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[Gasps]

[Panting]

Callie! Callie! Callie!

[Callie] The brain is the human body's most mysterious organ.

It learns...

... it changes...

... it adapts.

It tells us what we see...

[labored breathing]

... what we hear.

It lets us feel love.

I think it holds our soul.

Callie!

- Help! Help! Somebody call 911! - Oh, no!

Help me! Help!

But no matter how much research we do,

no one can really say how all that

delicate grey matter inside our skull works.

And when it's hurt, when the human brain is traumatized...

... well...

... that's when it gets even more mysterious.

# Nobody knows where we might end up

# Nobody knows #

How far out are they?

Maybe ten minutes away.

Prolonged extrication. We've got a trauma room ready.

Hunt, you're in charge. This is your party, I expect you to run it.

Has anyone told Mark?

- Dr. Sloan, are you almost done here? - I'm good in two seconds. What's up?

Um, I... I'll wait.

[Mark] I rocked this mandibular repair.

You'd never know this guy's jaw was broken in five places.

I'm somewhat of an artist.

Not Picasso, because then his jaw would be on his forehead.

More like Chagall.

Michelangelo.

I'm Michelangelo. There. Done. What've you got?

- [Machine beeping] - [Door opens]

- What the hell happened? - Car versus truck, that's all we know.

And her injuries? What? The baby?

- [Derek] We don't know yet. - Why the hell don't you know?

- Someone get me a trauma gown. - Mark, you need to sit this one out.

I'm not sitting this one out. That's Callie. That's my kid!

Which is why you can't. I'm sorry, you can't be a doctor on this one.

- [Mark] Screw you. - Sloan...

- Screw all of you! - [Sirens approaching]

Look at me, Sloan. Look at me.

Look, maybe I don't understand what you two have, how you have it,

but I understand this: She is your family.

Callie Torres and that baby are your family.

And the best way that you can help your family is to step back

and let the rest of us do what you can't rationally do:

Save their lives.

OK?

Mark.

- I'm in the room, you hear me? - OK.

- I'm in the room! - OK.

[Ambulance approaches]

All right, everyone. Multiple blunt trauma protocol.

- Let's go. - Tachycardic and hypotensive en route.

Obvious head and chest injuries.

Callie?

Callie, we've got you, you hear me?

- Everything is gonna be OK. - [Meredith] She's hemorrhaging.

[Teddy] Wait, wait, hold on. Is that blood coming from her chest?

- Is it blood? - [Gurgles]

Calliope means... means music.

Honey, we're gonna fix you up just fine. Don't you worry.

[Voices fade]

[Arizona] She went through the windshield.

- [Alex] No seatbelt? Airbags? - [Arizona] She took it off.

- # We'll do it all - [Cristina] We need to make sure...

[Mark] How are her vital signs?

# Everything

[Derek] Callie! Blink for me.

# On our own

- [Teddy] Set up a chest tray. - [Cristina] I'm on it!

[Lucy] Let's get the fetal monitor set up.

- # We don't need - [Derek] Let's go, come on!

- [Richard] Out of the way! - # Anything

# Or anyone

- What the hell happened? - It came out of nowhere. I...

I asked her to marry me, and a truck came out of nowhere.

- # If I lay here - [Richard] Out of the way! Move!

- # If I just lay here - [Richard] Get out of the way!

# Would you lie with me

- # And just forget the world? - [Owen] Torres, you stay with me.

You got that? You stay with me.

- # I don't quite know - [panicked noises]

# How to say

# How I feel

[Owen] One, two, three.

[Bailey] Get those IVs up.

[Richard] Make sure her lines are patent.

[Derek] Depressed skull fracture with a probable bleed.

[Meredith] Tell CT to get ready for her.

[Cristina] No obvious spinal deformities.

- Hang two bags of O neg. - [Mark] But she's A positive!

Scratch that. Type specific A positive.

- Is there a fetal heartbeat? - [Teddy] No breath sounds on the right.

- Set up a chest tube. - [Lexie] I'm on it!

Lucy, is there a fetal heartbeat?

- [Mark] Lucy! - Give me a minute!

- You two need to back up. - I want an answer!

- Against the wall and silent. - [Owen] # If I lay here

[Richard] You hear me?

# If I just lay here

- OK, reflexes intact. - I need those drapes to prep her chest.

- # Would you lie with me - Sterile drapes and Betadine.

- Check Morison's pouch. - # And just forget the world?

- [Lexie] I need a 36 French tube. - [Nurse] Temp, 35 degrees.

[Richard] Keep giving warm fluids so she doesn't get hypothermic.

[Meredith] Should we start mannitol?

- [Derek] We'll hold off for now. - # Forget what we're told

- # Before we get too old - There's blood in the right quadrant!

[Richard] Push that LR in faster! Bailey, where are you?

- Rapid infuser! - [Richard] She needs a central line.

- I'll do a subclavian. - # Bursting into life

- [Alex] Come on! - [Richard] Call upstairs,

and tell them to prep an OR. And where's that blood?

# Let's waste time

# Chasing cars

# Around our heads

# I need your grace

# To remind me

# To find my own

# If I lay here

# If I just lay here

# Would you lie with me

- # And just forget the world? - [Lucy] This monitor's not picking up.

- [Alex] Doppler's here. - OK, let's switch.

- Derek, please. - # Forget what we're told

- [Lexie] Pushing in chest tube. - How we doing with the heartbeat, Lucy?

- Systolic's down to 72. - # Before we get too old

If I'm gonna find a heartbeat, I need everybody to shut up for a second.

Everyone, quiet. Right now!

# Show me a garden that's bursting into life

- [heartbeat] - There it is!

- Fetal heartbeat. - V-fib!

- [Meredith] She's crashing! - [Derek] Start bagging her!

[Richard] Come on, get her on her back!

- # All that I am - [Cristina] Watch her C-spine.

- Starting CPR! - Get me an intubation tray!

- # All that I ever was - [Derek] Intubate.

Hold inline stabilization.

[Cristina] I've got cricoid pressure for you.

# Is here in your perfect eyes

- # They're all I can see - [Jackson] Charging to 120! Clear!

- [Teddy] Still in v-fib. - # I don't know where

Charge the paddles to 200!

- # Confused about how as well... - Charged to 200. Clear!

# Just know that these things will never...

- [Jackson] Sinus tach. - [Cristina] She's back.

[Meredith] Get the Ambu on.

- [Owen] Let's move! - Everybody ready? Grab that, grab that!

Go, go, go! Move!

# If I lay here

# If I just lay here

# Would you lie with me

- # And just forget the world? - Too many people! Get out!

I asked her to marry me, and a truck came out of nowhere.

[Chattering]

CT shows a large epidural and subdural. I need to get in there. Is she under?

- We're ready for you. - [Derek] All right, I'm going in.

- I need a 10-blade... to Dr. Grey. - [Bailey] Bovie.

Wait, wait, stop. Her anesthesia's too light.

- I can fix that. - Oh, my God!

- [Knox] We're on the run here! - People!

Take a breath. Everybody, I mean it. Stop what you're doing,

and every one of you take a breath and center yourself.

There's no room for rushing here. We rush, we make a mistake.

So, everybody, take a breath.

[All inhale, exhale]

OK.

Just breathe. Callie, relax. We've got this.

It's under control.

Just breathe.

# Two AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake

# "Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?

# I don't love him. Winterjust wasn't my season"

Someone needs to keep an eye on Mark.

[Richard] Little Grey.

Eyes on Sloan.

# Yeah, we walk through the doors So accusing, their eyes

# Like they have any right at all to criticize

# Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

Did Dr. Sloan come by here?

# 'Cause you can't jump the track

- # We're like cars on a cable - [Owen] We need more lap pads in here.

- More, please, more. - [Meredith] There's your subdural.

All right. Let's zip the dura, get her decompressed. Hurry!

- Give me some bone wax. - I've got bleeders everywhere!

Let's get control of this liver lac before she gets unstable.

[Knox] Body temp's dropped to 32 degrees.

[Jackson] She's getting hypothermic.

- [Lucy] She's contracting. - More lap pads!

# And breathe

# Just breathe

# Oh, breathe

# Just breathe

- [Bailey] I need a retractor in here. - [Meredith] Her pressure's dropping.

If you're not needed, get out of the way!

[Owen] She can't take much more. We need to get out.

[Jackson] She's not clotting well.

- You need me? - Contractions have stopped.

- Go. - # You'll just make them again

# If you'd only try turning around...

[Owen] She needs time to recuperate. We don't pack her and get out now,

she's gonna bleed to death. So get set up for a temporary abdominal closure.

- So, what happens now? - We get her up to the ICU,

and see if she lives for the next 24 hours.

- If she makes it, we go in again. - I want a doctor with Torres

at all times. Dr. Fields, what's your plan here?

- [Lucy] My plan? - Yes, plan.

What if Torres starts contracting again? What if she has preterm labor?

What if, God forbid, you have to deliver this baby?

I may be a little out of my depth here, sir.

# But you can't jump the track We're like cars on a cable

# Life's like an hourglass glued to the table

- [Mark sobbing] - # No one can find

# The rewind button now

# Sing it if you understand

You don't have to do this. I know you hate me.

I don't hate you.

# And breathe

# Just breathe...

What do you need?

I can stitch up that nasty cut you got going there.

I'm OK. I'm...

I'm fine.

[Sobs]

# Just breathe

# Oh, breathe

# Just breathe #

She's my best friend.

She's my best friend.

This is humiliating! He's benching me! I've been benched!

She's the best there is! He wants the best for Torres!

It makes me look like a complete moron in front of my colleagues.

They're not thinking about you! They're thinking about Torres!

I'm sorry, but suck it up!

- [Addison] What's her status? - [April] She's in SVT.

I gave her adenosine and some diltiazem, but...

[Addison] Go. Take a break. I got it.

[Exhales]

Dr. Montgomery, there's a chance the baby could survive

if we deliver by C-section while Callie is stable.

[Addison] No, there's not,

because not only did you fail to stop her contractions,

you didn't give steroids to the baby to help mature her lungs.

- So you can go, too. - [Machine beeping]

What about her heart rate? I could...

[Addison] I'll take care of it.

Go!

Oh, sweetie...

I'm so sorry.

But don't you worry. We got this. The attendings, we're all gonna meet,

and we are gonna come up with a plan.

I promise you, we're gonna make a plan,

and we're gonna figure out what to do. It's gonna be all right.

[Voice fading] You're gonna be OK.

She has got a hole in her heart. Needs bypass to fix it, and she needs it now!

- Bypass would mean a lot of heparin. - It is a setup for a rebleed.

- The hypothermia would kill the baby. - Traumatic VSDs

- can close on their own. - [Derek] Which is why we should wait

- to repair the heart. - She's not stable enough to wait.

- Damage control... - This is Callie...

[all talking at once]

- The risk of a rebleed is too great. - [Richard] Yelling at each other...

# Calm down

- # And get straight - [sighs]

# It's in our eyes It's how we operate

# You're true

# You are

# I'd apologize, but it won't go very far

# Please come here

# Come right on over...

- [door closes] - [Singing is muffled]

[Cristina] Yesterday we were at her stupid baby shower.

I take it back. You can be Callie's baby's godmother.

If there's a baby to godmother.

The only way to save the baby is to save Callie,

and the only way to save Callie might end up killing the baby.

- You've got a hickey on your neck. - What?

Oh. Oh! Oh, Karev is turning all red.

Are you in love?

- Oh, you love her? - Shut up.

- Love her? - Shut up!

Lucy's the first girl that he's really liked, since...

No big deal. She works here at Seattle Grace Mercy Death,

so I'm sure she's pretty much gonna go crazy or get cancer

or shot by a gunman or hit by a truck. So don't get your hopes up

for Karev's Big Happily Ever After.

- Seattle Grace Mercy Death. - Yeah, he's got a point.

# Turn me inside out

- # And upside down - [machine beeps]

# Try to see things my way

# Turn a new page

# Tear the old one out

# Try to see things my way

# And I'll try to see things your way

# I'll try to see things your way

# Try to see things your way #

OK, now... let's make a plan to save our friend.

- [Chatter] - [Arizona] So you think that she'd have

a better chance if we took the baby out now. Electively?

Callie's cardiovascular status

could possibly be greatly improved. But we just need to know...

- What we want to do. - No, what Callie would want us to do.

- [Arizona] The baby's barely viable. - Why are we talking about the baby?

- Did... Did you just say that? - No, I'm saying we give Callie

- the best shot she can get. - Callie wants a baby.

- Callie wants to live! - We all want her to live!

But what's her life gonna be like if she wakes up and her child is gone?

What's her life gonna be like if she's dead?

- [Arizona] God, it's not that simple. - [Mark] It is.

- # Wait - [Mark] I don't like it,

but it is simple.

# Wait for the dawn, my dear

[Arizona] Gonna screw my girlfriend again?

- For God's sakes, we screwed, big deal. - # Wait till the sun gets here

It is, Mark! It is a big deal!

[Mark] If that's what it takes to make another child,

- my child, we'll screw again. - # And you will wait too long

- # He will be gone - No, you won't!

- Yes, we will! - You are out of your mind!

Just because you're too much of a man-whore to make any relationship work

it doesn't mean you get to make a life...

- # Wait - [arguing continues]

# Wait till the sun shines through

# Wait till the sky is blue

# And you will wait too long

# He will be gone

# He will be gone

[Mark] This is my family. I'm the father. I'm the father!

[Both] # He will be gone

# Ooh ooh ooh

# He will be gone

They have a plan?

Torres goes back to the OR tomorrow.

Now, the big question is whether or not to deliver the baby first.

They're waiting for Robbins and Sloan to decide.

How's? How are they doing?

You mean Sloan?

I think he's OK.

You want to go home tonight or sleep here?

I don't know, I might need to... [clears throat]

- I... - I get it.

It's Mark's kid.

[Bailey humming]

# He will be gone

# Ooh ooh ooh

# He will be gone...

- [sighs] - [Meredith] Derek?

She's suffered massive head trauma.

I fixed all the bleeders I saw, but...

She could have permanent neurological damage.

She may not come back.

Even if they manage to save her body, her brain may not come back.

Mark was standing there...

- You have to tell him. - I can't do that. I'm not... I can't...

OK. Come on. You need to sleep.

A baby born at 23 weeks risks encephalopathy, ROP,

- cerebral palsy, developmental... - I know the risks!

No, do you? Because you're acting like you don't care about the baby!

I'm thinking about Callie! You don't think I care?!

- This is my baby! - You're not being rational.

Oh! You never wanted this. You never asked for it.

Why the hell are you giving some opinion on what you?

No, no! You know what I didn't ask for? I didn't ask for you, Mark!

Because you know what you are? You're basically a sperm donor.

This is me and this is Callie, and we're together. So I say...

No! You don't get a say!

This is my family! I'm the father.

I'm the father! You're not anything! You're nothing!

# Wait

# Wait till you doubt no more

# Wait till you know you're sure

# And you will wait too long

# He will be gone #

Wait.

Oh, this is bad. Mark just found out Lexie's with Jackson. He's freaking.

I thought we were getting away from Mark for the weekend.

There. [laughs] He's gone.

[Cell phone beeps]

- [Sighs] - You know what? Just get it,

- 'cause he's not gonna stop. - [Groans]

All right.

- You're gonna ask me to marry you. - What? No, I'm not.

In a few seconds, you're gonna ask me to marry you

and then we're gonna run into a truck.

Well, then you better put on your seat belt.

I didn't answer you because I don't know.

- Put on your seat belt. - I mean, is this what love

is supposed to feel like? Is this what love feels like for other people?

I don't really care about other people right now.

Other people can do it. Meredith and Derek, Cristina and Owen,

Bailey's got Eli, Karev's with Lucy,

even Teddy's got that tumor patient husband.

- Put your seat belt on. - I want that.

I want us to be like that.

Because I love you.

- I do! - Put on your seat belt!

# Girl, you got me trippin' on sunshine

# God knows you just made my day

# Since you came around No, I just can't slow down, no

- # I want to see you walkin' my way - All right.

# Girl, you got me thinkin' 'bout diamonds

# And gettin' down on one knee Maybe two

# Oh, Lord People may stop and stare

# But I don't even care, no

# Just as long as I am with you

# You got me runnin' on sunshine

# Ain't no clouds gettin' in my way

# I must be runnin' on sunshine

# Ain't no rain gettin' in my way

# Girl, you've got me actin' real crazy

# Chasin' tail like some old dog

# Ooh, I got this rocket

# In my front left pocket

# Ready to explode like a bomb

# Somethin' tells me your name is Lucy

# 'Cause everything keeps shakin' around

# We can cop a room

# Make these walls go boom

# We can do this right here and now, now, now

[all] # Runnin' on sunshine

# Ain't no clouds gettin' in my way

# I must be runnin' on sunshine

# Ain't no rain gettin' in my way

# Hey, just get over yourself

# This ain't too good for your health

# Hey, just get over yourself

# Hey, just get over yourself

# This ain't too good for your health

# Hey, just get over yourself self, self, self

- OK. - # You got me runnin' on sunshine

# Ain't no clouds gettin' in my way

# I must be runnin' on sunshine

# Ain't no rain gettin' in my way

# No doubt

# No doubt about it

# And there ain't no clouds in my sky

Paralytics are off.

# No doubt

# No doubt about it

# And there ain't no clouds in my sky #

[Derek] Callie.

Callie.

I know it hurts, but we're gonna lower your sedation

and check on your neuro function.

Don't fight the intubation. This won't take long.

Can you follow me with your eyes?

With your eyes, OK?

Can you squeeze my hand?

What about one finger? Can you move one finger?

I'm gonna put her under.

- It's too soon to tell anything. - She didn't respond?

She opened her eyes, and...

- Look, it's just too soon to tell. - Derek, she follow commands?

Anything else?

[Exhales]

No. Nothing else.

These are Dr. Burke's ex-patients. Both stab wounds to the chest.

Both presented after their initial surgeries with DOE.

He fixed both of them percutaneously, which drastically reduces the amount

of heparin needed, so we could avoid the brain rebleeding,

and we don't need hypothermia so the baby would have a better chance...

Callie has a cardiac contusion, not penetrating trauma. This is different.

But I read cases where it worked in blunt trauma.

Well, I have seen every cardiac structure sheered off by the wire

- in the loop in that procedure. - Dr. Burke uses a technique

that doesn't require the formation of a loop.

By placing an extra stiff wire deep into the pulmonary artery,

- we avoided that complication. - Even if that's the case,

- the sheath could kink... - Not if you use

a hydrophilic braided sheath.

- There's embolization and hemolysis... - Which all could be avoided

with a meticulous delivery technique. It's genius!

No.

- What? - I'm saying no.

It's too risky in this case. The chances that we could puncture her heart

- are too high. - I did the surgery with Burke!

He taught me. If you're unfamiliar with the technique,

I can show you operative reports.

This discussion is over.

- Owen? - [Teddy] I am head of Cardio,

- not your husband. - I am not asking my husband.

I'm asking the person in charge of Callie's case. Dr. Hunt?

I'm sorry, but...

If Dr. Altman says that it's too risky...

Cristina!

[Birds chirping]

[Arizona] Mark's kind of right, you know?

I'm... nothing.

I mean, legally, I'm... no one.

Which is kinda crazy, 'cause I feel like your wife.

I feel like our baby's mom.

Can you just?

Can you live?

Can you live for me?

Please live for me.

# You know there's no need to hide away

# You know I tell the truth

[both] # We are just the same

# I can feel in everything you do

# Hear everything you say

# Even when you're miles away

[both] # I am me, the universe and you

# Ooh-ooh ooh ooh ooh-ooh

# Yeah-ah

# Oh yeah

# When you're on your own

# I'll send you a sign

# Just so you know

# That I am me, the universe and you

# The universe and you

# I am the universe

# And you #

[chattering]

You should go in there and make peace. You both love Callie.

There's nothing left to say.

[Machine beeps rapidly]

- What happened? - [Arizona] Pressure's bottoming out.

- [Addison] Belly's tight as a drum. - Flash pulmonary edema.

- Her lungs are full of fluid. - Abdominal compartment syndrome.

[Addison] She's bleeding out. Alert an OR that we're on our way down.

# I'm on my knees

# Only memories

# Are left for me to hold

# Don't know how

# But I'll get by

# Slowly pull myself

# Together

# I'll get through this

# There's no escape

# So keep me safe

# This feels so unreal

# Nothing comes easily

# Fill this empty space

# Nothing is like it seems

# Turn my grief to grace

# I feel the cold

# Loneliness unfold

# Like from another world

# Come what may

# I won't fade away

# But I know I might change

# Nothing comes easily

# Fill this empty space

# Nothing is like it was

# Turn my grief to grace

# Nothing comes easily

# Where do I begin?

# Nothing can bring me peace

# I've lost everything

# I just wanna feel your embrace #

We should say a prayer.

She'd want us to pray.

I haven't stopped praying since yesterday.

[Owen] Definitely got some new bleeding.

Remove the abdominal packs carefully. They may be stuck. Irrigation.

- Starting to cannulate. - Slowly push the heparin.

- We've got blood! - Damn it.

- We gotta go back in. - It's the heparin.

Dr. Altman, we can still do the percutaneous repair.

- It'll work, I know it will. - Dr. Yang, the decision's been made.

[Bailey] Get me more lap pads, I got a lot of bleeding down here.

- Baby's having decels. - [Owen] This is not working.

Yang is right. We need to reverse the heparin and try the percutaneous repair.

What? No. I can do this. I just need to... Damn it.

Go.

Get me a percutaneous catheter kit

and flip on the echo. I'm going up through the groin.

- [Teddy] No, I said I've got this! - Avery, can you assist?

Dr. Altman, stabilize the heart and step back.

[Teddy] No, I can do this. I just need to... Damn it.

- [Richard] Dr. Altman. - [Machines beeping rapidly]

Dr. Altman! Step away.

[Suctioning sounds]

You can do this. One step at a time.

[Cristina] One step at a time.

# Step one: You say we need to talk

# He walks You say sit down, it's just a talk

# He smiles politely back at you

- # You stare politely right on through - Removing needle over the guide wire.

- Catheter. - Forceps. Suction to Dr. Grey.

# Some sort of window to your right As he goes left and you stay right

# Between the lines of fear and blame

- # You begin to wonder why you came - It's going in easy. Get the TEE ready.

[All] # Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend

# Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up

# With you all night

# Had I known

[Teddy] # How to save a life

Still got active bleeding coming from somewhere.

- Let's recheck the retroperitoneum. - I've got access.

# Let him know that you know best

# 'Cause, after all, you do know best...

- Forceps. Get me some suction. - [Owen] Clamp.

- Give me a tie, please. - [Derek] Brain is decompressing.

[Cristina] Balloon is advanced.

- Extra-stiff guide wire, please. - Brain bleed has been controlled.

# Lay down a list of what is wrong

- Occluder's in. Turn on the Doppler. - # The things you've told him all along

- # And pray to God he hears you... - Got minimal residual VSD flow.

Good. Then we're done here. Pulling out.

I got a lumbar vein avulsed in the vena cava. Two Allis clamps!

- Ventricular rhythm. - # Where did I go wrong?

[Derek] Damn it, she's bradying down.

[Richard] Pressure's down, 55 systolic!

[Jackson] Pulse is down to 40, and dropping!

[Owen] One of atropine!

- CVP and arterial pressures shot up. - [Teddy] It might be an air embolus.

- [Bailey] Pull back on the PA catheter. - [Owen] Hang more FFP and Factor Vll.

- [Richard] We're losing her. - [Knox] We've already replaced...

[Richard] Starting cardiac massage.

- [Bailey] Push one of epi! - Find whatever's bleeding

- and shut it down. - How about an amp of bicarb?

# As he begins to raise his voice...

Push three of epi and another of atropine!

Richard, you have one minute to get her heart back or I'm taking the baby out.

# Drive until you lose the road Or break with the ones...

[Richard] Come on, come on!

# He will do one of two things

# He will admit to everything

# Or he'll say he's just not the same

# And you'll begin to wonder why you came

- [all] # Where did I go wrong? - Is she breathing?

Her color's bad. Stimulate and suction and get some access.

# And I would have stayed up with you all night

# Had I known how to save a life

- # Where did I go wrong? - Not getting a heartbeat. Dr. Karev?

- I could use a hand. - Go.

Get those monitors on. Ventilate. Apgar still zero.

- Come on, baby. - There it is.

- Torres is coming back. - Systolic's 70 and rising.

I'm getting no chest rise with the bagging.

- We should intubate. - OK, do it.

Tube's in. Starting ventilation.

# How to save a life

Move.

Continue compression suction through the tube.

Got it. Bleeding's controlled.

- ICP's stable. - Push nine cc's of LR,

.05 cc's of epi and.5 of bicarb.

Give me another 2-0 vicryl. I'm almost done.

# How to save a life...

- [monitor beeping] - I have a heartbeat.

- Mom's heart is strong. - # How to save a life #

We've done everything we can. Now we just have to wait for her to wake up.

And the fact that she barely responded

when you weaned her off the paralytics before?

It could mean she wasn't ready to wake up.

- Or? - Or it could mean her brain has been

compromised, and... she's not going to wake up.

You're not nothing.

We have a kid together.

You're a mom.

I'm a dad.

I'm sorry.

She's gonna wake up.

She has to wake up.

[Lucy] Dr. Montgomery, if I could just...

I don't want you to think I'm a complete imbecile.

The reason I didn't think about early steroids is...

...is I haven't had much trauma training.

Seriously, you're really worried about what I think of you?

Well, you've always been my...

I mean, your career is basically what I...

I wanna be you.

Then stop making excuses for your mistakes.

Stop whining.

You say you don't have enough trauma training, shut up and get it.

Well, that is one of the main reasons I came to Seattle Grace...

Now. Shut up and start being a better doctor right now.

Think she still wants to be me?

Oh... I can't do this anymore, the sex in the on-call rooms.

The sex in your car.

The sex at your house... I like the sex, don't get me wrong.

And it's been fun being the kind of person who does that...

But my friend got hurt.

[Stammers]

I'm not that person.

I... I need more.

I want more.

Good.

Me too.

[Elevator dings]

[Sighs]

Yesterday, at that baby shower...

...I was jealous of Callie because she got pregnant...

...without trying.

And we try.

I get shots, I take my temperature,

I put my legs in the air and nothing.

The universe says, "Screw you, Meredith," and gives Callie a kid...

...and then puts Callie through a windshield.

I mean, what the hell is going on?

What's the point?

I mean, is there a reason for this?

Because if you can think of a reason, any reason at all,

why the universe is so screwed up...

...and random and mean, now would be an amazingly good time to tell me

- because I really need some answers! - I know. I know. I know.

I know. Listen.

I will make sure we have a baby. I promise you.

One way or another.

You and I will be parents. I promise you.

OK?

She's... She's really small.

But she's strong.

She's one pound, one ounce of strong,

fighting against all the complications.

She's got beautiful black hair, Calliope. Beautiful hair.

She's... She's beautiful.

She can't open her eyes yet.

But I can tell, she's looking for you.

OK? She's asking for you.

[Singing]

- You sleeping at home tonight? - Look.

I am not the kind of guy that waits around for the girl

who's still in love with someone else. I'm just not.

Jackson.

Let's go home.

[Cristina] And let's put her on a low dose of dopamine. Dr. Altman.

Um, is there?

Did you have anything you wanted to add?

- I can't teach you anymore. - What?

If you refuse to learn, if you won't listen,

- I can't teach you. - I'm sorry...

Find someone else to learn from.

[Singing]

Yes...

Yes...

Oh, my God. Oh, my God! Callie?

- Yes. - Callie?

- Yes. - What? What?

I'll marry you.

Yes. Yes.

[Arizona laughing]