All language subtitles for Melancholia S01E10

♫ If you casually say a word to me ♫

♫ I think I'm going to cry ♫

♫ Don't say a word ♫

Melancholia

The characters, locations, incidents, religious sects, etc. are fiction and have no relation to reality.

- What happened?
- I came to have dinner with Principal Noh Jeong Ah. Assemblyman Seong Min Jun is also there.

How did you know she was trying to get into that room?

Episode 10
Oh, welcome, Minister.

Oh, you've been waiting for a long time.

- Long time no see, sir.
- Nice to meet you, Professor Choi.

I was going to attend the launching ceremony, but I had another appointment.

It went well. Have a seat, sir.

Ok.

Minister, thank you for your hard work. The launching ceremony went well today.

- Are you ready to order, sir?
- Ah, yes.

Our principal couldn't find the way. Looks like she went into another room by mistake.

Stay like this for a moment.

Have you been here for a long time?

- What?
- The Assemblyman is looking for you.

Ok.

- Yes?
- Where are you? The minister is here.

Okay, I'll be there in a moment.

Are you okay?

I'm fine.

Let's go.

You should go first.

- Go back to your seat.
- I'm not going.

We can't leave together.

Principal Noh Jeong Ah

Oh, the minister is here.

Baek Seung Yu is a math teacher at Aseong High School for the Gifted.

I know. You're a mathematician in the Olympics, aren't you?

- Nice to meet you.
- You too, sir.

- Sit down.
-Yes, sir.

- Let's all eat.
- Yes, let's eat.

Have something to eat.

I am sorry, sir.

I have to go due to some personal problems.

Mathematics museums are like Mathematicon. It should have been in Korea too.

If that were the case, it's like our teacher Baek Seung Yu. There must have been more outstanding mathematicians.

In that sense, our teacher Baek Seung Yu is really great.

Without national support or no support, It's an accomplishment he achieved on his own.

That's what I am talking about. It's great.

What's the secret?

The math teacher I met in high school.

I knew it! There's a great teacher behind this outstanding guy.

Your teacher must be proud to have such a great student.

I don't think so. She got kicked out of the school.

What? Why?

All of the school's parents and students didn't like her.

I think the story went the other way around.

Here everyone, one more time.

Why did you hate her so much? What did she do that was so wrong?

I've never seen a teacher like her before.

Now that you mention, I kind of remember.

That teacher was a bit ... different.

In our country, teachers that stand out, don't really last long.

- That is...
- You should stop now.

A teacher who left school in dishonor. Do you want to talk about...

yourself like this?

Get out

Ji Yun Su

Class Walk Out

You were speaking about the progress in math. Please let me ask you a question.

Why did Archimedes leave without bathing?

That was when he figured out how mass and volume are related.

Yes. Most of the students in our country usually answer this way.

Archimedes must have felt the answer.

The joy of being immersed. The pain of figuring it out.

No one speaks about the moment of discovery.

If you allow them to feel the Eureka moment once,

you don't need to force them to study.

The museum, the national support, we do not need any of that.

Learning this in high school is my secret.

Excuse me. I will get going now.

Please go to the Luchenville apartments.

Teacher Ji Yun Su

Hello.

What's wrong? Are you okay?

I can't

I can't breathe

Which unit are you in?

It's me

Are you okay?

Please bear it.

Please.

Please.

Please go to the nearest emergency room.

Please bear it a little longer.

Ms. Ji, please take a deep breath.

She can't breathe very well and she is sweating and has a fever.

Does she have any health issues or significant past medical history?

She most likely doesn't but she had something very shocking happen.

For now, we'll stabilize her and see what's going on.

Guardian, please complete these.

Patient, take a deep breath. Please tell me where it hurts the most.

September 23, 2021
Signature of guardian for patient Ji Yun Su

Guardian: Baek Seung Yu

There shouldn't be any issues with the Ministry of Education audit?

Of course not. I apologize for the hassle.

- Then, I will see you again next time.
- See you soon, Minister

I'll leave first.

Good bye.

We'll be leaving too.

Oh yes, please go ahead.

Why do you think that child was like that earlier?

What kind of clothes did he wear at the launching ceremony during the day?

Baek Seung Yu? Why is that?

No reason. Let's go in.

National Mathematics Museum Construction Promotion Committee Launched

Baek Seung Yu has a lot of guts.

He brought up Ji Yun Su in front of everyone?

Why did you hate her so much? She didn't do anything wrong.

I've never seen a teacher like her before.

Yun Su used to say that

if she thought it was right, she didn't hold anything back.

She said whatever was on her mind.

I know very well.

That's why Yun Su made me uncomfortable.

As if I'm the only one who is ignoring all of the bad things.

That's right.

That's exactly it. She didn't care if anyone around her was uncomfortable.

Why are we thinking about the past?

Yun Su is that type of person and that's why you two each took different paths.

Right.

We were just different.

I wasn't wrong.

I was just different.

I don't like that expression.

Class walk out

Class walk out

Out

Oh my. A class walk out?

Did you see what the kids did to the classroom?

I can imagine without seeing it. The mothers are going nuts too.

After all this, how long will she hold out?

All right then

She's here! Ji Yun Su!

Leave!

Please open your eyes.

Open your eyes.

Are you okay? Try to get up.

You're in the hospital. How are you feeling now?

- Does your head hurt or do you feel dizzy?
- I'm fine

Just a second.

Good thing your fever is gone.

You have to finish this IV infusion before you can leave.

I feel stuffy. I need to get some air.

Was everything all right?

Everything was fine.

We just started. You can't be like this already.

I kept imagining running into that woman over and over again.

But when it really happened,

I was scared

That's understandable.

No matter how much time passes, when a victim meets the perpetrator,

it will feel like it happened just yesterday.

Even though the perpetrator is walking around as though nothing happened.

When you see her again, what do you want to tell her?

Try saying it. Imagine I am that woman.

Apologize.

The students walked out of my class and teacher colleagues turned their backs on me.

The parents threw stones at me. For all of those things...

- What else...
- For shifting blame to someone else,

for trampling on someone else's life...

That's good. What else?

For casting a shadow on someone who used to smile so brightly,

for causing innocent people to cry,

Seung Yu

You probably had a reason.

I don't think you would do something like that for no reason.

I have someone I like.

Someone I met after a long time and I like more now.

Are you all right?

Ye Rin: Are you free tomorrow? Can we meet for a bit?

What about Ye Rin?

You should get an apology from Ye Rin as well.

Sure. Let's meet tomorrow at six for dinner.

Yup. See you tomorrow.

Just sleep and don't think about anything else.

Medical Centre

Reporter Jo Yun Ah

- Hello
- Teacher, it worked

It's going to the prosecutor's office today.

All right. I will contact you.

- Are you leaving?
- Yes. I should leave

Please take this to eat.

You must eat it.

I'm going to work now and I will give you a call later.

I have some good news.

Advanced Mathematics Class

Who finished Teacher Baek's math homework?

It was so freaking hard.

- Do you think anyone actually solved it?
- Is it even meant to be solved?

What the hell kind of problem is this?

- This is super annoying.
- It's way too hard.

- Did you solve it?
- Give it back.

So there are some problems that even you can't solve.

Oh right, you even have these kinds of photos.

What the hell? When was that taken?

What is it?

That photo was taken at his lecture.

- What's up with you two
- Do you like Baek Seung Yu?

Yeah, I do. Why?

- What?
- Are you serious? You really like him?

You're really ridiculous.

He is my favourite mathematician whom I respect the most. Teacher Baek Seung Yu.

Is there something wrong with that?

I guess she really likes him.

Head of Math Department: Han Myeong Jin
Teacher Han Myeong Jin, please come with us

Why do I need to meet with the prosecutor?

I have nothing to say and I have done nothing wrong!

You need to come with us so we can confirm this.

If you don't come with us now, we will come back with an arrest warrant.

I will come...

but I'm going to make very clear that this is unfair.

There is definitely a mistake somewhere

They received a bribe to pass them.

Everything would have worked out if it weren't for this.

Please don't make a fuss and quietly go to the interrogation.

And,

please convene the disciplinary committee for Teacher Han.

Oh. This is really making me crazy.

- What's going to happen to Teacher Han now?
- I don't know

I mean, why would he accept money under the table like that?

Shortly after the report of Assemblyman Seong's daughter receiving preferential treatment,

I got a call from someone who worked as a classroom assistant at Aseong High School.

A classroom assistant?

She claimed she was unfairly fired.

She told me this:

"I only did what Teacher Han Myeong Jin told me to do."

- And then?
- I was going to meet her because she had something to tell me.

She didn't show up and her phone was disconnected.

However, regarding the current admissions corruption issue,

the name Han Myeong Jin popped up again.

- From where?
- A parent reported

she had bribed Teacher Han Myeong Jin to admit a student.

She said she was too scared to file a complaint for fear her identity would be exposed.

- Are you able to contact that parent?
- Yes

There is a way.

A way to file a complaint without exposing one's dentity.

Hello, you've reached Aseong Mathematics & Arts High School for the Gifted.

It's your dad.

I got your thesis.

You worked really hard.

Let's meet. I want to see you.

I have to go class now.

I'll give you call later.

What did he say?

He said he'll contact us.

At least he answered the phone.

You should have passed the phone to me. Huh?

You're reading that again?

How many days is it now?

Oh, what is this?

During the Ministry of Education audit of the school district for alleged corruption in admitting students,

the prosecution launched an investigation of

a teacher for accepting bribes in exchange for admitting students.

What is this?

[Teacher Accused of Accepting Bribes for Admission]
Han, accused of accepting bribes

is a math teacher who works for Aseong Mathematics & Arts High School for the Gifted and previously worked for Aseong High School.

No way.

Han Myeong Jin?!
The prosecutor has filed charges against Han.

They plan to investigate intensely and discover all who are involved.

Aseong Mathematics & Arts High School for the Gifted is being accused of corruption in the admission of students from high-ranking families

and the school is being audited
Honey!

[Suspected Corrupt Admission of Students of High Ranking Families]
The facts of the accusation of Han

are being uncovered during the audit
That's Han Myeong Jin, right?

What happens if we get caught?

Is he going to tell them everything about what happened before?

Please be quiet. Is this really worth getting worked up over?

You need to get involved!

This can't get investigated!

- What's wrong?
- Huh?

My Ye Rin looks so pretty. Are you going somewhere?

I have dinner plans. I'll be back.

Okay. Eat lots of good food.

Happy birthday, Ye Rin!

Have fun.

At the Ministry of Education...

What are you going to do??

Happy birthday.

- How did you know?
- Your social media.

What do you want to eat?

Current Teachers Accused of Preferential Student Selection Practices

Yes.

The director would like to see you.

Yes.

- Director
- Did you make it home safely, yesterday?

Yes. I apologize. I had to take care of something suddenly.

That's all right.

You mentioned, you needed to tell me something that day.

Yes. I'm trying to start a business.

Some changes will need to be made.

What kind of changes?

It will be for international admissions exams consulting services, instead of national ones.

This offer was tempting because it is what I'm familiar with.

- If the direction, textbooks and clinics change, it will have to match with what the Ivy League is doing.
- Yes

When everything is finalized, we'll discuss it in more detail.

And you can meet with my business partner.

I understand.

Happy Birthday.

To be honest, I want to apologize to you.

When your brought up the Jeju island photo, that day

I was flustered and couldn't say it.

I'm sorry.

I didn't know it was go that far honestly.

That photo shown at Teacher Ji's wedding.

Who do you think did it?

If it wasn't you, who would have blown up the photo and made it into a huge deal?

I'm not trying to interrogate you, I'm just curious.

Who? Why?

Teacher Noh Jeong Ah.

I didn't even show that photo to my parents.

That teacher was the only other person who saw that photo.

You must have had a hard time too.

You were used.

You had no intention of using that photo that way but they did what ever they wanted with it.

It probably really bothered you.

Thank you.

Hello.

- Where are you?
- On my way home.

- Stop right now.
- Huh? Why?

What the hell are you doing here?

I stopped by on my way. Happy birthday!

Thank you.

- Did you have a birthday party?
- Hm?

No, I just had dinner.

With who?

Seung Yu.

- Are you dating that jerk?
- No.

Why are you talking to me like that?

- Be careful around Seung Yu.
- What?

I saw Ji Yun Su. She lives in the same building as me.

Teacher. Teacher.

Yes?

I'm all done!

All right. That's good for today.

How's school going these days?

It's a bit messy.

Today, Teacher Han got arrested and it was crazy.

Don't concern yourself with anything and just focus on your studies.

Take everything from that school that you can get. All right?

Yes.

You know, I heard that Professor Ji Hyeon Wk is your father.

How did you find out?

You both have the same last name and I asked Teacher Baek and he confirmed it was true. (TN: Ji is an uncommon Korean last name)

I'm about to go play chess with Professor Ji.

Is it okay for me to do that?

Of course.

Sounds good.

Oh yes.

Teacher, this problem was given by Mr. Baek.

It's super hard.

Can you solve it for me just this one time?

I'm going to head out. Good bye.

The time will come

when you look at a problem that doesn't excite you,

or bring you joy,

and you have no desire to solve it.

All mathematicians go through this

Mathematicians who can't endure this time, can't solve the next problem.

♫ What a dream ♫

♫ that makes you feel alive ♫

♫ It may go into the dark ♫

♫ but it stays in your heart ♫

♫ Why? Too scared to run away. ♫

♫ Just swallow sadness ♫

How are you feeling? Are you better?

- Can we talk for a minute?
- Get in

I saw Ji Yun Su. She lives in the same building as me.

- Since when?
- I saw her when I was moving in.

- But do you think Seung Yu knows that or not?

I saw the article. What do you want to do?

I'm going to get them in trouble

I'm going to make sure they can't relax with their feet up.

Prosecutor Park?

The one who annoyed me last year during the national inspection.

It won't be easy to look into it.

I knew Han Myeong Jin would make a mess one day.

You should have gotten rid of him sooner.

Are you blaming me right now?

Your wife was the one who made the deal with Myeong Jin to get the exam answers.

- Don't you remember?
- What I mean is...

Let's cut out everything that needs to be cut out.

Yes, just like that.

Even from before, that guy, Han Myeong Jin...

Teacher, it's Seong Ye Rin.

What can I do for you at this hour?

My apologies for coming over so late. I have something to tell you.

Have a seat.

What is it?

Are you also here to discuss Teacher Han?

Teacher Han?

- What about him?
- Did you not see the new articles?

It's been all over the place.

If that's not it, then what brings you here?

Teacher Ji is back, in Hanguk neighbourhood.

Did you see her?

There are people who have seen her and they know where she lives.

Noh Jeong Ah. Seong Ye Rin.

Seong Min Jun. Han Myeong Jin. Choi Seong Han.

Those are the ones I know about.

I'm going to cause some confusion for them.

The more confused they are, that's when they'll start to doubt each other and go after each other.

- And?
- I just thought you should know.

Do you still have a crush on Seung Yu?

A while ago, you were so blinded by jealousy that you gave me that photo.

You still don't know what to do with Seung Yu.

You come running to me as soon as you found out Ji Yun Su is back?

Do you think Teacher Ji's return is only a problem for me?

You always act this way.

You don't get your own hands dirty. Instead you manipulate people to do what you want.

Did I make anyone?

I didn't even imagine in my wildest dreams that you would use that photo in that manner.

Use?

Did you just

say "use"?

Ye Rin, I guess you don't remember...

I did it for you.

I did it just for you.

You and your mother got the answers from Mr. Han...

And Ms. Ji found out about it...

But what do you think would have happened if I didn't use that photo?

Ye Rin, please tell me.

But "use"?

That's not it.

You got "help" from me.

So this time, you should figure out a way.

Check if she is in contact with Baek Seung Yu.

The one who wants to know that the most is you.

Of course.

In exchange, don't ask me for photos like the ones I took at the Jeju airport.

I don't plan on sharing anything with you.

Did you hear all of that?

Ji Yun Su is back.

Did you really need to go that far?

Then what should I have said?

"Don't worry, you father and I work together and will take care of everything this time?"

It's not like we're not working together!

The Ministry of Education audit, Han Myeong Jin's arrest.

Don't you think Ji Yun Su is behind all of this?

Yun Su, all on her own?

Then, with Baek Seung Yu...

While those people are fighting

we'll be working together.

Seung Yu.

I'm worried about you

I'm afraid that while doing this, you'll lose everything you've achieved so far.

Well, there isn't anything that great I've accomplished thus far.

I can always start over. But ...

there is something I don't want to lose again.

Do you trust me?

I'll make sure you don't have to hide again.

You won't be scared again and you won't have anymore nightmares.

I want to make you smile like I used to.

That's all I want.

Have a good night.

Isn't the motorcycle dangerous?

As long as you wear a helmet and ride carefully, it's safe.

Have you been on one before?

Would you like to go for a ride? It's the best stress relief.

♩ Are you ready for the chance ♫

♫ This is the last question ♫

♫ Whenever you're in doubt ♫

♫ You just believe in you ♫

♫ x is the miracle ♫

♫ Finally, I found you ♫

♫ Stand by me, Wonder boy ♫

♫ You're the answer for me ♫

♫ Oh my darling, oh my love ♫

♫ You are so mysterious ♫♫

♫Am I dreaming ♫

♫my fantasy ♫

♫Oh my darling, oh my love ♫

♫all I need is your love ♫

♫You are the only boy ♫

♫oh I fall in love ♫

Seung Yu

I'm worried about you.

♫ Oh my darling, oh my love ♫

♫ You are so mysterious ♫

♫ Am I dreaming ♫

♫ my fantasy ♫

♫ Oh my darling, oh my love ♫

♫ All I need is your love ♫

♫ You are the only boy ♫

♫ Oh I fall in love ♫

This textbook was made with the best consultants in the industry, especially for all of you.

Unfortunately, the other students are not privy to this.

You all should still be considerate to those students to make sure they don't feel like they're missing out.

Yes.

At the same time, you don't need to feel guilty.

Instead, all of you, with a great sense of responsibility

must become the leaders of this country.

You need to continue in your parent's statuses and honor as

ministers, assemblymen, and industry leaders.

Please go ahead and work hard.

Yes.

Kim Ji Na.

You stay.

Han Myeong Jin was just fired!

Fired? In one day?

There was an emergency disciplinary meeting and the decision was made then.

Oh! Isn't... Isn't that Mr. Han's car?

Oh! Yes, it does look like it!

What happened?

Is he coming back?

What is it? Please tell me.

What in the world is your issue?

If I had your family, looks, smarts

and born with everything, I would not act like you.

I would smarten up and lose the foolish rebel attitude.

- Old fart.
- Excuse me?

You think you're such a great mother, don't you?

Why don't I know everyday to be grateful? You ask me what's the problem.

Would a good mother not know that?

If you're done, I'm going to leave.

- Where are you going?
- To see the principal Noh Jeong Ah.

Please escort him out.

Who do you think you're grabbing!

Let me go! Won't you ...

What?

What do you think you're doing?

What? Oh man! Amazing!

Let go!

Go inside and get ready for class!

What about you?

Isn't it crazy?

Genius
Brilliant (In Chinese)

How is it that you have that book?

What about you? What is this?

Genius

You don't need to know. Did you steal that?

What? Steal?

Isn't that from the math clinic? I barely got in so is it that someone like you can get in?

Tell me where you got that.

What are you guys doing?

Didn't you know about the confidentiality agreement with the clinic?

If you talk about it, you'll get kicked out so keep your mouth shut.

I guess she is actually going there.

Let go of me!

Fired all of a sudden?? The investigation is not even completed!

I dedicated 20 years!

How... How??

How can you get rid of someone overnight?

Let go of me, you assholes!

Just wait and see, if I'm going to leave this damn school like this.

My apologies. I should have taken care of it sooner.

What happened with the favour I asked for?

It was taken care of immediately.

Are you leaving work now?

There was an article in the news about the school.

Does it affect you?

No, I'm all right.

Yu Chan's mom was right

You're all grown up.

I read your thesis.

You read all of it?

You sent it to me to read.

It's a bit difficult for a lay person to understand.

Yes, it was really hard.

I looked through text books and did my own research.

I stayed up all night for the first time in a while

but I still didn't understand a single word of it.

That thesis paper seemed exactly like you.

You're my child with the same blood as me

You're so different from me. Because you were born extraordinary,

I knew neither how to raise you or guide you.

It was hard and I struggled.

I thought if I could understand your thesis paper, maybe I could understand you a little better.

I did everything to understand it and I still couldn't.

How is mom doing?

Of course. She is doing well.

Come by the house for a home cooked meal.

We cleared out the trophy room/

What did you do with everything?

It all felt like junk because you weren't there.

Do you mean, you threw them all out?

We put everything in a box and stored them on the balcony.

I'll come on the weekend.

Of course, you should come.

I heard you haven't had lunch yet.

You can't keep skipping meals like this. It's going to cause a big problem.

No!

I'm going to take your food to your room, so please make sure you eat it.

- I'm going to come by to check later.
- Do so!

Professor!

Hello.

I came to do some homework.

I have really really difficult homework.

Can you please help me this one time?

It's this problem, Professor.

(Math problem)

Teacher?

Teacher Ji.

You look different from before.

When did you move to this neighbourhood?

Why do you ask?

I did't think you would ever come back. I was a bit shocked.

Why did you return?

Do I have to answer you?

It's not a very hard question. Compared to the questions I'm about to ask you.

I saw you with Seung Yu.

What are you doing with Seung Yu?

You know you're not supposed to

Not supposed to do what?

I'm sure in your position you need Seung Yu.

I have no idea how you're living right now but,

where ever you go, you will be able to use

the fact that you developed a world class mathematician like Seung Yu.

But don't do that.

Just because your life is ruined it doesn't mean

you have to take Seung Yu down with you.

Also, did you know?

Back then, it seemed like Seung Yu really liked you.

And the two of you looked good together.

That's not the case anymore.

Do you think Seung Yu would have the same feelings now as he did back then?

I'm sure it's more pity and regret toward you.

Principles of Mathematics

Woohoo! I solved the math problem you gave to us!

I got help from Professor Ji.

Did you stop by the nursing home?

We started a new game. Would you like to join us?

I'm going to assume you understood what I meant. Please make sure Seung Yu doesn't get hurt.

I'll ask you this favour.

You're right.

My life is in ruins.

It was hard for me to admit. Thank you for forcing the words out of my own mouth.

I also do not feel ashamed of my life.

I am not ashamed of myself right now.

I did nothing wrong. Before and currently.

I guess you're trying to say that it's my fault.

Of course, I think it's a shame.

Why are you laughing?

You became the adult I expected you to become.

At the very least, I hoped you would become someone who knew how to apologize.

Ye Rin,

this isn't shame.

When someone does wrong to someone else, causes them pain

and ruins their life,

you're supposed to apologize.

You're supposed to admit you did something wrong.

I know.

Even so, it doesn't change anything.

But the word "shame"

can change many things.

Many things will probably change after you say that word.

To be honest, you were not an issue to me.

You're a smart child, so I'm sure you understood me.

Were you not tracking Ji Yun Su's whereabouts this whole time?

It was confirmed she was working at a math academy outside the city.

I was not able to confirm her location for the past year. My apologies.

Has there been anything strange after Seung Yu came in to the school?

Nothing out of the ordinary.

Do you think the audit is related Seung Yu in some way?

Did he enter the school with other intentions?

Please keep an eye on Seung Yu and follow him closely

And make sure you report everything to me.

Did you know this?

Back then, Seung Yu really liked you

And the two of you even looked good together.

But that's not the case anymore.

Information and Research Help

Why...

Hand it over!

You couldn't solve it?

I'm asking if you solved it?

That's right, I couldn't solve it. So what?

Do I have to solve this? Then what?

Why are you so angry?

Are you embarrassed?

Because you can't solve that problem?

Why are you checking the answer first?

You should have kept going until you solved it

You weren't like this before

The joy when you solved a problem, the pain when you couldn't solve it.

You found pleasure in both the joy and the anxiety in the process of solving the problem

I don't have that anymore.

What difference does it make to my life whether or not I can solve a math problem?

Will it change anything?

Who cares about math?

You wanted to solve it!

You kept going at it and you ran here because you want to know the answer!

Even if I try not to think about it, I think about it.

I can visualize it even if I don't want to.

My head, my hands keep going on their own.

We came to school and spent the whole night going through math problems together.

You're right. Math. What about math?

♫ Oh my darling oh my love♫

♫ You are so mysterious ♫

♫ Am I dreaming ♫

♫ My fantasy ♫

Timing and Subtitles by the Wistful Team @ viki

♫ Oh my darling oh my love♫

♫ You are so mysterious ♫

♫ Am I dreaming ♫
[Melancholia]

My feelings are sincere.

Without any doubt.

- The foundation has an open seat.
- Choi Si An?

But what are you trying to take?

I think she read a paper to solve it.

Pretending to be righteous by yourself and pretending to be different from me.

What's so different between me and you?

Can you just leave it to me and trust me?

What are you holding on to?

You're very patient. I'm sure there are a lot of things you want to say.

Do I look like I'm being patient?