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Do you believe i only ask those questions that have

been reviewed their.

Did stark whether threatened to kill your family

feud in accompany him in january of fifty eight or.

Regarding stark weather's crime spree to you

believe your family would be killed if you didn't

accompany him for.

This test is over remain still for ten seconds place.

That was terrible thing are happening leg up her

hands down and how on earth and or as a going on her mouth.

It was the first of its kind of these rebels lot of

cause killing people for no reason.

You could feel the fear just on the tv itself.

Charlie stark where they saw himself as james dean.

I think.

Carol always wanted to be somebody.

She went on to be a star.

I got oh wow bashir hard like a broad.

I see really a scared little girl.

The only two people who witnessed what went on or

charles start with her and carol female and

everybody else is them.

Was nearly thirty minutes tops the l our carol feel

get was released on parole yesterday after serving

eighteen years of a life sentence for murder was gonna.

Get had accompanied last killer charles stuck

weather on a letter rampage.

Some years ago she was held in a state prison in

nebraska under terms of overall.

She'll be able to start a new life and clinton county michigan.

As she wants now is to live quietly to get married and

have a family.

An ordinary of swine i work at a time it.

Carol wanted to live a different life a normal life.

Everyone's really enjoy will live life here and she

was doing it.

All started.

A little future i don't think you'd find a better

place is a.

After she got out of prison carroll was the hospital

orderly the michigan.

She left kind of a secluded life working at a hospital.

She got along well with everybody.

You get plans believe year and cause some resentment

what it seems to be directed more against news.

Newsman are revealing those plans men against carol

for making them.

I put an ad in the paper.

I was looking for a nanny someone to come and evenings

and watch two girls.

And carol answered the ad.

She says i'm carol feel gate and i would like to meet

your girls when i tell my mother might have dropped

fall on.

I mean it got.

My mom my high heels this little their she's like oh my

god don't you know who that is.

Just kind of through charles dark weather's name out

there and i'm thank them all.

No no way.

No way.

By late july thirtieth and were secretly playing

carols birthday.

She comes.

Birthday.

Ah.

Okay.

I.

I got.

That's the way.

We didn't even tell most of the family for a while

because we know they would have said are you crazy.

I think you've gotta be insane but you know why.

Everybody deserves a second chance i.

Finish rose thousand prize.

Oh.

The name.

Right now.

She was on our forties when she started she would come

right from the hospital where she worked.

She had so much energy.

When she was in prison she missed out on a lot.

She was like trying to do things that you know she

would have loved to have that opportunity to do.

She taught her to ride a bike.

Water balloon fights.

He invited are all our birthday parties.

I mean i just felt like she was like a best friend to me

and i was decker hi yeah.

That pounds count nanny oh hey my favorite.

One thing i was gonna.

Carroll is she loved children.

But she didn't want to bring children into this world

herself because they're still were stories about girl.

If she had children they would have to live with his legacy.

She never told me details of like being with him but

she wanted to share a lot as i grew older and i found out

more about your past.

She was fourteen and.

He forced her to go with him.

She was kidnapped.

She was taken.

Now my granddaughter's thirteen fourteen.

Right.

Once the media realize where she was living out.

I can't tell you how many people have wanted to talk to

her or get her story.

She got off of work one time in the a local media are

caught her in a parking lot both lights on or start questioner.

She went in to up a panic mode.

Because.

She wanted to forget all that stuff.

There was something about that case because for some

reason is captured take people's imagination.

Seems like about once every three months or so there

was a segment on charlie and carol.

People just treated her horrible the hospital bring

whispering and making comments.

There were certain people that would refuse to get an

elevator with her.

This story just kept coming up and kept coming up and

kept being pulled over over even just imagine.

What would be like having gone through such a

horrible traumatic event and a nobody believes you

and be they're saying that you're guilty.

The you are one of the reasons why all of this horrible

stuff happened.

I think she's guilty.

I'm pretty convinced that she is guilty think she's

gilding for them to go.

There.

She was right or where they will ensure that i think

carroll has always been concerned about the

narrative as going to last long beyond her.

She wanted people to believe her that when she was

saying was the truth and so she wanted at least the

facts to come out and for people to see what really the

truth was.

I'm actually bailey your a host on lie detector is you

been falsely accused would like to take a lie

detector test.

The national television call me on our hotline.

One eight hundred light as.

F lee bailey had sir this show and was she invited

people who thought they had been wrongly convicted

to come on line detector test.

Carol had refused many many many interviews she

thought if she could pass this lie detector test.

It would actually show the world that she was

innocent and give her credibility.

She decided to go on sort of this truth tour if you well

trying publicly to show everybody look.

I'm innocent.

I didn't do these things that you think that i did.

With almost half her a life spent behind bars.

Carol few gate wants to prove once and for all that she

was not charles.

Start weather is willing accomplice a lot of roster

killings but instead of frighten them threatened

hostage carol.

You are presenting us with them extremely difficult

issue allegra let me explain to your we're willing to try.

To develop the fact that you believe.

Or did believe you know of course know much better at

the time that you went with it.

That your parents were still alive number one what

you had nothing to do with their death number two and

number three if it hadn't been for his threat to kill them.

You would have somehow escaped disassociated do.

So right absolutely will take a crack at whether or

not you know your parents were dead when you went off

on the strip.

Did stark the threatened to kill your family if you

didn't accompany him in january of fifty eight and.

Did you know your family had already been killed when

charles asked you to go with him in january of fifty

eight well.

Carol leisure truly subtle charts as you can see

we're getting no reaction whatsoever in the

galvanic skin response notice the cardio better

nothing at all.

They're based on all of these charts that we conducted.

During this examination.

It appears to me that you didn't know your.

Parents had been killed when you started off with

stark whether i want to tell you can't.

I'm pretty convinced that there is enough are.

I think to say that that probably is what happened.

This i'm a programmer will be back later for the.

Ten carol hugo was convicted as dark whether his

accomplice during an appearance on f lee bailey's

syndicated lie detector program few gates said she was.

I help us hostage who did not know her family was dead

from the start.

The polygraph agree hi to kind of right i going to

can't see or ah calm.

The reason i asked to come was because he had been many

phone calls me to place my employment.

As far as going on lie detector test.

I feel that town.

The injustice that was done to me twenty five years

ago has been rectified.

I feel personally and i have been vindicated.

At that time i said sunday you're going to find out

that to made a mistake.

And i feel with the help of lie detector that this has

been printed.

A hard decision to go on something like that.

And had been in the news recently you have handed him

the news.

This is what this is basically what prompted it ah.

You know.

I had eluded by yeah medium and i had refused to talk

show and and this thing i'm sorry.

It's because see.

I know.

I know where the press can do.

How do you personally feel.

I feel free i feel free.

I really do i.

I was san fran physically back why can't my what it's like.

To know that you're you're a president in history and

everyone hates you do you hate you.

And nine.

Nothing you weren't down and to have the hate and the

malicious nes.

And.

It's it's like banning the iron grip.

At his home and like and retired police detective bob

it he disagrees with a sympathetic portrayal of few

gate as are frightened the innocent hostage.

Only time she put on an oscar winning performance was

in douglas wyoming when she knew the gig was up and she

broke and right and for the deputy sheriff there.

Before that she was high on the hog she was doing good

you know it was bonnie and clyde all over again hi valerie.

His car.

There are really strong correlations to be drawn

between bonnie parker and curfew few games.

They were both from the west and the midwest of america.

So strongly a part of the american identity.

This story was typically portrayed as a nineteen

fifties version of the bonnie and clyde story.

This is a very different story.

This isn't a legend.

This isn't romance this was horror.

This was terror.

It would have been a different story if charles dark

whether had acted alone.

But it's not a good story unless they are lovers.

Cool are so committed to individualism.

And freedom.

And just doing whatever the fuck they want where that.

Americans love that.

Jack.

The bridge well my belief any.

Time.

Those characteristics have to be part of the story

that gets told about carol few game otherwise it's

not appealing.

Nobody really wants to know about a fourteen year old

girl being raped and forced to partake in a murder

spree that's a horrible story.

The.

There's a french term folio do with to people who

might not commit crimes separately but when they

come in contact with each other.

They become sort of this one entity and do things that

they would never normally do and i think that's

probably true said.

I don't care.

He killed me.

I swear with god as my witness hillary's no details

for you.

I do enough research did i do feel like.

I know the characters and i know the story read to

three books films and documentaries and i try to be

respectful for perhaps the victims.

I figure if you've been convicted of your crimes than

you've no longer really deserve respect.

Narrative can be so powerful and making his think we

understand reality clearly.

Carolyn libyan sign and we talked to my stepdad and

had the flu having an over actress play.

Characters inspired by current if you get in his

films makes her seem more guilty.

These people true crime as a genre shows us the dark

side of who we are you have a story with multiple

murders quite shocking rather cinematic figures in

charles and carol that have been duplicated on a

fictional level multiple times.

It's a fascination for the public but car was a

different story and that to me was what was truly fascinating.

In college i was a huge bruce springsteen.

And one of my favorite albums was nebraska.

In the first track was all about trust dark whether

carolyn few good.

So many years past i ended up at a show called a current affair.

I started digging and i found out the carolyn few gate

is alive and well and lansing michigan.

And i tracked her down.

And my first show ever produced was a show about the

stark where the murders.

This was carolan few gate age fourteen thirteen

years ago and this is carol anne.

Today.

I mean an entire state was terrified.

But my god.

He had me is clutches.

When we were out there.

She was in good spirits and we walked around town and

we saw her house.

I remember she had this parakeet that she was quite

close to an affectionate towards.

She was quite worried about how people were going to

perceive her how what are spin was gonna be.

But i think she really wanted to get things off her

chest about this experience from her life.

He had not been properly exercised.

I was not a bonnie and clyde having fun as it was depicted.

His words were to me.

If i can have you.

I'm going to make sure that no man ever has.

And that's one prophecy that he is seem to.

While she had built this quite.

Solid life for herself over the years since the incident.

It was all still right there on the surface.

I feel cheated.

I felt cheated let's see.

I'm not gonna.

I'm not going to let the little bring rage monster

destroyed in a what.

I have left of my life.

I'm not going to do it.

Among the story that surfaced over the next three

decades was one which claimed that carol calmly

watch television while start whether murdered her family.

I sit watch television.

While he rammed the got down my sister's throat.

And i'm going up what it is and how do they have the right.

To put the other night is that abrupt would not.

Not.

Oh boy.

The age.

She was discouraged that she wasn't getting fruit

people but she kept try.

She wouldn't accept that they wouldn't change their

minds about her.

It is emotional for me that people have always been so

mean and hateful for decades.

I feel like she tried to prove or innocence.

Then they car with a movie or something.

It would resurface every so many years of seems like

on i'll be brought up again and she would just kind of

oh here we go again.

The deadly woman you voted number.

Nine has entered american folklore as are most

famous case obtain rebellion gone wrong.

There's the world's most infamous serial killers.

It.

Her name was carol him feel good.

The off the charts popularity of true crime speaks to

our beer that's very real in some ways.

Here is a genre that narrates the dark sides of our

lives that allows us to make sense of the senseless.

There's no other genre that does that he discovered janice.

At the bottom of the stairs.

There were two victims and three more women were missing.

The pocket book was found right near where the

another murder woman had been found.

For women we see ourselves in true crime for better or

for worse.

I can't read out right now but nobody there.

We get to hear about domestic violence and sexual

assault that many of us experience.

And for centuries we've been told fall in your head.

It's not that bad.

Then she disappear true crime for women is a kind of a

collective what of fuck what is actually happening

that we are murdered raped abducted tortured thrown

away in ditches buried in shallow graves en masse in

this country me or not imagining it.

I was in my late forties when my rose colored glasses

literally fell off.

When i was practicing law my boss he was sexually

obsessed with me and if he couldn't get me he was going

to ruin my career and he dead.

I that a complete breakdown over that.

I was pretty vulnerable.

And really that's how our true me in to carols story.

I felt when he felt like and the helplessness and then

to read and the darkness you've gotta live with.

That's when it hit me.

I have to sell her innocence and i'm going to use my

legal skills to shower.

I never looked back.

Something inside me was and keep going keep going

keep going you've.

Gotta write this block.

I had to be very consistent with what i was riding.

I wanted the speed the complete truth of what happened.

It was very indepth analysis of both trials.

And carol called me.

She called me and my office.

I close the door we're on the phone for over two hours.

I told her maybe one day we could get your pardon.

And because not first one.

I want the book to do.

I want that black to convince one person who thought i

was guilty that i'm innocent.

Just one person and that book will be a success.

My eyes.

When i was a child i just never sleep.

I couldn't federal and i still can't.

When i was five be had grandparents' day at school and

i wondered where my father's parents were.

And my parents told me that they had died in their sleep.

So i was afraid to sleep.

Eventually they told me that my grandparents were

killed by a very bad man.

Asked his name and i knew that his name a start by there.

I hadn't really heard anything about carol few game.

Her story was something i dug out of little bit self

television shows or movies.

I found a bug in a library card start by.

And i read it over and over again.

And there she was.

Carroll was the last person to see my grandparents

lived and i feel like if i looked in her eyes.

I get tell whether she was culpa wall and see and shoot

the past.

My god has trouble thinking tail.

And night as a long.

Pizza time.

Okay.

It was a murder sprees straight from the heart like

and america would soon come face to face with to of.

It's own children.

Jarred stock weather and carolan few.

Girl few gate agreed to be interviewed for this

program where he told me was that.

If i did not do as he said then he would make one phone

call and they would be dead.

She them as to tell her story under hypnosis.

Now carol says i wanted to know the truth for myself.

I wondered you know if maybe there was some repressed

memory that was rendered big thing at that time.

And she says if i find out that idea of something.

I'll kill myself.

Are you.

Woohoo.

Psychiatrists said carol you'd have nothing to

worry about you've been telling the truth.

She says james i had a bunch of copies of recording made.

And i sent him to everybody involved.

The johnny tourney the judges in the police.

I'm asking for understanding dennis packet everything.

I'm in san is going here.

I think it's something that the public deserves to

see and hear.

She got a lincoln nebraska found buck and went down

the found block and started randomly sending them to

anybody who ever she gotten.

The found but.

I know that cost quite a stir.

I think maybe.

It's time that we let's start with or die in bury him

and let me get on with my life.

Right.

Mac version was.

Join.

When i gonna tell a in the early nineties i had brought

this project to a b c had never really pitched

anything before and i literally spoke about the

entire story to this particular executive and the

project was bought in the room became a for our ministers.

Iraq speeding sound about how we had a norm summer research.

We do take a stance of of just tackling.

It had on almost as a documentary in some respects.

We were able to pre merge copy costumes down to the socks.

I'd large and asked me to be the technical adviser on

the film.

I got carol on the phone out.

She seemed to be relieved.

I was there on the set every day working with the director.

Specifically to make sure every last inch about many

serious was truthful.

What has happened here is we have now left nineteen fifty.

Seven yes.

We are moving up to nineteen twenty eight so i'm

changing office lies and play tonight yeah.

There was no reason to huge creative liberties

because so.

Truth is stranger than fiction.

Stark where the story change something along the

lines of eight nine times by the time he was put to death.

But carol story remain the same to this day.

All of these years later.

It's never changed.

Didn't you go out with charlie stark weather for

quite awhile.

Yes i know him the year before and then.

I told him.

I am i going to see any game.

Right in it.

This crazy.

It was important that we laid the facts out and let the

audience have this experience for themselves.

Some reviews were off the charts good.

But them a critic for the washington post described

it is violence porn.

He accused us of turning trolley stark whether into a

folk hero.

And the next thing you know stock when it became the

poster boy for violence on television.

We had a firestorm controversy.

There have been thousands of studies of television

violence or most come to the same conclusion.

It's a violence on a small screen does have a big

impact on violence on the streets as senate

subcommittee mates today to listen of complaints

about excessive violence and television

programming murder in the heartland.

Washington post reports that a eight eighteen year

old canadian sought and repeated the murders in the

same way that he saw on that movie.

The charge was led by paul simon.

He was a very theatrical guy would bow tie so it was

great v eight or for him.

This is a serious problem in the minds of those of us income.

A b c surrendered immediately you know the yeah

there's been some comment about murder and

heartland and we we tried him that when are we try to do

the best job we got.

I we thought was a good idea of easily at the time but i

would certainly hope that by next may that we would

have less violence and i'm a sweeps.

I mean.

They basically just went on their knees and beg for forgiveness.

While the advertisers dropped out.

And a b c had to run for hours of hemorrhoid

commercials to fill in the space preparation.

H actually helped shrink swelling of hammer what'll

tissues caused by inflammation.

I'll try it there are people who felt we shouldn't

have told a story because we kept it alive and they

didn't want.

It kept alive.

They wanted buried.

They didn't want to talk about and they never wanted

to hear about it again.

We had real problems coming from lincoln nebraska

over it.

Yeah.

I.

I'm john stevens bearing reminder know a torch burns.

The flame endures the human spirit will prevail.

In the nineties carol few gates pardon was in the news

so i invited him macarthur on the show.

I said let's talk about the pardon hearing.

My.

God no.

Of course steve is known this case with very

beginning and i told him before he started.

I said you've entered find even now unnecessary five

years after the incident when i said you're going to

find a lot of pent up anger at carol gargling gurgling

for college on there is no.

Court.

Hi.

We were talking along there and got one call.

Giraffe uk just call it so course.

She put her through right away now that took me by

surprise as she would do that whatever the boy.

How around and.

I hadn't expected to have her on.

And i was startled our on your dog that guy look a bar or

the we're going over.

Ha.

Ha ha i'm.

Wrong.

One of the lie.

Wow.

Barack.

Even are gonna be gone wrong a terrible over the hair

so we ran through commercials and we ran through a

sports show that was supposed to follow k.

Of talk.

So.

There were so many calls of people who supported her.

Look at all.

While the.

Lol of a lot.

Of the game.

Allow.

Oh.

Long.

Around.

I'm wrong.

The most satisfying moment when you can bring the

truth to light.

And heard was the truth.

Different people calling from different places

witnesses for carol.

Who got to speak out.

One.

Olive oil.

People use the metaphor of a blade of grass growing

through concrete.

Sometimes that will happen and the blade of grass

which was the truth emerged and i was shaken.

In that regard vulnerable and way oh my god.

Don't new your over there.

The might be two sides.

Don't get up a them what caused by or somebody else.

It changed my life.

At the moment.

Of that radio show i began wondering what i could do to

right that wrong to bring justice.

I remember being so excited tell me that she met him at

the casino.

They just hit it off and she was just just like a young

girl in i'll and love.

Carol and freddie there was one of the happiest times

of her life.

My dad though.

Ask all my brothers and me to gather he said he was

going to get married but there was a story had to tell.

And carroll was there.

And i said what your care of few gay you are involved in

in nebraska murders but charles stark weather.

I was hard for an even talk about because she didn't

know how we were gonna react and trust me every word

and ever came out of her mouth.

I question.

I got on the computer and start digging everything out.

Price to have two three four o'clock in the morning

google and and i must.

I went through five hundred pages of google searches

to find everything.

I think and wow that's my dad getting into.

They seem to be good for one another and you know.

I accepted it.

My dad had a camper and they went all over the united

states together.

After so many years she's had somebody to pamper her

and care for her because she's never been cared for.

There's no doubt my mind that was the best years of her life.

But it didn't last.

They are going to the gambling casino up in michigan

to battle creek.

And they were gone seventy nine miles an hour when my

dad fell point.

And he had a mile marker.

And it flip the truck over in mid air.

It came down and smash the top.

Carol broke a lot of bombs in their one leg and her rest

in her arm seven ribs.

She broke but.

Miraculously she survived.

But dumb my dad didn't make it.

The accident and the headlines were just i just

couldn't believe it.

When i went to the hospital local news was there is

that are you tommy claire it carol cure your dad that

was the first words out of their mouth.

You wanna see me get angry and mad so few cuss words.

I did.

And then i remember seeing comments these

commenters like her horrific.

Just as she should have she should have been murdered

she should have died.

She should have gathered.

I found the not.

I wonder what partially played in this was she driving.

Do you think she grabbed the steering wheel why would

people even think this just hate.

We cleaned up the house and got it all nice and put new

carpet in what's new furniture try to make it or house

you know and.

We found pictures of my dad we put a mop and stuff and

she just break down and cry.

She lost him then she had a stroke we want to see her

month three years.

The golf was the shit writing ama chart lord to us.

She's just in huge state of depression.

She said to me.

I don't know why.

God didn't let me die them and assists i always tower

is not your time to die.

This is not your time.

She used of top fast very that as severe as you hit like

well you as a slowdown away why his tell me that again

as she was so full of energy and bubbly and then to see

are like that.

She was trying so hard.

To talk to us and reminisce and she just couldn't.

And should be trying to say one word and it would take

her several minutes and we were struggling to

understand her.

She couldn't read anymore so i had to read blend of the

teasers book to her.

And it would get the parts where it should break down.

I mean i'm sitting right beside her and she's

breaking down and she said yes.

This is true yes.

This is true.

That was so hard for her to even reconcile what happened.

And there's parts in the book of a or somebody is

getting murder.

She says no it was even worse than that you know all the

horror was even worse than the book described.

I ran parents were murdered.

I can see very well at my father had been hiding from.

I had figured out by going through trial transcripts

court documents.

I reading that whilst victim.

That the story was much more complicated.

Are you sit here.

Maybe even talk a little that are tell me what i was

like when you found out what happened.

At the house.

I just wish it were go go away.

It's hard to be discussing this.

Those fade away most of it.

I remember them all the newspaper people to cemetery

climbing up on the.

Tombstones to get pictures of me they were like parasites.

At a time when.

You were buried your parents.

There was awful.

When i asked about what happened to my grandparents.

I remembered good just told me that they were killed

by a bad man.

I don't think there was any mention of an accomplice

or anything.

I see carol few gay as not culpable and i know that that

has been probably really difficult for you.

I remember you saying while she was there and there's

guilt by association well by the yeah it's way.

I feel when she did nothing to say yes.

Sometimes you burned with her gym like flame on the

subject and this became one of those subjects for a

lot of people.

This is from the administrative assistant of the

nebraska board of pardons.

I met steve perry and he asked me if i read write a

letter in petition for carols harder.

I was applying for a complete partner complete full pardon.

I felt like it was really a betrayal of my father that

when i asked him he said.

I can never go there but if you're going to write a

letter for the pardons board.

Just make sure that it's good.

The carol fuel get hit pardon.

Ties into the right to effective assistant council

in it ties into juvenile law.

This case was tried now it would be.

He wouldn't even look nearly the same you would look

anywhere just of the same.

I talked to carol the night before the hearing.

I should we do the best we could.

She said she would prefer me.

I thanked her.

I had descendants of victims not just lies about

other descendants of victims in the hearing room.

Who wanted to carry target how long the cows hearing loss.

I would say fifteen seconds.

Therefore is carol including.

Who's clarity is reason for her first part is the idea

that like austerity has been made to believe that i

knew about and this like loading family left was

start further really on a murder stream is too much

for me.

There.

Anymore receiving apart may somehow alleviate this terrible.

Durbin been seven different state or federal court

opinions on the case.

It's been books.

Movies songs all four inches case.

But i think it's important as you like to the purpose

of her request understand.

That's not all parties.

For that reason i played that this man was flooded

with orange.

There was an act of political cowardice.

It was a disgrace.

And then they said well.

The she was listed as having been convicted of first

degree murder.

This was long my should cry at least correct the

record as to what she was convicted of murder for a

coach and working to go to be made up for it out.

Gov rick.

It's very bravely shook his ballpoint pen at me that

it's not like wait a while the commentary he can jog and.

You should know i try not to criticize my colleagues

but no witnesses were allowed.

No testimony was really taken that was something i

was not used to.

I was frankly disappointed.

I'm going to tell you something people who want to

blame carol fuel gauge for what stark whether dead

why don't you go on with flowers on strike.

His grave.

No.

I know there's someone from the governor's office

said well we've heard the last two this well.

I don't think so.

Carol she'd been living there are so long that she

also had the communist party.

Who else by wash.

What had happened.

I knocked on the door.

And she was lying in a hospital bad holding her little

dog and watching crime shows.

The last time.

I said you know i am.

The granddaughter of claire an our word.

It sank and and she just.

Dissolved and effects of sobbing.

And it's i.

Sad i didn't come here to upset you.

I came here to tell you that.

I believe you.

And i hugged her.

And i said.

I just want to know why we always go along with him.

Why do we go along with.

When there are no bars and there were enough for box

and there was no reason why he had to say ass.

Why have we learned to do that.

And she just started to weep hi.

Mary jane.

From nineteen fifty five to nineteen fifty eight.

No them nineteen twenty one january twenty fifth

nineteen fifty eight.

So sad that one man can do so much damage.

I watch girl cry so much for her mother.

There little betty gene.

She wants to be buried right.

There were their mom when she dies.

People don't really realize that i lost my hamilton.

When it.

Why.

I was the one that.

Only survive.

It's something that will always be with me at

something that are always carry with.

And down.

I've learned kill except it.

And it lives in the back of my mind is behind a little dog.

And right now.

The past several there's nothing.

I can do.

I can't change and.

It's over.

And i have to make now today tomorrow.

In my future.

There's no way to go back.