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♪ no one's gonna tell me it's
a trick of the light ♪

♪ may never come
but I'm willing to wait ♪

♪ what can I say?
I'm a man of the faith ♪

♪ and there's an ocean
in my body ♪

♪ and there's a river
in my soul ♪

♪ and I'm crying ♪

arrogant bitch!

that you, the said accused,

On the 7th of may...

How do you plead,

Guilty or not guilty?

My god, val,

You look beautiful.

You ready?

You got the weather for it.

for grace.

dearly beloved,

We are gathered here today

To join this man and this
woman in holy matrimony.

Cheryl.

Thanks for making the trip,
it means a lot.

Are you kidding, I
wouldn't miss it for the world.

It's so good to see you.

You too.

- Caro.
- Paul,

You're doing a great job

And you're even more handsome
than how denis was on his day.

Gran!

I'm allowed to say.

Where's mam?

She's in her room,
fixing her make-up.

I-- I'd give her a few minutes.

Of course.

You alright?

It's a lot.

Yeah.

Paul has worked
a miracle for this family,

And no one is saying otherwise,
it's just--

Just everyone's moving on...

And grace isn't.

Get it out.

Come on, it's me.

It's just everything's
moving so fast, you know?

And it's hardly been a year.

When grace first left,

I'm ashamed to admit
I was relieved

But now it's like it
never stops in my head...

That could any of us
have helped her?

You were a good sister.

Today's your day
to be a good daughter.

I hate you.

I hate you more.

Come on.

We were hoping grace
would be here,

That we'd see her today.

She responded to our
summons a few days ago.

I believe she
returned to london.

She left without even seeing us.

I need your
signatures here please.

Perverting the course of justice

Is a serious offence.

You're lucky the dpp is letting
you away with a caution.

What'll happen to elaine?

That'll be up to a judge.

I really don't wanna see you
or your family in here again.

Just checking, are you okay?

Yeah.

I hope this isn't
all too much for you?

Like, maybe we
should have just had

Own ceremony,
just the two of us.

No, I want to be here,

Where I can feel grace.

You know you can
slip away anytime.

I'll pick up the slack.

The truth is,

I can't believe this is
happening to me,

That you happen to me.

That's a two-way street, mrs.

I love you, paul madigan.

I think you might
have saved my life.

Now, steady on.

Hey joe.

Haven't seen you in a while.

Yeah, well, I was on leave

From the job, so,

Back in action now.

Life goes on.

Joe, I have to ask.

Now that we've all
had some time to think--

Jenny, don't.

Do you really believe
that it was an accident?

That's what the report said.

Yeah, but d'you think
that she might have been in

Some kind of a trouble that
we didn't know about or...

She'd erm, cut herself off

From her entire family,
from everything she knew.

I'd say that's
trouble enough for anyone.

Wouldn't you?

D'you mind.

I saw you peeling off.

You know, when grace told
me everything, I had no choice,

Jacob.

Can you get that?

It's my job.

They have to give a prison
sentence for man slaughter but,

You know,
really it was for the cover-up.

Mum wanted to tell the truth

About everything.

It was val who stopped her.

She was trying to protect you.

To protect calum.

They both were in their own way.

How is your mam anyway?

She'll be out soon.

We write, like, proper
paper letters.

It's weird.

How does she sound
in her letters?

Angry.

Honestly, I never thought that
val would be able to top denis.

But you'll fill
his shoes nicely.

I wouldn't say that would be my
main intention in life, caro.

I would like to talk
about a honeymoon

Or the lack of one.

And I told you, mair, we will,
when the time is right.

I was thinking rome, maybe.

Then head down the amalfi coast.

Have you been paul?

I worked in rome for two years.

There

You have an insider's tour.

What's the next step, val?

Get you out of the house.

We never had a hen night.

I'll tell you what we do,

We have a girls night,
in the hotel.

- How does that sound?
- I'm in.

A, you'll be back in Spain,
by then.

I can stay on for a hooley.

Just let me think about it.

There's no need to think.

It's already done.

So...

You gonna talk to mum
when she gets out?

Let's not start all that.

I never want to see her again
and that's the end of it.

Calum.

I wish she was dead.

Is that plain enough for you?

C'mon,

Let's have at least one day
together without all that.

So, who's she, anyone I know?

Actually,
you'll see her in a bit,

She's on her way.

I know--

I know this is usually the groom

But let's just put it down
to my control issues.

I wasn't exactly
looking for a husband

When I met paul on a hill walk,
of all things.

And I--

I didn't mean to start
talking about grace...

Just happened.

And then when paul told me
about the losses in his life,

I thought,

Here is someone who understands.

I put everything on his
shoulders and he didn't buckle.

So this bride would
like to toast her groom...

For helping
my family by helping me...

For your kindness
and your strength...

And for helping me understand
that there are things in life

You can't control...

No matter
how hard you might wish.

So-- could we
all just raise our glasses,

Please, to paul,
my wonderful husband.

to paul.

I erm---

Well, I doubt I'm so wonderful,

But I am lucky and fortunate.

It feels so right to end
up here, in county clare,

Where my mother was born.

But to end up here with val...

Well, someone up there likes me,

And I doubt there's a happier
man on the planet,

Right this moment.

So, to my lovely wife, val.

to val.

- To val.
- To val.

They let me out a week early

To-- avoid the press.

Well, there was a--

There was a lot
of interest once--

Once grace opened up
the skeleton closet.

I'm glad you're out elaine.

I just don't think today is--

I can take jacob
to you tomorrow.

No, I told her to come.

If mum has to go,
I'm going with her.

No, there is no need for that.

You know what you're--
you're welcome to stay elaine.

If you feel comfortable.

Thank you.

I brought my own drink.

So nothing
could be slipped in it.

Keep your eye on your glass
when anna's around paul.

Keep your eye on everything

Around this family if you know
what's good for you.

Elaine, I know
there's a lot of history

Between you, val,
and the family.

But this is my wedding day, too.

And you're as welcome
as any guest here,

Until you're not.

And that part of the equation
is entirely up to you.

Do we understand one another?

go and see your brother.

I'm val's mother,

And I won't let anyone
spoil her special day.

D'you follow me?

Well, val's mother can get
me a nice big plate of food.

Her daughter owes me that much,
at least.

Calum, please, please.

You just couldn't help herself,
could you?

With this big grand entrance.

I want her here calum.

She's your mother.

You don't have
to be such a dick.

It's okay, it's okay, jacob.

- It's okay.
- No, it's not.

This stupid wedding.

Everyone's pretending
like shit didn't happen.

Things will settle
down after a while.

Does that mean
you're staying then?

Where else would I be.

I used my savings to keep
the cottage on and, you know,

Somebody, somewhere
will give me a job, surely.

Maybe.

We should do this.

Do what?

Get married.

Is that what
you're calling a proposal?

Yeah, I'm down on one knee.

We fight like
cats and dogs anyway.

We might as well be married.

yeah, erm,
can we just get through

One wedding at a time
before I give you an answer?

Give me one good
reason why we shouldn't?

Well--

A lot of people around here
would actually be thinking

I'd be marrying my brother.

Except for that reason.

Yeah.

It was--

It was big of ya to invite me,

All things considered.

No one blames
you for anything, joe.

How's cathy and noah?

He's-- he's fine, I think.

He sleeps with
the mini hurl I got him.

I see him every
weekend up in galway.

Cathy's met someone new.

She's-- happy for her.

We were never a match, really.

No.

You and grace were the match.

You know, I tried
to grab my chance with grace.

Came right out and said it,

Told her I'd
never stopped loving her.

When was this?

Did you see her donegal?

No, the night
of the café lunch, I...

Shocked her.

Shocked myself, to be honest.

I think it was one
of the reasons she left.

Well, maybe you are being
honest with her made her want

To be open and honest
about her own family, too.

Look where that got her.

Elaine will be
on strict probation,

She probably
shouldn't even be here.

Jacob told me she's angry.

If she gives you any trouble...

You call me.

I don't wanna hear it.

It's just that jacob told me
you got the photography course

In dublin and,
you're so talented.

I mean, your father
would be so proud of you.

Can I say I'm proud?

You said it,

We're done.

I don't wanna listen
to any more of your lies.

- Get out of my room.
- Calum--

You looked me in the eyes

When I told you I thought my
dad hadn't killed denis.

Yeah, I know,

And I regret that, I really do.

You're a coward and a liar,

And you killed a man.

Well, I'm not the only one
who was involved in a cover-up.

Calum, this whole family
were up to their necks in it.

Why d'you think I never
want to come back here?

Well good, you should stay away

Because the ahern family,
they are poisonous,

Especially val.

And you keep as far away
from her as possible.

You leave her to me.

What d'you mean by that?

She gets away with everything,

You know that can't be right,

It can't be fair.

Calum, let me just say this...

I can't change the past,
but I have paid the price.

You're my son,

And if one day
you decide to move on

From this sulky,
put upon, teenage routine,

I will be there for you,
if you need me.

I was hoping for a dance
with my favourite uncle.

Yeah, I had a,
a few calls to make,

I couldn't hear myself inside.

Finn asked me
to marry him earlier.

Ha, wow!

Well, that's great, isn't it?

I love him,
there's no doubt about it

And nell thinks he's her dad.

I hear a "but" coming.

It's just,
how do you know, you know?

Like, how d'you know
that this is the person

That you want to spend
the rest of your life with?

Maybe you don't know,
for sure, at the beginning

And maybe you just--

You take the plunge and...

The knowing for sure
comes with time.

Don't let finn slip
through your fingers.

You might regret it
for the rest of your life.

In those days, it was
really something special.

Only the prettiest girls
were picked by aer lingus.

I was promoted to first
class on the boston route.

Movie stars, the kennedys,

You name it.

Nowadays, they're
called cabin attendants.

Little more than being
a waitress in a café.

Then I'd come home
and val would slip on

My high heels
and walk around the house

Wearing my uniform jacket

Which trailed behind her
on the floor.

When you'd come home.

I told my girls over
and over again.

Mammy has to find a man.

And you found plenty of them.

I just need to step out
for some fresh air.

You know val...

Every visiting day,
I waited for you come.

At the very least
to bring jacob to see me.

I'd just lost my daughter,
elaine, erm--

I lost my sons,

My job, my freedom

Because of your daughter.

I'm sorry, elaine.

I don't regret killing denis,
you know, I'd do it again

But d'you know what
I do regret val?

I regret telling you.

Okay, let's just
be very clear here.

You told me after
I'd found you out.

You used me
and then you used rory.

I understand that you
feel we got off lightly,

But let's not forget
you killed a man, elaine.

Who was using me, too.

I think prison
has messed with your--

Your head elaine.

It's the place
your daughter put me.

And now you know
what it's like to lose

What you love most in the world,

And I am sorry for your grief.

But I am not
sorry for your pain.

I want to see you
lose everything,

Everyone.

I want you to end up
just like me, val.

Why would she put
herself through this?

You lot ever saw the elaine
I saw in the early days.

Rory said it was like
jekyll and hyde when she drank.

It's water, if you wanna check.

Why would I want to do that?

Why would I want
anything to do with you?

Look, there was a time
you had plenty to do with me.

Like the time you almost
killed jacob and calum,

And I can't be the only one
who has trouble sleeping.

What possessed you
to turn up here today?

You know, at least grace
had the decency to apologise.

You saw her?

Right well,
obviously she didn't wanna

Go anywhere near her own family.

But, yeah, she came to see me

After she signed the caution.

No, that's not true,

She went straight that
holistic retreat in donegal.

She dropped by me on the way,
why would lie?

Alright, well if she did
apologise to you

Then what did you say?

I told her to fuck right off.

What do you think I said?

Elaine's gone.

You know she said that
grace came to see her

Before she went to donegal.

But we'd know.

Not if grace didn't want us to,
I suppose.

Something doesn't feel right.

- Thank you so much for coming.
- Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you so much for coming,
been lovely to see you.

Well, you held up, didn't you?

You said you would, and you did.

Looks like I married a trooper.

Yeah, well right now I just
wanna troop straight into bed.

Can we leave the fireworks
for another night.

- Yeah, of course.
- You sure?

Of course.

Your sister looks happy.

I hope so.

She deserves a bit of happiness.

Are you close?

You know how the song goes.

Lord help the mister...

Who comes between me
and my sister.

yeah.

Well, I don't
think you'll get any trouble

From paul on that front.

No, he's great.

I'm heading up
the coast for a few days...

But I could drop in and say
goodbye before I leave.

That'd be nice.

See you then.

Alrighty.

Don't make me choose again mum,

Please.

You've been hurt enough.

I promise there'll
be no more tug-of-war.

I love you both.

Can you understand that?

I do, I do understand that.

I won't pretend I
wasn't a bit relieved

When she was out
of the picture this last year.

We grew so close again.

The way we used to be.

But I trust
that you love us both.

Because you're
the kinda young man

That has that much love to give.

You need two mothers to carry
all the pride we have in you.

I know, I know, never the hair.

Where are you going?

Just a breath of air

Now that we've cleared
the air between us.

Hey, wakey, wakey.

Grace.

No!

grace.

God.

Jesus.

It's okay, it's alright.

How could I
have missed her calls?

I've got you.

If I had just answered my phone.

We've been
through this now, c'mon.

Every night,

Every night I see grace and I--

I see the water closing
over her and just...

I just try, I try to get to her,

- And I just can't.
- Listen, you,

You've got to stop
torturing yourself like this.

Yeah, but did she
let the water take her?

Is that what she wanted?

- Come on now.
- No, I don't want any.

You have to sleep,

Come on, give me your hand.

Grace.

gracie.

Come here.

I just I want my baby, paul.

I just want my baby.

I-- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Yeah, yeah,
you don't need to be sorry.

We scratched each other's itch.

That's how it
has to be sometimes.

It's no big deal.

I'm-- I'm gonna go.

You thinking about grace?

You know, she flew in from
london the garda caution

And then went to donegal
without a word to us.

She was at the retreat
for a reason, jen.

She wanted isolation.

Yeah but elaine said
that she stopped off

On the way to apologise.

Maybe she had meant to see you.

But then elaine
rejecting her apology.

Is that what's bothering you?

That she went to donegal
with the rejection

Playing on her mind.

Well, you'd be
a fool not to consider it.

But what if elaine
followed grace to donegal?

You'd be a fool not
to consider that, too.

I'm sorry, I gave you
another night from hell.

Stop.

You know,
people think I got married

So fast to get over my grief.

It's not like that.

Sure, who cares
what people think.

They don't understand, paul.

They don't know
about the hours in the dark,

When there's nobody else
there to...

To take a bit of it off
your shoulders.

And that's what you've given me.

Thank you, paul.

I mean it.

Well,
the clean-ups well underway.

Why don't you go back to sleep,

And I'll bring you
some food in a while.

Stay a bit, please.

Calum, just a couple more days.

I'm sorry, mum.

I just can't hack
the idea of bumping

Into her on the street
or something.

Nothing more I can say?

Nothing.

You and jacob can
visit me in dublin instead.

Come on, I gotta catch this bus.

Just be careful
with elaine, mum.

She blames val for everything.

There's gonna be trouble.

fuck.

Bath is nearly run, love.

Is mairead here?

She doesn't think we're going
on a walk today, does she?

Would you mind walking
with me instead today?

Of course not.

I promise I will have a word

With the family
about boundaries.

Okay.
I didn't wanna say.

- that bear's got.
- and me tuck you in.

- And you tuck it, yeah.
- Time for the beach.

No, tell me I didn't promise?

Yep, this was the trade-off

For her not coming
to the wedding.

How about we have
pancakes instead?

And you can have as much
syrup as you want.

Then we can curl up
and we can watch "frozen 2",

Again, and I'll even sing along.

No, that was not the deal.

And mummy will
come along too, right?

Fine.

But I need breakfast first.

With the mother of all carbs.

Thought I heard someone.

hey, paul I didn't
want to bother anyone.

I just had to pick-up this file.

Yeah, what's that?

It's something
I'm working on for val.

Would you mind waiting
till val's here herself.

It's no big deal but, you know,
everyone comes in and out,

You know,
taking this and that and I'm

Just afraid that val's
gonna lose track of things.

D-, d'you mind me saying that?

Yeah, no, no look, hey
don't mind you saying that all.

No disrespect intended.

No, no, I mean,
right back at you.

Also erm,
this is really awkward, but

Have you ever told her?

Told who, what?

Val, that you're
in love with her.

Erm, paul you,
you've got this wrong.

I mean val is like my sister.

I mean, maybe,
that's how it was once

But it's,
it's kinda my job to see

Past the fronts
that we all put up.

You've got this wrong.

Look, we can both keep
this a secret,

And nothing has to change
between you and me

Or you and val for that matter.

Yeah, but the thing is,
like, you've said it now.

I mean even though this
is in your imagination but it,

It's always gonna be
there behind everything.

Look, alright, I'll erm, I'll
do my best to, to stay away.

I just want what's
best for val, for both of you.

Jesus christ, mam!

Jesus!

I was the best mother I
knew how to be and that's

As much of an apology
as you're getting.

I never asked for any apology.

Can I please just
have my bath in peace now?

There's nothing wrong
with putting up a front.

Just you'll
surprise yourself one day,

With a genuine laugh
out it'll pop,

And you'll wonder where
the hell did that come from.

What are you on about?

There was a baby boy
between you and mairead.

He lived for two hours
and twenty-three minutes.

Does mairead know?

She was a toddler,

I barely discussed it
with your father.

He was at the bookies
when my waters broke.

Went to the hospital on my own,

I came home on my own
with my hands empty.

Why did you never say?

That was my pain,

And now you have yours,

And I swear to christ
I'd beat satan back

With my two fists
if I could take it from you.

Thanks, mam.

So, how's your first day
as a married man coming along?

pretty good, actually.

I didn't ever
think it would really happen.

You didn't?

Well, you told me it wasn't
that serious.

It's more of
a friendship, remember?

No I don't
remember that conversation.

It's done now, so.

Yeah, yeah it is.

And you're happy?

Well, are you?

I'm not gonna even
dignify that with a response.

Come on.

Let's get that walk in.

Mum, any chance
of a lift to elaine's?

er, sure.

- hey!
- no!

Ready, you're gonna lift.

Gonna help me lift, ooh!

- yay!
- yay!

look!

See you later, love.

Bye.

- hey, love.
- hi.

- how are you.
- good.

Give us a hug.

D'you wanna come in?

alright, mate.

finn, come on.

hey!

What's wrong?

hey baby girl.

aww.

Hey.

- it's okay.
- hello.

aww. Hey, how are you?

listen, I know you're
probably thinking

We can't even go to the beach.

I'm not thinking that at all.

I mean it's hardly a big place,
you know.

Yeah, well I also know
that everyone coming in and out

Of the house takes
some getting used to.

But I will have words,
several words.

some time together at
the start would be good.

But, quite honestly, I knew
what I was getting myself into.

You were up front
from the beginning

You come with your family.

It's a package deal.

Well in that case,
I'm gonna have to come clean.

Erm.

What?

Mam wants to stay on
for a few weeks.

Is that okay with you?

Of course, she's your mother,
what's one more.

Anna, you mean.

Look the whole family can stay,
as far as I'm concerned.

What you want is
all that matters to me.

Yeah.

So, would you
wanna talk about it?

Prison.

No, I don't.

So erm, how are things with you?

What's been happening?

I got a job at the coast hotel,
a manager.

But we're still
staying in the house.

It's better for jacob.

The staff quarters
aren't exactly child friendly.

He could always stay here.

I promised jacob we wouldn't go
down that road again, elaine.

I didn't promise anything.

Well let's not in any case.

Can we just try and get on.

yeah, that's--
that's what I want too

And thank you that means a lot.

What means a lot?

it's great news jacob.

Anna's offered me
a job at the hotel.

That's great.

jacob's with elaine?

She used him to trick
me into finding her a job.

She's back one day and already
she's causing chaos.

Well can we keep
it out of this house, please?

It comes with the territory
paul, better get used to it.

Good to know.

did you find it?

Yeah, got it jacob.

grace!

♪ and if I see a sign
in the sky tonight ♪

♪ no one's gonna tell me
it's a trick of the light ♪

♪ may never come but I'm
willing to wait ♪

♪ what can I say?
I'm a man of the faith ♪

♪ and there's an ocean
in my body ♪

♪ and there's a river
in my soul ♪

♪ and I'm crying ♪

♪ and we carry the sun ♪