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Hello.

Yes, speaking.

Yes.

OK, I'm coming. Yes, right away.

Who was it?

Police.

There's a problem...

What problem?

Daughter.

Whose daughter?

Mine.

Your daughter?

Yes.

You have a daughter?

Yes.

Why didn't you tell me that?

You never asked.

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- Good evening. - Good evening.

- Here to pick someone up? - I'm the father.

- Whose? Ieva's. I'm Linas Avdejavas.

- Resident’s father? - Yeah.

While her guardian lives in the UK?

Yes, her aunt.

Child lives alone and started drinking.

- Good evening. - Hello.

- Picking someone up? - Maja. Maja Rudzinskaite.

Come on in.

- How about me? - Wait here.

He's here for Maja.

- Good evening. - Good evening.

Sign here for your daughter.

Name, last name, signature.

- Here? - Yes.

So this apartment belongs to her aunt?

Yes.

- Where's the mother? - She lives in Norway.

You as well?

No, I live here... Nearby.

Could I speak to my daughter?

Well, there's no reason for the crisis center if her father's here.

- Come in. - Thanks.

It’s quicker like this.

- Good evening. - Hi.

We need your signature.

This is a hand-over note, confirming that she's not alone.

Sign here.

- Okay, thank you, bye. - Thank you very much.

You can go as well.

Don't tell me what to do, okay?

Fine, do whatever you want.

Hey...

Hey, Mom...

So, who's been bratty?

Oh, you...

I'm just asking...

You're the one who kicked me out. Did you forget that?

So what?

Did you even try visiting, calling? For once in your life?

If I knew that this is how you're taking care of her,

I would have called and taken care of her.

First of all, I want us to hear each other

and only after that will we make any decisions.

Could we all set a rule?

We will speak in turns.

She's always interrupting...

Ieva, who do you want to live with?

I liked it the way it was. I can take care of myself.

I'm afraid that's not possible.

You need a guardian because you're still a minor.

Then here.

Could you repeat that a bit louder?

I wanna stay here.

Here, meaning with your dad?

- With me? - Yes, with you.

We got along since I was little. He'll take care of me...

I can't...

Please, Dad, I want to stay here.

Do you know that he's a dangerous alcoholic?

Sober for a year now.

We've actually noticed the progress Linas is making.

He's got a job. And a flat.

Yes, and I'm already seventeen,

so you must consider my wishes as well, Mom.

Wait, Ieva, I don't understand.

Ieva, we talked about it.

Did you forget what he did to me? Ieva, do you remember?

And what did you do? What did you do?

I told you not to give birth, have an abortion.

And what did you say? Fuck it, everything's gonna be fine.

Amazing responsibility.

And what then? You fled to Norway, to another man.

Great! Is that how you took care of our child?

Do you know what alcoholism is? It's a disease...

- Congrats to the new daddy! - Thanks.

- Someone can't keep their mouth shut. - Sorry, I couldn't help myself.

Okay, let's start.

You what, had a baby?

Yeah, seventeen years ago.

Hello everyone, today we continue our chat about the twelve-steps

and we'll talk about step nine.

Making direct amends to such people wherever possible,

except when to do so would injure them or others.

- Hi, my name is Jonas and I'm an alcoholic. - Hi, Jonas.

I had to become a drunk to learn how to live,

I haven't been drinking for 10 years.

For me it's important not to drink that first drink,

so all hell won’t break loose.

But you know, I can't do it. It's impossible.

Even if I wanted to, I couldn't...

Problems with my apartment, debt collectors are after me.

No idea how they do that, but...

Why did she pick you, and not her mother?

We got along. I mean, before all that shit...

After that, everything was different, she didn't speak a word to me.

You know, having a minor is a mitigating circumstance.

What do you mean?

They can't kick you out of the apartment.

Seriously?

Didn't you know?

- Damn, this pie is great. - Totally not.

- You don't like it? - No, I don't.

- You want it? - Yeah...

Then take it, I'll just have the cherry.

Not that it's a doll's house, but it's better than nothing.

Very reasonable. Given the price.

And...

The owner let me renovate it, so I painted the walls here.

OK...

Yes...

We'll buy you a table, so you can do your homework.

If there's anything you need...

I'll take the living room...

- That's the kitchen. Want some tea? - No.

Here's the bathroom, toilet...

Here's some of the owner's stuff...

- Where's my room? - Here.

- Thanks. - Let me know if you need anything.

- Hello. - Hello.

I wanted to ask about the delay for bailiffs after getting custody of a child.

Yes, please fill out this form

and we'll direct you to a consultant.

Here, you can sit down.

Thanks.

Take out your pens, and get ready for the test.

Maja, please change your seat.

Martynas, put your phone away.

Finishing up.

Phones aside, the lesson is not over yet.

- How did it go? - Good.

Thank you.

- What? - Can I come in?

Come in.

- Are you hungry? - No, I'm not hungry.

The legendary Maja.

The very same.

- Hi, I'm Linas, Ieva's dad. - Hey.

I've brought pizza, and it's too much just for me...

Anyway, come if you want some.

- Let's go, let's go. - No.

- Come on, let's go. - I don't want to...

- Let's go. - No

Sorry...

Well, they say that ketchup makes anything edible.

They also say, if the women are ugly you just need to drink more beer.

Oh, yeah. That's true.

Women became so ugly when I quit drinking.

And when was that?

Yesterday.

I'm joking. I've been sober for a year.

Are they all still ugly?

They're slowly getting better.

Thanks.

I guess I'll go do my homework.

Yeah, I know how you do your homework...

I imagined your dad to be a toothless drunk.

So what?

He seems to be very normal.

Maja, he's sick.

I like his character, he seems very cool.

You know my dad, if you said something like that to him

he'd just shout 'go to your room, you cow'.

Maja, you didn’t see him before,

how he'd come back home, drunk.

He'd say he wouldn't drink anymore

and would still come back, covered in puke.

He was horrible to my mom.

But that was him drinking then...

So it doesn't count anymore, ‘cause it was back then?

I'm not saying that, I'm saying he's not drinking now.

Maybe he's changing...

People don't change, Maja. And he's not changing.

People like him will never change.

Does he have a girlfriend?

No. I don't know. What's the difference?

I don't know. How does he pleasure himself?

Eww, disgusting!

Breathe out and bring it down to your chest.

Let's move to the flamingo pose.

Feel your core.

Lift it up.

And move to the warrior I position.

This is 2nd level yoga, it can be a bit difficult for the beginners.

Let's flow to the Warrior II.

Put your back foot on the floor, and turn to the right,

keep your front leg in the same place.

Open up the right shoulder,

stretch your arms, and look over the left shoulder.

Keep your back straight, and, from the lower back, reach out.

And breathe out.

Perfect.

Very good.

Pull in your rear.

From the lower back, back straight, reach out, breathe.

Do your best.

Can I speak to Ieva?

No, she's in a lesson.

If you wish to continue with music,

you have to learn to say no to your friend.

Hold your breath at the top. Let's try again...

Finally, I thought you'd never finish.

How was it?

Perfect...

Hi, this is Tadas, the social worker.

Hello, sure, I remember you.

So, how's everything going?

It's going great, I'm actually making dinner now.

- And how's Ieva? Is everything okay? - She's fine.

She's taking a shower now. Do you want me to go get her?

No, it's not urgent, just tell her to call me when she's available.

Sure, no problem, I will.

OK.

Okay, take care then.

- Thanks, you too, goodbye. - Goodbye.

Can I answer?

Yes.

Where are you?

I'm at Maja's. We're studying for the test.

Ieva?

Yes?

- When are you coming back? - In the morning.

Next time, let me know you're not coming back, okay?

Sure...

He didn't give a shit for two years, and now pretends to care.

What if you had to choose between staying a virgin

or staying with your dad for the rest of your life?

No one wants me anyway, I'm fat.

You're not.

Oh, come on, fatty!

Come here.

Sit.

- Sit down. - I don't want to.

Where were you? I was worried.

For two years you didn't care, now you do?

I always cared for you.

Don't you think that you're ten years too late to play dad?

Listen, don't start, don't even start this conversation, okay?

Okay.

I know what I did. No need to remind me.

Believe me, I think about that shit way more than you do.

I know I screwed up badly, I know it was horrible for you.

But trust me, I didn’t get off lightly either.

But since we're living together now, let's try to be nice to each other.

Have you ever asked yourself why exactly I drank?

Nobody told me it's gonna be this hard.

I had to drop all my dreams, leave it all behind me.

Do you even know how shitty I felt?

It's always everyone else's fault, never yours.

If you want to live here you'll do what I say, is that clear?

Go out all night one more time, and I call the social worker,

and you can fuck off and live with your mom.

- Hello. - Good afternoon.

Anything else?

No, no.

- Thank you. - You're welcome.

What's this?

You were my top student, focus please.

Not bad.

- You got a C+? - Yeah.

Why didn't you tell me that you won't finish it in time?

I don't know.

Should I tell her that A is yours?

Nah, it doesn't matter.

You look like a stalker...

What are you doing there?

Ieva's getting ready for her concert.

Why didn't she tell me anything?

I don't know, it's strange she didn't.

Well, you know, father of the year...

Actually, I also performed when I was your age.

Really? What instrument did you play?

I didn't play, I was a dancer.

We were touring with the 'Royal Space'.

Mhm...

The 'Royal Space'.

- I think, I've heard of it somewhere... - Oh, come on.

Oh, yes...

Yeah, my mum used to listen to this one.

Everyone was listening to it back then...

- Did you know he was in a band? - Oh, wow.

Of course she knows.

I still don't need to pay to get into any nightclub in Klaipeda.

Just say my name at the door and you'll get in.

I don't believe it.

I'm serious.

Then prove it.

- How am I gonna prove it? - I don't know.

Maybe you're just lying to us to make an impression, sir.

Don't call me sir.

You are lying.

- I'm lying? - Yes.

Did you brush your teeth?

Let's go to a club.

- Let's go. - Let's go!

Hey, long time no see!

- It's busy here... - Yeah, try the back entrance.

Thanks.

Let’s try a different way.

Hey.

Oh, hey!

Excuse me...

Hey, what's up!

- Hi! - Hey!

It's so good to see you!

Dance with me!

It's nice you came here!

Rise and shine, girls!

Hello?

Grandma's?! No!

Please, can I not go today?

Gotta go to my grandma's again...

It's so annoying...

Yeah, it's no better for me, staying here with my father.

Can I say anything at all, or is it always worse for you?

What do you mean?

I mean, can't you see how hard he's trying for you?

He loves you. Can't you see how much he cares about you?

You should have seen his love before.

You're like a broken record, Ieva.

Why are you defending him?

I can see that he wants the best for you.

You could try to see that as well.

- Going already? - Yeah...

- That's mine. - Whoops.

I'm going to the countryside.

- Alright. - I feel sorry for you.

We'll be waiting for you on Monday.

Ieva's concert on Monday.

- Will you come? - Can I just turn up?

- Yeah. - Then, yes, of course.

- OK. Enjoy your breakfast. - Thanks.

- Bye. - Bye.

- Good morning. - Hey.

I'm making pancakes.

I'm not hungry, thanks.

I don't know what to say.

The same as in our meetings, just tell them what you do to stay sober.

Okay, just let's keep it short, Ieva's performing today.

- Hi. - Hello.

Some people were passing by...

...and I saw a group of guys.

And I could hear them talking about me, joking around...

I heard one of them saying 'Now that's rock bottom.’

But I was lying down, it felt good...

Completely wasted, of course.

I was looking at the stars...

...thinking when was the last time I felt so good.

And while I was thinking that, I got punched.

I passed out,

when I woke up, I realized I was lucky to be alive.

I couldn't breathe, couldn't open my eyes.

I was covered in blood, and my head was throbbing.

I scratched my head, ‘cause I felt something was stuck there.

That's when I took out a shard of glass.

I always carry that shard with me.

When I took it out, I stopped denying it.

I was stuck in denial for 10 years.

That was the first time I realized I was sick and needed help.

It seemed like everyone else around me knew that I was an alcoholic,

but I was the last one to find it out.

You can ask Linas questions now.

Hello, everyone...

So, yeah, I...

I kind of don't wanna drink...

But there are friends, neighbors...

They come...

They come in for a chat, just for a chat.

And, say, I have decided that I want to stay sober, I really do.

But...

Sometimes I fail to stay that way.

It's like I'm afraid to offend them...

What do you do in these situations? Does it happen to you?

Yeah, I can completely understand you...

But for me, it somehow sorted itself out.

All these friends, these neighbors... They simply disappeared.

Some went to prison, some died.

So, yeah... That's it.

Alright.

That's it for today.

Yeah, share these with them, please.

I have some pamphlets for you, if you're interested in the program.

Thank you all for coming today. See you next time.

I'm going now, okay?

- I thought you wouldn't come. - Me too.

Thank you so much. It's so good to see all of you here.

Psst, Ieva!

- Well done you! - Thanks, I'm so happy!

- Well done! That's for you. - Thanks.

- Let's go to celebrate. - I can't, I still have a review.

Oh, okay.

- Hey, could you take my French horn? - Yeah, sure.

- Are you Ieva's dad? - Yes.

- Could we talk? - Of course.

Ieva is a great student, she's very talented.

Thank you, maybe it's her genes.

Did she tell you about continuing her studies?

No.

I'd like her to consider studying at the Freiburg Conservatory.

- I'm sorry, which country is that in? - Germany.

If she wants to get in, she needs to start preparing now.

Alright, but I just don't think she'll want to go, she won't want to leave Maja.

She didn't even want to go to live with her mom in Norway.

Talk to her, I think it's important you do.

Okay.

Bye.

- Can I have one? - Are you allowed?

Are you allowed?

No one's asking me.

Do they sell you cigarettes? They still ask me to show an ID.

They stopped asking for my ID long ago.

How old are you?

I'll be eighteen next year.

So, we're both almost eighteen.

I'm still that at heart, and you'll be that in a year.

Seriously, how old are you?

Twice eighteen.

What would you do, if the Russians invaded?

What?

Let's say, the warships come here.

My father is Russian, I'd make a deal with them, no problem.

And what would you do?

What?

If the Russians invaded?

I'd take a boat to Sweden.

And who would you take with you?

Ieva.

Mom, dad? No?

Not even if they were the last people on Earth.

That bad?

Anyway, my mom is sick.

I don't think she'd survive the trip.

Sorry, I didn’t know.

Look, if you need any help...

Or a limp shoulder to cry on...

Thanks.

- Here? - Yeah, I'm on the fourth floor.

- I wanted to ask for a favor, can I? - Yeah.

Please don't tell Ieva I was late?

Okay, thanks.

- Bye. - See you.

Hey there.

How are you after yoga?

You didn’t tell me there are men in your yoga class.

Did you notice how flexible that one was?

I sure saw that. Do you like him?

I do.

What else do you like?

What can he do that I can't?

- Hi. - Why didn't you pick up?

I didn't hear it ringing, sorry.

You weren't at the meeting yesterday, are you coming today?

- No, no, I won't come today. - Why?

I can't, I have some stuff to sort out with the debt collectors...

- You said it's over. - I have some stuff to do...

- Hey, if you need anything, call me. - Yeah...

- I'll call you tomorrow. - Alright.

Bye.

- Hi. - Hey.

- Can I come in? - Well, you're not a debt collector, so...

- So can I? - Yes, sure.

- Where's Ieva? - At the music school.

- Will you wait for her? - Yeah.

Linas, can I take your hoodie?

I think it's yours.

Take it.

What are you reading?

Reading this helps me when it gets difficult.

When you want to drink?

Yes.

Why didn’t it help, when you started drinking?

I wasn't reading this then.

Do you, really believe in this?

It depends, what do you mean?

That there's a man in the sky controlling us with a joystick?

It helps me. It's our way of recovery.

You mean at Alcoholics Anonymous?

How often do you go there?

Two or three times a week.

Can't you recover without them?

I couldn't do it by myself.

Doesn't it feel like you're in some sect?

No, why do you say that?

What do you know about them?

- Nothing. - Exactly.

I'm just asking.

Everyone turned away from me except for them.

They're like my family.

Is it a better family than Ieva?

Didn't your mom tell you to mind your own business?

What?

Nothing, I just remembered my mom.

I didn't mean that, Maja.

Hey, sorry.

I'm sorry.

I just forgot about that.

Hi. Maja?

Where are you?

Hi.

- Hey, - Listen girls, let's go out!

Out?

Yea... yeah...

Go, get ready, it's a Friday night. Let's go bowling!

- I don’t know how to. - No worries, we'll teach you.

Come on, it's gonna be fun!

Should I give you something to change into?

I’m ok.

- It would fit your grandma. - Stop, put this on!

Linas, we're here!

Why are you there? Come, girls.

Girls, meet Teja and Diana.

- Hi, Ieva. - I'm Maja.

- Hi, I'm Ieva. - It's a pleasure.

- Let's go. - Let's go.

- You won a battle but not the war. - Okay, okay.

- Now it's my turn. - Okay.

It's ok.

Not too bad...

What about me?

It's okay.

You twisted it too much, but it's ok...

It's your turn!

What, I'm going!

- What's up? How are you? - Still in school...

Went sideways.

- Everyone, this is Maja. - Hi, everyone.

These are my friends.

Ieva, come here please!

Come, try this lighter ball.

Try it from your shoulder, don't twist it too much.

Look!

- Cool! - Well done!

Maja!

I told you I'm useless.

You aren't useless. Here...

Take this lighter one.

Here, you're not gonna learn it all now.

But using your emotions can help.

Think about someone you hate, does anyone come to mind?

- Maybe... - Right, throw the ball at them.

Much better!

Let's go, Teja, ok?

Take your phone, let's go.

We're going now darling, thanks.

Okay, bye.

Thanks!

No problem!

Oh, your girlfriend is leaving.

Hey loser, running away?

What’s up? Hey?

She's the same age as your daughter.

What am I doing?

Can’t you see the way she looks at you?

Thanks.

The only loser here is you.

Can I have a cigarette too?

No.

Maybe I can?

Why aren’t you sleeping?

I can’t.

And you?

Same. Shall I drive you home?

There's nobody home.

Mom's at the hospital again.

You won't wake up for school.

It's Saturday tomorrow.

I was thinking about you.

About how scared you looked when you were late for Ieva's concert.

Like you couldn't believe you could be a good dad.

But you're not only a good father.

You're amazing.

I love you.

What?

It's wrong.

You're amazing, but it's just very wrong.

Hello.

Hey, are you Ieva's dad?

We're looking for Maja, she's not answering her phone.

We're going to our lake house, and we thought we'd find her here.

Yes, I'm Linas, it's nice to meet you, please come in.

Just a moment.

Maja.

Maja, wake up, your parents are here.

She's getting up.

How's your health?

Mine?

I’m great, thanks, do I look unwell?

No, no, you look very well.

Maja, get dressed.

- Good morning, sleepy head. - Morning.

Is there enough space for you, with these two?

Oh, it's okay...

They're mostly studying in the bedroom.

And I have the living room.

Would you like some tea? Coffee?

Oh no, we just had some.

What's happening?

I called you ten times, why didn't you pick up?

We were doing our homework.

Okay, say bye to Ieva and let's go.

I already did. Don't touch me!

- Maja, what's wrong? - I left my phone.

- Have a good day. - Goodbye.

Choose one classmate, your best friend,

and write about them, okay?

And if you don't have a best friend?

Then just choose anyone.

- I'll write about you, okay? - Okay.

Maja, what's wrong?

Is it about my dad?

I know you liked him.

Your dad is a piece of shit.

And a psycho.

- He harassed me, touched me. - You're lying.

- He tried to make out with me. - You're lying, Maja.

He pretended to be nice to me at first

but then he started grabbing me everywhere.

What happened?

Were you drinking?

- Let’s go to the bathroom. - Get off.

Leave me alone.

Aren't you ashamed?

Do you remember how you stole money from me?

You left me.

Dad...

Aren't you ashamed?

Look at yourself.

I'm disgusted by you. I hate you.

Look.

Am I some kind of a monster?

Imagine hiding your grandchildren and not letting them visit.

I called her twenty times. But I won't hear a word from her.

She doesn't let you visit your grandchildren?

I worked as hard as I could on a ship. I didn't know if I'd be back.

And when I came back, I brought oranges,

bananas, everything that people didn't have then.

I gave them everything, but now I have a disability.

I was in hospital and they didn't even come to visit me.

And why should she visit you?

- At least out of respect. - Respect you? For what, old man?

Because we're a family.

Your family is at home, sleeping right now.

And you are a piece of shit, a big piece of shit.

Look at yourself, you pig.

Who you calling a pig?

What's wrong with you? Are you kidding me?

- Don’t make me laugh. - Wait.

You should be on your knees begging her for forgiveness.

- Hey, Baby. - Hi, Mom.

- Did your father start drinking again? - What, why?

- No, really, is he drinking? - No.

- That's weird. - No, really, he's sober.

- Do you get along? - Yes, we're having fun together.

Sorry, your little sister is crying, I have to go...

Everything's alright, Mom, don't worry, go.

Hey, it's okay, you're still sober.

Don't give up, move forward.

What kind of a father am I, really?

- Why aren't you answering? - An unknown number.

Pick it up.

Do it.

- Hello. - Hi, is this Ieva's dad?

- Yes, that’s me. - It's Ieva's music teacher.

Yes, I remember you, hi.

Maybe you know where Ieva is? She didn't show up for her lesson today.

- No, I... She wasn't home. - Then where is she?

- I thought she was at school. - It's really bad she didn't show up...

- I see... - Please, if you find her, let me know.

- Okay. - Please, it is very important.

Okay, yes... See you.

And?

Ieva skipped school today.

- See you. - Thanks.

- Hi, maybe you know where Ieva is? - I hate you.

Maja!

What's wrong with your leg?

What's wrong?

Do you know where Ieva is?

Where is Ieva?

Maja, please, I’m begging you, I can tell you know where she is.

You can be angry with me, but it has nothing to do with her.

Do you want me to call my dad?

Piss off.

Maja, please, Maja.

She's at a furniture warehouse, on Silute Road.

Thanks.

- Is it cold here at night? - No it's all good.

Get up.

Get up, let's go.

Ieva!

Hold this.

Get up.

- It's okay. - Let me go!

Let me go!

Where are we going?

- Where are we going? - To Vilnius.

What for?

You have a meeting at 2PM.

What meeting?

With Egidijus Stanelis.

- Who? - A music teacher.

- I don't want to. - No one's asking you.

If he agrees to take you in, admission is guaranteed.

In 300 meters turn right.

- Is it this intersection? - It's in 300 meters, it told you.

Here! Turn to the right.

- Signal the turn. - I'm signaling.

Now she's teaching me how to drive...

Turn now, Dad.

Go.

Good luck.

- Let me help you. - It's okay, I can do it myself.

I can do it.

You'll do it yourself once you leave.

Look what I found.

- Oh, no... - It's you.

Not bad, huh?

How do you do that wave?

Oh, it's easy...

Spread your hands and move them like this.

There's room for improvement but it's not bad.

You'll get there.

I want to apologize to you, Ieva.

Let's go?

I won't touch your room, only clean the dust from time to time.

You can come back any time, on holidays or weekends.

I'll have to practice a lot and learn the language...

So, yeah...

I'll come back.

Call me.

THE 9th STEP

This film is dedicated to my beloved teacher Barry Primus.

Thank you for being my teacher, mentor and friend.