Original subtitles

♪There is a secret♪

♪Deep inside my heart♪

♪Hidden as naturally as I breathe♪

♪When I am lost, it lights up my path♪

♪It tells me that I am my own torch-bearer♪

♪It teaches me that sweats♪

♪Can replace my tears♪

♪The flame is burning, waiting for me to wake up♪

♪Don't give up, despite the darkness ahead♪

♪Raising my arms proudly♪

♪The torch in my hand, my courage is bursting♪

♪The fire will not die, regardless of the storm♪

♪Don't forget to seek the light and spark♪

♪Within yourself♪

[Ray of Light] [Adapted from Zhao Xiaying's original story]

[Episode 11]

How I was in the past

and how I am now,

it has nothing to do with you.

What's wrong?

Did you ask me out just to tell me these things?

Do you think you can come and advise me

just because you know something about me?

Who do you think you are?

If you have so much free time,

you should focus on your studies

and try your best to enter the Medical University.

Whether I go to school or not,

and whether I'm happy or not,

it has nothing to do with you.

And you have no right to interfere.

Also,

you rode my brother's bike here

to say these things to me.

Don't you think it's too cruel?

(Gao Yuan,)

what are you doing?

Hey, Feng.

Did you just finish work?

Why aren't you home after school?

Dad just finished performing surgery

and both of them have night shifts tonight.

They asked me to bring coffee.

But I just saw Dad a while ago.

He could have told me earlier to bring it.

Why did he make you deliver the coffee?

Can't you tell

that they're indirectly watching me?

They want me to stop watching planes

and go to the hospital more to get some exposure.

So I can end up being like you

and become a doctor in the future.

Wait, what's wrong with becoming a doctor like me?

We already have three doctors at home. Isn't that enough?

Yet, they keep restricting me all the time.

Okay, fine.

We won't bother you anymore.

Give me the coffee, I'll deliver them for you.

Okay, thanks, Dr. Gao.

I'll leave this matter to you then.

I'm going to pick up the airplane model.

The store owner said my order had arrived.

All right, go home after picking it up.

After the college entrance exams, you'll have plenty of time to play.

Okay, I'm leaving.

Then, I'll wait for you at home.

See you at home.

There's an accident.

Let's go and take a look.

Someone was hit.

Let me see.

It's so serious.

So much blood.

My condolences.

My condolences to you and your family.

I'm sorry, Ren Zhen.

It's all my fault.

I know.

You did it all for Yuan's sake.

Yuan will definitely understand.

It's just that he might need some time.

You also need some time for yourself.

Yuan will understand you.

There, there. Don't cry.

Don't cry, okay?

[Grade 12 NCEE's Goals Diligence, Virtue, and Excellence]

Time for class.

All rise!

Morning, students.

Good morning, teacher.

Okay, please be seated.

Please turn

to page 105.

In today's class,

we'll focus on reviewing

the "Pavilion of Prince Teng."

What are you looking at?

Nothing.

Look, there's beef over there too.

What's wrong with you today?

You've been restless all day.

No, I'm not. It's your turn.

See what you want to eat.

Thank you.

It's your turn.

Thank you.

I'll wait for you over there.

Thank you, ma'am.

Gao Yuan.

Gao Yuan.

Gao Yuan.

What happened to your leg?

It's nothing. I just fell.

Earlier,

you went to the Equipment Room to look for me, right?

Yes.

I just wanted

to apologize to you.

I really didn't know that was your brother's bicycle.

I said so much yesterday.

I went out of line.

Don't take it to heart.

I didn't mean to bring up your painful memories.

I just don't want

to see you like that.

Like what?

Pitiful, right?

No.

That's not what I meant.

I just don't want

to see you being lonely.

I thought

you wanted to have someone to talk to.

Actually,

sometimes it's better not to say anything

or pretend nothing had happened.

That would be better for me.

Fang,

listen to me

if you still see me as your friend.

It's our final year.

Let's work hard.

Have you been brainwashed by that troublemaker?

That's not what I meant.

But we're already in Grade 12.

And my grades are so bad.

I want to study hard and give it a try.

Mr. Hao was right.

We should plan for our futures.

So we have more choices after going to the university.

I don't want to end up like my parents,

with no choices

and working so hard every day.

What's wrong with working hard?

Jia Kun,

you just started studying for a few days

and you're already acting all high and mighty.

That's not what I meant. Don't argue for no reason.

Then, what did you mean?

Today, you have to choose

between Hao Nan and me.

How will you choose?

Do I have to choose one?

It's not like we're dating.

Well...

Mr. Hao is actually a good person.

Although he seemed indifferent at first,

I can see he's really making an effort.

He's becoming better

and truly wants to teach us well.

I get it now.

Did he send you here

to act as a go-between?

I see you as my best friend,

and I'm doing this for your sake.

Okay.

If you see me as your best friend,

you have to choose

between Hao Nan and me today.

Think about it carefully.

Well, I'll definitely choose you.

Okay.

Fang,

I still want to attend extra classes tonight.

Hey, buddy.

What are you doing here?

Mister, add more chili for me, please.

All right.

Thank you.

Here you go.

Eat up.

[Chen's Eatery]

Quickly.

Give me one.

I pity Jia Kun.

It was hilarious.

The food is here.

You can eat spicy food, right?

It smells delicious.

Can you take spicy food?

-Yes. -Yes, we can.

Whose drink is this?

Come here.

Give my drink back to me.

I'll just have a sip.

You've really had one big sip.

One sip of this and a mouthful of noodles.

Wang Fang.

Wang Fang.

Why are you here?

Come and have noodles.

Don't waste.

It's pretty delicious.

Did you guys just finish the extra class?

Is the food here delicious?

It's terrific.

Hurry, order one bowl for yourself

and join us.

I'm done eating.

Here, try this. This is delicious.

Have you all

been brainwashed by Hao Nan?

Can our class make it to the top three in the whole grade?

Don't you know your own grades?

Am I right?

At least we're all working hard in our studies.

It's better than loafing around like you.

So what if I don't study?

You work so hard.

But why are you a repeater?

You're so arrogant.

Do you think your arrogance

is justified because you're older?

I think there's something wrong with your brain.

Do you know that?

What did you say?

Wang Fang,

watch your mouth.

Did I say anything wrong?

Just eat this.

It's mine. So it's okay.

You're not wearing lipstick today.

You put on makeup to school every day.

Do you really think people are noticing you?

If you ask me,

you should face the reality.

Wang Fang, you've crossed the line.

What did I do?

Wang Fang,

you shouldn't talk to girls like that.

What does that have to do with you?

Apologize to them.

You're a guy.

Why do you keep hanging out

with Xia Fan and the others all the time?

Do you have a crush on her or something?

Wang Fang!

Why? Can't I touch you?

Don't touch me.

So what if I touch you?

Let it go.

Enough talking.

Wang Fang, please stop causing trouble.

Me? Causing trouble?

Jia Kun,

do you think you've become best friends

because you eat, study,

and solve questions together?

Wang Fang, that's enough.

Jia Kun has always been on your side.

Is he on my side?

You can ask him how much I've helped him

before this!

What are you implying?

Did I say anything?

You're just an ungrateful dog.

Who are you calling a dog?

You.

Who are you calling a dog?

-Stop fighting! -Hey, stop it!

Stop!

Get up! Don't fight!

Wang Fang!

Let him go! Stop fighting!

Stop it!

Hey, listen!

If you keep causing trouble,

I'll call the police!

Stop fighting! Stop it already!

Mr. Hao, come to the noodle house right now!

Get up now! Get up!

What's your problem?

How dare you glare at me!

Hit me then!

-Come here! -Beat me to death, then.

-Stop fighting! -Stop it!

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are? Come and hit me!

Wang Fang!

Come and hit me!

Are you a man? Come and hit me!

Are you a man?

How dare you hit me.

Stop fighting! Enough!

If you cause such trouble,

how am I going to run my business?

Mr. Hao!

You're not leaving, huh?

Hey! What do you think you're doing?

What are you doing?

They're all high school students.

If they catch a cold because you splash water at them,

can you deal with their parents

when they come for you?

Who are you?

I'm their teacher.

Teacher?

Birds of a feather sure flock together.

Stop it!

Are you still at it?

Stay still!

Are you not done yet?

Haven't you embarrassed yourself enough?

Did you hear that?

Did you hear what he said?

Birds of a feather flock together.

How much further do you want to embarrass yourself?

Wang Fang, tell me.

What are you doing?

I'm purging to start afresh.

What's there to purge, huh?

He's your best friend.

He wants to study hard and follow the right path.

As his best friend, you're stopping him.

Do you call yourself a friend?

Do you even know the meaning of brotherhood?

Do you?

Shut up!

Nobody talks! Don't say a word!

Of course I know what it means.

Do you think you're a character in "Young and Dangerous?"

You're the one who thinks you are one, Wang Fang.

Listen.

So long as I'm your teacher,

you'll always be my student.

So you have to listen to me.

Ptui!

Who did you "ptui?"

On you!

I want you to lick your spit clean.

No way!

Believe it or not, I'll beat you.

No, you wouldn't dare! Listen, Hao Nan!

You can't control me.

Wang Fang, have you lost your senses

from behaving like a gangster leader?

Have you?

Do you really think you're a boss?

You're the one who thinks you're the boss.

I am one!

I have a master's degree. What's your educational background?

I...

Enough about you. Pull up your pants.

Fine!

Then, let's compete based on real skills.

If I win,

you'll stop meddling in my affairs

and stay away from Jia Kun.

Do you have the guts?

And if I win?

You'll have to listen to me after this.

Okay.

Keep your word.

Deal.

Show me

what real skills you have

other than showing your underwear.

(Round One.)

(Ready. Go!)

(Whoever blinks first loses.)

[KO] Yes!

(KO)

Step aside.

(Round Two.)

(Ready. Go!)

(KO)

(Round Three.)

Ready. Go!

-Mr. Hao, you can do it! -Mr. Hao, keep going!

-You can do it! -Go! Go! Go!

-Go! Go! Go! -You can do it!

(KO)

(Round Four.)

(Ready. Go!)

(KO)

(Round Five.)

Whoever reaches the finish line first

wins.

Do we have to play this rough?

You two go ahead and watch the traffic.

Okay, sir.

You can start now.

(Ready. Go!) Start!

You can do it, Mr. Hao!

-You can do it! -Go! Go! Go!

Sir, you're off track. Keep to the right.

Hao Nan, you didn't take off the box, right?

I have this much integrity.

You're falling behind.

He's overtaking you. Hurry!

Keep going.

Keep going! Keep going!

To the right!

Sir, hurry.

Mr. Hao! Mr. Hao!

Sir, you're off track again!

You can do it!

-Wang Fang! -Wang Fang!

Wang Fang, are you okay?

Why didn't you look before you opened the door?

Leave me alone!

I'm sorry.

I didn't lose. I didn't open my eyes.

Leave me alone!

-Enough. -Stop walking.

Okay, fine. I lost.

I lost, okay? I lost!

What did you say?

I said I lost.

My eyes are still closed.

Okay, your eyes are still closed.

You guys saw it! I won!

You'll have to listen to me now that I've won!

Fine, I'll listen to you.

Stop yelling.

Is your leg okay?

None of your business.

All right, then. You guys should go home now.

I'll send him home.

Sir, I'll go with you.

Come.

Let's go.

Don't touch me.

Just walk.

Are you leaving?

Yeah, I'm leaving.

Come on.

Be gentle. Watch my leg.

I thought you were tough.

Ouch, it hurts!

Go home, guys. Head home.

Let's get going too.

You guys go home.

Watch your head.

Can you walk? Go inside yourself.

I can walk.

You can just drop me here.

Is this where you live?

It's beautiful.

Thank you.

Fang.

Fang.

Hello.

I'm Hao Nan, Wang Fang's teacher.

Hello, Mr. Hao.

Oh, right.

He fell and hurt his leg.

So we sent him home.

It's nothing serious.

Thank you.

It's nothing.

Mr. Hao.

Since you're already here,

come inside for a while.

Please come inside.

Okay.

Well...

Can you wait for us for a while?

Thank you.

Please come inside.

Okay.

You, too. Please come in.

Come.

Mr. Hao,

thank you

for sending Fang home at this hour.

It's nothing. That's my job.

How's Fang's performance at school lately?

Please.

Well,

he's doing pretty well.

He's smart.

For some math problems,

he didn't really understand at first.

But he got it once I taught him.

If he could do more revision

at home,

his grades will improve.

Okay.

We'll pay more attention to his studies.

Okay.

If he has any issues at school,

you can tell me anytime.

Of course.

You're Wang Fang's...

I'm his mother.

You look very young.

Are you here to greet me?

Do I smell alcohol?

Do I?

Dear.

Wang.

Hello.

This is Fang's teacher, Mr. Hao.

Hello.

This is Jia Kun, his classmate.

Hello.

Hello, Mr. Hao.

I've finally met you today.

Did he cause trouble at school again?

Oh, no.

He accidentally fell just now.

I happened to be around.

So I sent him home.

Yes, Mr. Hao sent him back.

I get it.

You don't have to cover up for him.

He must have been fighting again.

That's just how he is.

I've given up on him.

He plays games at home and fights outside.

He's just a good-for-nothing.

Is there anyone who wants to adopt a kid?

If yes, they can just take him away.

I have given up.

Why do I need him?

Wang.

Don't say that.

I've given up on myself, too.

You bring the kid inside.

Yang, come.

Let's go.

I've told you so many times.

I spent hundreds of thousands of yuan on this carpet.

And you just walk around with your shoes on.

Do you even see this as your home?

Do you consider me as your family member?

What else are you if I don't consider you as a family member?

I work hard day and night

to the point of ruining my health to earn money.

If I'm not supporting you, who else am I supporting?

You earn money?

Are you earning money for me?

All you think about is money every day.

Apart from money, what else do you know?

You're earning money for your youngest son!

Okay, enough. Stop arguing.

Let me tell you, you can earn your money

and spend the rest of your life with money!

Stop arguing. Stop it, Wang Fang.

I..

Did you see that? How can we live without money?

Without money, how can I support this family?

Did you grow up without money?

I can support myself even if I don't have money!

I don't need you to provide for me!

If you can, just leave.

Leave!

You can leave! Get out!

Go and support yourself!

Get out!

Wang, calm down.

Talk to Mr. Hao.

Fang, your dad has been tired these few days.

Enough! Stop pretending to be nice!

You're not even my birth mother!

Just take care of your son!

Who do you think you're talking to?

Say that again!

I'll say it again, and what can you do about it?

So what if I said that?

I'm going to beat you to death.

Bai Jie,

are you asleep?

Can you bring me your medical kit?

It's nothing. Just bring it over.

(To have a father)

who oppresses him and says hurtful words,

it must have been hard on Wang Fang.

All done.

Say,

Wang Fang behaves mischievously in class.

He might be sending a distress signal, you know.

He just hopes that the teacher and classmates

can pay more attention to him.

And when he talks about wanting to earn money,

that may be

his way

of proving he's not worthless.

When a child behaves like this,

it definitely has something to do with the family.

They wanted to send me to the hospital.

But I want to avoid unnecessary trouble.

So I hurried back.

When people contribute to the field of education,

it's all about their dedication and passion.

You even sacrificed your body for it.

That's corny.

I only sacrificed my head.

How does it look? Do I look cool like this?

What if a parent broke

the precious watch

your dad gave you?

I'd fight back and quit my job.

This is my energy box.

It's where my little universe is.

No.

You don't believe me?

No.

Come on.

What happened to your shoulder?

Who bullied you?

Wait.

That's too much.

That was too harsh.

Who did it?

It looks so serious.

Enough, stop being nosy.

Give me your papers.

-Uh... -I haven't finished it.

Sorry.

What happened to you?

Stop asking, Liu Qiangqiang.

No one could bully Wang Fang.

Class monitor.

She's right.

Wait.

Kun, why is your face bruised?

Wait, what happened?

Could it be...

Don't tell me you two fought.

Did you?

Don't casually make guesses.

We're still

on good terms.

What happened, then?

What's this?

Wang Fang.

Did you two beat Mr. Hao up?

What's wrong?

You better don't provoke Fang these two days.

He's in a foul mood.

Is your head okay?

It's nothing. I've been through it too.

I'm sorry.

I've always misunderstood you before.

After visiting your house yesterday, I got it.

No matter how hard you've tried over the years,

you can't get your father's approval.

You're halfway between giving up and pushing forward, aren't you?

Actually,

all parents in the world love their children.

He may say that.

But deep down, he definitely loves you.

One more thing.

I think you're always arguing with him about everything.

It's quite pointless.

Can't you live for yourself?

This is what I think.

Live a brilliant life for yourself.

Impress him and make him acknowledge you.

Come to my extra class.

Let's give it a try.

Enough,

I don't want to implicate you.

What do you mean?

I'm just a worthless mess.

Here are the papers.

Wang Fang.

What's up?

What worthless mess?

You don't really think that way.

You talk as if like you know me so well.

Of course I know you.

We were desk mates in primary school,

in the same class in middle school,

and even in high school.

Remember when you couldn't win a fight as a child?

You chased the others with rocks all the way.

And there was this one time

when you wanted to scare the classmates with firecrackers.

But they all exploded in your pocket.

The teacher made you take off your pants for inspection.

You weren't happy about it.

I know all your embarrassing stories.

Yeah,

I was like that as a kid.

I'm still like that now.

I'm precisely a worthless mess.

Do you still remember

you used to have pretty good grades?

You cried next to me during the whole session

just because you didn't make it to the top five in the class.

You were so upset that you didn't eat the whole day.

Didn't you do that to test your dad?

Stop talking.

I don't want to hear anymore.

Wang Fang.

Wang Fang.

You like Kobe, right?

Kobe is someone who never gives up.

Are you giving up on yourself now?

Don't you want to win for yourself once?

Tonight at seven o'clock,

join us for the extra lesson.

Hello, Mrs. Wang.

I'm okay.

It's okay. Don't worry.

Yes, I did lose quite a bit of blood.

But the scalp area is like this, to begin with.

In fact, the wound isn't big.

Please don't worry.

Sure.

I also want to talk

with you and Mr. Wang.

All right, I'll see you guys tonight.

Okay.

Mr. Hao, I'm truly sorry.

I wanted to go and visit you.

I even told her so.

But you're already here.

Yeah.

It's okay, Mr. Wang.

I understand the situation you're in.

First of all, you drank alcohol yesterday

and were frustrated.

But I really don't agree

with your methods.

There wasn't a single kind word from your mouth.

Our school now promotes

positive reinforcement education.

But the efforts of us teachers alone are not enough.

We need cooperation from both sides.

Wang Fang is a smart child.

He's very sensitive.

If you speak to him like that all the time,

he'll develop some subconscious suggestions over time.

He'll truly believe

that he's worthless.

If the mental defense breaks down,

he will fall apart.

He's such a smart kid.

If he studies seriously,

he'll be as successful as you in the future.

Encourage him more.

Mr. Hao, you're right.

I often say the same thing to Wang.

But the truth is,

we're usually quite busy.

We don't pay enough attention to Fang.

Many parents are like this nowadays.

But being busy is not a valid excuse.

I agree.

You should try your best

not to vent your work-related frustrations

on your child.

The reason I'm here

is to tell you about this.

It's getting late now.

I have to prepare my lessons.

So I'll take my leave.

Wait for a moment.

Take this with you.

It's okay.

It's a small gesture.

No, Mr. Wang.

Mr. Hao, please accept this.

Only then

will we feel better.

I'm serious. I can't accept this.

Let's work together.

Let's work together

to help Wang Fang build up his confidence.

This will be the best reward you can give me.

I really can't accept this.

Okay, I'll change my ways.

I'm a teacher.

I can't accept this.

I have one more thing to ask.

Does Wang Fang often not come home after school?

Recently, that's been the case.

He often doesn't come back.

I see.

Okay, I'll get going, then.

No, wait.

Take this.

You said...

I can't accept it.

Mr. Hao,

please take it. Please take it.

Are you a vegan now?

Miss, five more sausages.

Can you finish all that?

I can't finish it, but I still have to eat.

It was my fault back then.

But you can't just take advantage of me like this.

What's wrong with taking advantage of you?

You're rich, aren't you?

Yeah, I'm rich. But is that my money?

That's my dad's money.

Your dad's money is your money

because you're his son.

Do I even want to be his son?

You saw how it was in my family.

Whenever I achieve something,

people always say it's because of my dad.

Those people praise me and get close to me.

Do you think they look up to me?

No, they look up to my dad's money.

Now even my dad is like this,

making it seem like I have to listen to him

because he gives me money.

I feel like my dad looks down on me, too.

It's okay.

I look up to you.

You've seen the conditions in my family.

If it were you, would you be okay with it?

I would.

At least you have a family.

I don't want to spend my dad's money now.

I can earn

a little on my own now.

I live quite freely.

I can also make genuine friends.

Oh, Fang.

You're not using your dad's money anymore.

But you might make your genuine friend penniless.

It's just money, right?

Take it easy. You'll make some one day.

Just like the dirt on your body.

It'll come out if you rub it.

Stop rubbing it.

There is no more dirt.

You've been freeloading off me for so long.

You should let me have a chance to freeload on your once.

You should rub yours instead.

I don't have any.

That's not what I meant. I was just kidding.

You're so gross. We're eating here.

Okay, enough!

All right, stop messing around.

Let's drink.

We're still best friends.

Of course.

Yes?

Yes, okay.

No problem.

Don't worry. Leave it to me.

I'll be there later.

Okay.

Bye.

Who's that?

♪The crowd is the wind, and I, the dandelion♪

♪As I land, my dream blossoms, leading to a different future♪

♪You mock that my dream is impossible♪

♪No one understands the loneliness of a kite who embraces the rain♪

♪Growing up can be painful♪

♪People say that I'm delusional♪

♪But I forge on in the face of naysayers♪

♪I will not be swayed and walk in someone's shadow♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪Fly against the current to the vision you have in your dream♪

♪Hardship is the catalyst for resolution♪

♪You will witness my resilience♪

♪Don't be scared, just stand out♪

♪The pain will subside, you will shrug it off♪

♪In this ideal world, my courage is the centerpiece♪

♪Look, the rainbow after the rain♪

♪Shine a ray of light♪