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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 0 00:01:20,384 --> 00:01:22,821 Okay. So these are the rules. 1 00:01:22,952 --> 00:01:25,259 You have to get from here to there 2 00:01:25,346 --> 00:01:28,175 without touching the floor or the light. 3 00:01:28,305 --> 00:01:30,177 All right, Bearbear, you can do this. 4 00:01:30,307 --> 00:01:32,440 Just have to go slow, okay? 5 00:01:44,539 --> 00:01:46,541 You can do it, Bearbear. You just have to jump. 6 00:01:47,455 --> 00:01:48,586 Okay, ready? 7 00:02:12,915 --> 00:02:15,265 Sometimes I can feel the sky as it rotates. 8 00:02:20,488 --> 00:02:22,968 It scatters my thoughts, creating this... 9 00:02:24,753 --> 00:02:26,015 sound. 10 00:02:28,322 --> 00:02:29,410 And it'll grow louder. 11 00:02:31,499 --> 00:02:32,499 More aggressive. 12 00:02:35,198 --> 00:02:36,417 Like two people fighting. 13 00:02:39,637 --> 00:02:42,292 I look up and I know I can keep my shit together. 14 00:02:44,816 --> 00:02:46,296 And then it rains. 15 00:03:54,321 --> 00:03:55,887 It's gonna stop, baby girl. 16 00:03:56,018 --> 00:03:58,890 If it doesn't, I'll be the only kid in class 17 00:03:58,977 --> 00:04:00,240 with an indoor swimming pool. 18 00:04:01,719 --> 00:04:04,374 Ooh, quefancy. 19 00:04:06,681 --> 00:04:08,552 You don't need a flood to stand out. 20 00:04:09,466 --> 00:04:11,381 You've got grease all over your face. 21 00:04:13,905 --> 00:04:16,430 Oh, yeah. You, like, totally got it now. 22 00:04:16,560 --> 00:04:18,214 It looks all bad. 23 00:04:27,049 --> 00:04:28,268 It will grow louder. 24 00:04:31,183 --> 00:04:32,576 The lights will turn off. 25 00:04:34,535 --> 00:04:35,535 The roof will cave in. 26 00:04:38,974 --> 00:04:40,323 Everything will fall apart. 27 00:04:43,761 --> 00:04:45,110 And I wonder if you can hear me. 28 00:05:13,313 --> 00:05:14,314 Don't let go. 29 00:05:15,837 --> 00:05:16,837 Don't let go. 30 00:05:18,274 --> 00:05:19,319 Please. 31 00:05:37,511 --> 00:05:38,990 Hold your hand. 32 00:05:39,121 --> 00:05:41,776 No, don't let me. It's my fault. I did it. 33 00:05:42,951 --> 00:05:44,605 Who's she talking to? 34 00:05:47,956 --> 00:05:49,000 Jesus. 35 00:05:49,392 --> 00:05:50,524 Is he listening? 36 00:05:51,655 --> 00:05:52,700 I don't know, baby girl. 37 00:05:54,005 --> 00:05:55,311 Is she crazy? 38 00:06:01,883 --> 00:06:03,101 I don't know, baby girl. 39 00:06:03,232 --> 00:06:04,232 You're on fire. 40 00:06:04,320 --> 00:06:05,539 You set it on fire! 41 00:06:07,671 --> 00:06:10,892 I'm holding your fucking hand, 42 00:06:11,022 --> 00:06:13,808 fuck you, you fucking ugly fucker, fucker, fucker... 43 00:06:13,895 --> 00:06:17,289 Hold your hand. I'm holding your hand. 44 00:06:31,826 --> 00:06:32,946 You got lost, Chama, or what? 45 00:06:34,002 --> 00:06:35,220 Where you going? 46 00:06:37,135 --> 00:06:38,702 Don't be all nosy, Matias. 47 00:06:40,400 --> 00:06:41,879 She has a job interview. 48 00:06:42,010 --> 00:06:43,838 Oh, where at? 49 00:06:44,229 --> 00:06:45,535 You my PO now or something? 50 00:06:58,200 --> 00:07:00,376 Look, it's, like, a good job opportunity, okay? 51 00:07:00,898 --> 00:07:02,552 Gonna pay real good, 52 00:07:02,683 --> 00:07:04,083 then you won't be seeing us no more. 53 00:07:07,818 --> 00:07:08,906 Who names their kid Chama? 54 00:07:11,561 --> 00:07:12,867 It's short for Elena. 55 00:07:14,869 --> 00:07:16,784 - No, it isn't. - It is, if I say it is. 56 00:07:17,915 --> 00:07:19,955 Anybody ever tell you you got spiders in your veins? 57 00:07:20,004 --> 00:07:21,644 Anyone ever tell you to put on some shoes? 58 00:07:31,581 --> 00:07:33,235 Come on, baby, get your bag. 59 00:07:35,759 --> 00:07:36,759 That you? 60 00:07:37,587 --> 00:07:38,719 Yeah, that's me. 61 00:07:39,197 --> 00:07:40,547 Hey, good luck out there. 62 00:07:45,508 --> 00:07:47,205 Let me see. 63 00:07:48,032 --> 00:07:49,967 You're gonna lose everything if you don't close your backpack. 64 00:07:49,991 --> 00:07:51,775 Come on. Got everything you need? 65 00:07:52,515 --> 00:07:54,561 Mm-hmm. 66 00:07:54,648 --> 00:07:55,973 I'm gonna be right here, waiting for you after school. 67 00:07:55,997 --> 00:07:56,997 Really? 68 00:07:57,607 --> 00:07:59,087 Yes, really. 69 00:07:59,217 --> 00:08:00,412 Are you gonna give me shit today, too? 70 00:08:00,436 --> 00:08:01,829 Come on. 71 00:08:01,959 --> 00:08:03,308 - I love you. - I love you. 72 00:08:07,748 --> 00:08:08,836 Have fun. 73 00:08:24,155 --> 00:08:25,679 I remember being her age. 74 00:08:28,682 --> 00:08:29,962 That's when I learned how to lie. 75 00:08:31,423 --> 00:08:33,164 I used to tell teachers I was sick. 76 00:08:33,687 --> 00:08:34,927 That's why I was missing school. 77 00:08:37,038 --> 00:08:38,779 When I did go, I tried to blend in. 78 00:08:39,606 --> 00:08:41,477 I brushed my hair, 79 00:08:41,608 --> 00:08:42,739 cleaned my nails... 80 00:08:44,132 --> 00:08:46,830 but inside I felt ants crawling up my skin. 81 00:08:48,876 --> 00:08:51,139 I just wanted to grow up, so everything would be better. 82 00:08:51,269 --> 00:08:52,401 Give me a chance. 83 00:08:54,708 --> 00:08:55,839 I can do the work. 84 00:08:57,667 --> 00:08:58,799 I can! 85 00:08:59,277 --> 00:09:00,757 I'm sure you can. 86 00:09:01,453 --> 00:09:04,152 Come on, quiz me. I know this shit. 87 00:09:04,282 --> 00:09:05,602 When I was younger I used to watch 88 00:09:05,675 --> 00:09:07,155 my abuelo tear cars apart. 89 00:09:07,721 --> 00:09:09,244 He taught me literally everything. 90 00:09:09,984 --> 00:09:12,421 I got an '85 Buick LeSabre I rebuilt. 91 00:09:13,204 --> 00:09:14,597 Runs perfectly... 92 00:09:15,250 --> 00:09:16,599 if it had a fuel pump. 93 00:09:17,252 --> 00:09:18,949 But I can't get a new fuel pump 94 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:20,960 if I don't got a job and if I don't got a job... 95 00:09:21,952 --> 00:09:23,345 Look. 96 00:09:24,520 --> 00:09:26,280 I'm just trying to get back on my feet, okay? 97 00:09:31,527 --> 00:09:32,528 I have a daughter. 98 00:09:36,314 --> 00:09:38,665 Look, the economy's kicking my ass. 99 00:09:38,795 --> 00:09:40,231 I'm just not hiring right now. 100 00:11:31,125 --> 00:11:33,518 Abueloused to say that if you find a black feather... 101 00:11:37,044 --> 00:11:38,132 it's a warning. 102 00:15:57,304 --> 00:15:58,740 We made dinner. 103 00:15:58,870 --> 00:16:00,110 There's some left in the fridge. 104 00:16:01,134 --> 00:16:02,439 She's sleeping, Elena. 105 00:16:02,570 --> 00:16:03,963 She's my daughter. 106 00:16:04,615 --> 00:16:05,921 I know she's sleeping, okay? 107 00:16:07,096 --> 00:16:08,619 Don't look at me like that. 108 00:16:09,403 --> 00:16:11,753 - You're in my home. - That the state pays for. 109 00:16:16,976 --> 00:16:18,412 I was robbed, okay? 110 00:16:19,065 --> 00:16:20,145 Don't pretend like you care. 111 00:16:21,545 --> 00:16:23,243 Because if you gave two shits, 112 00:16:23,373 --> 00:16:25,027 you'd drive around and look for them. 113 00:16:25,158 --> 00:16:27,421 Oh, I would drive around and look for your shoes? 114 00:16:27,508 --> 00:16:29,355 Why would you ever want to look for the imaginary person 115 00:16:29,379 --> 00:16:30,598 who stole your shoes, Elena? 116 00:16:30,728 --> 00:16:32,208 That's not my name. 117 00:16:32,339 --> 00:16:33,579 Stop talking to me like a child. 118 00:16:34,210 --> 00:16:35,472 You know, Friday's her birthday. 119 00:16:35,603 --> 00:16:37,083 I fucking know Friday's her birthday. 120 00:16:37,213 --> 00:16:38,606 If you weren't my sister... 121 00:16:38,693 --> 00:16:41,174 So, what? You'd go? So fucking go! 122 00:16:41,304 --> 00:16:42,871 You are just like Mom. 123 00:16:44,394 --> 00:16:45,656 One of these times... 124 00:16:46,179 --> 00:16:47,299 they're gonna take her away. 125 00:16:51,227 --> 00:16:52,707 Get the fuck out of my house. 126 00:16:53,621 --> 00:16:54,839 Get the fuck out! 127 00:19:07,668 --> 00:19:09,148 You know, I used to have this dream... 128 00:19:10,192 --> 00:19:11,411 that I got, like, no face... 129 00:19:12,455 --> 00:19:14,805 and I'm just a shadow, 130 00:19:14,936 --> 00:19:16,155 floating over the desert. 131 00:19:18,548 --> 00:19:21,290 And I got, like, this bag of hammers 132 00:19:21,421 --> 00:19:23,510 and I'm just, like, chucking them at cows. 133 00:19:24,206 --> 00:19:25,686 What do you think that means? 134 00:19:26,295 --> 00:19:27,862 That you need serious help. 135 00:19:27,992 --> 00:19:30,038 Toaster always showed up when I needed her. 136 00:19:37,959 --> 00:19:39,787 You can't just, like, open it. 137 00:19:39,917 --> 00:19:42,355 - Why not? - You broke it. 138 00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:44,400 Last year, Nevaeh loved red. 139 00:19:45,401 --> 00:19:48,361 I think this year, she likes the color purple. 140 00:19:49,927 --> 00:19:52,191 Like that Oprah movie about racism? 141 00:19:54,628 --> 00:19:56,456 Balloons. 142 00:20:06,944 --> 00:20:08,468 You never, like, look up your dreams 143 00:20:08,598 --> 00:20:09,678 and find out what they mean? 144 00:20:11,471 --> 00:20:12,471 I don't dream. 145 00:20:13,647 --> 00:20:15,562 Every bitch dreams. 146 00:20:15,692 --> 00:20:17,520 Come on, you probably just don't remember it. 147 00:20:17,651 --> 00:20:18,782 Mm-mm. 148 00:20:21,916 --> 00:20:24,036 Maybe that's what I'll study when I go back to school. 149 00:20:26,399 --> 00:20:27,530 Why Chama don't dream? 150 00:20:30,794 --> 00:20:32,622 Stupid. Siempre. 151 00:20:32,753 --> 00:20:35,103 No. 152 00:20:35,930 --> 00:20:37,584 No, for serious. 153 00:20:39,412 --> 00:20:41,762 I'm going back. 154 00:20:41,892 --> 00:20:44,286 Toaster is one of those bitches from the Heights. 155 00:20:44,417 --> 00:20:46,332 She actually knew her father. 156 00:20:46,419 --> 00:20:48,377 He'd buy her things. 157 00:20:48,508 --> 00:20:50,771 She never worried about nothing. 158 00:20:50,901 --> 00:20:53,252 Toaster was all cool. 159 00:20:53,382 --> 00:20:54,731 And I wanted to be her. 160 00:20:56,603 --> 00:20:57,604 She was a dreamer. 161 00:20:58,431 --> 00:20:59,431 I'm going back. 162 00:21:01,738 --> 00:21:02,957 My dad's gonna pay. 163 00:21:04,915 --> 00:21:06,700 It's gonna be like it used to be, you know? 164 00:21:08,005 --> 00:21:09,268 He's gonna be proud of me. 165 00:21:12,009 --> 00:21:13,609 I don't know, maybe I'll be just, like... 166 00:21:14,708 --> 00:21:16,405 some counselor, you know? 167 00:21:18,581 --> 00:21:20,757 Like, help all these bitches out. 168 00:21:23,804 --> 00:21:25,066 I could tell 'em what's up. 169 00:21:28,504 --> 00:21:30,680 Toaster always showed up when I needed her. 170 00:21:30,811 --> 00:21:33,292 She'd help me fix everything. 171 00:21:38,514 --> 00:21:40,081 I can make my daughter happy. 172 00:21:44,999 --> 00:21:46,783 I can keep my shit together. 173 00:21:54,704 --> 00:21:56,445 I can make my daughter happy. 174 00:21:56,576 --> 00:21:58,317 I can make my daughter happy. 175 00:22:07,064 --> 00:22:10,677 I can make my daughter happy. 176 00:22:10,807 --> 00:22:13,593 I can make my daughter happy. I can make my daughter happy. 177 00:22:13,723 --> 00:22:15,943 I can make my daughter happy. 178 00:22:16,073 --> 00:22:18,008 I can keep my shit together. I can make my daughter happy. 179 00:22:18,032 --> 00:22:19,338 I can make my daughter happy. 180 00:22:21,078 --> 00:22:22,645 I can keep my shit together. 181 00:22:24,081 --> 00:22:25,779 I can make my daughter happy. 182 00:22:28,912 --> 00:22:30,653 I can keep my shit together. 183 00:23:49,515 --> 00:23:50,690 Hey, baby girl, what's wrong? 184 00:23:51,778 --> 00:23:52,779 I don't know. 185 00:23:53,823 --> 00:23:55,042 Hey. 186 00:23:55,172 --> 00:23:56,565 Don't let bullshit push you. 187 00:24:04,704 --> 00:24:06,314 Sometimes I just want to hide, too. 188 00:24:08,751 --> 00:24:09,796 Just, like, run away. 189 00:24:13,582 --> 00:24:15,279 But everybody's already here, 190 00:24:15,410 --> 00:24:17,456 so you might as well just take all their presents. 191 00:24:27,988 --> 00:24:29,816 You were born two months early, you know why? 192 00:24:30,904 --> 00:24:32,209 Hmm? 193 00:24:33,297 --> 00:24:35,299 Because you were so excited to meet your mama. 194 00:24:36,953 --> 00:24:38,477 And I was to meet you. 195 00:24:41,001 --> 00:24:42,350 There she is. 196 00:24:47,181 --> 00:24:48,835 You're my baby girl, you're all I got. 197 00:24:50,967 --> 00:24:51,968 You're all I got. 198 00:24:56,625 --> 00:24:57,931 I hope that's not true. 199 00:25:00,890 --> 00:25:02,849 Go on. Have fun, it's your birthday. 200 00:25:51,811 --> 00:25:53,029 I can keep my shit. 201 00:25:56,816 --> 00:25:58,034 Elena? 202 00:26:28,978 --> 00:26:29,978 Elena, are you in there? 203 00:26:43,819 --> 00:26:45,691 Come on. Open up. 204 00:26:45,778 --> 00:26:47,170 Elena. 205 00:26:47,867 --> 00:26:49,307 I've been looking for you everywhere. 206 00:26:50,783 --> 00:26:52,872 You did all right... good, okay? 207 00:26:54,177 --> 00:26:55,614 Not out here to talk shit. 208 00:26:59,226 --> 00:27:00,619 Hey. 209 00:27:03,099 --> 00:27:04,448 Let's just go out and sing. 210 00:27:19,072 --> 00:27:20,073 Look, you know what? 211 00:27:22,205 --> 00:27:23,511 You don't get to do this. 212 00:27:25,078 --> 00:27:26,645 Not today, this isn't about you. 213 00:27:31,475 --> 00:27:34,130 You think you're so special 214 00:27:34,261 --> 00:27:36,021 and that nobody else matters, but guess what? 215 00:27:37,786 --> 00:27:38,961 They do. 216 00:28:03,725 --> 00:28:04,857 Somebody help me! 217 00:28:06,946 --> 00:28:08,556 Somebody help! 218 00:28:11,733 --> 00:28:12,778 Now! 219 00:28:27,140 --> 00:28:28,420 I know what you all are thinking. 220 00:28:29,185 --> 00:28:30,752 Shit gets all fucked. 221 00:28:31,274 --> 00:28:32,667 But that's just the way it goes. 222 00:28:34,060 --> 00:28:36,584 I had this one bitch try to tell me, 223 00:28:36,715 --> 00:28:39,674 "If you just got a real job, everything would be all right." 224 00:28:40,370 --> 00:28:42,764 Bitch! I have a felony. 225 00:28:42,895 --> 00:28:44,853 Who's gonna hire me? Who's gonna teach me? 226 00:28:45,811 --> 00:28:47,769 All I know is selling dope, hustling. 227 00:28:48,378 --> 00:28:50,250 That's all anyone was willing to show me. 228 00:28:51,338 --> 00:28:54,950 So, with four little brothers at home, yeah, 229 00:28:55,081 --> 00:28:58,084 I was gonna hustle to buy them food and, yeah, 230 00:28:58,214 --> 00:29:00,174 I was gonna smoke to forget everything I had done. 231 00:29:01,174 --> 00:29:02,174 And yeah. 232 00:29:03,219 --> 00:29:04,917 Shit's gonna get fucked. 233 00:29:28,114 --> 00:29:29,550 I was once a little girl. 234 00:29:31,770 --> 00:29:33,772 Trying to keep my sister safe. 235 00:29:37,427 --> 00:29:38,994 I thought it would all work out. 236 00:29:42,519 --> 00:29:43,912 I used to run toAbuelo's. 237 00:29:46,567 --> 00:29:47,960 He showed me how to fix things. 238 00:29:52,442 --> 00:29:53,748 You showed me how to break them. 239 00:29:59,362 --> 00:30:00,799 You fucking took them, huh? 240 00:30:00,886 --> 00:30:01,930 Let's go. 241 00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:14,334 You drove around with bottles on the floor. 242 00:30:14,464 --> 00:30:16,205 Your music turned up. 243 00:30:16,336 --> 00:30:18,033 You'd smoke a full pack, 244 00:30:18,164 --> 00:30:20,514 but you still smelled like roses. 245 00:30:24,692 --> 00:30:26,825 We cried as you pulled the glass out of our skin. 246 00:30:33,440 --> 00:30:34,310 I am my mother's daughter. 247 00:30:34,441 --> 00:30:35,790 Elena. 248 00:30:45,104 --> 00:30:46,670 Can you tell me what you were doing? 249 00:30:50,239 --> 00:30:51,675 You're lucky to be alive. 250 00:30:54,374 --> 00:30:56,294 If it hadn't been for the Narcan you'd be dead... 251 00:30:58,204 --> 00:31:00,032 you probably wouldn't be here right now. 252 00:31:04,558 --> 00:31:05,951 How much do you normally use? 253 00:31:09,693 --> 00:31:11,739 Was it an accident or was it intentional? 254 00:31:31,237 --> 00:31:32,978 It's a selfish act, 255 00:31:33,108 --> 00:31:34,348 especially when you're pregnant. 256 00:31:52,127 --> 00:31:53,127 You didn't know? 257 00:32:30,949 --> 00:32:32,428 I was 21. 258 00:32:34,082 --> 00:32:35,779 I'd work on cars, because... 259 00:32:36,998 --> 00:32:38,043 what else am I gonna do? 260 00:32:51,317 --> 00:32:53,145 It was also the last time I used a needle. 261 00:32:54,755 --> 00:32:55,930 Nobody knew. 262 00:32:57,062 --> 00:32:58,062 I was quiet. 263 00:32:59,760 --> 00:33:01,414 But I always seemed in control. 264 00:33:03,807 --> 00:33:04,852 You're doing it all wrong. 265 00:33:06,723 --> 00:33:08,683 You should be cranking it the other way, you know? 266 00:33:10,336 --> 00:33:12,033 I'm tightening the tensioner. 267 00:33:12,599 --> 00:33:14,949 Going clockwise, so the nut can do its job. 268 00:33:17,996 --> 00:33:18,996 That's what's up. 269 00:33:22,478 --> 00:33:23,478 You know, I see you. 270 00:33:26,439 --> 00:33:28,006 You was down at Chopay's the other day. 271 00:33:28,963 --> 00:33:30,312 Looking all cool and shit. 272 00:33:33,794 --> 00:33:36,884 I see you and I want to holler at you, mija. 273 00:33:39,147 --> 00:33:40,147 Why? 274 00:33:42,411 --> 00:33:44,051 Because you look like you need someone to. 275 00:33:49,201 --> 00:33:50,202 So what it is? 276 00:33:51,725 --> 00:33:53,031 Can I help you start it or what? 277 00:34:08,785 --> 00:34:11,223 Santi was all bad. 278 00:34:11,353 --> 00:34:12,876 Smelled like hairspray and sweat. 279 00:34:15,749 --> 00:34:17,142 Reminded me ofAbuelo. 280 00:34:19,361 --> 00:34:20,481 Know how many times he lost? 281 00:34:22,495 --> 00:34:23,800 Five. 282 00:34:23,931 --> 00:34:25,541 He worshiped boxing 283 00:34:25,628 --> 00:34:27,413 and the boxers who wouldn't quit. 284 00:34:27,500 --> 00:34:29,260 Know how many times he's got back up and won? 285 00:34:29,328 --> 00:34:30,720 59, baby! 286 00:34:31,808 --> 00:34:33,786 He just sticks out his tongue and he knows no matter 287 00:34:33,810 --> 00:34:35,551 where he grow up, no matter how he grow up, 288 00:34:35,638 --> 00:34:37,158 what he could do, you know what I mean? 289 00:34:38,598 --> 00:34:40,469 He says, 290 00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:42,471 "Hey, pass me the ball, pass me the bills. 291 00:34:43,646 --> 00:34:45,518 Albuquerque. 292 00:34:45,605 --> 00:34:48,216 Up to you, champ. Albuquerque. 293 00:34:48,347 --> 00:34:50,262 I'm still the champ. 294 00:34:50,392 --> 00:34:52,264 Hey, Grandma, Grandpa, I'm still your champ!" 295 00:34:54,396 --> 00:34:55,789 I'd tattoo him on my body. 296 00:34:57,747 --> 00:34:59,347 And he promised to never let me get sick. 297 00:35:01,447 --> 00:35:04,276 We'd get a house together. 298 00:35:04,406 --> 00:35:08,193 I'd get pregnant. Stop using. 299 00:35:08,323 --> 00:35:11,544 I'd worship him, because he gave me Nevaeh. 300 00:35:11,674 --> 00:35:15,330 She'd be born at home, just like I was. 301 00:35:15,461 --> 00:35:17,811 He'd play the guitar for our daughter. 302 00:35:17,941 --> 00:35:19,901 He wasn't very good, but I didn't know any better. 303 00:35:21,902 --> 00:35:23,077 Then he was gone. 304 00:35:24,426 --> 00:35:25,427 I was alone. 305 00:35:26,776 --> 00:35:28,082 And seven years later... 306 00:35:47,623 --> 00:35:48,929 I need you to nod your head 307 00:35:49,016 --> 00:35:50,416 that you understand what's going on. 308 00:35:52,454 --> 00:35:53,534 It's in your best interest. 309 00:35:58,504 --> 00:36:00,767 An investigator from CPS is gonna sit down 310 00:36:00,897 --> 00:36:01,942 - with your daughter. - No. 311 00:36:03,378 --> 00:36:04,553 You're going to scare her. 312 00:36:05,119 --> 00:36:06,512 She's already scared. 313 00:36:13,562 --> 00:36:14,762 We've got a house full of love, 314 00:36:14,868 --> 00:36:16,739 you don't even know. 315 00:36:16,870 --> 00:36:18,326 Do you have a contact number for her father? 316 00:36:18,350 --> 00:36:19,590 What do you think he's gonna do? 317 00:36:20,178 --> 00:36:22,005 You just want to take away my baby. 318 00:36:22,136 --> 00:36:24,182 Our intention is never to remove a child 319 00:36:24,312 --> 00:36:25,487 from their home. 320 00:36:26,314 --> 00:36:28,142 Unless we feel the child is in danger. 321 00:36:29,448 --> 00:36:30,797 Do I look dangerous? 322 00:36:32,581 --> 00:36:34,322 The situation at the party... 323 00:36:34,453 --> 00:36:35,453 Was an accident! 324 00:36:39,806 --> 00:36:42,374 It was... it was... 325 00:36:47,988 --> 00:36:49,337 It was an accident. 326 00:36:50,773 --> 00:36:52,340 It's never gonna happen again. 327 00:36:56,779 --> 00:36:58,059 Do you understand why we're here? 328 00:37:08,965 --> 00:37:11,098 Hey, baby girl. Hey. 329 00:37:24,807 --> 00:37:26,026 It's okay. 330 00:37:26,722 --> 00:37:27,722 Here. 331 00:37:29,856 --> 00:37:31,118 Hey, Bearbear. 332 00:37:36,950 --> 00:37:39,605 I'm sorry. I messed up. 333 00:37:40,519 --> 00:37:42,390 Everything's gonna go back to normal. 334 00:37:44,523 --> 00:37:46,264 Will you stop writing down everything I say? 335 00:37:59,842 --> 00:38:01,104 Come here. 336 00:38:16,468 --> 00:38:18,426 - I love you. - I love you. 337 00:38:43,625 --> 00:38:44,626 Fuck them, no? 338 00:38:49,457 --> 00:38:51,329 Fuck them for judging us. 339 00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:54,332 You're a good mother. 340 00:38:55,071 --> 00:38:56,203 I just wanna cry. 341 00:38:57,770 --> 00:38:59,424 But nothing's coming out. 342 00:39:00,250 --> 00:39:01,339 They don't know shit. 343 00:39:05,386 --> 00:39:06,605 What's wrong with me, Toaster? 344 00:39:12,654 --> 00:39:14,134 What are you doing, Chama? 345 00:39:15,048 --> 00:39:17,224 You think you got, like, a choice, really? 346 00:39:18,921 --> 00:39:21,533 A la maquina, dummy. Not even. 347 00:39:23,535 --> 00:39:24,775 Okay, when we was, like, born... 348 00:39:25,885 --> 00:39:28,888 let's say God, yeah, God. 349 00:39:29,323 --> 00:39:30,629 You know, God was like... 350 00:39:33,545 --> 00:39:36,199 "I'm gonna make this child super smart. 351 00:39:36,330 --> 00:39:37,897 And then this one? 352 00:39:37,984 --> 00:39:39,638 This one is gonna be dumb as crackers. 353 00:39:39,768 --> 00:39:41,857 And then this one? Oh, you know what? 354 00:39:41,988 --> 00:39:44,599 That one is gonna get a fucking mental illness, 355 00:39:44,686 --> 00:39:47,341 hell yeah, because that'll be fucking fun, no? 356 00:39:47,472 --> 00:39:48,995 And this one. 357 00:39:49,125 --> 00:39:52,999 This one's gonna have ADHD, hell yeah! 358 00:39:53,129 --> 00:39:54,827 And this one, just for shits and giggles, 359 00:39:54,914 --> 00:39:57,046 let's give it leukemia, right? 360 00:39:57,177 --> 00:39:59,832 Because, you know, life needs more hurdles. 361 00:40:00,528 --> 00:40:02,835 And this one? Yeah, this one. 362 00:40:02,965 --> 00:40:05,098 This one gets an addictive personality. 363 00:40:06,404 --> 00:40:07,404 And that one doesn't." 364 00:40:10,973 --> 00:40:12,235 This is us. 365 00:40:15,717 --> 00:40:18,503 We gotta fucking fight until we win. 366 00:40:20,679 --> 00:40:22,289 We're fucking rebels, no? 367 00:40:24,596 --> 00:40:26,206 And we're gonna take care of all of it. 368 00:40:29,165 --> 00:40:30,297 Just not today. 369 00:41:13,166 --> 00:41:14,950 I want my baby. 370 00:41:20,869 --> 00:41:23,002 - I want my baby. - It's okay. 371 00:41:23,611 --> 00:41:26,092 - Shh. - I want my baby. 372 00:41:26,222 --> 00:41:29,095 Shh, can you just, like, think it 373 00:41:29,225 --> 00:41:30,879 instead of saying it out loud? 374 00:41:31,010 --> 00:41:32,751 I want my baby! 375 00:41:32,881 --> 00:41:34,840 And I would like her to shut the fuck up! 376 00:41:36,537 --> 00:41:37,537 What the fuck you say? 377 00:41:41,150 --> 00:41:42,674 No, it's okay. 378 00:41:43,457 --> 00:41:44,937 You can, like, say that one more time. 379 00:41:45,590 --> 00:41:46,852 Just shut her up. 380 00:41:56,818 --> 00:41:58,898 Do you know what the fuck my friend has been through? 381 00:42:00,213 --> 00:42:01,823 You want her to shut the fuck up? 382 00:42:03,172 --> 00:42:04,522 Just go back to your seat. 383 00:42:06,132 --> 00:42:07,525 Go back to my seat? 384 00:42:09,091 --> 00:42:10,789 I'll stand here if I want to. 385 00:42:16,621 --> 00:42:17,622 You're drunk. 386 00:42:20,015 --> 00:42:21,190 What'd you say? 387 00:42:21,756 --> 00:42:23,541 You fucking stink, you're drunk. 388 00:42:28,110 --> 00:42:30,591 Fuck! Get this crazy bitch off me! 389 00:42:30,722 --> 00:42:31,897 Fuck you! 390 00:42:33,463 --> 00:42:34,552 Fuck! 391 00:42:37,032 --> 00:42:38,817 - Fuck! - Fuck you! 392 00:42:38,947 --> 00:42:40,166 Look at this place, mija. 393 00:42:40,296 --> 00:42:41,689 That's what you dreamed of. 394 00:42:43,865 --> 00:42:45,737 We can put my mother's papal cross right here. 395 00:42:45,867 --> 00:42:47,129 - Mm-hmm. - Yeah? 396 00:42:47,260 --> 00:42:48,391 Mm-hmm. 397 00:42:52,134 --> 00:42:54,920 Maybe, like, a painting right there? 398 00:42:55,007 --> 00:42:56,182 You could put up two. 399 00:42:56,312 --> 00:42:57,749 What do you think? 400 00:42:58,314 --> 00:42:59,446 What do you think? 401 00:43:04,756 --> 00:43:08,934 Oh, and... oh, I have this doll collection 402 00:43:09,064 --> 00:43:10,999 that my mother found outside a dumpster in the mall. 403 00:43:11,023 --> 00:43:13,460 - Really? - It's in perfect condition. 404 00:43:13,591 --> 00:43:15,177 Well, like, perfect condition for, like, the dumpster, 405 00:43:15,201 --> 00:43:16,641 but I've always wanted to display it. 406 00:43:17,943 --> 00:43:18,983 Where you gonna put it up? 407 00:43:20,728 --> 00:43:22,034 What do you think? 408 00:43:24,166 --> 00:43:25,167 Are you happy or what? 409 00:43:45,013 --> 00:43:46,101 I wanted a miracle. 410 00:43:47,712 --> 00:43:48,712 And I got one. 411 00:43:51,106 --> 00:43:52,499 I didn't need anything else. 412 00:44:22,268 --> 00:44:23,922 My husband was at home with my daughter. 413 00:44:25,924 --> 00:44:27,795 I was at the long bar with my friends. 414 00:44:30,798 --> 00:44:31,798 Boyfriend. 415 00:44:33,671 --> 00:44:34,976 We were all fucked up. 416 00:44:36,891 --> 00:44:37,979 Breaking vows... 417 00:44:39,807 --> 00:44:40,982 and I fell. 418 00:44:41,679 --> 00:44:43,115 Cracked my fucking tailbone. 419 00:44:45,247 --> 00:44:47,162 I put one of those blue ice packs on it. 420 00:44:47,946 --> 00:44:48,947 It broke. 421 00:44:50,775 --> 00:44:52,037 Dyed my ass blue. 422 00:44:55,954 --> 00:44:57,999 So, I go home smelling like turpentine... 423 00:44:59,218 --> 00:45:01,220 with a serious fucking injury, 424 00:45:01,350 --> 00:45:02,569 a blue ass... 425 00:45:03,788 --> 00:45:05,267 all the while, 426 00:45:05,354 --> 00:45:07,074 I was just supposed to be picking up dinner. 427 00:46:22,562 --> 00:46:24,825 Look who finally decided to show up. 428 00:46:25,434 --> 00:46:27,697 I was out looking for a present for my dad. 429 00:46:27,828 --> 00:46:29,134 I don't know what to get him. 430 00:46:29,264 --> 00:46:31,049 Maybe another World War Two book 431 00:46:31,136 --> 00:46:33,016 with the card inside that says, "Happy birthday. 432 00:46:33,138 --> 00:46:34,530 We got nothing in common." 433 00:46:34,661 --> 00:46:36,794 What? 434 00:46:38,186 --> 00:46:39,927 You know your jacket smells? 435 00:46:40,058 --> 00:46:41,189 You ever wash it? 436 00:46:42,103 --> 00:46:43,583 It's not like it touches my ass, 437 00:46:43,670 --> 00:46:45,150 I'm not, like, farting in it... 438 00:46:46,412 --> 00:46:47,500 all the time. 439 00:46:49,154 --> 00:46:50,372 Oh, come on, that was funny. 440 00:46:51,286 --> 00:46:52,806 You know, you really should laugh more. 441 00:46:52,853 --> 00:46:53,853 Especially here. 442 00:47:07,389 --> 00:47:09,217 Not sure if I'm supposed to be here. 443 00:47:10,479 --> 00:47:12,264 If you're standing there, you probably are. 444 00:47:12,394 --> 00:47:13,700 But we don't detox. 445 00:47:15,049 --> 00:47:16,224 I'm clean. 446 00:47:16,703 --> 00:47:17,704 We're full up. 447 00:47:19,271 --> 00:47:20,794 Plus, it's 3:00 PM. 448 00:47:20,925 --> 00:47:22,317 We don't take anyone past noon. 449 00:47:28,323 --> 00:47:29,934 This is the third place I've tried today. 450 00:47:32,327 --> 00:47:33,851 What's worse than being invisible? 451 00:47:35,330 --> 00:47:36,897 Being seen as disposable. 452 00:47:51,129 --> 00:47:52,608 I go to the hospital. 453 00:47:52,739 --> 00:47:55,046 Be responsible. Get checked. 454 00:47:55,133 --> 00:47:56,134 Dose. 455 00:48:00,181 --> 00:48:01,748 I want to rip off my skin. 456 00:48:04,185 --> 00:48:05,230 The way she looks at me. 457 00:48:08,711 --> 00:48:10,322 Does she need to double up? 458 00:48:11,105 --> 00:48:13,020 The nurse. The fucking nurse. 459 00:48:14,021 --> 00:48:17,285 I'm dirty. Disgusting. 460 00:48:17,416 --> 00:48:19,418 She doesn't see me. 461 00:48:19,548 --> 00:48:21,942 She'll check my chart. 462 00:48:22,029 --> 00:48:23,109 She'll know what I've done. 463 00:49:34,536 --> 00:49:36,321 I told you last time I wanted to sell you, 464 00:49:36,451 --> 00:49:37,757 you know what I mean? 465 00:49:38,540 --> 00:49:40,344 I just didn't like the way y'all went out like that. 466 00:49:40,368 --> 00:49:41,587 I know you got something. 467 00:49:41,717 --> 00:49:42,980 Nah, not this time. 468 00:49:49,682 --> 00:49:51,249 Fuck you up. Fucking kill you. 469 00:49:52,641 --> 00:49:53,903 This shit ain't over. 470 00:50:00,432 --> 00:50:01,781 Santi, what did you do? 471 00:50:06,177 --> 00:50:07,482 Keep your fucking mouth shut. 472 00:51:55,460 --> 00:51:56,460 Who's there? 473 00:52:00,900 --> 00:52:02,380 What are you doing, Chama? 474 00:52:04,077 --> 00:52:05,122 Toaster. 475 00:52:09,387 --> 00:52:11,084 You gotta go away. 476 00:52:16,568 --> 00:52:17,568 Go away! 477 00:52:25,707 --> 00:52:26,969 Toaster. 478 00:52:28,275 --> 00:52:30,712 Toaster! 479 00:52:30,843 --> 00:52:32,123 I thought you wanted me to leave. 480 00:52:35,239 --> 00:52:36,892 No, no. 481 00:52:42,594 --> 00:52:43,638 I'm all alone. 482 00:52:51,298 --> 00:52:53,953 Remember when we first met? 483 00:52:54,083 --> 00:52:56,216 We were working at some old folks' home 484 00:52:56,347 --> 00:52:57,522 and making food and shit. 485 00:53:00,655 --> 00:53:02,483 Yeah. 486 00:53:02,614 --> 00:53:04,485 We both hated the way old people were treated. 487 00:53:06,400 --> 00:53:08,054 Like they were a nuisance. 488 00:53:09,751 --> 00:53:11,927 Like they chose to be old and shit. 489 00:53:12,058 --> 00:53:14,191 You thought I was like your sister and shit. 490 00:53:14,321 --> 00:53:15,888 You got all mad. 491 00:53:33,035 --> 00:53:34,559 You know what the worst part is? 492 00:53:35,647 --> 00:53:37,605 All of it. 493 00:53:37,736 --> 00:53:39,216 When you're out, Chama. 494 00:53:42,393 --> 00:53:44,743 You start smoking the crumbs. 495 00:53:44,873 --> 00:53:46,397 I've seen you do it. 496 00:53:46,527 --> 00:53:48,268 You're a dummy. 497 00:53:48,399 --> 00:53:49,759 You smoke the crumbs and then more. 498 00:53:49,878 --> 00:53:52,968 Then you put Selena on full blast. 499 00:53:53,055 --> 00:53:57,538 But it's not the same as when you kiss it. 500 00:53:57,625 --> 00:53:59,236 - Put it in. - No, shut up! 501 00:54:00,759 --> 00:54:02,108 Open up. 502 00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:04,197 No. No! 503 00:54:06,895 --> 00:54:08,723 I've got something for you, Chama. 504 00:54:10,334 --> 00:54:11,465 No! 505 00:54:23,608 --> 00:54:25,523 I'll do better, I'll do better, 506 00:54:25,653 --> 00:54:27,307 I'll do better, I'll do better, 507 00:54:27,394 --> 00:54:28,569 I promise I'll do better. 508 00:54:31,833 --> 00:54:33,879 You lied. You lied. 509 00:54:44,019 --> 00:54:45,891 No, don't... Don't move, don't move. 510 00:54:45,978 --> 00:54:47,936 Is it cold? Is it cold down there? 511 00:54:48,067 --> 00:54:51,157 Please hold on to my hand. Oh, my God. 512 00:54:59,252 --> 00:55:00,252 Toaster. 513 00:55:01,820 --> 00:55:03,082 Are you fucking with me? 514 00:55:04,083 --> 00:55:05,998 What are you doing, Chama? 515 00:55:06,128 --> 00:55:07,826 Hey. 516 00:55:10,829 --> 00:55:12,309 - Don't you? - No, sorry. 517 00:55:14,398 --> 00:55:15,518 I only got a couple of bucks. 518 00:55:19,881 --> 00:55:21,492 Come on. Please. 519 00:55:25,452 --> 00:55:27,802 Come on. Come on. Please. 520 00:55:34,026 --> 00:55:38,335 Come on. Come on. Come on, please. 521 00:55:46,343 --> 00:55:48,693 I've been talking to you and not once, 522 00:55:48,780 --> 00:55:51,435 through everything, have you said anything back. 523 00:55:54,438 --> 00:55:55,526 Are you not there? 524 00:55:57,005 --> 00:55:58,355 Can you not hear me? 525 00:56:40,309 --> 00:56:41,309 Nine months. 526 00:56:44,705 --> 00:56:45,837 Clean. 527 00:56:50,711 --> 00:56:51,756 Look at your arms. 528 00:56:52,452 --> 00:56:55,368 You're a worthless fucking... 529 00:56:56,804 --> 00:56:57,804 junkie. 530 00:57:00,591 --> 00:57:01,871 Why don't you just kill yourself? 531 00:57:11,950 --> 00:57:12,950 Or you could... 532 00:57:14,735 --> 00:57:15,736 go. 533 00:57:17,085 --> 00:57:18,130 Grab your daughter... 534 00:57:20,349 --> 00:57:21,742 and get out of here. 535 00:57:22,264 --> 00:57:23,614 Get the fuck out of here. 536 00:57:26,791 --> 00:57:27,792 Get the fuck out of here. 537 00:57:30,229 --> 00:57:31,448 Police department, don't move! 538 00:57:31,535 --> 00:57:32,753 Police department! 539 00:58:05,873 --> 00:58:08,528 You wanna know the... 540 00:58:08,659 --> 00:58:11,662 two worst words in the English vocabulary? 541 00:58:14,795 --> 00:58:16,754 What if... 542 00:58:17,842 --> 00:58:19,757 um, what if... 543 00:58:22,020 --> 00:58:23,630 my dad was the president? 544 00:58:25,502 --> 00:58:26,503 Or what if... 545 00:58:27,939 --> 00:58:29,375 um, my mom... 546 00:58:30,637 --> 00:58:32,291 actually wanted me? 547 00:58:34,946 --> 00:58:36,382 What if... 548 00:58:37,209 --> 00:58:38,950 I was born in London, 549 00:58:39,080 --> 00:58:40,212 or... 550 00:58:41,082 --> 00:58:42,388 or Ireland? 551 00:58:45,086 --> 00:58:47,306 Lived on a farm far away? 552 00:58:54,008 --> 00:58:56,141 What if when I ate food 553 00:58:56,228 --> 00:58:57,969 I could keep it down, 554 00:58:58,099 --> 00:59:01,538 like, that wasn't even a thought, you know? 555 00:59:08,066 --> 00:59:09,328 What if they didn't say... 556 00:59:10,634 --> 00:59:11,634 it was all my fault? 557 00:59:14,638 --> 00:59:15,900 Make up lies about me? 558 00:59:22,776 --> 00:59:24,735 What if he came to get me? 559 00:59:28,216 --> 00:59:29,522 You know where I'm at? 560 00:59:34,483 --> 00:59:36,877 You know, what if I didn't have to ask what if? 561 01:00:17,744 --> 01:00:18,744 Can't. 562 01:00:21,095 --> 01:00:23,750 ♪ Please don't say anything ♪ 563 01:00:23,924 --> 01:00:26,013 ♪ Anything at all ♪ 564 01:00:26,144 --> 01:00:28,929 Look, I've... I've been calling 565 01:00:29,016 --> 01:00:32,063 over and over and no... Nobody will tell me nothing! 566 01:00:32,237 --> 01:00:35,893 ♪ The silence says it all ♪ 567 01:00:38,852 --> 01:00:41,463 ♪ Blood running through my veins ♪ 568 01:00:41,594 --> 01:00:42,813 Where is she? 569 01:00:49,123 --> 01:00:50,603 Don't worry, 570 01:00:52,126 --> 01:00:53,824 No, don't... don't hang up. 571 01:00:53,954 --> 01:00:55,869 I just... I want to know where she is. 572 01:00:55,956 --> 01:00:58,611 ♪ For that call ♪ 573 01:01:02,267 --> 01:01:06,663 ♪ Ooh ♪ 574 01:01:16,411 --> 01:01:17,499 Can't. 575 01:01:18,326 --> 01:01:19,719 Come on! 576 01:01:20,328 --> 01:01:22,635 What the... what the fuck? 577 01:01:22,766 --> 01:01:23,984 We need help! 578 01:01:24,115 --> 01:01:25,246 Who's gonna help us? 579 01:01:25,638 --> 01:01:27,988 Who? Who, who, who? 580 01:01:28,119 --> 01:01:30,251 - I don't know, I just... - Say it. What? 581 01:01:30,382 --> 01:01:32,062 - Say it! What are you, dumb? - I feel like... 582 01:01:32,123 --> 01:01:33,298 Who's gonna help us? 583 01:01:34,168 --> 01:01:36,040 - Who's gonna help us? - I don't know! 584 01:01:37,302 --> 01:01:38,302 I don't know! 585 01:01:40,174 --> 01:01:41,785 - We need help. - Who's gonna help us? 586 01:01:41,915 --> 01:01:43,308 I don't know. I don't know. 587 01:01:44,004 --> 01:01:47,051 I don't... I feel... I feel... 588 01:01:47,181 --> 01:01:49,575 I feel like I wanna rip my hair out. 589 01:01:50,794 --> 01:01:53,144 I wanna tear my skin off 590 01:01:53,274 --> 01:01:54,885 and walk away from this shit 591 01:01:55,015 --> 01:01:56,582 I feel all the time! 592 01:02:07,854 --> 01:02:08,854 What? 593 01:02:09,726 --> 01:02:10,727 Where are you going? 594 01:02:15,862 --> 01:02:16,863 Where are you going? 595 01:02:18,256 --> 01:02:19,605 You just gonna stumble off? 596 01:02:20,867 --> 01:02:22,027 You gonna stumble right back. 597 01:02:27,265 --> 01:02:28,745 No one gives a shit. 598 01:02:30,268 --> 01:02:31,965 We ain't stupid. 599 01:02:32,096 --> 01:02:33,532 We know there's nothing else. 600 01:02:34,707 --> 01:02:35,839 Where are you going? 601 01:02:37,797 --> 01:02:39,581 Where are you going, Chama? 602 01:03:06,608 --> 01:03:09,133 When Abuelo died, I ran away. 603 01:03:13,441 --> 01:03:14,965 Which brought me right back to you. 604 01:03:17,315 --> 01:03:18,925 Do you want them to think you're loca? 605 01:03:19,012 --> 01:03:20,927 Because that's what they're gonna say, hm? 606 01:03:21,058 --> 01:03:22,738 Look at that crazy, going around losing it. 607 01:03:33,070 --> 01:03:35,463 It's not fair. I don't want Abuelo to go. 608 01:03:36,203 --> 01:03:37,883 You think anyone cares about what you want? 609 01:03:41,426 --> 01:03:43,186 Your sister's not gonna live with us anymore. 610 01:03:43,820 --> 01:03:45,430 Her father wants her. 611 01:03:45,560 --> 01:03:46,886 Take her back to Texas and I'm too fucking tired 612 01:03:46,910 --> 01:03:47,910 to keep fighting him. 613 01:03:50,174 --> 01:03:51,828 Just us now. 614 01:03:59,444 --> 01:04:01,422 Don't be mad at what it is because we're just paying 615 01:04:01,446 --> 01:04:02,886 for something we did in another life. 616 01:04:04,449 --> 01:04:05,449 Here, drink this. 617 01:04:06,843 --> 01:04:08,279 Not too much. 618 01:04:08,409 --> 01:04:09,809 Just enough to make you feel better. 619 01:05:09,166 --> 01:05:10,526 I thought you looked thirsty, mama. 620 01:05:15,607 --> 01:05:17,407 Chart's looking like you're eight weeks along. 621 01:05:18,262 --> 01:05:19,785 Someone talk to you about your options? 622 01:05:23,615 --> 01:05:24,921 It's okay, mama, take your time. 623 01:05:33,973 --> 01:05:35,148 Thank you. 624 01:05:36,106 --> 01:05:37,170 You think you gotta keep it yourself, 625 01:05:37,194 --> 01:05:38,760 but you don't. 626 01:05:39,674 --> 01:05:41,304 I don't know what direction you gonna go with this pregnancy, 627 01:05:41,328 --> 01:05:43,635 but we can help you safely transition. 628 01:05:43,765 --> 01:05:45,245 Detox that stuff out your system. 629 01:05:47,117 --> 01:05:48,379 Or you can continue your way. 630 01:05:51,251 --> 01:05:53,166 You got two options here. 631 01:05:53,297 --> 01:05:55,734 First, you leave, then there's the second one. 632 01:06:03,524 --> 01:06:05,048 I know I'll see her face again. 633 01:06:11,706 --> 01:06:12,925 The bedpost. 634 01:06:14,231 --> 01:06:15,231 The ceiling. 635 01:06:16,276 --> 01:06:17,276 The mole. 636 01:06:18,235 --> 01:06:19,714 The itch. 637 01:06:19,845 --> 01:06:21,194 Did you hear that? 638 01:06:26,765 --> 01:06:28,462 I know I'll see her face again. 639 01:06:33,990 --> 01:06:36,122 The bedpost. The ceiling. 640 01:06:37,341 --> 01:06:39,038 The mole. The itch. 641 01:06:51,616 --> 01:06:53,357 I know I'll see her face again. 642 01:07:00,581 --> 01:07:03,584 The bedpost. The ceiling. The mole. 643 01:07:03,715 --> 01:07:04,846 You're looking better. 644 01:07:08,459 --> 01:07:10,287 I know I'll see her face again. 645 01:07:10,417 --> 01:07:11,617 I know I'll see her face again. 646 01:07:11,723 --> 01:07:13,159 You're looking better. 647 01:07:13,290 --> 01:07:14,682 I know I'll see her face again. 648 01:07:14,813 --> 01:07:16,119 You're looking better. 649 01:07:16,249 --> 01:07:17,449 I know I'll see her face again! 650 01:07:32,048 --> 01:07:33,049 First time here? 651 01:07:37,618 --> 01:07:39,794 They think we're all crazy. 652 01:07:39,925 --> 01:07:41,525 Kind of makes me wanna pop their eye out. 653 01:07:42,841 --> 01:07:45,061 I'm Nell. 654 01:07:49,195 --> 01:07:50,196 Chama. 655 01:07:51,197 --> 01:07:52,198 Like the town. 656 01:07:54,722 --> 01:07:56,072 Chama, New Mexico. 657 01:08:03,296 --> 01:08:05,255 Everything is out to beat us, 658 01:08:06,125 --> 01:08:08,365 but I'm just biding my minutes 'til I get into Guadalupe. 659 01:08:14,133 --> 01:08:15,133 Is this your first time? 660 01:08:16,483 --> 01:08:17,484 Sixth. 661 01:08:22,750 --> 01:08:23,882 See you later. 662 01:08:31,759 --> 01:08:32,759 Bedpost. 663 01:08:36,242 --> 01:08:37,242 Ceiling. 664 01:08:46,687 --> 01:08:48,080 Boredom. 665 01:08:56,697 --> 01:08:57,959 Itch. 666 01:09:01,746 --> 01:09:03,791 Not as sick. 667 01:09:14,367 --> 01:09:15,562 I was in my Grandma's double-wide 668 01:09:15,586 --> 01:09:16,891 playing with her cat. 669 01:09:17,370 --> 01:09:18,730 Her neighbor stopped over and asked 670 01:09:18,850 --> 01:09:19,970 if I wanted to try something. 671 01:09:20,808 --> 01:09:22,593 I was like, "How does it feel?" 672 01:09:22,723 --> 01:09:24,443 He was like, "Don't be a baby. Just try it." 673 01:09:26,031 --> 01:09:27,685 So I smoked meth out of a light bulb. 674 01:09:28,773 --> 01:09:30,373 I was like, "I don't even feel anything." 675 01:09:31,428 --> 01:09:34,300 Then it was days later 676 01:09:34,431 --> 01:09:36,172 and there was no concept of where time went. 677 01:09:36,302 --> 01:09:38,913 All I know is Grandma's cat was dead 678 01:09:39,044 --> 01:09:40,437 and I missed my 16th birthday. 679 01:09:49,010 --> 01:09:52,492 I was just thinking how fucking awesome life is. 680 01:09:52,623 --> 01:09:55,452 I know. We have clothes and groceries. 681 01:09:55,582 --> 01:09:57,236 Mom's not snorting dust off the carpet 682 01:09:57,367 --> 01:09:59,238 and we have college funds. 683 01:09:59,369 --> 01:10:01,289 I'm so glad you're not fuck ups like Tina's kids. 684 01:10:01,371 --> 01:10:03,460 They smell like garbage. 685 01:10:03,590 --> 01:10:05,394 You're also lucky to have a house with a working heater. 686 01:10:05,418 --> 01:10:06,724 Do people live without a heater? 687 01:10:06,811 --> 01:10:08,247 Oh, yes. 688 01:10:08,334 --> 01:10:10,162 Because usually those people 689 01:10:10,249 --> 01:10:12,077 are fucking strangers for coke. 690 01:10:13,644 --> 01:10:15,515 - Hey, Nick. - Hello. 691 01:10:20,738 --> 01:10:22,043 Bring back a chicharrón? 692 01:10:23,262 --> 01:10:24,262 Huh? 693 01:10:25,482 --> 01:10:27,005 Are you even New Mexican? 694 01:10:28,485 --> 01:10:30,443 Born and raised. 695 01:10:30,574 --> 01:10:32,414 You're as New Mexican as Taco Bell green chili. 696 01:10:32,750 --> 01:10:34,969 There, you see? You do have jokes. 697 01:10:35,056 --> 01:10:36,536 They're not necessarily good, but... 698 01:10:57,122 --> 01:11:00,081 ♪ I'm gettin' better, gettin' better all the time ♪ 699 01:11:04,521 --> 01:11:06,349 Hey, hey, hold up. 700 01:11:06,479 --> 01:11:07,698 Hold up. You got a place to go? 701 01:11:09,526 --> 01:11:10,788 Yeah, sure. 702 01:11:11,441 --> 01:11:13,573 There's other spots you can try. 703 01:11:13,660 --> 01:11:16,100 Yeah, everyone's really rolling out the red carpet these days. 704 01:11:23,496 --> 01:11:25,455 Francis, don't. 705 01:11:25,803 --> 01:11:27,587 Come on, Francis. 706 01:11:27,718 --> 01:11:29,807 'Cause I ain't got nothing left! 707 01:11:29,894 --> 01:11:31,809 Please, will you just go inside? 708 01:11:31,896 --> 01:11:33,114 Francis. 709 01:11:38,511 --> 01:11:39,817 People come and go. 710 01:11:39,947 --> 01:11:41,688 If you want it, you want it. 711 01:11:41,819 --> 01:11:44,735 If you don't, don't take someone else's bed. 712 01:11:45,649 --> 01:11:47,489 There's a box of donated clothes in the corner. 713 01:11:53,396 --> 01:11:54,440 Looks like you made it. 714 01:12:21,946 --> 01:12:23,121 Look... 715 01:12:25,558 --> 01:12:26,678 I don't know what I'm doing. 716 01:12:28,648 --> 01:12:29,648 Are you on anything? 717 01:12:31,434 --> 01:12:32,522 No, I'm clean. 718 01:12:35,829 --> 01:12:37,396 Plus, I don't even got any money. 719 01:12:38,136 --> 01:12:39,416 Has that ever stopped you before? 720 01:12:43,446 --> 01:12:44,446 Whatever. 721 01:12:57,590 --> 01:12:58,678 I'm not gonna fuck you. 722 01:13:03,814 --> 01:13:04,814 I'm sorry. 723 01:13:12,823 --> 01:13:13,911 Why are you here? 724 01:13:14,651 --> 01:13:17,088 Because I need to get my daughter back. 725 01:13:25,444 --> 01:13:26,663 Because I need to be normal. 726 01:13:30,928 --> 01:13:32,088 You know what that word means? 727 01:13:33,234 --> 01:13:35,454 The usual, the average, 728 01:13:35,585 --> 01:13:37,543 the typical state or condition. 729 01:13:39,502 --> 01:13:40,503 What's normal to you? 730 01:13:43,854 --> 01:13:44,854 I don't know. 731 01:13:45,986 --> 01:13:46,986 Think about it. 732 01:13:55,953 --> 01:13:57,911 Two girls drinking at a party. 733 01:14:01,915 --> 01:14:03,439 One stops when it's empty. 734 01:14:04,788 --> 01:14:06,572 For the other, it never ends. 735 01:14:07,965 --> 01:14:09,357 So you want to be able to drink... 736 01:14:09,488 --> 01:14:10,488 No! 737 01:14:12,099 --> 01:14:13,449 I don't fucking need this shit. 738 01:14:20,804 --> 01:14:22,849 Look, it don't have to be easy, 739 01:14:22,980 --> 01:14:25,678 but just, like, fair, you know? 740 01:14:25,809 --> 01:14:27,680 Nothing in life is fair. 741 01:14:27,767 --> 01:14:28,767 We'll see. 742 01:14:29,987 --> 01:14:31,292 What do you know about it? 743 01:14:34,295 --> 01:14:36,646 I was diagnosed with cancer when I was 30. 744 01:14:36,776 --> 01:14:38,082 My parents won't talk to me. 745 01:14:38,212 --> 01:14:40,606 My first boyfriend ended in assault 746 01:14:40,693 --> 01:14:42,521 and my last one cheated on me. 747 01:14:42,956 --> 01:14:44,610 I would love a drink, 748 01:14:44,697 --> 01:14:46,177 but I haven't had one in 12 years. 749 01:14:47,221 --> 01:14:49,746 Nothing in life is fair, nothing is normal. 750 01:14:50,747 --> 01:14:52,387 But there's beauty if you fight to see it. 751 01:14:57,841 --> 01:15:00,452 You're gay? 752 01:15:00,583 --> 01:15:01,983 That's what you took away from that? 753 01:15:07,067 --> 01:15:08,747 You know what I did when I first got sober? 754 01:15:10,375 --> 01:15:11,535 I'm sure you're gonna tell me. 755 01:15:15,685 --> 01:15:17,005 I wrote a moment on each of those. 756 01:15:18,905 --> 01:15:20,883 The moments that got me down, the ones that kept me going. 757 01:15:20,907 --> 01:15:22,300 Everything, leading up 'til now. 758 01:15:25,651 --> 01:15:26,811 Sounds like a lot of triggers. 759 01:15:28,132 --> 01:15:29,916 When you're done, 760 01:15:30,047 --> 01:15:31,047 stick 'em on that wall. 761 01:15:47,064 --> 01:15:48,344 What happened when you were born? 762 01:15:50,241 --> 01:15:51,503 I tried to kill myself. 763 01:15:52,809 --> 01:15:54,201 There you go. 764 01:15:54,288 --> 01:15:55,376 Start from the beginning. 765 01:16:06,213 --> 01:16:08,825 Cord wrapped around my neck. 766 01:16:08,912 --> 01:16:10,522 It was my first struggle. 767 01:16:17,747 --> 01:16:18,747 This world. 768 01:16:20,488 --> 01:16:21,577 School. 769 01:16:21,707 --> 01:16:23,753 I failed. 770 01:16:23,883 --> 01:16:26,582 If I can fix cars I can fix anything. 771 01:16:30,673 --> 01:16:33,676 My mother's new boyfriend. 772 01:16:33,763 --> 01:16:35,721 My new boyfriend. 773 01:16:35,808 --> 01:16:38,768 He called me beautiful, ugly. 774 01:16:38,898 --> 01:16:40,160 Look at this place, mija. 775 01:16:42,032 --> 01:16:43,381 This is what you dreamed of. 776 01:16:43,511 --> 01:16:44,687 You gave me no fucking choice 777 01:16:44,774 --> 01:16:45,794 and you have to live with it! 778 01:16:45,818 --> 01:16:46,993 You did this, Elena. 779 01:16:47,124 --> 01:16:48,865 Transforming. 780 01:16:49,387 --> 01:16:50,475 Shut your fucking mouth. 781 01:16:51,737 --> 01:16:53,870 Santi. A dealer. 782 01:16:54,958 --> 01:16:56,829 My first kiss. 783 01:16:56,960 --> 01:16:59,049 Curious. 784 01:17:07,013 --> 01:17:09,712 Play the same song over and over. 785 01:17:09,842 --> 01:17:11,583 I stuck a needle in my veins. 786 01:17:11,714 --> 01:17:13,629 My sister listened to me. 787 01:17:13,759 --> 01:17:15,587 My sister wouldn't ask if I came home. 788 01:17:15,718 --> 01:17:17,676 Abuelo used to say 789 01:17:17,763 --> 01:17:19,123 that if you find a black feather... 790 01:17:20,157 --> 01:17:21,419 it's a warning. 791 01:17:24,901 --> 01:17:26,541 Come on, come on, we don't have much time. 792 01:17:32,865 --> 01:17:34,171 I love you. 793 01:17:34,301 --> 01:17:36,695 I love you, I love you. 794 01:17:50,927 --> 01:17:52,537 Where are you going, Chama? 795 01:17:53,190 --> 01:17:54,495 You broke it! 796 01:17:57,455 --> 01:17:59,979 I am my mother's lost sisters. 797 01:18:06,856 --> 01:18:08,466 The dealer. 798 01:18:13,601 --> 01:18:14,601 Scared. 799 01:18:26,397 --> 01:18:27,572 Always felt like home here. 800 01:18:28,747 --> 01:18:31,010 - The river. - It's dirty. 801 01:18:31,141 --> 01:18:32,741 Half the time it doesn't even have water. 802 01:18:36,581 --> 01:18:38,322 You find what it is you were looking for? 803 01:18:38,452 --> 01:18:40,411 - Don't be like that. - Like what, Chama? 804 01:18:41,325 --> 01:18:42,325 Like your mother? 805 01:18:43,196 --> 01:18:44,196 What else have you got? 806 01:18:53,293 --> 01:18:55,339 Your Abuelo used to say, "I don't need a watch... 807 01:18:55,469 --> 01:18:56,557 I got the river." 808 01:19:06,089 --> 01:19:07,089 If you leave... 809 01:19:08,569 --> 01:19:10,049 I don't ever want to see you again. 810 01:19:13,618 --> 01:19:15,228 I wish I would've put my arms around you. 811 01:19:16,447 --> 01:19:17,448 One last time. 812 01:19:19,406 --> 01:19:22,279 I wish I would have held you, felt you, 813 01:19:22,409 --> 01:19:24,455 smelled that lipstick. 814 01:19:24,585 --> 01:19:27,066 I wish I would have been home when they found you. 815 01:19:27,197 --> 01:19:28,894 I hated you. 816 01:19:29,025 --> 01:19:30,940 I blamed you. 817 01:19:31,070 --> 01:19:32,670 I skipped your funeral and Mari hated me. 818 01:19:35,683 --> 01:19:37,903 But I pretend in that last moment... 819 01:19:39,426 --> 01:19:41,602 you saw something beautiful. 820 01:20:08,368 --> 01:20:09,368 I used to be married. 821 01:20:11,371 --> 01:20:12,971 He's famous, I can't tell you who it was. 822 01:20:14,461 --> 01:20:15,811 Okay. 823 01:20:17,421 --> 01:20:18,857 I was independent though. 824 01:20:19,510 --> 01:20:21,381 Yeah, I loved to work. 825 01:20:21,512 --> 01:20:24,297 I ran five restaurants. 826 01:20:24,384 --> 01:20:27,344 I mean, most people only, like, oversee one. 827 01:20:27,474 --> 01:20:28,824 Wanna know how many I ran? 828 01:20:30,564 --> 01:20:32,001 - Five? - Five! 829 01:20:33,176 --> 01:20:35,700 Yeah, they respected me. 830 01:20:35,831 --> 01:20:37,136 You know, like... 831 01:20:38,050 --> 01:20:39,450 I wasn't a bitch to them or anything 832 01:20:39,573 --> 01:20:41,749 if that's what you're thinking, 833 01:20:41,880 --> 01:20:42,880 but I was the boss. 834 01:20:44,404 --> 01:20:45,947 You should see the way they looked at me 835 01:20:45,971 --> 01:20:47,131 when I walked into a Chili's. 836 01:20:48,582 --> 01:20:50,367 Nell likes to talk. 837 01:20:50,497 --> 01:20:52,586 A lot. 838 01:20:52,717 --> 01:20:55,111 She says she first tried heroin at age ten. 839 01:20:55,241 --> 01:20:57,330 Given to her by a neighbor. 840 01:20:57,417 --> 01:21:00,725 She told her father, who went to her and beat her. 841 01:21:00,856 --> 01:21:02,703 She started cutting her knuckles in high school, 842 01:21:02,727 --> 01:21:04,816 but her sister found out and threw away the razors. 843 01:21:07,036 --> 01:21:09,342 All her friends worked at a local Chili's. 844 01:21:09,473 --> 01:21:11,562 Nell claims she did, too. 845 01:21:11,692 --> 01:21:15,087 She goes on and on and on about it. 846 01:21:15,218 --> 01:21:17,176 I just want to scrub a toilet in peace. 847 01:21:17,307 --> 01:21:18,961 Yeah, I don't really like Chili's. 848 01:21:21,006 --> 01:21:22,312 Oh, you're one of those... 849 01:21:23,487 --> 01:21:24,880 Applebee's motherfuckers? 850 01:21:31,451 --> 01:21:34,280 Anyways I was doing really well, you know? 851 01:21:34,411 --> 01:21:35,542 My husband was like... 852 01:22:35,428 --> 01:22:37,300 Okay, let's check in. 853 01:22:39,476 --> 01:22:40,796 It's a cloudy day out there today. 854 01:22:42,392 --> 01:22:43,752 What's that make everyone think of? 855 01:22:58,451 --> 01:22:59,451 Rain. 856 01:23:01,585 --> 01:23:03,465 Makes me think of my son playing in the puddles. 857 01:23:05,023 --> 01:23:06,023 Sweaters. 858 01:23:08,070 --> 01:23:09,985 I hate t-shirts and short pants. 859 01:23:15,599 --> 01:23:16,774 How about you, Gata? 860 01:23:18,428 --> 01:23:19,428 Go fuck yourself. 861 01:23:22,345 --> 01:23:23,785 That's what my ma used to always say. 862 01:23:26,001 --> 01:23:27,002 Clouds remind me of her. 863 01:23:29,439 --> 01:23:30,439 Every time I'd mess up... 864 01:23:31,615 --> 01:23:33,704 like, when she'd catch me slipping. 865 01:23:35,140 --> 01:23:36,140 "Great... 866 01:23:37,099 --> 01:23:38,274 go fuck yourself, Gata." 867 01:23:39,666 --> 01:23:41,538 First time I came here, 868 01:23:41,668 --> 01:23:44,367 - Nick suggested that I say... - Go love yourself. 869 01:23:45,194 --> 01:23:46,847 Yeah, so now... 870 01:23:48,719 --> 01:23:50,025 when I think about my ma... 871 01:23:51,722 --> 01:23:52,853 it's like... 872 01:23:55,334 --> 01:23:56,379 Go love yourself, Gata. 873 01:24:00,296 --> 01:24:01,819 Go love yourself back. 874 01:24:23,449 --> 01:24:24,449 Ow! 875 01:24:34,808 --> 01:24:36,767 Well, I did it, because I wanted to. 876 01:24:38,029 --> 01:24:39,029 Um... 877 01:24:40,684 --> 01:24:44,079 I climbed out of the second story window 878 01:24:44,209 --> 01:24:47,386 at my parents' house and, um, I jumped. 879 01:24:47,517 --> 01:24:50,172 Probably broke, like, two bones. 880 01:24:51,042 --> 01:24:53,392 But, you know, he was... 881 01:24:54,741 --> 01:24:56,526 He was older, uh... 882 01:24:58,310 --> 01:25:01,096 he liked me, uh, everyone liked me. 883 01:25:04,925 --> 01:25:07,667 And, um, I wanted to see him. 884 01:25:08,538 --> 01:25:12,281 So, yeah, we got a little strung out... 885 01:25:15,501 --> 01:25:16,501 and, uh... 886 01:25:18,983 --> 01:25:20,115 well, I woke up in a trailer 887 01:25:20,245 --> 01:25:21,986 with four men... 888 01:25:23,727 --> 01:25:24,727 that I didn't know. 889 01:25:26,860 --> 01:25:28,645 I don't even think they knew my name. 890 01:25:31,648 --> 01:25:34,694 I had to take Clonazepam, so I wouldn't get seizures. 891 01:25:35,608 --> 01:25:37,288 But one night after my husband got rough... 892 01:25:38,568 --> 01:25:39,960 I took too many and OD'd. 893 01:25:41,223 --> 01:25:43,225 This spark plug is fried. 894 01:25:44,139 --> 01:25:45,401 I got arrested in middle school. 895 01:25:47,272 --> 01:25:48,621 Sent to Las Nunes. 896 01:25:49,144 --> 01:25:50,449 He ordered a youth diagnostic. 897 01:25:51,537 --> 01:25:53,235 I spent Christmas in jail. 898 01:25:53,365 --> 01:25:54,645 When I got out of the hospital... 899 01:25:55,672 --> 01:25:56,672 the doctor... 900 01:25:57,717 --> 01:25:59,458 prescribed me Clonazepam. 901 01:25:59,806 --> 01:26:01,243 But I liked jail. 902 01:26:02,069 --> 01:26:03,349 No one was gonna molest me there. 903 01:26:05,334 --> 01:26:07,336 People always ask what's your favorite number. 904 01:26:08,250 --> 01:26:10,034 I always thought that was a dumbass question. 905 01:26:10,730 --> 01:26:11,992 Favorite color I get... 906 01:26:13,037 --> 01:26:14,580 but it's not like you're gonna decorate your house 907 01:26:14,604 --> 01:26:15,604 in multiples of seven. 908 01:26:17,302 --> 01:26:18,999 But I'm a survivor of suicide. 909 01:26:20,740 --> 01:26:22,351 I tried to kill myself eight times. 910 01:26:24,440 --> 01:26:25,680 I know I won't live to see nine. 911 01:26:26,746 --> 01:26:28,008 So eight. 912 01:26:28,966 --> 01:26:30,402 That's my favorite. 913 01:26:30,533 --> 01:26:32,491 Okay. Should be good. 914 01:26:36,582 --> 01:26:38,497 Wow, nice. 915 01:26:39,672 --> 01:26:40,672 Thanks. 916 01:27:07,700 --> 01:27:10,355 I've already been transferred six times. 917 01:27:10,442 --> 01:27:11,704 Does anyone actually work there? 918 01:27:14,490 --> 01:27:15,490 Hello? 919 01:27:24,282 --> 01:27:25,282 Coke? 920 01:27:27,938 --> 01:27:29,331 Mostly opiates. 921 01:27:31,420 --> 01:27:34,553 Mm, no, do you want a Coke? 922 01:27:37,643 --> 01:27:39,384 - Yeah, Sprite. - Okay. 923 01:28:00,318 --> 01:28:01,450 I never worked at Chili's. 924 01:28:06,542 --> 01:28:07,542 They wouldn't hire me. 925 01:28:13,940 --> 01:28:15,464 Maybe you should have tried Applebee's. 926 01:29:06,123 --> 01:29:07,883 He was a penguin, but he was cold all the time, 927 01:29:07,907 --> 01:29:09,431 so he wore a hat 928 01:29:09,561 --> 01:29:11,346 and a little muffler around his neck. 929 01:29:11,868 --> 01:29:13,348 Nobody? 930 01:29:15,654 --> 01:29:16,892 I don't really know what's going on with my head. 931 01:29:16,916 --> 01:29:18,962 - I don't know. - Okay. 932 01:29:19,092 --> 01:29:20,180 All right, we're starting. 933 01:29:22,531 --> 01:29:23,836 Where's Nell at? 934 01:29:24,750 --> 01:29:25,838 She left. 935 01:29:26,796 --> 01:29:27,797 And if she left... 936 01:29:40,200 --> 01:29:42,551 Please hang up and try your call again. 937 01:29:46,119 --> 01:29:47,556 I've called CPS a million times, 938 01:29:47,686 --> 01:29:49,384 and all I get is the run around. 939 01:29:49,514 --> 01:29:51,211 - They're busy. - Whose side you on? 940 01:29:54,171 --> 01:29:55,825 They won't even let me see her, Nick. 941 01:29:55,955 --> 01:29:57,087 I gotta see her. 942 01:29:57,957 --> 01:29:58,957 You will. 943 01:30:15,932 --> 01:30:18,500 Hey, it's me. Don't hang up. 944 01:30:19,588 --> 01:30:22,155 If you check out, you come back by 8:00 PM. 945 01:30:22,242 --> 01:30:25,028 If you come back by 8:00 PM, you take a test. 946 01:30:25,158 --> 01:30:27,465 Anything you bring back will be searched. 947 01:30:27,596 --> 01:30:29,293 Anything on the list will be confiscated. 948 01:30:30,163 --> 01:30:31,643 That includes mouthwash. 949 01:30:32,252 --> 01:30:34,385 Don't think we're not wise on mouthwash. 950 01:31:23,913 --> 01:31:24,913 We're closed. 951 01:31:25,697 --> 01:31:26,697 That's okay. 952 01:31:28,700 --> 01:31:29,832 I don't got any money. 953 01:31:30,963 --> 01:31:32,095 I have somewhere to be. 954 01:31:32,791 --> 01:31:33,942 Can't get caught up in you right now. 955 01:31:33,966 --> 01:31:35,359 I'm not in any trouble. 956 01:31:36,708 --> 01:31:38,797 Well, you know what I mean. 957 01:31:42,714 --> 01:31:44,354 I heard you've been checking up on Nevaeh. 958 01:31:46,152 --> 01:31:48,720 Yeah. I understand. 959 01:31:49,765 --> 01:31:51,593 You're incognizant, you don't give a shit. 960 01:31:52,768 --> 01:31:54,648 I have enough of my own problems to worry about. 961 01:31:57,990 --> 01:31:59,209 I can't be your broken record. 962 01:32:16,095 --> 01:32:17,532 Mari. 963 01:32:26,236 --> 01:32:27,411 I got shoes on. 964 01:32:50,956 --> 01:32:52,436 I keep thinking about Toaster. 965 01:32:53,698 --> 01:32:54,698 What she told me. 966 01:32:56,353 --> 01:32:58,398 We gotta fight until we fucking win. 967 01:33:26,165 --> 01:33:27,906 Don't look at me like that. 968 01:33:28,037 --> 01:33:29,386 She's taking a shit. She'll be... 969 01:33:29,516 --> 01:33:31,344 Where are you taking us Nick? Disneyland? 970 01:33:31,475 --> 01:33:33,651 Yeah, right, I bet he's gonna take us to an NA meeting. 971 01:33:33,782 --> 01:33:34,822 Yeah, I'd be down for that. 972 01:33:34,913 --> 01:33:36,219 Come on. 973 01:33:37,002 --> 01:33:38,284 - Let's go to Splash Mountain. - Yep, yep! 974 01:33:38,308 --> 01:33:40,005 Come on, Gata. Smile for me. 975 01:33:40,571 --> 01:33:42,878 Here's your smile, Shorty. 976 01:33:43,008 --> 01:33:44,769 Don't be like that. Just one. Don't be like that! 977 01:33:44,793 --> 01:33:46,577 All right. Everybody in. 978 01:33:46,708 --> 01:33:47,883 Hey, what about Chama? 979 01:33:48,013 --> 01:33:49,013 Yeah, where's Chama at? 980 01:33:56,152 --> 01:33:57,152 It's fucking hot in here. 981 01:33:59,808 --> 01:34:00,808 Come on, girl. 982 01:34:04,769 --> 01:34:06,118 I like the sun on my face. 983 01:34:09,948 --> 01:34:12,516 It calms the pounding in my chest. 984 01:34:13,952 --> 01:34:15,127 I wonder where we're going. 985 01:34:18,217 --> 01:34:21,003 If Nick really gets it. 986 01:34:21,133 --> 01:34:23,135 I told him the truth. 987 01:34:23,266 --> 01:34:25,660 About the doctor. That I'm scared. 988 01:34:37,236 --> 01:34:39,021 The sun feels bright on my face. 989 01:35:00,738 --> 01:35:02,609 Take this over Magic Kingdom. 990 01:35:02,740 --> 01:35:04,524 Damn, this shit's no joke. 991 01:35:08,311 --> 01:35:09,311 Come on, Lucy. 992 01:35:48,612 --> 01:35:50,745 There are thousands of women that can't have kids. 993 01:35:54,444 --> 01:35:55,750 And God's got jokes. 994 01:36:00,885 --> 01:36:01,885 You want this baby? 995 01:36:09,154 --> 01:36:10,765 But I don't deserve either of them. 996 01:36:18,337 --> 01:36:20,209 My first boyfriend ended in assault. 997 01:36:23,386 --> 01:36:24,474 Yeah, uh... 998 01:36:27,042 --> 01:36:28,130 I wasn't the victim. 999 01:36:35,702 --> 01:36:36,702 I was 18. 1000 01:36:37,748 --> 01:36:38,748 High. 1001 01:36:40,882 --> 01:36:42,927 Made a terrible decision, 1002 01:36:43,058 --> 01:36:45,930 ended up hurting the one person that I truly loved. 1003 01:36:52,371 --> 01:36:54,678 Spent some time locked up, hating myself. 1004 01:36:56,332 --> 01:36:57,812 Yeah, that never really goes away. 1005 01:37:01,990 --> 01:37:05,428 But if you can turn guilt, 1006 01:37:05,558 --> 01:37:07,082 hate into something else... 1007 01:37:12,478 --> 01:37:14,524 you can do something for the world 1008 01:37:14,654 --> 01:37:16,918 that's beyond yourself. 1009 01:37:27,363 --> 01:37:28,668 We're at the bottom of a hill. 1010 01:37:30,496 --> 01:37:31,671 Can you climb? 1011 01:39:44,282 --> 01:39:45,282 The 15th. 1012 01:39:47,416 --> 01:39:48,416 Next Friday. 1013 01:39:51,246 --> 01:39:52,486 You'll get to see your daughter. 1014 01:40:29,588 --> 01:40:31,199 My name isn't really Chama. 1015 01:40:34,506 --> 01:40:37,335 I saw this postcard once of a mother and daughter 1016 01:40:37,466 --> 01:40:39,468 standing outside Chama, New Mexico. 1017 01:40:41,383 --> 01:40:43,037 I wanted to live in that postcard. 1018 01:40:48,172 --> 01:40:49,172 I talk to my mom. 1019 01:40:51,784 --> 01:40:52,872 And tell her things... 1020 01:40:54,265 --> 01:40:55,440 but not in real life... 1021 01:40:56,311 --> 01:40:58,052 because this reality took her away. 1022 01:41:02,360 --> 01:41:04,580 I talk to her, because I got to try 1023 01:41:04,710 --> 01:41:06,190 to understand my scars... 1024 01:41:08,279 --> 01:41:09,933 and not just pick at my scabs. 1025 01:41:18,637 --> 01:41:19,899 I've been through a lot of shit. 1026 01:41:22,641 --> 01:41:24,252 I've put people through... 1027 01:41:25,688 --> 01:41:26,863 a lot more. 1028 01:41:29,735 --> 01:41:30,867 It's not fair. 1029 01:41:33,870 --> 01:41:35,089 But like Nick says... 1030 01:41:37,178 --> 01:41:38,178 "Nothing is fair... 1031 01:41:39,484 --> 01:41:40,484 nothing is normal." 1032 01:41:45,838 --> 01:41:46,926 What have I done? 1033 01:41:50,626 --> 01:41:51,626 What am I doing? 1034 01:41:55,152 --> 01:41:56,240 If I'm not Chama, then... 1035 01:41:59,374 --> 01:42:00,462 who am I? 1036 01:42:15,564 --> 01:42:16,564 I'm an addict. 1037 01:42:21,309 --> 01:42:22,589 I've slept on the streets, but... 1038 01:42:24,399 --> 01:42:25,487 I'm not homeless. 1039 01:42:29,578 --> 01:42:31,232 I'm terrified. 1040 01:42:37,760 --> 01:42:38,848 We need help. 1041 01:42:41,111 --> 01:42:42,111 I will help. 1042 01:42:53,732 --> 01:42:54,732 I'm here... 1043 01:42:55,821 --> 01:42:56,996 and I will be a mother. 1044 01:42:59,608 --> 01:43:00,608 I am a mother. 1045 01:47:33,403 --> 01:47:34,926 - Love you, Peggy. - Love you, Mama. 70114

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