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[POP SONG PLAYING]
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♪ Is it you in my dreams? ♪
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♪ You that I'm seeing ♪
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♪ You that keeps me up ♪
♪ You that drives me crazy ♪
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♪ You that I want ♪
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[MAL] Come on, mama.
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[YOLY] Can I do anything?
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No.
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- What is it you're looking for?
- The perfect strawberries.
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What does perfect strawberry
look like? What is the...
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Girl, some of them look beat up.
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- Have you picked your blueberries yet?
- No. Happen next.
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So why don't you just grab
a handful of blueberries?
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They feel a little bruise-y in
my fingertips, I don't want it.
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How nice is it to know that
this human being is like,
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"Let me pick the best strawberries
for the person I love."
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Incredible.
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- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
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- [MAL] Good answer.
- Amazing.
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You look a little
cold. You want a hoodie?
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I'm gonna go get one.
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- You're doing stuff around the house.
- [MAL] Mm-hmm.
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[YOLY] That's been really helpful.
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- Is that sustainable?
- Yes.
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I like it being, like,
cleaned up or, like...
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You know, making sure the
shoes are over in that place
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and the catch-all is here, and
there's not random shit in there.
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Or you teaching me how
the bed needs to be made,
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instead of just throwing it over.
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- [YOLY] Mm-hmm.
- Um...
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I've been liking all those things.
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What we're doing right now, is
this what life looks like for you,
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as a wife?
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This is great in a roommate
sense. This is awesome.
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But I'd want it to be more romantic.
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[MAL] Mm-hmm.
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In the romantic way, I'm having
a hard time coming back to you.
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I love my friends. I do.
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But I wouldn't make
breakfast for my roommate.
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I remember the first time I
slept over, you made me breakfast.
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You were like, "I've never
done this for any of the girls
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who I've... had over."
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I was like, "Yeah right," 'cause
you were so quick to do it.
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No, I liked you, Yoly.
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- [LAUGHING]
- [MAL] I liked you.
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And I still do.
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[SWEET, GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING]
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I still have pictures
that I took of you,
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when you woke up in my apartment.
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You used to take a lot of pictures.
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Yeah.
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This is what life looks like for me.
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I like this life. I
like this life with you.
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I'm here to be with you,
here to leave with you.
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♪ Just can't seem to get
you off of my mind now ♪
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♪ What have you done ♪
♪ What have you done to me? ♪
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- [UPBEAT POP SONG PLAYS]
- ♪ Close your eyes ♪
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♪ I'll make you count to ten ♪
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♪ Do you believe it? ♪
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[AUSSIE] Yum.
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This looks so delicious. I'm so excited.
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[AUSSIE] Good.
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This is delicious.
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I think you're on a really good
track for being househusband.
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[LAUGHS] That was always my dream, babe.
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- Well, you played that really well.
- [LAUGHS] I did.
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Minus the house part, where
you do things around the house.
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[LAUGHS]
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- Babe, I always cook majority of the time.
- Cooking, yes.
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I don't think that's the only thing
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a househusband should
do, is just cook...
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- Mmm.
- ... and do dishes.
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I think a househusband should
probably do more than that.
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And what is the definition
of a househusband to you?
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Say you were making, you know...
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We're talking about
three times as much as me.
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And say, "Okay, why
don't you just not work,
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'cause it doesn't matter
if you work or not."
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And, like, do a business, you know?
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Do you feel like you'd
rather want to do that?
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Of course.
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Like, not work?
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Oh no, I mean, like, just to
focus on the stuff we love. Yeah.
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I was thinking about
my view on gender...
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[SAM] Mm-hmm.
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... and gender roles.
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And, believe it or not,
it has changed. [CHUCKLES]
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- Just like...
- Wait. Since when?
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- Like two days ago?
- Oh.
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I had this idea...
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Kind of similar to our discussion
about you making more money.
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- [SAM] Mm-hmm.
- That...
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To... For me to feel masculine,
which I do on the inside,
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I have to be the breadwinner.
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- Right.
- Or, um...
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- Because that's how you were raised.
- That's how I saw my mom and dad.
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Even when I would play house with
my middle brother, I would tell him,
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"I'm the husband. You're
the wife. Make food for me."
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"I'll be back. Gonna go to work."
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I was conditioned with
that traditional view.
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But I'm seeing it now, that
my role in a partnership,
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- in this modern world...
- That's really cool.
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... doesn't have to fit that.
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That's really cool, because
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that was one of your big blocks.
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Just the mere fact that you're starting
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to recognize those things is huge.
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[GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING]
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And I see it now, boo.
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Yeah.
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That's good.
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I know. Really good.
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Just...
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Yeah.
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How I really see it,
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in terms of having to take
care of the household...
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I would rather hire somebody and
neither of us be the houseperson.
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[BOTH LAUGHING]
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To me, it's so worth it.
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[AUSSIE] That was always my dream.
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♪ Just let go ♪
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♪ We can leave it all behind ♪
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♪ Just say so ♪
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♪ And search for your sunrise ♪
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You've just been my person for the
past three years, right? Like...
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And I love you a lot.
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[SOMBER MUSIC PLAYING]
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[RAE SIGHS]
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Obviously, like...
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the other day we had a
fight, and it hurt a lot.
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Last night was good though.
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There was a point I just was,
like, looking at you and I felt like
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for the first time in a bit of time,
I was, like, falling for you again.
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That was just the top you picked for me.
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It was a nice top.
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I was a little worried about
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whether or not we
would be able to, like,
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explore intimacy with each other again.
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Because it's like, how can you
even begin to have conversations
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about an engagement
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if you're not intimate with one another?
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I think you tested me
a little last night.
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Kissing you in the car was fun.
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- I wasn't talking about the car.
- Figured you weren't.
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It was nice though.
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I feel excited about us right now.
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And that's... It's
a really good feeling.
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[RAE] Um, you know, I
guess I'm just thankful
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for the, like, chance to do this,
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and to... see if we
can fit back together.
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And I'm just thankful
that you're trying,
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and you're giving me the space
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to figure out... whatever
the fuck is going on up here.
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[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
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Obviously, like, we know where
we both stood coming into this.
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Do you feel like, in any way,
your idea of marriage has changed?
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I've always thought the
same way about marriage.
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Marriage is a commitment to someone.
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To grow with that person and build
this life with that person, right?
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It's doing all the big, like,
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monumental, like, life things together.
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It's special. You want it
to be with the right person.
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But I think the finality of
marriage always scares me.
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I am very aware of how, like...
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how much, like, I love you,
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and how important you are to me.
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You're the one thing I'm
excited to come home to.
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I love having you sit out there and
talk to me when I'm grilling steak.
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I like going on a drive with you.
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I, like, really love our moments.
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And they are not all big,
and they're not all small.
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But they all mean a lot to me.
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I know
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that you fit into my life,
and I know I fit into yours.
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And, even more than that, like,
I feel like I fit into our life.
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And I don't... I don't
want to lose that.
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Because I really like our life together.
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We do have a good life.
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I know I can be a lot sometimes.
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I think, for me, teamwork
is a really big thing.
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I'm a good... I'm a good team player.
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Sometimes we're, you know,
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passing the ball over to you,
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and sometimes we're
passing it over to me.
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The Brady to your Gronky.
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The Brady to my Gronky.
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That's what I'm looking for in life.
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I do think you're special, and I
do think you're a wonderful person.
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I think you deserve to see that
when you look in the mirror.
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Whether you know it or not.
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So I promise to be there to back you up.
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And I promise that
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I want to just be your
partner, supporting you.
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And putting my heart into this.
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But I'm also gonna...
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promise to keep giving you
the space if you need that too.
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[SNIFFLES, EXHALES DEEPLY]
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And I promise that no matter what
happens, good, bad, or indifferent,
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I will always, always
make you feel loved.
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And to always show you that,
like, when you need me I'm here.
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♪ I'll never let you go ♪
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♪ No matter what might change ♪
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♪ I'll always find my way ♪
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♪ Back to you ♪
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[XANDER] Wow.
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[VANESSA] For real.
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♪ I'll always find my way ♪
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♪ Back to you ♪
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It's nice.
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It's nice, like, feeling like
we're dating again, you know?
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It's wild.
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I'm getting to know you again.
You're getting to know you again.
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And I'm getting to learn
and know Vanessa 2.0.
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- Mmm.
- Lucky me.
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You are lucky. I'm awesome.
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[CHUCKLES]
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My favorite thing is when
you just talk yourself up.
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Like, "I'm the shit."
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I think I need to do it now because,
if I don't, I think I'll cry.
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- So I'm gonna keep talking myself up.
- Good.
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Yeah.
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- I love you.
- I love you.
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[VANESSA] Hmm.
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Since, like, you, like,
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have this new discovery
of wanting to get married,
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what are things you
expect out of a marriage?
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I dunno. Have to wait and see.
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I can't really describe how
I'll be because I don't know,
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but I think I'm much more open
to making long-term decisions.
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Which is cool.
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It's wild that it's, like,
not even, like, scary for you.
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- Doesn't feel like it is.
- It's more exciting than scary.
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A marriage is a lot like what
we've had for these last few years.
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True. And we've grown a
lot since the beginning.
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- Yeah.
- You know?
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♪ I ♪
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♪ Don't ♪
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♪ Feel ♪
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I feel sad that I was not present,
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and I hate that.
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♪ Alone ♪
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♪ Here ♪
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♪ Again ♪
245
00:12:59,445 --> 00:13:00,613
♪ You ♪
246
00:13:02,656 --> 00:13:05,034
♪ And me ♪
247
00:13:05,743 --> 00:13:07,661
♪ Space ♪
248
00:13:09,121 --> 00:13:11,123
♪ Between ♪
249
00:13:11,207 --> 00:13:13,125
[TEARFULLY] I loved who we used to be.
250
00:13:14,502 --> 00:13:18,172
And now it's changing... every day.
251
00:13:19,423 --> 00:13:21,592
And we don't know
where it's gonna end up.
252
00:13:22,468 --> 00:13:24,136
Do you trust me to figure it out?
253
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Yeah.
254
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♪ Got me spinning 'round ♪
♪ Oh, got me spinning 'round now ♪
255
00:13:33,813 --> 00:13:36,232
♪ You're my air ♪
256
00:13:36,233 --> 00:13:37,274
Come with me.
257
00:13:37,274 --> 00:13:40,361
♪ You're my air ♪
258
00:13:41,320 --> 00:13:42,530
[VANESSA] I love you.
259
00:13:43,989 --> 00:13:47,243
♪ Going 'round ♪
260
00:13:47,993 --> 00:13:50,621
[SINGER VOCALIZING]
261
00:13:58,254 --> 00:13:59,588
Why are you saying "ew"?
262
00:14:00,631 --> 00:14:03,133
You know that's what you
first said when we first met?
263
00:14:03,634 --> 00:14:05,386
- Yeah. Yeah.
- Yeah, you said, "Ew."
264
00:14:06,595 --> 00:14:09,598
- I like your earrings.
- Thank you. You look really good too.
265
00:14:09,682 --> 00:14:11,809
I like that turtleneck. It looks sexy.
266
00:14:15,771 --> 00:14:18,524
We've been going through so
much the last couple days.
267
00:14:18,607 --> 00:14:20,317
I dunno. It's just really hard
268
00:14:20,401 --> 00:14:23,153
when it comes to conflict
with you. Like, you know?
269
00:14:23,237 --> 00:14:24,738
I think we're both guilty,
270
00:14:24,822 --> 00:14:27,032
and we come off like
we're accusing already.
271
00:14:27,116 --> 00:14:30,911
We make up facts in our head
and make up our own conclusions.
272
00:14:30,995 --> 00:14:33,706
That's why we interrupt each
other. We both talk a lot.
273
00:14:33,789 --> 00:14:35,457
We don't value each other's voices.
274
00:14:37,293 --> 00:14:39,003
Well, I'm sorry for interrupting you.
275
00:14:39,670 --> 00:14:41,630
How often do you feel
like I don't let you talk?
276
00:14:41,714 --> 00:14:42,715
All the time.
277
00:14:43,465 --> 00:14:45,551
- So I should just be quiet?
- No.
278
00:14:46,260 --> 00:14:47,803
When do I have permission to speak?
279
00:14:47,887 --> 00:14:50,848
It's not that you should have
permission. It's a common respect...
280
00:14:50,931 --> 00:14:53,434
Because now that you're telling
me that I interrupt you...
281
00:14:53,517 --> 00:14:56,562
- We're having a conversation, clearly.
- Even just now you spoke over me.
282
00:14:59,023 --> 00:15:01,317
How do I not feel like
I'm interrupting you?
283
00:15:01,400 --> 00:15:04,403
You do that by not interrupting.
Same for me, not interrupting you.
284
00:15:04,486 --> 00:15:06,906
But, Tiff, you talk a lot.
Like, you don't shut up.
285
00:15:06,989 --> 00:15:09,950
We need to both feel
heard and feel understood.
286
00:15:10,034 --> 00:15:11,034
Being in a trial marriage with you,
287
00:15:11,035 --> 00:15:14,121
I believe I've been attentive to that.
288
00:15:14,204 --> 00:15:15,831
- No. You haven't.
- Is that...
289
00:15:15,915 --> 00:15:18,542
- I'mma tell you why...
- Would you like me to finish talking?
290
00:15:18,626 --> 00:15:21,253
I don't want to be with a person
that doesn't allow me to talk.
291
00:15:21,337 --> 00:15:24,173
Because, just the same way as
you feel disrespected, so do I.
292
00:15:25,883 --> 00:15:28,022
I'm a Latina, and when
you're with Latinos
293
00:15:28,023 --> 00:15:29,386
everybody speaks over everybody.
294
00:15:29,470 --> 00:15:31,013
You've been to my family's house.
295
00:15:31,096 --> 00:15:33,015
If you don't speak
louder, you're not heard.
296
00:15:33,098 --> 00:15:35,476
And I'm an asshole, and I
tend to speak over people.
297
00:15:35,559 --> 00:15:38,562
I think you're confusing that,
because you can stop being an asshole,
298
00:15:38,646 --> 00:15:40,064
but I can't stop being a Latina.
299
00:15:40,940 --> 00:15:42,107
[TIFF SIGHS]
300
00:15:42,191 --> 00:15:45,194
I am a Latina, and I'm always
gonna be a Latina until I die.
301
00:15:45,277 --> 00:15:48,864
- What do you want me to do?
- Being respectful has no race, Mildred.
302
00:15:49,782 --> 00:15:53,118
I cannot marry someone
that blames being Latina
303
00:15:53,202 --> 00:15:55,829
as to why she can't show human decency.
304
00:15:55,830 --> 00:15:56,830
I never said that.
305
00:15:56,830 --> 00:15:59,959
Did you not just use
that as your fucking card?
306
00:16:00,042 --> 00:16:01,835
- That's not cool.
- I'm not gonna argue no more.
307
00:16:01,919 --> 00:16:03,865
Because I might never interrupt
you again in your life,
308
00:16:03,866 --> 00:16:05,589
so don't worry about it.
309
00:16:07,007 --> 00:16:08,008
This is bullshit.
310
00:16:09,093 --> 00:16:11,053
We are coming down to the fucking wire.
311
00:16:11,136 --> 00:16:12,513
- This is...
- Stop yelling.
312
00:16:13,931 --> 00:16:16,934
If you can talk however you
want to whenever you want to,
313
00:16:17,017 --> 00:16:18,352
you could find someone else.
314
00:16:18,435 --> 00:16:20,270
[DISTRESSING STINGER]
315
00:16:22,398 --> 00:16:23,774
I'm always gonna love you.
316
00:16:23,857 --> 00:16:26,443
I'm always gonna... You're
always gonna be someone I love.
317
00:16:26,527 --> 00:16:28,988
But I need unconditional
support from my partner.
318
00:16:29,071 --> 00:16:31,115
It doesn't matter how much I love you.
319
00:16:31,198 --> 00:16:33,951
- It's such bullshit.
- What do you mean it doesn't matter?
320
00:16:34,034 --> 00:16:36,745
Pressuring into a engagement...
321
00:16:36,829 --> 00:16:38,956
You just don't want the pressure part.
322
00:16:39,039 --> 00:16:42,418
You want to walk out of here with
me without feeling the pressure.
323
00:16:46,880 --> 00:16:48,712
I'm just... I'm done talking
about fucking marriage.
324
00:16:48,713 --> 00:16:50,217
Like, this is stupid.
325
00:16:50,968 --> 00:16:53,929
I lost here, you know.
Like, I don't fucking matter.
326
00:16:54,013 --> 00:16:55,472
It's just... That's what it is.
327
00:16:55,556 --> 00:16:57,307
I'm going off what you're telling me.
328
00:16:57,391 --> 00:16:59,184
♪ Can we go ♪
329
00:16:59,268 --> 00:17:00,894
♪ Right ♪
330
00:17:00,978 --> 00:17:01,979
Oh my God.
331
00:17:02,062 --> 00:17:04,523
♪ Back to the way things used to be ♪
332
00:17:04,606 --> 00:17:08,694
♪ 'Cause we're not ♪
333
00:17:08,777 --> 00:17:11,530
♪ Better on our own ♪
334
00:17:15,159 --> 00:17:17,661
[YOLY YELPS, LAUGHS]
335
00:17:18,579 --> 00:17:19,663
Go back to what I'm doing.
336
00:17:20,956 --> 00:17:22,541
- Bitch, don't!
- [MAL] What?
337
00:17:23,500 --> 00:17:24,500
High five.
338
00:17:26,462 --> 00:17:28,130
[MAL] May God be with me.
339
00:17:29,256 --> 00:17:30,299
Ah!
340
00:17:30,382 --> 00:17:31,425
Stop!
341
00:17:36,388 --> 00:17:37,388
You wish.
342
00:17:38,582 --> 00:17:39,600
You wanted it.
343
00:17:39,600 --> 00:17:41,018
[YOLY CHUCKLING]
344
00:17:43,187 --> 00:17:44,605
[SULTRY POP MUSIC PLAYING]
345
00:17:46,023 --> 00:17:47,274
[MAL EXCLAIMS]
346
00:17:49,818 --> 00:17:51,070
- I win.
- Good job.
347
00:17:51,153 --> 00:17:52,153
I win.
348
00:17:52,696 --> 00:17:56,200
♪ If you're ready ♪
♪ Here's what you gotta do ♪
349
00:17:56,825 --> 00:17:59,078
[MAL AND YOLY SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]
350
00:17:59,161 --> 00:18:02,206
♪ See, with my heart ♪
♪ You break it, you buy it ♪
351
00:18:02,289 --> 00:18:04,666
[MAL AND YOLY LAUGHING]
352
00:18:05,250 --> 00:18:07,878
- Yoly, I'm... I'm...
- [YOLY LAUGHING] Oh God!
353
00:18:08,712 --> 00:18:09,713
[LAUGHING]
354
00:18:09,797 --> 00:18:12,466
Arms up! [YOLY SPEAKS
INDISTINCTLY] Goddammit.
355
00:18:12,549 --> 00:18:13,926
[MAL] Damn, watch my face.
356
00:18:14,009 --> 00:18:15,969
[YOLY PLAYFULLY EXCLAIMING]
357
00:18:17,096 --> 00:18:18,347
[MAL] You're foolish.
358
00:18:18,847 --> 00:18:21,517
You're a fool. What's wrong with you?
359
00:18:21,600 --> 00:18:22,600
[YOLY] You.
360
00:18:22,601 --> 00:18:24,603
[SULTRY POP MUSIC CONTINUING]
361
00:18:39,493 --> 00:18:41,411
So we're meeting your brother today.
362
00:18:41,495 --> 00:18:42,788
He helped me out a lot.
363
00:18:42,871 --> 00:18:44,123
- Yeah?
- Um...
364
00:18:44,206 --> 00:18:48,085
He'd be the first person in
my family to try and call me
365
00:18:48,168 --> 00:18:51,296
by my name that I go by
now instead of my dead name.
366
00:18:51,380 --> 00:18:53,465
Whereas even my closest friend
367
00:18:53,549 --> 00:18:56,301
back home in Australia still
calls me by my dead name.
368
00:18:56,385 --> 00:18:57,511
[LAUGHING]
369
00:18:58,512 --> 00:19:00,139
[SAM] His hair is so long!
370
00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:01,974
Doesn't he look like a rock star?
371
00:19:03,392 --> 00:19:04,434
Ron.
372
00:19:04,518 --> 00:19:07,062
- Aw, you look so cute.
- [RON] How're you doing?
373
00:19:07,146 --> 00:19:09,106
- I love what you're wearing.
- Thank you!
374
00:19:09,189 --> 00:19:10,607
[ALL CHUCKLING]
375
00:19:12,776 --> 00:19:13,944
So how you been?
376
00:19:14,027 --> 00:19:15,279
- [SAM] Pretty good.
- Yeah?
377
00:19:15,362 --> 00:19:17,322
- [AUSSIE] Yeah.
- Yeah. Things are a lot better now.
378
00:19:17,406 --> 00:19:19,074
[ALL LAUGHING]
379
00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:20,868
- Thank you. Cheers.
- Thank you.
380
00:19:21,493 --> 00:19:23,328
[RON] I'm sure you both
have a lot to process.
381
00:19:23,412 --> 00:19:24,412
- 100%.
- [SAM] Yeah.
382
00:19:24,454 --> 00:19:25,831
[AUSSIE] There's a choice.
383
00:19:25,914 --> 00:19:27,624
Do we still go home with each other?
384
00:19:27,708 --> 00:19:30,460
- Because, obviously, I'm...
- Engaged, and not just going home.
385
00:19:30,544 --> 00:19:31,962
Right. Big time.
386
00:19:32,045 --> 00:19:33,714
- You missed that part.
- Engaged.
387
00:19:34,298 --> 00:19:37,134
- Engaged at the end of this.
- Like, actually.
388
00:19:37,217 --> 00:19:39,887
- Like, actually. Like, really.
- Like, actually.
389
00:19:39,970 --> 00:19:41,180
[LAUGHING]
390
00:19:41,263 --> 00:19:42,848
- Ooh, scary!
- [AUSSIE] I know.
391
00:19:42,931 --> 00:19:44,224
[LAUGHTER]
392
00:19:44,225 --> 00:19:45,225
Right?
393
00:19:45,225 --> 00:19:47,102
So engaged to me,
394
00:19:47,186 --> 00:19:48,562
or we leave single.
395
00:19:48,563 --> 00:19:49,563
- [RON] Okay.
- Yeah.
396
00:19:49,563 --> 00:19:51,523
So I have a big decision. We both do.
397
00:19:52,107 --> 00:19:55,652
What do you think about Aussie
getting engaged potentially?
398
00:19:56,361 --> 00:19:59,156
She should just do
what makes her happiest.
399
00:19:59,740 --> 00:20:01,783
It's okay to be single,
okay to be married.
400
00:20:01,867 --> 00:20:04,203
- Don't worry what other people think.
- [AUSSIE] Yeah.
401
00:20:04,286 --> 00:20:05,515
I feel like the way we were raised,
402
00:20:05,516 --> 00:20:07,915
our parents, especially
Mom, would, like,
403
00:20:07,998 --> 00:20:09,958
tell us every little
thing we need to do.
404
00:20:10,042 --> 00:20:13,587
- Yeah. And what to think.
- Yeah, exactly, and what to think, right?
405
00:20:13,670 --> 00:20:16,381
So she never encouraged
us to think for ourselves.
406
00:20:16,465 --> 00:20:19,343
No. Well, they're
first-generation immigrants.
407
00:20:19,426 --> 00:20:21,136
So they're very, um...
408
00:20:21,220 --> 00:20:24,056
- You know, traditional Chinese. Catholic.
- Might even be...
409
00:20:24,139 --> 00:20:25,682
- Yeah.
- Kind of very, you know...
410
00:20:25,766 --> 00:20:28,477
- [SAM] My family's the complete opposite.
- Oh really?
411
00:20:29,061 --> 00:20:32,940
My family is pretty accepting.
They're very open-minded.
412
00:20:33,023 --> 00:20:35,150
- We play board games, like...
- Mm-hmm.
413
00:20:35,234 --> 00:20:36,985
- What a family.
- [AUSSIE] I know.
414
00:20:37,569 --> 00:20:39,363
I hear about these sorts of families...
415
00:20:39,446 --> 00:20:41,448
- Me too.
- You see it on TV and the news...
416
00:20:41,531 --> 00:20:43,951
Backyard parties, music,
singing, all of it.
417
00:20:43,952 --> 00:20:44,993
They dance.
418
00:20:44,993 --> 00:20:46,662
- Our family...
- [SAM LAUGHS]
419
00:20:46,745 --> 00:20:50,958
You haven't even, like, told them,
you know, your sexual orientation.
420
00:20:51,041 --> 00:20:52,042
Yeah.
421
00:20:53,126 --> 00:20:55,045
That's a huge one, Ron.
422
00:20:55,128 --> 00:20:57,422
My mom, you know what she has done?
423
00:20:57,506 --> 00:20:58,675
She's asking me like,
424
00:20:58,676 --> 00:21:02,094
"Hey, do you want to meet my
friend's son, who's a doctor?"
425
00:21:04,680 --> 00:21:06,265
Denial is a powerful thing.
426
00:21:06,348 --> 00:21:11,687
I'm trying to grasp the idea of
what that life is gonna be like
427
00:21:11,770 --> 00:21:14,815
in terms of being received
by, like, the family.
428
00:21:14,898 --> 00:21:17,276
Like, am I gonna have to be
pretending to be a friend?
429
00:21:18,110 --> 00:21:21,363
- My ex before was not out.
- [RON] Yeah.
430
00:21:21,446 --> 00:21:24,616
And so it was, like, very hard...
431
00:21:24,700 --> 00:21:25,700
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
432
00:21:25,742 --> 00:21:27,661
... having to pretend all the time.
433
00:21:27,744 --> 00:21:30,455
Okay. Well, it depends
on whether my sister,
434
00:21:30,456 --> 00:21:32,749
you know, tells them she's gay,
435
00:21:32,833 --> 00:21:35,961
and that you're, you
know, her romantic partner.
436
00:21:37,254 --> 00:21:42,384
I've never, um, had anyone that
I would potentially want to marry.
437
00:21:42,884 --> 00:21:45,012
And now that I do, you absolutely...
438
00:21:45,095 --> 00:21:47,389
I'm... I'm like, you're
my partner. You know?
439
00:21:47,472 --> 00:21:49,349
That's how I'm gonna introduce Sam.
440
00:21:49,433 --> 00:21:51,210
But this is the first time I'm thinking
441
00:21:51,211 --> 00:21:53,603
about getting married, to a woman,
442
00:21:53,687 --> 00:21:58,608
and I'm just like, that's
gonna... that is gonna be a thing.
443
00:21:58,692 --> 00:22:00,986
We look to other people
to make choices for us.
444
00:22:01,069 --> 00:22:04,364
Now we need to learn how
to make our own choices.
445
00:22:04,448 --> 00:22:07,326
Yeah. Lead my own life for once.
446
00:22:07,327 --> 00:22:08,327
Yeah.
447
00:22:08,327 --> 00:22:11,480
So, Sam, would you
actually leave my sister
448
00:22:11,481 --> 00:22:13,332
if she chooses not to marry you?
449
00:22:13,415 --> 00:22:14,624
[PENSIVE MUSIC PLAYING]
450
00:22:16,668 --> 00:22:21,173
If Aussie is not in a
position to get engaged,
451
00:22:21,757 --> 00:22:23,091
that is what happens.
452
00:22:23,175 --> 00:22:25,010
[PENSIVE POP MUSIC PLAYING]
453
00:22:39,024 --> 00:22:41,943
It's been really stressful.
Thank you for setting this up.
454
00:22:42,694 --> 00:22:43,695
[TIFF] Mm-hmm.
455
00:22:44,446 --> 00:22:45,950
I've been processing a lot of emotions
456
00:22:45,951 --> 00:22:48,283
and just thinking about a lot of...
457
00:22:49,826 --> 00:22:52,329
You know, just, like,
diving into our relationship
458
00:22:52,412 --> 00:22:54,247
and kinda thinking about us.
459
00:22:54,331 --> 00:22:57,084
I think that there's
a lot of good things
460
00:22:57,167 --> 00:22:59,044
that's come out of this experience.
461
00:22:59,045 --> 00:23:00,045
We've learned a lot.
462
00:23:00,045 --> 00:23:04,424
I think part of the... apprehension
463
00:23:04,508 --> 00:23:07,677
of... wanting to propose
464
00:23:07,761 --> 00:23:10,806
is I notice that,
465
00:23:12,015 --> 00:23:16,019
throughout the two years that I've
dated you, we do get in fights.
466
00:23:17,020 --> 00:23:19,940
In the heat of the moment, you
know, you just toss me away.
467
00:23:20,023 --> 00:23:22,442
You just kinda throw me away, you know?
468
00:23:23,693 --> 00:23:27,864
After many times and
dozens of times, um,
469
00:23:27,948 --> 00:23:30,742
it started to hurt so much
that I started to become numb,
470
00:23:30,826 --> 00:23:34,913
and it did make me feel like
I was disposable, you know?
471
00:23:36,498 --> 00:23:40,585
You always say that. "People
in my life have left me before."
472
00:23:40,669 --> 00:23:43,922
"People in my life have just
given up" or "I've given up."
473
00:23:44,005 --> 00:23:45,966
And I've been trying to prove to you
474
00:23:46,550 --> 00:23:49,136
that regardless of everything
we've been through, that
475
00:23:50,303 --> 00:23:55,642
I think the one way... that
I can show love is to stay.
476
00:23:56,393 --> 00:23:58,019
When everyone else wouldn't.
477
00:23:58,520 --> 00:24:00,147
We did get into a heated moment.
478
00:24:00,230 --> 00:24:03,191
In that moment, I understand that
I may have hurt your feelings.
479
00:24:03,275 --> 00:24:04,526
It wasn't my intention to.
480
00:24:05,110 --> 00:24:06,319
It truly wasn't.
481
00:24:06,403 --> 00:24:11,074
Um, and I understand you have
every right to feel the way you do,
482
00:24:11,658 --> 00:24:16,746
but I noticed, in that moment, you
just completely threw me away again,
483
00:24:16,830 --> 00:24:18,651
in a sense of, like...
"No, actually. I won't.
484
00:24:18,652 --> 00:24:20,417
I won't be your fiancée."
485
00:24:20,500 --> 00:24:21,500
You know?
486
00:24:21,501 --> 00:24:25,589
And that, to me, hit very, very hard,
487
00:24:25,672 --> 00:24:27,883
um, because it felt like
488
00:24:28,383 --> 00:24:32,095
this trial marriage symbolizes something
489
00:24:32,179 --> 00:24:36,099
that is much deeper than the
relationship that we had back home.
490
00:24:36,183 --> 00:24:39,686
- Yeah.
- To me, it symbolized like we are married.
491
00:24:41,980 --> 00:24:44,191
And that's what terrifies me, Mildred.
492
00:24:44,274 --> 00:24:50,113
That was what... It terrifies me
that we could get engaged or married,
493
00:24:50,989 --> 00:24:55,785
and then... one day, wake
up and you want a divorce
494
00:24:55,869 --> 00:24:57,204
just because you're upset.
495
00:24:57,287 --> 00:24:59,998
That's something that
I can't come back from.
496
00:25:00,499 --> 00:25:02,667
And it's the biggest
decision of my life.
497
00:25:02,751 --> 00:25:06,838
It's supposed to last a lifetime,
not be thrown out next week.
498
00:25:06,922 --> 00:25:08,173
Not be thrown out ever.
499
00:25:11,426 --> 00:25:12,426
I dunno.
500
00:25:12,844 --> 00:25:14,265
I've been thinking about
501
00:25:14,266 --> 00:25:18,266
how every time we have a
fight, I run away, you know?
502
00:25:18,350 --> 00:25:20,936
And I throw you away,
and I say it's over.
503
00:25:21,686 --> 00:25:24,397
Looking very deep into
our relationship, I...
504
00:25:25,815 --> 00:25:28,026
I'm afraid. I'm afraid of...
505
00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:32,739
I'm afraid of telling
you that I love you.
506
00:25:32,822 --> 00:25:35,909
I was so afraid of being rejected.
507
00:25:36,701 --> 00:25:41,831
I was so afraid of...
feeling so strongly for you.
508
00:25:41,915 --> 00:25:44,376
I've never felt like that
for anybody in my life.
509
00:25:44,459 --> 00:25:49,798
I've always had problems with
having adult relationships.
510
00:25:49,881 --> 00:25:53,677
And in this experience
I've learned that,
511
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:57,347
if I'm gonna sit here and blame
somebody for something they did,
512
00:25:57,430 --> 00:25:59,474
I need to point fingers at myself first.
513
00:26:00,058 --> 00:26:01,560
I failed, and I'm sorry.
514
00:26:02,143 --> 00:26:03,706
Been thinking about
everything I wanna tell you
515
00:26:03,707 --> 00:26:05,021
and how much I love you.
516
00:26:06,064 --> 00:26:08,817
And that all you
wanted to do is love me.
517
00:26:08,900 --> 00:26:11,611
And you always showed up for
me, and you never left me.
518
00:26:12,612 --> 00:26:14,781
And I... I'm sorry that
I couldn't see that.
519
00:26:15,282 --> 00:26:17,534
I'm sorry that, in our
two-year relationship,
520
00:26:17,617 --> 00:26:21,204
I couldn't... I couldn't give
you the credit that you deserve
521
00:26:21,288 --> 00:26:22,747
for always showing up for me.
522
00:26:24,082 --> 00:26:27,294
Even after I broke up with you, you
were at my doorstep the next day.
523
00:26:27,794 --> 00:26:28,837
You texted me.
524
00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:32,299
You were there for me every single
time, and that means so much.
525
00:26:32,382 --> 00:26:35,719
That means so much more
than... than anything.
526
00:26:36,219 --> 00:26:38,054
And, like, you're still here.
527
00:26:38,555 --> 00:26:41,182
And you don't know how
grateful I am for that.
528
00:26:42,350 --> 00:26:43,977
I will always love you for that.
529
00:26:45,270 --> 00:26:48,231
I'm hoping with my heart
that it's not too late...
530
00:26:50,233 --> 00:26:51,234
to recreate...
531
00:26:52,485 --> 00:26:54,112
everything that could have been.
532
00:26:54,738 --> 00:26:55,822
It's now or never.
533
00:26:55,905 --> 00:26:59,117
And, if you let me, I can...
534
00:27:01,119 --> 00:27:05,081
I can show you that, every single
day, I can't be afraid anymore.
535
00:27:05,165 --> 00:27:08,543
♪ These are strange days ♪
536
00:27:08,627 --> 00:27:10,170
[MILDRED] I love you so much.
537
00:27:10,253 --> 00:27:13,173
♪ Life plays out ♪
538
00:27:13,256 --> 00:27:16,176
♪ In the strangest ways ♪
539
00:27:18,762 --> 00:27:23,308
♪ I want what you want ♪
540
00:27:23,933 --> 00:27:25,685
♪ To be all right ♪
541
00:27:25,769 --> 00:27:29,773
♪ To notice, to find my faith ♪
542
00:27:30,857 --> 00:27:33,193
[YOLY] Like, I am
nervous over everything.
543
00:27:33,276 --> 00:27:37,113
I got your back. I think I've shown
you that I love you no matter what.
544
00:27:37,197 --> 00:27:38,782
Thank you. You have.
545
00:27:40,533 --> 00:27:41,660
Hey.
546
00:27:41,743 --> 00:27:43,036
[YOLY CHUCKLING]
547
00:27:43,119 --> 00:27:45,580
- Hi, babies.
- What's up?
548
00:27:45,664 --> 00:27:48,375
- How are you, mi amor?
- Mamá. I'm going to my girl, hold up.
549
00:27:48,458 --> 00:27:49,542
Hello, baby.
550
00:27:50,210 --> 00:27:51,795
- You look so good.
- Thank you. You too.
551
00:27:51,878 --> 00:27:53,463
- Hi.
- Hi, wifey.
552
00:27:54,339 --> 00:27:56,966
- Ex-wifey. Sorry.
- Yeah, what the hell?
553
00:27:57,050 --> 00:27:59,511
- You want a drink?
- I'm gonna definitely...
554
00:27:59,594 --> 00:28:01,221
[LEXI] Thank you for coming out with me.
555
00:28:02,263 --> 00:28:04,683
[RAE] If you even try to
kiss me with that lip...
556
00:28:05,225 --> 00:28:06,309
Kiss you? Ugh...
557
00:28:06,393 --> 00:28:07,560
Who would do that?
558
00:28:08,853 --> 00:28:10,438
Look, it's cute over here.
559
00:28:10,522 --> 00:28:11,856
Really cute.
560
00:28:11,940 --> 00:28:15,068
♪ Ever since our last kiss ♪
♪ Every time I think I'm free ♪
561
00:28:15,694 --> 00:28:17,946
♪ Seems like I keep running back ♪
562
00:28:20,407 --> 00:28:21,616
We go to the bar first?
563
00:28:22,617 --> 00:28:23,660
[VANESSA] I dunno.
564
00:28:24,494 --> 00:28:26,996
♪ Seems like I keep
running back to you ♪
565
00:28:28,415 --> 00:28:30,542
[VANESSA] Could I have an Aperol spritz?
566
00:28:30,625 --> 00:28:31,626
- You okay?
- [YOLY] Yeah.
567
00:28:31,710 --> 00:28:32,919
[MAL] Okay.
568
00:28:33,002 --> 00:28:34,671
Oh! [LAUGHS]
569
00:28:34,754 --> 00:28:36,339
- This way and that way...
- Hello.
570
00:28:36,423 --> 00:28:37,423
- Hi.
- How's it going?
571
00:28:37,465 --> 00:28:38,633
- Good, how are you?
- Good.
572
00:28:38,717 --> 00:28:39,843
- You look good.
- You too.
573
00:28:39,926 --> 00:28:40,927
- [LEXI] Hello.
- Let me see.
574
00:28:41,678 --> 00:28:43,263
- Picked it out myself.
- [MAL] What?
575
00:28:43,346 --> 00:28:44,723
- Yep.
- You look good.
576
00:28:45,223 --> 00:28:46,266
Good to see you.
577
00:28:46,349 --> 00:28:49,477
- Hi, how are you?
- Great. I'm really good.
578
00:28:49,561 --> 00:28:51,550
Vanessa messaged me to let me know
579
00:28:51,551 --> 00:28:53,606
that Xander and Yoly were communicating.
580
00:28:54,482 --> 00:28:57,068
There's a piece of it that
feels a bit manipulative.
581
00:28:57,152 --> 00:28:58,486
Vanessa, we are not friends.
582
00:28:58,570 --> 00:28:59,988
- What's up?
- How are you?
583
00:29:00,071 --> 00:29:01,656
- Good, how are you?
- Good.
584
00:29:05,702 --> 00:29:07,203
- [MAL] Can I grab you?
- Yeah.
585
00:29:08,913 --> 00:29:10,206
- Can you join us?
- Oh.
586
00:29:16,880 --> 00:29:18,047
[MAL] So I just want to talk.
587
00:29:18,757 --> 00:29:23,720
I am curious to know why you sent
me the DM that they were speaking.
588
00:29:23,803 --> 00:29:25,513
It was a big surprise to me,
589
00:29:25,597 --> 00:29:28,975
and I felt like I didn't want you
to be blindsided at the end of it.
590
00:29:29,058 --> 00:29:30,643
No, I mean, she told me,
591
00:29:30,727 --> 00:29:34,063
and if you're bothered about it,
tell her to stop talking to Xander.
592
00:29:34,856 --> 00:29:37,275
They're allowed to have that
moment, and that's fuckin' okay.
593
00:29:37,358 --> 00:29:38,943
Like, that's why we're here.
594
00:29:39,027 --> 00:29:41,529
I felt like you were trying
to stir the pot for me.
595
00:29:41,613 --> 00:29:43,323
You have every right
to feel how you want.
596
00:29:44,115 --> 00:29:45,690
Vanessa thinks that
she's a fire starter,
597
00:29:45,691 --> 00:29:48,328
but she feels more like a fruit fly.
598
00:29:48,411 --> 00:29:52,248
Like, you see one fruit fly show up,
and you're just kinda like, "Ugh."
599
00:29:52,332 --> 00:29:55,418
Just for my own heart, there
was nothing that was problematic
600
00:29:55,502 --> 00:29:56,530
that they were sending to each other.
601
00:29:56,531 --> 00:29:58,463
It was just that they were talking.
602
00:29:58,546 --> 00:29:59,839
That was the only problem?
603
00:30:00,340 --> 00:30:01,883
Yoly had asked for a selfie.
604
00:30:01,966 --> 00:30:04,344
There were a few things
that made me uncomfortable.
605
00:30:05,220 --> 00:30:07,388
- I didn't hear that when you told me.
- Okay.
606
00:30:07,472 --> 00:30:09,808
[YOLY] I didn't think
that happened, but okay.
607
00:30:11,309 --> 00:30:13,520
I don't remember it happening.
She thought I sent you...
608
00:30:13,603 --> 00:30:14,787
The message said, "I don't want to see
609
00:30:14,788 --> 00:30:16,523
it if it's not a selfie." Winky-face.
610
00:30:16,606 --> 00:30:19,484
- And then you sent a photo...
- Oh. In response. Yes, I can see that.
611
00:30:19,567 --> 00:30:21,402
- In response to what?
- [YOLY] Some...
612
00:30:21,486 --> 00:30:22,821
- Since we're here.
- All right.
613
00:30:22,904 --> 00:30:24,614
I'm assuming something she posted.
614
00:30:24,697 --> 00:30:26,445
Maybe like you being somewhere.
615
00:30:26,446 --> 00:30:28,535
Just like, "Stop
posting where you're at."
616
00:30:28,618 --> 00:30:29,702
- "Take a selfie."
- Yeah.
617
00:30:29,786 --> 00:30:32,038
- So that was probably it.
- Oh. Okay.
618
00:30:32,831 --> 00:30:33,832
That was it.
619
00:30:34,791 --> 00:30:36,000
[TENSE MUSIC PLAYING]
620
00:30:38,503 --> 00:30:41,172
- That's the only question I had.
- Yeah.
621
00:30:42,048 --> 00:30:45,093
- Do you have any questions?
- Mm... No. [CHUCKLES SOFTLY]
622
00:30:46,469 --> 00:30:48,137
- Okay.
- I'm gonna go take a shot.
623
00:30:48,221 --> 00:30:49,430
[YOLY] And that was it.
624
00:30:52,392 --> 00:30:55,687
- Well, that's a part I didn't hear.
- Okay. Didn't think it happened.
625
00:30:57,689 --> 00:31:00,775
Are you guys all feeling,
like, ready to make a decision
626
00:31:00,859 --> 00:31:03,361
in whatever this is...
Like, a week I guess?
627
00:31:03,444 --> 00:31:05,154
- What do you want?
- Come with me.
628
00:31:05,238 --> 00:31:07,448
- Okay. Cool.
- How do you feel about the decision?
629
00:31:07,532 --> 00:31:10,159
- What just happened?
- You know, I don't know.
630
00:31:10,994 --> 00:31:12,745
I just don't understand.
631
00:31:14,747 --> 00:31:15,999
- [YOLY] Hi.
- Hi.
632
00:31:16,082 --> 00:31:17,417
[YOLY SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]
633
00:31:19,669 --> 00:31:20,795
[XANDER] Hi.
634
00:31:25,300 --> 00:31:27,051
How have you been? I miss you.
635
00:31:27,135 --> 00:31:28,428
I miss you too.
636
00:31:29,804 --> 00:31:33,766
I kept thinking like, you know,
like, "What were those feelings?"
637
00:31:33,850 --> 00:31:35,894
"Was I, like, dreaming for three weeks?"
638
00:31:35,977 --> 00:31:39,731
"Okay, no. Like, I'm still
thinking about her a lot, and... "
639
00:31:39,814 --> 00:31:41,732
- You were?
- Yeah.
640
00:31:43,109 --> 00:31:45,069
I think we had an amazing time together.
641
00:31:48,948 --> 00:31:52,827
And I would hate to see, like,
that it ends with this experience.
642
00:31:55,204 --> 00:31:58,082
Do you feel like you grieved it
to the point where you're like...
643
00:31:58,166 --> 00:32:00,126
- Grieved what? You and I?
- Yeah.
644
00:32:00,209 --> 00:32:02,173
Or like, I guess, do you
feel like that you, like,
645
00:32:02,174 --> 00:32:04,255
"got over us"? Like...
646
00:32:06,007 --> 00:32:07,008
'Kay.
647
00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:10,887
- I... I don't want to cry now. I...
- I'm sorry.
648
00:32:10,970 --> 00:32:13,097
I don't know what...
I don't know what to do.
649
00:32:13,890 --> 00:32:16,970
I got, like, so many
memories built up in here
650
00:32:16,971 --> 00:32:19,103
that, like, I can't grieve it
651
00:32:19,187 --> 00:32:20,438
because I have...
652
00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:24,651
so much thought that
there's a potential.
653
00:32:24,734 --> 00:32:26,402
[EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING]
654
00:32:27,904 --> 00:32:29,113
It's hard shit.
655
00:32:32,492 --> 00:32:34,160
You're so fucking beautiful.
656
00:32:35,078 --> 00:32:36,079
You look cute.
657
00:32:36,788 --> 00:32:38,247
Where's the jacket from?
658
00:32:38,748 --> 00:32:39,874
Zara. Duh.
659
00:32:40,375 --> 00:32:42,210
You can't bring that back to Hawaii.
660
00:32:42,961 --> 00:32:45,046
Well, take me somewhere else.
661
00:32:51,386 --> 00:32:52,637
[SILENTLY MOUTHS] I know.
662
00:32:55,181 --> 00:32:56,641
How's it been going?
663
00:32:56,724 --> 00:32:58,059
- With Yoly?
- Yeah.
664
00:32:58,142 --> 00:32:59,268
Um...
665
00:33:00,186 --> 00:33:01,186
Up and down.
666
00:33:03,189 --> 00:33:05,692
[MILDRED] Come over here,
you fucking hot-ass date.
667
00:33:06,317 --> 00:33:07,986
She's the trial wife I never had.
668
00:33:08,069 --> 00:33:09,654
I think everybody's going inside.
669
00:33:09,737 --> 00:33:10,989
- Everybody's going?
- Yeah.
670
00:33:11,072 --> 00:33:14,283
Oh! Oh! Yes. Okay. I want to
tell you this nail salon story.
671
00:33:14,951 --> 00:33:18,204
It's gonna... She... I've
been hyping this story up.
672
00:33:20,623 --> 00:33:23,292
You know I go on Groupon a
lot. And so I won a Groupon...
673
00:33:25,086 --> 00:33:26,254
[YOLY] What do you see?
674
00:33:26,754 --> 00:33:28,256
- Hmm?
- What do you see?
675
00:33:28,339 --> 00:33:29,799
Nothing. Just the three of them.
676
00:33:29,882 --> 00:33:30,882
[YOLY] Oh.
677
00:33:31,926 --> 00:33:34,512
Bitch, you're crazy. I
see what you're doing here.
678
00:33:34,595 --> 00:33:37,515
Trying to involve yourself in my
relationship and trial marriage.
679
00:33:37,598 --> 00:33:39,434
For fuck's sake, stop.
680
00:33:39,517 --> 00:33:42,103
- [RAE] I have to go there.
- Are you avoiding me?
681
00:33:42,186 --> 00:33:43,186
- I'm not.
- You are?
682
00:33:43,187 --> 00:33:45,189
- Are you avoiding me?
- Maybe.
683
00:33:45,273 --> 00:33:46,816
[MAL] How have you two been?
684
00:33:47,608 --> 00:33:50,278
Most of the time it's been
pretty good, but we've...
685
00:33:50,361 --> 00:33:53,281
- [AUSSIE] It's been challenging.
- But in a really good way.
686
00:33:53,364 --> 00:33:56,117
- Yeah.
- 'Cause we're both showing up differently.
687
00:33:56,200 --> 00:33:59,245
- Yeah.
- This shit has been intense. Yeah.
688
00:33:59,328 --> 00:34:01,289
- I'm gonna talk to Mildred a second.
- Okay.
689
00:34:01,372 --> 00:34:03,374
[TENSE MUSIC PLAYING]
690
00:34:06,753 --> 00:34:07,879
Oh boy.
691
00:34:11,966 --> 00:34:13,051
I miss you.
692
00:34:13,134 --> 00:34:15,136
[SOULFUL POP SONG PLAYING]
693
00:34:18,264 --> 00:34:19,932
♪ Why did I have to lie? ♪
694
00:34:21,184 --> 00:34:23,811
♪ Tell me why you let everything go ♪
695
00:34:23,895 --> 00:34:25,271
♪ Think I've lost my mind ♪
696
00:34:25,354 --> 00:34:26,354
I love you.
697
00:34:26,689 --> 00:34:27,982
I love you too.
698
00:34:30,068 --> 00:34:33,529
Like, I feel what you
guys are feeling right now.
699
00:34:33,613 --> 00:34:35,448
It's so big and it's just so strong.
700
00:34:39,452 --> 00:34:40,453
[MAL] Can I step in?
701
00:34:41,579 --> 00:34:44,082
- Want me to not step in?
- You can do what you want.
702
00:34:44,165 --> 00:34:45,249
What do you want?
703
00:34:46,375 --> 00:34:47,960
[YOLY] I don't know. It's very intimate.
704
00:34:49,128 --> 00:34:51,214
I don't know how to answer you.
705
00:34:51,297 --> 00:34:52,590
I just said what I said.
706
00:34:52,673 --> 00:34:55,009
And I think that you
sticking to who you are,
707
00:34:55,093 --> 00:34:56,344
I think that would be...
708
00:34:56,427 --> 00:34:58,471
- Do you... I can walk away with you.
- Okay.
709
00:34:58,554 --> 00:35:01,224
... anybody sticking to what
they actually believe in.
710
00:35:02,433 --> 00:35:03,433
You gonna leave me?
711
00:35:05,686 --> 00:35:06,686
[MAL] You okay?
712
00:35:07,188 --> 00:35:09,398
That's a lot... That's
a loaded question.
713
00:35:10,441 --> 00:35:13,111
I honestly kinda want to go
back and join that conversation
714
00:35:13,194 --> 00:35:15,446
'cause it was a
conversation that was, um...
715
00:35:16,823 --> 00:35:20,535
Mildred was speaking about things
important to her that relates to me,
716
00:35:20,618 --> 00:35:22,161
that relates to Xander.
717
00:35:22,245 --> 00:35:24,705
I kinda wanna go back to
that, to be super honest.
718
00:35:24,789 --> 00:35:28,042
But I don't want you to feel like
I'm not thinking of you. I am.
719
00:35:28,126 --> 00:35:31,254
Is it conversation that I can join
or that you don't want me to join?
720
00:35:31,337 --> 00:35:34,882
I think it would be more
authentic without you there.
721
00:35:34,966 --> 00:35:36,217
Just... I just want to...
722
00:35:37,009 --> 00:35:39,804
There's just some questions
I have not had answered.
723
00:35:39,887 --> 00:35:42,932
I just want maybe, like, five,
ten minutes. If that's okay?
724
00:35:43,015 --> 00:35:44,684
- It's not long.
- Is it a trust thing?
725
00:35:44,767 --> 00:35:46,352
- Need me to trust you?
- Please. Yes.
726
00:35:46,435 --> 00:35:47,435
Okay.
727
00:35:48,062 --> 00:35:49,062
Okay.
728
00:35:50,022 --> 00:35:51,022
Go for it.
729
00:35:53,734 --> 00:35:54,819
Thank you.
730
00:35:57,280 --> 00:35:59,782
- This is not easy. I need you to know.
- I know it's not.
731
00:35:59,866 --> 00:36:01,659
- It's not.
- I'm not okay either.
732
00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:03,911
- It's, like, not easy.
- I know.
733
00:36:05,371 --> 00:36:06,372
Break up.
734
00:36:06,455 --> 00:36:09,041
♪ Passing through me ♪
735
00:36:09,125 --> 00:36:11,043
♪ Passing through me ♪
736
00:36:11,127 --> 00:36:12,128
[MAL EXCLAIMS]
737
00:36:14,130 --> 00:36:16,382
- [YOLY] Are we in sight of somebody?
- No.
738
00:36:16,465 --> 00:36:17,884
- Can you look?
- I don't know.
739
00:36:19,051 --> 00:36:20,303
- Yeah.
- [YOLY] Scoot back.
740
00:36:22,763 --> 00:36:24,265
- Still in line of sight?
- No.
741
00:36:24,348 --> 00:36:26,475
- Okay. Am I?
- No.
742
00:36:26,559 --> 00:36:29,270
[XANDER] I don't want to
overstep my boundaries,
743
00:36:29,353 --> 00:36:31,814
and I know I should be
willing to go there, but...
744
00:36:31,898 --> 00:36:34,275
I respect you for not wanting
to overstep boundaries.
745
00:36:34,358 --> 00:36:36,152
- You're respectful.
- So I don't want to.
746
00:36:36,235 --> 00:36:38,779
[XANDER] But I do want
to make sure that, like,
747
00:36:38,863 --> 00:36:41,490
you do know how I feel,
and I feel like that you do.
748
00:36:43,534 --> 00:36:44,577
But you know, right?
749
00:36:45,119 --> 00:36:46,913
I... I think I do.
750
00:36:48,623 --> 00:36:52,919
I guess I'm just trying to figure
out where you're at... a bit.
751
00:36:53,002 --> 00:36:54,462
Let's do this thing.
752
00:36:58,466 --> 00:37:00,259
You wanna be married, yeah?
753
00:37:00,843 --> 00:37:01,969
That's all I need.
754
00:37:06,557 --> 00:37:07,558
Okay.
755
00:37:09,268 --> 00:37:10,770
But wait, but...
756
00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:19,445
You feel that?
757
00:37:19,946 --> 00:37:22,198
[MUSIC SWELLS]
758
00:37:27,161 --> 00:37:29,789
Do you? It's okay if you don't.
759
00:37:29,872 --> 00:37:31,916
I do. I don't. I do and I don't.
760
00:37:32,792 --> 00:37:34,627
If Mal wasn't showing up...
761
00:37:34,710 --> 00:37:37,672
She really does just want
what's best for me also.
762
00:37:37,755 --> 00:37:41,217
She's been supportive as fuck
and, like, very much, like,
763
00:37:41,300 --> 00:37:44,178
not even trying to get me to not be...
764
00:37:44,262 --> 00:37:45,930
Is that what you want? Support?
765
00:37:46,889 --> 00:37:48,808
So support is something I want.
766
00:37:48,891 --> 00:37:51,435
The things that she's
giving to you, though,
767
00:37:51,519 --> 00:37:54,522
is it something that
you could get out of...
768
00:37:57,066 --> 00:37:58,066
a friend?
769
00:38:01,112 --> 00:38:03,531
You don't have to answer. I
just want you to think about it.
770
00:38:05,283 --> 00:38:08,327
I am trying to be as receptive to
771
00:38:08,411 --> 00:38:11,998
the way she's showing up romantically,
outside of being just friends.
772
00:38:12,081 --> 00:38:13,304
Coming from a relationship with you
773
00:38:13,305 --> 00:38:15,418
where the romance was very much there.
774
00:38:15,501 --> 00:38:17,044
- And the intimacy.
- Yeah.
775
00:38:17,128 --> 00:38:18,462
And the support.
776
00:38:19,338 --> 00:38:22,008
I don't know how to
differentiate that right now.
777
00:38:23,009 --> 00:38:25,428
- You don't need to tell me anything.
- I know.
778
00:38:25,928 --> 00:38:26,929
I know.
779
00:38:27,930 --> 00:38:29,765
I do want to explain and tell
780
00:38:29,849 --> 00:38:33,477
all these amazing things
about, like, why we could work,
781
00:38:33,561 --> 00:38:36,105
but, like, I also
don't want to feel like
782
00:38:37,231 --> 00:38:38,357
I'm a second pick.
783
00:38:39,191 --> 00:38:43,612
I don't feel like that I
can... 100% rely on anyone.
784
00:38:44,113 --> 00:38:45,114
You know?
785
00:38:45,197 --> 00:38:50,286
I don't want to feel like I'm
not... being chosen anymore.
786
00:38:50,369 --> 00:38:53,456
[MELANCHOLY POP SONG PLAYING]
787
00:38:57,668 --> 00:39:00,546
♪ Oh, are we gonna fall? ♪
788
00:39:00,629 --> 00:39:04,675
♪ Am I crazy for caring at all? ♪
789
00:39:04,759 --> 00:39:10,681
[YOLY] I feel like my heart and my
mind are in two different places.
790
00:39:10,765 --> 00:39:11,765
I am
791
00:39:12,808 --> 00:39:14,727
still in love with Xander.
792
00:39:15,478 --> 00:39:19,732
If me and Mal were further broken
apart, I would marry Xander,
793
00:39:19,815 --> 00:39:22,109
but I love Mal.
794
00:39:23,069 --> 00:39:24,111
I don't know.
795
00:39:26,197 --> 00:39:29,533
♪ Am I crazy for caring at all? ♪
796
00:39:29,534 --> 00:39:30,534
[SNIFFLES]
797
00:39:30,534 --> 00:39:33,829
♪ Am I crazy for caring at all? ♪
798
00:39:33,913 --> 00:39:34,955
[SNIFFLES]
799
00:39:36,165 --> 00:39:37,249
[TIFF] So you're torn.
800
00:39:37,958 --> 00:39:41,630
You've been so set on being
married to her for a long time,
801
00:39:41,631 --> 00:39:42,797
from my understanding.
802
00:39:42,798 --> 00:39:43,798
Yeah.
803
00:39:43,798 --> 00:39:46,467
- Um, what changed?
- [MAL] She met Yoly.
804
00:39:46,550 --> 00:39:48,386
[TENSE MUSIC PLAYS]
805
00:39:49,887 --> 00:39:51,625
I don't think you came here like,
806
00:39:51,626 --> 00:39:52,848
"I'm gonna fall for this other person."
807
00:39:52,932 --> 00:39:56,185
But, regardless of all this
shit, I love Yoly, period.
808
00:39:56,268 --> 00:40:00,231
And I respect her enough, and I
love her enough, if it is you...
809
00:40:00,314 --> 00:40:02,608
Then, like, okay, it is you. Right?
810
00:40:02,691 --> 00:40:04,485
But, like, I love Yoly.
811
00:40:04,568 --> 00:40:06,195
I've been through shit with Yoly.
812
00:40:06,278 --> 00:40:09,281
I know things about her. I
know her baggage she comes with.
813
00:40:09,365 --> 00:40:11,367
I choose Yoly at her very worst.
814
00:40:11,450 --> 00:40:14,537
I choose her with all the trauma.
I choose her when we weren't shit.
815
00:40:14,620 --> 00:40:16,666
I choose her when she
can't provide shit for me,
816
00:40:16,667 --> 00:40:17,873
and I still choose her.
817
00:40:17,957 --> 00:40:19,625
Do you choose Yoly?
818
00:40:20,292 --> 00:40:22,670
- No disrespect to you.
- No, no. Good question.
819
00:40:22,753 --> 00:40:25,005
So I'm asking, like, do you choose her?
820
00:40:25,089 --> 00:40:27,007
[ABRUPT STINGER]
821
00:40:28,717 --> 00:40:32,596
It's conflicting because, like,
I love you, and Yoly loves you.
822
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:34,348
Vanessa's asked me hard
questions like this,
823
00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:36,350
and I very much am usually someone
824
00:40:36,434 --> 00:40:40,062
that wants to try and... respond
and answer as quickly as I can,
825
00:40:40,146 --> 00:40:43,399
'cause I know everyone's dying
to know, but I can't feel like
826
00:40:43,482 --> 00:40:45,693
that I can do that
appropriately right now.
827
00:40:47,445 --> 00:40:49,071
- Because...
- Does she know that?
828
00:40:49,655 --> 00:40:52,533
- Let's bring her in here, talk about it.
- I don't know.
829
00:40:52,616 --> 00:40:54,410
She's like, "I don't
want you kissing her."
830
00:40:54,493 --> 00:40:56,328
Sorry. You're talking
about something serious,
831
00:40:56,412 --> 00:40:59,457
but somebody said bring Yoly
here and talk. Grab your purse.
832
00:40:59,540 --> 00:41:02,960
[XANDER] I hate to spotlight Yoly
and I's relationship right now.
833
00:41:03,043 --> 00:41:05,337
- But... here we go.
- [YOLY] Oh God.
834
00:41:05,421 --> 00:41:06,688
[MAL] So, just to catch you up to speed,
835
00:41:06,689 --> 00:41:09,925
like, I've loved you at our worst.
836
00:41:10,009 --> 00:41:11,969
I still love you. I still choose you.
837
00:41:12,052 --> 00:41:13,929
Um, and I was just asking Xander,
838
00:41:14,013 --> 00:41:16,891
"I'm curious if you choose Yoly
the same way I choose Yoly."
839
00:41:17,558 --> 00:41:22,688
I mean, no, because I... That's
not the history that we have.
840
00:41:23,189 --> 00:41:24,190
But do you choose her?
841
00:41:25,608 --> 00:41:27,359
I'm... I'm choosing myself right now.
842
00:41:27,443 --> 00:41:28,443
[MAL] Fair.
843
00:41:29,904 --> 00:41:31,030
Fair.
844
00:41:32,490 --> 00:41:34,658
I would hope that you
choose yourself also.
845
00:41:38,454 --> 00:41:40,623
- This isn't the decision night.
- It's not.
846
00:41:40,706 --> 00:41:42,917
[DRAMATIC POP MUSIC PLAYING]
847
00:41:55,179 --> 00:41:57,700
So was tonight the fun cocktail party
848
00:41:57,701 --> 00:42:01,179
we envisioned or the... dramatic 2.0?
849
00:42:01,977 --> 00:42:03,812
I don't know where you went, but...
850
00:42:04,313 --> 00:42:05,940
[RAE] I know where I was.
851
00:42:07,191 --> 00:42:08,984
[LEXI] How was it seeing Vanessa?
852
00:42:09,068 --> 00:42:12,404
She had asked me at one point,
"Are you avoiding me?" and I'm like,
853
00:42:13,155 --> 00:42:14,323
"I don't know, maybe."
854
00:42:14,406 --> 00:42:16,116
I... It's just so awkward for me.
855
00:42:16,200 --> 00:42:19,036
- So uncomfortable.
- I dunno why you couldn't be honest.
856
00:42:19,954 --> 00:42:22,581
I'm not looking for her
to be a part of our life.
857
00:42:23,916 --> 00:42:26,961
And if you haven't set that boundary,
how will that boundary be known?
858
00:42:27,461 --> 00:42:28,461
Ugh...
859
00:42:29,213 --> 00:42:30,256
[INHALES DEEPLY]
860
00:42:30,339 --> 00:42:33,467
- What?
- You look at me, like, with disgust.
861
00:42:34,051 --> 00:42:36,066
Like, as soon as,
like, she walked up and
862
00:42:36,067 --> 00:42:38,556
we, like, touched for a second.
863
00:42:38,639 --> 00:42:39,848
I don't want that.
864
00:42:41,559 --> 00:42:43,185
How do you not get that?
865
00:42:43,686 --> 00:42:47,273
I made it very clear that
I needed to be chosen.
866
00:42:47,356 --> 00:42:50,150
This was such a simple
way for you to choose me.
867
00:42:54,530 --> 00:42:56,782
- I thought we had a good night.
- We did.
868
00:42:56,865 --> 00:42:59,159
- I just still feel...
- We obviously didn't.
869
00:42:59,243 --> 00:43:00,828
- I didn't...
- She hugged you first.
870
00:43:03,205 --> 00:43:05,291
I maybe, like, went like this
871
00:43:05,374 --> 00:43:07,835
and literally didn't even
look at her in the face.
872
00:43:09,587 --> 00:43:10,587
I didn't.
873
00:43:11,197 --> 00:43:12,256
Okay.
874
00:43:12,256 --> 00:43:14,485
You think I made, like, really intense
875
00:43:14,486 --> 00:43:16,302
eye contact with her? Like, I didn't.
876
00:43:19,471 --> 00:43:22,558
She still clearly has
power in this relationship.
877
00:43:22,641 --> 00:43:23,641
It sucks, but...
878
00:43:23,684 --> 00:43:25,811
- Oh my God.
- I'm not saying that about you.
879
00:43:25,812 --> 00:43:26,812
It's ridiculous.
880
00:43:26,812 --> 00:43:30,733
No, I didn't say that about you.
I... It affects me... not you.
881
00:43:31,692 --> 00:43:32,692
Okay.
882
00:43:33,652 --> 00:43:35,529
I'm not asking you to walk away now.
883
00:43:36,572 --> 00:43:38,657
All I'm saying is it bothers me.
884
00:43:38,741 --> 00:43:40,576
I don't want her in my life.
885
00:43:40,659 --> 00:43:43,829
I'm in this with you. I'm trying
to think about you. Like...
886
00:43:43,912 --> 00:43:46,999
Why are we even talking
about this situation? Like...
887
00:43:47,082 --> 00:43:49,293
Because I want to feel supported.
888
00:43:49,376 --> 00:43:50,753
I do support you.
889
00:43:50,836 --> 00:43:54,381
It doesn't mean I need to not
look someone in the eye ever.
890
00:43:54,465 --> 00:43:56,675
- You wanted me to be like, "Fuck you."
- No.
891
00:43:56,759 --> 00:44:00,095
I just wanted you to not look at
her and to just not talk to her.
892
00:44:00,929 --> 00:44:04,558
- I feel like I didn't engage.
- I didn't look at her once tonight.
893
00:44:04,642 --> 00:44:07,645
She's fucking with our
life, and I don't like it.
894
00:44:08,395 --> 00:44:09,563
I don't like it.
895
00:44:10,064 --> 00:44:11,774
The antagonistic behavior.
896
00:44:11,857 --> 00:44:13,108
She's not stupid.
897
00:44:13,192 --> 00:44:16,987
In the way she manipulates and she
behaves, she's plenty calculated.
898
00:44:17,071 --> 00:44:18,447
"Let me go poke there."
899
00:44:18,530 --> 00:44:20,126
"My relationship with
Xander's not working out?
900
00:44:20,127 --> 00:44:22,576
Mmm, let me poke there."
901
00:44:22,660 --> 00:44:24,703
She is calculated, Rae.
902
00:44:24,787 --> 00:44:26,664
Down to her fuckin' core.
903
00:44:27,164 --> 00:44:30,250
She is calculated and full of shit.
904
00:44:31,168 --> 00:44:32,378
Not a good person.
905
00:44:32,461 --> 00:44:33,921
Not a good person.
906
00:44:37,216 --> 00:44:39,253
Anything I want to
talk about, you shut...
907
00:44:39,254 --> 00:44:41,428
Or you make a joke
about it, and, like...
908
00:44:42,638 --> 00:44:45,557
Sure, 'cause you had good
times with her. I get it.
909
00:44:46,850 --> 00:44:48,352
I did have an experience here.
910
00:44:48,435 --> 00:44:51,855
Like, it was hard. Just as
we're having an experience here.
911
00:44:51,939 --> 00:44:53,941
[TENSE MUSIC PLAYING]
912
00:44:59,905 --> 00:45:02,866
I'm sad this turned out like
this, because I didn't...
913
00:45:02,950 --> 00:45:04,022
I don't know. We talked last night
914
00:45:04,023 --> 00:45:06,787
about just wanting to have good moments.
915
00:45:06,870 --> 00:45:08,706
And I felt like today we had that.
916
00:45:08,789 --> 00:45:10,833
- Like, I was with you, like...
- I'm...
917
00:45:11,583 --> 00:45:13,919
Part of this process is
identifying our values.
918
00:45:14,002 --> 00:45:16,296
I... I can't tiptoe around this shit...
919
00:45:18,465 --> 00:45:20,384
before we get engaged.
920
00:45:21,009 --> 00:45:23,762
- Why are you making that face?
- I don't know what to tell you.
921
00:45:23,846 --> 00:45:26,098
All you can focus on is the negatives.
922
00:45:26,181 --> 00:45:28,851
For the love of fuck, stop
putting words into my mouth.
923
00:45:28,934 --> 00:45:30,728
- Hmm.
- Please.
924
00:45:30,811 --> 00:45:34,148
Stop saying what I am and
am not feeling right now.
925
00:45:34,732 --> 00:45:36,483
Yeah, it is hard when people do that.
926
00:45:36,567 --> 00:45:40,320
Then, like, just fucking
don't be with me, then.
927
00:45:42,030 --> 00:45:43,615
It's like fucking cancer.
928
00:45:45,576 --> 00:45:47,119
It just eats at you.
929
00:45:48,120 --> 00:45:51,373
This is the girl that looked
me dead in the fucking face
930
00:45:51,457 --> 00:45:54,251
and told me what you did with her hands.
931
00:45:55,544 --> 00:45:56,920
That person.
932
00:45:58,172 --> 00:46:00,507
Do you know how hard
it is to relive that?
933
00:46:03,552 --> 00:46:07,097
Oh my fucking God. It was
just a hug. It was a hug.
934
00:46:07,848 --> 00:46:11,977
I think she is more consumed
by how she feels about Vanessa
935
00:46:12,060 --> 00:46:13,937
than the progression
of our relationship.
936
00:46:14,021 --> 00:46:15,689
There's so many ups and downs.
937
00:46:15,773 --> 00:46:17,691
And, like... [SIGHS]
938
00:46:17,775 --> 00:46:19,141
At the end of this we're supposed to
939
00:46:19,142 --> 00:46:21,653
have an engagement, and I don't know...
940
00:46:21,737 --> 00:46:24,156
[SNIFFLES] ... how that can even happen.
941
00:46:24,157 --> 00:46:25,157
Okay.
942
00:46:25,157 --> 00:46:26,283
[RAE] I tried my best.
943
00:46:26,366 --> 00:46:30,037
Like, I did my part, and
my part wasn't good enough.
944
00:46:31,663 --> 00:46:34,666
[DARK, BROODING POP SONG PLAYING]
945
00:46:50,724 --> 00:46:51,767
[MARGAUX YIPPING]
946
00:46:55,479 --> 00:46:56,772
I'm so proud of you.
947
00:46:57,881 --> 00:46:58,899
Bye.
948
00:46:58,899 --> 00:47:01,318
I just want to get straight
to it 'cause I just can't even.
949
00:47:01,401 --> 00:47:04,488
Damn, straight to? I dunno what
that means, but I'm here for it.
950
00:47:04,571 --> 00:47:08,033
I guess your conversation with Xander...
951
00:47:08,116 --> 00:47:13,163
You guys were talking about
me and Xander's relationship.
952
00:47:13,247 --> 00:47:15,666
I was like, "Are you sure of
Yoly the way she's sure of you?"
953
00:47:16,625 --> 00:47:18,710
- Do you think I'm sure of Xander?
- Yes.
954
00:47:18,794 --> 00:47:20,587
What do you think I'm sure of?
955
00:47:20,671 --> 00:47:22,840
You've been sure enough to let me know
956
00:47:22,923 --> 00:47:25,092
that you're unsure of
us because of Xander.
957
00:47:28,095 --> 00:47:31,849
But, no matter what, even at
our worst, I still choose Yoly.
958
00:47:32,558 --> 00:47:34,685
If she chooses you, I still choose Yoly.
959
00:47:34,768 --> 00:47:36,210
That's my person.
960
00:47:36,211 --> 00:47:38,313
"And I just want to know if
you choose her the same way,"
961
00:47:38,397 --> 00:47:41,024
and she said, "I don't
know. I can't answer that."
962
00:47:41,525 --> 00:47:44,903
- She didn't choose you, Yoly.
- You're taking the choice away from me.
963
00:47:44,987 --> 00:47:46,321
I'm not.
964
00:47:46,405 --> 00:47:47,960
You're taking my autonomy away from me,
965
00:47:47,961 --> 00:47:49,950
because I'm not ready to make a choice.
966
00:47:50,033 --> 00:47:51,660
I never took away from that.
967
00:47:52,452 --> 00:47:55,122
I've showed up very consistent
to you this entire time.
968
00:47:55,205 --> 00:47:56,205
[YOLY] Absolutely have.
969
00:47:56,206 --> 00:47:57,550
Now I'm taking your autonomy away,
970
00:47:57,551 --> 00:48:00,085
because I'm not like...
crucified over this?
971
00:48:00,168 --> 00:48:02,212
I think that's unfair for you to say.
972
00:48:03,130 --> 00:48:04,320
When you ask me how I feel about Xander,
973
00:48:04,321 --> 00:48:07,050
there's love there. There's comfort.
974
00:48:07,134 --> 00:48:08,760
There's ease there.
975
00:48:08,844 --> 00:48:12,931
But there's also comfort and
ease and love with you and I.
976
00:48:13,015 --> 00:48:14,683
You can't have us both.
977
00:48:16,059 --> 00:48:18,145
I'm very much in love with you.
978
00:48:18,687 --> 00:48:22,733
What I can't lie about is that
the romance is not there for me.
979
00:48:24,234 --> 00:48:27,613
I tried a little last night. It
felt comfortable. I'm doing my best.
980
00:48:27,696 --> 00:48:29,656
Like, I'm here. I'm showing up.
981
00:48:29,740 --> 00:48:31,909
And I'm so grateful. So grateful.
982
00:48:31,992 --> 00:48:34,786
Do not take it for
granted at all. At all.
983
00:48:34,870 --> 00:48:36,788
Okay, I'll show up
the way I'm showing up.
984
00:48:36,872 --> 00:48:38,999
I'll make that consistent,
'cause I can do that.
985
00:48:39,082 --> 00:48:41,710
I can commit to that. We
go to intimacy therapy.
986
00:48:41,793 --> 00:48:43,837
I can commit to that.
We can get through that.
987
00:48:43,921 --> 00:48:46,506
But at what point do I
keep neglecting myself?
988
00:48:46,590 --> 00:48:48,530
I'd love to ask the same question
989
00:48:48,531 --> 00:48:49,760
'cause I waited three years for you...
990
00:48:49,843 --> 00:48:52,137
- I get that you did that...
- Stop cutting me off.
991
00:48:52,220 --> 00:48:54,973
I've waited three years for
you to get to "hell yes."
992
00:48:54,974 --> 00:48:55,974
Okay.
993
00:48:55,974 --> 00:48:58,602
Now you're expecting me to be
like, "Mal's been showing up
994
00:48:58,685 --> 00:49:00,938
for the last two weeks.
Now she's my 'hell yeah.'"
995
00:49:01,021 --> 00:49:03,899
- Like, that's really fucking shitty.
- Is it shitty?
996
00:49:03,982 --> 00:49:05,901
It is. You haven't showed
up like that in 3 years.
997
00:49:05,984 --> 00:49:08,028
Took you 3 weeks to make
somebody else a "hell yeah."
998
00:49:08,111 --> 00:49:10,739
- They showed up right off the bat.
- Is Xander your "hell yes"?
999
00:49:12,491 --> 00:49:13,742
Is Xander your "hell yes"?
1000
00:49:13,825 --> 00:49:16,244
I can't say that, but I'll
say it doesn't seem as cloudy.
1001
00:49:20,540 --> 00:49:22,334
As much as you deserve your "hell yes,"
1002
00:49:22,417 --> 00:49:23,961
I also deserve my "hell yes."
1003
00:49:24,044 --> 00:49:25,712
And if I'm like your "kinda"
1004
00:49:25,796 --> 00:49:28,548
or "maybe it could be, and I love
her so much, but possibly... "
1005
00:49:28,632 --> 00:49:30,884
If I'm not that, then let me go.
1006
00:49:30,968 --> 00:49:32,970
What if I don't wanna let you go?
1007
00:49:33,053 --> 00:49:34,680
[TENSE MUSIC PLAYING]
1008
00:49:36,640 --> 00:49:40,894
I cannot imagine how hard this
is to be in your position, at all.
1009
00:49:41,770 --> 00:49:44,773
But I'm asking you to
not just, like, give up.
1010
00:49:44,856 --> 00:49:46,316
I'm not trying to give up.
1011
00:49:46,400 --> 00:49:47,609
I'm here.
1012
00:49:51,196 --> 00:49:52,196
Do you want a hug?
1013
00:49:52,197 --> 00:49:53,365
[SOFTLY] No.
1014
00:49:57,661 --> 00:50:01,039
What are you talking about, Yoly?
Do you want niggas to die for you?
1015
00:50:01,123 --> 00:50:02,660
You want to see both of us fight for you
1016
00:50:02,661 --> 00:50:04,793
and bleed so you can see, like,
1017
00:50:04,876 --> 00:50:07,129
"Who died for me? I'm
gonna pick that person."
1018
00:50:07,212 --> 00:50:08,797
- Is that what you want?
- No.
1019
00:50:08,880 --> 00:50:10,132
What do you want from me?
1020
00:50:10,757 --> 00:50:12,968
I am dying for you,
fam. What do you want?
1021
00:50:13,051 --> 00:50:14,553
- [MARGAUX BARKS]
- It's okay.
1022
00:50:15,095 --> 00:50:16,888
Fucking give me a break.
1023
00:50:16,889 --> 00:50:17,931
[MARGAUX BARKING]
1024
00:50:17,931 --> 00:50:19,057
[YOLY] It's okay.
1025
00:50:19,558 --> 00:50:20,809
She's going outside.
1026
00:50:21,309 --> 00:50:24,104
[MARGAUX GROWLS, BARKS]
1027
00:50:24,688 --> 00:50:26,773
[MARGAUX WHIMPERS SOFTLY]
1028
00:50:26,857 --> 00:50:27,857
It's okay.
1029
00:50:30,736 --> 00:50:34,489
[DARK, BROODING POP SONG PLAYING]
1030
00:50:44,499 --> 00:50:46,293
[MAL] I'm shutting
down. It is done for me.
1031
00:50:46,376 --> 00:50:49,254
It is done. I'm done.
I'm done with all of this.
1032
00:50:52,174 --> 00:50:54,342
I am done with this entire thing.
1033
00:50:54,426 --> 00:50:55,469
I'm done.
1034
00:50:55,552 --> 00:50:57,012
I have nothing else to say.
1035
00:51:21,661 --> 00:51:22,871
[GLASSES CLATTERING]
1036
00:51:25,665 --> 00:51:27,375
- You like these pants, huh?
- Yeah.
1037
00:51:37,452 --> 00:51:38,470
[VANESSA] Whew!
1038
00:51:38,470 --> 00:51:41,389
To be honest, I'm just so
relieved that that night is over.
1039
00:51:41,473 --> 00:51:44,017
My biggest bummer of the
night, through everything,
1040
00:51:44,101 --> 00:51:47,229
was realizing that Rae really
wasn't gonna talk to me.
1041
00:51:48,563 --> 00:51:51,691
If that's how she's gonna be
controlled by a 24-year-old,
1042
00:51:51,775 --> 00:51:55,320
they don't need to be together,
because, like, she chose you.
1043
00:51:55,403 --> 00:51:58,615
That should be meaningful enough
for her to stand her ground
1044
00:51:58,698 --> 00:52:00,330
and be like, "I'm
gonna talk to the person
1045
00:52:00,331 --> 00:52:01,493
I had a trial marriage with."
1046
00:52:01,576 --> 00:52:02,577
Yeah.
1047
00:52:05,288 --> 00:52:06,456
You talked to Yoly a lot.
1048
00:52:06,540 --> 00:52:09,042
I'm like, "I see she's with
Yoly, and I will not look over,
1049
00:52:09,126 --> 00:52:12,170
and I'll distance myself so I
cannot hear any word being said."
1050
00:52:12,254 --> 00:52:13,463
I'm like... [EXHALES]
1051
00:52:13,547 --> 00:52:15,590
You did... fantastic.
1052
00:52:15,674 --> 00:52:16,967
[SIGHS] Thank you.
1053
00:52:18,385 --> 00:52:19,385
Holy shit.
1054
00:52:20,762 --> 00:52:23,473
I was so proud every time I
looked over at you tonight.
1055
00:52:23,557 --> 00:52:25,308
[CHUCKLES QUIETLY]
1056
00:52:25,392 --> 00:52:26,935
I feel we're at a point where
1057
00:52:27,018 --> 00:52:29,646
I don't need to be forcing a
distance between you and Yoly.
1058
00:52:31,231 --> 00:52:32,816
It just didn't feel necessary.
1059
00:52:34,317 --> 00:52:37,237
Everyone's team Yoly. They're
like, "You need to choose Yoly now."
1060
00:52:37,320 --> 00:52:38,572
"If you're gonna, choose her."
1061
00:52:38,655 --> 00:52:39,730
I'm like, "You don't
need to gang up on me.
1062
00:52:39,731 --> 00:52:42,033
I'm not ready to choose now."
1063
00:52:42,117 --> 00:52:43,910
This is why today is not decision day.
1064
00:52:43,994 --> 00:52:46,329
- That's not what I came here for.
- What a thing to say.
1065
00:52:46,413 --> 00:52:48,623
When you came in here
wanting to marry someone else.
1066
00:52:48,707 --> 00:52:51,042
Also, so fucking disrespectful to me.
1067
00:52:53,253 --> 00:52:54,838
- We're going through some shit.
- Yeah.
1068
00:52:54,921 --> 00:52:56,590
[VANESSA CHUCKLES]
1069
00:52:56,673 --> 00:52:58,341
Fucking sucks.
1070
00:52:59,718 --> 00:53:01,011
You hurt me a lot.
1071
00:53:01,803 --> 00:53:02,803
But I love you.
1072
00:53:03,180 --> 00:53:05,348
[GENTLE, SWEEPING MUSIC PLAYING]
1073
00:53:16,568 --> 00:53:18,945
I love you, and I want to be with you.
1074
00:53:19,029 --> 00:53:21,406
I want to end up with
you. I would love that.
1075
00:53:21,489 --> 00:53:27,412
That would be my ideal end to...
not this experience but, like, life.
1076
00:53:28,830 --> 00:53:30,290
I will always love you.
1077
00:53:30,373 --> 00:53:33,835
Said that since day one, and
that's what I need to remember.
1078
00:53:33,919 --> 00:53:35,921
[UPLIFTING POP SONG PLAYING]
1079
00:53:37,672 --> 00:53:38,673
You're amazing...
1080
00:53:39,591 --> 00:53:41,426
It really is really nice to hear.
1081
00:53:49,267 --> 00:53:50,310
[XANDER] I love you.
1082
00:53:52,229 --> 00:53:54,481
♪ Tell me that it's worth the wait ♪
1083
00:53:55,148 --> 00:53:57,859
♪ 'Cause now I'm dreaming wide awake ♪
1084
00:53:57,943 --> 00:54:01,613
I'm excited to make the most
of our next few days together.
1085
00:54:01,696 --> 00:54:02,696
Me too.
1086
00:54:04,366 --> 00:54:06,159
♪ Better than we've ever been ♪
1087
00:54:07,369 --> 00:54:09,537
♪ This is here, it's happening ♪
1088
00:54:10,330 --> 00:54:13,583
♪ This is our time ♪
1089
00:54:16,378 --> 00:54:18,922
♪ Better than we've ever been ♪
1090
00:54:19,422 --> 00:54:22,342
♪ This is here, it's happening ♪
1091
00:54:22,425 --> 00:54:25,470
♪ This is our time ♪
1092
00:54:26,179 --> 00:54:27,180
[VANESSA MOANS]
1093
00:54:29,891 --> 00:54:33,061
♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪
1094
00:54:33,144 --> 00:54:35,272
♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪
1095
00:54:35,355 --> 00:54:38,733
♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪
1096
00:54:38,817 --> 00:54:41,736
♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪
1097
00:54:41,820 --> 00:54:43,947
♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪
1098
00:54:44,030 --> 00:54:47,659
♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪
1099
00:54:48,368 --> 00:54:50,495
♪ 'Cause I'm never gonna ever stop ♪
1100
00:54:50,578 --> 00:54:52,831
♪ I'm always gonna shake it up ♪
1101
00:54:52,914 --> 00:54:56,084
♪ I'm always gonna shake it up ♪
1102
00:54:57,085 --> 00:54:59,254
♪ 'Cause I've almost reached the top ♪
1103
00:54:59,255 --> 00:55:04,255
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