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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:21,488 --> 00:00:24,185 [quirky music] 2 00:00:30,063 --> 00:00:31,690 [woman #1] Dol... Dolsee. 3 00:00:31,765 --> 00:00:33,494 - Dolcee. - Dolce. 4 00:00:33,566 --> 00:00:34,533 [woman #1] Dolce. 5 00:00:35,535 --> 00:00:37,060 Dolce and Gabbana. 6 00:00:37,137 --> 00:00:39,105 [Sara] Yeah. Dolce. 7 00:00:42,108 --> 00:00:43,200 Louis Vuitton. 8 00:00:43,276 --> 00:00:44,402 [woman #1] Louis Vuitton. 9 00:00:44,477 --> 00:00:46,172 [woman speaking Chinese] 10 00:00:46,780 --> 00:00:48,145 Louis Vuitton. 11 00:00:48,214 --> 00:00:49,375 [woman #1] Louis Vuitton. 12 00:00:49,449 --> 00:00:51,611 [quirky music] 13 00:00:52,752 --> 00:00:54,516 Mm. [inhales] 14 00:00:58,258 --> 00:00:59,248 [exhales] 15 00:00:59,325 --> 00:01:01,157 There wasn't a toy I couldn't buy. 16 00:01:01,728 --> 00:01:04,561 There wasn't a boat I couldn't buy, there wasn't a plane I couldn't buy. 17 00:01:04,631 --> 00:01:06,531 There was nothing I couldn't buy. 18 00:01:06,599 --> 00:01:08,260 I love money. 19 00:01:09,269 --> 00:01:10,293 Come to me. 20 00:01:11,237 --> 00:01:13,569 [quirky music] 21 00:01:15,809 --> 00:01:16,674 [camera shutter clicks] 22 00:01:26,419 --> 00:01:29,411 [Lauren] Eden, what do you wanna do for the beauty pageants? 23 00:01:29,489 --> 00:01:31,583 What do you want to win? What's your goal? 24 00:01:31,658 --> 00:01:32,625 Money. 25 00:01:33,593 --> 00:01:35,254 Money, money, money. 26 00:01:36,129 --> 00:01:38,757 I would have money as big as this room. 27 00:01:38,832 --> 00:01:40,698 [Lauren] Wham do you wanna do with that money, Eden? 28 00:01:41,234 --> 00:01:42,599 Spend it all. 29 00:01:42,669 --> 00:01:43,830 And kiss it. 30 00:01:45,805 --> 00:01:47,796 [dreamy music] 31 00:01:52,545 --> 00:01:55,640 I do believe it's un-American to say you can make too much money. 32 00:01:55,715 --> 00:01:57,774 I mean, the Federalist Papers say, 33 00:01:57,851 --> 00:02:01,879 if I wanna work a hundred hours a week, and never see my family, 34 00:02:02,155 --> 00:02:03,554 and die at an early age... 35 00:02:04,357 --> 00:02:05,347 that's my prerogative. 36 00:02:05,425 --> 00:02:07,587 [foreboding music] 37 00:02:09,195 --> 00:02:10,685 [camera shutter clicks] 38 00:02:15,668 --> 00:02:17,295 [Lauren] What were you doing in Dubai? 39 00:02:19,405 --> 00:02:20,736 [Lauren laughs] 40 00:02:23,843 --> 00:02:25,368 [DJ Esco] You wanna throw money. 41 00:02:26,279 --> 00:02:28,145 You want people to look at you. 42 00:02:28,214 --> 00:02:30,478 It's power, money power. 43 00:02:30,917 --> 00:02:32,908 Tonight, we're not even worried about tomorrow. 44 00:02:33,453 --> 00:02:34,420 Fuck it. 45 00:02:34,487 --> 00:02:36,649 [laughs] 46 00:02:38,324 --> 00:02:40,588 [Chris] It's kinda like the end of Rome. 47 00:02:42,929 --> 00:02:44,624 I mean, the pyramids were built 48 00:02:44,697 --> 00:02:47,860 at the moment of precipitous Egyptian decline. 49 00:02:48,768 --> 00:02:50,327 And that's what always happens. 50 00:02:51,271 --> 00:02:53,899 Societies accrue their greatest wealth... 51 00:02:56,342 --> 00:02:58,401 at the moment that they face death. 52 00:02:59,312 --> 00:03:01,303 [dramatic music] 53 00:03:05,718 --> 00:03:07,709 [soft piano music] 54 00:03:09,189 --> 00:03:11,419 [slide selector clicking] 55 00:03:13,626 --> 00:03:15,754 [Lauren] I've been a photographer for 25 years. 56 00:03:17,797 --> 00:03:19,663 With my lens focused on wealth, 57 00:03:20,366 --> 00:03:22,300 and the excesses of our culture. 58 00:03:30,677 --> 00:03:33,237 The scale of the excess became clear 59 00:03:33,313 --> 00:03:36,908 when I documented the family building the largest house in America. 60 00:03:38,785 --> 00:03:39,843 [camera shutter clicks] 61 00:03:42,589 --> 00:03:44,921 I noticed that no mater how much people had, 62 00:03:45,758 --> 00:03:47,283 they still wanted more. 63 00:03:48,895 --> 00:03:51,330 I wondered if the hundreds of individual stories 64 00:03:51,397 --> 00:03:53,593 I had shot about money, 65 00:03:54,400 --> 00:03:55,424 fame, 66 00:03:56,302 --> 00:03:57,269 sex, 67 00:03:58,304 --> 00:03:59,396 body image, 68 00:04:00,006 --> 00:04:04,273 even plastic surgery for dogs, were all connected, 69 00:04:04,744 --> 00:04:06,644 and what they said about us. 70 00:04:15,388 --> 00:04:17,755 To understand what it all added up to, 71 00:04:17,824 --> 00:04:22,386 in 2008, I began working on a book and exhibition about wealth. 72 00:04:23,997 --> 00:04:26,557 It would take me back to my earliest work. 73 00:04:28,901 --> 00:04:32,929 In 1991, I was just starting out as a photojournalist. 74 00:04:33,506 --> 00:04:34,405 [children laughing] 75 00:04:34,474 --> 00:04:37,409 I had studied visual anthropology in college, 76 00:04:37,477 --> 00:04:40,913 and landed my first assignment with National Geographic, 77 00:04:40,980 --> 00:04:44,610 photographing a Maya Indian village in Chiapas, Mexico. 78 00:04:45,852 --> 00:04:47,946 My mom was a professor of psychology 79 00:04:48,021 --> 00:04:50,820 and had been doing research there 20 years before. 80 00:04:51,424 --> 00:04:53,358 So, we worked together on the project. 81 00:04:54,360 --> 00:04:57,591 [speaking Tzotzil] 82 00:04:57,664 --> 00:05:00,895 [Lauren] My mother spoke the language and was at home there. 83 00:05:01,601 --> 00:05:04,366 But I struggled to understand the culture 84 00:05:04,437 --> 00:05:07,873 and found it really hard to be accepted into people's lives. 85 00:05:09,342 --> 00:05:11,436 After we had spent months in the field, 86 00:05:12,078 --> 00:05:14,513 National Geographic killed the story. 87 00:05:15,581 --> 00:05:16,878 I was devastated. 88 00:05:18,318 --> 00:05:19,945 I almost quit photography. 89 00:05:21,554 --> 00:05:23,852 My boyfriend sew! me a tape to encourage me. 90 00:05:24,891 --> 00:05:26,416 [Frank] Hey, Lauren, Frank here. 91 00:05:26,859 --> 00:05:30,352 I just got your letters today. I really, really miss you. 92 00:05:30,430 --> 00:05:33,365 Go out and do your photography and be aggressive. 93 00:05:33,866 --> 00:05:36,460 The more you put yourself into this kind of work, 94 00:05:36,536 --> 00:05:37,867 you're gonna end up confident 95 00:05:37,937 --> 00:05:40,929 about looking for jobs and everything else. 96 00:05:41,007 --> 00:05:43,908 So, please, work hard, okay? 97 00:05:44,911 --> 00:05:47,005 [Lauren] Frank helped me see that I shouldn't give up. 98 00:05:47,647 --> 00:05:49,411 And that I needed to find a story 99 00:05:49,482 --> 00:05:51,951 where I had a deeper connection to the subject. 100 00:05:53,019 --> 00:05:57,513 I happened to find an old copy of Bret Easton Ellie's Less Than Zero. 101 00:05:58,057 --> 00:06:03,427 The fictional world he depicted of jaded excess and too much money 102 00:06:03,496 --> 00:06:06,659 resonated with what I remembered growing up in L.A. 103 00:06:08,368 --> 00:06:12,999 I started thinking about my own culture In almost anthropological terms, 104 00:06:13,840 --> 00:06:16,707 and realized I wanted to go home and explore it. 105 00:06:17,810 --> 00:06:20,973 - [typewriter clacking] - [Lauren] L.A. Diary, March 4, 1992. 106 00:06:22,048 --> 00:06:26,144 My photography will concentrate on the social rituals of teenage life. 107 00:06:26,419 --> 00:06:28,478 I want to photograph Senior Ditch Day, 108 00:06:28,554 --> 00:06:31,751 extravagant parties with walkie-talkie-equipped bouncers, 109 00:06:31,824 --> 00:06:34,987 girls in designer dresses with hair professionally done, 110 00:06:35,061 --> 00:06:37,052 Mercedes and BMWs. 111 00:06:38,598 --> 00:06:41,533 One day, I was photographing at my former high school, 112 00:06:41,601 --> 00:06:43,467 a private school in Santa Monica. 113 00:06:44,871 --> 00:06:47,067 - [Lauren] Here we go. - [boy #1] Testing one, two, three. 114 00:06:47,140 --> 00:06:48,539 [boy #2] Oh, sorry. 115 00:06:48,608 --> 00:06:51,100 [Lauren] What do you think about growing up in L.A.? 116 00:06:51,711 --> 00:06:52,974 These three boys said, 117 00:06:53,045 --> 00:06:55,514 "Growing up in L.A. is about money." 118 00:06:55,982 --> 00:06:57,814 And they pulled out dollar bills. 119 00:06:59,585 --> 00:07:01,986 And it wasn't until I processed the film 120 00:07:02,054 --> 00:07:05,456 that I realized they were holding up hundred-dollar bills. 121 00:07:05,925 --> 00:07:07,757 And these were 13-year olds. 122 00:07:11,030 --> 00:07:13,089 [Adam] Money just ruins kids. 123 00:07:13,733 --> 00:07:15,895 It's ruined a lot of kids I know. 124 00:07:15,968 --> 00:07:19,529 On the first day of school, Kate Hudson went, 125 00:07:19,605 --> 00:07:22,939 "I'm not gonna tell you who my mom is, she's a big star. 126 00:07:23,009 --> 00:07:25,637 And my dad's a bigger star." 127 00:07:27,847 --> 00:07:31,715 It affects kids who I know, who you know, 128 00:07:31,784 --> 00:07:35,015 how rich you are, what your dad does, what your mom does, 129 00:07:35,087 --> 00:07:36,919 what you have, what I have. 130 00:07:37,857 --> 00:07:42,124 That narcissism that is so full-blown in the culture now 131 00:07:42,195 --> 00:07:45,722 was just beginning to rear its head in that moment in L.A. 132 00:07:45,798 --> 00:07:47,197 [TV anchor] Photographer Lauren Greenfield 133 00:07:47,467 --> 00:07:49,196 has captured the lives of some of Hollywood's children 134 00:07:49,469 --> 00:07:51,130 and displayed them in a new book titled 135 00:07:51,204 --> 00:07:53,764 Fast Forward: Growing Up in the Shadow of Hollywood. 136 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:56,810 Let's go to the young man celebrating his Bar Mitzvah. 137 00:07:56,876 --> 00:07:58,037 [chuckling] Uh, tell us about this. 138 00:07:58,110 --> 00:08:00,738 This doesn't look like a religious rite to me. 139 00:08:00,813 --> 00:08:02,508 [Lauren] The family who had this party 140 00:08:02,582 --> 00:08:05,210 rented out the Whisky A Go-Go nightclub on the Sunset Strip 141 00:08:05,485 --> 00:08:08,853 and brought in go-go girls as entertainment for the kids. 142 00:08:09,889 --> 00:08:11,254 [TV anchor] Looking at all the pictures, 143 00:08:11,524 --> 00:08:13,891 I'm left with the real end of the world quality, 144 00:08:13,960 --> 00:08:16,952 as though there is a kind of ultra-decadence. 145 00:08:17,763 --> 00:08:21,199 These are the images of a society in extraordinary decline. 146 00:08:22,134 --> 00:08:24,000 But I'm wondering what you were looking for? 147 00:08:25,204 --> 00:08:27,969 [Lauren] I had no idea what I was looking for then. 148 00:08:28,040 --> 00:08:29,974 But now, I saw a relationship 149 00:08:30,042 --> 00:08:33,603 between what I was covering in the '90s in my first book, 150 00:08:33,679 --> 00:08:35,738 and where we found ourselves today. 151 00:08:36,949 --> 00:08:38,576 It made me want to figure out 152 00:08:38,651 --> 00:08:42,019 why our obsession with wealth and status had grown, 153 00:08:42,855 --> 00:08:46,951 and why I felt compelled to document it so relentlessly. 154 00:08:48,194 --> 00:08:51,858 So, I decided to go back to the teen subjects from Los Angeles. 155 00:08:52,665 --> 00:08:53,962 - Hi! - Hi! 156 00:08:54,033 --> 00:08:56,092 - [laughing] - Holy shit. 157 00:08:59,805 --> 00:09:01,068 Oh, the '90s were crazy. 158 00:09:01,140 --> 00:09:02,574 [both laughing] 159 00:09:02,642 --> 00:09:05,612 They're inhaling air freshener at nutrition break. 160 00:09:05,678 --> 00:09:06,645 [Paris] Nice. 161 00:09:07,647 --> 00:09:09,172 [Paris] That party that you photographed me in 162 00:09:09,248 --> 00:09:13,151 was probably one of the tamest parties I ever had. 163 00:09:13,219 --> 00:09:15,654 I mean, the shit I used to do. [laughs] 164 00:09:15,721 --> 00:09:19,180 [upbeat drum music playing] 165 00:09:25,064 --> 00:09:26,862 [Paris] When I was born was when he really started 166 00:09:26,933 --> 00:09:28,833 having some commercial success. 167 00:09:28,901 --> 00:09:32,895 which is good for him, bad for a kid trying to be parented. 168 00:09:33,306 --> 00:09:35,707 You know, we got raised backstage by a roadie. 169 00:09:36,576 --> 00:09:39,102 I could get away with murder because my dad was on the road, 170 00:09:39,178 --> 00:09:41,078 my mom was preoccupied, and... 171 00:09:41,647 --> 00:09:44,582 how I got attention was by acting out and by getting in trouble. 172 00:09:44,650 --> 00:09:46,709 And it really does take a village to raise somebody. 173 00:09:46,786 --> 00:09:48,811 And I didn't get that I was more... 174 00:09:48,888 --> 00:09:50,219 I was raised on an island with a butler. 175 00:09:51,090 --> 00:09:52,854 [Lauren] What do you think it is about L.A. 176 00:09:52,925 --> 00:09:54,586 that makes kids grow up fast? 177 00:09:54,660 --> 00:09:57,152 [Mijanou] It just seems like everyone's in a rush to be an adult. 178 00:09:57,229 --> 00:09:59,755 They're losing their innocence so young now. 179 00:09:59,832 --> 00:10:02,893 I hope to stay young forever. I don't want to grow old. 180 00:10:03,903 --> 00:10:09,239 I think I was maybe 17 when we first met. 181 00:10:09,308 --> 00:10:11,640 Um, you came to my school, 182 00:10:11,711 --> 00:10:13,839 and you told us you were doing a project. 183 00:10:14,180 --> 00:10:17,309 We became friends, and you started following me around. 184 00:10:17,383 --> 00:10:18,316 [laughs] 185 00:10:19,719 --> 00:10:21,778 [Mijanou] You know, you can look from the outside and think, 186 00:10:21,854 --> 00:10:23,151 "Oh, her life is perfect," 187 00:10:23,222 --> 00:10:26,192 or, "she's pretty and she's homecoming queen," 188 00:10:26,258 --> 00:10:27,987 and this and that, but you know... 189 00:10:29,161 --> 00:10:32,927 [Mijanou] My family struggled a lot, with, like, financial problems, 190 00:10:32,999 --> 00:10:35,263 and these rich Beverly Hills kids 191 00:10:35,334 --> 00:10:37,860 can have anything their heart desires, you know? 192 00:10:37,937 --> 00:10:39,837 That was one way I didn't fit in. 193 00:10:40,806 --> 00:10:43,798 It was kinda like a thing, like, "You're pretty, so you can be our friend." 194 00:10:44,377 --> 00:10:46,971 [Mijanou] I was homecoming queen, and I had best body. 195 00:10:47,046 --> 00:10:48,411 [Lauren and Mijanou laugh] 196 00:10:48,681 --> 00:10:50,206 [Lauren] That was what it was called? Best body? 197 00:10:50,282 --> 00:10:51,875 [Mijanou] Ah, well, it was the senior polls 198 00:10:51,951 --> 00:10:54,079 where I had the best physique, I guess. 199 00:10:54,153 --> 00:10:55,848 [Lauren and Mijanou laugh] 200 00:10:55,921 --> 00:10:58,253 So it was like you dressed with, like, tight clothes, 201 00:10:58,324 --> 00:11:02,090 and trying to look sexy in the way that the magazines say, 202 00:11:02,161 --> 00:11:06,064 or, like, toward the male gaze. 203 00:11:06,132 --> 00:11:08,294 [foreboding music] 204 00:11:09,802 --> 00:11:11,770 [Branden] Oh, my god, look at that girl, Scotty. 205 00:11:11,837 --> 00:11:13,737 - [horn honking] - Hop in! 206 00:11:14,707 --> 00:11:15,765 Chica! 207 00:11:16,308 --> 00:11:21,269 Mija was my girlfriend in 7th or 8th grade in elementary school, 208 00:11:21,347 --> 00:11:23,247 - and... - [Branden] And your hot Latina. 209 00:11:23,315 --> 00:11:25,181 [chuckles] [Eddie] Well... 210 00:11:25,818 --> 00:11:27,786 With probably one of the best racks in high school. 211 00:11:27,853 --> 00:11:29,252 - [laughs] - It's not bad. 212 00:11:29,321 --> 00:11:30,311 Let's be honest here, Eddie. 213 00:11:30,389 --> 00:11:34,019 Hopefully, this is cut. We don't wanna be disrespectful. 214 00:11:34,093 --> 00:11:35,151 I'm not being disrespectful. 215 00:11:35,227 --> 00:11:36,922 - It's the truth, Eddie. - It is. 216 00:11:39,398 --> 00:11:41,059 [Eddie] Growing up here, 217 00:11:41,133 --> 00:11:44,728 we thought the entire world revolved around us. 218 00:11:48,474 --> 00:11:52,707 I feel like I actually got pretty scarred from that time. 219 00:11:52,778 --> 00:11:55,748 [Lauren] And did any of that stay with you? 220 00:11:55,815 --> 00:11:57,476 Whatever things happened in high school 221 00:11:57,750 --> 00:12:00,481 is always what you're, like, trying to heal from. 222 00:12:00,753 --> 00:12:03,120 [laughing] Later on in life, you know? 223 00:12:03,189 --> 00:12:05,851 It really... You're so young and impressionable, 224 00:12:05,925 --> 00:12:09,122 that I think those experiences really shape you. 225 00:12:10,963 --> 00:12:16,026 [Lauren] When I was in high school, I was really shy and a little insecure. 226 00:12:16,102 --> 00:12:19,003 And like most teenagers, I felt like I didn't fit in. 227 00:12:20,406 --> 00:12:23,398 I picked up photography to try to make sense of my world. 228 00:12:25,377 --> 00:12:27,869 [Sheldon] I mean, you went to a, kind of, a fancy high school. 229 00:12:29,048 --> 00:12:30,345 Education was important, 230 00:12:30,416 --> 00:12:32,748 and it would cost a lot of money to go there. 231 00:12:32,818 --> 00:12:34,809 We found a way to pay for it. 232 00:12:36,088 --> 00:12:38,352 But the values were not my own values. 233 00:12:40,359 --> 00:12:43,954 I think, you, like a normal girl growing up in L.A., 234 00:12:44,029 --> 00:12:45,793 suffered a little bit from it. 235 00:12:46,766 --> 00:12:49,133 You were trying to fit in from the viewpoint of clothes, 236 00:12:49,201 --> 00:12:51,295 nice house, a house you could bring people to. 237 00:12:52,471 --> 00:12:56,840 I think Crossroads made you anxious about keeping up with the Joneses. 238 00:12:58,344 --> 00:12:59,834 [Patricia] The Brentwood parents 239 00:12:59,912 --> 00:13:04,145 were afraid to let their daughters come and visit you in Venice 240 00:13:04,216 --> 00:13:07,186 because they thought it was too dangerous. 241 00:13:08,487 --> 00:13:10,956 [Sheldon] You actually, one time, got out of the car 242 00:13:11,023 --> 00:13:12,388 a block away from Crossroads, 243 00:13:12,458 --> 00:13:16,861 so your friends wouldn't have to see the cars that I was driving. 244 00:13:18,397 --> 00:13:20,832 [Lauren] I, I remember not being able to buy, 245 00:13:20,900 --> 00:13:22,493 like, the clothes that everybody else had. 246 00:13:22,568 --> 00:13:23,501 Mm-hm. 247 00:13:25,104 --> 00:13:28,904 The things you didn't have were the things that I didn't believe in. 248 00:13:30,342 --> 00:13:33,141 [Lauren] The fact that I had everything I needed, 249 00:13:33,212 --> 00:13:35,840 and still didn't feel like I had enough 250 00:13:35,915 --> 00:13:38,850 made me want to figure out why, in my work. 251 00:13:42,488 --> 00:13:44,013 - Who is this knocking on my door? - Hey. 252 00:13:44,089 --> 00:13:45,318 - [both laugh] - How you doin'? 253 00:13:45,391 --> 00:13:47,553 - You don't go by G-Mo anymore? - You can still call me G-Mo. 254 00:13:47,827 --> 00:13:48,555 - [Lauren] Yeah? - Yeah. 255 00:13:48,828 --> 00:13:50,592 ["Ballin"' by G-Mo playing] 256 00:13:50,863 --> 00:13:52,297 # Baffin' # 257 00:13:52,364 --> 00:13:55,061 # Wanna roll on five rounds... # 258 00:13:55,134 --> 00:13:57,603 I came from a good family. I came from a real... 259 00:13:57,870 --> 00:14:00,999 You know, my parents worked hard every day. 260 00:14:01,073 --> 00:14:02,939 Very middle class, very much so. 261 00:14:03,409 --> 00:14:05,901 [Cliff] When I was in the sixth grade, I went to public school. 262 00:14:05,978 --> 00:14:07,309 It was just, you know, same old shit. 263 00:14:07,379 --> 00:14:08,608 But in the 7th grade, 264 00:14:08,881 --> 00:14:11,077 I went to this real expensive school, Crossroads. 265 00:14:11,150 --> 00:14:13,312 That's when I got my first good glimpse of a lot of money, 266 00:14:13,385 --> 00:14:15,114 and I was like, "That's what I want." 267 00:14:15,187 --> 00:14:17,849 Black people aren't really supposed to have stuff in America, 268 00:14:17,923 --> 00:14:19,948 but this rap thing is changing everything. 269 00:14:20,025 --> 00:14:22,119 # Every time I move The guys downright sparkle # 270 00:14:22,194 --> 00:14:24,458 # Picking up my mail Like the fools at Wells Fargo # 271 00:14:24,530 --> 00:14:26,897 [Cliff] Hollywood helped me out that day. 272 00:14:26,966 --> 00:14:28,559 Made my life like a movie. 273 00:14:28,634 --> 00:14:30,534 There's a scene where a girl brought me a platter, 274 00:14:31,203 --> 00:14:32,864 with a 40 ounce on it. 275 00:14:34,406 --> 00:14:35,874 [Cliff] Everybody wants to have money, 276 00:14:35,941 --> 00:14:37,602 everybody wants to be surrounded by beautiful women. 277 00:14:37,877 --> 00:14:39,242 Everyone wants to have the mansion. 278 00:14:39,311 --> 00:14:41,211 It's like the American Dream kinda stuff. 279 00:14:41,280 --> 00:14:42,941 # Baffin' # 280 00:14:43,015 --> 00:14:48,112 The dream, it was about you seeing me doing it big. 281 00:14:48,487 --> 00:14:50,979 [Cliff] We kinda started laying a blueprint back then. 282 00:14:51,056 --> 00:14:52,649 And it's been followed and followed, 283 00:14:52,925 --> 00:14:55,053 and now, that's almost standard fare. 284 00:14:57,263 --> 00:14:58,355 [Lauren] What G-MO noticed 285 00:14:58,430 --> 00:15:01,456 seemed to be a shift in the meaning of the American Dream. 286 00:15:02,935 --> 00:15:06,371 It was almost like it had turned into a quest for fame and fortune. 287 00:15:07,139 --> 00:15:10,165 And we had left behind the values of hard work, 288 00:15:10,242 --> 00:15:14,440 frugality, and discretion that had defined our parents' generation. 289 00:15:16,282 --> 00:15:19,149 [Lauren] Was your story an American Dream story? 290 00:15:19,218 --> 00:15:21,084 Well, in many respects, it was. 291 00:15:21,153 --> 00:15:23,144 [Sheldon] Because my dad was an immigrant, 292 00:15:23,222 --> 00:15:26,988 and I started to achieve heights that my parents couldn't even imagine. 293 00:15:27,526 --> 00:15:29,620 It was a period of upward mobility. 294 00:15:29,695 --> 00:15:33,063 [Lauren] And was it the American Dream for your parents that you went to Harvard? 295 00:15:33,132 --> 00:15:34,190 [Sheldon] It was. 296 00:15:34,266 --> 00:15:38,203 My dad would say, "Yeah, my son, Shelly, he goes to Harvard, Harvard, Harvard." 297 00:15:38,270 --> 00:15:39,169 He couldn't stop... 298 00:15:39,238 --> 00:15:40,501 He couldn't stop saying it. [chuckles] 299 00:15:41,407 --> 00:15:44,638 My dad tried to instill ideals in me. 300 00:15:45,210 --> 00:15:46,939 And they... And many of them stuck. 301 00:15:47,379 --> 00:15:48,346 [Lauren] Like? 302 00:15:48,414 --> 00:15:51,076 Well, like, uh, trying to do good in the world. 303 00:15:52,117 --> 00:15:55,018 [Sheldon] I think it was partly the times, yes. 304 00:15:55,087 --> 00:16:00,218 I was still basking in the ethos of the '60s and the '70s. 305 00:16:00,292 --> 00:16:04,058 The '80s started to actually change things quite a bit. 306 00:16:05,164 --> 00:16:08,031 [raindrops pattering] 307 00:16:09,568 --> 00:16:12,162 - [Florian] Can I come in? - [Lauren] Come in, come in, come in. 308 00:16:13,572 --> 00:16:14,505 Yeah. 309 00:16:16,642 --> 00:16:20,408 Oh, my god, so opulent. Exactly not my world anymore. 310 00:16:21,046 --> 00:16:21,706 [chuckles] 311 00:16:23,115 --> 00:16:26,141 [Florian] The origin of all this fascination with wealth 312 00:16:26,218 --> 00:16:31,179 is the US government itself, spending way beyond their means. 313 00:16:32,224 --> 00:16:36,525 I'll try to keep this simple, so I don't lose the, the viewer. 314 00:16:37,463 --> 00:16:39,158 In '71, 315 00:16:39,531 --> 00:16:42,193 America dropped off the gold standard. 316 00:16:42,267 --> 00:16:44,736 [Florian] That basically meant the money in circulation 317 00:16:45,004 --> 00:16:47,439 was no longer backed by any assets. 318 00:16:48,307 --> 00:16:50,332 The '70s was the turning point. 319 00:16:50,409 --> 00:16:53,709 We began to borrow, to maintain both a lifestyle 320 00:16:53,779 --> 00:16:56,043 and an empire we could no longer afford. 321 00:16:57,149 --> 00:16:59,140 [Chris] We shifted from an empire of production 322 00:16:59,218 --> 00:17:00,652 to an empire of consumption. 323 00:17:02,321 --> 00:17:07,191 Abandonment of the gold standard led to abandonment of fiscal discipline. 324 00:17:07,259 --> 00:17:10,320 [Florian] Print it like crazy, make it like crazy. 325 00:17:10,763 --> 00:17:13,789 [Ronald Reagan] We cut your tax rates by nearly 25%. 326 00:17:14,500 --> 00:17:16,400 America, go for it. 327 00:17:16,468 --> 00:17:20,336 The values of the Reagan '80s really placed this emphasis on wealth. 328 00:17:21,707 --> 00:17:24,404 There was the idea that you were better off 329 00:17:24,476 --> 00:17:28,242 driving a BMW and looking super hot. 330 00:17:28,313 --> 00:17:30,680 Now, if you look great and you have a nice car, 331 00:17:30,749 --> 00:17:33,582 I'm all for it. But at the expense of what? 332 00:17:35,287 --> 00:17:36,277 [Lauren] In the '80s, 333 00:17:36,355 --> 00:17:38,414 a lot of people I knew were going into banking. 334 00:17:39,124 --> 00:17:42,094 And a lot them wanted to be like this fictional character, 335 00:17:42,161 --> 00:17:43,219 Gordon Gekko. 336 00:17:43,662 --> 00:17:45,687 [Gordon] The point is, ladies and gentlemen, 337 00:17:45,764 --> 00:17:47,596 that greed, 338 00:17:48,133 --> 00:17:51,228 for lack of a better word, is good. 339 00:17:51,804 --> 00:17:52,794 Greed is right. 340 00:17:53,739 --> 00:17:55,366 Greed works. 341 00:17:56,208 --> 00:17:59,667 I was definitely Gordon Gekko. [chuckles] 342 00:17:59,745 --> 00:18:02,646 [Florian] My father told me, "Well, the closer you are to the money, 343 00:18:02,714 --> 00:18:04,273 the more you will have." 344 00:18:06,251 --> 00:18:08,618 The lights went on, and something triggered up there, 345 00:18:08,687 --> 00:18:11,315 and said, "Hmm. 346 00:18:11,390 --> 00:18:13,290 There must be a way to make so much money 347 00:18:13,692 --> 00:18:15,217 that you'd never look back." 348 00:18:17,196 --> 00:18:19,528 According to court statements, 349 00:18:19,598 --> 00:18:23,296 my wealth was, at its peak, 600 million Euros, 350 00:18:23,368 --> 00:18:25,234 roughly 800 million dollars, 351 00:18:25,304 --> 00:18:27,534 plus or minus, whatever the exchange rate is. 352 00:18:28,340 --> 00:18:31,503 [Lauren] For the sake of full disclosure, how do we know each other? 353 00:18:31,577 --> 00:18:33,568 You were not even a senior. 354 00:18:34,346 --> 00:18:37,680 [Florian] And at the very beginning of your filmmaking, 355 00:18:38,450 --> 00:18:41,852 I was attending Harvard Business School at the time. 356 00:18:44,656 --> 00:18:47,250 [Lauren] Does Harvard Business School teach you how to be a good person? 357 00:18:47,326 --> 00:18:50,318 [laughs] 358 00:18:52,131 --> 00:18:55,362 No, we're fine tuned to rule the world. That's it. 359 00:18:57,569 --> 00:18:59,663 [Conrad] My dad was always, like, a larger-than-life figure, 360 00:18:59,738 --> 00:19:01,206 casting, like, a huge shadow. 361 00:19:01,607 --> 00:19:03,735 And I wanted to be just like him when I was a kid. 362 00:19:04,610 --> 00:19:06,840 - [Lauren] And what drove him? - [Conrad sighs] 363 00:19:06,912 --> 00:19:09,244 He always, um.. 364 00:19:09,615 --> 00:19:11,413 Wanted more, basically, in my opinion, 365 00:19:11,483 --> 00:19:15,750 more money, more power, and more, um, fame/infamy. 366 00:19:17,422 --> 00:19:19,550 [Florian] I've been called psychopath, 367 00:19:19,625 --> 00:19:21,616 because I could get so detached, 368 00:19:22,461 --> 00:19:25,624 just thinking what is the best, highest return. 369 00:19:26,665 --> 00:19:29,259 I am also in exile, 370 00:19:29,334 --> 00:19:31,928 and on the FBI Most Wanted list. 371 00:19:34,273 --> 00:19:36,867 That being as it is, 372 00:19:37,476 --> 00:19:41,572 if it had been around 300 years earlier, I would have been a discoverer. 373 00:19:42,548 --> 00:19:45,950 But the most exciting thing you could do in our generation 374 00:19:46,218 --> 00:19:47,708 was to be a tycoon. 375 00:19:49,454 --> 00:19:51,616 [Lauren] You have so much motivation for your work. 376 00:19:51,690 --> 00:19:53,488 - What's your driver? - The money. 377 00:19:56,528 --> 00:20:00,487 [Suzanne] My father worked on Wall Street, so, definitely, it was in my blood. 378 00:20:01,233 --> 00:20:03,531 I mean, I'm 39 years old, haven't had a family yet, 379 00:20:03,602 --> 00:20:06,503 um, haven't, uh, ever been married. 380 00:20:06,572 --> 00:20:09,974 I was working on my career, so I wasn't focused on my personal life. 381 00:20:11,410 --> 00:20:14,471 I thought I could never be with anybody who made less money than I did. 382 00:20:14,913 --> 00:20:16,312 Now I'm making a lot of money, 383 00:20:16,381 --> 00:20:19,976 so, you know, the field has really narrowed, um, substantially. 384 00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:24,722 I've tried to build up a real net worth, and I collect contemporary art. 385 00:20:25,991 --> 00:20:28,585 I mean, I have like a hundred pieces of art in the collection. 386 00:20:29,628 --> 00:20:31,960 [tranquil music] 387 00:20:34,700 --> 00:20:36,998 [Trudy] That's good. I like that with that stuff. 388 00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:39,667 - 'Cause this was a late edition. - [Trudy] Yeah. 389 00:20:39,738 --> 00:20:41,672 - Do you like it better? - We thought that was too posey. 390 00:20:41,740 --> 00:20:42,764 I think it's a little posey. 391 00:20:42,841 --> 00:20:44,832 - You think it's too posey? - It's like Life Magazine. 392 00:20:44,910 --> 00:20:48,676 [Lauren] I brought in Trudy Wilner Stack, a longtime collaborator, 393 00:20:48,747 --> 00:20:52,581 to help me look through and edit the hundreds of thousands of pictures. 394 00:21:02,894 --> 00:21:03,884 Hi. 395 00:21:04,630 --> 00:21:05,995 - [Lauren] Clean person. - [Trudy laughs] 396 00:21:08,900 --> 00:21:10,834 But you know what? You have your big assembly tomorrow. 397 00:21:10,902 --> 00:21:12,267 - [stutters] - [Gabriel] No, I don't. 398 00:21:12,337 --> 00:21:13,862 - Have you learned everything for it? - Uh-huh. 399 00:21:16,008 --> 00:21:17,806 [Lauren] These two are from the bag party. 400 00:21:20,846 --> 00:21:22,371 What's a bag party? 401 00:21:22,447 --> 00:21:24,438 [quirky music] 402 00:21:30,956 --> 00:21:34,722 [woman #2] The day I went to buy the Louis Vuitton handbag, 403 00:21:34,793 --> 00:21:38,525 I was the happiest girl in the world. 404 00:21:38,597 --> 00:21:40,429 I took the bag, and everyone, 405 00:21:40,499 --> 00:21:45,027 "Oh, god, you bought your bag! Oh, yes, it's beautiful!" 406 00:21:45,304 --> 00:21:48,706 And everybody bows to the bag. 407 00:21:48,774 --> 00:21:53,371 And then I said, "Okay, what next?" 408 00:21:58,450 --> 00:22:00,043 [Suzanne R.] I have a combination of many bags. 409 00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:02,720 I guess my bag of choice is the classic Birkin. 410 00:22:02,788 --> 00:22:04,654 I have them, I think, in almost every color. 411 00:22:05,991 --> 00:22:08,892 [therapist] These are Herm�s bags that women collect. 412 00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:12,863 Some owning hundreds of thousands or millions of dollars' worth of bags. 413 00:22:14,866 --> 00:22:17,665 And the bags start 20,000, go up. 414 00:22:18,737 --> 00:22:20,671 [Lauren] And how do you, a therapist, 415 00:22:20,739 --> 00:22:23,003 know so much information about the Birkin bag? 416 00:22:23,075 --> 00:22:24,975 Well, I see them every day. [chuckles] 417 00:22:25,043 --> 00:22:26,340 It's part of my life. 418 00:22:27,679 --> 00:22:29,738 [therapist] You know, as much as you can dismiss 419 00:22:29,815 --> 00:22:32,443 or scoff at people obsessing about their Birkin bags, 420 00:22:32,517 --> 00:22:35,418 I think it really does say something about their mental health, 421 00:22:35,487 --> 00:22:38,616 uh, something that at its best probably can, and should be addressed. 422 00:22:42,361 --> 00:22:45,353 [Limo Bob] I started off with just a tiny, little skinny chain, 423 00:22:45,430 --> 00:22:47,592 and it grew into this. 424 00:22:47,666 --> 00:22:49,862 Thirty-three pounds of gold and diamonds 425 00:22:49,935 --> 00:22:53,963 given to me by superstars of the world, dead and gone legends. 426 00:22:54,773 --> 00:22:57,504 [Limo Bob] I absolutely love Old World elegance. 427 00:22:58,410 --> 00:23:00,606 [Lauren] And you're famous for? 428 00:23:00,679 --> 00:23:03,705 I am a two-time Guinness Book World Record holder 429 00:23:03,782 --> 00:23:05,375 of the longest limousine in the world, 430 00:23:05,450 --> 00:23:07,646 with the swimming pool and a helicopter landing pad, 431 00:23:07,719 --> 00:23:09,915 and the Boeing 727 jet limo. 432 00:23:09,988 --> 00:23:11,581 [indistinct chatter] 433 00:23:11,656 --> 00:23:13,090 [Limo Bob] When you pull up in the limousine, 434 00:23:13,158 --> 00:23:15,786 they don't know who you are, but they think you're someone. 435 00:23:15,861 --> 00:23:17,454 The bigger, the longer they are, 436 00:23:17,529 --> 00:23:20,055 the more exotic they are, the more the head turns. 437 00:23:20,932 --> 00:23:21,865 [tires screeching] 438 00:23:24,569 --> 00:23:25,934 You gotta fake it till you make it. 439 00:23:26,004 --> 00:23:29,167 It just gives off that image that I should be worshipped, almost. 440 00:23:29,441 --> 00:23:31,068 You know what I'm saying? I'm somebody, you're not. 441 00:23:31,143 --> 00:23:32,702 [Lil Magic] I can afford this, you can't. 442 00:23:33,412 --> 00:23:36,177 That somehow propels them in this culture. 443 00:23:36,948 --> 00:23:40,748 Poor people are the ones that spend the most money on the 700-dollar shoes, 444 00:23:40,819 --> 00:23:41,877 the ones that don't have it. 445 00:23:41,953 --> 00:23:43,717 You want the ones with the bars and the sparkly, 446 00:23:43,789 --> 00:23:45,120 the bedazzles on the side, 447 00:23:45,190 --> 00:23:47,181 with the shiny when you walk, you know what I mean? 448 00:23:47,459 --> 00:23:48,551 Make the girls sweat. 449 00:23:48,627 --> 00:23:51,460 You gonna pay about 1,200, 1,300, you know what I mean? 450 00:23:51,530 --> 00:23:52,929 [Kingpin] It's about exclusivity. 451 00:23:52,998 --> 00:23:56,161 Can you call up and get you a pair of the fresh Giuseppes, 452 00:23:56,435 --> 00:23:59,598 or do you get to go in the back of the Versace store and shop? 453 00:23:59,671 --> 00:24:03,005 The American Dream, to me, it's all about status right now. 454 00:24:03,074 --> 00:24:05,736 It's the new, uh, you know, "Dr. " in front of your name. 455 00:24:06,711 --> 00:24:09,806 We hold out the illusion of the American Dream. 456 00:24:09,881 --> 00:24:12,873 But not only can we, and our children not attain 457 00:24:13,552 --> 00:24:15,020 what generations had before, 458 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:16,915 but things are getting worse. 459 00:24:17,823 --> 00:24:19,882 [Chris] When there is no social mobility, 460 00:24:20,759 --> 00:24:23,490 the only social mobility you have is fictitious. 461 00:24:24,029 --> 00:24:27,624 The presentation that you give to the rest of the world 462 00:24:27,699 --> 00:24:29,690 denies your own reality. 463 00:24:30,869 --> 00:24:32,837 I've come to look at mass culture, 464 00:24:32,904 --> 00:24:35,896 and in particular, television, as a form of violence. 465 00:24:36,541 --> 00:24:40,910 Because 24 hours a day, this fictitious lifestyle, 466 00:24:40,979 --> 00:24:45,075 which we're all told that we can have, fuels this sense of inadequacy. 467 00:24:46,585 --> 00:24:49,714 [Lauren] People used to compare themselves to their neighbors, 468 00:24:49,788 --> 00:24:53,691 and they aspired to the neighbor that had a little bit more than they had. 469 00:24:54,826 --> 00:24:57,193 [Kris Jenner] This is so beautiful. 470 00:24:57,762 --> 00:24:59,753 This is like we're in Italy, honey. 471 00:24:59,831 --> 00:25:01,196 [Lauren] What's changed is that, now, 472 00:25:01,266 --> 00:25:04,668 people spend more time with the people they see on TV 473 00:25:04,736 --> 00:25:06,500 than their actual neighbors. 474 00:25:06,571 --> 00:25:08,562 And they want what they have. 475 00:25:10,175 --> 00:25:12,610 Like, I probably know the names of the Kardashians 476 00:25:12,677 --> 00:25:15,203 better than I, I know the names of my neighbors. 477 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:19,217 If you watch anything long enough, you're gonna kind of think it's real. 478 00:25:20,218 --> 00:25:22,277 [Paris] You're gonna start making decisions 479 00:25:22,554 --> 00:25:24,283 based on what you've seen on TV. 480 00:25:26,191 --> 00:25:28,558 [foreboding music] 481 00:25:31,162 --> 00:25:33,290 [President George W. Bush] I do believe in the American Dream. 482 00:25:33,932 --> 00:25:36,162 Owning a home is a part of that dream. 483 00:25:36,902 --> 00:25:40,668 If one of the goals is to increase home ownership, 484 00:25:41,206 --> 00:25:44,608 it makes sense to help people pay that down payment. 485 00:25:45,176 --> 00:25:47,611 When we put down the rules, I said, 486 00:25:47,679 --> 00:25:50,080 "Well, this rule's not gonna help me make money, right? 487 00:25:50,148 --> 00:25:52,549 So, let's tone this rule down." 488 00:25:53,818 --> 00:25:58,085 So we set the playing field right for us only. 489 00:25:59,558 --> 00:26:00,855 Not for the investor, 490 00:26:01,326 --> 00:26:03,693 not for the loan taker, for us. 491 00:26:04,596 --> 00:26:07,725 The American economy has retained its momentum... 492 00:26:07,799 --> 00:26:10,632 Mr. Greenspan lets open the floodgates 493 00:26:10,702 --> 00:26:12,966 and allows everybody to borrow money. 494 00:26:13,572 --> 00:26:16,974 If you give money out at no cost 495 00:26:17,676 --> 00:26:21,112 to hundreds of millions worldwide, 496 00:26:21,179 --> 00:26:23,671 they're gonna do stupid things with it. 497 00:26:24,015 --> 00:26:26,347 [quirky music] 498 00:26:27,252 --> 00:26:30,711 [Jackie] We never sought out to build the biggest house in America. 499 00:26:30,789 --> 00:26:33,224 It's just... It's, like, kind of, happened. 500 00:26:34,059 --> 00:26:36,050 [Lauren] When I made the film The Queen of Versailles, 501 00:26:36,127 --> 00:26:38,289 with David and Jackie Siegel, 502 00:26:38,363 --> 00:26:42,823 who were trying to build a palace inspired by the real Versailles in France, 503 00:26:43,635 --> 00:26:46,161 what I saw was the dream that everyone had, 504 00:26:46,237 --> 00:26:47,204 but bigger. 505 00:26:47,906 --> 00:26:50,341 And they did it the same way everyone else did, 506 00:26:50,609 --> 00:26:51,906 which was by borrowing. 507 00:26:52,711 --> 00:26:56,238 You think every American wants to feel rich? 508 00:26:56,314 --> 00:26:57,338 I think so. 509 00:26:58,717 --> 00:27:00,344 [David] Everyone wants to be rich. 510 00:27:01,019 --> 00:27:02,384 If they can't be rich, 511 00:27:02,654 --> 00:27:04,645 the next best thing is to feel rich. 512 00:27:05,190 --> 00:27:06,988 And if they don't want to feel rich, 513 00:27:07,058 --> 00:27:09,925 then they're probably dead. 514 00:27:11,696 --> 00:27:14,290 [Lauren] It seemed like we were all addicted to consumerism. 515 00:27:17,636 --> 00:27:20,936 And with globalization, it kind of spread like a virus. 516 00:27:23,742 --> 00:27:25,938 [quirky music] 517 00:27:27,245 --> 00:27:30,704 [Valbj�rn] 518 00:27:32,417 --> 00:27:34,647 [Valbj�rn] I was working as a sailor. 519 00:27:49,234 --> 00:27:52,966 [Lauren] In 2003, the tiny fishing country of Iceland 520 00:27:53,038 --> 00:27:56,440 began the most rapid expansion of a banking system 521 00:27:56,708 --> 00:27:58,437 in the history of humankind. 522 00:27:59,911 --> 00:28:02,175 [Valbj�rn] 523 00:28:30,241 --> 00:28:31,231 ...Kardasia? 524 00:28:31,309 --> 00:28:32,299 [Lauren] 525 00:28:32,377 --> 00:28:33,344 [Valbj�rn] Kardasia? 526 00:28:33,812 --> 00:28:35,405 - [Lauren] Kardashians? - Kardashians. 527 00:28:35,480 --> 00:28:36,777 Yeah, sorry. [laughs] 528 00:28:37,449 --> 00:28:41,784 [Valbj�rn] 529 00:28:48,426 --> 00:28:51,987 [Lauren] Building big to express success and status 530 00:28:52,063 --> 00:28:55,363 was not limited to Europe or the United States. 531 00:28:56,134 --> 00:28:58,193 In China, I met a businessman 532 00:28:58,269 --> 00:29:01,136 who built a full-scale replica of the White House, 533 00:29:01,473 --> 00:29:04,374 and the view from his office was Mount Rushmore. 534 00:29:05,877 --> 00:29:09,006 This trip in 2000 was my first big foreign assignment, 535 00:29:09,447 --> 00:29:12,849 and an opportunity to cover the new wealth in China, 536 00:29:13,852 --> 00:29:15,342 but the timing was rough. 537 00:29:15,420 --> 00:29:17,286 [baby crying] 538 00:29:18,757 --> 00:29:20,316 [Lauren] When Noah was two weeks old, 539 00:29:20,959 --> 00:29:23,985 Time Magazine sent me a fax offering me the job. 540 00:29:25,029 --> 00:29:28,363 I took it to Frank, crying, and said, 541 00:29:28,433 --> 00:29:31,425 "I told you my career would be over when I had a baby." 542 00:29:32,971 --> 00:29:35,906 At that time, the women who were successful photographers 543 00:29:35,974 --> 00:29:37,908 had chosen not to be mothers. 544 00:29:38,910 --> 00:29:41,140 Frank was like, "What are you talking about? 545 00:29:41,212 --> 00:29:42,236 You should go." 546 00:29:43,381 --> 00:29:47,113 I asked the pediatrician if it would be damaging to a baby 547 00:29:47,185 --> 00:29:49,882 to be separated from its mother at ten weeks. 548 00:29:50,488 --> 00:29:52,957 And he said, "It'll be fine for the baby, 549 00:29:53,358 --> 00:29:55,486 but it's too punishing for the mother." 550 00:29:57,095 --> 00:29:59,530 I convinced myself that Noah would be fine. 551 00:30:00,832 --> 00:30:03,130 So, I pumped 300 ounces of milk... 552 00:30:04,869 --> 00:30:06,564 and went to China for ten days. 553 00:30:08,540 --> 00:30:10,167 Being away was hard, 554 00:30:10,975 --> 00:30:12,943 but over the next 14 years, 555 00:30:13,011 --> 00:30:16,470 I still made 11 more trips to China and Russia, 556 00:30:16,548 --> 00:30:18,539 because the stories were so compelling. 557 00:30:21,152 --> 00:30:22,813 With histories of revolutions 558 00:30:22,887 --> 00:30:25,822 that tried to abolish class and inequality, 559 00:30:25,890 --> 00:30:29,224 the desire for luxury and status was even stronger. 560 00:30:31,496 --> 00:30:34,591 Thirty years ago, China was an incipient basket case. 561 00:30:34,866 --> 00:30:36,857 I mean, it was total isolation, 562 00:30:36,935 --> 00:30:38,562 everybody was on bicycle. 563 00:30:38,837 --> 00:30:41,932 China's now the biggest market for all the Western luxury brands. 564 00:30:43,575 --> 00:30:46,545 [Sara] What the modern day Chinese woman is looking for today, is a guide. 565 00:30:46,611 --> 00:30:49,137 Their mothers grew up during the Cultural Revolution, right? 566 00:30:49,214 --> 00:30:52,115 So, nobody could teach them how to wear lingerie. 567 00:30:53,184 --> 00:30:56,620 Whenever you carry your hat, or you put your hat on your lap, 568 00:30:56,888 --> 00:30:58,481 never show the inside. 569 00:30:58,556 --> 00:31:00,354 It's like showing the inside of your clothes. 570 00:31:01,059 --> 00:31:04,586 How to eat a banana elegantly with a knife and fork. 571 00:31:05,496 --> 00:31:07,931 [Sara speaking Chinese] 572 00:31:08,233 --> 00:31:13,865 [Sara continues speaking Chinese] 573 00:31:14,505 --> 00:31:16,200 [Sara] Some people have criticized me, 574 00:31:16,274 --> 00:31:20,507 saying, "Oh, well, you know, why are these people paying 16,000 US dollars 575 00:31:20,578 --> 00:31:23,377 to go learn how to cut an orange elegantly?" 576 00:31:23,448 --> 00:31:25,439 But everybody who's taken the class 577 00:31:25,516 --> 00:31:27,917 has said it's worth every penny spent. 578 00:31:31,089 --> 00:31:32,523 [Ilona] In Russia, 20 years ago, 579 00:31:32,590 --> 00:31:34,615 they have a small apartment or a small house. 580 00:31:34,893 --> 00:31:38,158 They don't have possibilities to have big house like mine. 581 00:31:40,265 --> 00:31:42,324 The new Russians, the rich Russians, 582 00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:46,496 they build huge libraries, very expensive, 583 00:31:46,571 --> 00:31:49,199 with fantastic books. 584 00:31:49,941 --> 00:31:51,636 And they're not opening it. 585 00:31:52,210 --> 00:31:54,042 And it's not touchable. 586 00:31:54,112 --> 00:31:56,342 You cannot even, "May I look at this book?" 587 00:31:56,414 --> 00:31:59,042 "No, no, no, it's very expensive." 588 00:31:59,117 --> 00:32:01,245 So what? It's a book. 589 00:32:07,158 --> 00:32:08,182 [Lauren] In Moscow, 590 00:32:08,259 --> 00:32:11,627 the debutante ball of the 19th century has been revived. 591 00:32:11,696 --> 00:32:13,926 But instead of aristocrats, 592 00:32:13,998 --> 00:32:17,696 the girls coming out are the daughters of oligarchs and celebrities. 593 00:32:19,570 --> 00:32:22,267 [in Russian] 594 00:32:33,084 --> 00:32:36,110 [Lauren] The ball is sponsored by Maserati and Chanel, 595 00:32:36,654 --> 00:32:40,147 and is basically a way to sell luxury brands to Russian women. 596 00:32:46,731 --> 00:32:48,995 [clanking] 597 00:32:51,402 --> 00:32:53,461 [Lauren] In thinking about the wealth project, 598 00:32:53,538 --> 00:32:56,200 I started seeing connections with work I had done 599 00:32:56,274 --> 00:32:58,038 for a book called Girl Culture. 600 00:32:59,610 --> 00:33:04,013 For years, I had been looking at how girls learn from a young age 601 00:33:04,082 --> 00:33:05,982 that their bodies have currency. 602 00:33:07,018 --> 00:33:08,747 Beauty is how you win. 603 00:33:09,520 --> 00:33:11,454 [indistinct chatter] 604 00:33:11,522 --> 00:33:14,548 [Jackie] When I was single, I dated all kinds of guys. 605 00:33:15,727 --> 00:33:17,491 Yeah. I even dated Donald Trump. 606 00:33:17,762 --> 00:33:19,355 [host] Donald, we wanted you... 607 00:33:23,201 --> 00:33:25,397 [Lauren] And why do we have to suffer to be beautiful? 608 00:33:26,771 --> 00:33:30,105 I guess it must be a man's world out there. 609 00:33:33,144 --> 00:33:35,476 Women get their legs waxed, their bikinis waxed. 610 00:33:35,546 --> 00:33:38,140 They do these cosmetic procedures, they have to put on makeup. 611 00:33:40,251 --> 00:33:41,741 [Suzanne] Women get the short end of the stick, 612 00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:44,011 because we work the same hours and do all the same things, 613 00:33:44,088 --> 00:33:45,487 and then have all this other stuff to do. 614 00:33:46,290 --> 00:33:49,726 [Lauren] I first met Suzanne for a story I was doing for a magazine 615 00:33:49,794 --> 00:33:52,388 about who spends the most on body maintenance. 616 00:33:53,231 --> 00:33:56,360 And Suzanne spent the most, by far. 617 00:33:57,301 --> 00:33:59,531 [Suzanne] I think looking good is important, 618 00:33:59,604 --> 00:34:02,266 um, in any business, not just mine. 619 00:34:04,242 --> 00:34:06,540 I'm out dealing with clients, 620 00:34:06,611 --> 00:34:08,670 selling something, in a sense. 621 00:34:09,680 --> 00:34:11,808 People like dealing with attractive people. 622 00:34:12,083 --> 00:34:13,209 Ifs human nature. 623 00:34:15,119 --> 00:34:17,611 [girl #1] It's very apparent, the weight that's put on 624 00:34:17,688 --> 00:34:20,749 having longer hair that's less, like, nappy, 625 00:34:20,825 --> 00:34:22,486 and having lighter skin. 626 00:34:23,628 --> 00:34:26,461 [girl #2] When I was in 11th grade, 627 00:34:26,531 --> 00:34:28,192 like, some people started to make fun of me 628 00:34:28,266 --> 00:34:29,392 because I was darker-skinned, 629 00:34:29,467 --> 00:34:32,732 and I kind of got down on myself after that. 630 00:34:35,206 --> 00:34:38,369 We base beauty off of one thing, 631 00:34:38,443 --> 00:34:40,468 and however close you are to that one thing 632 00:34:41,179 --> 00:34:43,705 makes you prettier than other people. 633 00:34:45,249 --> 00:34:49,117 When you were born, you were in the 50th percentile for height 634 00:34:49,187 --> 00:34:51,588 and the 90th percentile for weight, 635 00:34:51,656 --> 00:34:55,456 so I knew that, you know, being short and a little bit round 636 00:34:55,526 --> 00:34:58,621 was your, uh, genetic body. 637 00:34:58,696 --> 00:35:00,790 But it wasn't the body, 638 00:35:01,432 --> 00:35:05,562 uh, you know, of the magazines and television, 639 00:35:05,636 --> 00:35:08,367 and so you weren't satisfied with it. 640 00:35:08,439 --> 00:35:12,342 You know, I think, um, I kept you on the right path 641 00:35:12,410 --> 00:35:17,109 in terms of avoiding an eating disorder, which you later studied. 642 00:35:17,782 --> 00:35:21,844 [Lauren] When I made my first film, Thin, about women with eating disorders... 643 00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:24,248 [scale beeping] 644 00:35:24,322 --> 00:35:27,656 ...it was really looking at the heart of darkness of mental illness. 645 00:35:30,261 --> 00:35:32,127 [Lauren] But a social historian told me, 646 00:35:32,830 --> 00:35:34,821 "Psychopathologies come and go. 647 00:35:36,901 --> 00:35:39,871 But they always tell us about the historical time period 648 00:35:40,138 --> 00:35:41,572 in which they're produced." 649 00:35:42,673 --> 00:35:47,167 Eating disorders are really common in the United States, 650 00:35:47,245 --> 00:35:48,406 one in seven. 651 00:35:49,213 --> 00:35:54,276 And they flourish in countries of affluence, 652 00:35:54,352 --> 00:35:56,446 where food is abundant, 653 00:35:57,155 --> 00:35:59,214 and where withholding food has power. 654 00:36:00,691 --> 00:36:02,659 [Lauren] Shantell had an eating disorder, 655 00:36:02,727 --> 00:36:05,196 and she felt modeling was exploitative. 656 00:36:06,297 --> 00:36:08,231 So she started cutting herself, 657 00:36:08,666 --> 00:36:10,896 and she had really mutilated her body, 658 00:36:11,569 --> 00:36:14,561 because she said she "wanted to damage the property." 659 00:36:15,473 --> 00:36:18,170 When she referred to her body as property, 660 00:36:18,576 --> 00:36:22,444 that really brought home the idea of the commodification of the body. 661 00:36:25,283 --> 00:36:27,581 [Lauren] What does beautiful mean to you? 662 00:36:28,452 --> 00:36:29,886 # That I get money # 663 00:36:30,188 --> 00:36:32,714 - # And I'm gonna be a superstar # - No, not... Forget it. 664 00:36:32,790 --> 00:36:33,723 [chuckles] 665 00:36:34,625 --> 00:36:37,959 [Mickie] We've probably got a hundred thousand dollars invested 666 00:36:38,229 --> 00:36:40,357 in the last four-and-a-half years. 667 00:36:40,431 --> 00:36:42,593 You have wardrobe, you have hair, 668 00:36:42,667 --> 00:36:44,897 you have makeup, you have coaching. 669 00:36:45,836 --> 00:36:50,797 The town that we are from has a population of 566. 670 00:36:50,875 --> 00:36:51,842 [Mickie chuckles] 671 00:36:51,909 --> 00:36:55,812 Just the fact that someone picked her to be on Toddlers and Tiaras 672 00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:56,972 was amazing to me. 673 00:36:57,715 --> 00:37:00,275 [Mickie] Whoo! Get it, girl! 674 00:37:00,751 --> 00:37:02,583 [Mickie] Mom here got to thinking, 675 00:37:02,653 --> 00:37:06,351 "What would be the biggest thing that we could do for a 3-year-old?" 676 00:37:07,558 --> 00:37:09,925 That's how the showgirl costume came to be. 677 00:37:11,796 --> 00:37:13,264 And she won. 678 00:37:13,331 --> 00:37:16,562 The connotations that come with the Vegas showgirl 679 00:37:16,634 --> 00:37:17,999 never crossed my mind. 680 00:37:18,736 --> 00:37:23,765 Apparently, the derriere part would be open, or topless, 681 00:37:23,841 --> 00:37:27,505 but, you know, I wanted glamor and feathers and glitz. 682 00:37:28,813 --> 00:37:32,272 I always say that maybe if you think there was something inappropriate, 683 00:37:32,350 --> 00:37:34,478 then maybe there's something wrong with your thought process, 684 00:37:34,552 --> 00:37:36,680 because momma here doesn't see it that way. 685 00:37:38,356 --> 00:37:40,347 We're a completely pornified culture. 686 00:37:41,425 --> 00:37:43,894 The images of porn are now so pervasive 687 00:37:43,961 --> 00:37:45,759 and accessible throughout the society, 688 00:37:45,830 --> 00:37:47,696 they've leeched into popular culture. 689 00:37:47,765 --> 00:37:50,928 Oh, my god! [laughing] 690 00:37:51,002 --> 00:37:52,492 [Kim] Are you serious? 691 00:37:52,570 --> 00:37:56,473 [Noah] It's TV, like, the Internet, ads. 692 00:37:56,540 --> 00:37:58,531 I know like, a lot of, like, kids and stuff, 693 00:37:58,609 --> 00:37:59,940 like, watch, like, porn. 694 00:38:00,578 --> 00:38:02,842 And that's also where a lot of it comes from, 695 00:38:02,913 --> 00:38:04,847 like, the unrealistic, like, women. 696 00:38:05,583 --> 00:38:08,416 I think most people, like, probably including me, 697 00:38:08,486 --> 00:38:10,477 were, like, exposed to porn at like... 698 00:38:11,055 --> 00:38:12,614 seventh grade, maybe. 699 00:38:12,690 --> 00:38:15,660 [Noah] You're seeing stuff that's just completely fake. 700 00:38:16,494 --> 00:38:17,984 Ifs just, like, it's a movie. 701 00:38:19,297 --> 00:38:22,858 And, like, there's a camera crew, just like this, 702 00:38:22,933 --> 00:38:24,628 everything's scripted. 703 00:38:24,702 --> 00:38:27,763 People believe it, 'cause, like, they wanna believe it. 704 00:38:28,472 --> 00:38:30,770 And they think that's, like, how real interactions are. 705 00:38:30,841 --> 00:38:32,707 [cell phone buzzing] 706 00:38:32,777 --> 00:38:35,474 [Lauren] Does that affect the kinds of pictures your friends are posting? 707 00:38:36,047 --> 00:38:38,482 [Noah] Yeah. I see, like, a lot of my friends 708 00:38:38,549 --> 00:38:42,452 in, like, very revealing bikinis to make sure they get a lot of likes. 709 00:38:42,520 --> 00:38:44,010 I did an Instagram study. 710 00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:46,882 The photos that didn't receive a lot of likes 711 00:38:46,957 --> 00:38:49,085 were stuff like family, 712 00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:52,557 and stuff that, like, kids were trying to get away from. 713 00:38:52,963 --> 00:38:56,456 Guys want what's really demeaning for women. 714 00:38:56,901 --> 00:39:00,804 And to match, like, guys' expectations, 715 00:39:00,871 --> 00:39:03,863 I think, like, a lot of women probably try to replicate it. 716 00:39:04,775 --> 00:39:05,708 [Trudy] Perfect. 717 00:39:05,776 --> 00:39:09,508 I actually do have an interview with that girl, 718 00:39:10,014 --> 00:39:11,982 where she says, "We wanna dance like strippers." 719 00:39:13,617 --> 00:39:14,812 [Sheena] I wanna be a dancer. 720 00:39:14,885 --> 00:39:16,080 Topless dancing showgirl. 721 00:39:18,055 --> 00:39:20,717 I think it would be fun, dancing with my tits shown off. 722 00:39:20,791 --> 00:39:23,624 If I can accomplish being that, then I can accomplish anything. 723 00:39:24,829 --> 00:39:28,356 [instructor] Booty up, and tip your booty side to side. 724 00:39:28,432 --> 00:39:30,059 So, it's almost like a little back stretch. 725 00:39:30,968 --> 00:39:33,437 [Lauren] There were even trendy exercise classes 726 00:39:33,971 --> 00:39:36,030 that taught cardio striptease. 727 00:39:37,408 --> 00:39:39,137 [instructor] So, we're half an arm from our pole, 728 00:39:39,410 --> 00:39:40,741 right hand is up. 729 00:39:40,811 --> 00:39:43,803 We step with your inside foot, spin! 730 00:39:43,881 --> 00:39:45,975 Yeah, hips shift to the left this time. 731 00:39:46,050 --> 00:39:48,041 You can just keep your handcuffs on if you prefer. 732 00:39:48,119 --> 00:39:49,086 [girls giggle] 733 00:39:49,153 --> 00:39:52,123 [instructor] So let's roll over and crawl and act like we like it. 734 00:39:52,390 --> 00:39:55,416 [Lauren] When you're documenting the effects of popular culture, 735 00:39:55,493 --> 00:39:57,484 it's almost like the air we breathe. 736 00:39:57,962 --> 00:39:59,555 It's everywhere. 737 00:39:59,630 --> 00:40:01,598 And so it's hard to actually see it. 738 00:40:02,700 --> 00:40:05,692 In my work, I often look at the extremes 739 00:40:06,604 --> 00:40:08,402 to understand the mainstream. 740 00:40:10,174 --> 00:40:11,664 At Magic City, 741 00:40:11,742 --> 00:40:15,736 beautiful girls use their sexual capital to rise to the top. 742 00:40:17,915 --> 00:40:19,178 We don't have movie stars in Atlanta, 743 00:40:19,450 --> 00:40:21,043 so the strippers are the movie stars. 744 00:40:21,118 --> 00:40:22,517 They're high class. 745 00:40:24,655 --> 00:40:26,714 [Diamond] When I first started dancing here, 746 00:40:26,791 --> 00:40:30,056 it felt like I made it, like I was in Hollywood. 747 00:40:31,128 --> 00:40:33,995 It was like you were in the middle of a music video. 748 00:40:34,064 --> 00:40:34,997 [Diamond chuckles] 749 00:40:36,700 --> 00:40:38,065 [Lil Magic] Shortcut, shortcut, shortcut. 750 00:40:38,135 --> 00:40:39,830 Make it overnight, make it overnight. 751 00:40:40,971 --> 00:40:42,735 Unfortunately, more and more people 752 00:40:42,807 --> 00:40:46,072 are trying to find a way around the hard work that it takes 753 00:40:46,143 --> 00:40:48,077 to, um, be successful in life. 754 00:40:48,846 --> 00:40:51,872 Being average has never been an option for me. 755 00:40:53,184 --> 00:40:55,551 [Diamond] Going to a nine to five would just be... 756 00:40:56,187 --> 00:40:58,747 That would be hurtful. [chuckles] 757 00:40:59,990 --> 00:41:02,687 It's just the fact that I can throw money on a person. 758 00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:04,525 And she likes it! 759 00:41:05,029 --> 00:41:06,019 It's a rush. 760 00:41:07,965 --> 00:41:10,866 [DJ Esco] I don't give a fuck, gonna throw this money, like, yeah! 761 00:41:12,069 --> 00:41:13,059 Throw it! 762 00:41:13,137 --> 00:41:14,901 Ya know what I'm sayin'? It's not finesse. 763 00:41:14,972 --> 00:41:17,168 [grunts] Like, whoa! 764 00:41:18,542 --> 00:41:20,032 She might get paper cut. 765 00:41:21,145 --> 00:41:23,614 [DJ Esco] 766 00:41:25,216 --> 00:41:27,514 Order up another thousand! Fuck it. 767 00:41:27,585 --> 00:41:28,814 [laughs] 768 00:41:29,954 --> 00:41:32,980 - [shutter clicks] - [Kacey speaks indistinctly] 769 00:41:33,057 --> 00:41:34,684 [Lauren] Like DJ Esco, 770 00:41:34,758 --> 00:41:37,090 I was both critic and participant. 771 00:41:38,162 --> 00:41:42,099 Shooting for magazines gave me the front row seat to the popular culture 772 00:41:42,666 --> 00:41:44,065 that I needed for my own work. 773 00:41:45,069 --> 00:41:46,798 [Lauren] Yeah, lift your leg up. 774 00:41:46,871 --> 00:41:48,862 [Lauren] 775 00:41:48,939 --> 00:41:51,169 I was banging seven-gram rocks and finishing them, 776 00:41:51,242 --> 00:41:54,212 because that's how I roll. I have one speed, I have one gear. Go! 777 00:41:54,278 --> 00:41:56,269 [TV reporter] It appears Charlie checked himself 778 00:41:56,547 --> 00:41:58,015 before he wrecked himself. 779 00:41:58,082 --> 00:41:59,948 Writing a 30,000-dollar check 780 00:42:00,017 --> 00:42:02,748 for porn star and party animal, Kacey Jordan. 781 00:42:03,587 --> 00:42:05,681 [Lauren] Amy said he gave you an unusual tip, 782 00:42:05,756 --> 00:42:07,588 like a ball of coke? 783 00:42:07,958 --> 00:42:09,119 It was huge. 784 00:42:10,060 --> 00:42:12,051 [somber music] 785 00:42:12,963 --> 00:42:16,263 [Kacey] My dream was always to be an actress. 786 00:42:16,534 --> 00:42:19,560 It really makes you feel like a movie star when you're in makeup. 787 00:42:20,004 --> 00:42:22,996 It was kind of like the film career that I always wanted. 788 00:42:25,543 --> 00:42:27,568 When I found out that I could be an adult film star, 789 00:42:27,645 --> 00:42:30,842 I was just like, "Let's go," I mean, 'cause when you have nothing else to do 790 00:42:30,915 --> 00:42:32,679 in a town you don't want to be in. 791 00:42:33,684 --> 00:42:36,654 Got a plane ticket, found an agent... 792 00:42:37,221 --> 00:42:38,746 [Kevin] 793 00:42:44,862 --> 00:42:46,057 So, that was pretty cool. 794 00:42:48,065 --> 00:42:51,729 It was definitely the feeling of being really close to my dream. 795 00:42:53,103 --> 00:42:56,971 [Kacey] You know, before I left Oregon, I was living out of my car, 796 00:42:57,041 --> 00:42:59,169 so I didn't have to live under my parents' rules. 797 00:42:59,243 --> 00:43:00,335 And I was living off Taco Bell, 798 00:43:00,611 --> 00:43:02,272 because it was the cheapest thing you could do. 799 00:43:02,913 --> 00:43:06,178 I had 88 cents, and the bean burrito was 89 cents. 800 00:43:06,951 --> 00:43:09,215 I just broke down crying at the Taco Bell cashier. 801 00:43:09,286 --> 00:43:10,276 [camera shutter clicks] 802 00:43:10,921 --> 00:43:12,787 [Kacey] And then, a year later, 803 00:43:12,856 --> 00:43:15,826 I was living across from the Grove, on the top penthouse floor. 804 00:43:17,761 --> 00:43:20,594 That was one of the coolest moments of my life, 805 00:43:20,664 --> 00:43:23,361 was that, that feeling of, of success. 806 00:43:23,634 --> 00:43:25,728 You know, I was, like, buying my sister, and my family, 807 00:43:25,803 --> 00:43:27,066 I'm like, "Oh, here is a flat screen," 808 00:43:27,137 --> 00:43:29,663 like, "Let's just go to Best Buy and just pick out whatever you want." 809 00:43:29,740 --> 00:43:30,935 You know, it's just cash. 810 00:43:31,008 --> 00:43:33,670 It was just like from zero to a hundred, 811 00:43:33,744 --> 00:43:35,803 and I was addicted. [chuckles]. 812 00:43:41,218 --> 00:43:42,777 Okay, you guys ready? 813 00:43:43,721 --> 00:43:46,782 [Tiffany] I was determined to make something out of myself. 814 00:43:47,257 --> 00:43:48,918 Leaving Kansas, 815 00:43:49,627 --> 00:43:52,289 I said, "Mama, one day, you're gonna see me walk a red carpet." 816 00:43:55,165 --> 00:43:57,293 [Tiffany] I was a single mother coming to Vegas. 817 00:43:57,901 --> 00:43:59,995 I vowed to make that money 818 00:44:00,070 --> 00:44:03,301 to be able to give my son something 819 00:44:03,374 --> 00:44:05,274 and to always be able to take care of myself 820 00:44:05,342 --> 00:44:07,071 where I didn't depend on a man. 821 00:44:08,245 --> 00:44:10,976 What I do in Las Vegas is a pretty important business. 822 00:44:11,048 --> 00:44:14,109 When it comes to VIPs, 823 00:44:14,184 --> 00:44:16,983 everybody wants to feel like a rock star. 824 00:44:18,989 --> 00:44:22,084 I gotta make sure that they've got the best tables or cabanas 825 00:44:22,159 --> 00:44:24,355 that are around 10,000 dollars, 826 00:44:24,428 --> 00:44:26,897 that they have the best bottle service. 827 00:44:28,432 --> 00:44:30,423 If you've got the girls, you've got the game. 828 00:44:31,435 --> 00:44:33,927 She's not a madam. [chuckles] 829 00:44:34,938 --> 00:44:36,906 Just want to clarify that out right now, 830 00:44:36,974 --> 00:44:38,203 from her son. [chuckles] 831 00:44:39,777 --> 00:44:41,404 I mean, sure, blonde hair, big boobs. 832 00:44:41,679 --> 00:44:43,238 Oh, yeah, I know a lot of those, but... 833 00:44:44,748 --> 00:44:46,216 you don't compare to Tiffany. 834 00:44:46,750 --> 00:44:48,980 [Preston] Like, she's queen of Vegas, you know? 835 00:44:51,722 --> 00:44:52,917 [woman #3] 836 00:44:52,990 --> 00:44:53,889 [Preston] 837 00:44:53,957 --> 00:44:54,947 [Tiffany] And it's white. 838 00:44:56,126 --> 00:44:58,925 - At least I have panties on, this time. - Have some class, don't show ass. 839 00:44:58,996 --> 00:45:01,363 Ooh, I like that. 840 00:45:02,299 --> 00:45:06,896 Are you out tonight, question mark? Trouble is a-brewing. 841 00:45:09,807 --> 00:45:10,740 [indistinct chatter] 842 00:45:10,808 --> 00:45:12,833 - [Preston] I've seen a lot. - [Tiffany laughing] 843 00:45:12,910 --> 00:45:15,436 You couldn't show me anything else that would make my head spin. 844 00:45:16,113 --> 00:45:18,047 I mean, I've seen everything, 845 00:45:18,115 --> 00:45:22,177 from 5,000-dollar contests to see who looks best naked, I've seen... 846 00:45:22,753 --> 00:45:24,414 I've done bachelor parties 847 00:45:24,488 --> 00:45:28,288 where girls are doing toy shows on a hotel room floor. 848 00:45:29,326 --> 00:45:31,294 [Lauren] Toy shows. That means erotic toys? 849 00:45:32,129 --> 00:45:33,119 Yes. 850 00:45:35,799 --> 00:45:37,767 [Tiffany] I'm such an untraditional mom. 851 00:45:38,502 --> 00:45:40,129 It's been like a challenge, 852 00:45:40,204 --> 00:45:42,901 like, am I gonna bring him out into this nightlife or not? 853 00:45:43,307 --> 00:45:45,105 And I, I am bringing him in. 854 00:45:49,513 --> 00:45:53,450 [Preston] I'd love to DJ for as long as I could possibly use my fingers. 855 00:45:54,184 --> 00:45:57,347 But I'm also really big into lizards, so... 856 00:45:58,956 --> 00:46:01,448 if I ever retired one day, 857 00:46:01,525 --> 00:46:04,085 I would just probably own a pet store, 858 00:46:04,161 --> 00:46:05,458 probably would make me happy. 859 00:46:08,165 --> 00:46:10,497 [somber music] 860 00:46:16,073 --> 00:46:17,871 [Florian] It's not a moral discussion. 861 00:46:18,208 --> 00:46:22,372 Sex is, of course, an extension of commerce. 862 00:46:22,446 --> 00:46:23,971 What isn't? 863 00:46:24,047 --> 00:46:26,209 [quirky music] 864 00:46:29,553 --> 00:46:35,549 We're in the VIP suite of the Artemis Wellness Club. 865 00:46:35,826 --> 00:46:37,817 Some would say bordello in Berlin. 866 00:46:38,896 --> 00:46:41,058 [Florian] I used to be co-investor in here. 867 00:46:41,932 --> 00:46:43,366 We're matching buyers. 868 00:46:43,433 --> 00:46:46,095 Well, technically, you call them Johns in America, 869 00:46:46,170 --> 00:46:49,037 and the sellers, which we would prefer to call sex workers, 870 00:46:49,106 --> 00:46:50,335 not even prostitutes. 871 00:46:50,941 --> 00:46:51,999 Um... 872 00:46:53,443 --> 00:46:57,107 I lost my virginity when I was like 15 to a prostitute in Amsterdam, 873 00:46:57,181 --> 00:46:59,115 and my dad was the one that actually took me there. 874 00:46:59,183 --> 00:47:01,174 [quirky music] 875 00:47:06,223 --> 00:47:11,593 My son was driving me absolutely nuts with this girl and that girl, 876 00:47:11,862 --> 00:47:16,493 and, like, having bets in school, who will kiss the first girl. 877 00:47:16,567 --> 00:47:19,093 [Florian] And I said, "We're going to Amsterdam, young man." 878 00:47:19,970 --> 00:47:23,406 And he's like, "You're almost turning 16. I can't believe you're still a virgin. 879 00:47:23,473 --> 00:47:25,271 I lost my virginity when I was 14 880 00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:29,074 to a prostitute that I paid with, with a jar of coins." 881 00:47:32,416 --> 00:47:34,441 [Florian] It's like a rite of initiation. 882 00:47:35,052 --> 00:47:36,315 [Lauren] 883 00:47:36,386 --> 00:47:38,252 Yeah, I can't let my son pay for it. 884 00:47:40,290 --> 00:47:44,090 He paid her, like, a bonus for teaching me how to... 885 00:47:44,161 --> 00:47:45,390 how to have sex properly. 886 00:47:45,462 --> 00:47:47,123 [laughs] 887 00:47:48,632 --> 00:47:49,929 [chuckles] 888 00:47:52,302 --> 00:47:56,432 Unfettered, unregulated capitalism does what it's designed to do, 889 00:47:56,506 --> 00:47:58,270 which is commodify everything. 890 00:47:58,342 --> 00:48:03,610 [Chris] Even human beings become commodities that you exploit for profit, 891 00:48:04,281 --> 00:48:06,909 until exhaustion or collapse. 892 00:48:06,984 --> 00:48:08,418 [pills rattle] 893 00:48:10,420 --> 00:48:15,415 [Lauren] Did you ever take painkillers or drugs to get through a scene? 894 00:48:15,492 --> 00:48:17,893 Uh, yeah, a lot of times. 895 00:48:17,961 --> 00:48:20,521 Like, I've actually had my ass torn, 896 00:48:21,465 --> 00:48:23,263 um, last year. 897 00:48:24,034 --> 00:48:27,060 And I took a lot of painkillers, uh, for that one. 898 00:48:27,137 --> 00:48:28,263 [coughs] Sorry. 899 00:48:28,939 --> 00:48:29,906 [exhales] 900 00:48:30,974 --> 00:48:33,068 I did a 58... 901 00:48:33,143 --> 00:48:35,407 uh, 58-guy bukkake. 902 00:48:35,479 --> 00:48:37,004 Is there more than 50? 903 00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:38,070 [man #1] I doubt it. 904 00:48:38,482 --> 00:48:40,177 Is there less than 50 in the jizz? 905 00:48:40,250 --> 00:48:42,344 Guys! Quiet! Listen! 906 00:48:42,419 --> 00:48:44,285 Fifty-eight loads to the face. 907 00:48:44,354 --> 00:48:46,015 So much for makeup and hair. 908 00:48:46,089 --> 00:48:48,319 And I am still remembered, like, "Aw, I love that scene you did." 909 00:48:48,392 --> 00:48:52,226 And it's, like, I get a lot of clients from just the fact that I did that scene. 910 00:48:52,296 --> 00:48:53,457 [woman #4] Chin up a little more. 911 00:48:53,530 --> 00:48:55,191 - [man #1] Nipples out. - [woman #4] Not yet. 912 00:48:55,265 --> 00:48:57,131 [Kacey] As much work as I've gotten from it, 913 00:48:57,200 --> 00:48:58,292 it was worth it. 914 00:48:58,368 --> 00:49:00,393 - [men laughing] - [man #1] Good job! 915 00:49:00,470 --> 00:49:02,336 [Kacey] But I actually got salmonella. 916 00:49:02,706 --> 00:49:03,605 [camera shutter clicks] 917 00:49:03,674 --> 00:49:08,271 It's, like, a food-borne illness, and I got it. 918 00:49:08,345 --> 00:49:09,471 - [man #1] Yeah. Good job! - Oh! 919 00:49:09,546 --> 00:49:11,241 - [man #1] I wanted to make sure... - Oh, my god! 920 00:49:11,315 --> 00:49:12,646 It's probably someone had it, 921 00:49:12,716 --> 00:49:15,083 and it went in my eye or something. It was so weird. 922 00:49:15,152 --> 00:49:19,180 I wanted to do something cool, or something, you know, 923 00:49:19,256 --> 00:49:21,657 for what I could be remembered, but... Yeah, and it worked. 924 00:49:22,626 --> 00:49:24,651 Yeah, I always say, uh, 925 00:49:24,728 --> 00:49:27,698 Kim's my inspiration for I can still make it, you know? 926 00:49:27,965 --> 00:49:30,229 [Kacey] Because I have lots of sex tapes to show, 927 00:49:30,300 --> 00:49:34,430 and maybe I'll still come out on top somehow. 928 00:49:35,405 --> 00:49:36,497 [chuckles] 929 00:49:40,677 --> 00:49:42,145 [sighs] 930 00:49:42,212 --> 00:49:45,341 [Trudy] This is pretty hardcore. Maybe we should, you know, 931 00:49:45,415 --> 00:49:47,577 not think about it too much. 932 00:49:53,590 --> 00:49:55,581 - [Lauren] And then, um... - [Trudy] Oh, my god. 933 00:49:55,659 --> 00:49:58,390 [Lauren] When we started, we thought we were going to go through about... 934 00:50:00,130 --> 00:50:03,566 five file cabinets of pictures. 935 00:50:04,234 --> 00:50:06,259 And then, we ended up going through... 936 00:50:06,770 --> 00:50:08,397 half a million pictures. 937 00:50:09,306 --> 00:50:14,142 Almost everything I had done related to this theme and this project. 938 00:50:14,211 --> 00:50:16,373 [foreboding music] 939 00:50:17,447 --> 00:50:19,142 [Lauren] Going through the pictures, 940 00:50:19,216 --> 00:50:21,617 I realized wealth was much more than money. 941 00:50:22,419 --> 00:50:25,013 It was whatever gave us value, 942 00:50:25,088 --> 00:50:26,578 sexuality, 943 00:50:26,656 --> 00:50:27,782 branding, 944 00:50:28,425 --> 00:50:29,688 even youth. 945 00:50:33,296 --> 00:50:34,593 When I was in my 20s, 946 00:50:34,664 --> 00:50:37,156 I went to the dermatologist for a routine checkup. 947 00:50:38,168 --> 00:50:41,069 And, unsolicited, he offered me Botox. 948 00:50:41,738 --> 00:50:46,198 I was so shocked to find out that I had a problem I didn't know existed, 949 00:50:46,276 --> 00:50:48,438 that I realized this could be a project. 950 00:50:51,748 --> 00:50:54,774 People were not aging like in prior generations. 951 00:50:56,086 --> 00:50:59,454 So, I started documenting the value of staying young, 952 00:51:00,557 --> 00:51:03,117 and the cost of not being who you are, 953 00:51:04,127 --> 00:51:06,323 and yearning to be something different. 954 00:51:10,834 --> 00:51:14,065 Cosmetic procedures weren't just for the rich anymore. 955 00:51:14,704 --> 00:51:18,402 Most people who got them made less than 50,000 dollars a year. 956 00:51:19,476 --> 00:51:23,674 I looked at many cable shows of people who have had plastic surgery. 957 00:51:23,747 --> 00:51:25,715 [Amanda] She has worked harder on herself 958 00:51:25,782 --> 00:51:27,841 than she ever has before in her life. 959 00:51:28,118 --> 00:51:29,347 I ate it up. 960 00:51:29,419 --> 00:51:32,320 [audience clapping, cheering] 961 00:51:32,389 --> 00:51:34,153 [Lauren] It's almost like there's a new version 962 00:51:34,224 --> 00:51:35,487 of the American Dream. 963 00:51:36,460 --> 00:51:40,488 The physical makeover as the rags to riches success story. 964 00:51:43,533 --> 00:51:46,400 Cathy was a school bus driver and single mom. 965 00:51:47,571 --> 00:51:49,539 [Cathy] I took a raw look at myself. 966 00:51:50,107 --> 00:51:51,632 I was no longer married. 967 00:51:51,708 --> 00:51:54,439 Um, I didn't have the financial stability that I wanted, 968 00:51:54,511 --> 00:51:57,378 didn't own a home, that had been one of my goals for years. 969 00:51:57,447 --> 00:51:58,437 I could let that go. 970 00:51:59,149 --> 00:52:03,677 [Cathy] What really mattered in life was to be in the best body that I could. 971 00:52:05,689 --> 00:52:09,387 The summer of '07 is when all the opportunities seemed to converge. 972 00:52:09,826 --> 00:52:12,454 I went to Brazil to get plastic surgery. 973 00:52:14,131 --> 00:52:15,428 I had, um... 974 00:52:16,700 --> 00:52:19,726 a pregnancy that really had distorted my body. 975 00:52:20,403 --> 00:52:23,429 Carrying so large with a nine-pound baby, 976 00:52:23,507 --> 00:52:25,407 I had a lot of skin. [laughs] 977 00:52:25,475 --> 00:52:27,807 [Lauren] And how did that make you feel when you looked in the mirror? 978 00:52:27,878 --> 00:52:28,743 Awful. 979 00:52:30,347 --> 00:52:33,715 [Cathy] And I had contemplated how it affects my daughter. 980 00:52:34,284 --> 00:52:36,343 She was an early bloomer, 981 00:52:36,419 --> 00:52:38,547 and she was about to enter into an age 982 00:52:38,622 --> 00:52:41,148 where her body would change even more rapidly. 983 00:52:42,392 --> 00:52:43,882 I had always come to the conclusion 984 00:52:44,161 --> 00:52:47,654 that me satisfying my own body issues was the best thing I could do for her. 985 00:52:49,699 --> 00:52:50,894 [Lauren] If I said to your kids, 986 00:52:51,168 --> 00:52:53,296 'Where's your mom now?", what would they say? 987 00:52:53,370 --> 00:52:55,839 "In Brazil, getting her stomach... her tummy tucked." 988 00:52:55,906 --> 00:52:56,805 [laughs] 989 00:52:56,873 --> 00:52:58,432 They're very happy for me. 990 00:53:00,944 --> 00:53:03,504 [Cathy] I've also added to the list a breast lift 991 00:53:03,580 --> 00:53:05,947 and, um, breast augmentation. 992 00:53:06,216 --> 00:53:08,241 I've been convinced that I would look wonderful 993 00:53:08,318 --> 00:53:10,252 with a little Brazilian butt lift. 994 00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:13,688 And we are sculpting under my neck with lipo, 995 00:53:13,757 --> 00:53:16,886 and we are reshaping my nose to refine it, 996 00:53:16,960 --> 00:53:19,258 uh, refine the tip, and get rid of a bump. 997 00:53:21,531 --> 00:53:22,896 I paid for it on credit. [sighs] 998 00:53:22,966 --> 00:53:24,525 I didn't have all the money at the time. 999 00:53:24,601 --> 00:53:26,626 It was son of a miracle unfolding in front of me. 1000 00:53:26,703 --> 00:53:28,694 Um, but my parents did help me some, 1001 00:53:28,772 --> 00:53:30,536 which was not a position I wanted to put them in. 1002 00:53:30,607 --> 00:53:31,836 But my mother, I believe, recognized 1003 00:53:31,908 --> 00:53:34,707 that this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for me. 1004 00:53:34,778 --> 00:53:36,644 [monitor beeping] 1005 00:53:36,713 --> 00:53:40,616 [Lauren] Is the plastic surgery here the same as in the United States? 1006 00:53:41,418 --> 00:53:42,613 It's different. 1007 00:53:42,686 --> 00:53:46,816 The anesthesiologists, uh, like, um... 1008 00:53:46,890 --> 00:53:49,359 like to use this technique. 1009 00:53:49,859 --> 00:53:51,691 [surgeon] 1010 00:53:55,932 --> 00:53:57,900 I was thinking, it's not like buying a purse, 1011 00:53:57,968 --> 00:53:59,436 [Cathy] I could take a purse back. 1012 00:53:59,502 --> 00:54:01,334 What if I make the wrong decision? 1013 00:54:01,938 --> 00:54:04,566 [machines hissing, beeping] 1014 00:54:06,810 --> 00:54:08,869 [Cathy] I'm a little overwhelmed. I'm a little confused. 1015 00:54:08,945 --> 00:54:12,745 And I'm more alone than I thought. 1016 00:54:12,816 --> 00:54:15,717 [surgeon] Okay. Okay. [speaking Portuguese] 1017 00:54:15,785 --> 00:54:17,844 [Cathy] Do I know what I'm doing? I know what I'm doing. 1018 00:54:17,921 --> 00:54:20,947 I'm a good mother, I'm a good person, I might be indulgent. 1019 00:54:21,024 --> 00:54:24,426 Oh, I can't tell. I'm sleepy. 1020 00:54:27,464 --> 00:54:29,364 [camera shutter clicks] 1021 00:54:33,003 --> 00:54:35,267 The greatest relief was seeing myself... 1022 00:54:35,338 --> 00:54:37,363 [sighs] 1023 00:54:37,440 --> 00:54:39,374 ...uh, changed, better. 1024 00:54:45,415 --> 00:54:47,349 [Cathy] When considering one's own body, 1025 00:54:47,417 --> 00:54:51,354 that's a life skill, a coping skill that every young woman has to develop. 1026 00:54:51,755 --> 00:54:53,484 [Cathy] My daughter, that was hard for her. 1027 00:54:54,691 --> 00:54:57,854 It was the changing emotions of emerging on adulthood. 1028 00:54:58,395 --> 00:55:00,887 She went in her bedroom at the time, and she cut herself. 1029 00:55:02,332 --> 00:55:03,959 She cut... She carved... 1030 00:55:05,435 --> 00:55:06,869 She carved letters in her forehead. 1031 00:55:07,704 --> 00:55:08,830 "Dead." 1032 00:55:08,905 --> 00:55:10,600 As if she wish she were dead. 1033 00:55:12,342 --> 00:55:15,676 And that was the hardest thing I've dealt with in my life. 1034 00:55:16,713 --> 00:55:18,044 The hardest thing. [sobs] 1035 00:55:18,548 --> 00:55:19,845 Why would you... 1036 00:55:22,018 --> 00:55:23,713 intentionally distort, 1037 00:55:24,354 --> 00:55:26,982 uh, um, deface your body? 1038 00:55:27,590 --> 00:55:32,050 I felt it was a failure of myself to impart to her how much she's loved, 1039 00:55:32,896 --> 00:55:34,489 and how much she's worth. 1040 00:55:37,467 --> 00:55:39,595 [Suzanne] I always wanted children. 1041 00:55:39,669 --> 00:55:41,000 I waited till 40. 1042 00:55:41,071 --> 00:55:42,903 I thought it was time to get married. 1043 00:55:43,640 --> 00:55:45,768 We had already seen a fertility specialist who said, 1044 00:55:45,842 --> 00:55:48,539 "You know, you should start yesterday, not tomorrow." 1045 00:55:49,446 --> 00:55:54,043 As we sit here today, I'm in the process of doing my fifth IVF cycle. 1046 00:55:54,117 --> 00:55:57,052 We're not talking about 500, 600, 800 dollars. 1047 00:55:57,120 --> 00:55:58,645 We're talking about... 1048 00:55:58,722 --> 00:56:01,521 Five times in, you're, you're at a hundred thousand dollars. 1049 00:56:01,858 --> 00:56:05,954 You know, our charity dollars this year went towards trying to get pregnant. 1050 00:56:07,530 --> 00:56:10,397 The process has cut our social life way back. 1051 00:56:10,467 --> 00:56:12,367 It's not romantic, it's not, 1052 00:56:12,435 --> 00:56:14,563 "Oh, let's drink a wonderful bottle of wine, 1053 00:56:14,637 --> 00:56:17,436 and make love, and, you know, here we got pregnant." 1054 00:56:18,808 --> 00:56:21,140 I had hired the best doctors, I was paying top dollar. 1055 00:56:21,778 --> 00:56:24,839 If I read somewhere that, you know, exercising wasn't good, 1056 00:56:24,914 --> 00:56:25,972 I stopped exercising. 1057 00:56:26,049 --> 00:56:29,041 If I read somewhere that Mayan uterine massage was good, 1058 00:56:29,119 --> 00:56:31,144 I went and had Mayan uterine massage. 1059 00:56:31,421 --> 00:56:33,549 I've cut back on the Botox more, because I'm concerned 1060 00:56:33,623 --> 00:56:36,490 about injecting botulism toxin into my body. 1061 00:56:36,559 --> 00:56:39,153 You know, maybe that's not such a good idea if I'm trying to get pregnant. 1062 00:56:39,429 --> 00:56:40,897 Um, so I've kind of done it less. 1063 00:56:40,964 --> 00:56:43,934 You know, it's funny, after my failed cycle this summer, 1064 00:56:44,000 --> 00:56:45,399 I hadn't had Botox in like... 1065 00:56:45,468 --> 00:56:47,630 I went right in to make myself feel better. 1066 00:56:51,941 --> 00:56:54,808 [Suzanne] My time was running out in terms of getting a viable egg. 1067 00:56:55,745 --> 00:56:59,682 I knew somebody through business who said, "Get my surrogate to do it for you." 1068 00:57:01,518 --> 00:57:05,011 My doctor, when he first examined Jennifer, said, 1069 00:57:05,088 --> 00:57:07,989 "You know, this woman is like a walking baby carrier." 1070 00:57:08,057 --> 00:57:09,525 Like, this is, like, great. 1071 00:57:09,793 --> 00:57:11,818 When you surrogate, you just have to have a strong mind-set 1072 00:57:11,895 --> 00:57:13,989 that you're kind of babysitting for nine months. 1073 00:57:14,063 --> 00:57:16,589 You know, I'm holding on to it, I'm gonna take care of it for you, 1074 00:57:16,666 --> 00:57:17,895 and then I'm handing it off. 1075 00:57:19,469 --> 00:57:21,130 [Lauren] Was it expensive to do a surrogate? 1076 00:57:21,204 --> 00:57:22,137 Very. 1077 00:57:23,473 --> 00:57:26,443 [Lauren] And what did you need the extra money for? 1078 00:57:26,509 --> 00:57:28,136 Right now, we have a three bedroom, one bath, 1079 00:57:28,978 --> 00:57:32,710 which I'm okay with it. It... But, I don't know. 1080 00:57:33,950 --> 00:57:35,679 Bigger is better, right? [chuckles] 1081 00:57:36,152 --> 00:57:39,713 Jennifer was great in the sense that it was my thing. 1082 00:57:40,123 --> 00:57:41,716 She did what I wanted her to do. 1083 00:57:41,791 --> 00:57:44,192 And so I micromanaged pretty much every aspect of it. 1084 00:57:44,461 --> 00:57:46,088 She thinks about things like I never thought about. 1085 00:57:46,162 --> 00:57:47,652 Not standing in front of the microwave, 1086 00:57:47,730 --> 00:57:49,164 because it would affect me getting pregnant, 1087 00:57:49,232 --> 00:57:51,223 or don't drink out of Styrofoam cups, 1088 00:57:51,501 --> 00:57:53,993 no sugar substitutes. [chuckles] 1089 00:57:54,070 --> 00:57:57,199 [Lauren] Was your husband equally committed to having a baby? 1090 00:57:57,807 --> 00:58:00,868 Um, you know, the answer is no. 1091 00:58:02,078 --> 00:58:05,742 The reality is, after the fifth or sixth try, 1092 00:58:05,815 --> 00:58:07,476 he was no longer that interested. 1093 00:58:07,550 --> 00:58:11,817 So, it was really a very solo journey for me. 1094 00:58:12,722 --> 00:58:16,852 It's me, myself, and I, and my worth, 1095 00:58:16,926 --> 00:58:19,486 which is net worth, nothing else. 1096 00:58:20,697 --> 00:58:23,564 [Florian] I had homes of 20,000 square feet 1097 00:58:23,633 --> 00:58:26,933 I'd never spent a night in, because I was too busy working. 1098 00:58:27,704 --> 00:58:29,570 Hard to believe if you do the math, 1099 00:58:29,639 --> 00:58:32,870 but in busy days, 300 to 500 telephone calls a day. 1100 00:58:32,942 --> 00:58:35,138 I think the first time he retired, he had a lot of money already. 1101 00:58:35,211 --> 00:58:36,178 I don't know how much. 1102 00:58:36,246 --> 00:58:40,911 He could have stopped working and led a family life if he had wanted to. 1103 00:58:42,886 --> 00:58:46,049 [Florian] We were renting a castle in France, in the boondocks. 1104 00:58:47,090 --> 00:58:49,024 - [cow mooing] - There was no cell signal. 1105 00:58:49,092 --> 00:58:50,856 My kids still today laugh, 1106 00:58:50,927 --> 00:58:53,021 when they say I was climbing on the highest peaks, 1107 00:58:53,897 --> 00:58:57,595 holding up my telephone to get a signal. 1108 00:58:57,667 --> 00:59:01,126 That vacation cost me at least three or four million in foregone profit. 1109 00:59:02,772 --> 00:59:03,898 [Conrad] My dad was always, like, 1110 00:59:03,973 --> 00:59:05,771 completely disinterested in the family life. 1111 00:59:07,544 --> 00:59:09,706 We found out he had an affair. 1112 00:59:10,680 --> 00:59:13,672 I think she was either a stripper or a go-go dancer? 1113 00:59:14,217 --> 00:59:15,878 [Lauren] How is she different from your wife? 1114 00:59:16,719 --> 00:59:21,247 Uh... This is hilarious, yes, fake breasts. 1115 00:59:22,091 --> 00:59:25,026 Very commercially-minded. [laughs] 1116 00:59:25,728 --> 00:59:29,255 [Lauren] Well, tell me about this intense, uh... 1117 00:59:30,667 --> 00:59:35,161 love for excess, whether it's money, women... 1118 00:59:35,238 --> 00:59:37,206 - Work. - [Lauren] Work. 1119 00:59:37,273 --> 00:59:38,798 [laughs] 1120 00:59:38,875 --> 00:59:40,866 How can a 100-hour workweek 1121 00:59:40,944 --> 00:59:45,347 not compromise your relationship with anything that's worthwhile? 1122 00:59:45,982 --> 00:59:47,973 [foreboding music] 1123 00:59:48,985 --> 00:59:50,248 [camera shutter clicking] 1124 00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:53,187 [Lauren] As I went deeper into my subjects' obsessions... 1125 00:59:55,158 --> 00:59:57,286 I was surprised they reflected my own. 1126 00:59:57,360 --> 00:59:58,293 [cameraman] We're rolling. 1127 00:59:58,962 --> 01:00:00,054 Here you go. 1128 01:00:01,965 --> 01:00:04,866 [Lauren] And I remember when I photographed Shelly, 1129 01:00:04,934 --> 01:00:07,130 one of the anorexic girls in Thin. 1130 01:00:08,304 --> 01:00:10,671 She said, "Work is your addiction." 1131 01:00:12,141 --> 01:00:14,303 [foreboding music] 1132 01:00:18,881 --> 01:00:20,144 [Lauren] 1133 01:00:20,216 --> 01:00:22,241 [Lauren laughing] 1134 01:00:22,318 --> 01:00:24,184 [Lauren] 1135 01:00:27,290 --> 01:00:28,314 Yes. 1136 01:00:29,158 --> 01:00:30,626 Slop! 1137 01:00:36,933 --> 01:00:39,265 [Lauren laughing] 1138 01:00:44,774 --> 01:00:46,970 [Lauren] Why do you think I have a problem? 1139 01:00:48,845 --> 01:00:49,835 [Gabriel] Hmm. 1140 01:00:51,180 --> 01:00:53,706 You're filming every second of our lives. 1141 01:00:55,184 --> 01:00:57,243 [Lauren] Do you... Do you think I'm a workaholic? 1142 01:00:58,421 --> 01:00:59,820 A workaholic? 1143 01:01:01,190 --> 01:01:02,385 Yeah, like... 1144 01:01:03,326 --> 01:01:05,351 And your mom is even more than you. 1145 01:01:06,295 --> 01:01:08,263 [Lauren] And do you think Noah's similar? 1146 01:01:09,399 --> 01:01:12,767 Yeah, Noah is a little Lauren, definitely. 1147 01:01:13,369 --> 01:01:16,066 [Lauren] Noah might be more intense than me. 1148 01:01:16,139 --> 01:01:19,700 One, two, forty-one, three, 1149 01:01:20,209 --> 01:01:21,768 four, light and quick. 1150 01:01:22,445 --> 01:01:25,710 [Patricia] Where did the addiction to work come from, do you think? 1151 01:01:25,782 --> 01:01:26,943 [Lauren] I think it came from you. 1152 01:01:27,016 --> 01:01:30,316 I think you're a way bigger workaholic than I am. 1153 01:01:30,386 --> 01:01:34,323 No, you're a way bigger workaholic than I am. 1154 01:01:34,390 --> 01:01:36,825 How long is the longest you've gone on a shoot? 1155 01:01:36,893 --> 01:01:39,191 I would say six weeks or two months. 1156 01:01:39,262 --> 01:01:43,256 I never went away that long. Never! [laughing] 1157 01:01:44,734 --> 01:01:46,702 I don't know, I had a lot more time with Dad. 1158 01:01:47,470 --> 01:01:50,098 - [Lauren] Did Dad kind of compensate? - [Noah] Yeah. 1159 01:01:50,940 --> 01:01:56,140 # Nothing's gonna change my world # 1160 01:01:56,212 --> 01:01:58,476 [Lauren] It made Frank have that very close connection... 1161 01:02:00,983 --> 01:02:03,247 which has sustained us since that time. 1162 01:02:03,319 --> 01:02:05,219 [indistinct chatter] 1163 01:02:05,888 --> 01:02:08,755 [Lauren] It allows me to travel and do the work. 1164 01:02:12,328 --> 01:02:13,955 - Mommy! - [Lauren] What? 1165 01:02:15,832 --> 01:02:16,958 [Noah] Mommy! 1166 01:02:20,503 --> 01:02:23,302 I just kind of grew up with you not really being around. 1167 01:02:25,074 --> 01:02:28,476 It sounds kind of bad, but I think the damage is already done. 1168 01:02:29,145 --> 01:02:30,135 [Lauren sighs] 1169 01:02:34,350 --> 01:02:35,442 Are you okay? 1170 01:02:37,520 --> 01:02:38,453 Yeah? 1171 01:02:47,230 --> 01:02:49,460 [line ringing] 1172 01:02:50,399 --> 01:02:52,094 [automated voice] Your call has been forwarded 1173 01:02:52,168 --> 01:02:54,830 to an automatic voice message system. At the tone... 1174 01:02:54,904 --> 01:02:56,338 [Lauren] I haven't gotten to talk to him yet. 1175 01:02:56,405 --> 01:02:57,895 He called Frank, and... 1176 01:02:58,441 --> 01:03:00,910 Noah just got a perfect score on his ACT. 1177 01:03:01,511 --> 01:03:02,979 [laughs] 1178 01:03:03,446 --> 01:03:05,175 - [phone beeping] - Hey, Noah, it's Mom. 1179 01:03:05,248 --> 01:03:07,546 Give me a call, uh, when you're out of class. 1180 01:03:07,817 --> 01:03:09,012 Okay, bye. Love you. 1181 01:03:12,221 --> 01:03:13,780 I think he's just happy. 1182 01:03:13,856 --> 01:03:16,985 He worked hard. It's his achievement, you know? 1183 01:03:18,995 --> 01:03:21,828 He didn't even call me to tell me. It's just like he's happy. 1184 01:03:21,898 --> 01:03:22,865 [sniffles] 1185 01:03:25,101 --> 01:03:27,092 [somber music] 1186 01:03:32,141 --> 01:03:35,543 [Lauren] I've always thought that balance was kind of overrated. 1187 01:03:35,812 --> 01:03:36,836 Shit. 1188 01:03:37,814 --> 01:03:39,043 Oh, fuck. 1189 01:03:40,149 --> 01:03:44,586 I'm often chasing my own obsessions with as much adrenaline as my subjects. 1190 01:03:47,190 --> 01:03:49,989 Even though I wasn't going for tons of money, 1191 01:03:50,059 --> 01:03:51,493 or the perfect body, 1192 01:03:52,361 --> 01:03:54,989 I was always looking for more and more. 1193 01:03:56,299 --> 01:03:59,098 [Lauren] I'm gonna be pretty wide, so you'll have to be behind me. 1194 01:03:59,168 --> 01:04:00,533 Let's see, let's see how this works. 1195 01:04:00,603 --> 01:04:03,072 - Okay, look at me. - [camera shutter clicks] 1196 01:04:03,139 --> 01:04:05,836 Right. You can look up like than, like you were a second ago. Yeah. 1197 01:04:05,908 --> 01:04:08,138 [shutter clicks] 1198 01:04:08,211 --> 01:04:09,872 [Lauren] Look up again like you just were. 1199 01:04:10,580 --> 01:04:12,139 - [camera shutter clicks] - Beautiful. 1200 01:04:13,115 --> 01:04:15,106 [somber music] 1201 01:04:15,184 --> 01:04:17,243 [Cathy] I don't think I'm meeting my fitness goals. 1202 01:04:18,254 --> 01:04:20,052 I would love to see this fixed. 1203 01:04:20,122 --> 01:04:23,319 I would love to see my thighs fixed. 1204 01:04:24,227 --> 01:04:26,218 My butt needs to be fixed! 1205 01:04:27,897 --> 01:04:30,332 [Lauren] I saw a similar addiction 1206 01:04:30,399 --> 01:04:32,390 among women with eating disorders. 1207 01:04:35,872 --> 01:04:37,567 [Shelly] I would lose five pounds, 1208 01:04:37,640 --> 01:04:40,109 and it still wasn't good enough. 1209 01:04:41,944 --> 01:04:45,039 And I'd lose five more, and it still wasn't good enough. 1210 01:04:47,283 --> 01:04:50,116 [Mickie] The fame, it's such a rush. 1211 01:04:50,186 --> 01:04:52,416 You know, the instant tweets and instant posts. 1212 01:04:52,488 --> 01:04:53,614 Wow! 1213 01:04:54,557 --> 01:04:58,289 [Lil Magic] Every day, I see some dancers that are addicted to the pole. 1214 01:04:58,361 --> 01:04:59,522 Um, to the pole money. 1215 01:05:01,597 --> 01:05:05,363 [Florian] Success becomes its own perpetual vehicle. 1216 01:05:05,434 --> 01:05:08,460 You're part of this game where the more, the better again. 1217 01:05:09,906 --> 01:05:12,375 And a billion is better than a hundred million. 1218 01:05:13,142 --> 01:05:15,076 I was a hamster... 1219 01:05:15,578 --> 01:05:18,104 in a diamond-studded gold wheel. 1220 01:05:20,349 --> 01:05:22,340 [Tiffany] You sell your soul to the devil, 1221 01:05:23,619 --> 01:05:27,249 'cause you get burnt out so bad, that you just numb it. 1222 01:05:28,557 --> 01:05:32,016 Where you don't feel the hand on your ass anymore. 1223 01:05:32,695 --> 01:05:34,220 We detach. 1224 01:05:34,497 --> 01:05:36,488 And then you put on the game again. 1225 01:05:37,199 --> 01:05:39,099 If not, it destroys you. 1226 01:05:40,369 --> 01:05:43,134 [Mikayla] There is this place that is too far, 1227 01:05:43,205 --> 01:05:44,673 and everyone ends up there. 1228 01:05:45,541 --> 01:05:48,101 When money is success, 1229 01:05:48,644 --> 01:05:51,079 it's impossible to not want to keep going. 1230 01:05:51,147 --> 01:05:52,308 Why wouldn't you? 1231 01:05:52,615 --> 01:05:55,482 'Cause if a lot is good, more is better. 1232 01:05:56,519 --> 01:05:59,716 [Florian] You were trapped in your own ambition. 1233 01:05:59,989 --> 01:06:01,548 [female reporter] Right now, breaking news here, 1234 01:06:01,624 --> 01:06:04,992 stocks all around the world are tanking because of... 1235 01:06:05,061 --> 01:06:08,156 [Florian] Capital, like any other resource in excess, 1236 01:06:08,230 --> 01:06:13,168 will cause utter social and economic havoc. 1237 01:06:23,346 --> 01:06:26,509 [Lauren] When the financial crash of 2008 happened, 1238 01:06:27,350 --> 01:06:30,581 it felt like a global tsunami of devastation. 1239 01:06:36,125 --> 01:06:38,321 There were eerily similar scenes 1240 01:06:39,095 --> 01:06:41,257 in all the places hardest hit. 1241 01:06:42,098 --> 01:06:43,463 Which I followed. 1242 01:06:47,703 --> 01:06:49,296 [Lauren] And what about your house? 1243 01:06:50,206 --> 01:06:51,435 [man #2] We are in foreclosure. 1244 01:06:52,575 --> 01:06:57,012 [Lauren] And what's it like as a man, as the breadwinner, to go through this? 1245 01:06:57,079 --> 01:06:58,012 Degrading. 1246 01:06:58,381 --> 01:07:02,045 [man #2] You know, after trying so hard to keep something you love so much... 1247 01:07:03,519 --> 01:07:05,009 and then they wanna come and take it. 1248 01:07:08,691 --> 01:07:10,682 [gloomy music] 1249 01:07:18,234 --> 01:07:20,100 I was just... [sobs] 1250 01:07:20,169 --> 01:07:23,366 I was just trying to make a home for me and my daughter. 1251 01:07:24,306 --> 01:07:26,206 That's all I was trying to do. 1252 01:07:29,445 --> 01:07:32,574 [Lauren] When even David and Jackie Siegel's dream home 1253 01:07:32,648 --> 01:07:36,209 ended up with a fetid pool and facing foreclosure, 1254 01:07:37,620 --> 01:07:39,748 for me, it was almost like a symbol 1255 01:07:39,822 --> 01:07:43,156 of our collective greed and its price. 1256 01:07:44,293 --> 01:07:46,125 [indistinct chatter] 1257 01:07:46,462 --> 01:07:50,057 [Florian] In my path to fairly quick wealth, 1258 01:07:50,132 --> 01:07:51,497 that made some enemies. 1259 01:07:51,567 --> 01:07:53,695 You know, I would get a threat or a lawsuit, I said, 1260 01:07:54,370 --> 01:07:59,331 "Take a ticket, walk to position 134 in the line. 1261 01:07:59,408 --> 01:08:00,432 Fuck off." 1262 01:08:02,344 --> 01:08:04,438 There were allegations against me. 1263 01:08:05,181 --> 01:08:09,118 They basically said I've conspired to defraud. 1264 01:08:09,185 --> 01:08:12,678 Our CIO, Florian Homm, resigned unexpectedly, 1265 01:08:12,755 --> 01:08:14,382 in a rather dramatic way. 1266 01:08:14,457 --> 01:08:16,687 [TV reporter] Florian Homm absconded to Colombia. 1267 01:08:16,759 --> 01:08:19,694 The FCC alleges that he defrauded investors 1268 01:08:19,762 --> 01:08:22,094 out of about 200 million dollars. 1269 01:08:22,164 --> 01:08:25,657 I packed up a few things and I found my way to Colombia. 1270 01:08:25,734 --> 01:08:27,828 [Lauren] Tell me about packing up a few things. 1271 01:08:28,104 --> 01:08:30,436 You know, the Euro bills are so compact, 1272 01:08:30,506 --> 01:08:33,373 500 Euros, it's like almost a 700-dollar bill. 1273 01:08:34,243 --> 01:08:37,873 And you can literally pack half a million bucks on you. 1274 01:08:38,147 --> 01:08:39,842 You have these elastic bands which... 1275 01:08:40,649 --> 01:08:43,812 uh, in your Calvin Klein underwear, that you can stuff them there, 1276 01:08:43,886 --> 01:08:47,186 and they rarely pat you in your, well, genital area. 1277 01:08:47,890 --> 01:08:50,757 At the time, I was very attached to money still, literally. 1278 01:08:50,826 --> 01:08:52,294 [laughs] 1279 01:08:55,231 --> 01:08:56,756 [TV reporter] Well, after five years on the lam, 1280 01:08:56,832 --> 01:08:58,527 Florian Homm finally nabbed. 1281 01:08:58,601 --> 01:09:02,435 He faces four counts of conspiracy, wire fraud, and security fraud. 1282 01:09:03,172 --> 01:09:06,836 The American justice had me arrested in Italy. 1283 01:09:06,909 --> 01:09:11,745 I end up in Florence prison, in a cell of 20-square yards, 1284 01:09:12,448 --> 01:09:15,679 with mentally deranged, violent criminals. 1285 01:09:16,819 --> 01:09:19,345 I felt horrible. 1286 01:09:20,156 --> 01:09:23,319 Abandoned. Completely abandoned. 1287 01:09:23,392 --> 01:09:25,326 [gates clanging] 1288 01:09:27,263 --> 01:09:29,698 [Florian] I was completely estranged from my children. 1289 01:09:30,599 --> 01:09:34,365 So if a provider no longer provides, what's his purpose? 1290 01:09:35,604 --> 01:09:36,833 What's my purpose? 1291 01:09:39,608 --> 01:09:42,669 [Paris] As a kid who came from a rock star family 1292 01:09:42,745 --> 01:09:44,873 who had every advantage, 1293 01:09:45,681 --> 01:09:48,241 I just kind of, like, "I shouldn't even try." 1294 01:09:48,317 --> 01:09:50,251 I'm never going to get here. 1295 01:09:50,319 --> 01:09:53,550 So, why try to get here? 'Cause that's never... 1296 01:09:53,622 --> 01:09:55,249 That's not good enough. You know what I mean? 1297 01:09:55,324 --> 01:09:59,283 I'm not a rock star. I'm a bartender. I'm a server, I'm a... 1298 01:09:59,361 --> 01:10:01,955 whatever job I had to, you know, get by. 1299 01:10:02,631 --> 01:10:06,864 I had to numb just to be able to deal with the mundane life. 1300 01:10:07,436 --> 01:10:08,767 I definitely didn't set out 1301 01:10:08,837 --> 01:10:12,432 to become addicted to, you know, pretty hard opiates, 1302 01:10:12,508 --> 01:10:14,806 and for, like, two or three months, I started smoking crack. 1303 01:10:14,877 --> 01:10:15,935 [chuckles] 1304 01:10:16,212 --> 01:10:18,408 [Paris] You know, I did any type of painkiller, 1305 01:10:18,480 --> 01:10:21,472 and those kind of make you feel warm and fuzzy, 1306 01:10:21,550 --> 01:10:25,214 and I used to say it was like the hug I never got as a kid kind of thing. 1307 01:10:25,287 --> 01:10:27,449 [somber music] 1308 01:10:30,526 --> 01:10:31,755 [Gabriel] "Legacy." 1309 01:10:31,827 --> 01:10:35,286 "Some days I wear legacy like a weight, 1310 01:10:35,364 --> 01:10:36,889 too big a burden to bear, 1311 01:10:37,366 --> 01:10:40,267 like something that's just out of reach. 1312 01:10:40,336 --> 01:10:42,634 Legacy is how I run some days, 1313 01:10:42,705 --> 01:10:45,675 trying to keep up with my family's achievements. 1314 01:10:45,741 --> 01:10:48,972 Legacy is my brother getting a perfect ACT score, 1315 01:10:49,245 --> 01:10:51,646 36 out of 36. 1316 01:10:51,714 --> 01:10:53,842 And I remember crying that night, 1317 01:10:53,916 --> 01:10:57,819 'cause I didn't know if I would be able to get such a good score, 1318 01:10:57,886 --> 01:11:00,685 and wondering if my parents would still be proud of me. 1319 01:11:01,523 --> 01:11:03,685 Some days, legacy haunts me, 1320 01:11:03,792 --> 01:11:06,284 like an idea that's stuck in your brain, 1321 01:11:06,362 --> 01:11:08,660 and no matter how much you try and ignore it, 1322 01:11:08,731 --> 01:11:10,699 it never gets out of your head. 1323 01:11:10,766 --> 01:11:12,734 Legacy is my life." 1324 01:11:13,302 --> 01:11:15,862 [laughing] Very good. 1325 01:11:16,572 --> 01:11:18,370 That's great. Wow. 1326 01:11:18,974 --> 01:11:20,703 [Lauren] You wrote that today? 1327 01:11:21,844 --> 01:11:23,278 Yeah, I did. 1328 01:11:23,746 --> 01:11:25,714 [Lauren] How did you feel the pressure of legacy? 1329 01:11:27,516 --> 01:11:29,541 [Noah] Uh, because both my parents went to Harvard. 1330 01:11:32,688 --> 01:11:36,022 - You're such a weirdo! - [Lauren laughs] 1331 01:11:36,892 --> 01:11:38,360 Dad, do you see this? 1332 01:11:39,862 --> 01:11:41,387 [Lauren] Why do you feel the pre-- 1333 01:11:41,964 --> 01:11:43,659 [Frank] Why do you feel the pressure of legacy? 1334 01:11:43,732 --> 01:11:45,860 - I'm asking Noah. - Why do you feel the pressure of legacy? 1335 01:11:45,934 --> 01:11:47,993 I don't want Noah to feel the pressure of legacy. 1336 01:11:48,070 --> 01:11:49,834 [Frank] But why have you acted like someone 1337 01:11:49,905 --> 01:11:51,873 who's had enormous pressure of legacy on you? 1338 01:11:52,641 --> 01:11:54,507 I had that, too, with my parents. 1339 01:11:54,576 --> 01:11:56,340 My parents went to Harvard, too. 1340 01:12:01,850 --> 01:12:03,579 [Lauren] And do you think I was a happy child? 1341 01:12:04,320 --> 01:12:06,914 [laughs] Do you think you were a happy child? 1342 01:12:06,989 --> 01:12:09,981 [Lauren] I don't know, I remember a lot of anxieties and insecurities. 1343 01:12:10,059 --> 01:12:11,549 Really? What kind? 1344 01:12:11,894 --> 01:12:14,363 [Lauren] Just, uh, I don't know. 1345 01:12:14,430 --> 01:12:16,762 I think probably coming from divorce, and... 1346 01:12:17,466 --> 01:12:20,800 - Mm-hm - [Lauren] You know, maybe your being away, 1347 01:12:20,869 --> 01:12:24,567 I don't know. But I just always remember being anxious. 1348 01:12:24,640 --> 01:12:26,438 Mm Mm-hm. 1349 01:12:28,977 --> 01:12:30,467 [Lauren] Wham do you remember? 1350 01:12:32,014 --> 01:12:34,039 Okay, let me actually go back. 1351 01:12:35,884 --> 01:12:39,684 [Patricia] When I had you, I had a PhD. 1352 01:12:39,755 --> 01:12:44,022 I was a graduate student in culture and human development. 1353 01:12:45,627 --> 01:12:47,686 The women's movement was just starting. 1354 01:12:47,763 --> 01:12:50,562 [women] Women are powerful! Join us now! 1355 01:12:50,632 --> 01:12:54,125 [Patricia] I suddenly realized I was doing all of the childcare. 1356 01:12:54,403 --> 01:12:56,462 My career was going down the tubes. 1357 01:12:56,538 --> 01:12:58,870 Your dad was just focusing on his career. 1358 01:13:00,042 --> 01:13:02,010 We decided to separate. 1359 01:13:02,077 --> 01:13:05,638 And I knew I wouldn't lose touch with you 1360 01:13:05,714 --> 01:13:08,877 if I wasn't with you, um, five days a week, 1361 01:13:08,951 --> 01:13:11,010 and I was just with you on the weekends. 1362 01:13:11,086 --> 01:13:13,646 [Lauren] Let's just talk about the fact that you got a job 1363 01:13:13,722 --> 01:13:16,623 in another city from Dad, and we lived with Dad. 1364 01:13:17,059 --> 01:13:20,962 [Patricia] He wanted to be physically close to you most of the time. 1365 01:13:21,029 --> 01:13:24,465 And in general, mothers don't need to be close 1366 01:13:24,533 --> 01:13:26,627 to their children geographically 1367 01:13:26,702 --> 01:13:29,933 to keep the attachment in the relationship. 1368 01:13:30,472 --> 01:13:33,772 I understand, years later, that you felt abandoned, 1369 01:13:33,842 --> 01:13:37,745 but, you know, then that's understandable, because we had been very close. 1370 01:13:39,415 --> 01:13:42,043 [Lauren] And did you come to visit us every weekend? 1371 01:13:42,117 --> 01:13:48,079 [Patricia] No, you traveled to Santa Cruz every weekend with Mathew on the plane. 1372 01:13:48,157 --> 01:13:49,682 [Lauren] Was that unusual at the time 1373 01:13:49,758 --> 01:13:52,750 for a 5-year-old and a 7-year-old to be traveling alone? 1374 01:13:56,465 --> 01:13:58,729 [laughs] 1375 01:14:03,572 --> 01:14:07,008 I had a very, very tortured relationship with my mother. 1376 01:14:07,075 --> 01:14:09,772 My mother didn't work. Her priorities were different. 1377 01:14:09,845 --> 01:14:11,176 We always had tons of help, 1378 01:14:11,447 --> 01:14:15,884 and people, other than my mother, taking care of us, 1379 01:14:15,951 --> 01:14:17,612 even though she didn't work. 1380 01:14:18,153 --> 01:14:20,451 [Lauren] So you want to be different than she was? 1381 01:14:20,522 --> 01:14:23,116 I think when you go through the journey that I went through to become a mother, 1382 01:14:23,192 --> 01:14:26,093 like, you embrace every aspect of it. 1383 01:14:26,161 --> 01:14:28,129 Any time I would tell her anything, she would freak out. 1384 01:14:28,197 --> 01:14:30,495 So, I started having contractions early in the morning, 1385 01:14:30,566 --> 01:14:33,194 and I text her, and I'm like, "Don't panic, but..." 1386 01:14:33,469 --> 01:14:34,732 And, of course, I panicked. 1387 01:14:34,803 --> 01:14:36,794 She came three-and-a-half months early. 1388 01:14:37,539 --> 01:14:40,634 I had left the labor and delivery room, went out into the hallway, 1389 01:14:40,709 --> 01:14:42,507 and was really kind of losing it. 1390 01:14:42,578 --> 01:14:43,841 And the doctor came out and said, 1391 01:14:43,912 --> 01:14:45,710 "You've gotta come right now, we're having a baby." 1392 01:14:45,781 --> 01:14:47,510 You know, I remember looking at him, and saying, 1393 01:14:47,583 --> 01:14:48,914 "Where did you go to medical school?" 1394 01:14:49,751 --> 01:14:52,618 And he told me where, and I was like, "That doesn't work for me!" 1395 01:14:52,688 --> 01:14:54,122 Um, to his credit, he looked at me and said, 1396 01:14:54,189 --> 01:14:55,657 "Lady, I'm all you got right now." 1397 01:14:56,024 --> 01:14:59,688 And then around one, two o'clock in the morning, our water burst. 1398 01:14:59,761 --> 01:15:01,752 It was over, and, you know, they, they grab her. 1399 01:15:01,830 --> 01:15:03,764 I mean, she was the size of my hand. 1400 01:15:04,199 --> 01:15:06,691 Um, and they grab her and they put her on a table, 1401 01:15:06,768 --> 01:15:08,099 and they put them in a plastic bag. 1402 01:15:08,170 --> 01:15:10,264 And there was a team often people around her, 1403 01:15:10,539 --> 01:15:12,803 so you can't even see what's going on. 1404 01:15:12,875 --> 01:15:14,172 And I just remember being... 1405 01:15:15,677 --> 01:15:17,702 absolutely terrified. 1406 01:15:19,181 --> 01:15:21,013 'Cause they prepare you for the worst. 1407 01:15:24,520 --> 01:15:26,545 I wanted her more than anything in the world. 1408 01:15:31,727 --> 01:15:33,889 [somber music] 1409 01:15:41,837 --> 01:15:44,898 [Kacey] After the Charlie Sheen media blowout, 1410 01:15:44,973 --> 01:15:45,872 the, the scandal. 1411 01:15:47,543 --> 01:15:50,103 I was constantly getting followed, 1412 01:15:50,779 --> 01:15:52,804 like a normal celebrity probably would. 1413 01:15:53,749 --> 01:15:55,547 I started feeling really bad. 1414 01:15:55,617 --> 01:15:57,585 - [Indistinct chatter] - [reporter] Kacey! 1415 01:15:57,653 --> 01:15:59,815 [Kacey] This is, like, a lifestyle that maybe I would've wanted, 1416 01:15:59,888 --> 01:16:03,620 but the fame, it did more, like, 1417 01:16:03,692 --> 01:16:06,127 long-term damage to me than I thought it could. 1418 01:16:06,194 --> 01:16:07,821 [sobbing] 1419 01:16:08,163 --> 01:16:09,722 [male actor] Hey, what's up, baby? 1420 01:16:09,798 --> 01:16:10,993 [cameraman] Hey, you okay? 1421 01:16:11,066 --> 01:16:13,967 - I can't do it! - [cameraman] You can do it! 1422 01:16:14,036 --> 01:16:16,630 - You're doing good so far... - [cameraman] You're doing good! 1423 01:16:16,705 --> 01:16:18,070 [sobbing] 1424 01:16:18,140 --> 01:16:20,040 [cameraman] You're doing fine. 1425 01:16:20,108 --> 01:16:22,099 - [woman #4] You're doing good. - No! 1426 01:16:22,177 --> 01:16:25,203 [Kacey] "What is she doing? Oh, she tries to kill herself." 1427 01:16:25,280 --> 01:16:28,341 This is Alprazolam, a.k.a. Xanax. 1428 01:16:29,217 --> 01:16:30,776 This is Advil PM. 1429 01:16:31,787 --> 01:16:33,687 [sighs] Let's watch me die. 1430 01:16:33,989 --> 01:16:34,854 [rattles] 1431 01:16:36,158 --> 01:16:38,855 [somber music] 1432 01:16:40,262 --> 01:16:41,229 [gulps] 1433 01:16:42,197 --> 01:16:43,892 [sighs] 1434 01:16:45,634 --> 01:16:47,625 [sniffles] Goodbye. 1435 01:16:54,276 --> 01:16:56,904 [Kacey] I wanted to reinvent myself. 1436 01:16:56,979 --> 01:16:59,971 I needed surgery just to make myself feel better. 1437 01:17:01,350 --> 01:17:02,840 I started off with my boobs. 1438 01:17:03,619 --> 01:17:05,883 I did three nose jobs. 1439 01:17:05,954 --> 01:17:09,720 Another reason for the bigger boobs and the different me 1440 01:17:09,791 --> 01:17:13,887 was because the fetishes were generally, like, me being underage. 1441 01:17:13,962 --> 01:17:17,762 It's rare for a grown adult just like me, a woman, 1442 01:17:17,833 --> 01:17:20,962 to have the body of, like, a 14-year-old. 1443 01:17:21,036 --> 01:17:23,027 So, that was why it sold so much. 1444 01:17:23,105 --> 01:17:26,939 I've become this, like, new persona that I've created. Daveney. 1445 01:17:27,643 --> 01:17:30,010 That was like my way of like, kind of, finally growing up. 1446 01:17:30,078 --> 01:17:31,773 [coughs] Speaking of... 1447 01:17:31,847 --> 01:17:33,212 [sighs] 1448 01:17:33,281 --> 01:17:35,215 The morning sickness. [chuckles] 1449 01:17:35,283 --> 01:17:37,274 Whew, okay, um... 1450 01:17:38,020 --> 01:17:39,749 I'm actually pregnant now. [chuckles] 1451 01:17:40,155 --> 01:17:41,850 Uh, it's my 11th time. 1452 01:17:43,058 --> 01:17:46,323 I think it's a good time, so I'm deciding to go through with it. 1453 01:17:46,962 --> 01:17:49,829 And I just decided that on Sunday. 1454 01:17:49,898 --> 01:17:51,889 Yesterday. [laughs] 1455 01:17:51,967 --> 01:17:52,866 Yeah. 1456 01:18:03,445 --> 01:18:07,712 [Cathy] Immediately after Brazil, I was never comfortable financially. 1457 01:18:09,284 --> 01:18:12,447 I was just thinking, "How do I pick up normal life, 1458 01:18:12,721 --> 01:18:16,021 keep them in school, and find ways to pay off this debt?" 1459 01:18:16,091 --> 01:18:17,388 [Lauren] And were you working full-time 1460 01:18:17,459 --> 01:18:19,257 - as a bus driver that whole time? - Yes, yes. 1461 01:18:19,327 --> 01:18:21,796 So, why didn't you have enough money if you had a full-time job? 1462 01:18:21,863 --> 01:18:23,092 Because they don't pay! 1463 01:18:24,366 --> 01:18:28,701 Money, dollars, dinero, is what it takes. 1464 01:18:29,171 --> 01:18:30,366 [sighs] 1465 01:18:31,139 --> 01:18:34,302 [Cathy] My parents supplemented some of my monthly budget. 1466 01:18:34,376 --> 01:18:36,208 And after I'd had the surgery... 1467 01:18:37,813 --> 01:18:41,078 I couldn't have asked them to keep paying for how we live, 1468 01:18:41,149 --> 01:18:43,481 when I went and got this thing which could seem to be a luxury. 1469 01:18:44,486 --> 01:18:46,181 [Lauren] And how long did you live in the car? 1470 01:18:46,254 --> 01:18:48,245 [Cathy] I can't even count how long. 1471 01:18:48,323 --> 01:18:50,792 You don't tally ii along the way. You will go crazy. 1472 01:18:51,326 --> 01:18:53,317 My mother had wanted custody. 1473 01:18:53,395 --> 01:18:55,887 She knew that I couldn't pay my rent in 2008. 1474 01:18:56,264 --> 01:18:58,164 And I never wanted to surrender my children, 1475 01:18:58,233 --> 01:19:00,429 but I didn't have enough money to keep them. 1476 01:19:03,338 --> 01:19:06,968 I know that if I had gotten my crap together with more money... 1477 01:19:08,143 --> 01:19:09,269 she wouldn't be dead. 1478 01:19:09,911 --> 01:19:12,846 She wasn't just a self-destructive girl. She was a good child. 1479 01:19:13,515 --> 01:19:16,348 And sometimes, I think, "Oh, Jaz wants to come visit..." 1480 01:19:16,418 --> 01:19:18,386 [inhales] ...for a minute. 1481 01:19:25,127 --> 01:19:27,061 [Cathy] It's in my CD changer in the car. 1482 01:19:27,129 --> 01:19:29,461 Sometimes I'll forget or get distracted, 1483 01:19:29,531 --> 01:19:33,331 and the CD will tum over and I hear the 911 call. 1484 01:19:35,837 --> 01:19:38,101 [911 operator] Fairfax County 911, where is your emergency? 1485 01:19:38,440 --> 01:19:42,809 [grandfather] My emergency, uh, my granddaughter, she was drunk. 1486 01:19:42,878 --> 01:19:44,846 I was taking her home, she... 1487 01:19:44,913 --> 01:19:47,109 I was probably going about 30 miles an hour, 1488 01:19:47,182 --> 01:19:48,479 and she jumped out of the back seat 1489 01:19:48,550 --> 01:19:50,245 She opened the door, she... 1490 01:19:50,318 --> 01:19:53,549 [Cathy] The same place I birthed her was the same place I saw her die. 1491 01:19:53,822 --> 01:19:55,813 [cardiac monitor beeping] 1492 01:19:57,225 --> 01:20:00,490 [Cathy] They had just removed the ventilator, 1493 01:20:01,263 --> 01:20:02,560 and I could sit with her. 1494 01:20:03,298 --> 01:20:04,925 I told her I'm sorry. 1495 01:20:06,001 --> 01:20:09,494 I apologized. I told her I was sorry that I couldn't protect her more. 1496 01:20:13,275 --> 01:20:14,936 And I had to go on living. 1497 01:20:15,010 --> 01:20:17,342 [somber music] 1498 01:20:19,414 --> 01:20:20,540 [lighter clicks] 1499 01:20:23,151 --> 01:20:25,586 [Florian] I remember a long time ago, 1500 01:20:26,521 --> 01:20:30,287 my wife and I, we were in the most posh harbor 1501 01:20:30,358 --> 01:20:33,020 in the Balearic Islands, in the Mediterranean. 1502 01:20:33,829 --> 01:20:37,197 And there were plenty of boats, 30, 40, 50 million, some of them for sale. 1503 01:20:37,999 --> 01:20:40,093 And then we sat down for dinner, and I said, 1504 01:20:40,168 --> 01:20:42,865 "This one, this one, or this one?" 1505 01:20:46,208 --> 01:20:48,006 [sniffles] 1506 01:20:51,880 --> 01:20:53,211 That... [sobs] 1507 01:20:53,915 --> 01:20:55,246 That woman said... 1508 01:20:56,318 --> 01:20:57,615 "Turn off your phone. 1509 01:20:58,620 --> 01:21:01,214 That's all I want. A nice dinner." 1510 01:21:04,159 --> 01:21:05,217 [exhales] 1511 01:21:06,127 --> 01:21:09,586 And it takes a long trip... 1512 01:21:11,900 --> 01:21:15,029 to come back to what matters. 1513 01:21:15,370 --> 01:21:16,496 The other stuff... 1514 01:21:19,875 --> 01:21:22,867 is a delusion. It's a... It's a bullshit game. 1515 01:21:24,546 --> 01:21:27,072 [gloomy music] 1516 01:21:31,019 --> 01:21:34,478 [Florian] All of us are following a toxic dream. 1517 01:21:36,057 --> 01:21:40,324 What you're sold in this world, 1518 01:21:40,395 --> 01:21:42,989 is a bag of rotten goods. 1519 01:21:48,403 --> 01:21:50,929 [somber music] 1520 01:21:58,446 --> 01:22:01,347 [Chris] At the end of a decayed culture... 1521 01:22:03,218 --> 01:22:07,451 we retreat into our own comforting illusions. 1522 01:22:07,923 --> 01:22:09,118 [indistinct chatter] 1523 01:22:10,158 --> 01:22:12,320 [ominous music] 1524 01:22:13,528 --> 01:22:14,552 [camera shutter clicks] 1525 01:22:15,497 --> 01:22:20,401 [Chris] We build walls to cope with the reality around us. 1526 01:22:21,369 --> 01:22:24,304 It's not about me, it's about you, believe me. 1527 01:22:24,372 --> 01:22:25,999 [crowd cheering] 1528 01:22:26,574 --> 01:22:30,636 [Lil Magic] People have a hard time separating reality from entertainment. 1529 01:22:31,279 --> 01:22:33,338 You know, because there is a line. 1530 01:22:33,415 --> 01:22:35,941 There's... It's a thick line, it's not a thin one. 1531 01:22:36,017 --> 01:22:37,951 [applause] 1532 01:22:38,019 --> 01:22:40,511 [Chris] Corporate capitalism pushes people 1533 01:22:40,588 --> 01:22:45,583 towards this constant search for the next adrenaline rush. 1534 01:22:46,695 --> 01:22:49,562 People seek that momentary ecstasy 1535 01:22:49,631 --> 01:22:52,464 to escape from a darker and darker reality. 1536 01:22:52,534 --> 01:22:54,332 The population is diverted. 1537 01:22:55,036 --> 01:22:58,666 Sexual hedonism predominates throughout the society. 1538 01:22:59,741 --> 01:23:01,675 We are dying in the same way 1539 01:23:01,743 --> 01:23:04,007 that other empires have died throughout history. 1540 01:23:04,079 --> 01:23:05,103 [gunfire] 1541 01:23:05,180 --> 01:23:06,545 - [Chris] The difference... - Whoo! 1542 01:23:06,614 --> 01:23:08,742 is that this time, when we go down, 1543 01:23:09,017 --> 01:23:10,451 the whole planet's gonna go with us. 1544 01:23:11,553 --> 01:23:13,248 [swans honking] 1545 01:23:20,295 --> 01:23:22,627 [Valbj�rn] 1546 01:23:59,667 --> 01:24:01,533 - [boy] Oh! - [Valbj�rn laughs] 1547 01:24:02,504 --> 01:24:04,404 [Valbj�rn] 1548 01:24:04,672 --> 01:24:06,071 [boy speaking Icelandic] 1549 01:24:06,441 --> 01:24:08,136 [indistinct chatter] 1550 01:24:08,209 --> 01:24:09,438 [Valbj�rn speaking Icelandic] 1551 01:24:10,178 --> 01:24:11,475 [boy speaking Icelandic] 1552 01:24:12,380 --> 01:24:14,747 [both speaking Icelandic] 1553 01:24:14,816 --> 01:24:16,750 [boy speaking Icelandic] 1554 01:24:16,818 --> 01:24:18,183 [Valbj�rn speaking Icelandic] 1555 01:24:19,554 --> 01:24:22,524 [both speaking Icelandic] 1556 01:24:23,792 --> 01:24:26,557 [speaking Icelandic] 1557 01:24:30,298 --> 01:24:33,529 [Valbj�rn speaking English] 1558 01:24:40,241 --> 01:24:42,733 Dear Lord, thank you for this day. Thank you for everything you've given us. 1559 01:24:42,811 --> 01:24:44,336 Bless this food and bless this family. 1560 01:24:44,412 --> 01:24:46,471 - [Cliff] In Jesus' name. Amen. - [all] Amen. 1561 01:24:47,382 --> 01:24:51,410 [Lauren] When we talked in 1995, you predicted you would be a millionaire. 1562 01:24:51,486 --> 01:24:53,420 [Cliff] I did. And you know what so funny? 1563 01:24:53,488 --> 01:24:55,684 When we were gonna do this, I was like "Man, you know what? 1564 01:24:55,757 --> 01:24:57,589 [snaps finger] I told her... 1565 01:24:57,659 --> 01:25:00,253 [laughs] I was gonna have 20 million dollars, 1566 01:25:00,328 --> 01:25:02,558 uh, on-hand cash, 1567 01:25:02,630 --> 01:25:04,689 and another 100 million dollars in the bank." 1568 01:25:04,766 --> 01:25:06,097 [Lauren] So, did it happen? 1569 01:25:06,734 --> 01:25:09,795 Uh, no. Not, not at this moment. 1570 01:25:09,871 --> 01:25:12,841 I believe that the dream, it's different now. 1571 01:25:14,642 --> 01:25:19,102 [Cliff] Success is showing my children what a strong father looks like, 1572 01:25:19,180 --> 01:25:21,308 what a work ethic looks like. 1573 01:25:22,150 --> 01:25:23,811 He taught me that just 'cause you have money 1574 01:25:23,885 --> 01:25:26,377 doesn't mean you're, like, all that. 1575 01:25:26,454 --> 01:25:29,617 A nice watch or a nice car isn't gonna get you to college. 1576 01:25:29,691 --> 01:25:31,591 It's what you know, not what you have. 1577 01:25:32,660 --> 01:25:37,257 [Cliff] My daughter, she got a full-ride scholarship to Cornell University. 1578 01:25:37,332 --> 01:25:38,561 She's a genius. 1579 01:25:38,633 --> 01:25:40,533 I have the big red Cornell sweater right now. 1580 01:25:40,602 --> 01:25:42,798 I wear it every day. I wear it around the house. 1581 01:25:42,871 --> 01:25:46,239 I would love to see all of them go to college. 1582 01:25:46,641 --> 01:25:48,405 That's the true American Dream. 1583 01:25:52,914 --> 01:25:55,178 [Kacey] I wanted to come back home to Oregon, 1584 01:25:55,250 --> 01:25:57,446 so I can make amends with my family, 1585 01:25:57,519 --> 01:25:59,749 and go through with the pregnancy. 1586 01:25:59,821 --> 01:26:02,813 But I lost, I lost the child, and... 1587 01:26:03,424 --> 01:26:06,621 you know, it's really hard to kind of bounce back from that. 1588 01:26:06,694 --> 01:26:09,356 This whole year, I've definitely felt myself 1589 01:26:09,430 --> 01:26:12,627 wanting to stop and change, change a career path. 1590 01:26:12,700 --> 01:26:17,262 I, uh, work at Tan Republic, which is the job that I had at 14. 1591 01:26:17,338 --> 01:26:18,328 [indistinct chatter] 1592 01:26:18,406 --> 01:26:20,636 [Kacey] It's very difficult going back to minimum wage 1593 01:26:20,708 --> 01:26:23,268 from what I've made these past eight, nine years. 1594 01:26:24,879 --> 01:26:26,574 There was a couple overdoses, 1595 01:26:26,648 --> 01:26:29,549 and I had over a million dollars in medical bills. 1596 01:26:30,485 --> 01:26:33,284 I declared bankruptcy just to start over fresh. 1597 01:26:35,857 --> 01:26:39,350 Now, anything porn or complete nudity, 1598 01:26:39,427 --> 01:26:40,917 I'm completely retired from that. 1599 01:26:42,630 --> 01:26:44,496 I really wanted to be me again. 1600 01:26:45,233 --> 01:26:47,395 I thought maybe Courtney was lost 1601 01:26:47,468 --> 01:26:52,668 amongst all the previous scandals and my films. 1602 01:26:53,408 --> 01:26:55,604 And I feel like finally, once again... 1603 01:26:56,911 --> 01:27:00,973 I can really, really start off with being Courtney again. 1604 01:27:04,819 --> 01:27:06,514 [cows mooing] 1605 01:27:07,922 --> 01:27:09,754 [Mickie] On any journey, 1606 01:27:09,824 --> 01:27:12,657 you sometimes have to go back and find your roots, 1607 01:27:12,727 --> 01:27:16,220 and that's kinda what we've done the last two years. 1608 01:27:16,297 --> 01:27:17,822 It was time to take a break. 1609 01:27:17,899 --> 01:27:18,957 [dog barking] 1610 01:27:20,969 --> 01:27:24,769 We aren't, like, doing that reality TV show. 1611 01:27:24,839 --> 01:27:25,897 We're just... 1612 01:27:26,708 --> 01:27:27,937 being normal right now. 1613 01:27:29,510 --> 01:27:33,242 [Mickie] Eden had been a winner in everything she's ever done, 1614 01:27:33,314 --> 01:27:35,612 and I feel like the door just went... [imitates swishing] 1615 01:27:35,683 --> 01:27:37,014 It was a new scenario, 1616 01:27:37,285 --> 01:27:39,617 because up until that point, it had been just... 1617 01:27:39,687 --> 01:27:41,246 [snapping] 1618 01:27:42,757 --> 01:27:46,250 [Mickie] You've got this child that is extremely talented. 1619 01:27:46,327 --> 01:27:47,453 [whines] 1620 01:27:47,528 --> 01:27:49,428 But you're so hungry for it, 1621 01:27:49,497 --> 01:27:54,367 you're blinded by that proverbial carrot that's dangled out there. 1622 01:27:55,470 --> 01:27:56,699 You're just a commodity. 1623 01:27:57,472 --> 01:27:59,873 It's what the American people want to see. 1624 01:27:59,941 --> 01:28:02,410 They get off work, they want to turn that clicker on, 1625 01:28:02,477 --> 01:28:05,708 and, you know, "Oh, ooh." You know, whatever. 1626 01:28:05,780 --> 01:28:07,714 I didn't like who I had become. 1627 01:28:07,782 --> 01:28:12,583 I didn't like that other people had been able to accomplish 1628 01:28:12,654 --> 01:28:17,057 ugly things through me in Eden's life. 1629 01:28:20,695 --> 01:28:22,754 - [camera shutter clicks] - [Mickie] I mean, major mistakes. 1630 01:28:23,731 --> 01:28:26,359 Would I do it all again? I think I would. 1631 01:28:26,434 --> 01:28:27,333 I think I would. 1632 01:28:27,402 --> 01:28:29,530 I really don't even have to think about it, 1633 01:28:29,604 --> 01:28:34,770 because I wouldn't have had the awakening and the knowledge any other way. 1634 01:28:39,614 --> 01:28:43,744 [Florian] I was imprisoned for 15 months without a trial. 1635 01:28:45,653 --> 01:28:47,052 And they let me go! 1636 01:28:48,656 --> 01:28:50,317 [Conrad] He's the luckiest man in the world. 1637 01:28:50,391 --> 01:28:54,555 He avoided getting extradited, and facing a 20 or 25-year criminal sentence. 1638 01:28:54,929 --> 01:28:59,890 [Florian] They put me on the list with the likes of Osama bin Laden. 1639 01:29:00,835 --> 01:29:03,702 It was a global arrest warrant. 1640 01:29:07,608 --> 01:29:10,475 But I'm completely legally here in Germany, 1641 01:29:10,545 --> 01:29:13,776 and I cannot be extradited by the Americans. 1642 01:29:14,682 --> 01:29:18,619 So, I'm living in a very big, beautiful prison called Germany. 1643 01:29:20,888 --> 01:29:22,378 If you think... 1644 01:29:23,358 --> 01:29:26,350 that money will buy you 1645 01:29:27,028 --> 01:29:28,757 anything and everything... 1646 01:29:30,098 --> 01:29:33,033 you've never, ever, ever had money. 1647 01:29:34,369 --> 01:29:39,603 Because I can't buy that smile on my daughter's and my son's face, 1648 01:29:39,674 --> 01:29:44,475 and I can't buy the love in bed of my wife. 1649 01:29:46,013 --> 01:29:47,139 I can't. 1650 01:29:48,082 --> 01:29:50,483 [Lauren] You think he learned a lesson from being in jail? 1651 01:29:52,086 --> 01:29:54,453 [sighs] 1652 01:29:55,790 --> 01:29:57,849 I feel like a lot of his regrets 1653 01:29:57,925 --> 01:30:00,724 are that he kept pushing it to the point where he fell, 1654 01:30:00,795 --> 01:30:03,890 and he just wishes that he had not fallen. 1655 01:30:04,932 --> 01:30:06,866 Yeah. That's... [chuckles] 1656 01:30:06,934 --> 01:30:10,131 I'm still, I'm still not sure how I feel about everything regarding my father. 1657 01:30:13,975 --> 01:30:15,773 [Jennifer] Three days after the birth, I went home, 1658 01:30:15,843 --> 01:30:18,972 but, um, Suzanne was there for almost two months. 1659 01:30:20,915 --> 01:30:23,077 She was very tiny, um... 1660 01:30:24,919 --> 01:30:26,182 She did really well, though. 1661 01:30:27,455 --> 01:30:28,786 [Suzanne] I got the prize. 1662 01:30:30,425 --> 01:30:33,190 You know, she's here, and she's happy, and healthy, and smiling, 1663 01:30:33,461 --> 01:30:36,590 and, you know, a terrific little kid. And I... 1664 01:30:37,031 --> 01:30:39,864 So it doesn't matter anymore how I got here, I'm here. 1665 01:30:41,769 --> 01:30:45,535 That experience changed me so dramatically. 1666 01:30:46,107 --> 01:30:49,099 But my ex-husband left six weeks after I brought her home from the hospital. 1667 01:30:50,445 --> 01:30:53,210 I mean, he's now with somebody 40 years younger than he is. 1668 01:30:53,481 --> 01:30:55,973 You know, I don't... I don't know how you can be 70 1669 01:30:56,050 --> 01:30:57,745 married to a 30-year-old. 1670 01:30:59,720 --> 01:31:01,814 [Suzanne] Nope, that's backwards. You got to put it forwards. 1671 01:31:01,889 --> 01:31:03,084 Remember? Move the lever. 1672 01:31:03,157 --> 01:31:05,751 - All right, now try. - Watch out, guys! 1673 01:31:05,827 --> 01:31:08,524 I think she knows not to touch the art. 1674 01:31:09,163 --> 01:31:10,597 Uh, wait. Stop! 1675 01:31:10,665 --> 01:31:12,599 [toy engine revving] 1676 01:31:14,702 --> 01:31:16,534 [Lauren] Have your priorities changed? 1677 01:31:16,604 --> 01:31:17,935 [Suzanne] Yeah, there's no question. 1678 01:31:19,674 --> 01:31:21,108 Okay, off we go. 1679 01:31:21,175 --> 01:31:23,473 How I spend money. Right? 1680 01:31:23,544 --> 01:31:25,876 A lot less art, a lot more ballet, or... 1681 01:31:25,947 --> 01:31:29,144 - piano, or... - [man #3] High five. Thank you. 1682 01:31:29,217 --> 01:31:31,549 front row tickets to the Gazillion Bubbles Show. 1683 01:31:31,619 --> 01:31:34,884 I am not working as hard as I have over the years. 1684 01:31:34,956 --> 01:31:36,788 You know, I take Sydney Bea to school every day, 1685 01:31:36,858 --> 01:31:38,724 I pick her up, um.. 1686 01:31:38,793 --> 01:31:40,522 In fact, the activities I don't take her to 1687 01:31:40,595 --> 01:31:42,586 is just where there's no value added to me being there. 1688 01:31:43,197 --> 01:31:46,690 [Lauren] And how are your priorities different than your mother's? 1689 01:31:51,105 --> 01:31:53,096 I don't know that I can answer that question. 1690 01:31:55,142 --> 01:31:56,610 I... 1691 01:31:56,677 --> 01:31:58,941 The last real contact I had with my mother, I was... 1692 01:32:00,014 --> 01:32:01,209 22 years old. 1693 01:32:02,750 --> 01:32:04,582 So even if I knew, I don't think I would know. 1694 01:32:04,652 --> 01:32:05,983 I mean, what do you know at 22? 1695 01:32:06,954 --> 01:32:09,685 [Lauren] And did you resolve with her before she passed away? 1696 01:32:09,757 --> 01:32:10,656 No. 1697 01:32:13,294 --> 01:32:15,285 [somber music] 1698 01:32:16,063 --> 01:32:17,121 [smacks lips] 1699 01:32:17,198 --> 01:32:19,690 - Delicious. - [Sydney] I'm feeding you, Mommy. 1700 01:32:22,603 --> 01:32:25,800 [Lauren] Do you have any regrets about how you raised your children? 1701 01:32:27,108 --> 01:32:29,736 [chuckles] About how I raised my children? 1702 01:32:36,951 --> 01:32:38,783 That's a really hard question. 1703 01:32:38,853 --> 01:32:40,651 [camera shutter clicks] 1704 01:32:50,197 --> 01:32:52,188 [laughs] 1705 01:32:53,167 --> 01:32:56,330 I wish I had known you'd felt abandoned sooner, 1706 01:32:56,938 --> 01:32:59,930 'cause I think that we could've talked about it, 1707 01:33:00,007 --> 01:33:03,602 opened, opened up that conversation, and it would've... 1708 01:33:03,678 --> 01:33:07,171 uh, it would've improved our relationship earlier, 1709 01:33:07,248 --> 01:33:12,084 so you didn't have that, sort of, inside you all the time. 1710 01:33:16,223 --> 01:33:18,885 - [Lauren] Thanks, Mom. - [laughs] 1711 01:33:21,996 --> 01:33:23,122 [Lauren] Um.. 1712 01:33:23,931 --> 01:33:25,729 Better than doing it at my funeral. 1713 01:33:25,800 --> 01:33:28,292 [both laughing] 1714 01:33:31,672 --> 01:33:33,834 [tranquil music] 1715 01:33:34,976 --> 01:33:37,308 [Mijanou] Conscious parenting is about realizing 1716 01:33:37,378 --> 01:33:40,746 how your kids are teachers, they're like mirrors. 1717 01:33:40,815 --> 01:33:44,115 And a lot of times, they're here to spark things up, 1718 01:33:44,185 --> 01:33:46,153 you know, within you, 1719 01:33:46,220 --> 01:33:49,121 that, you know, you need to heal, or you need to work on. 1720 01:33:51,359 --> 01:33:53,225 I feel protective over her. 1721 01:33:54,161 --> 01:33:55,925 She's so beautiful, 1722 01:33:55,997 --> 01:33:59,729 and I don't want her to have to go through, 1723 01:33:59,800 --> 01:34:01,734 like, what I had to go through. 1724 01:34:03,104 --> 01:34:06,734 I think about that time and how even I used to dress, 1725 01:34:06,807 --> 01:34:08,241 and now I'm like, "Oh, my god!" 1726 01:34:08,309 --> 01:34:12,041 I would never, you know, want Sahiya to go out like that. 1727 01:34:13,114 --> 01:34:14,639 [thwacks, thumps] 1728 01:34:15,349 --> 01:34:18,114 [Mijanou] She doesn't watch TV. We don't have a TV in the house. 1729 01:34:18,185 --> 01:34:21,177 Cutting that out and just having her reality be 1730 01:34:21,255 --> 01:34:25,715 what she sees from her mom, or dad, or grandparents, 1731 01:34:26,260 --> 01:34:28,058 it's been amazing. 1732 01:34:29,263 --> 01:34:32,824 [laughs, talks indistinctly] 1733 01:34:34,402 --> 01:34:37,372 [Paris] I didn't get what I needed as a kid, 1734 01:34:37,438 --> 01:34:38,769 and I'm not mad about it anymore, 1735 01:34:38,839 --> 01:34:40,364 like, I've done a lot of work to get where I am. 1736 01:34:40,441 --> 01:34:41,875 It's just the hand that I was dealt, 1737 01:34:41,942 --> 01:34:46,971 and really, I just want to use that as ammo to be a good parent. 1738 01:34:47,048 --> 01:34:48,106 [baby cooing] 1739 01:34:49,116 --> 01:34:51,380 [Paris] Whatever causes good self-esteem 1740 01:34:51,452 --> 01:34:53,113 it's probably love, it's probably nurturing, 1741 01:34:53,187 --> 01:34:55,383 it's probably just being there, 1742 01:34:55,456 --> 01:34:58,426 and letting her know that she's perfect the way she is. 1743 01:34:59,093 --> 01:35:00,356 You are my favorite girl. 1744 01:35:00,995 --> 01:35:03,396 Giving her that feeling is my goal. 1745 01:35:04,331 --> 01:35:06,857 [tranquil music] 1746 01:35:12,039 --> 01:35:15,771 Little boo boo. Hello. 1747 01:35:16,744 --> 01:35:18,940 [Lauren] Oh, I miss having one like this. 1748 01:35:21,148 --> 01:35:23,947 [boy squealing] 1749 01:35:25,453 --> 01:35:28,354 Talk to Daddy, talk to Daddy. What do you want? 1750 01:35:28,422 --> 01:35:29,856 What does he want? 1751 01:35:29,924 --> 01:35:32,450 [Frank] So, later on, we can just dump this onto the computer? 1752 01:35:32,727 --> 01:35:34,957 Oh. Oh, yeah, so, um... 1753 01:35:35,029 --> 01:35:37,054 Lori, you're going to change the taxi to 4 a.m.? 1754 01:35:37,131 --> 01:35:39,065 - [Lori] I did for 4 a.m. - Okay. 1755 01:35:39,133 --> 01:35:40,862 You know we're leaving at 4 a.m., Frank? 1756 01:35:44,872 --> 01:35:46,203 [Lauren] 1757 01:35:46,741 --> 01:35:48,732 - [Gabriel] Yeah. - [Lauren] Just for a week. 1758 01:35:56,450 --> 01:35:58,418 - Bye, sweetheart. - Bye, Mommy. 1759 01:36:01,388 --> 01:36:03,254 - I love you. - Love you, too. 1760 01:36:04,825 --> 01:36:06,452 - Have a good trip. - Be good. 1761 01:36:07,061 --> 01:36:08,085 [Gabriel] I will. 1762 01:36:13,334 --> 01:36:15,860 [somber music] 1763 01:36:19,073 --> 01:36:20,905 [tone ringing] 1764 01:36:20,975 --> 01:36:22,534 - [Noah] Hey, Mom. - Hey, sweetheart. 1765 01:36:22,810 --> 01:36:24,801 [Lauren] I think your French is getting better than nine. 1766 01:36:25,446 --> 01:36:28,279 - It was really well-written. - [Noah] Really? 1767 01:36:28,349 --> 01:36:31,011 Let me just look at it one more time. 1768 01:36:31,085 --> 01:36:32,849 Oh, I found a mistake. 1769 01:36:32,920 --> 01:36:35,912 You have "un cellule" and then you have "une cellule." 1770 01:36:36,390 --> 01:36:37,448 [Noah] Okay. 1771 01:36:37,892 --> 01:36:40,384 [Lauren] All right, well, you probably have a lot of work, I'll let you go. 1772 01:36:40,461 --> 01:36:41,553 You wanna see Manila? 1773 01:36:42,797 --> 01:36:44,424 Here, I'll just show you out the window. 1774 01:36:47,234 --> 01:36:49,498 - [Lauren] Can you see? - [Noah] Yeah, I can see. 1775 01:36:50,871 --> 01:36:52,270 It's very blurry. 1776 01:36:52,339 --> 01:36:54,467 [car horns honking] 1777 01:36:55,543 --> 01:36:57,477 [Lauren] You see the streets a little bit? 1778 01:36:57,545 --> 01:36:59,013 [Noah] Yeah, it reminds me of China. 1779 01:37:00,347 --> 01:37:01,337 [Lauren] Yup. 1780 01:37:02,049 --> 01:37:04,211 [tranquil music] 1781 01:37:22,102 --> 01:37:24,093 [whirring] 1782 01:37:35,149 --> 01:37:37,174 Nice job! [chuckles] 1783 01:37:37,251 --> 01:37:38,343 [Lauren] Beautiful. 1784 01:37:42,489 --> 01:37:44,423 [Chris] Global capitalism has done 1785 01:37:44,491 --> 01:37:47,324 a very effective job of destroying culture. 1786 01:37:47,995 --> 01:37:50,987 That inability to hear the voices of the past, 1787 01:37:51,398 --> 01:37:53,992 to understand traditions, 1788 01:37:54,635 --> 01:37:58,902 makes it much harder for us to grasp who we are and where we came from. 1789 01:38:00,407 --> 01:38:03,638 Authentic culture holds up other values, 1790 01:38:04,278 --> 01:38:08,613 forces us to be self-critical, to look at ourselves. 1791 01:38:15,990 --> 01:38:17,048 [clanks] 1792 01:38:17,591 --> 01:38:21,255 [Lauren] So, this project, like, it goes back for me 25 years. 1793 01:38:21,328 --> 01:38:23,922 Can you imagine where you'll be in 25 years? 1794 01:38:24,431 --> 01:38:27,162 Could you imagine where you would be 25 years ago? 1795 01:38:28,102 --> 01:38:29,934 - No. - Yeah, I don't think I could, either. 1796 01:38:30,504 --> 01:38:33,530 [Lauren] Except for dreaming of you and Gabriel. 1797 01:38:37,411 --> 01:38:39,573 [somber music] 1798 01:38:41,315 --> 01:38:43,477 [indistinct chatter] 1799 01:38:45,586 --> 01:38:48,453 [cheers and applause] 1800 01:38:53,160 --> 01:38:55,254 [Lauren] So this is our 30-year anniversary. 1801 01:38:55,329 --> 01:38:57,058 I want to make a toast to Frank, 1802 01:38:58,098 --> 01:38:59,429 the love of my life, 1803 01:39:00,467 --> 01:39:03,664 who I can't imagine or remember a life without, 1804 01:39:03,938 --> 01:39:07,033 and sometimes, don't even know where you end and I begin. 1805 01:39:07,508 --> 01:39:08,976 For me and the kids, 1806 01:39:09,043 --> 01:39:12,445 Dad is the secret sauce that makes everything possible, 1807 01:39:12,513 --> 01:39:16,108 who pushes us relentlessly to make our dreams come true. 1808 01:39:18,052 --> 01:39:20,077 - [indistinct chatter] - [Frank] I'm filming the whole thing. 1809 01:39:20,154 --> 01:39:21,019 Oh! 1810 01:39:23,190 --> 01:39:24,282 [Frank] Keep going. 1811 01:39:31,532 --> 01:39:33,261 The proud Papa. 1812 01:39:33,334 --> 01:39:36,201 [Sheldon] I'm always surprised by the good things that you do. 1813 01:39:36,270 --> 01:39:39,171 But it's at an extraordinary price. 1814 01:39:39,239 --> 01:39:40,138 Effort. 1815 01:39:40,507 --> 01:39:42,305 You're determined to spend time with family 1816 01:39:42,376 --> 01:39:43,969 and make sure that happens. 1817 01:39:44,611 --> 01:39:46,136 But you're all over the place. 1818 01:39:47,047 --> 01:39:49,607 I realize there's no perfect balance. 1819 01:39:49,683 --> 01:39:51,082 Nobody has it. 1820 01:39:52,619 --> 01:39:56,078 But sometimes, I think you are pushing a little bit too hard. 1821 01:39:56,724 --> 01:39:58,590 For the long run, not for the short run. 1822 01:40:00,494 --> 01:40:02,053 The work you're doing this time, 1823 01:40:02,129 --> 01:40:04,461 like, fascinates me more than any other work, 'cause... 1824 01:40:05,566 --> 01:40:10,629 it's kinda like everything about wealth, like, 25 years of wealth, 1825 01:40:10,704 --> 01:40:15,574 like the good stuff, like the bad stuff, like the poor people, the rich people, 1826 01:40:15,642 --> 01:40:17,736 like the happy people, the sad people. 1827 01:40:18,579 --> 01:40:20,308 Like, I think that's cool. 1828 01:40:22,383 --> 01:40:24,477 - Yeah. - [Lauren] Thanks, Noah. 1829 01:40:26,120 --> 01:40:28,384 [laughs] 1830 01:40:29,757 --> 01:40:30,781 [grunts] 1831 01:40:32,793 --> 01:40:34,693 - Ta-da! - [laughs] 1832 01:40:35,229 --> 01:40:38,324 [Lauren] It's dedicated to you and Noah. 1833 01:40:41,735 --> 01:40:44,136 - You've come a long way. - [laughs] 1834 01:40:48,175 --> 01:40:50,143 - Just get my hair proper. - Braden, you come here. 1835 01:40:50,210 --> 01:40:51,609 - Can you hold this with one hand? - Yeah. 1836 01:40:51,678 --> 01:40:52,668 [Lauren] Okay. Go for it. 1837 01:40:52,746 --> 01:40:53,770 Okay, hold on. 1838 01:40:54,048 --> 01:40:56,380 [grunts] Right, this way or that way? 1839 01:40:57,618 --> 01:41:00,553 [Lauren] It's kind of ironic that I've chosen to raise my kids 1840 01:41:00,621 --> 01:41:03,113 in the exact same world that I grew up in. 1841 01:41:03,190 --> 01:41:06,751 Same neighborhood, same school, same pressures. 1842 01:41:07,661 --> 01:41:11,222 And even though I can deconstruct the culture in my work, 1843 01:41:11,298 --> 01:41:13,790 I'm still susceptible to its influence. 1844 01:41:15,536 --> 01:41:18,403 It's just who I am. It's not like I can really stop. 1845 01:41:24,645 --> 01:41:26,579 I am in constant motion. 1846 01:41:27,414 --> 01:41:29,405 And I live with the consequences. 1847 01:41:30,350 --> 01:41:34,719 But it's also one of the things I love that gives my life meaning. 1848 01:41:37,658 --> 01:41:39,820 [tranquil music] 1849 01:41:42,796 --> 01:41:44,423 Not much has changed. 1850 01:41:47,701 --> 01:41:49,760 - [Paris] Rock star, right there. - [laughter] 1851 01:41:49,837 --> 01:41:51,737 [Paris] Just passin' a joint around, you know. 1852 01:41:52,539 --> 01:41:57,340 [gasps] Oh. Ver... Versace.. 1853 01:41:58,312 --> 01:41:59,438 Wow. 1854 01:42:04,785 --> 01:42:07,447 Oh, my god. That's me. 1855 01:42:09,189 --> 01:42:12,750 Yeah, this is my very first interview I ever did. 1856 01:42:14,628 --> 01:42:17,723 [Kacey in recorded voice] My very first interview I ever did. 1857 01:42:23,537 --> 01:42:25,369 [Cliff] Yeah, that was my life back then. 1858 01:42:26,273 --> 01:42:27,240 Huh. 1859 01:42:28,909 --> 01:42:31,344 The thoughts of a child, really. 1860 01:42:31,411 --> 01:42:33,675 [chuckles] Really. Yeah, mm-hm. 1861 01:42:35,582 --> 01:42:36,640 That's deep. 1862 01:42:40,187 --> 01:42:42,451 "When I was leaving Kansas City, I told my mom, 1863 01:42:42,523 --> 01:42:45,515 'One day, you're going to see me walk a red carpet. 1864 01:42:46,894 --> 01:42:51,422 I have lived on private jets, Cristal-flowing nights, 1865 01:42:51,865 --> 01:42:55,460 and I have partied with rock stars, and celebrities, and actors. 1866 01:42:56,270 --> 01:42:57,738 But you know what they say... 1867 01:42:58,605 --> 01:43:00,403 "Be careful what you wish for." 1868 01:43:01,875 --> 01:43:03,866 [dramatic music] 1869 01:43:05,846 --> 01:43:07,837 [tranquil music] 154998

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