Original subtitles

♪There is a secret♪

♪Deep inside my heart♪

♪Hidden as naturally as I breathe♪

♪When I am lost, it lights up my path♪

♪It tells me that I am my own torch-bearer♪

♪It teaches me that sweats♪

♪Can replace my tears♪

♪The flame is burning, waiting for me to wake up♪

♪Don't give up, despite the darkness ahead♪

♪Raising my arms proudly♪

♪The torch in my hand, my courage is bursting♪

♪The fire will not die, regardless of the storm♪

♪Don't forget to seek the light and spark♪

♪Within yourself♪

[Ray of Light] [Adapted from Zhao Xiaying's original story]

[Episode 15]

Are Liu Kai

and Song Yuanyuan an item now?

Who?

Xiaohui.

Liu Kai.

Liu Kai?

The one who majors in industrial management.

Do you know what time it is? Why took you so long?

Take a seat.

I'm sorry for being late.

Don't apologize to me.

Apologize to them.

Everyone was waiting for you.

I'm really sorry.

I'm late.

It's no big deal.

Who is she, Xiaohui?

Introduce her to us.

She's my junior in my high school, Xia Fan.

High school?

What grade are you in?

Grade 12.

That's a busy year.

So you have time to hang out with Xiaohui here?

Exactly.

You must be important, Xiaohui.

You two aren't on the same batch.

How did you meet?

How did we meet?

Yes.

I can't remember.

Xia Fan, how did we meet?

Tell them.

Xiaohui can sing very well.

During a class rehearsal for the art festival...

Yes, I recall it now.

I see.

You came to me

and told me that you liked Jay Chou's songs.

She then asked for my number

and I gave it to her.

I listen to Jay Chou too.

You too?

I'll give you my phone number, then.

No one wants that.

Go away.

Not bad, Hui.

You must be Mr. Popular at school.

Not anymore.

Mr. Popular.

Which university are you applying?

Hong'an University?

No, my grade isn't good enough for it.

What?

Isn't Xiaohui here?

That's right.

You

should use him.

Right, Hui?

Just mind

your own business.

Find yourself a girlfriend.

I mean,

look at me.

I'm not as charming as Xiaohui.

How can I land myself a girlfriend?

You know what?

There are a lot of girls

in the student council.

I'll introduce some

to you.

For real?

The student council has a lot of girls?

Have I ever lied to you?

Let me show you the photos.

You even have photos?

Show them to me.

Wow, they are hot.

There are plenty of girls.

Not bad.

I should have joined the student council.

Geez.

It's your fault.

My fault?

All right.

Thanks.

Hui.

The four of us

count on you

to get laid.

Come.

Right.

A toast to Xiaohui.

Come, a toast to Xiaohui.

Cheers.

Bottoms up, Xiaohui.

Bottoms up.

See?

I have low alcohol tolerance.

Don't just eat. Drink with them.

Let me toast to everyone here.

No need.

You're too nice.

Come, to our friendship.

Come.

How sweet of her.

Come.

You're very quiet today.

You're

too meek.

Networking is important.

I'm telling you now. After you graduate,

your network

is your entry ticket.

Are you ignoring what I'm teaching you here

or do you think what I said

isn't important?

And you came so late today.

Sorry.

I know the girls in your university are better than me.

I will try harder.

Throwing a tantrum now?

I was merely giving you some advice.

What is this?

A present?

It's beautiful. Thank you, Xiaohui.

What does S here mean?

Song.

My surname.

Now, this top is unique and exclusively

for you.

But

it might not fit my size.

No way.

Others can wear it.

Why can't you?

Others?

Well, yes. I'm a guy.

To buy a girly thing,

I have to consult other girls.

But

this is the smallest size.

And it isn't stretchable.

You don't know how to dress up,

and you don't want to put on

what I bought you.

Forget it, then.

Sorry, I'm not saying that I don't like it.

I'll lose weight, okay, Xiaohui?

Don't be mad at me.

I know you're looking after me.

More than anyone else.

I'm glad that you know.

Also, no need to come to me this Friday.

I'm about to be the president of the student council

and my friends want to throw me a celebration party.

I have to be there.

You're a president now, Xiaohui?

How brilliant of you.

Can I be there?

I'll put on the dress you bought me.

No, it's just for the student council members.

I don't care. I will be there.

I want to celebrate it with you.

Enough joking.

We'll see when you can put on

that dress.

We can always hang out, then.

No need to rush it.

Be a good girl.

(Xiaohui gave me chocolates on my birthday.)

(It's so sweet.)

(It's my first time receiving such a thoughtful gift.)

(You brightened the day I turned)

(17.)

[Take Photos Seriously] (I met Xiaohui during the performance.)

(I was so shy.)

What?

Go to bed. It's late already.

Sleeping late is not good for your skin.

All right.

Sleep now.

Okay.

(Xiaohui.)

(I will work)

(very hard for you.)

[Become Pretty]

Why aren't you eating?

The food is delicious today.

I'm not hungry.

Are you sick?

You didn't sleep well last night?

Why do you ask?

You look a bit swollen.

Where?

Face.

Face?

It's rounder than before.

I have a round face?

Yes, a bit.

Am I ugly?

No, not at all.

I think it looks good on you.

A round,

chubby face is cute.

When I was sketching during the art period,

I loved drawing girls

that are chubbier.

Girls with a bony face

is so hard to draw.

I don't like them.

You...

It doesn't look good on me.

Xia Fan.

Why are you wasting food?

Surely you were taught the poem,

"Pity the Farmers", in kindergarten?

Did you know?

There are many children starving

in this world.

The food you threw away

could save their lives.

I'm sick today.

If so, you shouldn't have taken so much food.

What a waste.

Are you in pain?

Should I bring you to the infirmary?

No need, Mr. Hao.

Yiting, do you want to eat?

Sure. Let's go.

Wu Kai.

Do I look fat?

You have been asking that a lot lately.

I...

Xiaohui

has

is having a celebration party next Friday

because he's now the student council president.

I don't know if I should be there.

If you want to attend it, just go.

What does it have anything to do with your weight?

Well...

I look ugly if I'm fat.

But you're not fat.

And you're pretty.

Who vomited here? Ew!

Wu Kai, can you explain it to me?

I don't understand.

What are you doing?

Have you finished the paper?

Yes.

Get back to your seat.

Zhao Xiaoxiao.

Give them back their papers.

Look at your score.

How many times

have I explained this question to you?

And why do you always get it wrong?

Do you ever learn from your mistake?

I don't want to repeat myself again.

Go back

and go through the practice I gave out.

Figure out why you're not getting it right.

If you still don't understand, come and ask me in the office.

If I'm not there,

ask your classmates.

Don't touch me.

What are you up to?

Let me take a look.

It's just a plain mirror.

No gaokao, no good university,

no future.

Xia Fan, how many times have I said?

In Grade 12, you are racing against time.

You now hold the future in your hands.

Look at your paper.

Look at the score.

79. What is that?

Do you want to regret it forever? Keep the mirror away.

Look at your paper!

Mr. Hao.

You're humming. In a good mood?

Are you about to give me

a reason to stop humming?

Yes.

Go ahead.

Xia Fan in your class

didn't focus during the period

and just stared at the mirror all the time.

And don't even make me bring up her result.

I noticed that too.

She is beside herself lately,

and she stopped eating.

Why?

God knows. She's on a diet?

On a diet?

Is now the time for a diet?

The mid-term exam is around the corner.

If your class isn't ranked among the top three...

Mr. Hao, remember the promise?

Many students have made some progress.

I guess so.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

Xiaohui.

I keep thinking that I'm not good enough.

How can I be like you?

Be like me?

You need a role model.

And that role model can teach you

the shortcut to success.

And

I am your role model.

Can you put on the dress already?

I'm almost there.

It's quite challenging.

And you think I have it easy?

I worked with the council advisor till very late yesterday

and at eight or nine in the morning today,

my lecturer summoned me to prepare the pedagogy materials.

I am worn out

but I made the effort to see you.

Xiaohui.

You don't have to try that hard.

You are already very successful in my eyes.

Even if you aren't the student council president,

you are still perfect.

No.

I need that position.

Because it concerns my future.

I want a better future.

So I need to be a perfectionist.

You know that, don't you?

Shouldn't we

work harder together?

Xiaohui.

Will there be a lot of people

on Friday?

All student council members should be there.

My classmates will be there as well.

All right. It's time to go home.

I still have things to do later.

Excuse me.

Let me get it. I have some pocket money.

No way. I can't make a girl buy me a meal.

Why did you do that?

I told you that it's on me.

Don't do it again.

Okay.

Happy with your new look?

Yes.

I look dapper.

A suit and tie makes anyone look dapper.

I just need

a watch.

Buy one once you have the money.

And the suit and tie too.

Remember to repay me once you get your salary.

Nan, I just found a job.

Can't I have the suit and tie for free?

No.

I cannot spoil you.

Come on, Nan.

Just give them to me for free.

I can then tear this off.

Hold on.

I'll think about it.

You know her?

She's my student.

Buy me a water bottle.

Okay.

You ate all of these?

I...

I didn't have lunch.

So I'm hungry.

It's not healthy to binge eat.

Mr. Hao, I have to go back to do my homework.

Not bad.

You're the only class left

doing evening revision.

Good job.

[Grade 12 English Test, 102]

What happened?

Your grade fell.

You're still weak in filling in the blanks.

It's not like you'll score a lot here anyway.

I'll skip it.

The comprehension part.

Is this question very tough?

How many times have I explained it to you?

And you got three of them wrong in a row.

You lost points here for nothing.

Ms. Li.

I...

I knew how to answer it

but I...

Don't give me excuses.

Ren Zhen.

I'm actually worried about you.

I am not spending time on you

just to see your grade fall drastically.

What is your university of choice?

Huaqing Medical University.

Do you think you're good enough to get in?

Do you plan to redo Grade 12 again?

Even I feel secondhand embarrassment if you do that.

Reflect upon yourself.

[Huaqing Medical University]

You can't press on?

I flunked the subject too

but Ms. Li

didn't see my score.

Ah!

Ah.

I'm still stressed.

Are you crying?

Let me show you a place.

You'll decompress in no time.

Trust me.

Why did you bring me here?

Just come with me.

[Hong'an City Hospital]

Why did you bring me here? It's late.

Hey!

Whose office is this?

What are you doing?

What do you think?

Do you want to put it on?

Whose coat is it?

My dad's. Try it.

Why? I'm not doing it.

If you won't even put on a white coat,

how are you supposed to know what being a doctor is like?

I refuse.

Put it on.

Always bear it in mind, Ren.

You are a doctor.

Although you're just an intern,

this hospital

is

your home.

Get used to this place quickly. Understood?

Yes, Director Gao.

It's your first day

so I know you're nervous.

Ask if you have questions.

Yes, sir.

Director Gao,

patient from Ward 13 has palpitations.

What is your diagnosis?

Ren.

What did you learn in school?

Obviously,

the patient

just ran 1,000 meters during the PE exam.

I beg to differ.

The symptoms did not subside after prolonged administration of medications.

I think he has a panic attack due to the NCEE.

Hmm.

It's possible.

What is the solution, then?

We have to give him extra lunch.

Agreed.

Director Gao,

please refrain from calling me Ren.

It's impolite.

Noted, Ren.

This is the emergency department

that operates 24/7.

I heard the doctors here are overworked. Is it true?

Being a doctor is not an easy task.

You are never free.

But you save others. What a noble profession.

Let's go.

It's my dad's student!

How does it feel to be a doctor

for the first time?

Tiring.

That was scary.

Fortunately, we weren't noticed.

We ran very quickly.

Your dad won many awards.

You take after your father.

Ren Zhen.

Who said you could take a photo of me?

Give my phone back.

Well, I look good.

So

don't give up.

Be a doctor.

I'll take a picture of you too.

You look handsome.

Here.

You in a white coat.

Why are you here?

Where is your father?

I don't know.

Where is your father?

I don't know.

Go look for him elsewhere.

I wouldn't be here if I could find him.

The trial will begin soon.

My father put a lock on our grandma's house

but your father

pried it open.

Not only that, he took away

the ownership certificate and our grandma's urn.

Where is he?

I don't know.

I haven't seen him in a while, either.

You'll suffer

if I can't find him.

Ren Dawei, you're unreasonable.

Am I?

Your father

sued his own brother. Is that reasonable?

He only knows how to pull underhanded tricks.

He's no different from a thief.

Ren Dawei, this is my warning.

If you won't leave me alone now,

I'll call the police.

We haven't settled the score

when you trashed our restaurant.

[Star Collector sent you a friend request]

[Additional Info: Gao Yuan]

[Gao Yuan (Star Collector)] (Hi, Ren.)

(This is your colleague, Gao.)

(Dr. Ren.)

(The white coat looks good on you.)

(Don't give your dream up.)

(Yes, Dr. Gao.)

(You're so long-winded.)

(A small hiccup in English is nothing.)

(Just imagine)

(when you get to wear a white coat every day.)

(You'll overcome this obstacle in no time.)

(Mr. Hao is right.)

(Go to the best school or don't.)

(Dr. Ren.)

(Huaqing Medical University is waiting for you.)

(Go to bed early, Dr. Ren.)

(Let's work hard together tomorrow.)

[Zhen]

(Goodnight, sweet dreams.)

(Goodnight, sweet dreams.)

[Grade 12 English Test]

Yes, Xiaohui?

Are you at school?

No, I just woke up.

So

I'll be busy this Friday.

We can't hang out together.

Focus on your studies.

But I want to be there with you for the celebration.

We'll see.

We'll talk once I'm free.

Mom?

Mom?

Mom.

Are you all right?

Hello?

Xia Fan?

Are you all right?

I'm fine.

Here, Xia Fan.

Warm water will make you feel better.

Take a seat.

Can we talk?

Well,

I don't know what happened

but if you would tell me,

maybe I could help you.

Mr. Hao and I

care about you.

He has been waiting outside for a long time.

Don't worry.

We will keep it confidential.

Without your consent,

we won't tell anyone.

Really?

Yes.

I...

I think I'm very fat.

And ugly.

I want to cut down my weight.

And...

And...

And when I eat,

I feel guilty.

So you made yourself vomit. Is that right?

First of all,

you're not fat.

You're very pretty.

And secondly,

your body is growing.

You shouldn't lose weight now.

Someone doesn't feel that way.

Who is that person?

Someone important to you?

Okay.

Can I

share a secret

with you?

When I was in high school,

I also tried to lose weight to impress a guy.

At your age,

it's normal to have a crush.

But I can't even put on the dress

Xiaohui gave to me.

So Xiaohui is your crush?

I...

He's a stellar student at Hong'an University.

When I was in Grade 10,

he was in Grade 12.

He is

very popular.

And he recently became the president of the student council.

However,

he doesn't want me to attend the celebration party.

He gave me a dress.

It's beautiful.

I want to put it on and celebrate the good news with him.

However, I'm too fat.

It won't fit.

All right.

No, you're not fat at all.

Trust me.

Be more confident.

If you ever find yourself in a similar situation,

you listen to music or do some sports.

If need be, call me.

Okay.

All right. Go back to your classroom.

Thanks, Ms. Bai.

So?

She's

worried about her body image.

Girls nowadays

want to be skinny.

But they like to eat a lot

so they will make themselves throw up.

If they vomit what they ate,

they won't become fat.

Those who practice that

often overeat too.

Right.

I ran into her in a McDonald's once.

She ate a lot of things.

But I bet she puked all of them out later.

It will burn her stomach, won't it?

I don't think

Xia Fan's case is that serious.

She needs to adjust her mentality.

But if it gets worse, she needs to consult a therapist.

Why is she doing this?

What could possibly

convince her to put herself through the ordeal?

Because she wants to impress a guy.

(Eat. Eat.)

A toast to everyone.

Come.

Cheers. Let's do this more often.

Sure.

I love this dish.

Drink, drink.

Come.

Do you like the food?

Good?

Yes.

Come, Qiang.

Can I have your attention, please?

Attention.

Meng wants to say something.

Xiaohui organized this gathering.

Let's give him a chance

to speak.

Thanks, Meng.

I owe the success today to you.

No, not at all.

You owe it to Ya.

She

invited everyone here.

Is this PDA?

Whether the invitation comes from Ya or me,

it's the same!

Meng is here.

And the core members of the student council are here too.

I just want to say

that I will do my best

to support the student council,

to support Meng,

and to support Qiang.

If you need anything from the student council,

I'm your guy.

If you have a problem in your life,

you can

come to me too.

I will help you.

I will back you up.

A round of applause!

And during

the next year's nomination for the student council's

director,

I hope I can have all of your support.

I get it.

Do support me.

Meng.

Can I count on you?

Bottoms up.

Another round of applause, please!

Cheers.

Come.

Let's drink.

Delicious wine.

Drink up.

You are...

I'm looking for my friend.

Here, please.

You can drink very well.

Indeed.

Come. Dig in.

This restaurant has good reviews.

It's delicious.

Xiaohui.

Who is she?

No idea.

Why are you here?

I told you not to come.

What are you doing?

Ignore them.

Just drink.

Who is she?

I'm Xiaohui's girlfriend.

Who are you?

We'll speak outside.

Girlfriend?

You never told me.

Song Xiaohui, who is she?

She's a junior in my high school.

Eat and drink!

Eat up. Dig in.

The food will turn cold. Sit down.

I'll dig in, then.

Okay.

This one is very delicious.

Come, let's speak outside.

I heard that Xia Fan went to the party.

I found the restaurant's address.

I'm bringing Red Hair with me.

Yes, we won't cause a scene.

Okay.

Bye. Okay.

Bye.

Who's that?

Your girlfriend?

What girlfriend? Eyes on the road!

It's important so make sure we arrive safely.

Yes, sir.

♪The crowd is the wind, and I, the dandelion♪

♪As I land, my dream blossoms, leading to a different future♪

♪You mock that my dream is impossible♪

♪No one understands the loneliness of a kite who embraces the rain♪

♪Growing up can be painful♪

♪People say that I'm delusional♪

♪But I forge on in the face of naysayers♪

♪I will not be swayed and walk in someone's shadow♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪Fly against the current to the vision you have in your dream♪

♪Hardship is the catalyst for resolution♪ ♪Fly against the current to the vision you have in your dream♪

♪Hardship is the catalyst for resolution♪

♪You will witness my resilience♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪The pain will subside, you will shrug it off♪ ♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪The pain will subside, you will shrug it off♪

♪In this ideal world, my courage is the centerpiece♪

♪Look, the rainbow after the rain♪

♪Shine a ray of light♪