All language subtitles for Married.At.First.Sight.S17E07.1080p.WEB.h264-EDITH[EZTVx.to]_track3_eng

- Four newlywed couples
put their futures

in the hands of experts

when they married
as complete strangers.

♪

Last time, the honeymoons
continued in Mexico.

♪

- I'm just unbelievably
pleasantly surprised.

You are truly such
an amazing person,

and it helps that
you're easy on the eyes.

- [laughs]

♪

- Trust, for me, is one of
the biggest things I look for,

and I feel like you're really
starting to earn my trust.

- I'm not in the circle yet.

- We're getting there.

- We're in the outer ring.
- We're working on it.

♪

- Do you guys have any fears
of what might change

when reality comes back?

- I honestly, like, think
we're gonna do pretty well.

- Me, being an overthinker,
I'm already thinking

about the things that
will go wrong when we're back.

But like, what could go right?

♪

- How do you feel that
I had sex two months ago?

- Being honest, it kind of
took sex off the table for me.

[dramatic music]

♪

- ♪ I like you
right by my side ♪

- Tonight, our couples
enjoy the final days

of their honeymoon.

- ♪ We go together

♪ Wherever you go, I go

- Aww, thank you.

- I think something that we
haven't dove into super deep

is religion.

- We should talk about that.

- Right now?
- No, probably not now.

♪

- Do you know how to have fun?

- Do you like to have fun?
What the [bleep] is that?

- I have to go
to the hospital in Cancun.

- Hopefully, he didn't leave,
leave and go home.

I don't know.
- It's his escape plan.

♪

- Our honeymoon has been
a little bit

of a roller coaster, I'd say.

- She was saying
that I am lying

about how things played out.

- I just had this
huge blow-up with him

in which I was yelling,
and I asked for a divorce.

- Do you want a divorce?

♪

- I have no idea
where we go from here.

♪

- ♪ It's all or nothing

- This is
"Married at First Sight."

- ♪ There's no other way

♪

♪ It's all or nothing

[tense music]

♪

- How do you feel that

I had sex two months ago?

- Being honest, it kind of
took sex off the table for me.

♪

- All right, what's next?
Sex is done.

♪

- Curious as to where
you're sitting with it.

It really just sounds to me
like you're not okay with it.

- It felt mildly judgey.

It's like, why did that
make that the reason

and that sex wasn't an option?

- Well, that's not the reason,
but it does play a part.

- Okay, now I'm confused again.

- I still feel like there's
a lot of steps of getting

to know each other
so that, you know,

it's not something
we would regret.

You know, and it could just
be my own opinion about it,

but I just want to take the
right steps in the marriage.

I don't want sex to be
a checked off thing with it.

- Things you say
don't necessarily align

with this conversation
that I feel like

we're having on the things
that we're talking about.

- Why, because maybe we're
talking about super open

about sex conversation?

- It's not even about
being super open

about sex conversation.

And if you're not aware
of your flip-flopping,

I think we should just
have a quiet meal.

I have nothing else
to add about sex.

I think I would
appreciate quietness.

- Okay.
- Yeah.

- Okay.

You know, if I'm being honest,

I'm not really good
with the quietness.

- I'm not gonna
beat a dead horse,

and I don't have
the mental capacity

to sit here and discuss things
where I already feel like

there's nothing more conducive
or constructive to say.

- Right, but we still have to
figure this out and navigate.

- But does it have
to happen now?

- Why not?

- Because I don't feel safe.

Why does that not speak to you?

- It does.

- No, it doesn't,
because you keep asking me,

"Well, why can't we do it
right now?"

I think this is a valuable
conversation, too,

and clearly, one that needs
more conversation on.

Like, we need ample time
to discuss this.

- Okay.
- Okay.

- Okay.
You know, I am very, you know,

sorry if you felt like
I was pressing something.

- I don't like a--

I don't need a, "I'm sorry
if you felt apology."

And you know damn well

that's not an apology
to give someone.

You are more mature than that
to say,

"I'm sorry if you felt."

- Then I guess I really
have nothing else to say.

- ♪ No more love songs

♪ I'm done
with playing over you ♪

♪

- ♪ We've come so far,
so far ♪

♪ And I'm not
looking back now ♪

- Cheers.
- Cheers.

Cheers to a great day.
- Great day.

- Oh, that's good.

- Strong, it's fine.
- Good?

- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah?

- Are you feeling fine
after the boat?

- Yeah, I think we had
a nice talk

about where we've been

and, like, where we're headed,
which is kind of cool.

How do you feel about it?
- I agree.

I feel like now
we can maybe, like,

move into, like, the next phase
of conversations.

- Yeah.
- Like religion.

I feel like
we should talk about it,

and our little
"Chrismukkah" situation.

- You celebrate Christmas
growing up, right?

- Catholic,
but, like, fake Catholic.

- Yeah.

Yeah, I mean,
I was raised Jewish.

- Do you wanna
raise the kids Jewish?

- Um, I'm not sure.

- I definitely don't
want kids to be Catholic,

so I'm open to whatever.

- You would convert?

- I would.
- Really?

- Mm-hmm.
- Wow.

- I don't really know
what that entails.

- Neither do I.

- I don't want my kids
to be Catholic.

- Is there a reason why?

- I just think
it's a little culty for me.

- It's honestly just
so refreshing to hear

how open you are
about everything.

It just feels so easy
to talk to you.

It just leaves the door open
for us to figure

everything out, honestly,
'cause I'm the same way.

Like, my views always change,
you know,

when I learn new things.

It's just refreshing to see,
like,

you have that similar mindset,
so I appreciate you, honestly.

- Yeah, I guess we'll
figure this out together.

- Cheers to together.

- But what about kids?

Thank you.

- Thank you.

- So how many kids have you,
like, always imagined?

- Two.

- Boys?
- I think I'd be happy any way.

Ideally, like, boy,
girl would be nice.

- That's what I want too.
- Two?

- And I want boy, girl.

I want older boy, younger girl.

- I just want them to be,
like, best friends.

- Same.

- I want it to be, like,

probably about, like,
three years apart,

give us enough time in between.

- Nice little gap.

- So, real topic
at hand here--

what are we doing
on football Sundays?

Like, are we turning on the
Jets game or the Bills game?

Or are we turning
on the Bengals?

Do you have a team?

- I'm a dedicated
Broncos fan now.

- Oh, [bleep].

Are you converting me
to a Broncos fan?

I am--I do love
the Broncos, though.

- I mean,
I just committed this year.

So I feel like
that's a lot of converting

on my end, though, so--

- So if you want me
to convert to a Broncos fan...

- I feel like we maybe need
to convert in my direction.

- I can compromise.
- You can compromise?

- You've compromised
so much for me.

I feel like this is
the least I can do

is compromise on the Broncos.

Okay, you know what?
In the effort of unity--

- I feel like we should
meet in the middle

because we both
live here for now.

- So is that gonna change
if we move to another state?

- Wherever we go, that's where
our kids are gonna be.

- So we're gonna have
to get a lot of jerseys.

- Well, that's already,
like, avoiding a big fight.

- That's where my mom
said we'd clash.

'Cause if we agree
on everything,

how are we gonna
challenge each other?

- No, I think you
will challenge me.

- I think you will too.

♪

- Yeah.

- I don't think
that will ever change.

♪

-♪ Let's go

- All right,
I'm just gonna get changed.

- Okay, I'm just gonna
pack up some of my stuff.

- Brush time.

- Hello, brush time.

- Our room's a mess.

- Okay, well, good night.

- Funny meeting you here.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- Is there
a temporary solution?

You know, I'm really sorry
if I didn't support you

in the way that you needed
in that moment.

And you know, I'm really--

I am really curious
if you feel like, you know,

this whole sex being off the
table is because you had sex.

- Yes, I feel that way
because you said that.

- It's not off the table
because of that.

- So why'd you say that?

Stand on what you said.

- I am.
You know, and I apologize for--

- I don't want an apology.

I don't wanna hear I'm sorry.

I want answers.

Why did you say that if
that's not what you meant?

♪

- Well, because it--

I mean--because it's,
you know, kind of the truth.

♪

- There we go.
- Yeah.

- You're finally starting
to tell the truth.

So why is it the truth?
- I've always been truthful.

- Now, let's not start
this [bleep], Orion, okay?

We're having a constructive
conversation, right?

- Okay.
- We telling the truth.

Because downstairs you said,
well, that's not all it was,

and now you said
it is the truth.

Why is that?

- Well,
because you were engaged.

Were you not?

- I was engaged
before I got selected?

When I had sex in December,
I was not selected for this.

- I mean, but you signed up
for the show, right?

- So you're saying that
you feel like I did not

take this as serious as you.

- That's not what I'm saying.

- Then I need you
to say an answer, Orion.

I very much need you
to say an answer.

I don't do well with this.

Whatever this is,
I don't do well with gray.

- I understand. I know.

- I promise you it's not
gonna hurt my feelings,

but I need you
to say the answer

as to why that comment made
you take sex off the table.

- I mean, because intention
with this process, right?

- So you feel like I lacked
intention with the process?

- Did you? You know?

- No, we're talking about
what you felt right now.

You tell me.

- I guess, you know, I don't
feel comfortable with the fact

that while you started
this process,

going through this process
and everything

that it has to do with it, you
did sleep with somebody else.

- I did.

♪

But why is it because
I did something different

than you, why does that
make my intentions

not as pure as yours?

- I never said that
your intention weren't--

- You didn't say it,
but you're not saying a lot,

but things are being implied.

And that's what's
being implied.

- But I am not
judging you for it.

- But you assumed that
because I did that,

that I was not moving
in the way,

that you would want
your future wife to move in.

- No, I just felt
very uncomfortable

that you did that.

You signed up for this.

- But why--
no, that's not fair.

It's not.

And I'm not gonna sit here
and act like

it is fair of you to say that.

And I'm gonna stand
on that [bleep].

- And what I'm standing on is,
I did not judge you.

- Okay.

- I did not judge you.

- But you made assumptions.

- No, I didn't make
assumptions, Lauren.

- I probably won't get a
clear answer on that either.

- It made me uncomfortable.

- And that's--I think that is
completely fair to say.

- That's--that's all
I have to give you.

- Okay.

- You know,
and the way it came up,

you know, it was careless
on my part.

You know, but that is
the truth of it.

- And I think that your truth
is your truth.

And that's all you have
at the end of the day,

so stand on it.

- Okay.
- Okay.

- ♪ There's one last breath

♪ Before the light fades out

♪ And we drown

♪

♪ And we drown

- ♪ All I need is your love

♪ Your love

♪ All I need

- Good morning.

How'd you sleep?
- I slept great.

Except for every time
I woke up, you were awake.

- Yeah, I didn't sleep.

Something happened yesterday
I think in the water.

Like, I dived down
to, like, the bottom

and, like, picked up
the sand and stuff.

And I did hear some popping.
- And now it's like--

- Yeah, it feels like someone's
pushing a sharp object

into the side of my head.
- I'm sorry.

Oh, no, that's not good.
We need to get that checked.

- Yes, I think we--
yeah, go to a doctor.

- So first off, I have,
like, a mandatory meeting

that I have to do for work.

- Well, maybe I'll
go to the doctor

when you go to your meeting.

I think as long as we take care
of it today, then we're good.

- Okay, before we do that,
should we eat breakfast?

- What's my order?

- Okay, pancakes with scrambled
eggs with iced coffee.

- Yeah-huh.
How do I like my coffee?

- Just black, black and iced
and then with syrup

on the pancakes.
- Yeah.

- I feel really good about
the honeymoon so far.

I think there is a different
level of intimacy

that wasn't there
at the beginning.

And so the attraction is
developing, and it's growing.

And so it's just kind of a
relief for me that that's--

we've been able
to get to that point.

- I think when
we live together,

we're gonna be great at it.

I don't know how you're
feeling about

where we are
in our relationship

and moving in together, like...

- You know, I'm a very
independent person.

I tend to do a lot
of things by myself.

But the reason I did this
because I don't wanna

have to do that alone
all the time.

Is that to say that
it's not gonna be hard

to adjust to that?

No, it's going to be hard.

It's just going to be
a lot of change,

and that's just what it is.

- I mean, we don't
crowd each other.

- No.

- But, like, we enjoy
being around each other.

I'm not following you around
like, you know,

a little puppy or something.

- I would be like,
get away from me.

And I wouldn't do
the same for you.

- Right, but we can--
like, we can do our own thing,

and then we can settle down
together, which just feels

very natural and healthy.

- For sure.

- I know relationships can be
really stressful for people,

and I've had very
stressful relationships

where, like, coming home
was, like,

the worst part of the day.

And I know that for me,
the only way

it's gonna work out is that
when I walk through the door,

like, all my problems,
like, melt away.

And I really think that
that can happen with Clare.

Oh, man, yeah, if we got signs
here on the honeymoon

that living together
was gonna be terrible,

oh, man, I would be--
I would be scared right now.

- But it is scary altogether.

I think I'm still scared.
I'm not like, well--

- It's a lot of new territory.

- Yeah, you nailed it.

Like, It's gonna be
a lot of change.

♪

- I would wait for you, but I--

- You don't have
to wait for me.

- My body has never been
so excited to see protein.

- Hits the spot, eh?

- I feel it coursing
through my veins.

Do I look like the Hulk yet?

- Absolutely, you're [bleep]
turning She-Hulk pink.

- I have something
very intense to tell you.

- Okay.

- And I've been meaning
to tell you for a while.

I'm not a natural pink.

- No!

Divorce?

So, is there anything
you wanna talk about,

anything specific?

- I think something
that we haven't...

dove into super deep is
religion.

- [coughs]

- Like, we just have--

we haven't really
talked about it.

- I don't know what that is.
I've never heard of religion.

♪

We should talk about that.

- Right now?

- No, probably not now.

♪

- I'm definitely trying
to give him space,

but it stings a little trying
to connect with your partner

and feeling rejected.

- It's early.
- It's early.

- I don't wanna
scare you off quite yet.

♪

- When I woke up,
Orion wasn't in bed with me.

We did sleep in the same bed,
but we did have

some more conversation
last night.

And I did tell him
that I felt like

I was just being judged and
attacked for my sexual past.

I just felt very isolated and
very unsupported and unheard,

to which he did get
really emotional

and expressed that
he does understand

that the consistency
has not been there,

specifically
on the subject of sex.

He told me
that he doesn't care

that I had sex two months ago.

You know, I'm definitely
able to extend grace

in this situation.

But while I'm extending grace,

it still makes me
just feel a little

unsettled in the marriage.

♪

[blows raspberry]
I don't know, y'all.

[upbeat music]

- Just remember
I'm going left-handed.

- The drink in the hand
is key for me.

- ♪ Doing it
all in the name of fame ♪

♪ Crazy nights

- Hey, you are so good
with your left.

♪

- I like that. Got it.

Then that's game.

♪

Oh.
- Whoo!

Maybe I'm gonna be, like,
the super competitive one.

- All right, okay.

I'm done with this.

- Is that all you wanted
and more?

- Nice to, like,
clear our heads

and just have fun, you know?

- Even with my crippled hand,
I also found out

that I might be
a left-handed athlete.

Do you know how to have fun?

- Yeah, like,
did you not see that?

- I know.
You're letting me win.

- Why did you ask that?

You're like,
do you like to have fun?

- I was just joking.

♪

Oh.
- It's fine.

You can be honest.
- I'm just kidding.

Like, I thought you were
just more, like, competitive.

- You think I only care
about winning.

- No, I don't.

♪

I know you like to have fun.
I'm just kidding.

- To me, it's just,
we're having fun together,

and who cares, you know?

It's like,
it's just all in good fun.

- Like, we're both trying
to take this slow

and, like,
really understand each other.

But I'm just taken back
'cause, like,

he's seeing
something different,

and I'm trying to figure out
what that means.

- Do you like to have fun?
What the [bleep] is that?

♪

- Oh, my God, sorry.

- Mr. "Does he like
to have fun."

- You have to stop
thinking about everything.

- Trust me, you'll know
when mad, actually.

- Just turn.

- You? Why?

It takes a lot.

And the only people who
have ever actually

gotten me really mad
is my parents, so.

- Well, wifey's right up there.

[laughs]

- ♪ I don't want trouble
in my way ♪

♪ I won't go there
till it's over ♪

♪ I'll fight another day

- Hey.
- Hey, how was the gym?

- Sweaty.

Leg day, cardio day, tired day.

- Yeah.

Today, I feel very tired.

- Yeah?

- Yeah, I would say, you know,
I know we, uh,

we were a little offbeat
this morning.

- Yeah.

- You know, and I kinda
feel like, you know,

I kinda still need to sit
in my emotions.

You know,
'cause I'm really just feeling

emotionally depleted.

- I think that yesterday
was just a lot.

I do offer you grace
in that moment.

I know that was not
necessarily your best self.

And sometimes that happens.

You know, we've been there,
and I'm not

going to hold
that moment against you

or hold it over our marriage
'cause that's not fair.

But the emotions just aren't
dissipating as quickly

as I would like them to.

- Yeah, and I would say
I'm in the same boat,

but I think everything that
you are feeling is fair.

You know, and I understand,
you know,

the contradictory topic
that we were talking about.

And I think just
with the long day

that we had
and everything else,

it's a real [bleep] excuse.

You now, but I really
did just drop the ball.

♪

- I think moving forward,
I just need

consistency in your words.

Because I feel like I haven't
backtracked

or changed words
on what I say to you.

And I would just
appreciate that from you

moving forward as well--

not to just put
all the blame on you

because I know I got very
vocally dramatic with you.

But I think my frustrations
were just so high

that I didn't really
feel like you were my husband.

I honestly just
felt like you were

a man that I met six days ago.

♪

- And I understand that.

I think that's really fair
to feel that way.

You know, because, you know,
I wasn't being

your husband in that moment.

- We've both had moments where
we weren't our best selves,

but I've also seen
a lot of moments

where I feel like
you were at your best,

and I think that at your
purest, most genuine,

that's who you really are.

- Thanks.

- You know, we got this.

- ♪ I won't let you go

♪

- Come sit by me. Come on.

It's okay, it's okay,

it's okay, it's okay,
it's okay.

It's okay.

- ♪ All that we fight for

♪ Got lost in the shuffle

♪ But all I know

♪

- Okay, looks like we're here.

- Hola!

Saw the doctor at the resort,

and she doesn't have
the specialized knowledge

to know if my ear is damaged.

So I'm going to a doctor
in the city of Cancun.

I have to go to the hospital
in Cancun.

- Yeah.
- So I'm gonna go there.

- Yeah, all right,
that sounds good.

I don't know if I can go
'cause I have my meeting.

- I know, I know.

- But, yeah,
let me know how it goes.

I know that
he is in a lot of pain,

and I do feel
really bad for him.

So yeah, I don't know.
I hope it all works out.

I hope that he gets
whatever he needs

so that he can start,
like, healing 'cause, like,

he hasn't slept
because of this.

So I hope that they fix
whatever the issue is.

♪

- ♪ It's the feeling
that you give me ♪

♪ Every time
that you are with me ♪

- I picked flowers
on the beach.

- [laughs]

We couldn't do this in Denver.
- No!

- But could you pick me
a flower off of the beach

with the ocean behind me?
- No.

How many rose beaches
do we have in Denver?

- Three.

- [laughs]
All right.

- All in my imagination.

- I just kind of wanna
clear everything up with you.

I know in the past
you had boyfriends

who were avoidant

and make sure you aren't
feeling that way with me.

- In past relationships,
I think it's been my go-to

to rush in pretty quickly
by way of, like,

really deep, hard conversations

because I've found--
- Right off the bat?

- Yeah.
- Oh, interesting.

- Like, they're topics
that are important to me,

and so when I've dated
people in the past, like,

I do bring them up right away.

♪

- Well, to each their own,
you know?

- Yeah, and I know that there
might be differences there

because I was raised Jewish,
but I'm personally agnostic.

But like, I also know
that those differences

have caused me such anxiety
before in past relationships.

And with you,
I don't feel that.

- I'm just, like,
plain old Christian.

But my parents didn't
exactly line up on faith.

So seeing how they maneuvered
those topics, like,

I think that is beneficial,
especially considering

we might have differences
in those areas now.

- We know we do.

But like,
there's so much else there,

where in past relationships,
there hasn't.

And I've only, like,
looked for those commonalities,

latched on
to those commonalities,

and used those as a foundation.

And that has failed me.

I feel like by us building
a foundation on all

of the other aspects
of our relationship

and all of our other strengths
and everything else,

we will be able
to get through a lot.

- I agree 100%.

I think we are learning
how one another communicates,

and I think the best way
to do that

is starting out
with the small issues

and then moving
to the big ones.

- Yeah, and I personally
am not extremely worried

about how the, like, issues
that we haven't talked about

might impact our relationship.

Like, I feel like
we are strong,

and I feel like we're so
understanding of each other,

and this time will
only make that better.

- Yeah, totally.

- ♪ Let's make some waves

♪

[upbeat music]

- Yeah, I think I'm very
much in my head right now.

- Yeah?

- Yeah, 'cause, I mean,
right now,

I actually feel
kind of bad that,

you know, I'm not
as talkative or as touchy

as I have been.

I know it can be, like, a bit
of a night and day difference.

- I'm like that too.
That's okay.

- Okay.

- Orion is still feeling
like he failed the marriage

and failed me,
so I wanted to have

a conversation with Dr. Pia.

I'm really hoping that she can
give us some better tools

to navigate conflict
in the moment

and maybe do better

at compartmentalizing
in the moment.

Come a little closer,
just because--

- Yeah, sure, sure.

Here we go.
- Okay.

- Hi.
- Hi.

- Hi.

- Hi, how are you both doing?

- Good.
- Doing good.

How are you?
- Good. Good.

So tell me, what's going on?

- So, last night,
something came up, you know,

I'd not really discussed
with Lauren before.

And what it specifically was,
was she had--

she had had sex two months
prior to, you know,

our marriage,
and I kind of said

that, you know,
sex is off the table.

- Gotcha.

Orion, is that still
how you're feeling?

- Honestly, no.

You know, but what I do know
that has come clear

is just, you know, I do think

that we need
more of a foundation.

And so, you know,
I think I failed her

in using the words that I did,

and because of it,
I kind of put Lauren

in a very
uncomfortable situation

where she didn't feel safe.

And I just--and I just
really feel like I failed her

as a husband in the moment.

You know, and right now,
it's actually--

- [whispering]
It's okay, it's okay.

- It's heavy.

- You didn't fail me, okay?

- So I appreciate
your vulnerability

even in this moment, Orion,

and I appreciate
you acknowledging

your ownership into what
contributed to this conflict.

I'm also hearing a lot
of judgmental words

for yourself, right,
like, I failed.

Right, I'm a failure.

And so I'm curious if that
is your perspective, Lauren.

- No, I've tried
to explain to him

that I don't feel like he's
failing me in this marriage.

It just comes
with the territory

of being married
for seven days.

- Orion, can you
believe her that

she doesn't view you
as a failure and think

that you failed the marriage?

- I can feel it,
you know, because I think

when the elevation
of emotions toned down,

she did do a good job,
you know,

reassuring me and everything.

But it was very apparent
for me when, I guess,

the tone of the conversation
got elevated,

I did feel myself, you know,
get uncomfortable.

And I started to get confused.

And the reason why it's
affecting me as much as it is

is because I had to protect
my mom and sister

from my stepfather growing up,

and it's not something I want
to be a part of our marriage.

But right now, I'm having
a really hard time just feeling

confident in that, you know,
just because of how intense

and how raw the emotions
were last night.

- Okay.

So in that, I hear perhaps
that you need for the tone

to be calm, for voices
to not be elevated,

maybe to remain respectful
of one another?

- Yeah.

- Okay.
Lauren, can you agree to that?

- Yeah, I know that
in the heat of the moment,

my tone does elevate.

I would definitely say
that there was no yelling

last night,
but I get a little bit

more animated
when I'm frustrated

and when I'm not feeling heard.

- Sure.
And that makes sense, right?

I heard that
you didn't feel safe,

and I heard that
you felt attacked.

- I honestly just felt judged
for being myself,

and I felt like he was
saying that my intentions

weren't as pure as his.

- I never questioned
her intentions.

I just feel like
I was very careless

in the way it came up.

- Do you believe her
when she says

she is taking this seriously?

The fact that she had sex
two months ago

does not impact how much
she's committed

to this relationship.

- I believe her, yeah.

- Does that feel genuine,
Lauren?

- Yeah, it does.

So what I'm going
to offer to you is this.

I'm gonna leave you with this.

I want you to think
about your marriage

as a bank account,
an emotional bank account.

We've got to work
on putting deposits

into that bank account,
'cause every time

there's this
negative interaction,

whenever there is an argument,
wherever one is shutting down

or whatever,
it's a withdrawal.

And what we don't
want to happen

is have our bank account
go into the negative.

So we have to keep
feeding into it.

So now, while you're
on your honeymoon,

enjoy one another,
focus on having fun.

- You know, I don't
wanna speak for her,

but, you know, I feel like
there have been a lot

of great deposits
in our bank account.

But this was just a really
big withdrawal for me.

- And that's okay.

That just means we're
gonna continue

to put in more deposits, okay?

All right, y'all, it was
a pleasure talking with you.

- Thank you so much.
- Thank you so much, Dr. Pia.

- You're welcome.
- Bye.

I really appreciate
you doing that.

And know that I don't feel like

it was a big withdrawal
last night.

I expressed my emotions,
and I think

we've come to an understanding.

- Yeah, I think so too.

And I think right now,
it's just what I'm feeling.

- Is there anything that
I can offer you or do?

- I think--I would think that
space would be helpful

so that I can get my feet
back on the floor.

- I can just come
back to you later.

- Yeah, 'cause I--
yeah, I definitely

do need to, uh,
catch my breath.

- Okay.
- Okay. Thank you.

♪

- So it's the first time
that I am in this hotel room

without Cameron,
and all I have to do is just...

[sighs, laughs]

It has been so much fun
spending time with him.

To go from single to this
has been an adjustment,

to say the very least.

But I do hope that
Cameron is doing well.

I hope that his ear,
you know, gets fixed

and that the pain goes away.

Yeah.

♪

- ♪ Live it up

♪ Raise your cup

♪ We'll keep dancing
till the sun is coming up ♪

♪ Live it up

♪ Can't get enough

♪ So live it up

- Where is Cameron?

- Cameron wasn't feeling great.

He literally didn't sleep
last night the entire night.

But he went to the doctors.

And yeah, I think he just
has an ear infection.

So hopefully, he shows up.
I don't know.

- Yeah, yeah,
hopefully he's doing okay.

- Hopefully he shows up.

- Hopefully he didn't
leave and go home.

I don't know, but yeah.

- Maybe he got--
- It's his escape plan.

- What did you guys do today?

- We were supposed
to go to the beach,

but we ended up
on a FaceTime with Dr. Pia.

Probably our first hurdle of--
- Second hurdle.

- Yeah, so we've been
communicating through that

and giving
each other clarity in it.

- And lots of space.
- Yeah.

- Sometimes space
is good and necessary.

- Yeah, there's been
a lot of that today.

♪

- [gasps] Shut up.

- That is as tall as me.

[laughter]

- What?

That's so sweet.

- What is this?
- Oh, thank you.

How's your ear, for one?
- Better.

- Better. This is so sweet.

- We've spent so much time
talking about ways

of showing affection.

I decided to go back to basics.

- There you go.

- Thank you, Cameron.
- You're welcome.

- You're the bomb.
I really appreciate you.

I have no words for how much
that means to me.

Because it means more
than just the roses

and how beautiful they are,
but it's the fact that

he was going
through such a hard day

and went out of his way
to make that happen.

- How's the ear?

- Yeah.
- Yeah, better.

Apparently a course of
antibiotics,

and I'll be right.

- Nice, okay.

- That was so, so sweet.

I will not cry,
but that was sweet.

- Guys, I'm sad that
we're leaving soon.

- I know.

- I think I'm just so happy
with our honeymoon.

I think I didn't expect
to get out of it what I got,

which is, I think relief
and distraction from a lot

of the physical and mental pain
that I've gone through

in the last few months.

And it's funny 'cause, like,
I remember asking for somebody

with, like, a sense of humor.

But I don't remember
asking for, like,

the weirdest person,
the weirdest puppy

that ever lived.
- I love weird.

- Yeah, and that's what
they gave me, and, like,

I'm really happy
that that's what they gave me.

- Yeah.
- Same.

We had fun. I'm good.

- Our honeymoon has
been a little bit

of a roller coaster, I'd say,

kind of like
one extreme to the next.

So you know,
I'm just enjoying the ride.

- I also think, like,
having a roller coaster now

is better than having
a roller coaster down the road.

- I said the same thing.

I think I'd rather get all
the loop de loops out now

and see how everything else
goes after.

- We're kind of approaching it
in a different fashion.

Things that we presume
might be contentious,

we're putting off
to a later date

so we can build a foundation
and really understand

one another before we take on
those bigger, harder issues.

- Yeah, I think that's also
a good way of doing it.

- Yeah.
- Everyone's different.

- There's no right
or wrong way.

- There's not.
- Everyone's different.

- There's no really
guidebook for marriage.

If there was,
I would have read it.

[laughter]

- For me, I feel
like the honeymoon

is going way better than
I could have ever expected.

So I just appreciate you
for just being you

and making it so much fun.

That's really all that matters.

- But I sometimes am
a little too sarcastic,

and I'm used to
speaking my mind

and not having
any repercussions

on anyone but myself.

So I just wanna be
more aware in the way

that I usually would, like,
just say things

and, like, not think.

But I really wanna be
more cognizant of, like,

the effects it has
on us together.

- Yeah, I appreciate that.

- What about you guys?

- I think, like,
specifically, Clare and I--

I haven't said this before,
so I guess

I'm gonna gauge your reaction.

[laughter]

I think that we're
the kinds of people that,

like, if we were dating, like,

we wouldn't throw ourselves
at each other.

- Right.
- Right?

So I think when
we go back,

what I think's
gonna be important is

transitioning a friendship
into a romantic one.

♪

- I appreciate that.

And I think something
I need to be better about

is, like, waiting
before I just respond.

'Cause sometimes it's just,
like, reacting in that moment

when I should be,
like, processing it

and then saying something.

- I mean, you're the
fastest gun in the West.

I'll give you that.

- Yeah, but I need to chill.

- I feel like we definitely
have that in common.

That's why--that's
probably why we bonded.

- Yeah, I agree. I agree.
I know.

I'm like, she's my soul sister.
She gets it.

- I definitely think I got

what I wanted
out of this honeymoon.

Just be careful
what you ask for,

'cause I think my goal was
to see what makes Orion tick,

and we got there.

And hopefully, it's something
we can laugh about

maybe not tomorrow,
but maybe in a few weeks.

But we figured out that
I am a very fiery person,

and my tone can kind of dictate

the flow of conversation
sometimes.

And I never want Orion to feel
like my tone is making him

regress in the conversation.

So I'm gonna do better.

And I want to apologize.

My jokes don't always land
where they're supposed to,

and I sometimes speak
without consideration

to your feelings, or at least
I did in that moment.

I've used terms that,
when I was younger,

that I didn't even know
were derogatory.

- Redskin?

- No, I don't think
I've ever used that language.

But, like, I don't even know
what redskin means, honestly.

Oh, I do.

I just looked at your face.

♪

I know we're still
navigating that,

and I don't expect it
to be an overnight thing.

I don't expect it to be
an over week thing.

But I'm just very apologetic
for just how it made you feel.

I think that hurt me the most,
just knowing that it hurt you.

And I'm still working
with that too.

- The unintentional joke,
you know, it cut really deep.

And it is definitely
the one thing that

I cannot stop thinking about.

But it's really hard
to be vulnerable

with all the other couples
about what had taken place

because I'm not sure
if they would understand,

you know, just with the topic
of, you know,

race, culture,
things like that.

But, you know, it's still--
it's still a big obstacle.

You know, one thing that
I do want to improve on,

being a little more consistent
with sharing my feelings,

you know,
when things do come up.

You know, and so I do want
to improve on, you know,

voicing it,
regardless of how I'm feeling.

- And I just want you
to feel safe

that you can do that, honestly.

I tell you all the time,
I'm pretty strong.

Like, you can't really
hurt my feelings too bad.

I mean, you can, but you know,
I feel like

we're learning each other,
and so it's better

to just lay it all out
on the table.

- Yes.

But I know for me,
you know, I do kind of--

I reserve myself.

So I'm trying
to not do that so much

and actually open up
a different door

that honestly, right now,
does feel a little scary.

It does feel a little scary.

♪

- ♪ Take a deep breath

♪ And open my eyes

♪ I've been waiting
all my life ♪

[upbeat music]

- Good morning.
How'd you sleep?

- Better.

- Yeah, I didn't notice you,
like,

awake all night, which is good.
- No. No.

- That means your ear is not
hurting nearly as much, right?

- Yes, the pain has reduced,
I'd say, significantly.

Now, it feels like it's kind of
blocked, which is a good thing

that I got the antibiotics.

'Cause that's, like--
that's definitely--

- It's not painful, it's just
kind of uncomfortable.

- Yeah, exactly.
- That's good.

- But I think I'll be fine now.

- That's good.
- Yeah.

So we're about to go
on our second travel journey

as a married couple.

- First was not the greatest.

- I mean, not the
greatest for you.

- Not the worst--right.
- It was great for me.

- 'Cause I didn't
really understand you

at the beginning.

- Well, as you described
to me, you felt abandoned.

- That's dramatic.
- I'm sorry, is that not--

- You were just booking,
hauling away.

- Okay.
- You know what I mean?

Like, you were a man
on a mission.

And I was like, I don't even
know where he is at this--

but the communication
was very much lacking.

- Yes, you felt that
I just left you behind.

Is that fair?
- Sort of. Yeah, yeah.

- Okay, okay, and that was
not my intention at all.

- Yeah, I don't know.

What was I supposed to think
that you were running--

I guess there was just
a missing link there.

- Did you think
I was running away?

- I thought you were
just like, yeah, on a mission

'cause that's
kind of your personality too.

It's like bing, bing.
We have this to do, that.

And I was just like,
he needs to chill out.

He needs to take a chill.

But now I'm understanding
where that came from,

and that helps.

- Going back home,
that needs to be

at the forefront of my mind.

- I overreacted
is what happened there.

- Yes, and I was confused by
the over--you know, just by--

- So was I.
- I think it was a long day.

- Right, right, right, right.
- We were both exhausted.

And I don't blame you at all.

It was a lot.

And I think--honestly,
I think we're better for it.

Even if it could have
been better in the moment,

I think now
we're better for it.

- And it'll make
going back a lot easier.

- Yeah.

Yeah, I think--I think
you maybe give me more

of the benefit of the doubt,
and me for you as well,

where it's like we know
we have good intentions

about how
we wanna treat each other,

right, and it's just assuming
the best but, you know,

asking if something's wrong.
- Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah, no, I get that.

I think I can't wait
to, like, I go home

and get back to my routine.

I think I've been
really missing that.

- Well, I need
that routine as well,

and I just hope that
we can learn the new routine.

- Yeah.

- 'Cause it's not
gonna be the same.

- Yeah, you're right.

You're right.
[laughs]

♪

- We were up pretty late
last night chatting,

until about 3:00.

Last night, Lauren and I were,
you know,

kind of recapping
of the honeymoon, and, uh...

♪

A dialogue opened up.

- He let me know that
he's just not sure

if he can come back
from the offensive comment

I made in the hot tub.

- Something I haven't
told her was, you know,

one of the biggest feelings
that happened to me

in that moment was, you know,
I felt like a minority

in my marriage, which is
something that, you know,

really hasn't gone away.

- I definitely take ownership
of what I said

and the impact it has had
on the marriage.

But the repercussions
are going to make me

feel equally disconnected
from the marriage.

And I don't know how
to move in a marriage

where I don't feel married.

I guess we'll see.

What a way to end
the honeymoon.

[upbeat music]

♪

- Good morning.
- Morning.

You ready to get up?

- No. Ready to go home?

- Not at all.

- But we get to move in.

- [clears throat]
Excited for that.

- Is there anything you're
nervous for getting back?

- I'm not nervous
because I know

you won't be as messy
at the house as you are here.

- I don't know
what you're talking about.

- If you are,
we gonna have issues.

- [laughs]
No.

To be a functioning
adult in society

and then to also find
another functioning adult

and then to live together
and to make that work together,

that is--
that's a milestone, baby.

But I just need him to keep
showing up authentically

who he is and all
of the sides to him--

good, bad.

Although, I haven't
really seen a bad side,

but all the good sides
that I've seen

and the bad sides to come.

- So basically,
when we move back to Denver,

we're taking
two very independent lives

and smushing them together.
- Yeah.

- You think
that will be an issue?

You think we'll be able
to handle it well?

- There will always be
a learning curve, like,

when you blend a life
with anybody.

And so we will
tackle them one day,

one step, one task at a time.

I'm excited to learn
how to show up for you

in those difficult ways

and also
in the exciting ways that--

you know, like, when something
good happens, like,

with one of your friends, or if
you have a bad day at work,

you know, stuff like that,
just learning how to show up

to you--for you in that way.

- That's nice.

♪

Ditto.

No, I agree.

I...look forward to doing that,

albeit, I'm unsure...

what exactly
that entails at this moment.

I'm not fearful of it.

I do know you need to be
well-fed and well-rested,

so I feel like
I've already learned a lot.

- And how do you think
you can show up for me

emotionally when we get back?

- Oh, by opening up
and going deeper.

♪

- Do you wanna
answer seriously?

- That is serious.

I just, like, don't know
how to answer it.

I mean, yeah, I will
always show up for you

and do my best to not only,
like,

progress this relationship,
but also, like,

be there for you.

And although I don't know
what that entails, like,

that doesn't stop me
from wanting to do that.

Aww.

He answered right this time.
- That one gets a kiss.

[both laugh]

- Psshew. Okay.

- What was that?
- That was a high five.

I recognize that my hand moves
so fast it's just a blur.

- Lightning bolt. Pew!

♪

- [singing in Spanish]

♪

- Do you want me
to help you with your stuff?

- Wow. No, but thank you.

- I mean--

- I can be packed
literally in two minutes.

- Okay, cool, cool.

- ♪ My bags are packed

- Perfect.

- ♪ No, there's no
turning back ♪

♪ I'm coming home

♪

- Usually, I sit on it,
but I don't think

I needed to do that today.

♪

- All right, let's go meet
everyone for breakfast

before we head out.
- Yeah.

- Giddy up.
- Andale, andale.

- All right, rolling out.

- ♪ I'm coming home

♪ My bags are packed

♪ I'm coming home

♪ No, there's no
turning back ♪

♪ I'm coming home

♪ 'Cause it's been too long

♪ I'm coming home

- Where do you wanna sit?
- Sit, yeah.

- [crying]

I just be trying to hold it
together in front of y'all.

I'm trying so hard.

Because I did feel myself
falling for him,

and now I'm just like,
"Well, what the [bleep]?"

- Yeah.

- And then today, I'm trying to
go downstairs to get my stuff,

and I overhear him say
that he felt like

I didn't have his back.

And it's just little things
that have happened to me

that I'm like, you know,
I can give you grace for that.

You know, I know that's not
your best self.

I know that we are
working through this,

blah, blah, blah, but for this,
he's like,

no, you attacked
my community, my culture.

And I'm just like, how many
more ways can I say I'm sorry?

How many more times
can I tell you

that I am researching and doing
what I need to do

to figure out how to navigate
this intercultural relationship

that I've never done before

because I care so much
about you?

And you're down here saying
that I don't have your back

and that I failed the marriage.

- This is so hard.

I'm just so frustrated with not
being I feel, like, understood.

And I don't think
I'm making it any better

because I just had this
huge blow-up with him

in which I was yelling,
and I asked for a divorce

because he told me
that he feels like I failed him

and I failed the marriage.

And I took my ring off today,
but I'm just so mad.

I'm just so [bleep] mad.

♪

- Honestly, other
than losing my mom,

I think this is
the most difficult

physically
and emotionally thing

that I have ever done
in my life.

♪

- ♪ It's just another
one of those days ♪

♪ One of those days

♪ That never ends

- Hey.

- What's going on, Orion?

How you doing, man?

- I'm doing all right.

First off, thank you so much
for taking the time to really,

you know, I guess,
be here with me.

- Not a problem.

I just wanted to see
what's going on

and talk to you to see
what I can do to help.

- I had brought up
a derogatory term.

And after I brought that up,

she made a very careless,
crude joke.

- Did at any point
she say that she was wrong

or admit it was crass?

- After, you know,
emotions had settled,

she really expressed herself
how she was feeling, you know,

and, you know, let me know
that, you know,

it was very vile,
she shouldn't have done it,

things like that, which I
thought was really nice.

But also with that,
the weight of the joke

started to really sit with me
in the sense where I was

really starting to feel,
honestly,

really offended
and violated in it.

- You have every right
to stand firmly

against anyone who wants
to use a derogatory term

about you or your culture.

Look, of all people,
I get that,

and she does, too,
which is why we thought--

which is why this is so
surprising that

this is a conflict
for you guys,

because it shouldn't be.

- Yeah, and really,
this was the last thing

I expected to happen.

- But did you--
so she did apologize?

- Yes.

- Did you accept her apology?

- Honestly, this is why it's
hard to accept the apology.

Because today, we got into it,
and, you know, she was saying

that I am lying
about how things played out.

And then it went as far as,
you know, she wanted a divorce.

She's not attracted,
and she took her ring off.

I mean, it's just--

- Yeah, that--
that--that's just--

that's reaction, man.

That is a knee-jerk
reaction to pain.

Yeah, I get it, man.
Yeah, I--yeah.

How do you feel?

- Right now, I am sad in the
fact that I know she cares.

I know she cares
a lot about me,

and we've built
a really great connection.

But any time it does come up,

because it is still sitting,

you know,
not naturally with me,

it gets pretty explosive.

- You haven't had a chance to
express how you actually feel.

- Truly.

- I think there needs to
be a conversation

where we all
can talk about this,

and we can come
to some conclusions.

- Agreed.
- Fair enough?

- Yes, agreed.

- Okay, where is she
right now?

- Okay, let me talk to Lauren.

- Thank you.
- All right.

We're good, buddy. I got you.

- Thank you.

♪

- Ready to bounce?

- Let's see, we're
waiting on one or two?

- We're missing Lauren--

- Are the other two
over there with you?

- Okay.

- ♪ So now
we're chilling longer ♪

♪

- Hey, Pastor Cal.

- What's going on, Lauren?

- The days are
running together.

I don't know
if it was yesterday.

Whatever day
we went on the boat,

I asked him if we were good
on that conversation

we had in the tub.

And he told me we're good.

Next thing I know,
he's not good.

And so I don't really know
what set it off,

but I heard him say
that he felt

like I didn't have his back.

♪

And that just--

I was not my best self.

It just sent me into a spiral.

And I was like,
I want a divorce.

I took my ring off.

♪

Because I felt like
through this thing,

I have had his back.

And it just made me feel--

like, we already went through
something where I felt

like he didn't have my back.

And I assured him and affirmed
him that, you know,

it was a moment,
we'll get through it.

We got into an argument,

and then he says
that I failed him,

and I failed the marriage.

♪

And I know that I'm not
doing everything right.

I'm taking ownership of that.

Like, I did say what I did--
I said that.

It was a joke in extreme--

I don't even wanna say
poor taste.

That makes it sound
minimizing, honestly.

But it was a joke that
I should have never said.

And yelling and taking
the ring off, like,

all of that was wrong,
absolutely wrong.

But it's not that
I'm not trying.

- Okay, okay. I get it.
I get that. Okay?

First of all,
I don't have to tell you

that taking off the ring,

saying, "I want a divorce,"
was a bad move.

- Yes.

- Do you want a divorce?

♪

♪ Say you hate me

♪ Just a sound

♪ Just say something

- First of all,
I don't have to tell you

that taking off the ring,

saying, "I want a divorce,"
was a bad move.

- Yes.

- Do you want a divorce?

♪

- No, I was letting
my passions override

the goal of the marriage.

- And I get it, Lauren.

Look, it was the knee-jerk
reaction to pain.

You guys obviously
have not talked

to any real emotional,
vulnerable extent.

Right now,
we're gonna deescalate.

We're gonna reset.
- Okay.

- 'Cause this is too heavy at
this stage in your marriage.

I need to sit
in front of both of you

and talk with you together.

Okay, can we get him in here?

♪

- Hey, guys.
both: Hey.

- I believe that every
successful couple

has to fight
through imperfection

to be perfectly perfect
for each other.

So what I wanna do
is use this opportunity

to talk about
what has happened

and why we're at this point
right now.

And then let's see how
we can get through this.

You said, Lauren,
that you felt

as though you gave him grace,
but he's not giving you any.

And it's almost like he's
not accepting your apology

or your contrition.
Is that right?

- Yes.

And I feel like that's where
so much of my hurt is from,

because I do see
that I hurt you.

I've expressed this to you.

I've expressed this to anyone
who will listen to me

that I understand
the level of what I said

and why it affected you.

And I still feel like you're
just like, "You don't get it.

You don't get it."

And I'm consistently
telling you I do get it.

- You have.

You know, I wouldn't
say that you haven't.

But when we do get onto
the discussion of this,

I still have not been able
to truly say how I have felt.

- Let's do it now.

Let's say exactly
how you feel and how you felt.

- I feel like you
not only offended me

and violated my culture,
but I also feel like

you offended my family.

So there is a lot more
that it extends on my end.

I have a whole community
that I have to come back to,

and they are gonna
have opinions about this,

my mom included,
everybody around the world

who is indigenous.

It affects all of us
at a much deeper level,

and that's where I feel like
you don't get it.

Because I've never been able
to actually say that

and finish my sentence
because it goes 0 to 100.

- It went 0 to 100 because you
said I didn't have your back.

- All the time.

- Okay, let's not interrupt.

Let's just--let's talk--
let's talk it through.

We're gonna talk
to a complete thought,

and we're gonna wait, and
we're gonna get a response.

So have you expressed
to him that you understand

the depth of what was said?

- I have multiple times.

And honestly, we haven't--
you keep saying that

every time we talk about this,
it goes 0 to 100,

but we haven't talked about it.

So I don't appreciate
you saying that we have

when we actually
haven't discussed it.

I've been trying to research
and just get myself more aware

of just terms in general,
not just derogatory terms

but terms of endearment
in the Navajo culture,

terms--anything that
I could just get off Google.

- Orion, how do you feel about
that, that she's proactively

trying to learn more?

- I respect it,
and I really appreciate it.

And it, you know,
it speaks loads

to what we're dealing with.

- Is that not enough for you?

- Unfortunately.

- I'm sorry to hear that.
I really am.

Why is that not enough?

- Because I can't get past
what was said.

- So as it is right now,

are you saying
you cannot forgive her?

- You know,
because of this reason alone--

the first time
I experienced racism,

it was within my own culture.

I was called an apple--

red on the outside,
white on the inside.

And now the second time

I experienced
that level of it...

♪

Was with a very crude joke
from you.

- Orion, I want you
to hear me.

There's an old saying,
you know,

to err is human,
to forgive divine.

- It is so sewn
into who I am, how I grew up,

and where I came from,
and it's just--

it's--I can't do it.

♪

- Lauren.

- I just gotta
get myself together.

I'm coming back.
I'm coming back.

♪

- Orion, she's throwing
herself on the sword.

- It doesn't matter what I do.

Like, that's what
I'm trying to tell y'all.

It doesn't matter.

I could write a 50-page essay
and give a PowerPoint

to the entire US of A
about derogatory terms

in his nation,
and it wouldn't matter to him

because it's a him thing,

and there's nothing else
I can do.

It's nothing more remorse--

there's nothing I can do
that I haven't done.

- Yeah, and you know,
honestly, it's--

I don't know what more I can
say to really explain it,

but I can't move past this.

- Okay.

- I have no idea
where we go from here.

- ♪ You can blame it all
on me ♪

- Hold on. Hold on. Hold on.

- ♪ You can say
it wasn't meant to be ♪

♪ You can claim
I was impossible ♪

- [crying]

♪

- Next time on
"Married at First Sight"...

- You ready to see
our new apartment?

- Our couples returned home to
Denver and move in together.

- We're gonna rock this.
- It's gonna be easy.

[knock at door]

- Maybe we should, like,
reconvene in a few days

before moving to our new place.

- Like, what the [bleep].
Like, something is off.

Like, what happened?

- We talked about religion,
and we definitely

have some differing opinions.

- I don't often meet Christians
who don't wanna change my mind.

- See, I didn't
know this about you.

- If you just ask.

- I just need you to tell me
if you're physically

attracted to me or not.

- I just can't do it.

- I didn't ever
really anticipate, like,

a lot of what's happening.

- There is no romance
within me anymore.

♪

- Do you want a divorce?

♪