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Lost You Forever S1

Episode 20

Fangfeng Yiying saw the wounds on your body,

so she was sick of you?

Yes.

Those are just some surface scars.

Just an image of you. You might misunderstand her.

Who can ignore the image?

If I were not Master Qingqiu,

without the wealth of the Tushan family,

without these glamorous clothes,

who would look at me?

Xiaoyao,

not everyone can be like you,

embracing me without disgust

when I was ragged and stinky.

In fact, at the beginning,

I didn't intend to save you.

Besides, when I was down and out,

I wasn't much better than you. How could I despise you?

Miss Fangfeng is different from me.

She has been pampered since she was a child.

She is pretty.

It's normal for her to be picky.

You're the best.

With this look?

Although I know you're lying,

I still love to hear it.

I didn't lie.

Have you heard the discussion about you in Dahuang?

What did they discuss about me?

They discussed how good you are.

I know I'm not good enough for you.

In this world,

there are many healthy, smart,

and handsome men.

Jing, look up.

Tushan Jing, look at me.

How can you despise yourself

because of Fangfeng Yiying's attitude toward you?

Even if others judge you by your appearance and wealth,

don't you know who you are?

I...

Last night,

a man forced me to kiss him.

But now,

I just want to kiss you.

No, Xiaoyao.

Why not kiss my lips?

It's not time yet.

I thought when men were alone with women, they couldn't wait to...

I'm not like that.

So...

When can we do it?

I...

I don't know.

Because it's up to you,

not me.

I want to kiss you.

But I also want your love

rather than your pity.

Xiaoyao.

Xiaoyao.

Xiaoyao.

I'm here.

Why are you in such a mess?

Did you see Tushan Jing?

I did.

When did you become so close that you could be alone with him all night?

You didn't know it's improper, but how about Tushan Jing?

Look at me.

You think I had a good time all night?

If it weren't for your good sister, I'd have gone back to home to sleep.

What has Nian done?

Your good sister made me soak in the sea all night.

Don't keep calling her my good sister.

In terms of closeness, she is your sister.

Since she's my sister,

it's reasonable for me to discipline her, right?

Even so, you should get changed first.

It's the proof. I need this momentum.

How could she not come back last night?

Has she died?

Great Princess, you can't go in.

Great Princess.

Princess.

Leave us alone.

I'll see what she's really up to.

Yes.

You made me like this.

Happy now?

Sort of.

You nuts.

I swear I will beat you to death today.

Did you poison me again?

I just temporarily disabled your spirit power.

Weren't you going to beat me?

Come on. Do it.

- Come on. - You stop.

Hit me?

Put it down!

How dare you!

- Come on! - Come on.

I'll beat you to death!

I'll beat you to death!

I'll kill you.

(Hanzhang Hall)

Princess.

Princess.

Princess.

Princess, are you alright?

Haoling Yi.

Other than using your identity and spirit power to bully others,

what else can you do?

Do you think you're better than me?

If your mother weren't Princess General,

Xuan would care about you?

Without Xiyan Kingdom behind you,

do you think so many people would attend your celebration?

Actually, you're even worse than me.

You are just resenting your mother's lowly status.

I didn't.

My mother is the best mother in the world. I won't let you speak ill of her.

You liar.

I know what you just meant. Can you deny it?

Do you dare to swear

that you've never thought that way?

You envy me having a mother who was noble Princess General.

But I wish my mother would be an ordinary person.

My mother was Princess General,

so she had to go to war for the sake of the country.

She promised me she would come back,

but all I got was news of her death.

I didn't believe she left me and never came back,

so I waited for her on Mount Jade

for 70 years.

To be honest,

if I could choose a mother,

I'd choose yours.

At least she can watch her daughter grow up and love her,

instead of letting her be bullied and displaced.

How about exchanging mothers?

No! Absolutely not! My mother is mine!

There are two options for you now.

Option one.

We become enemies.

You keep picking on me,

even teaming up with outsiders to deal with me.

As a result, you'll make our father sad,

and ultimately lose Cang Xuan.

I don't believe it.

In our father's eyes,

he will feel sad whether you or I are hurt.

In that case, your mother will feel the same way.

Regarding Cang Xuan,

he and I rely on each other.

If you hurt me, do you think he will forgive you?

Nonsense. I don't believe Xuan would side with you.

I believe you already know deep down who's more important in his heart.

Otherwise, why are you jealous of me?

Option two.

We live in peace. We don't irritate each other.

In this case, our father will be happy.

Cang Xuan will protect and love you.

Your mother can continue to live a peaceful life.

Isn't there a third option?

Actually, there is.

We get along well.

So, you will be loved by our father, Cang Xuan,

and me.

You wish.

I know it's a wish.

So, I didn't even mention it.

Do you want to continue fighting?

You just kicked me and punched me. I just slapped you, so we're square.

From now on, we live in peace.

Okay, we're square.

If Cang Xuan finds out about Xiang Liu, he will never forgive you.

I won't tell him about this.

You should also keep your mouth shut.

(Hanzhang Hall)

Princess.

Once out of this room,

I will purposefully avoid you.

And I can't talk to you.

I really don't want to go out.

Didn't you have an appointment with Xinyue?

We can find a chance

to hang out again.

What is this?

Just a handkerchief.

It must be prepared by a maid.

A maid gave you a handkerchief for lovers?

Who is it?

Just a maid at home.

It's just an act. Don't take it seriously.

Tushan Hou, how could you do this to me?

It's just an act.

Come on.

Don't touch me.

Miss,

junior master went out with his friends.

If you want, I can take a message for you.

I will leave early tomorrow morning.

I don't know when we'll meet again.

No, thank you.

(Yingzhou)

How come you invited him too?

Jing asked me not to neglect his elder brother.

Jing hasn't given up reconciling

with his brother.

You'll know it.

Miss, take a look. You can buy anything you like.

How much is this makeup box?

I'll take this makeup box.

I came first. And I asked the price first.

If I didn't say I didn't want it, it shouldn't be sold to others.

I'll pay twice what she just offered.

Well...

This makeup box is good, but the coral isn't.

If you like this kind of thing,

I will have the craftsmen make a set for you with the Guixu Coral.

Wrap it up for me.

I'm not one of those women who have never seen nice things.

I don't care for such trinkets.

I just thought it was novel and wanted to reward my maids.

If you like it, just take it.

Good.

Xiaoyao.

Xiaoyao.

Why are you shopping?

I was really bored, so I'm hanging around.

I should have invited you to come with us.

You have quite a lot of female friends.

You can bump into one on the street.

You guys wanted to meet my sister last night, right?

She is my sister.

I am Chishui Fenglong. Greetings, Your Highness.

Chenrong Xinyue. Greetings, Your Highness.

Fangfeng Yiying. Greetings, Your Highness.

I am Tushan Hou.

I am Tushan Jing.

All of you are Cang Xuan's friends.

No need of that.

I'm really sorry.

I'm leaving tomorrow,

so I saw a unique gift and was eager to get it.

Please forgive me for being rude.

Please accept this makeup box, as a memento of our meeting.

Thank you.

We have planned it with Cang Xuan, going out to see the sea on a ship.

Why not you join us?

Okay.

Your Highness, please sit here.

Your Highness, there are no outsiders.

You may take off your veil.

All of you are Xuan's friends. Please be casual.

Just call me Xiaoyao.

We just met, but we have to part tomorrow.

Let's consider it a farewell party for everyone.

Princess. Xiaoyao.

This liquor is strong. You should drink fruit wine instead.

It's okay. I used to drink strong alcohol, and I'm a bit of a drinker.

No need to take care of me.

Great, I rarely meet girls who can drink strong alcohol.

My brother has never been considerate to me.

Today, he seems like a different person.

Shut up.

Jing, you're the closest to my brother. Make a judgement.

Have you ever seen him as thoughtful as he is today?

Never seen it.

Mrs. Tushan. Help me shut his mouth up.

Don't call me that.

A cup of liquor is not enough.

Jing, please.

Jing, you were not like this before. Why are you so restrained today?

Jing, if you act like this, Yiying may feel embarrassed.

This won't do.

Sorry, I punish myself with three cups of liquor.

Good. Let's drink.

Let's catch fish.

Fenglong.

What happened?

What's wrong?

Fenglong got drunk and jumped in to catch fish.

I'll join Fenglong.

Hou.

My brother is from the Chishui Family. He grew up in the water.

Hou is also good at swimming. You don't need to worry.

I also want to jump down. Do you all want to join?

What's going on today? Is everyone drunk?

It doesn't often happen. Xinyue, I'll wait for you in the sea.

Jing, do you want to play in the water?

I'll go sober myself up. You guys go have fun.

How about you?

I can't swim.

I know. But I can teach you.

Well,

do you dare to give your life to me?

I really can't swim.

Even if there's no danger, I'm afraid I would disturb your fun.

Xinyue dragged Cang Xuan into the sea.

You didn't dare to approach me when everyone was here.

Now you dare to when everyone has left?

You're Princess of Haoling in front of them.

Now you're not.

What did you feel to be fed liquor? I want to try it too.

I didn't drink the liquor she fed me.

Anyway, will you feed me or not?

Yes.

Are you alright?

Perhaps I just drank too quickly.

I'm feeling a bit seasick.

I made this herbal sachet. Try it.

You didn't forget what I taught you.

I will never forget.

When we drank in the cabin,

did you feel upset?

Yes.

Seeing Fenglong taking care of you,

I feel very upset.

I feel good to see you like that.

If you feel good,

I'll be happy too.

I'm willing to care about you.

But I'm not willing to do it because of Fangfeng Yiying.

No matter how good something is,

if it's not worth it,

I will give it up.

Yiying.

Yiying.

I was wrong.

Please forgive me.

Yiying, do you

remember the Dragon Boat Festival that year?

We first met

on the water.

How could I forget?

That was my first time in Haoling.

I grew up in the North. I've never seen so much water before.

I was so excited.

I fell into the river when I focused on festivities.

At that time, you didn't know how to swim at all.

When you fell into the water,

you forgot to use your spirit power in panic.

Then you got more panicked.

You were entangled by a plant with a little spirit power.

You saved me.

Since then,

you've been the only one I love.

I thought you had forgotten.

The one who gave me the handkerchief

was an informant by Tushan Jing's side.

She's just a tool for me.

You were really just using her?

Of course.

After all these years,

don't you know I only have eyes

for you.

But I hate it when you're close with other women.

I know.

On the ship,

when I saw you being close and gentle

to Tushan Jing, I also felt sad.

Who wants to be close to him?

I was just trying to annoy you.

Yiying.

Just endure it for a while longer.

Only in this way can we be together forever.

How long do I have to endure?

Soon.

I don't like Fangfeng Yiying. And she's not into me either.

But just now, I saw it.

She absolutely has no feelings for me.

She did so because of my identity

and the benefits of marrying into the Tushan Family.

Since she doesn't want you,

you can come back to me as Ye Shiqi.

Did I say something stupid?

You didn't.

I'm very happy to hear that.

But,

we're not in Qingshui Town.

And you're no longer Wen Xiaoliu.

Yes.

I am now Princess of Haoling.

I can't decide many things alone.

I want to formally ask your father to give you to me.

Xiaoyao.

Give me a little more time,

so I can stand before you with dignity.

I also want to introduce you to my father.

Please keep your heart to me.

I realize you're a cunning man.

You sent me green plum wine.

Isn't it just a way to remind me of our promise.

I know you.

You said you wouldn't dare to dream of having me,

while you refuse to let me go.

I'm sorry.

I...

I have no choice.

I know you deserve better,

but I can't give up.

I understand.

You don't.

I don't understand,

but I have to say something to comfort you, right?

Sending you the green plum wine

is not just my selfishness.

I hope when you receive the wine,

you'll know that I'm missing you.

Xiaoyao.

Are you happy?

Yeah, you're a good swimming teacher.

Did you learn it?

I didn't.

Do you want me to teach you?

No, thanks.

- Why not? - Doggy paddle.

Yiying, where have you been?

I went underwater to see the corals. What about you?

I taught Cang Xuan how to swim.

Jing,

what have you been doing?

I...

I've been admiring the scenery on the deck.

The scenery must be quite special.

What is this?

I just killed a fish demon underwater. This is its fish core.

Hou, could you give it to me?

Xinyue, I need this fish core.

I'll get you another one next time.

Alright, I got to go.

I'm going to change and wash up.

Why are you laughing?

What kind of gem is that?

With the head of the Tushan Family here,

I dare not discuss gems.

That's a fish core in a fish demon.

It can be used to make jewelry, accessories,

tools and as a medicinal ingredient.

High-quality fish core can help with breathing.

It can make a person stay longer underwater.

Based on the different colors, it can be red,

purple, and yellow.

But most fish cores have mixed colors.

Hou got a fish core without a hint of impurity.

That's a rare one.

It can be considered the best fish core.

It's hard to get.

If you really want it, I can ask my grandfather for it.

No, I was just asking out of curiosity.

We are leaving early tomorrow.

I don't know when we will meet again after this separation.

Where there's a will,

there's a way.

Yes.

Where there's a will, there's a way.

Fenglong and the others are leaving early tomorrow.

I won't see them off.

Please say goodbye to them for me.

Are you tired?

Did you have fun with Tushan Jing?

I only chatted with him for a while.

Well, Miss Chenrong

was quite interested in you.

She looked serious.

If I were an ordinary member of the Dragon Squad,

Chenrong Xinyue

would be playing with me.

She looks serious

because I am Xiyan Cang Xuan.

How do you know she's not sincere to you?

I can tell after experiencing so much.

But I'm not in a position to judge her.

I don't refuse her just because

she is Chenrong Xinyue.

Do you feel bad?

If I can't offend enemies

nor get close to someone I like,

how will it not be distressing?

But this is the price I need to pay

to return to Xiyan Mountain.

It must be a bloody path returning to Xiyan Mountain.

Are you ready?

I must stand on Zhaoyun Peak

on my auntie's anniversary death next year.

It's been so many years.

I haven't been back to pay respects to my mother.

I haven't been back for a long time either.

I don't know what the graves

of my parents, auntie,

grandmother, and uncles

look like now.

Cang Xuan.

Let's

go home together.

Alright,

let's go home together.

(Xiyan, Shangyuan Palace)

I've been away for a century.

My mother's death day is coming.

The mountains are high, and the wind is fierce,

but people live in peace.

I have been through a hard journey.

I'm willing to cross mountains to return to Xiyan

to pay homage to my mother as her daughter.

Your Majesty.

You're getting old.

I should fulfill filial duty and take care of you for my mother.

Words can't express how I feel.

I beg Your Majesty to grant my wish.

Haoling Jiuyao.

So,

what do you think?

Your majesty,

Great Princess of Haoling is the daughter of Princess General.

It's reasonable for her to attend this anniversary death.

Princess General died in battle for the people of Xiyan.

She is the national heroine.

In my opinion, we shall treat Great Princess of Haoling

with national courtesy.

(Xiyan Yuyang)

Your Majesty,

Great Princess of Haoling comes to pay homage to her mother.

It's a family matter.

If we treat her with national courtesy...

If so,

how would it be?

(Xiyan Deyan)

Father,

Xiling Heng sacrificed herself for the Kingdom.

Great Princess of Haoling will return to pay homage to her mother.

It's not inappropriate to treat her with national courtesy.

In my view,

we should make it as grand as possible

without breaking the rules.

Do it this way.

Yes.

(Xiyan City)

Great Princess of Haoling really made a big fuss.

She made my father and uncle

(Xiyan Shiran) (Xiyan Yueliang) receive her in person.

For the sake of grandfather,

we give her this honor.

After grandfather abdicates, she cannot come back at will.

Shut up.

How dare you say something like that.

Go down and wait.

Pardon me.

They're getting more reckless.

They need to be disciplined.

They will look at the big picture.

They just made jokes.

Don't make a big deal out of it.

Xiaoyao comes back to pay homage to her mother.

It's not a big deal. No need to be too wary.

Xiaoyao can't cause any waves,

but Cang Xuan also returns with her.

Isn't that better?

Come on.

Let's go down

and welcome Great Princess of Haoling.

Great Princess, you must be tired from your journey.

Xiaoyao.

- Xiaoyao. - Long time no see.

Fifth King, Seventh King.

Kid, you're back.

It's a long journey.

Originally, we should receive the envoy at Shangyuan Palace.

But my father is old and has mobility issues.

He's tired of seeing people these years.

So,

he ordered your seventh uncle

to host a banquet to entertain them.

Father won't see them.

He will only see you at Zhaoyun Hall.

Then I'll trouble Fifth King to take me to see my grandfather.

Princess, please.

Cang Xuan doesn't come with us?

Father didn't summon him.

We've got a place for him. Don't worry, princess.

No worries. We will accompany him.

♫ Solve the riddle of fate ♫

♫ And watch parting souls ♫

♫ Destiny of love is going on ♫

♫ No one can escape ♫

♫ I stay away from the world ♫

♫ Looking inside my heart in silence ♫

♫ I will always be here for you ♫

♫ Loving you with all my heart ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ When will we meet again ♫

♫ Time will give us an answer ♫

♫ Start a journey and meet someone ♫

♫ I feel lovesick on rainy days ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ Spend the rest of my life with you ♫