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Lost You Forever S1

Episode 18

Why did you come back so early?

Because someone might need me.

Thank you for your concern.

But it's a rare opportunity

to meet the noblemen from the Central Plains.

If you don't seize it,

don't blame me if you regret it in the future.

Today's goal has been achieved.

It's bad to overdo it.

I heard that you went shopping today.

Did you enjoy it?

I suddenly want

to wear a beautiful dress.

Is it because of Tushan Jing?

It has nothing to do with him.

So, why?

I've been a man for so many years.

I almost forgot that I'm a girl.

Sometimes,

I want to wear a beautiful dress.

Isn't that simple?

Our grandmother controls the world's silkworms.

The most exquisite silk and clothing

in this world come from her disciples.

I will have them make beautiful dresses for you.

But,

I'm afraid to wear a beautiful dress.

I'm afraid I won't be used to it.

What is your concern?

I'm different from Nian and Xinyue.

I'm afraid I will disappoint you.

Because of that,

I will be disappointed.

Who are you referring to?

If it refers to me and Master, we will never be disappointed in you.

But if you mean someone else...

Xiaoyao, don't give yourself hope,

and there will be no disappointment.

I was expecting better ideas.

Stop overthinking. Have a rest.

We've spent too much time in Zhiyi.

After daybreak tomorrow, we will set off for Mount Jade.

Put the unhappy things behind you.

Okay.

Wen Xiaoliu can accompany Xuan to Mount Jade.

Why can't I go with him?

I got a letter from Master.

He asked me to take you back to Haoling.

Father has allowed me to go out with Xuan.

So why call me back suddenly?

Did you tell on me to my father?

How could I?

Cang Xuan will go to Mount Jade for business.

So, he won't have time to take you around.

I'm here for fun?

I'm here to help.

You are not helping.

What can you do here?

What are you mumbling about?

Nothing.

I'm praising you.

Jing. Fenglong made you drink a lot last night.

I'm worried you'll have a hangover, so I made you something for sobering up.

I didn't know you were changing. I'll get out of here.

Master. I was just away for a moment.

I didn't expect Miss Fangfeng would break in without permission.

- Don't let it happen. - Yes.

I noticed she didn't look well.

She saw the wounds on you.

I hope so.

The sooner she realizes I'm not the ideal husband as she imagined,

the sooner she can find a better man.

Miss. What happened?

Xuanzhou, if someone tormented you for years,

making you covered with wounds,

will you forget that?

Absolutely not.

If you survived and returned safely,

what would you do?

I would revenge myself on the person who harmed me.

Let him experience the pain I've suffered.

That's it.

Having suffered the torment and humiliation,

how could he possibly forget?

He must be back for revenge.

He's so troublesome.

He survived even when he was badly injured. Why did he come back?

Xuanzhou, pack up immediately. We'll hurry back to Qingqiu.

Aren't we leaving with junior master?

Tushan Jing doesn't want to travel with me.

And I'm sick of seeing him again.

Let's go our own way.

(Tushan Mansion)

Hou.

I miss you very much.

So do I.

With a perfect man like Tushan Jing by your side,

would you still remember Tushan Hou who is not as good as him in every way?

Hou,

don't you know my feelings for you?

Why are you saying such things to upset me?

No matter how others think of you two,

he isn't as good as you in any way.

I'm sorry.

I shouldn't say that. I'm just jealous of him.

That is because he can possess you.

Tushan Jing wanted to break off the engagement.

Since I don't like him, why not I agree?

Do you know the reason?

Who knows?

Has he fallen for another woman?

My younger brother is picky about women.

Ordinary women can't catch his eye.

He doesn't even like you. Who else could he like?

It makes me feel disgusted to look at his body.

Perhaps he's sensible of it.

So, he doesn't want to humiliate himself.

Exactly.

Tushan Jing is no longer the Master Qingqiu.

Hou, I don't want to marry him.

I also don't.

But bear with it.

I will take back everything that belongs to me,

including you.

Tushan Jing has complex thoughts.

He's being quiet.

He must be planning for a deadly blow.

You should be careful.

Don't worry.

Since I could destroy him once,

I can do it again.

(Mount Jade)

Hundreds of years have passed.

The scenery here is exactly the same as when I left.

It seems time has stopped at Mount Jade.

Plants are flourishing here,

and flowers always bloom.

It is the paradise that people dream of.

Mother,

where are you exactly?

Father,

Xuan,

when will you come to pick me up?

One day.

Two days.

23,581 days.

23,582 days.

If I could choose again,

I would still choose to escape from here.

I'd prefer to drift from place to place

rather than enjoy the deathlike tranquility.

The Queen Mother is waiting for you.

Greetings, Queen Mother.

(Queen Mother)

Master.

Get up.

As long as you stay in Mount Jade,

I can recover your mighty spirit power.

I only have less than 200 years to live.

If you want,

you can be the next Queen Mother, being in charge of Mount Jade.

Does she have to stay to recover her spirit power?

Yes.

I would rather be like I am now,

knowing what will happen tomorrow,

but not knowing about it next year.

It will be neither too exciting

nor too boring.

As you wish.

I can't remove the Rejuvenating Flower from your body,

but I can restore your look.

The Flower is a rare weapon of Mount Jade.

Why can't you remove it?

In this world, there are many things

I can't do.

So when can I restore my look?

Enter the water.

♫ I have suffered too much ♫

♫ I have nothing to panic about ♫

♫ Or cry about ♫

♫ In this world ♫

♫ Without you ♫

♫ My world becomes empty ♫

♫ After falling on hard times ♫

♫ I have nothing to fight for ♫

♫ Lose, or forget ♫

♫ Under the sun ♫

♫ Without you ♫

♫ All I feel is a painful heat wave ♫

Come here.

♫ All is dim ♫

♫ But your eyes are bright ♫

♫ Looking away into the warm distance ♫

♫ Everything is gloomy ♫

♫ But you're wearing a smile ♫

♫ I'm expecting to drink with you ♫

♫ You come on a rainy day ♫

♫ And take my heart away when leaving ♫

♫ All is bleak without you ♫

♫ You disappear ♫

♫ As quickly as you appear ♫

♫ Without you ♫

♫ No matter how beautiful the world is ♫

♫ I'm not interested ♫

♫ After falling on hard times ♫

♫ I have nothing to fight for ♫

♫ Lose, or forget ♫

♫ Under the sun ♫

♫ Without you ♫

♫ All I feel is a painful heat wave ♫

♫ All is dim ♫

♫ But your eyes are bright ♫

♫ Looking away into the warm distance ♫

♫ Everything is gloomy ♫

♫ But you're wearing a smile ♫

♫ I'm expecting to drink with you ♫

♫ You come on a rainy day ♫

♫ And take my heart away when leaving ♫

♫ All is bleak without you ♫

♫ You disappear ♫

♫ As quickly as you appear ♫

Am I very ugly?

No.

What's wrong?

Xuan?

Nothing.

Thank you for restoring my look.

Now the Rejuvenating Flower in your body

only has the effect of retaining beauty,

but has no power for changes.

If possible, its power could be restored.

I've had enough of transformation.

I don't care about that.

I was entrusted to take care of you.

I haven't fulfilled my responsibility,

but now you've grown up.

If you don't want to stay, take care of yourself.

I will, Master.

Let's go back to Wushen Mountain.

Okay.

(Haoling, Wushen Mountain)

Why are you hiding behind Cang Xuan?

You have always wanted to restore your look.

Now it happens. But you're afraid to see me?

I-I'm a bit nervous, I'm not ready yet.

So when will you be ready?

Very soon.

I remember when I was little, I looked quite like you.

But I don't know why.

Now I don't look like you, nor like my mother.

I don't hope you resemble your mother,

nor do I dream of you looking like me.

I just hope you are healthy.

Now you are healthy and beautiful.

I am happy about it.

All fathers in the world think their daughters are the most beautiful.

Father, what are you thinking about?

Nothing.

How time flies.

My little girl has grown up, and I am getting old.

Let me see.

You're still as young as before. You never change.

Am I right, Cang Xuan?

Yes, Xiaoyao is right.

Master is still young.

Why haven't father and Xuan come yet?

They have things to do. Be patient.

Your Majesty.

Father. Xuan.

Have a seat.

Father, who is she? Why can she sit here?

She is my eldest daughter Jiuyao.

Xiaoyao, curtsy to Consort Jing'an.

Greetings, Your Highness.

Nian, curtsy to your sister.

Why should I?

I don't have a sister. She is not my sister.

Are you really my father's daughter with another woman?

Nian,

Xiaoyao's mother is the person I admire most.

She was the disciple of Xiling Xie, the Queen of Xiyan.

She was also the bravest Princess General.

Master married her with the grandest ceremony.

She is one of the family.

You speak up for her.

What about me?

Master is like my father.

I practically watched you grow up.

You are also one of the family.

Who will you speak up for

between her and me?

Answer me.

Tell me what you will do?

I hope you and Xiaoyao get along well.

Don't be silly.

If I ask you

who you like better between your mother and me,

can you make a decision?

Nian.

Xiaoyao is Xiaoliu.

When we parted in Zhiyi,

you secretly told me

you thought Xiaoliu was not bad.

With your personality,

if you say so,

it means you think Xiaoliu is good.

You have a good sister to care for you with me.

Aren't you happy?

I don't want any sister.

Things happened suddenly.

Nian still needs time to accept it.

Guiwen.

Yes.

Send some food to princess.

Yes.

Father, do you still have the appetite?

Do you know how many things happen in a country every day?

If I could not eat because of such things,

I would have starved to death.

Princess, be careful not to hurt yourself.

You tell my father not to send the food anymore.

I won't eat.

Where is my father?

His Majesty is accompanying Great Princess.

Get out, all of you!

(Mingse Hall)

What else do you need?

You have prepared anything I need.

But this house is a bit small.

My place is close to Xuan's.

Father, I'm afraid of nothing but loneliness.

I want to be closer to Xuan.

Alright.

Father, this place is really nice.

I have wandered around for many years and have developed many habits.

I like to eat,

because delicious food is the most practical.

And I can sleep anywhere.

I know possessions are hard to carry,

so I don't have a material desire.

Xiaoyao, you are no longer a wanderer.

I know. I have come back to you.

But my old habits are not bad at all.

Moreover, habits formed in youth

are almost impossible to change.

The deity has a long life.

Nothing is impossible.

I will make you get used to everything that belongs to you.

You can replace old habits with new ones.

Alright.

Different people have their duties.

They do their own jobs in a ceremony.

When the bell rings,

the attendants help princess out of the curtain,

and step on the stairs.

Princess performs obeisance.

Princess, be sure to stand straight.

Raise your hands to forehead.

Make a bow, parallel with the ground.

Straighten up.

Kneel down.

Raise your hands to forehead.

Kowtow.

Palms on the ground, and forehead on palm.

Straighten up.

Princess, your hands are not in the right place.

Let's do it again.

Raise your hand to your forehead.

Kowtow. Palms on the ground, and forehead on palm.

Straighten up.

My knees really hurt.

Can you cast a magic spell on me

to prevent knee pain?

I've been kneeling for so long. It really hurts.

That's inappropriate.

Forget it.

Princess. You made a mistake.

I've practiced for two hours. I think it's enough.

The celebration is a national event. There can't be a single mistake.

I know. But let me rest for a while. Can I? I'm exhausted.

Princess. Please mind your manners.

There are no outsiders here.

Don't be afraid.

Sit. Let's take a break. You also take a break.

Sit, please.

Take a break.

Your Highness.

I heard father is inviting all the clans in Dahuang over

to announce you to the world.

Are you happy now?

Yes. I'm going to cry with happiness.

You horrible woman.

You've badgered my father, and you live next to Xuan.

You stick around.

- I'll hit you. - Princess.

His Majesty is busy with court affairs.

It's been a while he hasn't heard you play the zither.

So he ordered me to invite you over.

Did you get hurt, Great Princess?

I'm fine.

I hope you could forgive Second Princess

for the sake of His Majesty.

I've said I'm fine.

You go check on her right away.

You're magnanimous.

It's a blessing for Nian and His Majesty.

The pharmacy has been arranged according to your request.

What else do you need?

Good. Not bad.

I heard you asked for precious medicinal materials.

Are you going to study medicine again?

I'm not. I'm doing it for self-defense.

Why?

My spirit power is too weak.

Nian can even push me down easily.

I need to protect myself.

Medicine is the only thing I can be proud of.

I originally wanted to say you don't have to work so hard.

I'll protect you.

But I realize I have no confidence to say that.

Cang Xuan.

No matter when, I don't want to be your burden.

You protect yourself, and I protect myself.

That's the greatest protection for each other.

You've never been my burden.

Instead, I have always dragged you down.

What are you talking about?

That's not true.

We're in the same boat.

Since King of Haoling ascended to the throne,

he has been keeping a low profile.

But this time, he has sent out invitations

to all the clans in Dahuang,

inviting them

to come to Haoling Kingdom

(Luochang Clothing) |to attend the return celebration

of Great Princess of Haoling.

This shows the deep love King of Haoling has for Great Princess.

Great.

Great Princess has such a legendary experience,

drifting around for hundreds of years.

Maybe she's been to Qingshui Town

and ate the meat buns I made.

Well, she must not be interested in my small clinic.

Otherwise, I could brag about it.

Put up a sign saying princess was treated here when she was in trouble.

Since King of Haoling ascended to the throne,

he has been keeping a low profile.

But this time,

he has sent out invitations

to all the clans in Dahuang,

inviting them

to come to Haoling Kingdom

to attend the return celebration of Great Princess of Haoling.

So,

it shows the deep love

King of Haoling has for Great Princess.

I am just an abandoned person.

I can't protect myself.

I have nobody to rely on.

I have nowhere to go.

You can't protect yourself.

You have nobody to rely on

and nowhere to go.

All lies.

♫ Solve the riddle of fate ♫

♫ And watch parting souls ♫

♫ Destiny of love is going on ♫

♫ No one can escape ♫

♫ I stay away from the world ♫

♫ Looking inside my heart in silence ♫

♫ I will always be here for you ♫

♫ Loving you with all my heart ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ When will we meet again ♫

♫ Time will give us an answer ♫

♫ Start a journey and meet someone ♫

♫ I feel lovesick on rainy days ♫

♫ On every moonlight night ♫

♫ You're full of my memory ♫

♫ You look careless in a confident manner ♫

♫ Whenever I'm alone ♫

♫ I'll miss you and only think about you ♫

♫ I'm willing to spend the rest of my life with you ♫

♫ Spend the rest of my life with you ♫