Original subtitles

"What's essential is invisible to the eye."

80 said the fox to the little prince.

The prince lamented over his friendship,

as the idea of saying goodbye was too sad.

After much deliberation, I regret to announce...

the dismantling of our school library.

The place is falling apart.

It's a shame considering the library's long history.

Book removal must finish by May 3rd.

"Letter of resignation"

Mr. Shiga, do you have a minute?

Of course.

Would you handle the book removal?

You're a certified librarian, and I remember how as a student...

you labeled every book in the stacks.

That was over 12 years ago.

I'll give you an assistant, don't worry. Thanks.

Wait.

Pop quiz. What has the Dewey Decimal number of "135.5"?

This is Japanese philosophy so it would be 120-something.

I think.

121

Japanese philosophy is 121.

This is modern philosophy, so 121.6.

Look at this.

It's never been updated.

It's so perfectly complete that nobody thought of touching it.

"Book Classification Chart Librarian Committee"

| see. Thanks.

Don't tell me you were the one who classified all of this.

I knew it.

But I didn't do it alone.

I had a troublesome assistant.

No, that's the wrong place. Stop bothering me.

LET ME EAT YOUR PANCREAS

Let me eat your pancreas.

My what?

Your pancreas. I want to eat it.

That's random. Taken an interest in cannibalism?

I saw it on TV yesterday.

ln old times, people with a bad organ...

would eat one from another animal.

A liver for a bad liver? Stomach for a stomach?

They believed it would cure their illness. That's why...

You want to eat a pancreas? That's really stupid.

That's no way to react just because you know my secret.

What good is a pancreas anyway?

It regulates digestions and energy production.

Without it, we'd have no fuel to live.

You've been reading up.

Why? Are you interested in me?

Well, of course.

A classmate with a serious condition?

That's not what I meant. I mean "as a person".

I don't know.

This place is amazing!

Hey, you're not allowed back here!

Stingy. Am I that much of a nuisance?

I'm not that interested in others. It's not you.

I like the way you say "you".

I'm going to copy it.

What?

It's a shame you don't like people.

I know. I'll assign you this book to read.

It's my copy, but I'll loan it to you.

Here.

Sakura Yamauchi and l were classmates who'd never spoken to each other.

That's all I expected we'd be.

"Living with Illness Diary"?

"November 29, 2003."

"Today, I begin my battle diary."

"Into it goes my daily thoughts."

"It's a secret to all except family."

"In a few years, I'll be dead."

Pancreas? Dead?

That's mine.

My surprise was that she was a popular student.

What brings you here?

Appendicitis surgery.

That's why I hadn't seen you around.

You noticed?

Of course. We're classmates.

Maybe so, but nobody notices a boring guy like me.

It's only true if you think it.

Okay "Boring Classmate".

What brings you?

Pancreas exam. l'll die if it's not looked at.

You saw this?

She was going to die.

And now the most invisible guy in class had learned her secret.

And yet, as always, she smiled.

From the very next day, my life began to change.

Or maybe I should say she threw it into disarray.

Until then, I'd been a loner protecting my space.

| get that.

Who'd you just wave to?

Who? Tell me!

Then for some reason, she joined the Library Committee.

We were put to classifying the books.

Your secret is safe. You don't have to watch me.

| just joined out of interest.

The numbers are all out of order. Did you follow the chart?

There should be some mistakes.

That makes the search more fun, like a treasure hunt.

You want to spend your last days doing this?

What should I be doing?

Lots of stuff. Going to meet your first crush.

Hitchhiking around the world.

Why aren't you doing something like that?

You might die suddenly tomorrow, and go before me.

A traffic accident.

There's even a stabber loose.

I'd say our days have equal value.

But if you insist on my finding something I want to do...

then I'll allow you to assist me in spending my last days on Earth.

What?

Be in front of the station at 11 on Sunday.

Now hold on.

You brought it up.

Don't do that.

It's admirable of you to help a sick girl.

I wasn't really allowed to refuse. So where are we going?

To eat innards.

What?

Pancreas is a delicacy called "shibire".

Are you punishing me for learning your secret?

You don't believe it will really cure you, do you?

Seriously, what're you going to do?

You mean in the future? I've got a tennis date in heaven.

You can joke about it all you want.

Can't you see it bothers me?

I'm not sure.

But you're the only one I'll tell.

What?

If my other classmates learned of this...

they'd freak out and pull away.

But you don't have any problem with it at all.

I can't help it.

If you're not showing pain and suffering...

we shouldn't be crying for you.

Good. Then let's go.

What?

Pardon me.

Punishment for refusing your request?

I've wanted to come here. Kyoko loves sweets.

Do you know Kyoko?

Your best friend?

Yeah, since middle school.

She told me about this place, and wanted to come.

Then why with me?

That's right. She'll be angry.

She might hate you.

What? What did I do?

Girls are like that.

Best friends are like lovers. They get jealous toward others.

Do you have friends?

Why do you ask?

I'd just like to know, that's all.

You're not really interested in me.

Do I look like I have friends?

Not at all?

Never.

Girlfriend?

- Course not. - Someone you liked?

Have you ever liked a girl?

Just once!

What was she like?

She was very polite.

She addressed everybody with "Mister" or "Ms".

She even did it with food. "Mr. Potato".

It was strange.

But I thought she wanted to treat everything with respect.

That's actually quite lovely.

Yeah. She was pretty lovely.

No. I mean your reason for liking her.

Oh.

Did you ask her out?

No way. She was taken by one of the cool guys in class.

Perhaps she didn't have good taste in men.

What?

What about you?

I had a boyfriend up until recently.

Really?

He was popular, but also a good friend.

Thanks for hanging out today.

"From: Sakura Yamauchi"

I had a great time. I wrote about it in my diary.

Keep my name out of it.

Fine. I already wrote it but I'll blot it out.

Well, good night. To a lasting friendship.

"A lasting friendship"?

I guess we're friends.

Sweets Paradise!

You went already?

How was it?

The shortcake was amazing.

Why you?

I told you, Kyoko. It's nothing like that.

Why'd you join the Library Committee and date the creepiest guy in class?

Because we're chums?

Chums?

Right, "Chum"?

Quiet everybody. What's the big deal?

Sakura's friends with everyone. It was probably a chance meeting.

He seems ticked.

Wait!

Wait up. Why are you angry?

Do me a favor. Don't involve me any further in this.

I'm n o t H in v olv in

g!

V

y o u

They all have the wrong idea.

They do?

Oh, you mean for calling us "Chums"?

Well, you're not my boyfriend or a close friend, really...

But you won't tell your best friend?

I think it's better...

that you spend your limited time with close friends.

It's okay. She gets very emotional.

If I told her, she'd cry at each meeting.

That wouldn't be fun for either of us.

For her sake and mine...

I want to hide it till the end.

Are you really...

going to die?

lam.

They've given me a year at most.

I decided only you will know.

I think you're the only one...

who can keep my life normal.

The doctor can only give me the truth.

My parents can only work desperately to hide their grief.

If Kyoko knew, I'm sure she'd act the same.

But you're different.

I don't think so.

| just live in denial.

You shouldn't be so hard on yourself.

Everyone dies eventually.

We'll meet in heaven, right?

Hey, Shiga.

Are you dating Sakura Yamauchi?

What?

Kyoko's making a big fuss as if she lost a lover.

Sorry. It's just that you're the first classmate to call my name.

We're not dating.

| see. You don't mind the rumors?

Well, they're wrong so I don't care.

How mature. Want some gum?

No thanks.

Kyoko.

Kyoko!

What's wrong?

Nothing.

"Wedding of Kyoko Takimoto and Kazuharu Miyata"

"Attend / Not Attend"

I want to go somewhere far away for the holiday.

Name the place.

Why text me about it?

Because I'm bored.

I don't get the system. Why use numbers after the decimal point?

Because a lost book is a sad book.

I bet that books, too...

are happier to be looked for like lost treasure.

The place you'd like to see...

before you die.

Going then?

That's a big bag.

This is delicious!

Yours looks good, too. Let me try.

I need to know where we're going.

Why? It's more fun not knowing.

To a point.

Today, I lied to my parents for the first time.

Overnight trip with Kyoko.

| see.

Overnight?

Hold this.

Ta dum.

I made a list of things I want to do before I die.

We're boarding the bullet train next.

So prepare yourself.

My first foot in Kyushu! I can smell the ramen noodles.

That's imprinting. You're just imagining it.

No, | smell it. Your nose just isn't working.

Your brain isn't working.

No, it's my pancreas.

Here you go. Tripe.

There it is! lnnards!

All mine.

Where's this fun place at?

It's a secret.

Scary! Take a look.

This was so far. I'm exhausted.

For a sick person, you sure eat a lot.

Time to make a wish at a shrine.

Please cure her illness.

Right?

No. That's what you have to pray for.

Not anymore. Not at this stage.

Then what?

I pray for loved ones, I guess.

For my mom, dad, friends and my Chum.

I prayed for their long, healthy lives.

Now let's pull a fortune stick. Who'll get a better one?

It's not a competition.

I got "excellent luck"!

"Your maladies will eventually heal", it says.

That's not what I hear.

What's yours?

"Uncertain luck", huh?

I guess you lose.

There it is.

We're staying there? You're joking!

I'm using all my savings before I die.

Hurry up.

It appears there was some mistake.

The rooms were double booked.

That's too bad.

But it's their mistake.

So they've actually offered us a much better room.

That's nice of them.

But listen...

it's only one room. Is that okay?

What?

This place is huge! They say it's their best.

It's even got a living room! Wow!

Look at the view!

Is this on purpose?

Don't be a downer. You have to believe in your luck.

I don't mean the upgrade. I'm talking about the one room.

So soft!

Sharing a bed is kind of exciting, huh?

Don't be stupid! I'll take the sofa.

What? We scored the best bed! You can't miss an experience like this.

l'll lie on it later, then.

You're not happy about sleeping with a girl?

Save it for a boyfriend.

I guess I'll take a bath, then.

Bath time, bath time.

I am innocent. Nothing to feel guilty about.

We're just chums, remember?

Hey, Chum? Can you fetch me the cleansing cream?

What?

It's in my backpack. In a yellow pouch.

Hurry it up.

Enter.

What're you drinking?

My first drink. It's on the list, too.

I want to do some things reserved for adults.

Well, you're drunk on one sip.

Truth or dare.

What?

It's a game.

I'll explain as we play.

Whoever draws the larger number gets to ask for a "truth" or "dare".

Ready?

Draw.

Yes! I win. Do you want "truth" or "dare"?

Meaning?

"Truth" means you must answer a question.

"Dare" means you have to do as requested.

Truth or dare.

Truth.

Okay. Who do you think is the cutest girl in our class?

You're starting with a question like that?

Come on, tell me. Who is it?

I don't judge people by appearance.

Well, that's what I'm asking.

Who do you think is the cutest?

Let's see.

The girl who's good in Math.

Hina? So it's not me.

| see. So that's your type, huh?

Moving on.

Truth or dare.

Truth.

|f Hina is number one, what number am I?

I can't picture everyone's faces, but based on what I remember...

number 3.

Seriously? I'm so embarrassed.

Well, you asked.

I didn't expect such honesty.

I want to end it quickly.

Let's take our time. The night is long.

Draw.

Your happiest moment.

Is that all? I'd tell you my measurements.

Just answer.

Who do you admire?

Is this a job interview? Ask something more fun.

Yes!

l'll pose a question and a dare up front. You have to choose.

What?

For truth...

tell me 3 things you like about me.

For a dare, you must...

carry me to the bed.

What's the hand?

Let me help you up.

I told you. You have to carry me.

Will it be piggyback? Or princess...

Thanks for the princess style.

It's been a dream since childhood.

Now for the last round.

Rock, scissors, paper, go!

We didn't need cards.

Who cares? Truth or dare.

Truth.

If I told you...

that l was actually terrified of dying...

what would you do?

Dare.

Unfair.

You're sharing the bed.

I won't accept no.

Hello?

Sakura, where are you?

Your mom called thinking you were sleeping at my house.

I played along.

Where are you? Who're you with?

ln Hakata with Chum.

What?

Are you serious? ln Hakata? With him?

I'll explain everything someday.

But for now, just indulge me.

Please, Kyoko?

Fine.

Thanks.

With conditions.

Anything.

Bring me a souvenir. Get home safely.

And give him a message from me.

If anything happens to you, he dies.

Got it.

I think you're going to be killed by Kyoko.

VVhy?

You've got to explain to her that nothing happened. Promise me.

I'll leave Kyoko to you.

What?

I told you I had a boyfriend, right?

But he angered easily and was possessive.

Kyoko is a poor judge of men.

She acts tough, but she's actually vulnerable.

I worry about leaving her alone.

So if I die, I want you to become friends with her.

Look after Kyoko.

Let's take another trip together. Next in summer.

Summer, huh? Sounds nice.

What, no argument? How surprising.

I guess you had fun.

Yeah, it was fun.

What? Trying to steal my pancreas?

No, you showed yourself.

But yeah, I had fun, too.

In return, when I die, I'll let you eat my pancreas.

Ew. No, thanks. Plus, I'm not sick.

They say if you do, the person's soul lives on in you.

I want to live on...

inside the people I love.

What's this?

No reply yet?

Listen...

what would Sakura think?

About us.

Is this what she would want?

Would she be happy for us?

Of course she would. She'd say, "You've made a good catch".

No. Maybe she'd have opposed it.

She said I was a poor judge of men.

How rude.

"Attend / Not Attend"

Hey, Shiga.

Why'd you throw out your indoor shoes?

What?

They were in the trash. They're still clean.

Thanks. l was looking for them.

| see. Be careful.

Want gum?

No, but thanks.

She's giving you a dirty look again.

Where'd it go?

Lose something?

No, not really.

Must be rough.

Tell me if I can help. I'm class president after all.

Okay.

Where's Sakura? l have a printout to give her.

She's not here.

She probably won't come...to avoid rumors.

| see. Never mind, then.

See ya.

Kyoko's all over me like a bodyguard. I'll pass for a while.

But you're coming over to my place today.

"My place"?

Come in.

Why am I here?

To avoid fueling rumors at school.

A lot of eyes are on you right now.

I'll bring tea. Check out the books.

I think I lost the book you lent me.

My parents aren't home.

What?

So I called you over.

You've no intention of making me your girlfriend?

What's this about?

No. Absolutely not.

Okay. You pass.

Before I die, the last thing I want to do.

Something I shouldn't do with a boy who isn't my boyfriend.

This is a hug.

But what I shouldn't do goes from here.

Fooled you.

I'm just messing around.

But you got so quiet, it began to feel real.

Knock it off.

Knock it off!

l was just kidding.

Let go of me, okay? Let go!

Sorry.

What're you doing?

You don't live around here. Why are you here?

Why are you outside Sakura's house?

How could she do this?

We're not what you think we are.

Then what is it?

It's nothing.

Hold it! I'm not finished!

But she...

doesn't like possessive people.

Her last boyfriend was one.

Who's possessive?

So it was you.

What're you doing?

Sakura? Why're you with him?

Don't come near the people around me.

l'll lend you my dad's clothes. Take a shower.

I'm fine.

More importantly...

I apologize.

For before.

Me, too.

I'm sorry.

I got this a little dirty.

He was your boyfriend.

Should I be around you?

I suppose he was right, I...

met you at the hospital by chance, and got carried along.

But you should be with someone who cares more deeply...

No.

You're wrong.

It wasn't by chance.

You weren't "carried along".

We've all chosen to be here.

Our being in the same class.

The hospital wasn't a coincidence.

It's not even destiny.

The choices you've made, and the choices I've made...

brought us together.

We met each other of our own will.

Morning!

Kyoko, your wedding is approaching.

Aren't you busy?

No, plus flowers are living things.

They still need tender love and care.

Okay.

Hey, grim reaper!

Sakura's in the hospital with appendicitis.

What?

It's like you put a curse on her. She's always been so healthy!

Are you listening?

Nothing good comes of you with her...

so I order you stay away from her.

Hey.

Ah! Why didn't you tell me you were coming!

My hair's a mess!

It's not appendicitis, is it? How are you?

I'm fine. I'm in here for tests.

My numbers are off.

I'll be out in 2 weeks.

I'm glad.

Do you need class notes?

Emotion is the essence of poetry. Like a prayer or supplication.

That's why words are uttered at will, spat out in a series.

Got it. Thanks.

You're welcome.

You should become a teacher.

What?

You have the aptitude.

I prefer to be alone.

And I'm not good with people.

I think I'm a good judge of character.

Kyoko will be here soon.

That's okay. I want you two to be friends.

Well I'm not prepared to see her.

Come on. Give it a shot.

What?

Practice making friends.

Practice?

"I'd like us to be friends." Go.

No way.

You have to.

I'd like us to be friends.

Louden

I'd like us to be friends.

Make eye contact.

I'd like us to be friends.

That's awful.

Never mind. Kyoko will reject the offer, anyway.

I'll go.

See ya.

Why're you here?

Well...

Say Chum? Where's my dad's sweats and underpants | lent you?

But I didn't!

Underpants?

Miss Sakura was the reason you became a teacher?

I believed her when she said I was suited for it. Laughable, huh?

I've been a teacher for 6 years total, one year here.

But I still wonder if it was truly the right decision.

| ask myself the same question daily.

Am I interacting with my students faithfully and honestly?

Don't quit, Sir.

Huh?

|mean...if you do...

Miss Sakura will be sad.

"Letter of resignation"

Sakura...

seems tough, but hurts easily than most.

Don't get close unless you mean it.

You really love her, don't you.

Of course I do.

When I...

was in middle school...

I had no friends.

Sakura was the only one who would always smile and talk to me.

Without her, I would've been alone.

Even now probably.

She's the only friend I need.

So if...

you hurt her...

I'd never forgive you.

I hear he's stalking her.

Sneaking into her hospital bed.

And stole Sakura's panties.

Stalker? Everyone sure likes to talk.

Any idea why they do that?

I really don't know.

Because I'm with you.

Nope. It's because you don't talk to them.

What?

They don't know you very well. Talk to them.

It's a waste of time.

Once you're gone, I'll be a loner again.

They'll forget about me.

I can't die thinking that.

If they knew you, they'd understand you better.

Don't worry about later.

I don't care if I'm liked or not.

You're so self-contained.

For example, don't you care what I think of you?

- What? - How do you think I regard you?

I don't know. As a chum?

Wrong.

Then what?

I'm not telling.

Maybe I'll write it in my diary.

Oh, come on.

You can read it when I die.

I give you permission only.

Let's swear on it.

Pinky swear.

I swear.

"Living with Illness Diary"

"Pancreatic disease hides itself. When discovered, it's too late."

"Symptoms advance gradually, weakening the body quietly."

"Sakura Yamauchi"

Hello?

If I sneak out right now, will you take a trip with me?

No way. I don't want to be a murderer.

It's okay.

lt's standard for a dying girl to escape the hospital and die outside.

Absolutely not.

I want to see cherry blossoms.

Cherry blossoms? They're long gone.

Not so.

They pretend to fall, but actually keep on blooming.

They immediately sprout their next buds before going to sleep.

They haven't disappeared.

They lie in wait to surprise everyone.

The next time it's warm, they bloom again all at once.

"Surprise!"

What happened?

Oh my.

You came.

I had a bad feeling.

You figured it out. My stay here has lengthened.

| see.

Hey.

Can we do...

just one round of Truth or Dare?

Just ask me anything directly.

That requires incredible courage.

People are all cowards at heart, so we leave it to fate.

Draw.

I'd always thought at times like these, God sided with the sick.

What now?

Gotta play the game.

Okay.

Truth or dare.

Truth.

What am | to you?

No.

What is life to you?

What?

Wow. Coming with the serious question?

Souls connecting with each other?

Maybe?

Acknowledging someone, liking them.

Hating them.

Holding hands with someone.

Hugging them, passing them.

That's life.

Alone, you don't know that you're living.

Yeah.

Loving and hating, enjoying life and feeling dreary.

That confusion that you experience when interacting with people...

is the proof that says, "I'm alive".

That's why...

I'm glad to be with you like this.

The time you've spent with me...

is a precious treasure.

| wish I could've taken another trip.

Why do you sound like you can't?

Is that how I sounded?

Yeah.

You can't die.

But I Will. H! die and so will you.

I don't mean that.

I'm going to die of pancreatic failure, too.

Not that either!

Just not yet.

You're hiding something. It's obvious.

You reacted strangely when | asked.

I may not look it to you, but I'm worried about you.

You want me to live?

Very much.

I can't believe you need me that much.

When you get out, let's travel again.

Go see cherry blossoms.

So promise me.

You'll get out.

I wonder what Miss Sakura wanted to ask.

ln Truth or Dare.

I don't know.

I don't know that.

It ended...

without asking.

They're letting me out tomorrow!

Really?

"Cherry blossoms tomorrow!"

I found it. A place where cherry trees bloom after spring.

Ezo sakura bloom in mid-June.

This spot is amazing.

After Kyushu, it's Hokkaido. Bon voyage.

Thanks so much. How'd you know this?

Photos are my hobby.

Want gum?

Yeah.

What?

Nothing.

- What? - Nothing.

Good?

Yup.

"Hokkaido Scenic Spots"

1. Meet at the Sweets Paradise.

2. Fly to Kushiro Airport.

3. Ride the Hanasaki Line and eat crab.

I'm out!

I took a little time getting dressed.

l have to return some library books I borrowed for the hospital.

Congratulations.

I don't feel your excitement. I need stronger praise.

I can't think of any.

Hurry, I'm waiting.

You're the 3rd cutest in the class.

What's that? Do l have to get sick again?

You're very strong. Heroic.

You love life. You love the world.

You love people, and love yourself.

You truly are amazing.

If I must confess...| want to be like you.

A person who affirms others, and is affirmed by others.

A person who can love people. A person loved by people.

To be someone who can feel alive by more connection with others.

Can I become like you?

No, no amount of words seem enough.

To be completely frank...

"Let me eat your pancreas."

"To Sakura Yamauchi"

"Sending"

I never received a response.

I waited for hours.

Heavy rain is forecast for tomorrow.

Sad news just in, a teenage girl Sakura Yamauchi...

was found stabbed to death around 2 pm...

apparently the random victim of a ride-by assailant.

A man called 911 to report discovery of Miss Yamauchi's body.

Police arrived to find Miss Yamauchi bleeding and unconscious.

She was rushed to a hospital, but was soon confirmed dead.

Sakura became a victim of the serial killer that had terrorized the city.

But this nameless, faceless criminal was soon captured.

I never saw it coming.

I firmly believed...

she'd make the most of...

the time remaining.

l was stupid.

Because nobody knows what tomorrow will bring.

That's why it's important to appreciate every moment...

to savor the present and this very day.

That's the first lesson she taught me.

I needed a month.

To prepare myself.

You can read it when I die.

I give you permission only.

Say goodbye properly.

"Condolence Offering"

Thank you for coming.

M al am?

I need to tell you something.

I actually...

knew of Sakura's illness.

For so long, I couldn't muster the courage to visit.

But...

may I see her...

"Living with Illness Diary"?

It was you.

She told me to give this to someone when she passes.

She said there's only one other person who knows of its existence.

"And that this person may be too scared to come to the funeral.

"But he will come for it.

"Please give it to him."

April 12. So-and-so learned of my secret.

| panicked, but pretended not to mind.

He didn't make anything of it.

That was a big surprise! He seemed different.

Actually, I'd noticed him for some time.

He was always reading, looking as if in a struggle with himself.

I wanted to learn more.

I joined the Library Committee with this classmate who knew my secret.

The numbers are all out of order. Did you follow this?

I did that on purpose to gain his attention.

I made a list of things to do before I die.

Like an overnight trip with a boy.

And having a great bowl of ramen.

I want to do something I shouldn't with a boy who's not my boyfriend.

That was a very terrible, but good day.

I cried a little by myself. And I cried all day today.

A 2-week hospitalization.

To be honest, I'm terrified. I'm so scared I can barely stand it.

Hey.

l was so relieved to see his face, I felt tears ofjoy welling up.

I managed to hide it, though.

Then I found something to do in the hospital.

Where's my dad's sweats and underpants | lent you?

Underpants?

| orchestrated a meeting between two friends.

I want them to become friends, but it doesn't look easy.

l was finding it hard to eat.

I felt listless.

Then he snuck into my hospital room late one night.

I got up the courage to challenge him to Truth or Dare.

But I lost.

I really wanted to ask him something.

When he left and l was alone again, I cried.

I cried my heart out.

| vowed to do my best to live as long as possible.

I can't move today, and I haven't eaten in days.

I've been given a brief release from the hospital. My last one.

I've made plans to take another trip with him and see cherry blossoms.

| wish, he, Kyoko and I could've gone somewhere.

But I'm plenty happy with this.

Just thinking about being with him makes me extremely happy.

At last, my temporary release!

Today, | feel healthy.

I'm on my way to see you.

Be careful.

I will.

Have fun.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I'm very grateful to you.

Sakura truly seized life firmly.

M al am?

This may be inappropriate.

But forgive me.

May I cry?

- Morning, Teacher! - Morning.

Morning.

Shall I help you change?

Yes.

Please.

Almost perfect.

What?

The books were almost perfect

except after the 900 series.

Oh, that's right. I apologize.

After she died, I left the work half done.

Even so.

That reminds me.

Where was it?

Here! This has graffiti in it.

A lost book is a sad book.

Why use decimal points?

The numbers are all out of order.

953...

Mr. Shiga?

A treasure hunt.

There should be some mistakes.

That makes the search more fun, like a treasure hunt.

"To Kyoko"

Godaizaka wedding chapel.

Okay.

Pretty cherry blossom ear rings.

They're on loan from a friend.

Hey, Shiga.

You're late.

I'm about to see Kyoko in all her wedding garb.

My heart's pounding. Care to join me?

I'm too nervous alone.

Want gum?

I'll go call the groom.

Okay.

Come in.

Look. I brought Shiga with me.

See?

I apologize for how I'm dressed.

I received your invitation.

But failed to reply.

I know I shouldn't be here.

But...

there is something...

something I need to convey.

This...

is from Sakura?

Kyoko. Consider this my will.

Sorry to surprise you.

I've kept this a secret from you, but I have a terminal pancreatic disease.

When you get this letter from him, I should be long in the grave.

Who is "him"? You know.

The guy you always glare at...my Chum.

Kyoko, first let me say this.

I love you.

I'm sorry I kept my illness from you, but I had to.

Please believe me when I say I didn't tell you out of love.

I didn't have the courage to wreck our time together.

I loved laughing and fighting with you.

I loved doing loads of stupid things, and crying with you.

Be happy.

Find a great husband, have beautiful children.

Make a family that all would envy.

Thank you, Sakura.

P.S. Be friends with him, okay?

The guy you always glare at...my Chum.

I'd like us to be friends.

Louden

I'd like us to be friends.

Make eye contact.

I'm sorry to be so late in bringing this, but...

if you don't mind...

I'd like us to be friends.

Yes.

Here.

I'm a mess. What kind of timing is this?

Idiot.

Dear Haruki Shiga.

You finally found this letter. Boy, you're slow.

Haruki? Can I call you that?

I've always wanted to call you that.

It wasn't for long, but I'm glad you were by my side.

Thank you.

She seems pretty chummy, don't you think?

I mean with you, that is.

Miss Morishita!

See you tomorrow.

See you tomorrow, Kuriyama.

That game of Truth or Dare in the hospital?

I'll tell you my question.

Here it goes.

Why wouldn't you call me by my name?

You never once said my name, did you, Haruki?

It was always "you", "you", "you". How rude.

But I realized something the night you snuck into the hospital.

You knew you would lose me someday.

You didn't want to think of me as someone special, a "friend" or "lover".

But that's what I admired about you, Haruki.

You can survive on your own, without needing others.

You're strong, Haruki.

I'm weak, so I involve my friends and family...

into all my grief.

But you always remained true to yourself.

I found you really brave.

I want you to share that bravery with everyone.

Fall in love with someone.

Hold hands,

"Letter of resignation"

hug each other.

Even when you find people a tiresome pain...

go make connections with a lot of souls, too.

And live enough for me.

I want to be like you, Haruki.

I want to keep living inside you.

No, that sounds a little to cliche for me.

I got it. I know you'll find it gross, but...

I'll say it anyway.

Let me eat your pancreas.

Minami Hamabe

Takumi Kitamura

Karen Otomo

Yuma Yamoto

Dori Sakurada

Daichi Morishita

Yusuke Kamiji

Keiko Kitagawa

Shun Oguri

Music by Suguru Matsutani

Additonal Music Arrangement by Goro Ito

Based on the original novel

"Kimi no Suizou o Tabetai" by Yoru Sumino published by Futabasha Publishers Ltd.

Screenplay Tomoko Yoshida

Directed by Sho Tsukikawa

English subtitles Anthony Kimm