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Jessica's pulling into set
in a minute.

Copy that.

Yeah, I'm walking up
to the house now, okay, Ava?

But I can't find my...

There's nothing to worry about.

No. Nothing's gonna
happen to your dolls.

I've looked everywhere.

Honey, I promise you.

But what if
she's not in the box?

Listen, if you put
Lucy in the box,

then that's where
she still is, honey.

Mm-hmm. That's why we agreed...

- I
- apologize for the delay,

but it was a... It
was a force majeure.

Uh-huh.
Well, Daddy's here.

It means that my wife
had a really important meeting come up

- that she couldn't cancel.
- And he and I will make sure...

But she just arrived.

All of your stuff goes
safely on the truck, okay?

My wife, she just... she just got
here, so you guys can come any time.

Okay, but we're not gonna be there...

Okay. I'm going upstairs
right now. Right now.

Wait, wait, wait. What?

Yeah. I'm gonna
check on your dolls.

But first of all, it's the
afternoon. It's not evening right now.

- All right. But I...
- Yes, I'm going...

No, not your...
Not your new room.

Your old room, sweetheart.

- Right. Well, what are the evening rates?
- Okay. Oh, sw...

Ava, this is so good.
You did such a good job.

There's no way anyone
is ever gonna mix this up,

I promise.

I'm totally happy to
compensate you for the delay, but...

No. You know what?
I've got her in my hand.

I'm gonna put
this box in my car,

so it's not even gonna
go in the truck, okay?

No, no, no, not tomorrow.
It has to be today.

I know, sweetheart,
but I promise you that...

If you just... Are
you there? Ava?

- Honey?
- Fine, but I can't go tomorrow.

- Hey, Mira.
- Oh, hey, Veronica.

Yeah, no. She's really angry.

No, I'll have cash
for you when you get here, okay?

It's good she's expressing it.

I mean, it's
healthy, but it's just,

- I didn't...
- Yeah. Yeah. That's good.

Six o'clock is fine, but please
no later than that, all right?

- Do you know when you'll be done?
- I think I'll be done at 8:00?

Yeah. All right.
See you soon. Thank you.

All right. Thank you
for everything. Bye.

Hey.

Everything okay?

Yeah. It's just this
fixation on her things.

I mean, it's normal.

Her therapist
warned us about it.

I just didn't realize it
would be this intense.

Yeah. You know, I'm
sure she's gonna feel

so much better once
everything's unpacked, and...

Mm-hmm. You don't think I
could find an Advil by chance?

I've got such a crazy headache.

Um, I don't
know. Let me see, maybe...

Oh, God.

Maybe in the bathroom?

Is Tylenol okay?

Uh, it'll have to be.

Okay. Here you go. Here.

- Thanks.
- You got a migraine?

I don't know yet.

It started in the middle of
my meeting with Ackerman.

Hmm.

Well, Ackerman's a
migraine personified.

I don't know about
that, you know?

I think it's the stress of
having to leave in the middle.

We weren't exactly finished.

Uh, yeah. Sorry.
Couldn't cancel the movers.

Okay. But I'm still
just a little unclear

why it had to be today.

Why? Because we agreed
to vacate on the 20th.

But why did we agree
to vacate on the 20th?

Because I'm leaving on a
flight the day after tomorrow.

Yeah, but you're
only gone for a week.

Well, nine days, actually.

Okay. So what's
the big deal, honey?

- What is it?
- Okay, okay, okay.

Let's just get
through this, okay?

Okay. Let's go downstairs.

Well, shouldn't we just start
here since we're already...

No, we can do it later.

Okay.

But wait, wasn't it just
supposed to be a week?

I mean, how many lectures
are you doing? Just two, no?

Um, well, two in Berlin,

and then there's
the panel in Vienna.

- I showed you the itinerary.
- Right. Yeah. I just...

I better get used to
you traveling so much.

Well, it's not... it's only
my second trip this year.

Yeah. Uh, where
are the documents?

- There.
- Okay.

It's just this last paper
really took off, you know.

- Yeah, it's great.
- Yeah, it's crazy.

Yeah. Okay.

Okay, yeah, so...

There you go.

So here is the list
of items right here.

Mm-hmm.

And here's the
settlement itself.

Right.

Uh, which is exactly what
we agreed to with Jason.

Remember, he sent us the memo?

He emailed it to us
last week? Right? Okay?

And the only difference
is the amount we got

for the house, split in
two, minus the broker's fee.

In the last draft, it was blank.

Okay.

Uh, what is... What
am I supposed to...

You'll sign
by the stickers, and then

- you'll initial each page.
- Right.

- Wait, hold on, hold on.
- No, I got it.

Wait, wait. We have to
look through all the items

and make sure everything's
okay. That's why we're doing it here.

- I'm just not up for this right now, so...
- We'll do it really quickly.

We'll just go through it quickly, then
you'll sign, and that's it. You'll be done.

You don't even have to
wait for the movers, okay?

No, I do. I promised Ava
I would be here to put...

Make sure her
boxes got on the truck.

Well, then you have
to wait anyway, right?

So come on. Let's get started.

Okay. Okay. Fine.

- So what do the colors mean?
- Yeah.

Yellow's mine. Um, red is yours.

- Okay.
- Blue is storage.

So they'll pack
everything up, and, uh,

then they'll unload
at my place first,

then you guys, then
the storage facility.

Okay?

Will Poli be home?

Will he be able to
help you unpack?

I'm not sure.

Uh... didn't we say said that I
was gonna get the green couch?

Uh, actually, no, we didn't.

We didn't. You said
that you didn't want

any of the living room furniture

because you got all
new stuff at the tower.

No, I'm pretty sure we talked
about the green couch specifi...

- We didn't.
- Okay.

Do you want to? You
wanna talk about it?

I mean, like formally
in the settlement?

It's fine.
It's just furniture.

Okay.

All
right. All right. All right.

Okay. There you go.

Happy to do it.

Really. Okay?

How's your headache?

You need to lie
down for a moment?

- No. I'm fine.
- Okay.

You up for doing this?

We'll just go through
the house quickly

- and just get it done?
- No.

I'm not up for it, Jonathan.

But you already wanted
to make an adjustment to the thing.

- I just think it's important...
- I know. It's okay. I trust you.

I really do. Just...
you do it. I trust you.

Is... is something wrong?

No. It's just, um,

it's been a shitty
day, you know?

- Yeah.
- It's really...

It's a horrible ending
to just a terrible day.

What's horrible?

Oh, yeah. Well, yeah. Yeah.

No, I mean, it is...
it's a... It is surprising

how something so formal
can have such an impact, right?

I mean, it's just
a piece of paper,

- just a fucking gett.
- A "get"?

Yeah. It's, uh, it's
Hebrew for divorce papers.

Oh, yeah. I think
I remember that.

Although "give"
would be more like it.

- Yeah.
- Give up.

It's Aramaic for deed.

- Mm.
- It's basically papers

that when I give them
to you, we're divorced.

- And that's it?
- Yeah.

Yeah. But it's
like... It's a crazy,

traumatic ceremony.

- There's three judges.
- Mm-hmm.

And, um, you have
to have witnesses

to testify that you are
who you say you are

and I am who I say
I am. It's humiliating.

- Is it gett with two Ts?
- Yeah.

And then you have to
go into this little room,

- and there's a guy in there...
- Uh-huh.

Writing calligraphy
on parchment.

And he's writing out
the text of the gett.

- Yeah.
- And it's...

It's like a thriller,
because the tiniest mistake

and you have to
start all over again.

And then, uh, and then you
go back in to the judges...

- Mm-hmm.
- And the witnesses.

And then I have to hand you
the gett in front of everybody

and yell a few sentences at
you, and then you hold it up high,

and you walk around
the room with it.

And then the judge
rips it to pieces.

- And there's more.
- Jesus.

Yeah, totally.

Why does it have
to be like that?

- Isn't it brutal enough?
- Well, I think there's a...

Plenty of legal reasons,
but I think it just has to be

absolute and definitive.
That's the... you know.

- They don't like any gray areas.
- Mm.

You're either in or you're out.

And if you're out...
there's no going back.

- Right.
- There's some logic to that, no?

So what's it say?

It's like, um...

"This is your gett, and with it,

you are divorced from me

and hereby
permitted to all men."

To all men? Thank you very much.

Yeah.

Does all men include you?

No. No.

I'm not allowed to
touch you anymore

or even be in the same
room alone with you

- from that point on.
- Hmm.

It's
over. Clean break.

And like, um...
What are... are you...

allowed to marry me again?

Am I allowed to marry you?

In principle, but only
if you haven't been

with any other men.

- We are fucked.
- Yeah.

- Hey.
- Hmm?

Come here.

Come here.

So basically, this is forbidden?

Well, we're not divorced yet.

Not yet.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, my...

Okay.

No.

- Just...
- No, don't.

Don't go yet. Don't go yet.

Please.

Stay here.

Penny for your thoughts?

It'll cost you a
lot more than that.

Are you hungry?

Yeah. I'm always hungry.

Let's go out.

- What?
- Yeah.

- Really?
- Yeah.

The movers are gonna
be here in 20 minutes.

We'll go to The
Grille, all right?

Back in 20 minutes.

I want a steak.

Okay. Okay. Great. Let's do it.

- Okay.
- I'm just gonna...

Sure. Do your thing.

What?

Nothing.

I should probably...

Just give me a second, okay?

Mm-hmm.

I'll be right back.

Right, so...

Okay.

Let's get these
stupid papers signed,

and we'll go get a bite to eat.

Pay tribute to a long
and happy marriage.

You can go home
straight from there, yeah?

Um, I think I'm gonna
take these home

and take a minute to go over it.

What do you mean?
We went over it a hundred times.

Yeah, but you have to
read a contract before you sign it.

Uh, no. Actually, you
don't, 'cause that's the exact

same document that
we approved already.

All right. So what's... Why
does it have to be today?

Mira. Come on. We agreed, today.

- We agreed we'd do it today.
- It'll be tomorrow, I promise.

- No, I c...
- What's the big deal?

- I
- cannot do it tomorrow

- because I'm getting ready for my trip...
- Okay.

- And I won't have time to go down to the courthouse.
- That's fine.

- So let's do it now.
- So it... it'll be, um,

- when you get back.
- Oh, my God. I...

- I can't believe this.
- What?

No. Okay. Okay.

Okay, here.

Sit down right here,
okay? Right now.

- Babe, I'm not...
- Just listen.

Go over it. Go over it.
Take all the time you need.

I'm gonna get out of your way.

Just for fuck's
sake, get it over with.

Why are you talking to me
like that? What is wrong?

- What's wrong is...
- Yeah?

We went over it a hundred times!

We spent months hashing it out,

- so what is your latest whim?
- Okay. Whoa. Okay.

- Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
- You can't, like...

We're here. We're...

We were just having
a really good time.

- Yeah.
- And we're about to go get something to eat.

I don't think so. I'm
not going to, okay? No.

- Jonathan. Hey.
- No. Mira. Mira.

Please, get it over with.

I don't understand
what the big deal is.

What could be more
rational than wanting to take it

and go over it
quietly at home? So...

Mm-hmm.

- Okay.
- Yeah?

Yeah. Fine.

Fine. That's okay.
Forget about it, okay?

Just take it home. Go
over it quietly with Poli.

He's nobody's sucker,
that's for sure, right?

- Just make sure, you guys can look through it...
- Jonathan.

That I haven't, you
know, fucked you over

in some secret
clause or something

that I've put in there.
Go ahead. Just take it.

- Don't do this.
- Fucking forget it.

It's fine. I don't
care. It's fine.

I don't understand what...

We were just so
close to each other.

Yup. Exactly.

Just so you know, if we're talking
about renegotiating, it's a two-way street,

and there's plenty of stuff in
there that I'm not crazy about either.

I'm not saying that I wanna renegotiate.
I'm just saying I wanna read it.

- Okay.
- Okay?

- Just saying. I'm just saying.
- Okay.

Jesus.

By the way, since
we're talking, um,

you haven't paid your
half of Ava's dance classes,

and they're bugging me about it.

All right. I'll pay
you right now.

No. Don't pay me. Pay
them what you owe them.

Your half. That's how it works.

Right. I will pay
them. How much is it?

I don't know. Check with them.

Okay.

It's 2,500 dollars.

- What?
- Yeah.

What?

We moved her into
the intermediate group.

That's twice a
week, ballet and jazz.

Yeah. I know it's twice
a week. It was my idea.

Okay, well,
that's how much it costs.

I don't know what you want me to tell
you. You asked me to take care of it.

You didn't think it was
a little exorbitant or...

If I can afford it, Mira,
you can afford it too.

Okay. It's not about
whether or not I can afford it.

- It's just...
- Okay.

It's outrageous, so...

Well, I guess if
that's what it costs,

then we'll just, you know,
we'll cut her back down

- to once a week.
- Okay. That's fine. Go for it.

Tell her that she can
only go once a week

and she's gotta choose
between ballet and jazz.

I'm fine with that.

Can't... can you tell her that?

Why should I tell her that?

Because I
can't... You know why.

I'm... She's furious at me.

I'm walking a
delicate line with her.

Okay. Well, you know what?
Not giving her boundaries,

that's not gonna
make it any better.

Fine. Jonathan, I know
I'm a failure as a mother,

- but that's not really helping.
- You know what, instead of acting like a martyr,

- why don't you just try...
- Oh, my God.

Having an honest
conversation with her?

- She's seven years old.
- Give me a break!

- She's not a toddler anymore.
- You know things are shitty between her and I right now,

- and your lecture isn't helping.
- Well, you have to... Okay.

- Will you tell her or not?
- What do you want me to tell her?

That her mother ran away
with some guy one day

and now she has to choose
between ballet and jazz?

Wow.

I hoped I'd never
hear that again.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't...
That was unnecessary.

I'm sorry about that.

I'm sorry.

Is that what you tell her?

Is that the story you
tell her about me?

No. No. I don't...

I don't talk to her about that.

I don't ever talk to her
about the separation.

Okay.

Why, do you talk
to her about it?

No.

It's fucked up.

I mean, I don't...
Like, it's hard.

Where do we even begin to...

I know, I wish we...

We don't even know
what's going on.

We just all grow
up illiterate about it.

Maybe we should've
been more prepared for it.

It's a fact that it doesn't
always end up that way.

I mean, it doesn't even
usually end up that way.

So how do you prepare
someone for that?

I don't know.

I think we should teach
kids that, yeah, love ends.

It's, uh...

Yeah, relationships
end and people leave

and they break up
and they divorce.

- And that's just a part of life.
- Yeah.

And then maybe it just
wouldn't be so painful

and, uh, you know,
all the suffering.

I think the real suffering
is the in-between.

You know, the limbo,
neither here nor there, just...

I think that's way
harder than a breakup.

That's much more traumatic

for the kids and
for the parents.

At least, that's
how it is for me.

Mira, let's get this
over with, okay?

I'll...

I promise you that if you find
something in the document,

or if there's a mistake
in the settlement,

I won't contest it.

I'll write something right
now guaranteeing you that.

All right?

I don't understand.
I mean, what...

This isn't about
the money, right?

So what is...

I got fired.

What?

Or I was... I was
invited to resign.

Anyway, it's... it's over.

I don't understand.
What do you mean?

That's what my meeting
with Ackerman today was about.

Oh.

Yeah.

I mean, it was kind of obvious
something like this could happen

ever since I didn't take the
London job. I mean, I was...

You were never gonna
take the London job.

No, that's...
Okay, that's not accurate.

- And there were various options to that.
- Mira. No, there...

There was no option, so...

Come on. I'm not blaming
you. That's not what this is about.

It's just like, you know,

when I didn't take
the job, then...

yeah, they didn't know
what to do with me.

Couldn't relocate. I couldn't
travel because of Ava.

And, you know, going,
uh, back to running

a product management
team, it just...

It seemed like a demotion.

So they started shopping
me around the company,

to find me a position.

- Nothing clicked.
- Yeah.

So this morning, uh, he
asked me for a meeting,

which he began by saying,

"Mira, I would like to set
you free for a new adventure."

Asshole.

I'm like, "I'm 43
and half years old.

I'm one-half of a single parent.

What kind of new adventure
do you have in mind?

I mean, tell me the truth.
Tell me that you're firing me

because I no longer
live for this company,

I'm not at your beck and
call 120 percent of the time

like I used to be.
You can't ask me to,

you know, go out,
entertain the clients anymore

because I'd rather be
at home with my kid.

And you know what,
maybe the new, young,

ambitious product manager
should take them out anyway,

because she's much more fun."

I guess the
weird... I was, uh...

You know, I was sitting
across from him and, um,

I could see in his
eyes, they were just like

switched off, you know?

I was invisible to him.

I used to have all
this power over him.

I could steer him
in whatever direction

I wanted him to go,
and now I was nothing.

And then I
realized that I, um...

I've lost that power
over everything.

You know, that power that
comes from, um, being desirous.

I sat at the table and I
just... I felt so disposable

and, uh... yeah,
so I really, I felt old.

So, that's it.

Yeah, I'm, uh... There's
a hearing in two weeks.

I have a severance, there'll
be stock options, and...

But that's it. That's...
You know, it's done.

I'm really sorry that
happened to you.

You're sorry that
happened to me?

Yeah. Yeah.

Okay. You don't
need to be polite.

No.
No. I'm not. I, uh...

But, uh, I, uh, it's...

What?

You know, it's weird.

What?

I'm just... I'm...

- I'm listening to everything that you're saying...
- Uh-huh.

And it's just... It's not, uh...

You're right.

If circumstances were different,

I'd be fucking losing
my mind right now.

I'd be telling you I was
gonna murder Ackerman

- and...
- Mm-hmm.

Be going crazy with
revenge fantasies.

- Right.
- Yeah.

And I'm listening
to you right now,

and I don't... I don't feel...

anything.

Oh, wow.

Well, congratulations.

- I'm sorry.
- No.

I don't... I'm not trying
to be callous. I'm not.

I know that you're going through
a really hard time right now,

- but you asked, and that's...
- Yeah.

I'm sharing how I feel.

Well, how you don't feel.

Half an hour after
you were inside me.

- Yeah. It's a...
- Yeah.

That was...
That's the weird part.

Uh-huh.

But, honestly, even
when we were having sex,

- which was great. It was.
- Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

- It really was, right?
- Yeah.

And... there was a
part of me that was observing myself

from the outside, checking
in to see like how I felt,

how I was feeling. What
if this was the last time?

What if I never
even see you again?

- Mm-hmm.
- How do I feel?

Would it be so
unbearable? And no,

I realized I could
do without it.

- You didn't feel that way?
- Mm-mm. No.

Okay, it's just like,
I think about it a lot,

- you know?
- Mm-hmm.

Because I do... I
do think that my...

extreme dependence on you,
that that's really what ruined

everything for us beyond repair
because that paralyzed me.

Hmm.

The thought of losing
you, the fear of losing you,

because that would
mean losing everything.

So I'm just saying that, like
when we were in the middle

- of that...
- Mm-hmm.

I realized that that fear
wasn't there anymore.

That I was free
from you at last...

Okay. I don't wanna... I
don't wanna hear anymore.

I mean, it's not
really the right time

for a therapy session.
You don't have to blurt out

- whatever pops in your head.
- Shut the fuck up.

Just shut up.

Like, what... what is this?

What is this sarcasm
and this fucking toxic shit?

Who are you to say when the time
is right and when the time is wrong?

- Why do you get to decide that?
- While you tell me you just fucked me

in order to prove yourself that
you don't love me anymore?

I'm trying to talk to you.
I'm trying to talk to you.

I'm trying to tell you
something about...

No. You're a fucking
narcissist. This isn't sharing.

This is you vomiting your stream
of consciousness all over me.

You don't give a fuck
how it makes me feel.

That is such bullshit.

I... Mira, there...

I have never had an
inch of emotional space

- to share about my feelings with you.
- Oh, my God.

If I hear one more word
of this psychobabble,

- I'm gonna scream.
- Well, go ahead, scream.

Scream. You've always
been much better at that

than actually communicating,

- than actually having a conversation.
- Right.

And you're surprised
they fired you?

It's a miracle they
kept you this long

- when you never learned...
- Shut up!

How to actually communicate.

I fucking hate you.

Wow. Okay.

I hate fucking you too, so
everything you said just...

Well, you know what,
it didn't seem like that

- a second ago, but...
- Oh, my God, you moron.

You think because you
fucked me like that one time,

- it suddenly makes you...
- Mira, just stop it.

Oh, what? Oh, sorry.
God, I said fucked.

I forgot I'm not
allowed to say that.

- What are you talking about?
- Oh, is it allowed now?

Am I allowed to say
cock, pussy, and cum,

and all those bad words

without you, you know,
running out of the room?

You are so out of
touch with my life.

It's actually really sad.

- Oh, really?
- Yeah.

So all of your religious
hang-ups are just like gone?

- What?
- 'Cause a minute ago, you...

You sprinted to the shower after
'cause, you know, bodily fluids

gross you out. So
what's different?

It's actually none
of your business.

But why?
We're sharing, right?

So now I'm gonna share
with you how shitty it felt

to pretend like I
wasn't a sexual person,

because for you, I knew
it would turn you off.

Feeling depraved every
time I wanted to fuck you

because for you it
was "complicated."

And I tried not to
take it personally.

I did. I said, "Okay.
It's not about me.

It's who you are. It
has to do with you,

- where you're from."
- You know what amazes me,

is that I actually
really bought it.

I believed you. I believed that
I was hopelessly screwed up.

Right.

And I could've lived my
entire life not realizing

that everything that
you've despised me for...

Mm-hmm.

Everything that
you hated about me,

somebody else would love
me for exactly the same thing.

They would accept
me for exactly who I am.

Well, either they're lying or
they're very inexperienced.

You're so fucking twisted.

You are the most twisted
person that I have ever known.

And not a day goes by
that I don't thank God...

- Sure.
- That I realized

- how amazing sex can be...
- Oh, my God.

And I didn't have
to waste my life.

You are the most
asexual person I ever met,

and you made a thousand
theories to justify it.

It's true! And
you know what, it turns out

all I needed was a woman
who actually wanted me as I am.

And I had to teach you
everything about sex.

That's exactly right!
That's exactly the problem.

You taught me, and
you managed me,

and you told me how we
would do it and when would do it,

- and everything about it.
- Oh, my God.

- That's so unreal.
- And you'd scold me.

You would scold me
like a fucking child.

You know, I think of all the
mistakes we've made in our life.

The biggest, that we got
together in the first place.

Okay. Well
then, let's fix our mistake.

Let's sign these papers so
we can get the fuck out of here.

- Bring them to me. I will.
- Happy to.

Here you go.

Initial on each page.
Sign by the stickers.

Yeah, I heard... I
heard you the first time.

Great.

Stop staring at me.
I can't concentrate.

Okay. Whatever you need.

Okay.

You don't wanna sign it.

I'm trying to skim it.

You're doing everything
you can to distract...

Mira, you've read
it a hundred times.

- You don't wanna sign it.
- Fuck off.

You don't want to get a divorce.

That's what this is about.
What I'm trying to figure out

is if you already knew that
before you got here today.

Jonathan, please. My
head's pounding. Just...

Will you just say it?

Will you just say it, please?
Say it. You don't want to.

- Just say it.
- I just can't.

I wanna come home.

God, don't look at me
like that. I know. I'm just...

I know what this looks like.

Oh, man.

I don't, like...

You can think
whatever you want about me.

I guess there's
nothing more pathetic

- than what I'm doing now.
- Just... like how do you...

What... wh... wh... what...

How are you not ashamed?

I've never been more
ashamed in my whole life.

I don't... like...

So...

I don't know. So
should I be expecting

another surprise call from Poli?

Does he know that you're here?

Just help me.

Help me understand
what your thinking is here.

So if I said, "Okay.
Yeah. Great. Let's forget it.

Let's get back together."

You... what?

You'll go back home to Poli
and tell him what exactly?

There's no Poli.

We broke up two weeks ago.
It's over. And he's in Tel Aviv.

Okay.

I haven't told Ava yet, so
please don't say anything to her.

He's gonna come back
next week to say goodbye.

I'm gonna, um, pick
her up on Wednesday

and we'll tell her together.

Please, please don't do that

unless you're absolutely
sure that it's over, okay?

It's over.

Um, you know,
for a long time now,

we've been having these
really, uh, vicious fights.

After the last time I was here,

he gave me an
ultimatum. He said, uh,

either we're having a kid
or, um, we're breaking up.

Well, kids, plural. It was
not... It wasn't just one.

And I guess I agreed.

Eventually, I gave in

and we tried for six months,
and nothing happened.

Then we went to
Dr. Varona, and...

she said that, uh, I should
start IVF as soon as...

Sooner rather than
later 'cause of my age.

And, uh...

somehow I just...
I kept delaying

picking up the prescription.

And, eventually,
Poli, he was like, um...

"You don't want this.

It's not happening, and
it isn't gonna happen

because, um, you don't
wanna have my kid...

'cause you'll always
see me as the guy

who broke up your family."

And we went to counseling
and on the first session,

the, um, therapist, she...
You know, she asked me

if I thought that, um...

I could ever give up on you.

You know, if I could, um,
accept that it was over.

I didn't say anything.
And, um, I just...

Was just silent.

And in the second
session, it was obvious

that the relationship was done,

but it took Poli another
week to accept that.

I don't know if you care.

And, yeah, I'm sure
you think this is probably

another manipulation.

I'm too tired to try to convince
you otherwise, so just...

- do with it what you want.
- Do with it what I want?

What... what...

What do you expect
me to do with it?

I don't know.

- Uh-huh.
- I'm not trying to...

I'm not trying to
talk you into it,

'cause you've made
yourself pretty clear.

I'm just saying that, um...

I mean, I know it would
be different this time.

Right.

We both have so much
more self-knowledge now and, um,

that has to make a
difference, don't you think?

No, I don't think.

Why not? Like
how can you be so sure?

Because, Mira,
you don't want me.

You got fired and you got
dumped, and so you just...

No, I didn't... I didn't
get dumped. I just...

You're not listening to me. I
just told you what happened.

It doesn't matter. It
really doesn't matter.

But why? Why doesn't it matter?

I'm trying to tell you
something about how I feel

and about how I felt
for you this whole time.

- Mm-hmm.
- Like, why doesn't that matter?

And I know that you feel it too.

- I know you do.
- Okay.

- And maybe the fact that we haven't been able to...
- You don't... you don't, like...

extricate ourselves from
each other's lives all this time,

I mean, that means...
It means something.

You didn't absorb a single
word that I said to you before,

and I don't know how
to get it through to you

that I don't have
feelings for you anymore.

I don't. I'm sober.

I'm inoculated. That's it.

I know you're angry.

And, um...

- Oh, my God
-I'm just like asking that,

you know, you just take
a second to think about it.

- And I'm not saying it's immediately gonna...
- Mira, what the fuck?

But like maybe you...
When you're in Europe.

What do you think?

You think I'm just gonna
throw away all the progress

that I made over
the last two years

just 'cause you... I
mean...

You know... Do you
wanna something?

You know that there was a
period where I started praying?

Like actually praying to
God for you to come back?

After you came over to the
house that one time and you just...

Yeah!

I was laying right
over there with Ava

waiting for her go to sleep,

so that I could talk to
you, try to convince you.

And I heard the door slam...

and I wanted to kill
you all over again.

And somehow I
found myself right here

in the middle of this kitchen,
just like with my eyes closed

swaying, praying to God...

that you would come back to me.

So you got me to pray again.

That was unexpected.

Can I have some?

It's pineapple
vodka. It's revolting.

I don't know who
brought it here.

I can take it.

Thanks.

Can I have more?

Look...

You should be happy for me.

You really should.

That I'm finally rid of
this dybbuk, you know?

It's better that I'm
over it, for both of us.

And I know you're gonna
get through too, honestly.

- No.
- Yes. I do know that.

And it can be a
new chapter for you.

You can start a whole new life.

It could be a really
exciting time for you.

Yeah.

Let me tell you one thing.

I have zero interest in
my new life. I mean, zero.

I have no curiosity
about it, and I...

I have no motivation
to start anew.

You're saying that from
where you are right now

after just getting fired and
everything that's happening.

No. It's not about
now. It's like all the time.

- Yeah.
- All I want is what I... what I used to have.

I don't want anything new.

Please. Don't. Don't. Don't.

- Why?
- Mira.

Look, you know me better
than anybody else on this planet,

so I'm not gonna try
to hide from you the fact

that I do have that urge, okay?

I have that urge to
say, "Fuck it. Let's just..."

- Yeah.
- "...tear up these papers.

Let's do it. Let's
start again," right?

I mean, I have been waiting
two years for this very moment.

- Right.
- But I have to fight it.

- We both have to fight it.
- No, we don't.

Yes, we do, because
it's never going to work.

I'm not in that place anymore,
and you're not in that place.

But, but we can
find our way back,

I think that's what
we're doing right now.

No, that's not what we're doing.

Look, just because there's
this thing that happens

whenever we see each other,
that doesn't mean anything.

- It's a mirage.
- No, no.

And I know that after a day
passed, after the excitement passes,

we would look at each
other and we'd think,

- "What the fuck did we do?"
- No.

We can't live in the
same house together.

And by then it'd be too late because we...

- It's not gonna happen again.
- Listen. Listen to me, please.

I've never been more
sure of anything in my life.

Just trust my
instincts for once.

Okay? Okay?

- But...
- I'm sorry. Hold on.

I have to just check
this 'cause I think...

I think there's, um...

Oh, fuck. The movers
just... They're running late.

And you have to call Veronica.
She's been trying to call you.

Oh.

Hey, Veronica.

No, no. It's
ok... It's no problem.

Just, you know, let me talk
to her.

- Hi, Mommy!
- Hey, Ava.

Sweetheart,
if you made a mistake

with the boxes, you
know, that's easy to fix.

We can just, you know...

But, honey, you
and Daddy can like...

You can make that
decision tomorrow

when you see the new house.

Because, uh, tomorrow's
Wednesday, honey.

You're... you know,
you're with me today.

Yeah, I know you were, but,
um, Tuesday switches every week.

So, yeah, just check
your chart, okay?

I know, but, you know, that's
what we decided on, so...

- Please.
- Oh, Ava.

- Mira...
- Oh, hey, Veronica.

No, no, no, no. She doesn't...
If she doesn't wanna talk to me,

so that's okay.

Um, I think maybe an hour or so.

Okay. Bye.

Okay. Bye.

Why don't you go home, honey?

I've got everything
under control here, okay?

Calm down. Get going, okay?

What about the settlement?

Forget about
the settlement. Let's just toss it.

- But wh...
- It's not important. I...

It's not worth it.

It was... it was
important, but...

To get it done today,
but, uh, not at this cost.

But why was it so
important to you?

Doesn't matter now.

Just tell me. Please.

Just say it. Why?

Well, I thought that maybe I
wanted to have another kid.

Suddenly I
realized that it's the thing

that brings me the
most joy in my life.

I'm good at it.

I want Ava to have a sibling.

And I'm not willing to
wait for the love of my life

or whatever.

And in therapy, it
came up, actually,

that having another kid
was more important to me

than having another partner.

And I was having lunch
with, uh, Celia Patterson,

- from my department?
- Mm.

Her and her girlfriend
just split up and, uh...

Well, it came up that
she was in the process

of looking for a partner,

a man, for, um...

What's it called? Um...

Elective co-parenting,
which... yeah.

And kind of as a
joke, she was like,

"You'd be perfect.
What about you?"

So you're gonna have a
kid with Celia Patterson?

I don't know. Maybe.

I mean, not necessarily her.

But it's a... It's a
cleaner situation

to go into that arrangement
officially divorced.

But I'm not gonna put
that stress on you right now.

- No.
- No. I mean...

it's not really...

I'm just asking, you know?

All this thinking, you
know, you've been doing

about having a
kid with whoever...

Um...

Even occur to you
to have it with me?

With you?

Honestly, it never occurred
to me that you would want to.

Why not?

- Why not?
- Yeah.

Are you punishing
me for the abortion?

Mira, what? No.
What are you talking about? I...

There's nothing that
would make me believe

- that you would want to.
- But I would.

I mean, I'm not gonna...

I'm not gonna say that we
made a mistake back then.

I didn't think we
could handle it,

you know, back then.

I didn't think our marriage
could survive another kid.

I know. Joke's on me.

But that's the truth, so...

I believe you.

And we're in a
different place now.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

Yeah. We're in
a different place.

We're not the same people.
You know, we're not, uh,

young anymore. We're not...

You mean, I'm not young anymore?

- No. That's not what I said.
- That's what you meant.

- No. No. That's not...
- Yeah.

No, that's... It's not
about you at all, Mira.

- Okay.
- What I'm trying to do is see

if there's a way to
undo this paradigm

where having a kid is bound
to having a romantic partner

because then maybe
I'd be free to think about...

Free to keep fucking around
and still get to have a kid?

Is that the idea? No?

'Cause it's wrapped up in so
much psychological bullshit,

I'm still trying... I'm
just trying to understand

what you're actually saying. Is
it that your successful therapy

has turned you into
an egocentric asshole

who, you know, just does
whatever the fuck he feels like...

- Okay. We're done.
- And then doesn't even...

What do you mean?

Here's the tip for the movers.

No. You're not leaving.

- What's the balance?
- Come on.

They should know the route,

but if there's any problems,
just have them call me.

Jonathan.

Otherwise, I'm sure
you can handle it.

Okay. Just
hold on a second.

Let's talk for a minute, okay?

About what?
Haven't you had enough?

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I lashed out.

I'm really strung out, okay?

It's
okay. I understand.

Okay. We can't end it like this.

I mean, you can't
just leave, okay?

Jonathan, listen, you
can't drop a bomb like that

and just leave.

- Okay, we'll do it another time.
- No. No.

- We're gonna talk about it right now. Right now.
- Mira, you need to calm down.

- Mira, let me go.
- Because this affects all of our lives.

- It affects Ava's life.
- I'm done. I'm done, okay?

Okay. Um, okay.

Just... I'm not gonna
let it end like this, okay?

Please. I'm really sorry.

- I said something really nasty.
- Okay. Okay.

I'm sorry.
I didn't mean it.

I got that. I got
that, okay? Okay.

- All right. Let me go now.
- Okay. Okay.

So... no, no, no. Just take
a second to take a breath.

- Just a breath! For a second, just take a breath!
- You need to let me go. Stop.

Give me the key.

No. Just, you know...
Like just take a second,

- just like...
- Mira...

I mean, let's talk
for a little bit.

- Like, what's your problem?
- Can you just...

- No!
- Give me the key. Mira, stop.

Stop.

Give me the key.

No.

No. Stop it.

Stop. Stop it. Stop. Stop it.

Wait. Wait.

We should have done that
a long time ago.

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