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[Meredith] The best gift I ever got
was for Christmas when I was 10:

My very first suture kit.

I used it until my fingers bled,

and then I tried to use it
to stitch up my fingers.

Thank you for meeting me.

You're the chief of surgery.
lf you page l'm here.

[Meredith] It put me on the path
to becoming a surgeon.

l want to say something.

l need to say something

about what happened the other night.
l need you to know it wasn't...

Well, it isn't what you think.

Oh, l don't think anything
about your personal life, sir.

l had a problem, a long time ago.

l was diagnosed with alcoholism.
Or l diagnosed myself,

and l didn't take a drink
for almost 20 years.

But l think it was a misdiagnosis.

l'm not saying my drinking wasn't bad,
because it was.

But there is such a thing as...
situational depression,

and l think that's what
l was suffering from,

and it escalated my drinking.

Situational depression?

- Your mother.
- Yes, she escalated my drinking too.

[Richard chuckles]

Have you told anyone what you saw?
Have you told Derek?

No. No.

[stammers]

Since l took a step back from surgery,

l've had some time
to really look at our residents.

And your work, your raw talent...

[sighs] ...is extraordinary.

A lot like your mother's.

And since l have some time,
some extra time, um...

...maybe you would like a mentor.

Maybe l could teach you some things.

Have you ever done a two-layered
continuous suture for an anastomosis?

[Meredith] My point is,

sometimes the best gifts come
in really surprising packages.

No.

[Richard] Take a seat.

You're about to.

- [moaning]
- [pager beeps, vibrates]

Wait. [chuckles]

Oh, it's Teddy.
l love it when it's Teddy.

OK.

Don't you think it's strange
he's mentoring you at night

and still not talking to me?

Since the merger,
it is impossible to get OR time.

- And who is responsible for that?
- That's what l'm saying.

- l need all the help l can get.
- l say he is using you to get to me.

- He is not!
- Then why now?

Why are you suddenly seeing
so much of him?

l'm done talking about this.

lf you want to stay mad, stay mad,
but l'm just gonna be here kissing you.

Oh, my God! That is the biggest
pseudoaneurysm l've ever seen.

lt's at the suture line of the
transplant. Her new heart is dying.

- Damn it!
- Poor guy that brought her in,

- l think they were on their third date.
- Doesn't look like a heart anymore.

That's because it's not.

lt's a chunk of useless flesh
that has to come out right now.

You're taking the heart out?
What are you gonna replace it with?

l don't know.

We're gonna have to figure it out
as we go.

OK, wait, let me get this straight.
You removed her heart?

- Yes.
- [scoffs] And she can live that way?

Like, what?

Like a vampire?

Usually you'd connect a ventricular
assist device to the heart,

- but since she doesn't have a heart...
- Dr. Altman attached two, um, devices

to her blood vessels.

This machine now pumps the blood
through her body,

which is basically, um, a miracle.

l really like her... l like her a lot,
but we've only had four dates.

l'm supposed to have Thanksgiving
with my family, you know?

She was gonna join us,
and now she's like a...

She can really live without a heart?

lf you don't want to stay, we have
a great nursing staff, great doctors.

She'll be in good hands.

No, you know?
She doesn't even have a family.

And if it was me, l would want
somebody here, so l'll stay.

OK.

Tucker and Little Tuck are both fine.
[groans, sighs]

l know, l'm sorry l have to work today
and on Christmas this year.

Yeah, Tucker and l were hoping
to bring him home to visit you.

Mom, um, l have to go.

Happy Thanksgiving, Mom.

You didn't tell your parents
about the divorce?

How long are you gonna
keep that a secret?

When you started dating women,
how long did you keep that secret?

- [Callie] OK.
- What?

- [Lexie] When did the bleeding start?
- This morning. He's had these before.

l just... l've never seen a nosebleed
go on like this.

There's blood on Timmy, Mom.

Mr. and Mrs. Jacobsen,
can l see you?

Go ahead. We'll be fine.

Nicholas has what is called
an arteriovenous malformation.

A cluster of tangled blood vessels in
his brain, what's causing the bleeding.

ln order to stop the bleeding,
we need to remove it.

You mean like brain surgery or...?

l'll do everything l can to protect
the brain tissue and minimize damage.

l'm sorry. l know it's scary,
but we have to go in right away.

Excuse me.

- l'm looking for Dr. Mark Sloan.
- [man screaming]

Um, see the dude who was burned
trying to deep-fry a turkey?

Sloan's the guy making him
scream like a girl.

[screaming]

- Dr. Sloan?
- Yeah.

Hi. Uh, so this is a little weird,
but, um...

...my name is Sloan Reilly,
and my mom's Samantha Reilly.

And, um... l'm pretty sure
you're my dad.

Hi. How's it, uh... going in here?

- Great.
- Fine.

OK. So...

...have we broached the question
about the paternity test?

'Cause l brought supplies.

She's 1 8. That's not
very much younger than me.

lt's not that shocking, actually. The
way Mark got around before he met you?

There could be a gaggle of Sloans.
Sloan Jones, Sloan Smith,

Sloan Sloan. [chuckles]

Mean.

Oh, damn it.

Son of a bitch.

l can't access the feeders.

So what does that mean?

lt means l can't get at it.
l can do a temporary fix.

But once he starts bleeding again,
which he will,

there won't be anything we can do.

So we're just gonna
send him home to die?

Happy Thanksgiving, Jacobsen family.

- Nice day.
- A little chilly.

Yeah.

- lt's brisk, though. lt's not cold.
- Right.

Look, Teddy...

No. l know.

[siren blaring]

l don't... l don't understand.

You said that he would die
without the surgery,

and now you're telling us
we're supposed to just take him home?

Well, l've stopped the bleeding
temporarily,

but the only way to remove
the AVM safely is through the sinus.

Why don't you do that?

There are no instruments that can
maneuver through a nasal cavity

this small and get
the appropriate angles.

Why not? Who does that?

Who invents those things?

Mark.

Now might be a good place
for you to say something.

Out loud.

Dude, are you, like, high or something?

- Sloan...
- Yeah!

- Yes?
- Heh. Mark, l need you on something.

l have a daughter, Derek,
an 1 8-year-old daughter.

l am too young to have an 1 8-year-old.

lt's a nail in my coffin.
lt's like death has come to call.

OK, can we put a pin in your
existential crisis for a minute?

No. That's why they call it a crisis.

Dr. Robbins and l have a six-year-old
with an inoperable AVM.

We need your help to make it operable.

This is the best Thanksgiving ever.

No obnoxious relatives,
no stupid traditions.

[scoffs] No going around the table
and saying what you're grateful for.

l think we should do the opposite:
talk about what we're not grateful for.

- The merger.
- The Mercy Westers.

They're like the plague.
l mean, stealing all our surgeries,

eating all that pie
in the nurses station.

- You're doing that wrong.
- [sighs] l am not.

You are. Can l show you?

Private lessons with the chief.

Man, those daddy issues
are working for you.

l don't have daddy issues.
He's teaching me.

- You're his bitch.
- ln that case, you're Teddy's bitch.

Maybe that's my problem.
l'm nobody's bitch.

You were lzzie's bitch.

- You're the bitch.
- You know what? lt's Thanksgiving.

- Can we just have no name-calling?
- Yeah, please.

Just... Show me that stitch again.

- Hey!
- Hey.

[Sloan] Hey.

- Hi.
- Hello.

Welcome. Happy Thanksgiving.
Who wants wine?

- l do.
- No, you don't.

Um... Hey, everybody.

Well, the results are in.

lt, uh, turns out Sloan was right
about her parentage.

l am her dad.

So here's another thing
to be thankful for.

Lexie, Sloan here is gonna move in
with us for a little while.

[crunch]

- Oh, my God!
- Oh!

Ouch.

Just ease up.

Let the suture do the work for you.

lt's like a dance, you know.

You let the needle be the man,
let it take the lead

and let your hand just follow.

Look at that. l haven't seen
skill like that since...

...since your mother.
That woman, she could dance.

You should make up with Derek.
lt's Christmas, it's time.

You need to take perpendicular bites,
about a millimeter apart.

[bell jingles]

- How's it feel? Still tingling?
- Oh, it's fine.

- l pretty much have full sensation.
- Great. Good.

So...

Have you...? l mean, you think you can
ask her how long she's planning to stay?

Mark, it's been a month,

and you've exchanged
three sentences with her.

Two of them were, ''Pass the cereal.''

ln the spirit of the holiday,
maybe you can ask her yourself.

She's pretty easy to like
once you get to know her.

Really?

No. She's a vapid, vapid girl,
but she's your daughter, OK?

So try. OK? Try to be her dad.

- [exhales]
- Go.

[sighs, clears throat]

What are you looking at, you old perv?

[knock on door]

- Dad!
- Merry Christmas. [chuckles]

- Your mother sent me.
- Oh. You heard.

Your cousin said something
to her husband in front of your niece,

who said something to your younger niece
who said something to your mother.

- l was planning to put a tree up...
- And where's Tuck?

He's back East with Tucker's family.
He was with me for Thanksgiving.

So it's true. You are getting a divorce.

lt's weird.

No heartbeat.

l used to climb mountains, you know.

One time l did the lnca Trail.
lt's four mountains in three days.

The second day there was this climb,
it's eight hours straight,

and you are so tired and the air
is so thin, you don't even talk.

All you do is climb.

And it's just you and your breathing

and your heartbeat
pounding in your ears.

lt's just hard
getting used to no heartbeat.

[deep breath]

And l'm getting tired.

Really tired.

l know.

You know what? You just need
to hang on until New Year's Eve.

There's a lot of drunk drivers, a lot
of brain death. lt's organpalooza.

Kelsey, you just gotta hang on, OK?

You'll hike again, you know?

We'll hike together.

lt's such a beautiful world
outside this hospital.

lt's snowy and quiet, cold.

And perfect.

So, you know, you just gotta make it
until New Year's Eve.

- l need to go outside.
- [both] What?

l might die, we all know that.
l might die really soon.

But snow is my favorite thing
in the whole wide world.

lt's my favorite thing.

Please.

Please, OK?

- l'm sorry, but...
- We can do that.

We can do that.

l wanna bolt. l want to quit,
l want to... go back to New York

or... l don't know, Arkansas.

Somewhere no one can come
looking for me.

l don't know how to talk to her.
l don't know what she wants from me.

lt's the guilt, you know?

lt's how every time l look at her
l just...

The guilt is like a punch in the gut
every day.

Well, you shouldn't feel guilty.
You didn't know.

l did know.

l knew when her mom got pregnant.

She told me. l gave her
a couple hundred bucks and l left town.

l never saw her again.
l figured she got an abortion.

Hoped.

But l did know.

Well, you're a different guy now.
You're not 1 8 anymore.

You've grown up.
You're capable of better.

Nicholas is back in the ER.
He's got a nosebleed, bad.

- l've tried to stop it for an hour.
- We can't operate. We're not ready.

Then l'll admit him and keep transfusing
'til the equipment's done,

which is gonna be soon, l hope?

Um, hello. Are you Bailey's...
l mean, Miranda's dad?

William Bailey. You can call me Bill.

OK. Hi, Bill.

l'm Callie Torres,
l'm a friend of Bailey's.

She mentioned that she snuck you
in here, said l should come say hi.

- So what's that she's doing down there?
- That's a hernia repair.

We get a lot of hernias at Christmas.

Lots of people lifting trees
or heavy gifts or Santa bags.

lt's... We get a lot of broken bones,
too, 'cause of the weather.

Oh, l had this, uh, this guy earlier,

he got an electric shock
from some Christmas lights.

The shock was so big
that it broke both of his wrists.

- Whoa.
- Yeah.

- Anyway, l'm dating women, and...
- l'm sorry?

Oh, l'm... l recently started
dating women,

and my family had
a really hard time accepting that.

But, you know,
we worked through it, and, um...

Bailey said that you're having
a hard time with her divorce,

which l totally understand, but l...

l wanted to say that she didn't come
to that decision lightly.

And she's a good person, and...

Merry Christmas.

Did Hunt ever tell you about the time
that he made snow?

No.

His guys were feeling the holidays
pretty bad,

so Hunt orders one of those snow makers
on Christmas Eve.

He tries to get the thing going, but the
minute the snow hit the sand, it melts.

So Hunt blindfolded his guys

and made them put their faces
right up to the snow blower.

There was this one kid from Minnesota,

he actually cried and he said
it felt exactly like Christmas at home.

[Avery] Ooh, Hunt.

Hunt's so delicious
when he's tending to bloody soldiers.

- Love me some Hunt.
- Shut up!

So, how was the view?

l have been a proud father.

Your whole life,
l have been a proud father.

Your mother and l sat in the front row
of every dance class,

every oboe recital, and we cheered.

We sat in the front row
of every graduation.

l was always the first one on my feet
and the loudest one in the crowd.

l have been a proud father.

And today, Miranda, l sat in the gallery

and l watched you repair
some fat man's hernia,

and for the first time in my life
l felt ashamed of you.

This is what you do on Christmas?

For this you traded your husband?

For this you traded your child's family?

So you can work all day
and go home alone on Christmas

to an empty house, without even a tree?

l have been a proud father...

...Miranda, but l would be a bad father
today if l didn't look you in the eye

and tell you that you have made
a terrible mistake.

You broke your family,
you set your son up to fail.

And the child l raised... [scoffs]

...she was raised better than that.

That's something
you don't see every day.

She could code,
or the monitor could short out.

Teddy's a brilliant surgeon,
but l don't get how she made this call.

l get it. lt's patient care.

And Teddy's always been
a sucker for Christmas.

[Mike] Oh, my God! Kelsey!

From your X-rays and CT, it looks like
part of your bowel has died.

lt's a side effect of your poor
circulation, it's why you collapsed.

Just fix her, OK?

She can't have come this far to...
Just fix her.

We're gonna need to repair this
as soon as possible.

The more time we wait,
the more bowel dies.

But how? She's septic, hypotensive,
and she has no heart.

Her pressure's too low for general
anesthesia. She won't survive.

Then... we won't put her under general.

This goes through the nose,
through the base of the skull,

and then l drill the bone off.

Well, what happens
once you drill the holes?

We put miniature staple clips
on the vessels.

- With what instrument?
- We don't have it. Not yet.

But we will, we will. We're, uh, still
trying to figure out how to build it,

but we're on it.

l would like an invitation to your home
for Christmas dinner.

l know it's very late for me to be
asking for such an invitation

given that it is,
in fact, Christmas Day.

However, l have a very worried father,

and if l don't look like l have
some sort of life, he'll never leave.

l have a bowel infarction to repair,

and then after that l'll be free
to come to your home.

- Sounds fine.
- Oh, absolutely.

- Thank you.
- Chief cut off funding for equipment.

- What?
- What?

We're way over budget.
Nicholas is running out of time.

We want our bonuses to go
towards finishing the prototype

- for Nicholas Jacobsen.
- Sorry, you can't do that.

- But it'll be like a donation.
- They're our bonuses.

There are no bonuses,
that's what he's trying to say.

There are no bonuses this year.
l'm sorry.

Merry Christmas.

l'll write a check. How much?

- l'll split it with you.
- Thank you.

l have a teenager.
What if she wants to go to college?

- Have you met her?
- Fine, l'm in.

Thank you. l'll get back to you
with numbers. Shep.

Chief?

l'm sorry l tried to fire you.

And in the spirit of the holidays,
l was, uh...

l'm sorry.

You're not serious.
You got him a snow globe of Seattle?

What? He likes Seattle.

l gave you fifty bucks.
Where's my change?

Um... Ahem. Mark?

Your kids are bickering.

- Have you talked to her yet?
- l'm working on it.

Your sister's got
a ready-made family there.

Don't worry, she didn't forget
about you. She invited you, right?

[sighs] He's drinking.

lsn't he? Richard?

He's off the wagon.

Well, he's drinking egg nog.
lt's Christmas.

Everybody drinks egg nog at Christmas.

Some people do.
Recovering alcoholics don't.

He's not an alcoholic.
That was a misdiagnosis.

ls that what he's telling you?

Meredith, he is a surgeon
and he is drinking and...

...he is an alcoholic.

That could quickly become catastrophic.

Were you drinking when l was a kid?

When you left me with my mother and got
another family and never looked back?

No.

No, l didn't start drinking
until much later.

Well then, we can't blame
the world's evils on alcohol, can we?

- Oh, yeah!
- [laughter]

- lt hurts.
- [Bailey] l know.

Surgery with only a local anesthetic
is not ideal.

Hang in there.

OK, you're OK.

lt's gonna be OK.
l'm here with you, all right?

Hey, hey! No tears.

No tears at Christmas.

No, it's only, uh, lights...

...and snowmen and...

...songs. Um...

Come on, now.

- Karev.
- No, thanks.

- Sing, Yang.
- No, l don't... l'm Jewish.

Don't play the race card with me.
Sing or get off my service.

You too, Karev.

[Lexie] The house looks beautiful.

- [Meredith] Thank you.
- Callie?

- Working.
- That's too bad.

- Here, you need some stuffing.
- Thanks.

- How did Kelsey do?
- Well.

- Who's Kelsey?
- Uh, girl with no heart.

l had to do a laparoscopic bowel repair

while the poor thing
was awake on the table.

Miranda, mind your manners.

Even if surgery is your whole life,

it doesn't mean
you have to talk about bowels

at the dinner table.

My child is healthy.

- Excuse me?
- He may not be with me tonight,

- but he's healthy and he's well-loved.
- l didn't say he...

He's a well-loved boy
and he's a happy boy

- and staying in an unhappy marriage...
- Now is not the time or place...

...a marriage that l've outgrown,

a marriage full of ultimatums
and numbness and resentment.

- Miranda!
- That is not the kind of life

l want to model for my child!

That is not what l want him to believe
married love is.

Look, l know what's possible,

l know what's out there for me
because you taught me well.

You and Mom showed me
what true love looks like.

So l chose not to settle
and l'm happier for it,

even if l'm alone at Christmas.

My child is healthy and l'm happy.

[shudders]

You know, part of my happiness is

the fact that l got to repair
a woman's bowel

and save her life today.

And that's God's work,

which makes this appropriate
Christmas dinner conversation.

l'm happy, and my child is healthy,

and that's enough for me today.

Dad, that's enough.

- Uh, green beans, anyone?
- Thank you.

Thanks.

OK, here l would advise a one-hand tie.

- OK, why don't l talk and you operate?
- Good.

Last night was my last drink.

- The shaking will stop soon.
- Good. Good for you.

That doesn't mean l have to quit
drinking tequila. l really like tequila.

- lt's New Year's Eve.
- l know.

She shows no signs of leaving,
no suitcase packed, nothing.

Talk to her right now
or no more sex for you.

[exhales]

So, what you reading?

l can tell you don't really like me,

and, uh, your girlfriend's, like,
totally freaked out by me

'cause l'm kind of, like,
hotter than her.

But... l'm pregnant. Yeah.

l'm having a baby and, um...

That's why l dropped out of school
and why my mom kicked me out.

Look, l know you don't owe me
anything...

...but l can tell you guys are about
to kick me out,

and l... l...

l don't have anywhere else to go.

Shh! Shh, shh...

- lt's OK. You're gonna be OK.
- [sobbing]

OK, he's in hypovolemic shock.
He's lost too much blood.

We're gonna have to put a tube
down his throat to help him breathe.

- Nicholas?
- We need to tube him right now.

Don't tube him. Bag him
until we get to the OR.

- The OR?
- We finished the instruments.

- We did?
- We're gonna operate.

l just need you to sign
the consent form.

- Pretty dramatic timing, Dr. Shepherd.
- l like to make an entrance.

lt's OK.

Her kidneys are shutting down.

We need to find a donor.
We needed to find one yesterday.

lt's New Year's Eve, Dr. Yang.

You said l just had to make it
to New Year's Eve.

Drunks all over the road, so, yeah.

Tonight's our best shot.

- How's it handling?
- lt could bend a little more gently.

Don't be all critical.
The thing cost me a fortune.

At least one more day to practice.

[Derek] OK.
lnserting the clip applier.

Why don't you try torquing it
a little bit, give it a different angle?

There you go.

OK. There it is.

- [Mark] They're open.
- [Derek] OK.

Got it.
That's the last clip.

- [Arizona] Oh, my God.
- Ladies and gentlemen, we're done here.

- Nice work. Beautiful.
- [Arizona] Oh, my God, you did it.

[Lexie] Amazing.

Hang on. Look at the clock.

That's seven, six...

[all] Five... four...

Three... two... one...

Happy New Year!

- Happy New Year!
- Happy New Year!

Happy New Year.

Happy New Year.

[Teddy] l'm just gonna take a listen.

- We're hitting the final wave.
- l need to talk to you.

- l'm heading into the...
- Now.

- What is wrong with you?
- You.

- Me?
- Yeah, you come over here...

- Why did you tell me this now?
- Why do you even care?

You didn't say a thing all those times,
all those years, so why now?

- l don't know.
- You don't know?

What does it matter to you?
You never felt the same way for me.

Of course l did!

Of course l did. l had all those
feelings for you, Teddy, for years,

- but you never gave me anything.
- You were engaged...

- You were engaged...
- You never gave me one damn hint!

You idiot.

l have loved you forever.

l have loved you when l was coupled up,

l have loved you when l was single.

l have loved you every second
of every day.

- Teddy...
- l love you. l'm in love with you.

l'm in love with Cristina.

[clears throat] You paged me?

l just confirmed a brain death
on an 1 8-year-old female

involved in a head-on MVC earlier
this evening. She's a match for Kelsey.

So l called UNOS, and they gave me
the go-ahead for a directed donation.

Dr. Bailey will do the organ recovery
and l set up OR 2 for Kelsey.

That is why New Year's Eve
is my favorite holiday.

Stop it! This is not a celebration.
Come here.

No! No, no, no, not my baby.

Please, not my daughter.

This is not a celebration.

[man] No! No!

Your kidneys have stabilized
and your vitals are stable,

and everything looks great.

Feel.

- Awesome, huh?
- l can only feel your boob.

Hey!

- You want to feel?
- Uh, no, but l will listen.

- Oh, my God! What are you doing?
- What are you doing?

l know it's only been
a couple of months...

And four dates.
lt's technically been four dates.

You amaze me every day.

And we went through a war together,
we went through this together,

and we came out the other side.

And l think if we can get through this,

we can get through anything.

So marry me.

Please.

Yes, of course!

l'm...

...insensitive sometimes. Um...

But l'm not oblivious,

and l don't want you to be with me
because you feel like you owe me

because you two went through war...

l want you. l want you
because l want to be.

l want you because l love you.

Are you sure?

[Meredith] Every day we get to give
the gift of life.

It can be painful, it can be terrifying.

But in the end, it's worth it.

Every time.

We all have the opportunity to give.

Maybe the gifts aren't as dramatic
as what happens in the operating room.

- So how was New Year's Eve at Tucker's?
- lt was fine.

l kissed my grandson at midnight
East Coast time and tucked him into bed.

OK. Uh, so you're headed home today?

- Mom's picking you up at the airport?
- Yeah.

l, uh...

...tucked you in every night
of your childhood.

- Dad...
- l tucked you in,

and l kissed you good night

and l checked under the bed
for bad guys.

And you went and grew up
and got yourself a divorce...

...and didn't bother to tell me.

Dad, l didn't know how to... explain.

l didn't want to disappoint you.
l didn't want to be judged.

l'm your father.

Can you imagine if Little Tuck grew up
and got a divorce and didn't tell you?

Then l'm sorry, Dad.
l'm... l'm so sorry.

[Meredith] Maybe the gift is to try
and make a simple apology.

l'm never judging you.

l'm worrying about you.
Your mother and l worry about you.

That's all.

Little Tuck, he's a real spitfire,
isn't he?

- He is.
- He sure is.

He doesn't seem too much worse for wear.

[Meredith] Maybe it's to understand
another person's point of view.

Hey. l'm sorry that l paged you.

He's pretty public here,

and l know what that can do
to his career.

l didn't know what else to do.

[Meredith] Maybe it's to hold a secret
for a friend.

The joy supposedly is in the giving.

Meredith!

Happy New Year.

She's my star pupil, Joe.

She's my little star.
And l'm so proud of her.

l am so very proud.

She will be a brilliant surgeon.

Brilliant.

Just like her mother.

[Meredith] So when the joy is gone...

Get Dr. Grey a drink, Joe.

Tequila!

...when the giving starts to feel more
like a burden, that's when you stop.

And, um... l will have another...
club soda.

But if you're like most people I know...

And it's on me. On me.

...you give till it hurts.

And then you give some more.