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Hi.
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I'm just sucking down
this caramel frappucino.
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It's disgusting.
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Uh, I just wanted to tell you
that I love you and I miss you
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and I crave you more than,
well, definitely more than this,
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but more than chocolate
or crack cocaine,
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and that even when I'm dead
and I'm in the ground
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and being eaten by worms
I will still love you
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because love never dies.
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Mwah!
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I miss you and I love you
and I'm here for you
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and I will see you soon.
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After I died this video got
more than two million views.
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I imagine people who Google
a dead person
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or watch movies about them
are looking for clues.
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They keep clicking because
they wanna know the person
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behind the headline.
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They wanna know what
you were really like.
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If you were good or bad.
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Naughty or nice.
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In my case people wanna know
how I ended up dead
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three days before my 27th
birthday in the bathtub
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of prominent Philadelphia
defence attorney, Chuck Peruto,
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who also happened to be my boss.
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Somebody once said publicity
is like sex.
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When it's good it's great
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and when it's bad
it's still pretty good.
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In Philly Chuck gets
a lot of publicity.
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Chuck was basically known
for two things.
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Defending murderers and mobsters
in court
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and dating gorgeous girls
half his age.
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Girls like me.
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The day after I died Chuck
posted that I was an angel
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who God took too soon,
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which is nice but
not exactly true.
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I was a lot of things.
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But I was definitely no angel.
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[speaking Spanish]
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Zulma, Chuck's property manager,
was the one who found me.
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[screaming]
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Hello?
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Solomon?
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Yeah.
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Do you have my shirt?
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Chuck sends Zulma
to retrieve his shirt
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from his condo in
Rittenhouse Square
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while Chuck was down
on the shore
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hosting his infamous Memorial
Day beach bash in Margate.
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What?
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From beginning the shirt
business seemed fishy.
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He's down on the shore.
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Why is a guy so desperate
for his shirt?
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It's human nature to want
to solve the mystery
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but, like a crystal prism, you
hold any life up to the light
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and different
colours emerge.
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They found a dead girl in
Chuck's Peruto's bathtub.
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Oh my god.
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I just read it on Facebook.
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In the days and weeks
after my death,
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cops, journalists,
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documentarians and armchair
detectives
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will scour my Facebook page,
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my online posts,
and my YouTube channel
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trying to figure out
what happened to me.
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[phone ringing]
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Lola, hon, can you grab that?
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Yeah, hang on.
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On local talkshows and
newsmagazines they'll call me
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a raven-haired beauty
with a Mona Lisa smile.
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A sweetheart.
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A slut.
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Party central.
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People will speculate
and gossip in every bar,
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party and dining room
in the city.
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What?
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M- mom?
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They found Julia.
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An autopsy will be conducted,
they'll interview co-workers,
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lovers, friends and family,
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and just like when I used
to obsess over interviews,
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autopsy reports and
conspiracy theories,
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now strangers obsess over me.
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The girl in Chuck Peruto's
bathtub.
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Because while everybody
in Philly knew Chuck Peruto.
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Nobody really knew me.
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I was madly in love with her.
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What possible reason
would I have to kill her?
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♪
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(crowd): Woooo!
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(Guest): Happy graduation,
Angie!
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[cheering]
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[laughing]
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Wow.
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Last time Terri got this drunk
tables were thrown.
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Do you think I should intervene?
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No.
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Chuck could use a few dents
in that giant head of his.
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I overheard him talking
to Spencer saying
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that he's in love with you.
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No, you didn't.
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That didn't happen.
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Ok, from my desk at reception
I see everything.
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I don't need Chuck falling
in love with me.
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Look at how scary Terri is.
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She looks like she could
throw me out a window
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without even blinking.
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Yeah.
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And also, he's 58.
I'll be 27 next week.
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I'm way too old for him.
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Yeah, but you're Mary Poppins.
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Oh, come on.
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A spoonful of sugar.
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[laughing]
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Ok, alright, alright, alright.
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No, no, no, no, no.
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You two are planning something
here right now,
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I can tell.
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Yeah, a hostile takeover
of your corner office.
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Is that it?
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Take it.
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I'm done with that view.
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So then, boss, you know,
I have my degree,
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you think I can get that raise?
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Oh yeah, maybe he'll bump me
up to $7.50 an hour.
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Hardee-har-har.
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A couple of cards here,
I see.
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Just short of a full deck,
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otherwise we wouldn't be
working for you.
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I like when you're sassy.
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We knew Chuck would go for Julia
the moment she walked in.
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She's totally his type.
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Long, dark hair, super skinny.
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Angie, congratulations,
this is your day.
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I think you know how proud
I am of you.
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Happy graduation.
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I have to go and make an
appearance at my nephew's.
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Thank you so much
for coming.
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And um... don't forget
that raise.
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Right this way.
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So did you actually get
your nephew anything?
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Uh, yeah. Yeah.
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I mean, Zulma did, picked out
a train or something.
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Oh, that's thoughtful of you.
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Wasn't it?
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Yeah.
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Why's Terri so pissed?
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She called me last night
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and said she wants
to get back together.
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Oh, and what did you say?
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I said yeah.
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[laughs]
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I told her I'm seeing somebody.
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Why did you do that?
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You're gonna make
my life miserable.
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I didn't mention any names.
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I know, it-
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For a few weeks there
Chuck was definitely into me.
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(Guest outside) Did you check
out that game last night?
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Flyers almost did it.
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They lost in overtime.
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Call me later.
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I can't stay up there
very long.
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Well, they have a pill
for that now.
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Oh, Julia Law, ladies
and gentlemen, give it up.
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Yeah, I'll be here all week.
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Unlike some people I don't have
a problem with staying power.
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You're killing me.
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You're killing me.
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Ok, well can you go
before Terri comes in here
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and kicks my ass, please?
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She better not touch that ass.
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Also, you are gorgeous.
You know that?
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My god, you are so gorgeous.
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Chuck went on local news
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proclaiming he never laid
a hand on me,
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which is not exactly true.
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We had the perfect relationship.
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I wanted to marry her.
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I did.
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So while everybody was obsessed
with the romance
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between me and Chuck there were
other people the cops
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should have interviewed.
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Other people that had plenty
of reasons to want me dead.
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Hey.
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Hey, welcome back.
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Uh, I'm headed out.
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I just wanted to tell you
how great you look.
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But then you always do.
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That's not true,
but thank you.
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I actually wanted to ask you,
um,
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how's your grandma?
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Uh, she's uh, yeah,
hospice is there now, so...
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Oh my- I didn't realize it had
gotten that bad.
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I'm so sorry, Paul.
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She's pretty doped up
on morphine, so...
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That sucks.
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Yeah, other than that,
just trying to stay busy.
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Yeah, Chuck said Schuster
got off
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with a slap on the wrist,
which is amazing.
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Yeah. He's pretty happy.
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Mmmhmm. I bet.
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How about you?
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Are things good?
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Uh, yeah.
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I uh... I feel great.
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Um, I'm just trying to be
healthy and I'm quitting smoking
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and quitting midnight runs
to Daily Doughnuts.
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Doughnuts? Yeah?
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You know about that.
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I do.
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Unlike most guys
in this town,
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Paul wasn't a player.
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While he could come off
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as a little dull
or plain vanilla.
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When you got close to him
he was a really
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nice, smart, sensitive guy.
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It's like the methadone clinic.
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For pets.
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[laughing]
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Hey, I'm really sorry that
things ended the way they did.
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It's not your fault.
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You know, all the stuff
that you said about,
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you know, being messed up.
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Everyone's got problems.
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Everybody.
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Not you.
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I do.
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I just think maybe...
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maybe it's easier to work
through that stuff
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when you're with somebody
who loves you.
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Yeah, maybe.
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Do you have plans
for your birthday?
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Yeah, I'm gonna bury my head
in the sand
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and pretend it's not happening.
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You're 27, you're a baby.
You're a baby.
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My mom invited me to come home
for it.
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Wow. That's progress, right?
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Woah.
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Yeah, no, it's good. It is good.
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I really wanna see
my little brother,
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I haven't seen him in forever.
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Lola posted this video
of him in this, like,
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really cute penguin costume
and I've watched it
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no less than 200 times.
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Uh...
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Fair enough.
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Well, if you don't go and see
the adorable penguin,
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can I buy you dinner?
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I gotta fly to Chicago tomorrow
but I'm back Thursday.
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I'll take you to Aria
for old time's sake.
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Yeah. I would like that.
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I missed you.
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I missed you, too.
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I did miss him.
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The year Paul and I
were together
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was probably the best year
of my life.
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He was nice to me.
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My family loved him.
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He was smart and stable
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and honestly, super boring.
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Thank you for the ride.
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Until Thursday.
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Ignore all the sounds-
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Yeah, don't worry.
265
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I'm about to make.
266
00:10:04.812 --> 00:10:06.647
[laughs]
267
00:10:09.442 --> 00:10:10.901
Bye.
268
00:10:10.901 --> 00:10:11.986
Everyone who knew him, though,
269
00:10:11.986 --> 00:10:14.322
thought Paul was
a really good guy.
270
00:10:14.322 --> 00:10:16.615
But what if he found out
I was sleeping with Chuck
271
00:10:16.615 --> 00:10:19.869
before Chuck called him in to
tell him I was dead in his tub?
272
00:10:19.869 --> 00:10:21.746
Could he have been the
quintessential nice guy
273
00:10:21.746 --> 00:10:24.248
who suddenly snaps?
274
00:10:24.248 --> 00:10:26.292
She was a friend and she was
a very good person.
275
00:10:26.292 --> 00:10:28.586
That's all I'm gonna say
about it, alright?
276
00:10:28.586 --> 00:10:30.296
I'm not comfortable talking
about somebody that's not here
277
00:10:30.296 --> 00:10:32.381
to defend herself and frankly
I'm getting a little tired of
278
00:10:32.381 --> 00:10:36.761
you guys following me around
asking me about it, ok?
279
00:10:36.761 --> 00:10:38.387
Talking about it's not gonna
change what happened
280
00:10:38.387 --> 00:10:40.970
and it's really tough
to move forward
281
00:10:40.970 --> 00:10:41.891
and put things behind you
when you got somebody
282
00:10:41.891 --> 00:10:44.268
sticking a camera in your face
asking you questions about it,
283
00:10:44.268 --> 00:10:46.604
so have a little respect.
284
00:10:46.604 --> 00:10:48.640
Alright? I'm sorry.
285
00:10:48.640 --> 00:10:49.982
Excuse me.
286
00:10:49.982 --> 00:10:51.670
Let me tell you something.
287
00:10:51.670 --> 00:10:53.110
You wanna know the real reason
288
00:10:53.110 --> 00:10:55.290
that they're gonna convene
the grand jury?
289
00:10:55.290 --> 00:10:57.823
'Cause there's nobody out there
that believes that I killed her.
290
00:10:57.823 --> 00:11:02.119
It's this Ratsinger, the D.A.,
otherwise known as "the rat",
291
00:11:02.119 --> 00:11:06.290
fat prick, doing this just to
get back at me for all the times
292
00:11:06.290 --> 00:11:08.420
I made him look like
an asshole in court,
293
00:11:08.420 --> 00:11:10.378
and trust me, it's a lot.
294
00:11:13.500 --> 00:11:15.910
So now you've got Ratsinger,
who's jerkin' off the cops
295
00:11:15.910 --> 00:11:18.520
and the whole time
whoever did this?
296
00:11:18.520 --> 00:11:19.553
They're free.
297
00:11:19.553 --> 00:11:21.472
And you're talking to me now?
298
00:11:21.472 --> 00:11:22.723
[laughs]
299
00:12:02.346 --> 00:12:03.550
[gasps]
300
00:12:03.550 --> 00:12:04.560
Oh my-
301
00:12:07.726 --> 00:12:08.644
Hi.
302
00:12:08.644 --> 00:12:09.937
Hi.
303
00:12:12.481 --> 00:12:14.191
Here's the truth.
304
00:12:14.191 --> 00:12:17.270
I liked Chuck but he was
way too old for me,
305
00:12:17.270 --> 00:12:20.197
and Paul was a super nice guy
but he was kinda boring.
306
00:12:20.197 --> 00:12:23.330
The true undisputed love of my
life was a guy totally unknown
307
00:12:23.330 --> 00:12:24.702
to both Chuck and Paul.
308
00:12:24.702 --> 00:12:27.997
A guy the cops found out about
but never interviewed.
309
00:12:27.997 --> 00:12:30.833
His name was Neil,
310
00:12:30.833 --> 00:12:34.462
and he broke my heart
about a million times.
311
00:12:34.462 --> 00:12:36.213
[message alert]
312
00:13:12.820 --> 00:13:13.375
Who are you texting?
313
00:13:13.375 --> 00:13:17.838
Chuck, 'cause he asked me
to stay over.
314
00:13:17.838 --> 00:13:18.631
I'm jealous.
315
00:13:18.631 --> 00:13:19.548
Good.
316
00:13:19.548 --> 00:13:20.966
You should be.
317
00:13:22.635 --> 00:13:23.844
You know I hate leaving
you alone,
318
00:13:23.844 --> 00:13:25.262
you know that, right?
319
00:13:25.262 --> 00:13:27.181
What I knew was that Neil
was married with three kids
320
00:13:27.181 --> 00:13:28.766
and I was in love with him.
321
00:13:28.766 --> 00:13:31.769
I also knew there was no way
we were ever gonna be together,
322
00:13:31.769 --> 00:13:34.939
not like normal people.
323
00:13:34.939 --> 00:13:38.859
Ok, well, I'm gonna go be not
alone with Chuck
324
00:13:38.859 --> 00:13:43.405
'cause he acts like he actually
wants to be around me.
325
00:13:43.405 --> 00:13:44.281
Sound good?
326
00:13:44.281 --> 00:13:46.450
Mmm.
327
00:13:46.450 --> 00:13:47.701
I hate every minute
that we're apart,
328
00:13:47.701 --> 00:13:49.411
you know that, right?
329
00:13:49.411 --> 00:13:52.390
I just hate you.
330
00:13:53.123 --> 00:13:55.960
That wasn't true
and we both knew it.
331
00:13:55.960 --> 00:13:57.962
I just liked to hurt him
a little sometimes
332
00:13:57.962 --> 00:14:00.506
the way he hurt me
without even trying.
333
00:14:00.506 --> 00:14:02.466
What do you think? This one?
334
00:14:05.940 --> 00:14:08.550
This guy?
335
00:14:08.550 --> 00:14:09.557
A thong.
336
00:14:09.557 --> 00:14:10.474
You're not going anywhere.
337
00:14:10.474 --> 00:14:12.351
No, I'm going-
338
00:14:12.351 --> 00:14:14.853
You're the one who
has to leave.
339
00:14:15.729 --> 00:14:16.814
Funny.
340
00:14:16.814 --> 00:14:18.983
We uh... we met at a bar.
341
00:14:18.983 --> 00:14:21.860
She was complimenting me
on my old fashioned.
342
00:14:21.860 --> 00:14:23.700
She's like "there's something
about a man
343
00:14:23.700 --> 00:14:26.156
that drinks an old fashioned"
and I was like well, ok.
344
00:14:26.156 --> 00:14:28.909
I'll take that.
345
00:14:28.909 --> 00:14:32.496
And we just started to
uh, get into conversation.
346
00:14:32.496 --> 00:14:35.749
It was- it felt like we had
known each other for so long,
347
00:14:35.749 --> 00:14:37.167
it was just instant.
348
00:14:37.167 --> 00:14:40.129
We just- we just clicked,
you know?
349
00:14:40.129 --> 00:14:45.175
Um, and uh, she happened to be
going my way and I gave her
350
00:14:45.175 --> 00:14:49.513
a ride home and we just kept
in touch from there.
351
00:14:54.602 --> 00:14:56.520
It's hard not to wonder what if.
352
00:14:56.520 --> 00:14:58.606
Maybe if things had been
different between me and Neil
353
00:14:58.606 --> 00:15:01.817
and if I hadn't decided to go
to Chuck's
354
00:15:01.817 --> 00:15:04.945
maybe what happened that night
never would have happened.
355
00:15:11.619 --> 00:15:12.328
Hey.
356
00:15:12.328 --> 00:15:13.120
Hey, how's it going?
357
00:15:13.120 --> 00:15:14.330
It's good.
358
00:15:14.330 --> 00:15:15.539
Um, I actually just wanted
to check and see if anyone
359
00:15:15.539 --> 00:15:17.625
had handed in some,
like, Rayban aviators?
360
00:15:17.625 --> 00:15:20.200
I'm not sure, but I can check
in the office for you.
361
00:15:20.200 --> 00:15:21.879
Ok, that'd be great.
362
00:15:21.879 --> 00:15:23.297
That sucks.
363
00:15:23.297 --> 00:15:24.590
Yeah, I know.
364
00:15:24.590 --> 00:15:27.593
I left brand a new Phillies hat
at the movies a few weeks ago,
365
00:15:27.593 --> 00:15:29.136
I go back like five minutes
later to get it
366
00:15:29.136 --> 00:15:30.888
and the cleaning crew guy is
like "I don't know, man,
367
00:15:30.888 --> 00:15:32.723
I haven't seen it."
368
00:15:32.723 --> 00:15:35.170
I go back the next day
the dude's wearing my hat.
369
00:15:35.170 --> 00:15:36.602
That's insane!
370
00:15:36.602 --> 00:15:37.895
Did you say anything to him?
371
00:15:37.895 --> 00:15:38.896
Well, I...
372
00:15:38.896 --> 00:15:40.272
You just let him keep it.
373
00:15:40.272 --> 00:15:41.774
I think that was his scam.
374
00:15:41.774 --> 00:15:42.858
Yeah, bummer.
375
00:15:42.858 --> 00:15:44.985
I wonder how many hats
that guy has.
376
00:15:44.985 --> 00:15:46.278
[laughs]
A lot.
377
00:15:46.278 --> 00:15:47.279
Uh, you want?
378
00:15:49.156 --> 00:15:50.991
Uh, sure. Why not?
379
00:15:52.660 --> 00:15:53.869
That's nice looking stuff.
380
00:15:53.869 --> 00:15:54.662
Are you celebrating?
381
00:15:54.662 --> 00:15:57.247
Yeah. I just met you, so.
382
00:15:57.247 --> 00:15:59.833
Oh, isn't that nice?
383
00:15:59.833 --> 00:16:00.918
Cheers.
384
00:16:01.168 --> 00:16:02.920
Cheers.
385
00:16:02.920 --> 00:16:04.880
Uh, you live around here?
386
00:16:04.880 --> 00:16:06.674
Just around the corner.
What about you?
387
00:16:06.674 --> 00:16:08.467
Yeah, just moved
into the neighbourhood.
388
00:16:08.467 --> 00:16:09.930
Oh yeah?
389
00:16:09.930 --> 00:16:10.940
How are you finding it?
390
00:16:10.940 --> 00:16:11.110
It's awesome.
391
00:16:11.110 --> 00:16:12.304
It's good, right?
392
00:16:12.304 --> 00:16:13.931
There's like a lot of good bars
and restaurants and stuff.
393
00:16:13.931 --> 00:16:15.516
This is all we got.
394
00:16:15.516 --> 00:16:17.267
Uh, yeah. That's not them.
395
00:16:17.267 --> 00:16:18.852
Uh, ok, can I just give you
my phone number
396
00:16:18.852 --> 00:16:20.437
and if they show up
you can just call me?
397
00:16:20.437 --> 00:16:22.940
What guy in his right mind
would say no to that?
398
00:16:22.940 --> 00:16:24.274
Do you remember when
you left them here?
399
00:16:24.274 --> 00:16:28.112
Yeah, it was last night so I'm
guessing someone swiped them.
400
00:16:28.112 --> 00:16:29.113
We'll make sure we look.
401
00:16:29.113 --> 00:16:30.720
Sure you will.
402
00:16:30.720 --> 00:16:32.116
If I come back and
you're wearing them,
403
00:16:32.116 --> 00:16:34.284
I won't do anything about it,
but please don't.
404
00:16:34.284 --> 00:16:35.536
Ok, nice seeing you.
405
00:16:35.536 --> 00:16:36.412
Uh, woah.
406
00:16:36.412 --> 00:16:37.246
Wait a minute.
407
00:16:37.246 --> 00:16:38.163
Where are you going?
408
00:16:38.163 --> 00:16:40.249
I don't even know your name.
409
00:16:40.249 --> 00:16:41.959
I'm actually gonna go meet
somebody right now.
410
00:16:41.959 --> 00:16:42.751
Oh.
411
00:16:42.751 --> 00:16:43.794
I'm sorry.
412
00:16:43.794 --> 00:16:45.129
Ok.
413
00:16:45.129 --> 00:16:46.380
Sorry.
414
00:16:46.380 --> 00:16:48.841
Thank you for the champagne,
that was really nice of you.
415
00:16:48.841 --> 00:16:52.100
If you're keeping track at home
so far we have Chuck my boss,
416
00:16:52.100 --> 00:16:54.805
Terri, his ex-girlfriend,
Paul my ex-boyfriend,
417
00:16:54.805 --> 00:16:57.433
and Neil, my married lover.
418
00:16:57.433 --> 00:17:00.600
Oh, and then there was
the creep who roofied me.
419
00:17:05.149 --> 00:17:10.988
[water running]
420
00:17:59.995 --> 00:18:02.122
That was a pretty crazy night,
right?
421
00:18:16.470 --> 00:18:18.514
Uh, shower only, actually.
422
00:18:18.514 --> 00:18:20.974
There's another bathroom
down the hall.
423
00:18:40.494 --> 00:18:44.832
[sobbing]
424
00:18:51.338 --> 00:18:55.509
If you've never been roofied,
and I hope to God you haven't,
425
00:18:55.509 --> 00:18:59.179
it's the weirdest feeling
in the world.
426
00:18:59.179 --> 00:19:02.975
I felt like I had died and been
dragged back to life by my hair.
427
00:19:02.975 --> 00:19:05.185
Everything hurt.
428
00:19:15.195 --> 00:19:17.823
I have to go home.
429
00:19:17.823 --> 00:19:23.245
My phone's dead, I...
I don't have a car.
430
00:19:23.245 --> 00:19:25.800
Oh, yeah, no.
431
00:19:25.800 --> 00:19:28.000
Let me get you an Uber.
432
00:19:28.000 --> 00:19:29.751
You can just get me back.
433
00:19:29.751 --> 00:19:31.378
What's your address?
434
00:19:31.378 --> 00:19:32.379
(News): And in weather,
435
00:19:32.379 --> 00:19:34.464
It's a beautiful day
out there today.
436
00:19:34.464 --> 00:19:36.490
A high of 92...
437
00:19:39.803 --> 00:19:42.180
No, no, no!
438
00:19:46.476 --> 00:19:48.353
[buzz]
439
00:19:56.280 --> 00:19:57.404
How many times is this now?
440
00:19:57.404 --> 00:19:58.697
Three?
441
00:19:58.697 --> 00:20:00.782
In three months?
442
00:20:00.782 --> 00:20:02.868
Yeah, I'm really sorry.
443
00:20:41.490 --> 00:20:46.620
[phone ringing]
444
00:20:46.620 --> 00:20:47.371
Hey.
445
00:20:47.371 --> 00:20:48.121
Hi.
446
00:20:48.121 --> 00:20:48.914
Are you ok?
447
00:20:48.914 --> 00:20:50.332
No.
448
00:20:50.332 --> 00:20:51.458
I think he took my keys.
449
00:20:51.458 --> 00:20:53.430
Can you come over?
450
00:20:53.430 --> 00:20:54.544
Jules, listen to me.
451
00:20:54.544 --> 00:20:55.879
You gotta call the cops,
alright?
452
00:20:55.879 --> 00:20:58.715
I can't call the cops.
453
00:20:58.715 --> 00:20:59.716
Excuse me.
454
00:20:59.716 --> 00:21:01.551
Who are you with?
What're you doing?
455
00:21:01.551 --> 00:21:03.220
I'm- I'm just uh,
I'm at a lighting-
456
00:21:03.220 --> 00:21:04.304
Can you just come over?
457
00:21:04.304 --> 00:21:06.390
I don't understand why you can't
just come over.
458
00:21:06.390 --> 00:21:07.683
I'm with my kids.
459
00:21:07.683 --> 00:21:09.142
Can Angie come stay with you?
460
00:21:09.142 --> 00:21:12.646
No, her family's in town.
461
00:21:12.646 --> 00:21:14.523
How about Susan?
462
00:21:14.523 --> 00:21:16.483
She's not talking to me.
463
00:21:16.483 --> 00:21:17.859
What? Since when?
464
00:21:17.859 --> 00:21:19.903
Since she yelled at me
and said she wasn't going
465
00:21:19.903 --> 00:21:21.655
to be my enabler anymore.
466
00:21:23.657 --> 00:21:27.828
I'm such a shit show.
467
00:21:27.828 --> 00:21:29.370
Can you just say something?
468
00:21:29.370 --> 00:21:31.915
Can you just tell me that you
love me or something?
469
00:21:31.915 --> 00:21:34.710
Baby, I love you. I do.
470
00:21:34.710 --> 00:21:36.336
And I wish I could be there
right now with you,
471
00:21:36.336 --> 00:21:37.879
kissing you, holding you
in my arms
472
00:21:37.879 --> 00:21:39.172
and making you feel good.
473
00:21:39.172 --> 00:21:40.924
[message alert]
474
00:21:40.924 --> 00:21:43.427
I can't believe this happened
to you.
475
00:21:46.513 --> 00:21:48.890
Babe, I can't see you anymore.
476
00:21:48.890 --> 00:21:50.434
Huh?
477
00:21:50.434 --> 00:21:51.518
I can't see your beautiful face.
478
00:21:51.518 --> 00:21:52.477
Did you pause me?
479
00:21:52.477 --> 00:21:53.478
No.
480
00:21:55.689 --> 00:21:57.315
I had been looking
on a recovery site
481
00:21:57.315 --> 00:21:58.817
that offered support.
482
00:21:58.817 --> 00:22:00.736
I posted on their forums
a few times.
483
00:22:00.736 --> 00:22:04.448
But I wasn't very good
at reaching out.
484
00:22:04.448 --> 00:22:06.992
This might sound weird
but sometimes I felt like
485
00:22:06.992 --> 00:22:10.996
Amy was watching over me,
like God.
486
00:22:24.510 --> 00:22:25.469
When I finally woke up
a full day later,
487
00:22:25.469 --> 00:22:26.970
late for work,
488
00:22:26.970 --> 00:22:30.150
I was pretty sure the painting
of Amy winking at me
489
00:22:30.150 --> 00:22:32.309
was a hallucination,
compliments of the roofie
490
00:22:32.309 --> 00:22:36.396
and the wine I downed
to fall asleep.
491
00:23:00.462 --> 00:23:02.470
Well, hello.
492
00:23:02.470 --> 00:23:02.756
What?
493
00:23:02.756 --> 00:23:04.216
You, Paul, Saturday?
494
00:23:04.216 --> 00:23:07.677
I knew you were gonna say that
and that's not-
495
00:23:10.680 --> 00:23:12.724
Ladies. This needs to get
filed today on the Diaz case.
496
00:23:12.724 --> 00:23:14.226
Oh, ok.
497
00:23:16.190 --> 00:23:17.479
I just have to finish
another pleading for Chuck
498
00:23:17.479 --> 00:23:18.772
then I'll do it.
499
00:23:18.772 --> 00:23:19.856
Did I get it?
500
00:23:19.856 --> 00:23:20.565
Yeah?
501
00:23:20.565 --> 00:23:21.566
Oh, hey.
502
00:23:21.566 --> 00:23:23.527
We're all going to Retro.
503
00:23:23.527 --> 00:23:25.112
After work, ok?
504
00:23:25.112 --> 00:23:26.238
Oh, hey.
505
00:23:26.238 --> 00:23:28.156
The Peruto party train
was a fun ride.
506
00:23:28.156 --> 00:23:29.950
It was hard not to jump on.
507
00:23:29.950 --> 00:23:32.619
But I barely slept three hours
at a stretch.
508
00:23:32.619 --> 00:23:34.371
I was struggling to keep up.
509
00:23:34.371 --> 00:23:36.998
This girl was- person,
excuse me, ladies-
510
00:23:36.998 --> 00:23:40.460
uh, a physical specimen,
511
00:23:40.460 --> 00:23:42.212
an Olympic athlete, a
triathlete, whatever.
512
00:23:42.212 --> 00:23:45.632
And it seemed to me I could
admire that if it was on the top
513
00:23:45.632 --> 00:23:49.136
of Mount Olympus, but at the
downtown Y it just seemed...
514
00:23:49.136 --> 00:23:50.950
The Y?
515
00:23:50.950 --> 00:23:50.971
What?
516
00:23:50.971 --> 00:23:52.556
Nothing. Just the Y, yeah.
517
00:23:52.556 --> 00:23:55.160
Chuck can't handle strong women
is what he's trying to say.
518
00:23:55.160 --> 00:23:56.309
Maybe I just like something
more real.
519
00:23:56.309 --> 00:23:58.979
That is why he spent six months
trying to convince me
520
00:23:58.979 --> 00:24:00.355
to get a boob job.
521
00:24:00.355 --> 00:24:01.731
You must be talking
about somebody else.
522
00:24:01.731 --> 00:24:05.986
Real Chuck? I mean, we all know
you can't handle real.
523
00:24:21.209 --> 00:24:22.252
Hey, babe.
524
00:24:24.379 --> 00:24:25.422
What's the matter?
525
00:24:25.422 --> 00:24:28.800
I feel like I'm having
a heart attack.
526
00:24:28.800 --> 00:24:30.594
You want me to take you
to the hospital?
527
00:24:30.594 --> 00:24:31.595
I can't breathe, though.
528
00:24:31.595 --> 00:24:36.683
I feel like-- I think I might
pass out.
529
00:24:36.683 --> 00:24:38.977
Well, you want me to take you
home or what?
530
00:24:38.977 --> 00:24:41.313
Mmmhmm. This is a- this is
a panic attack!
531
00:24:41.313 --> 00:24:43.648
I've had them before,
this is really bad.
532
00:24:43.648 --> 00:24:44.524
Ok.
533
00:24:44.524 --> 00:24:46.610
You'll be alright,
just breathe.
534
00:24:46.610 --> 00:24:48.320
Can we go get a drink?
535
00:24:48.987 --> 00:24:51.406
Look, what that guy did was sick
and illegal,
536
00:24:51.406 --> 00:24:52.699
and you should call the cops-
537
00:24:52.699 --> 00:24:54.201
No, I don't want to talk
to the cops.
538
00:24:54.201 --> 00:24:55.535
I have enough going on
in my head
539
00:24:55.535 --> 00:24:56.536
without a guilt trip from you.
540
00:24:56.536 --> 00:24:57.370
Please.
541
00:24:57.370 --> 00:24:59.164
I'm not trying
to guilt trip you.
542
00:24:59.164 --> 00:25:00.582
I don't have anything
to tell the cops.
543
00:25:00.582 --> 00:25:02.584
If I go to them I don't know
this dude's name,
544
00:25:02.584 --> 00:25:03.752
I don't know anything about him,
545
00:25:03.752 --> 00:25:05.587
so if I go all we're gonna have
to talk about is me
546
00:25:05.587 --> 00:25:07.214
and I don't particularly
want my life
547
00:25:07.214 --> 00:25:08.506
under a microscope right now.
548
00:25:08.506 --> 00:25:09.299
I understand.
549
00:25:09.299 --> 00:25:10.425
No, you don't.
550
00:25:10.425 --> 00:25:12.719
I know you want to but you
really don't understand.
551
00:25:12.719 --> 00:25:14.554
Okay, when I woke up this
morning, my phone was dead
552
00:25:14.554 --> 00:25:16.723
so he called me a car which
means he knows where I live
553
00:25:16.723 --> 00:25:19.601
and he has my keys.
554
00:25:19.601 --> 00:25:20.602
Maybe the cops could trace-
555
00:25:20.602 --> 00:25:23.630
No, I'm not gonna talk
to the cops, ok?!
556
00:25:23.630 --> 00:25:26.566
Alright, um... I'm sorry.
557
00:25:26.566 --> 00:25:28.652
Um...
558
00:25:28.652 --> 00:25:30.820
No, I'm sorry.
559
00:25:30.820 --> 00:25:32.447
You've been through a lot.
560
00:25:32.447 --> 00:25:33.448
We'll get you a room.
561
00:25:33.448 --> 00:25:36.451
You can relax, have a hot bath.
562
00:25:36.451 --> 00:25:37.452
You'll feel better.
563
00:25:37.452 --> 00:25:39.579
Sometimes Neil could be
so good to me.
564
00:25:39.579 --> 00:25:40.580
Ok.
565
00:25:41.831 --> 00:25:44.834
Whether he was good for me
is another question.
566
00:25:49.464 --> 00:25:50.632
Yeah, hi.
567
00:25:50.632 --> 00:25:52.634
Yeah, my name is Neil,
I'm a friend of Julia Law's,
568
00:25:52.634 --> 00:25:54.970
she's a tenant in your building.
569
00:25:54.970 --> 00:25:56.763
Apparently, somebody has the
keys to her place
570
00:25:56.763 --> 00:25:57.973
and we'd like to get
the locks changed.
571
00:25:57.973 --> 00:26:00.767
Wondering if you could
help us out.
572
00:26:00.767 --> 00:26:01.559
Yeah, yeah.
573
00:26:01.559 --> 00:26:03.144
As soon as possible, actually.
574
00:26:03.144 --> 00:26:05.522
Look, I know you got a whole
building to manage
575
00:26:05.522 --> 00:26:07.148
and that new locks
are expensive but--
576
00:26:07.148 --> 00:26:09.776
It's not going to cost anything
so what's the problem?
577
00:26:09.776 --> 00:26:12.153
No, no, I get it, I get it,
but how about this?
578
00:26:12.153 --> 00:26:13.571
How about I send in
my locksmith,
579
00:26:13.571 --> 00:26:16.950
he'll change the locks, no cost
to you and give you the master?
580
00:26:16.950 --> 00:26:19.160
Neil was a really good daddy.
581
00:26:19.160 --> 00:26:21.496
He knew how to take charge
and make everything better.
582
00:26:21.496 --> 00:26:24.624
Yeah, no, she'll rest easier
that way.
583
00:26:24.624 --> 00:26:27.460
Yeah.
584
00:26:27.460 --> 00:26:28.420
Great.
585
00:26:28.420 --> 00:26:31.298
Great, thank you,
thank you very much.
586
00:26:31.298 --> 00:26:32.215
Done.
587
00:26:32.215 --> 00:26:33.133
Yeah?
588
00:26:33.133 --> 00:26:34.175
The locksmith will be
at your place
589
00:26:34.175 --> 00:26:35.385
first thing in the morning.
590
00:26:35.385 --> 00:26:36.386
Thank you.
591
00:26:36.386 --> 00:26:37.470
You're welcome.
592
00:26:37.470 --> 00:26:38.638
I do appreciate it.
593
00:26:38.638 --> 00:26:41.808
I'm sorry that you had to do
all of this. It's just--
594
00:26:41.808 --> 00:26:44.394
Sorry? What do you got to be
sorry about?
595
00:26:44.394 --> 00:26:45.979
I don't know, it's just
not your problem
596
00:26:45.979 --> 00:26:47.355
Hey, hey.
597
00:26:47.355 --> 00:26:48.982
I like doing things for you.
598
00:26:48.982 --> 00:26:50.191
Yeah?
599
00:26:50.191 --> 00:26:51.526
Yes, I do.
600
00:26:51.526 --> 00:26:56.948
Now, what else can I do for you?
601
00:26:56.948 --> 00:26:58.950
I don't know.
602
00:27:03.538 --> 00:27:04.998
I was doing so good.
603
00:27:04.998 --> 00:27:06.833
I was tapering my drinking
604
00:27:06.833 --> 00:27:10.128
and now I've had all this
friggin' vodka and wine
605
00:27:10.128 --> 00:27:12.500
and I still can't calm down.
606
00:27:12.500 --> 00:27:13.600
Hey, hey.
607
00:27:17.719 --> 00:27:20.722
I think I know how
to make you relax.
608
00:27:20.722 --> 00:27:22.974
[giggles]
609
00:27:25.268 --> 00:27:26.811
Ok.
610
00:27:29.814 --> 00:27:30.940
You should probably
take this off.
611
00:27:30.940 --> 00:27:32.250
I think I'm a little
overdressed.
612
00:27:32.250 --> 00:27:33.260
I think so.
613
00:27:34.277 --> 00:27:35.280
You wear it.
614
00:27:35.280 --> 00:27:35.779
Me?
615
00:27:35.779 --> 00:27:37.655
Yeah. It's sexy.
616
00:27:42.285 --> 00:27:45.288
No. ooh. On a leash...
617
00:28:05.266 --> 00:28:07.936
I wish you could
just hold me forever.
618
00:28:07.936 --> 00:28:10.313
I wish that was your job,
was just to,
619
00:28:10.313 --> 00:28:14.250
like, hold me like this.
620
00:28:14.250 --> 00:28:17.153
You're the only person
who really loves me.
621
00:28:17.153 --> 00:28:18.988
Oh come on now, we both know
that's not true.
622
00:28:18.988 --> 00:28:21.449
It is true.
623
00:28:21.449 --> 00:28:23.910
Everyone who's ever loved me
has left me.
624
00:28:23.910 --> 00:28:26.621
Ok, that sounds melodramatic,
but it's kinda true.
625
00:28:26.621 --> 00:28:30.250
My nana and grandpa,
my dog Snuffy.
626
00:28:30.250 --> 00:28:32.252
I just wanna stay here.
627
00:28:38.174 --> 00:28:45.980
[phone ringing]
628
00:28:45.980 --> 00:28:47.600
[groans]
629
00:28:47.600 --> 00:28:49.180
I'm sorry.
630
00:28:49.180 --> 00:28:50.603
It's ok.
631
00:29:00.822 --> 00:29:02.115
Hey.
632
00:29:02.115 --> 00:29:04.909
Aw, hi baby girl.
633
00:29:04.909 --> 00:29:06.911
You getting ready to go
to sleep?
634
00:29:06.911 --> 00:29:08.329
Yeah?
635
00:29:08.329 --> 00:29:10.457
Alright, big kiss.
636
00:29:10.457 --> 00:29:11.791
Ready for the squeeze?
637
00:29:11.791 --> 00:29:13.418
Arrrr.
638
00:29:13.418 --> 00:29:15.300
[laughs]
639
00:29:15.300 --> 00:29:18.631
Alright, baby,
alright goodnight, sweetie.
640
00:29:18.631 --> 00:29:20.633
Yeah.
641
00:29:20.633 --> 00:29:21.885
Yeah, I'm still here
stuck with a client.
642
00:29:21.885 --> 00:29:24.971
How's it going there?
643
00:29:24.971 --> 00:29:27.432
Well, maybe we can talk
to her together tomorrow.
644
00:29:30.310 --> 00:29:32.479
I should be able to get out
of here within the hour.
645
00:29:34.481 --> 00:29:36.149
Yeah, see you soon.
646
00:29:39.694 --> 00:29:41.571
So am I your client?
647
00:29:41.571 --> 00:29:44.320
[laughs]
648
00:29:44.320 --> 00:29:47.368
You are my boss.
649
00:29:47.368 --> 00:29:48.495
Oh.
650
00:29:48.495 --> 00:29:50.538
In that case, you can't go
otherwise you're fired.
651
00:29:50.538 --> 00:29:52.499
I have to.
652
00:29:56.336 --> 00:29:59.880
Do you think you could just stay
with me until I fall asleep?
653
00:29:59.880 --> 00:30:04.427
Trust me, I would love to
but I gotta go.
654
00:30:04.427 --> 00:30:07.847
Your wife yanks on your leash
and then you have to leave?
655
00:30:07.847 --> 00:30:08.765
Don't.
656
00:30:08.765 --> 00:30:11.809
I'm not your boss,
she's your boss.
657
00:30:16.856 --> 00:30:18.149
I'll call you tomorrow.
658
00:30:18.149 --> 00:30:19.400
Yeah.
659
00:30:19.400 --> 00:30:23.696
Hey, come on.
660
00:30:23.696 --> 00:30:25.573
Don't be like that, alright?
661
00:30:25.573 --> 00:30:28.340
I'll call you tomorrow.
662
00:30:28.340 --> 00:30:29.350
Wait.
663
00:30:33.414 --> 00:30:36.876
(whispers) I'll make it up
to you, I promise.
664
00:30:47.178 --> 00:30:50.932
Yeah, we uh, talked about me
leaving my wife.
665
00:30:50.932 --> 00:30:52.225
Julia told me not to.
666
00:30:52.225 --> 00:30:57.313
She said her life got really
messed up when her father left
667
00:30:57.313 --> 00:31:01.150
and so she didn't want
that to happen to my kids.
668
00:31:01.150 --> 00:31:05.113
That's just how she was.
669
00:31:05.113 --> 00:31:11.995
She had her problems but...
she had a huge heart.
670
00:31:16.249 --> 00:31:17.792
I always hated sleeping alone.
671
00:31:17.792 --> 00:31:20.128
Sometimes I'd wake up
in the middle of the night
672
00:31:20.128 --> 00:31:25.633
unable to move and
I'd be so frightened.
673
00:31:25.633 --> 00:31:27.677
I'd see things
and I'd hear things
674
00:31:27.677 --> 00:31:30.763
that were so incredibly vivid.
675
00:31:33.224 --> 00:31:38.521
I was never sure what was real
and what was a dream.
676
00:31:38.521 --> 00:31:40.481
I was caught in a vicious cycle.
677
00:31:40.481 --> 00:31:42.942
I'd drink to fall asleep
then have nightmares
678
00:31:42.942 --> 00:31:45.194
because of the booze
that were so real,
679
00:31:45.194 --> 00:31:48.310
it sent me right back
to drinking.
680
00:31:48.310 --> 00:31:48.740
Ok.
681
00:31:48.740 --> 00:31:49.407
Oh!
682
00:31:49.407 --> 00:31:50.700
You're all set.
683
00:31:50.700 --> 00:31:53.244
Ok, thank you.
684
00:31:59.420 --> 00:32:01.586
Oh my god!
685
00:32:01.586 --> 00:32:03.254
dammit!
686
00:32:06.132 --> 00:32:07.216
Hey, Angie, I gotta
run to court.
687
00:32:07.216 --> 00:32:08.509
Can you cover for me?
688
00:32:08.509 --> 00:32:09.927
Spencer was looking for you!
689
00:32:13.473 --> 00:32:15.160
No, I know, it's just I made
this huge mistake
690
00:32:15.160 --> 00:32:17.518
and I don't wanna lose
my job over this.
691
00:32:17.518 --> 00:32:18.645
I'm sorry.
692
00:32:18.645 --> 00:32:20.605
Ok.
693
00:32:20.605 --> 00:32:22.857
You can just change
the numbers on the stamp
694
00:32:22.857 --> 00:32:24.150
to yesterday's date.
695
00:32:24.150 --> 00:32:26.152
I won't tell anybody.
Come on, dude.
696
00:32:26.152 --> 00:32:27.904
I've had people do this
for me before.
697
00:32:27.904 --> 00:32:29.906
I have come to this office and
they have literally done this
698
00:32:29.906 --> 00:32:30.657
for me before.
699
00:32:30.657 --> 00:32:31.991
I've got a line of people, ok?
700
00:32:31.991 --> 00:32:33.993
If you want to file it, we can
stamp it with today's date.
701
00:32:33.993 --> 00:32:35.360
Please, come on!
702
00:32:35.360 --> 00:32:37.163
I just need this one...
what is this for you?
703
00:32:37.163 --> 00:32:39.582
Is this like a tiny little slap
on the wrist or something?
704
00:32:39.582 --> 00:32:41.000
Just like stamp this.
705
00:32:44.796 --> 00:32:47.340
Ok, fine. Stamp it with...
706
00:32:49.509 --> 00:32:51.761
Amazing. You're incredible.
707
00:32:51.761 --> 00:32:52.679
You're a spectacle.
708
00:32:52.679 --> 00:32:53.346
Thank you so much.
709
00:32:53.346 --> 00:32:54.180
Have a great day.
710
00:32:54.180 --> 00:32:55.348
Yeah, thank you.
711
00:32:59.102 --> 00:33:00.895
Julia?
712
00:33:00.895 --> 00:33:01.729
Oh, Brooke.
713
00:33:01.729 --> 00:33:02.730
Hi.
714
00:33:02.730 --> 00:33:03.815
Hi.
715
00:33:03.815 --> 00:33:05.400
God, I was just thinking
about you.
716
00:33:05.400 --> 00:33:06.526
Oh, really?
717
00:33:06.526 --> 00:33:08.861
Yeah, I heard you're working
for Chuck Peruto.
718
00:33:08.861 --> 00:33:09.821
Yeah.
719
00:33:09.821 --> 00:33:11.720
Yeah, I went to law school
with Chuck.
720
00:33:11.720 --> 00:33:13.199
He's great, as long as you're
not on the opposing side.
721
00:33:13.199 --> 00:33:13.991
Yeah.
722
00:33:13.991 --> 00:33:15.118
Totally.
723
00:33:15.118 --> 00:33:16.770
Um, so how are you?
724
00:33:16.770 --> 00:33:17.120
God.
725
00:33:17.120 --> 00:33:19.247
Really busy, my little guy's
in preschool,
726
00:33:19.247 --> 00:33:22.250
you know, walking, talking,
super chatty just like his mom.
727
00:33:22.250 --> 00:33:23.840
That's amazing.
728
00:33:23.840 --> 00:33:24.585
God, it's great to see you.
729
00:33:24.585 --> 00:33:25.920
We should grab a coffee.
730
00:33:25.920 --> 00:33:27.588
Yeah, I'd love that.
That would b fun.
731
00:33:27.588 --> 00:33:28.881
Yeah, and listen,
732
00:33:28.881 --> 00:33:31.551
if you need a recommendation
for law school or anything-
733
00:33:31.551 --> 00:33:32.593
Oh, that's so nice of you.
734
00:33:32.593 --> 00:33:34.950
I'm not being nice.
735
00:33:34.950 --> 00:33:35.388
You were the best intern
I ever had.
736
00:33:35.388 --> 00:33:38.224
Chuck is lucky to have
snagged you.
737
00:33:38.224 --> 00:33:39.600
So will you call me?
738
00:33:39.600 --> 00:33:41.102
I will, I will definitely
call you.
739
00:33:41.102 --> 00:33:42.437
I'm so glad that I ran into you.
740
00:33:42.437 --> 00:33:44.230
Yeah, we'll talk to you soon.
741
00:33:44.230 --> 00:33:45.606
Great, I'll call you, ok?
742
00:33:45.606 --> 00:33:46.566
Ok.
743
00:33:46.566 --> 00:33:47.734
Running into Brooke
on the street
744
00:33:47.734 --> 00:33:49.652
shook something loose in me.
745
00:33:49.652 --> 00:33:51.487
When I was interning for her,
746
00:33:51.487 --> 00:33:54.490
helping others through my work
seemed possible.
747
00:33:54.490 --> 00:33:57.243
I wanted that feeling again.
748
00:33:57.243 --> 00:34:00.329
Online, I read up on how
to taper off on drinking.
749
00:34:00.329 --> 00:34:03.833
and made a list of supplements
and teas to help me sleep.
750
00:34:03.833 --> 00:34:06.419
I was determined
to clean up my act.
751
00:34:08.671 --> 00:34:10.339
$93.78.
752
00:34:18.181 --> 00:34:21.225
But for some of us, as much
as we want that good life,
753
00:34:21.225 --> 00:34:25.646
as much as we reach out for it
and almost hold it in our hands,
754
00:34:25.646 --> 00:34:27.940
somehow we always
come up empty.
755
00:34:27.940 --> 00:34:32.528
I think someone stole
my wallet.
756
00:34:32.528 --> 00:34:33.613
Don't worry about it.
757
00:34:33.613 --> 00:34:35.323
Just take the yogurt.
758
00:34:35.323 --> 00:34:37.283
We've all been there.
759
00:34:37.283 --> 00:34:38.367
Like...
760
00:34:38.367 --> 00:34:39.494
Don't worry.
761
00:34:39.494 --> 00:34:41.287
Thank you.
762
00:34:41.287 --> 00:34:43.831
I'll- I'll get you
on the next one.
763
00:34:43.831 --> 00:34:44.707
No worries.
764
00:34:44.707 --> 00:34:46.000
Thanks.
765
00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:47.418
(Bank Rep): We'll send that
new card right out to you.
766
00:34:47.418 --> 00:34:48.795
In the meantime I'd just like
to verify some recent purchases
767
00:34:48.795 --> 00:34:50.379
at Thrifty Liquor.
768
00:34:50.379 --> 00:34:54.509
We show $36.90 on the 7th,
$42.12 on the 8th.
769
00:34:54.509 --> 00:34:55.927
Wait, ok.
770
00:34:55.927 --> 00:34:57.678
What- where was
the one on the 8th?
771
00:34:57.678 --> 00:34:59.931
Uh, the 8th was also
at Thrifty.
772
00:34:59.931 --> 00:35:01.140
Andrews, really...
773
00:35:01.140 --> 00:35:03.142
Ok, I gotta call you back.
774
00:35:03.142 --> 00:35:03.935
He looks like a clown.
775
00:35:03.935 --> 00:35:05.311
He looks like a circus clown.
776
00:35:05.311 --> 00:35:06.479
What's going on?
777
00:35:06.479 --> 00:35:08.606
Anyway, never beat me
on one count, never will again.
778
00:35:08.606 --> 00:35:10.900
And the winner is... Boom!
779
00:35:10.900 --> 00:35:13.361
My guy got acquitted by the jury
780
00:35:13.361 --> 00:35:17.323
and he should have been indicted
for manslaughter at least.
781
00:35:17.323 --> 00:35:19.700
Great.
782
00:35:19.700 --> 00:35:21.494
Hey, wait.
783
00:35:21.494 --> 00:35:22.662
Uh, congratulations.
784
00:35:24.789 --> 00:35:25.998
I want to ask you
about something.
785
00:35:25.998 --> 00:35:26.874
Oh, please do.
786
00:35:26.874 --> 00:35:27.834
I'm having difficulties with--
787
00:35:29.710 --> 00:35:32.880
Look at you. You're so happy.
788
00:35:32.880 --> 00:35:33.881
Ok, relax-
789
00:35:33.881 --> 00:35:35.700
Good day.
790
00:35:35.700 --> 00:35:36.509
You're having a good day.
791
00:35:36.509 --> 00:35:39.345
It's gonna get better.
It's about to get better.
792
00:35:39.345 --> 00:35:41.889
Ok, so did you actually want
to talk to me, or did you?
793
00:35:41.889 --> 00:35:42.932
Yes. Your lips taste like honey.
794
00:35:42.932 --> 00:35:44.308
I know you've been
told that before.
795
00:35:44.308 --> 00:35:45.590
Is that true?
796
00:35:45.590 --> 00:35:46.180
Constantly.
797
00:35:46.180 --> 00:35:47.186
There's a whole
blog dedicated to it.
798
00:35:47.186 --> 00:35:48.200
Ok, enough!
799
00:35:48.200 --> 00:35:49.355
We can't do this in here!
800
00:35:49.355 --> 00:35:50.356
[laughs]
Stop!
801
00:35:50.356 --> 00:35:51.816
They're gonna hear us
out there.
802
00:35:51.816 --> 00:35:53.693
You have to stop.
803
00:35:53.693 --> 00:35:54.610
Come on.
804
00:35:54.610 --> 00:35:55.987
What?
805
00:35:55.987 --> 00:35:57.738
Ok.
806
00:35:57.738 --> 00:35:58.865
Hey, hey.
807
00:35:58.865 --> 00:35:59.782
We can't do this here.
808
00:35:59.782 --> 00:36:01.330
Come on.
809
00:36:01.330 --> 00:36:02.118
We can do anything we want.
810
00:36:02.118 --> 00:36:03.369
What if someone walks in?
811
00:36:03.369 --> 00:36:06.372
I also don't want everyone
here thinking of me like this.
812
00:36:06.372 --> 00:36:07.957
Please.
813
00:36:12.420 --> 00:36:13.880
My house, ten minutes.
814
00:36:13.880 --> 00:36:18.759
Yes. Ok.
815
00:36:18.759 --> 00:36:20.520
I'll leave after you.
816
00:36:20.520 --> 00:36:21.470
Ok.
817
00:36:21.470 --> 00:36:23.550
Don't keep me waiting.
818
00:36:23.550 --> 00:36:24.557
Whew.
819
00:36:32.523 --> 00:36:34.400
My sister didn't love Chuck.
820
00:36:34.400 --> 00:36:37.528
I mean, she liked his lifestyle
and she liked the attention
821
00:36:37.528 --> 00:36:41.908
but down deep she knew
he was no good for her.
822
00:36:41.908 --> 00:36:45.745
She just couldn't end it.
823
00:36:51.125 --> 00:36:53.169
You know, I'm gonna be 27
on Monday.
824
00:36:53.169 --> 00:36:54.860
What?
825
00:36:54.860 --> 00:36:55.588
Yeah.
826
00:36:55.588 --> 00:36:56.714
Why didn't you tell me that?
827
00:36:56.714 --> 00:36:58.841
Oh, am I supposed to put it
in your calendar?
828
00:36:58.841 --> 00:37:00.801
Abso-freaking-lutely.
829
00:37:00.801 --> 00:37:03.930
We gotta celebrate.
830
00:37:03.930 --> 00:37:08.225
I'm gonna fly you down
after my party to Miami.
831
00:37:08.225 --> 00:37:10.895
Yeah, I can't come
to your party.
832
00:37:10.895 --> 00:37:13.105
What're you talking about?
833
00:37:13.105 --> 00:37:14.815
What do you mean you can't come
to my party?
834
00:37:14.815 --> 00:37:17.234
It's not even a question
that you're coming to my party.
835
00:37:17.234 --> 00:37:19.362
Ok?
836
00:37:19.362 --> 00:37:21.405
You don't come, you're fired.
837
00:37:23.449 --> 00:37:24.492
I mean...
838
00:37:24.492 --> 00:37:25.534
Oh my god.
839
00:37:25.534 --> 00:37:28.162
Seriously, why can't you come
to my party?
840
00:37:28.162 --> 00:37:29.830
I have to go spend my birthday
with my family.
841
00:37:29.830 --> 00:37:32.291
I haven't seen them in
forever and my brother's
making me a cake,
842
00:37:32.291 --> 00:37:33.626
I don't want to disappoint him.
843
00:37:35.962 --> 00:37:37.630
Wait...
844
00:37:40.841 --> 00:37:43.100
They live in Absecon, right?
845
00:37:43.100 --> 00:37:44.136
Yes.
846
00:37:44.136 --> 00:37:46.472
Ok, so uh, you go celebrate
with your family
847
00:37:46.472 --> 00:37:53.312
and I'll send a car out you can
come down to Margate.
848
00:37:53.312 --> 00:37:54.271
How easy was that?
849
00:37:54.271 --> 00:37:55.147
You'd do that?
850
00:37:55.147 --> 00:37:55.940
It's already done.
851
00:37:55.940 --> 00:37:57.984
You want me there that badly?
852
00:37:57.984 --> 00:37:59.986
It's not a party
without the party girl.
853
00:39:10.264 --> 00:39:11.932
Oh my god.
854
00:39:11.932 --> 00:39:13.559
Who're you texting?
855
00:39:18.481 --> 00:39:19.231
Hi.
856
00:39:19.231 --> 00:39:19.940
Hi.
857
00:39:19.940 --> 00:39:21.692
I was just gonna call you.
858
00:39:21.692 --> 00:39:23.360
Are you coming in
Friday or Saturday?
859
00:39:23.360 --> 00:39:25.571
'Cause I can pick you up
at the station if you want.
860
00:39:25.571 --> 00:39:27.364
Yeah. That's why I called,
because um...
861
00:39:27.364 --> 00:39:28.991
Oh my god, do not tell me
you're bailing.
862
00:39:28.991 --> 00:39:31.327
Will you relax, I'm not bailing.
863
00:39:31.327 --> 00:39:32.953
Thank god, because
I'd have to kill you.
864
00:39:32.953 --> 00:39:35.247
You know Max has blown up
like 1,000 balloons already.
865
00:39:35.247 --> 00:39:38.000
Ok, it's just Chuck is giving me
like a lot of flack
866
00:39:38.000 --> 00:39:40.440
for not coming to his party.
867
00:39:40.440 --> 00:39:41.545
Why is Chuck giving you flack?
868
00:39:41.545 --> 00:39:42.630
Are you his caterer now?
869
00:39:42.630 --> 00:39:44.548
It's not like that.
870
00:39:44.548 --> 00:39:46.592
It's not like what?
871
00:39:46.592 --> 00:39:49.970
Ok, just like don't freak out
but um...
872
00:39:49.970 --> 00:39:51.222
What?
873
00:39:51.222 --> 00:39:54.975
We've kind of started
seeing each other.
874
00:39:54.975 --> 00:39:56.560
Ok, that's a joke right?
875
00:39:56.560 --> 00:39:59.230
Oh my god, you don't even
know him!
876
00:39:59.230 --> 00:40:00.314
You could have Paul.
877
00:40:00.314 --> 00:40:01.482
Paul is like the kind of guy
878
00:40:01.482 --> 00:40:03.984
that woman will
just like kill for.
879
00:40:03.984 --> 00:40:07.279
Why would you want to trade him
in for the Cult of Chucky?
880
00:40:07.279 --> 00:40:09.657
I didn't ask for him to for him
to like fall in love with me,
881
00:40:09.657 --> 00:40:10.574
but it's-
882
00:40:10.574 --> 00:40:11.367
Oh my god.
883
00:40:11.367 --> 00:40:13.202
He said he's in love with you?
884
00:40:13.202 --> 00:40:13.828
Seriously?
885
00:40:13.828 --> 00:40:14.703
Don't tell mom either!
886
00:40:14.703 --> 00:40:15.871
I'm going to handle it!
887
00:40:15.871 --> 00:40:17.810
Just don't say anything to mom.
888
00:40:17.810 --> 00:40:18.124
Fine.
889
00:40:18.124 --> 00:40:19.708
Are you gonna tell Max
that you're not coming?
890
00:40:19.708 --> 00:40:20.751
I didn't say I wasn't coming!
891
00:40:20.751 --> 00:40:23.379
This is unbelievable!
You're unbelievable!
892
00:40:23.379 --> 00:40:24.839
Ok. Thanks for nothing!
893
00:40:24.839 --> 00:40:26.132
I don't know why I bother
with you.
894
00:40:26.132 --> 00:40:26.799
So are you coming?
895
00:40:26.799 --> 00:40:28.509
Yes, I'm coming! Goodbye!
896
00:41:03.335 --> 00:41:08.215
I can go to family functions
and remember them.
897
00:41:08.215 --> 00:41:11.177
And have a good time, but
it wasn't always like that.
898
00:41:11.177 --> 00:41:14.847
You know, my dad would
piss me off and I'd be like oh,
899
00:41:14.847 --> 00:41:16.640
I'll show you.
900
00:41:16.640 --> 00:41:18.851
My mom would yell at me, boom.
901
00:41:18.851 --> 00:41:19.977
Drink.
902
00:41:19.977 --> 00:41:22.396
F you, mom, Right?
903
00:41:22.396 --> 00:41:24.690
So I was drinking at people
for years,
904
00:41:24.690 --> 00:41:27.693
trying to feel better,
which really means feel less,
905
00:41:27.693 --> 00:41:28.944
and it didn't matter
what it was.
906
00:41:28.944 --> 00:41:32.406
Booze, drugs, sex, food.
907
00:41:32.406 --> 00:41:34.330
It's all the same thing.
908
00:41:34.330 --> 00:41:36.827
My addict will literally
try anything
909
00:41:36.827 --> 00:41:39.914
to fill this gaping hole
inside of me
910
00:41:39.914 --> 00:41:43.830
and she won't stop
until I'm dead.
911
00:41:45.961 --> 00:41:47.213
I thought it was good, yeah.
912
00:41:47.213 --> 00:41:49.890
Yeah, I know.
913
00:41:49.890 --> 00:41:50.507
Hi, I'm sorry, I don't mean
to interrupt.
914
00:41:50.507 --> 00:41:52.468
Hi, by the way,
It's nice to see you.
915
00:41:52.468 --> 00:41:53.510
Good to see you.
916
00:41:53.510 --> 00:41:55.221
It's been a really long time.
917
00:41:55.221 --> 00:41:58.980
Um, I just wanted to say
like that was really helpful,
918
00:41:58.980 --> 00:42:01.435
your share, it was super
relatable and it's-
919
00:42:01.435 --> 00:42:03.395
it's been a really crazy period
for me right now
920
00:42:03.395 --> 00:42:04.563
because like
I've been drinking
921
00:42:04.563 --> 00:42:06.607
just to fall asleep and if I try
to stop I start having
922
00:42:06.607 --> 00:42:11.695
these really terrible
panic attacks and I feel like-
923
00:42:11.695 --> 00:42:13.322
(crying) I feel like I'm gonna
have a heart attack,
924
00:42:13.322 --> 00:42:16.617
like I feel like my heart is
just beating through my chest
925
00:42:16.617 --> 00:42:20.162
and I've been trying all these
different things and it's-
926
00:42:20.162 --> 00:42:21.956
I'm sorry.
927
00:42:21.956 --> 00:42:23.165
I'm sorry.
928
00:42:23.165 --> 00:42:26.850
It's just really hard to stay
on top of it I think,
929
00:42:26.850 --> 00:42:27.628
because it just feels like
I'm drowning and I've been
930
00:42:27.628 --> 00:42:29.421
trying to taper and I've just
been tapering
931
00:42:29.421 --> 00:42:30.506
and it's just not working
932
00:42:30.506 --> 00:42:32.700
and I just don't know how
to actually stop.
933
00:42:32.700 --> 00:42:33.259
Ok, look.
934
00:42:33.259 --> 00:42:36.110
Um, let me just say that for me
tapering didn't work.
935
00:42:36.110 --> 00:42:37.888
We're alcoholics, right?
936
00:42:37.888 --> 00:42:40.990
When were we ever content
with just one?
937
00:42:40.990 --> 00:42:41.267
Yeah.
938
00:42:41.267 --> 00:42:43.727
I just went cold turkey
with a ton of support.
939
00:42:43.727 --> 00:42:44.520
Yeah.
940
00:42:44.520 --> 00:42:46.397
Support is huge.
941
00:42:46.397 --> 00:42:48.816
I also had to do a huge
clean out of my place.
942
00:42:48.816 --> 00:42:49.858
Oh, yeah.
943
00:42:49.858 --> 00:42:51.680
You've gotta get all
the toxic substances-
944
00:42:51.680 --> 00:42:51.944
And people.
945
00:42:51.944 --> 00:42:53.946
Out of reach and
out of your life.
946
00:42:53.946 --> 00:42:55.990
Which, in my case, included
my ex-husband.
947
00:42:55.990 --> 00:42:58.742
Yes, it did.
948
00:42:58.742 --> 00:42:59.576
Hey, listen.
949
00:42:59.576 --> 00:43:03.455
Um, take a phone list, ok?
950
00:43:03.455 --> 00:43:04.540
Use it.
951
00:43:04.540 --> 00:43:07.209
The main thing is keep
coming back.
952
00:43:07.209 --> 00:43:08.502
Don't isolate.
953
00:43:08.502 --> 00:43:11.630
That's when bad things happen.
954
00:43:16.343 --> 00:43:20.139
Can I start you off
with a drink from the bar?
955
00:43:20.139 --> 00:43:22.570
I'll get a Manhattan
with a twist of lime
956
00:43:22.570 --> 00:43:24.601
and a Sauvignon Blanc, please,
glass.
957
00:43:24.601 --> 00:43:25.644
My pleasure.
958
00:43:28.188 --> 00:43:29.815
Wait. Did you just order me
a glass of wine?
959
00:43:29.815 --> 00:43:32.151
I did.
960
00:43:32.151 --> 00:43:33.944
[message alert]
961
00:43:33.944 --> 00:43:35.112
I can cancel it.
962
00:43:35.112 --> 00:43:39.575
I'm so sick of hearing
about Chuck's party!
963
00:43:39.575 --> 00:43:42.745
I should just break up with him
and get back together with Paul.
964
00:43:42.745 --> 00:43:47.410
Chuck is a bit of a dick but
he could give you a big life.
965
00:43:47.410 --> 00:43:48.167
What are you talking about?
966
00:43:48.167 --> 00:43:50.850
Chuck is so obviously
bad for me.
967
00:43:50.850 --> 00:43:51.545
Well, you were always
complaining about how Paul,
968
00:43:51.545 --> 00:43:53.130
all he does is hang out
in his underwear
969
00:43:53.130 --> 00:43:54.131
and play video games.
970
00:43:54.131 --> 00:43:55.215
Chuck's an egomaniac.
971
00:43:55.215 --> 00:43:58.761
He's been with like millions
of women.
972
00:43:58.761 --> 00:44:00.220
I just don't understand
why you're not telling me
973
00:44:00.220 --> 00:44:01.263
to break up with him.
974
00:44:01.263 --> 00:44:02.723
Because you're an intelligent
adult woman
975
00:44:02.723 --> 00:44:04.141
who I believe deserves
the dignity
976
00:44:04.141 --> 00:44:06.101
to make her own decisions.
977
00:44:06.101 --> 00:44:07.227
I mean, is Paul right for you?
978
00:44:07.227 --> 00:44:08.145
Yeah.
979
00:44:08.145 --> 00:44:09.646
Probably, yeah.
980
00:44:09.646 --> 00:44:10.564
But you're always saying
981
00:44:10.564 --> 00:44:11.899
how there's no snap,
crackle, pop.
982
00:44:11.899 --> 00:44:13.400
Maybe that's not the most
important thing.
983
00:44:13.400 --> 00:44:15.402
Maybe that's not everything.
984
00:44:15.402 --> 00:44:18.947
Alright, well, do
whatever you want.
985
00:44:18.947 --> 00:44:20.699
I mean, I don't even know why
986
00:44:20.699 --> 00:44:22.868
you're even torturing yourself
to make a decision.
987
00:44:22.868 --> 00:44:26.205
It's not like you're exactly
a one-guy woman.
988
00:44:27.390 --> 00:44:28.624
What?
989
00:44:28.624 --> 00:44:30.292
Three or four guys is about
right for the proper care
990
00:44:30.292 --> 00:44:31.919
and feeding of you.
991
00:44:31.919 --> 00:44:33.629
You're gonna judge me?
992
00:44:33.629 --> 00:44:34.463
I'm kidding.
993
00:44:34.463 --> 00:44:35.798
Wow, dude.
994
00:44:35.798 --> 00:44:38.217
Pot, kettle black, big time.
995
00:44:38.217 --> 00:44:39.551
Come on, I was just joking.
996
00:44:39.551 --> 00:44:40.344
Chill.
997
00:44:40.344 --> 00:44:41.512
Don't tell me to chill.
998
00:44:41.512 --> 00:44:43.430
You know the one way to not
get people to chill
999
00:44:43.430 --> 00:44:44.765
is to tell them to chill!
1000
00:44:44.765 --> 00:44:46.160
Alright.
1001
00:44:46.160 --> 00:44:47.101
You know, I was doing really
well when I was with Paul.
1002
00:44:47.101 --> 00:44:48.769
I completely stopped
all of my purging.
1003
00:44:48.769 --> 00:44:49.686
And started binge drinking.
1004
00:44:49.686 --> 00:44:51.397
Yeah, because he broke up
with me!
1005
00:44:51.397 --> 00:44:53.482
You're just always trying
to sabotage my sobriety.
1006
00:44:53.482 --> 00:44:54.566
You can't handle it.
1007
00:44:54.566 --> 00:44:56.527
You can't stand the thought
of me being sober
1008
00:44:56.527 --> 00:44:58.612
because it would mean-
1009
00:44:58.612 --> 00:44:59.696
What are you talking about?
1010
00:44:59.696 --> 00:45:01.448
Because you only ever
take me out to drink.
1011
00:45:01.448 --> 00:45:02.825
We only ever go to bars.
1012
00:45:02.825 --> 00:45:04.760
And when I told you
1013
00:45:04.760 --> 00:45:05.953
I was gonna start tapering
my drinking did you support me?
1014
00:45:05.953 --> 00:45:07.913
No. You just kept ordering me
more alcohol.
1015
00:45:07.913 --> 00:45:09.998
You never, ever stopped
to be like oh,
1016
00:45:09.998 --> 00:45:11.625
maybe you shouldn't have
1017
00:45:11.625 --> 00:45:12.960
that third, fourth, fifth,
sixth, seventh, eighth-
1018
00:45:12.960 --> 00:45:13.877
You don't even drink that much.
1019
00:45:13.877 --> 00:45:14.920
Yes, I do!
1020
00:45:14.920 --> 00:45:16.880
You don't know!
1021
00:45:16.880 --> 00:45:17.881
You don't know what I do!
1022
00:45:17.881 --> 00:45:21.468
I see you for like one hour
out of every week!
1023
00:45:21.468 --> 00:45:24.540
I'm drunk like almost
all the time!
1024
00:45:24.540 --> 00:45:25.431
And if I'm not I'm miserable.
1025
00:45:25.431 --> 00:45:27.391
It's not the alcohol that's
the problem here, Jules.
1026
00:45:27.391 --> 00:45:29.601
It's what's causing you to drink
that's the problem.
1027
00:45:29.601 --> 00:45:31.395
That's why I keep telling you
to talk to a therapist
1028
00:45:31.395 --> 00:45:33.147
to figure out why you binge
and purge and drink.
1029
00:45:33.147 --> 00:45:33.981
No, no, no.
1030
00:45:33.981 --> 00:45:35.107
You know what it is?
1031
00:45:35.107 --> 00:45:37.109
It's that if I get sober
you're scared I won't be
1032
00:45:37.109 --> 00:45:38.318
with you anymore.
1033
00:45:38.318 --> 00:45:39.278
And you're right.
1034
00:45:39.278 --> 00:45:40.529
If I was sober I wouldn't
be with you.
1035
00:45:40.529 --> 00:45:42.156
I wouldn't be with any of you.
1036
00:45:42.156 --> 00:45:44.740
Wait, where are you going?
1037
00:45:44.740 --> 00:45:45.909
Are you serious right now?
1038
00:45:50.789 --> 00:45:52.458
[honk]
1039
00:45:52.458 --> 00:45:53.208
Julia!
1040
00:45:53.208 --> 00:45:54.501
Come on, I'm sorry.
1041
00:45:54.501 --> 00:45:55.961
Get in the car,
let me take you home.
1042
00:45:55.961 --> 00:45:56.795
No.
1043
00:45:56.795 --> 00:45:58.460
Come on. What do you mean,
no?
1044
00:45:58.460 --> 00:45:59.131
Just get in the car.
1045
00:45:59.131 --> 00:46:00.799
Go away! I'm not getting
in the car!
1046
00:46:00.799 --> 00:46:02.968
I'm not gonna let you
walk home.
1047
00:46:05.220 --> 00:46:06.722
God.
1048
00:46:06.722 --> 00:46:07.639
Go!
1049
00:46:07.639 --> 00:46:08.849
Text me you got home safe.
1050
00:46:08.849 --> 00:46:09.850
Fine!
1051
00:46:12.102 --> 00:46:13.979
I hate you!
1052
00:46:17.649 --> 00:46:19.860
I was more determined than ever
to stop drinking.
1053
00:46:19.860 --> 00:46:22.988
I made an appointment
with my shrink to get help.
1054
00:46:22.988 --> 00:46:25.282
If you'd been taking in as much
alcohol as I had,
1055
00:46:25.282 --> 00:46:27.159
and then you suddenly stop,
1056
00:46:27.159 --> 00:46:29.912
you're at risk for some pretty
horrific symptoms,
1057
00:46:29.912 --> 00:46:32.789
including high blood pressure,
fever, confusion,
1058
00:46:32.789 --> 00:46:34.833
even hallucinations
and seizures.
1059
00:46:36.585 --> 00:46:38.253
[message alert]
1060
00:46:38.253 --> 00:46:39.296
I'm sorry.
1061
00:46:40.756 --> 00:46:42.674
That's ok.
1062
00:46:48.972 --> 00:46:50.349
You want to tell me
about the purging?
1063
00:46:50.349 --> 00:46:51.517
No, that's actually good.
1064
00:46:51.517 --> 00:46:54.190
That's the one thing that's good
at the moment, so...
1065
00:46:54.190 --> 00:46:54.811
Ok.
1066
00:46:54.811 --> 00:46:55.646
How about the drinking?
1067
00:46:55.646 --> 00:46:57.731
How much and how often?
1068
00:46:57.731 --> 00:47:00.317
It's a lot.
1069
00:47:00.317 --> 00:47:05.364
Like a bottle and a half, two
bottles a night at the moment.
1070
00:47:08.784 --> 00:47:09.576
An inpatient program,
1071
00:47:09.576 --> 00:47:11.537
is that an option for you?
1072
00:47:11.537 --> 00:47:12.996
Yeah, I just don't have
insurance right now
1073
00:47:12.996 --> 00:47:14.790
so I can't afford it.
1074
00:47:14.790 --> 00:47:18.627
But I did actually want
to talk to you about-
1075
00:47:18.627 --> 00:47:23.480
I read that um, like benzos
and valium can help
1076
00:47:23.480 --> 00:47:25.425
with withdrawal and-
and stuff, so...
1077
00:47:25.425 --> 00:47:27.678
Well, benzos can help, yes,
1078
00:47:27.678 --> 00:47:30.130
but they can obviously
be addictive.
1079
00:47:30.130 --> 00:47:30.931
No, I know.
1080
00:47:30.931 --> 00:47:33.809
And I'm totally aware of that.
1081
00:47:33.809 --> 00:47:36.979
Uh, I just- I do want to try
going cold turkey this weekend
1082
00:47:36.979 --> 00:47:38.397
and I just want to be safe.
1083
00:47:38.397 --> 00:47:40.983
It just feels like the best
option for me.
1084
00:47:40.983 --> 00:47:42.859
Detoxing from alcohol
is not something
1085
00:47:42.859 --> 00:47:45.320
that you should be attempting
on your own.
1086
00:47:45.320 --> 00:47:46.363
Do you understand?
1087
00:47:46.363 --> 00:47:47.406
Sure.
1088
00:47:47.406 --> 00:47:48.574
Um, and I have someone
who will stay with me
1089
00:47:48.574 --> 00:47:53.745
if I ask him to, I just have
to call him.
1090
00:47:53.745 --> 00:47:55.872
There you go.
1091
00:48:04.881 --> 00:48:06.550
[message alert]
1092
00:48:29.740 --> 00:48:30.657
Hey.
1093
00:48:30.657 --> 00:48:32.743
Nice to see you again,
Darren Jones.
1094
00:48:32.743 --> 00:48:33.869
Remember me?
1095
00:48:33.869 --> 00:48:36.380
Yeah, I'm the girl that you
roofied on Saturday.
1096
00:48:36.380 --> 00:48:37.789
Remember?
1097
00:48:37.789 --> 00:48:38.832
Give me my card.
1098
00:48:38.832 --> 00:48:40.500
I would never have gone
home with you
1099
00:48:40.500 --> 00:48:42.200
if you hadn't drugged me!
1100
00:48:42.200 --> 00:48:42.919
Well, she's obviously crazy.
1101
00:48:42.919 --> 00:48:44.796
Yeah, I'm crazy
'cause you raped me!
1102
00:48:44.796 --> 00:48:48.800
Last Saturday this guy,
Darren Jones, raped me!
1103
00:48:48.800 --> 00:48:50.677
Oh, where are you off to,
Darren?
1104
00:48:50.677 --> 00:48:52.120
You forgot your card.
1105
00:48:52.120 --> 00:48:54.139
Darren Jones, everybody.
1106
00:48:54.139 --> 00:48:55.766
Yeah, run, Darren!
1107
00:48:55.766 --> 00:48:58.268
Run!
1108
00:48:58.268 --> 00:49:00.687
(replay) I would never have gone
home with you if-
1109
00:49:00.687 --> 00:49:01.605
Look at his face.
1110
00:49:01.605 --> 00:49:03.982
Oh my god,
look at his face!
1111
00:49:03.982 --> 00:49:05.942
[laughs]
1112
00:49:05.942 --> 00:49:08.570
You know, I got some people
in the Philly PD.
1113
00:49:08.570 --> 00:49:10.280
You wouldn't even have to go
up to the station.
1114
00:49:10.280 --> 00:49:11.156
Uh-uh, dude.
1115
00:49:11.156 --> 00:49:13.659
I am putting this all over
YouTube.
1116
00:49:13.659 --> 00:49:17.371
I am gonna nail this scumbag
to the wall.
1117
00:49:17.371 --> 00:49:20.123
I'm going to ruin your life.
1118
00:49:20.123 --> 00:49:21.124
Are you sure you're ok?
1119
00:49:21.124 --> 00:49:21.917
Look at him.
1120
00:49:21.917 --> 00:49:22.584
Yeah, I'm great.
1121
00:49:22.584 --> 00:49:26.254
I feel amazing.
1122
00:49:26.254 --> 00:49:27.798
Do you want me to come up
with you?
1123
00:49:27.798 --> 00:49:30.217
Make sure you feel safe?
1124
00:49:32.761 --> 00:49:34.346
Yeah, I do.
1125
00:49:40.811 --> 00:49:43.146
[laughing]
1126
00:49:43.146 --> 00:49:47.609
Gotcha.
1127
00:49:47.609 --> 00:49:50.737
Ok, I have to be serious
for one second.
1128
00:49:50.737 --> 00:49:51.655
Uh-oh.
1129
00:49:51.655 --> 00:49:55.492
I am gonna quit drinking.
1130
00:49:55.492 --> 00:49:56.910
Ok.
1131
00:49:56.910 --> 00:49:58.495
Will you help me?
1132
00:49:58.495 --> 00:49:59.621
Of course.
1133
00:49:59.621 --> 00:50:01.540
You know I got you.
1134
00:50:01.540 --> 00:50:05.100
Will you spend the weekend
with me?
1135
00:50:05.100 --> 00:50:06.440
I would love nothing-
1136
00:50:06.440 --> 00:50:08.130
Yes, I will spend the weekend
with you.
1137
00:50:08.130 --> 00:50:10.382
More than to spend the weekend
with you but I-
1138
00:50:10.382 --> 00:50:12.384
Look, I got a prescription
for valium from my shrink
1139
00:50:12.384 --> 00:50:14.845
but she said it's not safe
to detox alone.
1140
00:50:14.845 --> 00:50:18.765
Ok, but can we- can we wait
until next weekend?
1141
00:50:18.765 --> 00:50:20.809
But it's my birthday this week.
1142
00:50:20.809 --> 00:50:22.269
Yeah, I know.
1143
00:50:22.269 --> 00:50:23.937
It's just that my in-laws are
coming to town
1144
00:50:23.937 --> 00:50:30.402
and it's Jaelyn's little league
game on Saturday.
1145
00:50:30.402 --> 00:50:31.611
But I mean next weekend
I'm free
1146
00:50:31.611 --> 00:50:35.449
and I could just tell Grace
that, you know,
1147
00:50:35.449 --> 00:50:37.868
I got stuff to do.
1148
00:50:37.868 --> 00:50:40.245
Sure.
1149
00:50:48.462 --> 00:50:49.546
Don't.
1150
00:50:49.546 --> 00:50:50.464
Don't what?
1151
00:50:50.464 --> 00:50:55.135
Don't look at me like that.
1152
00:50:57.120 --> 00:50:59.723
Look, I'll be here for you
next weekend.
1153
00:50:59.723 --> 00:51:02.934
I promise I'll be here
without fail.
1154
00:51:09.149 --> 00:51:11.651
After Neil left I couldn't
fall asleep.
1155
00:51:11.651 --> 00:51:15.238
I just kept having this feeling
of impending doom.
1156
00:51:15.238 --> 00:51:17.783
I decided I couldn't afford
to wait.
1157
00:51:17.783 --> 00:51:19.326
I was in a plane
that was going down
1158
00:51:19.326 --> 00:51:23.121
and I needed to put on
my own oxygen mask.
1159
00:51:24.372 --> 00:51:27.167
I decided I wasn't going
to go home to see my family,
1160
00:51:27.167 --> 00:51:29.878
I wasn't going to go to Chuck's
party and drink myself blind,
1161
00:51:29.878 --> 00:51:34.466
I was gonna hunker down at my
place and detox from alcohol.
1162
00:51:57.197 --> 00:52:00.534
Hello people!
Day 1: cold turkey.
1163
00:52:00.534 --> 00:52:03.360
I took my pill
and feeling great.
1164
00:52:03.360 --> 00:52:05.205
I dumped my stash and I'm
working on a list of things
1165
00:52:05.205 --> 00:52:07.582
I wanna do to stay busy.
1166
00:52:07.582 --> 00:52:10.430
For the first time in years
1167
00:52:10.430 --> 00:52:13.129
I actually feel the tiniest
bud of hope.
1168
00:52:13.129 --> 00:52:15.799
I am going to change my life.
1169
00:52:21.179 --> 00:52:25.267
After starting my detox I was
so excited I was up all night.
1170
00:52:25.267 --> 00:52:28.645
I texted Neil to meet me
at the Rocky steps.
1171
00:52:28.645 --> 00:52:31.398
I was feeling great.
1172
00:52:31.398 --> 00:52:34.359
Woohoo!
1173
00:52:34.359 --> 00:52:36.270
Look at me go!
1174
00:52:36.270 --> 00:52:36.862
You did it.
1175
00:52:36.862 --> 00:52:37.988
I know.
1176
00:52:37.988 --> 00:52:40.532
I have just been thinking
about the 27 club and,
1177
00:52:40.532 --> 00:52:43.118
like, all the people who died
when they were 27, right?
1178
00:52:43.118 --> 00:52:45.780
Like Janis Joplin,
Amy Winehouse,
1179
00:52:45.780 --> 00:52:46.371
Kurt Cobain- Jimi Hendrix.
1180
00:52:46.371 --> 00:52:46.955
Jimi Hendrix.
1181
00:52:46.955 --> 00:52:48.206
Yeah.
1182
00:52:48.206 --> 00:52:49.499
And just like all the amazing
stuff that they had done
1183
00:52:49.499 --> 00:52:51.960
when they were 27 and then they
died and I was like oh my god,
1184
00:52:51.960 --> 00:52:54.713
if I die at 27 I'm not gonna be
in that club.
1185
00:52:54.713 --> 00:52:56.464
There's like no reason I would
ever be in that club.
1186
00:52:56.464 --> 00:52:57.716
I haven't done anything.
1187
00:52:57.716 --> 00:52:59.900
And normally that thought
would like really freak me out,
1188
00:52:59.900 --> 00:53:00.719
like I would be like oh my god,
1189
00:53:00.719 --> 00:53:02.530
I'm not living up
to my potential
1190
00:53:02.530 --> 00:53:03.179
I've just been like
waiting around,
1191
00:53:03.179 --> 00:53:04.389
am I like fulfilled?
1192
00:53:04.389 --> 00:53:05.390
Am I happy?
1193
00:53:05.390 --> 00:53:06.725
Like all these different
questions, right?
1194
00:53:06.725 --> 00:53:07.726
Mmmhmm.
1195
00:53:07.726 --> 00:53:08.935
But like I don't feel
like that anymore.
1196
00:53:08.935 --> 00:53:10.854
Like I just don't
feel like that.
1197
00:53:10.854 --> 00:53:12.630
I feel really good.
1198
00:53:12.630 --> 00:53:12.772
Good.
1199
00:53:12.772 --> 00:53:14.107
I feel amazing.
1200
00:53:14.107 --> 00:53:15.859
And I think the problem is, is
like we're constantly waiting,
1201
00:53:15.859 --> 00:53:17.903
like oh, I'll start living
my life once I'm skinny,
1202
00:53:17.903 --> 00:53:21.720
once I'm rich, once I'm married,
once I'm whatever.
1203
00:53:21.720 --> 00:53:21.740
Yeah.
1204
00:53:21.740 --> 00:53:22.782
And you can't.
1205
00:53:22.782 --> 00:53:24.340
You can't just wait
for any of that stuff.
1206
00:53:24.340 --> 00:53:25.160
You have to just start doing it.
1207
00:53:25.160 --> 00:53:26.703
So last night I wrote
this bucket list
1208
00:53:26.703 --> 00:53:27.871
and I'm gonna do all of it.
1209
00:53:27.871 --> 00:53:29.205
I'm gonna do all of it this year
1210
00:53:29.205 --> 00:53:30.874
and you just helped me
with number 67.
1211
00:53:30.874 --> 00:53:32.208
Rocky steps.
1212
00:53:32.208 --> 00:53:33.585
This was- this was 67?
1213
00:53:33.585 --> 00:53:35.860
Uh-huh.
1214
00:53:35.860 --> 00:53:36.254
What about 69?
1215
00:53:36.254 --> 00:53:39.490
G-g-good one.
1216
00:53:39.490 --> 00:53:40.342
Can I help you with that one?
1217
00:53:40.342 --> 00:53:41.593
Sure.
1218
00:53:41.593 --> 00:53:43.110
Yeah?
1219
00:53:43.110 --> 00:53:46.222
Yeah, no, 69 is um, actually...
1220
00:53:46.222 --> 00:53:49.225
uh, make a meal with my mother.
1221
00:53:49.225 --> 00:53:50.352
That's 69?
1222
00:53:50.352 --> 00:53:51.895
That's number 69.
1223
00:53:51.895 --> 00:53:53.480
I don't know, I think we can
do better.
1224
00:53:54.272 --> 00:53:55.190
Hi.
1225
00:53:55.190 --> 00:53:56.524
Hi.
1226
00:53:56.524 --> 00:53:58.276
Ooh, I like those earrings.
1227
00:53:58.276 --> 00:53:59.903
Thank you, I just got them,
actually.
1228
00:53:59.903 --> 00:54:02.113
They were like 30 percent off.
Yeah.
1229
00:54:02.113 --> 00:54:04.366
They look expensive.
1230
00:54:04.366 --> 00:54:06.284
You're at work,
obviously, right?
1231
00:54:06.284 --> 00:54:07.953
I am at work, uh-huh.
1232
00:54:07.953 --> 00:54:09.454
Um...
1233
00:54:09.454 --> 00:54:10.288
What're you doing?
1234
00:54:10.288 --> 00:54:11.164
Eating?
1235
00:54:11.164 --> 00:54:12.123
No, I just have coffee,
that's all.
1236
00:54:12.123 --> 00:54:12.958
Ok.
1237
00:54:12.958 --> 00:54:15.627
Um, uh, hey.
1238
00:54:15.627 --> 00:54:17.629
There's like a lot of stuff
this weekend
1239
00:54:17.629 --> 00:54:20.131
that I have to reschedule
some things, so-
1240
00:54:20.131 --> 00:54:22.920
Oh my god, I can't believe
you're not coming.
1241
00:54:22.920 --> 00:54:24.219
That's not what I said.
1242
00:54:24.219 --> 00:54:26.137
I can't believe I defended you.
1243
00:54:26.137 --> 00:54:27.430
What?
1244
00:54:27.430 --> 00:54:29.140
Mom said that you'd pick him
over us and I said no, mom-
1245
00:54:29.140 --> 00:54:30.100
Wait, wait, wait, Lola!
1246
00:54:30.100 --> 00:54:31.768
Did you tell mom about Chuck?
1247
00:54:31.768 --> 00:54:33.144
Yeah, I told her.
1248
00:54:33.144 --> 00:54:35.939
What the- I specifically
asked you not to!
1249
00:54:35.939 --> 00:54:37.649
I said that I would take care
of it!
1250
00:54:37.649 --> 00:54:39.693
Yeah, well you're obviously
not taking care of it.
1251
00:54:39.693 --> 00:54:40.986
I mean, you didn't
even call her,
1252
00:54:40.986 --> 00:54:42.654
I called you.
1253
00:54:42.654 --> 00:54:43.738
Is that your sister?
1254
00:54:43.738 --> 00:54:44.990
Yeah, mom. She's not
coming at all
1255
00:54:44.990 --> 00:54:46.157
Don't listen to her, mom.
1256
00:54:46.157 --> 00:54:46.783
Hi mom.
1257
00:54:46.783 --> 00:54:47.409
That's not what I said.
1258
00:54:47.409 --> 00:54:48.493
That's not what I said.
1259
00:54:48.493 --> 00:54:50.412
What would you like me
to tell your brother?
1260
00:54:50.412 --> 00:54:52.414
I didn't say I wasn't
gonna come!
1261
00:54:52.414 --> 00:54:54.499
I just can't stay
the entire weekend.
1262
00:54:54.499 --> 00:54:55.834
[phone ringing]
1263
00:54:55.834 --> 00:54:57.961
You decide and we'll arrange
the day around that.
1264
00:54:57.961 --> 00:54:59.337
It's your birthday, Julia.
1265
00:54:59.337 --> 00:55:01.756
Well, I have to go, we can argue
about this later.
1266
00:55:01.756 --> 00:55:02.340
Whatever.
1267
00:55:02.340 --> 00:55:03.508
You better call Max.
1268
00:55:05.176 --> 00:55:06.136
Hey.
1269
00:55:06.136 --> 00:55:07.637
Did you actually file
the pleadings
1270
00:55:07.637 --> 00:55:10.306
for the Diaz case?
1271
00:55:10.306 --> 00:55:12.517
(Julia): I tried to hold it
together but things were
unravelling.
1272
00:55:12.517 --> 00:55:14.190
Ok, calm down.
1273
00:55:14.190 --> 00:55:16.210
I'm sure that they're
here somewhere.
1274
00:55:18.857 --> 00:55:19.691
Substandard?
1275
00:55:19.691 --> 00:55:21.484
I work my ass off
all the time!
1276
00:55:21.484 --> 00:55:22.986
I'm const-
1277
00:55:22.986 --> 00:55:23.695
You know what?
1278
00:55:23.695 --> 00:55:28.740
Actually, it is- it is- I-
1279
00:55:30.285 --> 00:55:32.912
I've never seen her like that.
1280
00:55:32.912 --> 00:55:36.541
She was crying in the washroom
saying that everybody
1281
00:55:36.541 --> 00:55:38.877
was mad at her.
1282
00:55:38.877 --> 00:55:41.400
Luckily Paul was there.
1283
00:55:41.400 --> 00:55:44.700
[sobbing]
1284
00:55:44.700 --> 00:55:45.341
Jules, hey.
1285
00:55:45.341 --> 00:55:46.510
Oh my god.
1286
00:55:46.510 --> 00:55:46.843
What's going on?
1287
00:55:46.843 --> 00:55:48.110
Hey, no, no, no.
1288
00:55:48.110 --> 00:55:48.762
I'm sorry.
1289
00:55:48.762 --> 00:55:49.554
What's going on?
1290
00:55:49.554 --> 00:55:50.764
It's alright, sorry for what?
1291
00:55:50.764 --> 00:55:51.931
Hey, look at me.
1292
00:55:51.931 --> 00:55:53.975
Everything is just a mess.
1293
00:55:53.975 --> 00:55:58.521
I wanted to tell him everything
but I was afraid he'd hate me.
1294
00:55:58.521 --> 00:56:01.733
Hey.
1295
00:56:01.733 --> 00:56:04.569
What's going on?
1296
00:56:05.862 --> 00:56:09.240
Go ahead, slut shame me
but he was my rock in a storm
1297
00:56:09.240 --> 00:56:10.909
and I clung to him.
1298
00:56:16.390 --> 00:56:18.500
It's too cheesy to call her
a delicate flower
1299
00:56:18.500 --> 00:56:20.502
or something like that
but I think-
1300
00:56:20.502 --> 00:56:22.921
I do think that she brought,
1301
00:56:22.921 --> 00:56:25.340
I don't know, there was
a fragrance about her,
1302
00:56:25.340 --> 00:56:29.260
if that's not too girly.
1303
00:56:29.260 --> 00:56:31.387
When she walked into a room
everyone saw it.
1304
00:56:31.387 --> 00:56:34.557
It wasn't just me, I was just
lucky for that time to have it.
1305
00:56:34.557 --> 00:56:35.850
I don't know what else to say.
1306
00:56:35.850 --> 00:56:39.200
It's not for me to say, anyway.
1307
00:56:39.200 --> 00:56:40.730
But don't talk badly about her.
1308
00:56:40.730 --> 00:56:44.234
She's human and trying like
we all are.
1309
00:56:44.234 --> 00:56:46.194
Let's leave it at that.
1310
00:56:47.779 --> 00:56:49.656
After apologizing
about the file,
1311
00:56:49.656 --> 00:56:52.575
I had promised Chuck I'd go
with him to the Philly party.
1312
00:56:52.575 --> 00:56:54.994
You sure you don't want me
to add a shot of vodka to that?
1313
00:56:54.994 --> 00:56:56.287
No, I'm sure.
1314
00:56:56.287 --> 00:56:58.790
Not to be confused with Chuck's
Memorial Day beach bash.
1315
00:56:58.790 --> 00:57:00.458
Anyway, it was the last place
I wanted to be
1316
00:57:00.458 --> 00:57:02.502
But I convinced myself I'd go
1317
00:57:02.502 --> 00:57:05.797
and actually break it off with
Chuck as part of cleaning house.
1318
00:57:05.797 --> 00:57:07.674
Hey, stop talking to them.
Talk to me.
1319
00:57:07.674 --> 00:57:08.967
I am bored out of my mind.
1320
00:57:08.967 --> 00:57:12.220
Oh my god, Chuck Peruto.
1321
00:57:12.220 --> 00:57:13.429
Grace.
1322
00:57:13.429 --> 00:57:14.848
How are ya?
1323
00:57:14.848 --> 00:57:15.807
Good to see you.
1324
00:57:15.807 --> 00:57:16.766
Good to see you.
1325
00:57:16.766 --> 00:57:18.184
I don't think you guys
have met before.
1326
00:57:18.184 --> 00:57:19.394
This is my husband, Neil.
1327
00:57:19.394 --> 00:57:21.229
Finally.
1328
00:57:21.229 --> 00:57:22.480
Oh right.
1329
00:57:22.480 --> 00:57:24.399
Chuck and I served together
on Hope for the Holidays.
1330
00:57:24.399 --> 00:57:25.733
Good to meet you.
1331
00:57:25.733 --> 00:57:27.485
You work for Larry Glinkowsky,
right?
1332
00:57:27.485 --> 00:57:29.487
Yeah.
1333
00:57:29.487 --> 00:57:31.739
Larry and I go way,
way, way, way, way back.
1334
00:57:31.739 --> 00:57:33.658
Ok, ok.
1335
00:57:33.658 --> 00:57:34.492
Yeah, good guy.
1336
00:57:34.492 --> 00:57:35.535
Yeah.
1337
00:57:35.535 --> 00:57:37.495
Oh, god. I saw Arnie Milliken
the other day.
1338
00:57:37.495 --> 00:57:40.165
Cheap Suit Milliken.
1339
00:57:46.588 --> 00:57:49.215
Can I please take you upstairs
and ravage you right now?
1340
00:57:54.470 --> 00:57:56.970
Hey, what's wrong?
1341
00:57:56.970 --> 01:55:53.818
I'm tired of this.
1342
00:57:56.848 --> 00:57:58.160
I don't wanna do this anymore.
1343
00:57:58.160 --> 00:57:59.350
I'm sick of being
in a relationship
1344
00:57:59.350 --> 00:58:00.518
with Don frikken' Draper.
1345
00:58:00.518 --> 00:58:02.604
I've never loved any other woman
the way I love you.
1346
00:58:02.604 --> 00:58:03.313
Awesome.
1347
00:58:03.313 --> 00:58:04.355
Where does that leave me?
1348
00:58:04.355 --> 00:58:05.356
Huh?
1349
00:58:06.441 --> 00:58:07.859
You're always saying
that you love me,
1350
00:58:07.859 --> 00:58:09.402
you love me more than anything,
that I'm the person
1351
00:58:09.402 --> 00:58:11.279
that you want to be with,
but you could be with me.
1352
00:58:11.279 --> 00:58:13.406
You could be with me really
easily if you wanted to be.
1353
00:58:13.406 --> 00:58:14.490
But you're not.
1354
00:58:14.490 --> 00:58:15.992
I get you for like three hours
out of the week
1355
00:58:15.992 --> 00:58:17.368
if I'm really lucky.
1356
00:58:25.335 --> 00:58:28.504
Seriously?
1357
00:58:28.504 --> 00:58:29.297
Congrats.
1358
00:58:29.297 --> 00:58:30.480
You're the worst.
1359
00:58:30.480 --> 00:58:31.700
Don't say that.
1360
00:58:31.700 --> 00:58:33.176
You didn't even introduce me.
1361
00:58:33.176 --> 00:58:34.969
Neither of you did.
1362
00:58:34.969 --> 00:58:38.890
You just acted like
I wasn't there.
1363
00:58:38.890 --> 00:58:41.142
Maybe I should go and introduce
myself to your lovely wife.
1364
00:58:41.142 --> 00:58:41.893
Woah, woah, woah.
1365
00:58:41.893 --> 00:58:42.727
No?
1366
00:58:42.727 --> 00:58:44.200
No.
1367
00:58:44.200 --> 00:58:46.640
You think that you can have
whatever you want.
1368
00:58:46.640 --> 00:58:50.193
Just be however
you wanna be.
1369
00:58:50.193 --> 00:58:51.152
You can't.
1370
00:58:54.239 --> 00:59:00.453
If my life is gonna be hell,
yours is gonna be hell, too.
1371
00:59:00.453 --> 00:59:02.872
Yeah? What does that mean?
1372
00:59:02.872 --> 00:59:04.666
You'll see.
1373
00:59:13.633 --> 00:59:17.530
As I watched Neil's wife walk
toward me I thought about
1374
00:59:17.530 --> 00:59:20.682
how I could blow up her
perfect world in an instant.
1375
00:59:39.325 --> 00:59:41.953
I knew exactly where I was.
1376
00:59:41.953 --> 00:59:45.290
We were driving home
from a restaurant.
1377
00:59:45.290 --> 00:59:49.168
My parents were in town
so they had the kids.
1378
00:59:49.168 --> 00:59:50.795
The news was on.
1379
00:59:50.795 --> 00:59:55.883
Someone was talking about the
girl in Chuck Peruto's bathtub.
1380
00:59:55.883 --> 00:59:59.804
Everyone in Philly
was talking about it.
1381
00:59:59.804 --> 01:00:03.891
I asked Neil a question
and he didn't answer,
1382
01:00:03.891 --> 01:00:09.731
and when I looked over at him
he was crying.
1383
01:00:09.731 --> 01:00:13.693
Sobbing, actually.
1384
01:00:13.693 --> 01:00:16.154
He had to pull over
1385
01:00:21.451 --> 01:00:29.834
and f... finally he said to me
"I need to tell you something"
1386
01:00:29.834 --> 01:00:31.919
[sobbing]
...and
1387
01:00:36.716 --> 01:00:44.682
When he said that I knew.
1388
01:00:44.682 --> 01:00:52.523
Apparently it had been going on
for years
1389
01:00:52.523 --> 01:00:59.781
and I had absolutely no idea.
1390
01:01:04.494 --> 01:01:05.495
Hey.
1391
01:01:05.495 --> 01:01:07.380
Hey.
1392
01:01:07.380 --> 01:01:08.498
Are you keeping secrets from me?
1393
01:01:08.498 --> 01:01:09.707
What're you talking about?
1394
01:01:09.707 --> 01:01:12.293
Well, Paul thinks you're
spending your birthday with him.
1395
01:01:12.293 --> 01:01:13.169
I'm not-
1396
01:01:13.169 --> 01:01:17.131
Who's- I'm not- oh my god,
1397
01:01:17.131 --> 01:01:18.883
I don't wanna have this fight
with you.
1398
01:01:18.883 --> 01:01:19.926
This is stupid.
1399
01:01:19.926 --> 01:01:21.427
You and I want different things.
1400
01:01:21.427 --> 01:01:22.720
Well, until this morning
1401
01:01:22.720 --> 01:01:24.550
I thought we wanted
the same thing.
1402
01:01:24.550 --> 01:01:26.641
I want you and
from what you tell me,
1403
01:01:26.641 --> 01:01:32.230
and from how you act when
we're alone, you want me.
1404
01:01:32.230 --> 01:01:33.773
Tell me the truth.
1405
01:01:33.773 --> 01:01:35.660
Are you two back together
or not?
1406
01:01:35.660 --> 01:01:36.567
Because last I heard
you weren't even speaking.
1407
01:01:36.567 --> 01:01:38.270
Ok, I'm not with him,
1408
01:01:38.270 --> 01:01:39.195
I'm not getting back together
with him,
1409
01:01:39.195 --> 01:01:40.405
I'm not sleeping with him
1410
01:01:40.405 --> 01:01:41.823
and I'm not spending my birthday
with him, ok?
1411
01:01:41.823 --> 01:01:43.491
Believe me or don't,
I don't really care.
1412
01:01:43.491 --> 01:01:45.410
Tell me- tell me what is it
that you want
1413
01:01:45.410 --> 01:01:47.360
that you think I don't I want.
1414
01:01:47.360 --> 01:01:48.287
You want a list?
1415
01:01:48.287 --> 01:01:49.580
Yes, I do.
1416
01:01:49.580 --> 01:01:51.416
Ok, here's a list of things
that you don't want that I do.
1417
01:01:51.416 --> 01:01:53.459
I want to have kids. I want
to have three kids.
1418
01:01:53.459 --> 01:01:56.379
I want to be in a healthy
relationship with a
functioning person.
1419
01:01:56.379 --> 01:01:57.755
So why is that different
from what I want?
1420
01:01:57.755 --> 01:01:59.298
Because it's exactly why
you broke up with Terri!
1421
01:01:59.298 --> 01:02:01.592
No, I broke up with Terri
because she's nuts.
1422
01:02:01.592 --> 01:02:05.960
I don't wanna have babies
with someone who's nuts, ok?
1423
01:02:05.960 --> 01:02:06.305
You wanna have kids?
1424
01:02:06.305 --> 01:02:07.807
I'll have kids
with you tomorrow.
1425
01:02:07.807 --> 01:02:09.475
Don't joke about that, please.
That's so unfair.
1426
01:02:09.475 --> 01:02:11.600
I'm not joking.
1427
01:02:11.600 --> 01:02:12.353
What do you want me to do
1428
01:02:12.353 --> 01:02:14.272
to show you how crazy I am
for you?
1429
01:02:14.272 --> 01:02:15.606
What?
1430
01:02:15.606 --> 01:02:17.191
Or how perfect I think you are.
1431
01:02:17.191 --> 01:02:18.568
Don't say that.
1432
01:02:18.568 --> 01:02:20.153
You wanna get married?
Let's get married.
1433
01:02:20.153 --> 01:02:21.779
I mean it. I'd go to the moon
with you.
1434
01:02:21.779 --> 01:02:23.781
Ok, I'm- I can't stand people
talking about
1435
01:02:23.781 --> 01:02:25.283
how perfect I am all the time.
1436
01:02:25.283 --> 01:02:26.784
I'm not perfect, I'm flawed, ok?
1437
01:02:26.784 --> 01:02:28.953
Ok, good. I like your flaws.
1438
01:02:28.953 --> 01:02:32.390
You with flaws is ten times
better than the next girl.
1439
01:02:35.835 --> 01:02:37.753
Come here. Come here.
1440
01:02:37.753 --> 01:02:38.796
Chuck, there's-
1441
01:02:38.796 --> 01:02:39.797
So what?
1442
01:02:39.797 --> 01:02:41.215
I don't care who sees.
1443
01:02:41.215 --> 01:02:42.300
I don't.
1444
01:02:42.300 --> 01:02:43.676
Stop it.
1445
01:02:43.676 --> 01:02:45.595
I don't want to stop.
1446
01:02:49.807 --> 01:02:51.893
What is going on?
1447
01:02:51.893 --> 01:02:55.146
Oh, god!
1448
01:02:55.146 --> 01:02:56.481
Don't cause a scene here.
1449
01:02:56.481 --> 01:02:57.648
Don't cause a scene-
1450
01:02:57.648 --> 01:02:58.983
You lying asshole!
1451
01:02:58.983 --> 01:03:00.151
Telling me there's
nothing going on!
1452
01:03:00.151 --> 01:03:01.486
Terri!
1453
01:03:01.486 --> 01:03:02.820
Acting like I'm crazy!
1454
01:03:02.820 --> 01:03:04.113
I was living dangerously.
1455
01:03:04.113 --> 01:03:06.324
I am not crazy!
1456
01:03:06.324 --> 01:03:07.992
I will kick your ass!
1457
01:03:07.992 --> 01:03:10.203
Don't you even look at me!
I am coming for you!
1458
01:03:10.203 --> 01:03:13.122
I knew better than to get
on the wrong side of Terri.
1459
01:03:13.122 --> 01:03:14.582
Terri let's go!
1460
01:03:16.667 --> 01:03:21.714
Chuckie Peruto doesn't
get married to anyone.
1461
01:03:21.714 --> 01:03:24.500
I don't think she knew
what the hell she was doing.
1462
01:03:46.280 --> 01:03:47.573
You're shaking like a leaf.
1463
01:03:47.573 --> 01:03:49.825
Take the friggen' drink.
1464
01:03:50.201 --> 01:03:52.328
Come on.
1465
01:03:57.583 --> 01:04:02.171
You know all that stuff you said
about me being perfect?
1466
01:04:02.171 --> 01:04:03.381
Well, I'm not.
1467
01:04:03.381 --> 01:04:05.633
There's just so much about me
that you don't know.
1468
01:04:05.633 --> 01:04:06.717
I know enough.
1469
01:04:06.717 --> 01:04:08.520
You don't.
1470
01:04:08.520 --> 01:04:10.388
You really don't.
1471
01:04:10.388 --> 01:04:12.390
I know that you're anorexic.
1472
01:04:12.390 --> 01:04:14.559
I'm not anorexic!
1473
01:04:14.559 --> 01:04:17.853
Bulimic, whatever.
1474
01:04:17.853 --> 01:04:19.438
You're a puker.
1475
01:04:19.438 --> 01:04:21.650
Jesus, did somebody
tell you that?
1476
01:04:21.650 --> 01:04:24.680
You wouldn't be the first girl
that's used that as a diet.
1477
01:04:24.680 --> 01:04:26.700
Did you know that I've been
to rehab not just for ED
1478
01:04:26.700 --> 01:04:28.281
but alcohol as well?
1479
01:04:28.281 --> 01:04:30.366
And you think this is
gonna scare me away?
1480
01:04:30.366 --> 01:04:33.578
That I'm gonna go running?
1481
01:04:33.578 --> 01:04:34.745
When I said you're perfect
1482
01:04:34.745 --> 01:04:40.418
I meant you were perfect
for me, ok?
1483
01:04:40.418 --> 01:04:44.589
You don't wanna drink,
we don't drink.
1484
01:04:44.589 --> 01:04:48.551
You think I need drinking
to be fun?
1485
01:04:48.551 --> 01:04:50.886
[glasses smash]
1486
01:04:50.886 --> 01:04:52.680
I'm fun.
1487
01:04:55.141 --> 01:04:58.269
I've helped a lot
of girls get sober.
1488
01:04:58.269 --> 01:05:01.731
Even Gia, for a bit.
1489
01:05:01.731 --> 01:05:03.608
Gia the model?
1490
01:05:03.608 --> 01:05:04.942
Trust me.
1491
01:05:04.942 --> 01:05:10.948
A.A., N.A., fill-in-the-blank A.
1492
01:05:10.948 --> 01:05:17.622
I've been through all of it
multiple times.
1493
01:05:17.622 --> 01:05:19.332
I told you about my brother,
right?
1494
01:05:19.332 --> 01:05:20.958
No, I didn't even know
you had a brother.
1495
01:05:20.958 --> 01:05:24.128
Kid brother, Joey.
1496
01:05:24.128 --> 01:05:26.500
He was an addict.
1497
01:05:26.500 --> 01:05:27.381
Pill head.
1498
01:05:27.381 --> 01:05:29.300
Quaaludes, mostly.
1499
01:05:29.300 --> 01:05:33.679
I sent him to rehab and uh,
after a while
1500
01:05:33.679 --> 01:05:38.809
he seemed to be getting better
and got out,
1501
01:05:38.809 --> 01:05:41.646
but then I don't hear from him
for a few weeks.
1502
01:05:41.646 --> 01:05:49.320
He stopped returning my calls,
so I went to his apartment
1503
01:05:49.320 --> 01:05:55.910
and I found him, face down
on the floor in the bathroom
1504
01:05:55.910 --> 01:06:00.164
covered in his own vomit.
1505
01:06:00.164 --> 01:06:02.500
And that was on me
because I didn't see the signs.
1506
01:06:02.500 --> 01:06:06.879
I uh... I was too late.
1507
01:06:06.879 --> 01:06:08.506
That's not your fault.
1508
01:06:08.506 --> 01:06:10.966
It's not, because you get
really, really good
1509
01:06:10.966 --> 01:06:12.677
at hiding it.
1510
01:06:12.677 --> 01:06:15.262
Make sure you don't see it,
make sure no one at work sees,
1511
01:06:15.262 --> 01:06:17.932
make sure no one
in my family sees it
1512
01:06:17.932 --> 01:06:20.601
and it's just so exhausting.
1513
01:06:22.603 --> 01:06:24.210
Everything you like about me
1514
01:06:24.210 --> 01:06:26.148
and everything you know
about me is
1515
01:06:26.148 --> 01:06:30.270
just based on nothing, like I'm-
I feel like I'm nothing
1516
01:06:30.270 --> 01:06:34.240
and if you really knew who I
was, if you knew the real me,
1517
01:06:34.240 --> 01:06:36.784
you wouldn't love me.
1518
01:06:39.245 --> 01:06:42.915
None of what you just told me,
none of it,
1519
01:06:42.915 --> 01:06:45.960
changes anything, ok?
1520
01:06:45.960 --> 01:06:49.547
Because I've never felt so much
so fast for somebody.
1521
01:06:49.547 --> 01:06:51.924
Nobody, ok?
1522
01:06:51.924 --> 01:06:53.676
You got it?
1523
01:06:58.889 --> 01:07:01.392
You want to get off the sauce,
fine.
1524
01:07:01.392 --> 01:07:05.104
I'll help you get off the sauce.
1525
01:07:05.104 --> 01:07:08.482
Is that a deal?
1526
01:07:08.482 --> 01:07:10.568
Yeah.
1527
01:07:14.238 --> 01:07:17.740
We- we put her through
this program,
1528
01:07:17.740 --> 01:07:21.746
a rehab program, and she did
so well, you know?
1529
01:07:21.746 --> 01:07:26.830
She was strong and she was
smiling again and she was eating
1530
01:07:26.830 --> 01:07:32.890
and- and she- she, you know,
she looked good.
1531
01:07:32.890 --> 01:07:38.137
She was such a sweet,
sensitive girl.
1532
01:07:38.137 --> 01:07:41.348
Yeah, uh, make sure the Bayside
condo is aired out.
1533
01:07:41.348 --> 01:07:45.352
Put on the ceiling fans and um,
you know, open the windows.
1534
01:07:45.352 --> 01:07:47.188
Yeah.
1535
01:07:47.188 --> 01:07:48.606
I leave in a few minutes.
1536
01:07:48.606 --> 01:07:52.777
Alright, thanks.
1537
01:07:52.777 --> 01:07:55.946
Alright, gorgeous.
1538
01:07:55.946 --> 01:07:58.282
Keys to the manor.
1539
01:08:06.457 --> 01:08:08.375
I want you to eat.
1540
01:08:08.375 --> 01:08:10.669
Relax.
1541
01:08:10.669 --> 01:08:13.714
Oh, that tub,
imported from Italy,
1542
01:08:13.714 --> 01:08:14.882
it cost me ten grand.
1543
01:08:14.882 --> 01:08:16.175
I've never been in it.
1544
01:08:16.175 --> 01:08:19.970
Get naked, get in it,
and think of me.
1545
01:08:19.970 --> 01:08:22.223
I have a big special surprise
for you when you come
1546
01:08:22.223 --> 01:08:23.474
to the beach.
1547
01:08:23.474 --> 01:08:24.934
Oh yeah?
1548
01:08:24.934 --> 01:08:27.478
Do you have any, uh, jewellery
on this- ah.
1549
01:08:27.478 --> 01:08:28.979
Empty.
1550
01:08:28.979 --> 01:08:31.106
That's not funny.
1551
01:08:31.106 --> 01:08:32.650
I'm not trying to be funny.
1552
01:08:32.650 --> 01:08:33.901
Stop.
1553
01:08:33.901 --> 01:08:34.985
Hey.
1554
01:08:34.985 --> 01:08:36.987
Look at this face.
1555
01:08:36.987 --> 01:08:40.320
I wanna know what you're gonna
do for the next 30 years.
1556
01:08:40.320 --> 01:08:41.867
I'm serious.
1557
01:08:41.867 --> 01:08:43.350
No you're not.
1558
01:08:43.350 --> 01:08:44.286
Oh yeah, I am.
1559
01:08:44.286 --> 01:08:45.579
Really?
1560
01:08:45.579 --> 01:08:46.747
Oh yeah. You're smiling.
1561
01:08:46.747 --> 01:08:49.667
See? I can still surprise you.
1562
01:08:54.880 --> 01:08:55.923
Don't worry about your mom,
by the way.
1563
01:08:55.923 --> 01:08:59.510
All the ladies hate me.
1564
01:08:59.510 --> 01:09:01.345
Until they meet me.
1565
01:09:01.345 --> 01:09:03.130
Then they love my ass.
1566
01:09:03.130 --> 01:09:04.598
You know what?
1567
01:09:04.598 --> 01:09:06.392
I'm gonna send a Hummer limo
to your house.
1568
01:09:06.392 --> 01:09:08.394
Bring the whole family,
bring them to my party.
1569
01:09:08.394 --> 01:09:12.606
Are you kidding me?
It's got a hot tub in it.
1570
01:09:12.606 --> 01:09:15.484
One glass of champagne, that's
for the toast to celebrate.
1571
01:09:15.484 --> 01:09:17.570
And then it's Martinelli's
1572
01:09:17.570 --> 01:09:20.698
the whole rest of the night, ok?
1573
01:09:20.698 --> 01:09:21.574
Mmmhmm.
1574
01:09:21.574 --> 01:09:22.366
Ok?
1575
01:09:22.366 --> 01:09:23.200
Ok.
1576
01:09:23.200 --> 01:09:24.243
Alright.
1577
01:09:24.243 --> 01:09:25.202
Ok.
1578
01:09:28.800 --> 01:09:32.167
Oh, also, by the way,
if you bail on me
1579
01:09:32.167 --> 01:09:37.172
they are gonna need to use your
dental records to identify you.
1580
01:09:37.172 --> 01:09:38.173
[laughs]
1581
01:09:38.173 --> 01:09:39.550
Ok!
1582
01:09:39.550 --> 01:09:42.136
I promise.
1583
01:09:44.471 --> 01:09:48.170
That was a little
after 11:00 pm.
1584
01:09:48.170 --> 01:09:50.936
Well, he says he left
around 11:00
1585
01:09:50.936 --> 01:09:54.231
but I have a friend who says
that they know someone
1586
01:09:54.231 --> 01:09:57.860
who definitely heard them
fighting after midnight.
1587
01:09:57.860 --> 01:09:59.690
You know, I don't wanna
have this conversation.
1588
01:09:59.690 --> 01:10:00.279
You're not going anywhere.
1589
01:10:00.279 --> 01:10:01.238
[arguing]
1590
01:10:01.238 --> 01:10:02.720
Hey!
1591
01:10:02.720 --> 01:10:04.199
[thud]
1592
01:10:06.760 --> 01:10:07.244
How about this?
1593
01:10:07.244 --> 01:10:09.455
Chuck heads for Margate
and suddenly on his way there
1594
01:10:09.455 --> 01:10:11.415
he realizes he's
forgotten something.
1595
01:10:11.415 --> 01:10:14.126
The gossips imagined all kinds
of crazy scenarios.
1596
01:10:14.126 --> 01:10:17.400
Chuck walking in on me
and Paul, me and Angie.
1597
01:10:17.400 --> 01:10:19.590
Some even had us hooking up
in a menage-a-trois
1598
01:10:19.590 --> 01:10:24.553
with Chuck coming in for that
shirt at an inopportune moment.
1599
01:10:24.553 --> 01:10:26.931
Some people thought Chuck
was definitely guilty
1600
01:10:26.931 --> 01:10:30.184
but they didn't believe that he
actually did the deed himself.
1601
01:10:30.184 --> 01:10:32.311
They speculated that he probably
called in a favour
1602
01:10:32.311 --> 01:10:35.856
and had one of his goombah
clients snuff me out.
1603
01:10:38.359 --> 01:10:41.153
Some people suggested
I had a secret lover.
1604
01:10:41.153 --> 01:10:42.363
[screams]
1605
01:10:42.363 --> 01:10:45.157
Fans of presumed innocent
had a different theory.
1606
01:10:45.157 --> 01:10:47.340
They imagine Neil's wife
tracked me down
1607
01:10:47.340 --> 01:10:48.535
and bashed my head in
1608
01:10:48.535 --> 01:10:50.329
after she discovered that
I had been having an affair
1609
01:10:50.329 --> 01:10:52.456
with her husband.
1610
01:10:52.456 --> 01:10:57.461
I suppose there would have been
some poetic justice in that.
1611
01:10:57.461 --> 01:10:59.129
But the night I died
1612
01:10:59.129 --> 01:11:03.968
I didn't see her or Paul
or Angie or Terri
1613
01:11:03.968 --> 01:11:07.346
or even Darren Jones,
the guy who roofied me.
1614
01:11:07.346 --> 01:11:08.973
The night I died
I had no bruises,
1615
01:11:08.973 --> 01:11:10.391
cuts, or contusions.
1616
01:11:10.391 --> 01:11:12.351
There was no blood on the floor.
1617
01:11:12.351 --> 01:11:14.728
None of those theories are true.
1618
01:11:14.728 --> 01:11:18.107
The night I died Chuck was
80 miles away in Avalon,
New Jersey,
1619
01:11:18.107 --> 01:11:20.651
at a bar with about
100 alibi witnesses
1620
01:11:20.651 --> 01:11:23.737
while Neil was at home
watching his kids.
1621
01:11:23.737 --> 01:11:28.951
I was at Chucks, alone.
1622
01:11:28.951 --> 01:11:30.577
Now, this is where things
get murky,
1623
01:11:30.577 --> 01:11:33.706
because from this point
until approximately 10:00 am
1624
01:11:33.706 --> 01:11:35.708
when Zulma found me dead
in the tub,
1625
01:11:35.708 --> 01:11:37.751
not one of the people
the police interviewed
1626
01:11:37.751 --> 01:11:41.839
admitted to seeing me.
1627
01:11:41.839 --> 01:11:44.550
From forensics reports and texts
I sent police know
1628
01:11:44.550 --> 01:11:49.130
that the night I died I made
and ate a healthy salad.
1629
01:11:52.160 --> 01:11:53.767
I watched 8 Mile,
1630
01:11:53.767 --> 01:11:56.353
the Home Shopping Network,
a nature special,
1631
01:11:56.353 --> 01:12:01.150
a horror movie and some
girl-on-girl prison porn.
1632
01:12:01.150 --> 01:12:03.680
The thing about text messages,
though,
1633
01:12:03.680 --> 01:12:05.946
is police can pinpoint where
the person who's texting is
1634
01:12:05.946 --> 01:12:09.330
based on which cell tower
gets pinged.
1635
01:12:09.330 --> 01:12:12.327
The night I died I did
a lot of texting.
1636
01:12:12.327 --> 01:12:14.246
I think everybody knows
who she was talking to,
1637
01:12:14.246 --> 01:12:18.876
what she was doing,
everyone except me, so...
1638
01:12:18.876 --> 01:12:24.173
I could be a schmuck
but I know who he is.
1639
01:12:24.173 --> 01:12:25.841
I thought they were friends.
1640
01:12:25.841 --> 01:12:29.178
I didn't know that anything else
was going on.
1641
01:12:29.178 --> 01:12:34.516
It was before me and I-
apparently during.
1642
01:12:34.516 --> 01:12:36.226
So what?
1643
01:12:39.210 --> 01:12:41.231
Bathtub murders are really hard
to prove,
1644
01:12:41.231 --> 01:12:43.484
especially if someone was
drugged or had been drinking,
1645
01:12:43.484 --> 01:12:46.280
and according to the coroner's
report the night I died
1646
01:12:46.280 --> 01:12:50.449
I had a mix of Xanax, Klonopin,
Valium, Vyvanse and Lexapro
1647
01:12:50.449 --> 01:12:52.826
in my bloodstream and I had
consumed somewhere
1648
01:12:52.826 --> 01:12:55.412
between ten and twelve shots
of hard liquor,
1649
01:12:55.412 --> 01:12:58.874
which means despite all of my
best efforts to go cold turkey
1650
01:12:58.874 --> 01:13:00.584
the last night of my life
1651
01:13:00.584 --> 01:13:03.212
I got seriously hammered.
1652
01:13:09.384 --> 01:13:11.762
I was never with anyone
like her.
1653
01:13:11.762 --> 01:13:13.639
Ever.
1654
01:13:13.639 --> 01:13:15.766
There's been other women,
why not?
1655
01:13:15.766 --> 01:13:18.811
I was never, ever with anyone
like her.
1656
01:13:18.811 --> 01:13:21.271
I wanna be very clear
about that.
1657
01:13:24.525 --> 01:13:28.362
The one thing that people
don't know about Julia
1658
01:13:28.362 --> 01:13:33.617
is that she was really funny.
1659
01:13:50.384 --> 01:13:56.890
Hello, my name is... le bouquet.
1660
01:13:56.890 --> 01:14:00.227
Oh, bonjour monsieur le bouquet.
1661
01:14:00.227 --> 01:14:01.603
Comment ca va?
1662
01:14:01.603 --> 01:14:04.314
I actually don't speak French.
1663
01:14:04.314 --> 01:14:06.942
I mean, this woman,
she popped.
1664
01:14:06.942 --> 01:14:09.611
I mean, she just...
1665
01:14:09.611 --> 01:14:13.365
she was- she was like a
little stick of dynamite.
1666
01:14:16.785 --> 01:14:19.496
I tried everything I could
to calm down.
1667
01:14:19.496 --> 01:14:21.498
Nothing helped.
1668
01:14:25.586 --> 01:14:27.296
I wish she would have told me
how much pain
1669
01:14:27.296 --> 01:14:30.480
she was going through.
1670
01:15:10.255 --> 01:15:14.885
She was an amazing woman.
1671
01:15:14.885 --> 01:15:18.597
I would have done anything
for her.
1672
01:15:18.597 --> 01:15:22.170
Uh, so I did the Amy Winehouse
look that I found online.
1673
01:15:22.170 --> 01:15:24.937
Um, it's kind of a little bit,
like, festive I guess.
1674
01:15:24.937 --> 01:15:28.482
Oh my god, I can't believe
how much I'm sweating.
1675
01:15:28.482 --> 01:15:29.900
One shot.
1676
01:15:46.416 --> 01:15:50.170
I took this ten days
before she died.
1677
01:15:50.170 --> 01:15:52.381
I told her if she didn't
feel safe detoxing on her own
1678
01:15:52.381 --> 01:15:56.930
to wait a week
until I was available.
1679
01:15:56.930 --> 01:15:59.596
But Julia said
she couldn't wait.
1680
01:15:59.596 --> 01:16:02.266
That next week
would be too late.
1681
01:16:02.266 --> 01:16:04.893
I was doing a pretty good job
keeping myself distracted
1682
01:16:04.893 --> 01:16:06.395
and things were going well.
1683
01:16:06.395 --> 01:16:09.106
But remember how I mentioned
the horrific side effects
1684
01:16:09.106 --> 01:16:13.735
you can experience when
you try to stop drinking.
1685
01:16:13.735 --> 01:16:16.613
[hallucinating] What a stupid
plan, detoxing alone.
1686
01:16:16.613 --> 01:16:19.533
I started to hallucinate.
1687
01:16:19.533 --> 01:16:21.368
You're such an idiot.
1688
01:16:21.368 --> 01:16:24.121
Really good idea. You're going
to give yourself a stroke!
1689
01:16:24.121 --> 01:16:28.000
[vomits]
1690
01:16:28.000 --> 01:16:34.673
If they care, why aren't
they here.
1691
01:16:34.673 --> 01:16:37.134
There are demons in the walls,
watching you.
1692
01:16:37.134 --> 01:16:38.427
They hate you.
1693
01:16:38.427 --> 01:16:39.594
They hate you.
1694
01:16:39.594 --> 01:16:41.138
Everybody hates you.
1695
01:16:41.138 --> 01:16:42.723
Nobody cares about you.
1696
01:16:42.723 --> 01:16:44.182
They don't love you.
1697
01:16:44.182 --> 01:16:46.601
They just say that so they can
sleep with you.
1698
01:16:46.601 --> 01:16:50.439
Because they feel sorry for you.
1699
01:16:53.660 --> 01:16:55.110
Everybody hates you.
1700
01:16:55.110 --> 01:16:57.112
You're fat and ugly.
1701
01:16:57.112 --> 01:16:58.196
Look at your pores.
1702
01:16:58.196 --> 01:17:00.365
Look at yourself.
Look at your pores.
1703
01:17:00.365 --> 01:17:01.908
Pour another glass.
1704
01:17:01.908 --> 01:17:04.411
You're a poor girl.
1705
01:17:04.411 --> 01:17:06.788
You poor girl.
1706
01:17:06.788 --> 01:17:08.290
Poor girl.
1707
01:17:08.290 --> 01:17:11.126
[screams]
1708
01:17:11.126 --> 01:17:19.426
[various voices resonating]
1709
01:17:19.426 --> 01:17:21.303
Nobody loves you.
1710
01:17:21.303 --> 01:17:25.570
Nobody cares about you.
1711
01:17:25.570 --> 01:17:26.600
You're going to die.
1712
01:17:26.600 --> 01:18:01.301
[voices continue to resonate]
1713
01:18:01.301 --> 01:18:06.264
Who's ready to party?
1714
01:18:06.264 --> 01:18:07.349
You are.
1715
01:18:07.349 --> 01:18:12.938
I know.
1716
01:18:12.938 --> 01:18:14.272
Whoop.
1717
01:18:14.272 --> 01:18:17.609
At meetings they always say
it's important not to isolate.
1718
01:18:17.609 --> 01:18:20.570
The night I died I left
15 voicemail messages.
1719
01:18:20.570 --> 01:18:21.738
It's Jules from-
1720
01:18:21.738 --> 01:18:25.117
Sent 82 texts,
and uploaded four videos.
1721
01:18:25.117 --> 01:18:28.328
And welcome to my cooking show.
1722
01:18:28.328 --> 01:18:31.331
It is carrots today.
1723
01:18:31.331 --> 01:18:33.583
This is Julia Law- oh, hahaha.
1724
01:18:33.583 --> 01:18:35.430
So much for my anonymity.
1725
01:18:35.430 --> 01:18:36.253
Can you call me back?
1726
01:18:36.253 --> 01:18:39.339
It works if you work it,
and you're worth it, right?
1727
01:18:39.339 --> 01:18:42.592
Hey, Paul.
1728
01:18:42.592 --> 01:18:44.636
Hello?
1729
01:18:44.636 --> 01:18:48.980
Hey Siri, what's
the meaning of life?
1730
01:18:53.311 --> 01:18:55.630
I sent messages
to Chuck, Neil,
1731
01:18:55.630 --> 01:18:59.401
Paul, Angie, and while they
all texted at various times
1732
01:18:59.401 --> 01:19:04.448
throughout the night,
nobody came.
1733
01:19:04.448 --> 01:19:05.991
But for all my attempts
at reaching out
1734
01:19:05.991 --> 01:19:08.493
only one call was answered.
1735
01:19:08.493 --> 01:19:09.453
Hello?
1736
01:19:09.453 --> 01:19:10.704
Devon?
1737
01:19:10.704 --> 01:19:12.800
Who is this?
1738
01:19:12.800 --> 01:19:15.792
It's Jules. From rehab.
1739
01:19:15.792 --> 01:19:17.461
Oh my god, hi!
1740
01:19:17.461 --> 01:19:18.879
How are you?
1741
01:19:18.879 --> 01:19:22.674
I'm- I'm ok, I just was like-
1742
01:19:22.674 --> 01:19:27.762
I was just thinking about you
and wondering how you were.
1743
01:19:27.762 --> 01:19:29.973
Oh, that's so nice.
1744
01:19:29.973 --> 01:19:35.520
Um, well, as a matter of fact,
I'm on my way to my honeymoon.
1745
01:19:35.520 --> 01:19:36.855
Really?
1746
01:19:36.855 --> 01:19:38.231
Crazy, right?
1747
01:19:38.231 --> 01:19:40.817
We got married today.
1748
01:19:40.817 --> 01:19:42.444
Wow.
1749
01:19:42.444 --> 01:19:46.698
So is the guy you're marrying
an addict as well?
1750
01:19:46.698 --> 01:19:49.910
Um, it's a girl actually,
and um, nope.
1751
01:19:49.910 --> 01:19:51.244
She's totally sober.
1752
01:19:51.244 --> 01:19:54.247
She's um- she's
a social worker.
1753
01:19:54.247 --> 01:19:56.291
Oh, cool.
1754
01:19:56.291 --> 01:19:58.210
Yeah, you sound
like you're busy.
1755
01:19:58.210 --> 01:20:00.212
You must be really busy.
1756
01:20:00.212 --> 01:20:03.381
Yeah, um... I'm about to get
on the plane.
1757
01:20:03.381 --> 01:20:11.560
Jules, um, is everything ok?
1758
01:20:11.560 --> 01:20:18.855
Uh... I don't feel very good.
1759
01:20:18.855 --> 01:20:23.235
I just- I've been... trying
to reach out-
1760
01:20:23.235 --> 01:20:24.736
I'm so sorry, Jules.
1761
01:20:24.736 --> 01:20:26.530
I'm having a really hard time
hearing you.
1762
01:20:26.530 --> 01:20:32.202
Can you say that again?
1763
01:20:32.202 --> 01:20:33.912
I can't.
1764
01:20:33.912 --> 01:20:35.580
It's super loud in here.
1765
01:20:35.580 --> 01:20:37.582
Um, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
if you're talking or not,
1766
01:20:37.582 --> 01:20:38.959
I can't hear you.
1767
01:20:38.959 --> 01:20:40.210
I'll be back in a few weeks.
1768
01:20:40.210 --> 01:20:43.171
How about if I call you
as soon as I get back, ok?
1769
01:20:43.171 --> 01:20:52.514
♪
1770
01:20:52.514 --> 01:20:59.521
♪ Did I find the end? ♪
1771
01:20:59.521 --> 01:21:05.777
♪ Thought I'd died again, ♪
1772
01:21:05.777 --> 01:21:13.535
♪ I've been waiting on a friend
to take me home, ♪
1773
01:21:13.535 --> 01:21:19.457
♪ Take me home, ♪
1774
01:21:19.457 --> 01:21:27.215
♪ All my blood's run cold, ♪
1775
01:21:27.215 --> 01:21:33.305
♪ Time is not my own, ♪
1776
01:21:33.305 --> 01:21:40.770
♪ I've been sailing and I heard
the call to shore ♪
1777
01:21:40.770 --> 01:21:46.192
♪ The call to shore ♪
1778
01:21:46.192 --> 01:21:53.825
♪ Pull me when I get
too far away, ♪
1779
01:21:53.825 --> 01:22:01.875
♪ Be my anchor, come on,
make me stay, ♪
1780
01:22:01.875 --> 01:22:09.424
♪ When all the world around me
is about to break, ♪
1781
01:22:09.424 --> 01:22:18.308
♪ Say that you're not
gonna let me fade, ♪
1782
01:22:18.308 --> 01:22:26.240
♪ Did I say goodbye? ♪
1783
01:22:26.240 --> 01:22:32.530
♪ With a fateful cry, ♪
1784
01:22:32.530 --> 01:22:40.121
♪ I was caught between
the chaos and the light, ♪
1785
01:22:40.121 --> 01:22:45.100
♪ And the light, ♪
1786
01:22:45.100 --> 01:22:52.717
♪ Call me when I get
too far away, ♪
1787
01:22:52.717 --> 01:22:55.387
♪ Be my anchor, come on, ♪
1788
01:22:55.387 --> 01:23:00.767
♪ make me stay, ♪
1789
01:23:00.767 --> 01:23:08.525
♪ When all the world around
me is built to break, ♪
1790
01:23:08.525 --> 01:23:18.118
♪ Say that you're not gonna
let me fade away, ♪
1791
01:23:18.118 --> 01:23:24.820
♪
1792
01:23:24.820 --> 01:23:27.460
♪ Away... ♪
1793
01:23:27.460 --> 01:23:42.726
♪
1794
01:23:42.726 --> 01:23:50.859
♪ Did I find the end? ♪
1795
01:23:50.859 --> 01:23:58.867
♪ Thought I'd died again, ♪
1796
01:23:58.867 --> 01:24:05.582
[sobbing]
1797
01:24:05.582 --> 01:24:09.669
It's a thin line between
the living and the dead.
1798
01:24:09.669 --> 01:24:11.921
Autopsy officials decided
that it was impossible
1799
01:24:11.921 --> 01:24:15.175
to pinpoint the exact
cause of death.
1800
01:24:15.175 --> 01:24:16.551
But the Grand Jury investigation
1801
01:24:16.551 --> 01:24:22.974
was eventually concluded,
no charges were ever filed.
1802
01:24:22.974 --> 01:24:26.561
I might have drowned, or died
of alcohol poisoning,
1803
01:24:26.561 --> 01:24:29.689
or had a seizure from mixing
benzos and alcohol.
1804
01:24:29.689 --> 01:24:33.151
It might have been accidental
or on purpose.
1805
01:24:33.151 --> 01:24:38.406
Nobody could say for sure.
1806
01:24:38.406 --> 01:24:41.242
They pretty much ruled out
foul play,
1807
01:24:41.242 --> 01:24:46.498
but in some parts of the
internet people still wonder.
1808
01:24:46.498 --> 01:24:48.374
They search my old
Facebook page
1809
01:24:48.374 --> 01:24:52.796
or scour my Instagram
for likes.
1810
01:24:52.796 --> 01:24:57.425
They try to imagine the person
behind the headline.
1811
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They try to unravel the mystery
of me.
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♪
1813
01:25:16.319 --> 01:25:22.408
♪ Time is not my own ♪
1814
01:25:22.408 --> 01:25:29.624
♪ I have been sailing and
I heard the call to shore ♪
1815
01:25:29.624 --> 01:25:35.296
♪ The call to shore ♪
1816
01:25:35.296 --> 01:25:42.762
♪ Pull me when I get
too far away, ♪
1817
01:25:42.762 --> 01:25:50.603
♪ Be my anchor, come on,
make me stay, ♪
1818
01:25:50.603 --> 01:25:58.278
♪ When all the world around me
is built to break, ♪
1819
01:25:58.278 --> 01:26:06.161
♪ Say that you're not gonna
let me fade ♪
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