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♪Once I was adrift on the boundless sea♪

♪I looked up but didn't see
the stars or the moon♪

♪No one cared who I was♪

♪Stuck in the long dark night
I stumbled around♪

♪Once I went through a lot♪

♪Beside me, you smiled♪

♪When we talked about dreams back to back♪

♪All the regrets became precious♪

♪So, however cold, dark♪

♪Or disappointing it is♪

♪However hard, difficult
or confused I feel♪

♪You're the answer and my eternal faith♪

♪I want my own light and fly up with you♪

♪Where you can hear the pounding of clouds♪

♪I want my own light
and even if the future is checkered♪

♪I'll always be there with you♪

♪Toward the light♪

[Be Your Own Light]

[Episode 28]

Stop running!

Or I'll call security.

Why did you lie to me?

If I don't,

you won't want to see me.

Chen Lishui,

even if I accept your gift,

eat your food,

and use your money,

I still won't be in love with you.

I wanted to give it a shot.

What if I won you over?

Never going to happen.

Why is that?

I'm seeing someone else.

Really?

I'm sorry. I had no idea.

Yeah, just take that stuff and go.

No. You should keep them.

They're all your favorite foods.

I won't bother you anymore.

But if you ever need help,

I'm just a phone call away.

Lishui!

I was lying.

I'm single.

Does that mean I shouldn't give up on you?

Dumbo.

Yuanyuan, you're back to work.

Mm-hmm.

Hey, Yuanyuan, you're back to work again.

Morning.

Yuanyuan.

Oh, Yuanyuan.

Good morning, guys.

How's everything?

Great.

Yuanyuan.

Hey, sunshine.

I assumed you got the notice?

Yeah.

Why else would I be back in the office?

Wonderful.

I'm glad to have you back.

I was not expecting this at all.

I would have thought

I would be suspended for months, at least.

It's only been a week.

Well,

you have Qiaoqiao to thank for that.

She resigned

on short notice.

Handed in her resignation in the morning

and never returned from lunch.

Why?

Don't know.

You should also thank Mr. Liu
from Lindu Home Furnishing.

Liu Lindu?

On the third day of your suspension,

he came to see Mr. Qiu.

He sang your praises

and said he'd be delighted
to see you back in the saddle.

Okay, well, that's unexpected.

As you're aware,

you've always been Mr. Qiu's favorite.

So he reached out to the editorial board

and demanded that you be reinstated.

With Qiaoqiao out of the picture,

it left Advertising Center openings
for a presenter and a marketing staff.

And since you've reflected
on your mistakes,

you're allowed to return to work today.

Okay.

I get it now.

Yuanyuan,

this is the news script for today.

Quick, familiarize yourself with it.

Okay.

All right,

you should go and get your makeup done.

You've got a long week ahead of you.

So why are you in such a hurry to leave?

I received an acceptance letter
from Central Saint Martins.

Doesn't the school start next year?

Yeah, I figure moving there before college

will help me settle into the new city.

Tian,

the key to the closet is on your desk.

What are those
makeup products doing on the desk?

I don't want them anymore.

But they're all unopened.

You can have them if you'd like.

Okay then.

I heard you're leaving us.

Yeah.

So, where are you going?

Just know I'm never coming back.

Ms. Zhao,

you've gotten rid of an office rival.

That should put your mind at ease.

Would you be willing to have a word?

On one condition. No physical contact.

Go ahead.

I'm sorry.

Did I hear that right?

Yeah.

I may have been a little
too impulsive the other day.

It was I who sent the screenshot
of the video to Zhou Jiaqi's father.

I also sent it to a friend of my uncle's.

You mean our boss?

Who filmed the video anyway?

It wasn't me.

And I didn't share it online.

I actually stumbled upon it.

Really?

Why would I lie to you

at a time like this?

Why quit now?

You were an outright winner.

I didn't exactly
plan on staying at this job forever.

I came because I was looking to have fun.

I had my fill of it

and figured it was time to walk away.

Yeah,

at the expense of me.

Are you referring to
your broken engagement with Zhou Jiaqi?

I have nothing to do with that.

You don't?

Oh,

you're really naïve, aren't you?

Before the video was leaked,

Zhou Jiaqi's father had already

set him up with the girl.

From what I hear,

her family

owns three listed companies or something.

Zhou Jiaqi's father even said

the pair would get married next Spring.

It wasn't me

who messed you up.

It was all in your head.

I should go.

Take care.

Bye.

How many episodes are you taping today?

Three.

Over the years,

many female news presenters

have left the company for various reasons.

Life, huh?

Who would've thought you'd be

the last one standing?

I sure am.

You won't quit out of the blue, will you?

No, I won't.

Whatever happens,

I'm sticking around.

What if

there's a better opportunity?

There is no better place to work.

[On air]

Coming in

five,

four,

three,

two,

one.

Hello,

and welcome to Estate Online.

I am your old friend Yuanyuan.

[Golden Trading]

[Golden Trading]

Are you ready yet?

Shake a leg. We're going to be late.

Are you still not ready?

I'm ready.

I'm coming.

Zimo,

have a safe trip to school.

Junhao,

you sure you don't want to
come and cheer for me?

I can't.

I'm busy today.

You care for nothing but making money.

I'll be rooting for you, okay?

Good luck.

Where's your red scarf?

I forgot.

Don't forget your water bottle.

By the way,

this is for Zimo.

There are water,

elbow braces,

and some snacks in the bag.

Thank you.

All right,

stay safe.

I'm going back inside.

Yes, Dad?

What happened to Mom?

Is the ambulance there yet?

I'm on my way to the hospital.

What's going on?

My mom won't stop vomiting.

She's now in a state of confusion.

Well, go.

But what about Zimo?

I'll look after him.

I thought you were tied up.

I can manage.

Go now.

All right, then.

Just go.

Okay, I'm going to go.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Call me if you need me.

Sure.

Where's my mom?

She left after receiving a call

about an urgent work thing.

Then who's coming with me
to my sports day?

What am I for,

huh?

But the teacher said

I could only attend

with my mom or dad.

Well, then, why don't you just

tell your teacher I'm your dad?

I look nothing like you.

Who says?

I actually think we kind of look alike.

But I'm much classier.

Classier?

Okay. Um, just say

I'm your stepdad.

How about that?

Fine.

Fine?

That sounds reluctant.

[You park, I pay]
Come on.

[You park, I pay]

[Inpatient Dept.]

It has metastasized to the brain.

To the brain?

How's that impossible?

You said the targeted therapy
was working well

at the previous follow-up visit.

How did the cancer
spread to the brain so fast?

It didn't happen overnight.

Over 20% of lung cancer patients

will have a brain met at diagnosis.

Lung cancer with brain mets

is often hard to

diagnose in the early stages.

So, um, how bad is it?

The tumor is large.

Midline shift in the brain.

The cerebral edema
has affected her temporal

and parietal lobes.

Which means...

Which means it's...

It's looking pretty bad.

Are there any treatment options?

There are.

But the life expectancy for

metastatic lung cancer is low.

Thank you, Doctor.

[Ward 15]

What's your opinion on this,

Huan?

Should we continue the treatment

or...?

All we can do is continue the treatment.

You're right.

But Dr. Tong said

continuing the therapy
would only intensify your mom's pain.

He also said

chemotherapy and radiation
are two of our options.

If none of these work,
we can still try traditional Chinese medicine.

Not forgetting biological therapy

and stem cell therapy.

There are so many ways
to treat the disease.

We can't just give up.

I'm torn.

Maybe we should

let your mom decide.

Mom.

-Mom.
-Huiquan.

Mom.

Where am I?

In the hospital.

What am I doing in a hospital?

I was just rehearsing.

Where are Chen Aili and the rest?

Mom,

your blood pressure spiked,

so we rushed you here.

Yeah.

Why would I have high blood pressure?

How are you feeling right now?

Better?

I feel fine.

Is my blood pressure reading bad?

Not really, no.

But you have to stay here for a few days.

Yeah.

But I can't.

The troupe has a show tomorrow.

I don't want to be absent.

I've already
called in sick on your behalf.

Don't worry.

That's right, Mom.

Just clear your mind

and stay here until you feel better.

All right, then.

Where did Kaige go?

He was here just a moment ago.

How could he have disappeared
just like that?

He's needed in the office
to attend some work thing.

He's working overtime again?

He ought to take care of his health.

The other day...

I got him some dietary supplements.

Has he started taking them?

Yes, he has.

He's always socializing for work.

Make sure he doesn't stop taking them.

All right, now, try to get some sleep,

-Mom.
-Yeah.

Hush.

Get some shut-eye.

Huan,

you saw it yourself.

Your mom's memories are messed up.

I want to take her home.

[Family Sports Day]
Come on!

Way to go!

You can do it!

Come on!

Keep going!

Woo-hoo!

Hang on.

Bravo!

We win.

Attaboy, Zimo.

Go claim your prize.

Congratulations, Ou Zimo.

Let me put the medal on.

Thank you.

You did well. Here's your certificate.

Thank you.

You came.

How's your mom?

She's slightly better.

Since there was still time,
I thought I'd pop in to check in on Zimo.

Are you okay?

Yeah, I'm okay.

Thank you.

But you don't seem fine.

What is it?

My mom's cancer has spread to the brain.

But I thought you said
the targeted therapy was working.

Typically, cancers
that respond to targeted therapies

may eventually
become resistant to the drugs.

Just a matter of time.

People who are lucky
may live a few more years.

My mom only has a few months left to live.

You know, after her diagnosis,

we have tried

every means possible.

Can't believe we lost the battle.

So you're saying

we don't win
unless we achieve immortality.

Then everyone in this world is a loser.

If you have tried your best

to put up a fight,

you're not a loser.

Don't you agree?

Here you go.

Come on.

So,

which team do you think will win?

This team, of course.

There are more of them and they're bigger.

I, too, think that we're going to lose.

Here.

Hold this.

That's rather intimidating.

Mm.

I've got to appear more confident.

Root for us, will you?

All right, give it our best shot!

We can do this!

We'll give it our best shot!

Let's do this!

Ready...

Come on! Pull harder!

Zimo.

Mom! How long have you been here?

For a while.

You must have seen how we lost the game.

I still think you did great.

But we lost.

You guys were outnumbered

and were playing against bigger players.

And despite that, you went all out.

You may lose the game,

but you've proven yourself brave.

Mm-hmm.

Oh,

your friends are calling you.

It's okay. We did our best.

Yeah, right.

You did a great job too.

Thank you.

Do you want some water?

Yes.

Let's take a little break over there.

Hand me my coat.

It's okay.

Zimo, honey, you were amazing today.

This one is for running.

This is for sandbag throwing.

Goodbye.

And this one is for, uh,

popping the balloons with Junhao.

-Wow, aren't you amazing?
-Hey,

how about you buy us some ice cream

to celebrate your accomplishments?

Sure thing.

Mom,

would you care for an ice cream?

Sure.

Here, pay with my phone.

I'll pay you back later.

Okay.

Hey, Zimo's dad,

see you again.

All right,

see you.

Yeah.

Okay.

Zimo's dad,

I'll see you around.

Since when are you Zimo's dad?

Actually,

I told them I was his stepdad.

Excuse me?

Since Ou Kaige wasn't around,

I figured I'd take on his role.

And you think
there's nothing wrong with that?

Have you been talking nonsense?

Of course not.

Students were required
to be accompanied by parents,

so I posed as Zimo's stepdad.

Bye.

Mom, here you go.

Thanks, kiddo.

Thank.

Go get yourself one.

Uh,

can I ask you something?

Do you still love Ou Kaige?

What does it matter to you?

Right, it doesn't concern me.

I'm just trying
to have a casual conversation.

So, if he came back,

what would you say to him?

Pay the money.

And sign the papers.

Let's go.

Your phone.

My phone?

You can hold it for me.

Come on, let's go.

Watch out.

Hey, hey, slow down.

So,

what did you eat for lunch today?

Your backpack.

Sit tight.

Sit tight, quick.
Quit fooling around. I...

Dad, let's go.

Come on.

All right, all right. Sit tight

and buckle up.

Don't get me wrong.

I'm buying you a meal

simply because Yuanyuan asked me to.

But I screwed it up.

That's because you're not good enough.

But I do admire your positivity.

Um, thank you...

for your acknowledgment.

Look at these lavish dishes.

So...

how long since the two of us

last ate together?

Thirteen years.

That's an awfully long time.

I still remember vividly

you telling me

you just got a bonus

and wanted to treat me to good food.

Turns out

you were using that as a cover
to get my client's phone number.

That's absolutely not true.

You got it wrong.

You were tipsy
when your client called you.

I didn't...

I didn't mean to answer the phone.

You didn't?

Jie,

I've known you for 17 years.

Then you should know

I'm an open book.

That was you using
every means possible to get a story.

You're one to talk.

You, too, went to absurd lengths
to avoid being scooped.

That's because you pushed me too far.

Take a chill pill, okay?

Let's drink.

Here's to you.

You know,

I wonder

what would happen to us

if we joined
the same company at that time.

I'm sure things will be better.

Or maybe it would already end in divorce.

Divorce?

You and me?

Yeah.

But we would
have to be married in the first place.

Mm-hmm.

Really, you and me?

Yeah, who else
would you be willing to marry?

You had a crush on me, remember?

No, I did not.

You followed me around
like a little puppy at school.

All students of our grade knew.

Why didn't I know about that?

I'm trying to save your face.

Anyway,

it was a pity

we didn't
get to work alongside each other.

But now

we have a golden opportunity

to compensate for what we lost.

What does that mean?

I formally invite you

to join JR Net. How about that?

And work under you?

Certainly not.

We work together as a team.

Fully-staffed, well-equipped.

With plenty of resources at your disposal,

you're bound to reach the next level

in your dream career.

Thank you.

I'm sorry, is that a yes or a no?

I'll have to think about it.

What's there to think about?

I'm unsure

if I will stay in the same industry.

Why's that?

I guess I want to know

what else I'm capable of.

Maybe I could live a different life.

Are you kidding?

Journalism is in your blood.

Can we not talk about this now?

Okay.

Yuanyuan, this is the re-edited script.

Look it over, yeah?

Sure.

What is this?

I don't know.

Who put it here?

Zhang Ke.

When?

Right before you came in.

Whoa.

A luxury handbag.

What a wild splurge.

I bet it cost a few months of his salary.

He's trying to impress you, huh?

Mind your own business.

Do your thing.

Zhang Ke.

Hey, Yuanyuan.

You'd better return this handbag.

I thought you liked it.

Don't worry.

It's authentic.
I bought it right from the flagship store.

Just keep it.

I'm going to leave it here.

I could not possibly accept this gift.

Why?

Yuanyuan,

I know

those flowers and wines

and bubbles.

They were too cheap.

Which is why I got you this handbag.

It was the most expensive one.

It's not about how much money you spend.

I don't love you.

You and me... it's not going to happen.

Not now, not ever.

Yuanyuan, I know I can make you happy.

I guess we don't have

the same definition of happiness.

You need me, don't you?

Zhang Ke, no.

I may not know what I want,

but I definitely know

what I don't.

Is it because I'm broke?

The Broadcasting Union
is organizing a singing competition.

You and Zhao Yuanyuan from
the advertising department

have been chosen to represent our company.

What?

Be honest with me.

Whom in the union did you pay off

to make such an arrangement?

What are you talking about?

About you and Zhao Yuanyuan.

Dongdong, it's not funny.

Wait, aren't you and she...

It may seem like a harmless joke.

But I would take

such a joke

as an insult to me.

Um, what about the notice?

I'm not going.

[Chen]
[What time do you get off work?]

[Chen]
[Meet me at 6:30 pm.]

[Class Reunion]
Ren Jie,

I've tested and calibrated
both the audio and the projector.

Wonderful. I greatly appreciate your help.

No problem.

You have the clicker, right?

Yeah, here it is.

Just use the buttons
to control the slides.

All right.

I'm off then.

Yeah.

Bye.

Ren Jie,

I snuck these trophies
out of the Hall of Fame.

Where should I put them?

You're a lifesaver.

Bai Yang won these trophies

alongside her peers
back in the day, right?

That's right.

All righty.

Ren Jie, she's here.

Okay.

Good luck.

Why are you in here all by yourself?

Where are Mr. Yi
and our former classmates?

Mr. Yi... he's away on vacation.

And I didn't invite our former classmates.

You didn't?

But isn't this a class reunion?

Yeah, you and I were class members.

We're going to reconnect.

What the hell?

I just enrolled in
a flower arrangement class today,

and I skipped it because of this reunion.

Flower arrangement?

You've got to be kidding me.

Hey, hey, don't go.

I have something to show you.

What?

Come over here.

-Let go.
-This won't take but a few minutes.

I said let go of me.

[My Dream]

I found your first published article

in the school magazine.

"My dream:

I've always wanted to be
a reporter since I was a kid.

When things happen,

I'll be there to gather information.

I will be there

wherever there might be news.

I'll always watch over
the lighthouse of journalism

and spread positivity throughout my life."

Still remember that?

I also made you a video.

It was done overnight.

Don't get choked up.

Look,

that's you with a big smile on your face

while hosting a school event.

[Student Television Station]
You were in the computer room.

[Student Television Station]
You stayed up a few nights in a row

[Student Television Station]
to finish a project.

And this one...

you were interviewing students
and taking photos on campus.

We can still remember everything.

Those were the good old days.

And this card,

I had a devil of a job

finding it.

A wishing card.

"My wish:

I want to be Oriana Fallaci of China."

Did you write that?

I was too young.

I dreamed too big.

I was unrealistic.

No, it was neither too big

nor unrealistic.

It was and still is your dream.

Bai Yang,

you've been working so hard to achieve it.

Listen to this.

Congratulations to Bai Yang

on winning first prize

in this year's newscasting competition.

[Certificate Congratulations to Bai Yang
on winning first prize]

[in this year's newscasting competition.]

And these...

your Golden Student Reporter,

and Golden Microphone.

And this one
is the most prestigious of all.

You led the other students

to the National University Student Contest

and won second prize in Journalism.

Have you forgotten all about that?

Then you left school and got a job.

You were voted
one of the top ten news presenters,

one of the top ten producers,
and an exemplary individual.

Are you absolutely sure

you want to give up everything now?

It's just not the same anymore.

I feel stuck in my career.

Stuck?

You were born to do this.

You got to do something to get unstuck.

Get motivated to work hard.

Reignite your passion for it.

Sure, you've encountered

a minor career setback, so?

Are you just going to let

the temporary defeat hold you back?

I don't feel defeated.

I feel lost.

You don't get it.

The hell I don't.

I'm probably the person

who understands you most.

Listen, Yang,

you can say no to everything

but not your dream.

I want to pursue something else.

What?

Floral design?

Art of tea?

You can't call those dreams.

This was where you identified
your dream career.

And it is still worth pursuing.

This conversation is over.

[Aim for the moon]

I'm going to keep my car.

I mean, it's just right

for a daily commute
to the construction site

and delivery.

[In the interview,]

[the man concerned was very vocal,]

[News in Progress]
[apparently completely unaware of]

[the harm done]

[by his degrading behavior.]

[He even used the word...]

What's wrong?

Nothing. The TV was a little loud.

So, you were saying...

Right, I'm going to save money

for the new year's lottery system.

Lottery system?
Are you looking to buy a house?

Yes, we'll need a place of our own

if we're getting married next year.

Are we, though?

I thought we were dating to marry, no?

But...

You know how the saying goes.

Dating with no commitment

isn't a responsible thing to do.

And I'm not that.

Neither am I.

Since we're ready for marriage,

we should buy a house.

But don't you worry.

I have enough money for a down payment.

We'll just need to add you
to the title deed.

Mm-hmm, go on.

I think a 900-square-foot two-bedroom apartment
would be a good home size.

Preferably one in the school district.

We could easily

drop off and pick up our kid.

So, do you want a boy or a girl?

This is so yummy.

Get a few more skewers into the pot.

There's a virtual meeting with associates

in Shanghai in half an hour.

All right, I'll let them know.

Mr. Liu, the cold medicines you requested.

Put them on my desk.

Jiangdu Television's
Zhao Yuanyuan is here.

In the VIP lounge.

When did she get here?

About an hour ago.

And you're just telling me this now?

You were in a meeting.

Next time Zhao Yuanyuan pays a visit,
you tell me the first chance you get.

Absolutely.

Cancel the virtual meeting.

All right.

Mr. Liu.

Sorry to keep you waiting.

Don't worry about it.

I only waited an hour this time.

Have a seat.

So, what can I do for you?

I actually came to express my gratitude.

For?

For sticking up for me
during my suspension,

or so I've heard.

It was for my program's sake.

Whatever the reason might be,

I appreciate

your kindness

in the circumstances.

I'm back in charge of

your company's program

starting tomorrow.

I assure you,

I will go the extra mile

to make and keep you happy.

Good.

Anyway, I've heard you're getting married.

Oh, Mr. Liu,

you've missed out on so much.

How much?

He and I already broke up.

Sorry.

That's okay.

So...

how are you holding up?

I'm doing well, really.

It isn't affecting my ability to work.

Anyway, I'd better let you go.

I'll see myself out.

How about you treat me to dinner

to show your appreciation?

I'd like to,

but would do me the honor?

Maybe not.

But since it's almost time for dinner...

Okay, what are you in the mood for?

Anything is fine with me.

We'll eat whatever you like.

Whatever I like?

Well, I like street food.

Sure,

street food it is.

I'll wait for you to get off work.

Give me two minutes.

Let's sit here.

Yeah, sure.

Actually,

there's this fabulous Japanese place

around the corner.

We could eat there instead.

No, this place is fine.

What would you like to eat?

Nothing too strong-flavored.

Excuse me, can I get four rabbit heads,

ten tendons, and ten paddywacks, please?

I'd also like ten garlic chives
and two pork brains.

-All right.
-Uh...

those aren't exactly light, are they?

Oh, I almost forgot.

And two beers, please.

Beers are light.

Okay.

Thank you.

Enjoy your drink.

Are there German beers here?

Oh, please.
This place doesn't even have a name.

Fat chance of them serving
the types of beer you like.

Okay, fine.

This glass...

it's clean, right?

You know, it's not too late
to go somewhere else.

Are you sure that
this is your favorite place to eat?

♪Like how the sun shines
through the dark clouds♪

♪Over the bottom of the city♪

♪How many random meetings
can burn into memories?♪

♪Or do they just pop out occasionally?♪

♪Why do we hesitate
when traveling together?♪

♪You're like the sun and also the rain♪

♪The story continues and stops♪

♪The ending glimmers too♪

♪Misunderstandings pull us apart♪

♪Dreams make us expect♪

♪If love can be requited♪

♪I'll forget who I was yesterday♪

♪Then could I make you♪

♪Feel the way I feel♪

♪The sympathy♪

♪Drifts through the tough life♪

♪It's lucky enough to meet each other♪

♪If happiness takes longer, that's fine♪

♪To love anyway♪