All language subtitles for 7th Heaven s04e09 Dirty.eng

[PHONE RINGS]

- Hello.
- I don't want to nag you,

but that's three times this week
we haven't taken a walk,

because you ran down to the office
for a minute that turned into an hour.

- Walking out the door.
- I love you.

I love you too.

[MOUTHS]
Wait.

[PHONE RINGING]

Yes.

RUTHIE:
Thank you.

[PHONE RINGS]

- Hello?
- Hi, Ruthie.

- Are you guys at Chloe's?
- No, it's three-way calling.

- Don't you have three-way calling?
- No.

Well, get a clue. Everyone's got it.
It's cool.

You've gotta have three-way calling
if you want us all to be friends.

Don't you wanna be friends?

- Duh, of course.
- Good.

Then you have to help us
get rid of Sarah.

She can't be following us around
because she's a total geek-loser.

Yeah, we can't be seen with losers

or other people are gonna think
that we're losers too.

So are you gonna help us or what?

Sure, I guess. We're friends, right?

That's right. See you tomorrow
at school, and don't forget.

Yeah, and don't forget.

What's wrong?
Are you gonna cry or something?

No, I'm not gonna cry. I'm reflecting.

I just read this really terrible book.

- Why?
- I had to. It's required for school.

Why is reading terrible books
required?

Do they run out of all the good books
by the eighth grade?

It's not terrible, it's terribly sad.

It's about people doing awful things,
and then at the end,

Johnny dies after bravely
rescuing these kids from a fire.

Well, that'll teach you
not to play with matches.

No, that's not what it'll teach you.

Well, then what does it teach you?
Not to rescue other kids?

No.

Yeah. Well, the lesson's
much more complicated than that.

I don't have any time to explain it all
to you now. I have a paper to write.

Well, then I guess
you should get to your paper.

I don't think it's right
to drag all of our laundry over here.

It's just not right.

Don't worry about it.
My mom doesn't care.

ANNIE: I don't care.
SHANA: Oh, that's very nice of you,

but you're doing laundry
for six kids and two adults,

and I'm sure you don't need us
dragging our laundry here.

Oh, don't be silly.
Mi washer-dryer es su washer-dryer.

I saved two pieces of fat-free
cheesecake. It's in the fridge.

- See, it's really okay.
- No, it's not.

Ugh. I don't feel right about this.
I wish I hadn't agreed to it.

Hey. Doing laundry?

Uh, maybe. Mom's upstairs.

I thought we were gonna get together
and talk tonight.

Well, that's what we're doing.
We're here, together,

talking and washing and drying and--

Matt, you can't talk me into it.
It's just not gonna happen.

All I'm asking is that you consider it.

I have. So consider it considered,
and the answer is no.

Okay. No pressure.

You wanna do
a load of whites together?

To tell you the truth, I don't wanna do
anything that intimate right now.

Fine. You wash your whites first,

and I'll get Mary and Lucy
off the stairway.

[SHANA CLEARS THROAT]

MATT: Don't even think about it,
the cheesecake's ours.

Anything you were snooping around
to hear is none of your business.

"None of your business."

Simon's in charge of the twins
while we take our walk. What's this?

I found that slipped under the door
in my office on my way out.

I didn't want to open it,
because I was rushing home

to walk with my woman.

Heh-heh. Well, I think we have
a few moments to spare.

Okay.

It's a cheque made out to the church
for $20,000.

It is. It is.

[LAUGHING]

[SIGHS]

[SIGHS]

Ah.

[IN IRISH ACCENT]
I see me boy is having himself

a wee leprechaun of a breakfast.

- What happened to me lad?
- Guilt happened.

That's what happened.

I can't enjoy my food knowing
there are so many people in this world

who are starving.

[IN NORMAL VOICE]
Okay.

Well, yeah, you know,
there are people who are starving,

and there are things we can do
to help,

but no one's gonna be hungrier
if you eat your usual breakfast.

It's a symbolic gesture.

I wanna remind myself
of what's going on.

What is going on
according to the paper?

Let's see.
Where would you like to start?

The plight of the Kosovo refugees,
famine in North Korea,

the kid who got caught
stealing a can of tuna fish

from the 7-Eleven to feed his family.

I think that was his cat.

The kid didn't want his mom
to know that he'd taken in a stray cat.

You know how many
cans of tuna it would take

to feed all the stray cats
in the world?

Hey, I've got some good news.

One of our parishioners
made a big cash contribution.

- It's really gonna help the church.
- Why'd they do that?

I don't know, but why not?

Because no matter
how much money it is,

it'll never be enough
to help everyone.

Is it?

[BABY BABBLING]

ANNIE:
Ruthie.

I thought you were keeping
an eye on your brothers.

RUTHIE:
Oops.

ANNIE:
Sam and David are crawling now.

You have to watch them
every second.

I can't watch them every second.

The only person who can watch them
every second is God.

So why don't we just
let God watch them?

Because...

Because that's why God
put everyone on Earth.

To watch after each other.

I've got a big enough job
just watching after myself.

That's no excuse.

- Okay.
- You have no idea

what school is like these days.
It's every girl for herself.

You can't be nice to everyone,

and even if someone could save
people from the fire,

he'd probably get hurt,
even killed doing it.

And if you're just gonna get killed,
why even try to be a hero?

How much sugar did you have
today?

No. It was in Simon's
terrible book.

He was reading it
and got into a terrible mood,

and now I'm in a terrible mood.

LUCY:
But he's got an apartment.

And she's got her apartment. So?

They have the opportunity,
and don't forget the motive.

ANNIE:
Motive for what?

We'll talk about this later.

[BABIES BABBLING
AND LAUGHING]

Oh... Peekaboo.

Peekaboo.

[ANNIE AND BABY LAUGHING]

ERIC:
What are you doing?

I was just watching Sam and David.

They're so cute and innocent.

I wish I could keep them this way
forever.

I know.

- So you going to the bank?
- Oh, well, not yet.

I gotta get over to the church
and do some work on my sermon,

and I wanted to ask
Sachiko Ishida to stop over.

I'd just like to talk to her
about the cheque

before I go ahead and deposit it.

Oh, good idea. I know the church
could really use the money,

but Sachiko, being older and alone,
might need it too.

But who knows,
maybe she won the lottery.

I sincerely hope so, but I doubt it.

The cheque makes me uneasy.
I don't have a good feeling about it.

You haven't been talking to Simon,
have you?

- Well, actually I have.
- Ah.

Wow, that kid's a black hole.

He's sucked the life out of this
entire family with his bad mood.

Try to keep out of his
gravitational pull.

Hmm.

[BABBLING]

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

SHANA:
Hello.

- Hello?
- Hold on, I'm almost there.

I'm gonna ace this test.

I came over to give you this.
It got mixed up in my laundry bag.

Thanks, you didn't have to bring
it over. I would have gotten it later.

Later is something
I'm not sure about.

I'm confused.

And evidently doing laundry
just confused you more.

What's wrong? It's just laundry.

See, this is exactly why we should do
what other couples do.

Matt, I think we should slow down
and maybe see other people.

Where'd this come from?

I just think this relationship
is too much for me.

It's interfering with my studies.

Right, it's interfering so much
you have a 4.0 grade average.

I won't be able to keep up a 4.0
if this keeps up.

- This what?
- This relationship.

Shana, I don't wanna see
other people.

And I don't think you want
to see other people

for any other reason
than to push me away.

Oh, so you got it all figured out
already, don't you, Dr. Freud?

No, I don't have it all figured out.

I want this to work, and I'd love
to find out why you're being like this.

- Like what?
- Like distant

and completely and unrelentingly
stubborn about something I wanna do.

Don't my needs count for anything?

I'm sorry. I've got this test.
I'll call you.

Hey, this isn't my shirt.

[KIDS LAUGHING
AND CHATTERING]

ALL:
Friends together. Girl power forever.

[LAUGHING]

- What are you guys doing?
- None of your beeswax.

Yeah, it's a secret. It's only for girls,
and you're not a girl.

- I am so a girl.
- You are not. You're a bird.

Yeah, you're a skinny bird
who can't do anything.

CHLOE: Fly away, skinny bird, shoo.
NINA: Yeah, go away birdie.

You guys better stop it.

Oh, poor birdie. What are you gonna
do about it, bird face?

- Tweet, tweet, tweet, tweet, tweet.
- Chirp, chirp, chirp, chirp, chirp.

Hey.

Janice told me about the big
homecoming party this weekend

for the boy's basketball team.

Where have you been?
Only everyone at school is going.

Everyone wants to show support after
what happened with the girls' team.

Well, they're all a bunch of screw-ups.

First they bombed out
with their grades,

and then they break into the gym
and vandalise it.

- How stupid is that?
- I know.

It made the whole school look bad.

Do you mind?
You're talking about my sister.

Who's your sister?

Mary Camden.
She was team captain.

Sorry, we didn't know.

No offence to you or anything.
We like you.

Yeah, you're really nice.
And smart.

You're not anything like your sister.
You should come to the party with us.

Yeah, it'll be great.

But you know
you can't bring your sister.

No offence, but all the girl players
are officially out.

I don't think so.
No offence or anything.

Lucy looks great this year.

Too bad she has that loser sister.

Have you guys
seen my sister Lucy?

Thanks.

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

Oh.

Thank you so much
for coming down, Sachiko.

I didn't think that donating money
would be such a problem, Reverend.

I assumed the church
could use the money.

Oh, yes.
It's something we can always use.

And it's greatly appreciated.

But there still seems to be
a problem.

It's just that it's such a large cheque.

I just wanted to make sure
it wasn't a mistake.

Twenty thousand dollars,
it's a lot of money.

Yes.

- That's the correct amount.
- I see.

Twenty thousand dollars.

I've been holding on to the money

because I didn't know
what to do with it.

It's the reparation money
that I received from the government.

When I was a child,

my family was taken
to an internment camp during the war.

We lived in horse stalls before we
were transferred to the actual camp.

At the same time,

my brother fought
in the 442nd Regiment

for the same country
that had us in the internment camp.

My parents lost their farming business,
and after the war,

my father returned from camp
a broken man.

My mother worked hard
to support all of us.

Both parents died
long before the reparation money.

Like them, most of the people
who suffered

and deserved the money the most
are not alive today.

I don't want the money.
It's blood money.

Money cannot undo
what's been done.

Rights, dignity and respect.

I want it off my hands so I don't have
to talk about it ever again.

Please, just take the money.

- What are we doing?
- I'm reading about internment camps.

RUTHIE: Camp. I wanna go
to summer camp next year.

Oh. No, no, no.

No, internment camp is something
you never wanna have to go to.

- Why?
- Internment camps are terrible.

During World War II,
when we were at war with Japan,

our government thought that anyone
of Japanese ancestry living here

could be a threat to America.

Our government thought
that the Japanese-Americans

might be spies or that they would give
information to Japan.

So we took
all the Japanese living here,

even those
who had been born here,

and we put them
in internment camps,

where they were locked up
like they were in jail.

Everything was taken from them.

A lot of Americans thought it was
wrong, but they didn't say anything,

because they were afraid
that people would think

that they were siding
with the enemy.

Well, didn't they have
any friends who would help them?

I'm sure they had plenty of friends,
but people aren't perfect, you know?

Being human means
that we not only have strengths,

we have a lot of weaknesses too.

Like being afraid to do the right thing
or needing people to like us.

What happened was wrong,

and our government
eventually admitted

that they'd made
a terrible mistake.

They violated constitutional rights,

and the government gave
the Japanese some money

as a form of apology.
It's called reparation money.

I just got off the phone
with your teacher.

It seems that Ruthie and her friends
made a little girl cry at school today.

I think you have
some explaining to do, Ruthie.

Sarah's not in our group.

Being seen with her
would bring our standing way down.

I know that Chloe and Nina
shouldn't have called her names,

but what can I do?
I'm only human.

It was a weak moment.

That doesn't even come close
to being an excuse.

I'd give her some money
to make it all better,

but I don't have any.

I'm surprised at you.

You know money
doesn't make it all better.

Well, the government does it,
so it must help.

ANNIE:
No, it wouldn't.

I want you to apologise
to Sarah, tomorrow.

But I didn't say anything.

That's just as bad,
maybe even worse.

How would you like to be
in Sarah's place?

Well, if I apologise to her,
I am going to be in her place.

[ANNIE SIGHS]

Well, she shouldn't have done it.

- I didn't say anything.
- Well, you could have.

ANNIE:
You eating for two now?

It's a high-energy day.

I had a big test
and a big fight with Shana.

She wants to see other people.

Did you do something to make her
wanna see other people?

- No, I didn't do anything.
- Well, what was the fight about?

I don't feel comfortable
talking about it right now.

Don't worry, I'll eat these
somewhere else so you two can talk.

The conversation's probably
too intimate for me anyway.

If I still lived here, you wouldn't have
made that comment in front of Mom.

You're just trying to make me look bad
because I didn't include you.

Matt?

- I'm sorry.
MATT: Well, it's too late.

Ever since I moved out,
everyone treats me

like I'm some guy
stopping by to eat or do laundry.

I'm part of the family, you know?

And I'm still your big brother,
which entitles me to lecture you.

So hear this.
My private life is still my private life.

- I'm not apologising to her.
- Okay.

But maybe later,
you should talk to her.

Fine, but her comment
was totally uncalled for.

My private life is my private life.

I understand, but now that
that word "intimacy"

has reared its interesting head,

do you wanna talk
about your private life?

- Not really, I just wanna eat.
- Okay.

- I'll clean up when I'm done?
- Okay.

Matt's never yelled at me
like that before.

It's no big deal.

It is to me.

He hurt my feelings.

Then you shouldn't have said anything.
You were trying to get him in trouble.

Well, he was leaving me out
of the conversation.

You don't like to be left out, do you?

How would you know anything
about being left out?

I'm persona non grata,
or haven't you noticed?

You have been
in the in-crowd your whole life.

You've been Miss Star Athlete,
Miss Big Deal, Miss Popularity,

all during high school.

You have no idea what it's like
to be left out.

Are you crazy?

Why do you think I got
into basketball in the first place?

Now, I was, like, 7 feet tall
by the time I got into fifth grade.

Kids laughed at me,
and called me names,

and so I did something.

I learned a sport,

and I used my height
instead of just complaining about it.

I became an athlete instead
of just whining about being different.

And after all that hard work,

I'm nothing now.

I'm just the tall bad girl,
who let everybody down,

and now I'm paying for it.

Here, go ahead and finish it off.

No, that's okay.

Wouldn't wanna let it go to waste.

What's with you?
Those are your favourite cookies.

Not anymore.

Take a look at the ingredients
on the lid.

Additives, preservatives, chemicals.
All that for money.

All that junk is filler.

And the shelf life's probably
a few hundred years.

- I was looking forward to this.
- You might as well eat it.

We're all just pawns being manipulated
by the corruption of politics

and big business anyway. Knowing
about our health and environment,

they just make
bigger gas-guzzling SUVs,

package the food in plastic,

which leaches poisons into our bodies,
sell arms to other countries,

then declare war on them
because they use them,

and make paper towels and tissue
that only promote waste.

[PHONE RINGS]

Hello?

Hi, Tammy.

No, I don't know if I'm going
to the party or not.

Let me think about it.

Okay, bye.

Just to let you know, Shana and I
aren't fighting about sex.

That's not what I meant by intimate.
Tell Lucy that.

I'm sure she's dying to know.

I'm not your messenger and I don't
care what you and Shana are doing.

Oh, right, I forgot.

You don't care about anybody
but yourself.

[VOICE MAIL]
Hi, this is Shana for Matt.

Matt, listen, I'm sorry about today.

I really don't wanna see other people,
but I do want a time-out from you.

I'll call you.

[BEEPS]

ANNIE:
So how you doing?

Oh, okay, considering.
How about you?

Okay, considering that
this bad mood has set off a bad mood

in practically every member
of the family.

Well, I'm sorry. I didn't know
anyone else was in a bad mood.

Well, you'll have to stop. Bad moods
are as contagious as chicken pox.

Yeah, well.

It seems the whole world's
in a bad mood.

You know, good moods
are contagious too.

So as of right now, we are both
gonna be in a better mood.

- Just like that?
- Yeah, we're gonna put on a smile

- and pretend to be in a good mood.
- You mean, fake it?

What's the difference in pretending
and being in a good mood?

You got me.

Right, it's very hard
to tell the difference.

So just start by pretending,
and the reality will catch up with you.

Well, okay, but I don't know
how long it's going to last.

I know how to make it last.
Once you get your mood up,

help someone to actually
do something that contributes

to someone else feeling better
or getting what they need.

Service to others
makes you feel good.

And there are so many others
to serve.

That's right. So pick one and
another one, and smile, baby, smile.

[CHATTERING AND LAUGHING]

- Hey, Luce, do you have a second?
- Sure.

I'm sorry about last night.
This is my problem not yours,

and it's probably all in my head
that people are shunning me

and the other basketball players.

[LAUGHING]

Okay, maybe they are shunning me,

but it's gotta blow over eventually,
right?

And even if it doesn't,
at least I have my family.

Yeah.

See you on Saturday.
Party, party.

I wasn't gonna go,
and then I thought I might go.

I mean, it's not like
I got in trouble, right?

Right. You did nothing.

Except join a whole group of people
who are trying to exclude me.

Sorry.

Hello, that's it?

Well, I apologised.
Did you want something else?

I thought maybe
you'd wanna try and be friends.

You wouldn't wanna be my friend.
I let Chloe and Nina make you cry.

I wanna be your friend because
I really don't think you're like them.

- Yes, I am.
- Fine.

Then I don't wanna be your friend.
I thought you were different.

Okay, if you wanna know so bad,
I'll tell you.

[MATT SIGHS]

Shana and I started having
some problems.

We couldn't talk about them,
so I talked to John about them,

and Shana got mad
because I talked to John.

So I suggested that we both go
and talk to someone else together.

Someone like a counsellor.
They have counsellors on campus.

That sounds reasonable.

Oh. She refuses to go
and she refuses to talk

about whatever it is
that's bothering her.

Do you think Shana
would wanna talk to me?

Maybe. I mean, she's not close
to her own mom.

Well, I'll call her and ask her
if she has time to drop by,

and not make any big deal.

Thank you.

I can't thank you enough for coming
down here on such short notice.

I'm happy that I could finally
do something for your father.

I owe the Colonel.

Your father has been very involved
with aiding public awareness

about the 442nd Regimental
Combat Team,

as well as many other
veterans' groups and organisations.

Yes, my father took a trip
around the world last year,

and he came back
quite the political activist.

- He's a very busy man.
- You should be very proud.

- I am.
- I also wanted to meet Sachiko Ishida.

I served with her brother, Jim,
in the 442nd,

and he was a great man.
A very brave soldier.

I didn't know you knew
Sachiko's brother. My dad just told me

that you were the one to talk to about
facts regarding the internment camps.

Well, then it worked out
better than expected.

So do you mind telling me your take
on the reparation money.

How do you feel about that?

Actually, I welcomed it,

because it paid
for my grandson's medical bills.

He was born
with some physical problems,

and he's had several operations.

The money is helping pay
for his care.

It has been a real hardship
on the family.

My wife died several years ago,

and my daughter
has had a difficult time

taking care of the boy on her own.

I was able to use that money
to help her.

Don't misunderstand me. I'm not
saying that the reparation money

evens things out or makes life fair.

Life is not fair.

Maybe I can present
a different perspective to Sachiko,

and even if I can't, I'm still looking
forward to meeting Jim's sister.

So, Jim?

Yes. Jim Ishida died in service
to his country.

What happened
to Mr. Doom-and-Gloom?

I'm not raining on anyone's parade.
I am a new man, a happy man.

Lucky you,
I'd love to be a happy woman.

You can. There's a clothing drive
at my school for the Kosovo refugees.

Maybe you can get some things
for me to take tomorrow.

Okay, I've got stuff
I'm never gonna wear again.

What's all the racket? I've got the
blues and I don't wanna be disturbed.

The blues are good,
but a good mood's better.

It has sort of a healing quality
about it.

- Right.
- You should try it.

- You can get in a good mood too.
- No, I can't.

Admit it.

You're not really enjoying the blues,
are you?

Mm. No, not really.

Then get up, do something,
help someone.

Is it me or is it awkward in here?

It's awkward in here.

I came over to talk and I wanna talk,
but I don't know how to talk.

And yet here we are talking.

What do you know?

I know that Matt offended you by
talking to John about your problems.

Yet he can't talk to me about me.

And you don't wanna go
to counselling with him?

Well, maybe this isn't that serious.

Maybe you don't need a professional,
just a friend or a mom.

The thing is, it's serious.

I have a serious problem.

There are two kinds of people:
those who have seen a therapist,

and those who haven't.
I'm the first and Matt's the second.

I don't wanna air my dirty laundry
in front of him.

I mean, we're close,
but not that close.

I'd like to know
how close we're gonna get

before I reveal
everything about myself.

And I can't air my dirty laundry
in front of my mom,

because my mom
is my dirty laundry.

My therapist knows that,
but Matt doesn't.

I mean, I had a crummy life,
and the crummy part is over.

I've grown up and I'm on my own,
and I'm doing fine,

but I didn't grow up
like a normal person.

I mean, I don't even know how to do
the simplest things like normal people.

Like laundry and...

Laundry seems so intimate.

I mean, putting your dirty stuff in
with other people's dirty stuff,

is that okay?

I mean, putting my dirty underwear in
with Matt's dirty underwear,

when we haven't even
seen each other's underwear.

I mean, is that okay,
or is that weird?

This is so insane. I don't care
how other people do laundry.

My goal isn't normal.
My goal is to be me.

I guess that's what I've been
so afraid of talking about with Matt.

[SHANA EXHALES SHARPLY]

I'm sorry, I guess I just needed
to hear all of that out loud.

Thanks for listening.

[CHUCKLING]

Hi, Sachiko. I'm sorry
to come by without calling,

but I thought this would be
a nice surprise for you.

- This is Henry Muranaka.
- Nice to meet you.

So this is the friend
you wanted me to meet?

I served in the 442nd
with your brother, Jim.

I'm sorry that the reverend
has wasted your time.

I'm not interested in talking.

- I'm sorry.
- I'm sorry.

I hate it when you're mad at me.

Yeah, I know, I feel just as bad
when you're mad at me.

I got upset because
when I said the word "intimacy,"

everyone just assumed
Shana and I are having sex,

and we aren't, not that that's
anybody's business anyway.

I know, but you were doing
your laundry together.

- So?
- Are you kidding?

I would have to be practically married
to let some guy see my dirty clothes.

Yuck.

What was I thinking? Thanks.

I'm sorry. Okay.

"How was your day, Dad?"
My day was terrible, thank you.

My own father will be calling soon

to see how I screwed up a favour
he did for me, but I'm not stressed.

No, no, not stressed.
Thanks for asking.

- Hi, hon, you had a phone call.
- Oh, could it have been the Colonel?

Because the entire 442nd's
probably called

to let him know
what a lousy minister I am.

No, it was Sachiko Ishida.

She wants you to come back over
and bring your friend Mr. Muranaka.

- Really?
- Oh, deep breath.

Relax, everything is fine.

Hey, you're home.
How was your day?

Much better, now that you asked.

Good.

Hey, if my dad calls,

tell him thanks for everything
and I'll call him back.

It was a stupid idea.

I think we need to spend
more time together

before we do laundry.

I just wanna talk to Mary,
and then maybe we can spend

time together tonight.

Oh!

I have to go to work.

Right, and I have to study.

Uh, before we both run off
in separate directions,

can I tell you
something about me?

Sure, yes, please.

Um...

When I was growing up,

I knew my home life
was different from the other kids.

So I tried to make myself fit in
by doing well in school.

And it worked.

And now, after all that effort
for all those years,

after trying to fit in to normal
for so long,

I find myself in a position

where I might get to pull away
from the pack

and actually get to go
to medical school

and become a doctor.

That's my dream.

You scare me.

Getting close to you scares me

because I don't wanna get sidetracked
from my dream.

I promise I won't get in your way.

Look, I know you've decided
you wanna be a doctor too,

but it's new for you. You're just starting
to invest in that dream.

And I've got my whole heart into it.

- Is there room left in there for me?
- Don't worry, I'll make room.

But you gotta give me time.

Okay, I have to go now.

It was nice talking to you.

You too.

Thanks for still wanting
to be my friend.

- I was really, really bad.
SARAH: That's okay.

I used to have a best friend,
but she moved away.

It's been hard to find anyone
to hang out with because, well,

we never really talked
to anyone else.

- I thought it was gonna last forever.
- Yeah.

You know, we have conference calling
on our phone.

Maybe we can get Chloe and Nina on
the line and see if we can join forces.

Is conference calling
like three-way calling?

No, it's better. You can get a whole
bunch of people on the phone.

Cool. Nina and Chloe will love this.

[PHONE RINGS]

NINA:
Hello, Chloe?

- Who is this again?
- I'm here.

- Who else is here?
- It's us, Sarah and Ruthie.

- Sarah's got conference calling.
- Big deal.

They're just trying to show off.

[SIGHS]

Oh, well, we tried.

Yeah, but they still
don't wanna talk to me.

No, now they don't want to talk to us.

"Us" sounds nice.

See you at school.

You're gonna have to come out
sometime.

Actually I'm not. I'm thinking of
signing up for independent study

and finishing the school year in here.

Look, I said you were selfish,
but I know you're not selfish,

and I apologise.

I have been selfish.
Even-- Even a lot selfish.

Okay, completely selfish,
and I was being completely selfish

when I told Lucy that it would be
betraying me by going to that party.

Okay, but can we talk about me?

It's hard to care about your family
yet grow up and leave your family.

Is that about you?
It sounds like it's about me.

How would it be you?
I'm the one who left.

And yet you're still here.

Well, it's comforting to come here.
Especially when the one relationship

you have outside of here
has been a little shaky lately.

- How is it now?
- It's-- It's good. Really good.

Then go home.
I have to talk to my sister.

- I'm not going.
- No, you should go.

You were right,
you didn't do anything,

and you shouldn't suffer being left out
just because I'm ostracised.

Ostracised?
That's a pretty big word for you.

I've had a lot of time to study
being left out and all.

- I love you.
- I love you too.

And if you keep up all the studying,
you could be a Rhodes Scholar

- by the end of the year.
- What's that?

Never mind.

By the end of the year, they'll be letting
you back into all the parties.

Ah. Sounds good to me.

I'm, uh, so sorry
for being so rude to you both today.

I don't know what came over me.

I suppose seeing you
brought back bad memories.

I've held such bitterness in my heart
since Jim was killed in the war.

Mostly, I have regret.
Deep regret about my childhood.

The thoughts I had about myself.

I never admitted this to anyone,

but in my youth,

I felt deep shame
about being Japanese.

The way I looked.

You see, there was still so much
discrimination after the war,

and I was so embarrassed.

So ashamed that I could be singled out
so easily.

I just wanted to be like
everyone else.

I would've done anything
if there were some way

to conceal the fact
that I was...Asian.

And at the same time,

knowing that my own brother fought
so heroically to defend this country,

and died for it.

He was American,
but still proud of his ancestry.

And here I was alive
and still too afraid.

I'm sorry.

Here you are listening
to an old woman's silly complaints,

while you fought
side by side with my brother.

No, we were all young then.

Even while we were fighting,
we had this go-for-broke attitude.

The Hawaiian boys always yelling.
We had something to prove.

It was a terrible situation,

but we didn't know the enormity
of the injustice until we came back.

At least the ones
who were lucky enough

to come back alive.

I made myself a promise
after the war.

To dedicate my life
to helping others

and to never forget the past.

To make sure
it will never happen again.

Being engaged in life
renewed my faith in mankind.

Working with other veterans,
sharing experiences, good and bad.

Some men who bottled things up
didn't fare as well.

Some turned to drink
or committed suicide.

While others became embittered
and lived in the past

over and over until they lost all hope.

Everyone had to rebuild
their lives again.

It was a very dark time in history,

but you have to believe
there will be light after the darkness.

But most of all,
you have to recognise the light.

Amen to that.

We all get lost
in darkness or depression.

Sometimes it feels easier
to stay in it than to get out of it.

Sachiko,

I would like you
to take this cheque back

and think about it a little more.

Giving away the reparation money
isn't going to erase your pain.

You need to

forgive what's happened to you.

But you need to forgive yourself.

The church could certainly
use the contribution,

but having a parishioner
make peace with the past

is much more valuable to me
than having this money.

- Promise that you'll think about it.
- I will.

Thank you, Reverend.

Excuse me.

If it's not too much trouble, Henry,

if you're ever in the area,
maybe we could talk again.

If it's not too much of a bother.

I wasn't able to move on with my life
like you after the war.

I've put my life on hold
for so many years, but now, I--

Well, now is a good place to start.
How about I take you to dinner?

Oh, well... Yes, please.
That's very nice.

Thank you.
Can you give me a moment?

Thank you and goodbye, Reverend.

Right. Goodbye.

[SIGHS]

I still got it.

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