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♪There is a secret♪

♪Deep inside my heart♪

♪Hidden as naturally as I breathe♪

♪When I am lost, it lights up my path♪

♪It tells me that I am my own torch-bearer♪

♪It teaches me that sweats♪

♪Can replace my tears♪

♪The flame is burning, waiting for me to wake up♪

♪Don't give up, despite the darkness ahead♪

♪Raising my arms proudly♪

♪The torch in my hand, my courage is bursting♪

♪The fire will not die, regardless of the storm♪

♪Don't forget to seek the light and spark♪

♪Within yourself♪

[Ray of Light] [Adapted from Zhao Xiaying's original story]

[Episode 13]

Yuan went missing.

We checked the security footage.

He was seen leaving at around one.

Can you ask his classmates

and see if they know where he possibly went?

Calm down first, Mr. Gao.

Think about which place

he's likely to visit.

If he appears at school,

I'll notify you right away.

I'll also ask his classmates

for his whereabouts.

Let's keep in touch.

Okay.

Sorry for the trouble. Thank you.

Let's go.

Thank you.

No worries.

Thank you.

Let's go.

All right. This period is over.

Hold on, guys.

Anyone here knows

where Gao Yuan might be?

No idea.

Has he contacted any of you

lately?

No.

Perhaps he went to a cybercafe?

It's possible.

Okay. Have your break.

Toilet break!

Mr. Hao.

Did something happen to Gao Yuan?

His dad called me

and said that he left home at one in the morning.

You're close to him.

Think.

Where do you think he'll be?

I'll brainstorm a bit.

Focus on your lesson first.

Gao Yuan.

Gao Yuan.

[Ming]

Jia Kun.

Lend me your phone.

What for?

Just lend it to me.

Thanks.

Ming.

Who is this?

I'm Ren Zhen.

Sorry

for calling you all of a sudden.

Gao Yuan is absent today.

Do you know

where he is?

Gao Yuan is absent?

Did something happen?

Don't worry about it.

We're trying to find out now.

Just call me if you have any information.

Also, can you

ask around

and see if anyone saw him?

Call me

if you get anything.

Okay.

I'll ask my friends.

We'll look for him.

Just attend your classes.

Okay, thanks.

Gao.

I neglected Gao Yuan's feelings

for more than a year.

I shouldn't have said what I said.

He

must be very upset.

What do we do if something bad

happens to him?

Don't spiral.

Yuan left to get some air. I'm sure.

He'll come back once he feels better.

It's okay.

It'll be fine.

...spanning thousands of li.

As it transforms into an avian, it shall be named roc.

"As" here

is a conjunction.

Ren Zhen.

You're not paying attention.

Focus.

Mr. Hao.

Do you have news of Gao Yuan?

No, his father asked me to wait.

He'll let me know if he finds him.

Where could he go?

Did you find Gao Yuan?

No.

How did you know I lost my phone?

Nothing.

Any news?

No.

His parents are looking for him too.

Have you come up with anything?

Did he ever tell you

where he would go?

I checked all the places I could think of.

To no avail.

Nan.

Did I say something I shouldn't have just now?

Stop calling me.

I'm busy at school.

Go back to your classroom.

Yes, go back.

Go.

Okay.

I'll go back.

Go.

Focus up.

Can I skip the PE class?

I would rather spend the time answering a few English mock papers.

Just go first.

I'll join you later.

Hurry up, then. The class will begin soon.

[Equipment Room]

If you really want an answer...

Maybe when I was little.

When I was

on a ride

in a theme park.

Mr. Hao.

I might know

where Gao Yuan is.

Where?

He's there.

Gao Yuan.

I'll fetch the good news to his parents.

Can you buy him some food?

Okay.

You used to come here often when you were little?

With your brother?

I loved this ride.

He would sit with me.

You ran away

without a word.

Your classmates,

your parents, and I were worried sick.

I'm sorry.

But I don't know

how to face them.

I have heard about it.

The thing about your brother.

It's not your fault.

You know

it was an accident.

I know what you're going through now.

Way too well, I might add.

I stopped teaching for three years.

Because

something bad happened.

You shouldn't be a teacher!

[I hate you!]

(I am guilt-ridden.)

Like you,

I ran away.

But in those three years,

I was miserable.

I idled my day away,

like an injured

and lost animal.

If you pick at the scab,

it will never heal.

If you leave it be,

maybe it will heal.

But I can't control myself.

Have you heard of a Mobius strip?

You walk with your guilt

and regret

on this circle.

What will happen?

It'll be an endless cycle.

Exactly.

On this strip,

there is no beginning

or ending.

It just repeats itself endlessly.

You cannot live in the past,

trying to change

what cannot be changed.

It's futile.

Your wound won't heal.

It will only hurt even more.

Only you

can untangle the strip.

Hi.

How did you do that?

She lied.

Miss.

Don't lie again.

I...

You said that your little brother

would run away from home if I didn't operate this ride.

He's your boyfriend, isn't he?

I have seen this far too often.

Hey! He's my teacher!

He's talking about Gao Yuan, not me.

I...

Yes, Mr. Gao.

We found Gao Yuan.

Don't worry. He is safe.

♪What's buried inside the heart♪

♪Leave it to the past♪

♪What is it? What is it?♪

♪Like the train that blazes by♪

♪The plane soars through the sky♪

♪What did it carry away?♪

♪What did it leave behind?♪

(Don't be afraid. It's just a ride.)

(When you grow up,)

(I'll show you a real plane.)

What does a real plane look like?

A real plane is...

Very huge.

It can reach the sky

and go somewhere very, very far away.

♪The crowd carries me to you but also pushes me away♪

(Does the big plane have a driver?)

(Of course.)

(Then I want to be the driver)

of a plane

and fly you.

Sure.

♪Leave it to the past♪

(The plane is taking off!)

♪What is it? What is it?♪

♪Like the train that blazes by♪

♪What's buried inside the heart♪

♪Becomes the corner of remembrance♪

♪You visit it from time to time♪

Give me the coffee. I'll deliver it for you.

Thanks, Dr. Gao.

I'll retrieve the plane model, then.

The owner said that the model I ordered is here.

All you care about is your plane model.

That's why Dad and Mom scold you.

Come, I'll give you a ride.

I want to check out the latest model too.

It's on the way anyway.

Sure. Thanks, Dr. Gao.

However,

don't waste too much time on it.

You have to study.

I study very hard.

You'll have plenty of free time after the NCEE.

No need to get it now.

(We'll see.)

(I won't be a doctor anyway.)

(If only)

(we went home together)

(that day.)

♪What is it? What is it?♪

♪Like the train that blazes by♪

♪What's buried inside the heart♪

♪Becomes the corner of remembrance♪

♪You visit it from time to time♪

♪Before waving it goodbye♪

(Don't worry, Feng.)

(I will move on bravely.)

I called your parents.

Let me send you back.

Mr. Hao.

Thank you.

You're back.

Mr. Hao sent you back?

He dropped me downstairs.

Mom.

You're back.

I'm glad you're safe.

Come. Have some water.

You must be tired.

Have you eaten?

I'll reheat the food for you.

I ate already, Mom.

Sorry.

I shouldn't have left without a word.

It's okay. As long as you're back.

Forget it.

You came home. That's what matters.

We should let him rest.

I'll go into my room, then.

Go ahead.

Don't worry, Dad, Mom.

I won't make you worry again.

Let me give him a glass of warm milk.

[Ming: Why did you switch off your phone?]

[Ren Zhen: Where are you? Pick up your phone.]

Mom?

I made you a bowl of noodles.

Eat up.

It's delicious.

Did you add cheese?

When I was little,

I loved your instant noodles.

Sometimes, it was delicious.

Sometimes, it was disgusting.

Like that one time

when you added coke into braised beef noodles.

You asked for it.

Either way,

you are very creative

with instant noodles.

I had no other options.

I was busy with work

and had to bring your brother to the hospital regularly.

I didn't have time to cook for you

so I could only prepare instant noodles.

I didn't want you to be sick of it

so I tried

to spice things up.

Yuan.

During the previous year,

I

neglected

your feelings.

I'm sorry.

It's

my fault.

I should be the one apologizing.

Feng's passing

is my fault.

I have always blamed myself for it.

You can't think that way, Yuan.

It

was an accident.

It's my fault.

I lost control.

I hurt you.

The medications you take

and the letters you wrote to Feng,

I read them.

You know,

it can be quite painful

to move on from a tragedy.

But don't worry.

I am trying now.

I won't hurt you again.

Feng was an amazing person.

I can never be like him.

I can never match him.

Yuan.

In my eyes,

you are as amazing

as him.

I love you always.

Mom.

Feng is gone.

But you have me.

Okay. Eat up, the food is getting cold.

(Can you hook it?)

Almost.

Two more to go.

I can't see anything.

You hooked it.

Is it done?

Last one.

You woke up so early.

You're awake.

Why don't you sleep in?

I can't.

You hooked it.

Why did you change the curtain?

Come. Take a look.

Not just the curtain.

Your mom wants to give you a surprise.

Come.

One, two, three.

So many flowers!

Your mom bought them.

Do you like them?

Yes.

We will survive.

Let me quiz you.

What plant is this?

I don't know.

It's a Japanese camellia.

And this one? Surely you know.

It's a chrysanthemum.

Guess your mom's favorite flower.

Rose.

-Did I get it right? -Yes.

Smart guy.

♪Even a simple dream wants a spotlight♪

♪There is a spark of hope in my heart♪

♪As I grow up in this sea of people♪

♪My every step is bittersweet♪

♪But I'll reach another year♪

♪We will all touch the sky♪

♪We all have our own rite of passage♪

♪My sweaty face tells a complicated story♪

♪I tell myself to carry on♪

♪We will all live to see another day♪

♪What is growing up without sweat or tears?♪

♪We are young so we are dauntless♪

♪Lend me your wings, I'll give you my light, we will all become a better person♪

(Let's play basketball one day.)

(I heard you're a good player.)

(Life is tough.)

(If you don't toughen up now, it'll be tougher.)

(Life is weary.)

(So wear a strong armor or you'll be worn out.)

♪Even a simple dream wants a spotlight♪

(I hope)

(everyone's dream will come true next summer.)

(Welcome back!)

♪As I grow up in this sea of people♪

♪My every step is bittersweet♪

♪But I'll reach another year♪

♪We will all touch the sky♪

♪We all have our own rite of passage♪

♪My sweaty face tells a complicated story♪

♪I tell myself to carry on♪

♪We will all live to see another day♪

♪What is growing up without sweat or tears?♪

♪We are young so we are dauntless♪

♪Lend me your wings, I'll give you my light, we will all become a better person♪

Well done.

Mom.

Yuan.

Take your meds.

Give it to me.

All right. Go to sleep.

You too.

(Feng,)

(several days ago,)

(I revisited the theme park)

(we used to frequent when we were little.)

(Our favorite plane ride)

(moved once more.)

(However,)

(the one sitting next to me wasn't you,)

(but a man called Hao Nan.)

(He is my new homeroom teacher.)

(He's eccentric.)

(But kind.)

(I returned to school.)

(I haven't made many friends)

(but I'm trying.)

Does this look like art to you?

(I'm a bit behind on my studies.)

(It's difficult to start again.)

(You know I'm not as smart as you)

(but I'll work hard.)

(I won't let Dad and Mom down.)

(Well,)

(I used to live in guilt.)

(I was afraid of moving forward.)

(But Mr. Hao is right.)

(You'd hate to see me like that, wouldn't you?)

(You were so enthusiastic,)

(optimistic,)

(and loving.)

(I'm sure you want)

(all of us to live happily.)

(So I will, on your behalf.)

(I will enjoy this world for you.)

(You always)

(protected me)

(when I was doing something.)

(You shielded me.)

(You guided me.)

(You were and still are the pride of the family.)

(You once said)

(that my job was to live freely)

(while you would deal with Dad and Mom.)

(But now, you're free of that obligation.)

(So be yourself.)

(It's my turn now to help Dad and Mom)

(and be the pillar of this family.)

(I will take on your mantle.)

(I will take good care of)

(and accompany Dad and Mom.)

(I will make them happy.)

(Feng.)

(It's getting cold now.)

(Take good care of yourself.)

(I will do the same.)

(If you miss me)

(or are feeling lonely,)

(come visit me in my dream.)

(From, Yuan.)

Can I borrow your mathematics notes?

Thanks.

Just let me know if you need

other notes.

You're welcome.

But also, thank you.

For other things.

Mr. Hao.

You weren't there during the teachers' meeting yesterday morning.

I figure I should bring you up to speed.

Apparently, all Grade 12 classes

have to settle down on one goal

and organize a class event around it.

It's supposed to help the students

set a goal,

to give them something to work on.

Of course,

you have to include it in your report.

I hope this is clear enough for you.

Settle down on one goal.

I see.

Also, Gao Yuan

has improved a bit.

He has a very solid foundation.

Do pay attention to him.

Come on.

My students are not that bad.

That's wonderful. All the best.

Okay.

It's about time for my lesson.

I have handpicked

these classic questions for you.

Make sure you know the right steps to solve them.

The point I'm bringing up

is that you have to memorize things too in math.

You memorize the equations and solving steps.

The more tools you have,

the more flexible your approach to a question is.

And that means you can tackle each question creatively.

Understood?

Yes.

Good.

I have another announcement to make.

The NCEE is around the corner.

Some of us

know where we want to study.

But many students

are still lost.

We will soon

hold a goal-setting class meeting.

I will distribute some paper to you

and you will write down your dream.

We will then paste them on the blackboard behind.

[Through thorns and vines, chase after your dream] It will serve as your reminder.

Think about it seriously.

When you're home,

talk with your parents.

If need be, you can come to me.

I'm always available.

Class dismissed.

Do you know which university you're applying?

I guess so.

I want to get into Nanhua Normal University.

Do you know which university you're applying?

Where are you going?

Even if I know where I want to study,

can I get in?

Mr. Hao.

Mr. Hao.

Mr. Hao.

That's all for today.

Think about

the university of your choice.

Other classes have begun the class meeting

so let's have a discussion.

I barely started studying again

so I'm lost.

How am I supposed to know the university of my choice?

That's right, Mr. Hao. We never thought about it.

It never came to my mind.

But it's a decision

you have to make now.

This is NCEE for you.

Without a goal, you won't have motivation.

So think.

Also, this mock paper

has all the frequent questions.

If you get any of them wrong, do it again at home.

Learn from your mistake, all right?

Xiaoxiao, pass this around.

After you get the paper,

you can leave.

This question?

I already explained it to you, no?

You cannot copy and paste my solution.

You need to come up with your own, okay?

I told you already last time.

Here's yours.

Such high marks!

Oops. Sorry, this is yours.

Ask me if you have any questions.

Or don't.

Wait.

[Math, 31]

I have a lot of questions.

Coming.

I'm here.

Security?

Security?

They locked the gate.

Wait for me here.

I'll find the security.

Security!

You...

How did you get out?

We scaled the gate, Mr. Hao.

You...

Very experienced, huh?

Okay. Go back now.

Bye.

Bye, Mr. Hao.

Goodnight.

Goodnight, Mr. Hao.

Rest early.

Sweet dreams.

What good is the gate for, then?

Even a girl can scale it.

How can you

make this mistake in this crucial period?

I was in an emergency, Mr. Hao.

All right.

Don't tell anyone, okay?

(Fang.)

You're back. Why so late?

I had extra tuition.

What did he say?

Extra tuition.

This is...

What does that even mean?

Mr. Hao said that he would

use another approach,

another method.

We just have to believe him.

Interesting.

Careful.

Chongwen University, 685.

Shanghai Tongren University, 686.

Wenqing University, 669.

Ai Lin.

I should pack up now

and work for you instead.

The universities in Shanghai

have such a high bar of entry.

It can't be. Continue searching.

Don't just go for the big names.

Hardly anyone

can get into them.

You're no exception.

There are universities everywhere in Shanghai.

I'm sure you can find one that'll accept you.

I found one.

Shanghai Lihua University.

567.

That's too high.

I should have studied harder.

Other than a university,

what about a vocational college?

I heard their tuition fee is cheaper.

Picking up a craft

is not that bad, either.

Maybe

I can open my own store

in Shanghai one day.

Like a nail salon,

a beauty center,

or even a noodle restaurant.

I can content myself with that.

I'm sure you can do it.

Also,

The Bund in Shanghai is beautiful.

Let me overcome the current obstacle first.

Precisely.

Just play the card you're dealt.

Don't lose hope.

Let me try again.

♪The crowd is the wind, and I, the dandelion♪

♪As I land, my dream blossoms, leading to a different future♪

♪You mock that my dream is impossible♪

♪No one understands the loneliness of a kite who embraces the rain♪

♪Growing up can be painful♪

♪People say that I'm delusional♪

♪But I forge on in the face of naysayers♪

♪I will not be swayed and walk in someone's shadow♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪Fly against the current to the vision you have in your dream♪

♪Hardship is the catalyst for resolution♪

♪You will witness my resilience♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪The pain will subside, you will shrug it off♪

♪In this ideal world, my courage is the centerpiece♪

♪Look, the rainbow after the rain♪

♪Shine a ray of light♪