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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:24,775 --> 00:00:26,860 [ soft instrumental music ] 2 00:01:23,959 --> 00:01:25,794 [ The Writer ] I want to write whatever happens. 3 00:01:28,255 --> 00:01:29,631 Even if I'm condemned to file 4 00:01:29,715 --> 00:01:30,924 my non-existence. 5 00:01:54,031 --> 00:01:55,741 We start from a void. 6 00:01:56,158 --> 00:01:59,578 From the euphoria of a man who has lost hope yet persistent. 7 00:02:00,829 --> 00:02:02,831 [ woman ] Good morning. Come, Tina. 8 00:02:02,915 --> 00:02:05,417 [ The Writer ] I write personal dream of success. 9 00:02:06,043 --> 00:02:08,128 I'm incomprehensible to my fellow men. 10 00:02:10,255 --> 00:02:12,508 I have to put up with my neighborhood, 11 00:02:12,591 --> 00:02:13,592 my family... 12 00:02:15,677 --> 00:02:17,012 ...and myself again. 13 00:02:17,095 --> 00:02:18,889 Succumbing to a nervous breakdown. 14 00:02:20,891 --> 00:02:23,227 - Actually, I've done little more. - [ doorbell chimes ] 15 00:02:23,977 --> 00:02:26,188 [ The Writer ] To survive, I write. 16 00:02:27,397 --> 00:02:29,274 [ doorbell chimes ] 17 00:02:34,947 --> 00:02:36,698 [ The Writer ] I feel like peace here. 18 00:02:37,741 --> 00:02:40,410 I transcend my soul's life with ease. 19 00:02:50,295 --> 00:02:52,923 - [ utensils clattering ] - [ man shouting in a distance ] 20 00:02:55,676 --> 00:02:56,677 [ speaking in Chinese ] 21 00:03:09,565 --> 00:03:12,776 [ The Writer ] "The enlightenment started when the people realized... 22 00:03:13,569 --> 00:03:16,321 ...they were no longer living in the Middle Ages."? 23 00:03:18,240 --> 00:03:20,367 [ laughing ] 24 00:03:28,542 --> 00:03:31,211 [ bell tolling ] 25 00:03:31,295 --> 00:03:34,173 Okay, so, I have present for you, 26 00:03:34,256 --> 00:03:36,216 the seven ecstasies. 27 00:03:36,300 --> 00:03:38,427 The seven themes that we're gonna really focus on. 28 00:03:38,510 --> 00:03:40,804 You're gonna choose one. Now, the ecstasy of the social, 29 00:03:40,888 --> 00:03:44,892 we have the ecstasy of the body, the ecstasy of information, 30 00:03:44,975 --> 00:03:47,144 ecstasy of time, 31 00:03:47,227 --> 00:03:49,521 ecstasy of the real, 32 00:03:49,605 --> 00:03:51,023 the ecstasy of sex, 33 00:03:51,106 --> 00:03:53,609 and the ecstasy of violence. 34 00:03:54,193 --> 00:03:57,154 History is a luxury of the West. 35 00:03:57,237 --> 00:04:00,616 My intents of humanity live on the margin of history. 36 00:04:01,074 --> 00:04:03,160 The naïve illusion is that... [ inhales sharply ] 37 00:04:03,243 --> 00:04:05,913 ...the media is controlled by the those in power. 38 00:04:06,288 --> 00:04:08,665 Ironically, it may just be the opposite. 39 00:04:09,249 --> 00:04:13,795 We experience time and history as if in a deep coma... 40 00:04:15,714 --> 00:04:17,508 ...predictions and foresight... 41 00:04:18,717 --> 00:04:20,969 ...are the memory of the future. 42 00:04:21,053 --> 00:04:23,013 He's talking Chinese. 43 00:04:23,096 --> 00:04:25,807 [ chuckles ] You're too young to understand. 44 00:04:25,891 --> 00:04:28,143 It's about Clandestine Revolution. 45 00:04:28,852 --> 00:04:31,063 Okay. I want a, in two weeks, 46 00:04:31,146 --> 00:04:33,941 a paper based on one of these things on my desk, okay? 47 00:04:34,650 --> 00:04:35,692 Okay. 48 00:04:36,193 --> 00:04:38,403 Okay or I'm gonna jump off the tower. 49 00:04:38,487 --> 00:04:39,780 [ all ] Okay. 50 00:04:40,364 --> 00:04:42,241 - I want to hear it. - [ all ] Okay. 51 00:04:42,324 --> 00:04:43,951 Okay. Thank you. 52 00:04:44,034 --> 00:04:46,912 [ students chattering ] 53 00:04:48,247 --> 00:04:49,331 You had a hard on. 54 00:04:50,624 --> 00:04:53,126 - When? - You had a hard on in class. 55 00:04:53,710 --> 00:04:55,504 [ unintelligible ] 56 00:04:55,587 --> 00:04:56,713 [ both chuckles ] 57 00:04:58,090 --> 00:05:00,926 [ gentle instrumental music ] 58 00:05:22,406 --> 00:05:25,242 Who? Who is watching me? Humph? 59 00:05:30,163 --> 00:05:32,332 Why, why does it seem impossible 60 00:05:32,416 --> 00:05:34,918 for me to have a relation with a normal human being? 61 00:05:40,048 --> 00:05:42,843 This is impossible. It is for me to leave the island. 62 00:05:42,926 --> 00:05:43,927 So... 63 00:05:46,847 --> 00:05:50,392 Today everything hurts and yet I feel at peace. 64 00:05:51,935 --> 00:05:53,437 The habit of pain. 65 00:05:54,396 --> 00:05:57,107 I don't feel it's constant buzzing or burning. 66 00:06:02,112 --> 00:06:04,573 - [ phone ringing ] - [ phone beeps ] 67 00:06:04,656 --> 00:06:08,243 [ Julia ] Hola! This is your ex-girlfriend, 68 00:06:08,327 --> 00:06:09,578 Julia. 69 00:06:09,661 --> 00:06:11,038 Haven't seen you in some time. 70 00:06:11,997 --> 00:06:13,207 Javier misses you. 71 00:06:13,624 --> 00:06:14,875 I thought... 72 00:06:15,667 --> 00:06:17,044 ...maybe we could play family. 73 00:06:18,045 --> 00:06:19,046 Next Saturday? 74 00:06:19,129 --> 00:06:20,130 [ phone beeps ] 75 00:06:24,134 --> 00:06:26,178 [ light suspenseful music ] 76 00:06:30,474 --> 00:06:33,810 "How can we build a city when it tells lies... 77 00:06:35,103 --> 00:06:36,647 ...and forgetfulness?" 78 00:06:41,068 --> 00:06:43,111 [ bell tolling ] 79 00:07:16,812 --> 00:07:21,316 "I write on pavement, on paper, and on toilet paper. 80 00:07:21,400 --> 00:07:25,195 I came to search for you, but did not want to find you. 81 00:07:27,656 --> 00:07:29,908 Read me. Decipher me. 82 00:07:30,868 --> 00:07:33,453 I will be back on Wednesday at 12. 83 00:07:33,537 --> 00:07:35,831 I hope to see you without talking. 84 00:07:36,665 --> 00:07:40,085 I prefer to read you and you read me." 85 00:07:42,129 --> 00:07:44,047 [ people chattering ] 86 00:07:48,385 --> 00:07:49,803 Hi. Tomorrow... 87 00:07:49,887 --> 00:07:51,346 Okay, thank you. 88 00:08:02,566 --> 00:08:04,359 [ upbeat music ] 89 00:08:12,034 --> 00:08:13,535 [ man grunting ] 90 00:08:13,619 --> 00:08:14,828 No, no. 91 00:08:14,912 --> 00:08:16,288 [ grunting continues ] 92 00:08:34,765 --> 00:08:36,183 - [ car honks ] - [ tires screeches ] 93 00:08:46,860 --> 00:08:48,362 - [ Julia ] That was the exit. - [ The Writer ] Hmm. 94 00:08:48,445 --> 00:08:50,697 [ Julia ] You just missed the exit. 95 00:08:51,281 --> 00:08:53,367 - [ Julia ] You should've turned right. - [ The Writer ] Right. 96 00:08:53,450 --> 00:08:56,119 - [ Julia ] Ugh, now it's too late. - [ The Writer ] Mm-hmm. 97 00:09:07,506 --> 00:09:09,341 Told you, it was a cut off to Caguas. 98 00:09:10,300 --> 00:09:13,428 - You've wasted half a morning in this. - Yes, I did it on purpose. 99 00:09:14,012 --> 00:09:16,640 I told you we needed to leave early. 100 00:09:16,723 --> 00:09:18,392 So why don't you go inside with him 101 00:09:18,475 --> 00:09:20,143 and I'll park the car and meet you there? 102 00:09:22,521 --> 00:09:23,856 Javier, let's go. 103 00:09:23,939 --> 00:09:26,233 - [ upbeat music ] - [ Javier giggling ] 104 00:09:27,150 --> 00:09:28,652 I want that one. 105 00:09:28,735 --> 00:09:29,987 [ The Writer ] You do? 106 00:09:34,283 --> 00:09:36,118 [ muffled chatter ] 107 00:09:49,339 --> 00:09:51,341 [ muted ] 108 00:10:04,897 --> 00:10:06,773 [ The Writer ] We know the rings we will never buy. 109 00:10:07,774 --> 00:10:12,029 And make travel plans for places we will never visit. 110 00:10:12,613 --> 00:10:13,822 [ Javier giggles ] 111 00:10:15,282 --> 00:10:16,116 Hey! 112 00:10:16,783 --> 00:10:18,368 - Hey! - [ Javier ] Mommy, those are for you. 113 00:10:18,452 --> 00:10:20,245 - Where did you get these? - Over there. 114 00:10:20,329 --> 00:10:22,372 [ people chattering ] 115 00:10:30,589 --> 00:10:33,509 So this crazy is following you... 116 00:10:34,218 --> 00:10:36,470 ...without measuring her words, 117 00:10:36,553 --> 00:10:40,516 some kind of intellectual seductive manipulation-- 118 00:10:40,599 --> 00:10:43,727 I didn't say that. I don't even know if it's a man or a woman. 119 00:10:44,978 --> 00:10:46,396 I thought you said it was a woman. 120 00:10:46,480 --> 00:10:48,190 I never said it was a woman. 121 00:10:48,899 --> 00:10:51,109 So why are you even telling me this? 122 00:10:51,902 --> 00:10:53,028 I don't know. 123 00:10:53,779 --> 00:10:55,280 Obviously, I had to tell someone. 124 00:10:55,364 --> 00:10:57,491 So I'm just someone? 125 00:11:00,536 --> 00:11:02,371 [ Javier ] Mommy, stop. 126 00:11:02,454 --> 00:11:04,873 We're never going to be more than just a handful of needs in 127 00:11:04,957 --> 00:11:07,626 search of a resolution, we're both incapable of fulfilling. 128 00:11:07,709 --> 00:11:10,212 - It's just-- - Here you go again with that mumbo jumbo 129 00:11:10,295 --> 00:11:12,673 word justification for us not being together. 130 00:11:13,131 --> 00:11:14,758 - [ Javier ] Mommy, stop. - Julia. 131 00:11:14,842 --> 00:11:18,345 Sorry, Julia, I can't listen to your pain. 132 00:11:18,428 --> 00:11:19,721 It doesn't belong to me. 133 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:26,395 This was, this was just a big mistake. 134 00:11:30,190 --> 00:11:31,733 You know what? Stop the car. 135 00:11:31,817 --> 00:11:34,278 - [ Javier ] Mommy! - Oh, please. Come on. 136 00:11:34,361 --> 00:11:35,863 - Come on. - Stop the car. 137 00:11:35,946 --> 00:11:38,198 - I'm not gonna leave you here. - Please, stop the car! 138 00:11:38,282 --> 00:11:39,658 [ Javier ] Mommy, stop. 139 00:11:39,741 --> 00:11:41,785 [ suspenseful music ] 140 00:11:41,869 --> 00:11:43,287 Stop the car! 141 00:11:43,370 --> 00:11:45,581 All right, just calm down. Calm down! 142 00:11:45,664 --> 00:11:47,833 - [ Javier ] Stop. - Okay, okay, okay, wait. 143 00:11:47,916 --> 00:11:49,168 [ Javier ] Mommy. 144 00:11:49,251 --> 00:11:50,586 [ The Writer ] Hang on, hang on. 145 00:11:51,170 --> 00:11:52,963 - [ Javier ] Mommy... - What are you doing? 146 00:11:53,589 --> 00:11:55,132 Hold on. Hold on. Wait! 147 00:12:06,101 --> 00:12:09,146 [ Javier ] Mommy, mommy! He's really, really mad. 148 00:12:09,229 --> 00:12:11,148 [ Julie ] We'll be okay, Javier. Don't worry, baby. 149 00:12:11,231 --> 00:12:12,316 We'll be home soon. 150 00:12:14,735 --> 00:12:15,944 Passing story. 151 00:12:18,030 --> 00:12:19,573 [ sighs ] 152 00:12:23,577 --> 00:12:24,995 [ door opens ] 153 00:12:38,967 --> 00:12:40,802 [ Julia ] Don't forget the glasses. 154 00:12:48,435 --> 00:12:49,269 [ The Writer ] Give me. 155 00:12:50,062 --> 00:12:52,022 - Here. Here. - Yeah. 156 00:13:17,714 --> 00:13:19,216 Too bad he isn't yours. 157 00:13:22,135 --> 00:13:24,137 [ romantic music ] 158 00:13:38,193 --> 00:13:39,987 [ belt clattering ] 159 00:13:41,905 --> 00:13:43,282 [ unzipped trousers ] 160 00:13:56,920 --> 00:13:58,005 [ Writer softly grunts ] 161 00:13:58,088 --> 00:13:59,298 [ Julia soft moans ] 162 00:14:01,592 --> 00:14:03,760 [ both moaning ] 163 00:14:40,380 --> 00:14:41,256 [ Julia ] Hey. 164 00:14:43,383 --> 00:14:44,218 Wake up. 165 00:14:45,802 --> 00:14:46,887 - Wake up! - [ mumbles ] 166 00:14:48,055 --> 00:14:48,931 [ Julia ] Come on! 167 00:14:50,057 --> 00:14:52,851 - [ exhales sharply ] - I can't let Javier see you in my bed. 168 00:14:53,352 --> 00:14:55,354 - Come on. - [ grunts ] 169 00:14:57,022 --> 00:14:58,398 I'll lose my alimony. 170 00:15:00,359 --> 00:15:01,193 Here. 171 00:15:03,862 --> 00:15:04,696 Thank you. 172 00:15:18,669 --> 00:15:21,463 [ melancholic music ] 173 00:15:44,778 --> 00:15:46,238 [ The Writer ] I shouldn't kid myself 174 00:15:46,321 --> 00:15:48,532 that the center of the messages is a woman. 175 00:15:49,616 --> 00:15:52,202 A woman I could fall in love with. 176 00:15:52,286 --> 00:15:54,162 I've been dying a bit every day. 177 00:15:54,913 --> 00:15:57,833 I've been dying slowly every day from my life. 178 00:16:00,919 --> 00:16:03,130 [ birds chirping ] 179 00:16:09,845 --> 00:16:12,222 "Paying attention to another human 180 00:16:12,306 --> 00:16:15,100 is the purest and rarest form of love." 181 00:16:16,226 --> 00:16:17,561 S. W. 182 00:16:17,644 --> 00:16:20,189 [ mysterious music ] 183 00:16:25,819 --> 00:16:28,655 Excuse me. Did you see anybody writing on the pavement there? 184 00:16:29,615 --> 00:16:31,033 - Uh-uh. - Right there on the pavement. 185 00:16:31,116 --> 00:16:32,743 - Did you see anybody writing? - Uh-uh. 186 00:17:01,396 --> 00:17:03,607 [ light suspenseful music ] 187 00:17:07,486 --> 00:17:10,656 "I don't like simpletons. If they were in charge, 188 00:17:10,739 --> 00:17:13,575 literature would have disappeared from the face of the Earth. 189 00:17:14,785 --> 00:17:18,830 I hate that great part of humanity called normal, 190 00:17:19,498 --> 00:17:21,750 which each day destroys my world. 191 00:17:22,501 --> 00:17:24,753 I hate the people they call good natured 192 00:17:24,837 --> 00:17:27,422 because given the opportunity 193 00:17:27,506 --> 00:17:31,176 they have the potential of doing extraordinary evil." 194 00:17:34,805 --> 00:17:35,639 Wait a minute. 195 00:17:36,682 --> 00:17:37,891 I know this. 196 00:17:47,359 --> 00:17:51,280 No. No, no, no, no. I know this. I know who this is. 197 00:17:51,363 --> 00:17:53,740 Enrique Vila. Enrique Vila. 198 00:18:05,669 --> 00:18:07,921 [ laughter ] 199 00:18:08,005 --> 00:18:10,007 Enrique Vila. 200 00:18:11,550 --> 00:18:12,676 That's right. 201 00:18:15,220 --> 00:18:16,471 [ phone ringing ] 202 00:18:16,555 --> 00:18:17,389 [ phone beeps ] 203 00:18:18,056 --> 00:18:19,016 [ Julia ] Hello. 204 00:18:19,892 --> 00:18:22,060 - Are you there? - [ The Writer ] Could it be Julia 205 00:18:22,144 --> 00:18:24,146 - sending me messages? - [ Julia ] Hola. This is Julia. 206 00:18:24,229 --> 00:18:26,648 - [ The Writer ] She knows my taste. - [ Julia ] Are you there? 207 00:18:26,982 --> 00:18:28,567 - [ The Writer ] My place of work. - [ Julia ] Pick up the phone. 208 00:18:28,650 --> 00:18:30,068 [ soft grunt ] 209 00:18:30,152 --> 00:18:31,403 [ Julia ] Are you there? 210 00:18:31,486 --> 00:18:32,529 [ exhales sharply ] 211 00:18:33,572 --> 00:18:34,907 [ Julia ] Are you listening to me? 212 00:18:36,658 --> 00:18:37,534 Hello? 213 00:18:39,745 --> 00:18:42,039 Can I bring Javier by tomorrow? 214 00:18:42,831 --> 00:18:44,333 [ The Writer ] Better not be Julia. 215 00:18:44,416 --> 00:18:46,627 - [ Julia ] Are you there? - Yes. 216 00:18:46,710 --> 00:18:49,296 [ Julia ] Can I bring Javier by tomorrow for a couple of hours? 217 00:18:49,379 --> 00:18:52,382 - I... - No, no, no, no, no. Not here. Um... 218 00:18:52,466 --> 00:18:54,801 - Not here. I... - You are all right? 219 00:18:55,594 --> 00:18:57,429 Yes, yes. I... 220 00:18:57,513 --> 00:19:01,725 Why don't you bring Javier to my friend Diego's place tomorrow? 221 00:19:01,808 --> 00:19:05,229 Cause I'm checking in on some renovations I'm doing in his house. 222 00:19:05,312 --> 00:19:07,689 - You sure you're alright? - So... Yeah. Yeah, sure. 223 00:19:07,773 --> 00:19:09,775 Listen, I'll take care of him. Don't worry. Okay? 224 00:19:10,484 --> 00:19:11,318 Okay. 225 00:19:12,152 --> 00:19:12,986 [ hangs up the phone ] 226 00:19:16,615 --> 00:19:18,367 [ Carmen ] I have only two things to say. 227 00:19:19,117 --> 00:19:19,952 One... 228 00:19:21,119 --> 00:19:23,121 ...I'm really sick and tired 229 00:19:23,205 --> 00:19:25,582 of using the term "humanity" 230 00:19:25,666 --> 00:19:28,627 to refer to all people, "manity." 231 00:19:28,710 --> 00:19:31,505 Why not just use men and women? 232 00:19:32,089 --> 00:19:35,592 Two little words and half of the human race would be grateful. 233 00:19:35,676 --> 00:19:37,511 [ audience laughing ] 234 00:19:37,594 --> 00:19:40,597 And now we finish with a, a thought 235 00:19:40,681 --> 00:19:42,766 from the French philosopher Deria. 236 00:19:42,850 --> 00:19:44,977 Derrida. Why did she say Deria? 237 00:19:46,436 --> 00:19:50,148 "Forget logic. It is cut in the conflict 238 00:19:50,232 --> 00:19:52,234 between truth and lies." 239 00:19:52,317 --> 00:19:54,528 [ applauses ] 240 00:20:00,659 --> 00:20:02,536 [ Pedro ] Thank you, professor Carmen Lindo. 241 00:20:07,332 --> 00:20:09,918 Our past is our proud reminder 242 00:20:10,002 --> 00:20:11,712 of our solid commitment 243 00:20:11,795 --> 00:20:14,715 to the development of educated citizens. 244 00:20:15,757 --> 00:20:19,845 Since 1903, we have graduated highly skilled students prepared 245 00:20:19,928 --> 00:20:23,724 to compete successfully in our complex world. 246 00:20:24,933 --> 00:20:27,811 The future is full of great opportunities. 247 00:20:27,895 --> 00:20:29,938 - [ Lina ] I'll see you later. - [ Pedro ] To continue our dedication 248 00:20:30,022 --> 00:20:33,317 - to carry on our mission of excellence. - Wait a minute. See you later. 249 00:20:34,443 --> 00:20:36,320 - [ Pedro ] To celebrate our accomplishments... - [ The Writer ] Excuse me. Sorry. 250 00:20:36,403 --> 00:20:38,238 ...is part of our life. 251 00:20:38,322 --> 00:20:40,574 [ light suspenseful music ] 252 00:20:43,118 --> 00:20:44,286 [ Pedro ] ...of dreams. 253 00:20:46,830 --> 00:20:48,165 [ The Writer ] Who is stalking me? 254 00:20:48,248 --> 00:20:51,168 How do they know where I live, work? 255 00:20:52,336 --> 00:20:54,505 Even the contents of my dreams. 256 00:20:59,051 --> 00:21:02,012 [ woman ] Well, you application is missing page ten. 257 00:21:11,480 --> 00:21:15,400 "You knew that only an exact copy could guarantee the truth." 258 00:21:16,151 --> 00:21:18,987 "You knew that only an exact copy could guarantee the truth." 259 00:21:19,071 --> 00:21:20,072 It must be Kafka. 260 00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:26,078 Excuse me, did you see somebody go into my office? 261 00:21:26,161 --> 00:21:27,079 No. 262 00:21:34,211 --> 00:21:37,506 [ woman ] Forget about him. No chance with that man. We've tried. 263 00:21:44,221 --> 00:21:45,639 [ The Writer ] How could someone fire 264 00:21:45,722 --> 00:21:49,309 a random shot and hit the target? 265 00:21:49,393 --> 00:21:51,645 Who could know how my brain works? 266 00:21:53,605 --> 00:21:56,483 How could a message express my inner feelings? 267 00:21:59,319 --> 00:22:01,989 [ light suspenseful music continues ] 268 00:22:02,656 --> 00:22:05,576 [ The Writer ] I've kept people at a distance all my life. 269 00:22:06,326 --> 00:22:08,787 Now I yearn for someone I've never met. 270 00:22:18,797 --> 00:22:20,841 - [ Javier whispers ] - [ The Writer ] Javier? 271 00:22:20,924 --> 00:22:21,967 Where are you? 272 00:22:22,509 --> 00:22:24,428 [ Javier giggling ] 273 00:22:24,511 --> 00:22:27,472 Hide-and-seek. You hide, I seek. 274 00:22:27,556 --> 00:22:29,516 - [ Javier giggles ] - [ imitating monster ] 275 00:22:33,270 --> 00:22:34,980 Grrr. 276 00:22:35,063 --> 00:22:37,232 [ The Writer ] I used to play this game with my friend Diego 277 00:22:37,316 --> 00:22:38,609 when we were kids. 278 00:22:38,692 --> 00:22:41,153 But, he's in Argentina. 279 00:22:41,236 --> 00:22:42,988 Where are you, Javier? 280 00:22:43,071 --> 00:22:45,574 - [ Javier giggles ] - Who's that? 281 00:22:45,657 --> 00:22:47,075 Who hit my butt? 282 00:22:47,159 --> 00:22:49,077 Who's the little butt monster? 283 00:22:49,161 --> 00:22:50,245 Where is he? 284 00:22:51,205 --> 00:22:53,498 [ both screams ] 285 00:22:54,249 --> 00:22:56,043 [ Javier ] ...protect me. 286 00:22:56,668 --> 00:22:58,629 [ imitating monster ] 287 00:23:02,674 --> 00:23:04,468 [ The Writer ] The irony doesn't escape me... 288 00:23:05,594 --> 00:23:07,846 ...the dialogue, when it begins 289 00:23:07,930 --> 00:23:09,640 is another writer's words. 290 00:23:09,723 --> 00:23:12,267 [ Javier mumbling ] 291 00:23:15,604 --> 00:23:17,606 [ light suspenseful music ] 292 00:23:49,596 --> 00:23:50,597 Game on. 293 00:23:51,473 --> 00:23:53,684 [ thunder rumbling ] 294 00:23:53,767 --> 00:23:55,769 [ rain pattering ] 295 00:24:20,127 --> 00:24:22,254 - What? - [ skateboard rolling ] 296 00:24:25,632 --> 00:24:28,260 "You have not understood anything. 297 00:24:29,344 --> 00:24:35,017 Tomorrow on Paz Granela, El Ático de la Abuela... 298 00:24:36,560 --> 00:24:38,187 ...search for me... 299 00:24:39,229 --> 00:24:40,480 ...until you find me. 300 00:24:42,024 --> 00:24:43,358 S. W. 301 00:24:43,442 --> 00:24:45,777 S. W. 302 00:24:48,280 --> 00:24:49,615 S. W. 303 00:24:58,707 --> 00:24:59,791 Shakespeare William? 304 00:25:01,793 --> 00:25:04,713 Simon West? 305 00:25:04,796 --> 00:25:06,548 No, Simon-- Simone? 306 00:25:09,551 --> 00:25:10,928 Simone Weil? 307 00:25:12,304 --> 00:25:14,139 Simon Weil but Simone Weil. 308 00:25:15,140 --> 00:25:16,850 Simone Weil. 309 00:25:18,519 --> 00:25:21,522 [ keyboard cackling ] 310 00:25:22,105 --> 00:25:23,065 Aha. 311 00:25:29,238 --> 00:25:30,989 But why is she searching for me? 312 00:25:34,785 --> 00:25:37,120 [ skateboard approaching ] 313 00:25:37,204 --> 00:25:39,498 [ panting ] 314 00:25:41,667 --> 00:25:42,501 [ The Writer ] Huh? 315 00:25:47,381 --> 00:25:48,257 Huh? 316 00:26:00,602 --> 00:26:01,478 Huh? 317 00:26:04,648 --> 00:26:05,899 [ The Writer chuckles ] 318 00:26:08,235 --> 00:26:09,403 [ doorbell chimes ] 319 00:26:09,486 --> 00:26:10,737 [ woman ] You are going to have to come in 320 00:26:10,821 --> 00:26:12,447 to see for yourself. 321 00:26:12,531 --> 00:26:14,950 I don't keep a file on my books. 322 00:26:15,033 --> 00:26:19,538 Yes, it is in as good enough alphabetical order as I can manage. 323 00:26:19,621 --> 00:26:22,958 Good day, adiós, and fuck you. 324 00:26:24,168 --> 00:26:27,504 We're closed. Fermé. Cerrado. 325 00:26:28,088 --> 00:26:29,548 [ stutters ] What do you mean closed? 326 00:26:30,132 --> 00:26:31,758 You deaf? Surd? 327 00:26:32,801 --> 00:26:35,179 No, I'm not surd. 328 00:26:35,762 --> 00:26:37,514 The door was open. Ouvert. 329 00:26:37,598 --> 00:26:40,017 We're closed for inventory. 330 00:26:40,100 --> 00:26:41,977 Well, how am I suppose to know then? 331 00:26:42,060 --> 00:26:45,063 Hmm... [ clicks tongue ] Aha! 332 00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:48,150 The gust of the wind. 333 00:26:48,233 --> 00:26:50,652 Okay, listen, I am, I need your help. 334 00:26:51,904 --> 00:26:53,363 It's very important. 335 00:26:53,447 --> 00:26:55,324 Important to you, huh? 336 00:26:55,407 --> 00:26:56,575 Well, obviously. 337 00:26:56,658 --> 00:26:59,244 - [ speaking in French ] - [ stutters ] 338 00:26:59,828 --> 00:27:02,748 Listen, did someone leave something for me here? 339 00:27:02,831 --> 00:27:04,625 A message from a young girl. 340 00:27:04,708 --> 00:27:06,835 G-- uh, glasses, short hair, 19-- 341 00:27:06,919 --> 00:27:09,713 No one leaves messages. 342 00:27:09,796 --> 00:27:12,382 - Are you sure? - Cross my heart. 343 00:27:12,966 --> 00:27:15,052 They, they said it was here somewhere. 344 00:27:16,053 --> 00:27:18,138 - Please. - Go ahead. 345 00:27:18,514 --> 00:27:19,598 Help yourself. 346 00:27:19,681 --> 00:27:21,225 - Okay. - There's a room. 347 00:27:24,311 --> 00:27:26,313 [ gentle music ] 348 00:27:46,500 --> 00:27:47,626 Simone Weil. 349 00:27:56,885 --> 00:27:58,345 YOU ARRIVED! 350 00:28:06,645 --> 00:28:08,021 Humph. [ speaking in French ] 351 00:28:09,982 --> 00:28:11,650 Un cadeau? Gift? 352 00:28:13,277 --> 00:28:16,572 - [ chuckles ] Anything else? - Who sold you this book? 353 00:28:18,031 --> 00:28:19,533 I don't understand. 354 00:28:19,616 --> 00:28:21,451 [ speaking in French ] 355 00:28:22,452 --> 00:28:25,038 Uh, I, I don't know. Someone. 356 00:28:28,584 --> 00:28:29,459 Let me see. 357 00:28:30,878 --> 00:28:31,962 Let me see it. 358 00:28:37,176 --> 00:28:38,969 A woman. Une femme. 359 00:28:40,846 --> 00:28:42,973 When, when did she come? 360 00:28:43,056 --> 00:28:45,851 Several times. She, she buys our things. 361 00:28:46,435 --> 00:28:49,563 When was she here, exactly? D-- what is she like? 362 00:28:49,646 --> 00:28:51,565 When did she give you this book? 363 00:28:51,648 --> 00:28:53,150 [ speaking in French ] 364 00:28:54,193 --> 00:28:55,527 Humph. Maybe, uh... 365 00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:59,239 a week ago, um, 366 00:28:59,323 --> 00:29:01,742 [ speaking in French ] 367 00:29:02,951 --> 00:29:04,286 [ laughs ] 368 00:29:04,369 --> 00:29:06,830 You know, you're loco. 369 00:29:07,497 --> 00:29:09,291 Well, I am a writer. What do you expect? 370 00:29:11,793 --> 00:29:13,045 Please. 371 00:29:13,128 --> 00:29:14,755 Please, do you know her? 372 00:29:15,547 --> 00:29:16,548 You know her name? 373 00:29:17,508 --> 00:29:18,717 Do you have a receipt? 374 00:29:20,052 --> 00:29:21,178 [ clicks tongue ] 375 00:29:22,930 --> 00:29:25,182 I'm sorry. It, it is crucial. 376 00:29:27,768 --> 00:29:29,186 Life or death? 377 00:29:32,105 --> 00:29:33,106 All right, let's see. 378 00:29:44,743 --> 00:29:47,454 See, there it is. Simone Weil. 379 00:29:47,538 --> 00:29:49,248 No, no. That's the title of the book. 380 00:29:49,331 --> 00:29:53,961 - No, that is her name. - No, it's the, the title. Look. 381 00:29:54,044 --> 00:29:57,130 No, that is her name. 382 00:29:57,214 --> 00:29:59,341 [ woman chuckles ] 383 00:29:59,424 --> 00:30:02,511 All that matters to me is numbers, not names. 384 00:30:02,594 --> 00:30:05,848 It says three, three books. Trois livres. 385 00:30:05,931 --> 00:30:08,767 She bought two other French books. 386 00:30:09,434 --> 00:30:10,394 [ speaking in French ] 387 00:30:16,149 --> 00:30:18,569 You see, that is her signature. 388 00:30:19,611 --> 00:30:21,405 I pay five dollar. 389 00:30:21,488 --> 00:30:23,532 She signed. See, all it is in black and white. 390 00:30:23,615 --> 00:30:26,451 Why would she not write her real name? 391 00:30:27,035 --> 00:30:28,787 Huh? Why? 392 00:30:30,581 --> 00:30:33,500 [ staff chattering ] 393 00:30:46,180 --> 00:30:48,390 - [ Glenda ] He's reading the book. - [ Li ] Yeah. 394 00:30:48,473 --> 00:30:50,184 I need to bring him something. 395 00:30:50,517 --> 00:30:52,186 - [ Glenda ] Ha! I'll get it. - Wait. Wait. 396 00:30:57,316 --> 00:30:58,609 [ muffled chatter ] 397 00:31:01,904 --> 00:31:03,780 [ sighs ] 398 00:31:10,495 --> 00:31:12,080 You like Simone Weil? 399 00:31:14,666 --> 00:31:15,501 What? 400 00:31:16,585 --> 00:31:18,795 [ stutters ] You like Simone Weil? 401 00:31:20,005 --> 00:31:21,798 Oh. I... 402 00:31:22,966 --> 00:31:24,009 I... 403 00:31:24,718 --> 00:31:26,512 - Here. - [ stutters ] 404 00:31:27,596 --> 00:31:29,640 [ light suspenseful music ] 405 00:31:57,125 --> 00:32:00,212 [ The Writer ] The oddest question I've been asked in my life. 406 00:32:01,713 --> 00:32:04,925 Is she messenger or sender? 407 00:32:28,115 --> 00:32:30,534 "Page 46." 408 00:32:41,461 --> 00:32:45,090 "Simone Weil was not aware of the carnal nature of everyday life 409 00:32:45,174 --> 00:32:49,761 nor was she aware of the conventions, and rituals, and social behavior." 410 00:32:53,807 --> 00:32:55,184 [ water splash ] 411 00:32:55,267 --> 00:32:57,269 [ romantic music in Spanish ] 412 00:33:23,045 --> 00:33:25,422 [ moaning ] 413 00:33:45,442 --> 00:33:49,655 [ The Writer ] How could I not dream of love with a body made of words? 414 00:34:00,249 --> 00:34:01,124 [ phone beeps ] 415 00:34:02,501 --> 00:34:05,838 Hi, I'm Simone. About time, I present myself. 416 00:34:06,797 --> 00:34:10,133 Please forgive me if I have created a great inconvenience. 417 00:34:10,217 --> 00:34:13,345 I can't see you till Thursday, which is my day off. 418 00:34:13,804 --> 00:34:17,391 Let's meet at the book store in Rio Piedras by your Three in One. 419 00:34:17,808 --> 00:34:20,435 I said "Hola" to you, but you didn't recognize me. 420 00:34:21,436 --> 00:34:22,437 Five p.m. 421 00:34:23,105 --> 00:34:24,064 You don't have to. 422 00:34:24,773 --> 00:34:26,483 - [ laughs ] - [ beep ] 423 00:34:26,567 --> 00:34:28,402 Hi, I'm Simone. 424 00:34:28,485 --> 00:34:30,237 About time, I present myself. 425 00:34:30,779 --> 00:34:34,283 - [ laughing ] - Please forgive me if I have created a great inconvenience. 426 00:34:34,366 --> 00:34:37,369 I can't see you till Thursday, which is my day off. 427 00:34:38,203 --> 00:34:40,080 Let's meet at the book store... 428 00:34:40,163 --> 00:34:41,790 [ upbeat music ] 429 00:34:41,874 --> 00:34:44,334 I said "Hola" to you, but you didn't... 430 00:34:45,669 --> 00:34:46,712 Five p.m. 431 00:34:47,171 --> 00:34:49,131 I may not will be the same again. 432 00:34:50,465 --> 00:34:52,092 My fortress has been breached. 433 00:34:52,176 --> 00:34:55,137 I've never felt more a prisoner of the unforeseeable. 434 00:34:57,472 --> 00:35:00,058 Yes! Yes! Yes! 435 00:35:00,142 --> 00:35:01,768 I'm Simone. About time... 436 00:35:01,852 --> 00:35:03,729 [ The Writer ] Although I counted the days 437 00:35:03,812 --> 00:35:06,523 and the hours, I did not wanted it to happen. 438 00:35:07,232 --> 00:35:11,820 I had fallen in love with the tactics of approach that seemed a work of art. 439 00:35:18,660 --> 00:35:20,662 [ suspenseful music ] 440 00:35:22,539 --> 00:35:25,334 Hola. Um, do you know where my collection of Three in One will be? 441 00:35:25,417 --> 00:35:27,002 Um, they sold the last one. 442 00:35:27,628 --> 00:35:30,881 - Who bought it? - Sorry, uh, I was on a break. I'll... 443 00:35:33,759 --> 00:35:35,677 Uh, they have a receipt of purchase, 444 00:35:35,761 --> 00:35:37,721 but-- not a name. 445 00:35:38,263 --> 00:35:39,097 Sorry. 446 00:35:52,694 --> 00:35:53,779 You know how to arrive. 447 00:35:56,114 --> 00:35:56,949 Hey. 448 00:35:58,909 --> 00:36:01,954 W-- well, d-- you know how to hide. [ chuckles ] 449 00:36:04,206 --> 00:36:06,208 Please forgive my entanglements. 450 00:36:09,920 --> 00:36:12,840 So you're using the phone again... [ inaudible ] 451 00:36:14,508 --> 00:36:16,718 If I had done that, you wouldn't have come. 452 00:36:17,135 --> 00:36:19,179 I've been to two of your lectures. 453 00:36:28,021 --> 00:36:29,439 Why Simone Weil? 454 00:36:30,315 --> 00:36:31,316 I like her name. 455 00:36:32,901 --> 00:36:34,361 [ chuckles ] 456 00:36:35,779 --> 00:36:37,948 She would study on her knees. 457 00:36:39,324 --> 00:36:40,868 - On her knees? - Yeah. 458 00:36:40,951 --> 00:36:43,203 She would read for hours on her knees. 459 00:36:43,704 --> 00:36:46,498 She was half insane yet lucid. 460 00:36:48,083 --> 00:36:51,837 She never pretended to escape from her reality. 461 00:36:55,215 --> 00:36:56,967 Why play all the games? 462 00:36:59,803 --> 00:37:03,182 [ speaking in Chinese ] 463 00:37:05,225 --> 00:37:07,769 Ultimately, nothing can be hidden. 464 00:37:10,606 --> 00:37:11,607 Ciao. 465 00:37:14,526 --> 00:37:17,154 [ The Writer ] After waiting so long for her, 466 00:37:17,237 --> 00:37:20,115 no beauty could ever compare to the one I imagined. 467 00:37:30,459 --> 00:37:31,960 - [ Glenda ] Li. - [ speaking in Chinese ] 468 00:37:32,044 --> 00:37:34,505 - He's here. - [ speaking in Chinese ] 469 00:37:44,681 --> 00:37:45,641 Hey. 470 00:37:46,725 --> 00:37:48,810 [ speaking in Chinese ] 471 00:37:48,894 --> 00:37:51,855 [ melancholic music ] 472 00:38:10,624 --> 00:38:12,960 [ speaking in Chinese ] 473 00:38:36,483 --> 00:38:37,359 Hmm. 474 00:38:37,442 --> 00:38:38,944 Li no cook. 475 00:38:39,027 --> 00:38:40,904 - [ speaking in Chinese ] - [ all laughing ] 476 00:38:44,825 --> 00:38:46,702 [ Li ] Come on. [ chuckling ] 477 00:38:47,369 --> 00:38:49,371 [ gentle melancholic music ] 478 00:38:55,586 --> 00:38:57,254 [ The Writer ] From the cold, humid, 479 00:38:57,337 --> 00:38:59,882 and smoke-filled plains of Beijing, 480 00:39:00,507 --> 00:39:03,218 from the time of the cultural revolution, 481 00:39:04,303 --> 00:39:07,347 the child arrived in Puerto Rico at the age of six. 482 00:39:09,850 --> 00:39:13,353 She does not allow herself to remember the... [ unintelligible ] 483 00:39:13,770 --> 00:39:15,731 The unending rice fields, 484 00:39:16,315 --> 00:39:18,734 the taste of boiled potatoes, 485 00:39:18,817 --> 00:39:21,778 the lap of her grandmother, a couple of songs. 486 00:39:21,862 --> 00:39:22,988 [ sighs ] 487 00:39:23,071 --> 00:39:24,406 Notice your lower self 488 00:39:24,489 --> 00:39:26,366 to remember a family broken. 489 00:39:30,037 --> 00:39:31,246 This is for you. 490 00:39:33,790 --> 00:39:35,209 [ Li giggles ] 491 00:39:37,836 --> 00:39:40,214 [ The Writer ] Her father dying from cold and hunger 492 00:39:40,297 --> 00:39:43,383 because he had Russian manuals of geometry, 493 00:39:43,467 --> 00:39:45,844 an old translation of Madame Bovary, 494 00:39:46,345 --> 00:39:48,222 and records of Charlie Parker. 495 00:39:49,306 --> 00:39:51,183 Some cultural revolution. 496 00:39:54,561 --> 00:39:57,523 - Keep going. - [ The Writer panting ] Okay. 497 00:39:59,525 --> 00:40:00,359 All right. 498 00:40:01,985 --> 00:40:02,945 Okay, okay. Stop. 499 00:40:03,695 --> 00:40:06,281 - [ The Writer ] Huh? - [ Li chuckles ] 500 00:40:08,325 --> 00:40:09,284 Okay. 501 00:40:09,993 --> 00:40:12,871 [ dramatic music ] 502 00:40:25,676 --> 00:40:26,635 What do you think? 503 00:40:27,970 --> 00:40:31,014 I, I have no words. 504 00:40:31,098 --> 00:40:34,101 [ laughs ] A writer has no words? 505 00:40:34,184 --> 00:40:35,894 [ both laughing ] 506 00:40:48,115 --> 00:40:50,284 [ exhales sharply ] Hmm. 507 00:40:53,328 --> 00:40:56,081 I craved the luxury of silence. 508 00:40:57,666 --> 00:41:00,085 I lived in noise all my life. 509 00:41:00,669 --> 00:41:03,130 From Beijing to Hong Kong 510 00:41:03,213 --> 00:41:05,048 to Arecibo, 511 00:41:05,132 --> 00:41:06,967 to San Juan. 512 00:41:08,260 --> 00:41:10,137 Noise in the kitchen. 513 00:41:10,220 --> 00:41:12,389 Noise from the traffic. 514 00:41:12,472 --> 00:41:14,391 Noise from family. 515 00:41:15,017 --> 00:41:16,727 It's just noise. 516 00:41:16,810 --> 00:41:19,313 Can't you leave to find your silence? 517 00:41:21,857 --> 00:41:24,318 The world of [ inaudible ] 518 00:41:24,401 --> 00:41:27,571 [ inaudible ] is, um, 519 00:41:27,654 --> 00:41:31,533 - consist of one inhabitant, me. - [ The Writer chuckles ] 520 00:41:33,202 --> 00:41:38,373 But it's, uh, planet in the universe on the Chinese laws. 521 00:41:43,337 --> 00:41:47,216 It's a planet where reading is a weapon of choice. 522 00:41:49,259 --> 00:41:50,177 Hmm. 523 00:41:55,641 --> 00:41:58,977 [ The Writer ] A man and a woman are transformed... 524 00:42:00,312 --> 00:42:03,065 ...when they can hold each other's gaze in silence. 525 00:42:04,233 --> 00:42:05,776 From that moment on, 526 00:42:06,360 --> 00:42:09,196 you build a story from which you can not back away. 527 00:42:11,198 --> 00:42:13,116 I, I must tell you. 528 00:42:14,409 --> 00:42:15,744 I'm a lesbian. 529 00:42:17,246 --> 00:42:18,997 And I must warn you... 530 00:42:22,835 --> 00:42:23,961 ...I'm a dinosaur. 531 00:42:25,712 --> 00:42:27,589 [ both laugh ] 532 00:42:33,011 --> 00:42:34,179 Oh, I have to go. 533 00:42:35,138 --> 00:42:36,139 Hurry. 534 00:42:39,685 --> 00:42:41,687 [ bell tolling ] 535 00:42:47,609 --> 00:42:50,779 [ The Writer ] We are on a journey to where no maps exist. 536 00:42:59,496 --> 00:43:02,749 [ woman ] He's just coming in. Alfaguara, Spain. 537 00:43:05,419 --> 00:43:06,295 Hello. 538 00:43:07,921 --> 00:43:08,755 Yes. 539 00:43:13,093 --> 00:43:14,678 Publication of my books? But... 540 00:43:16,805 --> 00:43:17,681 So, you're not gonna 541 00:43:18,348 --> 00:43:20,851 accept my story because... [ inhales sharply ] 542 00:43:20,934 --> 00:43:23,729 ...of the date of the publication of my books? 543 00:43:23,812 --> 00:43:24,855 No, no, no, no. 544 00:43:25,355 --> 00:43:27,441 Wait, I thought this was in Anthology. I-- 545 00:43:28,192 --> 00:43:30,694 No, this is insane. What about Máximo Noreña? 546 00:43:33,030 --> 00:43:35,490 No, that's-- you gotta be kidding me. 547 00:43:35,574 --> 00:43:37,034 You know what? That's fine. That's fine. 548 00:43:37,117 --> 00:43:38,994 Because I see what it is. Okay? 549 00:43:39,077 --> 00:43:41,246 So, obviously, recognition follow some sort 550 00:43:41,330 --> 00:43:43,081 of whim or, or, or friendships 551 00:43:43,165 --> 00:43:44,750 or something like that. You know what? That's fine. 552 00:43:44,833 --> 00:43:47,461 That's fine. Fuck Spain. Puerto Rico will publish us. 553 00:43:48,462 --> 00:43:51,006 - Viva Puerto Rico. - [ woman 2 ] Sí. Viva. 554 00:43:54,051 --> 00:43:55,177 Eso. 555 00:43:57,095 --> 00:43:59,806 [ suspenseful music ] 556 00:44:24,373 --> 00:44:25,207 [ The Writer ] So... 557 00:44:26,458 --> 00:44:27,835 ...where would you like to go? 558 00:44:33,382 --> 00:44:34,591 Are you deaf? 559 00:44:39,096 --> 00:44:40,097 I'm sorry. 560 00:44:41,557 --> 00:44:43,308 The publishers of... 561 00:44:44,059 --> 00:44:47,437 ...in Anthology just decided not to include me. So... 562 00:44:48,522 --> 00:44:52,526 ...I know it's no excuse, but you think I have thick skin by now. But... 563 00:44:58,866 --> 00:45:00,534 I'm sure they didn't read you. 564 00:45:10,961 --> 00:45:12,713 I, I'm sorry. 565 00:45:13,547 --> 00:45:16,091 I must filled your head with so many questions. 566 00:45:18,552 --> 00:45:21,430 If it's any consolation, you must done the same to me. 567 00:45:25,976 --> 00:45:27,311 [ The Writer ] There are no answers. 568 00:45:36,445 --> 00:45:39,239 So... what would you like to do? 569 00:45:43,118 --> 00:45:44,745 Take me to your house. 570 00:45:46,914 --> 00:45:48,832 Only to promise not to-- 571 00:45:48,916 --> 00:45:51,168 Breach the great wall of China? 572 00:45:51,251 --> 00:45:52,961 [ both chuckles ] 573 00:45:54,004 --> 00:45:56,006 [ engine revving ] 574 00:46:01,011 --> 00:46:03,388 [ gentle music ] 575 00:46:28,956 --> 00:46:30,499 [ The Writer moans softly ] 576 00:46:42,302 --> 00:46:43,971 [ breaths heavily ] 577 00:48:33,205 --> 00:48:34,790 [ Li moans softly ] 578 00:48:39,962 --> 00:48:41,296 [ sighs ] 579 00:48:54,518 --> 00:48:56,353 [ moaning ] 580 00:48:57,521 --> 00:49:00,148 [ both moan ] 581 00:49:29,636 --> 00:49:31,930 [ belt clacking ] 582 00:50:14,932 --> 00:50:16,934 [ gentle music continues ] 583 00:50:21,313 --> 00:50:23,565 [ moaning ] 584 00:51:00,811 --> 00:51:03,063 [ The Writer ] The battle to find an answer had ended. 585 00:51:03,772 --> 00:51:06,483 We went in blind, not seeing the abyss before us. 586 00:51:06,942 --> 00:51:09,486 A lesbian had fallen in love with the man 587 00:51:09,570 --> 00:51:10,737 and he had responded. 588 00:51:11,822 --> 00:51:13,365 But she wrote the rules. 589 00:51:15,909 --> 00:51:17,661 [ "Haze" by Calma Carmona ] 590 00:51:21,540 --> 00:51:22,374 [ shutter clicks ] 591 00:51:22,457 --> 00:51:23,584 [ Li laughs ] 592 00:51:28,255 --> 00:51:29,089 Oh, wait. 593 00:51:31,675 --> 00:51:32,509 Okay. 594 00:51:59,786 --> 00:52:02,206 [ The Writer ] A Chinese girl was creating a work of art 595 00:52:02,289 --> 00:52:04,499 with materials from a local pharmacy. 596 00:52:05,751 --> 00:52:08,587 This work was born from love and rage. 597 00:52:15,886 --> 00:52:18,055 This one. This one. This one. This one. Okay. 598 00:52:18,138 --> 00:52:20,766 We're gonna put it high and it's gonna be okay. 599 00:52:26,522 --> 00:52:27,606 I found it. 600 00:52:28,941 --> 00:52:29,775 Here. 601 00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:31,276 Come. 602 00:52:32,819 --> 00:52:35,072 Here. [ giggling ] 603 00:52:36,865 --> 00:52:37,699 Here. 604 00:52:39,826 --> 00:52:40,994 Okay. Okay, okay. 605 00:52:45,832 --> 00:52:46,750 Save me. 606 00:53:02,933 --> 00:53:04,768 Here, take my photo. 607 00:53:08,897 --> 00:53:09,773 [ shutter clicks ] 608 00:53:15,654 --> 00:53:17,698 [ police siren wails ] 609 00:53:20,534 --> 00:53:22,619 [ upbeat music in Spanish ] 610 00:53:38,468 --> 00:53:39,469 [ moaning ] 611 00:53:49,438 --> 00:53:51,899 [ both giggling ] 612 00:54:18,217 --> 00:54:19,718 [ inaudible ] 613 00:55:14,064 --> 00:55:14,940 You okay? 614 00:55:16,149 --> 00:55:17,025 Hmm? 615 00:55:21,071 --> 00:55:21,989 [ sighs ] 616 00:55:27,160 --> 00:55:28,120 How about now? 617 00:55:32,875 --> 00:55:34,751 - [ chuckles ] - You like it? 618 00:55:36,128 --> 00:55:38,255 Oh, you might get this too. 619 00:55:41,925 --> 00:55:42,968 [ exclaims ] 620 00:55:46,138 --> 00:55:47,973 Oh! [ gasps ] 621 00:55:48,807 --> 00:55:52,311 Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. [ giggles ] 622 00:55:52,394 --> 00:55:54,062 Thank you. [ giggles ] 623 00:55:57,357 --> 00:56:00,485 [ sighs ] Anything for my Li Chao. 624 00:56:13,248 --> 00:56:15,417 Diego. Die-- [ laughs ] 625 00:56:15,501 --> 00:56:18,962 I got, I got a lot to tell you, but so far so good. 626 00:56:19,796 --> 00:56:22,007 Yeah, I know, I can't right now, but let me call you back tonight. Okay? 627 00:56:22,090 --> 00:56:24,009 Okay. God bless. 628 00:56:27,930 --> 00:56:28,764 [ grunts ] 629 00:56:32,100 --> 00:56:33,894 [ speaking in Spanish ] 630 00:56:34,728 --> 00:56:36,980 I can't even get into my own bookshelves anymore 631 00:56:37,064 --> 00:56:40,817 because I have put my stuff in there. This is pretty crazy. 632 00:56:42,319 --> 00:56:43,862 Li Chao. Li Chao. 633 00:56:43,946 --> 00:56:46,031 [ laughs ] This is crazy. 634 00:56:47,032 --> 00:56:48,033 Oh, my gosh. 635 00:56:48,116 --> 00:56:50,452 [ light suspenseful music ] 636 00:56:59,586 --> 00:57:00,754 [ The Writer ] They like it. 637 00:57:04,424 --> 00:57:05,759 [ chuckles ] 638 00:57:12,766 --> 00:57:15,936 [ gentle music ] 639 00:57:56,894 --> 00:57:59,605 [ chattering in Chinese ] 640 00:58:10,449 --> 00:58:12,492 Wait. My uncle is here. 641 00:58:13,535 --> 00:58:14,369 Okay. 642 00:58:19,833 --> 00:58:21,710 [ speaking in Chinese ] 643 00:58:21,793 --> 00:58:24,505 This is Wen Da, my great-uncle. 644 00:58:24,588 --> 00:58:27,090 - [ speaking in Chinese ] - This is my cousin Bai. 645 00:58:27,174 --> 00:58:30,677 [ speaking in Chinese ] 646 00:58:58,789 --> 00:59:00,165 Do you like Chinese tea? 647 00:59:00,749 --> 00:59:03,043 - Yes. Yes. - Chinese tea. 648 00:59:03,126 --> 00:59:07,798 [ speaking in Chinese ] 649 00:59:09,049 --> 00:59:13,136 If you drink the Chinese tea every day, you'll live long and be healthy. 650 00:59:14,137 --> 00:59:15,848 [ speaking in Chinese ] 651 00:59:49,381 --> 00:59:51,717 - What happened? - Oh. [ chuckles ] 652 00:59:51,800 --> 00:59:54,595 Please, forgive Bai. He's always been like this. 653 00:59:57,264 --> 01:00:00,809 Wen Da was a notary in China. He studied arts. 654 01:00:00,893 --> 01:00:02,686 These are all his paintings. 655 01:00:03,520 --> 01:00:04,646 Beautiful. Tell him. 656 01:00:04,730 --> 01:00:08,066 [ speaking in Chinese ] 657 01:00:08,150 --> 01:00:09,943 Uh, do you wanna have a look? 658 01:00:14,114 --> 01:00:15,032 [ Wen Da chuckles ] 659 01:00:15,991 --> 01:00:17,784 [ speaking in Chinese ] 660 01:00:23,707 --> 01:00:26,168 This is what were used for calligraphy. 661 01:00:26,251 --> 01:00:27,252 Oh. 662 01:00:29,546 --> 01:00:32,049 [ speaking in Chinese ] 663 01:00:33,050 --> 01:00:35,344 - This is Zen. - Oh, Zen. 664 01:00:35,928 --> 01:00:38,180 - I have read the, the Tao. - Tao. 665 01:00:38,263 --> 01:00:43,852 [ speaking in Chinese ] 666 01:00:55,572 --> 01:01:00,077 Uh, Tao is the divine way of the universe. 667 01:01:02,329 --> 01:01:04,915 [ The Writer ] Okay, uh, why are you in Puerto Rico? 668 01:01:04,998 --> 01:01:06,917 - How, how--? - He came with our group. 669 01:01:07,251 --> 01:01:09,336 Um, he's not really my great-uncle, 670 01:01:09,419 --> 01:01:12,297 - but I love him all the same. - [ Li and Wen Da giggles ] 671 01:01:12,381 --> 01:01:15,342 He was a cook for our restaurant for many years. 672 01:01:15,759 --> 01:01:17,094 But he's different from the others. 673 01:01:17,177 --> 01:01:18,720 D-- do you see, he have... [ giggles ] 674 01:01:18,804 --> 01:01:20,889 ...books and he's a painter. 675 01:01:20,973 --> 01:01:22,933 Yes, no, you, you are an artist. 676 01:01:23,016 --> 01:01:25,018 - [ speaking in Chinese ] - [ Li chuckles ] 677 01:01:25,936 --> 01:01:27,563 So, do you come to see him often? 678 01:01:28,313 --> 01:01:29,857 As often as I can. 679 01:01:31,191 --> 01:01:33,527 He's the only one I consider family. 680 01:01:34,111 --> 01:01:38,031 What about the other guy? The, um... [ clicks tongue ] uh, um, your cousin, Bai? 681 01:01:40,117 --> 01:01:41,201 He doesn't count. 682 01:01:43,412 --> 01:01:44,538 Something happened? 683 01:01:44,621 --> 01:01:46,123 [ snickers ] 684 01:01:46,206 --> 01:01:48,750 A lot of things happened, but it doesn't matter anymore. 685 01:01:48,834 --> 01:01:52,004 [ speaking in Chinese ] 686 01:02:04,224 --> 01:02:05,601 Nice to meet you. Thank you. 687 01:02:06,143 --> 01:02:07,394 Come back. 688 01:02:08,437 --> 01:02:09,354 Oh. 689 01:02:13,483 --> 01:02:14,401 Li Chao... 690 01:02:15,986 --> 01:02:16,945 ...never love. 691 01:02:28,832 --> 01:02:30,209 [ man shouting in the distance ] 692 01:02:41,261 --> 01:02:43,347 Why didn't you translate all that? 693 01:02:45,599 --> 01:02:46,850 Too complicated. 694 01:02:53,398 --> 01:02:55,400 [ romantic music ] 695 01:03:04,243 --> 01:03:05,077 [ The Writer ] Hmm. 696 01:03:15,128 --> 01:03:15,963 [ The Writer grunts ] 697 01:03:18,298 --> 01:03:19,883 [ The Writer moaning ] 698 01:03:29,852 --> 01:03:30,936 [ moaning continues ] 699 01:03:37,818 --> 01:03:38,777 [ Li exclaims ] 700 01:03:40,904 --> 01:03:44,366 [ The Writer ] I did not understand why she needed me to give myself to her. 701 01:03:45,242 --> 01:03:47,578 Why she was so insistent in possessing me. 702 01:03:50,998 --> 01:03:53,166 As the future did not matter. 703 01:03:54,751 --> 01:03:57,129 But I could feel the birth of terror. 704 01:03:58,213 --> 01:04:00,632 I felt on the edge of the abyss. 705 01:04:05,846 --> 01:04:07,055 Are you ever gonna let me? 706 01:04:10,601 --> 01:04:11,476 Let you what? 707 01:04:21,278 --> 01:04:22,154 Let you what? 708 01:04:23,697 --> 01:04:25,699 To make love completely. 709 01:04:34,082 --> 01:04:34,917 [ sighs ] 710 01:04:49,932 --> 01:04:52,559 [ The Writer ] I could not continue to stare at the wall of China 711 01:04:52,643 --> 01:04:54,520 and not know why I couldn't enter. 712 01:04:55,437 --> 01:04:58,649 Why was I so obsessed with a woman who kept herself from men? 713 01:04:59,942 --> 01:05:00,943 I love you, Li. 714 01:05:03,779 --> 01:05:05,155 It's natural for me to want to. 715 01:05:07,115 --> 01:05:08,450 It's important for me. 716 01:05:11,078 --> 01:05:11,954 Yes. 717 01:05:14,915 --> 01:05:15,791 So then why not? 718 01:05:19,044 --> 01:05:21,129 We do everything else and you seem to like it. 719 01:05:23,590 --> 01:05:25,968 [ Li ] There are things that are difficult. 720 01:05:27,511 --> 01:05:28,345 Okay. 721 01:05:29,388 --> 01:05:30,264 Explain. 722 01:05:32,474 --> 01:05:33,392 [ Li ] I can't. 723 01:05:34,309 --> 01:05:35,811 Maybe it's a Chinese thing. 724 01:05:36,687 --> 01:05:37,771 But you trust me. 725 01:05:39,189 --> 01:05:41,024 I mean, it's different between us, no? 726 01:05:42,192 --> 01:05:43,068 [ Li ] I know. 727 01:05:51,368 --> 01:05:52,828 And you started this game, you... 728 01:05:55,038 --> 01:05:55,956 ...could stop. 729 01:05:57,416 --> 01:05:58,250 Well, I didn't. 730 01:06:08,802 --> 01:06:09,845 You prefer women? 731 01:06:10,888 --> 01:06:11,722 Is that it? 732 01:06:14,391 --> 01:06:15,267 That's... 733 01:06:16,602 --> 01:06:18,478 That's not very clear anymore... 734 01:06:20,522 --> 01:06:21,982 ...since I've been with you. 735 01:06:23,192 --> 01:06:24,651 Let's think about it, Li Chao. 736 01:06:27,112 --> 01:06:28,405 What could happen? 737 01:06:32,451 --> 01:06:33,577 Everything. 738 01:06:35,746 --> 01:06:38,165 [ suspenseful music ] 739 01:06:41,585 --> 01:06:43,712 [ phone ringing ] 740 01:06:43,795 --> 01:06:44,963 [ phone beeps ] 741 01:06:45,047 --> 01:06:46,465 [ Li ] I can't see you for a while. 742 01:06:47,132 --> 01:06:49,635 I'm not well. I'll let you know when I'm better. 743 01:06:49,718 --> 01:06:50,677 [ phone beeps ] 744 01:06:52,971 --> 01:06:55,098 [ eerie music ] 745 01:07:10,572 --> 01:07:13,325 [ melancholic music ] 746 01:07:13,408 --> 01:07:16,537 [ The Writer ] I was driven by the vague hope of finding a way out 747 01:07:16,620 --> 01:07:19,373 into another lifetime in another world. 748 01:07:21,458 --> 01:07:25,337 I, like the island, I'm obsessed with salvation and the escape. 749 01:07:28,632 --> 01:07:30,843 I felt the pain between these four walls 750 01:07:30,926 --> 01:07:33,053 accumulated throughout the years. 751 01:07:33,554 --> 01:07:35,055 I feel it's eternity. 752 01:07:35,472 --> 01:07:37,891 When I die, my pain will live on here. 753 01:07:37,975 --> 01:07:41,019 Who knows for how long? [ sighs ] 754 01:07:41,478 --> 01:07:43,689 [ skateboard rolling ] 755 01:07:45,607 --> 01:07:46,483 [ bell dings ] 756 01:07:51,989 --> 01:07:52,823 [ sniffs ] 757 01:07:54,324 --> 01:07:55,242 [ clears throat ] 758 01:07:55,325 --> 01:07:56,410 [ door opens ] 759 01:08:04,626 --> 01:08:08,046 [ Li ] I have more chances of saving myself in hell than in heaven. 760 01:08:09,631 --> 01:08:11,383 Come to the Cinema Paradise 761 01:08:11,466 --> 01:08:13,760 and find me in the image making machine. 762 01:08:25,689 --> 01:08:27,774 [ melancholic music continues ] 763 01:08:47,878 --> 01:08:50,047 [ birds flapping wings ] 764 01:08:54,218 --> 01:08:55,219 Li Chao? 765 01:09:01,308 --> 01:09:02,226 Hello? 766 01:09:10,317 --> 01:09:12,194 Image making machines. 767 01:09:13,153 --> 01:09:14,988 [ unintelligible ] 768 01:09:20,118 --> 01:09:22,913 Come on! I'm here. Where are you? 769 01:09:33,298 --> 01:09:35,467 [ giggling ] 770 01:09:37,135 --> 01:09:40,222 I'm not getting anything easy. 771 01:09:42,975 --> 01:09:45,477 THE THIRD "THREE IN ONE" DO NOT BE LATE 772 01:09:45,561 --> 01:09:47,771 [ thunder rumbling ] 773 01:09:49,648 --> 01:09:51,775 [ rain pattering ] 774 01:09:59,867 --> 01:10:01,910 [ light suspenseful music ] 775 01:10:09,626 --> 01:10:10,711 Excuse me. 776 01:10:26,268 --> 01:10:27,394 YOU DID NOT COME 777 01:10:27,477 --> 01:10:28,395 What-- 778 01:10:28,478 --> 01:10:29,688 [ unintelligible ] 779 01:10:30,022 --> 01:10:31,023 What? 780 01:10:32,274 --> 01:10:35,903 She f-- Shit! I hate these fucking games. 781 01:10:36,320 --> 01:10:37,529 [ grunts ] 782 01:10:39,031 --> 01:10:39,990 Hola, Alfredo. 783 01:10:40,365 --> 01:10:41,533 Have you seen a Chinese girl? 784 01:10:41,617 --> 01:10:42,659 A Chinese girl? 785 01:10:43,285 --> 01:10:45,454 - Yes, Chinese girl. - Uh... 786 01:10:45,537 --> 01:10:47,080 The girlfriend of Carmencita? 787 01:10:47,831 --> 01:10:51,084 - Girlfriend? - Yes, the Chinese friend of Carmen Lindo? 788 01:10:51,168 --> 01:10:52,586 Yes, that one. 789 01:10:52,669 --> 01:10:54,713 She was here, but she left. 790 01:10:54,796 --> 01:10:56,173 Do you know where she went? 791 01:10:58,759 --> 01:11:02,012 By the way, do you know when Carmen come back from California? 792 01:11:05,807 --> 01:11:08,435 [ The Writer ] I now stand looking into the abyss 793 01:11:08,519 --> 01:11:10,437 of what she has not told me. 794 01:11:12,064 --> 01:11:13,357 Silence. 795 01:11:14,566 --> 01:11:16,360 Lies or truth. 796 01:11:18,403 --> 01:11:19,947 [ tires screeching ] 797 01:11:20,030 --> 01:11:22,282 [ car honking ] 798 01:11:25,994 --> 01:11:28,497 [ panting ] 799 01:11:28,580 --> 01:11:29,581 Oh, God. 800 01:11:32,709 --> 01:11:34,378 [ speaking in Spanish ] 801 01:11:36,588 --> 01:11:38,549 [ melancholic music ] 802 01:12:51,371 --> 01:12:53,373 [ eerie music ] 803 01:13:02,966 --> 01:13:05,260 [ The Writer ] Hot chocolate and cheese. 804 01:13:06,803 --> 01:13:09,306 My mother used to give us during hurricanes. 805 01:13:11,725 --> 01:13:15,103 I don't dare ask if she had been Carmen Lindo's lover. 806 01:13:18,106 --> 01:13:20,817 I hoped life would give us a chance to be reborn. 807 01:13:35,040 --> 01:13:38,043 [ "W.I.W.Y.G. 2.0" by Calma Carmona ] 808 01:14:54,453 --> 01:14:56,496 [ laughing ] 809 01:14:57,915 --> 01:14:59,082 No. 810 01:15:00,250 --> 01:15:02,211 [ Li giggling ] 811 01:15:08,550 --> 01:15:09,384 Hey. 812 01:15:09,468 --> 01:15:11,470 [ giggling continues ] 813 01:15:28,904 --> 01:15:31,198 [ both screaming ] 814 01:15:34,535 --> 01:15:36,745 [ The Writer ] Look at this. [ grunting ] 815 01:15:37,329 --> 01:15:39,331 [ classical music ] 816 01:15:40,374 --> 01:15:41,375 [ Li ] Oh! 817 01:15:52,636 --> 01:15:53,720 [ Li breathing heavily ] 818 01:16:03,605 --> 01:16:05,732 [ both moaning ] 819 01:16:25,294 --> 01:16:27,296 [ both moaning ] 820 01:16:55,657 --> 01:16:57,659 [ moaning continues ] 821 01:17:56,844 --> 01:17:59,930 [ both moan loudly ] 822 01:18:32,588 --> 01:18:34,590 [ birds chirping ] 823 01:18:34,673 --> 01:18:36,133 [ footsteps receding ] 824 01:18:47,769 --> 01:18:49,313 Is this how you say goodbye? 825 01:18:53,358 --> 01:18:55,068 [ sobbing ] No, no. 826 01:18:59,531 --> 01:19:00,574 [ sniffles ] 827 01:19:21,553 --> 01:19:24,014 What did your cousin Bai do to you? 828 01:19:41,865 --> 01:19:42,741 He raped me. 829 01:19:50,999 --> 01:19:51,875 When? 830 01:19:53,961 --> 01:19:55,087 When I was 13. 831 01:19:56,129 --> 01:19:57,631 And, when I was 14. 832 01:19:58,924 --> 01:20:00,384 And, when I was 15. 833 01:20:04,388 --> 01:20:08,392 [ sobs ] He would come to my room after I fall asleep. 834 01:20:09,893 --> 01:20:10,811 [ sighs ] 835 01:20:11,478 --> 01:20:12,855 I didn't know what he was doing. 836 01:20:12,938 --> 01:20:15,023 I didn't want to know what he was doing. 837 01:20:17,276 --> 01:20:18,986 I knew it was something terrible. 838 01:20:21,196 --> 01:20:22,197 I couldn't tell Mother. 839 01:20:23,073 --> 01:20:24,825 [ inhales sharply ] 840 01:20:24,908 --> 01:20:26,410 I tried to convince myself 841 01:20:26,493 --> 01:20:28,662 that it was something to do with love. 842 01:20:28,996 --> 01:20:31,039 Like in Hong Kong pictures. 843 01:20:37,796 --> 01:20:39,006 When I was 15... 844 01:20:40,841 --> 01:20:42,342 ...I got pregnant. 845 01:20:47,973 --> 01:20:51,685 The owner's wife gave me some special herbs from Hong Kong. 846 01:20:52,060 --> 01:20:56,023 They locked me up in a room on the rooftop for ten days. 847 01:20:59,109 --> 01:21:01,570 Until between fevers, and spasms, 848 01:21:01,653 --> 01:21:04,114 and hemorrhage. 849 01:21:08,744 --> 01:21:10,245 I aborted my baby. 850 01:21:21,965 --> 01:21:26,094 They sent Bai to a restaurant in San Germán. 851 01:21:27,804 --> 01:21:29,848 And I didn't see him for years. 852 01:21:33,268 --> 01:21:37,272 I was surrounded by rumor and dirt. 853 01:21:41,985 --> 01:21:43,654 [ sobs ] My mother died... 854 01:21:45,239 --> 01:21:46,990 ...thinking I had disgraced her. 855 01:21:52,037 --> 01:21:54,248 Convinced that I would never be happy again. 856 01:22:02,673 --> 01:22:03,715 [ sobs ] 857 01:22:15,352 --> 01:22:17,646 Even you can't give me what Bai took. 858 01:22:19,606 --> 01:22:20,774 That's why I'm going. 859 01:22:23,318 --> 01:22:27,906 I wanted you to know that I was willing to go to places that I never thought I could. 860 01:22:33,829 --> 01:22:37,249 I needed to know Bai was not in you. 861 01:22:38,500 --> 01:22:39,418 Was he? 862 01:22:42,838 --> 01:22:44,047 Was he, Li? 863 01:22:46,216 --> 01:22:47,176 No. 864 01:22:49,011 --> 01:22:50,262 [ sobbingly ] No. 865 01:22:56,226 --> 01:22:57,060 [ sniffles ] 866 01:23:01,607 --> 01:23:04,067 You don't deserve my problems. 867 01:23:06,653 --> 01:23:08,447 Your book dazzled me. 868 01:23:08,530 --> 01:23:10,741 And when I saw you, I liked you. 869 01:23:10,824 --> 01:23:14,578 You can't imagine how much I enjoyed fantasizing with a man. 870 01:23:14,661 --> 01:23:16,872 I had only been loved with women before. 871 01:23:19,791 --> 01:23:23,629 I never thought we could meet, so it happened. I... 872 01:23:24,546 --> 01:23:25,631 I wasn't prepared. 873 01:23:28,800 --> 01:23:30,219 I was very alone. 874 01:23:33,388 --> 01:23:35,349 I wish something different could happen. 875 01:23:41,021 --> 01:23:43,398 I wish I could be like everyone else again. 876 01:23:49,488 --> 01:23:52,616 I don't know. The love I feel for you is a form of use. 877 01:23:52,699 --> 01:23:54,660 That's also why I'm leaving. 878 01:23:58,038 --> 01:24:01,834 Please, don't try to understand or forgive me. 879 01:24:04,044 --> 01:24:05,420 [ sobs ] 880 01:24:06,797 --> 01:24:10,050 I can't stay. Everything will be worse. 881 01:24:10,133 --> 01:24:11,552 Is it Carmencita? 882 01:24:12,719 --> 01:24:13,679 What? 883 01:24:14,263 --> 01:24:15,222 Carmen Lindo. 884 01:24:16,431 --> 01:24:17,474 College professor. 885 01:24:18,809 --> 01:24:19,810 She knows you. 886 01:24:21,270 --> 01:24:22,354 So, you've seen her. 887 01:24:23,313 --> 01:24:24,773 I have spoken to her. 888 01:24:24,857 --> 01:24:26,400 She just came back. 889 01:24:27,734 --> 01:24:29,278 So, that's why you are leaving me. 890 01:24:29,361 --> 01:24:30,696 No. 891 01:24:32,197 --> 01:24:34,032 So, it's just a coincidence then? 892 01:24:34,116 --> 01:24:36,660 No. Like I told you in the beginning. 893 01:24:36,743 --> 01:24:38,579 I was a lesbian. 894 01:24:38,662 --> 01:24:40,622 I share a history with her, like I share with you. 895 01:24:40,706 --> 01:24:41,832 Li and Lindo. 896 01:24:42,666 --> 01:24:44,334 - Like a joke. - [ clicks tongue ] 897 01:24:44,418 --> 01:24:46,378 - Don't make fun of her. - [ The Writer snickers ] 898 01:24:46,461 --> 01:24:47,588 [ Li ] I don't care what do you think. 899 01:24:47,671 --> 01:24:49,423 She's my teacher and she helped me. 900 01:24:49,506 --> 01:24:52,968 - Now, you know my story. - I don't know your whole story. 901 01:24:53,051 --> 01:24:54,887 And what you've told me is too late. 902 01:24:54,970 --> 01:24:58,265 I don't think you prefer that I didn't come for the first meeting. 903 01:24:58,765 --> 01:25:00,767 I wasn't substituting you for her. 904 01:25:01,643 --> 01:25:04,521 [ sighs ] And why are you running away 905 01:25:04,605 --> 01:25:06,356 after what happened last night? 906 01:25:08,817 --> 01:25:10,861 Because I don't think I can live with you. 907 01:25:11,820 --> 01:25:13,238 Why not, Li Chao? 908 01:25:14,823 --> 01:25:15,741 Why not? 909 01:25:16,533 --> 01:25:18,035 Because I told you. 910 01:25:18,952 --> 01:25:21,538 Bai raped me and I didn't do anything. 911 01:25:22,080 --> 01:25:24,708 I didn't protest, I didn't call out. 912 01:25:25,542 --> 01:25:27,503 Because I felt that I was in love with that dog. 913 01:25:27,586 --> 01:25:29,588 [ melancholic music ] 914 01:25:29,671 --> 01:25:32,591 And because after I couldn't be with another man, I... 915 01:25:39,640 --> 01:25:40,641 B-- 916 01:25:42,309 --> 01:25:43,227 Because, I... 917 01:25:44,436 --> 01:25:45,896 ...I don't know how to love. 918 01:25:45,979 --> 01:25:47,898 [ sobs ] I never felt it. 919 01:25:49,066 --> 01:25:53,445 Not when I was six, not when I was 13, and not when I was 15. 920 01:25:56,698 --> 01:25:59,368 [ sobbing continues ] 921 01:25:59,451 --> 01:26:02,621 Not with Carmen, maybe, maybe with you. 922 01:26:31,775 --> 01:26:32,860 Li Chao? 923 01:26:32,943 --> 01:26:34,444 [ speaking in Chinese ] Li gone. 924 01:26:35,028 --> 01:26:36,530 You no come back. [ speaking in Chinese ] 925 01:26:36,613 --> 01:26:37,990 Li big trouble with the boss. 926 01:26:38,073 --> 01:26:39,241 Why? What happened? 927 01:26:39,324 --> 01:26:40,993 Li go up to roof. Bang on Bai door. 928 01:26:41,076 --> 01:26:43,787 [ speaking in Chinese ] Cannot get up. 929 01:26:44,371 --> 01:26:48,667 Big fight. We go up hearing Bai, people are awake. 930 01:26:48,750 --> 01:26:50,294 Li took her bag and run. 931 01:26:52,546 --> 01:26:55,257 [ speaking in Chinese ] 932 01:26:55,340 --> 01:26:56,175 Li love you. 933 01:26:57,759 --> 01:26:58,969 [ speaking in Chinese ] 934 01:27:00,470 --> 01:27:01,305 [ speaking in Chinese ] 935 01:27:01,388 --> 01:27:03,098 [ traffic humming ] 936 01:27:24,912 --> 01:27:25,829 Li gone. 937 01:27:27,581 --> 01:27:28,749 [ speaking in Chinese ] 938 01:27:29,708 --> 01:27:30,792 That's my fault. 939 01:27:33,879 --> 01:27:34,922 She disappeared. 940 01:27:36,715 --> 01:27:38,050 I'm sorry. Uh... 941 01:27:39,384 --> 01:27:40,219 But, I love her. 942 01:27:43,347 --> 01:27:45,224 I love her art... 943 01:27:46,517 --> 01:27:47,476 ...her soul... 944 01:27:48,894 --> 01:27:49,937 ...but her art... 945 01:27:51,313 --> 01:27:53,398 She's-- you, you... 946 01:27:54,900 --> 01:27:55,984 You taught her well. 947 01:27:59,655 --> 01:28:00,739 She's gifted. 948 01:28:01,949 --> 01:28:04,952 Gifted. [ speaks in Chinese ] 949 01:28:05,035 --> 01:28:07,538 [ speaks in Chinese ] 950 01:28:20,759 --> 01:28:21,802 [ Wen sighs ] 951 01:28:23,011 --> 01:28:23,887 Li Chao. 952 01:28:26,306 --> 01:28:28,642 More... [ speaks in Chinese ] than me. 953 01:28:28,725 --> 01:28:30,018 No. 954 01:28:32,062 --> 01:28:33,355 I... [ chuckles ] 955 01:28:35,148 --> 01:28:37,484 She's gifted. Yes. [ speaks in Chinese ] 956 01:28:39,236 --> 01:28:42,364 I, I gave her this paper. 957 01:28:43,740 --> 01:28:44,908 I gave her. 958 01:28:45,534 --> 01:28:50,706 I wanted to send her to a great art school. 959 01:28:52,958 --> 01:28:53,876 But, I couldn't. 960 01:28:59,715 --> 01:29:01,133 [ speaking in Chinese ] 961 01:29:12,144 --> 01:29:13,437 Oh, yeah. Yes. 962 01:29:18,525 --> 01:29:19,776 Wait, there's a message. 963 01:29:23,030 --> 01:29:24,990 She's trying to erase... 964 01:29:25,866 --> 01:29:27,201 ...the name of Bai. 965 01:29:34,499 --> 01:29:38,212 She's trying to erase the name... of Carmen. 966 01:29:40,797 --> 01:29:43,342 This art is a testimony... 967 01:29:44,384 --> 01:29:45,886 ...to her silences. 968 01:29:47,888 --> 01:29:49,473 This is her attempt to... 969 01:29:52,601 --> 01:29:53,519 ...to battle... 970 01:29:55,312 --> 01:29:56,939 ...to, to exorcise... 971 01:29:58,273 --> 01:29:59,358 ...her pain. 972 01:30:01,485 --> 01:30:04,071 You can see her anger in her pen. 973 01:30:05,697 --> 01:30:06,823 [ Wen Da exhales sharply ] 974 01:30:11,453 --> 01:30:14,081 [ speaking in Chinese ] 975 01:30:16,750 --> 01:30:18,085 She didn't leave me. 976 01:30:20,212 --> 01:30:21,672 She just lost her war. 977 01:30:21,755 --> 01:30:24,341 [ melancholic music ] 978 01:30:50,784 --> 01:30:54,037 [ The Writer ] Her drawing was her attempt to say what she already knew. 979 01:30:55,038 --> 01:30:58,458 Li had given herself knowing she couldn't ever be with me. 980 01:30:59,585 --> 01:31:01,545 That moment was her final goodbye. 981 01:31:02,921 --> 01:31:06,633 She would not come to see me and tell me what I now know. 982 01:31:08,177 --> 01:31:10,762 One day, I will hear from her. 983 01:31:11,763 --> 01:31:13,223 When we mean nothing to each other. 984 01:31:23,150 --> 01:31:24,359 Li's not here, okay? 985 01:31:25,402 --> 01:31:26,528 I didn't come to see her. 986 01:31:26,612 --> 01:31:28,238 I need to talk to you. 987 01:31:28,614 --> 01:31:29,573 You're Glenda, right? 988 01:31:31,033 --> 01:31:32,910 - Yeah. - Li told me about you. 989 01:31:34,286 --> 01:31:37,748 Just a few minutes, okay? Look, I need answers. 990 01:31:37,831 --> 01:31:40,501 Go to the park by the lagoon. I'll be there in ten minutes. 991 01:31:42,878 --> 01:31:43,962 [ doorbell chimes ] 992 01:31:46,256 --> 01:31:48,509 [ Glenda ] I was aware of you before you guys started. 993 01:31:48,592 --> 01:31:50,010 What do you mean before we started? 994 01:31:50,886 --> 01:31:52,387 [ Glenda ] Well, Li told me everything. 995 01:31:52,471 --> 01:31:54,097 We're friends, you know. 996 01:31:54,181 --> 01:31:56,725 The thing about the notes, and how you met, 997 01:31:56,808 --> 01:31:58,769 and how she hid to watch you. 998 01:31:58,852 --> 01:32:00,812 Yeah, of course. She was watching me. 999 01:32:00,896 --> 01:32:03,106 Yeah. She's crazy. 1000 01:32:03,690 --> 01:32:05,359 She swallowed one of your sad books 1001 01:32:05,442 --> 01:32:07,861 and stared at your pictures for days. 1002 01:32:08,445 --> 01:32:09,821 When you'd come in... 1003 01:32:10,656 --> 01:32:11,865 ...at the restaurant, 1004 01:32:11,949 --> 01:32:15,369 I'd run upstairs and tell her. 1005 01:32:15,869 --> 01:32:17,538 Were you two ever...? 1006 01:32:18,121 --> 01:32:21,250 Lovers? No. We're just friends. 1007 01:32:22,167 --> 01:32:23,544 I knew she followed you. 1008 01:32:24,461 --> 01:32:26,463 I went her many times. 1009 01:32:26,547 --> 01:32:29,675 Spying on your reactions, so as to confuse you. 1010 01:32:29,758 --> 01:32:31,593 She has a new little friend. 1011 01:32:31,677 --> 01:32:33,470 - The skateboard. - Hmm. 1012 01:32:33,554 --> 01:32:35,347 Lee could not do this alone. 1013 01:32:35,430 --> 01:32:36,390 So... 1014 01:32:38,809 --> 01:32:40,435 You never saw us. It-- 1015 01:32:41,228 --> 01:32:42,479 It's kind of funny. 1016 01:32:42,563 --> 01:32:45,023 I kept telling her either leave him alone 1017 01:32:45,107 --> 01:32:47,276 or just say "Hi." 1018 01:32:48,819 --> 01:32:50,070 You are very patient. 1019 01:32:52,948 --> 01:32:54,783 And you know the rest of the story. 1020 01:32:54,867 --> 01:32:55,784 Not everything. 1021 01:32:57,077 --> 01:33:01,540 Well, all I can say is that Li loves you and was very happy with you. 1022 01:33:02,124 --> 01:33:03,584 [ sighs ] 1023 01:33:06,670 --> 01:33:07,713 Then, why would... 1024 01:33:09,256 --> 01:33:10,841 Why would she disappear? 1025 01:33:10,924 --> 01:33:15,637 Because the woman she was with before you came back. 1026 01:33:16,889 --> 01:33:17,890 Carmen? 1027 01:33:19,516 --> 01:33:22,019 You mean to tell me that it's that simple, that... 1028 01:33:24,104 --> 01:33:25,731 ...Li just forgot about everything 1029 01:33:25,814 --> 01:33:27,983 that happened between us in the blink of an eye? 1030 01:33:29,401 --> 01:33:31,737 The view are strange, she's even stranger. 1031 01:33:31,820 --> 01:33:33,488 But, why Carmen now? 1032 01:33:33,572 --> 01:33:35,657 Wasn't she a, a thing of her past? 1033 01:33:35,741 --> 01:33:36,700 Yeah. 1034 01:33:38,744 --> 01:33:40,871 Look, they know each other from years ago. 1035 01:33:40,954 --> 01:33:42,831 When Lee started university, 1036 01:33:43,415 --> 01:33:44,833 Carmen helped her, 1037 01:33:45,375 --> 01:33:47,586 even paid her classes. 1038 01:33:48,504 --> 01:33:49,713 Lee has nothing, you know. 1039 01:33:49,796 --> 01:33:52,799 So you're saying Li owes her, 1040 01:33:52,883 --> 01:33:55,052 though she feels like she has to show her gratitude. 1041 01:33:56,136 --> 01:33:57,846 It's not that simple. You know that. 1042 01:33:57,930 --> 01:34:00,974 Then why, why would she do this? 1043 01:34:04,228 --> 01:34:05,521 She's to escape. 1044 01:34:08,106 --> 01:34:09,942 She could escape with me. 1045 01:34:10,025 --> 01:34:11,109 [ chuckles ] 1046 01:34:12,611 --> 01:34:14,154 You don't need to escape. 1047 01:34:14,238 --> 01:34:16,240 [ mysterious suspenseful music ] 1048 01:34:22,704 --> 01:34:23,789 [ engine turns off ] 1049 01:34:42,891 --> 01:34:44,810 Good afternoon, colleague. 1050 01:34:44,893 --> 01:34:48,063 Looks like you two are corralling to come into Carmencita's, huh? 1051 01:34:48,146 --> 01:34:49,106 Kind of. 1052 01:34:50,524 --> 01:34:53,652 [ Máximo ] Huh. She called me 20 times. 1053 01:34:53,735 --> 01:34:57,364 Drop everything for some visiting Spanish writer. 1054 01:34:57,948 --> 01:34:59,783 Humph. I guess she needed to provide 1055 01:34:59,867 --> 01:35:02,452 some local fauna who at least have read some of his books. 1056 01:35:02,536 --> 01:35:07,332 [ chuckles ] But he will not know a fucking thing about us. 1057 01:35:07,916 --> 01:35:12,254 That puts me in exquisitely bad humor. Humph. 1058 01:35:12,921 --> 01:35:17,134 Today will be Madrid against the Americas. 1059 01:35:17,843 --> 01:35:22,014 The revival of the conquest, a chance to rewrite history. 1060 01:35:22,097 --> 01:35:23,599 [ laughs ] 1061 01:35:24,433 --> 01:35:25,392 Come. 1062 01:35:26,518 --> 01:35:28,729 You do not want to get to the party too early. 1063 01:35:30,355 --> 01:35:31,940 [ pool balls strikes ] 1064 01:35:32,733 --> 01:35:33,567 Sir? 1065 01:35:34,693 --> 01:35:37,821 It's, uh, it's been a long time since I've smoked. 1066 01:35:37,905 --> 01:35:39,031 Oh. 1067 01:35:41,658 --> 01:35:45,287 I return to the vice of writers the same way I left it. 1068 01:35:46,205 --> 01:35:47,206 Smoking. 1069 01:35:47,748 --> 01:35:50,250 Produces an anxiety of low level vibrations 1070 01:35:50,334 --> 01:35:52,836 that helps me stay in front of that empty page. 1071 01:35:52,920 --> 01:35:56,340 - Hmm. - Writing is waiting. 1072 01:35:56,882 --> 01:36:00,427 You must dominate that dead time between paragraphs and words. 1073 01:36:01,637 --> 01:36:04,264 Smoking makes you stronger than the signs. 1074 01:36:05,057 --> 01:36:06,767 When I stop I read different. 1075 01:36:06,850 --> 01:36:07,768 [ Máximo ] Hmm. 1076 01:36:09,019 --> 01:36:10,020 Cheers. 1077 01:36:11,188 --> 01:36:12,147 Cheers. 1078 01:36:16,276 --> 01:36:17,569 How do you know Carmen Lindo? 1079 01:36:18,153 --> 01:36:19,071 I don't. 1080 01:36:20,239 --> 01:36:22,282 I was on a panel with her once. 1081 01:36:22,366 --> 01:36:24,117 Were you invited to the party? 1082 01:36:25,494 --> 01:36:26,745 I wasn't invited. 1083 01:36:27,621 --> 01:36:28,747 I came to see a woman. 1084 01:36:29,915 --> 01:36:34,503 That university world of hierarchies suits you even less than me. 1085 01:36:35,087 --> 01:36:36,255 Who's the chick? 1086 01:36:37,422 --> 01:36:40,926 Her name is... Li Chao. 1087 01:36:42,094 --> 01:36:43,345 Ah! 1088 01:36:43,428 --> 01:36:46,932 Extra ordinary... my student. 1089 01:36:49,351 --> 01:36:50,686 Yeah, that's why I came. 1090 01:36:51,854 --> 01:36:54,439 She's your... bo, bo, bo, bo? 1091 01:36:56,400 --> 01:36:58,151 Was, or is, I don't know. 1092 01:36:58,235 --> 01:37:00,529 I'm not sure. That's why I have to go. 1093 01:37:00,612 --> 01:37:02,906 I cannot say no to Carmen. 1094 01:37:04,491 --> 01:37:06,243 Long time ago, 1095 01:37:06,785 --> 01:37:08,412 Carmen and I, we had an affair. 1096 01:37:08,954 --> 01:37:11,707 And we were about to get married. 1097 01:37:13,542 --> 01:37:16,920 Books united us and women separated us. 1098 01:37:18,130 --> 01:37:18,964 I must warn you. 1099 01:37:19,715 --> 01:37:21,967 Professor Lindo has announced 1100 01:37:22,050 --> 01:37:25,053 with very little modesty that she's been hired by 1101 01:37:25,137 --> 01:37:29,183 I don't know who and she's going to Los Angeles. 1102 01:37:36,231 --> 01:37:39,401 - [ people chattering ] - [ Máximo ] As my friend, I guess you have. 1103 01:37:39,484 --> 01:37:42,362 Whoa! [ laughs ] 1104 01:37:42,446 --> 01:37:43,780 Hola. 1105 01:37:44,656 --> 01:37:46,992 I would like to present a friend. 1106 01:37:47,409 --> 01:37:49,203 I'm sure you wanna talk to him. 1107 01:37:49,953 --> 01:37:52,080 He's the author of Three in One. 1108 01:37:54,499 --> 01:37:55,792 How do you do? 1109 01:37:58,337 --> 01:38:00,088 [ whispering ] What are you doing here? 1110 01:38:00,839 --> 01:38:02,216 [ whispering ] I came to see you. 1111 01:38:03,133 --> 01:38:05,302 This is not an appropriate moment. 1112 01:38:05,385 --> 01:38:07,429 You gave me no choice. 1113 01:38:09,431 --> 01:38:10,724 You should go. 1114 01:38:10,807 --> 01:38:12,100 You'll cause me a problem. 1115 01:38:12,184 --> 01:38:14,436 And you don't think you've caused me one? 1116 01:38:14,520 --> 01:38:16,438 [ Máximo ] ...he's a very good friend. 1117 01:38:16,522 --> 01:38:19,608 And also a very talented writer. 1118 01:38:22,110 --> 01:38:23,862 I hope he isn't a bother. 1119 01:38:24,655 --> 01:38:25,864 Of course not. 1120 01:38:27,157 --> 01:38:28,575 Li has spoken to me about you. 1121 01:38:29,326 --> 01:38:30,911 I was anxious to meet you. 1122 01:38:31,912 --> 01:38:34,122 Besides, the two of you should talk. 1123 01:38:34,873 --> 01:38:35,707 [ Li ] Hmm. 1124 01:38:36,834 --> 01:38:37,960 Stay as long as you like. 1125 01:38:39,002 --> 01:38:44,049 As Daria says, "I never give in to the temptation to be difficult." 1126 01:38:44,132 --> 01:38:46,134 - [ The Writer ] Hmm. - [ Carmen ] Right, Li? 1127 01:38:48,512 --> 01:38:50,222 [ chuckles ] I'm happy. 1128 01:38:51,473 --> 01:38:53,016 I can assure you 1129 01:38:53,100 --> 01:38:54,977 there is no bad blood on my side. 1130 01:38:55,727 --> 01:38:58,313 I wouldn't have thought any less of you if there was, my dear. 1131 01:38:58,397 --> 01:39:00,816 Mm-hmm. "To pretend, 1132 01:39:00,899 --> 01:39:03,318 - only pretend to pretend." - [ Máximo ] Derrida. 1133 01:39:03,402 --> 01:39:05,821 My dear, can't you quote someone else? 1134 01:39:05,904 --> 01:39:09,700 Máximo, you haven't make me laugh in 20 years. 1135 01:39:09,783 --> 01:39:10,617 [ Máximo ] Mm. 1136 01:39:14,454 --> 01:39:15,873 And, here he is. 1137 01:39:15,956 --> 01:39:17,624 He's wearing his uniform. 1138 01:39:17,708 --> 01:39:19,710 I bet you, he's not wearing any socks. 1139 01:39:19,793 --> 01:39:22,087 Garcia Pardo, here are your friends, 1140 01:39:22,171 --> 01:39:24,089 excellent Puerto Rico writers. 1141 01:39:24,173 --> 01:39:26,216 Just call us writers, Carmen. 1142 01:39:26,717 --> 01:39:30,679 My editor tells me, for the size of Puerto Rico, 1143 01:39:30,762 --> 01:39:34,224 it imports an extra ordinary amount of books from Spain. 1144 01:39:34,308 --> 01:39:37,311 You may not have noticed, but we're just as Spanish speaking 1145 01:39:37,394 --> 01:39:38,896 as any other country in Latin America. 1146 01:39:39,521 --> 01:39:42,691 Yeah, but you are, uh, part of the monster of the north. 1147 01:39:42,774 --> 01:39:45,068 As José Martí call it, Uncle Sam. 1148 01:39:45,152 --> 01:39:47,237 That doesn't make us less of a nation 1149 01:39:47,321 --> 01:39:49,698 than Spain, Argentina, or Mexico. 1150 01:39:49,781 --> 01:39:52,326 In Spain, a writer can be a professional. 1151 01:39:52,743 --> 01:39:54,244 It's harder to do that here. 1152 01:39:54,870 --> 01:39:58,081 Madrid, Barcelona are cultural industries 1153 01:39:58,165 --> 01:40:00,501 where writers can live by writing. 1154 01:40:00,584 --> 01:40:02,753 We can only dream to write for the world. 1155 01:40:02,836 --> 01:40:05,255 No disappointment leads to literature. 1156 01:40:06,131 --> 01:40:08,842 Disappointment doesn't create readership. 1157 01:40:08,926 --> 01:40:10,719 And I like to be read. 1158 01:40:10,802 --> 01:40:11,845 Hmm. 1159 01:40:13,472 --> 01:40:15,807 - Huh. - [ Máximo ] So, 1160 01:40:15,891 --> 01:40:18,393 nobody really invited you to the Ireland? 1161 01:40:20,229 --> 01:40:22,189 Well, actually, no. 1162 01:40:22,856 --> 01:40:25,734 Not a group of fascinated readers? 1163 01:40:25,817 --> 01:40:30,113 Not any university or y-- cultural institute from somewhere from here? 1164 01:40:31,365 --> 01:40:35,035 Spain financed your trip to promote Spanish culture to sell more books, no? 1165 01:40:35,702 --> 01:40:37,162 And what's wrong with that? 1166 01:40:37,246 --> 01:40:40,082 You have the main successfulness 1167 01:40:40,165 --> 01:40:42,543 writing into simple salesmanship. 1168 01:40:43,210 --> 01:40:45,420 I perceive a little frustration. 1169 01:40:46,421 --> 01:40:49,633 Maybe Puerto Rico being such a small island 1170 01:40:49,716 --> 01:40:51,760 - has to do with it. - Maybe. 1171 01:40:51,844 --> 01:40:54,054 Spain has always been provincial 1172 01:40:54,137 --> 01:40:56,765 around like us. She doesn't realize it. 1173 01:40:56,849 --> 01:40:59,268 She's incapable of any humility. 1174 01:40:59,685 --> 01:41:02,020 You and your countrymen are living in a bubble 1175 01:41:02,104 --> 01:41:03,564 inside your own heads. 1176 01:41:04,314 --> 01:41:07,192 Don't take your frustration out on Spain. 1177 01:41:07,860 --> 01:41:09,319 We're not your enemy. 1178 01:41:09,403 --> 01:41:11,947 A writer is an athlete of the feet. 1179 01:41:13,198 --> 01:41:14,741 And that is the problem 1180 01:41:14,825 --> 01:41:18,036 - and tragedy with Garcia Pardo. - Enough. 1181 01:41:18,996 --> 01:41:20,873 Garcia Pardo is a guest. 1182 01:41:20,956 --> 01:41:23,542 It is not the treatment he deserves. 1183 01:41:23,625 --> 01:41:25,294 And what treatment is that? 1184 01:41:27,796 --> 01:41:30,757 Come. I have someone else to introduce you. 1185 01:41:32,843 --> 01:41:34,595 What were you doing? 1186 01:41:40,976 --> 01:41:42,311 I can't talk right now. 1187 01:41:42,895 --> 01:41:44,813 - So when? - Later. 1188 01:41:45,814 --> 01:41:48,192 Later-later or later-never? 1189 01:41:48,859 --> 01:41:49,693 Later. 1190 01:41:53,071 --> 01:41:53,989 What's wrong? 1191 01:41:55,616 --> 01:41:56,825 I'm scared. 1192 01:41:56,909 --> 01:41:59,203 Of what? Why? 1193 01:42:01,455 --> 01:42:02,539 Cause I'm alone. 1194 01:42:03,457 --> 01:42:04,917 You have Carmen. 1195 01:42:05,000 --> 01:42:06,835 And you can be with me. 1196 01:42:07,461 --> 01:42:09,338 [ snickers ] It's the same. 1197 01:42:09,421 --> 01:42:11,298 It's not true. Let's just-- 1198 01:42:11,381 --> 01:42:13,550 We can fix this. Let's just talk about it. 1199 01:42:14,134 --> 01:42:16,970 I told you, I can't. Not here, not now. 1200 01:42:17,054 --> 01:42:19,014 And don't think Carmen is a bed of roses 1201 01:42:19,097 --> 01:42:21,183 and don't think that I don't care about you. 1202 01:42:21,683 --> 01:42:22,851 I'm trapped. 1203 01:42:23,602 --> 01:42:25,312 Why would you say that? 1204 01:42:25,395 --> 01:42:26,688 How are you trapped? 1205 01:42:27,356 --> 01:42:29,650 'Cause I can lose my only way out. 1206 01:42:32,986 --> 01:42:35,239 So you really are leaving Puerto Rico? 1207 01:42:38,450 --> 01:42:39,660 Yeah. 1208 01:42:39,743 --> 01:42:41,453 [ sighs ] 1209 01:42:43,914 --> 01:42:47,167 I really hope that she helps you with your art, Li. 1210 01:42:48,877 --> 01:42:50,754 You have to fulfill your talent. 1211 01:42:51,463 --> 01:42:52,297 Yeah. 1212 01:42:54,967 --> 01:42:56,009 So, this is it? 1213 01:42:58,595 --> 01:43:00,931 - Hmm? - [ sobs ] I-- 1214 01:43:01,014 --> 01:43:03,642 - Hmm? - [ sobs ] I promise we'll see each other again. 1215 01:43:05,227 --> 01:43:06,854 Have you met Glenda? 1216 01:43:07,187 --> 01:43:08,397 - Hello. - No. 1217 01:43:08,480 --> 01:43:10,440 We're working in the same restaurant. 1218 01:43:10,524 --> 01:43:11,859 [ Glenda ] Yeah, nice to meet you. 1219 01:43:11,942 --> 01:43:13,735 - Uh, you're Li's friend? - Mm-hmm. 1220 01:43:13,819 --> 01:43:15,487 - Delighted. - Same here. 1221 01:43:15,571 --> 01:43:16,572 Carmen is calling you. 1222 01:43:17,614 --> 01:43:20,742 Ah. Li, we go? 1223 01:43:20,826 --> 01:43:22,995 Wait. Wait. 1224 01:43:24,454 --> 01:43:25,581 [ Carmen ] Come on. 1225 01:43:25,664 --> 01:43:27,666 [ melancholic music ] 1226 01:43:33,714 --> 01:43:38,010 [ The Writer ] "Paying attention to another human is the purest and rarest form of love." 1227 01:43:53,775 --> 01:43:55,152 [ computer chimes ] 1228 01:44:05,954 --> 01:44:08,498 Happiness is linked to hope. 1229 01:44:09,708 --> 01:44:11,585 I hope Li would come back. 1230 01:44:12,503 --> 01:44:14,129 I hoped for happiness. 1231 01:44:15,422 --> 01:44:17,132 I hoped for the impossible. 1232 01:44:18,467 --> 01:44:21,220 The anxiety that I felt was only comparable 1233 01:44:21,303 --> 01:44:23,055 to when I waited for her messages, 1234 01:44:23,138 --> 01:44:25,265 to when I fear that I had lost someone 1235 01:44:26,183 --> 01:44:27,392 I hadn't found. 1236 01:44:28,602 --> 01:44:30,854 This tastes like the final agony... 1237 01:44:31,980 --> 01:44:34,191 ...the absurd absence of a body 1238 01:44:34,274 --> 01:44:36,944 and soul I believed in was blind faced. 1239 01:44:42,574 --> 01:44:44,368 [ horn honking ] 1240 01:44:44,451 --> 01:44:46,036 Writer? 1241 01:44:46,912 --> 01:44:47,871 Writer? 1242 01:44:48,705 --> 01:44:49,623 Writer? 1243 01:44:49,706 --> 01:44:51,708 [ horn honking continues ] 1244 01:44:54,002 --> 01:44:55,212 Writer? 1245 01:44:59,174 --> 01:45:00,259 Writer? 1246 01:45:01,260 --> 01:45:02,636 - Writer? - [ slams on door ] 1247 01:45:04,721 --> 01:45:05,889 Writer? 1248 01:45:11,895 --> 01:45:12,855 Writer? 1249 01:45:13,355 --> 01:45:15,482 [ melancholic music continues ] 1250 01:45:15,566 --> 01:45:16,441 Writer? 1251 01:45:17,442 --> 01:45:18,485 Writer? 1252 01:45:20,237 --> 01:45:21,488 Writer? 1253 01:45:21,572 --> 01:45:22,614 Writer? 1254 01:45:23,115 --> 01:45:25,242 [ horn honking continues ] 1255 01:45:33,125 --> 01:45:34,209 Writer? 1256 01:45:35,919 --> 01:45:37,004 Writer? 1257 01:45:38,839 --> 01:45:39,882 Writer? 1258 01:45:39,965 --> 01:45:41,425 [ honking continues ] 1259 01:45:41,508 --> 01:45:42,467 Writer? 1260 01:45:45,596 --> 01:45:46,471 Writer? 1261 01:45:48,015 --> 01:45:49,349 Writer? 1262 01:46:22,299 --> 01:46:23,550 My Writer? 1263 01:46:27,346 --> 01:46:28,764 [ unintelligible ] 1264 01:46:36,063 --> 01:46:37,773 Li, get in. Come on. 1265 01:46:39,107 --> 01:46:40,776 [ Li sobbing ] 1266 01:47:47,843 --> 01:47:49,970 [ Li ] I've learned to live with minimal needs. 1267 01:47:51,138 --> 01:47:53,557 My lesbianism is an irony. 1268 01:47:53,891 --> 01:47:56,727 I've never known the feeling of respect, 1269 01:47:56,810 --> 01:47:59,855 of being on the same level as another human being 1270 01:47:59,938 --> 01:48:01,273 as I did with you. 1271 01:48:01,899 --> 01:48:05,527 I don't know what it means to be free to escape. 1272 01:48:06,111 --> 01:48:08,030 I must go far away. 1273 01:48:08,739 --> 01:48:10,532 This is my attempt to say, 1274 01:48:11,366 --> 01:48:12,492 "I'm sorry." 1275 01:48:12,576 --> 01:48:14,578 [ melancholic music continues ] 1276 01:48:20,876 --> 01:48:22,711 [ The Writer ] This was the answer to "Why me?" 1277 01:48:24,379 --> 01:48:25,672 Why I was the one. 1278 01:48:30,135 --> 01:48:31,637 She was my other half. 1279 01:48:36,058 --> 01:48:38,852 The impossible half of two bodies that have not learned 1280 01:48:38,936 --> 01:48:41,438 to recognize themselves in anyone else. 1281 01:48:54,326 --> 01:48:57,454 [ Li ] The city with all that he had left. 1282 01:48:58,497 --> 01:49:00,999 The territory to which he belonged. 1283 01:49:01,583 --> 01:49:03,001 Everything he had. 1284 01:49:04,753 --> 01:49:06,380 [ water rushing ] 1285 01:49:06,463 --> 01:49:07,840 [ glass cracking ] 1286 01:49:21,436 --> 01:49:24,565 [ The Writer ] I could never leave this city that I had walked without shame, 1287 01:49:24,648 --> 01:49:26,400 Using it as a blank page. 1288 01:49:27,150 --> 01:49:29,820 The agony tied me forever to its streets. 1289 01:49:30,904 --> 01:49:31,905 I want to write. 1290 01:49:32,739 --> 01:49:33,740 No matter what. 1291 01:49:41,999 --> 01:49:44,626 [ gentle music in Spanish ] 89630