All language subtitles for Malpractice.S01E05_EngCP

Help him! I can't help him,
you've got a gun in my face.

You're the one who saved my life?

You look better
than last time I saw you.

Looking forward to going home?

Erm, I feel safer here,
to be honest.

Mrs Hanbury, Milo took
a large amount of opioid drugs,

and I'm afraid that all signs point
to him being a regular drug user.

Were you prescribing Edith Owusu
fentanyl?

No, I didn't... I didn't write this.

Someone must have planted that there
to frame me.

I know you've been
working for Jubair,

prescribing for drug addicts.

I need you to help me out here.
Please, just help me.

Camilla?

Fentanyl, 50 patches.
Enough for a month.

How do you, er, pay Rob?
Do you pay him here or later?

I pay the pharmacy.

The next issue
is Dr Lucinda Edwards.

So, what are you suggesting we do?

Lucinda is not
a trainee in difficulty,

she's a liability.

I am no longer confident that you're
fit to practise medicine safely.

Therefore we are suspending you
with immediate effect

while we continue our investigation.

No! No, no, you can't do that.
You can't suspend me.

George. George, look at me, come on.
You'll receive a letter

with the date of your
tribunal hearing in due course.

What the hell
do you think you're doing?

I wanna work for you in Rob's place.

OK.

So, tell me how it works.

Lucinda, hi.

Oh, shit.

Hi. Hey, er, come in.

Sorry, it's just a bit of a mess.

Just let me move that
out of the way.

Luce, what is this about?

Just, please,
can you just sit down? Sorry.

Yeah, all right. Talk, please.

Well?

We used to be friends, right?

I mean, yeah, but...

what does that have
to do with anything?

George, you know me.

I'm gonna do everything
to clear my name.

But I need your help to do it.

Nah, you know what?
I shouldn't have come.

No, but you did.

I think that's because you have
doubts about the case against me.

There's... There's still a lot
about this that doesn't make sense.

That is why I want you
to listen to this.

Come in.

Thanks.

I've just had an update
from the hospital.

Lucinda's here.

What for?

I really think you need
to hear what she has to say.

'So, how does this work?'

'We'll get you a phone.'

'OK, so clients can
contact me that way?'

'Yeah, arrange to meet them,
then write them a prescription out.

'They'll take it to one
of our pharmacies to fill in.'

'How do I get paid?'

'Cash. End of the month.'

Erm, am I to understand
from this recording

that you've been writing
illegal prescriptions for this man?

No. You need to understand
that Jubair Singh

is using his pharmacy chain

to illegally sell drugs
to vulnerable addicts.

That's a very serious accusation.

I mean, the person on that recording
could be anyone.

Then go to Eva.
Ask her about Jubair.

We can't do that right now.
Why not?

Erm...

I'm sorry to be the one
to have to tell you this, but...

er, Rob Thornbury died
last night.

I'm sorry.
Oh, my God.

Jesus.

Lucinda, do you need...?
Do you need a minute?

If Rob's dead, then this is...

why it is so important
that you investigate Jubair.

Well, we can take it from here.

But you mustn't do anything
to compromise yourself further.

Jubair can't know
that I was talking to you.

Like I said, leave it to us.

And what about my tribunal hearing?

That's still going ahead as planned.

I'm sorry about Rob.
I know he was your friend.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Hey, hey, hey.

SOBS It's my fault.

Oh, no, no, no. It's not your fault.
It's not your fault.

No, no, it was my fault.
I was there when Rob...

when Rob had his accident.

What do you mean?

It was the morning... It was
the morning of my second interview,

and I was gonna tell you the truth.

We started arguing, and then...

he grabbed me, and he put...
put his hands on me.

And I was just trying
to get him off me, and then...

and then this car
came out of nowhere.

Shh, shh, shh.

Have you told this to anyone else?

OK, OK.
No, no, you're the only one.

I wish I told you sooner,
but I didn't know how.

It's all right, it's all right.

Breathe, breathe.

I need to tell Eva.

What? No, no.
That won't help anything.

No, I know. She deserves
to know the truth. This is...

No, no, Lucinda, listen. Listen.
It was an accident, OK?

Telling her won't do any good.
You know that.

Hi, Lucinda.

I just heard about Rob.

I'm really sorry, Eva.

Can I come in?

I don't think we have anything
to say to each other.

I know this isn't a good time.

But it's important.

OK.

They know about Rob's prescribing.

And they're looking
at Wellspring Pharmacies.

And soon, they're gonna know
that you were involved, too, Eva.

I think it's gonna be better
if you go to them first.

What, better for me
or better for you?

Just tell them that Jubair
is behind all this.

I can't.

Look, Rob and I,
we're just a tiny part of this.

And... Jubair made it very clear
that we were expendable.

Expendable how?

Did you know Rob's brother
was an addict?

No. No, I-I-I knew he was dead,
but I didn't know he was an addict.

Yeah, well...

he struggled
with daily methadone pick-ups.

He kept going back to heroin.

It was impossible.

Sometimes,
Rob prescribed him opioids

to stop him buying drugs
off the streets.

It made Rob more flexible
with his prescribing for addicts.

And Jubair noticed.

He offered him money to prescribe
flexibly for some wealthy customers.

You know, it was just a few
at first.

Well, what about the Guelder Clinic?

Well, those were the kind
of customers that Jubair wanted.

You know,
people who could afford it.

And they were gonna
buy drugs anyway,

and the ones they got from Rob
were safer.

But those people went to you
to get off drugs.

Oh, don't be so naive.

Addiction treatment in this country,
I mean, it's just a revolving door.

You know,
I can count the amount of people

I've actually cured on one hand.

People do recover.
Lucinda, please.

Look how well you're doing.

Look, Rob's intentions... were good.

He... He talked each patient through
safer dosing, he gave them naloxone.

So, if he was being so careful
with his prescribing,

why were people still overdosing?

Oh, they weren't.
Lucinda, they weren't.

At first, you know,
then something changed.

And Rob noticed,
and he was worried, but...

But... But what? What changed?
What was it? What did he say?

The overdoses didn't make any sense,
and so Rob raised it with Jubair.

But he, erm...

He threatened him,
and he said he had to keep going

and he had to make sure
that it didn't look suspicious.

And that's when he brought you in.

So, why didn't he just stop?

This whole thing goes a lot further
than just Jubair.

They wouldn't let him stop.

They're never gonna
let you just stop.

'Oscar, hi.'

Can you hear me? Hello.

Hi.
'Listen.'

I'm sorry that I kicked off at you.
OK, you didn't deserve that,

I-I... I know

'you were only just trying to help.
I get it.'

No, I-I... I'm sorry as well.

OK, like, I-I...
I wanted to call you cos I just...

I didn't want it
to end up like that, but, erm...

Yeah, what's up?

Do you remember that
overdose patient that we treated

'a few weeks ago? Milo Hanbury?'

Er, vaguely, yeah.

Right,
I need to get in touch with him.

'Er, well, '

I can't just give you
patient information,

'you know that, right?'
All right, please, Oscar,

I need to speak to him about drugs
that he took, right,

there's some stuff
that doesn't add up.

Please, Oscar, come on.

Jesus Christ,
can you just help me out on this?

I just don't want anyone to die
like Edith did.

'Oscar! Oscar, do you understand
what I'm saying?'

Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah, it's fine.

Erm, erm, just give me a few minutes

and I'll...
I'll call you back, all right?

Thanks.
OK, thanks very much.

George.

Yeah?

So, the, er, Wellspring Pharmacy

are being audited by the GPhC
tomorrow morning.

That's happening fast.

Well, we've raised
some pretty serious concerns.

How are your preparations
coming along for Lucinda's...?

Fine, fine... Fine, erm...

I think we should have told Lucinda
that we were having

Wellspring Pharmacies investigated.

And what if she'd chosen
to warn Jubair?

You still think
she's involved in this?

That audio recording
doesn't prove anything definitively.

It doesn't.
I mean, as far as we know,

she might've been
working with Jubair all along.

We just don't know yet.

We don't know yet.

Hi, Milo, it's, er,
Doctor Lucinda Edwards,

I treated you in A&E.

'Er, can we do this another time?

'I've just woken up.'

Er, not really, no.
It's quite urgent.

Er, but why are you here?

I-I-I don't remember you
from the hospital.

No, you wouldn't,

you were pretty out of it
when I treated you.

Milo, do you remember the drugs
that you overdosed on?

Look, I'm...
I'm not here to judge, OK.

OK, I...

I cooked a bit of fentanyl.

Where'd you get it from?
I've got a prescription.

From... what pharmacy?

Wellspring Pharmacy.

Milo, why do you think
you overdosed?

Did you... use more than usual?

I cut the same amount.

And you didn't take anything else?

I didn't need to.

It knocked me out pretty fast.

What did you do
with the leftover patches?

I chucked them.

Listen.

I understand addiction.
And I know that there is no way

that you would have
chucked out those patches,

even if they did nearly kill you.

I just wanna see the packaging.

Milo, I think there's something
really wrong with those drugs,

and I just wanna make sure
that nobody overdoses like you did.

OK, I'll go get 'em.

'Hello, distribution department,
how can I help?'

I'm ringing about a batch
of fentanyl patches

that you supplied
to Wellspring Pharmacies.

'Er, Wellspring Pharmacies...

'OK, I can have a look.
Do you have a batch number?'

Er, yeah,
the batch number is 3W0042.

'OK, one second.'

I'm worried there's something wrong
with the batch.

Luce?

'Sorry, the person
you are calling...'

God's sake.

'Hey, what's the emergency?'

OK, I've just been
to Milo Hanbury's house,

where he gave me these.
This is what he overdosed on.

Fentanyl?

Yeah, just like Edith,
but he bought this from a pharmacy.

No, no, no, you can't buy fentanyl
over a counter at a pharmacy.

I know, yes, but I've found out
that there is local pharmacies

that are selling drugs to addicts.

They're using doctors
to legally prescribe

so that everything looks like
it's above board.

No, no, no, no, no, that's...
That's insane.

Yeah, I know,
but then I rang the manufacturer

of this fentanyl, right?
And they said that this,

this batch, it was sent
at this hospital, not a pharmacy.

They confirmed it was recalled
for being too strong.

Does your audit include a record
of recalled drugs?

Yeah.
Can I...? Can I see it? Can I...?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Um, take this, take this,

take this for me.
It's, er... three...

Hang on, hang on, hang on, um...

OK, yep, give me the batch number.

3W0042.

Yeah, it's here.

What happens to the waste disposal
drugs at this hospital?

Well, um, th... Er, there's, he...

There's a charity called,
er, Developing Aid,

and they take the drugs
and test them

and send the good ones
to developing countries.

Who's over that?

Dr Willett, I need to talk to you.

You shouldn't even be
on hospital premises.

The drugs that killed Edith Owusu,

I think they came
from this hospital.

That's enough. You need to leave.

No, you need to listen to me!

I'm calling security.
Don't call security!

I'll try and talk some sense
into her.

Yeah, please do, cos she is not
listening to me at all.

There is hospital waste drugs

that are being diverted
and sold to drug addicts.

Lucinda...
That is utterly ridiculous.

How dare you barge in here
casting wild aspersions?

Lucinda,
there is a time and a place.

Yes, thank you, Leo.
The security are on their way.

Listen to me, Leo,
he can put a stop to this.

I should've fired you weeks ago!

But you didn't cos you don't
have a fuckin' pair of balls!

You both have to calm down,
just take a breath, huh?

Look, your protege here
has completely lost the plot.

Could you just call security back,
please? Stand them down.

I'm not calling them back,
look at the state of her.

Why aren't you listening to me?

What I'm telling you
is the fucking truth!

If those waste drugs
were not sold on,

Edith Owusu would not have died.

She should not have died.

It all comes back to the drugs.

Right, they are the root
of all of this.

You are completely delusional.

Oh, wow...

Fuck!

Why are you SO determined
not to believe me?

I'm sorry?

Have you got something
to do with this?

Oh, for God's sake, Lucinda.

You are accusing me?

The reason I don't believe you,
Lucinda,

is because you are a drug addict!

You are a drug addict,
and you are single-handedly

ruining my hospital's reputation!

Your... Your disastrous turn
at the inquest,

your daughter's drug overdose!

Your colleague over there
was so worried

about you stealing drugs
that he reported you to the MIU.

And if I have any say
in the matter,

you will never work
in any hospital again.

Now, come on, Mike, that's not fair.

Right, I want her off the premises.

Come on, come with us.

Come down to my office.
Come with us!

Get off me. Get off!
Now, please.

Hey! Hey!
You fucking jobsworth, piss off!

Just calm! Calm!

Right, I trust you won't be

defending her again
after that spectacle.

Jesus Christ.

Unbelievable.

All right, come on.

I'm sorry.

Hello?
'It's Camilla.'

'My friend overdosed and I...
I don't know what to do!'

Er, er...
'She's not breathing!'

Camilla, you need to slow down.
What...?

'I need you.
Hey, Lizzie, stay with me.'

Jesus Christ.
'Stay with me'.

Er, you need to call the ambulance.
Yeah.

'Oh, God, she's overdosed on
the drugs that you prescribed me.

'That's why I called you.
You've gotta help me, please!

'Can you get here?

'Oh God, she's not breathing!'
I'll be there as quick as I can, OK?

'Lizzie, stay with me.'

Can you...? Can you, er...?
She's staying conscious, yeah?

'I don't know what to do,
I can't call the ambulance.'

Send me the address.

Hi, she OK?

Where is she?

She's upstairs.
OK.

What the hell's going on?

Jubair, what's going on?

No, no, no, no!

Take her top off! Get her top off.

Please, don't, please, don't...

Please, don't!

Help, please, help me! Please, help!

Give me your arm, give your arm,
give me your fucking arm!

What the fuck's taking you so long?

Come on!

Are you sure that's enough?

Take it.
You're doing it.

That's not what we agreed!
Get a fucking move on.

Bring her arm here.

Keep it straight.

We warned you not to say anything.

Please! Please!

Pick her up, pick her up.

Listen, I want everything spotless.

It needs to look like
she did this herself, yeah?

Come on, get a move on. Hurry up.

Come on, come on.

Let's go, let's go,
let's go, let's go.

Let's go, come on.

Go, go, go.

Good night, gorgeous.

Right, did you get Lucinda's
drug screen results back?

They haven't arrived yet.
Well, call the lab.

They need to turn the results around
a bit faster.

It's not the lab.

Lucinda hasn't done
the drug screen yet.

Come in.

Hiya, sorry to interrupt.

Er, Eva Tait's here to see you.

What, she's here now?
Yeah.

Er, do you wanna pop in?
Thank you.

OK, I'll leave you to it.

I don't know why
I have to do this now.

Don't.
Don't, don't, don't, don't...

Minors.

OK.

Yep.

Yep, got it. Thank you.

Yes. Thanks.

Oscar, Ramya. Resus now.

I've got an opioid overdose
coming in.

It's OK.

Coming through. Out the way, please!

Coming through, please!
Someone's coming in now, come on!

Got a young female, no ID.

Found unconscious
after taking an opioid overdose.

We've given her two milligrams
of naloxone.

She's not responding well.

Guy, guys, it's Lucinda.

Oh, Jesus.

Lucinda,
what have you done, darling?

Oh, my God.

Oh, God.

OK, her respiratory rate
is dropping.

OK, uh, give her 800 micrograms
of, uh, naloxone IV.

Uh, no.
I think if she's not responding,

we need to set up an infusion.
Ramya's right.

Let's get a wide bore in.
She's got good veins, right?

Yeah, yeah. Erm, what rate
do you wanna run at, Oscar?

Oscar! What rate?

I don't think I can do it.
I don't think I can do this.

Can someone take over?
I'll go and get Dr Harris, OK?

Jesus. Ramya? Ramya?

OK. Right, OK, so she's already had
two milligrams of naloxone...

Excuse me, please.

So 60% of that is...

OK, run it
at 1.2 milligrams per hour.

Are you sure?
Yes, I'm sure!

Jesus Christ, Lucinda.
Will somebody phone Tom, please?

His number'll be
in her notes somewhere.

OK, she's gone into
respiratory arrest!

Oh, Jesus!

She's still got a pulse.
We need to get her breathing,

otherwise she's gonna go
into cardiac arrest.

OK, er,
you need to secure an airway.

Yeah, I'm on it.
Can I get an OPA, please?

Oh, God.

Come on, Lucinda! Come on, darling!

Come on!

Er, guys, um, I've called Dr Harris,

but he's not answering
and I can't find him.

Just get another A&E consultant,
then, Oscar, now!

Oh, shit, she's having a seizure.

All right, sweetheart.

Lucinda, it's OK.
Open your mouth, open your mouth.

OK, come on, darling.

OK, we need to give her diazepam.
No, wait. No.

You can't do that,
she's addicted to benzos.

It doesn't matter. If we don't
stop the seizure, she'll die!

Give her the drug. Give it to her!

Well, if we lose her, I don't...

OK, sweetheart.

All right.

There you go. There you go.

Come on, Lu. Come on.

What's happening?
It's OK. Can you take over, please?

We need to get
the naloxone infusion in.

OK.
You got it?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.
OK.

Um, I could only find Dr Willett.
I just heard, what's happening?

Erm, she's taken an opioid overdose.

Oh, Jesus Christ.

The paramedics said
she locked herself in the room

before she took the overdose, so...

Oh.

Um, thank you.

What? What's wrong?

Lucinda...

She took a massive overdose
yesterday.

God.
Fuck!

Did we push her too much?

Come in.

Ah, thanks for coming to see me
so quickly.

Yeah.
Of course.

How you feeling?

No worse than usual.

You could've died.

We spoke to Ramya and Oscar
this morning.

Oscar said...

he didn't think
that this was a suicide attempt.

No, it wasn't. I...

I did not try to kill myself.

OK, there was...
It was Jubair and two men...

that I've never seen before.

Hm.

Oscar also told us...

what you found out about
the hospital waste drugs.

Do you think that's
connected to this?

Yes, I do.

Have you spoken to anyone else
about the waste drugs?

Mike Willett.

He was very defensive
when I asked him about it.

Well... we'll need to talk to Mike.
And the police as well.

You believe me?

Eva Tait came to talk to us.

She confirmed everything
that you said.

She told us about Jubair.

It sounds like
there's a bigger network.

She also admitted
to planting the prescription

in Edith's flat, so...

yes, I believe you.

I want to help.

And I need to make this right.

Look at this audit data
from the RH.

Now, at first glance,
it looks completely normal.

But...

if you compare it
with Oscar Beattie's data,

you can see clearly
it's been manipulated.

For the past five years, the RH
has increasingly over-ordered drugs

and then put loads of 'em into waste
when they go unused.

And then the waste drugs go to
the charity that Lucinda mentioned.

Developing Aid.
What do we know about them?

Right. Developing Aid...

Developing Aid.

Er...

Thanks very much
for taking the time to see us.

Of course.
Whatever I can do to help.

Some serious concerns
have been raised

about a Royal Hospital doctor.

Yeah. Yeah, I mean, we're all, er...

We're all very concerned
about Lucinda. I hope, er...

I hope you prioritise her
getting the help she needs.

Mm.

This isn't about Dr Edwards.

Oh.

You're not taking
Lucinda's complaints

against Mike seriously, are you?

Because her accusations
are entirely fabricated.

We don't disagree.

You been to Ghana?
Er...

Yeah, several years ago. Why?

Well, Lucinda did mention that,
actually.

What did you get up to out there?

Well, unsurprisingly, I was, er...

I was working in a hospital.

What do you know
about Developing Aid?

Erm, probably as much as you do.

Oh, you know, they are a charity

that collects waste medication
from here

and sends it to developing countries
for use over there.

Developing Aid was originally set up
by four British A&E doctors.

You were one of those four doctors.

Prior to that, you did an audit,
didn't you?

Demonstrating
how much useable medication

was being destroyed as waste.

As a group, you persuaded
your respective hospitals

to let you take some
of that waste medication to Ghana.

Medication worth millions of pounds,

put to good use
rather than destroyed.

The success of this
gave you an idea,

and the following year,
you founded Developing Aid.

It's a really good idea.

Yeah, it is, but...

Erm, I wish I could
take credit for it,

but I-I don't see my name
anywhere on this screen, so...

Right, and why did you decide
to legally hide your trustee status?

Right, OK, so you've clearly
done your research.

Mm.
Er...

Yes, I started a charity
to help others.

And excuse me if I...

chose to keep my name
out of the public domain.

Cos you're a shy white saviour.

Erm... Sorry?

Let me cut to the chase.

How long have you been profiting
from the illegal sale

of hospital waste drugs
to wealthy addicts?

I'm sorry, I beg your pardon?
Sorry, is that a...?

That's a joke, right?

We've got evidence that
Developing Aid are diverting drugs

for illegal resale
via the Wellspring Pharmacy chain.

Er, but, you know, I...

Although...

Although I'm a trustee,

I have nothing to do
with the day-to-day running.

Mike Willett said
it was your suggestion

to switch to Developing Aid
for drug waste collection.

Was Developing Aid ever
a charitable endeavour?

Or did you always intend it
to be a front

for the illegal diversion
of controlled drugs?

Er... Um, um... Sorry, I'm...

I'm a little bit confused here.
Unless I'm missing something,

the only thing that
we've actually established here

is that I helped
start up a charity, right?

Then why have you been
manipulating pharmacy audit data?

You've been the Trust's
Clinical Audit Lead

since Developing Aid took over
the drug waste contract.

Yes... And you've got
specific responsibility,

haven't you,
for auditing pharmaceutical stock?

Yes, and I...

I share that audit with Mike,

who signs it off
with the rest of the board.

Right.

But your audit data...

reads like pure fiction.

For years,

you've caused the Royal Hospital
to over-order drugs,

then hidden the extent
of the hospital's drug waste.

Oh, I see... Oh, that's what this...

All right, so I...

I may have submitted
some less than accurate audit data,

but next time, I-I will be
a lot more conscientious.

Look, you may have started off
with good intentions,

but somewhere along the way,
greed took over.

Oh, oh...
Look, this is... This is all...

It's all really interesting,
but everything you're saying

is actually based
on complete supposition.

I have nothing to do -

and have never had anything to do -

with illegal drug sales.

You knew exactly
what Developing Aid was doing.

Look, I have answered
all of your questions

to the best of my ability.

If you have any queries
with real hard evidence behind them,

then please make an appointment.

And my representative
will be with me next time,

as is appropriate, Norma.

If you feel you need representation,
that's absolutely fine.

Let's do that.
Thank you. Until then...

I think we're done, aren't we?

Oh, erm...

The police want to speak to you

about regular payments
you've been receiving

into an offshore account.

I'm sure it has
nothing to do with this,

but I just thought
I'd give you a heads up.

HE SIGHS

HE GROANS

Theresa's looking for you.
Can't get through that door.

Doctor Leo Harris,

I'm arresting you
on suspicion of charity fraud,

NHS fraud and profiting
from the sale of illegal drugs.

You do not have to say anything,

but it may harm your defence

if you do not mention
when questioned

something which you later rely on
in court.

Is it true?

Leo, is it true?

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!

Whoa!
You know they tried to kill me!

Get back.

Is that what you wanted?!

You not gonna say anything?

Yeah.

Yeah, it's done, I'm just clearing
out the last bits and pieces.

Doctor Eva Tait?

DI Derian, Yorkshire Police.

Yeah, nothing here can
connect them to you.

All right, hang on a sec.

Er, hi. Package for Jubair Singh?

Oh, yeah. Thanks.

Hurry up! Get in!

Good job, lad.

Ramya?

Hi.

Hi.
Do you have a minute?

Er... Yeah.

How are you?

Yeah. Yeah, I'm... I'm fine, thanks.

How are you? How's...?
How's Tom and Abi?

I haven't seen them in a while.

I've got my tribunal later.
Oh.

Right, well...

Er, good luck with it.
Listen...

No matter what the panel decides...

I wanna thank you.

Right? You saved my life.

Oh, I mean, it was...
It was nothing.

I was just doing my job, you know.

See one, do one, teach one,
and all of that.

You're gonna be
a really good doctor.

Take care of yourself.

Lucinda.
Yes.

Right. This way.
OK.

How are you?
Oh, good, yeah.

Erm, actually, can I just...

have a quick word before we go down?

Sure.
So, we've been...

compiling a list of doctors
who wrote prescriptions for Jubair.

Uh-huh.

You're on that list.

Then I've completely fucked myself.

It was once. OK?

I needed to work out
what Rob was doing.

Well, no, if... if you can
admit to the tribunal that...

that you have a diazepam addiction,
I'll give a statement to the police

explaining why
you wrote that prescription.

I can do that.

But I'll be struck off?
Well, not necessarily.

But you have to agree
to undergo treatment.

Look... Trust me.

This is the best course of action
for you.

What are you doing here?

I wanted to be here.

Is everything OK?

No. No, they want... They, erm...

They want me to go in and say
that I have a drug problem.

And if I do,
they're gonna offer me...

treatment.
What's the alternative?

Going in there and telling them
everything's fine?

I can't lose my job, Tom.
Jesus Christ.

Being a doctor is the only thing
that I know how to do.

What about being a mum?

Or a wife?
No. You know what I mean.

Listen.

You've got to admit
that there's a problem.

Cos if you don't, you're gonna
lose more than just your job.

You're gonna lose Abi.

And me.
I know.

Jesus, Tom, you and Abi are the only
good things that are in my life.

Without you, what is the point?
Then stop taking diazepam.

I can't!
Why? Why not?

Why?
I don't know.

I can't... It's hard to explain.

Well, make me understand.

I'm here.

I want to understand.

OK?

They help me do my job.

How?

I don't... They-they...

They help me cope.

I do a job where I'm expected...

to help people
in the worst moments of their life.

OK? And everyone relies on me
to be this...

strong one,
who's gonna fix everything

and tell them that it's gonna be OK.

And the diazepam,
that helps me do that.

That's no use, I mean,
is that supposed to be a good thing?

It helps me get through a shift
without having a fucking breakdown.

Simple as that.

OK.

I didn't realise it was that hard.

But listen, it's...

It's more than just coping,
isn't it?

Because you're taking diazepam
at home as well, aren't you?

And... that's more than coping.

So...

You've become addicted.

Tom, I can't do this now.
I can't do this.

Please don't do this.
When can you do it?

Please don't do this now.
I have to go in... Listen.

This is the time.
..and I have to explain to them why.

Listen, this is the time.
This is the time.

Right? You've got a choice now.

You can either carry on
doing what you're doing,

and nothing'll change...

or you can go in there,
tell them the truth,

and get help.

I'm so scared.

I'm scared that I'm gonna...

I'm scared I'm not gonna be
the same without them.

It's OK to be scared.

It's OK.

All right?

I'm so sorry.

I need help, Tom.

I need help.

I'm so sorry,
I can't do this by myself.

I'm not OK.

You won't need to do this
by yourself. I'm not OK.

It's OK. You won't need
to do this by yourself.

I'm so sorry.

I need help.

I'll be waiting.

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