All language subtitles for Lost You Forever EP36.en

=Lost You Forever S1=

=Episode 36=

Xuan.

You are drafting the restoration plan
for Daming Palace?

Grandfather hasn't issued
the imperial order,

but Daming Palace

still collapsed under my watch.

I need to do what I should.

I heard that Yue Liang
has checked the accounts

over and over again,

yet, he found no discrepancies.

We should thank Jing for that.

He personally sorted out the accounts.

If Yue Liang wants to find out

a mistake made by Chief Tushan,

it won't be easy.

Even if there's no evidence
of embezzlement,

Yue Liang

probably won't let it go easily.

I have never cut corners,

so naturally, I'm not afraid
that he'll find out

the evidence of my embezzlement.

But I worry he would follow the clues

and find out other things.

Xuan,

I need to make a trip to Qingqiu Hill.

If it's for Tushan Jing,

then go.

If it's for my sake,

asking for help from the Tushan family,

then forget it.

What are you saying?

I promised Jing

to treat his grandmother's illness.

Recently, I've been reading
various medical books,

and learning about folk cures.

Finally, I found a method that may work.

It's my fault.

If it weren't for me,

Grand Madam might have agreed

to your marriage with Tushan Jing.

But because of me,

in such a situation now,

I'm afraid Grand Madam

will object even more.

I agreed to help treat
Grand Madam's disease

only because
I happened to be able to do it.

I didn't think about pleasing her,

nor did I hope that she could agree to

let me be with Jing because of this.

Tushan Jing seems

very eager to be with you,

yet he has not taken
any concrete actions.

It's not easy

to make Fangfeng Yiying

cancel the engagement willingly.

But to force her to have no choice
but to break off the engagement

is not difficult.

I understand what you mean.

As long as we disregard her life,

there are ways to force her family
to cancel the engagement,

even if it means
killing Fangfeng Yiying.

Then the engagement
would naturally be dissolved.

But what I want

is someone who can be with me for life.

Only a person with a kind nature

would possibly be kind to me.

Even if in the future,

I become less good,

he can still tolerate and understand me.

Some people may be

ruthless and decisive,

but only towards outsiders.

I don't buy it.

A ruthless person

would make an exception for me?

I'm not that narcissistic,

nor do I have such strong confidence.

Why would they?

Of course,

except for you.

You are the best to me.

Xuan.

Alright.

Go ahead.

Come back early.

Then I'll be going.

Jing.

- Xiaoyao...
- There's something...

You go first.

The relationship between your Family
and the Central Plains' clans

has always been close.

Could you speak
something nice about Cang Xuan

in front of them?

I stayed in Zhiyi

just to find ways
to help Cang Xuan turn things around.

The attitude of my uncle, Chief Shen,

has softened.

For the other clans,

it's hard to change their minds
in a short time.

But I will work harder.

It's okay.

Being able to change
the Shen Family's attitude

is already good.

Thank you, Jing.

Xiaoyao,

I...

I didn't expect

that you had done

so much for me in the dark.

Jing,

you are really nice.

Actually,

I'm not as nice as you think.

If you're not nice,

then there are no nice people
in the world.

Xiaoyao,

- I...
- Princess,

the medicine box is ready.

Then let's set off to Qingqiu Hill.

Okay.

I've heard that
there's nothing wrong with the accounts,

and there is already someone

defending Cang Xuan
in front of His Majesty at the court.

It's Yinglong,

that stubborn old man.

I'll settle scores with him

after I take down Cang Xuan.

Your Highness,

Fan Zhang seeks an audience,

saying he has a secret about Cang Xuan

and wants to report it
to Your Highness alone.

A secret?

That's worth hearing.

Everything you've said

is true?

Absolutely true.

There's no falsehood.

If Your Highness doesn't believe me,

you could send someone to check with me.

No need to send anyone.

I'll go myself.

I made it.

This longevity poisonous bug

can't cure your illness,

but it can extend your life
by two to three years.

Grandma,

how do you feel?

Much better.

Much better.

Thank you, Princess.

Grand Madam, you're welcome.

Miss.

Miss, what's wrong with you?

What's wrong?

I'm fine.

Maybe I didn't
get a good rest last night.

I'm a little dizzy.

Miss.

Princess, could you take a look?

Princess,

how is

my health?

Miss Fangfeng,

you're pregnant.

Grandma,

it's not Jing's fault.

It's all because of me.

Please don't blame Jing.

Grandma.

You're having Jing's baby.

You are a great benefactor
to our Tushan family.

What's wrong with that?

I can die without regret.

I can die without regret then.

Grandma.

(I'll believe you)

(as long as you shake your head.)

(Tushan Jing,)

(deny it.)

Princess, I won't fight for anything.

I can't fight either.

I just hope I could
deliver the child safely.

I beg for your mercy, Your Highness.

Why do you beg me

when you give birth to a child?

What are you talking about?

Grandma.

The child you have

is the legitimate eldest grandson
of our Tushan family.

Of course, you must deliver it.

Princess,

can my child

be born safely?

Your pulse is stable,

free from illness and pain.

Pay attention in daily life.

Both you and the child
will naturally be safe.

Thank you, Princess.

Congratulations, Grand Madam.

Congratulations, Grandma.

Same to you.

Jing.

Come back.

Xiaoyao,

I...

Go ahead.

I'm listening.

One night more than three months ago

Fangfeng Yiying tried to commit suicide.

Grandma asked me to guard her.

Jing.

I just want to be your wife.

If I am still wrong,

then you just kill me.

You must be inflicted by

a drug that makes you confused

and stimulates your lust.

But you've been
studying medicine with me

for so many years.

How could you easily

fall for Fangfeng Yiying's drug?

It was Grandma who gave me the drug.

I am done.

Grandma, you shall go back and rest.

Leave the rest to me.

When Miss Fangfeng wakes up,

I'll give her the soup.

Okay.

So it was Grand Madam.

Xiaoyao,

I'm sorry.

I don't hate you.

But between you and me,

the relationship ends here.

From now on, we are strangers.

♪I pray for having you♪

♪For forever accompanying you♪

♪I brewed eternal yearning in wines♪

♪Walking in the mortal with you♪

♪I offered up my prayers in the next life♪

♪For our permanent love to continue♪

Take care.

♪Let momentary sorrow and joy fly♪

♪I'll hold you till the end of the world♪

♪That's our destiny♪

♪I almost forgot about
the first time I met you♪

♪The destiny brought us together♪

♪We drank and sang under the moon♪

♪Under a crescent moon,
I felt empty and emotional♪

♪Afraid I would lost you forever
with mixed feelings♪

♪Hope your eyes remain pure and warm
and our country splendid♪

♪I prefer mortal life,
enjoying abundant blossoms♪

Xiaoyao.

You're finally back.

Xuan has been busy these days.

I asked him if there was anything

I could help with,

but he always treated me like a child

and brushed me off.

Xiaoyao,

why don't you go ask Xuan?

Even if we can't help,

our father can.

Xiaoyao.

Xiaoyao,

please help me.

Can you go ask him?

Xiaoyao.

- Xiaoyao.
- Nian, let go of her.

Xiaoyao.

Xiaoyao.

Bring Yin over.

Xiaoyao,

don't scare me.

Help!

Xiaoyao.

Princess was overly heartbroken suddenly

but didn't vent

the emotions.

Instead she suppressed them
and injured her heart meridian.

The blood she just spat out
is from stagnation at the heart.

It's actually beneficial to spit it out.

During this period,

Princess must rest and keep calm.

She should not have
any extreme emotions.

I see.

I will take my leave.

Yes.

Xiaoyao,

what happened to you

that could make someone like you so sad?

Someone like me?

You make it sound like
I don't have a heart.

Now in this room,

only the three of us siblings are here.

If you can't laugh,

then don't force a smile for others.

It's not about smiling for others.

I just got used to it.

I can't cry.

Anyway, whether I'm laughing or crying,

I have to face each day.

I might as well face it with a smile.

I've already lost.

I can't

lose my dignity.

In front of me,

you could cry or smile

as you wish.

I'll be fine after some sleep.

You don't need to stay with me.

Leave.

Take away all these wild flowers.

Replace them with Poinciana flowers.

Yes.

From now on,

anything related to the Tushan Family

is not allowed in the Zijin Palace.

Yes.

In the future, once I see it,

I will throw it away immediately.

You still have a fever.

But Yin said
your constitution is unique,

so don't rush to take medicine.

The most important thing
is to keep calm.

Don't act rashly out of joy or anger.

Why are you staying with me?

Is there no maid

in the Zijin Palace?

How could I rest easy?

I'm fine.

What haven't I experienced
since I was a child?

Am I really going to
take drastic action

for a man?

Yeah, you're fine.

The one who's sick, feverish,
and vomiting blood isn't you.

It's someone else.

It's not as serious as you think.

It's not a big deal.

It'll be fine in a few days.

Many times,

I've told myself over and over

that it's not a big deal.

Mother's suicide

is not a big deal.

After all, everyone's mother

will die sooner or later.

Having to leave Zhaoyun Peak for Haoling

is not a big deal.

After all, every man must venture out

into the world after growing up.

I just did it a little earlier.

Uncles want to kill me

and it's not a big deal.

After all, every family
has malicious relatives.

Xuan,

don't be sad.

There are plenty of men in this world

who are better than Tushan Jing.

I'm not grieved because of him.

Have a good rest.

Didn't you say it too?

It'll be fine in a few days.

Once you're better,

I'll take you and Nian

to travel down the mountain.

Xuan,

don't leave me.

I won't leave you.

I will always stay with you.

Your Highness,

the congratulatory gift
has been sent to Qingqiu.

For the wedding of Chief Tushan,

it may be not good for you
not to attend in person.

At this critical juncture,

you need the support
of the Central Plains' clans.

You shouldn't alienate
the Tushan Family.

Good point.

I know I should go.

But Tushan Jing hurt Xiaoyao.

No matter how much I need his help,

I can't bring myself to be nice to him.

Your Highness,

you shouldn't be so irrational.

I'm being very rational.

They bullied Xiaoyao like that.

If I were irrational,

I would have rushed
to Qingqiu Hill long ago,

and turned the wedding

into a funeral.

Your Highness.

As a man, why are you so garrulous?

His Highness won't go if he says so.

Leave now.

Why are you pushing me?

Good advice is harsh to the ear.

I'm doing it for His Highness.

Doesn't he understand
the principles you know?

His Highness knows them
better than anyone.

But he and Princess
only have each other.

People

always need to
have some guts to look human.

♪Looking back on my old days♪

♪I was unruffled
with no sorrow and soreness♪

♪In my chaotic life,
I failed to meet your gaze♪

♪Only emptiness remained♪

♪Enduring all things in my life♪

♪I valued all but indifferent
to wealth and fame♪

♪Basking in the sun,
I couldn't feel your sunlight♪

♪All I feel is a painful heat wave♪

♪All things are dim,
while only your eyes shine bright♪

♪I'll follow my heart
and go to chase the sun far away♪

♪Everything seems sad,
while only your brows raise in delight♪

For me?

Thanks.

♪I'm waiting for you
to enjoy the scenery at night♪

♪You came with wind and rain,
while left with my four seasons♪

♪Without you,
even the best scenery is dull♪

♪It began like a tornado,
and went away leaving only dust♪

♪Without you,
even the most beautiful world is a mess♪

- Your Highness.
- Your Highness.

Is this where Cang Xuan
hides his troops?

(Chenrong Mountain Cemetery )
Yes, this should be

where Cang Xuan hides his troops.

Are you sure?

Behind this is
the King of Chenrong's tomb.

If you're wrong,

it's hard to explain it
to the Central Plains.

There's no mistake.

If there were no secrets here,

why would they set up

such a hidden formation?

Great.

Call for experts in breaking formations

to break it.

Where are you going, Princess?

You're still sick.

This is the Tomb of King of Chenrong.

You think the Central Plains
has no manpower?

So, are you guilty?

Your Lordship and all the clan leaders,

I invited you here today

to make a witness.

Your Highness,

they're about to break the formation.

Everyone, just wait and watch the show.

Yue Liang, have them stop
breaking the formation.

If you knew this day would come,
why did you do it in the first place,

Cang Xuan?

Your Lordship.

Esteemed clan leaders.

Please follow me inside to take a look.

Your Highness,

aside from the altar,

there's nothing else here.

Impossible.

It's impossible.

(Memorial Tablet of Chenrong Yanzhuan)

Since Your Highness
has already discovered this,

I won't hide it anymore.

Yes,

this is where I secretly

worshipped my grandfather.

My grandfather, Chenrong Yanzhuan,

died in battle at Mount Xun,

but his body was lost
and he didn't even have a grave.

I was heartbroken,

so I secretly built this altar
in this royal tomb to worship him,

without telling anyone.

I will confess my guilt and
accept punishment from King of Xiyan.

(Chenrong Yi)
My son worshipped our ancestor privately.

He was wrong.

I will write to His Majesty
to confess our guilt.

However His Majesty
decides to deal with it,

I am willing to accept.

But, Your Highness,

shouldn't you also

give an explanation

for intruding into
King of Chenrong's tomb?

Right.

Your Highness must
give us an explanation.

If Your Highness can't explain,

we will have to petition

the King of Xiyan to make a judgment.

Right. Right.

Your Highness.

Your Highness, I...

It's all thanks to you.

I'm sorry.

I didn't know that was your strategy.

I almost ruined your plan.

If it wasn't my strategy,

could you shoot Yue Liang?

Do you know the consequences of
killing Prince of Xiyan?

Of course I know the consequences.

Right,

and you still dared to do it?

But I can't bear

the consequences of
losing you even more.

Xiaoyao,

you will never lose me.

I know.

You are already powerful now.

No matter what happens,

you can protect yourself now.

Your Highness.

Your Highness.

Yue Liang has written a suggestion,
saying that the Daming Palace collapsed

because you neglected your duties.

He asked to relieve you of your duties,

and appoint someone else to take over
Chenrong Mountain.

Yue Liang is quite smart.

He knows the Central Plains' clans
are dissatisfied with him,

but they are also dissatisfied with me.

He himself has no hope of
staying in the Central Plains,

but he also doesn't want me here.

Your Highness,

Yue Liang still has Xiyan Mountain

if he leaves the Central Plains.

But you have nothing else

apart from Chenrong Mountain.

Your Highness,

you must not return to Xiyan Town.

Otherwise, your life will be in danger.

Cang Xuan,

I came up with a good way for you

to stay in Central Plains successfully.

Look what's in the box.

These are notes left by
the former kings of Chenrong?

That's right.

The whole box of notes

was transcribed for you by Xinyue.

Are those something
Xinyue asked you to bring here

or did you secretly bring them yourself?

What do you mean
by "I secretly brought them"?

She was thin-skinned

and shy,

so I took the initiative
to bring them over for her.

These are the kings of Chenrong's notes.

Such a valuable gift

should be sent out at the right timing.

As long as you marry Xinyue,

for the Central Plains' clans,

you will be one of them.

Not only will they stop
nitpicking at you

for the collapse of the Daming Hall,

but also appeal to King of Xiyan
on your behalf.

Did you discuss this with Xinyue?

Do I need to?

Aren't her feelings for you

obvious?

It is not a trivial matter.

You should ask Xinyue's opinion first.

You don't need to say it.

At this time,

I won't marry Cang Xuan no matter what.

Why?

Don't you like Cang Xuan?

Back then, no amount of persuasion
could deter you.

Now, Cang Xuan

is in need of help.

Yes.

I do like him.

But

for people of our status,

does liking matter?

You know the situation

he is in now.

Let alone

the faint hope of
ascending to the throne of Xiyan,

he can't even stay
in the Central Plains.

By then,

he will be like a street dog,

with nothing.

What should I do?

Follow him

and become a street dog

with nothing?

As long as you are willing to help him,

he can stay in the Central Plains

and turn the tide.

Xinyue,

you can't just reap without sowing,

and not take any risks.

There is no such thing as a free lunch.

What is he to me?

What has he done for me?

Why should I take risks for him?

Anyway,

marry him themselves if they want.

I will definitely not do so.

Cang Xuan.

Fenglong,

I've carefully considered your proposal.

But now I can hardly protect myself,

so I'm not a good match for Xinyue.

Let's forget about

the marriage.

But I appreciate

your good intentions.

Cang Xuan,

about the marriage proposal,

I have another suggestion.

Pretty.

The lotus Princess conjured
is so pretty.

How can there be
only a flower but no leaves?

It would be better
to conjure a few more lotus leaves,

and some lotus pods.

That would be lively and interesting.

Why are you so hard to please?

Don't want to conjure them for me?

Alright then.

You can continue to play chess with me.

With your poor chess skills,

I'd rather conjure
lotus leaves and pods for you.

You are so annoying.

If it weren't for you
being Great Princess,

and having Father's favor,

you would be annoying wherever you go.

Yeah, yeah.

Unfortunately, there are no ifs.

I am the Great Princess of Haoling.

I am loved by Father.

Your Highness,

this is what General Yinglong

asked me to deliver to you.

(Your Highness,)

(I have heard about the rumors of)

(Princess Jiuyao's birth,)

(but I don't know about)

(the details.)

(However,)

(back then, Princess General)

(did have mutual affections
with Chi Chen.)

(Princess General)

(admitted in front of
all the generals and soldiers)

(that she fell for Chi Chen.)

What if I don't accept it?

Hold it back if you don't.

Let me check this lotus pod.

Why is this fake?

It's not edible.

Are you stupid?

Of course it's fake.

Great, you naughty girl.

You're the only one in the world

who dares to be so rude to me.

Give it back.

No.

Give it back.

Why?

This is what you just gave me.

Give it to me.

Come and get it.

Come and get it.

Can't reach it, huh?

(If one day,)

(the rumor becomes true)

(that Xiaoyao is Chi Chen's daughter,)

(then besides me,)

(I'm afraid no one else
in the world can protect her.)

(Xiaoyao,)

(you can't bear
the consequences of losing me.)

(Same for me.)

(As long as you live well)

(and happily,)

(the rest)

(doesn't matter.)

♪I offered up my prayers in this life♪

♪For forever accompanying you♪

♪I brewed eternal yearning in wines♪

♪Walking in the mortal with you♪

♪I offered up my prayers
in the next life♪

♪For our permanent love to continue♪

♪Let momentary sorrow and joy fly♪

♪Till the end of the world,
I'll hold you♪

♪The fate brought us to here♪

♪I almost forgot about
the first time I met you♪

♪The destiny brought us together♪

♪I would drink with you
in our limited life♪

♪Under a crescent moon,
I felt empty and emotional♪

♪Afraid I would lost you forever
with mixed feelings♪

♪Hope your eyes remain pure and warm
and our country splendid♪

♪I prefer mortal life,
enjoying abundant blossoms♪

♪Under a crescent moon,
I felt empty and emotional♪

♪Afraid I would lost you forever
with mixed feelings♪

♪Hope your eyes remain pure and warm
and our country splendid♪

♪I prefer mortal life,
enjoying abundant blossoms♪