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Subscene @Ali_EmJay
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- My husband died for nothing,
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and I'm beginning to think
I didn't even know him.
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- What do you want
to build, Jules?
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Who do you want to be?
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- I can't wait
for you to screw up
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so you can call me.
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- Why does he have this?
- It was your dad's.
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- I don't believe exercise
can be fun.
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- Okay, in my dance class,
we pose through the pain.
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- [laughs]
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- I want to believe
this was an accident,
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but I just don't know.
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- I have spent four months
blaming the universe,
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and maybe the one I really
should be angry with is Matt.
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- I don't know
what you want me to say.
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- I want you to tell me
if you think he jumped.
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- Maybe!
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Maybe.
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[soft music]
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♪ ♪
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- How'd you get it again?
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- [groans]
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Special ops mission
in Paraguay.
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Top secret, I shouldn't even
be talking to you about it.
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- I thought it was a battle
with a velociraptor
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after your DeLorean broke down.
- Nope.
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- How'd you get it again?
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- We were dropping in
by parachute
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to maintain
the element of surprise.
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But unfortunately,
the only thing
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I caught by surprise
was a jaguar.
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- You ever gonna tell me
what really happened?
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- Just some stupid accident
from when I was a kid.
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- How'd you get it again?
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- [groans softly]
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- You know, you never really
talk about your childhood.
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[bottles rattling]
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[items clattering]
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[indistinct speech on TV]
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[chuckles]
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- Why are you awake?
- The tragedy of my life.
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- Same.
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Step Four.
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I'm supposed to make
a moral inventory,
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which is basically a catalog
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of all the not-good things
I've done.
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- Mm.
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- Every lie, every mistake,
every insecurity.
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And I'm supposed to be
rigorously honest
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so that I understand myself
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and the choices I've made.
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It's not fun.
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- No, that sounds
like literal hell.
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- It is,
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which is why I'm watching
"Real Housewives" instead.
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[indistinct speech on TV]
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- Is she throwing
a welcome-home party
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for her new boobs?
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- Yep, that's what
this show is.
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It's like, these housewives
pull these crazy stunts
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to distract themselves
from the fact
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that they're barely functioning
alcoholics.
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[both laugh]
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I really missed my calling.
- Mm-hmm.
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What would your tagline be?
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- I'm Jules.
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I may stab you in the front,
but I'll always have your back.
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- That's good.
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[both laugh]
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- Oh, what would mine be?
- [sighs]
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Oh.
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I'm Leigh.
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If you want my advice,
you won't have to ask.
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Exactly.
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[both laugh]
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- You're killing it.
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[both laugh]
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- So why are you really up?
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- I'm not sure if Matt's death
was an accident.
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[somber music]
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♪ ♪
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[indistinct chatter]
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- [sighs] Hey.
- Hey.
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I got this for you.
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It's my peace offering.
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It was really nice...
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of you to come to my birthday,
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and I shouldn't have
come at you like that.
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- Ooh, oh. Oh, I'm sorry.
Oh, my God.
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- Sorry, that's gluten-free.
It was all they had.
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- You suck at apologizing.
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- Can I ask you something
about Matt?
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- If it's the same question
you asked me
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at your birthday,
absolutely not.
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I'm not doing that ---- again.
- Yeah, no.
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No one wants to...
do that again.
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I just want to...
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know what he was like as a kid.
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- Why?
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- Because I met him
after college,
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and I know a lot
about the after,
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not much about the before
because he...
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never wanted to talk
about his childhood.
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- You know, people who want
to talk about their childhoods
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are weird, so...
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- I just want to know
things about him
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that I didn't get to know.
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Like, he had
this scar on his back,
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and he said he got it
when he was a kid,
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so I was wondering--
- What are you--
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What are you wondering?
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- Matt said that his depression
was biopsychosocial,
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psycho being his personality--
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- Maybe psycho is just
your personality, Leigh.
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- Psycho like psychology.
- Oh.
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- Bio like biology, and...
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the social
was how he was raised,
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so I'm just
trying to understand
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the family dynamic
so that I can--
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- What do you want me
to tell you?
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That my dad was too tired to go
to my third grade recital?
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Yeah, you got me.
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Our childhood was a nightmare.
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House on a cul-de-sac.
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Uh...
- Mm.
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- Parents been married
for 30 years.
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- Okay, whatever.
I'll just ask your mom.
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- Don't--don't ask my mom
about that.
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Don't ask her what
you asked me at the party.
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Actually,
don't ask her anything.
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Like, at all.
- She's still my mother-in-law.
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- Is she?
- Mm-hmm.
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- You're saying that
like you two
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have an actual relationship.
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You haven't even seen her
since the funeral.
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I don't know what's going on,
but...
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whatever meltdown
you're having this week,
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leave my mother out of it.
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- [sighs] Leigh.
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- Hey, Bobby.
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- Hi.
- Hi.
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- [chuckles]
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Come, come in.
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- Hey.
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- The cheesy mash
should be done in a minute.
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I made it
with instant potatoes.
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No lumps, just like
your father made it.
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- Mom, he made those, like,
one time.
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- Oh, your brother called.
He'll be a few minutes late.
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But we have the movie
in the player already
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for when he gets here.
- Mom, can we just start?
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I mean, he's seen it,
like, 5,000 times.
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He won't care.
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- I have to--
Be right back.
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- [sighs]
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- Hey.
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What's going on with you?
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She just wants
to celebrate your dad.
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- Yeah, and he's bringing
as much joy and happiness now
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as he did when he
was still alive.
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I hate this day.
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Don't want to have
an anniversary party
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for my dead dad.
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I just want to...
shove my feelings down
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and ignore them
like white people.
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- Oh, well, tell me more
about white people.
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- Mm-hmm.
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Uh, white people like spreading
smallpox through blankets
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and taking improv classes.
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- [laughs]
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I know that this
is hard for you.
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But I think
it means a lot to your mom.
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- Hey, Mom?
You need some help?
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- Just a minute ago.
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[chuckles] I know, right?
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Okay. Okay, sweetie.
See you then.
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So that was Danny.
He said he's gonna swing by.
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- Great.
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- So I have Earl Grey
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or mint tea
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or chamomile if you want.
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I can, uh...
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- Um, I--I'll just have
whatever you're having.
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- Okay.
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- I'm sorry
I didn't come sooner.
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- No, it's okay.
It's a long drive.
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So how are you?
- How are you?
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[both chuckle]
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I really am sorry.
I-I...
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could have at least called.
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- Leigh, it's--it's okay.
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This is hard.
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And just as long
as it doesn't take another
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four long months
for your next visit.
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- No, it won't.
I promise.
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It's really nice being here.
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[laughs]
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Do you have any more...
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pictures of Matt
when he was a kid?
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'Cause he never really
kept many at the apartment.
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- Oh, honey.
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How much time do you have?
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Come, come, come.
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[groovy music playing]
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♪ ♪
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- Hi.
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- Hi.
- Hey.
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- Oh, was it your jacket
that we found at the party?
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I can text Leigh and see
if she's still at the house.
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- What?
No, uh...
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I'm here for the dance party.
- Oh!
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Uh, awesome.
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Yeah, just go get a spot.
We're about to get started.
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- Okay.
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- [laughs]
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That's sweet.
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Oh, my God, Danny.
- [laughs]
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Just could never smile right.
- Yeah.
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- They all look like that
till he got to high school.
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- [laughs]
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- And by then, he was too cool
to smile at all.
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- Ah, that makes sense.
- [laughs]
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- Oh, there's Matt
in chess club.
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- Yeah, he loved to play.
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James started teaching him
around, like, five or six.
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Now, you'd think a kid that
little would be too squirrely.
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But not Matt.
Mm-mm.
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[chuckles]
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The two of them used to sit
at that chessboard for hours.
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With the town house,
I've been trying to downsize,
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and I thought
you might like to have it.
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- Mom, I barely have time
to grade papers,
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let alone play chess.
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You should give this to Danny.
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- Hell no.
You the chess champ.
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- "You are."
Danny, grammar, please.
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Look, Grandpa gave it to Daddy,
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and Daddy wanted
to give it to you
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so that someday,
you could play with your own
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son or daughter.
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- It's just gonna collect dust.
- Oh, that's okay.
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You'll have it
when you need it.
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- No, Mom.
We don't have the space.
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- I'm sure you can
find some space--
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- Mom, I don't want it.
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- Okay, you know what?
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I think, that, um,
everyone's tired.
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And it's just getting
a bit late, so...
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I think I'll just go get
some leftovers for everybody.
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[soft music]
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♪ ♪
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- Let's just take it.
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We can find a place for it.
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- I hate chess.
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- I'm sorry I never
got to meet James.
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00:13:13,252 --> 00:13:16,713
- That man read everything
under the sun.
258
00:13:16,713 --> 00:13:19,049
You two could have
talked books for hours.
259
00:13:19,049 --> 00:13:21,009
- Yeah?
260
00:13:21,009 --> 00:13:23,095
- Yeah, you would have loved
each other.
261
00:13:23,095 --> 00:13:25,931
And he was easy on the eyes.
- Oh, yeah?
262
00:13:25,931 --> 00:13:28,141
- Where do you think Matt
got his good looks from?
263
00:13:29,685 --> 00:13:31,520
Let me show you.
264
00:13:31,520 --> 00:13:37,025
He was so busy
with all his...papers
265
00:13:37,025 --> 00:13:38,902
and conferences.
266
00:13:38,902 --> 00:13:41,113
Let me see.
267
00:13:41,113 --> 00:13:44,783
Yeah, he was such a...
good provider.
268
00:13:44,783 --> 00:13:47,369
Oh, there he is.
- Hmm.
269
00:13:47,369 --> 00:13:49,454
- Look at that fine man.
270
00:13:49,454 --> 00:13:51,582
- Yeah.
271
00:13:51,582 --> 00:13:54,293
- Mm.
272
00:13:54,293 --> 00:13:57,880
- Um, what happened to--
273
00:13:57,880 --> 00:14:01,049
to Matt's back?
274
00:14:01,049 --> 00:14:03,218
- What was that?
I-I...
275
00:14:03,218 --> 00:14:04,636
I think that Matt and Danny,
276
00:14:04,636 --> 00:14:07,139
they were just messing around,
I think.
277
00:14:07,139 --> 00:14:10,475
- Well, that's some serious
messing around.
278
00:14:11,768 --> 00:14:14,188
- There's my baby.
279
00:14:14,188 --> 00:14:17,232
Oh, I am so glad
you could swing by.
280
00:14:17,232 --> 00:14:19,234
[laughs] Mm.
281
00:14:19,234 --> 00:14:22,070
- I didn't know we were, uh,
having a, uh, family reunion.
282
00:14:22,070 --> 00:14:24,198
- Oh, so nice.
283
00:14:24,198 --> 00:14:26,617
And we were just talking
about your brother, right?
284
00:14:26,617 --> 00:14:28,535
Can I get you something?
285
00:14:28,535 --> 00:14:30,287
- Um, some water.
- Oh, of course.
286
00:14:30,287 --> 00:14:31,914
You want anything?
- No, I'm fine.
287
00:14:31,914 --> 00:14:32,956
Thank you.
- Okay.
288
00:14:34,625 --> 00:14:36,502
- I told you to leave my mom
out of this.
289
00:14:36,502 --> 00:14:39,129
- I can spend time with her.
She's my family too.
290
00:14:39,129 --> 00:14:41,340
- Are you serious
right now with this?
291
00:14:43,509 --> 00:14:44,718
- Here we go.
292
00:14:47,346 --> 00:14:49,056
[sighs] Good.
293
00:14:49,056 --> 00:14:50,057
- Thanks, Mom.
You good?
294
00:14:50,057 --> 00:14:51,808
- Oh, yeah, fine.
295
00:14:51,808 --> 00:14:53,352
My family's here.
296
00:14:53,352 --> 00:14:55,646
So let's sit.
Let's catch up.
297
00:14:55,646 --> 00:14:56,855
- Hmm! Mm-hmm.
298
00:15:01,777 --> 00:15:03,987
- And turn to the left.
299
00:15:03,987 --> 00:15:05,280
[upbeat music playing]
300
00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:08,867
Right, left.
301
00:15:08,867 --> 00:15:10,452
And eight counts of ponies.
302
00:15:10,452 --> 00:15:12,246
- ♪ Love me, love me ♪
303
00:15:12,246 --> 00:15:14,831
♪ Pretend that you love me ♪
304
00:15:14,831 --> 00:15:16,416
♪ Leave me, leave me ♪
305
00:15:16,416 --> 00:15:17,584
♪ Just say that ♪
306
00:15:17,584 --> 00:15:20,796
- Okay, uh, it's okay
if you're not perfect.
307
00:15:20,796 --> 00:15:22,548
It's okay if you mess up.
308
00:15:22,548 --> 00:15:24,883
You are not...
309
00:15:24,883 --> 00:15:26,635
your mistakes.
310
00:15:26,635 --> 00:15:29,388
- ♪ For you to love me,
love me ♪
311
00:15:29,388 --> 00:15:31,014
[music muffles]
312
00:15:31,014 --> 00:15:33,851
- [exhales deeply]
313
00:15:33,851 --> 00:15:35,352
- ♪ Say that you need me ♪
314
00:15:35,352 --> 00:15:37,813
- Uh, we're gonna go back
to the...
315
00:15:37,813 --> 00:15:39,147
- Ponies?
- Ponies, exactly.
316
00:15:39,147 --> 00:15:42,985
- ♪ Anything but you ♪
317
00:15:42,985 --> 00:15:45,112
♪ Anything but ♪
318
00:15:54,121 --> 00:15:55,831
- Hey.
319
00:15:57,583 --> 00:15:59,501
Are you okay?
320
00:16:00,961 --> 00:16:03,213
- Not really.
321
00:16:03,213 --> 00:16:06,091
- [sighs]
322
00:16:06,091 --> 00:16:08,427
Richard told me
about your recovery.
323
00:16:08,427 --> 00:16:10,804
I hope that's okay.
324
00:16:10,804 --> 00:16:14,725
- Richard is
my mom's ex-husband,
325
00:16:14,725 --> 00:16:18,979
my sister's dad,
and my nothing.
326
00:16:20,355 --> 00:16:22,232
- You--we don't know each other
very well,
327
00:16:22,232 --> 00:16:25,944
but what I know about you,
I really like.
328
00:16:25,944 --> 00:16:29,406
And every sober day
is a miracle.
329
00:16:31,450 --> 00:16:33,410
- Are you a friend of Bill's?
330
00:16:33,410 --> 00:16:34,620
- Friend-adjacent.
331
00:16:37,414 --> 00:16:42,252
- I, um, texted my sponsor,
but she can't talk until 5:00.
332
00:16:42,252 --> 00:16:44,379
- Well, let me
take you home, then.
333
00:16:48,634 --> 00:16:51,220
- I can't go home right now.
334
00:16:51,220 --> 00:16:52,471
- My home.
335
00:16:58,727 --> 00:17:01,021
- How old was he
when he made this?
336
00:17:01,021 --> 00:17:04,358
- Oh, 11, 12, I guess.
337
00:17:04,358 --> 00:17:06,401
He was always drawing.
338
00:17:06,401 --> 00:17:08,529
I had to bribe him
with Pentel brush pens
339
00:17:08,529 --> 00:17:10,322
to make him do his homework.
340
00:17:10,322 --> 00:17:11,865
[laughs]
341
00:17:11,865 --> 00:17:14,201
- It's good.
- Mm.
342
00:17:14,201 --> 00:17:15,911
- It's intense.
343
00:17:15,911 --> 00:17:17,329
- [chuckles]
344
00:17:17,329 --> 00:17:19,414
Well, that was Matt.
345
00:17:25,462 --> 00:17:28,423
- Was Matt ever depressed
as a kid?
346
00:17:28,423 --> 00:17:31,635
- Your generation is always
trying to put labels on things.
347
00:17:31,635 --> 00:17:34,721
Depression, ADHD,
gluten allergies.
348
00:17:34,721 --> 00:17:36,431
Nothing but excuses.
349
00:17:36,431 --> 00:17:38,809
- Yeah, I only ask because, um,
350
00:17:38,809 --> 00:17:42,229
you know Matt was on
antidepressants since college.
351
00:17:42,229 --> 00:17:43,313
- Leigh, you don't need
to bother
352
00:17:43,313 --> 00:17:44,940
my mother with that stuff.
353
00:17:44,940 --> 00:17:46,400
- I just want to know
what Matt was like
354
00:17:46,400 --> 00:17:48,652
before I knew him and--and...
355
00:17:48,652 --> 00:17:51,029
like, if something
happened to him
356
00:17:51,029 --> 00:17:53,824
when he was growing up that--
- What are you talking about?
357
00:17:55,701 --> 00:17:58,453
- Matt never talked
about his childhood
358
00:17:58,453 --> 00:18:01,373
or his dad or his scar.
359
00:18:01,373 --> 00:18:03,083
- That's what you've been
getting at this whole time?
360
00:18:03,083 --> 00:18:04,126
Are you kidding me?
361
00:18:04,126 --> 00:18:05,627
That's your--that's your
one explanation
362
00:18:05,627 --> 00:18:08,380
for why a black man has a scar
he never wants to talk about?
363
00:18:08,380 --> 00:18:10,382
You gonna ask me
if my dad was an addict too?
364
00:18:10,382 --> 00:18:11,800
- No, no, no, that's not--
365
00:18:11,800 --> 00:18:14,303
that is not
what I meant at all.
366
00:18:14,303 --> 00:18:16,305
I'm...
367
00:18:16,305 --> 00:18:18,640
No, I--
Oh, God.
368
00:18:18,640 --> 00:18:21,977
I am...just working
369
00:18:21,977 --> 00:18:24,479
with the information
that I have
370
00:18:24,479 --> 00:18:26,315
to try and understand,
371
00:18:26,315 --> 00:18:28,942
and--and if I'm wrong,
I apologize.
372
00:18:28,942 --> 00:18:30,194
- Yeah, well--well, you are.
373
00:18:30,194 --> 00:18:32,362
My husband was a--
a good father
374
00:18:32,362 --> 00:18:33,822
and never laid a hand
on my boys.
375
00:18:33,822 --> 00:18:35,574
And Matt's scar,
it was his fault.
376
00:18:35,574 --> 00:18:37,159
He was roughhousing
with--with Danny,
377
00:18:37,159 --> 00:18:38,368
and he hurt himself.
378
00:18:38,368 --> 00:18:40,162
- So--so why wouldn't he
just tell me that?
379
00:18:40,162 --> 00:18:41,747
- I-I guess because
he felt bad.
380
00:18:41,747 --> 00:18:43,874
We--we had to, uh, take him
to get stitches,
381
00:18:43,874 --> 00:18:46,168
and we had to leave, uh,
Danny's game.
382
00:18:46,168 --> 00:18:48,045
I think it was the Little
League playoffs or something.
383
00:18:48,045 --> 00:18:49,254
- It was tryouts.
384
00:18:49,254 --> 00:18:50,672
- Yeah, well,
something like that.
385
00:18:50,672 --> 00:18:52,758
I can never
get the details right.
386
00:18:52,758 --> 00:18:54,718
- It was tryouts,
and it wasn't Matt's fault.
387
00:18:54,718 --> 00:18:56,386
It was Dad's because
he wouldn't get out of bed.
388
00:18:56,386 --> 00:18:58,013
- Oh, Danny,
please don't be so dramatic.
389
00:18:58,013 --> 00:18:59,890
- We were late,
and I was gonna have to wait
390
00:18:59,890 --> 00:19:01,683
a whole nother year
if we didn't get there.
391
00:19:01,683 --> 00:19:03,936
Matt begged him, even tried
to drag him out of bed.
392
00:19:03,936 --> 00:19:05,854
Dad didn't move.
Matt got pissed,
393
00:19:05,854 --> 00:19:07,397
started whaling on him
until Dad pushed him
394
00:19:07,397 --> 00:19:09,191
into the closet door
and broke the mirror.
395
00:19:09,191 --> 00:19:10,192
- Your brother
never should have come
396
00:19:10,192 --> 00:19:11,235
at your father like that!
397
00:19:11,235 --> 00:19:13,111
- He never got out of bed!
He was always in bed.
398
00:19:13,111 --> 00:19:14,363
He would go to work,
399
00:19:14,363 --> 00:19:15,906
give everything
to a bunch of strangers,
400
00:19:15,906 --> 00:19:18,158
and there was never
anything left for us.
401
00:19:18,158 --> 00:19:19,451
- So you're saying that
your father was a bad parent
402
00:19:19,451 --> 00:19:20,869
because he went to work
every day?
403
00:19:20,869 --> 00:19:24,122
- No, I'm saying
that he was depressed!
404
00:19:24,122 --> 00:19:25,874
He was depressed,
and so was Matt.
405
00:19:25,874 --> 00:19:28,001
And maybe if you would have
just actually acknowledged
406
00:19:28,001 --> 00:19:30,587
and have dealt with that fact,
Matt might still be here!
407
00:19:32,881 --> 00:19:34,800
- That's what you think?
408
00:19:36,260 --> 00:19:37,261
Okay.
409
00:19:45,018 --> 00:19:47,229
- At least you got
your answers, right?
410
00:19:52,150 --> 00:19:57,322
- My mom was in and out
of AA my whole life.
411
00:19:59,116 --> 00:20:02,995
It just...never seemed
to stick for her.
412
00:20:05,163 --> 00:20:07,332
Al-Anon did for me.
413
00:20:09,293 --> 00:20:12,588
So I'm here to listen
if you want to talk.
414
00:20:15,382 --> 00:20:17,926
- [grunts]
415
00:20:17,926 --> 00:20:19,428
Yeah, thanks.
416
00:20:23,307 --> 00:20:25,726
[inhales deeply]
417
00:20:27,519 --> 00:20:30,063
The night before Matt died,
he called me.
418
00:20:31,607 --> 00:20:36,486
I was drunk and had driven
over tire spikes the wrong way,
419
00:20:36,486 --> 00:20:39,198
so Leigh was coming
to get me, and...
420
00:20:39,198 --> 00:20:41,700
I didn't want a lecture.
421
00:20:41,700 --> 00:20:43,619
So I didn't answer.
422
00:20:45,537 --> 00:20:48,498
What if he needed me?
423
00:20:48,498 --> 00:20:52,377
What if he
was calling because...
424
00:20:52,377 --> 00:20:55,756
I don't know, because he wanted
to tell me something?
425
00:20:55,756 --> 00:20:58,967
- Or maybe he was just calling
to give you a lecture.
426
00:20:58,967 --> 00:21:01,011
Or maybe he was calling
to let you know
427
00:21:01,011 --> 00:21:03,055
that Leigh was close by.
428
00:21:04,806 --> 00:21:07,643
- I still
should have picked up.
429
00:21:07,643 --> 00:21:12,314
I'm never getting
that chance back, and...
430
00:21:12,314 --> 00:21:17,402
this stupid inventory thing,
I mean, I--
431
00:21:17,402 --> 00:21:19,321
When I tell Leigh,
she's gonna freak out.
432
00:21:19,321 --> 00:21:22,699
- Why would you tell Leigh?
433
00:21:22,699 --> 00:21:24,618
Jules, I know you feel bad
about this,
434
00:21:24,618 --> 00:21:26,119
but you're gonna have
to feel bad
435
00:21:26,119 --> 00:21:28,288
without bringing her into it.
436
00:21:28,288 --> 00:21:30,832
She's got enough going on
without...
437
00:21:30,832 --> 00:21:32,793
having to make you feel better.
438
00:21:34,419 --> 00:21:38,382
Sometimes
the more generous act is...
439
00:21:38,382 --> 00:21:40,551
to just keep things
to yourself.
440
00:21:53,438 --> 00:21:54,857
- Hi.
- Come in.
441
00:22:03,323 --> 00:22:06,743
Do you really think...
that Matt--
442
00:22:06,743 --> 00:22:08,996
- No.
443
00:22:08,996 --> 00:22:11,498
No.
444
00:22:11,498 --> 00:22:13,250
And Danny doesn't
really think that.
445
00:22:13,250 --> 00:22:15,294
He was just lashing out.
446
00:22:17,838 --> 00:22:22,426
I just came because...
447
00:22:22,426 --> 00:22:24,928
I wanted to feel close to him.
448
00:22:29,641 --> 00:22:31,518
- You know why
I thought you came?
449
00:22:31,518 --> 00:22:33,270
- No.
450
00:22:33,270 --> 00:22:36,857
- Well, I haven't seen you
since...Matt died,
451
00:22:36,857 --> 00:22:40,068
and it's only
about four months ago,
452
00:22:40,068 --> 00:22:43,864
and--and...you wanted
to see his baby pictures,
453
00:22:43,864 --> 00:22:47,326
and I thought...
454
00:22:47,326 --> 00:22:50,245
I really thought you were gonna
tell me you were pregnant.
455
00:22:52,206 --> 00:22:54,082
- Oh.
456
00:22:54,082 --> 00:22:57,044
Uh, no, I'm...
457
00:22:57,044 --> 00:23:00,547
I'm not, sorry.
- I know.
458
00:23:02,799 --> 00:23:07,763
I just desperately wanted a--
a piece of him in this world.
459
00:23:07,763 --> 00:23:10,641
[somber music]
460
00:23:10,641 --> 00:23:13,268
When you have a child,
461
00:23:13,268 --> 00:23:15,979
you never think--
462
00:23:15,979 --> 00:23:18,065
you never think...
463
00:23:18,065 --> 00:23:20,067
[inhales sharply]
464
00:23:23,820 --> 00:23:27,115
I-I did the best I could.
465
00:23:27,115 --> 00:23:30,452
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
466
00:23:32,704 --> 00:23:36,291
- [sniffles]
467
00:23:36,291 --> 00:23:39,753
- Matt was my...
favorite person.
468
00:23:39,753 --> 00:23:42,339
- [chuckles]
469
00:23:42,339 --> 00:23:44,883
- You made him.
470
00:23:44,883 --> 00:23:47,010
You raised him.
471
00:23:49,596 --> 00:23:52,224
And he was amazing.
472
00:23:53,976 --> 00:23:55,727
- He was.
473
00:23:55,727 --> 00:23:58,856
- Yeah.
474
00:23:58,856 --> 00:24:04,236
♪ ♪
475
00:24:04,236 --> 00:24:07,030
Why didn't you just
take the whole set?
476
00:24:07,030 --> 00:24:08,407
- I just wanted the one piece.
477
00:24:17,040 --> 00:24:19,001
[knock at door]
478
00:24:25,174 --> 00:24:29,136
- Hi, I'm...
479
00:24:29,136 --> 00:24:31,388
I'm sorry.
480
00:24:31,388 --> 00:24:36,143
And I'm sorry that I have
to keep saying I'm sorry.
481
00:24:36,143 --> 00:24:37,603
- Don't be.
482
00:25:00,167 --> 00:25:02,586
- [inhales]
483
00:25:02,586 --> 00:25:05,672
I just wish that, um...
484
00:25:05,672 --> 00:25:08,967
that Matt...
485
00:25:08,967 --> 00:25:10,511
was comfortable
sharing with me,
486
00:25:10,511 --> 00:25:12,596
like, everything
that I heard today.
487
00:25:14,723 --> 00:25:18,685
- I mean, it's not--not like
he didn't trust you.
488
00:25:18,685 --> 00:25:23,565
That scar was...
489
00:25:23,565 --> 00:25:27,277
everything he hated
about our childhood.
490
00:25:27,277 --> 00:25:30,489
He didn't--he didn't
want to deal with it.
491
00:25:30,489 --> 00:25:32,824
- And I think I-I, um...
492
00:25:32,824 --> 00:25:34,117
I went to
your mom's house, like,
493
00:25:34,117 --> 00:25:36,370
looking for someone to blame,
because if it was her fault
494
00:25:36,370 --> 00:25:39,248
or your father's fault
or your whole family's fault,
495
00:25:39,248 --> 00:25:40,916
um, then it--
496
00:25:40,916 --> 00:25:45,337
then it didn't have to be
my fault that he was unhappy.
497
00:25:47,130 --> 00:25:49,883
- Wasn't your fault, Leigh.
498
00:25:49,883 --> 00:25:51,760
- I just really wanted
to make him happy,
499
00:25:51,760 --> 00:25:54,137
and I don't know if I did.
500
00:25:57,891 --> 00:26:01,103
- Come here.
Let me show you something.
501
00:26:01,103 --> 00:26:03,605
Can I show you something?
502
00:26:03,605 --> 00:26:04,857
[computer blipping]
503
00:26:04,857 --> 00:26:06,692
[video volume increases]
504
00:26:06,692 --> 00:26:08,110
[people cheering]
505
00:26:08,110 --> 00:26:13,031
Oh, my God!
Oh!
506
00:26:13,031 --> 00:26:14,992
[people clamoring]
507
00:26:14,992 --> 00:26:17,995
Oh, my God.
What are you doing?
508
00:26:17,995 --> 00:26:22,165
[people cheering]
- [laughs]
509
00:26:22,165 --> 00:26:26,420
- Oh, my God.
You are the worst.
510
00:26:26,420 --> 00:26:28,505
This is
the saddest ---- ever.
511
00:26:28,505 --> 00:26:30,299
The saddest ---- ever, look.
512
00:26:30,299 --> 00:26:32,718
Flip cup--come here, bro.
513
00:26:32,718 --> 00:26:36,221
Flip cup with orange soda,
listening to Jack Johnson.
514
00:26:36,221 --> 00:26:37,890
That's how you spent your
last night of freedom, bro.
515
00:26:37,890 --> 00:26:38,932
- Oh, yeah?
516
00:26:38,932 --> 00:26:40,726
- Remember that
20 years from now.
517
00:26:40,726 --> 00:26:42,561
20 years from now.
518
00:26:42,561 --> 00:26:44,229
You're sitting on the couch
watching this
519
00:26:44,229 --> 00:26:45,772
with your boring wife
and your light-ass kids.
520
00:26:45,772 --> 00:26:47,107
Look at her.
521
00:26:47,107 --> 00:26:48,317
[laughs]
522
00:26:48,317 --> 00:26:49,985
Ew, gross.
523
00:26:49,985 --> 00:26:52,821
Hey, man, it's not too late
to change your mind.
524
00:26:52,821 --> 00:26:54,823
You know it's not.
- Yeah, well, never.
525
00:26:54,823 --> 00:26:56,742
- What?
- Ah!
526
00:26:56,742 --> 00:27:00,370
[people cheering]
527
00:27:00,370 --> 00:27:02,915
[audio scrambles]
528
00:27:02,915 --> 00:27:05,918
[soft music]
529
00:27:05,918 --> 00:27:10,339
- You gonna tell me
that guy isn't happy?
530
00:27:10,339 --> 00:27:12,257
- Thank you.
531
00:27:12,257 --> 00:27:19,264
♪ ♪
532
00:27:22,017 --> 00:27:24,686
- I have some more of Matt
playing charades later.
533
00:27:24,686 --> 00:27:27,105
You want to watch it?
- Yeah, immediately.
534
00:27:27,105 --> 00:27:29,399
♪ ♪
535
00:27:29,399 --> 00:27:30,442
- [laughs]
536
00:27:30,442 --> 00:27:32,444
- Let's go, bring it home
for the home team.
537
00:27:32,444 --> 00:27:34,404
- No, this is impossible.
I won't--
538
00:27:34,404 --> 00:27:35,405
- No, no, no, no, no.
539
00:27:35,405 --> 00:27:36,573
If you pulled it,
you have to play.
540
00:27:36,573 --> 00:27:37,908
There's no passing.
- Yeah, I'm starting
541
00:27:37,908 --> 00:27:39,243
the timer right now.
- Here we go.
542
00:27:39,243 --> 00:27:40,661
- It's already started.
- Come on, man.
543
00:27:40,661 --> 00:27:42,538
- Come on, dude.
- Okay, um...
544
00:27:42,538 --> 00:27:43,956
- Let's get it. Let's get it.
This is game time.
545
00:27:43,956 --> 00:27:45,332
- Um...
546
00:27:45,332 --> 00:27:48,377
- Two, two words.
Two words, two words. Okay.
547
00:27:48,377 --> 00:27:50,629
- Four, four--
four words.
548
00:27:50,629 --> 00:27:54,299
Four syllables.
Ten seconds!
549
00:27:54,299 --> 00:27:56,468
- [laughs]
- Oh, man.
550
00:27:56,468 --> 00:27:59,471
♪ ♪
551
00:27:59,471 --> 00:28:02,474
[indistinct chatter]
552
00:28:02,474 --> 00:28:08,522
♪ ♪
553
00:28:08,522 --> 00:28:11,984
Oh, it's amazing.
- [laughs]
554
00:28:24,496 --> 00:28:26,915
I know I should pull it
together for my best friend,
555
00:28:26,915 --> 00:28:28,333
but if I stay,
I'm gonna lose it,
556
00:28:28,333 --> 00:28:30,252
and I don't want to make this
about me.
557
00:28:30,252 --> 00:28:32,212
- Oh, my God.
Leigh?
558
00:28:32,212 --> 00:28:33,213
Ginny Maxwell.
559
00:28:33,213 --> 00:28:34,590
I did the flowers
for your wedding.
560
00:28:34,590 --> 00:28:36,008
Is Matt here too?
561
00:28:36,008 --> 00:28:38,635
- This wedding is making me
feel really, really single.
562
00:28:38,635 --> 00:28:39,803
- Me too.
563
00:28:39,803 --> 00:28:42,806
When I was drinking, I had
no problem meeting people.
564
00:28:42,806 --> 00:28:45,100
- She's been sober
for almost five months.
565
00:28:45,100 --> 00:28:46,643
- Her compass is broken.
566
00:28:46,643 --> 00:28:48,604
She gets too close to people
too fast.
567
00:28:48,604 --> 00:28:51,190
- That dude is definitely
swiping right on you right now.
568
00:28:51,190 --> 00:28:54,067
- Um, I guess I should go see
if it's a match.
569
00:28:54,067 --> 00:28:55,527
Don't wait up.
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