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[quirky music]
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[woman #1] Dol... Dolsee.
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- Dolcee.
- Dolce.
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[woman #1] Dolce.
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Dolce and Gabbana.
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[Sara] Yeah. Dolce.
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Louis Vuitton.
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[woman #1] Louis Vuitton.
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[woman speaking Chinese]
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Louis Vuitton.
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[woman #1] Louis Vuitton.
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[quirky music]
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Mm.
[inhales]
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[exhales]
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There wasn't a toy I couldn't buy.
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There wasn't a boat I couldn't buy,
there wasn't a plane I couldn't buy.
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There was nothing I couldn't buy.
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I love money.
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Come to me.
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[quirky music]
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[camera shutter clicks]
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[Lauren] Eden, what do you wanna do
for the beauty pageants?
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What do you want to win? What's your goal?
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Money.
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Money, money, money.
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I would have money as big as this room.
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[Lauren] Wham do you wanna do
with that money, Eden?
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Spend it all.
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And kiss it.
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[dreamy music]
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I do believe it's un-American
to say you can make too much money.
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I mean, the Federalist Papers say,
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if I wanna work a hundred hours a week,
and never see my family,
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and die at an early age...
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that's my prerogative.
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[foreboding music]
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[camera shutter clicks]
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[Lauren] What were you doing in Dubai?
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[Lauren laughs]
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[DJ Esco] You wanna throw money.
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You want people to look at you.
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It's power, money power.
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Tonight, we're not even worried
about tomorrow.
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Fuck it.
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[laughs]
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[Chris] It's kinda like the end of Rome.
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I mean, the pyramids were built
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at the moment
of precipitous Egyptian decline.
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And that's what always happens.
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Societies accrue their greatest wealth...
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at the moment that they face death.
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[dramatic music]
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[soft piano music]
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[slide selector clicking]
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[Lauren] I've been a photographer
for 25 years.
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With my lens focused on wealth,
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and the excesses of our culture.
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The scale of the excess became clear
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when I documented the family
building the largest house in America.
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[camera shutter clicks]
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I noticed that no mater
how much people had,
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they still wanted more.
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I wondered if the hundreds
of individual stories
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I had shot about money,
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fame,
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sex,
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body image,
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even plastic surgery for dogs,
were all connected,
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and what they said about us.
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To understand what it all added up to,
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in 2008, I began working on a book
and exhibition about wealth.
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It would take me back to my earliest work.
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In 1991, I was just starting out
as a photojournalist.
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[children laughing]
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I had studied visual anthropology
in college,
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and landed my first assignment
with National Geographic,
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photographing a Maya Indian village
in Chiapas, Mexico.
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My mom was a professor of psychology
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and had been doing research there
20 years before.
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So, we worked together on the project.
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[speaking Tzotzil]
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[Lauren] My mother spoke the language
and was at home there.
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But I struggled to understand the culture
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and found it really hard
to be accepted into people's lives.
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After we had spent months in the field,
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National Geographic killed the story.
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I was devastated.
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I almost quit photography.
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My boyfriend sew! me a tape
to encourage me.
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[Frank] Hey, Lauren, Frank here.
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I just got your letters today.
I really, really miss you.
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Go out and do your photography
and be aggressive.
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The more you put yourself
into this kind of work,
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you're gonna end up confident
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about looking for jobs
and everything else.
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So, please, work hard, okay?
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[Lauren] Frank helped me see
that I shouldn't give up.
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And that I needed to find a story
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where I had a deeper connection
to the subject.
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I happened to find an old copy
of Bret Easton Ellie's Less Than Zero.
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The fictional world he depicted
of jaded excess and too much money
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resonated with what I remembered
growing up in L.A.
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I started thinking about my own culture
In almost anthropological terms,
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and realized I wanted
to go home and explore it.
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- [typewriter clacking]
- [Lauren] L.A. Diary, March 4, 1992.
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My photography will concentrate
on the social rituals of teenage life.
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I want to photograph Senior Ditch Day,
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extravagant parties
with walkie-talkie-equipped bouncers,
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girls in designer dresses
with hair professionally done,
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Mercedes and BMWs.
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One day, I was photographing
at my former high school,
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a private school in Santa Monica.
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- [Lauren] Here we go.
- [boy #1] Testing one, two, three.
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[boy #2] Oh, sorry.
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[Lauren] What do you think
about growing up in L.A.?
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These three boys said,
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"Growing up in L.A. is about money."
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And they pulled out dollar bills.
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And it wasn't until I processed the film
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that I realized they were holding up
hundred-dollar bills.
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And these were 13-year olds.
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[Adam] Money just ruins kids.
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It's ruined a lot of kids I know.
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On the first day of school,
Kate Hudson went,
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"I'm not gonna tell you who my mom is,
she's a big star.
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And my dad's a bigger star."
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It affects kids who I know, who you know,
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how rich you are, what your dad does,
what your mom does,
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what you have, what I have.
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That narcissism
that is so full-blown in the culture now
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was just beginning to rear its head
in that moment in L.A.
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[TV anchor] Photographer Lauren Greenfield
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has captured the lives
of some of Hollywood's children
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and displayed them in a new book titled
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Fast Forward:
Growing Up in the Shadow of Hollywood.
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Let's go to the young man
celebrating his Bar Mitzvah.
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[chuckling]
Uh, tell us about this.
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This doesn't look like
a religious rite to me.
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[Lauren] The family who had this party
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rented out the Whisky A Go-Go nightclub
on the Sunset Strip
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and brought in go-go girls
as entertainment for the kids.
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[TV anchor] Looking at all the pictures,
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I'm left with the real end
of the world quality,
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as though there is a kind of
ultra-decadence.
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These are the images of a society
in extraordinary decline.
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But I'm wondering
what you were looking for?
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[Lauren] I had no idea
what I was looking for then.
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But now, I saw a relationship
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between what I was covering
in the '90s in my first book,
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and where we found ourselves today.
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It made me want to figure out
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why our obsession with wealth
and status had grown,
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and why I felt compelled
to document it so relentlessly.
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So, I decided to go back
to the teen subjects from Los Angeles.
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- Hi!
- Hi!
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- [laughing]
- Holy shit.
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Oh, the '90s were crazy.
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[both laughing]
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They're inhaling air freshener
at nutrition break.
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[Paris] Nice.
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[Paris] That party
that you photographed me in
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was probably one
of the tamest parties I ever had.
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I mean, the shit I used to do.
[laughs]
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[upbeat drum music playing]
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[Paris] When I was born
was when he really started
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having some commercial success.
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which is good for him,
bad for a kid trying to be parented.
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You know, we got raised backstage
by a roadie.
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I could get away with murder
because my dad was on the road,
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my mom was preoccupied, and...
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how I got attention was by acting out
and by getting in trouble.
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And it really does take a village
to raise somebody.
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And I didn't get that I was more...
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I was raised on an island with a butler.
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[Lauren]
What do you think it is about L.A.
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that makes kids grow up fast?
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[Mijanou] It just seems like everyone's
in a rush to be an adult.
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They're losing their innocence
so young now.
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I hope to stay young forever.
I don't want to grow old.
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I think I was maybe 17 when we first met.
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Um, you came to my school,
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and you told us you were doing a project.
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We became friends,
and you started following me around.
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[laughs]
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[Mijanou] You know, you can look
from the outside and think,
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"Oh, her life is perfect,"
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or, "she's pretty
and she's homecoming queen,"
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and this and that, but you know...
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[Mijanou] My family struggled a lot,
with, like, financial problems,
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and these rich Beverly Hills kids
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can have anything their heart desires,
you know?
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That was one way I didn't fit in.
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It was kinda like a thing, like,
"You're pretty, so you can be our friend."
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[Mijanou] I was homecoming queen,
and I had best body.
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[Lauren and Mijanou laugh]
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[Lauren] That was what it was called?
Best body?
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[Mijanou]
Ah, well, it was the senior polls
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where I had the best physique, I guess.
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[Lauren and Mijanou laugh]
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So it was like you dressed
with, like, tight clothes,
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and trying to look sexy
in the way that the magazines say,
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or, like, toward the male gaze.
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[foreboding music]
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[Branden] Oh, my god,
look at that girl, Scotty.
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- [horn honking]
- Hop in!
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Chica!
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Mija was my girlfriend in 7th or 8th grade
in elementary school,
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- and...
- [Branden] And your hot Latina.
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[chuckles]
[Eddie] Well...
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With probably one of the best racks
in high school.
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- [laughs]
- It's not bad.
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Let's be honest here, Eddie.
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Hopefully, this is cut.
We don't wanna be disrespectful.
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I'm not being disrespectful.
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- It's the truth, Eddie.
- It is.
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[Eddie] Growing up here,
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we thought the entire world
revolved around us.
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I feel like I actually got pretty scarred
from that time.
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[Lauren]
And did any of that stay with you?
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Whatever things happened in high school
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is always what you're, like,
trying to heal from.
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[laughing]
Later on in life, you know?
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It really... You're so young
and impressionable,
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that I think those experiences
really shape you.
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[Lauren] When I was in high school,
I was really shy and a little insecure.
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And like most teenagers,
I felt like I didn't fit in.
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I picked up photography
to try to make sense of my world.
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[Sheldon] I mean, you went
to a, kind of, a fancy high school.
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Education was important,
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and it would cost a lot of money
to go there.
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We found a way to pay for it.
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But the values were not my own values.
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I think, you, like a normal girl
growing up in L.A.,
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suffered a little bit from it.
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You were trying to fit in
from the viewpoint of clothes,
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nice house,
a house you could bring people to.
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I think Crossroads made you anxious
about keeping up with the Joneses.
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[Patricia] The Brentwood parents
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were afraid to let their daughters come
and visit you in Venice
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because they thought it was too dangerous.
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[Sheldon] You actually, one time,
got out of the car
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a block away from Crossroads,
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so your friends wouldn't have to see
the cars that I was driving.
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[Lauren] I, I remember
not being able to buy,
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like, the clothes that everybody else had.
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Mm-hm.
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The things you didn't have
were the things that I didn't believe in.
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[Lauren] The fact that I had
everything I needed,
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and still didn't feel like I had enough
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made me want to figure out why,
in my work.
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- Who is this knocking on my door?
- Hey.
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- [both laugh]
- How you doin'?
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- You don't go by G-Mo anymore?
- You can still call me G-Mo.
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- [Lauren] Yeah?
- Yeah.
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["Ballin"' by G-Mo playing]
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# Baffin' #
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# Wanna roll on five rounds... #
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I came from a good family.
I came from a real...
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You know, my parents
worked hard every day.
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Very middle class, very much so.
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[Cliff] When I was in the sixth grade,
I went to public school.
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It was just, you know, same old shit.
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But in the 7th grade,
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I went to this real expensive school,
Crossroads.
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That's when I got my first good glimpse
of a lot of money,
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and I was like, "That's what I want."
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Black people aren't really
supposed to have stuff in America,
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but this rap thing is changing everything.
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# Every time I move
The guys downright sparkle #
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# Picking up my mail
Like the fools at Wells Fargo #
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[Cliff] Hollywood helped me out that day.
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Made my life like a movie.
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There's a scene where a girl
brought me a platter,
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with a 40 ounce on it.
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[Cliff] Everybody wants to have money,
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everybody wants to be surrounded
by beautiful women.
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Everyone wants to have the mansion.
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It's like the American Dream kinda stuff.
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# Baffin' #
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The dream, it was about you
seeing me doing it big.
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[Cliff] We kinda started laying
a blueprint back then.
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And it's been followed and followed,
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and now, that's almost standard fare.
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[Lauren] What G-MO noticed
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seemed to be a shift in the meaning
of the American Dream.
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It was almost like it had turned
into a quest for fame and fortune.
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And we had left behind the values
of hard work,
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frugality, and discretion
that had defined our parents' generation.
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[Lauren] Was your story
an American Dream story?
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Well, in many respects, it was.
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[Sheldon] Because my dad was an immigrant,
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and I started to achieve heights
that my parents couldn't even imagine.
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It was a period of upward mobility.
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[Lauren] And was it the American Dream
for your parents that you went to Harvard?
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[Sheldon] It was.
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My dad would say, "Yeah, my son, Shelly,
he goes to Harvard, Harvard, Harvard."
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He couldn't stop...
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He couldn't stop saying it.
[chuckles]
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My dad tried to instill ideals in me.
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And they... And many of them stuck.
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[Lauren] Like?
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Well, like, uh,
trying to do good in the world.
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[Sheldon] I think it was partly
the times, yes.
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I was still basking in the ethos
of the '60s and the '70s.
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The '80s started
to actually change things quite a bit.
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[raindrops pattering]
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- [Florian] Can I come in?
- [Lauren] Come in, come in, come in.
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Yeah.
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Oh, my god, so opulent.
Exactly not my world anymore.
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[chuckles]
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[Florian] The origin of all
this fascination with wealth
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is the US government itself,
spending way beyond their means.
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I'll try to keep this simple,
so I don't lose the, the viewer.
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In '71,
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America dropped off the gold standard.
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[Florian] That basically meant
the money in circulation
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was no longer backed by any assets.
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The '70s was the turning point.
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We began to borrow,
to maintain both a lifestyle
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and an empire we could no longer afford.
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[Chris] We shifted from an empire
of production
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to an empire of consumption.
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Abandonment of the gold standard
led to abandonment of fiscal discipline.
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[Florian] Print it like crazy,
make it like crazy.
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[Ronald Reagan] We cut
your tax rates by nearly 25%.
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America, go for it.
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The values of the Reagan '80s
really placed this emphasis on wealth.
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There was the idea
that you were better off
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driving a BMW and looking super hot.
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Now, if you look great
and you have a nice car,
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I'm all for it.
But at the expense of what?
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[Lauren] In the '80s,
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a lot of people I knew
were going into banking.
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And a lot them wanted to be
like this fictional character,
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Gordon Gekko.
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[Gordon] The point is,
ladies and gentlemen,
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that greed,
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for lack of a better word, is good.
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Greed is right.
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Greed works.
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I was definitely Gordon Gekko.
[chuckles]
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[Florian] My father told me,
"Well, the closer you are to the money,
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the more you will have."
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The lights went on,
and something triggered up there,
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and said, "Hmm.
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There must be a way to make so much money
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that you'd never look back."
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According to court statements,
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my wealth was,
at its peak, 600 million Euros,
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roughly 800 million dollars,
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plus or minus,
whatever the exchange rate is.
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[Lauren] For the sake of full disclosure,
how do we know each other?
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You were not even a senior.
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[Florian] And at the very beginning
of your filmmaking,
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I was attending Harvard Business School
at the time.
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[Lauren] Does Harvard Business School
teach you how to be a good person?
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[laughs]
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No, we're fine tuned to rule the world.
That's it.
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[Conrad] My dad was always, like,
a larger-than-life figure,
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casting, like, a huge shadow.
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And I wanted to be just like him
when I was a kid.
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- [Lauren] And what drove him?
- [Conrad sighs]
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He always, um..
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Wanted more, basically, in my opinion,
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more money, more power,
and more, um, fame/infamy.
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[Florian] I've been called psychopath,
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because I could get so detached,
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just thinking what is the best,
highest return.
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I am also in exile,
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and on the FBI Most Wanted list.
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That being as it is,
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if it had been around 300 years earlier,
I would have been a discoverer.
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But the most exciting thing
you could do in our generation
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was to be a tycoon.
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[Lauren] You have so much motivation
for your work.
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- What's your driver?
- The money.
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[Suzanne] My father worked on Wall Street,
so, definitely, it was in my blood.
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I mean, I'm 39 years old,
haven't had a family yet,
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um, haven't, uh, ever been married.
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I was working on my career,
so I wasn't focused on my personal life.
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I thought I could never be with anybody
who made less money than I did.
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Now I'm making a lot of money,
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so, you know, the field
has really narrowed, um, substantially.
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I've tried to build up a real net worth,
and I collect contemporary art.
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I mean, I have like a hundred pieces
of art in the collection.
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[tranquil music]
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[Trudy] That's good.
I like that with that stuff.
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- 'Cause this was a late edition.
- [Trudy] Yeah.
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- Do you like it better?
- We thought that was too posey.
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I think it's a little posey.
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- You think it's too posey?
- It's like Life Magazine.
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[Lauren] I brought in Trudy Wilner Stack,
a longtime collaborator,
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to help me look through and edit
the hundreds of thousands of pictures.
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Hi.
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- [Lauren] Clean person.
- [Trudy laughs]
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But you know what?
You have your big assembly tomorrow.
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- [stutters]
- [Gabriel] No, I don't.
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- Have you learned everything for it?
- Uh-huh.
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[Lauren] These two are from the bag party.
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What's a bag party?
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[quirky music]
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[woman #2] The day I went to buy
the Louis Vuitton handbag,
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I was the happiest girl in the world.
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I took the bag, and everyone,
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"Oh, god, you bought your bag!
Oh, yes, it's beautiful!"
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And everybody bows to the bag.
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And then I said, "Okay, what next?"
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[Suzanne R.]
I have a combination of many bags.
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I guess my bag of choice
is the classic Birkin.
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I have them, I think,
in almost every color.
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[therapist] These are Herm�s bags
that women collect.
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Some owning hundreds of thousands
or millions of dollars' worth of bags.
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And the bags start 20,000, go up.
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[Lauren] And how do you, a therapist,
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know so much information
about the Birkin bag?
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Well, I see them every day.
[chuckles]
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It's part of my life.
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[therapist] You know,
as much as you can dismiss
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or scoff at people obsessing
about their Birkin bags,
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I think it really does say something
about their mental health,
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uh, something that at its best
probably can, and should be addressed.
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[Limo Bob] I started off
with just a tiny, little skinny chain,
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and it grew into this.
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Thirty-three pounds of gold and diamonds
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given to me by superstars of the world,
dead and gone legends.
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[Limo Bob] I absolutely love
Old World elegance.
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[Lauren] And you're famous for?
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I am a two-time Guinness Book
World Record holder
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of the longest limousine in the world,
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with the swimming pool
and a helicopter landing pad,
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and the Boeing 727 jet limo.
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[indistinct chatter]
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[Limo Bob] When you pull up
in the limousine,
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they don't know who you are,
but they think you're someone.
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The bigger, the longer they are,
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the more exotic they are,
the more the head turns.
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[tires screeching]
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You gotta fake it till you make it.
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It just gives off that image
that I should be worshipped, almost.
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You know what I'm saying?
I'm somebody, you're not.
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[Lil Magic] I can afford this, you can't.
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That somehow propels them in this culture.
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Poor people are the ones that spend
the most money on the 700-dollar shoes,
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the ones that don't have it.
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You want the ones
with the bars and the sparkly,
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the bedazzles on the side,
447
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with the shiny when you walk,
you know what I mean?
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Make the girls sweat.
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You gonna pay about 1,200, 1,300,
you know what I mean?
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[Kingpin] It's about exclusivity.
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Can you call up and get you a pair
of the fresh Giuseppes,
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or do you get to go in the back
of the Versace store and shop?
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The American Dream, to me,
it's all about status right now.
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It's the new, uh, you know,
"Dr. " in front of your name.
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We hold out the illusion
of the American Dream.
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But not only can we,
and our children not attain
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what generations had before,
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but things are getting worse.
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[Chris] When there is no social mobility,
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the only social mobility you have
is fictitious.
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The presentation that you give
to the rest of the world
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denies your own reality.
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I've come to look at mass culture,
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and in particular, television,
as a form of violence.
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Because 24 hours a day,
this fictitious lifestyle,
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which we're all told that we can have,
fuels this sense of inadequacy.
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[Lauren] People used to compare themselves
to their neighbors,
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and they aspired to the neighbor
that had a little bit more than they had.
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00:24:54,826 --> 00:24:57,193
[Kris Jenner] This is so beautiful.
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This is like we're in Italy, honey.
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[Lauren] What's changed is that, now,
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people spend more time
with the people they see on TV
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than their actual neighbors.
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And they want what they have.
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Like, I probably know
the names of the Kardashians
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00:25:12,677 --> 00:25:15,203
better than I, I know
the names of my neighbors.
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00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:19,217
If you watch anything long enough,
you're gonna kind of think it's real.
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[Paris]
You're gonna start making decisions
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based on what you've seen on TV.
480
00:25:26,191 --> 00:25:28,558
[foreboding music]
481
00:25:31,162 --> 00:25:33,290
[President George W. Bush]
I do believe in the American Dream.
482
00:25:33,932 --> 00:25:36,162
Owning a home is a part of that dream.
483
00:25:36,902 --> 00:25:40,668
If one of the goals
is to increase home ownership,
484
00:25:41,206 --> 00:25:44,608
it makes sense to help people pay
that down payment.
485
00:25:45,176 --> 00:25:47,611
When we put down the rules, I said,
486
00:25:47,679 --> 00:25:50,080
"Well, this rule's not gonna help me
make money, right?
487
00:25:50,148 --> 00:25:52,549
So, let's tone this rule down."
488
00:25:53,818 --> 00:25:58,085
So we set the playing field
right for us only.
489
00:25:59,558 --> 00:26:00,855
Not for the investor,
490
00:26:01,326 --> 00:26:03,693
not for the loan taker, for us.
491
00:26:04,596 --> 00:26:07,725
The American economy
has retained its momentum...
492
00:26:07,799 --> 00:26:10,632
Mr. Greenspan lets open the floodgates
493
00:26:10,702 --> 00:26:12,966
and allows everybody to borrow money.
494
00:26:13,572 --> 00:26:16,974
If you give money out at no cost
495
00:26:17,676 --> 00:26:21,112
to hundreds of millions worldwide,
496
00:26:21,179 --> 00:26:23,671
they're gonna do stupid things with it.
497
00:26:24,015 --> 00:26:26,347
[quirky music]
498
00:26:27,252 --> 00:26:30,711
[Jackie] We never sought out to build
the biggest house in America.
499
00:26:30,789 --> 00:26:33,224
It's just... It's, like,
kind of, happened.
500
00:26:34,059 --> 00:26:36,050
[Lauren] When I made the film
The Queen of Versailles,
501
00:26:36,127 --> 00:26:38,289
with David and Jackie Siegel,
502
00:26:38,363 --> 00:26:42,823
who were trying to build a palace
inspired by the real Versailles in France,
503
00:26:43,635 --> 00:26:46,161
what I saw was the dream
that everyone had,
504
00:26:46,237 --> 00:26:47,204
but bigger.
505
00:26:47,906 --> 00:26:50,341
And they did it the same way
everyone else did,
506
00:26:50,609 --> 00:26:51,906
which was by borrowing.
507
00:26:52,711 --> 00:26:56,238
You think every American wants
to feel rich?
508
00:26:56,314 --> 00:26:57,338
I think so.
509
00:26:58,717 --> 00:27:00,344
[David] Everyone wants to be rich.
510
00:27:01,019 --> 00:27:02,384
If they can't be rich,
511
00:27:02,654 --> 00:27:04,645
the next best thing is to feel rich.
512
00:27:05,190 --> 00:27:06,988
And if they don't want to feel rich,
513
00:27:07,058 --> 00:27:09,925
then they're probably dead.
514
00:27:11,696 --> 00:27:14,290
[Lauren] It seemed like we were all
addicted to consumerism.
515
00:27:17,636 --> 00:27:20,936
And with globalization,
it kind of spread like a virus.
516
00:27:23,742 --> 00:27:25,938
[quirky music]
517
00:27:27,245 --> 00:27:30,704
[Valbj�rn]
518
00:27:32,417 --> 00:27:34,647
[Valbj�rn] I was working as a sailor.
519
00:27:49,234 --> 00:27:52,966
[Lauren] In 2003,
the tiny fishing country of Iceland
520
00:27:53,038 --> 00:27:56,440
began the most rapid expansion
of a banking system
521
00:27:56,708 --> 00:27:58,437
in the history of humankind.
522
00:27:59,911 --> 00:28:02,175
[Valbj�rn]
523
00:28:30,241 --> 00:28:31,231
...Kardasia?
524
00:28:31,309 --> 00:28:32,299
[Lauren]
525
00:28:32,377 --> 00:28:33,344
[Valbj�rn] Kardasia?
526
00:28:33,812 --> 00:28:35,405
- [Lauren] Kardashians?
- Kardashians.
527
00:28:35,480 --> 00:28:36,777
Yeah, sorry.
[laughs]
528
00:28:37,449 --> 00:28:41,784
[Valbj�rn]
529
00:28:48,426 --> 00:28:51,987
[Lauren] Building big
to express success and status
530
00:28:52,063 --> 00:28:55,363
was not limited to Europe
or the United States.
531
00:28:56,134 --> 00:28:58,193
In China, I met a businessman
532
00:28:58,269 --> 00:29:01,136
who built a full-scale replica
of the White House,
533
00:29:01,473 --> 00:29:04,374
and the view from his office
was Mount Rushmore.
534
00:29:05,877 --> 00:29:09,006
This trip in 2000
was my first big foreign assignment,
535
00:29:09,447 --> 00:29:12,849
and an opportunity to cover
the new wealth in China,
536
00:29:13,852 --> 00:29:15,342
but the timing was rough.
537
00:29:15,420 --> 00:29:17,286
[baby crying]
538
00:29:18,757 --> 00:29:20,316
[Lauren] When Noah was two weeks old,
539
00:29:20,959 --> 00:29:23,985
Time Magazine sent me a fax
offering me the job.
540
00:29:25,029 --> 00:29:28,363
I took it to Frank, crying, and said,
541
00:29:28,433 --> 00:29:31,425
"I told you my career would be over
when I had a baby."
542
00:29:32,971 --> 00:29:35,906
At that time, the women
who were successful photographers
543
00:29:35,974 --> 00:29:37,908
had chosen not to be mothers.
544
00:29:38,910 --> 00:29:41,140
Frank was like,
"What are you talking about?
545
00:29:41,212 --> 00:29:42,236
You should go."
546
00:29:43,381 --> 00:29:47,113
I asked the pediatrician
if it would be damaging to a baby
547
00:29:47,185 --> 00:29:49,882
to be separated
from its mother at ten weeks.
548
00:29:50,488 --> 00:29:52,957
And he said, "It'll be fine for the baby,
549
00:29:53,358 --> 00:29:55,486
but it's too punishing for the mother."
550
00:29:57,095 --> 00:29:59,530
I convinced myself
that Noah would be fine.
551
00:30:00,832 --> 00:30:03,130
So, I pumped 300 ounces of milk...
552
00:30:04,869 --> 00:30:06,564
and went to China for ten days.
553
00:30:08,540 --> 00:30:10,167
Being away was hard,
554
00:30:10,975 --> 00:30:12,943
but over the next 14 years,
555
00:30:13,011 --> 00:30:16,470
I still made 11 more trips
to China and Russia,
556
00:30:16,548 --> 00:30:18,539
because the stories were so compelling.
557
00:30:21,152 --> 00:30:22,813
With histories of revolutions
558
00:30:22,887 --> 00:30:25,822
that tried to abolish class
and inequality,
559
00:30:25,890 --> 00:30:29,224
the desire for luxury and status
was even stronger.
560
00:30:31,496 --> 00:30:34,591
Thirty years ago,
China was an incipient basket case.
561
00:30:34,866 --> 00:30:36,857
I mean, it was total isolation,
562
00:30:36,935 --> 00:30:38,562
everybody was on bicycle.
563
00:30:38,837 --> 00:30:41,932
China's now the biggest market
for all the Western luxury brands.
564
00:30:43,575 --> 00:30:46,545
[Sara] What the modern day Chinese woman
is looking for today, is a guide.
565
00:30:46,611 --> 00:30:49,137
Their mothers grew up
during the Cultural Revolution, right?
566
00:30:49,214 --> 00:30:52,115
So, nobody could teach them
how to wear lingerie.
567
00:30:53,184 --> 00:30:56,620
Whenever you carry your hat,
or you put your hat on your lap,
568
00:30:56,888 --> 00:30:58,481
never show the inside.
569
00:30:58,556 --> 00:31:00,354
It's like showing
the inside of your clothes.
570
00:31:01,059 --> 00:31:04,586
How to eat a banana elegantly
with a knife and fork.
571
00:31:05,496 --> 00:31:07,931
[Sara speaking Chinese]
572
00:31:08,233 --> 00:31:13,865
[Sara continues speaking Chinese]
573
00:31:14,505 --> 00:31:16,200
[Sara] Some people have criticized me,
574
00:31:16,274 --> 00:31:20,507
saying, "Oh, well, you know, why are
these people paying 16,000 US dollars
575
00:31:20,578 --> 00:31:23,377
to go learn how to cut
an orange elegantly?"
576
00:31:23,448 --> 00:31:25,439
But everybody who's taken the class
577
00:31:25,516 --> 00:31:27,917
has said it's worth every penny spent.
578
00:31:31,089 --> 00:31:32,523
[Ilona] In Russia, 20 years ago,
579
00:31:32,590 --> 00:31:34,615
they have a small apartment
or a small house.
580
00:31:34,893 --> 00:31:38,158
They don't have possibilities
to have big house like mine.
581
00:31:40,265 --> 00:31:42,324
The new Russians, the rich Russians,
582
00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:46,496
they build huge libraries, very expensive,
583
00:31:46,571 --> 00:31:49,199
with fantastic books.
584
00:31:49,941 --> 00:31:51,636
And they're not opening it.
585
00:31:52,210 --> 00:31:54,042
And it's not touchable.
586
00:31:54,112 --> 00:31:56,342
You cannot even,
"May I look at this book?"
587
00:31:56,414 --> 00:31:59,042
"No, no, no, it's very expensive."
588
00:31:59,117 --> 00:32:01,245
So what? It's a book.
589
00:32:07,158 --> 00:32:08,182
[Lauren] In Moscow,
590
00:32:08,259 --> 00:32:11,627
the debutante ball of the 19th century
has been revived.
591
00:32:11,696 --> 00:32:13,926
But instead of aristocrats,
592
00:32:13,998 --> 00:32:17,696
the girls coming out are the daughters
of oligarchs and celebrities.
593
00:32:19,570 --> 00:32:22,267
[in Russian]
594
00:32:33,084 --> 00:32:36,110
[Lauren] The ball is sponsored
by Maserati and Chanel,
595
00:32:36,654 --> 00:32:40,147
and is basically a way
to sell luxury brands to Russian women.
596
00:32:46,731 --> 00:32:48,995
[clanking]
597
00:32:51,402 --> 00:32:53,461
[Lauren]
In thinking about the wealth project,
598
00:32:53,538 --> 00:32:56,200
I started seeing connections
with work I had done
599
00:32:56,274 --> 00:32:58,038
for a book called Girl Culture.
600
00:32:59,610 --> 00:33:04,013
For years, I had been looking
at how girls learn from a young age
601
00:33:04,082 --> 00:33:05,982
that their bodies have currency.
602
00:33:07,018 --> 00:33:08,747
Beauty is how you win.
603
00:33:09,520 --> 00:33:11,454
[indistinct chatter]
604
00:33:11,522 --> 00:33:14,548
[Jackie] When I was single,
I dated all kinds of guys.
605
00:33:15,727 --> 00:33:17,491
Yeah. I even dated Donald Trump.
606
00:33:17,762 --> 00:33:19,355
[host] Donald, we wanted you...
607
00:33:23,201 --> 00:33:25,397
[Lauren] And why do we have to suffer
to be beautiful?
608
00:33:26,771 --> 00:33:30,105
I guess it must be a man's world
out there.
609
00:33:33,144 --> 00:33:35,476
Women get their legs waxed,
their bikinis waxed.
610
00:33:35,546 --> 00:33:38,140
They do these cosmetic procedures,
they have to put on makeup.
611
00:33:40,251 --> 00:33:41,741
[Suzanne]
Women get the short end of the stick,
612
00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:44,011
because we work the same hours
and do all the same things,
613
00:33:44,088 --> 00:33:45,487
and then have all this other stuff to do.
614
00:33:46,290 --> 00:33:49,726
[Lauren] I first met Suzanne
for a story I was doing for a magazine
615
00:33:49,794 --> 00:33:52,388
about who spends the most
on body maintenance.
616
00:33:53,231 --> 00:33:56,360
And Suzanne spent the most, by far.
617
00:33:57,301 --> 00:33:59,531
[Suzanne] I think looking good
is important,
618
00:33:59,604 --> 00:34:02,266
um, in any business, not just mine.
619
00:34:04,242 --> 00:34:06,540
I'm out dealing with clients,
620
00:34:06,611 --> 00:34:08,670
selling something, in a sense.
621
00:34:09,680 --> 00:34:11,808
People like dealing
with attractive people.
622
00:34:12,083 --> 00:34:13,209
Ifs human nature.
623
00:34:15,119 --> 00:34:17,611
[girl #1] It's very apparent,
the weight that's put on
624
00:34:17,688 --> 00:34:20,749
having longer hair
that's less, like, nappy,
625
00:34:20,825 --> 00:34:22,486
and having lighter skin.
626
00:34:23,628 --> 00:34:26,461
[girl #2] When I was in 11th grade,
627
00:34:26,531 --> 00:34:28,192
like, some people started
to make fun of me
628
00:34:28,266 --> 00:34:29,392
because I was darker-skinned,
629
00:34:29,467 --> 00:34:32,732
and I kind of got down
on myself after that.
630
00:34:35,206 --> 00:34:38,369
We base beauty off of one thing,
631
00:34:38,443 --> 00:34:40,468
and however close you are
to that one thing
632
00:34:41,179 --> 00:34:43,705
makes you prettier than other people.
633
00:34:45,249 --> 00:34:49,117
When you were born,
you were in the 50th percentile for height
634
00:34:49,187 --> 00:34:51,588
and the 90th percentile for weight,
635
00:34:51,656 --> 00:34:55,456
so I knew that, you know,
being short and a little bit round
636
00:34:55,526 --> 00:34:58,621
was your, uh, genetic body.
637
00:34:58,696 --> 00:35:00,790
But it wasn't the body,
638
00:35:01,432 --> 00:35:05,562
uh, you know, of the magazines
and television,
639
00:35:05,636 --> 00:35:08,367
and so you weren't satisfied with it.
640
00:35:08,439 --> 00:35:12,342
You know, I think, um,
I kept you on the right path
641
00:35:12,410 --> 00:35:17,109
in terms of avoiding an eating disorder,
which you later studied.
642
00:35:17,782 --> 00:35:21,844
[Lauren] When I made my first film, Thin,
about women with eating disorders...
643
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:24,248
[scale beeping]
644
00:35:24,322 --> 00:35:27,656
...it was really looking at the heart
of darkness of mental illness.
645
00:35:30,261 --> 00:35:32,127
[Lauren] But a social historian told me,
646
00:35:32,830 --> 00:35:34,821
"Psychopathologies come and go.
647
00:35:36,901 --> 00:35:39,871
But they always tell us
about the historical time period
648
00:35:40,138 --> 00:35:41,572
in which they're produced."
649
00:35:42,673 --> 00:35:47,167
Eating disorders are really common
in the United States,
650
00:35:47,245 --> 00:35:48,406
one in seven.
651
00:35:49,213 --> 00:35:54,276
And they flourish
in countries of affluence,
652
00:35:54,352 --> 00:35:56,446
where food is abundant,
653
00:35:57,155 --> 00:35:59,214
and where withholding food has power.
654
00:36:00,691 --> 00:36:02,659
[Lauren] Shantell had an eating disorder,
655
00:36:02,727 --> 00:36:05,196
and she felt modeling was exploitative.
656
00:36:06,297 --> 00:36:08,231
So she started cutting herself,
657
00:36:08,666 --> 00:36:10,896
and she had really mutilated her body,
658
00:36:11,569 --> 00:36:14,561
because she said
she "wanted to damage the property."
659
00:36:15,473 --> 00:36:18,170
When she referred to her body as property,
660
00:36:18,576 --> 00:36:22,444
that really brought home the idea
of the commodification of the body.
661
00:36:25,283 --> 00:36:27,581
[Lauren] What does beautiful mean to you?
662
00:36:28,452 --> 00:36:29,886
# That I get money #
663
00:36:30,188 --> 00:36:32,714
- # And I'm gonna be a superstar #
- No, not... Forget it.
664
00:36:32,790 --> 00:36:33,723
[chuckles]
665
00:36:34,625 --> 00:36:37,959
[Mickie] We've probably got
a hundred thousand dollars invested
666
00:36:38,229 --> 00:36:40,357
in the last four-and-a-half years.
667
00:36:40,431 --> 00:36:42,593
You have wardrobe, you have hair,
668
00:36:42,667 --> 00:36:44,897
you have makeup, you have coaching.
669
00:36:45,836 --> 00:36:50,797
The town that we are from
has a population of 566.
670
00:36:50,875 --> 00:36:51,842
[Mickie chuckles]
671
00:36:51,909 --> 00:36:55,812
Just the fact that someone picked her
to be on Toddlers and Tiaras
672
00:36:55,880 --> 00:36:56,972
was amazing to me.
673
00:36:57,715 --> 00:37:00,275
[Mickie] Whoo! Get it, girl!
674
00:37:00,751 --> 00:37:02,583
[Mickie] Mom here got to thinking,
675
00:37:02,653 --> 00:37:06,351
"What would be the biggest thing
that we could do for a 3-year-old?"
676
00:37:07,558 --> 00:37:09,925
That's how
the showgirl costume came to be.
677
00:37:11,796 --> 00:37:13,264
And she won.
678
00:37:13,331 --> 00:37:16,562
The connotations that come
with the Vegas showgirl
679
00:37:16,634 --> 00:37:17,999
never crossed my mind.
680
00:37:18,736 --> 00:37:23,765
Apparently, the derriere part
would be open, or topless,
681
00:37:23,841 --> 00:37:27,505
but, you know, I wanted glamor
and feathers and glitz.
682
00:37:28,813 --> 00:37:32,272
I always say that maybe if you think
there was something inappropriate,
683
00:37:32,350 --> 00:37:34,478
then maybe there's something wrong
with your thought process,
684
00:37:34,552 --> 00:37:36,680
because momma here
doesn't see it that way.
685
00:37:38,356 --> 00:37:40,347
We're a completely pornified culture.
686
00:37:41,425 --> 00:37:43,894
The images of porn are now so pervasive
687
00:37:43,961 --> 00:37:45,759
and accessible throughout the society,
688
00:37:45,830 --> 00:37:47,696
they've leeched into popular culture.
689
00:37:47,765 --> 00:37:50,928
Oh, my god!
[laughing]
690
00:37:51,002 --> 00:37:52,492
[Kim] Are you serious?
691
00:37:52,570 --> 00:37:56,473
[Noah] It's TV, like, the Internet, ads.
692
00:37:56,540 --> 00:37:58,531
I know like, a lot of, like,
kids and stuff,
693
00:37:58,609 --> 00:37:59,940
like, watch, like, porn.
694
00:38:00,578 --> 00:38:02,842
And that's also where a lot of it
comes from,
695
00:38:02,913 --> 00:38:04,847
like, the unrealistic, like, women.
696
00:38:05,583 --> 00:38:08,416
I think most people, like,
probably including me,
697
00:38:08,486 --> 00:38:10,477
were, like, exposed to porn at like...
698
00:38:11,055 --> 00:38:12,614
seventh grade, maybe.
699
00:38:12,690 --> 00:38:15,660
[Noah] You're seeing stuff
that's just completely fake.
700
00:38:16,494 --> 00:38:17,984
Ifs just, like, it's a movie.
701
00:38:19,297 --> 00:38:22,858
And, like, there's a camera crew,
just like this,
702
00:38:22,933 --> 00:38:24,628
everything's scripted.
703
00:38:24,702 --> 00:38:27,763
People believe it,
'cause, like, they wanna believe it.
704
00:38:28,472 --> 00:38:30,770
And they think that's, like,
how real interactions are.
705
00:38:30,841 --> 00:38:32,707
[cell phone buzzing]
706
00:38:32,777 --> 00:38:35,474
[Lauren] Does that affect the kinds
of pictures your friends are posting?
707
00:38:36,047 --> 00:38:38,482
[Noah] Yeah. I see, like,
a lot of my friends
708
00:38:38,549 --> 00:38:42,452
in, like, very revealing bikinis
to make sure they get a lot of likes.
709
00:38:42,520 --> 00:38:44,010
I did an Instagram study.
710
00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:46,882
The photos that didn't receive
a lot of likes
711
00:38:46,957 --> 00:38:49,085
were stuff like family,
712
00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:52,557
and stuff that, like, kids
were trying to get away from.
713
00:38:52,963 --> 00:38:56,456
Guys want what's really demeaning
for women.
714
00:38:56,901 --> 00:39:00,804
And to match, like, guys' expectations,
715
00:39:00,871 --> 00:39:03,863
I think, like, a lot of women
probably try to replicate it.
716
00:39:04,775 --> 00:39:05,708
[Trudy] Perfect.
717
00:39:05,776 --> 00:39:09,508
I actually do have an interview
with that girl,
718
00:39:10,014 --> 00:39:11,982
where she says,
"We wanna dance like strippers."
719
00:39:13,617 --> 00:39:14,812
[Sheena] I wanna be a dancer.
720
00:39:14,885 --> 00:39:16,080
Topless dancing showgirl.
721
00:39:18,055 --> 00:39:20,717
I think it would be fun,
dancing with my tits shown off.
722
00:39:20,791 --> 00:39:23,624
If I can accomplish being that,
then I can accomplish anything.
723
00:39:24,829 --> 00:39:28,356
[instructor] Booty up,
and tip your booty side to side.
724
00:39:28,432 --> 00:39:30,059
So, it's almost like
a little back stretch.
725
00:39:30,968 --> 00:39:33,437
[Lauren] There were even
trendy exercise classes
726
00:39:33,971 --> 00:39:36,030
that taught cardio striptease.
727
00:39:37,408 --> 00:39:39,137
[instructor]
So, we're half an arm from our pole,
728
00:39:39,410 --> 00:39:40,741
right hand is up.
729
00:39:40,811 --> 00:39:43,803
We step with your inside foot, spin!
730
00:39:43,881 --> 00:39:45,975
Yeah, hips shift to the left this time.
731
00:39:46,050 --> 00:39:48,041
You can just keep your handcuffs on
if you prefer.
732
00:39:48,119 --> 00:39:49,086
[girls giggle]
733
00:39:49,153 --> 00:39:52,123
[instructor] So let's roll over and crawl
and act like we like it.
734
00:39:52,390 --> 00:39:55,416
[Lauren] When you're documenting
the effects of popular culture,
735
00:39:55,493 --> 00:39:57,484
it's almost like the air we breathe.
736
00:39:57,962 --> 00:39:59,555
It's everywhere.
737
00:39:59,630 --> 00:40:01,598
And so it's hard to actually see it.
738
00:40:02,700 --> 00:40:05,692
In my work, I often look at the extremes
739
00:40:06,604 --> 00:40:08,402
to understand the mainstream.
740
00:40:10,174 --> 00:40:11,664
At Magic City,
741
00:40:11,742 --> 00:40:15,736
beautiful girls use their sexual capital
to rise to the top.
742
00:40:17,915 --> 00:40:19,178
We don't have movie stars in Atlanta,
743
00:40:19,450 --> 00:40:21,043
so the strippers are the movie stars.
744
00:40:21,118 --> 00:40:22,517
They're high class.
745
00:40:24,655 --> 00:40:26,714
[Diamond]
When I first started dancing here,
746
00:40:26,791 --> 00:40:30,056
it felt like I made it,
like I was in Hollywood.
747
00:40:31,128 --> 00:40:33,995
It was like you were in the middle
of a music video.
748
00:40:34,064 --> 00:40:34,997
[Diamond chuckles]
749
00:40:36,700 --> 00:40:38,065
[Lil Magic] Shortcut, shortcut, shortcut.
750
00:40:38,135 --> 00:40:39,830
Make it overnight, make it overnight.
751
00:40:40,971 --> 00:40:42,735
Unfortunately, more and more people
752
00:40:42,807 --> 00:40:46,072
are trying to find a way around
the hard work that it takes
753
00:40:46,143 --> 00:40:48,077
to, um, be successful in life.
754
00:40:48,846 --> 00:40:51,872
Being average
has never been an option for me.
755
00:40:53,184 --> 00:40:55,551
[Diamond]
Going to a nine to five would just be...
756
00:40:56,187 --> 00:40:58,747
That would be hurtful.
[chuckles]
757
00:40:59,990 --> 00:41:02,687
It's just the fact
that I can throw money on a person.
758
00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:04,525
And she likes it!
759
00:41:05,029 --> 00:41:06,019
It's a rush.
760
00:41:07,965 --> 00:41:10,866
[DJ Esco] I don't give a fuck,
gonna throw this money, like, yeah!
761
00:41:12,069 --> 00:41:13,059
Throw it!
762
00:41:13,137 --> 00:41:14,901
Ya know what I'm sayin'? It's not finesse.
763
00:41:14,972 --> 00:41:17,168
[grunts]
Like, whoa!
764
00:41:18,542 --> 00:41:20,032
She might get paper cut.
765
00:41:21,145 --> 00:41:23,614
[DJ Esco]
766
00:41:25,216 --> 00:41:27,514
Order up another thousand! Fuck it.
767
00:41:27,585 --> 00:41:28,814
[laughs]
768
00:41:29,954 --> 00:41:32,980
- [shutter clicks]
- [Kacey speaks indistinctly]
769
00:41:33,057 --> 00:41:34,684
[Lauren] Like DJ Esco,
770
00:41:34,758 --> 00:41:37,090
I was both critic and participant.
771
00:41:38,162 --> 00:41:42,099
Shooting for magazines gave me
the front row seat to the popular culture
772
00:41:42,666 --> 00:41:44,065
that I needed for my own work.
773
00:41:45,069 --> 00:41:46,798
[Lauren] Yeah, lift your leg up.
774
00:41:46,871 --> 00:41:48,862
[Lauren]
775
00:41:48,939 --> 00:41:51,169
I was banging seven-gram rocks
and finishing them,
776
00:41:51,242 --> 00:41:54,212
because that's how I roll.
I have one speed, I have one gear. Go!
777
00:41:54,278 --> 00:41:56,269
[TV reporter]
It appears Charlie checked himself
778
00:41:56,547 --> 00:41:58,015
before he wrecked himself.
779
00:41:58,082 --> 00:41:59,948
Writing a 30,000-dollar check
780
00:42:00,017 --> 00:42:02,748
for porn star and party animal,
Kacey Jordan.
781
00:42:03,587 --> 00:42:05,681
[Lauren] Amy said he gave you
an unusual tip,
782
00:42:05,756 --> 00:42:07,588
like a ball of coke?
783
00:42:07,958 --> 00:42:09,119
It was huge.
784
00:42:10,060 --> 00:42:12,051
[somber music]
785
00:42:12,963 --> 00:42:16,263
[Kacey] My dream was always
to be an actress.
786
00:42:16,534 --> 00:42:19,560
It really makes you feel like a movie star
when you're in makeup.
787
00:42:20,004 --> 00:42:22,996
It was kind of like the film career
that I always wanted.
788
00:42:25,543 --> 00:42:27,568
When I found out
that I could be an adult film star,
789
00:42:27,645 --> 00:42:30,842
I was just like, "Let's go," I mean,
'cause when you have nothing else to do
790
00:42:30,915 --> 00:42:32,679
in a town you don't want to be in.
791
00:42:33,684 --> 00:42:36,654
Got a plane ticket, found an agent...
792
00:42:37,221 --> 00:42:38,746
[Kevin]
793
00:42:44,862 --> 00:42:46,057
So, that was pretty cool.
794
00:42:48,065 --> 00:42:51,729
It was definitely the feeling
of being really close to my dream.
795
00:42:53,103 --> 00:42:56,971
[Kacey] You know, before I left Oregon,
I was living out of my car,
796
00:42:57,041 --> 00:42:59,169
so I didn't have to live
under my parents' rules.
797
00:42:59,243 --> 00:43:00,335
And I was living off Taco Bell,
798
00:43:00,611 --> 00:43:02,272
because it was the cheapest thing
you could do.
799
00:43:02,913 --> 00:43:06,178
I had 88 cents,
and the bean burrito was 89 cents.
800
00:43:06,951 --> 00:43:09,215
I just broke down crying
at the Taco Bell cashier.
801
00:43:09,286 --> 00:43:10,276
[camera shutter clicks]
802
00:43:10,921 --> 00:43:12,787
[Kacey] And then, a year later,
803
00:43:12,856 --> 00:43:15,826
I was living across from the Grove,
on the top penthouse floor.
804
00:43:17,761 --> 00:43:20,594
That was one of the coolest
moments of my life,
805
00:43:20,664 --> 00:43:23,361
was that, that feeling of, of success.
806
00:43:23,634 --> 00:43:25,728
You know, I was, like, buying my sister,
and my family,
807
00:43:25,803 --> 00:43:27,066
I'm like, "Oh, here is a flat screen,"
808
00:43:27,137 --> 00:43:29,663
like, "Let's just go to Best Buy
and just pick out whatever you want."
809
00:43:29,740 --> 00:43:30,935
You know, it's just cash.
810
00:43:31,008 --> 00:43:33,670
It was just like from zero to a hundred,
811
00:43:33,744 --> 00:43:35,803
and I was addicted.
[chuckles].
812
00:43:41,218 --> 00:43:42,777
Okay, you guys ready?
813
00:43:43,721 --> 00:43:46,782
[Tiffany] I was determined
to make something out of myself.
814
00:43:47,257 --> 00:43:48,918
Leaving Kansas,
815
00:43:49,627 --> 00:43:52,289
I said, "Mama, one day,
you're gonna see me walk a red carpet."
816
00:43:55,165 --> 00:43:57,293
[Tiffany] I was a single mother
coming to Vegas.
817
00:43:57,901 --> 00:43:59,995
I vowed to make that money
818
00:44:00,070 --> 00:44:03,301
to be able to give my son something
819
00:44:03,374 --> 00:44:05,274
and to always be able
to take care of myself
820
00:44:05,342 --> 00:44:07,071
where I didn't depend on a man.
821
00:44:08,245 --> 00:44:10,976
What I do in Las Vegas
is a pretty important business.
822
00:44:11,048 --> 00:44:14,109
When it comes to VIPs,
823
00:44:14,184 --> 00:44:16,983
everybody wants to feel like a rock star.
824
00:44:18,989 --> 00:44:22,084
I gotta make sure that they've got
the best tables or cabanas
825
00:44:22,159 --> 00:44:24,355
that are around 10,000 dollars,
826
00:44:24,428 --> 00:44:26,897
that they have the best bottle service.
827
00:44:28,432 --> 00:44:30,423
If you've got the girls,
you've got the game.
828
00:44:31,435 --> 00:44:33,927
She's not a madam.
[chuckles]
829
00:44:34,938 --> 00:44:36,906
Just want to clarify that out right now,
830
00:44:36,974 --> 00:44:38,203
from her son.
[chuckles]
831
00:44:39,777 --> 00:44:41,404
I mean, sure, blonde hair, big boobs.
832
00:44:41,679 --> 00:44:43,238
Oh, yeah, I know a lot of those, but...
833
00:44:44,748 --> 00:44:46,216
you don't compare to Tiffany.
834
00:44:46,750 --> 00:44:48,980
[Preston] Like, she's queen of Vegas,
you know?
835
00:44:51,722 --> 00:44:52,917
[woman #3]
836
00:44:52,990 --> 00:44:53,889
[Preston]
837
00:44:53,957 --> 00:44:54,947
[Tiffany] And it's white.
838
00:44:56,126 --> 00:44:58,925
- At least I have panties on, this time.
- Have some class, don't show ass.
839
00:44:58,996 --> 00:45:01,363
Ooh, I like that.
840
00:45:02,299 --> 00:45:06,896
Are you out tonight, question mark?
Trouble is a-brewing.
841
00:45:09,807 --> 00:45:10,740
[indistinct chatter]
842
00:45:10,808 --> 00:45:12,833
- [Preston] I've seen a lot.
- [Tiffany laughing]
843
00:45:12,910 --> 00:45:15,436
You couldn't show me anything else
that would make my head spin.
844
00:45:16,113 --> 00:45:18,047
I mean, I've seen everything,
845
00:45:18,115 --> 00:45:22,177
from 5,000-dollar contests
to see who looks best naked, I've seen...
846
00:45:22,753 --> 00:45:24,414
I've done bachelor parties
847
00:45:24,488 --> 00:45:28,288
where girls are doing toy shows
on a hotel room floor.
848
00:45:29,326 --> 00:45:31,294
[Lauren] Toy shows.
That means erotic toys?
849
00:45:32,129 --> 00:45:33,119
Yes.
850
00:45:35,799 --> 00:45:37,767
[Tiffany] I'm such an untraditional mom.
851
00:45:38,502 --> 00:45:40,129
It's been like a challenge,
852
00:45:40,204 --> 00:45:42,901
like, am I gonna bring him out
into this nightlife or not?
853
00:45:43,307 --> 00:45:45,105
And I, I am bringing him in.
854
00:45:49,513 --> 00:45:53,450
[Preston] I'd love to DJ for as long
as I could possibly use my fingers.
855
00:45:54,184 --> 00:45:57,347
But I'm also really big
into lizards, so...
856
00:45:58,956 --> 00:46:01,448
if I ever retired one day,
857
00:46:01,525 --> 00:46:04,085
I would just probably own a pet store,
858
00:46:04,161 --> 00:46:05,458
probably would make me happy.
859
00:46:08,165 --> 00:46:10,497
[somber music]
860
00:46:16,073 --> 00:46:17,871
[Florian] It's not a moral discussion.
861
00:46:18,208 --> 00:46:22,372
Sex is, of course,
an extension of commerce.
862
00:46:22,446 --> 00:46:23,971
What isn't?
863
00:46:24,047 --> 00:46:26,209
[quirky music]
864
00:46:29,553 --> 00:46:35,549
We're in the VIP suite
of the Artemis Wellness Club.
865
00:46:35,826 --> 00:46:37,817
Some would say bordello in Berlin.
866
00:46:38,896 --> 00:46:41,058
[Florian] I used to be co-investor
in here.
867
00:46:41,932 --> 00:46:43,366
We're matching buyers.
868
00:46:43,433 --> 00:46:46,095
Well, technically,
you call them Johns in America,
869
00:46:46,170 --> 00:46:49,037
and the sellers,
which we would prefer to call sex workers,
870
00:46:49,106 --> 00:46:50,335
not even prostitutes.
871
00:46:50,941 --> 00:46:51,999
Um...
872
00:46:53,443 --> 00:46:57,107
I lost my virginity when I was like 15
to a prostitute in Amsterdam,
873
00:46:57,181 --> 00:46:59,115
and my dad was the one
that actually took me there.
874
00:46:59,183 --> 00:47:01,174
[quirky music]
875
00:47:06,223 --> 00:47:11,593
My son was driving me absolutely nuts
with this girl and that girl,
876
00:47:11,862 --> 00:47:16,493
and, like, having bets in school,
who will kiss the first girl.
877
00:47:16,567 --> 00:47:19,093
[Florian] And I said, "We're going
to Amsterdam, young man."
878
00:47:19,970 --> 00:47:23,406
And he's like, "You're almost turning 16.
I can't believe you're still a virgin.
879
00:47:23,473 --> 00:47:25,271
I lost my virginity when I was 14
880
00:47:25,342 --> 00:47:29,074
to a prostitute that I paid with,
with a jar of coins."
881
00:47:32,416 --> 00:47:34,441
[Florian] It's like a rite of initiation.
882
00:47:35,052 --> 00:47:36,315
[Lauren]
883
00:47:36,386 --> 00:47:38,252
Yeah, I can't let my son pay for it.
884
00:47:40,290 --> 00:47:44,090
He paid her, like, a bonus
for teaching me how to...
885
00:47:44,161 --> 00:47:45,390
how to have sex properly.
886
00:47:45,462 --> 00:47:47,123
[laughs]
887
00:47:48,632 --> 00:47:49,929
[chuckles]
888
00:47:52,302 --> 00:47:56,432
Unfettered, unregulated capitalism
does what it's designed to do,
889
00:47:56,506 --> 00:47:58,270
which is commodify everything.
890
00:47:58,342 --> 00:48:03,610
[Chris] Even human beings become
commodities that you exploit for profit,
891
00:48:04,281 --> 00:48:06,909
until exhaustion or collapse.
892
00:48:06,984 --> 00:48:08,418
[pills rattle]
893
00:48:10,420 --> 00:48:15,415
[Lauren] Did you ever take painkillers
or drugs to get through a scene?
894
00:48:15,492 --> 00:48:17,893
Uh, yeah, a lot of times.
895
00:48:17,961 --> 00:48:20,521
Like, I've actually had my ass torn,
896
00:48:21,465 --> 00:48:23,263
um, last year.
897
00:48:24,034 --> 00:48:27,060
And I took a lot of painkillers,
uh, for that one.
898
00:48:27,137 --> 00:48:28,263
[coughs]
Sorry.
899
00:48:28,939 --> 00:48:29,906
[exhales]
900
00:48:30,974 --> 00:48:33,068
I did a 58...
901
00:48:33,143 --> 00:48:35,407
uh, 58-guy bukkake.
902
00:48:35,479 --> 00:48:37,004
Is there more than 50?
903
00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:38,070
[man #1] I doubt it.
904
00:48:38,482 --> 00:48:40,177
Is there less than 50 in the jizz?
905
00:48:40,250 --> 00:48:42,344
Guys! Quiet! Listen!
906
00:48:42,419 --> 00:48:44,285
Fifty-eight loads to the face.
907
00:48:44,354 --> 00:48:46,015
So much for makeup and hair.
908
00:48:46,089 --> 00:48:48,319
And I am still remembered,
like, "Aw, I love that scene you did."
909
00:48:48,392 --> 00:48:52,226
And it's, like, I get a lot of clients
from just the fact that I did that scene.
910
00:48:52,296 --> 00:48:53,457
[woman #4] Chin up a little more.
911
00:48:53,530 --> 00:48:55,191
- [man #1] Nipples out.
- [woman #4] Not yet.
912
00:48:55,265 --> 00:48:57,131
[Kacey] As much work
as I've gotten from it,
913
00:48:57,200 --> 00:48:58,292
it was worth it.
914
00:48:58,368 --> 00:49:00,393
- [men laughing]
- [man #1] Good job!
915
00:49:00,470 --> 00:49:02,336
[Kacey] But I actually got salmonella.
916
00:49:02,706 --> 00:49:03,605
[camera shutter clicks]
917
00:49:03,674 --> 00:49:08,271
It's, like, a food-borne illness,
and I got it.
918
00:49:08,345 --> 00:49:09,471
- [man #1] Yeah. Good job!
- Oh!
919
00:49:09,546 --> 00:49:11,241
- [man #1] I wanted to make sure...
- Oh, my god!
920
00:49:11,315 --> 00:49:12,646
It's probably someone had it,
921
00:49:12,716 --> 00:49:15,083
and it went in my eye or something.
It was so weird.
922
00:49:15,152 --> 00:49:19,180
I wanted to do something cool,
or something, you know,
923
00:49:19,256 --> 00:49:21,657
for what I could be remembered, but...
Yeah, and it worked.
924
00:49:22,626 --> 00:49:24,651
Yeah, I always say, uh,
925
00:49:24,728 --> 00:49:27,698
Kim's my inspiration
for I can still make it, you know?
926
00:49:27,965 --> 00:49:30,229
[Kacey] Because I have lots
of sex tapes to show,
927
00:49:30,300 --> 00:49:34,430
and maybe I'll still come out
on top somehow.
928
00:49:35,405 --> 00:49:36,497
[chuckles]
929
00:49:40,677 --> 00:49:42,145
[sighs]
930
00:49:42,212 --> 00:49:45,341
[Trudy] This is pretty hardcore.
Maybe we should, you know,
931
00:49:45,415 --> 00:49:47,577
not think about it too much.
932
00:49:53,590 --> 00:49:55,581
- [Lauren] And then, um...
- [Trudy] Oh, my god.
933
00:49:55,659 --> 00:49:58,390
[Lauren] When we started, we thought
we were going to go through about...
934
00:50:00,130 --> 00:50:03,566
five file cabinets of pictures.
935
00:50:04,234 --> 00:50:06,259
And then, we ended up going through...
936
00:50:06,770 --> 00:50:08,397
half a million pictures.
937
00:50:09,306 --> 00:50:14,142
Almost everything I had done
related to this theme and this project.
938
00:50:14,211 --> 00:50:16,373
[foreboding music]
939
00:50:17,447 --> 00:50:19,142
[Lauren] Going through the pictures,
940
00:50:19,216 --> 00:50:21,617
I realized wealth
was much more than money.
941
00:50:22,419 --> 00:50:25,013
It was whatever gave us value,
942
00:50:25,088 --> 00:50:26,578
sexuality,
943
00:50:26,656 --> 00:50:27,782
branding,
944
00:50:28,425 --> 00:50:29,688
even youth.
945
00:50:33,296 --> 00:50:34,593
When I was in my 20s,
946
00:50:34,664 --> 00:50:37,156
I went to the dermatologist
for a routine checkup.
947
00:50:38,168 --> 00:50:41,069
And, unsolicited, he offered me Botox.
948
00:50:41,738 --> 00:50:46,198
I was so shocked to find out that I had
a problem I didn't know existed,
949
00:50:46,276 --> 00:50:48,438
that I realized this could be a project.
950
00:50:51,748 --> 00:50:54,774
People were not aging
like in prior generations.
951
00:50:56,086 --> 00:50:59,454
So, I started documenting
the value of staying young,
952
00:51:00,557 --> 00:51:03,117
and the cost of not being who you are,
953
00:51:04,127 --> 00:51:06,323
and yearning to be something different.
954
00:51:10,834 --> 00:51:14,065
Cosmetic procedures weren't just
for the rich anymore.
955
00:51:14,704 --> 00:51:18,402
Most people who got them
made less than 50,000 dollars a year.
956
00:51:19,476 --> 00:51:23,674
I looked at many cable shows
of people who have had plastic surgery.
957
00:51:23,747 --> 00:51:25,715
[Amanda] She has worked harder on herself
958
00:51:25,782 --> 00:51:27,841
than she ever has before in her life.
959
00:51:28,118 --> 00:51:29,347
I ate it up.
960
00:51:29,419 --> 00:51:32,320
[audience clapping, cheering]
961
00:51:32,389 --> 00:51:34,153
[Lauren] It's almost like
there's a new version
962
00:51:34,224 --> 00:51:35,487
of the American Dream.
963
00:51:36,460 --> 00:51:40,488
The physical makeover
as the rags to riches success story.
964
00:51:43,533 --> 00:51:46,400
Cathy was a school bus driver
and single mom.
965
00:51:47,571 --> 00:51:49,539
[Cathy] I took a raw look at myself.
966
00:51:50,107 --> 00:51:51,632
I was no longer married.
967
00:51:51,708 --> 00:51:54,439
Um, I didn't have the financial stability
that I wanted,
968
00:51:54,511 --> 00:51:57,378
didn't own a home,
that had been one of my goals for years.
969
00:51:57,447 --> 00:51:58,437
I could let that go.
970
00:51:59,149 --> 00:52:03,677
[Cathy] What really mattered in life
was to be in the best body that I could.
971
00:52:05,689 --> 00:52:09,387
The summer of '07 is when all
the opportunities seemed to converge.
972
00:52:09,826 --> 00:52:12,454
I went to Brazil to get plastic surgery.
973
00:52:14,131 --> 00:52:15,428
I had, um...
974
00:52:16,700 --> 00:52:19,726
a pregnancy that really
had distorted my body.
975
00:52:20,403 --> 00:52:23,429
Carrying so large with a nine-pound baby,
976
00:52:23,507 --> 00:52:25,407
I had a lot of skin.
[laughs]
977
00:52:25,475 --> 00:52:27,807
[Lauren] And how did that make you feel
when you looked in the mirror?
978
00:52:27,878 --> 00:52:28,743
Awful.
979
00:52:30,347 --> 00:52:33,715
[Cathy] And I had contemplated
how it affects my daughter.
980
00:52:34,284 --> 00:52:36,343
She was an early bloomer,
981
00:52:36,419 --> 00:52:38,547
and she was about to enter into an age
982
00:52:38,622 --> 00:52:41,148
where her body would change
even more rapidly.
983
00:52:42,392 --> 00:52:43,882
I had always come to the conclusion
984
00:52:44,161 --> 00:52:47,654
that me satisfying my own body issues
was the best thing I could do for her.
985
00:52:49,699 --> 00:52:50,894
[Lauren] If I said to your kids,
986
00:52:51,168 --> 00:52:53,296
'Where's your mom now?",
what would they say?
987
00:52:53,370 --> 00:52:55,839
"In Brazil, getting her stomach...
her tummy tucked."
988
00:52:55,906 --> 00:52:56,805
[laughs]
989
00:52:56,873 --> 00:52:58,432
They're very happy for me.
990
00:53:00,944 --> 00:53:03,504
[Cathy] I've also added to the list
a breast lift
991
00:53:03,580 --> 00:53:05,947
and, um, breast augmentation.
992
00:53:06,216 --> 00:53:08,241
I've been convinced
that I would look wonderful
993
00:53:08,318 --> 00:53:10,252
with a little Brazilian butt lift.
994
00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:13,688
And we are sculpting
under my neck with lipo,
995
00:53:13,757 --> 00:53:16,886
and we are reshaping my nose to refine it,
996
00:53:16,960 --> 00:53:19,258
uh, refine the tip, and get rid of a bump.
997
00:53:21,531 --> 00:53:22,896
I paid for it on credit.
[sighs]
998
00:53:22,966 --> 00:53:24,525
I didn't have all the money at the time.
999
00:53:24,601 --> 00:53:26,626
It was son of a miracle
unfolding in front of me.
1000
00:53:26,703 --> 00:53:28,694
Um, but my parents did help me some,
1001
00:53:28,772 --> 00:53:30,536
which was not a position
I wanted to put them in.
1002
00:53:30,607 --> 00:53:31,836
But my mother, I believe, recognized
1003
00:53:31,908 --> 00:53:34,707
that this was a once-in-a-lifetime
opportunity for me.
1004
00:53:34,778 --> 00:53:36,644
[monitor beeping]
1005
00:53:36,713 --> 00:53:40,616
[Lauren] Is the plastic surgery here
the same as in the United States?
1006
00:53:41,418 --> 00:53:42,613
It's different.
1007
00:53:42,686 --> 00:53:46,816
The anesthesiologists, uh, like, um...
1008
00:53:46,890 --> 00:53:49,359
like to use this technique.
1009
00:53:49,859 --> 00:53:51,691
[surgeon]
1010
00:53:55,932 --> 00:53:57,900
I was thinking,
it's not like buying a purse,
1011
00:53:57,968 --> 00:53:59,436
[Cathy] I could take a purse back.
1012
00:53:59,502 --> 00:54:01,334
What if I make the wrong decision?
1013
00:54:01,938 --> 00:54:04,566
[machines hissing, beeping]
1014
00:54:06,810 --> 00:54:08,869
[Cathy] I'm a little overwhelmed.
I'm a little confused.
1015
00:54:08,945 --> 00:54:12,745
And I'm more alone than I thought.
1016
00:54:12,816 --> 00:54:15,717
[surgeon] Okay. Okay.
[speaking Portuguese]
1017
00:54:15,785 --> 00:54:17,844
[Cathy] Do I know what I'm doing?
I know what I'm doing.
1018
00:54:17,921 --> 00:54:20,947
I'm a good mother, I'm a good person,
I might be indulgent.
1019
00:54:21,024 --> 00:54:24,426
Oh, I can't tell. I'm sleepy.
1020
00:54:27,464 --> 00:54:29,364
[camera shutter clicks]
1021
00:54:33,003 --> 00:54:35,267
The greatest relief was seeing myself...
1022
00:54:35,338 --> 00:54:37,363
[sighs]
1023
00:54:37,440 --> 00:54:39,374
...uh, changed, better.
1024
00:54:45,415 --> 00:54:47,349
[Cathy] When considering one's own body,
1025
00:54:47,417 --> 00:54:51,354
that's a life skill, a coping skill
that every young woman has to develop.
1026
00:54:51,755 --> 00:54:53,484
[Cathy] My daughter,
that was hard for her.
1027
00:54:54,691 --> 00:54:57,854
It was the changing emotions
of emerging on adulthood.
1028
00:54:58,395 --> 00:55:00,887
She went in her bedroom at the time,
and she cut herself.
1029
00:55:02,332 --> 00:55:03,959
She cut... She carved...
1030
00:55:05,435 --> 00:55:06,869
She carved letters in her forehead.
1031
00:55:07,704 --> 00:55:08,830
"Dead."
1032
00:55:08,905 --> 00:55:10,600
As if she wish she were dead.
1033
00:55:12,342 --> 00:55:15,676
And that was the hardest thing
I've dealt with in my life.
1034
00:55:16,713 --> 00:55:18,044
The hardest thing.
[sobs]
1035
00:55:18,548 --> 00:55:19,845
Why would you...
1036
00:55:22,018 --> 00:55:23,713
intentionally distort,
1037
00:55:24,354 --> 00:55:26,982
uh, um, deface your body?
1038
00:55:27,590 --> 00:55:32,050
I felt it was a failure of myself
to impart to her how much she's loved,
1039
00:55:32,896 --> 00:55:34,489
and how much she's worth.
1040
00:55:37,467 --> 00:55:39,595
[Suzanne] I always wanted children.
1041
00:55:39,669 --> 00:55:41,000
I waited till 40.
1042
00:55:41,071 --> 00:55:42,903
I thought it was time to get married.
1043
00:55:43,640 --> 00:55:45,768
We had already seen
a fertility specialist who said,
1044
00:55:45,842 --> 00:55:48,539
"You know, you should start yesterday,
not tomorrow."
1045
00:55:49,446 --> 00:55:54,043
As we sit here today, I'm in the process
of doing my fifth IVF cycle.
1046
00:55:54,117 --> 00:55:57,052
We're not talking
about 500, 600, 800 dollars.
1047
00:55:57,120 --> 00:55:58,645
We're talking about...
1048
00:55:58,722 --> 00:56:01,521
Five times in, you're,
you're at a hundred thousand dollars.
1049
00:56:01,858 --> 00:56:05,954
You know, our charity dollars this year
went towards trying to get pregnant.
1050
00:56:07,530 --> 00:56:10,397
The process has cut
our social life way back.
1051
00:56:10,467 --> 00:56:12,367
It's not romantic, it's not,
1052
00:56:12,435 --> 00:56:14,563
"Oh, let's drink
a wonderful bottle of wine,
1053
00:56:14,637 --> 00:56:17,436
and make love, and, you know,
here we got pregnant."
1054
00:56:18,808 --> 00:56:21,140
I had hired the best doctors,
I was paying top dollar.
1055
00:56:21,778 --> 00:56:24,839
If I read somewhere that, you know,
exercising wasn't good,
1056
00:56:24,914 --> 00:56:25,972
I stopped exercising.
1057
00:56:26,049 --> 00:56:29,041
If I read somewhere
that Mayan uterine massage was good,
1058
00:56:29,119 --> 00:56:31,144
I went and had Mayan uterine massage.
1059
00:56:31,421 --> 00:56:33,549
I've cut back on the Botox more,
because I'm concerned
1060
00:56:33,623 --> 00:56:36,490
about injecting botulism toxin
into my body.
1061
00:56:36,559 --> 00:56:39,153
You know, maybe that's not such
a good idea if I'm trying to get pregnant.
1062
00:56:39,429 --> 00:56:40,897
Um, so I've kind of done it less.
1063
00:56:40,964 --> 00:56:43,934
You know, it's funny,
after my failed cycle this summer,
1064
00:56:44,000 --> 00:56:45,399
I hadn't had Botox in like...
1065
00:56:45,468 --> 00:56:47,630
I went right in
to make myself feel better.
1066
00:56:51,941 --> 00:56:54,808
[Suzanne] My time was running out
in terms of getting a viable egg.
1067
00:56:55,745 --> 00:56:59,682
I knew somebody through business who said,
"Get my surrogate to do it for you."
1068
00:57:01,518 --> 00:57:05,011
My doctor, when he first
examined Jennifer, said,
1069
00:57:05,088 --> 00:57:07,989
"You know, this woman
is like a walking baby carrier."
1070
00:57:08,057 --> 00:57:09,525
Like, this is, like, great.
1071
00:57:09,793 --> 00:57:11,818
When you surrogate,
you just have to have a strong mind-set
1072
00:57:11,895 --> 00:57:13,989
that you're kind of babysitting
for nine months.
1073
00:57:14,063 --> 00:57:16,589
You know, I'm holding on to it,
I'm gonna take care of it for you,
1074
00:57:16,666 --> 00:57:17,895
and then I'm handing it off.
1075
00:57:19,469 --> 00:57:21,130
[Lauren] Was it expensive
to do a surrogate?
1076
00:57:21,204 --> 00:57:22,137
Very.
1077
00:57:23,473 --> 00:57:26,443
[Lauren] And what did you need
the extra money for?
1078
00:57:26,509 --> 00:57:28,136
Right now, we have a three bedroom,
one bath,
1079
00:57:28,978 --> 00:57:32,710
which I'm okay with it.
It... But, I don't know.
1080
00:57:33,950 --> 00:57:35,679
Bigger is better, right?
[chuckles]
1081
00:57:36,152 --> 00:57:39,713
Jennifer was great
in the sense that it was my thing.
1082
00:57:40,123 --> 00:57:41,716
She did what I wanted her to do.
1083
00:57:41,791 --> 00:57:44,192
And so I micromanaged
pretty much every aspect of it.
1084
00:57:44,461 --> 00:57:46,088
She thinks about things
like I never thought about.
1085
00:57:46,162 --> 00:57:47,652
Not standing in front of the microwave,
1086
00:57:47,730 --> 00:57:49,164
because it would affect me
getting pregnant,
1087
00:57:49,232 --> 00:57:51,223
or don't drink out of Styrofoam cups,
1088
00:57:51,501 --> 00:57:53,993
no sugar substitutes.
[chuckles]
1089
00:57:54,070 --> 00:57:57,199
[Lauren] Was your husband
equally committed to having a baby?
1090
00:57:57,807 --> 00:58:00,868
Um, you know, the answer is no.
1091
00:58:02,078 --> 00:58:05,742
The reality is,
after the fifth or sixth try,
1092
00:58:05,815 --> 00:58:07,476
he was no longer that interested.
1093
00:58:07,550 --> 00:58:11,817
So, it was really
a very solo journey for me.
1094
00:58:12,722 --> 00:58:16,852
It's me, myself, and I, and my worth,
1095
00:58:16,926 --> 00:58:19,486
which is net worth, nothing else.
1096
00:58:20,697 --> 00:58:23,564
[Florian] I had homes
of 20,000 square feet
1097
00:58:23,633 --> 00:58:26,933
I'd never spent a night in,
because I was too busy working.
1098
00:58:27,704 --> 00:58:29,570
Hard to believe if you do the math,
1099
00:58:29,639 --> 00:58:32,870
but in busy days,
300 to 500 telephone calls a day.
1100
00:58:32,942 --> 00:58:35,138
I think the first time he retired,
he had a lot of money already.
1101
00:58:35,211 --> 00:58:36,178
I don't know how much.
1102
00:58:36,246 --> 00:58:40,911
He could have stopped working
and led a family life if he had wanted to.
1103
00:58:42,886 --> 00:58:46,049
[Florian] We were renting a castle
in France, in the boondocks.
1104
00:58:47,090 --> 00:58:49,024
- [cow mooing]
- There was no cell signal.
1105
00:58:49,092 --> 00:58:50,856
My kids still today laugh,
1106
00:58:50,927 --> 00:58:53,021
when they say I was climbing
on the highest peaks,
1107
00:58:53,897 --> 00:58:57,595
holding up my telephone to get a signal.
1108
00:58:57,667 --> 00:59:01,126
That vacation cost me at least
three or four million in foregone profit.
1109
00:59:02,772 --> 00:59:03,898
[Conrad] My dad was always, like,
1110
00:59:03,973 --> 00:59:05,771
completely disinterested
in the family life.
1111
00:59:07,544 --> 00:59:09,706
We found out he had an affair.
1112
00:59:10,680 --> 00:59:13,672
I think she was either a stripper
or a go-go dancer?
1113
00:59:14,217 --> 00:59:15,878
[Lauren] How is she different
from your wife?
1114
00:59:16,719 --> 00:59:21,247
Uh... This is hilarious,
yes, fake breasts.
1115
00:59:22,091 --> 00:59:25,026
Very commercially-minded.
[laughs]
1116
00:59:25,728 --> 00:59:29,255
[Lauren]
Well, tell me about this intense, uh...
1117
00:59:30,667 --> 00:59:35,161
love for excess,
whether it's money, women...
1118
00:59:35,238 --> 00:59:37,206
- Work.
- [Lauren] Work.
1119
00:59:37,273 --> 00:59:38,798
[laughs]
1120
00:59:38,875 --> 00:59:40,866
How can a 100-hour workweek
1121
00:59:40,944 --> 00:59:45,347
not compromise your relationship
with anything that's worthwhile?
1122
00:59:45,982 --> 00:59:47,973
[foreboding music]
1123
00:59:48,985 --> 00:59:50,248
[camera shutter clicking]
1124
00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:53,187
[Lauren] As I went deeper
into my subjects' obsessions...
1125
00:59:55,158 --> 00:59:57,286
I was surprised they reflected my own.
1126
00:59:57,360 --> 00:59:58,293
[cameraman] We're rolling.
1127
00:59:58,962 --> 01:00:00,054
Here you go.
1128
01:00:01,965 --> 01:00:04,866
[Lauren] And I remember
when I photographed Shelly,
1129
01:00:04,934 --> 01:00:07,130
one of the anorexic girls in Thin.
1130
01:00:08,304 --> 01:00:10,671
She said, "Work is your addiction."
1131
01:00:12,141 --> 01:00:14,303
[foreboding music]
1132
01:00:18,881 --> 01:00:20,144
[Lauren]
1133
01:00:20,216 --> 01:00:22,241
[Lauren laughing]
1134
01:00:22,318 --> 01:00:24,184
[Lauren]
1135
01:00:27,290 --> 01:00:28,314
Yes.
1136
01:00:29,158 --> 01:00:30,626
Slop!
1137
01:00:36,933 --> 01:00:39,265
[Lauren laughing]
1138
01:00:44,774 --> 01:00:46,970
[Lauren] Why do you think
I have a problem?
1139
01:00:48,845 --> 01:00:49,835
[Gabriel] Hmm.
1140
01:00:51,180 --> 01:00:53,706
You're filming every second of our lives.
1141
01:00:55,184 --> 01:00:57,243
[Lauren] Do you...
Do you think I'm a workaholic?
1142
01:00:58,421 --> 01:00:59,820
A workaholic?
1143
01:01:01,190 --> 01:01:02,385
Yeah, like...
1144
01:01:03,326 --> 01:01:05,351
And your mom is even more than you.
1145
01:01:06,295 --> 01:01:08,263
[Lauren] And do you think Noah's similar?
1146
01:01:09,399 --> 01:01:12,767
Yeah, Noah is a little Lauren, definitely.
1147
01:01:13,369 --> 01:01:16,066
[Lauren] Noah might be more intense
than me.
1148
01:01:16,139 --> 01:01:19,700
One, two, forty-one, three,
1149
01:01:20,209 --> 01:01:21,768
four, light and quick.
1150
01:01:22,445 --> 01:01:25,710
[Patricia] Where did the addiction
to work come from, do you think?
1151
01:01:25,782 --> 01:01:26,943
[Lauren] I think it came from you.
1152
01:01:27,016 --> 01:01:30,316
I think you're a way bigger workaholic
than I am.
1153
01:01:30,386 --> 01:01:34,323
No, you're a way bigger workaholic
than I am.
1154
01:01:34,390 --> 01:01:36,825
How long is the longest
you've gone on a shoot?
1155
01:01:36,893 --> 01:01:39,191
I would say six weeks or two months.
1156
01:01:39,262 --> 01:01:43,256
I never went away that long. Never!
[laughing]
1157
01:01:44,734 --> 01:01:46,702
I don't know,
I had a lot more time with Dad.
1158
01:01:47,470 --> 01:01:50,098
- [Lauren] Did Dad kind of compensate?
- [Noah] Yeah.
1159
01:01:50,940 --> 01:01:56,140
# Nothing's gonna change my world #
1160
01:01:56,212 --> 01:01:58,476
[Lauren] It made Frank have
that very close connection...
1161
01:02:00,983 --> 01:02:03,247
which has sustained us since that time.
1162
01:02:03,319 --> 01:02:05,219
[indistinct chatter]
1163
01:02:05,888 --> 01:02:08,755
[Lauren] It allows me to travel
and do the work.
1164
01:02:12,328 --> 01:02:13,955
- Mommy!
- [Lauren] What?
1165
01:02:15,832 --> 01:02:16,958
[Noah] Mommy!
1166
01:02:20,503 --> 01:02:23,302
I just kind of grew up
with you not really being around.
1167
01:02:25,074 --> 01:02:28,476
It sounds kind of bad,
but I think the damage is already done.
1168
01:02:29,145 --> 01:02:30,135
[Lauren sighs]
1169
01:02:34,350 --> 01:02:35,442
Are you okay?
1170
01:02:37,520 --> 01:02:38,453
Yeah?
1171
01:02:47,230 --> 01:02:49,460
[line ringing]
1172
01:02:50,399 --> 01:02:52,094
[automated voice]
Your call has been forwarded
1173
01:02:52,168 --> 01:02:54,830
to an automatic voice message system.
At the tone...
1174
01:02:54,904 --> 01:02:56,338
[Lauren] I haven't gotten to talk
to him yet.
1175
01:02:56,405 --> 01:02:57,895
He called Frank, and...
1176
01:02:58,441 --> 01:03:00,910
Noah just got a perfect score on his ACT.
1177
01:03:01,511 --> 01:03:02,979
[laughs]
1178
01:03:03,446 --> 01:03:05,175
- [phone beeping]
- Hey, Noah, it's Mom.
1179
01:03:05,248 --> 01:03:07,546
Give me a call, uh,
when you're out of class.
1180
01:03:07,817 --> 01:03:09,012
Okay, bye. Love you.
1181
01:03:12,221 --> 01:03:13,780
I think he's just happy.
1182
01:03:13,856 --> 01:03:16,985
He worked hard.
It's his achievement, you know?
1183
01:03:18,995 --> 01:03:21,828
He didn't even call me to tell me.
It's just like he's happy.
1184
01:03:21,898 --> 01:03:22,865
[sniffles]
1185
01:03:25,101 --> 01:03:27,092
[somber music]
1186
01:03:32,141 --> 01:03:35,543
[Lauren] I've always thought
that balance was kind of overrated.
1187
01:03:35,812 --> 01:03:36,836
Shit.
1188
01:03:37,814 --> 01:03:39,043
Oh, fuck.
1189
01:03:40,149 --> 01:03:44,586
I'm often chasing my own obsessions
with as much adrenaline as my subjects.
1190
01:03:47,190 --> 01:03:49,989
Even though I wasn't going
for tons of money,
1191
01:03:50,059 --> 01:03:51,493
or the perfect body,
1192
01:03:52,361 --> 01:03:54,989
I was always looking for more and more.
1193
01:03:56,299 --> 01:03:59,098
[Lauren] I'm gonna be pretty wide,
so you'll have to be behind me.
1194
01:03:59,168 --> 01:04:00,533
Let's see, let's see how this works.
1195
01:04:00,603 --> 01:04:03,072
- Okay, look at me.
- [camera shutter clicks]
1196
01:04:03,139 --> 01:04:05,836
Right. You can look up like than,
like you were a second ago. Yeah.
1197
01:04:05,908 --> 01:04:08,138
[shutter clicks]
1198
01:04:08,211 --> 01:04:09,872
[Lauren] Look up again like you just were.
1199
01:04:10,580 --> 01:04:12,139
- [camera shutter clicks]
- Beautiful.
1200
01:04:13,115 --> 01:04:15,106
[somber music]
1201
01:04:15,184 --> 01:04:17,243
[Cathy] I don't think I'm meeting
my fitness goals.
1202
01:04:18,254 --> 01:04:20,052
I would love to see this fixed.
1203
01:04:20,122 --> 01:04:23,319
I would love to see my thighs fixed.
1204
01:04:24,227 --> 01:04:26,218
My butt needs to be fixed!
1205
01:04:27,897 --> 01:04:30,332
[Lauren] I saw a similar addiction
1206
01:04:30,399 --> 01:04:32,390
among women with eating disorders.
1207
01:04:35,872 --> 01:04:37,567
[Shelly] I would lose five pounds,
1208
01:04:37,640 --> 01:04:40,109
and it still wasn't good enough.
1209
01:04:41,944 --> 01:04:45,039
And I'd lose five more,
and it still wasn't good enough.
1210
01:04:47,283 --> 01:04:50,116
[Mickie] The fame, it's such a rush.
1211
01:04:50,186 --> 01:04:52,416
You know, the instant tweets
and instant posts.
1212
01:04:52,488 --> 01:04:53,614
Wow!
1213
01:04:54,557 --> 01:04:58,289
[Lil Magic] Every day, I see some dancers
that are addicted to the pole.
1214
01:04:58,361 --> 01:04:59,522
Um, to the pole money.
1215
01:05:01,597 --> 01:05:05,363
[Florian] Success becomes
its own perpetual vehicle.
1216
01:05:05,434 --> 01:05:08,460
You're part of this game
where the more, the better again.
1217
01:05:09,906 --> 01:05:12,375
And a billion is better
than a hundred million.
1218
01:05:13,142 --> 01:05:15,076
I was a hamster...
1219
01:05:15,578 --> 01:05:18,104
in a diamond-studded gold wheel.
1220
01:05:20,349 --> 01:05:22,340
[Tiffany] You sell your soul to the devil,
1221
01:05:23,619 --> 01:05:27,249
'cause you get burnt out so bad,
that you just numb it.
1222
01:05:28,557 --> 01:05:32,016
Where you don't feel
the hand on your ass anymore.
1223
01:05:32,695 --> 01:05:34,220
We detach.
1224
01:05:34,497 --> 01:05:36,488
And then you put on the game again.
1225
01:05:37,199 --> 01:05:39,099
If not, it destroys you.
1226
01:05:40,369 --> 01:05:43,134
[Mikayla] There is this place
that is too far,
1227
01:05:43,205 --> 01:05:44,673
and everyone ends up there.
1228
01:05:45,541 --> 01:05:48,101
When money is success,
1229
01:05:48,644 --> 01:05:51,079
it's impossible to not want to keep going.
1230
01:05:51,147 --> 01:05:52,308
Why wouldn't you?
1231
01:05:52,615 --> 01:05:55,482
'Cause if a lot is good, more is better.
1232
01:05:56,519 --> 01:05:59,716
[Florian] You were trapped
in your own ambition.
1233
01:05:59,989 --> 01:06:01,548
[female reporter]
Right now, breaking news here,
1234
01:06:01,624 --> 01:06:04,992
stocks all around the world are tanking
because of...
1235
01:06:05,061 --> 01:06:08,156
[Florian] Capital, like any other resource
in excess,
1236
01:06:08,230 --> 01:06:13,168
will cause utter social
and economic havoc.
1237
01:06:23,346 --> 01:06:26,509
[Lauren] When the financial crash
of 2008 happened,
1238
01:06:27,350 --> 01:06:30,581
it felt like a global tsunami
of devastation.
1239
01:06:36,125 --> 01:06:38,321
There were eerily similar scenes
1240
01:06:39,095 --> 01:06:41,257
in all the places hardest hit.
1241
01:06:42,098 --> 01:06:43,463
Which I followed.
1242
01:06:47,703 --> 01:06:49,296
[Lauren] And what about your house?
1243
01:06:50,206 --> 01:06:51,435
[man #2] We are in foreclosure.
1244
01:06:52,575 --> 01:06:57,012
[Lauren] And what's it like as a man,
as the breadwinner, to go through this?
1245
01:06:57,079 --> 01:06:58,012
Degrading.
1246
01:06:58,381 --> 01:07:02,045
[man #2] You know, after trying so hard
to keep something you love so much...
1247
01:07:03,519 --> 01:07:05,009
and then they wanna come and take it.
1248
01:07:08,691 --> 01:07:10,682
[gloomy music]
1249
01:07:18,234 --> 01:07:20,100
I was just...
[sobs]
1250
01:07:20,169 --> 01:07:23,366
I was just trying to make a home
for me and my daughter.
1251
01:07:24,306 --> 01:07:26,206
That's all I was trying to do.
1252
01:07:29,445 --> 01:07:32,574
[Lauren] When even David
and Jackie Siegel's dream home
1253
01:07:32,648 --> 01:07:36,209
ended up with a fetid pool
and facing foreclosure,
1254
01:07:37,620 --> 01:07:39,748
for me, it was almost like a symbol
1255
01:07:39,822 --> 01:07:43,156
of our collective greed and its price.
1256
01:07:44,293 --> 01:07:46,125
[indistinct chatter]
1257
01:07:46,462 --> 01:07:50,057
[Florian] In my path
to fairly quick wealth,
1258
01:07:50,132 --> 01:07:51,497
that made some enemies.
1259
01:07:51,567 --> 01:07:53,695
You know, I would get a threat
or a lawsuit, I said,
1260
01:07:54,370 --> 01:07:59,331
"Take a ticket,
walk to position 134 in the line.
1261
01:07:59,408 --> 01:08:00,432
Fuck off."
1262
01:08:02,344 --> 01:08:04,438
There were allegations against me.
1263
01:08:05,181 --> 01:08:09,118
They basically said I've conspired
to defraud.
1264
01:08:09,185 --> 01:08:12,678
Our CIO, Florian Homm,
resigned unexpectedly,
1265
01:08:12,755 --> 01:08:14,382
in a rather dramatic way.
1266
01:08:14,457 --> 01:08:16,687
[TV reporter] Florian Homm
absconded to Colombia.
1267
01:08:16,759 --> 01:08:19,694
The FCC alleges
that he defrauded investors
1268
01:08:19,762 --> 01:08:22,094
out of about 200 million dollars.
1269
01:08:22,164 --> 01:08:25,657
I packed up a few things
and I found my way to Colombia.
1270
01:08:25,734 --> 01:08:27,828
[Lauren] Tell me about packing up
a few things.
1271
01:08:28,104 --> 01:08:30,436
You know, the Euro bills are so compact,
1272
01:08:30,506 --> 01:08:33,373
500 Euros, it's like almost
a 700-dollar bill.
1273
01:08:34,243 --> 01:08:37,873
And you can literally pack
half a million bucks on you.
1274
01:08:38,147 --> 01:08:39,842
You have these elastic bands which...
1275
01:08:40,649 --> 01:08:43,812
uh, in your Calvin Klein underwear,
that you can stuff them there,
1276
01:08:43,886 --> 01:08:47,186
and they rarely pat you
in your, well, genital area.
1277
01:08:47,890 --> 01:08:50,757
At the time, I was very attached
to money still, literally.
1278
01:08:50,826 --> 01:08:52,294
[laughs]
1279
01:08:55,231 --> 01:08:56,756
[TV reporter] Well, after five years
on the lam,
1280
01:08:56,832 --> 01:08:58,527
Florian Homm finally nabbed.
1281
01:08:58,601 --> 01:09:02,435
He faces four counts of conspiracy,
wire fraud, and security fraud.
1282
01:09:03,172 --> 01:09:06,836
The American justice
had me arrested in Italy.
1283
01:09:06,909 --> 01:09:11,745
I end up in Florence prison,
in a cell of 20-square yards,
1284
01:09:12,448 --> 01:09:15,679
with mentally deranged, violent criminals.
1285
01:09:16,819 --> 01:09:19,345
I felt horrible.
1286
01:09:20,156 --> 01:09:23,319
Abandoned. Completely abandoned.
1287
01:09:23,392 --> 01:09:25,326
[gates clanging]
1288
01:09:27,263 --> 01:09:29,698
[Florian] I was completely estranged
from my children.
1289
01:09:30,599 --> 01:09:34,365
So if a provider no longer provides,
what's his purpose?
1290
01:09:35,604 --> 01:09:36,833
What's my purpose?
1291
01:09:39,608 --> 01:09:42,669
[Paris] As a kid who came
from a rock star family
1292
01:09:42,745 --> 01:09:44,873
who had every advantage,
1293
01:09:45,681 --> 01:09:48,241
I just kind of, like,
"I shouldn't even try."
1294
01:09:48,317 --> 01:09:50,251
I'm never going to get here.
1295
01:09:50,319 --> 01:09:53,550
So, why try to get here?
'Cause that's never...
1296
01:09:53,622 --> 01:09:55,249
That's not good enough.
You know what I mean?
1297
01:09:55,324 --> 01:09:59,283
I'm not a rock star. I'm a bartender.
I'm a server, I'm a...
1298
01:09:59,361 --> 01:10:01,955
whatever job I had to, you know, get by.
1299
01:10:02,631 --> 01:10:06,864
I had to numb just to be able
to deal with the mundane life.
1300
01:10:07,436 --> 01:10:08,767
I definitely didn't set out
1301
01:10:08,837 --> 01:10:12,432
to become addicted to,
you know, pretty hard opiates,
1302
01:10:12,508 --> 01:10:14,806
and for, like, two or three months,
I started smoking crack.
1303
01:10:14,877 --> 01:10:15,935
[chuckles]
1304
01:10:16,212 --> 01:10:18,408
[Paris] You know, I did any type
of painkiller,
1305
01:10:18,480 --> 01:10:21,472
and those kind of make you feel
warm and fuzzy,
1306
01:10:21,550 --> 01:10:25,214
and I used to say it was like the hug
I never got as a kid kind of thing.
1307
01:10:25,287 --> 01:10:27,449
[somber music]
1308
01:10:30,526 --> 01:10:31,755
[Gabriel] "Legacy."
1309
01:10:31,827 --> 01:10:35,286
"Some days I wear legacy like a weight,
1310
01:10:35,364 --> 01:10:36,889
too big a burden to bear,
1311
01:10:37,366 --> 01:10:40,267
like something that's just out of reach.
1312
01:10:40,336 --> 01:10:42,634
Legacy is how I run some days,
1313
01:10:42,705 --> 01:10:45,675
trying to keep up
with my family's achievements.
1314
01:10:45,741 --> 01:10:48,972
Legacy is my brother getting
a perfect ACT score,
1315
01:10:49,245 --> 01:10:51,646
36 out of 36.
1316
01:10:51,714 --> 01:10:53,842
And I remember crying that night,
1317
01:10:53,916 --> 01:10:57,819
'cause I didn't know if I would be able
to get such a good score,
1318
01:10:57,886 --> 01:11:00,685
and wondering if my parents
would still be proud of me.
1319
01:11:01,523 --> 01:11:03,685
Some days, legacy haunts me,
1320
01:11:03,792 --> 01:11:06,284
like an idea that's stuck in your brain,
1321
01:11:06,362 --> 01:11:08,660
and no matter how much you try
and ignore it,
1322
01:11:08,731 --> 01:11:10,699
it never gets out of your head.
1323
01:11:10,766 --> 01:11:12,734
Legacy is my life."
1324
01:11:13,302 --> 01:11:15,862
[laughing]
Very good.
1325
01:11:16,572 --> 01:11:18,370
That's great. Wow.
1326
01:11:18,974 --> 01:11:20,703
[Lauren] You wrote that today?
1327
01:11:21,844 --> 01:11:23,278
Yeah, I did.
1328
01:11:23,746 --> 01:11:25,714
[Lauren] How did you feel
the pressure of legacy?
1329
01:11:27,516 --> 01:11:29,541
[Noah] Uh, because both my parents
went to Harvard.
1330
01:11:32,688 --> 01:11:36,022
- You're such a weirdo!
- [Lauren laughs]
1331
01:11:36,892 --> 01:11:38,360
Dad, do you see this?
1332
01:11:39,862 --> 01:11:41,387
[Lauren] Why do you feel the pre--
1333
01:11:41,964 --> 01:11:43,659
[Frank] Why do you feel the pressure
of legacy?
1334
01:11:43,732 --> 01:11:45,860
- I'm asking Noah.
- Why do you feel the pressure of legacy?
1335
01:11:45,934 --> 01:11:47,993
I don't want Noah
to feel the pressure of legacy.
1336
01:11:48,070 --> 01:11:49,834
[Frank]
But why have you acted like someone
1337
01:11:49,905 --> 01:11:51,873
who's had enormous pressure
of legacy on you?
1338
01:11:52,641 --> 01:11:54,507
I had that, too, with my parents.
1339
01:11:54,576 --> 01:11:56,340
My parents went to Harvard, too.
1340
01:12:01,850 --> 01:12:03,579
[Lauren] And do you think
I was a happy child?
1341
01:12:04,320 --> 01:12:06,914
[laughs]
Do you think you were a happy child?
1342
01:12:06,989 --> 01:12:09,981
[Lauren] I don't know, I remember
a lot of anxieties and insecurities.
1343
01:12:10,059 --> 01:12:11,549
Really? What kind?
1344
01:12:11,894 --> 01:12:14,363
[Lauren] Just, uh, I don't know.
1345
01:12:14,430 --> 01:12:16,762
I think probably coming
from divorce, and...
1346
01:12:17,466 --> 01:12:20,800
- Mm-hm
- [Lauren] You know, maybe your being away,
1347
01:12:20,869 --> 01:12:24,567
I don't know.
But I just always remember being anxious.
1348
01:12:24,640 --> 01:12:26,438
Mm Mm-hm.
1349
01:12:28,977 --> 01:12:30,467
[Lauren] Wham do you remember?
1350
01:12:32,014 --> 01:12:34,039
Okay, let me actually go back.
1351
01:12:35,884 --> 01:12:39,684
[Patricia] When I had you, I had a PhD.
1352
01:12:39,755 --> 01:12:44,022
I was a graduate student
in culture and human development.
1353
01:12:45,627 --> 01:12:47,686
The women's movement was just starting.
1354
01:12:47,763 --> 01:12:50,562
[women] Women are powerful! Join us now!
1355
01:12:50,632 --> 01:12:54,125
[Patricia] I suddenly realized
I was doing all of the childcare.
1356
01:12:54,403 --> 01:12:56,462
My career was going down the tubes.
1357
01:12:56,538 --> 01:12:58,870
Your dad was just focusing on his career.
1358
01:13:00,042 --> 01:13:02,010
We decided to separate.
1359
01:13:02,077 --> 01:13:05,638
And I knew I wouldn't lose touch with you
1360
01:13:05,714 --> 01:13:08,877
if I wasn't with you, um,
five days a week,
1361
01:13:08,951 --> 01:13:11,010
and I was just with you on the weekends.
1362
01:13:11,086 --> 01:13:13,646
[Lauren] Let's just talk about the fact
that you got a job
1363
01:13:13,722 --> 01:13:16,623
in another city from Dad,
and we lived with Dad.
1364
01:13:17,059 --> 01:13:20,962
[Patricia] He wanted to be
physically close to you most of the time.
1365
01:13:21,029 --> 01:13:24,465
And in general,
mothers don't need to be close
1366
01:13:24,533 --> 01:13:26,627
to their children geographically
1367
01:13:26,702 --> 01:13:29,933
to keep the attachment
in the relationship.
1368
01:13:30,472 --> 01:13:33,772
I understand, years later,
that you felt abandoned,
1369
01:13:33,842 --> 01:13:37,745
but, you know, then that's understandable,
because we had been very close.
1370
01:13:39,415 --> 01:13:42,043
[Lauren] And did you come
to visit us every weekend?
1371
01:13:42,117 --> 01:13:48,079
[Patricia] No, you traveled to Santa Cruz
every weekend with Mathew on the plane.
1372
01:13:48,157 --> 01:13:49,682
[Lauren] Was that unusual at the time
1373
01:13:49,758 --> 01:13:52,750
for a 5-year-old and a 7-year-old
to be traveling alone?
1374
01:13:56,465 --> 01:13:58,729
[laughs]
1375
01:14:03,572 --> 01:14:07,008
I had a very, very tortured relationship
with my mother.
1376
01:14:07,075 --> 01:14:09,772
My mother didn't work.
Her priorities were different.
1377
01:14:09,845 --> 01:14:11,176
We always had tons of help,
1378
01:14:11,447 --> 01:14:15,884
and people, other than my mother,
taking care of us,
1379
01:14:15,951 --> 01:14:17,612
even though she didn't work.
1380
01:14:18,153 --> 01:14:20,451
[Lauren] So you want to be different
than she was?
1381
01:14:20,522 --> 01:14:23,116
I think when you go through the journey
that I went through to become a mother,
1382
01:14:23,192 --> 01:14:26,093
like, you embrace every aspect of it.
1383
01:14:26,161 --> 01:14:28,129
Any time I would tell her anything,
she would freak out.
1384
01:14:28,197 --> 01:14:30,495
So, I started having contractions
early in the morning,
1385
01:14:30,566 --> 01:14:33,194
and I text her, and I'm like,
"Don't panic, but..."
1386
01:14:33,469 --> 01:14:34,732
And, of course, I panicked.
1387
01:14:34,803 --> 01:14:36,794
She came three-and-a-half months early.
1388
01:14:37,539 --> 01:14:40,634
I had left the labor and delivery room,
went out into the hallway,
1389
01:14:40,709 --> 01:14:42,507
and was really kind of losing it.
1390
01:14:42,578 --> 01:14:43,841
And the doctor came out and said,
1391
01:14:43,912 --> 01:14:45,710
"You've gotta come right now,
we're having a baby."
1392
01:14:45,781 --> 01:14:47,510
You know, I remember looking at him,
and saying,
1393
01:14:47,583 --> 01:14:48,914
"Where did you go to medical school?"
1394
01:14:49,751 --> 01:14:52,618
And he told me where, and I was like,
"That doesn't work for me!"
1395
01:14:52,688 --> 01:14:54,122
Um, to his credit,
he looked at me and said,
1396
01:14:54,189 --> 01:14:55,657
"Lady, I'm all you got right now."
1397
01:14:56,024 --> 01:14:59,688
And then around one, two o'clock
in the morning, our water burst.
1398
01:14:59,761 --> 01:15:01,752
It was over, and, you know,
they, they grab her.
1399
01:15:01,830 --> 01:15:03,764
I mean, she was the size of my hand.
1400
01:15:04,199 --> 01:15:06,691
Um, and they grab her
and they put her on a table,
1401
01:15:06,768 --> 01:15:08,099
and they put them in a plastic bag.
1402
01:15:08,170 --> 01:15:10,264
And there was a team
often people around her,
1403
01:15:10,539 --> 01:15:12,803
so you can't even see what's going on.
1404
01:15:12,875 --> 01:15:14,172
And I just remember being...
1405
01:15:15,677 --> 01:15:17,702
absolutely terrified.
1406
01:15:19,181 --> 01:15:21,013
'Cause they prepare you for the worst.
1407
01:15:24,520 --> 01:15:26,545
I wanted her more
than anything in the world.
1408
01:15:31,727 --> 01:15:33,889
[somber music]
1409
01:15:41,837 --> 01:15:44,898
[Kacey] After the Charlie Sheen
media blowout,
1410
01:15:44,973 --> 01:15:45,872
the, the scandal.
1411
01:15:47,543 --> 01:15:50,103
I was constantly getting followed,
1412
01:15:50,779 --> 01:15:52,804
like a normal celebrity probably would.
1413
01:15:53,749 --> 01:15:55,547
I started feeling really bad.
1414
01:15:55,617 --> 01:15:57,585
- [Indistinct chatter]
- [reporter] Kacey!
1415
01:15:57,653 --> 01:15:59,815
[Kacey] This is, like, a lifestyle
that maybe I would've wanted,
1416
01:15:59,888 --> 01:16:03,620
but the fame, it did more, like,
1417
01:16:03,692 --> 01:16:06,127
long-term damage to me
than I thought it could.
1418
01:16:06,194 --> 01:16:07,821
[sobbing]
1419
01:16:08,163 --> 01:16:09,722
[male actor] Hey, what's up, baby?
1420
01:16:09,798 --> 01:16:10,993
[cameraman] Hey, you okay?
1421
01:16:11,066 --> 01:16:13,967
- I can't do it!
- [cameraman] You can do it!
1422
01:16:14,036 --> 01:16:16,630
- You're doing good so far...
- [cameraman] You're doing good!
1423
01:16:16,705 --> 01:16:18,070
[sobbing]
1424
01:16:18,140 --> 01:16:20,040
[cameraman] You're doing fine.
1425
01:16:20,108 --> 01:16:22,099
- [woman #4] You're doing good.
- No!
1426
01:16:22,177 --> 01:16:25,203
[Kacey] "What is she doing?
Oh, she tries to kill herself."
1427
01:16:25,280 --> 01:16:28,341
This is Alprazolam, a.k.a. Xanax.
1428
01:16:29,217 --> 01:16:30,776
This is Advil PM.
1429
01:16:31,787 --> 01:16:33,687
[sighs]
Let's watch me die.
1430
01:16:33,989 --> 01:16:34,854
[rattles]
1431
01:16:36,158 --> 01:16:38,855
[somber music]
1432
01:16:40,262 --> 01:16:41,229
[gulps]
1433
01:16:42,197 --> 01:16:43,892
[sighs]
1434
01:16:45,634 --> 01:16:47,625
[sniffles]
Goodbye.
1435
01:16:54,276 --> 01:16:56,904
[Kacey] I wanted to reinvent myself.
1436
01:16:56,979 --> 01:16:59,971
I needed surgery
just to make myself feel better.
1437
01:17:01,350 --> 01:17:02,840
I started off with my boobs.
1438
01:17:03,619 --> 01:17:05,883
I did three nose jobs.
1439
01:17:05,954 --> 01:17:09,720
Another reason for the bigger boobs
and the different me
1440
01:17:09,791 --> 01:17:13,887
was because the fetishes
were generally, like, me being underage.
1441
01:17:13,962 --> 01:17:17,762
It's rare for a grown adult
just like me, a woman,
1442
01:17:17,833 --> 01:17:20,962
to have the body of, like, a 14-year-old.
1443
01:17:21,036 --> 01:17:23,027
So, that was why it sold so much.
1444
01:17:23,105 --> 01:17:26,939
I've become this, like, new persona
that I've created. Daveney.
1445
01:17:27,643 --> 01:17:30,010
That was like my way of like,
kind of, finally growing up.
1446
01:17:30,078 --> 01:17:31,773
[coughs]
Speaking of...
1447
01:17:31,847 --> 01:17:33,212
[sighs]
1448
01:17:33,281 --> 01:17:35,215
The morning sickness.
[chuckles]
1449
01:17:35,283 --> 01:17:37,274
Whew, okay, um...
1450
01:17:38,020 --> 01:17:39,749
I'm actually pregnant now.
[chuckles]
1451
01:17:40,155 --> 01:17:41,850
Uh, it's my 11th time.
1452
01:17:43,058 --> 01:17:46,323
I think it's a good time,
so I'm deciding to go through with it.
1453
01:17:46,962 --> 01:17:49,829
And I just decided that on Sunday.
1454
01:17:49,898 --> 01:17:51,889
Yesterday.
[laughs]
1455
01:17:51,967 --> 01:17:52,866
Yeah.
1456
01:18:03,445 --> 01:18:07,712
[Cathy] Immediately after Brazil,
I was never comfortable financially.
1457
01:18:09,284 --> 01:18:12,447
I was just thinking,
"How do I pick up normal life,
1458
01:18:12,721 --> 01:18:16,021
keep them in school,
and find ways to pay off this debt?"
1459
01:18:16,091 --> 01:18:17,388
[Lauren] And were you working full-time
1460
01:18:17,459 --> 01:18:19,257
- as a bus driver that whole time?
- Yes, yes.
1461
01:18:19,327 --> 01:18:21,796
So, why didn't you have enough money
if you had a full-time job?
1462
01:18:21,863 --> 01:18:23,092
Because they don't pay!
1463
01:18:24,366 --> 01:18:28,701
Money, dollars, dinero, is what it takes.
1464
01:18:29,171 --> 01:18:30,366
[sighs]
1465
01:18:31,139 --> 01:18:34,302
[Cathy] My parents supplemented
some of my monthly budget.
1466
01:18:34,376 --> 01:18:36,208
And after I'd had the surgery...
1467
01:18:37,813 --> 01:18:41,078
I couldn't have asked them
to keep paying for how we live,
1468
01:18:41,149 --> 01:18:43,481
when I went and got this thing
which could seem to be a luxury.
1469
01:18:44,486 --> 01:18:46,181
[Lauren] And how long
did you live in the car?
1470
01:18:46,254 --> 01:18:48,245
[Cathy] I can't even count how long.
1471
01:18:48,323 --> 01:18:50,792
You don't tally ii along the way.
You will go crazy.
1472
01:18:51,326 --> 01:18:53,317
My mother had wanted custody.
1473
01:18:53,395 --> 01:18:55,887
She knew that I couldn't pay my rent
in 2008.
1474
01:18:56,264 --> 01:18:58,164
And I never wanted
to surrender my children,
1475
01:18:58,233 --> 01:19:00,429
but I didn't have enough money
to keep them.
1476
01:19:03,338 --> 01:19:06,968
I know that if I had gotten
my crap together with more money...
1477
01:19:08,143 --> 01:19:09,269
she wouldn't be dead.
1478
01:19:09,911 --> 01:19:12,846
She wasn't just a self-destructive girl.
She was a good child.
1479
01:19:13,515 --> 01:19:16,348
And sometimes, I think,
"Oh, Jaz wants to come visit..."
1480
01:19:16,418 --> 01:19:18,386
[inhales]
...for a minute.
1481
01:19:25,127 --> 01:19:27,061
[Cathy] It's in my CD changer in the car.
1482
01:19:27,129 --> 01:19:29,461
Sometimes I'll forget or get distracted,
1483
01:19:29,531 --> 01:19:33,331
and the CD will tum over
and I hear the 911 call.
1484
01:19:35,837 --> 01:19:38,101
[911 operator] Fairfax County 911,
where is your emergency?
1485
01:19:38,440 --> 01:19:42,809
[grandfather] My emergency, uh,
my granddaughter, she was drunk.
1486
01:19:42,878 --> 01:19:44,846
I was taking her home, she...
1487
01:19:44,913 --> 01:19:47,109
I was probably going
about 30 miles an hour,
1488
01:19:47,182 --> 01:19:48,479
and she jumped out of the back seat
1489
01:19:48,550 --> 01:19:50,245
She opened the door, she...
1490
01:19:50,318 --> 01:19:53,549
[Cathy] The same place I birthed her
was the same place I saw her die.
1491
01:19:53,822 --> 01:19:55,813
[cardiac monitor beeping]
1492
01:19:57,225 --> 01:20:00,490
[Cathy] They had just removed
the ventilator,
1493
01:20:01,263 --> 01:20:02,560
and I could sit with her.
1494
01:20:03,298 --> 01:20:04,925
I told her I'm sorry.
1495
01:20:06,001 --> 01:20:09,494
I apologized. I told her I was sorry
that I couldn't protect her more.
1496
01:20:13,275 --> 01:20:14,936
And I had to go on living.
1497
01:20:15,010 --> 01:20:17,342
[somber music]
1498
01:20:19,414 --> 01:20:20,540
[lighter clicks]
1499
01:20:23,151 --> 01:20:25,586
[Florian] I remember a long time ago,
1500
01:20:26,521 --> 01:20:30,287
my wife and I,
we were in the most posh harbor
1501
01:20:30,358 --> 01:20:33,020
in the Balearic Islands,
in the Mediterranean.
1502
01:20:33,829 --> 01:20:37,197
And there were plenty of boats,
30, 40, 50 million, some of them for sale.
1503
01:20:37,999 --> 01:20:40,093
And then we sat down for dinner,
and I said,
1504
01:20:40,168 --> 01:20:42,865
"This one, this one, or this one?"
1505
01:20:46,208 --> 01:20:48,006
[sniffles]
1506
01:20:51,880 --> 01:20:53,211
That...
[sobs]
1507
01:20:53,915 --> 01:20:55,246
That woman said...
1508
01:20:56,318 --> 01:20:57,615
"Turn off your phone.
1509
01:20:58,620 --> 01:21:01,214
That's all I want. A nice dinner."
1510
01:21:04,159 --> 01:21:05,217
[exhales]
1511
01:21:06,127 --> 01:21:09,586
And it takes a long trip...
1512
01:21:11,900 --> 01:21:15,029
to come back to what matters.
1513
01:21:15,370 --> 01:21:16,496
The other stuff...
1514
01:21:19,875 --> 01:21:22,867
is a delusion.
It's a... It's a bullshit game.
1515
01:21:24,546 --> 01:21:27,072
[gloomy music]
1516
01:21:31,019 --> 01:21:34,478
[Florian] All of us are following
a toxic dream.
1517
01:21:36,057 --> 01:21:40,324
What you're sold in this world,
1518
01:21:40,395 --> 01:21:42,989
is a bag of rotten goods.
1519
01:21:48,403 --> 01:21:50,929
[somber music]
1520
01:21:58,446 --> 01:22:01,347
[Chris] At the end of a decayed culture...
1521
01:22:03,218 --> 01:22:07,451
we retreat into our own
comforting illusions.
1522
01:22:07,923 --> 01:22:09,118
[indistinct chatter]
1523
01:22:10,158 --> 01:22:12,320
[ominous music]
1524
01:22:13,528 --> 01:22:14,552
[camera shutter clicks]
1525
01:22:15,497 --> 01:22:20,401
[Chris] We build walls
to cope with the reality around us.
1526
01:22:21,369 --> 01:22:24,304
It's not about me,
it's about you, believe me.
1527
01:22:24,372 --> 01:22:25,999
[crowd cheering]
1528
01:22:26,574 --> 01:22:30,636
[Lil Magic] People have a hard time
separating reality from entertainment.
1529
01:22:31,279 --> 01:22:33,338
You know, because there is a line.
1530
01:22:33,415 --> 01:22:35,941
There's... It's a thick line,
it's not a thin one.
1531
01:22:36,017 --> 01:22:37,951
[applause]
1532
01:22:38,019 --> 01:22:40,511
[Chris] Corporate capitalism pushes people
1533
01:22:40,588 --> 01:22:45,583
towards this constant search
for the next adrenaline rush.
1534
01:22:46,695 --> 01:22:49,562
People seek that momentary ecstasy
1535
01:22:49,631 --> 01:22:52,464
to escape from a darker
and darker reality.
1536
01:22:52,534 --> 01:22:54,332
The population is diverted.
1537
01:22:55,036 --> 01:22:58,666
Sexual hedonism predominates
throughout the society.
1538
01:22:59,741 --> 01:23:01,675
We are dying in the same way
1539
01:23:01,743 --> 01:23:04,007
that other empires have died
throughout history.
1540
01:23:04,079 --> 01:23:05,103
[gunfire]
1541
01:23:05,180 --> 01:23:06,545
- [Chris] The difference...
- Whoo!
1542
01:23:06,614 --> 01:23:08,742
is that this time, when we go down,
1543
01:23:09,017 --> 01:23:10,451
the whole planet's gonna go with us.
1544
01:23:11,553 --> 01:23:13,248
[swans honking]
1545
01:23:20,295 --> 01:23:22,627
[Valbj�rn]
1546
01:23:59,667 --> 01:24:01,533
- [boy] Oh!
- [Valbj�rn laughs]
1547
01:24:02,504 --> 01:24:04,404
[Valbj�rn]
1548
01:24:04,672 --> 01:24:06,071
[boy speaking Icelandic]
1549
01:24:06,441 --> 01:24:08,136
[indistinct chatter]
1550
01:24:08,209 --> 01:24:09,438
[Valbj�rn speaking Icelandic]
1551
01:24:10,178 --> 01:24:11,475
[boy speaking Icelandic]
1552
01:24:12,380 --> 01:24:14,747
[both speaking Icelandic]
1553
01:24:14,816 --> 01:24:16,750
[boy speaking Icelandic]
1554
01:24:16,818 --> 01:24:18,183
[Valbj�rn speaking Icelandic]
1555
01:24:19,554 --> 01:24:22,524
[both speaking Icelandic]
1556
01:24:23,792 --> 01:24:26,557
[speaking Icelandic]
1557
01:24:30,298 --> 01:24:33,529
[Valbj�rn speaking English]
1558
01:24:40,241 --> 01:24:42,733
Dear Lord, thank you for this day.
Thank you for everything you've given us.
1559
01:24:42,811 --> 01:24:44,336
Bless this food and bless this family.
1560
01:24:44,412 --> 01:24:46,471
- [Cliff] In Jesus' name. Amen.
- [all] Amen.
1561
01:24:47,382 --> 01:24:51,410
[Lauren] When we talked in 1995,
you predicted you would be a millionaire.
1562
01:24:51,486 --> 01:24:53,420
[Cliff] I did.
And you know what so funny?
1563
01:24:53,488 --> 01:24:55,684
When we were gonna do this,
I was like "Man, you know what?
1564
01:24:55,757 --> 01:24:57,589
[snaps finger]
I told her...
1565
01:24:57,659 --> 01:25:00,253
[laughs]
I was gonna have 20 million dollars,
1566
01:25:00,328 --> 01:25:02,558
uh, on-hand cash,
1567
01:25:02,630 --> 01:25:04,689
and another 100 million dollars
in the bank."
1568
01:25:04,766 --> 01:25:06,097
[Lauren] So, did it happen?
1569
01:25:06,734 --> 01:25:09,795
Uh, no. Not, not at this moment.
1570
01:25:09,871 --> 01:25:12,841
I believe that the dream,
it's different now.
1571
01:25:14,642 --> 01:25:19,102
[Cliff] Success is showing my children
what a strong father looks like,
1572
01:25:19,180 --> 01:25:21,308
what a work ethic looks like.
1573
01:25:22,150 --> 01:25:23,811
He taught me
that just 'cause you have money
1574
01:25:23,885 --> 01:25:26,377
doesn't mean you're, like, all that.
1575
01:25:26,454 --> 01:25:29,617
A nice watch or a nice car
isn't gonna get you to college.
1576
01:25:29,691 --> 01:25:31,591
It's what you know, not what you have.
1577
01:25:32,660 --> 01:25:37,257
[Cliff] My daughter, she got a full-ride
scholarship to Cornell University.
1578
01:25:37,332 --> 01:25:38,561
She's a genius.
1579
01:25:38,633 --> 01:25:40,533
I have the big red Cornell sweater
right now.
1580
01:25:40,602 --> 01:25:42,798
I wear it every day.
I wear it around the house.
1581
01:25:42,871 --> 01:25:46,239
I would love to see all of them
go to college.
1582
01:25:46,641 --> 01:25:48,405
That's the true American Dream.
1583
01:25:52,914 --> 01:25:55,178
[Kacey] I wanted to come back home
to Oregon,
1584
01:25:55,250 --> 01:25:57,446
so I can make amends with my family,
1585
01:25:57,519 --> 01:25:59,749
and go through with the pregnancy.
1586
01:25:59,821 --> 01:26:02,813
But I lost, I lost the child, and...
1587
01:26:03,424 --> 01:26:06,621
you know, it's really hard
to kind of bounce back from that.
1588
01:26:06,694 --> 01:26:09,356
This whole year,
I've definitely felt myself
1589
01:26:09,430 --> 01:26:12,627
wanting to stop and change,
change a career path.
1590
01:26:12,700 --> 01:26:17,262
I, uh, work at Tan Republic,
which is the job that I had at 14.
1591
01:26:17,338 --> 01:26:18,328
[indistinct chatter]
1592
01:26:18,406 --> 01:26:20,636
[Kacey] It's very difficult going back
to minimum wage
1593
01:26:20,708 --> 01:26:23,268
from what I've made
these past eight, nine years.
1594
01:26:24,879 --> 01:26:26,574
There was a couple overdoses,
1595
01:26:26,648 --> 01:26:29,549
and I had over a million dollars
in medical bills.
1596
01:26:30,485 --> 01:26:33,284
I declared bankruptcy
just to start over fresh.
1597
01:26:35,857 --> 01:26:39,350
Now, anything porn or complete nudity,
1598
01:26:39,427 --> 01:26:40,917
I'm completely retired from that.
1599
01:26:42,630 --> 01:26:44,496
I really wanted to be me again.
1600
01:26:45,233 --> 01:26:47,395
I thought maybe Courtney was lost
1601
01:26:47,468 --> 01:26:52,668
amongst all the previous scandals
and my films.
1602
01:26:53,408 --> 01:26:55,604
And I feel like finally, once again...
1603
01:26:56,911 --> 01:27:00,973
I can really, really start off
with being Courtney again.
1604
01:27:04,819 --> 01:27:06,514
[cows mooing]
1605
01:27:07,922 --> 01:27:09,754
[Mickie] On any journey,
1606
01:27:09,824 --> 01:27:12,657
you sometimes have to go back
and find your roots,
1607
01:27:12,727 --> 01:27:16,220
and that's kinda what we've done
the last two years.
1608
01:27:16,297 --> 01:27:17,822
It was time to take a break.
1609
01:27:17,899 --> 01:27:18,957
[dog barking]
1610
01:27:20,969 --> 01:27:24,769
We aren't, like, doing
that reality TV show.
1611
01:27:24,839 --> 01:27:25,897
We're just...
1612
01:27:26,708 --> 01:27:27,937
being normal right now.
1613
01:27:29,510 --> 01:27:33,242
[Mickie] Eden had been a winner
in everything she's ever done,
1614
01:27:33,314 --> 01:27:35,612
and I feel like the door just went...
[imitates swishing]
1615
01:27:35,683 --> 01:27:37,014
It was a new scenario,
1616
01:27:37,285 --> 01:27:39,617
because up until that point,
it had been just...
1617
01:27:39,687 --> 01:27:41,246
[snapping]
1618
01:27:42,757 --> 01:27:46,250
[Mickie] You've got this child
that is extremely talented.
1619
01:27:46,327 --> 01:27:47,453
[whines]
1620
01:27:47,528 --> 01:27:49,428
But you're so hungry for it,
1621
01:27:49,497 --> 01:27:54,367
you're blinded by that proverbial carrot
that's dangled out there.
1622
01:27:55,470 --> 01:27:56,699
You're just a commodity.
1623
01:27:57,472 --> 01:27:59,873
It's what the American people want to see.
1624
01:27:59,941 --> 01:28:02,410
They get off work,
they want to turn that clicker on,
1625
01:28:02,477 --> 01:28:05,708
and, you know, "Oh, ooh."
You know, whatever.
1626
01:28:05,780 --> 01:28:07,714
I didn't like who I had become.
1627
01:28:07,782 --> 01:28:12,583
I didn't like that other people
had been able to accomplish
1628
01:28:12,654 --> 01:28:17,057
ugly things through me in Eden's life.
1629
01:28:20,695 --> 01:28:22,754
- [camera shutter clicks]
- [Mickie] I mean, major mistakes.
1630
01:28:23,731 --> 01:28:26,359
Would I do it all again? I think I would.
1631
01:28:26,434 --> 01:28:27,333
I think I would.
1632
01:28:27,402 --> 01:28:29,530
I really don't even have
to think about it,
1633
01:28:29,604 --> 01:28:34,770
because I wouldn't have had the awakening
and the knowledge any other way.
1634
01:28:39,614 --> 01:28:43,744
[Florian] I was imprisoned for 15 months
without a trial.
1635
01:28:45,653 --> 01:28:47,052
And they let me go!
1636
01:28:48,656 --> 01:28:50,317
[Conrad]
He's the luckiest man in the world.
1637
01:28:50,391 --> 01:28:54,555
He avoided getting extradited, and facing
a 20 or 25-year criminal sentence.
1638
01:28:54,929 --> 01:28:59,890
[Florian] They put me on the list
with the likes of Osama bin Laden.
1639
01:29:00,835 --> 01:29:03,702
It was a global arrest warrant.
1640
01:29:07,608 --> 01:29:10,475
But I'm completely legally here
in Germany,
1641
01:29:10,545 --> 01:29:13,776
and I cannot be extradited
by the Americans.
1642
01:29:14,682 --> 01:29:18,619
So, I'm living in a very big,
beautiful prison called Germany.
1643
01:29:20,888 --> 01:29:22,378
If you think...
1644
01:29:23,358 --> 01:29:26,350
that money will buy you
1645
01:29:27,028 --> 01:29:28,757
anything and everything...
1646
01:29:30,098 --> 01:29:33,033
you've never, ever, ever had money.
1647
01:29:34,369 --> 01:29:39,603
Because I can't buy that smile
on my daughter's and my son's face,
1648
01:29:39,674 --> 01:29:44,475
and I can't buy the love in bed
of my wife.
1649
01:29:46,013 --> 01:29:47,139
I can't.
1650
01:29:48,082 --> 01:29:50,483
[Lauren] You think he learned a lesson
from being in jail?
1651
01:29:52,086 --> 01:29:54,453
[sighs]
1652
01:29:55,790 --> 01:29:57,849
I feel like a lot of his regrets
1653
01:29:57,925 --> 01:30:00,724
are that he kept pushing it
to the point where he fell,
1654
01:30:00,795 --> 01:30:03,890
and he just wishes that he had not fallen.
1655
01:30:04,932 --> 01:30:06,866
Yeah. That's...
[chuckles]
1656
01:30:06,934 --> 01:30:10,131
I'm still, I'm still not sure how I feel
about everything regarding my father.
1657
01:30:13,975 --> 01:30:15,773
[Jennifer] Three days after the birth,
I went home,
1658
01:30:15,843 --> 01:30:18,972
but, um, Suzanne was there
for almost two months.
1659
01:30:20,915 --> 01:30:23,077
She was very tiny, um...
1660
01:30:24,919 --> 01:30:26,182
She did really well, though.
1661
01:30:27,455 --> 01:30:28,786
[Suzanne] I got the prize.
1662
01:30:30,425 --> 01:30:33,190
You know, she's here, and she's happy,
and healthy, and smiling,
1663
01:30:33,461 --> 01:30:36,590
and, you know, a terrific little kid.
And I...
1664
01:30:37,031 --> 01:30:39,864
So it doesn't matter anymore
how I got here, I'm here.
1665
01:30:41,769 --> 01:30:45,535
That experience changed me
so dramatically.
1666
01:30:46,107 --> 01:30:49,099
But my ex-husband left six weeks after
I brought her home from the hospital.
1667
01:30:50,445 --> 01:30:53,210
I mean, he's now with somebody
40 years younger than he is.
1668
01:30:53,481 --> 01:30:55,973
You know, I don't... I don't know
how you can be 70
1669
01:30:56,050 --> 01:30:57,745
married to a 30-year-old.
1670
01:30:59,720 --> 01:31:01,814
[Suzanne] Nope, that's backwards.
You got to put it forwards.
1671
01:31:01,889 --> 01:31:03,084
Remember? Move the lever.
1672
01:31:03,157 --> 01:31:05,751
- All right, now try.
- Watch out, guys!
1673
01:31:05,827 --> 01:31:08,524
I think she knows not to touch the art.
1674
01:31:09,163 --> 01:31:10,597
Uh, wait. Stop!
1675
01:31:10,665 --> 01:31:12,599
[toy engine revving]
1676
01:31:14,702 --> 01:31:16,534
[Lauren] Have your priorities changed?
1677
01:31:16,604 --> 01:31:17,935
[Suzanne] Yeah, there's no question.
1678
01:31:19,674 --> 01:31:21,108
Okay, off we go.
1679
01:31:21,175 --> 01:31:23,473
How I spend money. Right?
1680
01:31:23,544 --> 01:31:25,876
A lot less art, a lot more ballet, or...
1681
01:31:25,947 --> 01:31:29,144
- piano, or...
- [man #3] High five. Thank you.
1682
01:31:29,217 --> 01:31:31,549
front row tickets
to the Gazillion Bubbles Show.
1683
01:31:31,619 --> 01:31:34,884
I am not working as hard as I have
over the years.
1684
01:31:34,956 --> 01:31:36,788
You know, I take Sydney Bea
to school every day,
1685
01:31:36,858 --> 01:31:38,724
I pick her up, um..
1686
01:31:38,793 --> 01:31:40,522
In fact, the activities
I don't take her to
1687
01:31:40,595 --> 01:31:42,586
is just where there's no value added
to me being there.
1688
01:31:43,197 --> 01:31:46,690
[Lauren] And how are your priorities
different than your mother's?
1689
01:31:51,105 --> 01:31:53,096
I don't know that I can answer
that question.
1690
01:31:55,142 --> 01:31:56,610
I...
1691
01:31:56,677 --> 01:31:58,941
The last real contact
I had with my mother, I was...
1692
01:32:00,014 --> 01:32:01,209
22 years old.
1693
01:32:02,750 --> 01:32:04,582
So even if I knew,
I don't think I would know.
1694
01:32:04,652 --> 01:32:05,983
I mean, what do you know at 22?
1695
01:32:06,954 --> 01:32:09,685
[Lauren] And did you resolve with her
before she passed away?
1696
01:32:09,757 --> 01:32:10,656
No.
1697
01:32:13,294 --> 01:32:15,285
[somber music]
1698
01:32:16,063 --> 01:32:17,121
[smacks lips]
1699
01:32:17,198 --> 01:32:19,690
- Delicious.
- [Sydney] I'm feeding you, Mommy.
1700
01:32:22,603 --> 01:32:25,800
[Lauren] Do you have any regrets
about how you raised your children?
1701
01:32:27,108 --> 01:32:29,736
[chuckles]
About how I raised my children?
1702
01:32:36,951 --> 01:32:38,783
That's a really hard question.
1703
01:32:38,853 --> 01:32:40,651
[camera shutter clicks]
1704
01:32:50,197 --> 01:32:52,188
[laughs]
1705
01:32:53,167 --> 01:32:56,330
I wish I had known
you'd felt abandoned sooner,
1706
01:32:56,938 --> 01:32:59,930
'cause I think
that we could've talked about it,
1707
01:33:00,007 --> 01:33:03,602
opened, opened up that conversation,
and it would've...
1708
01:33:03,678 --> 01:33:07,171
uh, it would've improved
our relationship earlier,
1709
01:33:07,248 --> 01:33:12,084
so you didn't have that,
sort of, inside you all the time.
1710
01:33:16,223 --> 01:33:18,885
- [Lauren] Thanks, Mom.
- [laughs]
1711
01:33:21,996 --> 01:33:23,122
[Lauren] Um..
1712
01:33:23,931 --> 01:33:25,729
Better than doing it at my funeral.
1713
01:33:25,800 --> 01:33:28,292
[both laughing]
1714
01:33:31,672 --> 01:33:33,834
[tranquil music]
1715
01:33:34,976 --> 01:33:37,308
[Mijanou] Conscious parenting
is about realizing
1716
01:33:37,378 --> 01:33:40,746
how your kids are teachers,
they're like mirrors.
1717
01:33:40,815 --> 01:33:44,115
And a lot of times,
they're here to spark things up,
1718
01:33:44,185 --> 01:33:46,153
you know, within you,
1719
01:33:46,220 --> 01:33:49,121
that, you know, you need to heal,
or you need to work on.
1720
01:33:51,359 --> 01:33:53,225
I feel protective over her.
1721
01:33:54,161 --> 01:33:55,925
She's so beautiful,
1722
01:33:55,997 --> 01:33:59,729
and I don't want her
to have to go through,
1723
01:33:59,800 --> 01:34:01,734
like, what I had to go through.
1724
01:34:03,104 --> 01:34:06,734
I think about that time
and how even I used to dress,
1725
01:34:06,807 --> 01:34:08,241
and now I'm like, "Oh, my god!"
1726
01:34:08,309 --> 01:34:12,041
I would never, you know,
want Sahiya to go out like that.
1727
01:34:13,114 --> 01:34:14,639
[thwacks, thumps]
1728
01:34:15,349 --> 01:34:18,114
[Mijanou] She doesn't watch TV.
We don't have a TV in the house.
1729
01:34:18,185 --> 01:34:21,177
Cutting that out
and just having her reality be
1730
01:34:21,255 --> 01:34:25,715
what she sees from her mom,
or dad, or grandparents,
1731
01:34:26,260 --> 01:34:28,058
it's been amazing.
1732
01:34:29,263 --> 01:34:32,824
[laughs, talks indistinctly]
1733
01:34:34,402 --> 01:34:37,372
[Paris] I didn't get what I needed
as a kid,
1734
01:34:37,438 --> 01:34:38,769
and I'm not mad about it anymore,
1735
01:34:38,839 --> 01:34:40,364
like, I've done a lot of work
to get where I am.
1736
01:34:40,441 --> 01:34:41,875
It's just the hand that I was dealt,
1737
01:34:41,942 --> 01:34:46,971
and really, I just want to use that
as ammo to be a good parent.
1738
01:34:47,048 --> 01:34:48,106
[baby cooing]
1739
01:34:49,116 --> 01:34:51,380
[Paris] Whatever causes good self-esteem
1740
01:34:51,452 --> 01:34:53,113
it's probably love,
it's probably nurturing,
1741
01:34:53,187 --> 01:34:55,383
it's probably just being there,
1742
01:34:55,456 --> 01:34:58,426
and letting her know
that she's perfect the way she is.
1743
01:34:59,093 --> 01:35:00,356
You are my favorite girl.
1744
01:35:00,995 --> 01:35:03,396
Giving her that feeling is my goal.
1745
01:35:04,331 --> 01:35:06,857
[tranquil music]
1746
01:35:12,039 --> 01:35:15,771
Little boo boo. Hello.
1747
01:35:16,744 --> 01:35:18,940
[Lauren] Oh, I miss having one like this.
1748
01:35:21,148 --> 01:35:23,947
[boy squealing]
1749
01:35:25,453 --> 01:35:28,354
Talk to Daddy, talk to Daddy.
What do you want?
1750
01:35:28,422 --> 01:35:29,856
What does he want?
1751
01:35:29,924 --> 01:35:32,450
[Frank] So, later on, we can just dump
this onto the computer?
1752
01:35:32,727 --> 01:35:34,957
Oh. Oh, yeah, so, um...
1753
01:35:35,029 --> 01:35:37,054
Lori, you're going to change
the taxi to 4 a.m.?
1754
01:35:37,131 --> 01:35:39,065
- [Lori] I did for 4 a.m.
- Okay.
1755
01:35:39,133 --> 01:35:40,862
You know we're leaving at 4 a.m., Frank?
1756
01:35:44,872 --> 01:35:46,203
[Lauren]
1757
01:35:46,741 --> 01:35:48,732
- [Gabriel] Yeah.
- [Lauren] Just for a week.
1758
01:35:56,450 --> 01:35:58,418
- Bye, sweetheart.
- Bye, Mommy.
1759
01:36:01,388 --> 01:36:03,254
- I love you.
- Love you, too.
1760
01:36:04,825 --> 01:36:06,452
- Have a good trip.
- Be good.
1761
01:36:07,061 --> 01:36:08,085
[Gabriel] I will.
1762
01:36:13,334 --> 01:36:15,860
[somber music]
1763
01:36:19,073 --> 01:36:20,905
[tone ringing]
1764
01:36:20,975 --> 01:36:22,534
- [Noah] Hey, Mom.
- Hey, sweetheart.
1765
01:36:22,810 --> 01:36:24,801
[Lauren] I think your French
is getting better than nine.
1766
01:36:25,446 --> 01:36:28,279
- It was really well-written.
- [Noah] Really?
1767
01:36:28,349 --> 01:36:31,011
Let me just look at it one more time.
1768
01:36:31,085 --> 01:36:32,849
Oh, I found a mistake.
1769
01:36:32,920 --> 01:36:35,912
You have "un cellule"
and then you have "une cellule."
1770
01:36:36,390 --> 01:36:37,448
[Noah] Okay.
1771
01:36:37,892 --> 01:36:40,384
[Lauren] All right, well, you probably
have a lot of work, I'll let you go.
1772
01:36:40,461 --> 01:36:41,553
You wanna see Manila?
1773
01:36:42,797 --> 01:36:44,424
Here, I'll just show you out the window.
1774
01:36:47,234 --> 01:36:49,498
- [Lauren] Can you see?
- [Noah] Yeah, I can see.
1775
01:36:50,871 --> 01:36:52,270
It's very blurry.
1776
01:36:52,339 --> 01:36:54,467
[car horns honking]
1777
01:36:55,543 --> 01:36:57,477
[Lauren] You see the streets a little bit?
1778
01:36:57,545 --> 01:36:59,013
[Noah] Yeah, it reminds me of China.
1779
01:37:00,347 --> 01:37:01,337
[Lauren] Yup.
1780
01:37:02,049 --> 01:37:04,211
[tranquil music]
1781
01:37:22,102 --> 01:37:24,093
[whirring]
1782
01:37:35,149 --> 01:37:37,174
Nice job!
[chuckles]
1783
01:37:37,251 --> 01:37:38,343
[Lauren] Beautiful.
1784
01:37:42,489 --> 01:37:44,423
[Chris] Global capitalism has done
1785
01:37:44,491 --> 01:37:47,324
a very effective job
of destroying culture.
1786
01:37:47,995 --> 01:37:50,987
That inability to hear
the voices of the past,
1787
01:37:51,398 --> 01:37:53,992
to understand traditions,
1788
01:37:54,635 --> 01:37:58,902
makes it much harder for us to grasp
who we are and where we came from.
1789
01:38:00,407 --> 01:38:03,638
Authentic culture holds up other values,
1790
01:38:04,278 --> 01:38:08,613
forces us to be self-critical,
to look at ourselves.
1791
01:38:15,990 --> 01:38:17,048
[clanks]
1792
01:38:17,591 --> 01:38:21,255
[Lauren] So, this project, like,
it goes back for me 25 years.
1793
01:38:21,328 --> 01:38:23,922
Can you imagine
where you'll be in 25 years?
1794
01:38:24,431 --> 01:38:27,162
Could you imagine
where you would be 25 years ago?
1795
01:38:28,102 --> 01:38:29,934
- No.
- Yeah, I don't think I could, either.
1796
01:38:30,504 --> 01:38:33,530
[Lauren] Except for dreaming of you
and Gabriel.
1797
01:38:37,411 --> 01:38:39,573
[somber music]
1798
01:38:41,315 --> 01:38:43,477
[indistinct chatter]
1799
01:38:45,586 --> 01:38:48,453
[cheers and applause]
1800
01:38:53,160 --> 01:38:55,254
[Lauren]
So this is our 30-year anniversary.
1801
01:38:55,329 --> 01:38:57,058
I want to make a toast to Frank,
1802
01:38:58,098 --> 01:38:59,429
the love of my life,
1803
01:39:00,467 --> 01:39:03,664
who I can't imagine
or remember a life without,
1804
01:39:03,938 --> 01:39:07,033
and sometimes, don't even know
where you end and I begin.
1805
01:39:07,508 --> 01:39:08,976
For me and the kids,
1806
01:39:09,043 --> 01:39:12,445
Dad is the secret sauce
that makes everything possible,
1807
01:39:12,513 --> 01:39:16,108
who pushes us relentlessly
to make our dreams come true.
1808
01:39:18,052 --> 01:39:20,077
- [indistinct chatter]
- [Frank] I'm filming the whole thing.
1809
01:39:20,154 --> 01:39:21,019
Oh!
1810
01:39:23,190 --> 01:39:24,282
[Frank] Keep going.
1811
01:39:31,532 --> 01:39:33,261
The proud Papa.
1812
01:39:33,334 --> 01:39:36,201
[Sheldon] I'm always surprised
by the good things that you do.
1813
01:39:36,270 --> 01:39:39,171
But it's at an extraordinary price.
1814
01:39:39,239 --> 01:39:40,138
Effort.
1815
01:39:40,507 --> 01:39:42,305
You're determined
to spend time with family
1816
01:39:42,376 --> 01:39:43,969
and make sure that happens.
1817
01:39:44,611 --> 01:39:46,136
But you're all over the place.
1818
01:39:47,047 --> 01:39:49,607
I realize there's no perfect balance.
1819
01:39:49,683 --> 01:39:51,082
Nobody has it.
1820
01:39:52,619 --> 01:39:56,078
But sometimes, I think you are pushing
a little bit too hard.
1821
01:39:56,724 --> 01:39:58,590
For the long run, not for the short run.
1822
01:40:00,494 --> 01:40:02,053
The work you're doing this time,
1823
01:40:02,129 --> 01:40:04,461
like, fascinates me
more than any other work, 'cause...
1824
01:40:05,566 --> 01:40:10,629
it's kinda like everything about wealth,
like, 25 years of wealth,
1825
01:40:10,704 --> 01:40:15,574
like the good stuff, like the bad stuff,
like the poor people, the rich people,
1826
01:40:15,642 --> 01:40:17,736
like the happy people, the sad people.
1827
01:40:18,579 --> 01:40:20,308
Like, I think that's cool.
1828
01:40:22,383 --> 01:40:24,477
- Yeah.
- [Lauren] Thanks, Noah.
1829
01:40:26,120 --> 01:40:28,384
[laughs]
1830
01:40:29,757 --> 01:40:30,781
[grunts]
1831
01:40:32,793 --> 01:40:34,693
- Ta-da!
- [laughs]
1832
01:40:35,229 --> 01:40:38,324
[Lauren] It's dedicated to you and Noah.
1833
01:40:41,735 --> 01:40:44,136
- You've come a long way.
- [laughs]
1834
01:40:48,175 --> 01:40:50,143
- Just get my hair proper.
- Braden, you come here.
1835
01:40:50,210 --> 01:40:51,609
- Can you hold this with one hand?
- Yeah.
1836
01:40:51,678 --> 01:40:52,668
[Lauren] Okay. Go for it.
1837
01:40:52,746 --> 01:40:53,770
Okay, hold on.
1838
01:40:54,048 --> 01:40:56,380
[grunts]
Right, this way or that way?
1839
01:40:57,618 --> 01:41:00,553
[Lauren] It's kind of ironic
that I've chosen to raise my kids
1840
01:41:00,621 --> 01:41:03,113
in the exact same world that I grew up in.
1841
01:41:03,190 --> 01:41:06,751
Same neighborhood, same school,
same pressures.
1842
01:41:07,661 --> 01:41:11,222
And even though I can deconstruct
the culture in my work,
1843
01:41:11,298 --> 01:41:13,790
I'm still susceptible to its influence.
1844
01:41:15,536 --> 01:41:18,403
It's just who I am.
It's not like I can really stop.
1845
01:41:24,645 --> 01:41:26,579
I am in constant motion.
1846
01:41:27,414 --> 01:41:29,405
And I live with the consequences.
1847
01:41:30,350 --> 01:41:34,719
But it's also one of the things I love
that gives my life meaning.
1848
01:41:37,658 --> 01:41:39,820
[tranquil music]
1849
01:41:42,796 --> 01:41:44,423
Not much has changed.
1850
01:41:47,701 --> 01:41:49,760
- [Paris] Rock star, right there.
- [laughter]
1851
01:41:49,837 --> 01:41:51,737
[Paris] Just passin' a joint around,
you know.
1852
01:41:52,539 --> 01:41:57,340
[gasps]
Oh. Ver... Versace..
1853
01:41:58,312 --> 01:41:59,438
Wow.
1854
01:42:04,785 --> 01:42:07,447
Oh, my god. That's me.
1855
01:42:09,189 --> 01:42:12,750
Yeah, this is my very first interview
I ever did.
1856
01:42:14,628 --> 01:42:17,723
[Kacey in recorded voice]
My very first interview I ever did.
1857
01:42:23,537 --> 01:42:25,369
[Cliff] Yeah, that was my life back then.
1858
01:42:26,273 --> 01:42:27,240
Huh.
1859
01:42:28,909 --> 01:42:31,344
The thoughts of a child, really.
1860
01:42:31,411 --> 01:42:33,675
[chuckles]
Really. Yeah, mm-hm.
1861
01:42:35,582 --> 01:42:36,640
That's deep.
1862
01:42:40,187 --> 01:42:42,451
"When I was leaving Kansas City,
I told my mom,
1863
01:42:42,523 --> 01:42:45,515
'One day, you're going to see me
walk a red carpet.
1864
01:42:46,894 --> 01:42:51,422
I have lived on private jets,
Cristal-flowing nights,
1865
01:42:51,865 --> 01:42:55,460
and I have partied with rock stars,
and celebrities, and actors.
1866
01:42:56,270 --> 01:42:57,738
But you know what they say...
1867
01:42:58,605 --> 01:43:00,403
"Be careful what you wish for."
1868
01:43:01,875 --> 01:43:03,866
[dramatic music]
1869
01:43:05,846 --> 01:43:07,837
[tranquil music]
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