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Paranoia...

gives you an edge in the O.R.

What I realized is that peds
is the only specialty

where I could do it all...
You know, cardio, general, ortho.

It's like the whole body
is your canvas,

and the fact that
it's a small canvas

makes it even more challenging.

I have no idea if you have someone
on your service right now, but

I would really love to witness
your artistry.

You got this?

You gotta like kids.

- I love kids.
- I'll see you on rounds.

Great.

He lost a huge chunk of flesh.
I see down to his mandible.

We'll need plastics and
an E.N.T. consult, too.

Left I.V. looks like it's clotted off.
I need a new 16 gauge in there.

What's going on? It's 4:00
in the morning. Is everyone on call?

It's the merger.
Everyone's scared to go home.

I don't think the Chief meant
that people couldn't sleep.

It's hard to sleep
when your job is on the line.

One of you, get as much type-specific
blood as they'll let you have

and meet us in surgery.

Surgeons play out worst-case
scenarios in their heads.

I talked to Callie last night
about the residents at Mercy West.

She said they don't suck.

You're safe because of Derek.

Izzie's safe 'cause of cancer.

Alex is Bailey's new favorite.

Even George would've been spared,
'cause he's Owen's guy.

Cardio has been a revolving door
around here, and no one's got my back.

So Arizona is your cover?

She's merger-proof.
She keeps little kids alive.

No one likes a dead kid.

Plus, they're under anesthesia
half the time. How bad can it be?

You're ready to close,
you got the bleeder,

you know it, but there's that
voice in your head asking...

Sloan and Shepherd are scrubbing
out of surgery in O.R. two.

Grab 'em before they leave.

Let me know if you hear anything
about the merger.

Nurses are always the last
to know, first to go.

What if you didn't?

What if the patient dies
and you could've prevented it?

What do you think?
Looks real, right?

My mom sent it to me.

What are you doing here?

- Working.
- Iz, we talked about this.

You're supposed to be taking
another three weeks, really resting up.

I have to come back now, before
I don't have a job to come back to.

I have to show people
that I'm not gonna die.

Unless I sit alone in that trailer for
one more minute, then I'm gonna die.

- I'm gonna die of boredom.
- Look, Izzie...

seriously, it looks real, right?

If you didn't know I have cancer,

you wouldn't know
I have cancer, right?

So you check your work
one more time before you close.

Paranoia is a surgeon's best friend.

Karev, what do you got?

16-year-old helmeted dirt bike victim.
G.C.S. 15 reported before intubation.

Okay. On my count. Ready?
One, two, three.

I'm gonna scrub in.

So he announces a merger, and then
he shuts himself in his office all day

- and refuses to talk to anybody.
- This merger won't affect us.

- It's just a financial restructuring.
- What do you think restructuring is?

Cutting personnel. Are you prepared
to lose all the good people? I'm not.

Tell Hunt he's good to go.
I'll write up a consult later.

I'm gonna go talk
to Richard right now.

You're tired. You're angry. You're
gonna say something you'll regret.

Get outta here for a while. Go to the
driving range, hit a bucket of balls.

- I have a surgery in an hour.
- So take a walk.

- Grab Meredith, take a walk.
- Meredith won't leave the hospital.

None of 'em will.
Everyone's awaiting word from on high.

Look, don't tell me
Lexie's not worried.

Is he in there?!
'cause I've got the...

No. Lexie's worried.

S06E03 I Always Feel Like
Somebody's Watchin' Me

I think you missed a spot.

You can't tease me about the blood
thing because it's not funny.

And if it gets back to the Chief,
I may as well just pack my things.

You need to stop worrying about
the Chief. All this is in your head.

Really? 2002, Milwaukee,

Third Street Hospital merged with
st. Ann's. 13 residents were let go.

2004, Nashville Women's
absorbed Memorial.

Nine residents were fired.
2006, Albuquerque.

- 19 residents...
- All right. Stop.

You need to pull yourself together.

You deserve to be here.

Act like it.

I meant later. After you went home
and got some sleep.

We really should get some sleep
before rounds.

Sleep is for wimps. Sleep is
for Mercy West residents.

Let's fit in another trauma
before rounds.

Don't say anything about the wig.

I'm back.

Yes, I am early.
But whatever. I'm back.

And because I've been gone so long,

the first trauma that comes
through those doors, it's mine.

Got it?

It's amazing, right?

- What's amazing?
- The wig.

It looks so real,
I couldn't even tell.

I've always wanted to try out
being a redhead, so I just thought,

- now's the time.
- What's wrong with your own hair?

That's peach fuzz chemo hair,

and I really wanted to put my patients
at ease, make 'em feel comfortable.

She looks like a stepford wife.
You've gotta tell her.

She can't handle it.
Just don't stare.

M.V.C. who do I have?

I'm not your Chief resident anymore.
Figure it out.

Karev, let's go.

- You're back.
- I am.

- My mom's whole church prayed for you.
- Thank you.

- It looks really real.
- I know, right?

We need to talk.

- Look, I'm busy right now.
- Are you making cuts?

I said I'm busy.

If you're making cuts in my department,
you need to consult with me.

When it's appropriate, I'll consult
the people I need to consult with.

People? I'm not people.
I'm the guy that saved your ass.

When Jennings came to me,
you were done.

- Out of loyalty to you...
- Loyalty?

You came to me so you would look like
a good guy before you stole my job.

Are you making whole cuts or not?

I said when I'm ready to tell my staff
about decisions I will be making,

I will...

when I'm ready!

So don't come barging in here like I
owe you. I don't owe you a damn thing,

You work for me.

I'm still the Chief of surgery
at this hospital.

Then start acting like it.

Jodie Crowley... 60-year-old driver

who lost consciousness
and hit a parked car.

Vital signs stable.
Complains of abdominal pain.

It wasn't a parked car. It was them.
They hit us.

- Sir, who are you?
- Who am i? Who are you?

- He's my son.
- Why don't we go in the waiting room?

He needs to stay with me.

He's a paranoid schizophrenic.

Let's put her on a gurney
on my count.

One, two, three.

Listen to me, mom. They're trying
to get to me through you.

- You have to believe me.
- Tom, they're not real.

Look at me. Look at me, honey.

Did you feel dizzy
or light-headed before the crash?

No, I felt fine.

Abdominal tenderness.
I feel a mass.

I've had it for quite a while.

Maybe that's what caused me to
black out.

I've been warning her. They're trying
to hurt her, but she won't believe me.

Tom, look at me.

- You know I wouldn't lie to you.
- No. No! You have to believe me.

Someone has to believe me.
Aliens have impregnated my mother.

the Chief was spotted five
hours ago in the cafeteria.

he got an apple and a yogurt.
And then he met with dr. Shepherd.

- The meeting was brief and heated.
- Then he drew the blinds.

- He's probably sleeping.
- That's speculation.

- We have no proof of that.
- You'd make a good lawyer...

If this doesn't work out.

Okay, dr. Yang.
You ready for rounds?

Continue with
your course of treatment

and keep me updated
on any new developments.

You know, you don't look ready.

No, I'm ready. I looked over
your patient charts,

and I noticed you have
a shock wave lithotripsy

scheduled for kidney stones
this morning, and I was...

I've never done one of those,
so I'm looking forward to it.

Now you're ready.

- Come on. Let's go.
- Okay. Thanks.

Okay, how long
have you had the growth?

Can you cover the clock?

The number 5 bothers him.

Can you get something
to cover the clock?

Are those cameras?

Tommy, what do we need
from the store?

Why won't they leave me alone?

- Do we need fruit?
- Why won't you leave me alone?

What kind of fruit
do we need, honey?

What kind of fruit?

Apples,

pears,

strawberries.

Make a list.

Could you give him
a pencil and some paper?

He needs something to
distract him from the voices.

Ma'am, the growth?

I'm sorry.
I've had it for a while.

I've been meaning
to get it checked, but,

as you can see, my son's

illness is a full-time job.

Karev, I'm gonna need you
to get mr. Crowley's wrist x-rayed

while I get her up to M.R.I.

Why can't one of these
fetuses babysit?

If that huge thing's
a triple-A, I want in.

I can do the wrist.

dr. Karev has more experience

The patient is paranoid
and hypervigilant,

which means he's bound
to pick up on the fact

that dr. Karev
doesn't want to be here,

and he may interpret that
as dr. Karev being out to get him.

I aced my psych clerkship.

- How'd it go with the Chief?
- Richard's not talking to me.

What? Why?

I don't know. He's just...
He's not himself.

Well, what's he doing?
He's hiding out.

How are you holding up?

You've been up for, like,
what, 36 hours?

48. But I'm good, actually.

I feel like it's all gonna be okay,

like we're all gonna keep our jobs

and we're all gonna be
amazing people and live amazing lives.

Unstable childhood.
I get calm in a crisis.

This is a crisis, right?

I don't know.

I don't know what this is.

Look who's coming.

Have you seen Sage?
She's 6, light brown hair,

gorgeous blue eyes. She just had
a tumor removed from her belly

so she has a bandage on her tummy.

Why don't you check under the bed?
Maybe she's there.

Her labs are better
than we expected.

She's not under the bed.

Maybe try the bathroom?
Maybe she slipped in there?

How did she do last night?
Did she get any sleep?

- She did.
- I didn't.

Bathroom's clear.

Wait. Shh.

I think that there's something

coming from your pocket.

Is Sage inside your pocket?

She's hiding here.

You gotta look in your pocket first.

No, I don't,
because I found you already.

Now I just need to check
your incision site, so...

Don't touch it. It hurts.

I bet that mr. Bear
would like to see Sage's scar.

Wouldn't you, mr. Bear?

Yes, I would.

I'm surprised
to see you back so soon.

- You look great.
- Thank you. So do you.

- How are you feeling?
- I feel great. How do you feel?

What I meant was...
I know what you mean. I feel fine

I'm ready to work. Here is
mr. Trinidad's latest pre-op labs.

I told him you'd stop in to say
hello before the surgery.

And unless there's anything else
you can think of that I need to know,

I was gonna run
to get his consent form.

That pretty much covers it
unless anybody has any questions.

Is there anything you can tell us about
the merger? Because I'm having a baby.

My wife is having a baby.

Resident Megan is having a baby.
Am I gonna lose my job?

Right now, I'm concerned about
my patient. You should be, too.

I just got my hair cut.

It looks nice.

The nurse out there, the one with
the red hair, she's laughing at me.

You tell her I just got it cut, and
they cut it too short, and that's why

- my ears are sticking out.
- I'm sure she's not laughing at you.

How's that feel?

It feels like my...

hand's falling off.
It feels like...

They put something in it
to make my hand fall off,

like it's snakes or something.

You don't have a name tag.

I guess I don't.

The other doctor had
a name tag on her coat.

I had to change my lab coat,

- and this one...
- You think I'm an idiot?

You're working for them.
You've got my mother,

and now you're trying to get me.
Stay away from us.

I keep telling you people to stay
away from us!

I called security.
They're on their way.

Where's psych? I asked you to page
them an hour ago.

I paged them twice.
If you want to see the log book...

I want to know how a paranoid patient
managed to get out of the E.R.

Where were you?

I had stepped away from my desk
to deal with another patient.

And normally, being
a punching bag for the doctors

is just a part of the job,
but there's a merger,

and we're all being looked at,

and I am not about to go down
for a mistake that wasn't mine.

So if you'll excuse me,
I'll page psych again.

Okay, mr. Trinidad, your shunt
revision is pretty simple.

It shouldn't take
longer than an hour.

But I do need to go over
the possible complications with you.

Dr. Stevens, could I have a word?

If you could just give me
a minute until I'm done here,

I'm sorry. This will
only take a minute.

Excuse me.

What?

- How are you holding up?
- Fine.

- Did you take your meds this morning?
- Not yet, but I will.

- You're supposed to take them at 9:00.
- It's only a little after 9:00.

It's 10:15.

Run down to her locker
and get her meds.

- Are they in your purse?
- But you don't have to get them.

- Yes, you do.
- No, you don't. Alex.

I swear to God, if you don't go
and get her pills right now,

I'm gonna hurt you
and I'm gonna like it.

You can't do this.

You can't treat me like I'm sick.
My patients need to have faith in me.

- What are you doing?
- Your wig, it was crooked.

I'll stop hovering if you
stop acting like an idiot.

Your next pill is at 2:00.

You can't take it
on an empty stomach.

Tyler Lee, 9 years old,
came in with renal colic

three days ago
that has not resolved.

We are going to be performing
extracorporeal shock wave therapy today

to break up the stones in his ureter
so they can pass.

No, we're not.

Yes, we are.

No, we're not, 'cause there was
no blood in his urine this morning.

Just in case? We should do
the procedure just in case?

You want to do a surgical
procedure on a 9 year old

even though
it's no longer indicated?

No, of course not.

So, dr. Yang, do you want to tell
the good news to Tyler and his mom?

It seems as though your son's stones

may have passed on their own.

- He doesn't need surgery?
- Looks like he healed himself.

Can you believe that, dr. Yang?
On your first day in peds.

- No, I can't, actually.
- Does this mean I can eat?

Dr. Yang can go get you something.

An abdominal aortic aneurysm...
8.7 centimeters.

This thing has a 75% chance
of rupturing.

She's a ticking time bomb.

I'm surprised she woke up
this morning, let alone got into a car.

Cancel all my elective surgeries
this afternoon and book an O.R.

We need to get her in there A.S.A.P.

Jodie, we're done.

I'll meet you back downstairs
to go over the results.

- Have you seen Tom?
- I thought he was with you?

He was, but he left. Well, he
attacked me, and then he left.

You told me you could handle this.

I can... it's under control.
Don't worry.

I've called security.
I just thought maybe

- his mom would have an idea...
- his mom has a triple-A.

The last thing
she needs to know is that

her mentally ill son
is loose in the hospital.

I know this is bad. I know
this is really, really bad.

I'm gonna stop listening to you because
the words you're saying are hurting me.

Find him!

- You look crazy.
- This is partly your fault.

You're the one who told me to go
act like I deserve to be here and I did

and now I lost a schizophrenic.

And I am gonna be fired unless
I find the schizophrenic.

You're not gonna
find him back there.

You do not get to be charmed by this
because this is not charming!

This is me getting cut
from the program.

You're already amazing.
I am just starting out.

I have never stapled a bowel,

and I have never resected
an esophagus.

I am not amazing yet!

All right.
Let's just breathe.

And again.

Good. Look at me.

Security is on this.

You have become a crazy person
I do not recognize.

I want Lexie back.
Can I get Lexie back?

Stay away from me! You get back!

- God, that's him.
- Stop! Get back!

Where's my mother?
What have you done with her?

Mrs. Crowley, there is evidence
that your son

may have suffered some injury
in this fall. Now,

we don't think that it's bad
but we just need to do

an ultrasound to make sure. He's been
sedated, but I need you to wait here

until we've completed this,
all right?

I never shoulda left him alone.

I knew it. I knew it.

I need to talk to you
about your test results.

The wall of your aorta
is dangerously thin

and could burst at any moment,
and when that happens,

it will most likely kill you.

I'm not mincing my words right now

because I need you to understand
the severity of the situation.

I need to take you
up to surgery right now.

I can't.

I can't have surgery right now.

I can't leave Tom.
He's injured. He's upset.

This has been a rough day on him.

I can't. No.
It'll have to wait.

Well, isn't there someone
that you can call?

My ex-husband left
when tom first got sick,

and friends have fallen away.
It's only me.

We have services,
so, we can arrange to...

I can't just leave him
with a stranger.

I need time...

To hire someone and train them

to know that if he's watching tv

and he's holding his head
a certain way,

it means the television
is talking to him

and he needs to be distracted.

He likes shopping,

but they can't take him
to the place on Lee Road

because he thinks
they're out to get him.

So they have to go
to the place on River Road.

But they've gotta park in the back,

because underground parking
makes him upset.

And it goes on and on and on.

So, no.
Please...

I need time.

A week.

I've made it this long.
I can make it another week.

I'm not sure that you have
another week.

I need you to think
about yourself right now.

I have a mentally ill son.

I don't get to think of
just myself anymore.

- What are you doing here?
- Oh, I was just,

I just stopped by
to get some old case files.

For what?

This job opening in Portland.

Oregon?

The merger. I mean, the Chief already
got rid of me once, so...

Well, it's... that's smart.

That's smart of you to have backups.

You know, I'm working with Cristina.
She's interested in peds.

- No, she isn't.
- Yeah, she is.

Well, what? Did she
say something to you?

She didn't have to.
She's Cristina.

You have to help me out here,
'cause I don't know what that means.

I shouldn't say anything.
She's my roommate.

And you're my girlfriend.
Girlfriend trumps roommate. Fine.

She's Cristina.
She's all about cardio.

So she's probably sucking up to you
to get through the merger.

I mean, is she good with the kids?

She's sucking up.

Nice pin.

His name's mr. Bear.
He eats children.

Not having fun in peds?

My kid wants
chocolate pudding really badly.

This is the last one.

My triple-A got canceled. You guys got
any surgeries I can get in on?

No, I'm on post-ops.
And she's babysitting.

I can't stand it any longer.
Can't you go to the Chief

and use your dead-mommy
connections to get some answers?

We don't need dead mommy.
We are going to be fine.

So I let a crazy man escape,

- and he fell down a flight of stairs.
- Is it surgical?

I don't know.
I got kicked off the case.

So then I went to go watch a surgery.
I figured, I can't screw that up.

And the second I get to the gallery,

the shunt went south
and starts bleeding.

I left before Shepherd
could blame me for it.

Shepherd's shunt went bad?

They had to convert
to an open craniotomy...

something I'll probably
never get a chance to do.

- She can't handle a craniotomy.
- See? Even he sees it.

He's not talking about you.
He's talking about Izzie.

I really admire you...

in case I get cut and don't get
a chance to tell you.

Plus, you're really pretty.

You can have the rest.

And you and I,
we were getting so close.

I need to speak
with dr. Stevens, please.

Alex, I'm in surgery.

Alex, leave.

Dr. Shepherd, could you please tell
dr. Karev to leave?

She gets tired walking
to the mailbox.

She can't handle
another 5-hour surgery.

- I know what I can handle.
- No one's gonna think any less of you

if you walk out of here now.
Just walk out now.

Stevens, have
this conversation outside.

No, I'm not leaving. Alex.

You paged me.
What's going on?

You have to tell the Chief
that you need me,

that George was your guy,
but he died.

So you need a new guy,
and that's me.

Okay? Right now. Let's go.
Go, go, go.

If anyone's safe
in this merger, it's you.

Just be casual but firm.
He likes you. Go.

I played hide-and-seek today
and didn't go to surgery

because some 9 year old
miraculously peed without blood.

- I can't do this anymore.
- Then don't.

Tell dr. Robbins you don't think peds
is your thing. What's the big deal?

The big deal is that
the Chief in there right now

- making a list...
- You don't know that.

A list of who stays and who goes,
and I can't be on that "goes" list.

If you are, you will deal with that.

"If" I am? Okay,
if I... there can be no if.

I have to be on the "stays" list.

That list is everything.
That list is my future.

- Calm down.
- It's my salvation. The list is life.

Schindler's list? You're comparing
this merger to the holocaust?

- I'm jewish. I'm allowed.
- You're irrational.

- So this is a no?
- This is a no.

And somebody page Sloan again, stat.

Right away, doctor.

Okay, Elizabeth,

Take me through
exactly what happened.

I was doing a crash c-section
on this 32-weeker.

I had the incision done
in five minutes flat.

I must have cut too deep, because
when I went in to take the baby,

- I pulled the arm a little, and the...
- Oh, my God.

Get me the umbilical cord.

- Umbilical cord?
- Just get it.

I got it.
I got the umbilical cord.

Good. Give me
about 5 centimeters of it.

- What's going on?
- Arm got damaged during a stat "c."

I'm gonna use the umbilical
artery if it's still viable.

It looks a little dry.

It looks like it's gonna work.

She's stable.
Let's put it in antibiotic solution

and move this party to the O.R.

I'm sorry. I just

I wanted to make sure
that you're okay.

Are you okay?

I injured my spleen,

and they're just

waiting to see if it stops
bleeding on its own.

Good.

I'm glad you seem...

You seem better, and I'm glad.

Anyway, I should go. I'm not really
supposed to be here, so...

Oh, it's all right.
They've got me in restraints.

I wouldn't be able to hurt you
even if the voices told me to.

It's a joke.

Schizophrenia humor.

There's this thought that I...

I'm trying to get it out, and...

I keep thinking
that they planted a camera...

in my stomach during the ultrasound.

And I was gonna wake my mother
and have her, you know, talk me down,

but she's tired, and...

Here is...

your spleen.

See?

And this bright spot
right here, that's blood.

That's not supposed to be there.

But...

No camera.

No camera.

I can leave this up if you want.

So that when the thoughts come back,

you can look and you can see
that they're not real.

They're just scary thoughts.

They're not real.

Thank you.

Little more suction.

It's 2:00, Izzie.

Oh, my God.

Stevens, no more fighting
in my O.R. go deal with this.

- I hate you.
- Shut up.

Oh, God.

Thank you.

Shut up.
Get back to work.

Has mrs. Crowley
agreed to the surgery?

She's gonna go home,
and she's gonna die.

Then what's that boy
gonna be left with?

He needs surgery.

Does he need a transfusion?

- Is there active bleeding?
- No, his crit's stable.

And I know we don't operate
unless there's an active bleed,

but it's so close,

and if we operate on him, maybe
she'll let us operate on her.

That way, we can keep them together.

Through the surgery, through
the recovery, they'll be together

And maybe you think
this is a bad idea

that I'm proposing
unnecessary surgery.

And, maybe you'll tell the Chief,
and the Chief will think

that it makes me a bad doctor.
But I think it makes me a good doctor

- And I think
- Stop talking.

Are my words hurting you again?

You're right.

It's a good idea.

How does this happen?
Was Chen just not paying attention?

She made a mistake.

Wrong time to make
a mistake, with the merger.

You people need to stop with
the doom and gloom merger scenarios.

I just read somewhere
that the hospital's revenues

actually went up last quarter.

Except for elective procedures,
which went down 13%.

You mean elective procedures
like plastic surgeries?

Now you're saying
that I'm gonna get fired?

- I don't think anyone is safe.
- I'm safe.

How can you be sure?

We're about to reattach
a baby's arm here.

So we need to stop thinking
about the merger

and think instead
about this little girl

throwing a ball and holding a spoon
and waving bye-bye to her parents.

I'm not letting you cut me open.

You're gonna put a camera in me.

You are one of them.

Okay, mrs. Crowley...

He's scared.
He said no.

Tom, you need this surgery.

And you will feel better
after it. And your mom?

Your mom's surgery
will save her life.

Look, Tom. Look at me.

Look at me. Okay?
I am not an alien.

I'm not one of them.

My name is Miranda Bailey.
I have a 3-year-old son.

And I would do anything for him,

just like your mom would do
anything for you.

Now she needs you to do this

for her. Because
otherwise, she will die.

And you will be alone.

Look. See? Red.

Red blood.

See? I'm human.

I am a doctor.

And I want to help you and your mom.

But you have to trust me.

I think we're there.

If it pinks up, we'll know
we've done our job right.

Releasing the bulldog clamps.
Here we go.

That's how I know my job
is safe, dr. Yang,

because I reattach babies arms.

You know, it's not a good idea
to piss off your attending.

I didn't know he was upset.
I'll apologize.

I wasn't talking about him.

Sorry?

I like kids
and I like their parents,

and I like to see them smile.
So I like

going to get them pudding
and playing games with them,

because it makes attaching
their arms way more fun.

I don't like being used.

- I wasn't u...
- And I like being lied to even less.

What do we need
from the store, sweetheart?

Tell me what we need from the store.

Apples, pears, strawberries.

Apples, pears, strawberries.

What if I don't make it?

Now you don't worry
about that. Let me do that.

Let's go.

The bleeding's stopped.

Let's close up.

Stevens, scrub out.

No, I'm fine.
I'm your resident. I got it.

Someone else can close up.

You've been on your feet
for five hours.

- You look exhausted.
- I'm not. I'm fine.

You're dripping with sweat.

All right. You know what?
Just take my wig off.

Just take it off.
Take it off.

Just pat down my head.

All right. You can just
put the cap back on.

Okay, thank you.

I'm fine.

Isobel Stevens spent five hours
on her feet in surgery today,

Not because she was ready
to go back to work,

but because she was scared.
She's scared for her job

and she was scared to show weakness.

You don't have to talk to me.
That's fine.

But you need to go out there
and talk to your people.

- They need to hear from you.
- Don't tell me about my people.

I've been here for 30 years, Derek.

I know my people.

I have spent every hour
of the last three days

trying to save every job I could.

But some tough choices
had to be made.

H.R. is sending out an e-mail to
the first round of people to be let go.

I'm tired. I'm going home.

What's going on?
You paged us.

- Check your e-mail.
- For what?

H.R. if you got cut,
you'll have an e-mail.

I didn't get one, but...

I've been calm. Through this crisis,
I have been calm.

But if one of us gets cut,
I will not be calm.

- No e-mail.
- I'm fine.

I'm good, too.

Good. See? I knew it.

I knew it. I knew
none of us would get cut.

Yet. There's gonna be another round.

So I'm there in the spleen
repair with dr. Hunt,

and he's got the cautery and he's
moving it back and forth, you know,

fixing bleeders,
and then he just hands it to me...

Like it's the most normal thing
in the world to do,

like I repair spleens all the time.

And so I do it.

I repair the spleen on my own.

And I just... I realized, you know,

if we just focus on our jobs,

if we focus on our patients,
we're gonna be fine.

Megan got cut.

I didn't, but she did.

What? How?

The Chief sent out an e-mail.

He fired three-quarters
of our class.

We're having a baby.

Terry. Hey, Terry.

It's been a real pleasure
working with you.

- Thanks
- Sorry about everything.

So what did I do wrong,
so I can learn for next time?

You didn't do anything wrong.

This is about the money.

I've been here seven years.

All my friends are here.

I'll find another job, but,

it's seven years.
You have no idea.

Look, if you need
a job recommendation,

anything, just call me, okay?

- Rough day.
- I need some sleep.

Let's go home.

No, I can't. I just got
kicked off of peds.

- I'm totally screwed.
- Cristina, come on...

No, I can't sleep.
I can't...

I can't leave if she's not leaving.

We're all susceptible to it...

the dread and anxiety
of not knowing what's coming.

No way.

Are you serious?

I'm gonna go to the Chief myself.

And I'm gonna tell him you're the best
second-year resident I've ever seen.

I'm safe.

I didn't get cut, Mark.
I'm safe.

It's pointless in the end...

I hate, hate, hate

this merger because I hate
long-distance relationships.

I don't believe in them. So...

You can't move to Portland.

When I mentioned it this afternoon,
you didn't seem to mind.

You were like, "move to Portland."

I didn't know
that I was allowed to mind.

I didn't know
if we were girlfriends,

but then, you said "girlfriend."
You called me

your girlfriend, so I need to know.

Am I your girlfriend?

Good

So, yeah. No, you're not
moving to Portland.

No, but what you are gonna do is you're
gonna go into the Chief's office,

- and you're gonna beg...
- I'm not gonna grovel.

You are. Seriously, you don't
want to mess with me.

Because all the worrying...

and all the making of plans

for things that could
or could not happen...

it only makes things worse.

I forgot he was dead today.

For a few hours in surgery,

I forgot I had cancer
and I forgot he was dead.

But George is dead...

and you do have cancer.

I want you to keep doing
what you love.

You're a great doctor.

And you have a fantastic future
ahead of you.

But you gotta step up
and start taking care of yourself.

You gotta take your meds,
you gotta eat,

you gotta pace yourself...

Because I can't be your nurse.

I can't.

So walk your dog...

or take a nap.

Just, whatever you do,

stop worrying.

I'm sorry. I don't have time for games.
I have to get back to the hospital.

She's right. She does have to go back
to the hospital.

We're not gonna talk about the
hospital. We're here to play baseball.

And drink beer

- Drink a beer.
- What more do you want in life?

How can I drink beer
when all my friends just got fired?

I'm sorry. I'm leaving.

You need this.
Put this on. That's right.

There we go.

- Now hit the ball.
- I don't want to hit the ball.

What, are you trying...

You need to stop thinking
about what's gonna happen,

and you need to focus on
what is right in front of you.

Now hit the ball.

Because the only cure
for paranoia...

- Now you like baseball.
- Unbelievable.

All right, here we go, little Grey.
Let's go.

Is to be...

Here...

Just as you are.

onelleged team
for monopede.org