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Lost You Forever S1

Episode 19

What a pity.

Such a good thing.

I should let the nine-headed demon taste it.

In this world, there is no more Wen Xiaoliu.

Even if we meet by chance in the future,

he will definitely not recognize me.

He's really free and unconstrained.

What did you look at?

Nothing. Father, why are you here?

I've heard you are studying medicine.

I remembered your mother left many medical books in the Zixin Hall.

I brought them especially for you. You may find them useful.

Thank you, Father.

Father.

Who is he?

A friend who is not close to me.

A mirror forged from the soul of ape

can peek into the past at the owner's will.

Does this friend deserve your eternal memory?

I just remember him for fun. Maybe it will be erased tomorrow.

I thought at this time

you'd be thinking about Tushan Jing.

Maybe he's enjoying the moonlight with his fiancee, being happy and carefree.

I'm not stupid. Why should I bother myself thinking about him?

I was worried that you would be upset by love.

It seems that I'm overthinking.

Yes, you are overthinking.

I've been a man for hundreds of years.

I don't have any romantic thoughts typical of girls.

It's better to act sooner rather than later.

Later, I will send someone to go to the Dragon Squad

to tell Xuan we have arrived.

Junior Master, Xuan from the Dragon Squad is here.

Good!

- Go invite him in. - Yes.

You came so quickly. You're a good friend.

I knew he would come to see us when he heard the news.

I have something to apologize for.

I'm not from the Dragon Squad of Haoling.

Xuan is just my pseudonym.

I come from Xiyan.

My real name is Xiyan Cang Xuan.

I didn't mean to conceal my identity.

It was just inconvenient to reveal my identity when I was passing through Zhiyi.

Judging from your behavior,

I felt your identity was suspicious before,

but I didn't expect you to be the Prince of Xiyan.

Please forgive me, Miss Chenrong.

Xinyue, it's a small matter. Don't be so petty.

I'm just too surprised. I haven't come back to my senses.

I didn't know your identity that day, and accidentally hurt you.

Please forgive me.

Oh, right.

I forgot to salute you too, Your Highness.

Please spare me.

Just call me Cang Xuan.

Your Majesty, this dress was carefully crafted

by the famous weavers in Dahuang I specially found.

Your Majesty, what do you think?

It is not good enough. Remake it.

Remake it?

Your Majesty, the celebration is coming soon.

I'm afraid there is not enough time to make another one

for such an important occasion.

So that's why

this matter was handed to you.

Yes, I will do my best.

Now all the people in Dahuang are discussing the Great Princess.

I'm curious too.

Cang Xuan,

what does the Great Princess look like?

You'll know when you see her tomorrow.

Just tell us.

Just because we're your friends,

we can know a bit earlier than others.

Which one is more beautiful, the Great Princess or Nian?

Gardenias and orchids

are both beautiful in their own way.

Can't be compared.

You're saying nothing with that.

You silly girl. Don't you understand?

At least, she must be a beauty.

You've been thinking about this move for a while.

Cang Xuan,

did you make a mistake?

You must have made a mistake.

No regret once the piece is placed. You can't take it back.

Jing, help me beat him soundly.

How could you play such a bad game too?

Did you two collude?

Didn't you go to see Chishui Fenglong?

Didn't it go well?

It went well.

As I expected,

they didn't mind at all after I confessed my identity

and quickly accepted me.

Since it went very well,

why were you upset when you came in just now?

What happened?

I met Tushan Jing.

So what?

Xiaoyao.

If... I mean,

if one day between me and Tushan Jing,

you could only choose one,

who would you choose?

Cang Xuan.

I've been a man for hundreds of years.

Neither my mindset nor my actions

are those of a little girl.

Today's intimacy between lovers

may turn into heartlessness tomorrow.

Love arrives passionately and fades fleetingly.

But the two of us share a blood relation,

and we're like sharing one life.

You mean

you'd choose me?

Whatever you want to do, just go ahead.

Since now I'm here with you,

I'll be with you till the end.

If the Tushan Family becomes your enemy,

they will be mine too.

What a pity. I really like this new dress.

Who did this?

If I find out, I won't let his clan escape.

Then you shall count my father.

Nian...

She is after our lives.

Your Highness, don't act innocent.

If it wasn't for your indulgence, Nian wouldn't make trouble till today.

The two of you are fighting, but now it's our heads on the line

due to your mess!

Ru Shou,

it's about time you stop the act.

You just want me to cooperate with you, right?

I'll comply with your proposal.

As for the solution, there is indeed one.

I wonder if you still remember the original dress.

Yes, I do.

His Majesty really dislikes that dress,

but now time is limited,

and we don't have time to discuss with His Majesty.

Now we can only make decisions on our own.

Just in case His Majesty wants to blame.

I'll bear it.

Isn't this exactly what you planned?

You're incredibly sharp. I truly admire you.

You're the one who can adapt to changes. I truly admire you.

The time has arrived. The ceremony begins.

I destroyed her dress. How could this...

Now I declare unto heaven and spirits.

Heaven and earth are silent yet trusty and bring forth creatures.

Receiving heaven's grace, I aim to follow the great undertaking.

Princess Jiuyao, with her grace, virtue, and gentleness,

once was separated in childhood, and now she has returned.

Father.

Now I respectfully offer sacrifices and solemnly announce.

- May they be enjoyed. - Father.

Complete.

May I see the Great Princess?

I can only convey the message.

Whether she sees you or not depends on herself.

I appreciate it.

Please tell her that

I'll be waiting outside the Dragon Bone Prison.

Dragon Bone Prison?

It is quite secluded, but it's not a place to meet a girl.

Thank you.

Don't mention it.

Father, I also wanted to smile gracefully,

but that dress was too tight.

It hurt my waist and I couldn't breathe,

so I couldn't continue smiling.

You've already done very well.

Rest well.

You don't have to go to the banquet at the Yiqing Garden.

I will handle it for you.

Thank you, Father.

But Father, why don't you ask me

why I wore the dress that you didn't like?

It must be Nian.

She wrecked the other dress, right?

I knew it.

You know everything Nian does.

If I had known this, I wouldn't have ignored it.

But I don't want her to think I'm biased.

So I can only indulge her a bit more than before.

And some things are between you sisters.

It's not appropriate for me or Cang Xuan to intervene.

You have to solve it yourselves.

I know. I will solve it.

I'm just planning to deal with Nian properly after she vents her frustration.

In my lifetime,

I have exchanged everything I have for what I want.

I have regrets for what I haven't done, but none for what I have.

The people I only worry about is the two of you.

If you two can truly accept

and look after each other,

then I will be at ease.

Don't worry, Father.

I may not do exactly what you hope,

but I will try my best.

Good.

Is it very painful?

Your father and brother have both abandoned you.

How come you're here?

What do you think?

All the people in Dahuang are discussing about the Great Princess of Haoling.

Surely I'm curious.

So I came over to join the fun.

It's her again. All of you only have her in your eyes.

Yes.

If it weren't for her,

you would still be the only princess of Haoling,

the only daughter of your father,

and the only sister of your brother.

But that woman suddenly came out of nowhere

and took away everything that was yours.

Your Highness, don't you want to get revenge?

Although I hate her for taking away everything that was mine,

I don't want her to die.

I just want everything to go back to the way it was.

I admit

I may want to kill the prince of Xiyan.

But I would never kill the princess of Haoling.

Our Chenrong Army

doesn't want to offend the King of Haoling.

Why don't we torture her a bit

but not take her life?

What do you think?

You are a kind girl indeed.

Your father and brother

should favor you more.

Thank you.

But why do you want to help me?

What do you want me to do for you?

You know the situation of our army.

If there's a chance in the future,

I hope that you can help me once too.

You don't even want me to swear.

Aren't you afraid I'll break my word?

I trust you.

Alright.

You help me give Great Princess a good lesson,

and I'll help you once later.

But

how can we give her a good lesson?

The fruits fed by a beauty are quite good.

Fortunately, you're not a man.

Otherwise, all the women would be deceived by you.

Good.

Are you tired today?

I'm okay, except that the dress was so tight that I couldn't breathe.

Shouldn't you be partying with them at the Yiqing Garden now?

What's wrong?

Tushan Jing wants to see you.

He said he'd wait outside Dragon Bone Prison.

I won't.

If you don't want to see him, I'll reject him for you.

Give me 20 years.

No, 15 years.

15 years later,

Ye Shiqi will be together with you.

Wait.

I'll go see him.

Okay.

(Mingse Hall)

Your Highness, how about this dress?

You will look slender with a waistband.

It looks so good on you.

Why don't you want to wear it?

- It's really beautiful. - Really beautiful.

It's too beautiful.

Alright, I'll listen to you this time.

Then I'll choose this dress.

I'm going for appearance over comfort.

♫ I failed to meet your gaze ♫

♫ Only emptiness remained ♫

♫ Enduring all things in my life ♫

♫ I valued all ♫

♫ But indifferent to wealth and fame ♫

♫ Basking in the sun ♫

♫ I couldn't feel your sunlight ♫

♫ Only heatwaves retained ♫

♫ All things are dim ♫

♫ While only your eyes shine bright ♫

♫ I'll follow my heart and go to chase the sun far away ♫

♫ Everything seems sad ♫

♫ While only your brows raise in delight ♫

♫ I'm waiting for you to enjoy the scenery at night ♫

♫ You came with wind and rain ♫

♫ While left with my four seasons ♫

♫ Without you, even the best scenery is dull ♫

♫ It began like a tornado ♫

♫ And went away leaving only dust ♫

♫ Without you ♫

♫ Even the most beautiful world ♫

♫ Is a mess ♫

What on earth do you want to do?

You're not thinking about pushing me down, are you?

You guessed it right.

Did you forget that I could swim?

You want to die?

How do you know I'm Wen Xiaoliu?

I was going to pretend I didn't know you.

The poisonous bug is still in my body.

Do you want to deny the oath you made?

You are very good at lying.

This is not a lie.

I was Wen Xiaoliu back then.

Princess of Haoling.

No wonder you insisted on saving Cang Xuan that day.

What else you said

were lies?

Why not come clean about them all today?

Relax.

I won't kill you.

I've told you

I only talk nonsense, not lies.

Everything I've told you before is true.

Xiang Liu, are you angry?

I have recently developed a lot of new poisons.

Would you like to try this?

This was specially prepared for you

after I read many medical books.

Specially prepared for me?

My goal is to poison you to death.

For this, I have consumed a lot of medicinal materials.

I disappoint you again.

I will continue to work hard.

Make more poisons for me in the future.

Okay.

But you have to promise me.

Don't get Nian involved anymore.

She's well protected by my father,

unable to resist schemes of the likes of you.

The likes of me?

What kind of person am I?

You know it well.

She hasn't considered you as her sister,

but you are already playing the role of a good sister.

In relationships between people,

someone has to take the first step.

The same goes for romantic relationships,

and for parent-child relationships.

The reason why I first

show kindness to Nian

is not because she is so good or worthy,

but because of my father and Cang Xuan.

Why are you always looking at me?

If you want to see good looks,

you're better off looking in a mirror.

When we were underwater,

why didn't you let me help you breathe even at the risk of dying?

I was dizzy at that time.

Who would remember?

Do you need me to help you recall?

I remember.

Because I was scared.

Scared?

Scared of what?

You.

I was scared of you.

Kissing me would be more terrifying than death?

My brother,

Cang Xuan, once chatted with me one night.

He laughed at me for being a girl who still daydreams.

Continue.

Although...

Although the possibility is very small,

I'm still scared

that I might accidentally

let you into my dreams.

You are in no way the type to be in a girl's dream.

This is probably more terrifying than death.

This is just a girl's nonsense.

I know you're generous. Please don't...

Where are you going, Xiang Liu?

You're not going to leave me here alone?

How do I get back?

Swim back.

I swim back from here? This is the deep sea.

There are monsters everywhere.

I have weak spirit power, so any monster can eat me.

I'm doing this for your good.

What if I'm too gentle and considerate to you

and accidentally enter your dream,

making your life worse than death?

Wouldn't that be a sin?

Xiang Liu,

Xiang Liu, Nine Lives.

Nine-headed Demon, don't leave.

Xiang Liu.

There is no Wen Xiaoliu in the world anymore.

Father, I will miss you. Come to pick us up soon.

Okay.

I will send someone to pick you up as soon as possible.

I promise

I'll be back soon.

I will bring you back

from Mount Jade as soon as possible.

Okay, I'll wait for you.

Every time I'm exhausted,

all that's left is memory.

And only me.

♫ Seaside moonlight shines on my clothes ♫

♫ Hair and clothing, white as snow ♫

I'm still scared

that I might accidentally let you into my dreams.

You are in no way the type to be in a girl's dream.

This is probably more terrifying than death.

♫ Carved in my bones and heart ♫

♫ Waiting for snow ♫

The love poisonous bug

not only wants your life but also your heart.

You have nine lives,

but you only have one heart.

Even so,

there would be endless trouble.

The couple couldn't live together.

They might also be killed by the poisonous bugs.

♫ In every corner of this earthly realm ♫

♫ It's longing. It's self-pity ♫

♫ The tones of tenderness ♫

♫ It's muteness. It's imprisonment ♫

♫ Scenes unfurl within myself ♫

♫ It's the way back. It's the way home ♫

♫ Life is like dancing in the snow ♫

♫ It's the end ♫

I've been waiting for you here all night.

I thought you weren't coming.

Since you thought so, why did you wait here?

Besides that,

I didn't know what else to do.

Aren't you going to ask me why I was late yesterday?

As long as you could come, nothing else matters.

Yesterday, on my way to see you,

I ran into Xiang Liu.

To keep my promise to you,

I swam in the sea all night.

I felt like I was about to drown,

and when I was almost suffocating,

I suddenly regretted it.

I was wondering

if a promise is more important than life.

But the moment I saw you,

I didn't regret it at all.

Xiaoyao.

I kept my promise to Ye Shiqi.

But you are not him.

You are Tushan Jing.

I would never marry Fangfeng Yiying,

and she would never marry me.

She's completely uninterested in me.

Your Highness, have some hangover soup.

It's been a long time since I saw you happy.

You drank so much wine and were unconscious.

Yes, I haven't been this happy.

Your Highness, the Great Princess went out last night

and hasn't returned till now.

She has probably had too much fun with her friend

and lost track of time.

Don't spread the word. I'll go bring her back.

I understand.

♫ Solve the riddle of fate ♫

♫ And watch parting souls ♫

♫ Destiny of love is going on ♫

♫ No one can escape ♫

♫ I stay away from the world ♫

♫ Looking inside my heart in silence ♫

♫ I will always be here for you ♫

♫ Loving you with all my heart ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ When will we meet again ♫

♫ Time will give us an answer ♫

♫ Start a journey and meet someone ♫

♫ I feel lovesick on rainy days ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ Spend the rest of my life with you ♫