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Jackson.

When you went away, it was like my heart stopped beating.

I just could not handle being alone with the newborn.

I'm sorry and.

I'm lost.

I have no idea what my life has become.

And I'm not good for you right now.

Always know that you are my hero.

Well, Christy.

She's gone mad.

Sometimes you got to let him go.

Let there be.

Jeff burning her way back.

She's not going back.

Hello.

How's business?

Hello.

Ever since the plant moved South,

it's a ghost town around here.

But I got a mechanic that quits, so I got a few extra shifts.

I really appreciate that mate.

I've been trying to do to help kid.

You got some more work to do or you're able to take a ride?

I got something to do.

It's kind of important.

Yeah, sure.

That's my.

You did the right thing here.

Thanks back.

Especially Jackson, Harlem.

Welcome home.

I know it's been a long Rd.

Before we begin, can I get you anything?

One dog tags.

And.

What power would you say they hold over you?

I feel naked without them.

I'll see what I can do.

You've had a quite a journey.

I'm curious.

What kept you going?

I made a promise to my Mama.

Sounds like a good reason.

Didn't really have a choice.

Sometimes their choices will make.

Bring us down, Paul.

We never see coming.

When you come back.

Instead of facing your fears.

Stop fighting.

I don't think you need to worry about that dog

I have a lot of people flat for.

I just don't give a fuck about myself.

It's OK for now.

We'll work on it.

We all have to learn how to love ourselves.

Just as much as we do with those closest to us.

Good luck dog.

It's not about luck.

It's about how much work you're willing to put in.

It's about how far you want to see yourself grow.

Does that make sense to you?

Well, I appreciate the optimism.

Saying the first time I've been fucked up and needed help.

And.

See, That's the thing, dog.

Same person that helped me before.

Someone fucked me up this time.

Bobby.

Where's the money you promised me last week?

I'm not a fucking bank.

Just because your lawyers brother doesn't mean

you get this shit for free.

Saying that.

Specialist Jackson Harlow.

You surround with us in the band back.

He's the second most talented guy we've ever had come out of this town.

Has until he won't sign himself with the fucking government.

I like soldiers.

Married too?

Was married, but asked me.

Bobby, shut up and introduce me to your friend.

This is our.

I'm Jax.

Nice to meet you.

Ohh well then.

It's good to have you back and you seem happy to be back.

But.

Listen, I'm sorry to hear about your friend.

Amy, can we get a couple of shots for

What was his name again?

Coming up Make that three baby girl.

You're in love.

I'll take care of them.

OK.

There you go.

No.

You know.

It's OK.

You're going to be all right.

Hard, I know.

Here, take this.

This will help.

Ohh, I got you.

My dad and I are pharmacists, so consider your doctor.

And your medicine?

As the Doctor Neil right on the night.

I wasn't planning on going home.

What's your address?

Here you are.

What's that for?

This is nice.

Sorry, we cannot.

You know somewhere else.

Tell me something.

Tell you what?

Do you always?

Freak out.

One should breaks.

Or is that a more recent development?

I saw more recent, I mean

when I first got back,

my family got these fireworks to celebrate

and when they went off.

I went off.

Other than that.

That's like.

PTSD, right?

Like wake up in the middle of the night screaming kind of thing.

I mean.

Yeah, that's.

That's part of it, but.

It's also something else.

You see one?

When you're over there.

You're always on edge, you're always alert.

On the lookout for.

Roadside bomb?

Show me the second story window.

And that's good.

That's that's that's a good thing.

What keeps you alive?

Always on edge.

You're always on edge.

It's a good way to say.

Come on.

That's.

Still there?

And it never stops.

Yeah.

It doesn't go away.

Traffic is driving down the road.

It doesn't go away.

The bar doesn't go away.

Just doesn't fucking go please my head.

She just won't fucking.

It's just wrong still.

I just wanted to know it won't go.

Hey, have you heard from Jackson?

And he was supposed to pick up Paige two hours ago?

I'm worried about him.

Ohh sure.

You got nothing to worry about darling.

We're about date night tonight.

Good, Alfonsos.

Been a while since we had a night to ourselves.

Yeah, yeah, sure.

This is.

Ohh.

I do without you movie.

I'm sorry.

Here, come here.

Anything else, Mac?

I'm gonna finish for the night.

Is it closing time already?

Damn.

Ohh yeah, go ahead.

It's all good.

Sounds good man.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Hey, kid.

How do you do I mean?

With everything.

Fine.

I know it ain't easy.

That guilt you got inside of you would tell you.

And I taught you.

How to push it down?

Just like any soldier.

And move on.

OK, so.

But I'm here for you, all right?

If you need to talk, I'm here for you.

Thanks, Mike.

Appreciate that.

I love you, kid.

Or get out of here.

Copy that.

Hey, you're right.

Back.

OK.

Bye, Mama.

Take Me Home.

Ohh, I just need a minute.

Thank you.

I told you, don't be a fucking hero.

Fucking God, you promised

your mother.

Fucking life.

Fucking Power.

You're like a little star feeling sorry for yourself.

Gotcha.

Are you listening to me?

I'm leaving.

I don't know she

feeling.

Where are you going to go?

Far away from you.

Good to see

everyone from fucking sick.

Done chances.

Where the fuck you going to go?

Where are you going to go?

What are you going to do?

You going to hit me?

Fucking heavy.

Come on, hit me.

Hit me.

You can't even hit me.

For me.

No wonder your wife left you sad excuse for a man.

Where are you?

You know, don't talk, just read.

What you wish?

That.

Ohh.

Ohh.

Yeah.

Helen Farmer.

Or mechanic shop in Perth all the way.

Seems to be closed now.

Then cinema band last two days waiting for you.

Why?

Well, since I retired,

I've been travelling across country

to visit different grave sites

of fallen soldiers I trained, I figured.

You could show me where.

That was my baby.

Show my respects.

It's all my fault.

Bullshit.

Your brother died so you could leave.

I don't wanna live anymore.

I'm tired of living.

It's hard.

I wasn't trying for this.

You have not been praying for me.

There are many more killer.

No, no.

I didn't turn you until I taught you how to fight.

I taught you how to fight.

Funny anymore I've got.

Ohh fucking home.

The fight never ends, son.

Can can you trying to hang yourself?

That don't make the pain

and it just pushes it on to somebody else

because you're too

busy to keep fight.

Look at me.

Look at me.

I didn't train no pussy.

Start digging soldier.

And big fucking deep.

Nothing else you can tell them I trained you how to dig.

Yeah.

You can definitely tell him that.

We're soldiers are, though.

We keep fighting till we get killed,

not till we kill ourselves.

It's going to sound dumb to you, but.

You're one of the lucky ones.

You made it back.

Now the.

If it's not over, it's just.

It's just different.

Finder.

Cromwell, Douglas buried in the cemetery outside Dunlap.

Do me a favour, Sir.

Pops list.

Couple miles away.

Just stop by.

He loves hearing.

Hadn't even stopped.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Thanks, Archer.

Hey.

Let me give you the tone.

I'm sorry.

You are.

Hey, where all these pills come from?

Marissa.

Ever seen that girl came in your life?

Yeah.

Bobby introduced us.

Try got back from my rack.

I didn't realise her and Lawler were peddling this shit together.

I got to go.

Mom.

What?

Jackson.

Hey, where are you going?

Hey, hey, hey.

Don't you forget tomorrow's Katie's birthday.

I swear I'm getting the fuck out of here.

Where you going to go?

You leave me behind?

Depends if you're coming with me or not.

The hell?

The fuck do you want?

What the fuck, Harlow?

OK.

Really want to do this?

OK, there.

Joy.

Is that true?

Jesus Christ, you have little pick me up, all right?

She was upset, keeping a break from life,

and you weren't here to give it to her soldier

boy.

I was.

I was here to give it to her.

Where the fuck were you from?

Yeah.

Stop fucking killing.

Let your friend.

No.

Trump.

Yeah, fuck.

Out of my way.

That's enough.

Bobby now fuck him up.

Probably.

We're good at that, aren't you?

Come on.

The fuck out of here?

Get the fuck out bro.

Fuck up.

OK.

Away from my father.

Fucking pussy.

Select.

Come on.

Well.

Ah.

Jackson, wake up.

I need my shit.

Wake the fuck up.

I need my shit wake up.

Baby, I was the best thing you had going for you.

You're nothing special for your birthday today.

They present Ohh presents alright.

You don't go to park maybe.

Yeah.

Do you want anything else?

OK, let's do it.

OK, well, maybe I'll make you cake too.

You like one with nerds?

Teresa, Katie, good morning.

Is there a sun here?

Sorry.

His car is here, Yeah.

I mean, yes, he's here,

but he's sleeping and I'd hate to wake his daughter's birthday,

so I hope I didn't wake up for her.

He's not feeling very well right now.

I'd give him an hour or two.

OK, well, you know, can you make him feel better?

Watch this, dude.

We can't come in right now.

You're good, yeah.

Jackson.

Jackson Honey.

Oh my God.

Somebody somebody help me maybe ohh shit maybe.

Jackson.

You're going home.

How do you feel about that?

Happy.

A little nervous.

Darkness.

Keep having this dream.

I made it back.

I'm almost home.

I see my daughter.

Running toward me, off in the distance.

Something doesn't feel right, though.

I started to run to try to get her and just went just when I get there.

I'll watch her die over.

And over.

Halford.

What do you think the stream is telling you?

I got no fucking idea, Doc.

It's not meant to save every.

You may be not being able to save that little girl's life.

Right now we have the chance.

To save your daughter's life.

Look at the deposit.

I can try but.

Something keeps holding me back I.

I don't know.

What if the dream?

Just means.

Even though I keep trying, I'm always going to fail at the end.

If you look at it that way.

Or you can find a way to overcome your fear.

And all these thoughts.

Find a way to uphold who Jackson Harlow.

Truly is.

Jackson's being discharged next month.

Hello.

Maybe we can drive down together.

Camp.

Working overtime.

Busting my ass to pay off his hospital bills.

Or, Jimmy said, his room for when we get back.

He's coming here.

And he's coming home.

Honestly, how do you plan on babysitting both Katie and Jackson?

What have kind of things I have to say?

I was mother.

I'm just saying it's gonna be a lot of work, that's all.

He's coming home, They're saying negotiation.

The boy has problems.

He doesn't know how to relate to.

He has PTSD.

There is a condition and it can be treated.

He just, he just needs some time to heal.

It's gonna be strain on the family.

What happens if he comes home and you can't handle it?

What then?

He's not the young dreamer you let leave for the war.

Don't you give me that crap.

I didn't want him going.

And you know, but he wouldn't came back and became a drug addict.

Said, always defending him.

Why can't you realise he's a danger to himself and to us.

He is my son and I'm not leaving him in some home.

You know, the same character and pride

that motivated him to join

is going to be exactly

what helps him heal and overcome.

Now I don't want the boy.

I won't allow wait here.

I'm sorry.

My foot down.

Well, this ain't your house.

Don't you get out.

Hello.

Are you OK?

OK.

How are you?

I'd love to see you and speak in person.

Where are you?

I'm outside.

Help me right now.

For the record, your mom told me not to come.

You can leave if you'd like.

You can stay.

You don't look so bad.

While we're expecting.

I don't know, little more mangled looking maybe.

I heard what?

Well, I did.

I'm sorry, I should have been here.

I came because I have something to tell you,

something important.

Can you just look at me for a second?

Still the bravest man I know.

When I left I.

I'd always hope we find our way back to each other.

It's stupid, but

when I was gone I'd.

I'd always be asking myself.

WGBH.

But what Jackson did?

Ohh Christy.

Always knew exactly.

This deal.

No.

Her daughter.

Yeah.

She's so big.

Is.

She looks more and more like a Mama every day.

I'm glad you got home, Christine.

Now.

Before we part ways.

Is there anything else you'd like to speak on?

Keep getting these stuff.

These headaches Ohh.

Every morning when I wake up.

Feels like a bomb went off inside my brain.

Would you like to mitigate that?

No, no.

Drugs just mask the pain.

And what's behind this pain, Jackson?

Fuck.

Come here.

Come here.

Come here.

Shit.

Come on.

Put on me.

You look like fucking shit, Parlo.

Ford Ranger.

Richard.

Look up, God damn it.

Ohh.

Fucking man.

Bye.

Help.

We were taught never to leave cover.

But I thought I could save that little girl's life.

I had my best friends dead because of me.

Ohh.

Reverse roles.

If we have to live cover.

Because you had to try to save that child.

Would you do the same thing?

Course.

You've been my best friend.

He was my brother.

Would it matter?

He left cover.

Exactly.

Trying to save that little girl's life.

Is what you have to do doing with yourself.

Reaching what you had to do.

So you can't live with himself?

Why don't you try to forgive yourself, Jackson?

For yourself.