 in an hour to get me. 1018 01:10:38,863 --> 01:10:40,323 - Wonderful, that's plenty of time. 1019 01:10:40,407 --> 01:10:42,117 It's always better when the man shows up 1020 01:10:42,158 --> 01:10:44,035 at the altar instead of the fitting room. 1021 01:10:44,077 --> 01:10:46,246 At least that's my opinion anyway. 1022 01:10:46,287 --> 01:10:47,664 Can I offer you something to drink? 1023 01:10:47,706 --> 01:10:49,165 - No, I'm great, thank you. 1024 01:10:49,207 --> 01:10:51,876 - Okay, well then let's get started. 1025 01:10:51,918 --> 01:10:53,795 Let's find you a dress. 1026 01:10:53,837 --> 01:10:55,088 Right this way. 1027 01:10:56,297 --> 01:10:57,424 This your first time shopping for dresses? 1028 01:10:57,465 --> 01:10:58,717 - Yeah. 1029 01:10:58,758 --> 01:11:02,762 - Oh, you are in for a treat. 1030 01:11:09,019 --> 01:11:11,563 - You look well, Elizabeth. 1031 01:11:11,604 --> 01:11:12,605 - Thank you. 1032 01:11:13,773 --> 01:11:14,774 I feel good. 1033 01:11:16,735 --> 01:11:19,446 That's great news. 1034 01:11:19,487 --> 01:11:21,239 Have you had any other hallucinations 1035 01:11:21,281 --> 01:11:23,324 since our last session? 1036 01:11:23,366 --> 01:11:25,702 - Just one. 1037 01:11:25,744 --> 01:11:29,914 I saw a raccoon in my bathroom but it passed quickly. 1038 01:11:31,791 --> 01:11:35,879 - Well, that tells me that the Invega is working. 1039 01:11:37,297 --> 01:11:39,632 And how's your anxiety been? 1040 01:11:41,217 --> 01:11:42,886 - It comes and goes. 1041 01:11:47,891 --> 01:11:52,062 I had a really bad argument with my mom the other day. 1042 01:11:54,064 --> 01:11:57,776 - Very sorry to hear that. 1043 01:11:57,817 --> 01:11:59,319 - No, it was good. 1044 01:12:02,155 --> 01:12:03,782 I knew it helped me get past some stuff 1045 01:12:03,823 --> 01:12:05,492 and cleared my mind. 1046 01:12:08,828 --> 01:12:13,041 - Sometimes when we confront something or someone, 1047 01:12:13,083 --> 01:12:16,378 that's been a source of stress in our lives, 1048 01:12:16,419 --> 01:12:20,298 it can often cause us to refocus on ourselves. 1049 01:12:26,805 --> 01:12:28,723 What do you have there? 1050 01:12:29,808 --> 01:12:33,561 - I went wedding dress shopping today. 1051 01:12:33,603 --> 01:12:35,271 And the lady in the store was really nice. 1052 01:12:35,313 --> 01:12:39,150 She gave me this number to a wedding chaplain. 1053 01:12:42,070 --> 01:12:43,988 - That was nice of her. 1054 01:12:48,410 --> 01:12:52,372 So other than the raccoon, and a bit of anxiety, 1055 01:12:55,709 --> 01:12:58,837 you haven't had any other episodes? 1056 01:12:58,878 --> 01:12:59,713 - No. 1057 01:13:02,382 --> 01:13:06,594 And then things with Grant have been much better. 1058 01:13:06,636 --> 01:13:10,598 And that feeling I was having of him leaving me, 1059 01:13:10,640 --> 01:13:11,433 it passed. 1060 01:13:15,270 --> 01:13:16,396 - That's good. 1061 01:13:18,314 --> 01:13:20,859 And have you been taking the Saphris? 1062 01:13:20,900 --> 01:13:22,068 - No, not yet. 1063 01:13:26,614 --> 01:13:28,450 I didn't feel the need to. 1064 01:13:28,491 --> 01:13:32,746 And like you said, the Invega must be working. 1065 01:13:32,787 --> 01:13:34,205 - I'm sure it is. 1066 01:13:35,707 --> 01:13:39,627 But I would like you to take the Saphris tonight. 1067 01:13:39,669 --> 01:13:40,837 10 milligrams. 1068 01:13:43,131 --> 01:13:44,341 - I thought that was for 1069 01:13:44,382 --> 01:13:47,635 when I was having a really bad episode. 1070 01:13:47,677 --> 01:13:49,471 - Well that's correct. 1071 01:13:51,681 --> 01:13:53,933 But it's also preventative. 1072 01:13:55,393 --> 01:13:58,396 Considering the occurrence with Tim is fairly recent, 1073 01:13:58,438 --> 01:14:01,358 then followed by the argument with your mother, 1074 01:14:01,399 --> 01:14:03,610 we'd rather be safe than sorry. 1075 01:14:03,651 --> 01:14:05,320 These type of situations could often lead 1076 01:14:05,362 --> 01:14:07,405 to relapse due to stress. 1077 01:14:10,283 --> 01:14:12,786 Why not nip it in the bud now? 1078 01:14:15,747 --> 01:14:19,000 - Nip it in the bud, I like that, okay. 1079 01:14:22,671 --> 01:14:24,547 I'll see you next week? 1080 01:14:28,718 --> 01:14:30,303 - That sounds good. 1081 01:14:33,056 --> 01:14:37,227 - Dr. Bowman, thank you for everything. 1082 01:14:38,561 --> 01:14:41,064 - It's my absolute pleasure, Elizabeth. 1083 01:14:41,106 --> 01:14:44,401 You are a bright, warm, young woman. 1084 01:14:44,442 --> 01:14:46,653 And I want nothing more than to get you back 1085 01:14:46,695 --> 01:14:49,447 to living a full productive life. 1086 01:14:51,700 --> 01:14:53,410 Now I want you to call me tomorrow 1087 01:14:53,451 --> 01:14:55,912 after you've taken the Saphris 1088 01:14:55,954 --> 01:14:58,540 and tell me how you feel, okay? 1089 01:14:58,581 --> 01:15:00,125 - Okay. 1090 01:15:01,376 --> 01:15:04,546 - Babe, can you come to bed? 1091 01:15:04,587 --> 01:15:05,463 - In a sec. 1092 01:15:54,512 --> 01:15:56,765 Fuck, cherry flavor my ass. 1093 01:15:58,975 --> 01:16:00,810 Time to start living. 1094 01:16:00,852 --> 01:16:02,604 - Elizabeth. 1095 01:16:02,645 --> 01:16:03,480 - Yeah? 1096 01:16:05,857 --> 01:16:09,319 - Why do we never open the futon? 1097 01:16:10,820 --> 01:16:14,991 - Guess, before you I just got used to living alone. 1098 01:16:16,117 --> 01:16:18,787 We'll open it tomorrow, I promise. 1099 01:16:23,792 --> 01:16:26,461 - I love you, Elizabeth. 1100 01:16:28,088 --> 01:16:29,506 - I love you too. 1101 01:16:54,948 --> 01:16:57,117 ♪ At last 1102 01:17:02,622 --> 01:17:06,001 ♪ My love has come along 1103 01:17:10,714 --> 01:17:14,259 ♪ My lonely days are over 1104 01:17:15,885 --> 01:17:16,678 Grant? 1105 01:17:19,222 --> 01:17:22,684 ♪ And life is like a song 1106 01:17:27,355 --> 01:17:29,899 ♪ Oh yeah yeah 1107 01:17:29,941 --> 01:17:32,110 ♪ At last 1108 01:17:35,405 --> 01:17:38,950 ♪ The stars above are blue 1109 01:17:44,080 --> 01:17:45,206 Grant? 1110 01:17:45,248 --> 01:17:49,336 ♪ My heart was wrapped up in clovers 1111 01:17:52,005 --> 01:17:55,675 ♪ The night I looked at you 1112 01:18:01,890 --> 01:18:04,684 ♪ I found a dream 1113 01:18:05,852 --> 01:18:09,189 ♪ That I could speak to 1114 01:18:10,357 --> 01:18:14,444 ♪ A dream that I can call my own 1115 01:18:17,781 --> 01:18:21,993 ♪ I found the thrill to rest my cheek to 1116 01:18:26,915 --> 01:18:31,086 ♪ A thrill that I have never known 1117 01:18:33,088 --> 01:18:35,340 ♪ Oh yeah yeah 1118 01:18:35,382 --> 01:18:38,301 ♪ You smile 1119 01:18:38,343 --> 01:18:40,428 ♪ You smile 1120 01:18:40,470 --> 01:18:44,557 ♪ Oh and then the spell was cast 1121 01:18:49,729 --> 01:18:53,400 ♪ And here we are in heaven 1122 01:18:54,651 --> 01:18:55,485 Grant? 1123 01:18:57,737 --> 01:18:59,614 ♪ For you are mine 1124 01:18:59,656 --> 01:19:02,325 - Sometimes we hold on to things 1125 01:19:03,368 --> 01:19:06,079 that we know are not good for us. 1126 01:19:08,248 --> 01:19:12,419 Because we're afraid of what will happen if we let go. 1127 01:19:22,387 --> 01:19:25,473 But when we finally do, it's like this 1128 01:19:25,515 --> 01:19:28,268 this weight lifted off our chest. 1129 01:19:30,478 --> 01:19:32,230 And we're truly free. 1130 01:19:33,356 --> 01:19:35,692 It's a good thing, trust me. 1131 01:19:39,863 --> 01:19:43,658 - Grant asked me to marry him and I said yes. 1132 01:19:45,827 --> 01:19:47,996 - Elizabeth, I need you to listen to me 1133 01:19:48,038 --> 01:19:50,957 very carefully and try to understand 1134 01:19:50,999 --> 01:19:53,877 what I'm about to say to you, okay? 1135 01:19:56,671 --> 01:19:58,798 The best thing that you can do 1136 01:19:58,840 --> 01:20:03,011 is to ignore the voices and hallucinations at all cost. 1137 01:20:04,429 --> 01:20:06,848 Don't make friends with them, don't talk to them. 1138 01:20:06,890 --> 01:20:11,061 Don't even acknowledge them even if they're nice to you. 1139 01:20:12,479 --> 01:20:16,316 We don't want you to engage with any of the hallucinations. 1140 01:20:17,692 --> 01:20:21,613 It could potentially worsen your state of mind. 1141 01:20:21,654 --> 01:20:24,866 Now I understand how real these hallucinations may feel 1142 01:20:24,908 --> 01:20:28,203 when they're happening but they're not. 1143 01:20:29,412 --> 01:20:31,122 And you're gonna have to try your best 1144 01:20:31,164 --> 01:20:33,124 to try and tune them out. 1145 01:20:33,166 --> 01:20:35,460 Turn the TV up extra loud. 1146 01:20:35,502 --> 01:20:37,754 Listen to music with headphones on. 1147 01:20:37,796 --> 01:20:40,006 Call someone, anybody. 1148 01:20:40,048 --> 01:20:41,883 Anything at all to distract yourself 1149 01:20:41,925 --> 01:20:44,010 until the episode passes. 1150 01:20:48,682 --> 01:20:49,849 - Do you know how scary it is 1151 01:20:49,891 --> 01:20:52,769 when you don't know if life is real? 1152 01:20:53,895 --> 01:20:56,648 Sometimes I feel cursed, like I'm living 1153 01:20:56,690 --> 01:21:00,110 in a bad dream that I can't wake up from. 1154 01:21:04,489 --> 01:21:06,574 My relationship is suffering. 1155 01:21:06,616 --> 01:21:10,036 He says it's not but I don't believe him. 1156 01:21:14,541 --> 01:21:16,376 I want to believe him. 1157 01:21:19,379 --> 01:21:23,550 And I don't want him to stop loving me because of this. 1158 01:21:26,428 --> 01:21:29,431 I can't stop loving because of this. 1159 01:21:35,812 --> 01:21:36,896 I'm so tired. 1160 01:21:45,572 --> 01:21:49,200 - I thought you said she was making progress. 1161 01:21:49,242 --> 01:21:50,035 - She is. 1162 01:21:52,203 --> 01:21:54,914 But the type of schizophrenia that Elizabeth has 1163 01:21:54,956 --> 01:21:57,792 is very uncommon and can manifest its symptoms 1164 01:21:57,834 --> 01:22:01,921 in many ways including a change in her perceptions 1165 01:22:01,963 --> 01:22:05,467 that could influence her sense of reality. 1166 01:22:06,718 --> 01:22:08,887 In her particular case, this not only includes 1167 01:22:08,928 --> 01:22:11,014 hearing voices that are not there 1168 01:22:11,056 --> 01:22:14,142 or seeing something that's not actually present. 1169 01:22:14,184 --> 01:22:16,644 She also has tactile hallucinations 1170 01:22:16,686 --> 01:22:21,483 that could create a sensation of physical contact. 1171 01:22:21,524 --> 01:22:24,778 In addition, she has the type of symptoms 1172 01:22:24,819 --> 01:22:28,656 that are consistent with the diagnosis of OCD. 1173 01:22:30,825 --> 01:22:33,453 Now all these symptoms at once 1174 01:22:33,495 --> 01:22:37,665 can lead to severe distress and be very disabling. 1175 01:22:40,502 --> 01:22:44,172 With all these medical conditions to manage, 1176 01:22:44,214 --> 01:22:46,549 it's going to be very challenging. 1177 01:22:46,591 --> 01:22:48,009 And it's going to be very important 1178 01:22:48,051 --> 01:22:50,720 that we have an effective treatment plan in place 1179 01:22:50,762 --> 01:22:52,472 and that we stick with it. 1180 01:22:52,514 --> 01:22:54,599 - So what does that mean? 1181 01:22:57,811 --> 01:22:59,521 - Mrs. O'neil, 1182 01:22:59,562 --> 01:23:01,815 - Excuse me, O'neil was her father's name. 1183 01:23:01,856 --> 01:23:05,318 I'm remarried now so please call me Carol. 1184 01:23:07,070 --> 01:23:08,029 - Of course. 1185 01:23:09,489 --> 01:23:10,323 Carol. 1186 01:23:12,033 --> 01:23:14,786 Your daughter's mental health is, 1187 01:23:17,038 --> 01:23:18,873 it's severe in nature. 1188 01:23:20,041 --> 01:23:22,669 Stress, let alone a traumatic incident 1189 01:23:22,711 --> 01:23:25,380 can easily trigger a psychotic episode. 1190 01:23:25,422 --> 01:23:27,757 - I'm sorry Dr. Bowman, I really don't understand 1191 01:23:27,799 --> 01:23:29,718 what any of this means. 1192 01:23:36,933 --> 01:23:39,602 - The first appearance of the hallucination 1193 01:23:39,644 --> 01:23:42,981 that Elizabeth came to identify as Grant 1194 01:23:44,024 --> 01:23:46,317 seems to have coincided with the death 1195 01:23:46,359 --> 01:23:48,361 of her father last year. 1196 01:23:49,779 --> 01:23:52,741 Now although the medication eliminated her hallucinations 1197 01:23:52,782 --> 01:23:55,035 including the one of Grant, 1198 01:23:58,079 --> 01:24:00,248 it uncovered a deeper emotional 1199 01:24:00,290 --> 01:24:02,709 and psychological detachment. 1200 01:24:07,380 --> 01:24:09,424 - Did Elizabeth ever mention to you 1201 01:24:09,466 --> 01:24:11,843 that she started speaking to her father again 1202 01:24:11,885 --> 01:24:13,553 just before he died? 1203 01:24:14,804 --> 01:24:17,682 - No, she never mentioned that to me. 1204 01:24:17,724 --> 01:24:19,309 - Yeah. 1205 01:24:19,351 --> 01:24:21,061 They were very close. 1206 01:24:22,687 --> 01:24:24,397 Just before we split. 1207 01:24:28,026 --> 01:24:31,154 Every Sunday he would order Chinese food 1208 01:24:31,196 --> 01:24:34,199 and they would watch movies all day. 1209 01:24:36,201 --> 01:24:38,078 He'd tell her stories. 1210 01:24:41,081 --> 01:24:42,415 And she's laugh. 1211 01:24:44,709 --> 01:24:47,962 And he even told her once that one day, 1212 01:24:52,425 --> 01:24:55,720 some wonderful guy like some stupid knight in shining armor 1213 01:24:55,762 --> 01:24:57,847 would come and marry her. 1214 01:25:04,145 --> 01:25:07,732 And she said I hope he's just like you, daddy. 1215 01:25:12,654 --> 01:25:15,657 He'd call her his little Lizzy Blue. 1216 01:25:19,202 --> 01:25:22,122 - I'm so sorry, Carol. 1217 01:25:26,126 --> 01:25:27,043 - Now what? 1218 01:25:33,216 --> 01:25:36,344 - Dr. Saunders and I think it's best 1219 01:25:36,386 --> 01:25:39,723 that Elizabeth remain here in Statewood. 1220 01:25:40,890 --> 01:25:44,519 Hopefully after time and proper treatment, 1221 01:25:44,561 --> 01:25:47,564 Elizabeth will be able to break free of the notion 1222 01:25:47,605 --> 01:25:50,483 that she lost the love of her life. 1223 01:25:53,403 --> 01:25:54,988 - Is this my fault? 1224 01:26:07,959 --> 01:26:11,463 - Carol, here at Statewood we don't judge. 1225 01:26:13,298 --> 01:26:15,508 We're simply here to help. 1226 01:26:34,694 --> 01:26:35,987 - Hi, Elizabeth. 1227 01:26:36,029 --> 01:26:38,823 How are you feeling today, sweety? 1228 01:26:38,865 --> 01:26:40,784 Can I get you anything? 1229 01:26:40,825 --> 01:26:42,535 Maybe a cup of water. 1230 01:26:52,629 --> 01:26:53,838 - What are you doing? 1231 01:26:53,880 --> 01:26:55,006 - Nothing, I was just gonna put something 1232 01:26:55,048 --> 01:26:57,676 in the TV for Elizabeth. 1233 01:26:57,717 --> 01:27:00,512 Is there anything in particular you wanna watch? 1234 01:27:00,553 --> 01:27:02,722 - You can put anything you want on the TV, Jane. 1235 01:27:02,764 --> 01:27:04,307 Or turn it off all together. 1236 01:27:04,349 --> 01:27:06,643 It won't make a difference either way. 1237 01:27:06,685 --> 01:27:08,353 All she ever does is sit there, 1238 01:27:08,436 --> 01:27:09,688 write in that notebook and flip 1239 01:27:09,729 --> 01:27:12,190 through that bridal magazine. 1240 01:27:13,858 --> 01:27:16,194 Look, I know you're new here. 1241 01:27:16,236 --> 01:27:18,613 But you can't give too much to the patients. 1242 01:27:18,655 --> 01:27:21,032 You won't survive the job. 1243 01:27:21,074 --> 01:27:24,202 Now I need you to start prepping the evening medications. 1244 01:27:24,244 --> 01:27:26,538 Rounds start in 30 minutes. 1245 01:27:36,256 --> 01:27:37,757 ♪ Somebody get some flowers 1246 01:27:37,799 --> 01:27:39,759 ♪ Somebody get a ring 1247 01:27:39,801 --> 01:27:43,805 ♪ Somebody get a chapel and a choir to sing 1248 01:27:43,847 --> 01:27:47,726 ♪ Somebody get an organ to play 1249 01:27:47,767 --> 01:27:51,938 ♪ 'Cause somebody's getting married today 1250 01:27:56,317 --> 01:27:57,694 ♪ Somebody get a preacher 1251 01:27:57,736 --> 01:27:59,696 ♪ Somebody bake a cake 1252 01:27:59,738 --> 01:28:03,867 ♪ Somebody get some shoes and rice and presents today 1253 01:28:03,908 --> 01:28:07,704 ♪ Somebody get a sweet negligee 1254 01:28:07,746 --> 01:28:12,083 ♪ 'Cause somebody's getting married today 1255 01:28:12,125 --> 01:28:15,837 ♪ Wedding, wedding ,big and bulky wedding 1256 01:28:15,879 --> 01:28:17,839 ♪ Somebody get champagne 1257 01:28:17,881 --> 01:28:19,716 ♪ Sombody rent a room 1258 01:28:19,758 --> 01:28:21,760 ♪ Somebody get the lovely bride 1259 01:28:21,801 --> 01:28:23,345 ♪ And somebody get the 1260 01:28:23,386 --> 01:28:25,096 ♪ Somebody get the, somebody somebody 1261 01:28:25,138 --> 01:28:26,348 ♪ Somebody, somebody 1262 01:28:26,389 --> 01:28:29,851 ♪ Somebody get this wedding under way 1263 01:28:29,893 --> 01:28:33,980 ♪ Somebody getting married today 1264 01:28:42,405 --> 01:28:43,448 - Grant asked me to marry him 1265 01:28:43,531 --> 01:28:44,783 and I said yes. 1266 01:28:46,576 --> 01:28:49,579 - I love you Elizabeth Blue. 1267 01:29:27,826 --> 01:29:31,329 ♪ Lying there's a rainbow 1268 01:29:36,167 --> 01:29:40,088 ♪ But it ain't no pretty sight 1269 01:29:46,177 --> 01:29:49,472 ♪ I seen all the colors 1270 01:29:55,228 --> 01:29:59,190 ♪ Only one in front of my eyes 1271 01:30:01,484 --> 01:30:04,529 ♪ The color of green 1272 01:30:13,538 --> 01:30:16,541 ♪ A color so lonely 1273 01:30:19,878 --> 01:30:22,380 ♪ The color of 1274 01:30:22,422 --> 01:30:24,424 ♪ green 1275 01:30:31,890 --> 01:30:34,893 ♪ A color so hungry 1276 01:30:36,770 --> 01:30:39,189 ♪ A color of 1277 01:30:41,524 --> 01:30:44,110 ♪ Passing room 1278 01:30:51,117 --> 01:30:54,871 ♪ And that empty bed for two 1279 01:30:59,459 --> 01:31:03,505 ♪ And I see red there and orange 1280 01:31:08,218 --> 01:31:12,597 ♪ Thinking all of this ends all over you 1281 01:31:12,681 --> 01:31:16,351 ♪ All on you all I'm seeing 1282 01:31:18,019 --> 01:31:20,021 ♪ Green 1283 01:31:26,820 --> 01:31:29,823 ♪ A color so lonely 1284 01:31:32,826 --> 01:31:35,161 ♪ The color of 1285 01:31:35,203 --> 01:31:37,205 ♪ Green 1286 01:31:44,254 --> 01:31:47,257 ♪ A color so hungry 1287 01:31:49,050 --> 01:31:51,594 ♪ The color of 1288 01:31:53,722 --> 01:31:57,892 ♪ And has eaten me, eaten me away 1289 01:32:03,273 --> 01:32:05,191 ♪ Away 1290 01:32:09,154 --> 01:32:11,781 ♪ Second place 1291 01:32:12,741 --> 01:32:15,952 ♪ The same as no place 1292 01:32:17,996 --> 01:32:20,290 ♪ No place 1293 01:32:24,502 --> 01:32:28,631 ♪ And does he tell me, he tell me 1294 01:32:29,632 --> 01:32:31,551 ♪ Away 1295 01:32:33,303 --> 01:32:35,680 ♪ Away, away 1296 01:32:38,516 --> 01:32:41,811 ♪ True love ain't true 1297 01:32:43,229 --> 01:32:46,399 ♪ Well now fades 1298 01:32:46,441 --> 01:32:50,278 ♪ It fades, it fades away too 1299 01:33:10,965 --> 01:33:12,967 ♪ Green 1300 01:33:18,098 --> 01:33:21,101 ♪ A color so lonely 1301 01:33:26,481 --> 01:33:28,983 ♪ A color of 1302 01:33:29,317 --> 01:33:35,824 Support us and become VIP member to remove all ads from www.OpenSubtitles.org 91217