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♪There is a secret♪

♪Deep inside my heart♪

♪Hidden as naturally as I breathe♪

♪When I am lost, it lights up my path♪

♪It tells me that I am my own torch-bearer♪

♪It teaches me that sweats♪

♪Can replace my tears♪

♪The flame is burning, waiting for me to wake up♪

♪Don't give up, despite the darkness ahead♪

♪Raising my arms proudly♪

♪The torch in my hand, my courage is bursting♪

♪The fire will not die, regardless of the storm♪

♪Don't forget to seek the light and spark♪

♪Within yourself♪

[Ray of Light] [Adapted from Zhao Xiaying's original story]

[Episode 12]

Hello, sir.

No problem.

Don't worry. Leave it to me.

I'll be there in a minute.

Okay, sir.

Bye.

Who is that?

Remember what I have told you before?

The guy whose stall I helped to look after.

He introduced a big score to me.

If I finish this big score,

you can choose to dine at any restaurant in Hong'an.

Really?

Why should I lie to you?

You don't believe me?

I do, I do.

Pay the bill if you do.

I'm paying again.

Sir, I don't want the sausage.

We've been walking for so long.

Where are we going? What is this place?

Stop asking. We are almost there.

Don't talk nonsense when you get there.

Who are you looking for?

I'm looking for

Han Tian.

You're here.

Who is this?

My classmate.

Did I ask you to bring someone?

Wait at the door. You come in.

Close the door.

Long.

I have brought the person you need.

Greet Long.

Long.

You wanted someone smart.

So, I brought him here.

Does he have experience?

He has worked with me for a while before.

He is quite dependable.

He looks young.

How old are you?

He's a student.

I'm 19 years old.

It's good to be young.

Youngster is strong and energetic.

Ask him to work harder.

Did you hear him?

Work hard for Long.

Long is a successful businessman.

In a few days,

a shipment is arriving.

Take him.

I won't mistreat you guys.

Okay, Long.

What do they want from you?

Don't worry about it.

Don't associate with these people in the future

and don't come here.

They don't look like good guys.

I'm serious.

[Third Brother's Hawker Stall]

Hao Nan.

It's not my birthday.

It's not our birthday, either.

Why are you giving

each of us a leather jacket?

Nan.

I think my jacket

is not made out of leather.

It's man-made leather.

You have been conned.

Where did you buy it?

Where did you buy it?

Are you crazy?

Are you insane?

You're scaring the hell out of me.

Where did you get it, Nan?

I have a student

who insist on

doing some small business outside.

He doesn't study

and keeps disobeying his dad.

I want him to go back to school.

That's why I'm supporting his business

to bribe him.

I got it now.

Is it that kid who gave you a hard time?

It's him?

Nan, is it him?

Nan, please tell me, is it him? Nan.

You guys know each other?

Don't listen to him.

No.

Nan, I used to help people take care of stalls.

These clothes are probably from the port.

They are like foreign rubbish.

To put it bluntly, these are preloved items

that had been reconditioned for sale.

This is serious as it can be considered as smuggling.

Is your student short of money?

He is in Grade 12 but still fooling around.

Talk to that student of yours.

If he really has difficulties,

ask him to tell you directly.

It's easy to get scammed in society.

Nan, give me a day.

Just one day.

I'll get back your money, Nan.

Let's go.

I can't let Nan being conned.

Why is he acting so weird today?

What's wrong with him?

The girl he likes got married.

I'll talk to my student.

Can't you ask him to be normal?

I'll try.

I'm leaving, Nan.

Hello, Dad.

Are you home?

I'm downstairs.

Have you eaten?

I'll order a takeaway later.

Don't.

I just called your mom.

It has been a while since you had

a meal cooked by your mom.

She is making soup in the kitchen today.

When you are home later,

have more soup

to make her happy.

Alright.

I'll hang up first.

Mom.

Mom.

The soup is spilling out.

I have turned off the gas.

Oh, Yuan.

Where are the CDs that were kept over here?

I was listening to them.

Where are them now?

At school.

I'll get them back tomorrow.

You have to let me know

if you take anything

from this room in the future.

Yuan.

Dad.

Why are you sitting here alone?

I came down to get some air.

Did you have your dinner?

Your mother didn't cook?

She did.

She made a soup.

But it was spilled.

It's been over a year.

Your mother still can't get over

that incident.

There are times

she can't even take care of herself.

She has no extra energy to take care of you.

Don't blame her.

You know what?

Yuan.

I always sit here

before coming home from work

to clear my mind

and get some air.

I didn't expect you

to snatch my place today.

Your mom's personality

has always been like that.

It's not easy for her

to move on.

Because she is sensitive person,

even more so when the pain is intense.

The hardest situation last time

was your brother's condition worsened

(when he was 12 years old.)

(Ebstein's anomaly)

(is a rare and severe cardiac condition in children.)

(Your mother took good care of him.)

(She had put in a lot of time and effort)

(to cherish and care for him)

(as he grew up.)

Why isn't he out yet?

He has been through six hours of surgery before.

This is normal.

It's going be all right.

Sit down and wait.

(I'll never forget)

(the words she said.)

She said

she was hoping

that there's a force somewhere in the world

that can make the surgery a success.

If possible,

she was willing to trade everything she had for it.

(A person who practices medicine)

(was hoping)

Mom, drink water.

(that god really does exist at that time.)

You haven't eaten in a day.

I'll wait here.

Go and get something to eat.

I'm not hungry.

You guys should go instead.

Everything will be fine.

[Under operation]

Mr. Zhang.

Don't worry. It was a success.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Yuan.

Come.

Let me carry you.

We snatched

your brother's life from the Grim Reaper.

In fact,

your mother had exhausted a lot of energy at that time.

We thought...

We thought

the hardest hurdle had passed.

That everything had worked out.

I know

you've been feeling wronged since you were a child.

You think me and your mom

love Feng more

and neglect you.

Actually, it's not like that.

You and your brother

are our beloved children.

There's no difference

between you two.

It's just that Feng had suffered a lot.

We were always trying

to make it up to him

in our hearts.

Can you understand that?

It was in the past now.

Life must go on.

Let's try our best together, shall we?

I get sentimental every time

when I sit here.

I won't sit here again.

You shouldn't sit here, either.

Okay.

Come home with me.

Should I cook your favorite braised noodles?

Okay.

Let's go.

[Flupentixol and Melitracen Tablets]

[Flupentixol and Melitracen Tablets]

[Functions: A drug for antidepressant and antianxiety]

In the ninth year of Yonghe,

at the beginning of the late spring,

we have gathered at the Orchid Pavilion in the North of Kuaiji Mountain

for the purification ritual.

All the literati, the young and the old, have congregated.

There are high mountains and steep hills,

dense wood and slender bamboos,

as well as a limpid flowing stream

reflecting the surrounding.

We sit by a redirected stream with floating wine goblets.

Sir, see you tomorrow.

Okay, goodbye.

Mr. Hao, goodbye.

Goodbye.

I have told you before.

You have to revise it.

And make sure you find

your own way to solve the question.

But I don't blame you.

I used to make mistakes like that too.

Sorry.

Sir, I'll take another look.

[Red Hair] (I saw that kid from your class at the port.)

(He was hanging out with some gangsters.)

(I don't know what he was up to.)

(Recently, there are many smuggling investigations.)

(Why don't you ask him about it?)

(Nan, I'm useful, right?)

What is Wang Fang doing lately?

I have no idea.

Don't lie to me.

You two are so close.

A few days ago,

he took me to a weird place.

He said he was making a big score

with those people.

I told him not to go

because those people

don't seem to be good.

But he said he wanted to make money.

(These clothes are probably from the port.)

(They are like foreign rubbish.)

It can be considered as smuggling.

Some kids were arrested the other day

because of this.

Give him a call

and ask where he is.

I know you brought your phone. Call him.

Hey, Wang Fang.

Where are you?

What's up? I'm at the port.

I have things to do, I'll call you later.

I'm hanging up.

No.

I'll call him again.

(Hello, the phone your have dialed is powered off.)

What did he say?

He said he was at the port.

He powered off his phone without saying anything else.

Alright, go home after you tidy up.

I'll look for him.

Sir, I'm going with you.

Don't come with me.

The more people, the more troublesome.

Listen to me.

I'll send you a message

after I found him.

Red Hair.

Nan.

Nan, have you checked the east port?

Yes.

What about the south port?

No.

You didn't go, or you didn't find him there?

I didn't find him there.

You should make it clear.

This is the last port.

Let's check it out.

Let's go.

Sir, I want to find someone.

Feel free to look for yourself.

Okay, please step aside.

Quick, move quickly.

Stop stalling.

Hurry up!

Move as fast as possible.

Hello, I'm looking for someone.

Madam, are you in charge here?

I'm looking for someone.

Go away, I'm busy.

What is their problem?

Something is wrong.

Mister.

I am looking for someone.

Is there a tall and big young man here?

He is fair-skinned.

Which one of us is not tall, big, and fair-skinned?

Hurry up, let's get moving.

Hurry up and stop stalling.

Put these over there too?

Yes.

Team leader, this side is full.

Don't come here anymore.

Come on, put everything down.

This is a routine inspection.

Come and open the boxes.

Okay.

Wang Fang.

Don't move.

Stop what you're doing.

Why are you here?

This too.

What stuff are you moving?

It's none of your business.

I'm asking you what are in the boxes.

None of your business.

Routine inspection. Open the box.

Our boss has to...

Open it!

That’s it?

Just some raw oysters?

We've been looking for you all night.

What are you doing?

Because of you,

my brother got hurt.

He even bought your old leather jackets.

But you still won't study after he did all that.

What do you want?

Do you wish to go to the heaven?

Don’t push your luck!

Believe it or not, I can beat you up.

Do you know that?

I'm asking you. Do you know that?

I'm asking you. Do you know that?

I'm still a student.

My teacher is here.

You can't do anything to me.

Nan.

Can I go out to calm myself down?

Why did you stop selling the leather jackets?

I quit.

I knew they weren't good people.

You are smart.

You know when to adapt.

I was quite nervous just now.

I didn't mean it.

It does not matter.

The important thing is that your judgment is accurate.

Do you know what is opportunity cost?

What does that mean?

Opportunity cost means

you can't have your cake and eat it too.

If you choose to keep the cake,

you can't eat it.

Simply put,

if you choose to move oysters,

you will not pass the NCEE

with flying colors.

I know it well

that you don't care about the NCEE.

But you have to think it through.

You were moving oysters today.

A while back, you were selling old leather jackets.

You were doing this and that on the fly.

You can earn some money.

But don't forget your purpose.

You're not doing it to get rid of your dad,

but to surpass him.

You can't outdo him

in your current state.

You might even sacrifice your future.

Because you have no skills.

Everything that you do won't last long.

The opportunity cost is too high.

Wang Fang.

Listen to me.

Study hard.

Get into a university.

Find a right path and don't look back.

A man

shall eye on the future.

In your opinion,

do I still have a chance now?

What matters

is not my opinion,

but your choice.

Red Hair is outside.

Don't run into him.

Good morning, sir.

Morning.

Please wait.

Are you guys posing for me to see?

Of course.

Tell me, what's the matter?

I will attend your tuition class

on time at half past seven tonight.

It's seven o'clock.

Sorry.

Are your friends coming as well?

Of course.

I, Wang Fang, is a man of my word.

A word spoken by a man is...

Thank you.

Wait a minute, I'm not done.

Okay, I'm sorry. Please continue.

A promise to be kept.

I'm entrusting my life in this year

to you.

The same goes for us.

Thank you.

I have gathered the entire class for you,

haven't I?

Not really.

Leave it to me.

Take it easy.

Welcome back, the Devil Child.

Nice to see you, Guanyin Bodhisattva.

Ms. Zhang.

Ms. Bai.

Why are you here?

I came here for Gao Yuan.

Get off my chair first, will you?

What's wrong with him?

Gao Yuan

is my biggest concern in the class.

What is his current state?

He's in a state

where he is not himself.

His body is here every day,

but not his soul.

He always sleeps in class.

It's not long before the NCEE.

How can he be like this?

You have to give him some time.

The problem is there's no time left.

The NCEE is around the corner.

Psychologically speaking,

there are three phases in the process of grieving

the loss of a loved one.

First is acceptance.

Second, cope with the pain.

Third,

adapt to the life after losing a loved one.

But often, depending on

the degree of attachment between the two sides,

the time for them to move on also varies.

Anyway,

they have to go through all three phases

to return to normal life.

Even if you ask Gao Yuan,

"It has been a while,

why haven't you move on?",

it'll be useless.

Besides,

when dealing with such a tremendous pain,

there is another type of person

who appears not to be very upset

or overwhelm by sadness.

But it's often harder for people like that to move on.

Tell me, why did you hand in a blank examination paper?

I was in a bad mood on that day.

Are you feeling better now?

Yes.

Tell me, then.

On that day,

why were you in a bad mood?

Sir, please don't ask anymore.

If you press further,

I'll be in a bad mood again.

If you're free,

you can care more about the other students.

I'll try my best.

Then how can I tell

if he is better?

Simply put,

when he is willing to bring it up first

or when we ask,

it is obvious

that he's not that upset anymore.

He'd most likely be fine at this point.

I heard that after that incident,

Gao Yuan's mom

still can't get over it emotionally.

It's a good that

Gao Yuan can come back to school.

But now you're asking him

to focus on his studies immediately,

aren't you giving him a hard time?

Mr. Hao.

Dealing with loss

is a test that all of us have to go through.

Mom, it's on fire!

Yuan, be careful!

Mom.

Mom.

Mom.

[To: Feng]

(Feng,)

(it has been a while since you left.)

(I have been)

(deceiving myself.)

(I think as if you went to college.)

(My Feng)

(is always busy.)

(Busy studying.)

(Busy carrying out experiments.)

(Busy writing the thesis.)

(During the holidays,)

[Certificate of Honor] (you have to work as an intern at the hospital.)

(You couldn't come home.)

(I will think about all the details.)

(You woke up at seven o'clock.)

(You went to the lab at eight o'clock after breakfast.)

(Did the lab mouse)

(gain weight or lose weight?)

(The type of scalpel you used today.)

(The more details I think about,)

(the illusion)

(that you are still alive in this world)

(gets more real.)

(The less)

(miserable I feel.)

(When I can't fall asleep,)

(I take out)

(your childhood album.)

(I will take a look)

(at each of the photos.)

(Many years have passed,)

(but just looking at these photos)

(makes me recall)

(the feelings when we were taking those photos.)

(At that time, you always said)

(that you must go to the theme park)

(after you discharged.)

(In the photo that we took)

(at the entrance of the theme park,)

(you were still very young.)

(I was hugging you.)

(How happy we were.)

(Feng,)

(I made your favorite pork bone soup today.)

(But all of it was spilled.)

(I am truly useless.)

(I can't even cook)

(your favorite soup.)

(Today, I passed by the cake shop)

(that you loved when you were young.)

(The shop is going to be demolished.)

(I went in and bought two pieces of cake.)

(It's still the same taste.)

(Feng,)

(whenever you had the cake,)

(you'd always give the strawberries on the cake)

(to me first.)

(I keep mistaking Yuan for you lately.)

(He is becoming more and more like you.)

(I don't know)

(how to face him.)

(Feng,)

(how great it would be)

(if you were still here.)

Why were you burning things at home?

How dangerous it was.

If Yuan had not come back in time,

the whole house would have been burned down.

Where would we live in the future?

When I got home,

there was water and paper ashes

on the floor.

Yuan was lying on the floor

like a statue.

He ignored me

when I talked to him.

I feel sorry seeing him like that.

Yuan is a really thoughtful child.

He keeps everything

to himself

without saying a word.

It kills me to see him like that.

Ting.

I know you are having a hard time.

It's hard for me too.

But

if this situation continues,

Feng will not

be happy over there.

And it's not fair to Yuan.

We have to move on.

Let's sleep.

Yuan.

What time is it? You still...

Yuan!

Yuan!

Is Yuan outside?

No.

He should be at school at this hour.

How can he be at school?

There are his phone and bag.

Look, he didn't even wear his school uniform.

Call his teacher, then.

Hello?

Are you Mr. Hao?

Yes, may I know who are you?

I'm Gao Yuan's father.

He left his bag at home.

That's why I wanted to ask.

Is he at school?

Alright, I'll go to the class to take a look now.

Okay, thank you.

-Sorry for troubling you. -It's no big deal.

Is Gao Yuan here?

-No. -No.

I didn't see him.

Did he tell any of you that he's taking a leave?

I didn't see him.

I didn't see him, either.

No.

Alright, you guys study on your own first.

Hello, Mr. Hao.

Mr. Gao,

he didn't come to school.

Don't worry.

Try to recall

if there was anything unusual about him yesterday.

Alright.

Can you check the security footage

of the building?

Anyway, don't panic.

He might arrive at school in a while.

Let's keep in touch.

Okay, sorry for troubling you.

It's okay.

He's not at school.

Look. Is this is your child?

Yes.

He left at half past one in the morning.

This...

Mr. Hao.

Yuan went missing.

We checked the security footage.

He was seen leaving at around one.

Can you ask his classmates

and see if they know where he possibly went?

Calm down first, Mr. Gao.

Think about which place

he's likely to visit.

If he appears at school,

I'll notify you right away.

I'll also ask his classmates

for his whereabouts.

Let's keep in touch.

Okay.

Sorry for the trouble. Thank you.

Let's go.

Thank you.

No worries.

Thank you.

Let's go.

♪The crowd is the wind, and I, the dandelion♪

♪As I land, my dream blossoms, leading to a different future♪

♪You mock that my dream is impossible♪

♪No one understands the loneliness of a kite who embraces the rain♪

♪Growing up can be painful♪

♪People say that I'm delusional♪

♪But I forge on in the face of naysayers♪

♪I will not be swayed and walk in someone's shadow♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪Fly against the current to the vision you have in your dream♪

♪Hardship is the catalyst for resolution♪

♪You will witness my resilience♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪The pain will subside, you will shrug it off♪

♪In this ideal world, my courage is the centerpiece♪

♪Look, the rainbow after the rain♪

♪Shine a ray of light♪