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Lost You Forever S1

Episode 21

Alright, you may leave now.

I need to take a nap.

Your Majesty,

the Great Princess of Haoling has arrived in Xiyan Town.

After changing to a carriage, she should arrive soon.

It'll take her a long time to get here.

It's enough for me to take a nap.

Yes.

Back when we were at Zhaoyun Peak,

it was always Cang Xuan who accompanied me.

If he can't accompany me there,

I don't want to go anymore.

I don't want to stop him here,

but Father didn't summon him.

I can't go against his will

and do it without his permission.

If Grandfather blames us, I will bear the responsibility.

Fifth King and Seventh King, don't worry.

Can't I really have Cang Xuan's company?

Please forgive me.

Since I'm not welcome in Xiyan,

set off immediately and return to Haoling.

Princess, you can't be messing around.

Am I messing around?

How would a crazy person

travel thousands of miles to mess around here?

My mother died in battle for the people of Xiyan.

I traveled a long way to pay tribute to my mother.

I sincerely came to pay respects to my grandfather.

I just want the brother who I've known since childhood to accompany me,

and that makes me a troublemaker?

Your soldiers drew their weapons against me and stopped me entering the town.

I want to ask the people of the world

who's messing around, me or rude men from Xiyan?

As a princess, how could you yell out in public?

I just raised my voice a bit, and you couldn't tolerate it.

Then is it more intolerable

that you guys draw weapons against me?

Princess, you misunderstood.

No one dares to stop you from entering the city.

Please.

Brother.

(Zhaoyun Hall)

I remember this plaque

was written by my grandmother.

(Zhaoyun Hall)

Father, Mother,

Grandma and Auntie,

Xiaoyao and I are back.

Sorry for the wait.

- Mother. - Mother, Auntie.

Look, I picked these Poinciana flowers today.

Have a smell.

They smell so good.

Granny, the Poinciana flower I picked is so sweet.

Xiaoyao.

- Your grandson is back. - Your granddaughter is back.

Come on over.

You don't look like your mother,

but your face and mouth

really resemble those of your grandmother.

Exactly like hers when I met her.

I hadn't seen my grandmother when she was young,

but in my memory,

she was always old and withered.

Not like other women

who always use spirit power to maintain their youthful beauty.

Your grandmother was once as young as you.

Her beauty and talent were known throughout Dahuang.

Countless men

wanted to marry her.

You want to say she married the wrong man.

You're really smart.

Is that a compliment or a dig?

I thought you were so enthralled by the romance of Haoling

that you forgot how to come back.

I have kept you waiting so long.

What is your purpose of coming back?

Think about it before you speak.

I want to hear the truth.

I want the Xiyan Mountain.

And there's another reason

you might not believe.

I missed you.

Your two royal uncles and a few brothers all want the Xiyan Mountain.

If you want it, find your own way.

I won't help you.

Just like the road back to Zhaoyun Peak.

Only when you came to me would I see you.

Yes.

Don't blame me for being heartless.

If you don't earn it on your own,

even if it's given to you,

you won't be able to keep it.

I understand.

(Cui Hall)

Brother, Cang Xuan

got to Zhaoyun Peak just because of Xiaoyao's tantrum.

It made it too easy for him.

He would become more unrestrained.

So what?

His little tricks

are not worth mentioning.

Father is getting old after all.

Surely, he will feel some pity for his grandchildren.

Cang Xuan is getting close to Father.

We should worry about the worst-case scenario.

Leave.

What you said makes sense.

It's time to put an end

to this once and for all.

The sooner, the better.

This is where we lived when we were kids.

Mother.

Come and see the swing your aunt and I made for you.

- Try it. - Come on, Xiaoyao, get on.

- Be careful. - I'll push you.

- Is it fun? - Yes.

- Do you like it? - Yes.

The swing is gone.

At least this is still the same as before.

At least we are both here.

Junior Master.

- Brother. - Tushan Jing.

Didn't we always greet each other like this before?

Why did you dodge?

You said you forgot everything from the past.

I don't believe it at all.

I said it

just to compensate for what my mother owed you.

Compensation?

What can you compensate with?

Without you,

I would be the best.

But with you,

I am dispensable.

The biggest compensation you can give me

is to completely

and forever disappear.

Princess.

I don't know what Prince Cang Xuan was thinking.

He was up all night yesterday,

spending hours making a swing.

It's exactly the same as the one from our childhood.

Do you want to swing?

The person who pushed the swing is gone.

You didn't waste

the chess skills I taught you.

I don't dare to slack off for a day.

I've been ignoring you these years.

Have you ever hated me?

Suffering is not a pleasant experience,

but when I overcome it,

all of it will turn into my own strength.

For this game of chess,

you played well.

Thank you for your praise.

Grandfather,

after sitting for a long time, you should move around.

I'll accompany you for a walk.

That's a good idea.

His Majesty and Prince Cang Xuan have gone out for a walk.

They should be back soon.

You might as well go in and sit for a while.

Can I go in?

His Majesty has informed us the Zhaoyun Hall is your home.

You can move around here freely.

I had never seen my grandmother

wear such dazzling jewelry.

If you like it, take it.

Women wear these things for men.

If I wear it,

even if a man looks at me,

how do I know if he's looking at me

or these sparkling gems?

If I misunderstand him

and fall for him,

wouldn't it be a huge loss?

I never thought that my grandmother

would be willing to dress up like this.

It seems that my grandmother really loved you.

How can you talk about your elders like that?

I speak straightforwardly.

If you don't want to hear it, just ignore it.

After all, your ability to play dumb is top-notch.

So you're this kind of person,

being cold and indifferent,

and completely different from your mother and grandmother.

What's so good about being like them?

They ended up suffering while men reap the benefits.

I've suffered enough in my life.

I won't go looking for trouble from men.

You're in the royal family.

Thinking this way

is a good thing.

I'm tired.

You may leave.

- I'll leave. - I'll leave.

Isn't it just like the swing from our childhood?

Did you really come back for our grandfather?

Yes.

I thought you would resent him.

He is not only our grandfather

but also a king.

He has hurt many people,

including you and me.

But he didn't fail his people.

The older I get,

the more I understand his choices.

While he was hurting us,

he was hurting himself too.

Okay, I can't argue with you.

I'll never provoke him again in the future.

There's no need for that.

Say what you think.

I think he likes your frankness.

Our grandfather is not an ordinary man.

He can take your resentment.

Xuan,

to become the master of the Xiyan Mountain

do you have to be like our grandfather?

Being strong and cold.

I'm not qualified to answer it yet.

Because I'm not yet,

or I should say,

I don't even know if I can keep the Zhaoyun Hall.

Can I help you with something?

You know I've been using you, right?

You mean Tushan Jing?

Tushan Jing is not a fool.

The current situation is clearly in favor of my uncles.

Helping me has no benefits for the Tushan Family.

It was because of you that he helped me again and again.

So is Fenglong and Xinyue.

Because of your concern for me,

they considered you

when they scrutinized me.

But I feel like I've done nothing.

You've done enough.

I was able to return here

because you restored your identity as Princess of Haoling for me.

Your seeing me as the most important one

is the greatest help to me.

There's still too little I can do for you.

Xiaoyao.

I know you don't care about getting your hands dirty,

but I do.

You just need to stand by my side,

and that's enough.

Yiying,

you're getting better at managing things.

The accounts are well sorted out.

It's all thanks to you.

Grandmother.

Sit.

Thanks, Miss Fangfeng.

I need to have a private chat with grandmother.

Grandmother, I'll take my leave.

Yiying handles things gracefully and knows when to advance and retreat.

If you have her manage the family affairs,

I can really rest easy.

Get up. What do you have to say on your knees?

Please cancel my engagement with Miss Fangfeng.

What do you mean?

Grandma,

Miss Fangfeng and I had never met

and didn't know each other

when my mother arranged our engagement from her sickbed.

I know these years, she has been serving you

and has worked hard to manage the household.

But I have no feelings for her, and she has no interest in me.

Shut up.

It's true that you have no affection for her, but she has for you.

After you disappeared back then,

Yiying came to Qingqiu in a wedding dress.

She swore she'd be part of our family for life.

All these years, she's had no legitimate status,

but she's been managing our household for over a decade.

If you cancel the engagement, what about her reputation?

What about the Fangfeng Family's reputation?

If we break our promise,

what about our family's reputation?

Are you going to let our family bear the stigma

and be ridiculed by all the people in Dahuang because of you?

Grandmother.

I know I'm selfish.

I'll give up the position as family leader and bear the reproach

just to cancel the engagement.

You, you...

Grandmother!

Grand Madam.

Grandmother! Get a physician!

Hurry up!

Grandmother!

What is this?

I just killed a fish demon in the water.

This is its fish core.

Hou, could you give it to me?

Xinyue, I need this fish core.

I'll get you another one next time.

Alright, I got to go.

I'm going to get changed

and rinse off.

With Tushan Hou being around,

what do we need Tushan Jing for?

Miss, something terrible has happened!

What's all the shouting about? This is Qingqiu.

Miss, the junior master formally proposed

to cancel the engagement with you.

What?

Grand Madam did not agree and fainted from anger.

Tushan Jing, how dare he...

Miss,

I know you don't like the junior master,

but these days

you've been too cold to him.

So he can find me repugnant, but I can't find him the same?

Miss, that's Tushan Jing, the future leader of the Tushan Family.

If you really get your engagement canceled,

I'm afraid I'll be beaten to death first

by Lord and Madam.

Someone!

Master.

Did you touch the wine inside?

No, I didn't.

Lan Xiang, what about you?

Master, all these things are usually handled by Jing Ye.

I didn't even touch it.

Master, is there something wrong with the wine?

No, it's nothing.

I just wanted to tell you not to send the green plum wine to Prince Cang Xuan now.

The bottles with peach blossom paintings were specially designed by you.

There are nine in a set and 12 sets in total based on the four seasons.

We've only sent four sets so far.

How can we stop sending them when there are still eight sets left?

Things change with the seasons, and people change too.

You can leave now.

Yes.

You seem to love this green plum wine so much.

There are only a few bottles left.

I'll go tell His Highness later and get some more over.

This wine was given by a friend of His Highness

and he hasn't sent any more recently.

I'm afraid His Highness doesn't have much either.

Sending you the green plum wine

is not just out of selfishness.

If you receive my wine,

you'll know that I'm missing you.

You like this green plum wine so much.

You even keep staring at the empty bottle.

I just took a few sips of wine. Even you are nagging about it.

I'll make you some mulberry wine another day.

I can make sure it'll be more to your liking.

Okay.

I need to go to Xiyan Town. I'll take you with me, so you won't be idle.

Sure.

(Cabaret in Xiyan Town)

I didn't expect you to take me to such a place for relaxation.

Quite unique indeed.

Because I have a unique sister.

I thought you saw me as your brother.

That's fine too.

As a man, you are just a bit shorter than me.

Sir, would you like to listen to music or watch a dance?

Do you want it to be lively or quiet?

Please go upstairs, sir.

This way, please.

I'll wait for you here.

Okay.

Just enjoy the music and dance. I'll be back soon.

If you with the brilliant white colt

would brightly come to me.

(Jin Xuan) You should be a duke or a marquis.

Enjoying yourself without end.

Be on your guard against idly wandering.

Deal vigorously with your thoughts of retirement.

It's been a long time. I hope you're well.

Please forgive me, Your Highness.

Jin Xuan, please get up.

What crime have you committed?

Due to a lack of manpower in Bluebird Agency, we didn't report

the two assassination attempts on you by the Fangfeng Family in time.

That's my fault.

Please punish me, Your Highness.

A thousand years ago, my elder uncle established the Bluebird Agency.

He had spies all over Dahuang.

After he and Auntie sacrificed themselves, I wandered in foreign lands.

You've managed to keep the agency up until now,

which is a miracle.

Thanks to your information,

I managed to dodge my uncle's many attempts on my life.

Jin Xuan, this is not your fault.

Please stand up and talk.

Thank you for your forgiveness.

This is the latest information I've collected.

Please review it, Your Highness.

There's something

that I don't know if I should say.

Feel free to say it.

Rumor has it that the King of Xiyan is ill.

The power of the Fifth and Seventh Kings has grown stronger in recent years.

Many masters in Dahuang have either openly or secretly joined them.

Although you have guards protecting you,

you are no match for them.

Your Highness,

please do not leave Zhaoyun Peak.

Tonight, you'll have this beauty serve you.

You have a good figure.

Show your face, and I may let you serve me tonight.

How can you be so rude to a beauty?

This is a place for seeking pleasure, not a hunting ground.

Only with each other's consent can both enjoy themselves.

Besides,

this young lady,

like us,

is a guest here.

When it comes to cherishing beauty,

no one in Dahuang can compare with you.

Where are you going?

I...

What are you looking at?

It's time to go back.

Master, a message from Xiyan.

Xiyan is fraught with peril.

Xiaoyao may encounter danger.

Prepare a carriage. I'm going to Xiyan Town.

Yes, Master.

Wait.

Not Xiyan Town,

but Zhiyi.

Yes.

Master, hold on please.

I heard you're going to Zhiyi. I've prepared some snacks for you

to eat on the road.

No, thanks.

Miss burnt her hand when making them for you.

You're a blabbermouth.

Ill-mannered girl.

I was too clumsy. It's nothing, just a minor injury.

I'll postpone the wedding date.

Treat Yiying as a sister for now.

When the time is right,

we will negotiate the cancellation

of the engagement with her family in a civil manner.

This way, Yiying won't lose face

and become a laughingstock.

Thank you.

We have a special burn medicine.

You can ask the physician for a bottle.

Have you ever seen Xiang Liu's real face?

No, he always wears a mask when I see him.

He's been wanted in Xiyan for hundreds of years.

He's the only one on the list without a portrait.

Has no one seen his face in all these years?

Many people have seen his face,

but he's a nine-headed demon.

It is said that he has nine faces and 81 incarnations.

Those who have seen him contradict each other.

Once, a portrait of him was drawn,

and it looked exactly like my sixth uncle.

Was the Xiang Liu I saw just an illusion too?

But it's strange.

Since his illusion can even confuse rare weapons.

Why does he need to wear a mask?

After all, he can change his face at will.

Maybe he's like me,

just wanting to be his true self,

not interested in illusions.

Why did you suddenly mention him?

I just suddenly thought of it.

You're not Wen Xiaoliu from Qingshui Town anymore.

I know.

♫ Solve the riddle of fate ♫

♫ And watch parting souls ♫

♫ Destiny of love is going on ♫

♫ No one can escape ♫

♫ I stay away from the world ♫

♫ Looking inside my heart in silence ♫

♫ I will always be here for you ♫

♫ Loving you with all my heart ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ When will we meet again ♫

♫ Time will give us an answer ♫

♫ Start a journey and meet someone ♫

♫ I feel lovesick on rainy days ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ Spend the rest of my life with you ♫