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- You look great.

- Aw, look at Melissa
trying to be shy.

She's trying to be shy.

You look so cute.

- Her real name's Melissa.
- Melissa, say something.

- Something.
- Ha ha.

- Go, Melissa.
- This is Melissa.

- She was Lisso,
like Melissa.

She was L-I-S-S-O.
- Hey, Melissa!

- This is the backstage,
and this is the wall

where our name's
going to be next year.

- And then it went to Lizzo.

And for a while,
no one knew Lizzo.

- My mama knew Lizzo.
[laughs]

- Please welcome Lizzo.

- Ladies and gentlemen,
Lizzo!

- Lizzo!
- Her name is Lizzo.

Give it up,
ladies and gentlemen.

[crowd chanting]
Lizzo, Lizzo,

Lizzo, Lizzo, Lizzo...

[cheers and applause]

[moody chords]

- Someone calls a girl,
"OK, Lizzo,"

because she's big
and she's Black,

and she's doing something
that they don't think

big Black women
should be doing,

like dancing
and being confident.

I can only turn Lizzo
into a compliment

by being a best
version of myself.

# I got a feeling
I'm gonna be all right #

# It's bad bitch o'clock #

# Yeah, it's thick-thirty #

# I been through a lot,
but I'm still flirty #

# OK! Is everybody back
up in the building? #

# It's been a minute, tell me
how you're healing #

# 'Cause I'm about to
get into my feelings #

# How you feeling,
how you feel right now? #

# Oh, I've been so down
and under pressure #

# #

# I'm way too fine to be
this stressed, yeah #

# Oh, I'm not the girl I was #

# Or used to be #

# Oh, bitch,
I might be better #

# Turn up the music #

# Turn down the lights #

# I got a feeling
I'm going to be all right #

# OK #

# All right #

# It's about damn time #

# I'm coming out tonight #

# I'm coming out
tonight #

# Coming out tonight #

# I'm coming out tonight #

# I'm coming out
tonight #

# I'm coming out tonight #

# I'm coming out
tonight #

# Coming out tonight #

# OK #

# All right #

# It's about damn time #

[chatter, laughter]

- Hear me out.
- What's up?

- Can you hear me?
- OK, I got you.

- "2 Be Loved" starts off

the way "Truth Hurts"
ends, right?

I'm marrying myself,

I pull the veil back,
run, right?

I'm about to have
a panic attack, right?

I'm a runaway bride.
I hop in the car.

I speed off.

Then, somewhere in between,
a U-Haul pulls up,

and it's, like,
a bunch of my girls.

And we can have moments
of dancing and all types--

Ever since I was very young,

I would...

I would want something
so badly.

OK, talk to you later.

- Take care.
- Bye.

And I would get it.

I would just, like, manifest,

and I would get it,
specifically with music.

I'd be like, all right,
let's go,

and I would just...
make it happen.

# #

But it took nearly ten years

to get to where I am today.

I worked so much
and never said no.

No matter what part of
my story you come in at,

I'm always chasing the music.

Why is she sleeping
in her car?

She's chasing the music.

Why did she move
to Minneapolis?

She was going
where the music is.

And I also might not
made it a few times.

Because nobody
was fucking with me.

Nobody was trying to sign
a fat Black girl

that rapped and sang
and played the flute.

Y'all have no idea
how close I was

to this not being a thing.

# Ooh, better #

# Better, ooh better #

# Ooh, ooh #

# Ooh, better #

[thunder rumbling]

[quiet music]

# #

You know,
I was born in Detroit.

You know, my whole family
Detroiters.

- I'm from the Eastside,
and my mom and dad,

they both worked for Chrysler.

I met Michael at church.

We had only dated
for about a month,

and then we got married.
[laughs]

Because, I mean,
you just know, you know?

So the next year,
we started having children,

and they were born,
like, two years apart.

Melissa is the only child that
took me all the way to term.

Her brother used to tease
her when she was little,

and she would just scream.

Oh, my God, she had
a set of lungs on her.

But I would never tell her
to shut up or be quiet,

because I just knew
she was going to

use her voice for something.

- Ever since I was little,
I was the person

who had to mediate
family arguments.

I was the only person
my dad would listen to.

It taught me how
to communicate.

- Hi.

- My father was
extremely pro-Black.

He had a lot of Black pride,
which I loved,

and he taught us a lot.

He taught me about injustice.

He taught us about
Emmett Till.

I learned about these things
growing up

because my dad
just wanted to show me

the way the world was,

and he really enforced in me

to never ever switch up.

You know what I'm saying?

# You, you, you #

# You, you, oh #

# #

- Whoa!

[thunder rumbling]

[indistinct greetings]

# #

- Oh, there's the picture.

That's the one you're talking
about, right there, huh?

- This one.
It's my great-grandma.

That's Mama Kirkwood.

- Her and her husband,
they founded the church.

- My church
was a family church,

so everyone
was kind of my cousin.

My mom played piano in church,
and she sang.

- I was in the choir at
my grandfather's church.

You know, and then
my cousins and I,

we formed a little group

called
the Gospel Nightingales.

- Come on, matriarch.

- And then later on,
I met the Winans,

and I was able to
sing with them, too.

- We were brought up around

like major gospel players
in Detroit,

and our dad would
even promote their concerts.

So, like, being around them,
Lizzo saw the professionalism

of the music industry
in Detroit.

[crowd cheering]

- Music has always
had a physical effect on me

because of the way

that I would get so lost
in the music in church.

[crowd cheering]

- # If you think #

# You got me dickmatized #

[dramatic musical sting]

# I need to get you #

# Out of my life #

New York, can I get a amen?

[Lizzo's "Heaven Help Me"]

# #

When I walk on stage,
I black out.

It's not even blackout.
It's a light.

It's a bright light.
It's lights on.

# Heaven, help me #

# If love ain't dead,
I'ma kill it #

# 'Cause it's killing me #

# Cold world, got me
living in a fantasy #

# Like me, it's the only
thing I'll ever need #

# Heaven, help me #

My shows are the way they are

because I want you
to catch the spirit.

And if I'm on that stage,

we're connecting
to something higher.

# If you think
you got me dickmatized #

# Oh yeah, oh yeah,
oh yeah, oh yeah #

# I need to get you #

# Out of my #

# Life #

# Heaven, help me #

# If love ain't dead,
I'ma kill it #

# 'Cause it's killing me #

# Ooh #

New York, can I get a amen?

- Amen!

[moody music]

- When I was a little girl,

I really believed
that I was a bad singer--

not because I didn't try.

It's because
I actually was singing

and it wasn't good, like...
[laughs]

After I had moved to Houston,

when I was like 10 or 11,

I would write these pop songs,
and I would try to sing it.

And I'd be like you know what,
I'm gonna get somebody

to sing that part.

Like, I could hold a note,

I always had good intonation
and pitch,

but I didn't have
the confidence

or the power in my voice.

If there was a singer
in my head

that I wanted to sound like,

it was probably
Lauryn Hill and Beyonc�.

And I didn't sound like that,
so I didn't bother.

- Yeah.
- Let's pull it out.

- This is my letterman jacket,

the one thing we saved
from my past, Jefferson.

They give you line names,
and I don't know why.

They were like,
and you gonna be spotlight.

I was like, OK.

Hello, hello, helloey!

And this is, um,
I was Ms. Melissa.

Ooh, Ms. Melissa is so bougie.

Band, of course.

Flute.

And then this side
was class of '06.

- '06.
- Jefferson--I put an

exclamation point on it, too.
- No way.

- And that's funny.

My Lizzo signature
has a exclamation point,

so some things never change,
ho.

And it's huge
because I was insecure,

and I was like, I need the
biggest jacket you have.

'Cause I was scared to get
something too small,

and everyone
would make fun of me.

Why she got that old
little jacket on?

[exaggerated laugh]

- Why would they
even laugh like that?

- 'Cause that's how they was.
They were so mean.

- [imitating laugh]

- They was so mean in Houston.

Seventh and eighth grade

is when kids
started to notice differences.

I wore my hair different.

I didn't have the body type.
Like, I was chunky.

There were things
I would hide about myself,

like hiding
that I liked anime,

or that I read
Sailor Moon fan fiction.

I knew people were
making fun of me

or laughing at me.

I have memories of
raising my hand,

and people being like...

"Damn, you going to
answer that question, too?

Damn!"

Of girls hiding my clothes
from me after gym class,

boys calling me
fat ass on the bus.

By the time I was going
through the ninth grade,

I was like,
I am sick of being nerdy.

I want to be cool.

So I started throwing
myself into rap.

# Yeah, I'm movin'
like a snake #

# In the woods... #

That was
my first rap performance.

I remember
I went out into the crowd,

and everybody just started
screaming and going wild.

- Go, Melissa!
- [rapping indistinctly]

And that's where I fell
in love with live performance.

In Houston, freestyle rap
was everywhere.

You'd put on the radio, Lil
Flip was freestyle rapping,

and he was the freestyle king.

[overlapping shouting]

Then Ludacris came out,
and I was like, oh,

I want to rap like Ludacris.
This is it!

# I will probably outlast
every nigga flowin' #

And mind you,
that was the time

when I was taking Phentermine.

I was wearing trash bags.

I was, like,
putting on girdles.

I was doing all of this shit
in high school

to be, like, thin.

Like a lot of people,
I grew up

learning how to hate my body.

And...it worked.

You're just so disgusted
with your skin and your flesh

and your muscle and your bones

and the way
that they're designed.

And the fat in your body
is just, like,

you wanna cut parts
of your body off.

Like, how do you--
how do I stop that?

I don't want to feel
this way anymore...

you know?

So I was just like--music.

[somber instrumentals]

Boys don't like me.
I don't need boys.

Music is my boyfriend.

I was very focused.

The first song we wrote
for Cornrow Clique

was "It Don't Matta Doe."

- How did it go?

- I have it.

- Play it.
- Here we go.

[clears thought]
# Mayne, it don't matter #

# If I wear white or black #

# 'Cause when I'm in the club #

# Niggas be on my back #

# Never failing, never
falling off of the track #

# When I walk away,
look at my back #

# 'Cause they can't face me
and disrespect on my clique #

# If you even breathe wrong,
ho, expect to get huh #

Wow.
Performing to a room of people

on their phones--my dream.
[laughing]

My dream.

# #

When I land in Houston,
it's always like, whoa.

This is really
where I grew up.

Detroit is where I was born,

Minneapolis
is where I was branded

and where I became an artist,
like a solo artist,

but I was such an adult
by then.

Houston is really where
I was, like, bred.

I moved down to Houston
in 1997.

My parents had a business
in real estate.

There were days where
we had a lot of money,

and there was days where
we were squeezing it.

My brother and sister
got involved.

It was a family business,

and I was the only one
not involved

because I was like,
I'm going to band practice.

# #

[murmuring, chatter]

Hi.

It's crazy to be back.

This is where I used to
rehearse

with my band and--yeah.

I went to the University of
Houston on flute scholarship.

[jazzy flute music]

# Big girls got to cry #

The Houston Rodeo
was like the biggest thing

that I've ever done--period.

- Are y'all ready to see
who the mystery performer is

for Black Heritage Day?

- It's me!
I'm coming back to Houston.

# #

It feels like a homecoming.

And I remember just thinking,

that is the biggest thing
you can do--

like when Beyonc� did it
and when Selena did it.

I've never played a stadium.

I've never played a venue that
has 75,000 ticketed to see me.

I sold out the [bleep]
Houston Rodeo in seven min--

[bleep], I sold out
the [bleep] Houston Rodeo

in seven [bleep] minutes,
[bleep]!

Oh my God, look at Brazil.

And I sold out the [bleep]--

God is good.
I want to say thank you

to everybody who bought tickets
to the Houston Rodeo.

It's about to be
a [bleep] party [bleep].

[laughing]
I love y'all.

Damn!

[upbeat music playing]

# #

- We all knew that it was
probably a matter of time

before this was
going to happen.

So now that this
has happened

and we have
a community spread,

this isn't about the Rodeo.

This is about large gatherings

and protecting the community.

[somber music]

- We just got news that the
Rodeo is officially canceled.

- Oh.

OK.

- So I--they literally--

I just hung up with them
two minutes ago.

[phone chime]

# #

We can hop on a plane
anytime you want.

- I'm sorry.

- It sucks.

# #

- I was pretty fucking sad,

but people were expecting me
to be sad,

so I'm like,
I'm gonna keep it together.

Everything's gonna be fine.

Welcome. Um...

as some of you might know,

I was scheduled to play
the Houston Rodeo today...

and we had to cancel.

A lot of people
are sad right now.

A lot of people are sad
right now...

because somebody
they know is sick

or they might be sick

or we might be afraid
of what this means

for life as we know it.

[playing flute]

The pandemic was the cause,

and everything else
was the effect.

I had to stop
what I was doing

and sit with myself.

I was staying home
and working on music.

I told myself that Monday,

this Monday, tomorrow,

would be my deadline
for having

a bunch of demos,
listenable demos,

to play for my A&R.

[sighs]

[starts to sing]
[shrill feedback]

Fucking idiot.
I hate when I do that.

I'm so annoyed with myself
right now.

# Being in love,
you gotta have some #

# Self-control #

Lately, I just...

I don't...I don't see it.

I just feel like
there's people out there,

there's artists
that are way cooler than me.

There are artists
that are way more

politically impactful
than me.

There's artists that are
way more mysterious

and mystify people more
and wake people up more.

Like, I just don't think
that...[sighs]

It's like the stakes changed.

# Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh #

I think I was like,
ugh, how do I--

how do I write bangers
when I'm fucking sad

and mad and hurting?

I'm such a conduit
when I write music.

I can't fake it, you know,
and I was blocked

because I was holding on
to a lot.

[electric guitar playing]

# #

I've always been a little,
quote-unquote, different.

I was really, really bookish,

and I couldn't wait to
go home and read

and just sit in my room.

I can lay in my bed
and, like, daydream

and imagine things all day,

and music
was definitely an escape.

The flute was part of that
world that I could go away to,

and I would just
practice for hours.

[upbeat band music playing]

The flute was this weird
thing that just happened.

Mr. Broughton was my
first band teacher ever,

and he looks at you
and picks your horn for you.

And for me,
I was just chosen for flute.

I remember walking into
the band hall every day

excited about what piece
Mr. Broughton had for us.

He would write out
his own music.

He would score it out,
and it was normally

like songs from the radio.

He just made playing
instruments cool.

People assumed that
because I was Black

I wouldn't be good
at the flute.

And I'm just like,
let me prove all y'all wrong.

- Let's bring out Sasha.

This is Sasha the Flute,
the final flute.

Oh, Sasha Floot.
- Her name is Sasha F-L-O-O-T.

Sasha, she gonna post this
on her Instagram

because she's
a cocky little biyatch.

Hey, y'all, it's Sasha,
and I'm walking you through

the Library of Congress.
No one in 200 years

have ever heard this flute
get played.

So, of course
she had to twerk.

Oh, my God.

Are you kidding me?

# #

- Where do I blow?

- Heh. Well...

[trilling notes]

[applause]

# #

This is a beginner flute.

My dad would come to
the concerts with my mom,

and they thought
that, you know,

Mr. Broughton's band was cool.

But he didn't really
get invested

until I learned
"The Carnival of Venice."

Whew!
[clank]

Oh, shit!

Wow.

This is the sickest thing ever.

"The Carnival of Venice"
is this technical feat.

It's like
a flute's piece and chain.

You know what I'm saying?
A flute showing out.

And my dad thought that that
was the coolest thing ever.

He was all, she good at this.
[chuckles]

# #

He was like, you need
to get a lavalier mic,

and you need to start
playing the flute

and putting synthesizers
on it.

My dad just
motivated me a lot.

Bye, guys.

# #

Oh, God. I don't even wanna
think about this.

He had his first stroke
when I was 16.

I remember
in my mind being like,

I'm going to become
successful.

I'm gonna make money

so that I can just make sure
that my dad is healthy.

I can buy him a nice
house with Mommy,

and I'll get a live-in nurse
that can just, like,

juice for him every day,
and a chef.

And I had all these
big dreams and plans

and goals to help him.

2006 to, like, 2010

was a hot mess blur for me.

I graduated high school,
and I went to college.

My dad was kind of
in the house a lot,

couldn't really work that much.

That was the same time
the financial crisis hit.

My parents' business suffered,
but also my dad was sick.

The pressure really got to me,

and I really kind of
like froze

when it was time
to go back to school.

So yeah, I just kind of
abandoned it.

My dad would be
manifesting for me.

He would be like, you know,
I was praying for you today,

and I really want you
to go back to school,

and I really want
you to study music

and be successful in music.

He wanted us to be,
like, stars

because my dad believed
he was a star,

and he believed
that my mom was a star.

Not a star in the, like,

you're going to be famous
type of way,

but like,
do you know who you are?

You came from me,
so you should be great.

He was actually doing better.

He was at a hospital,

and, um, I still don't know
what happened to him.

I still don't know.
He was...

he was getting better.

When he passed away,

I kind of lost the will
to make music.

I lost the will to live.

[heartbeat thumping]

A lot went to shit
in that time.

I lost my apartment.
I lost my job, I lost my dad.

I was sleeping on floors,
sleeping in, like,

my band's rehearsal studio,
sleeping in my car.

It was a old 1998 Subaru,

and the side was T-boned in.

I slept in my car
on Thanksgiving,

and I just cried.

I lost everything.

[background chatter]

I didn't talk to anyone.
I didn't respond to questions.

I don't know what this was.

It was some weird
psychotic break.

I would go out in
the streets all alone,

and I would sing by myself.

And the thing that came out
was just ugly and raw and dark

and therapeutic all at once.

# Ooh ooh #

My relationship with
myself had to change,

because in order to pick
myself back up off the floor,

I had to trust myself.

I had to love that person.

# Am I ready? #

# #

I was like, all right, well,

I can't stay in Houston
anymore,

and I kind of threw myself
into the unknown.

# #

Hello.

I'm going to be singing
"Ghosts."

It is one of the songs I
sing with my band, Ellipses,

and it's written by
Jean Guillory,

not me, Melissa.
OK.

# I will never touch you #

# Rather, you will
never touch me #

Good luck, though.

# Lost in the desert #

# And losing your mind #

# Looking for something
you were hoping to-- #

# [indistinct], biopic #

# I'm moon walking on Mars #

I had been doing, like, Skype
sessions with this producer.

- That's my cousin.

- That's my sister.

- And he was like,
let's go to Minneapolis.

That's where
the music scene is.

So I hopped in his Jeep,
and we drove to Minneapolis,

and I found my voice.

# Nah mean?
nah, you don't #

# Anyways I get that green #

# They said I won't #

# Was the rumor
since the womb #

# And I continue
steady blooming #

# Dooming, glooming,
on these people #

# That be thinking
that they doin' something #

First, I was in Lizzo
and the Larva Inc.

Then I was in The Chalice.

And then I was in

GRRRL PRTY.

# Shooting you
from every angle #

# Hurt your feelings
and your paycheck #

# Got a feeling
you won't make it, bye #

# Oops, I didn't know
you was a wegula #

# Oops, my bad #

I met Sophia Eris
like the first week

I moved to Minneapolis
at a block party.

# Oh, you's a wegula #

# Oh, you's a wegula #

# Oops #

It was hardcore,
it was party, clast,

it was, like, rebellious,
it was very punk rap, you know?

And her and I together,
we were just, like,

trying to do
anything we could.

We were hungry.

- Sophia became my DJ.

It was kind of like
we needed each other,

and we didn't really know
what this was all gonna be,

but we're sisters, you know?

# Running and running
until I can't go #

# I cut the piece,
put that P in pocket #

# Partly polyethylene #

# Partly a polygon
made up of particles #

# Sparkle,
that glitter ain't gold #

I was working in
a producer's home studio,

and his style was very
Rap Olympics,

where I'm like...
# Remember that gooey gooey #

# You took us at, ooh wee,
ooh wee, I need two-a towey #

And he's like,
all right, one more time.

And I'm like...[inhales]
# Remember that gooey gooey #

# You took us at,
ooh wee, ooh wee #

# I need two-a twoey-a
these for my baby boo-y #

And then I evolved into
Big Grrrl Small World

where I was like,
I wanna get weird.

[vocalizing]

I started getting
into like sonics.

The throat got all these
little nuances to it.

You got to get under--
I studied music theory,

and I was like,
I need to flex that.

And so for
Big Grrrl Small World,

I got very
in the driver's seat.

# B-b-b-b-b-b-big girl #

# S-s-s-s-s-s-small world #

Because nobody knows
my truth, you know.

I have to like find it.

Got a lot on my chest,

so here's my breast
reduction.

I hear the sound
of gums bumping.

They ain't saying nothing.

I'm sick and tired
of being typecast

like Lindsay Lohan

when I'm gon' probably outlast

every nigga flowing.

# All these niggas
want to ride it #

# All these niggas wanna ride #

# I-i-i-i-it #

Boom!

[laughs]

"Lizzobangers,"
what I did with Lazerbeak,

kind of came out
unexpectedly for me

'cause I have been in
girl bands my entire life.

- And now we just got
word of a new solo record.

- Yay!
- Big Grrrl Small World.

- I'm so excited.

I finally just went in
and started recording.

And I had this
breakthrough moment

where I wrote a song
called "My Skin."

When I wrote that song, I was
like, now, I know my mission.

Like, I know why I'm here,

I why I have this mouthpiece.

And everything else
became super, super clear.

- What do you love the most

about your body?

- My skin.

I love my skin.
[laughing/crying]

And this is something
I was born with, you know?

You can't buy this
at the store, so...hey.

Your whole life, when you
are on the other side

of the spectrum of, like,
what's hot

or what the models are
walking in on the runway,

you're called these names.

You're called fat, you're
called big, you're called ew.

I remember being like,
should I call myself big?

I mean, I might as well
call myself big

before everybody else do
on the internet.

And then one day,
I was like, yo, like,

I'm going to be
in this body forever.

I'm going to be
this bitch forever,

so you either live
your life not liking her,

or you live your life
trying to love her.

# Uh yeah #

# Ooh what's deeper than #

# What's deeper
than the darkest #

# Best kept secret #

# Beneath the surface,
we could #

# Let it bring us together... #

Before that,
I hadn't heard anyone say

I'm in love with myself
on a song.

But people connected to it,
and it was personal,

and it was real.

So I realized
that was who I was.

# Beautiful thing
that you ever seen #

# Is even bigger than...#

I used to wanna be
a cool rapper,

but after "My Skin,"
it really hit me, like,

I'm really a songwriter.

And I wanted to write a song

that the whole world
could sing back to me.

# My skin #

# Your skin, yeah #

# Oh, I can't wash it away #

# No, you can't
take this from me #

Minneapolis accepted, like,
every single part of me,

the part of me that had
a little bit of a accent

and loved to freestyle rap,

and then
the other side of me

that was like, I listen
to indie rock music

and play classical flute.

# Ooh, my skin... #

I feel like this city
gave me the opportunity

to just be who I am.

I don't think I would
have left Minneapolis

if it weren't for
MTV Wonderland.

It's going to be on
and popping, Khaled.

You got to watch it.

It premieres September
15 at 11:00 p.m.

Honestly, hosting that TV show

was the only reason why
I moved to LA,

which, it weren't for that,

then I would have never
met Myke.

And then I would have never
fallen in love.

But that's a long story.

Wow, all these people are
just, like, regular drivers.

They don't know
that I'm fucking--

- A first timer?
- Yeah.

Whew, another car, look.

[Lizzo's "Fitness"]
[thumping steering wheel]

Why am I not honking?

[thumping]
[honks horn]

There it is.

Full stop.

I don't do no
California--whoa!

- When was the
last time you drove?

- 2000 and, um, [mumbles].

[both laugh]

I haven't been able
to get a license

for, like, mm...years

'cause somebody
had stole my identity,

and I had two licenses
down in Houston.

And one of them had so many
outstanding fucking warrants

that, you know,
I was riding dirty.

I was riding dirty
just being there.

- But you got your license.
- I know.

Drivers don't want to wave?
- [laughs]

- So much has changed
in all those years.

- So much has changed
since 1900 and--

- Watch the squirrel.
- Squirrel!

I'm not going to
hit the squirrel.

I'm a defensive driver,
you know, I mean,

I can say I'm probably the best
defensive driver there is.

[metal scrubbing]

What? Oh, my God.

Am I not supposed to hit that?

[laughter]

Whew!

Wow!

Suck it, Texas.

Texas was trying to
keep me down, man.

But you know what?

I'm a driver now.

# But I don't do this for #

# You-ooh-ooh-ooh... #

# #

- Artists are never
allowed to come back

on the sophomore record
with, like, something real.

It always has to be something
that's, like, so constructed

that it's, like, bulletproof.

- Of course,
I wanna be like, yeah,

let's go out with something
fucking vulnerable.

Like, trust me, I got
a lot of pent-up shit

that I be just watching.
I'm like, damn,

I wish I could say this,
I wish I could say that but--

- What are actually some of
those pent-up things

that you feel like
you can't say?

- When I'm feeling shitty
about myself, I'm honest.

But then the whole
internet goes crazy,

and it's, like, on
the fucking news.

But I'm like, I'm just
being honest, you know.

I'm just saying the things
that people feel

about themselves,
whether they're big or small,

every single day.

- In this fucking world
of Instagram supermodels,

you're the only girl your size,
your style, that they accept.

Even the people
that talk shit about you,

they're talking shit about you
because they're confused

as to why you're accepted.
- Yeah.

I'm so fucking happy with the
way that I look and who I am,

and it's so crazy,
'cause you put my body

next to Kim Kardashian's
and, baby,

people would think
that I'm wrong.

But I'm like,
this is the body I was given.

- Now we're talking.
- You know?

I don't think I want to
write a song

tackling everything at once
that we're talking about.

- Right.
- I think to do something else

and then drop these
kind of like

unabashed truths in there,

and then people
are like, oh, OK.

[track playing]

# Hi, motherfucker #

# Did you miss me? #

# I been twerking,
making smoothies #

# And all these rappers,
they've been sexting #

# I'm in a meeting,
and I look better #

# Than you seen me last #

# I been training
I can flex that ass #

# So when I shake it,
I can shake it fast #

# Make that camera flash,
camera flash, camera flash #

# If you're looking for
the sign, bitch, I'm it... #

She talking about
making that album.

Hey!
A album?

A album, bitch?

A album?
Absolutely not.

I'm not making
no fucking album.

# Just a second,
let me fix my wig, yeah #

# Now it's time to finally
talk my shit, yeah #

# Oh, did you forget
I'm still that bitch, yeah #

# I live inside your head
and pay no rent, yeah #

A album!

# I'm blessed, I said #

# I'm getting some head #

# I'm Texas Toast #

# I'm cornbread-fed #

# I'm good, I'm great #

# I'm two hours late #

# But I'm on my way #

# Hey, hey, hey #

- Yeah. Something like...

'cause the second verse
is good.

There's just some things
in the first verse,

and then there's like
a few things in the hook,

and then the second time,
when the pre comes.

- So the whole song?

[laughter]

- There is more pressure

from not only
my management team

but from the label.

- Get, like, an update on,
in case nobody told you--

- I was writing good songs,
and I was like,

oh, shit, like, I've got
some really good songs.

- Should we see how it sounds?
- Yeah, let's hear it.

I played them for
Atlantic Records.

And for me, I thought
they would be like...

"This is it.
You've done it again.

Girl, you did it."

And, um...

they just were like...

"Yeah, um..."

I was so fuckin' mad
that day.

I was like, I don't trust
the damn label right now.

I need to trust myself.

- I mean, it sounds insane,

but they're just
super thorough.

- You are coming from
a place where just--

you're now in a...you've won
Grammys and shit now,

so they wanna keep that up too.

They want critical acclaim.

- I don't know what music is.

I don't know what
songwriters do.

I'm tired.

- When did you write "Good
as Hell" and "Truth Hurts"?

Did you care?

- No.

- Did you overthink
those songs?

- No.
- All right.

- You got a point there, buddy.

You got a point there, buddy.

It's OK.

The story of how
"Truth Hurts" evolved...

I got my heart
stomped on in 2017.

I wish that there
were cameras then.

Shit.

'Cause it was
really just a sad day.

It was around my birthday,

and I had a voicemail and
this phone call from this guy.

He was like, please don't
contact me, don't call me,

don't text me.

And I was like, huh?

[somber music]

It was painful,
like I slid down the wall.

I was crying.
Like, I was crying for days.

I didn't eat.

So I go into the studio,

and I was just
talking about my day.

It was that weekend.

Like, there was this dude
on the Minnesota Vikings

who wanted to go on a date
with me, so I hit him back.

And then,
I took my weave out

and just went and got my hair
washed and pressed and cut.

I just wanted some new energy.

I took a bomb photo,
and I was like,

life is fucked up right now,
but at least I look good.

Remember, I was like, oh,
you trying to break my heart?

Huh.

Breaks my heart.

'Cause you ain't
never even had it.

It was just like
a magical moment

of everything I've ever
said out of raw emotion,

and I just put it in a song.

That's why it's so important

that I just keep
writing shit like that.

# Ah ah #

I'm glad it happened.

Sometimes I'll be laughing
to myself like, this boy.

And I just sing
the song about him.

Ha ha.

This is my favorite part.

# I just took a DNA test #

# Turns out
I'm 100% that bitch #

# Even when I'm cryin' crazy #

# Yeah, I got boy problems #

# That's the human in me,
bling bling... #

This is the cover shoot
of "Cuz I Love You."

Like, that is
the black backdrop,

and I sat right where he is.

I just got so excited.

We're gonna
listen to the album.

I'm about to be naked.
It's be about to be fucking--

I'm about to fuck
shit up it, bitch.

What's good?
[laughter]

Just a little tit.

[electronic guitar riffing]

It was kind of the beginning
of this wild ride.

# Turn it up #
I was just excited.

# Slow songs,
they for skinny hos #

# Can't move all of this... #

- You're the one killing it.

- A genreless pop star,
a woman of color.

- Hey, girl, color in black!

- Peace and beauty.
- Can I get a amen?

It's always kind
of been like this,

and then this year,
it was just like--

I don't know why
this bathtub

is full of Skittles.
It gets weird.

# #

- Yeah, girl...
- We love you!

- # Kitty cat, kitty cat,
kitty-kitty cat #

# Look at my ass,
it's fitty-fitty fat #

It is incredible.

Oh, my God.

# Girls get love #
Whoo!

# Slow songs,
that's for skinny hos #

# Can't move all of this
here to one of those #

# I'm a thick bitch,
I need tempo #

Goddamn!
That's fine!

# Fuck it up to the tempo #

# Fuck it up
to the tempo #

# Slow songs
ain't for skinny hos #

Fuck it up to the tempo.

Fuck it up.
Fuck it up.

Whoo!

[Lizzo's "Truth Hurts"]

# New man
on the Minnesota Vikings #

# Truth hurts, needed
something more exciting #

# #

All your guitars and shit
that you added are missing.

Maybe it's just in my ears.

Do you hear it in
the house, Devon?

- [Devon, indistinct]
- So it's missing, yeah?

Tracks are missing.

It hurts my feelings.

This is my show, this is
my music, this is my life.

Please don't hurt my feelings.
Please don't break my heart.

Let's all be the best
we can fucking be.

This is fine,
but this is a rehearsal.

But when it's time
to go tonight,

it's time to motherfucking go.

Thanks, everybody.

I think in 2019,

I was growing faster
than I could keep up.

Like, holy shit,
now we're doing Coachella.

And I wanted
the set to be perfect.

And, you know, I was a
little big for my britches.

# Everybody, hands up #

# Hands to the sky #

We gon' have us a good-ass
time today, Coachella.

[music cuts out]

Nothing but body
positivity and self-love.

[cheers and applause]

The music kept cutting
in and out because...

# And baby, worship me #

...our system had overheated.

I'ma keep singing this shit.
# Worship me #

# Yeah-ea-eah #

We just kept dancing,
and I kept singing.

# And baby, worship me #

Back then,
I felt like who I am now.

But everything around me

was always kind of like
half done.

# Ee ee ee ee ee-ah #

[cheers and applause]

I want the show to be so much
bigger and better

than it is right now.
- Yeah, yeah.

- As I'm standing there,
I was like, huh?

We need pyrotechnics.

We need videos.

It breaks my heart because

these people
want to see a big show,

and I want to put on
a good show.

Our infrastructure
was tiny back then.

And at that point,
I was, like,

living in a one-bedroom
box apartment.

[chatter, light laugh]

It's like, it wouldn't be

a fucking Lizzo
award show performance

if it wasn't down to

the fucking wire.
[knock on door]

I'm just so fucking tired.

- It's 2:00 a.m.

- Welcome.
- Oh, my God.

- Welcome to my crowded
apartment.

- Welcome.
- I don't know how

you got this done
in less than 24 hours.

Fingers crossed.

Should I put it over my head?
- No, you're good.

- [sighing]

T-minus seven hours
before the AMAs.

We were struggling back then.

# 2:00 a.m. #

# In my apartment #

# Trying on a fucking gown #

- Beautiful.

- But I gotta give
everybody credit.

Like, I was working with
such a small group of people,

and we kept going.

- Look.
Look at it from behind.

- # Jerome #

The show don't stop.

The show must go on.

[Lizzo's "Jerome"]

# Poor little baby #

# Who told you that you stood #

# A chance with this royalty #

# You're so sweet,
bless your heart #

# Can't let a pretty face
distract me from business #

# And God as my witness,
your ugly ass won't either #

I'm sorry.

The music has been
my first love.

Music has been my most
consistent lover.

And I always felt
like my music is

a conversation with the
people who listen to it.

# Jerome #

But when I perform
music sometimes,

I relive painful experiences.

But music didn't do
that to me, life did.

And because of music,
I can express that pain

in a way that makes life
easier.

# Jerome #

# Jerome #

# Go on and take
your ass home #

# Where the peaches have #

# Thorns #

# Don't cry for me, baby #

# Don't cry, no #

# Oh, don't cry for me,
baby #

# Oh, oh #

[audience cheers]

Me and Myke had been
friends since "Wonderland."

It's complicated
because we're friends

with a lot of feelings.

I didn't really know what
to do with all those feelings,

so we were off and on,
you know?

One day we were on,
and the next day we were off.

It hurt because I loved him,

but honestly, I don't think
I was ready for love.

I feel so bad.

[sobbing]

I don't know.

I feel so bad.

I don't know how
this person just has,

like, all of my heart.

You know what I mean?

I don't know what
I'm going to do.

I just want it to, like--

I just want, like,
the feelings to stop.

You look so nice, Shelby.

[laughs]
- Thank you.

Girl, this a hard one.

I don't even got no
words for you,

'cause I know exactly
how you feel.

- Yeah. Isn't it so scary
just being like,

what if this hurts,
or what if it doesn't work?

Like, it's not even about him.

It's just about, like, fear,
like, I have a lot of fear.

You know?

This is the first time I've
ever been so close to someone

who doesn't need me
or doesn't ask me for anything,

which was something
I thought was nice at first.

It was refreshing.

And then, now, it's like,
oh, no, you don't need me.

You don't need me at all.

Ugh.

Just put on
the Harry Styles album.

[Harry Styles' "Falling"]

Oh, fuck.

# #

- # I'm in my bed #

# You're not here #

- I love this fucking song.

- # And there's
no one to blame #

# But the drink
in my wandering hand #

- Bitch!

Don't sing my truth, bitch.

- # What am I now #

- What am I now, bitch?

# What if I'm someone
I don't want around? #

# I'm falling again #

# I'm falling again #

# I'm falling #

# #

- # I get the feeling #

# That you'll
never need me again #

- [weeping]

I forgot he said that.

# #

[whispering]
Love these lyrics, bro.

- # What am I now?
What am I now? #

# What if you're someone
I just want around? #

- Why did you want me
to turn it on?

- I don't know.
Why did he say that?

I was good till he said that.

- # What if I'm down #

- I'm sorry.
- It's OK.

- # What if I'm someone
you won't talk about? #

# I'm falling again,
I'm falling again #

# I'm falling #

- You know, music
is really powerful.

- You know, you should
watch a Lizzo show.

- Ha ha.
- I can't.

It's impossible.

Can I sing to y'all?

[cheering and applause]

# I will always... #

# In case
nobody told you today #

# Dun-dun-duh,
dun-dun-duh #

# I'm so glad that
you're still with us #

I love that.

Write that down.

- # In case nobody
told you today... #

- I want to say
celebrity is new to me,

and so is people judging me,
but that's not exactly right.

- Fame is pretty new to me.

I'm used to people judging me.

- # Fame is pretty new,
but I got #

# But I been used to
people judging me #

# That's why I move
the way I move #

# That's why I'm so
in love with me #

- You can say "and."

# That's why I move
the way I move #

# And why I'm so
in love with me #

- # Do do do do do do do #
Pow.

# In case nobody
told you today #

# You're special #

# In case nobody
made you believe #

# You're special #

# Well, I will always
love you the same #

# You're special #

# I'm so glad that
you're still with us #

# Broken, but damn,
you're still perfect #

OK, now I sing it in tune.

# Oh #

# #

# In case nobody
told you today #

# You're special #

# I'm so glad that
you're still with us #

# Broken, but damn,
you're still perfect #

[echoing]

- OK. 1, 2, 3, 4.

5 and 6, 7, 8.

[Lizzo's "Truth Hurts"]

# #

- The big girls are
an extension of myself.

I'm not small,

and I remember being like,
well, if I'm gonna have

people on stage with me,
they gotta look like me.

So it inspired me to just
be like I need big girls.

And I was like, we can
call them the big girls.

The big girls went from
being a physical thing

to like an energetic thing,
like how big is your spirit,

how big is your heart?

How we feeling, y'all?
- Good.

[cheering]

- I just want to
let y'all know,

I watched the footage from
the rehearsals yesterday,

and it just looks so good.

And now that we have
perfection, I think it's time

to just bring realness to it,
so the whole world can

fall in love with the person
that we've fallen in love with,

you know.

So I want to talk
about what we felt

and talk about how
we can feel better.

Not even better, how we can
feel actually good as hell

when we're
performing this song.

Because, I'm not going to lie,

yesterday, I didn't feel
good as hell.

I was stressed out

instead of just kind of
opening up and letting it

flow from me, you know,
but that's me.

We'll start over here,
and we'll move through.

Like, how did you feel,
as you were going through?

- I feel like you feel like
we are capable of everything,

and you think that
I'm capable of

more than I think
I'm capable of.

And so I was fighting
this inclination to shrink

and to, like--it's OK
to, like, for all of us

to be, like, big,
to take up space.

Even stepping on
the train sometimes,

I know for me the first thing
I do is try to shrink up

to space for other people.

- Isn't that funny that
that's our inclination,

is to shrink ourselves.

Why do I have to shrink myself?

Why is this too big for you?

Do you know what I mean?

And this ain't too big
for the main stage.

If anything,
it's just the right size--

- Come on.
- For an arena, for a stadium.

Light me up.
[laughter]

[overlapping chatter]

But, um...

And so being there and
going through the steps,

and going through this whole
process with everybody,

it's just like, yo, now I
have to give myself permission

to be in this moment, so...

- There's nothing
I can do to take away

the fear of vulnerability.

But I think we can use
that when you're performing

tomorrow, and realize
how strong you look

and realize how much strength
you're going to give people.

- I gotta be on point.
I have to.

I can't--you can't let
nobody see you sweat.

You have to be
three times better than.

It's not two times.
It's three times.

You know what I mean?
- Yes.

- And it's just, oh, my God.

[soft music]

# #

- Being big,
your body is politicized.

Being Black,
your skin is politicized.

Being a woman,
your gender is politicized.

So we're actually making
quite the political statement

being all three.

Look where you are, you know.

This performance
isn't like, oh, we have,

like, a token big girl.

This performance is about us.

It's for us. And it's not--
[clapping]

And it's not a joke.
It's dead serious.

I want you to imagine that
you walked to that train

and then you hopped in a
limo and drove to the VMAs,

and you looked back at that
girl walking to the train,

and you said, I knew it, girl.
I told you, didn't I tell you?

You are the self
that your younger self saw.

They would look up to you.

[overlapping chatter]

Let me talk to
y'all for a second.

[cheers and applause]

I'm tired of the bullshit.

And I don't have to know
your story to know

that you're tired
of the bullshit, too.

It's so hard trying to
love yourself in a world

that doesn't love you back.
Am I right?

[cheering]

So I want to take this
opportunity right now

to just feel good as hell

because you deserve
to feel good as hell.

We deserve to
feel good as hell.

# So tell me
how you feeling #

- # Good as hell! #

- # Tell me how you feeling #

- # Good as hell #

- # If you don't know
what to do #

# Yea-ea-eah #

# If he don't love
you anymore #

# Walk your fine ass out the #

# Door #

# Oh oh #

# #

- # Feeling good as hell #

- # Say good as hell #

- # Feeling good as hell #

- # Say good as hell #

- # Feeling good as hell #

Yeah!

[cheers and applause]

[soft, stirring music]

# #

# Crazy, sexy, cool, baby #

# With or without makeup #

# Got nothing to prove #

OK, so basically,

Myke is coming to my house
at noon to talk.

- Wait, what?

- He wrote me yesterday.

- Wait, what?

- I know.

- Wait, what?

- I was like,
are you frozen or--

[laughter]

Even if he wants to be with me,

I don't think that I could...

I couldn't handle that.

- No, you couldn't.

- I just want to talk to him.

We had such
a great relationship.

We talked about things
that I can't really

talk about with anybody.

I just hope that I don't
fall in love with him

all over again
after seeing him,

because he got ASAP
Rocky braids now, bitch.

Aah!
[laughs]

But anyway.

Going live.

[background chatter]

62nd Annual Grammy Award
Nominations Announcement.

- We got to pack up quick
because we got, like--

- Fuck. We're boarding
our fucking plane.

- Whoo!
- It's starting.

- Oh, God.
Mic it in.

- Best Pop Solo Performance.

"Spirit," Beyonc�.

- Yes.

- "Bad Guy," Billie Eilish.

- Shit.
- Oh, my God.

- "Truth Hurts."

[cheering]

- Oh, my God.

Wow!

Oh, my God.

That's crazy.
[laughter]

Oh, my God!

[laughs]

Oh, shit.

# #

So I told Alex my Grammys idea.

He's the first person
to hear it.

It came to me
on the plane today.

# Why men great till
they gotta be great? #

All of a sudden you see these
thick Black girl ballerinas.

Boom. Yes!
Boom.

They're ballerining.

You could have had a bad bitch.

Here come the big girls,
so I want

to go back and forth
between a Baroque version

and a trap version.
# I don't play tag #

# Bitch, I been there #

Sasha comes down from the sky.
- Ah!

- 15-second flute Baroque solo.

[imitating flute]

You know what I mean?
And everyone's like,

what the fuck, I ain't know
the flute was so lit.

# Bum, bum, de-dum,
de-bum, bum #

Last chorus, everybody,
ballerinas

dancing, big girls dancing.

Orchestra's back--# boom,
boom, boom, boom #

Actually, in my crazy-ass
head, the orchestra

been there the whole time.

# Bum, bum, de-bum,
de-bum, bum, bah #

Bah!

And it's period.

- I love it.

So good.

- Wow.

[video chat alert]

- So here's my idea.

It involves finding some
thick Black girl ballerinas,

so you need to find them now.

- I hear you 100%,
but Black ballet dancers

are so much of an anomaly.

- I know.

It's like,
I've seen ballet dancers,

but I've never seen a
curvaceous, thick Black

ballet dancer.

Because they don't
get the training,

and they don't get the training
because people don't want

to teach them because of
their bodies or their skin,

you know.

That's why
it's important to me.

- All right.
I'm already on it.

I'm going to search the
country high and wide.

- High and thick.

[piano music playing]

# #

- # Why men great
till they got to be great? #

# I just took a DNA test,
turns out I'm 100% #

[horns]

Fuck yes.

All these Black girls
at the fucking Grammys

shitting on these niggas?
Period!

Y'all came the fuck through.

Y'all was like, oh,
you want loud, bitch?

[screams]

[laughter]

That's what I want.
You know what I'm saying?

They told us to shut up
for too long!

But I'm--I'm so
proud of you all.

And thank you so much
for being a part of this.

I'm going to leave,
and I trust y'all.

Y'all sound beautiful.

Fill up the room.

Take up all the space in
the music, in the theater,

in they face, in your life.

You know what I'm saying?

This is like-- it's raining
blessings, so just receive it.

[Kirk Franklin,
"The Storm is Over Now"]

- [vocalizing]

# Over now #

I woke up this morning,
and I was just like--

- I know, like--

- Fucked up in a bad way.
- Yeah.

- Thanks, guys.

- I'm so proud of you.
- I know.

- Damn.

I know.
I woke up this morning,

and I was in my bathroom.

And I was like,
whoa, look what--

I was like, shocked.

I was like, what am I
about to do today?

[laughing]

- That's good.
- Like, look what--

look what God has done.

I was talking about,
that's crazy.

It's like, my first
rap crew, and then

when I moved to Minneapolis,
The Chalice, like--

so glad y'all are here.

[applause]

[orchestral music playing]

# #

[rhythm picks up]

# Why men great
till they gotta be great? #

# I just took a DNA test,
turns out I'm 100% #

# That bitch, even when
I'm crying, crazy #

# Yeah, I got boy problems #

# That's the human in me #

# Bling, bling,
then I solve them #

# That's the goddess in me #

# Could have had a bad
bitch, noncommittal #

# Help you with your
career, just a little #

# You're supposed
to hold me down #

# But you're holding me back #

# And that's the sound of
me not calling you back #

- And the Grammy goes to Lizzo.

[cheering and applause]

# Tell it
straight to my face #

# Best friend sat me down
in the salon chair #

# Truth hurts, needed
something more exciting #

Thank you so much
for lifting me up.

Let's continue to reach out,
hold each other down,

and lift each other up.

God bless you.
Thank you so much.

[flute playing]

# #

Period!

# So if you fight
like a girl, do your thing #

All of this feels unavoidable.

I've always described
my life as being

on a certain type of track.

Now I know why.

Sometimes I feel so connected
to the Black women

who came before me who didn't
really get their praise--

like my grandma
or my great grandma.

I do this for them
and so many Black women,

like Sister Rosetta Tharpe
and Big Mama Thornton,

who, like, literally
invented rock and roll.

And none of them
get the credit.

So it's like, well,
this is for her.

# And if you
feel like a girl #

# Then you real like
a girl, bitch #

# #

- Breaking news out of
Louisville, Kentucky,

where a grand jury
handed down its decision

of three officers involved
in the deadly police

shooting of Breonna Taylor.

No one is charged with
anything directly related

to Breonna Taylor's death.

- I wonder if some shit's
going to pop off in LA

because of this Breonna Taylor
shit.

- At the end of the day,

I don't think it's
going to be as

extreme because I think
Black women's lives

matter way less to people.

Breonna Taylor was, like,
us really crying out

for respect this time,
but I still

don't think it was enough.
It's sad.

It really fucking
pisses me off.

I think there's just so much
work to be done in the world,

and there's so many people
who are suffering

from the system,

Like, I will never
understand...

I mean, I actually
do understand white supremacy

because it's working.

# How...how do you
think it makes Black women #

# Feel when you never see us,
and you never will? #

[whispering]
Fuck, I don't know.

Oh, what if it's--

# When you never see her #

# When you never see us
someday #

- But someday you will.
- # But someday you will #

- Oh, I like that.

- # How do you think
it makes a Black woman feel #

# When you never see her
but someday you will #

The system is effective
because of racism

and sexism and classism.

We just need everyone
to realize

that this isn't working
for all of us.

# My love, my love #

# My love,
my love #

# My love, my love #

# Just hold me close #

- We're going to take
over Brooklyn Boulevard.

[applause]

- # And I pray
for protection #

# From many evils
or elections #

# Because when they
finally see us #

# They going to see
it for themselves, oh #

# How do you think it
makes a Black woman feel #

# When you never see her? #

# But someday you will #

# #

Black women have been the
heartbeat of every movement,

from Sojourner Truth
to the Black women

leading the Black
Lives Matter movement.

We are at the bottom,
but yet,

we always raise
our voices first.

I'm so proud to be a Black
woman and an activist

because when I'm loud,
they hear this mouth.

Period.

[applause]

I feel like,
as a Black woman,

I have been put in this
position that I didn't really

ask for of, like,
making people feel good

and making noise about
issues to make a change.

Because that's what we do.

It's what Black women do.
We've always done that.

But sometimes I wish
that that wasn't

always kind of put on us.

Because I know that
easily, as a Black woman,

I can wear that burden

and let it weigh me
down like a mule.

And I don't want to be
anybody's fucking mule.

[moody music]

# #

- I have 1, 2, 3.

["Truth Hurts" playing]

- It was really important
to me

that the big girls
could twerk.

- Whoo!
- Hey!

- I've been twerking
since I was 12.

And it's in the music that
I listened to growing up,

from New Orleans bounce
to Southern rap.

Twerk, the word, is a newer
way to describe the dance

move that has been going
on for hundreds of years.

There's forms of
twerking in almost

every Indigenous culture.

Black culture is
the only sect of culture that

becomes mainstream
and loses its origin.

When you know where
it comes from,

you put more respect on it.

- Thank you, Christy.
Good job.

- Blackness is a commodity.
It's a hot commodity.

The media described
twerking as, I quote,

disturbing and disgusting.

Once mainstream,
twerking was misunderstood

and taken out of context.

So I want to do
everything in my power

to prevent the erasure of
Blackness from twerking.

# Look up in the mirror #

# Oh, my God, it's me #

# So much Prada on me,
I'm a prodigy #

# Coconut and rose
in my skin regime #

Shaking that ass is
this thing that is sexy.

It's exciting.
It's extremely feminine.

# Feelin' like a stripper when
I'm lookin' in the mirror #

# I be slapping on that ass,
getting thicker and thicker #

Sing it to me.

It beats at the heart
of my ancestors,

and it became
a part of my brand.

# #

It is one of my
favorite things to do.

[cheering and applause]

# #

I can't wait for this album
to come out

so I can shit on
everybody who's been trying

to reduce me to my body.

- So Lizzo right now
is getting canceled.

- "Lizzo Is Over Party"
was trending on Twitter.

- Am I getting some
backlash right now?

- That dress left little
to the imagination.

- With nothing
underneath but a thong.

- She got a very pretty face,

but she keep showing her
body off, like, come on...

- She became the number one
trending topic on Twitter.

- No respect for art history
or any historical artifacts.

- I don't think people
should be canceling Lizzo.

- Being overweight
is the new gold.

- She's merely shucking
and jiving for an audience

of white feminists.
- On Twitter,

a large
amount of Black people

have decided they don't
like Lizzo's music.

What they end up
saying about her music

is she makes music
for white people.

[dramatic chord]

- I think there's nothing
that hurts my feelings more

than the rejection
of my own people.

But I feel like,
the bigger you get,

the more your Blackness
is taken away.

I was, like, so sad
last night because

I saw something on TikTok.

And it was, like,
this thing where it was,

like, comparing some other
artists to me.

The reason why this
person doesn't have

as much, like, mainstream
success is because

Lizzo makes palatable music

and makes white people
feel comfortable.

I don't make
nobody comfortable.

I've never walked in a room
and been like, like me.

I walk in a room,
and I'm like, accept me.

And the fact that people
use me as this think piece

or why someone else
doesn't have success

because of my proximity
to whiteness,

it's like, bruh, like, huh?

# #

The James Webb Telescope
just published a photo

of a grain of sand,

and there are millions
of stars and planets

and life forms
and celestial bodies

within that grain of sand.

You think username
Fuck That Bitch

has any authority on your
existence and why you're here?

No.

# Girl, there ain't a doubt #

# What you talking about? #

# You gonna figure it out #

OK, so here's the tea.
I'm back with Myke.

- So y'all actually
going somewhere or--

- No, just to a park.

I'm going to be
like, happy birthday,

let's go on a picnic,
you know.

- Spend some time
with your boo.

- I'm going to cuss
him out too, though.

Like, yeah, we're
on good terms, but...

[laughs]

So that's the tea.

Hey, guys.
- Hey.

- All right,
I'll talk to you later.

- All right. Bye, girl.
- I warmed up for you today.

- OK, I worked out for you.
- Really? You did?

- Yeah.

A lot of my issues with my dad.

No, I'm just kidding.

- [laughing]

# Talked to my
girlfriend just today #

# They reminded me of when you
had me crying in the car #

Me and Myke
needed the space.

And I'm grateful
'cause we grew,

we learned about ourselves,
and most importantly,

we learned
that we didn't wanna be apart.

And I, like, prayed about it.

I was like, help me be
an unconditional lover,

because to love somebody
with conditions

hurts too fucking bad.

# Cause, boy,
you know me better #

# You know me
so much better #

He's my muse.
I've written quite a few

songs about him--
"Break Up Twice,"

"Naked," "Cold play,"
"To be Loved."

[laughs]
The whole album.

# You know that
I don't break up twice #

- Hell yeah.

- # But I never had nobody
with a love like you #

# It would be a shame
not to see this through #

- That's it.
- Who gonna put up with

your Gemini shit?
OK, cool.

- I don't know who would
put up with the Gemini shit.

- I haven't done stage
banter in so long.

Jesus Christ, there's so
many mosquitoes in this car.

Oh, my God.
Uh-uh.

- They are still in here.
- This is a nightmare.

Ouch.
- I'm sorry.

- Minnesota for you.
Welcome back.

- This is exciting.
It is.

Oh, my God.
This the first show in what?

A year.
- If I didn't play a show

before January,
it would've been two years.

- Wow.

- Oh, my God, you guys.

All right, everybody.

Close your eyes and
just squeeze the hand

of the person next to you.

We did not think
we would make it here,

but Lord God, you brought us
here to put this show on

to make people's nights better,
Lord God,

their lives better.
Thank you for putting us here

to be positive change
in the world.

We're so grateful
for the whole team.

I would be nothing up
there without you guys.

Every person in this
circle is a part

of the bigger picture,
a part of bringing

light into the world.

This show is already done,
and we have

already won, in Jesus' name.

Amen.

[cheering]

[crowd noise, chanting Lizzo]

I never thought I would make
it back to the stage, man.

This is my first show
in nearly two years,

and it feels so
special to be doing

it here back in Minnesota...

# #

Where my solo career took off.

Thank you so much for
accepting me for who I am.

[Lizzo's "Juice']

Here we go.
1, 2, 3, sing!

# Mirror, mirror on
the wall, don't say #

# It because I know I'm cute
oh baby #

# Louis down to my drawers,
LV all on my shoes #

# That's how I roll #

# If I'm shinin',
everybody gonna shine #

# Yeah, I'm gold,
I was born like this #

# Don't even gotta try,
now you know #

# I'm like Chardonnay,
get better over time #

Y'all don't know
how much I been through

to be right here, right now
on this stage.

# It ain't my fault that I'm
out here getting loose #

# Gotta blame it on the Goose #

# Gotta blame it on my juice #

# Ya-ya-ee #

# #

1, 2, 3, sing!

# It ain't my fault that I'm
out here getting loose #

# Gotta blame it on my juice #

# Blame it, blame it
on my juice #

Oh!

[cheering and applause]

I messed up so many times.

- It was so good.
What are you talking about?

The flute stuff drives
everybody crazy.

Once that flute comes out.
- Oh, yeah.

- Banter was on point.
- Thank you.

My banter was sloppy
tonight, but--

It's your first time
hearing songs about you.

- I'm glad they're all jams.

- They are jams.

[upbeat music playing]

# I'm under pressure,
and it's all on me #

I'm just excited because
my biggest regret on

" Cuz I Love You," because
I didn't have a car,

and I didn't have speakers.

I didn't listen to
masters and get the timing

right in between each track.

That's my biggest regret
on "Cuz I Love You."

I'll listen to it to this
day and be like, ugh.

- It makes me really happy
because so many people

don't care these days.
- I--

- Thank you for caring.
- ...overcare.

It wakes me up in the
middle of the night.

I'm like, "Like a Girl"
went into--

whatever my other songs are.

All right, let's listen
to the end of "The Sign"

real quick into...

# I keep on writing
these songs #

# Because he
keep on doing me wrong #

# And my girls keep
singing along #

# I guess that I'm not alone #

# Anyway... #

A bee's dick to the left,
a little sooner.

So small.

- I'm saying that
phrase forever.

- Oh.

Yes, OK.

# I guess
that I'm not alone #

# Anyway... #
Woo!

That's it, baby.

That's it, baby.

# Ah #

[humming]

Oh, God,

this is so fuckin' buttery.

$55,000 flute, man.

It is really gorgeous.

The way that head joint
goes in is a little sexual.

I'm not gonna lie.
I was like, OK.

I just hope that Eri
didn't make nails

that will interfere.

- Wait, you're playing flute?
- Mm-hmm.

- The nails I made
are definitely not--

- Let's see 'em.

What the hell?

This is literally--
this is like a wine opener.

This is fire, though.

- Do you think
it's not gonna work?

- There's only one way
to find out.

# #

Fuck. It's like, why do I have
to make things so hard?

Like, it's already hard enough.

It's like, OK, play the flute
on the carpet. Cool.

Memorize the song
you're playing. Cool.

Play it with fucking
corkscrew nails.

Damn!

- You feel comfortable?

- Of course not,
but that's the point!

If I feel comfortable,
then it wouldn't be

worth doing.

It wouldn't be--my life
wasn't on hard mode.

# #

I have this huge,
depressive episode

when I dropped out of college,
'cause I was like

"It was all for nothing."

You know, all those years
studying flute

and those dreams of being
like a famous flautist,

but now it's like, bitch, you
are a famous flautist.

[sweeping classical music]

For like a 12-year-old nerd,

when Mr. Broughton was like,
"All right, who 'bout to be

on flute?"
And if I had a vision...

# #

[crowd noise]

Like walking on the Met Gala
carpet playing flute,

but like the most expensive,
beautiful flute in the world.

I'd like zoom back
and be like...me!

Like, life doesn't take you
too far away

from who you're
supposed to be.

# #

I'm still trying to process
the fact

that this is my house.

My parents, they didn't
verbally say you need to

own everything, but they
instilled it in me

at a young age.

You know,
they owned their shit.

So as a person who slept on
floors and...

rented for...my entire life

until right now,

it is a milestone.

The least we can do

is have ownership
of anything, really,

in this country.

where we didn't even have
autonomy of our bodies,

and our lives
and our culture.

- Hello!

- Happy Juneteenth!
- Happy Juneteenth.

How are you?

Juneteenth is a big deal
in Texas.

It was almost like Juneteenth
was like

the Black Independence Day.

I'm protective of Blackness.

I'm protective
of my Blackness.

People like to mishandle
my Blackness,

but thank God they don't
have ownership of it.

[all whooping]

So exciting.

This is...this material?
In my life,

ownership is very...
important.

Like, the ownership
and the pride that I have

in Yitty, my clothing line.

I've been wearing shapewear

since I was in
fifth or sixth grade.

It was embarrassing
and shameful

and I don't ever want anyone
to feel that way

ever again.

So cute.
I feel like the length

is a little long.

I remember talking to
creative directors

of these huge brands
and being like,

why don't y'all make clothes
for big people,

and watching them kind of
stammer over their words.

And because I made it happen,

I'm like, how can I
clear this channel

so that girls who look
like me

can just take
the elevator up?

[laughs]

That's why I made my TV show.

Watch out for "The Big Girls."

I wanted to make a show
about big girls

because you don't get to see
big girls shown in this light,

shown as the protagonist,

and shown for her talent

and not just like
the punchline of a joke.

- Today is the day
fans have had circled

around their calendars--

release date for
Lizzo's new album.

It's called "Special."
- You finished.

- Three frickin' years, baby,
I been working on this album.

I feel amazing.

# #

Last night, my dad
was in my dream.

And I don't really like
dream about memories.

I dream about, like...

realm dreams where
I'm very aware

that he isn't physically here,

and I'm like, oh, they let you
come over here.

This time it was like,
oh, I'm so excited

that we get to, like,
hang out for a little bit.

And it was a lotta like me
clapping

and jumping up and
down and being excited.

And then I woke up,
and I was like, wow...

thank you.

# #

He cared so much
about my career,

especially
in his later years,

and I think a lot of
that energy

that was put towards me

being successful
and everything

it hasn't stopped, you know?

I don't think somebody's
love for you stops

when they go.

Like, energy doesn't die.
It just changes form.

Hi, everybody.

If we have not met yet,
I'm Lizzo,

It's really important
for me to know

who everyone is
that's a part of my show,

'cause my music and my show
is very personal to me.

[off mic] Can you hear me
this way better?

That's fucking weird.
[laughter]

Once upon a time,

I had one person
on the road with me.

I had my DJ Sophia,
and I had two dancers,

and a table with a cloth
and a chair.

And, uh, now I'm emotional.

[whooping, applause]

This is wild for me,
because this is my first

arena show.
- Whoo!

[whooping, applause]

And I don't know
how the fuck I got here,

but, um...ha ha.

I do know who I got here with,

and it's with all of you
wonderful people,

and I just wanna say
thank you

from the bottom of my heart.

You're making my dreams
come true, so...

[cheers, applause]

[crowd cheering]

# In case nobody
told you today #

# You're special #

# In case nobody made you
believe #

# You're special #

# I will always love you
the same...#

I like the story of my success

because it took so much
hard work and time to be here.

But I know that when people
see me on stage,

they see themselves.

# I #

# In case nobody
told you today #

# Yeah, you're special #

When I was a little girl,
all I wanted to see

was me in the media,
someone fat like me,

Black like me,
beautiful like me.

[applause]

If I could go back and tell
little Lizzo something,

I'd be like, you
gonna see that person.

But, bitch, it's going
to have to be you.

[chuckling]

# Special #

# I'm so glad that
you're still with us #

# I'm so glad, so glad #

# So glad, so glad, so glad #

# #

Just look up,
you know, and smile.

I want to see your teeth.

Yes!

That's the smile.

You're making me feel
something, which I

think that's all that matters.

Just go for it.
Go all the way for it.

Don't halfway do it.

So I want you to be like--

then you're like, this my
first time riding a plane.

How did I get here?
That's what I want.

# Don't be afraid #

# Oh, yeah when the world
can't look me in my eyes #

# When the darkness
takes over my mind #

# Hold me close,
don't let me run away #

# Don't you be afraid #

# No no no no no #

# When the weight falls in
and you're outside #

# Won't you be there
standin' by my side #

# Hold me close,
don't let me run away #

# Don't be afraid, no no #

# If you love me #

# You love all of me #

# And if you love me #

# You love all of me #

# Or none of me at all #

# If you love me
oh oh oh #

# If you love me oh oh oh #

# If you love, if you love #

# #