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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:04,162 WWW.MY-SUBS.CO 1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:05,000 - Synced and corrected by chamallow - - www.MY-SUBS.com - 2 00:00:06,006 --> 00:00:09,300 ♪ I get my way at the end of the day ♪ 3 00:00:09,384 --> 00:00:11,261 ♪ Look at me now ♪ 4 00:00:11,344 --> 00:00:12,345 ♪ Hey ♪ 5 00:00:13,513 --> 00:00:16,016 ♪ Here it comes, baby ♪ 6 00:00:17,142 --> 00:00:18,560 ♪ I'm a troublemaker ♪ 7 00:00:18,643 --> 00:00:21,521 Every time you go on a date with me, you talk to me about my boobs. 8 00:00:21,604 --> 00:00:23,231 Smaller boobs are normally my thing. 9 00:00:23,314 --> 00:00:24,816 So you're saying you're curious. 10 00:00:24,899 --> 00:00:26,234 [LAUGHS] 11 00:00:27,318 --> 00:00:30,363 Just two days ago, I was in a very committed relationship, 12 00:00:30,447 --> 00:00:32,657 and now I am very much dating. 13 00:00:32,741 --> 00:00:35,160 I still feel good about wanting marriage, 14 00:00:36,202 --> 00:00:40,957 but I definitely haven't been thinking about the ultimatum as much. 15 00:00:41,041 --> 00:00:43,543 Like, I'm starting to think more about my dates 16 00:00:43,626 --> 00:00:46,880 than I am about the fact that I asked Rae to marry me. 17 00:00:46,963 --> 00:00:48,923 I think I feel a little overwhelmed. 18 00:00:49,007 --> 00:00:51,625 Like, "Your ex-girlfriend that you've been with 19 00:00:51,626 --> 00:00:53,261 for three years is over here, 20 00:00:53,344 --> 00:00:55,847 and all these new ladies are over here." 21 00:00:55,930 --> 00:01:00,185 And my ex is my competition, which is very weird. 22 00:01:00,268 --> 00:01:02,145 So you were issued the ultimatum? 23 00:01:02,228 --> 00:01:05,315 Yes. It's weird because you gave an ultimatum and I got an ultimatum. 24 00:01:05,398 --> 00:01:07,984 - We're so far apart. - We are on the same page. Kind of. 25 00:01:08,068 --> 00:01:09,444 And so together with it. 26 00:01:09,527 --> 00:01:11,821 We know the three options that you leave with are 27 00:01:11,905 --> 00:01:13,656 marriage to the person you came with, 28 00:01:13,740 --> 00:01:16,326 break up, or fall in love with someone new. 29 00:01:17,035 --> 00:01:19,412 At the end of this week, I'll be making a choice. 30 00:01:19,496 --> 00:01:22,791 Not just a trial marriage wife, but a life partner. 31 00:01:22,874 --> 00:01:25,133 Just let that one sink in for a second, 32 00:01:25,134 --> 00:01:27,087 because that is where I'm at right now. 33 00:01:27,170 --> 00:01:30,215 I'd been with Xander for four years. I lost a spark. 34 00:01:30,298 --> 00:01:33,760 As much as I loved her, she was more my best friend, my roommate 35 00:01:33,843 --> 00:01:36,554 versus, like, this thrilling relationship. 36 00:01:36,638 --> 00:01:40,391 If your ex came up to you right now, and proposed to you, 37 00:01:41,476 --> 00:01:43,061 do you have any idea what you'd do? 38 00:01:44,354 --> 00:01:45,563 I would say no. 39 00:01:45,647 --> 00:01:48,775 I would not be comfortable marrying her right now. 40 00:01:48,858 --> 00:01:50,693 No, because I'm connecting with you. 41 00:01:50,777 --> 00:01:53,947 - And with some other people. No big deal. - It's weird. 42 00:01:54,030 --> 00:01:55,030 My ex-girlfriend? 43 00:01:55,073 --> 00:01:56,908 [SHOCKED STINGER] 44 00:01:56,991 --> 00:01:59,369 I feel like I can see the devil in your face right now. 45 00:01:59,452 --> 00:02:01,621 - What? - And I... We... I could be totally wrong. 46 00:02:01,704 --> 00:02:04,086 But I don't think my ex is going through 47 00:02:04,087 --> 00:02:05,917 what I am going through currently. 48 00:02:06,543 --> 00:02:09,379 That's funny because I feel like you know how I feel about you. 49 00:02:09,462 --> 00:02:11,756 I didn't think I was gonna connect with anyone. 50 00:02:13,967 --> 00:02:17,971 I feel so confused about the potential of developing, like, 51 00:02:18,054 --> 00:02:20,640 an actual... some form of a relationship with you. 52 00:02:20,723 --> 00:02:23,059 Then we're both going to go move back in with our exes. 53 00:02:23,143 --> 00:02:25,186 And then it's like, "What the fuck just happened?" 54 00:02:25,270 --> 00:02:27,480 - Our lives are gonna blow up? - Yeah. Absolutely. 55 00:02:28,064 --> 00:02:29,482 You're gonna be my atomic bomb? 56 00:02:29,566 --> 00:02:30,817 Duh. 57 00:02:31,526 --> 00:02:33,695 - Um... - [LAUGHS] 58 00:02:33,778 --> 00:02:37,615 If anybody's gonna fuck this shit up, I feel like it's the two of us. 59 00:02:37,699 --> 00:02:41,786 [GUFFAWS] I thought you were stopping at "fuck." I was like, "Ah!" 60 00:02:41,870 --> 00:02:43,163 Yeah... 61 00:02:44,038 --> 00:02:45,665 You want to sit on my face? 62 00:02:45,748 --> 00:02:47,083 I didn't say it. You did. 63 00:02:48,209 --> 00:02:50,587 ♪ I'm laughing at you, baby ♪ 64 00:02:54,090 --> 00:02:55,842 Give me a hug and say goodbye. 65 00:02:55,925 --> 00:02:59,095 [LEXI] I am more confused since I gave the ultimatum. 66 00:02:59,179 --> 00:03:00,728 I was ready to get down on one knee, 67 00:03:00,729 --> 00:03:02,515 would've done it on the last night, 68 00:03:02,599 --> 00:03:05,101 and now I'm like, "What's happening to me?" 69 00:03:05,185 --> 00:03:07,687 Vanessa is bull in a china shop. 70 00:03:07,770 --> 00:03:10,690 She's wildly inappropriate and slightly offensive, 71 00:03:10,773 --> 00:03:12,275 but it's fun and it's flirty. 72 00:03:12,358 --> 00:03:14,527 Like, there's obviously an attraction there, 73 00:03:14,611 --> 00:03:18,031 but she probably could kill me in my sleep, so... [LAUGHS] 74 00:03:18,114 --> 00:03:20,366 - All right. This is very nice. - This is nice. 75 00:03:20,450 --> 00:03:23,411 It's that, like, lovely little campfire mood that I like. 76 00:03:23,494 --> 00:03:28,666 Mal is, like, wholesome, love, a warm cup of tea. 77 00:03:29,375 --> 00:03:30,793 I'm trying to find a wife, 78 00:03:30,877 --> 00:03:33,004 a person I want to spend my life with. 79 00:03:33,087 --> 00:03:37,759 I'm not sure if I need something more challenging or more uncomfortable 80 00:03:37,842 --> 00:03:39,427 for that trial marriage. 81 00:03:39,510 --> 00:03:41,804 - I've dated quite a bit. I'm sure you... - Yeah. 82 00:03:41,888 --> 00:03:45,099 I could... We could physically do all the things. That's fine. 83 00:03:45,183 --> 00:03:47,644 We'd figure our bodies out. No problems. 84 00:03:47,727 --> 00:03:50,396 Easy. We're both assertive. It'd be great. 85 00:03:50,480 --> 00:03:52,357 But my parents are best friends. 86 00:03:52,440 --> 00:03:55,526 My father's always been like, "You have to be friends first." 87 00:03:55,610 --> 00:03:57,570 I have to be emotionally in-line 88 00:03:57,654 --> 00:04:01,282 before I can even explore anything physically romantic, if you will. 89 00:04:01,366 --> 00:04:03,451 The person you're with should be your best friend. 90 00:04:03,534 --> 00:04:07,872 I feel like we're... building the bricks really well. 91 00:04:07,956 --> 00:04:09,999 - Yeah, I do feel that with you. - Yeah. 92 00:04:10,792 --> 00:04:11,792 But... 93 00:04:12,126 --> 00:04:14,420 have you ever dated anybody that looks like me? 94 00:04:14,504 --> 00:04:15,713 Like a Black person? 95 00:04:15,797 --> 00:04:17,131 No, I haven't. 96 00:04:19,759 --> 00:04:23,221 The first thing that I noticed was that you were more masc presenting. 97 00:04:23,222 --> 00:04:24,222 Yeah. 98 00:04:24,222 --> 00:04:26,563 It didn't occur to me that I also had not been 99 00:04:26,564 --> 00:04:27,642 with somebody who's Black. 100 00:04:27,725 --> 00:04:30,228 I was more, "Oh my God, I just have never found myself 101 00:04:30,311 --> 00:04:33,064 attracted to someone who's masc first." 102 00:04:33,147 --> 00:04:34,816 That was the first thing I thought of. 103 00:04:35,400 --> 00:04:38,820 Dating Rae, who's Chinese, was really the first experience I'd had 104 00:04:38,903 --> 00:04:40,738 outside of dating a white person. 105 00:04:40,822 --> 00:04:43,658 I will not lie. That was a learning curve. 106 00:04:43,741 --> 00:04:47,912 And I don't want to say that I know enough or anything. 107 00:04:47,996 --> 00:04:50,415 I'm not afraid of the learning in that. 108 00:04:50,498 --> 00:04:51,874 I don't want to avoid that. 109 00:04:52,792 --> 00:04:54,168 That's enough for me. 110 00:04:54,252 --> 00:04:56,963 Your race doesn't matter to me. I've dated across the board. 111 00:04:57,046 --> 00:04:58,339 - I'm good with that. - I like that. 112 00:04:58,423 --> 00:05:00,967 - Um, but... - Have you dated Jewish before? 113 00:05:01,467 --> 00:05:02,593 I have not. 114 00:05:02,677 --> 00:05:05,221 Ah! [LAUGHS] So I do bring something different. 115 00:05:05,305 --> 00:05:07,724 I can show you how to make matzo ball soup. 116 00:05:08,308 --> 00:05:10,310 I actually can't. I would need my mom, 117 00:05:10,393 --> 00:05:13,563 but she could teach you how to make good matzo ball soup. 118 00:05:13,646 --> 00:05:14,856 Yes, yes, yes! 119 00:05:16,441 --> 00:05:19,610 You and I have built our connection genuinely off of honesty. 120 00:05:19,611 --> 00:05:20,611 Yeah. 121 00:05:20,611 --> 00:05:22,697 I felt, coming into this experience, 122 00:05:22,780 --> 00:05:25,199 I didn't know if the person I was with would say yes to me. 123 00:05:25,283 --> 00:05:28,077 And that lack of assurance, the lack of safety 124 00:05:28,161 --> 00:05:30,747 in terms of, like, not knowing when we could take a next step... 125 00:05:30,830 --> 00:05:33,041 If we were together, you would always show up. 126 00:05:33,124 --> 00:05:34,459 I just know that about you. 127 00:05:34,542 --> 00:05:36,878 Nothing against my ex, but I had that, 128 00:05:36,961 --> 00:05:39,797 "I don't know. What if she just walks away one day?" 129 00:05:39,881 --> 00:05:42,925 You issued the ultimatum, but maybe that changes. 130 00:05:43,009 --> 00:05:45,595 Maybe you do just want to date somebody for a little while 131 00:05:45,678 --> 00:05:47,263 that shows up for you consistently. 132 00:05:47,347 --> 00:05:48,854 You're trying to convince me to date you 133 00:05:48,855 --> 00:05:50,475 and not get engaged at the end. 134 00:05:50,558 --> 00:05:51,893 Absolutely not. I think... 135 00:05:51,976 --> 00:05:53,102 Like, let's just... 136 00:05:53,978 --> 00:05:55,396 - If I could do it today... - Yeah. 137 00:05:55,480 --> 00:05:57,774 - Right now, I'd be, "Let's just do it." - Yeah? 138 00:05:57,857 --> 00:05:59,567 I got issued the ultimatum. 139 00:05:59,650 --> 00:06:00,860 Mm-hmm. 140 00:06:00,943 --> 00:06:03,654 Which is wild, that I'm showing up so sure. 141 00:06:03,738 --> 00:06:05,990 - Mm-hmm. - Like, I'm like, "Oh yeah, I know." 142 00:06:06,074 --> 00:06:07,700 - Right? - Easy, no question, I know. 143 00:06:07,784 --> 00:06:10,453 I'm gonna have to deal with maybe you snore at night. 144 00:06:10,536 --> 00:06:11,579 I don't snore. 145 00:06:11,662 --> 00:06:13,706 - Perfect. Even better. - I don't snore. 146 00:06:13,790 --> 00:06:16,334 Maybe you eat really sloppy or loud. 147 00:06:16,417 --> 00:06:19,170 - No. I don't do that either. - See? 148 00:06:19,253 --> 00:06:22,715 I don't know if I pick Mal over Vanessa or Vanessa over Mal. 149 00:06:22,799 --> 00:06:27,804 I just, like, can see so clearly that one is, like, just cozy and easy. 150 00:06:27,887 --> 00:06:29,722 The other one is way over here 151 00:06:29,806 --> 00:06:32,100 in, like, the lightning and the thunderstorms. 152 00:06:32,183 --> 00:06:34,936 I know a choice is coming up. I don't know what I'm gonna do. 153 00:06:35,645 --> 00:06:41,645 It's weird to be hearing from somebody that I trust saying that... 154 00:06:42,443 --> 00:06:44,445 - They're sure? - They're sure, and they're in. 155 00:06:44,529 --> 00:06:46,906 Yeah. I know what I want. I know what I need. 156 00:06:46,989 --> 00:06:49,117 With you, I've been very sure. 157 00:06:50,268 --> 00:06:51,285 Yeah. 158 00:06:51,285 --> 00:06:53,037 [SULTRY DANCE-POP MUSIC PLAYING] 159 00:07:01,712 --> 00:07:04,056 My favorite thing I love cooking is Thai food. 160 00:07:04,057 --> 00:07:05,675 I love cooking Thai food. 161 00:07:05,758 --> 00:07:08,010 Okay. Do you enjoy cooking with your partner 162 00:07:08,094 --> 00:07:09,720 or do you normally cook for? 163 00:07:09,804 --> 00:07:11,140 So I kind of want my partner 164 00:07:11,141 --> 00:07:12,890 to get the fuck out of the way when I cook. 165 00:07:12,974 --> 00:07:14,517 [LAUGHS] Okay, that's fair. 166 00:07:14,600 --> 00:07:17,687 - Because, I'm sorry, I'm running the show. - Yeah. 167 00:07:17,770 --> 00:07:21,065 I'll prep everything. I'll get veggies and... [IMITATES CHOPPING] 168 00:07:21,149 --> 00:07:24,110 Maybe I'll be like, "Can you cut the carrot?" or something. 169 00:07:24,193 --> 00:07:26,696 I don't know. But don't get in my 'bow room. 170 00:07:26,779 --> 00:07:30,158 I don't really mind if my partner likes to just do their own thing. 171 00:07:30,241 --> 00:07:31,784 What actually makes you mad? 172 00:07:31,868 --> 00:07:33,286 What does make me mad... 173 00:07:33,369 --> 00:07:34,704 'Cause you seem so nice. 174 00:07:34,787 --> 00:07:36,747 I like to say I'm very low-maintenance. 175 00:07:36,831 --> 00:07:38,807 My last relationship, I felt there was a lot 176 00:07:38,808 --> 00:07:41,294 of passive-aggressiveness, and... 177 00:07:41,377 --> 00:07:43,337 - You were passive-aggressive? - No. 178 00:07:43,421 --> 00:07:45,798 - They were. Yeah. - [SAM] Oh. Got it. Got it. 179 00:07:45,882 --> 00:07:47,508 Like, how do you solve anything 180 00:07:47,592 --> 00:07:51,137 when you're taking the steps to ask what's wrong and you get nothing? 181 00:07:51,220 --> 00:07:52,221 They're like, "I'm good." 182 00:07:52,305 --> 00:07:54,432 Then you're like, "I can't read your mind." 183 00:07:54,515 --> 00:07:55,808 Until the next blow-up. 184 00:07:55,892 --> 00:07:56,892 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 185 00:07:56,893 --> 00:07:58,227 It's been hard, you know? 186 00:07:58,311 --> 00:08:01,856 And I just don't... I just... Sometimes I feel like I don't... 187 00:08:01,939 --> 00:08:03,065 I'm here, tearing up. 188 00:08:03,149 --> 00:08:04,650 Sometimes I feel like I don't... 189 00:08:04,734 --> 00:08:08,696 I try... I try my best, and I feel like I'm not understood. 190 00:08:08,779 --> 00:08:10,364 Damn, I'm crying like a bitch. 191 00:08:10,448 --> 00:08:12,700 - I hate that. Ugh. - No, but it's fine. Like... 192 00:08:13,284 --> 00:08:18,456 For me that relates to healthy communication with my partner. 193 00:08:18,539 --> 00:08:20,811 If we were in this marriage together, 194 00:08:20,812 --> 00:08:23,628 you can feel like I would support you. 195 00:08:23,711 --> 00:08:27,173 There's obviously... There's... There's a spark there, right? Um... 196 00:08:27,256 --> 00:08:29,300 I'm open to take it a step further. 197 00:08:30,384 --> 00:08:32,887 [TIFF] Two days ago, Mildred gave me an ultimatum. 198 00:08:32,970 --> 00:08:34,514 And, from what I'm hearing, 199 00:08:34,597 --> 00:08:38,100 Sam can bring something to the table that actually Mildred could not. 200 00:08:38,184 --> 00:08:41,395 And that is Sam's communication. 201 00:08:41,479 --> 00:08:44,857 There's this sweetness to it. I was not expecting that, actually. 202 00:08:44,941 --> 00:08:47,318 ♪ Put a little love, put a little love ♪ 203 00:08:47,401 --> 00:08:48,401 ♪ Little love ♪ 204 00:08:49,570 --> 00:08:50,821 ♪ On, on ♪ 205 00:08:50,905 --> 00:08:52,949 ♪ Put a little love, put a little love ♪ 206 00:08:53,032 --> 00:08:54,200 ♪ Little love, baby ♪ 207 00:08:55,493 --> 00:08:56,536 ♪ On ♪ 208 00:08:57,203 --> 00:08:59,247 [MILDRED] My dream is, in five years, 209 00:08:59,330 --> 00:09:01,958 I see myself... married, 210 00:09:02,041 --> 00:09:03,793 in a home with my family. 211 00:09:03,876 --> 00:09:07,338 Just my partner, my son, all my animals. 212 00:09:07,421 --> 00:09:08,839 - You mention marriage... - Yeah. 213 00:09:08,923 --> 00:09:10,591 I do want to get married. 214 00:09:11,175 --> 00:09:13,177 - Wow! Oh my God, Aussie. - I discovered... 215 00:09:13,261 --> 00:09:15,513 - Every time I talk to you... - I know. It's like... 216 00:09:15,596 --> 00:09:17,265 - Tell me. - I surprise myself. 217 00:09:17,348 --> 00:09:20,101 I do want, you know, long-term commitment 218 00:09:20,184 --> 00:09:23,938 and a, you know, happy home, and creating a life together, 219 00:09:24,021 --> 00:09:25,189 celebrating love, 220 00:09:25,273 --> 00:09:27,733 celebrating each other for the rest of our lives. 221 00:09:27,817 --> 00:09:29,193 - Oh! - [AUSSIE CHUCKLES] 222 00:09:29,277 --> 00:09:31,862 Hold on. I gotta be like, "Yay." 223 00:09:31,946 --> 00:09:33,614 - Yay... - Aussie. 224 00:09:34,198 --> 00:09:35,866 - Yay. - You've come a long ways. 225 00:09:35,950 --> 00:09:37,368 I know, in two days. 226 00:09:37,451 --> 00:09:40,329 - You look so much happier now. - Thank you for saying that. 227 00:09:40,413 --> 00:09:42,290 I... I do feel a lot more myself. 228 00:09:43,165 --> 00:09:45,793 I also think part of my journey is speaking my truth. 229 00:09:45,876 --> 00:09:47,003 It's kind of scary. 230 00:09:47,086 --> 00:09:49,297 It's almost like first when you come out. 231 00:09:49,380 --> 00:09:52,592 That's one thing when you're like, "Oh, I am gay." You know? 232 00:09:52,675 --> 00:09:54,093 Or... [INHALES DEEPLY] 233 00:09:54,176 --> 00:09:56,470 I like the same sex. Um... 234 00:09:56,554 --> 00:09:59,890 And now it's like another discovery of, like, 235 00:09:59,974 --> 00:10:04,020 "Okay. Do I identify as male, female?" 236 00:10:04,103 --> 00:10:06,689 You know, "What does that look like? Am I trans?" 237 00:10:06,772 --> 00:10:10,276 It's scary, but at the same time, I'm excited. 238 00:10:10,359 --> 00:10:14,405 I think I'm at the precipice of discovering what my calling is, 239 00:10:14,488 --> 00:10:17,658 why I was born at this time. 240 00:10:17,742 --> 00:10:19,910 I didn't have representation growing up. 241 00:10:19,994 --> 00:10:21,412 - Right. - You know? 242 00:10:21,495 --> 00:10:23,706 That's something that I'm passionate about, 243 00:10:23,789 --> 00:10:26,000 is to help the kids. 244 00:10:26,083 --> 00:10:27,752 I want to be part of your journey. 245 00:10:27,835 --> 00:10:31,631 I think that discovering yourself and just finding who you are... 246 00:10:31,714 --> 00:10:33,466 Like, I think it's so beautiful. 247 00:10:33,549 --> 00:10:35,259 - Yeah. - I feel comfortable talking to you. 248 00:10:35,343 --> 00:10:38,679 You make me laugh and we just have this little cute chemistry going on. 249 00:10:38,763 --> 00:10:40,723 I do also feel safe talking to you. 250 00:10:40,806 --> 00:10:43,017 [GENTLE, SOULFUL MUSIC PLAYING] 251 00:10:43,100 --> 00:10:45,561 And I'm there 100% to support you. 252 00:10:45,645 --> 00:10:47,438 - Yes. - You deserve to be happy. 253 00:10:47,521 --> 00:10:48,939 We all deserve to be happy. 254 00:10:49,023 --> 00:10:51,025 I want marriage. You want marriage. 255 00:10:51,108 --> 00:10:52,568 I discovered I want marriage. 256 00:10:52,652 --> 00:10:54,362 You did. 257 00:10:54,862 --> 00:10:56,290 It must be our talks, 258 00:10:56,291 --> 00:10:59,700 'cause I've been just getting a bit clearer every day.e 259 00:11:01,077 --> 00:11:02,870 [SOULFUL MUSIC CONTINUING] 260 00:11:02,953 --> 00:11:05,706 What does falling in love feel like for you? 261 00:11:06,874 --> 00:11:07,874 [MILDRED EXHALES] 262 00:11:09,168 --> 00:11:14,173 I think falling in love for me is, like... realizing that 263 00:11:14,757 --> 00:11:17,593 the person I'm with, that I can't breathe without them. 264 00:11:17,677 --> 00:11:21,138 Knowing that no one's perfect and loving them unconditionally. 265 00:11:21,222 --> 00:11:23,474 Yeah, perfectly imperfect. 266 00:11:24,642 --> 00:11:26,519 It's making me emotional because... 267 00:11:26,602 --> 00:11:30,564 Just to sit in a date with somebody and see that it can happen so fast. 268 00:11:30,648 --> 00:11:35,486 I just don't understand how it just has taken this long 269 00:11:35,569 --> 00:11:39,407 for Tiff not to connect with me. 270 00:11:40,658 --> 00:11:42,326 I'm just feeling really confused. 271 00:11:42,410 --> 00:11:43,703 ♪ Held my breath ♪ 272 00:11:45,162 --> 00:11:47,039 ♪ From the second we met ♪ 273 00:11:47,123 --> 00:11:49,834 ♪ I've been hanging in the clouds ♪ 274 00:11:49,917 --> 00:11:51,210 ♪ Don't bring me down ♪ 275 00:11:51,293 --> 00:11:52,586 ♪ And hold my ♪ 276 00:11:53,087 --> 00:11:54,088 ♪ Hold my breath ♪ 277 00:11:58,217 --> 00:11:59,468 [VANESSA] I love single Vanessa. 278 00:11:59,552 --> 00:12:01,303 I think single Vanessa's very fun. 279 00:12:01,387 --> 00:12:04,807 It's exciting to date, to be looking at someone else and thinking, 280 00:12:04,890 --> 00:12:06,475 "Oh, what are you thinking of me now?" 281 00:12:06,559 --> 00:12:09,019 - You have blankets? - [RAE] I do have blankets. 282 00:12:09,103 --> 00:12:12,481 [VANESSA] Typically, I'm someone who wants to keep my options open, 283 00:12:12,565 --> 00:12:14,483 but I'm getting much closer 284 00:12:14,567 --> 00:12:17,903 to narrowing it down to just my two favorite people. 285 00:12:17,987 --> 00:12:22,366 Definitely Lexi, but I'm also really into her ex-girlfriend, Rae. 286 00:12:22,450 --> 00:12:23,826 [MISCHIEVOUS MUSIC PLAYING] 287 00:12:24,869 --> 00:12:25,869 It's a shitshow. 288 00:12:27,788 --> 00:12:28,914 It's a shitshow. 289 00:12:31,876 --> 00:12:34,462 Okay, I have a question that I want to ask you. 290 00:12:34,545 --> 00:12:37,089 - Okay. - And I really look forward to your answer. 291 00:12:37,173 --> 00:12:39,675 What are three things that you love about yourself? 292 00:12:41,177 --> 00:12:42,178 Um... 293 00:12:43,971 --> 00:12:45,055 [WRY CHUCKLE] 294 00:12:45,139 --> 00:12:46,182 I don't know. I... 295 00:12:46,265 --> 00:12:48,400 If you can't name three things, 296 00:12:48,401 --> 00:12:50,519 I can name three things I love about you. 297 00:12:50,603 --> 00:12:51,771 I don't want that. 298 00:12:51,854 --> 00:12:53,856 Then you better name things you love about yourself. 299 00:12:53,939 --> 00:12:55,357 Okay. Um... 300 00:12:57,234 --> 00:13:00,070 I love that when you're nervous, you start shaking your... your foot. 301 00:13:00,154 --> 00:13:01,155 [RAE CHUCKLES] 302 00:13:01,864 --> 00:13:03,449 Um... 303 00:13:04,200 --> 00:13:08,829 I think I really, really care about the people that I'm close to. 304 00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:12,166 And I think that's why it takes me a long time to get there. 305 00:13:12,249 --> 00:13:15,252 If you are in my life, like, I love you... 306 00:13:15,336 --> 00:13:17,004 - You put effort in. - ... and I worry about you. 307 00:13:17,087 --> 00:13:20,674 Yeah. So I think that's something I like about myself. 308 00:13:20,758 --> 00:13:22,176 I like that I'm athletic. 309 00:13:22,885 --> 00:13:25,179 It makes, uh, doing things fun. 310 00:13:27,223 --> 00:13:29,308 I don't have a third one. Give me one. 311 00:13:30,184 --> 00:13:32,561 I love how I can't figure you out. 312 00:13:32,645 --> 00:13:35,898 I feel like I know people pretty easily pretty quickly. 313 00:13:35,981 --> 00:13:38,192 I think I'm a pretty good judge of character, 314 00:13:38,275 --> 00:13:40,277 and I don't understand you at all. 315 00:13:40,361 --> 00:13:42,238 I'm giving you a second one. 316 00:13:42,321 --> 00:13:43,321 Thank you. 317 00:13:43,906 --> 00:13:45,115 [VANESSA] I like that. 318 00:13:45,616 --> 00:13:48,661 I like that you're unpredictable to me, and I... Ooh. 319 00:13:48,744 --> 00:13:51,080 I'm... I don't know. I'm just so lost with you. 320 00:13:51,163 --> 00:13:54,875 You are so not someone that I feel like I understand easily. 321 00:13:56,126 --> 00:13:58,087 Why do you need to understand someone? 322 00:13:59,380 --> 00:14:01,340 - Isn't there a good nervousness? - Yes. 323 00:14:01,423 --> 00:14:04,385 - That's what I love about you. - I don't like being nervous, but... 324 00:14:04,468 --> 00:14:06,720 That's my number three thing about you. 325 00:14:06,804 --> 00:14:08,430 And I don't get that a lot. 326 00:14:09,723 --> 00:14:10,723 Okay. 327 00:14:11,141 --> 00:14:14,228 - I'm not gonna respond to that. - I didn't think you would. 328 00:14:16,689 --> 00:14:19,483 You're beautiful. That's what I was thinking, looking at you. 329 00:14:19,567 --> 00:14:22,361 [SULTRY MUSIC PULSATES] 330 00:14:22,444 --> 00:14:24,446 You don't take compliments well either? 331 00:14:24,530 --> 00:14:26,198 - Nope. - Yeah. Okay. 332 00:14:26,782 --> 00:14:28,325 [VANESSA] I was given an ultimatum. 333 00:14:29,034 --> 00:14:31,954 And I was given that ultimatum 334 00:14:32,037 --> 00:14:35,416 'cause I didn't know if I ever wanted to get married. 335 00:14:35,499 --> 00:14:38,168 Right now, I'm dating Lexi and Rae. 336 00:14:38,752 --> 00:14:40,588 They came in here as a couple, 337 00:14:40,671 --> 00:14:44,258 and it's very... strange. 338 00:14:44,341 --> 00:14:47,261 They both know that I'm going on dates with each other, 339 00:14:47,344 --> 00:14:51,682 and I... I feel kind of weird about feeling like a homewrecker. 340 00:14:51,765 --> 00:14:54,476 Where they feel one of them got chosen over the other. 341 00:14:55,144 --> 00:14:57,104 But, at the end of this week, 342 00:14:57,187 --> 00:15:00,441 I'm going to have to make a really important choice 343 00:15:00,524 --> 00:15:04,069 about who I see as someone I could potentially marry. 344 00:15:04,153 --> 00:15:06,614 And a choice does need to be made. 345 00:15:06,697 --> 00:15:10,492 ♪ I'm just so good at being bad ♪ 346 00:15:12,161 --> 00:15:14,538 ♪ Everything you wish you had ♪ 347 00:15:14,622 --> 00:15:16,930 We've had long-term relationships, 348 00:15:16,931 --> 00:15:18,918 and I think we both want to get married, 349 00:15:19,001 --> 00:15:20,502 since we gave the ultimatum. 350 00:15:20,503 --> 00:15:21,503 Yeah. 351 00:15:21,503 --> 00:15:23,714 I want to know a bit more about children. 352 00:15:23,715 --> 00:15:24,715 Oh yeah. 353 00:15:24,715 --> 00:15:26,717 You've mentioned you would carry a child. 354 00:15:26,800 --> 00:15:28,594 - I want to, if I can. Absolutely. - Same. 355 00:15:28,677 --> 00:15:31,931 I don't know 100% if I can, but if I can then I do want to. 356 00:15:32,014 --> 00:15:34,433 Long-term-wise, how would that look for you? 357 00:15:34,516 --> 00:15:36,440 If we were married, would your child 358 00:15:36,441 --> 00:15:38,312 be your child and mine would be mine, 359 00:15:38,395 --> 00:15:40,230 or would it be our children? 360 00:15:40,731 --> 00:15:42,650 Definitely ours. I think it's weird. 361 00:15:42,733 --> 00:15:45,361 I can adopt and still be like, "That's our kid." 362 00:15:45,444 --> 00:15:47,696 It's just like, family is what you make of it. 363 00:15:47,780 --> 00:15:49,016 So, no, it wouldn't be, 364 00:15:49,017 --> 00:15:52,451 "This is my kid because I technically birthed it." 365 00:15:52,534 --> 00:15:54,787 That's so weird. You're in this journey together. 366 00:15:54,870 --> 00:15:57,581 I'm sorry if someone's said something opposite. That sucks. 367 00:15:57,665 --> 00:15:59,792 That's not a cool place to be at. 368 00:15:59,875 --> 00:16:00,918 Mm-hmm. 369 00:16:01,418 --> 00:16:05,422 My ex would have her own kids, and then I would have my own kids. 370 00:16:05,506 --> 00:16:06,840 [EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING] 371 00:16:06,924 --> 00:16:07,967 It's so strange. 372 00:16:08,050 --> 00:16:09,802 Yeah, I think so too. 373 00:16:10,803 --> 00:16:13,240 I feel like one of the reasons 374 00:16:13,241 --> 00:16:14,807 why I want to get married in the first place 375 00:16:14,890 --> 00:16:16,433 is to have one unit, one family. 376 00:16:16,434 --> 00:16:17,434 Yeah. 377 00:16:17,434 --> 00:16:20,729 I want our kid to feel loved by both of us evenly. 378 00:16:20,813 --> 00:16:23,440 Doesn't matter who's gonna pick who up from school. 379 00:16:23,524 --> 00:16:27,695 They're gonna feel loved and supported and, like, yeah. 380 00:16:27,778 --> 00:16:29,780 Totally, in totality, absolutely. 381 00:16:29,863 --> 00:16:33,033 - You are such a lover. Is that true? - Yeah. Yeah. 382 00:16:33,117 --> 00:16:35,160 - You're very much a... - I am like a lover. 383 00:16:35,244 --> 00:16:38,414 I am gonna be there for my partner, no matter what. 384 00:16:38,497 --> 00:16:41,959 I love doing romantic gestures and things like that. 385 00:16:42,042 --> 00:16:45,379 Most of the time, I'm pretty ready. 386 00:16:46,130 --> 00:16:47,506 - Yeah, and... - Like ready to... 387 00:16:47,589 --> 00:16:48,590 Yeah. 388 00:16:49,341 --> 00:16:50,968 I'm a pretty sexual person. 389 00:16:51,051 --> 00:16:53,220 Sometimes, it's like, just lay me down, shut me up, and... 390 00:16:53,303 --> 00:16:56,473 I am a fucking angel after sex. 391 00:16:56,557 --> 00:16:58,475 I'm like, "Why aren't we doing this more often?" 392 00:16:59,768 --> 00:17:02,229 With my ex, there was not enough sex. 393 00:17:02,312 --> 00:17:04,857 Once a week is just perfect maintenance for me. 394 00:17:04,940 --> 00:17:07,234 Twice a week would probably make me a nicer person. 395 00:17:07,317 --> 00:17:10,154 But it's not just having sex. It goes back to the commitment. 396 00:17:10,738 --> 00:17:14,700 With Xander, not only does she want to be married and have children, 397 00:17:14,783 --> 00:17:17,077 but vibe-wise, she feels really sensual. 398 00:17:17,161 --> 00:17:19,788 So that's why I think maybe it's worth exploring it. 399 00:17:19,872 --> 00:17:22,541 [BRIGHT, HOPEFUL MUSIC PLAYING] 400 00:17:22,624 --> 00:17:23,625 [THUNDER RUMBLING] 401 00:17:23,709 --> 00:17:27,671 Yeah. Thunderstorm time is very sexy to me. 402 00:17:27,755 --> 00:17:30,799 Yeah, there's a lot of emotion and senses to it. 403 00:17:30,883 --> 00:17:34,470 And electricity literally is what I feel. I feel this turmoil, kind of. 404 00:17:34,553 --> 00:17:35,763 Yeah. 405 00:17:35,846 --> 00:17:38,515 I wish I could dance 'cause then we could go dance in the rain. 406 00:17:38,599 --> 00:17:41,602 - You don't dance? - I can't dance. Can you? 407 00:17:41,685 --> 00:17:42,936 - I've lost it. - Yes. 408 00:17:43,020 --> 00:17:45,898 And I'm trying to get it back. I have it in me. 409 00:17:46,899 --> 00:17:49,068 You sometimes initiate, you sometimes don't. 410 00:17:49,151 --> 00:17:50,151 Yeah. It's like... 411 00:17:50,569 --> 00:17:52,946 There's nothing that's off-boundaries for me. 412 00:17:53,030 --> 00:17:56,700 I think it would be good for you to, like, pace me a little bit. 413 00:17:56,784 --> 00:17:59,411 - Because I do think it's fun... - You'd go right at it? 414 00:17:59,495 --> 00:18:01,705 - No, not right at it. - But kind of? 415 00:18:01,789 --> 00:18:05,459 I think that I would definitely, like, pass a little move. 416 00:18:06,293 --> 00:18:07,293 Like what? 417 00:18:07,294 --> 00:18:08,378 Like this. 418 00:18:08,462 --> 00:18:10,214 [INTRIGUINGLY] Oh, okay. 419 00:18:10,297 --> 00:18:12,382 I would definitely want to be closer. 420 00:18:12,466 --> 00:18:14,301 And I hope you're okay with this. 421 00:18:14,384 --> 00:18:17,888 ♪ Nothing's in-between ♪ ♪ Nothing's in-between us ♪ 422 00:18:17,971 --> 00:18:20,641 I feel this connection with you, and it feels really good. 423 00:18:20,642 --> 00:18:21,642 Yeah. 424 00:18:21,642 --> 00:18:23,310 I don't know how to describe it, 425 00:18:23,393 --> 00:18:27,022 but it's like I'm trying to keep myself from smiling, honestly. 426 00:18:28,107 --> 00:18:31,401 ♪ Ooh, give it up ♪ 427 00:18:31,485 --> 00:18:33,195 ♪ I think it's gonna be... ♪ 428 00:18:33,278 --> 00:18:35,239 I think that we were meant to be here. 429 00:18:35,823 --> 00:18:38,826 ♪ Nothing's in-between ♪ ♪ Nothing's in-between us ♪ 430 00:18:38,909 --> 00:18:42,746 ♪ Nothing's in-between ♪ ♪ Nothing's in-between us ♪ 431 00:18:44,373 --> 00:18:46,708 I want to show you one of my secret skills 432 00:18:46,792 --> 00:18:49,002 that's probably gonna be very underwhelming. 433 00:18:49,086 --> 00:18:50,086 Oh no. 434 00:18:51,505 --> 00:18:54,925 So I can't break-dance, but I can look like I'm about to break-dance. 435 00:18:54,926 --> 00:18:55,968 You ready? 436 00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:57,052 [AWKWARD BEAT PLAYS] 437 00:18:57,136 --> 00:18:58,136 Oh wow. 438 00:18:58,178 --> 00:18:59,178 [DRUMROLL] 439 00:18:59,179 --> 00:19:01,098 That was equally impressive. 440 00:19:01,181 --> 00:19:04,643 It's night four, and I don't have a lot of time left to date. 441 00:19:04,726 --> 00:19:07,229 I can see myself with Mal and Vanessa. 442 00:19:07,312 --> 00:19:09,481 I can see it in the way Mal looks at me. 443 00:19:09,565 --> 00:19:14,236 She, like, has no problem telling me how sure she is of me. 444 00:19:14,319 --> 00:19:16,572 - [GIGGLING] - I don't have anything to follow that up. 445 00:19:16,655 --> 00:19:18,282 - I'm sorry. - Come on. You gotta. 446 00:19:19,700 --> 00:19:23,328 When it comes to my dates with Vanessa, we have a really good banter. 447 00:19:23,412 --> 00:19:25,122 There's an attraction there. 448 00:19:25,873 --> 00:19:27,374 I don't have the props for it, 449 00:19:27,457 --> 00:19:31,545 but I can tie a cherry stem into a knot with my tongue. 450 00:19:32,504 --> 00:19:33,505 Oh my God. 451 00:19:34,173 --> 00:19:36,925 [LEXI] But Vanessa makes me uncomfortable. 452 00:19:37,009 --> 00:19:39,303 I want to get married. I came to get married. 453 00:19:39,386 --> 00:19:41,601 And I just don't know if she's ready 454 00:19:41,602 --> 00:19:43,974 to get married or if she even wants that. 455 00:19:44,057 --> 00:19:45,840 She talks about kids and the motions, 456 00:19:45,841 --> 00:19:48,395 but not about the marriage part of it. 457 00:19:48,478 --> 00:19:51,231 There's something about her I can't seem to figure out. 458 00:19:51,315 --> 00:19:53,233 I am damn confused. 459 00:19:53,317 --> 00:19:55,194 I do not know who to pick. 460 00:19:55,277 --> 00:19:58,688 And for somebody that likes control and answers, 461 00:19:58,689 --> 00:20:00,824 that's extremely unnerving. 462 00:20:01,450 --> 00:20:04,536 What do you think our relationship would look like in five years? 463 00:20:04,620 --> 00:20:07,414 We would be having fun. We wouldn't be buying a house yet. 464 00:20:07,497 --> 00:20:10,959 Maybe I would to invest, but we wouldn't be doing that shit. 465 00:20:11,043 --> 00:20:13,420 - You're such an adult, it's disgusting. - You know? 466 00:20:13,503 --> 00:20:15,631 We would be somewhere doing something crazy. 467 00:20:15,714 --> 00:20:17,299 I'd be working from wherever. 468 00:20:17,382 --> 00:20:18,759 Can you work from anywhere? 469 00:20:18,842 --> 00:20:20,344 Yeah. Anywhere. 470 00:20:20,928 --> 00:20:23,305 I don't know where that'd be. I like that with you. 471 00:20:23,388 --> 00:20:25,307 Obviously, I am attracted to you. 472 00:20:25,390 --> 00:20:27,726 I feel like I'm growing to trust you. 473 00:20:28,227 --> 00:20:31,021 Um, I don't know... Yeah, I'm gonna drink about it, but... 474 00:20:31,022 --> 00:20:32,022 - Um... - [LAUGHS] 475 00:20:32,022 --> 00:20:35,317 I... I could imagine, like, growing closer to you, 476 00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:37,653 and that's obviously very scary for me. 477 00:20:37,736 --> 00:20:40,697 Being aware of that while, like, having an ex here. 478 00:20:40,781 --> 00:20:43,116 That you want to marry. [LAUGHS] 479 00:20:43,825 --> 00:20:47,746 That I came here with the intention of marrying. Um... 480 00:20:47,829 --> 00:20:49,831 - Which is a mindfuck. - Whoo! 481 00:20:49,915 --> 00:20:53,126 I don't want to leave here wishing I did anything differently. 482 00:20:53,210 --> 00:20:56,296 Obviously there's a part of that where this is a two-person decision. 483 00:20:56,880 --> 00:21:00,550 At the end of our date here, how do you feel about marrying me? 484 00:21:00,634 --> 00:21:03,345 - How do I feel about marrying you? - Yeah. 485 00:21:03,428 --> 00:21:04,471 I think it'd be fun. 486 00:21:05,180 --> 00:21:07,432 What do you think marrying me would be like? 487 00:21:08,183 --> 00:21:09,977 It's hard for me to imagine marrying anyone. 488 00:21:11,436 --> 00:21:14,398 I think that today I'm realizing, like, 489 00:21:14,481 --> 00:21:16,942 I don't want to grow closer to someone else. 490 00:21:17,025 --> 00:21:19,695 Like, I don't feel like I'm at that point at all. 491 00:21:19,778 --> 00:21:21,238 I'm so not ready for that. 492 00:21:21,321 --> 00:21:23,156 You have so much stability in your life 493 00:21:23,240 --> 00:21:26,702 I feel like I've never had, I don't have any desire to have. 494 00:21:26,785 --> 00:21:29,162 Do you wanna be with somebody who has stability? 495 00:21:29,246 --> 00:21:30,455 [JITTERY MUSIC PLAYING] 496 00:21:30,539 --> 00:21:32,040 Um... 497 00:21:32,124 --> 00:21:35,294 I'm up for a trial marriage, and I want to see what it's like 498 00:21:35,377 --> 00:21:37,629 to live with someone who I've never lived with before. 499 00:21:37,713 --> 00:21:40,132 Like, I'm... I'm excited about that, but... 500 00:21:40,215 --> 00:21:41,215 [LEXI] Mm-hmm. 501 00:21:41,216 --> 00:21:42,467 ... I think for me, I can't... 502 00:21:43,593 --> 00:21:46,847 I can't go into it thinking I'm gonna go get fucking married. 503 00:21:46,930 --> 00:21:48,015 Yeah, right. 504 00:21:48,098 --> 00:21:52,477 My ex, she was the closest to marriage I feel like I could get. 505 00:21:52,561 --> 00:21:55,814 But I feel like when I get bored, I'm like, "Okay, I'm bored." 506 00:21:55,897 --> 00:21:57,190 [DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING] 507 00:21:58,191 --> 00:22:00,360 Do you feel like there was an actual chance 508 00:22:00,444 --> 00:22:02,112 that Xander could find someone else? 509 00:22:03,530 --> 00:22:05,032 Uh, no. 510 00:22:05,115 --> 00:22:06,241 I'm beautiful. 511 00:22:06,825 --> 00:22:08,201 [VANESSA LAUGHS BREATHILY] 512 00:22:08,202 --> 00:22:09,202 Right? 513 00:22:09,202 --> 00:22:10,454 You said it, not me. 514 00:22:10,537 --> 00:22:13,040 Xander has been saying she might be asexual, 515 00:22:13,123 --> 00:22:16,168 and that I'm the only one she could have feelings for. 516 00:22:16,251 --> 00:22:18,253 She would be asexual if not for me. 517 00:22:18,337 --> 00:22:20,172 [SHOCKED STINGER] 518 00:22:20,756 --> 00:22:25,093 What exactly did you think you were gonna get out of this process 519 00:22:25,177 --> 00:22:28,764 if there was no chance for Xander to be with other people, 520 00:22:28,847 --> 00:22:32,434 and you're sitting over here and, "I don't want to get married"? 521 00:22:32,517 --> 00:22:34,394 What the fuck did you come here for? 522 00:22:34,478 --> 00:22:37,689 Well, I think I don't understand. Why is that upsetting you? 523 00:22:37,773 --> 00:22:40,817 The experience was ten people coming here 524 00:22:41,443 --> 00:22:44,225 open and ready to accept 525 00:22:44,226 --> 00:22:47,443 not just the possibility of a marriage proposal 526 00:22:48,158 --> 00:22:49,910 and what that commitment might mean 527 00:22:49,993 --> 00:22:51,578 but also to the possibility 528 00:22:51,661 --> 00:22:55,332 of meeting other people here who you could find something with. 529 00:22:56,249 --> 00:22:59,711 You were legitimately the person I was strongly considering, 530 00:22:59,795 --> 00:23:02,547 but that growth that I thought I was going to be able to have 531 00:23:02,631 --> 00:23:03,924 in three weeks with you 532 00:23:04,007 --> 00:23:05,759 doesn't seem humanly possible. 533 00:23:06,885 --> 00:23:12,015 Your brain, your heart, your mind seem very shut off to this process. 534 00:23:12,099 --> 00:23:13,141 And why is that? 535 00:23:13,809 --> 00:23:15,268 You're not risking anything. 536 00:23:16,853 --> 00:23:18,021 I don't know, Lex... 537 00:23:18,105 --> 00:23:20,565 You don't think she could be attracted to anyone else. 538 00:23:21,316 --> 00:23:23,527 I just can't see how it's genuine. 539 00:23:23,610 --> 00:23:25,300 There's a part of me that's like, 540 00:23:25,301 --> 00:23:27,030 somebody should tell you where the door is. 541 00:23:27,114 --> 00:23:28,824 This... This isn't for you. 542 00:23:28,907 --> 00:23:30,409 [INTENSE MUSIC PLAYING] 543 00:23:30,492 --> 00:23:32,119 [LEXI] Trust, completely broken. 544 00:23:32,202 --> 00:23:35,122 Faith, misplaced as hell. I thought I was attracted to her, 545 00:23:35,205 --> 00:23:36,540 thought there was something there. 546 00:23:36,623 --> 00:23:38,083 I wanted to explore that and risk it. 547 00:23:38,166 --> 00:23:41,336 But, like, it's a lie world and Vanessa's a fake person. 548 00:23:41,420 --> 00:23:44,673 I don't know what else to tell you. I'm like, "She's fake." 549 00:23:44,756 --> 00:23:46,883 I don't want to say her name. She's like Voldemort. 550 00:23:47,551 --> 00:23:51,930 If you do get rejected by me, and please know that, if it is, it's... 551 00:23:52,013 --> 00:23:53,390 So you can go live with my ex? 552 00:23:54,683 --> 00:23:57,102 ♪ Cold heart with a smile ♪ 553 00:23:57,185 --> 00:23:59,938 ♪ I'm free, extra wild ♪ 554 00:24:00,021 --> 00:24:01,731 This was a terrible end to a date. 555 00:24:01,815 --> 00:24:04,609 - Objectively this wasn't fun. - I'm confused how it got that way. 556 00:24:04,693 --> 00:24:06,987 - I think we pack it up. - Yeah. 557 00:24:07,070 --> 00:24:09,156 I'll never have to look that girl in the face 558 00:24:09,239 --> 00:24:10,907 but somebody else will for three weeks. 559 00:24:10,991 --> 00:24:14,453 Likely my ex-girlfriend, and I'm angry about that. 560 00:24:14,536 --> 00:24:16,413 ♪ I'm a little bit dangerous ♪ 561 00:24:16,496 --> 00:24:20,500 I wish Rae would know that this girl is not here for the right stuff. 562 00:24:22,085 --> 00:24:23,170 I don't wanna see her again. 563 00:24:23,753 --> 00:24:26,590 ♪ I'm a little bit dangerous ♪ 564 00:24:26,673 --> 00:24:28,258 [ENERGETIC, UPBEAT POP PLAYING] 565 00:24:30,093 --> 00:24:31,761 ♪ We've been calling out for answers ♪ 566 00:24:31,845 --> 00:24:33,847 ♪ Now we finally know ♪ 567 00:24:33,930 --> 00:24:36,600 ♪ It's love makes the world go 'round ♪ 568 00:24:37,184 --> 00:24:40,270 - Here's to laughter and happiness. - [XANDER] Cheers, honestly. 569 00:24:40,353 --> 00:24:41,813 - Cheers! - [SAM] New beginnings. 570 00:24:41,897 --> 00:24:43,398 Got me, okay? 571 00:24:43,482 --> 00:24:45,901 Girl, I love these diamonds you got over here. 572 00:24:45,984 --> 00:24:47,068 ♪ Diamonds on my neck ♪ 573 00:24:47,069 --> 00:24:48,069 Hey! 574 00:24:48,069 --> 00:24:50,489 - That's some Beyoncé shit, right there. - Okay! 575 00:24:50,572 --> 00:24:52,449 [TIFF] But you wouldn't fuck Beyoncé. 576 00:24:53,116 --> 00:24:55,619 - Oh my God! Did you guys talk about that? - Yes. 577 00:24:55,702 --> 00:25:00,040 So I was saying, "Do you think Beyoncé would be good in bed?" 578 00:25:00,123 --> 00:25:02,334 Versus Rihanna? Do you think Beyoncé... 579 00:25:02,417 --> 00:25:04,711 Okay, bitch. When you puttin' it like that... 580 00:25:04,794 --> 00:25:06,463 - Puttin' it like that. - Right? 581 00:25:06,546 --> 00:25:09,132 I'm like, Beyoncé's not... I think she'd be great. 582 00:25:09,216 --> 00:25:11,384 She'd be like, "One, two, three, four, pop." 583 00:25:11,468 --> 00:25:13,762 Like, she knows what to do. 584 00:25:13,845 --> 00:25:15,639 But I don't think she would be... 585 00:25:15,722 --> 00:25:17,599 - Yeah. - Whereas Rihanna would be like... 586 00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:18,600 Fuck yeah. 587 00:25:18,600 --> 00:25:21,603 Hold on, let me mindfuck you. What would Cardi be like? 588 00:25:22,103 --> 00:25:23,563 I... That's another one. 589 00:25:23,647 --> 00:25:25,357 [ALL LAUGHING] 590 00:25:25,440 --> 00:25:27,150 That's not tequila, is it? 591 00:25:27,901 --> 00:25:29,778 - Oh, can we do tequila? - [AUSSIE] Yes. 592 00:25:30,904 --> 00:25:31,904 Oh, it's so rough. 593 00:25:31,905 --> 00:25:33,657 Smells like Lexi to me. 594 00:25:34,366 --> 00:25:35,408 [VANESSA] Hmm. 595 00:25:35,492 --> 00:25:36,493 You should tell her. 596 00:25:36,993 --> 00:25:39,746 Yeah, tequila will never not remind me of Lexi. 597 00:25:39,829 --> 00:25:41,540 [AUSSIE] You're my ex. I forgot. 598 00:25:41,623 --> 00:25:43,708 Yeah, I'm not holding your hand. 599 00:25:43,792 --> 00:25:46,461 I'm just gonna order my drink. You can order your own. 600 00:25:46,545 --> 00:25:48,255 Excuse you. 601 00:25:48,338 --> 00:25:49,881 [LAUGHING] 602 00:25:49,965 --> 00:25:51,341 I'm joking. I'm joking. 603 00:25:51,424 --> 00:25:54,636 A couple of days ago, I was given the ultimatum, 604 00:25:54,719 --> 00:25:58,890 and now I feel like I'm ready to grasp it. 605 00:25:59,599 --> 00:26:03,853 This whole week of dating has helped me discover myself. 606 00:26:03,937 --> 00:26:07,357 I didn't even know that it was possible for me to feel this way, but... 607 00:26:08,316 --> 00:26:11,653 Oh, I'm just... ah, emotional. 608 00:26:11,736 --> 00:26:13,363 [EXCITED LAUGHING, WHOOPING] 609 00:26:14,806 --> 00:26:15,865 Yeah. 610 00:26:15,865 --> 00:26:17,993 I don't think gin and tonics is tonight. 611 00:26:18,076 --> 00:26:19,995 I think it's when we live together. 612 00:26:20,078 --> 00:26:22,122 When you guys live together?! 613 00:26:22,205 --> 00:26:24,249 - Not if, but when. - You're expecting to live together? 614 00:26:24,332 --> 00:26:29,045 Yeah, I think it's when we live together is the gin and tonic time. 615 00:26:29,129 --> 00:26:30,297 [RAE] Yeah, exactly. 616 00:26:31,172 --> 00:26:32,299 Okay. 617 00:26:32,382 --> 00:26:33,800 - [LEXI] Hello. - [RAE] Hello? 618 00:26:33,883 --> 00:26:35,927 - [LEXI] We can talk. It's okay. - We can. 619 00:26:40,015 --> 00:26:41,015 Yeah. 620 00:26:42,225 --> 00:26:44,436 - How you feeling? - Uh... 621 00:26:45,020 --> 00:26:47,105 - I have feelings. - Feelings? 622 00:26:47,188 --> 00:26:48,648 I do... I wanna talk to you. 623 00:26:48,732 --> 00:26:50,609 I do too. Let's go. Come on. 624 00:26:51,651 --> 00:26:52,651 [HEAVY SIGH] 625 00:26:52,652 --> 00:26:53,652 Okay. 626 00:26:54,946 --> 00:26:56,156 Talk to me. 627 00:26:56,239 --> 00:26:57,991 Um, coming into this, 628 00:26:58,074 --> 00:27:00,535 I think we both talked very openly about 629 00:27:00,619 --> 00:27:03,997 if you did have an attraction to someone... 630 00:27:04,664 --> 00:27:05,707 So you have that. 631 00:27:05,790 --> 00:27:07,125 I do have that. 632 00:27:07,208 --> 00:27:10,086 I think I have a physical attraction to Vanessa. 633 00:27:10,170 --> 00:27:11,838 - Right. - Three weeks would be fun. 634 00:27:12,797 --> 00:27:15,842 - I'm a little stressed about that. - Mm-hmm. 635 00:27:17,052 --> 00:27:21,514 I think Vanessa is like a song and dance in this experience. 636 00:27:21,598 --> 00:27:26,227 I'm also strongly concerned about, like, motives for being here. 637 00:27:26,853 --> 00:27:29,939 I think I've been stressed because my gut's been saying, like, 638 00:27:30,899 --> 00:27:33,026 something's gonna blow our shit up. 639 00:27:33,693 --> 00:27:35,528 And this feels like it. 640 00:27:35,612 --> 00:27:36,613 [SHAKILY] Um... 641 00:27:37,572 --> 00:27:41,326 If I can say that at this point I've gained anything from this process, 642 00:27:41,409 --> 00:27:46,665 it's that I know so definitively the things that I deserve in this. 643 00:27:48,083 --> 00:27:49,417 Like, very surely. 644 00:27:49,501 --> 00:27:51,509 I'm not gonna hold anything against you, like, 645 00:27:51,510 --> 00:27:53,546 in the past from our relationship. 646 00:27:53,630 --> 00:27:56,883 But I know what I need by the end of this, like, thoroughly. 647 00:27:57,384 --> 00:27:58,385 I know what I need. 648 00:27:58,468 --> 00:28:00,136 [DRAMATIC, RESOLUTE MUSIC PLAYS] 649 00:28:00,220 --> 00:28:02,305 And listening to people who value 650 00:28:02,389 --> 00:28:07,060 the love I bring and the maturity I bring and the, like, goodness I bring... 651 00:28:07,811 --> 00:28:11,750 You know, those are things that I needed 652 00:28:11,751 --> 00:28:13,811 to remind myself of in this process. 653 00:28:14,693 --> 00:28:17,946 That, like, I am good. I do bring a lot to the table. 654 00:28:18,029 --> 00:28:22,242 I help people realize why marriage is something they can be ready for, 655 00:28:22,325 --> 00:28:24,244 whether with me or with someone else. 656 00:28:24,327 --> 00:28:29,416 But your time here seems to have encompassed a good bit of... 657 00:28:29,916 --> 00:28:33,253 Like, "Do I want to just fuck around with someone, 658 00:28:33,336 --> 00:28:34,879 and that could be fun." 659 00:28:34,963 --> 00:28:37,757 I get it. Vanessa is attractive. She's fun. 660 00:28:37,841 --> 00:28:40,760 She's like all of the fun parts of me, but she's not me. 661 00:28:40,844 --> 00:28:43,763 And I feel like, "Should I have brought Rae here?" 662 00:28:44,931 --> 00:28:46,683 And that fucking sucks. 663 00:28:48,017 --> 00:28:49,936 You gave me one week to figure it out. 664 00:28:50,019 --> 00:28:51,938 You're giving me a second ultimatum. 665 00:28:52,021 --> 00:28:53,231 I'm not asking you that. 666 00:28:53,314 --> 00:28:56,276 I'm asking if you feel like you're doing any work towards that. 667 00:28:56,359 --> 00:28:58,051 I'm having interesting conversations, 668 00:28:58,052 --> 00:28:59,988 literally with the same people you are. 669 00:29:00,071 --> 00:29:03,116 I just... I'm thinking like, "Do I deserve you?" 670 00:29:03,199 --> 00:29:06,327 And sometimes I feel like I don't because you're like this... 671 00:29:06,411 --> 00:29:08,037 Imagine, like, a glass this big. 672 00:29:08,121 --> 00:29:10,415 Yours is full. You have this capacity in you. 673 00:29:10,498 --> 00:29:13,460 You're this type of person, and, like, I'm this. 674 00:29:13,543 --> 00:29:17,839 And, like, I'm scared that I'll never fill... like, that. 675 00:29:17,922 --> 00:29:19,758 [EMOTIONALLY] I'll never fill what you need. 676 00:29:19,841 --> 00:29:23,636 Without feeling like you can definitively say that it's me, 677 00:29:23,720 --> 00:29:25,805 like, that part will always be empty. 678 00:29:27,474 --> 00:29:30,310 [RAE] I didn't expect her to find so much validation. 679 00:29:30,393 --> 00:29:32,520 And maybe Lexi needs a different person. 680 00:29:32,604 --> 00:29:35,440 [VOICE BREAKING] But I want Lexi to know that I love her. 681 00:29:35,523 --> 00:29:40,111 I have been envisioning a future with her for, like, three years now. 682 00:29:40,737 --> 00:29:43,114 I'm trying to get there. I don't know if I will. 683 00:29:43,198 --> 00:29:46,034 And I really wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't for her, 684 00:29:46,117 --> 00:29:49,204 'cause this is, like, super out of my comfort zone. 685 00:29:49,287 --> 00:29:51,080 And, like, this is hard. 686 00:29:52,415 --> 00:29:55,960 Wait, am I at the table with the ones that were given the ultimatum? 687 00:29:56,044 --> 00:29:57,545 - Oh no, I can't. - [AUSSIE] You are! 688 00:29:57,629 --> 00:30:00,590 This is a set-up. This is a set-up. I'm out. 689 00:30:00,673 --> 00:30:02,592 Did we naturally gravitate to this table? 690 00:30:02,675 --> 00:30:04,177 [MILDRED] You guys are the receivers. 691 00:30:04,260 --> 00:30:06,221 [MAL] We're the bottoms of the ultimatum. 692 00:30:06,721 --> 00:30:08,056 If that was your thing. 693 00:30:08,139 --> 00:30:11,017 Bottoms. But either way it's very submissive-sounding. 694 00:30:11,100 --> 00:30:13,520 - [MAL] It is. - I am not a bottom. 695 00:30:13,603 --> 00:30:14,854 [MILDRED] Okay, so... 696 00:30:14,938 --> 00:30:17,065 [MAL] Depending on the situation. I don't know. 697 00:30:17,148 --> 00:30:19,359 Okay. We can get into that more... 698 00:30:19,442 --> 00:30:20,735 [OVERLAPPING LAUGHTER] 699 00:30:20,819 --> 00:30:23,488 - We should've been on it day three. - We should, yeah. 700 00:30:23,571 --> 00:30:25,365 Who have your dates been with? 701 00:30:25,448 --> 00:30:27,367 Tiff and Xander. 702 00:30:27,450 --> 00:30:29,077 Xander was very... Just... 703 00:30:29,160 --> 00:30:31,538 I was, "I didn't think this would happen, but okay." 704 00:30:32,121 --> 00:30:33,121 Hi. 705 00:30:33,540 --> 00:30:34,707 You can take my spot. 706 00:30:34,791 --> 00:30:37,252 - What?! - And I'm gonna go over there. 707 00:30:37,335 --> 00:30:38,586 - Oh. - Yeah. 708 00:30:38,670 --> 00:30:39,796 [MAL] Peace. 709 00:30:39,879 --> 00:30:41,589 - [YOLY] Bye, Sam. I love her. - Bye. 710 00:30:42,090 --> 00:30:43,090 [YOLY] Hi. 711 00:30:43,591 --> 00:30:44,592 [MAL] Hi. 712 00:30:44,676 --> 00:30:47,470 So I'll be very transparent with you. 713 00:30:47,554 --> 00:30:49,097 This experience... 714 00:30:50,598 --> 00:30:52,141 Fucking crazy, right? 715 00:30:52,225 --> 00:30:55,061 - Nuts. This shit is crazy. - Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 716 00:30:55,144 --> 00:30:57,897 But I have had really awesome dates. 717 00:30:58,690 --> 00:31:00,441 - And... - Do you wanna tell me who? 718 00:31:00,942 --> 00:31:03,653 Yeah, if you're okay with it, I'm fine with that. 719 00:31:05,238 --> 00:31:06,948 Um, Lexi. 720 00:31:09,409 --> 00:31:11,494 [EMOTIONAL MUSIC PLAYING] 721 00:31:14,205 --> 00:31:15,665 I did feel a little bit of a way 722 00:31:15,748 --> 00:31:19,085 when I unfortunately saw you and Xander on a date. And it was like... 723 00:31:19,669 --> 00:31:25,008 I feel like Xander was, like, my direct insecurity of what your type is 724 00:31:25,091 --> 00:31:26,885 - and what your type has been... - Mm-hmm. 725 00:31:26,968 --> 00:31:29,304 ... with dating white women in the past. 726 00:31:29,387 --> 00:31:30,387 Yep. 727 00:31:30,847 --> 00:31:32,510 And I'm... You have my blessings, right? 728 00:31:32,511 --> 00:31:36,811 To explore whatever you want to explore. 729 00:31:36,895 --> 00:31:38,392 But, of course, my ego, 730 00:31:38,393 --> 00:31:40,732 like my own self, my own ego, my own insecurities, 731 00:31:40,815 --> 00:31:41,900 and I'm like... 732 00:31:43,151 --> 00:31:47,322 It feels very like, "Yep. Of course." 733 00:31:48,197 --> 00:31:51,117 I'm not asking for reassurance. That's not what I'm asking for. 734 00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:53,202 There's nothing you can do about that. 735 00:31:53,286 --> 00:31:54,746 Let's join some people. 736 00:31:54,829 --> 00:31:55,829 Why? 737 00:31:55,830 --> 00:31:56,915 'Cause I wanna. 738 00:32:01,044 --> 00:32:02,462 How are you? 739 00:32:03,863 --> 00:32:04,881 You okay? 740 00:32:04,881 --> 00:32:06,215 Like in-between. Or... 741 00:32:06,299 --> 00:32:07,967 Do you want me here? I feel like you don't... 742 00:32:08,051 --> 00:32:10,011 Yeah, of course I... Of course I want you here. 743 00:32:10,094 --> 00:32:11,094 Okay. 744 00:32:11,596 --> 00:32:14,140 I've been thinking a lot about just us, 745 00:32:14,223 --> 00:32:18,311 and how we've been navigating our relationship for the past two years. 746 00:32:18,312 --> 00:32:19,312 Mm-hmm. 747 00:32:19,312 --> 00:32:22,065 And this experience has, like, really changed me. 748 00:32:24,150 --> 00:32:25,150 I'm in shock. 749 00:32:25,693 --> 00:32:26,998 There's so much I need to learn, 750 00:32:26,999 --> 00:32:29,530 and there's people here I can learn from. 751 00:32:31,950 --> 00:32:32,950 Come here. 752 00:32:33,785 --> 00:32:35,495 [INTRIGUING MUSIC PLAYING] 753 00:32:40,541 --> 00:32:41,668 I just, like... 754 00:32:43,336 --> 00:32:45,088 I realized so much. You know, like... 755 00:32:45,171 --> 00:32:49,258 This experience has made me, like, realize we're not connected, 756 00:32:49,342 --> 00:32:51,010 and how apart we actually are. 757 00:32:54,472 --> 00:32:56,140 Sometimes I'm in my room and I think of you, 758 00:32:56,224 --> 00:32:58,851 and I'm... I'm not wondering if you're thinking of me. 759 00:32:58,935 --> 00:33:00,561 I've been going on these dates. 760 00:33:00,645 --> 00:33:03,272 And I don't feel nervous. I just feel hopeful. 761 00:33:04,732 --> 00:33:07,110 [DRAMATIC MUSIC INTENSIFIES] 762 00:33:07,193 --> 00:33:08,193 [MILDRED SIGHS] 763 00:33:13,366 --> 00:33:15,326 - Oh no. - I know, I know. 764 00:33:17,578 --> 00:33:20,957 I understand that Mildred is taking this very seriously, 765 00:33:21,040 --> 00:33:24,335 and that she has a right to connect with whoever she wants. 766 00:33:24,419 --> 00:33:26,045 But... fuck. 767 00:33:26,129 --> 00:33:29,465 She's slipping out of my fingertips, 768 00:33:30,091 --> 00:33:31,968 and... [EXHALES HEAVILY] 769 00:33:32,051 --> 00:33:34,137 ... I'm not ready to lose her. 770 00:33:35,471 --> 00:33:37,515 I've been wanting to connect with you. 771 00:33:38,641 --> 00:33:41,811 It's really hard for me because I've been connecting with everyone. 772 00:33:41,894 --> 00:33:46,399 And that's why I'm crying, because I feel like it's scary. 773 00:33:46,482 --> 00:33:47,775 Let me ask you something. 774 00:33:48,401 --> 00:33:50,361 Do you feel like we're connecting now? 775 00:33:51,362 --> 00:33:53,322 [GENTLE POP MUSIC PLAYING] 776 00:33:53,406 --> 00:33:55,408 ♪ I don't want to love you ♪ 777 00:33:55,491 --> 00:33:57,869 ♪ I don't want to hold you ♪ 778 00:33:57,952 --> 00:34:01,080 ♪ I don't want to show you how ♪ 779 00:34:02,540 --> 00:34:04,250 It's really hard for me to say, 780 00:34:04,333 --> 00:34:05,918 but the kisses... 781 00:34:06,002 --> 00:34:08,171 Tiff is trying to force connecting with me, 782 00:34:08,254 --> 00:34:10,465 but this happens all the time. 783 00:34:10,548 --> 00:34:12,717 We have sex, and it's good, 784 00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:15,386 and then ignore all of our problems. 785 00:34:16,137 --> 00:34:18,723 I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. 786 00:34:18,806 --> 00:34:20,016 I'm not doing this anymore. 787 00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:22,560 Mm-hmm. 788 00:34:23,144 --> 00:34:25,313 - One thing I wanted to talk about quickly. - Oh yeah. 789 00:34:25,396 --> 00:34:28,566 Um... so I'm in a very interesting predicament. 790 00:34:28,649 --> 00:34:32,820 Um, it seems as though Rae is, like, interested in someone here. 791 00:34:32,904 --> 00:34:34,155 [WHISPERS] Vanessa? 792 00:34:34,238 --> 00:34:36,157 Yeah. Um, and it's not good. 793 00:34:36,240 --> 00:34:37,450 I feel sick to my stomach, 794 00:34:37,533 --> 00:34:39,952 and I have been referring to her as an atomic bomb. 795 00:34:40,036 --> 00:34:42,288 [VANESSA] No one knows that I'm an Instagram influencer. 796 00:34:42,371 --> 00:34:44,373 I, like, get paid to do content. 797 00:34:44,457 --> 00:34:46,125 [AUSSIE] Are you serious?! 798 00:34:46,209 --> 00:34:48,377 I'm like an Instagram poet, basically. 799 00:34:48,378 --> 00:34:49,378 Okay. 800 00:34:49,378 --> 00:34:50,463 [LEXI] I don't trust her. 801 00:34:50,546 --> 00:34:51,798 She is a fake person. 802 00:34:51,881 --> 00:34:53,341 [WHISPERS] One thousand percent. 803 00:34:54,550 --> 00:34:55,802 I don't know. I honestly... 804 00:34:55,885 --> 00:34:58,930 A big part of me thinks that somebody feels like they have 805 00:34:59,013 --> 00:35:01,307 more leverage than they deserve in the situation. 806 00:35:01,390 --> 00:35:05,394 And I don't like that that person has that much power in their hands. 807 00:35:05,478 --> 00:35:07,480 I think Vanessa is... 808 00:35:08,106 --> 00:35:10,399 I'm just like, "Why are you here and what's up?" 809 00:35:10,400 --> 00:35:11,400 [LEXI] I agree. 810 00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:13,377 I realized I was not the biggest fan of Vanessa 811 00:35:13,378 --> 00:35:16,739 right when I met her, day one. 812 00:35:16,823 --> 00:35:20,118 Like, Vanessa starts hitting on my ex in front of me. 813 00:35:20,201 --> 00:35:22,662 So I was like, "All right. You're that girl." 814 00:35:22,745 --> 00:35:26,165 I don't fully trust her or her intentions. 815 00:35:26,249 --> 00:35:31,337 She just seems to be into herself and making everything about herself. 816 00:35:31,420 --> 00:35:33,089 It's as simple as that. 817 00:35:33,172 --> 00:35:35,883 If that's where her mindset is at... 818 00:35:35,967 --> 00:35:37,301 [LEXI] That scares me. 819 00:35:37,385 --> 00:35:38,594 [YOLY] She's like a narcissist. 820 00:35:38,678 --> 00:35:41,889 The dates with Xander felt a lot more, like, honest. 821 00:35:41,973 --> 00:35:44,934 It, like, threw me for a loop, and I was like, "Okay." 822 00:35:45,017 --> 00:35:47,478 [LEXI] Do you feel more secure about why Xander's here? 823 00:35:47,562 --> 00:35:48,896 Obviously, they're a couple. 824 00:35:50,565 --> 00:35:51,983 - Sorry if I... - Yeah. 825 00:35:52,066 --> 00:35:53,568 I really hope so. 826 00:35:53,651 --> 00:35:57,155 I would love a rundown. How are you doing? 827 00:35:57,238 --> 00:35:58,656 Who are you connecting with? 828 00:35:58,739 --> 00:36:01,075 I don't know who you've been on dates with. 829 00:36:01,159 --> 00:36:04,579 I think you're gonna be pretty surprised, but, like, it's Yoly. 830 00:36:04,662 --> 00:36:06,080 [TENSE, FRAUGHT MUSIC PLAYS] 831 00:36:06,164 --> 00:36:08,291 [VANESSA GAGGING] Um... 832 00:36:09,417 --> 00:36:10,793 - Really? - Yeah. 833 00:36:11,419 --> 00:36:13,337 So, like, I think... 834 00:36:15,173 --> 00:36:16,674 Yeah, please explain that. 835 00:36:16,757 --> 00:36:19,010 Yeah, so I think that... 836 00:36:20,303 --> 00:36:22,013 I'm definitely getting confused. 837 00:36:22,096 --> 00:36:25,391 I think Yoly is a lot similar to you, to be honest. 838 00:36:25,474 --> 00:36:29,604 I don't know that you guys are gonna be friends in this experience, 839 00:36:29,687 --> 00:36:31,397 but I think you guys are pretty similar. 840 00:36:33,482 --> 00:36:34,817 Yeah. How... Are you okay? 841 00:36:34,901 --> 00:36:36,777 Yeah, she's just not very nice to me. 842 00:36:40,323 --> 00:36:42,033 - I feel like a fucking idiot. - Why? 843 00:36:42,116 --> 00:36:43,326 You should not. 844 00:36:43,826 --> 00:36:44,827 [VANESSA SCOFFS] 845 00:36:45,411 --> 00:36:46,662 I don't want you to. 846 00:36:46,746 --> 00:36:49,498 I think I want to walk away, if that's okay. 847 00:36:52,126 --> 00:36:53,419 I don't want you to do that. 848 00:36:56,964 --> 00:36:59,967 - I really... - I think maybe we shouldn't have talked. 849 00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:07,975 I really don't want to talk to you if you went with her. 850 00:37:12,063 --> 00:37:14,190 I don't know if that's fair for me. 851 00:37:20,529 --> 00:37:23,699 It's just... You know she has not been nice to me, and you're... 852 00:37:23,783 --> 00:37:26,118 The only time I witnessed it was at the last cocktail party, 853 00:37:26,202 --> 00:37:28,955 which was, like, so brief for me. Like, I don't... 854 00:37:29,705 --> 00:37:31,207 Yeah, but you noticed it. 855 00:37:34,335 --> 00:37:35,335 - Yeah. - Yeah. 856 00:37:35,795 --> 00:37:37,546 [TENSE MUSIC PLAYING] 857 00:37:38,573 --> 00:37:39,590 Whatever. 858 00:37:39,590 --> 00:37:41,133 - Baby... - No. 859 00:37:41,968 --> 00:37:43,970 [TENSE MUSIC CONTINUING] 860 00:37:47,098 --> 00:37:48,557 [XANDER] I hate that... 861 00:37:49,183 --> 00:37:54,272 I really wanted to see so much progress with Vanessa, 862 00:37:55,940 --> 00:37:57,650 and I don't feel like I'm receiving that. 863 00:37:57,733 --> 00:38:03,733 I feel like I'm still receiving what I would see as selfish, 864 00:38:04,240 --> 00:38:09,704 with her saying I shouldn't be with someone because of her 865 00:38:09,787 --> 00:38:10,955 or because of this. 866 00:38:11,038 --> 00:38:13,874 It's not the fact that she's even thinking about, like, 867 00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:15,250 "Maybe you should be with this person. 868 00:38:15,251 --> 00:38:18,254 She wants to get married or to have kids." 869 00:38:18,337 --> 00:38:20,172 And she wants things that I want. 870 00:38:20,781 --> 00:38:21,799 It's not that. 871 00:38:21,799 --> 00:38:24,302 It's the fact that she's thinking I shouldn't be with that person 872 00:38:24,385 --> 00:38:27,763 because that's not someone that she gets along with. 873 00:38:27,847 --> 00:38:29,432 And I don't... I don't want that. 874 00:38:29,515 --> 00:38:35,515 I want her to let me experience this experience for why I'm here. 875 00:38:35,604 --> 00:38:37,732 ♪ It's getting down to the wire ♪ 876 00:38:38,649 --> 00:38:41,152 ♪ I'm jumping through the flames ♪ 877 00:38:41,652 --> 00:38:44,447 ♪ No time to hesitate ♪ 878 00:38:44,530 --> 00:38:47,867 [VANESSA, WEEPILY] Xander came into this telling me I was the one. 879 00:38:47,950 --> 00:38:49,577 I think tonight was the moment 880 00:38:49,660 --> 00:38:52,455 that I realized that I'm not the one for Xander. 881 00:38:52,538 --> 00:38:55,207 I'm... Fuck! I cannot stop crying. 882 00:38:57,960 --> 00:39:01,088 It's just so hard to think about. 883 00:39:03,132 --> 00:39:06,927 I just... I'm so... pathetic. 884 00:39:09,805 --> 00:39:11,557 I just want to be alone. 885 00:39:13,142 --> 00:39:16,896 I was having a really hard time tonight, and I'm not even drunk. 886 00:39:16,979 --> 00:39:20,649 I wish I could be like, "I'm just a drunk mess," but I'm not. 887 00:39:20,733 --> 00:39:22,568 I'm just a fucking mess. 888 00:39:24,153 --> 00:39:27,114 I was given an ultimatum a week ago, and... 889 00:39:28,532 --> 00:39:29,909 as of tonight, I'm... 890 00:39:33,412 --> 00:39:34,997 I'm sure it's a no. 891 00:39:36,707 --> 00:39:38,834 ♪ It's getting down to the wire ♪ 892 00:39:39,335 --> 00:39:41,754 ♪ I'm jumping through the flames ♪ 893 00:39:42,254 --> 00:39:44,965 ♪ No time to hesitate ♪ 894 00:39:45,049 --> 00:39:47,968 ♪ Guess I always loved the chase ♪ 895 00:39:48,719 --> 00:39:51,847 ♪ Coming on like a hurricane ♪ 896 00:39:51,931 --> 00:39:52,932 [SONG TRAILS OFF] 897 00:40:00,231 --> 00:40:02,942 ♪ This is what we came for ♪ 898 00:40:03,025 --> 00:40:04,944 [TENSE, MOODY POP SONG PLAYING] 899 00:40:05,027 --> 00:40:07,363 ♪ The start of something new ♪ 900 00:40:09,281 --> 00:40:11,992 Everything's at stake when it comes to the choice. 901 00:40:12,076 --> 00:40:14,745 I gave Rae an ultimatum because I want a life partner. 902 00:40:14,829 --> 00:40:16,414 I want someone to commit to. 903 00:40:16,497 --> 00:40:19,291 So part of what I'm looking for in a trial wife 904 00:40:19,375 --> 00:40:21,460 is somebody that's going to commit to me. 905 00:40:21,544 --> 00:40:23,587 Not just for this three weeks, 906 00:40:23,671 --> 00:40:26,507 but as if it was the first day of the rest of our lives. 907 00:40:27,091 --> 00:40:29,135 ♪ This is our world ♪ 908 00:40:29,718 --> 00:40:31,679 ♪ This is our time ♪ 909 00:40:31,762 --> 00:40:34,348 I'm ready to discover. I'm ready to get answers. 910 00:40:34,432 --> 00:40:36,517 Yes, I'm missing my ex, 911 00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:40,938 but I gave Tiff the ultimatum because I don't want to wait anymore. 912 00:40:41,021 --> 00:40:42,356 No matter what outcome, 913 00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:45,364 we're both gonna be able to gain the clarity 914 00:40:45,365 --> 00:40:47,194 that we've been searching for. 915 00:40:47,278 --> 00:40:49,363 ♪ We have arrived ♪ 916 00:40:52,199 --> 00:40:53,659 ♪ We have arrived ♪ 917 00:40:53,742 --> 00:40:55,744 [DRAMATIC MUSIC SWELLS] 918 00:40:57,955 --> 00:41:00,958 It is a lesbian urban legend 919 00:41:01,041 --> 00:41:03,961 that we move in with a new person right away. 920 00:41:04,044 --> 00:41:07,256 Even in my most U-Haul-est moment, I have not moved in with somebody 921 00:41:07,339 --> 00:41:10,843 after only a week of being single, ever at all. 922 00:41:10,926 --> 00:41:14,472 But this experience is a wake-up call. 923 00:41:14,555 --> 00:41:18,893 There's a bunch of other people out in the world who want what I want. 924 00:41:18,976 --> 00:41:22,271 So, even though I gave Mal an ultimatum, 925 00:41:22,354 --> 00:41:25,774 now I'm just like, "But what if?" and it's just overwhelming. 926 00:41:27,485 --> 00:41:30,196 I have never told Yoly that I didn't want to marry her. 927 00:41:30,279 --> 00:41:32,031 I just told her not right now. 928 00:41:32,114 --> 00:41:35,117 Walking into the choice, I can definitely see Yoly 929 00:41:35,201 --> 00:41:37,328 falling for somebody and fully leaning in. 930 00:41:38,245 --> 00:41:40,247 But I don't think Yoly understands 931 00:41:40,331 --> 00:41:43,250 the severity of the ultimatum she has placed on me, 932 00:41:43,334 --> 00:41:45,336 how that might backfire on her. 933 00:41:45,419 --> 00:41:48,214 Because I know who I want to choose to be my trial wife. 934 00:41:48,297 --> 00:41:51,884 I'm not thinking about anybody else. 935 00:41:51,967 --> 00:41:54,595 - Unfortunately, you're not next to me. - I know. 936 00:41:54,678 --> 00:41:56,472 I have no doubt at all. 937 00:42:01,560 --> 00:42:05,314 Going into the choice, Xander is connecting with someone else here 938 00:42:05,397 --> 00:42:07,858 on more than a friendship level, 939 00:42:09,068 --> 00:42:11,570 and it breaks my heart to think about that. 940 00:42:12,363 --> 00:42:17,493 But I'm not ready to say that I would marry her just to not lose her. 941 00:42:17,576 --> 00:42:20,329 Knowing that tonight I'm going to be choosing 942 00:42:20,412 --> 00:42:23,082 someone to be my trial marriage partner... 943 00:42:23,165 --> 00:42:26,835 I miss those butterflies and that new relationship excitement. 944 00:42:26,919 --> 00:42:29,588 Someone here could be a good fit for me. 945 00:42:29,672 --> 00:42:31,590 And that's something that I should pursue. 946 00:42:31,674 --> 00:42:33,676 ♪ We have arrived ♪ 947 00:42:36,762 --> 00:42:37,972 ♪ We have arrived ♪ 948 00:42:40,641 --> 00:42:42,643 [SMOOTH, GENTLE MUSIC PLAYING] 949 00:42:44,770 --> 00:42:46,063 Whoo! 950 00:42:46,939 --> 00:42:49,650 - [JOANNA] Hello, everyone. - [CONTESTANTS] Hello. 951 00:42:49,733 --> 00:42:54,238 From what I hear, it has been an incredibly emotional and intense week. 952 00:42:54,822 --> 00:42:56,031 - Absolutely. - Yes. 953 00:42:56,115 --> 00:42:57,658 I can see it on your faces. 954 00:42:57,741 --> 00:42:59,285 - Whoo. - In the best way. 955 00:42:59,368 --> 00:43:00,619 [VANESSA] Thank you. 956 00:43:00,703 --> 00:43:03,664 The idea of marriage was actually 957 00:43:03,747 --> 00:43:08,210 something I never actually deeply, really thought of, to be honest. 958 00:43:08,211 --> 00:43:09,211 It's crazy. 959 00:43:09,211 --> 00:43:13,173 Because it was never a possibility for me because it wasn't legal. 960 00:43:13,174 --> 00:43:14,174 It wasn't a thing. 961 00:43:14,174 --> 00:43:16,927 - Yeah. - I also learned what a power bottom was. 962 00:43:17,011 --> 00:43:19,221 - I don't know if you know... - I know what a power bottom is. 963 00:43:19,305 --> 00:43:20,305 You do?! 964 00:43:20,347 --> 00:43:21,347 Of course. 965 00:43:21,348 --> 00:43:22,391 What is a power bottom? 966 00:43:22,474 --> 00:43:24,810 Mildred, you're a power bottom. I'm letting you know. 967 00:43:24,811 --> 00:43:25,811 What?! 968 00:43:25,811 --> 00:43:27,479 You're on the bottom but calling the shots, 969 00:43:27,563 --> 00:43:28,897 so you're still giving it. 970 00:43:28,981 --> 00:43:30,941 - Whip that shit. - [AUSSIE] Yeah. 971 00:43:31,025 --> 00:43:32,025 [MILDRED] Okay. 972 00:43:34,194 --> 00:43:35,194 All right. 973 00:43:36,238 --> 00:43:37,238 [JOANNA] Okay. 974 00:43:37,948 --> 00:43:40,326 You arrived here as five couples. 975 00:43:40,409 --> 00:43:44,288 One of you was ready to get married, and the other was not. 976 00:43:44,872 --> 00:43:47,583 You're here to answer one simple question. 977 00:43:47,666 --> 00:43:49,543 Did you come here with the person 978 00:43:49,627 --> 00:43:52,129 that you're gonna spend the rest of your life with? 979 00:43:52,212 --> 00:43:56,216 Or will you find someone else who's a better fit? 980 00:43:57,217 --> 00:43:59,261 You're about to pick your new partner. 981 00:44:01,180 --> 00:44:04,183 If you choose someone who also chooses you, 982 00:44:04,266 --> 00:44:08,020 you will move in together as a new couple in a trial marriage. 983 00:44:08,103 --> 00:44:09,855 [TENSE, EXCITING MUSIC PLAYING] 984 00:44:09,938 --> 00:44:12,024 So I just want to say, before we begin, 985 00:44:13,025 --> 00:44:16,987 pick someone who challenges you, and don't make the safe choice. 986 00:44:19,490 --> 00:44:21,367 So, Xander, tell us a little bit about 987 00:44:21,450 --> 00:44:24,036 the people that you've spent time with this week. 988 00:44:26,080 --> 00:44:28,791 I feel like I initially was attracted to Rae 989 00:44:28,874 --> 00:44:32,044 because I've dated someone like Rae. 990 00:44:32,127 --> 00:44:34,630 And, you know, she was fun, and... 991 00:44:34,713 --> 00:44:35,964 Who was that? 992 00:44:36,048 --> 00:44:37,466 [CURIOUS MUSIC PLAYING] 993 00:44:39,593 --> 00:44:40,593 - What? - Who is this? 994 00:44:40,594 --> 00:44:41,970 It's a Bumble person. 995 00:44:42,680 --> 00:44:43,681 Never knew about this. 996 00:44:43,764 --> 00:44:46,600 We've been together four years. Never heard about this human. 997 00:44:46,684 --> 00:44:47,685 About what? 998 00:44:47,768 --> 00:44:50,688 - I've never heard about this ex. - It wasn't an ex, really. 999 00:44:50,771 --> 00:44:55,317 - It was more like a... in-between stage. - It's very interesting. Very interesting. 1000 00:44:58,487 --> 00:45:02,741 I feel like I knew most of Xander's ex love life. And this... 1001 00:45:03,659 --> 00:45:05,080 I will clarify that it was 1002 00:45:05,081 --> 00:45:08,038 an in-between stage of a Bumble, Tinder person. 1003 00:45:08,122 --> 00:45:09,790 Is this, like, tractor girl? 1004 00:45:09,791 --> 00:45:11,625 - Okay. - No. 1005 00:45:11,625 --> 00:45:14,378 - We're gonna go back to you, Xander. - [XANDER] Okay, great. 1006 00:45:16,255 --> 00:45:17,255 [MOUTHING] Fuck off. 1007 00:45:18,298 --> 00:45:19,383 Fuck off. 1008 00:45:20,342 --> 00:45:22,970 Um, can we ask you about Yoly? 1009 00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:27,725 Yoly, I appreciate your openness with me. 1010 00:45:27,808 --> 00:45:31,812 I think that you have a very positive outlook on a lot of things. 1011 00:45:32,312 --> 00:45:35,190 I believe that you're gonna make a good wife 1012 00:45:35,274 --> 00:45:36,817 because you know what you want. 1013 00:45:36,900 --> 00:45:40,529 And I think you're not someone that is selfish, by any means. 1014 00:45:40,612 --> 00:45:43,699 You're gonna think about others, and it's a great aspect to have. 1015 00:45:44,199 --> 00:45:45,659 [MOUTHING] I don't know about that. 1016 00:45:46,452 --> 00:45:47,453 [CHUCKLES] 1017 00:45:48,746 --> 00:45:51,123 - There's no right answer here. - Okay, cool. 1018 00:45:54,793 --> 00:45:57,463 Xander, are you ready to make your choice? 1019 00:45:57,546 --> 00:45:58,546 I am. 1020 00:45:59,631 --> 00:46:01,633 [EMOTIONAL MUSIC SWELLS] 1021 00:46:05,387 --> 00:46:06,847 My heart is pounding. 1022 00:46:10,309 --> 00:46:11,727 I choose Yoly 1023 00:46:11,810 --> 00:46:15,439 because I think that you and I had the deepest conversations. 1024 00:46:15,522 --> 00:46:18,066 I think that we can teach each other a lot. 1025 00:46:18,150 --> 00:46:22,351 And I think that we can figure some things out together, 1026 00:46:22,352 --> 00:46:23,489 and it'd be great. 1027 00:46:25,824 --> 00:46:27,326 Thank you. You're... 1028 00:46:27,409 --> 00:46:28,869 [TIFF IMITATING GLASS CLINKING] 1029 00:46:28,952 --> 00:46:30,120 That was deep. 1030 00:46:30,204 --> 00:46:32,831 Xander, you have a huge heart. 1031 00:46:32,915 --> 00:46:36,543 And you're so kind and so willing to give. 1032 00:46:36,627 --> 00:46:38,104 I've shared with you 1033 00:46:38,105 --> 00:46:40,672 that I get very protective of people with big hearts. 1034 00:46:40,756 --> 00:46:44,760 Um, just because I can see people in the world 1035 00:46:44,843 --> 00:46:47,429 taking advantage of it or seeing it as a weakness even, 1036 00:46:47,513 --> 00:46:49,973 and I get very protective of stuff like that. 1037 00:46:50,057 --> 00:46:51,308 Appreciate that. 1038 00:46:51,391 --> 00:46:52,601 I love that. 1039 00:46:53,101 --> 00:46:54,102 Yoly. 1040 00:46:55,395 --> 00:46:57,189 Are you ready to make your choice? 1041 00:46:57,689 --> 00:46:58,816 Yes, I am. 1042 00:46:58,899 --> 00:47:00,734 [BRIGHT, HOPEFUL MUSIC PLAYING] 1043 00:47:04,279 --> 00:47:06,240 Um, I choose Xander. 1044 00:47:07,324 --> 00:47:10,452 Through our conversations, I've been really surprised 1045 00:47:10,536 --> 00:47:15,249 to learn how much, like, similarities and common goals we have, 1046 00:47:15,332 --> 00:47:19,253 as far as marriage and family and what married life would look like. 1047 00:47:19,336 --> 00:47:23,674 So I'd be really excited to explore that with you. 1048 00:47:25,826 --> 00:47:26,844 [JOANNA] Thank you. 1049 00:47:26,844 --> 00:47:28,762 Okay, Rae, we're headed your way. 1050 00:47:28,846 --> 00:47:30,514 [LAUGHTER] 1051 00:47:30,597 --> 00:47:32,808 Um, I think Vanessa and I had 1052 00:47:32,891 --> 00:47:36,645 a very, like, physical interest in each other. 1053 00:47:36,728 --> 00:47:41,066 But she has this, like, very free spirit nature to her 1054 00:47:41,149 --> 00:47:43,110 that, like, I don't really understand, 1055 00:47:43,193 --> 00:47:45,112 because I'm a stability kind of woman. 1056 00:47:45,988 --> 00:47:49,074 And looking towards the future, I think she'd be a good wife. 1057 00:47:49,950 --> 00:47:50,950 My love. 1058 00:47:51,577 --> 00:47:53,954 We had a great time, and you calm me down a lot. 1059 00:47:54,037 --> 00:47:56,039 And you've paid attention to me enough. 1060 00:47:56,123 --> 00:47:59,126 I really appreciate that, and I think you're wonderful. 1061 00:48:02,004 --> 00:48:05,048 And, Mal, oh my gosh, you've been in my top three this whole time. 1062 00:48:05,132 --> 00:48:07,384 I'm really sad we have not had more time together. 1063 00:48:07,467 --> 00:48:11,096 Um, you are enigmatic. 1064 00:48:11,179 --> 00:48:12,306 I believe that's a word? 1065 00:48:12,389 --> 00:48:13,640 - I hope... - I love that word. 1066 00:48:13,724 --> 00:48:16,351 Yeah. Okay, good. So it is a word. You can confirm. 1067 00:48:16,435 --> 00:48:18,437 Yeah, that's definitely you. Um... 1068 00:48:18,520 --> 00:48:22,190 You... We just had a connection from the instant we met, 1069 00:48:22,274 --> 00:48:24,526 and I think you're a wonderful human. 1070 00:48:25,903 --> 00:48:27,988 I only had one interaction with you. 1071 00:48:28,071 --> 00:48:29,740 - I know. - Right. 1072 00:48:29,823 --> 00:48:31,450 I made a very quick decision. 1073 00:48:31,950 --> 00:48:36,371 Um, just for reasons that I value that are just different, you know? 1074 00:48:36,372 --> 00:48:37,372 Sure. 1075 00:48:37,372 --> 00:48:39,333 I haven't always known what a "hell yes" is, 1076 00:48:39,416 --> 00:48:43,545 but I have known... things that are a no for me. 1077 00:48:43,629 --> 00:48:47,174 I think those things scare me, and sometimes I lean in to those things. 1078 00:48:48,175 --> 00:48:49,718 - In the next life. - Yeah. 1079 00:48:51,261 --> 00:48:55,057 Um, Lexi. You were probably born to be someone's wife. 1080 00:48:55,140 --> 00:48:56,934 You're, in a way, a trophy wife, 1081 00:48:57,017 --> 00:49:00,687 but also like the person... the breadwinner as well. 1082 00:49:00,771 --> 00:49:03,357 I don't know how that really happens, but you are. 1083 00:49:03,440 --> 00:49:05,359 We... We noticed immediately 1084 00:49:05,442 --> 00:49:08,820 that we are pretty much equals in terms of our personalities. 1085 00:49:09,321 --> 00:49:11,740 But you are... You're marriage-driven. 1086 00:49:11,823 --> 00:49:14,201 You're so young, and you're so driven. 1087 00:49:14,284 --> 00:49:16,870 It bewilders me because this is not who I am at all. 1088 00:49:16,954 --> 00:49:18,455 I'm six years older than you, 1089 00:49:18,538 --> 00:49:21,291 and I have none of the motivation that you do. 1090 00:49:21,375 --> 00:49:25,712 And I look forward to whatever your experience is, 1091 00:49:25,796 --> 00:49:27,547 and we'll chat about it. 1092 00:49:27,631 --> 00:49:28,631 Mm-hmm. 1093 00:49:30,008 --> 00:49:32,594 So we came into this process, right? 1094 00:49:32,678 --> 00:49:36,223 And you made me uncomfortable. You're the loudest person in the room. 1095 00:49:36,306 --> 00:49:38,517 I'm sometimes the loudest person in the room. 1096 00:49:39,434 --> 00:49:40,978 And we bounced off of that. 1097 00:49:41,061 --> 00:49:43,897 And then things really changed for me. 1098 00:49:43,981 --> 00:49:47,484 Part of me feels that the second you found out 1099 00:49:47,567 --> 00:49:50,612 that Xander was really leaning in to this process, 1100 00:49:51,279 --> 00:49:53,865 that that just soiled your experience. 1101 00:49:53,949 --> 00:49:57,369 I felt it on our date. I felt the general shift. 1102 00:49:57,452 --> 00:49:59,287 And my concern for myself 1103 00:49:59,371 --> 00:50:02,958 is that you going into this next process of this experience, 1104 00:50:03,458 --> 00:50:08,046 you only, at a maximum, saw it as a three-week, 21-day thing. 1105 00:50:09,339 --> 00:50:12,426 You're not gonna be able to give anything to anyone in this process. 1106 00:50:12,509 --> 00:50:15,762 And beyond that, to be completely candid with you, 1107 00:50:15,846 --> 00:50:17,055 um, I felt gaslit. 1108 00:50:18,015 --> 00:50:20,767 And because you went on a date with my ex-girlfriend, 1109 00:50:20,851 --> 00:50:23,395 regardless of the fact that we're calling each other exes, 1110 00:50:24,187 --> 00:50:28,942 my fear is that you have a power in your hands 1111 00:50:29,026 --> 00:50:31,778 to blow up a portion of my life, 1112 00:50:32,446 --> 00:50:34,322 because you don't have anything to lose. 1113 00:50:34,406 --> 00:50:37,367 Because I thoroughly feel the world just saw you for who you are. 1114 00:50:38,076 --> 00:50:40,412 I have concerns for my ex in this process. 1115 00:50:40,495 --> 00:50:42,831 I don't think you're here for the right reasons. 1116 00:50:42,914 --> 00:50:44,624 What do you think I'm here for? 1117 00:50:44,708 --> 00:50:47,335 I think genuinely that you came into this process 1118 00:50:47,419 --> 00:50:51,840 thinking that there was about a 0.001% chance 1119 00:50:51,923 --> 00:50:55,052 that Xander would have any sort of connections with other people. 1120 00:50:55,135 --> 00:50:57,471 Because a part of it is supposed to be the potential 1121 00:50:57,554 --> 00:50:59,473 that we romantically connect with someone. 1122 00:51:01,767 --> 00:51:02,768 [EXHALES SILENTLY] 1123 00:51:03,977 --> 00:51:05,729 And I want to add to that, Lexi. 1124 00:51:05,812 --> 00:51:07,240 You've been telling Xander to fuck off, 1125 00:51:07,241 --> 00:51:09,524 and it's hurting all of us but you. 1126 00:51:10,108 --> 00:51:11,443 That should say so much. 1127 00:51:11,526 --> 00:51:13,236 - It's hurting who? - [MILDRED] Everyone. 1128 00:51:13,320 --> 00:51:15,989 Everyone sitting at this table except for you. 1129 00:51:20,660 --> 00:51:26,458 I don't really want everyone to antagonize Vanessa because she's... 1130 00:51:27,084 --> 00:51:30,087 We understand, that's the person you've been with for four years. 1131 00:51:30,170 --> 00:51:31,580 No, it doesn't matter if that's the person I've been with 1132 00:51:31,581 --> 00:51:34,716 for 4 years or 10 years, 1133 00:51:34,800 --> 00:51:39,096 but she's someone that no one else understands except for me. 1134 00:51:39,179 --> 00:51:40,555 And that's why I love her. 1135 00:51:42,140 --> 00:51:44,601 And I don't need you guys to understand that. 1136 00:51:44,684 --> 00:51:46,728 I wish I could divide this whole situation, 1137 00:51:46,812 --> 00:51:51,233 but I cannot feel like you guys are protecting me. 1138 00:51:51,316 --> 00:51:53,318 We do care about you, but, at the same time, 1139 00:51:53,401 --> 00:51:56,113 we are looking out for everyone sitting in this experience. 1140 00:51:56,196 --> 00:51:57,788 Because we're all in this together. 1141 00:51:57,789 --> 00:52:01,034 It's not just about Vanessa and Xander. 1142 00:52:01,118 --> 00:52:03,203 It's about the rest of the people sitting here. 1143 00:52:03,286 --> 00:52:05,580 I think Lexi's also protecting her ex. 1144 00:52:05,664 --> 00:52:11,169 But how do you know that her and Rae would not be able to figure out 1145 00:52:11,253 --> 00:52:16,758 something together that could make our partners want to be with us? 1146 00:52:16,842 --> 00:52:18,426 We gave the ultimatum. 1147 00:52:18,510 --> 00:52:20,220 - I'm not trying to... - No, that's fair. 1148 00:52:20,303 --> 00:52:21,763 I'll interject on that. 1149 00:52:21,847 --> 00:52:24,808 So I don't know what you want out of this. Which is fine. 1150 00:52:24,891 --> 00:52:27,686 You don't have to know what you want 'cause, like, sometimes I don't. 1151 00:52:27,687 --> 00:52:28,687 [VANESSA] Yeah. 1152 00:52:28,687 --> 00:52:30,856 One of the things we were talking about earlier 1153 00:52:30,939 --> 00:52:34,317 was how there is someone who comes in here with an ultimatum, 1154 00:52:34,401 --> 00:52:37,362 and now they're like, "Well, I have feelings for someone else." 1155 00:52:37,445 --> 00:52:39,656 And you hearing that, you're like, 1156 00:52:40,699 --> 00:52:43,827 "Wait, you came in here with an ultimatum." 1157 00:52:43,910 --> 00:52:45,954 "You knew what you wanted. And now you don't?" 1158 00:52:46,037 --> 00:52:49,374 "And now you expect me to know what I want?" 1159 00:52:49,875 --> 00:52:51,877 "But you were the one with the ultimatum." 1160 00:52:51,960 --> 00:52:54,754 I do trust you. I hope that you know that. I do. 1161 00:52:54,838 --> 00:52:57,924 - I know you do. - You're not the person I don't trust. 1162 00:52:58,008 --> 00:53:00,677 If it does get to the point where you do spend time with my ex, 1163 00:53:00,760 --> 00:53:03,263 I hope that you get what you need to out of it. 1164 00:53:03,346 --> 00:53:05,432 I hope she gets what she needs out of it. 1165 00:53:05,445 --> 00:53:06,472 Because I think she is... 1166 00:53:06,473 --> 00:53:09,311 She and I have a lot to learn in this process, 1167 00:53:09,394 --> 00:53:11,396 things that we both came here to do. 1168 00:53:11,479 --> 00:53:15,525 Our last date really just laid it all out for me about who you are. 1169 00:53:15,609 --> 00:53:17,527 I'm happy my gut speaks so loud. 1170 00:53:17,611 --> 00:53:19,446 I'll remember to listen to that more. 1171 00:53:19,529 --> 00:53:22,741 Because of that discomfort, I had to go on that last date with you, 1172 00:53:22,824 --> 00:53:24,951 and I'm so freaking thankful I did. 1173 00:53:25,660 --> 00:53:28,705 [DRAMATIC, CONFRONTATIONAL MUSIC PLAYING] 1174 00:53:29,539 --> 00:53:30,999 [LEXI] I don't trust Vanessa. 1175 00:53:31,082 --> 00:53:33,251 Rae knows that. It's not just a jealousy thing. 1176 00:53:33,335 --> 00:53:35,170 I don't think she's here for the right reasons. 1177 00:53:35,253 --> 00:53:37,005 I love the hell out of Rae. 1178 00:53:37,088 --> 00:53:38,460 When I think about her sleeping in bed 1179 00:53:38,461 --> 00:53:41,343 with someone who really is only here 1180 00:53:41,426 --> 00:53:42,928 because she wants to be famous, 1181 00:53:43,011 --> 00:53:44,888 my gut check is to protect her. 1182 00:53:44,971 --> 00:53:48,225 But I can't really say, "Rae, don't choose Vanessa." 1183 00:53:48,308 --> 00:53:51,728 And if they choose each other, it's fucking terrifying. 1184 00:53:55,857 --> 00:53:56,857 [RAE] So, 1185 00:53:57,359 --> 00:53:58,985 I am ready to make my choice. 1186 00:53:59,569 --> 00:54:01,154 ♪ Hold your breath ♪ 1187 00:54:01,238 --> 00:54:03,281 ["HOLD YOUR BREATH" BY ASTYRIA PLAYING] 1188 00:54:03,365 --> 00:54:04,991 ♪ Hold your breath ♪ 1189 00:54:06,034 --> 00:54:09,579 ♪ We're not turning back ♪ 1190 00:54:09,663 --> 00:54:12,165 [DRAMATIC, OVERWHELMING MUSIC PLAYING] 1191 00:54:14,876 --> 00:54:16,962 ♪ Hold your breath ♪ 1192 00:54:18,546 --> 00:54:20,674 ♪ Hold your breath ♪ 1193 00:54:21,466 --> 00:54:23,343 Okay, Rae. Who do you choose? 1194 00:54:25,136 --> 00:54:28,056 ♪ We're not turning back ♪ 1195 00:54:28,999 --> 00:54:30,016 [DANCE-POP PLAYING] 1196 00:54:30,016 --> 00:54:33,019 ♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪ 1197 00:54:33,103 --> 00:54:35,188 ♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪ 1198 00:54:35,272 --> 00:54:38,692 ♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪ 1199 00:54:38,775 --> 00:54:41,695 ♪ I'm breaking all the rules ♪ 1200 00:54:41,778 --> 00:54:43,780 ♪ I'm playing it so cool ♪ 1201 00:54:43,863 --> 00:54:47,575 ♪ I'm playing it so cool, baby ♪ 1202 00:54:48,076 --> 00:54:50,370 ♪ 'Cause I'm never gonna ever stop ♪ 1203 00:54:50,453 --> 00:54:52,956 ♪ I'm always gonna shake it up ♪ 1204 00:54:53,039 --> 00:54:55,959 ♪ Always gonna shake it up ♪ 1205 00:54:56,042 --> 00:54:58,211 [SONG TRAILS OFF] 1206 00:54:58,212 --> 00:55:03,212 - Synced and corrected by chamallow - - www.MY-SUBS.com - 95410

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