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I always
wonder if other people

think the way that I do.

I often feel like I'm the only one.

I wanna know why certain things happen

and why they happen the way they do.

Like why was I born two
hours after midnight

not two before?

Why would I wanna play sports as a child

instead of something else?

If the smallest thing in my life changed,

would I still find myself
here writing in this notebook?

I'm writing this passage because

I read that it's good to
write down your thoughts

and that always keeping them in

is hard on a person's mentality.

All of my thoughts have been leaning

back to one thing, college.

It's haunting me all summer

and no matter where I go,

it always finds its way into my thoughts.

I wish I could be excited
like everybody else.

But unfortunately all I could think about

is everything that I'm leaving behind.

My childhood,

family, my friends,

and everything that has made
me the person that I am today.

I know that I'm probably
blowing out of proportion,

but I also know that I'm probably not.

It's different this time.

I'm leaving my home,

my friends won't be there,

and I'm not gonna return to my
house every day after school,

nothing's going to be the same.

I know that I need to move on but,

I just can't find the strength.

How to have the perfect
summer before college.

Step five, guys.

Spend time with your lost flame

and tell her how you've
always cared for her.

Ask her out.

You may never see her
again so just go for it.

What's the worst that could happen?

Step five, girls, take
a chance and say yes.

Then, you can skip along
the streets together,

holding hands and singing songs,

but you better send me a letter

thanking me for the great idea.

Seriously though, let me know
if it all works out for you.

I'm gonna miss you Valley High,

until next time.

Okay, I know it's a little
dramatic to say goodbye

to all my favorite places before college.

I'm going to see them again, but,

it's the last time I'm
seeing them this way,

before college.

I'm afraid that when I come back,

these places will be
different or feel different.

The last stop on my list,

I want necessarily to express
my goodbyes, Charleson Park.

I'd be lying if I said of
come here all the time.

It's not exactly one of those places

where I could just like hang
out with people or anything.

When you have eyes that looked like

they were surgically removed
from a serial killer,

it's best not frequent places

that have a heavy presence of children,

but Charleson Park is one of those places

that holds one great memory for me.

Almost five years ago, I met a girl here.

Corny, I know, but this
girl is the type of girl

that you can't forget.

Not that I forget people on
regular basis or anything.

She's the type of girl
that you can't forget

cause she meant so much to you.

Yeah, that type.

Which results in you getting frustrated

because you try so hard
to forget her, but can't.

That girl, the very special
girl, her name was--

- Sampson.

I know you're in there.

You'll let me in?

Okay.

You know I can see you, right?

Like these aren't tinted
and the window's down.

You're gonna let me in?

Okay.

- Hi Alexa.

- Hello, Sampson.

How are you doing?

- Pretty good, you?

- Can't complain.

You wanna tell me why
you were hiding from me?

- I wasn't hiding from you.

- Look at you.

It's like you're stalking an
ex girlfriend or something.

- Whoa, whoa, whoa, no, no, no.

- You were stalking me, were you?

- No, I was not stalking you.

I just, I didn't expect you to be here.

- I can see that.

But you know, when somebody
reclines in their car

after seeing somebody that they knew,

it sort of seems like
you're hiding from them.

- Wasn't hiding from you.

- Sampson.

- Okay, I was.

- What was that?

One more time?

- I was hiding from you.

- Hang on.

Okay, one more time.

- I was hiding from you.

- Was that so hard?

- Yes when you make me say it three times.

- Argh, you'll get over it.

I can't believe you were hiding from me.

I mean, it's me Sampson.

- I know, it's just been a while.

- We see each other every day at school.

- No, since we talked.

- We've talked.

No, we haven't.

- You mean to tell me that
over the last four years

we haven't talked once?

- Not really.

I mean, when we talked, it
was always with other people

or it was about scores, never just us.

- I guess that's true.

So what were you doing today?

- Kind of just been driving around.

- Why'd you stop here?

- I was in the neighborhood.

- You're in the neighborhood
of a lot of places.

- It's been a while since I've been here,

I just, thought I'd see it again.

- And you didn't think you'd see me here.

- No, I just thought that

you would have left for college by now.

- And I will, soon enough.

Are you wearing your boxers?

Oh, for now I never planned

on getting out of the car.

- Oh, don't cover up on my account,

cause I mean, I was
just about to join you.

- Oh my God.

- So where were you driving?

- Kinda just everywhere around here.

- Thinking?

- Yeah.

- About?

- Nothing.
- Nothing.

You're so predictable.

- Why are you here?

- I don't know, it's a pretty
day, I thought I'd enjoy it.

- But why here?

- I come here sometimes to
think too Sampson, you know,

it has its memories.

- What were you thinking about?

What?
- You know what,

I asked you first.

- Come on Alexa, we're not
in eighth grade anymore.

- Why not relive the past?

- What, it's such a dumb rule.

- You know that a conversation
goes back and forth, right?

It's a two way street?

Are you gonna answer my question?

I can't believe you.

- What?
- You haven't changed at all.

- What makes you say that?

- Cause like everything what you just did,

you'd have done the same
exact thing four years ago.

You know, like you saw me

and you rolled back in
your seat and hid from me

and you're avoiding all
the questions that I ask.

It's like, we're
in eighth grade again.

And then, that's not necessarily
a bad thing, you know?

Not changing.

You should be proud of it, I think.

- Why?

- Because so many other people do change.

Yeah, I should probably go.

- How come?

- Oh, I have to pack a little bit

before I meet Sarah and Olivia tonight.

Yeah, so.

You know I could...

I can give you a ride if you want.

- No, that's okay, I'm
good I like to walk.

You probably want these back.

- Yeah, thanks.

Okay.

I just wanted to say
that it was really nice

talking to you again.

- It was nice talking to you too.

- I wish we could have talked longer.

Okay.

Until next time.

Till next time.

Shit.

- In Fitzgerald's "This side of paradise",

One character calls
himself a cynical idealist.

Sounds about right.

Honestly, that's probably
why I wanna be a writer.

I wouldn't say I like to write

unrealistic idolized stories or anything,

but rather how I think
certain things should go.

But then again, I guess
that'll still be idealizing.

If I could relive running into her again,

I wouldn't change anything
except for one thing.

I would have asked her out.

It's hard as hell asking a girl out.

It's not the no, that's scary.

It's what could happen afterwards.

Just imagine you're telling your friends

about how creepy you are.

That's labeled, I'll stick to you forever.

Instead, I'm labeled as quiet,

which is really just a nice way

for a girl to say you're creepy.

When you're like me asking
a girl out is a risk

that could easily turn to Armageddon.

Not that I'm religious or anything.

This just in, a way too eligible guy

just asked his ex he
hasn't seen in four years.

Not exactly the best headline,

but no one ever reads
past the headline anyways.

No one wants the whole story
only the bullet points.

What's lost is real character,

the feelings, the personality,

the person just becomes a list of facts.

I feel like if people were more willing

to understand each other

people would be less afraid to open up

and share their feelings.

Is not available now.

Please leave your name,
phone number after the beep.

- Hey Alexa, this is Sampson.

I know that's probably weird

that I'm calling you on your home phone,

but it's actually the only
number that I have of yours.

I was just calling because I was wondering

if you know, maybe you would
want to hang out tonight.

I know that you said that you
were busy, but I know that,

I know I figured I'd
give you a call anyway.

I really hope that you
can hang out tonight,

but if you can't, I completely understand.

I would just regret not calling you

because,

when I saw you and we talked,

I remembered.

So yeah, if you want to hang out tonight,

just give me a call back.

Yeah, so I will talk to you later.

Goodbye.

Shit, shit.

Hello?

Sampson?

- Yeah?

Pick me up at seven.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- I decided to wear pants this time.

- Ah, yeah, I'm glad you did.

- Ready to go?
- Yeah.

- Sampson, where's your car?

- Where is my car?

- Ah, ha ha very funny.

Is it parked over here on the street?

- I didn't drive here.

- Why you walked?

- Yeah.

Why, you live
like three miles away.

- I used to walk to your
house all the time though.

- Yeah, because you had to.

- We don't need a car tonight, it's fine.

- So we're walking?

- Yup.

- Can I ask where?

- I can't tell you that.

- Why not?

- Because I don't wanna ruin the surprise.

- Okay, fine, but can you tell me,

like on a scale of one to
10, how much we're walking?

- A lot.

- Dammit Sampson.

Dammit.
- What, I thought you said

you like to walk?

You said it.

- Whatever.

- Why are you taking your shoes off?

- Well, because I can't walk
a few miles in these things.

I don't wanna kill my feet.

- Why'd you wear them?

- Because I love them.

And besides, you didn't tell me

we're gonna be walking for a few miles.

So I'm gonna go inside, get some scandals.

Are you coming?

You're holding my shoes.

- Yeah, yeah sorry, I'm coming.

Okay.

I think I left my sandals in my room.

You can come with me if you want.

I might need help looking for them.

- Okay.

- It's been a while
since you've been here.

Yeah.

It's not much different from last time.

- Oh, nuts.

It's a little different.

Now where are they?

Let's see.

- Where should I put these?

- Oh, I'll take them.

- Is there anything I can do to help.

- Um, actually, yeah,
can you go downstairs

and see if I left them on the back porch?

- Yeah, I can do that.

Wait, are your parents home?

- Ah, no, actually they're at a wedding.

My grandmother's brother's
daughter's wedding.

- Wow.
- Yeah.

It's quite a mouthful.

- How come you're here then?

- It's one of those small ceremonies

when they only invited the adult, so,

- It's kind of weird?

- Yeah.

- Did you wanna go?

- Oh, well I don't really know her, but,

yeah I wanted to go
I would've loved to go.

- Ever been to a wedding before?

- Yeah, once when I was like six.

- Were you the flower girl?

No, I wish.

Heck I'd probably still be
a flower girl if I could.

- Hate to break it to you but
like you're too old Alexa.

- I'd still do it.

I don't know, I just have
a soft spot for weddings.

Sometimes I just sit and think

about what my wedding's gonna be like.

Are you judging me?

No, I'm not judging you.

I think it's adorable, so.

- Well, they're not here, so,

I guess I'll just go downstairs with you.

- Mm hmm.

Here.

Sorry.

Are you sure you don't
wanna just get shoes?

- I wear these all the time.

It'll be fine.

- Are you sure?

- Positive?

- Let's go.

- You know, we could
just stay here tonight.

My parents won't be home for a few days

and we could just hang
out and watch a movie,

you know, like old times?

- I think you'll really like
what I had planned tonight.

Come on.

- So.

- So.

- This isn't awkward?

- No, not at all.

Awkward, what?

- Well, now that we've
gotten that out of the way,

what should we talk about?

- I have no idea.

- How about...

What's the first thing you
thought about when you woke up?

- What?

- What was the first
thing you thought about

when you woke up?

- Where did that come from?

- My head, I'm breaking the ice.

- Can we talk about something else?

- Why?

- Cause the first thing that I thought of

had to do with my dream
and it was really stupid.

- Oh my God, you had a dirty dream!

- No, no I did not.
- That's what you thought of

when you woke up!
- I did not.

That's where your mind goes, huh?

Dirty dreams.
- Well if you didn't,

then you would just tell me.

Fine.

The first thing that I
thought of was green gems.

- Green gems, like emeralds?

- Yeah.

- You're right, that's pretty stupid.

I'm kidding, I'm sorry,
I'm kidding, I'm kidding.

Why were you thinking about green gems?

- I was looking for
green gems in my dream.

- What are you, a pirate?

Why were you looking for them?

- I don't know, I guess the
other pirates told me to.

Oh ha ha ha.

- But, have you ever had a dream

where you're doing something in it

and you don't remember
why, but you keep doing

whatever it is anyway?

- Yeah, yeah, like it's
usually something pretty dumb,

but it seems really important at the time

so you keep doing it?
- Yeah.

- I had a dream like that.

I was training to be a ballerina.

- Really?
- Yeah, yeah.

I love dancing, I really do,

but I actually have
like the worst balance,

so I really only dance in my
room with the door locked.

- Oh, come on you've
danced in public before.

- Yeah, but the real moves
come out in my bedroom.

No, no, no, no, no.
- Oh, yeah!

- That's not what I meant.

- So that's why the doors are locked.

No, no.

Moving on, anyways,

how did your dream end?

- I found one, but it was
kind of a let down actually.

- How so?

- Well, I thought it was going
to be this big, massive gem,

like the size of a baseball or something,

but it ended up being
the size of a pebble.

- Oh, that's unfortunate.

- So what's the first
thing you thought about

when you woke up?

- The tunnel of love.

- That carnival ride?

- Uh, no, not the carnival ride.

It's this tunnel made
out of plants and trees

in the Ukraine, that's really cool.

- Wait, so it's not like
a tunnel made out of stone

or anything like that?
- Mm mm mm mm.

So there's these train
tracks in the Ukraine, right?

And the trains would go back and forth

and the trees and plants
that were around it

eventually just grew around the train

to form this really awesome tunnel.

- Wow.
- Yeah that's cool.

- Why is it called the tunnel of love?

- Cause a lot of couples who
are in love, walk through it.

They say that if couples
truly love and they hold hands

and walk through the
entirety of the tunnel,

that all of their wishes will come true.

- It's really cool.

- No, it's romantic, Sampson, romantic.

- Why were you thinking about it?

What, I can't
think of romantic places?

- No, I'm just, why were you thinking

specifically of the tunnel
of love when you woke up?

Miss romance over here.

- Okay, well I had been
reading a book about it

before I went to bed and when I woke up

the book was still right there beside me

- What book?

Well, okay, I got
really into traveling, right?

And so I started looking up all the places

that I want to go before I die.

And then I started writing down cities

and then I started writing
down beautiful places.

And this book is full of pictures

of beautiful places to visit.

- So you're like, a nature lover now?

- No, no, no, like I'm a traveler.

A traveler,

or maybe a dreamer.

- What's wrong?

- There's something you said earlier

that I can't get out of my head.

- What?

- What you said about us
not talking for four years.

- What about it?

I thought about it

and I realized that you're right

and that just makes me really sad.

But I also think that we can just

pick up where we left off, you know?

- Like old friends or something?

- Yeah, yeah, exactly, because
I mean, we shared something.

- What did we share?

- We developed an emotional connection.

Don't laugh.

- No I'm not.
- Don't laugh,

because what I mean is that

no matter what, we're always
gonna have that connection.

I mean, we're not just strangers

that met and talked for
an hour or two, you know,

we did it for six months

and I like to think that means something.

- Well, we were in middle school, Alexa,

the awkward age of
halfhearted relationships

and overzealous hormones.

For most people, those relationships

they don't mean anything now.

- Is overzealous your word of the day?

To why are
you suddenly good at it.

- Okay, but think about
some of the relationships

our friends were in.

Chris and Olivia couldn't care
less about each other now.

- Tom and Riley had been friends since

and haven't even thought
about dating again.

And then Jesse and Sarah,

they can't even seem to
look at each other anymore,

so clearly none of them
have emotional connections.

- Yeah, but, Chris and Olivia,

they only dated for like a month right?

And Tom and Riley one week.

Sarah and Jesse?

Yeah, they dated for four months.

But then Sarah caught Jesse
cheating on her with Brenda

and found out later that he cheated on her

with multiple other people.

So I think it's justified why
Sarah hasn't felt anything

for him since.

Yeah, eighth grade.

- Yeah, it's crazy.

- So your theory is that six months

helps to form an emotional connection?

- No, I just don't think that a month

or a week in eighth grade is
gonna do anything, you know,

and Sarah and Jesse don't have one

because he cheated on her.

- But, there's more to
developing emotional connection

than not cheating on each
other don't you think?

- Yeah, I mean, of course.

- Then why do you say we have one?

- Ah, well, we were friends before

and we never really fought, and--

- Oh, wait, wait, what about that one time

you got mad at me when I
hung out with Valerie alone?

- Okay. I wasn't mad, I
was just disappointed.

- Those words might as well
mean the exact same thing.

- No they don't--
- It wasn't even a big deal.

- It was a big deal,
I had to hear about it

from Olivia afterwards,

do you know how embarrassing that was?

- I didn't think I needed to tell you

Valerie and I have been friends
since elementary school.

- It was suspicious.

Thought I was gonna cheat on
you with my childhood friend?

- Stranger things can happen than that.

- But I waved to Olivia, why
would I have acknowledged her

if I was cheating on you?

- She didn't tell me that part.

- But regardless that wasn't a fight.

So two, we never fought,

three, we were always
really nice to each other.

Four, we really cared about each other.

And five, you never pressured
me into doing anything

I didn't wanna do, which
was a big deal at the time

because all my friends kept telling me

about the crazy things

that their boyfriends wanted them to do

and I was just not about that.

Basically our relationship
wasn't founded on

experimenting or
establishing a reputation.

- But, four years have passed,

you don't think that changes anything?

- I mean, we're not that different, Sam.

- Four years is a long time.

- I mean, yeah, I mean
maybe things have changed,

but there are some exes

people will always have feelings for.

- I'll always have feelings for you.

- What?

That's one of the
things that you said to me

when we broke up.

You remember that?

Yeah.

- Did you believe me when I said that?

- For a while I did,

but I decided I needed
to be honest with myself.

Something that a girl says to a guy

to make a breakup seem less bad.

You know, like, well,
we can still be friends.

Some girls mean it.

- A few.

- You didn't think I
could be one of those few?

- It's easier to side with the possibility

with a higher probability.

God, I sound really stupid.

- Oh, it's fine, I get it.

It's just that I think there
are still some memories

that can bring things back, you know,

like a song or an object or
I don't know, maybe like a--

- A location.

- Oh my God.

Is this what we were walking to?

- Come on.

- I haven't been here in forever.

I can't believe someone
finally put lights up.

- Yeah, me either.

- You did this?

- You like it?

- Yeah.

Thank you.

I missed your hug.

- Me too.

- I'm sorry.

- You don't have to apologize.

- It's just that,

this means a lot to me.

I can't believe you remembered.

Can I have another one?

- A hug?

- Yeah.

Alexa you don't need to ask.

- Okay, good.

Can you do me a favor?

Can you be honest with me tonight?

If you can be honest with me,

I promise I'll be honest with you.

- About what?

- There's so much I wanna ask you.

But I need you to answer
me fully and truthfully.

And that means no holding back.

You promise not to hold back?

- I don't think we should do that.

- Why not?

- Because you'll start out
with the small questions,

but then you'll put me on the
spot with the big questions.

And by the end of the
night you'll hate me.

- I wouldn't do that to you.

I just wanna know how you feel

about certain things, you know?

I can never hate you.

- You never know.

- I'm not gonna manipulate you

into divulging your deep dark secrets.

I just want the full Sampson package.

- You realize what you said?

- I meant I just wanna
talk to the real you.

I mean you have no idea
how much it would kill me

when you would stare off into the distance

and you wouldn't tell me
what you were thinking about.

Can you please promise me this?

- Fine.

- Thank you.

- Come on, Alexa you don't trust me?

- With this? Hell no.

- Do you remember how we used to seal it?

- Yeah.

- What's wrong?

- Something got in my eye.

Didn't we just
make an honesty pact?

- You think I'm lying?

- I know you're lying.

You pulled away because
you don't wanna kiss me.

It's fine.

You're not gonna hurt my feelings,

but I need you to admit it.

Okay, you might hurt my feelings,

but I still want you to admit it.

Sam!

- Fine, you're right.

- Why? It's just a kiss.

- It's just, I'm gonna kiss you again

it's not gonna be because
we used to whenever

we made promises,

it has to mean something.

I'm sorry, Alexa.

- It's fine.

So how's your summer been?

Good.

- What'd you do?

Just writing.

- You're still writing?

- Yeah.

I'm working on this novel.

I'm trying really hard to
actually finish this one.

- What's it about?

- It's about this guy
who leaves his hometown

and moves to this small town in Nebraska.

And he realizes that the people there,

they look exactly like the
people from his hometown,

but they act differently.

- That's interesting.

Is it Sci-Fi?

- Sort of, yeah.

- You should let me read
it when you're done.

You know, I always loved
reading your stuff.

- I will.

So what'd you do this summer?

- I went to Beach Week
and that's about it.

- Weren't you in Danny's group?

Yeah.

I heard about that.

What'd you hear?

- That the cops showed up
and you guys got kicked out?

- Yeah.

Some assholes kept throwing beer bottles

at the house next door.

Two days and it was over.

That's why I haven't done much this summer

cause my parents grounded me.

They said, "Apparently you need
to learn more responsibility

"before you're out on your own."

I don't know.

Let's talk about something else.

Something interesting.

- Like what?

- Like, how's your love life?

- My love life?

- Yeah, you know, the girls you've seen,

been with, who knows,
maybe even have someone

you like to hook up with?

I don't.

Well, at least
now we're getting somewhere.

So tell me, who've you
seen the last four years?

- You don't want to hear about that.

Uh, sure I do.

Do you have someone you like right now?

Let me inside your head, Sampson Mitchell.

- Can't tell you about all of them

Ooh, Sampson the ladies man.

- No, no it's not like that.

It's just, there were a lot of
no goes and could have beens.

- What does that mean?

- You know like girls
I've never approached

or girls had a chance with,
but never pursued further.

- Well, I mean, I still
wanna hear about them.

- I'll just talk about senior year.

Come on.

- But nothing really
happened until this year.

- Okay, all right okay.

So tell me about the girl.

Or girls, multiple girls.

- Julia.

- Who's Julia?

Julia Tali?
- No, not Julia Tali no.

My parents and I, we went
shopping on Christmas Eve

and we stopped at that
burger place out by the mall.

She was our waitress.

- What happened?

- So it's this Doger burger type of place.

You have to be really
specific about your order

and there's like five
different parts to that.

So I'm sitting there while
she's getting the drinks

and I'm concentrating
what I'm going to say

and in what order so that I don't mess up.

But yeah, so she comes back
and I'm the first one to order,

and I guess I got too
enthusiastic or something,

but I moved my arm out like this

- Oh no.
- And I hooked the drink

and it got all over her

and it got hair and everything.

- Oh my God that is so embarrassing.

I know.

- What'd she do?

- She just smiled.

- Really?

- Yeah.

- It was an endearing
one, not one out of pity.

- And you did something, right?

- I wanted to ask her out,
but my parents were there

and I was hoping that she'd
come back from the kitchen

and get to say something but she didn't.

- And?

I got home disgusted
with myself, you know,

I kept telling myself that
I had missed an opportunity,

but there always be others,

something that I always tell myself,

but this time was different.

The thought occurred to me.

I know this may sound weird,

but I thought about how
it'd be the last time

that I'd ever get to ask
out a girl on Christmas Eve

while I was still in high school.

And then I realized that
I'd spent all of high school

waiting for the next moment,
never making the most

when I was there.

- What happened?

- I drove back a few hours later

and I planned on walking in
there and asking her out,

but I stopped myself.

I kept coming up with all of these reasons

not to talk to her.

That, I'd go in there just to ask her out

and everyone would know

and that she probably
wouldn't remember me anyways

and wouldn't be interested.

- What'd you do?

- After 15 minutes, I
drove back to my house

and tried to forget about it.

Sam.

That is so sad.

- I know.

- You should've asked her out.

- You didn't let me finish though.

So in June, West, Nate and I,

we went there and Julia was there too.

I told them about her and they
convinced me to ask her out.

- And she said, yes.

- Yeah.

That's great.

I mean, did you take her out?

Where did you go?

Did you kiss her?

Give me the details, that's what I want.

- We went to the movies,

I walked her home and I kissed her.

- That is so cute.

So I assume the date went well?

- Yeah. I'd say that.

What she looked like?

- Got pretty Hazel eyes
and long brown hair

that she's always playing with.

Yeah.

- She sounds pretty.

It's nice to hear you talk about her.

What's she like?

- She wants to become a veterinarian.

She was on her school's
dance team, but then she--

- No, no, those are just facts.

I mean, what is she really like?

- She's really nice,

ambitious,

talkative,

enthusiastic.

And she's got this incredible
optimism that I love.

The kind that makes you wanna
be around her all the time

because you know, she'll
make you a better person.

- How many dates did you guys go on?

- Just one.

- Why, I mean, it's obvious you like her.

- I just didn't wanna
get anything too serious

with college and everything.

- That's bullshit Sampson.

If you feel so strongly about a person

you shouldn't let something like college

get in the way of that.

- Is that how do you feel about Jack?

It doesn't matter
how I feel about Jack.

You like this girl you
should have given it a shot.

I mean if it had gone wrong,
this would've proved you right.

It's a win win for you.

- I don't believe in long
distance college relationships.

I feel like whenever you
get to hang out on breaks,

it becomes less about having fun

and more about trying to keep
the relationship together.

- You can't just assume that's the way

things are gonna turn out.

You know, like if you work
hard, then it's got a shot.

But if you don't, then
obviously it's gonna fail.

Do you think you guys had
an emotional connection?

- Not his again.

- Because if you did, then
it's really worth a shot,

you know?

Someone once told me that
young people don't appreciate

the emotional connections that they have.

They think they're gonna
meet people later in life

that they're emotionally
attracted to and they don't.

- You just said that emotional connections

are developed over time,

so why do you say Julia
and I could've shared--

- No, no, no, what I said
was that eighth grade

is different.

When you're older,

it doesn't matter how
long you're with somebody

it can just happen and there's
nothing you can do about it.

- Don't you think your
logic is slightly flawed

with all the exceptions about a few dates

for an extended period of time,

it doesn't guarantee an
emotional connection.

- No, no, no, there's always
gonna be exceptions, okay?

I do believe that an
extended period of time,

let's say eight months in eighth grade

does help to form an emotional connection,

but it doesn't necessarily
guarantee anything.

- Yeah, but like Julie and
I, we're not you and Jack.

I heard about it, Alexa.

- What'd you hear?

That he broke it off with you
two weeks after Beach Freaks,

to have fun before college.

I'm really sorry that happened.

Alex, Julia and I didn't
date for as long as you guys.

We didn't even date.

I mean, at the chance that
you guys had to form one

in high school,

high school was such a
huge part of growing up

and having someone,

someone especially guys
you go through with,

seeing each other through thick and thin,

create something really special.

Julie and I didn't have that.

You and Jack have something different.

- Had.

When we broke up, I couldn't stop crying

and I didn't leave the house,

and I felt so helpless.

I just don't understand,

I thought he felt the same way about me.

And every time I close my eyes,

I can see him kissing someone new.

Can I ask you a question?

- Yeah.

- Would you have still
asked me out tonight

if I was still with him?

- Honestly?

- That's what we agreed to.

- No.

But that doesn't mean I
wouldn't have wanted to.

I just typically don't ask
out girls with boyfriends.

It's not really my style.

- You're one of the good
ones, Sampson Mitchell.

I'm sorry. I just unloaded on you.

- It's okay, I know you needed to.

You know, a wise girl once told me

it's bad to keep things bottled up.

- She sounds like an intelligent girl.

Pretty too.

- She happens to be both
of those things actually.

- I'm gonna make you another promise.

- What?

- I'm not gonna talk about Jack

for the rest of our time together.

- Oh, come on Alex--
- Because we're gonna have

fun tonight, dammit.

- No Julia.

- Sam.

- No Julia.

Fine.

- What happens if you break it?

- What do you suggest?

- How about, I take away
your free hug plans?

- That's just evil.

- Do we have a deal or not?

- Fine.

So are we going anywhere else?

- You don't give me enough credit.

When it comes to getting hurt,

heartache doesn't get enough credit.

It lasts way longer than physical pain.

I'm not saying I'd rather
have someone tear my arm off

for the rusty acts and be
sad about a girl or anything,

but if I had the choice of
being in the ring with a boxer

for two rounds and face the
weeks of lying in my bed

looking at the ceiling,
I'd choose the boxer.

What sucks is it lasts
pretty much all day,

every day, seemingly forever.

When that happens, you just
wanna lie down and relax,

do nothing.

But then you start thinking
about what went wrong,

what you did wrong,

what you shouldn't do next time

in between cycles of trying to
discover the meaning of life

and what it all means.

Even though I spent much
of high school doing this,

I still haven't discovered
the meaning of life

or what it all means.

Fingers crossed though.

- I have a question.

- Again?

- May I?

I'm a little
afraid of what you might ask,

but yeah, go ahead.

Okay.

Why haven't you been in a
relationship since high school?

- Didn't I just answer this?

- I mean, as vaguely as possible, yeah.

I told
you it's because of the

no goes and could have beens.

- I mean, you did say that, but why?

- Why do you care so much?

I don't know, I just do.

And that's not vague?

- Okay. Look.

I will answer your question this one time

only if you promise to answer mine next.

- I promise I will.

- Okay, good, cause I know
all your tricks so you better.

I will.

- Okay.

I wanna know why, because,

I wanna know why you haven't
dated anyone since me.

- What are you trying to say?

- I'm not trying to say
anything, I just wanna know.

- Well, why do you want to know so bad?

- Sampson Mitchell tactic number three.

Go ahead and answer the question
with an original question

since you don't have to answer
the original question asked.

Okay, fine.

Will you answer after I answer?

- I guess you'll just
have to wait and see.

Fine.

I'll answer, but it might
take a long time though.

- Sampson, I'm here all
night, I'm not going anywhere.

If I have to be here all
night, which I don't wanna do,

I will still be here talking to you.

So Sampson Mitchell, I will ask you again,

Why haven't you dated
anyone in high school?

I feel like
there's a bunch of reasons,

but I guess the basic answer

is that girls just
weren't interested in me.

I know that sounds like I want

some sort of pity or something.

No, no, no.

I don't, it's
just the girls that I liked,

they didn't like me back, simple as that.

But I
specifically remember girls

liking you in high school,

like Emma, for example,

she liked you at the
beginning of freshman year.

Still feel really bad

about how I handled everything with Emma.

Yeah, you should
have just been honest

instead of ignoring her.

What the hell is that gonna solve?

It worked didn't it?

Yeah, but that's
a really, really awful way

of letting someone know
you don't like them.

I know that now.

Sam, you know I love you,

but sometimes you can be
a really shitty person.

I
know that all too well.

Okay, but what
about the girls that you liked

that didn't like you back?

What about those girls?

- Mm like--
- Like the volleyball one.

The volleyball one, what was the name?

Oh, geez, Katie.

Katie, Katie, that was it.

What happened with Katie?

Nothing happened.

I only ever talked to her online,

we never ended up meeting in person.

Wait, but you
were supposed to meet

at that volleyball game.

What happened with that?

Well, as you know,

at the game you kept pressuring me

into going into going and talking to her.

I was not pressuring you.

- Alex you kept saying, "Sam,
you should go talk to her."

- Yeah, but I wouldn't
say that I pressured you.

- Please, total pressure.

Alexa the pressurer.

No, I didn't do that.

- Regardless as you know, I left the gym

so I could go talk to
her and I could see her

at the other end of the
foyer talking to her friends.

But I just couldn't find
myself to go talk to her.

So after I saw her go to the bathroom,

I walked outside and went home.

- This just in, Sampson
Mitchell is afraid to talk to

yet again, another girl.

- No comment.
- No comment.

I'm sorry.

It's fine, you're right.

- Can I ask you a question and
you promise not to get mad?

- Go for it.

- Why are you so afraid to talk to girls?

- I wouldn't say that I'm afraid.

- If you weren't, then
you'd have an easier time

of doing it.

- I'm not afraid of girls per se,

but more so their judgment,

like I don't wanna say
something really stupid

and have them develop this
terrible opinion on me

and then have to spend all of this time

trying to convince them
that I'm not the person

that they think I am.

So basically you're saying

you're afraid of rejection.

What?

Yeah, you said you
were afraid of their judgment

and their bad opinion of you.

You like it when people

have bad opinions of you?

No, no, I
obviously not, but I just,

I'm not gonna tip toe around them

to make sure that they don't, you know,

if they don't like me, that's fine.

Not everyone's gonna like you.

I know that not
everyone is going to like me.

Then why do you keep trying?

I'm not.

Okay,
think of it this way.

Think of all the girls
that you haven't approached

or talk to because you're afraid

that they're gonna have
a bad opinion of you.

If that's not fear of rejection,
I don't know what it is.

Although that is a good theory

What about me?

What about you what?

Did you not care
what I thought of you?

Wait, do you
think that I wasn't afraid

of your opinion of me?

No, I didn't say that

But you were thinking it.

I thought we had the microscope

turned on you at the minute.

- Felt like turning the
tables for a minute.

Turn them back.

Why?

Because it drives me crazy

when you don't answer my
questions, so just answer.

- You know, it's really okay.

If you don't answer, because
I know why you're asking.

- Oh, you do, do you?

- Yeah, so you don't have to say it,

because you're asking,
because you wanna know

if, when I first met you,

whether or not I was actually
interested in you or not.

You think that I wasn't.

- Is it really so bad that
I was worried about that?

- No, I just think it's funny.

Why?

Because this
it's far from the truth.

Look, before I first talked to you,

Yeah, I was a little worried,

but after talking to
you for a few minutes,

then I wasn't.

You're really easy to talk
to and not the type of person

who just label somebody right off the bat.

With some girls you can
say, or even do something

and you'll always be
defined by that, but you,

I feel like you're
always ready for someone

to change your mind.

Do you remember
the night we met?

I mean really met.

Yeah.

I think about
that night sometimes.

Sampson Mitchell of all
people came out of nowhere

and asked me if that was
okay and comforted me.

I feel like nine times out
of 10, you would've stopped.

Why did you stop?

- Well, I saw a girl,

sitting on a playground

clearly too old to be there

and it was really dark, so
I didn't realize it was you

until I got a lot closer
and you looked really sad,

so I wanted to make sure that you're okay.

- Yeah, but what gave you the courage?

- Well, I really wanted to
make sure that you're okay,

but I guess I'd be lying
if I didn't say that

the Sixers I had drank that day,

didn't help me like a little bit.

- Oh my God, you only stopped

because you were on a caffeine high?

No, no, I
really did wanna stop.

I guess they just kinda like,

it helped give me that push--

- I cannot believe he never told me that!

- Surprised you never asked.

I guess it's a good thing you didn't

it might have hurt the
foundation of our relationship.

- I guess I just wanted to
believe that we were special.

That you wouldn't have
done that for anyone else,

but you did it for me.

And I guess that's why I never asked

because I was afraid
that I wasn't special.

- But you are Alexa.

Look, I like to think that

I was at that spot at
that time for a reason.

There's so many things
that could happen that day

that would've result in
me not running into you

like I could have not hung out
with Burke and Mark that day

or my parents could give me an earlier

or even later curfew.

I'm pretty sure that, you know,
I was supposed to meet you

then at that time, you know,
because I felt like, you know,

a lot of good came out of it.

- Good?

- Yeah, good.

- What do you mean?

- I mean, that being with you,

being with you was among
the best times of my life.

- Wait, wait, hold on.

You can't just say that and then drop it.

What?

You know what.

Sampson!

Come on!

I don't want to.

Why not?

Because.

Are you gonna talk to me about it?

Yes.

Do you promise?

Yes.

Are you sure?

Yes.

- Okay.

Wait, wait, wait, I
want you to look at me.

Go ahead.

- With what?

- You said that eighth grade

was one of the best years of your life.

How, why, what?

Say something Sampson.

- This is either gonna sound
cheesy or really depressing

but I think about the best time of my life

when things are at
their best and you know,

I was like, most happy.

I was thinking about eighth grade.

- Eighth grade?

- Yeah.

- Why?

- You know it was a lot of fun.

- Yeah, but I can think of a lot of things

that were a lot of fun.

Like, I don't know, you said eighth grade

was one of the best years of your life.

Most people couldn't care less.

I mean, not me, of course,
I loved eighth grade.

I think lots of things were lots of fun.

- What do you want me to say?

- Anything.

Anything worthy of anything.

- I mean, think about it, you were there

for a great chunk of it.

- Yeah, but I want you to talk about it.

You know, yourself open up.

- I don't, know what to say
- Listen, I gave up

a long time ago

trying to communicate
with you telepathically.

I tried, I got nothing.

Nothing.

My powers are weak, they won't work.

Your power are weak.

- Why won't you let me in?

- Do you think I'm gonna leave

because of something you say?

If I was normal, I would have
left a while ago, Sampson.

But I'm crazy.

And you know it.

You know, something,

those moments when we were
together in eighth grade,

those very few rare moments
when you would open up to me,

even if it was just like
the smallest little thing,

I was so, so happy.

You know why?

Because I got to talk to the real you.

I got to talk to the
kind smart, thoughtful,

maybe even a little too thoughtful

person that I knew was there
underneath the hard exterior.

And when my friends called you a--

- Rock.
- Yeah they called you a rock.

I just told them that they
didn't know you well enough

and they needed to know you, and they did.

- Somewhat.

- You know, you made progress.

You know, they no longer
thought you were just a rock.

- And what did they think I was?

- You became a metamorphic rock.

- A metamorphic rock?

Yeah, you know, like a rock

that can change and shift
under increased temperatures

and pressure.

- Dropping some knowledge on me.

- Yeah, anyway, you
should answer my question

because you even said it yourself.

I am the least judgmental
person that you know.

- Can't believe you using
my words against me.

- Yeah, I know, exactly, exactly.

So answer the question.

Either I'll walk away or I won't.

You know, but the real question is

whether or not you can risk

knowing if I'm bluffing

because if I walk away,
I'm not coming back,

but I told you I wouldn't
and I'm way too stubborn

to let you prove me wrong.

So Sampson Mitchell, I will
ask you for the last time,

why was eighth grade the
best year of your life?

- Well, I mean, we were together.

Flattery will only
get you so far in this world.

No, like,
I'm actually serious.

I was so happy with you

and I got to hang out with Mark every day.

Got to hang out with you on weekends.

I listened to
music religiously so much

and I didn't have to worry about a GPA

and I didn't have no real concerns

about getting into a great college.

Back then everything was so less serious.

- Yeah, but it was eighth grade, you know,

nothing big happens in eighth grade.

Well, there's no sports parties or dances.

- But, we did have all that stuff though.

- Yeah, but it didn't really
matter or anything back then.

- Why not?

- Okay, you know, there was no football

and all the dances were
at the community center

and there was no homecoming or prom.

And I dunno, like, I liked eighth grade.

I did, but it just didn't seem important

in the grand scheme of things.

- But, what makes high school

more important than middle school?

Besides getting into college?

I mean socially.

- Well, I guess it's just
that you always hear about it,

you know, your mom tells you about prom,

your dad tells you about the games

and movies show raging parties.

No one really talks about eighth grade.

- So the importance or lack of importance

is based on what other
people make important?

- No, I mean,

think of it this way.

In high school, we're
discovering who we are

and who we're going to be,
whereas in middle school,

we're just dumb kids.

- But are we still dumb
kids in high school though?

- I mean, yeah, I guess
that's what our parents

would say, right?

I don't know.

I guess in high school I was just,

I had a clearer sense
of who I was going to be

or who I wanted to be.

Whereas in middle school, I
was still figuring things out.

I guess I just didn't
have a really clear sense

of anything back then.

Does that make sense?

- Yeah, like you're trying to see

where you're supposed to be.

- Yes, yes, exactly.

- But, I still feel like you can think

where you're supposed to be
or where you're going to be

and it doesn't always stay that way

once you enter high school.

- Yeah, I know, it's not a
hundred percent or anything,

like the people I was
friends with then, you know,

I wasn't friends with all of
them still in high school,

but I was still in the same sort of group.

- Yeah, I gotcha.

- You know, I don't
regret anything though.

I think everything happened
the way it was supposed to

in high school.

Yeah, sure, a while back

I probably would have made a few changes,

but now I think that
everything that happened

was probably for the best.

Cause you know, high school was great.

Yeah.

People think that they talk
to someone for two hours

they know them.

I admit, I thought that
from time to time too.

We always think about how
we have so many layers

to ourselves and we do, but
we sometimes fail to remember

that other people are the same way.

There's more to them than their
baseball card collections,

their pets or their five
hours of swimming classes.

We couldn't possibly know everything

there is to someone within 120 minutes.

And let's be honest

we may not even learn the important parts,

which really makes them who they are.

We cross reference, if
they do this or that

they must be like this.

I don't think it's possible for anyone

to ever really know the
real you, only yourself.

Different people see
different versions of you.

You don't tell everybody
your darkest secrets,

your deep desires or horrible thoughts.

For some reason, we believe

that we can get to know each other

from the statuses, the
likes and the favorites.

We wanna be close to
people, we wanna know them,

but we won't take the risk.

Maybe because we don't want to

or maybe because we're afraid

the other person won't do the same.

But to be honest, they probably won't.

- You're in your head again, Sam.

- Sorry.

- Are we going where I think we're going?

- Maybe.

Your hands are still so cold.

- Yeah, sadly never grew out of that.

- I didn't say let go.

You have to give me a chance to warm up.

So cold.

Like your finger tips are freezing.

- Geez.

- You're too easy Sam.

You're too easy.

What would you have done if
the seats were already taken?

- I don't know.

Kick them out?

- No, there's no way you have done that.

There's like absolutely no way.

- Yeah, I probably would
have just sat back there.

- That wouldn't be the same though.

Did you ever think that maybe these seats

were empty for a reason?

Is that too heavy?

- What do you mean?

- I mean like,

you know that we're supposed to be here

in this moment in time.

What, is that stupid?

- No, not at all.

I agree.

I guess I just never thought

that someone might be in the spot.

That's somewhat related to
the idea of us being here.

- For a reason.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

- Like maybe if we didn't
get to sit in this spot,

it would ruin the entire night.

- How would it do that?

- It's like how if you want
something to go a certain way,

if one thing doesn't work out,

it just knocks everything out of whack.

- I mean, does that mean you already know

how this night's gonna go?

- No, no, it's like,

I'm imagining the way
the night's gonna go.

And if one thing, one small thing,

it's like a scale, like
everything is perfectly in balance

and if you take one small thing off,

then it's no longer even, you know?

- Yeah, but that still implies,

you know how this night's gonna go.

- I feel like it's more about

how I would want this night to go

than how it goes, like step by step.

- So if it changes, that's
not necessarily a bad thing?

- No.

I would let go.

- I don't know.

It just seems like you're afraid to admit

that you want this night to go well,

which you shouldn't be by the way,

because I'll be the first to admit

that I want this night to go great.

It's just,

it seems like, you sort of
think of this night as a puzzle,

you know, and each piece
has to fit perfectly

with the pieces surrounding it

because that's what's
gonna make the night great.

- I never said that.

- No, but you were thinking it.

I know you were.

You were.

Sam,

you should think of this night
as an ever changing puzzle,

you know?

And if it goes off course a little,

you know, according to you,

you should just,

I don't know, see the pieces
and the surrounding pieces

as things that can shift
and reshape and change.

It could still be a night
to remember, you know?

And a good one.

So if it goes off course a
little, you know, let it.

Do you see that girl over there?

The one in a blue shirt?

Mm hmm, that's the one.

- What about her?

- Go get her number.

- What?
- Yeah, go over there,

and ask that girl for her number.

- You're kidding.

- No, no, actually I'm not, dead serious.

- There's no way that I'm doing that,

I don't even know her.

- Yeah, did you know me
when you asked me out?

- Technically yeah, and your
name, I had an idea of you,

this girl I don't know her
name, where she goes to school,

she could be 20 for all I know.

- So?

- So 20 year old girls
don't give their numbers out

to 18 year old dudes.

- You ever know, she could.

You never know.

Everyone always says you never
know what the person does.

- So are you gonna go over there?

- No.

I don't even have my phone with me.

- So go old school, use a pen.

- I don't have a pen either.

- That I do.

How do you have a pen?

- So guys can get girls'
numbers, obviously.

- I never said I was gonna do it.

- Oh, but I know you're gonna do it.

- Why?

- Because if you don't,
then I'm going to get up

and go over there and tell her

that you think she's really pretty.

- Can't even tell from here.

- Oh, so what?

I think you're too afraid to risk it.

- I don't know if I believe you.

- Oh really?

- Alexa!

- Hmm?

- Come back.

Do I really have to ask her?

- Yes.

- Why are you're making me do this?

- Cause I think it'll be good for you.

- How can it possibly be good?

- Cause...

Can you please just do it for me, please?

- I'll be right back.

- You did it.

Was that so hard?

Can we go?

- Yeah, okay.

Are you okay?

- Yeah.

- Are you sure?

- Yup.

- I don't want you to be mad at me.

- I'm not.

Sam, I know you're mad.

- I'm not.

- I also know you wouldn't
tell me if you were.

I read this article about this guy, okay?

Who lived in a big city, and
was afraid of talking to women.

So one day he decided that
he was gonna go around

and talk to hundreds of different women.

And he said that in the end,

he was no longer afraid of talking to them

or asking them out.

That he got over his fear of rejection.

I don't know, I guess
I was just trying to do

the same thing for you.

And I know you're not--

You say, you're not afraid of
talking to girls, you know,

and maybe I shouldn't be saying this,

but like we're being honest
with each other tonight

so I guess I'm just gonna say it.

I know you say you're not
afraid of talking to women.

I mean, at least the ones you don't like,

but, Sam,

you're afraid of rejection

and God, I know that's
not what you wanna hear,

but it's the truth.

What?

- How does that help me?

- Because you were brave
and you talked to someone

that you don't know and
you got her phone number,

which means that you can get
other girl's phone numbers.

- I don't even know if it's a real number.

Okay, no, we don't know,

but, God you still tried something new

and you went outside of your comfort zone

and you should see that as an
accomplishment because it is.

- I guess.

- I just wish that you'd
talked to more girls

in high school, okay?

I get why you didn't, I really do.

I just think you would be surprised

at how well it would
have worked out for you.

- Do you ever think that it's not exactly

rejection by anyone,

but rather by a specific
person that you like?

- What do you mean?

I don't know if you've
ever experienced this but,

when you put all this time into a girl,

thinking about her, coming up
with a conversation starter,

saying about how you're
going to ask her out I guess,

I think we just hate to see
it end because afterwards,

rather getting the feeling of what's next,

or why do you waste so much
time thinking about her.

And if we do get the
courage to ask her out,

you show a side of yourself to her,

a side that you don't show anybody else.

She sees that side of you and rejects you,

you feel like you're nothing.

So, you start believing,

you start seeing yourself

the way that she sees you and it sucks.

- Why would she let a girl
tell you how to see yourself?

- Because to you, her opinion
is the only one that matters

I know that is so messed up.

- Okay, but why?

- Because you've already
formed the perfect relationship

in your head, your first
kiss, your first date,

to the point if you don't
experience those things

with her you'll never be
the same with anybody else.

But then eventually you get over her

and you develop a crush on someone new

and it just happens all over again.

- Okay, but if you just told her

that you liked her at the beginning,

then none of these fantasies
would have ever happened.

I'd be way more upset with myself

if I didn't tell somebody I liked them

because I'd hate that I
didn't give myself the chance.

- I think I'm becoming numb.

- What does that mean?

- By not telling girls that I like them

it's happened so many times
I don't care as much anymore

and that's either a good
thing or a bad thing.

- How can that possibly be a good thing?

- Cause you have to deal with the emotions

about their shit if you ever leave,

the kind that make you hate yourself.

Did you not
regret asking me out?

Wasn't that a risk?

Yeah, it was risky,

but asking you out was worth it.

You're not some random girl
reading a book in the square.

I didn't want that regret,

but that girl, I didn't even
know that she was there.

- Please don't be mad at me.

I shouldn't have asked you to do that.

I don't know why I thought it
was a good it was a good idea.

I'm sorry.

Can we please just forget about it?

It's okay.

You may have let it go of course a little.

But if anything, I guess
it just prepared me

for the rest of the night.

So Alexa,

the night goes off course a little,

let it.
- Shut up!

What took you so long?

- I was just waiting for the right time.

- Anytime would've been the right time.

- It had to be meaningful.

- It's definitely meaningful.

What's a girl gotta do to get another one?

- Good?

- For now.

Do you remember our first date?

- Yeah, of course.

It's my first date ever.

- What do you remember?

- I remember that you
were in a navy blue dress,

had flowers on it and
you curled your hair.

- You remember that?

- Yeah, what do you remember?

I remember you were wearing

your Christmas green polo,
that was way too big for you.

Oh God.

- And then you looked
just like a little kid.

- I wore that Polo way too much.

I thought wearing stuff
that big was cool back then.

It's my only good shirt.

- Mm hmm.

What else do you remember?

- I remember that planning on
kissing you during the movie,

but I was way too afraid.

- Sam, if I'm gonna let
you put your arm around me

chances are I'm gonna let you kiss me too.

- Yeah, I knew I had
to kiss you that night,

so that's why I took you on a walk.

I just had no idea where or when to do.

- And then you knew.

- Yeah, just felt like the right time.

I hardly remember doing it,

I just remember I did it.

- First kiss.

- Yeah.

- You know, I think that's
why it's so impossible

to forget you Sampson Mitchell.

You're one of my milestones.

- Oh, I see it was just another
milestone for Alexa Newport.

No, you know what I mean,

you're my first kiss,
I don't wanna forget.

- Oh, I see.

But you know, flirting with
you was so fun as well.

Shut up.

Is that a question?

I accept the one.

Thanks for specifying though.

Do you know the saying,

"Once a cheater always a cheater?"

Yeah.

Do you think its true, that it--

How can it
be true for everyone?

Cause if someone cheats

and regret it, and say how bad it was,

I guess people who cheat have no remorse,

that are bound to do it again.

Why do you think people do it?

- From the stuff I've seen
they say that men cheat,

cause they wanna have
sex with someone else

and, women cheat cause they no longer care

about their partner,

but it's kind of a stereotypic
way of looking at it,

easily would be the other way around.

Do you think that
deep down, we all wanna cheat?

It's possible, but I hope not.

Who do we trust you know

like the person that deep down

or the one that's on the surface?

I mean, which one decides whether or not

we're a good person?

The one that
makes the decisions.

We all have bad ideas sometimes,

but I think the decision of
whether or not we act on them

determines whether or
not we're a good person.

What if you
lose control over the one

that makes the right decisions?

What do you mean?

I don't know, it's
depressing to think about.

Yeah.

If you could ask me
anything, what would you ask?

Anything?

Yeah anything?

I don't really know.

You don't have
anything you've wanted to ask me?

Nothing you would want to
know over the last four years?

I'm not really sure.

I mean, it could
be anything, you know,

like a question

may have been burning
deep inside of you to ask.

Guess there are a few things.

A few things?

Yeah.

I guess the main one is

when I texted you after freshman year

and asked you out,

slash, told you that
I wanted to try again,

why did you say no?

What do you mean?

Oh, that sounds bad does it?

But, you had said, I guess at
the time I still believed it.

Maybe that's why I learned not to.

You had said, "I'll always
have feelings for you."

I don't know, I guess I wanted to believe

that I still had a shot
cause you had said that,

I guess I just hung on
to that line too much.

Because when someone says
something like that to you,

they still like you.

You don't realize that
months down the road,

the feelings are gonna go away

and new people are gonna
come into their life.

I just didn't take that
into consideration.

I guess I just, I wanted
to believe it was true

because there was comfort
in the possibility

of us being together again.

I believe we had an emotional
connection, I really did.

I thought that if I opened up to you,

I know that I had screwed up but,

I just wanted to show
you that I had changed

and realized a lot important things.

And I thought that we'd get back together

and things would be better than before,

and everything would just fall into place.

That was fucking stupid.

Things change, people
change, life changes,

the things that worked before,
don't always work later on.

You hurt me Sam.

What?

You hurt me.

You don't know what it's like

to watch somebody lose feelings for you.

And you do everything you
can for them to stop it

but you can't, it's helpless.

I didn't
lose feelings for you.

I mean, I knew
you still cared for me

and our relationship at the
end I thought you didn't but,

I realize you did, a lot,
after thinking about it

and I don't know I just think
that there's a difference

between caring for somebody
and having feelings for them.

It wasn't easy getting over you.

I was upset but,
I mean I saw it coming

because of the way you were acting.

You were treating me like one of the guys,

and even when I told
you to stop you didn't

and you kept acting so
distant which was ridiculous

because you were already
distant in the first place.

God, I don't know.

Even after realizing all of
that and watching us end,

it still hurt, a lot.

And I didn't wanna feel that way again.

So even after you sent those
truthful text messages,

I hadn't been able to
believe that you'd changed.

And I didn't wanna go down

that Sampson Mitchell rabbit hole again,

two times was enough.

What?

- Nothing.

- Say it.

- I don't have anything to say.

- Yes you do just say it.

- Fine, I often see our
breakup is a huge regret.

Then sometimes I think about us

and I figured we probably
would only been together

for maybe two more months
if I hadn't screwed up.

So maybe it was all for the best.

- Why do you think that?

- Because you would've gotten
tired me and broken it off.

I liked you a
lot you think I would just

break it off out of nowhere?

You did the first time.

- That's not fair.

How?

You know, I think it's
funny how we're together

for six months and
during that entire time,

you barely acknowledged

every time we were together months before.

It didn't matter
we were together then.

Now Alexa, that sucked,

you acted like things were
fine between us all day

and then you just decided to
break it off out of nowhere.

I don't see
why it matters so much.

Cause now you're
acting like you were never

shitty to me.
- We were just two people

who were existing beside each other, okay?

You know, we never hung
out, we hadn't kissed,

you never treated me like
I was your girlfriend

and you were so distant!

You're so fucking distant.

And I wasn't ready to do the
tiring and endless digging

I was gonna need to do to get to know you.

I didn't know it was worth it then.

Sam,

I mean, even if we had
continued dating, I mean,

neither of us would have ended up happy.

We probably just would have
stayed together for a few months

and then we would have broken up

and then we would never have gotten

to have the amazing memories
we got to have the second time.

Cause when you called me that February,

I wouldn't have said yes.

I wouldn't have thought there
was still something there.

- Can't believe that
I'm gonna tell you this.

But when we were together,
I said to myself,

"That's the girl that I'm
gonna go to prom with."

And even after we broke up, I believed it.

I believed the whale
under that I should have.

For some reason I was so sure

that something was gonna
bring us together again.

- You could have just asked
me, you know, before Jack.

- Would you have actually said yes though?

I was gonna ask you anyways.

After you said no,

after freshman year I knew
nothing was gonna happen

between us for a long time.

As high school went on, I
slowly realized more and more

that we were never gonna
be anything ever again.

So when junior year came
around, yeah, I thought of you,

but I knew that asking you was pointless

and certainly not worth the embarrassment.

But then Jack asked you and
you guys starting dating.

It's funny how things work out sometimes.

- So what's your story, Sam?

Why didn't you ever go to prom?

- Who said I didn't go.

- I know he didn't go.

- Yeah, I didn't go.

And why?

- I didn't like anyone at the time

- And you could have
just gone with a friend.

I just see prom is
something you take a girl

you really like to.

I know that's probably stupid, but.

- Why'd you really not go?

- Didn't I just answer this.

- No, you told me half the story.

You gave me the answer that
you gave when anyone asks,

but that's not everything.

- Why else, didn't I go?

Yeah.

- I was afraid of looking stupid.

Being the guy that everyone makes fun of

cause he made a fool of himself.

I can not dance.

Slow dancing I mean, I don't even know

if there is slow dancing at proms anymore.

Before I started high
school. I thought dance

is gonna be like the ones
in those eighties movies.

- With parties, like a
night under the stars.

Yeah.

At least that's romantic,
you know, if a bit cheesy.

So you really don't regret not going?

- I mean, I wish I had
experienced certain moments

that had to deal with
prom, but altogether, no.

- What do you mean moments?

I feel like prom is made
up of a bunch of moments.

The group pictures, giving
your date the corsage,

meeting your parents, and then the dinner.

- What moment do you wish you'd had?

- Slow dance.

Don't laugh.

Screw it.

I wanna have that moment where

you're dancing with your date
and the slow song comes on,

and there's this tension
about whether or not

you should do it.

Then you keep waiting,
seeing who is gonna make

the first move.

And then one of you does and

it's just the two of you in this moment

and that's all that matters.

- That's pretty detailed for someone

who's never experienced it.

- I guess that's just
how I always imagined it.

What was it like for you?

- Hmm, it was good.

They didn't really play slow song music

so I guess that could have ruined it,

but there was tension and everything.

I don't know I feel like I just,

I hadn't really locked in yet, you know?

I hadn't really developed a
crush on Jack at that point.

And then later we were at senior year,

we'd already been
together for almost a year

so it just wasn't as special.

I don't know.

That sounds bad doesn't it?

Like on a scale of one to
10 how bad does that sound?

I don't know, a three?

Probably just romanticize
it too much though.

- I just feel like that's
something you should experience,

you know?

And what does it say that I haven't?

- I don't know, but,

I doubt it's anything that,
that's that big of a deal.

- You know it's crazy to think

that if I hadn't gone to prom with Jack,

I probably wouldn't have dated him.

- You really think so?

- Yeah I know.

I mean, if he hadn't
been like sort of forced

to ask me out because of prom,

I don't think he would've asked
me out on a date afterwards.

So many things wouldn't have happened.

Would I still be the same
person if I hadn't dated him?

Probably not.

- What?

- I mean that dating Jack,

had to have change you in
some way, big or little,

in probably more ways than one.

- It was really depressing to think about.

It's depressing to think about

the people who are your true friends

and that even though they
were your true friends,

you probably treated them the worst.

- Are you talking about Kelly and Eva?

What happened with that?

I thought you guys were
gonna be friends forever?

I pushed them away.

I don't know I started
partying and hanging out

with all those people and
they're a bunch of times

when I'd made plans with them

and I bailed them to hang out
with like Olivia, Sarah, Ted,

Brenda, all them.

We got into this huge fight
and I said a lot of things

that I wish I could take back.

That sort of ended everything.

I tried to patch things up
with them again this year,

but they didn't wanna be
friends with me which I mean,

I can't really blame them I'm not sure

that I'd wanna be friends
with myself either

under the circumstances.

And don't get me wrong. Olivia and Sarah,

they're great friends it's
just that Kelly and Eva

are the friends that you have
for a lifetime, you know?

The ones that are honorary
aunts to your children.

I guess I'm just afraid
that Olivia and Sarah

are gonna go off to college
and find new friends

and completely forget about me.

That we're just gonna grow apart

and slowly stop talking.

That's why we're gonna
have a sleep over tonight

just to remind each
other of our friendship

and the fact that we don't
wanna lose one another and,

- Still coming over later tonight, right?

- Actually I rescheduled.

- Oh man, you didn't need to
do that, I'm so last minute.

- No, I wanted to hang out with you, Sam.

- Are they really mad at me?

- Mm mm, no, I didn't tell
them I was hanging out with you

and they have tomorrow free so
we just rescheduled for then

and it wasn't really a big deal.

- So they don't know it was me?

No, I told them
I wasn't feeling well.

It's just easier that way you know?

They won't ask any questions.

Oh, okay.

Do you know that time it is?

Let me get my phone.

Oh, okay, that's actually kinda late.

Is this our last stop?

There's one more quick one.

Okay.

You know what I'm afraid of?

I'm afraid one day I'm
gonna blink and I'll be 60.

I don't know I just feel
like the past four years

of our life are so important.

Your parents, your friends'
parents, everybody kept saying

that high school has some of
the best years of your life

and you have to make the most of them,

but, you can't make the most
of all of them, you know?

And I'm afraid I didn't.

- What do you wish that you
had done that you didn't?

- I sort of wish I'd
continue playing soccer.

I really liked it, but
they had practice every day

and I wanted to hang out with my friends.

- You were really good.

- No I wasn't, you were the good one.

- You were very physical.

Sampson Mitchell
you gotta watch what you say

- Oh no, I didn't mean it like that

I meant that you were
very good physically.

That's even
worse, that's still dirty.

- Yeah, damn it.

No, I meant that you were a very good

physical soccer player,
that's what I meant.

- What do you regret not
doing in high school?

- You know, right now, I don't think

I'm gonna miss anything about high school

but at the same time I think that

I'm gonna have some regret

cause I didn't have the
standard high school experiences

that everyone should have.

- And what are the standard
high school experiences?

- I never dated anyone.

I only went to a few football games.

I didn't go to a single dance.

I guess those things are what I would call

the standard high school experiences.

What you said about how everyone tells you

that high school is some of
the best years of your life

and how you should make the most of them,

I can understand that
but at the same time,

I still feel like I'm not
gonna regret certain things

cause some of them, I
just didn't wanna do.

- Why not though?

- I don't know.

Some of those things just didn't seem like

they were gonna be fun for me.

Like how I didn't wanna
go to the football games

cause I was afraid that
I'd regret to the fact

I gave it up after freshman year.

Guess it was easier to distance
myself from those things.

- Yeah but do you have to go out

and experience things, you know?

You gotta get out of your comfort zone.

- But that's not easy for me.

You're so carefree and
open, I'm not like that.

- I'm not carefree and open.

Yes you are.

- No, I'm not.

- You're always like that.

- It may seem that way, but I'm not always

carefree, open and
comfortable around people,

sometimes I'm just pretending.

- Is that hard? Pretending?

- I mean, it used to be,

I'm just sort of accustomed to it now.

Sometimes I'm worried

that I won't be able
to tell the difference

between when I'm pretending
and when I'm not.

I don't know that's sort of dumb.

- Would that really happen
loosing sight of yourself?

- I mean,

I guess it's just one of
my biggest fears, you know,

like, I'm gonna go off to college

and I'm gonna change and
I'm gonna look at myself.

I'm not gonna be able
to recognize who I am.

I have this really vivid
image of my old self

and my new self in this space

and they're aware of one another

and they're fighting back and forth

and eventually my new self takes over.

I don't know I guess I'm just afraid

I'm gonna change in college

and I'm not gonna be able to stop it.

- But you changed throughout high school

and you don't seem to be unhappy

with the person that you are now.

- Do you think I've changed a lot?

Yeah.

- How?

- Well, I remember how
I used to always say

that you never drink or smoke,

but ended up doing those things

so you to have changed or at
least change your mind somewhat

in order to do those things.

- Yeah, but do you really think
those things are that bad?

- No, I don't think that
those things are bad

why does everyone always say that?

- I mean, I just see those things

more as growth than change, you know?

- Yeah, so,

growth and change are separate things?

- Yeah, yeah exactly.

- But who's to say that this
change that you're afraid of,

isn't just growth?

- I guess I'm more afraid that my friends

are gonna change you know,
like Olivia and Sarah.

- I think they'll be fine.

You know, if it
makes you feel any better,

odds are I probably won't change

I mean, you even said it yourself,

I haven't changed much since eighth grade

so I think things are
looking pretty good for me.

I'm gonna be a-okay.

- Yeah, but that's different though.

- How?

- I mean, you're the
same, but, you're not.

I mean, like it's more like

you're slowly becoming
who you're going to be

for the rest of your life,

but you're also still figuring things out.

Fortunately, that person
happens to be great.

Don't change, okay?

- Okay, I won't.

- So are you gonna walk me home?

- Nah, I just, I figured you
could find her on the way home.

I once read poem

that's from the perspective of a flower.

It has been sitting in
the ground for centuries,

bored and tired until one day

it's brought out of the
ground by a young man

it travels with him, clutching his hand,

and then it's given to a young woman.

The flower's sees the man propose to her

then watches her say yes as she hugs him.

As a symbol of the couple's love,

it is preserved in a picture frame.

Every day, the flower
sees the couples love

and everyday he sees their happiness.

And when he witnesses them
die in each other's arms,

he knows that all those years,
weren't all for nothing.

- So.
- So.

- Wanna come in?

- Right now?

- Yeah, I was thinking that,

maybe you'd wanna spend the night?

I mean, I'm all alone and
my parents are out of town

and if I don't have to
be alone, I'd rather not.

But you don't have to,

I mean you can go, that's totally fine.

- Sure.

- Yeah?

- Yeah, I'll tell my mom I'm
staying at Fred's or something.

- Okay, awesome.

- Is it okay if I use the
bathroom, plus, text my mom?

- Yeah, yeah, you know where it is?

- Yeah.

- Come here Sampson Mitchell.

- What are you doing?

- That prom dance you wanted?

You're getting it right
now with yours truly.

Okay.

Put your hands here.

And mine
go here, you miss me?

You know, I'll be serious,
I will, I'll be serious,

so just--

Okay.

Can I ask you a question?

- Yeah

- Can you write in college
you know, major in English?

- It's kinda the plan, major in English.

- How'd you know that that's
what you wanted to do,

you know?

I don't know you know what I wanna do

or what I wanna major in even what I like.

I guess I just kinda
known for a long time.

I can't imagine doing anything else.

It's something that makes me happy.

- At least you know what makes you happy.

My boyfriend wouldn't wanna do what I love

Wanna try twirling me?

- Twirl?
- Mm hmm, you know like this?

- Yeah.

- A little higher.

- Okay.
- Okay.

Okay, slow down just a little bit?

Okay, all right.

Good, good.

- Can we go upstairs?

- Okay.

- Oh, I still don't
have to shut it tonight.

Yeah.

Actually, I'm just gonna run
to the bathroom real quick,

but I'll be right back, so just,

hold that thought.

You're all right?

- Yeah.

Can I ask you a question?

- Yeah.

When we fall asleep and
wake up in the morning,

are you gonna acknowledge
that this happened

or just brush off like it never did.

- You think I would do that?

- I don't know.

- Because we just went
out on a date and talked,

I mean really talked and
you think I would just,

pretend like it didn't happen.

- I don't know.

- That would be a really
shitty thing to do.

- I know.

- And you think I would do that?

- You never said you wouldn't.

- I implied I wouldn't.

- Are you gonna not brush it
off because you don't want to

or cause you think that
it's the right thing to do?

- Because I want to.

- You sure?

- Yeah, yeah.

Why do you think I would?

- I don't know, I just do you do.

- You do know.

- Because you're you.

- What's that supposed to mean?

- Because you're you and I'm me.

I know that sounds stupid,

but that's what everybody would think.

- What do you mean?

- A few months ago,

Christie and her friends

they found out that we were
together in eighth grade

and they couldn't believe
it, that we were together.

That's what I mean.

- Why couldn't they believe it?

- Are you really going to
pretend like you don't know?

- Why does it matter?

- In high school you acted
like didn't even know me.

Yeah, you said hi in the hallway

when you felt like you had to.

But, most of the time, you
just acted like I wasn't there

and you never acknowledged me

when you were around your friends.

- Why do you have this idea

of me pretending to be ashamed of you?

- Are you?

- No.

- Then why did you really
not tell Sarah and Olivia

that we're hanging out tonight?

- Are you sure that it's not you

that thinks I should be ashamed of you?

That I should be embarrassed of you?

- Yeah.

- Because if you didn't believe that,

then you wouldn't assume that I was.

You pushed me away, you know?

You remember that
scrimmage against Monroe?

I went to see you.

- I thought you just came to see the game.

- I don't even like football,
I only went to the game

just to hang out with my friends.

Why would I go to a scrimmage?

- You were hanging out
with Chris and Angela.

- Yeah, but I was there for you.

- I saw you.

- And then?

- Why'd you wanna see me?

I wanted to talk to you.

- About what?

- I wanted an explanation,
like why you pushed me away.

And then I thought that you
probably wouldn't tell me

that I didn't really wanna hear

and that you didn't really
want me there so I left.

Sort of like what you
did at the burger place.

I guess we're not that different.

- I remember seeing you in the stands

and being really happy,

which doesn't make any sense.

Cause it wasn't that
long after we broke up

but I was,

and, I looked for you
when the game was over,

but you'd had already left.

I wish you would've stayed.

- And what would have
happened if I did stay?

- I don't know, I don't remember

how stubborn I was back then.

Probably no less
stubborn than you are now.

- Would you've gotten back
together with me if I had asked?

- I mean, yeah, if things
went back to the way they were

before you started
treating me differently.

- Do you truly believe that,

we wouldn't have broken
up two months later

if we had stayed together?

- You made me really happy.

- You made me really happy too.

- Did you ever think that
it was meant to be this way

that we were meant to end

because we're both better off for it?

- Yeah, I feel like it's kind
of easy way of looking at it.

I feel like we just easily
could have stayed together,

but we ended up choosing the other option,

which was either better or worse

or maybe it would have
even just been the same.

- I just didn't think that
you wanted to talk to me,

you know,

maybe I did pretend that
I didn't wanna see you.

I just thought that

I wanted to give you what
I thought you wanted,

which was space.

I thought you wanted to be left alone.

So if you thought it was awkward,

when you texted me that summer

that it somehow made things worse,

the truth is that I just
really didn't know what to do.

I thought you wanted me to
leave you alone so I did.

I guess that could be
an excuse, I don't know.

- I was mad at you.

After the text and you said no.

It wasn't that you said no,
but rather how you said it

just, I felt like I was nothing.

I don't know, I just felt
like, I just hurt the more.

You didn't wanna have an
actual conversation about it

or talk on the phone or if
it meant meet in person,

you just said no and that was that.

I just wanted more.

- When you texted me that
summer, I wanted to say yes,

but I decided I had to
do what was best for me.

- I wish that we had stayed friends.

I know that would have been really hard,

at least I know it would have been for me.

But I really wish you'd stayed in my life.

- I think what I said in the last hour

sticks after midnight.

- I'm so afraid about
going off to college, Alex.

I have no idea what to do.

I don't know anyone, I'm not
the best at making friends.

Just don't get me wrong,

I sure as hell don't wanna
go back to high school.

Just be so much easier too,

I have no idea what's gonna happen.

Alex?

Are you okay?

- You lied.

- What?

Hey, this is Sampson.

I'm really sorry I missed your call.

But, please leave me a
message I'll get back to you

as soon as possible.

Thank you.

- You tried to wash it off,
but it was still readable.

You aren't gonna say anything?

- I don't know what to say.

- I saw you go over there.

I saw her write her number on your arm.

What happened?

- I walked over there, I said, "Hey."

I just panicked, I told
her that my friend dared me

to get her number, but I tell her mine

and she could write that on my arm.

- Why

- Why what?

- Why didn't you just get her number?

- Because I didn't want
to, we've been over this.

- We said on the gazebo and
made a pack to be honest.

And you weren't.

But I wasn't either.

I cheated on Jack.

I was at orientation and there was a party

and Jack and I were in
a fight at the time.

And I drank a little,

and this guy started talking to me

and I started flirting with
him and before I knew it,

I was taking my clothes off

and I just felt so sick.

And Jack broke it off with me,

but not because he wanted to have fun

I don't know where that rumor started.

I didn't do anything to stop it.

And he didn't tell our friends.

All he said was that we were
going to different schools.

So it made sense.

I don't know, maybe it's
for the best, you know?

Sometimes I miss him,

but mostly I just like,

I can't forgive myself
that I did that to him.

I never wanted to cheat, I
didn't want to be that girl.

I never thought

I would be and now I am.

Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror

and I think I see what's
under the surface,

and the person that's there,
I don't recognize her.

I'm so scared, I'm so scared

because I don't wanna change.

I'm really afraid that I'm
gonna change for the worst.

- Nothing ever happened with me and Julia.

I never asked her out and I
never even went out with her

The story of Julia ends
with me sitting in my car,

thinking about going in and backing up

and driving away and never going back.

I lied.

I lied because I could
feel everybody thinking

that I was never with
anybody in high school

because I still liked you
and it's just not true.

I know that I asked you
out after freshman year

and I said all those things
last night about prom,

but, I'm not hung up on you.

It's just that,

I don't like how things
were left between us.

Everything just felt way too open.

That there seemed to still
be a possibility there.

I didn't have a crush on
you for those four years.

I had crushes on other girls.

It's more of the, what if scenario

and since I've only ever been with you

I always come back to you,

but you, you have me, Steven and Jack

and I have you.

And as much as I like that,

I really want you out
of my head sometimes.

I'll never forget when you told me

that one of these days I was
gonna let all my emotions out

and you were gonna be
there when it happened,

I guess you're right.

- That article you
wrote for the newspaper?

Yeah?

You read that?

- Yeah,

but did you write that?

- Oh, did I write it for you?

Yeah.

- No, I was still with Jack at the time.

And Olivia was obsessed with all those,

you know, summer before
college to do lists

and things to finish
and I wrote one for her,

and the part about
reconnecting with an old flame

that was just me messing
with her, you know,

cause of the whole thing with Ryan,

it was hard not to think about you though.

I mean, I always wondered
what you were doing.

I never knew and no
one ever seemed to know

and I hated that.

I just wanna know how things were going

and if you were okay,

but I was never brave
enough to ask myself.

I care about you a lot Sam.

- I care about you a lot too.

And even though that article
wasn't written for you,

I'm really glad that tonight happened.

You know, it was nice and
it really meant a lot to me

you have no idea.

So thanks for listening.

- I should be thanking you.

- I should probably be thanking you

for finally opening up to me.

- I should've done that a long time ago.

- Better late than never.

- Yeah.

- Do you think

if I hadn't written that article,

that we'd be here right now?

- No.

- What time is it?

- I don't care.

I can't spend the
next four years of my life

with my mind on the past.

I need to take the past
for what it is, a memory.

What I know now is that the
past is something you learn from

you can't live in it.

If you do end up like me,

a guy who wishes he had made more

of something that he was given.

I read once that life is
something that happens

when you're not asleep.

In that case, it's time to wake up.

♪ If only I was an
invisible fly on the wall ♪

♪ I could tell the difference ♪

♪ Between all of the highs and the lows ♪

♪ I am secluded so tell
me how I am involved ♪

♪ Submerge me in water until
my whole body dissolves ♪

♪ I don't belong, yeah ♪

♪ But I'm not the one to complain ♪

♪ I am so far gone I am ashamed ♪

♪I have to get out of this place ♪

♪ It's not a race, but I
was runnin and runnin ♪

♪ I learned it a little too late ♪

♪ I'm not the same she was afraid ♪

♪ And I could tell it by
the look on her face... ♪

♪ Don't give me attention
took coins out the fountain ♪

♪ To reverse my wishes ♪

♪ Angels don't talk but
the demons, they listen ♪

♪ By reading the signs I
realized their intentions ♪

♪ If only I was an
invisible fly on the wall ♪

♪ I could Tell the difference ♪

♪ between all of the highs and the lows ♪

♪ I am secluded so tell
me how I am involved ♪

♪ Submerge me in water until
my whole body dissolves ♪

♪ Am I the moth or am I the flame? ♪

♪ Am I the one who should
take all the blame? ♪

♪ Am I the noise or am I the silence? ♪

♪ Awake all night why
am I always like this? ♪

♪ There ain't no answer for everything ♪

♪ Prolly never need a wedding ring ♪

♪ Don't got nobody to entertain ♪

♪ Maybe when I hit a another stage ♪

♪ Out in the cold and I'm shivering ♪

♪ How will I know when
I'm feeling strange? ♪

♪ They told me Venus in retrograde ♪

♪ But for happiness, I'll do anything ♪

♪ If only I was an
invisible fly on the wall ♪

♪ I could tell the difference ♪

♪ between all of the highs and the lows ♪

♪ I am secluded so tell
me how I am involved ♪

♪ Submerge me in water until
my whole body dissolves ♪

♪ If only I was an
invisible fly on the wall ♪

♪ I could tell the difference ♪

♪ between all of the highs and the lows ♪

♪ I am secluded so tell
me how I am involved ♪

♪ Submerge me in water until
my whole body dissolves ♪