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♪Once I was adrift on the boundless sea♪

♪I looked up but didn't see
the stars or the moon♪

♪No one cared who I was♪

♪Stuck in the long dark night
I stumbled around♪

♪Once I went through a lot♪

♪Beside me, you smiled♪

♪When we talked about dreams back to back♪

♪All the regrets became precious♪

♪So, however cold, dark♪

♪Or disappointing it is♪

♪However hard, difficult
or confused I feel♪

♪You're the answer and my eternal faith♪

♪I want my own light and fly up with you♪

♪Where you can hear the pounding of clouds♪

♪I want my own light
and even if the future is checkered♪

♪I'll always be there with you♪

♪Toward the light♪

[Be Your Own Light]

[Episode 08]

I'm sorry.

I was once judged
by a woman on my appearance,

so I made some adjustments to the photo.

Actually, you don't have to.

Most women are not that superficial.

But I hope that everyone

can focus on my personality

rather than my appearance.

So,

I purposely made my photo look uglier.

What?

You didn't expect I'm more handsome
in real life, right?

Kind of a surprise to you.

Your words are quite surprising.

Let's start our blind date then.

Sure.

This is my fixed deposit certificate.

[Jiangdu Bank Deposit Certificate]

The list of my wealth management products.

[Personal Wealth Management]

My medical report.

[Medical Check-up Report]

[Personal Credit Report]
My credit report.

Oh yeah,

and this.

This is my Alipay balance.

I'm sorry, Mr. Wang.

I don't know that I need to prepare these

for a blind date.

Never mind. You can bring them next time.

Ms. Bai, may I ask

how tall you are without wearing shoes?

I'm 165cm tall.

Only 165?

How...

How tall are you?

180,

just a little bit shorter than it.

How much shorter?

15 cm.

Then we're of the same height.

That's why I'm a little worried

that our two sons and one daughter

won't be tall.

Our two sons and one daughter?

Or one son and two daughters.

Anyway, we will have three kids.

And at least one must be a boy.

Mr. Wang, I feel you think too much.

Well, I'm a thinker.

But it's fine.

Your education can make up for your height.

And what can you make up for it?

My masculinity.

Masculinity brand insole
that increases your height?

You have a sense of humor.

By the way, may I ask again?

How much is your annual income?

A few hundred thousand.

Only a few hundred thousand?

What about you?

Less than one million.

How much less?

Over 900,000 less.

Over 900,000. That's tens of thousands.

But mine is a permanent post.

May I ask again?

How much time do you need
to cook four dishes and one soup?

Three years.

Three years?

One year each to buy ingredients,
wash ingredients, and learn to cook.

So you can't cook.

Then you should be good
at cleaning, taking care of children,

and doing the laundry?

Why should I be good at these?

You don't know how to cook and do the laundry.

And you don't take care of children
and clean the house.

How could you come to a blind date?

Since you have the cheek to come,

why can't I?

Forget it. You have a house.

I'll ignore that.

But your eyes are a bit small.

Can you fix them?

I used to have single eyelids
and ingrown eyelashes.

So I had double eyelid surgery.

Can you make your eyes bigger?

Sure, let's go together.

You can fix your brain,
and I can fix my face.

What do you mean?

Mr. Wang, I think I may not
be good enough for you.

That's it for today.

Are you playing hard to get?

I am

deterred

and even become skeptical about life.

Really?

Ms. Bai.

You're 35 years old and so picky.

Aren't you afraid
you'll never get married?

This is none of your business!

[Wuyuegong·Hui Restaurant]

What kind of blind date is this?

What's wrong with you, Bai Yang.

[Jiangdu Television]

Tian.

Who goes before me?

Zhang Ke.

Okay.

Whose cosmetics?

Qiaoqiao's.

She thinks what we use on her is cheap.

She's brought herself a branded set.

Where's she?

She was here.

Mr. Qiu suddenly wanted to see her.

So she left.

[Jiangdu Television
Estate Online Duty Roster]

[Friday: Xu Qiaoqiao.
Saturday: Xu Qiaoqiao.]

[Sunday: Zhao Yuanyuan]

[Saturday: Xu Qiaoqiao.
Sunday: Zhao Yuanyuan]

Where is Min?

She's in the meeting room.

[The Stage Design and Proposal
of the 5th Real Estate Fashion Award]

What's this about?

This is Mr. Qiu's decision.

You'd better ask him.

Come in.

What's with you, Yuanyuan?

Don't cry.

Well,

what's wrong?

Mr. Qiu, tell me the truth.

Have I done something wrong lately

and made you unsatisfied?

Who said it? You've been doing well lately.

Then why am I not

on the daily program?

And you also don't let me host the ceremony.

Well...

Mr. Qiu,

when we started doing Estate Online,

there were only me and Min in the program.

I was the host, the editor,

and the salesperson.

In the morning, I went into the studio.
In the afternoon, I edited the footage.

And at night, I had to drink with clients.

I never took a day off

the whole year

except for the Chinese New Year.

The longest time I've stayed in the control room

was more than 30 hours

because I couldn't leave.

Yuanyuan,

calm down.

You don't have to do this. Here.

Take it.

Wipe your tear.

Stop crying.

Let's talk things out.

Mr. Qiu.

Speaking of experience,

I've hosted the ceremony
for four years in a row.

Speaking of ability,

you just complimented me last week.

You said you're at ease when I'm on stage.

Did you say that?

Yes.

Speaking of audience appeal,

Mr. Liu from the union told me personally

that I'm amicable.

He said the audience and guests

liked me very much.

Yes.

You've been doing really well these days.

Then, why?

Why did you kick me out all of a sudden?

You should at least give me a heads-up.

The event directing team has overlooked this.

I'll lecture them later.

But with regards to the host,

the directing team thinks
that the audience like fresh faces.

So they want to use someone new.

Coincidentally, a channel manager
noticed Qiaoqiao's performance

in Sparkling World Opening Livestream

a few days ago

and thought she was energetic.

So, she'll host the ceremony this time.

She almost screwed up that day.

Why didn't you report it to the manager?

I've talked to her about this.

She's realized her problem

and reflected deeply on it.

She assured me

she'd totally follow
the directing team's instructions

and never improvise.

But speaking of the live broadcast that day,

the channel manager also criticized

that you were very dull on set.

Your emotions...

I'm dull?

She's the one who got a problem that day!

Why I'm the one blamed?

I defended you,

saying that you were tired.

The manager thus suggested

that you should take a break.

That's why you'll only

be on the weekend show.

Qiaoqiao will do the weekday show.

Mr. Qiu,

I've been working under you
since I joined the station.

In my mind,

you're not only my superior

but also my mentor and brother.

If something troubles me

or upsets me, I can only talk to you.

I'm being bullied now.

Only you can help me.

Yuanyuan,

I know this is a little unfair to you.

But it is not a bad thing.

Not a bad thing?

Yeah, if you have less hosting work,

you'll have more time and energy

to sell more ads.

You're 8.5 million short

of the ten-million target.

Wait, Mr. Qiu.

They don't conflict.

Hosting and selling ads,

I can do both.

I can balance them well.

Yuanyuan,

let me tell you the truth.

The Channel has set a 200-million target

for Advertising Center this year.

Do you know what that means?

That means when I open my eyes every morning,

I owe more than half a million to the Channel.

Is it easy for me?

My hair has turned all grey now.

Right.

It's not easy for you.

If you can hit the ten-million target

by the end of this year,

it'll take a lot of stress off me.

I really hope you can help me out.

I also believe
that you have the ability and resources

to complete the task.

Mr. Qiu,

if it were in the past,

ten million was really nothing.

But this year is hard.

Not many of my clients
are still in the business.

And fewer of them have ten million

and are willing to put up an ad.

I know it's hard.

But advertising revenue
determines the survival of the Channel.

You're helping not only me

but also the Channel, Advertising Center,

and yourself.

Mr. Qiu, don't worry.

I will work hard and do my best to sell the ads.

But...

Don't worry.

You just need to complete the ten-million task.

I will definitely win over what you ask.

Okay.

Also, the new script
should be given to me at the end.

I need to double-check it.

Nothing can go wrong.

What did Mr. Qiu say?

He told me to sell ads to make 10 million first.

Then he'll handle this.

It seems that the pressure

to generate avenues is crushing him.

I can let go of everything else.

But this time is different.

The Real Estate Fashion Party

is a major annual event in the industry.

I can't give it up.

You have to help me.

I need to get the party back.

I think you'd better forget it.

Don't talk me out of it.

I heard Qiaoqiao ask her father's friend

to sponsor the ceremony,

so she could host it.

How much did they sponsor?

One million.

If I can get

1.5 million ads now,

do I still stand a chance?

Yuanyuan, just forget it.

Stop competing against her.

If you continue doing that,

I'm afraid

you can't even host the weekend show.

Why do you say so?

She has billions of family estate

and the channel manager's support.

What do you have?

Yes, I have nothing.

I've worked hard for so many years

and am now being replaced by someone else
for no reason!

I just can't suck it up.

[Jiangdu People's Hospital]

Leave it to us.

-Thank you.
-Come.

Let's go.

What do you check?

My wife is having fiberoptic bronchoscopy.

What's wrong with your wife?

There is a nodule on the lung.

No.

You don't need to do that if it's just a nodule.

It may be a tumor.

Tumor?

How long has she been in?

Half an hour.

Then it's not a nodule.

It must be cancer.

Why?

My dad died of cancer.

I know all the procedures.

If the test finds nothing,

she'll be out in 15 minutes.

If it's cancer,

at least half an hour.

No.42, Xie Huiquan.

Yes.

The anesthetic hasn't worn off.

In the next three hours,

don't let her eat or drink anything.

And she needs a PET-CT scan

tomorrow.

Got it.

Thank you.

He Huan.

Ye Wentian.

You still remember me.

Oh my god.

-Why do you...
-You still look the same.

You also look the same.

I'm old.

You are not.

What are you doing here?

Meeting a friend.

And you?

I just got off work.

Oh, right,

you work here.

We haven't met for over ten years.

That's right.

How have you been?

I'm fine.

You're doing well?

So-so.

Are you still on that book show?

No, the show is canceled.

You're always remarkable.

You too.

What are you doing now?

I'm running a small company,

doing some business to make a living.

You're so humble.

What about Kaige? How is he doing?

Not bad.

Is he still in Haichuan Fund?

Only he deserves you.

Don't say that.

Are you married?

No.

I've been single for ten years.

There are suitable ones,
but I'm not attracted to them.

I bet your standards are too high.

I've got to go

because my mother is hospitalized.

I have to rush over.

Mrs. He is hospitalized?

What's wrong with her? Is it serious?

Lung cancer.

My god.

Which hospital? I can give you a ride.

There's no need.

South Hill Hospital. It's close.

How about this?

Let me add you on WeChat.

Okay.

I have a friend

who's developing a new anticancer drug.

I can ask him

and see if it can help Mrs. He.

-Okay?
-Thank you.

-You scan my QR code?
-Yeah.

Alright.

Added.

Keep in touch.

Okay.

We can have a meal together
with Kaige sometime.

Okay, I'll make a move first.

Okay.

Bye.

Bye.

Is Mom sleeping?

What's it, Dad?

What disease does your mother have?

Didn't I tell you?

It's just a small nodule on the lung.

Be honest with me.

You never lie.

Dr. Tong has told you everything.

It's just a benign hamartoma.

I searched. I know
Dr. Tong is a lung cancer expert.

Well, he's also a thoracic surgeon.

I searched for one more thing.

The PET-CT scan your mother

is going to do tomorrow

is to check

whether the tumor has metastasized.

PET-CT scan can also detect

cardiovascular diseases.

And I learned from the doctor

that the enhanced CT scan your mother had

when she was first hospitalized

is totally different from the one you told me.

Huanhuan.

Huanhuan.

Can you tell me the truth?

It's lung cancer, right?

Yes.

Dad.

Dad.

Dad.

Don't worry. Though it's lung cancer,

it's lung adenocarcinoma.

It's the least malignant type of lung cancer.

And it's in the middle stage.

Besides, there are all kinds
of effective medicines.

Everything will be okay.

No matter what,

she has cancer.

You've searched, right?

Dr. Tong is the most famous expert.

We're in good hands.

You have to trust the doctor.

Trust the expert.

Huanhuan.

Did Dr. Tong say

how long your mother will last?

Dr. Tong said he is quite confident.

Let's not be too pessimistic.

But...

But I...

Don't worry.

You can ask Dr. Tong

about his views

when you meet him next time.

Dad.

Dad, you still have me.

I know.

Fortunately, I have you, Huanhuan.

Huanhuan.

Don't let your mother know about this.

She has never suffered in her life.

I'm afraid she can't take it.

I know.

I might not be able

to take care of Zimo during this period.

Don't worry about that. I'll look after him.

My work at the TV station

has largely come to an end.

Don't worry. You just take good care of Mom.

Huanhuan,

you're a bit

out of sorts lately.

Is it because of your mother's illness?

My good daughter, thank you so much.

It's nothing. This is what I should do.

When will Kaige come back?

He can't leave everything

to you to handle.

He'll be back soon.

Okay.

You can be less stressed when he's back.

Alright, Dad.

Dad.

Control yourself when you get in.

You need to relax.

Don't let Mom notice anything.

I know. Don't worry.

It is reasonable
for this restaurant to be famous online.

This green plum wine goes perfectly together

with the signature dish.

Yeah, I knew you would love this place.

By the way,

I almost forgot to give you this.

The fan meeting ticket.

Yuanyuan.

[Fan Meeting Ticket]

I love you so much, Yuanyuan.

Well, eat more.

Thank you.

I want to ask you something.

I think your boss is very strange.

Why does he ignore me

every time I talk to him?

That's perfectly normal.

Why?

That's who he is.

I'm relieved.

I thought there was something wrong with me.

Let me tell you. My boss

has five horrible traits.

What do you mean?

Workaholic,

Virgo,

obsessive-compulsive disorder,

germophobia, and social anxiety.

If it weren't for the high pay,

I would've left.

Gosh, my dear.

This is hard on you.

Here, drink more today.

I bet such an eccentric person

has no hobbies.

He's into design.

No.

This is work, not a hobby.

He likes Haruki Murakami.

What curry?

Not curry. He's a writer.

The old staff in the company said

he had collected

almost all the works of this author.

I see.

I must have drunk too much.

I shouldn't betray my boss.

No, dear.

You're just having a good time.

Here, don't just drink.

Eat more.

Try some of this.

Do you have your company's latest schedule?

[Jiangdu Television]

Haruki Murakami?

Do you know him?

Of course.

Read a Good Book made a special on him

the year before last.

That's great, Huan.

You have to help me.

How do you want me to help you?

Transform me

into an intellectual woman

who knows a lot about Haruki Murakami.

Impossible. I can't make it happen in 30 days,

let alone three days.

I know it's hard.

But I'm running out of time.

Three days later,

Mr. Liu from Lindu Home Furnishing will attend

an international design startup forum.

I have to win him over on the forum.

I heard this guy is odd-tempered,

arrogant, and self-centered.

Haruki Murakami is his Achilles' heel.

Does he really like him?

Or is he actually a fake fan?

I don't know.

But I heard

he had collected all Haruki Murakami's books.

He should have a genuine interest, then.

If that's the case,

it's inadequate to be an intellectual woman.

You need to know Haruki Murakami's works

like the back of your hand.

I know, but...

I have no choice now.

I'll listen to you in three days.

Three days?

Let me think about how I can help you.

About Haruki Murakami,

I've picked three of his classics for you.

These are his must-read.

Read them at home.

Kafka on the Shore.

Why do you give me two copies?

Part one and part two.

Norwegian Wood.

Hear the Wind Sing.

Huan.

Three books are a lot for me.

Can I read only one?

He has dozens of books.

I only picked three for you.

Read them first.

After that, you'll have a rough idea

of Haruki Murakami's style.

This is his biography.

You can study

the outline I made.

You made an outline for me? Thank you, Huan.

You're welcome.

And here are his famous quotes.

You can memorize them.

Alright, Huan.

This is enough.

No more.

You said you only have three days.

That's all the information

I can get for you.

Huan, how about this?

Do me another favor.

Help me delete some of these

and simplify them.

Please understand the difficulty
of a slow learner.

If you want to achieve your goal,

nothing can be deleted.

I've already done everything

to simplify them to the greatest extent.

The rest is up to you.

Your destiny is in your own hands.

Whether you can achieve your goal or not

depends on yourself.

Okay.

I'll try my best.

Go for it.

This is too hard.

1949.

He was born on 12th January 1949.

1949.

He can be my grandfather.

Where are his notable works?

Notable works.

Notable works, Hear the Wind Sing.

Pinball, 1973 was nominated

for the 83rd Wasabi Prize.

Akutagawa Prize.

Akutagawa Prize.

It's Akutagawa Prize, not Wasabi Prize.

And also...

Kafka on the Shore.

Kafka on the Shore.

So, we learn

how cruel the world is.

And we also realize that the world

can be gentle and beautiful.

This is Kafka.

Kafka on the Shore.

Kafka.

Not all fish

live in the same sea.

Where do they live then?

My goodness.

Aren't all the fish in the sea?

Not all fish

live in the same sea.

Grandma is hospitalized now.

Grandpa has to go to look after her everyday.

I also have to work.

Can you take the school bus

to school every day?

Don't worry.

I'm a grade-three big boy.

Mom.

Where is your car?

I have the car serviced.

Is Dad back yet?

Soon.

By the way,

we have a guest today.

He's your father's friend.

A guest?

Remember your manners.

Here.

Zip up the bag.

What is it?

Don't go over.

Jiang Junhao!

Coming.

Why are you screaming so loudly?

What's that? Take them away!

This is my second brother.

This is my third brother.

Second Brother and Third Brother,
let me introduce you.

This is Mrs. He.

This is her child...

Ou Zimo.

Ou Zimo.

Come, Zimo.

Shake hands with my second brother.

Don't come over!

Take the things away.

They are not things. They are my brothers.

Don't play word games with me.

It's not said in the agreement

that I can't keep pets.

You can't keep pets.
I just added it to the agreement.

I don't accept it.

If you don't, you'll have to leave.

You can't stay here.

Why should I leave?

Besides, I'm heartbroken now.

I need them to comfort me.

Can they comfort you? They are so disgusting.

Take that back.

They're the most beautiful creatures on earth.

Look at these eyes.

Look at this skin.

Don't bully a woman.

I'm just joking.

Boring.

Fine, I'll leave.

He is the guest you mentioned?

He is your dad's friend.

I don't like him.

I don't like him either.

Where's the school bag?

Don't mind him.

Go upstairs with your schoolbag.

Go.

My nose.

Still fine.

Really? She's willing to help?

That's great.

Okay.

I'll be right there.

Give me her number.

Okay.

Thank you.

Come on. Brothers.

Nature is your home.

I'll set you free.

Second Brother,

you go first.

Come.

Come.

Third Brother.

You are too fat, fatter than Second Brother.

Come.

Go. Just go.

Bye.

Bye-bye.

Go.

[Inpatient Department]

Ms. Zhang.

Here's 500, take it.

No, I can't.

Ms. Wang often looks out for me.

I'll definitely help

her friend's friend's friend.

It's okay. Your work is hard.

Just take it.

I'll accept it then.

What do you want me to do?

Nothing particular.

When his son-in-law comes back,

just give me a call

to let me know.

No problem.

By the way,

his son-in-law

usually comes late at night.

Pay more attention.

Okay, don't worry.

As soon as I see him,

I'll call you right away.

Okay, thank you.

I'll take my leave.

Okay, I'll leave you to it.

Forget it.

I was almost disfigured by that book.

You should feel lucky

that you were not reading

Killing Commendatore.

The Chinese version has 550,000 words.

That book can break your nose.

I'll make him compensate me
if my nose is broken.

I'm telling you.
I don't get along with this curry.

I'm not going to tangle with him anymore.

What are you going to do?

Giving up your client?

No.

I've thought of a brilliant plan.

Second Brother, Third Brother,

where are you?

Can you bear to leave me alone?

[Home Design Startup Forum]

[Home Design Startup Forum]

Cheers.

Thank you.

Mr. Liu.

Today's forum is quite boring, isn't it?

Excuse me. I have to take the call.

[Kafka on the Shore]

Honey,

I'm busy. Let's talk later, okay?

[Kafka on the Shore]

I'm sorry, where did you buy this book?

My friend bought it online for me.

What's wrong?

Can I have a look?

Sure thing.

Thanks.

This book has more than 20 editions.

I've collected almost all of them

except this one.

I heard this book is quite hard to find.

Do you collect books too?

No.

I bought this book just to compare the works

of Lin Shaohua and Lai Mingzhu.

What is your conclusion?

My friends

like Lin Shaohua's better.

But I prefer Lai Mingzhu's.

I think her translation

is more faithful to the original

and sounds exotic.

Lin Shaohua's version
may be more relevant to us,

but it's less interesting

in respect of exoticism.

What do you think of Shi Xiaowei?

Shi Xiaowei.

This question is beyond me.

This question is beyond me.

Haven't you read

[Interpretation of 1Q84]
his translation of 1Q84?

Of course, I've read it.

1Q84.

He's a dark horse.

He's a dark horse.

Why?

In terms of faithfulness to the original,

I think Shi Xiaowei did a better job.

I think

in terms of faithfulness to the original,

Shi Xiaowei did a better job.

But many people say,

compared with part one and part two,

part three is underwhelming.

Indeed.

Many people think that part three is too slow.

But I think

[part three is as perfect]
Yes.

[as part two and part one]
Everyone thinks that way.

But I think

part three is as good as part one and part two.

I feel the same.

Really?

What do you think of part three?

It's not a story.

It's not a story.

What makes you say that?

It's a world.

[You can't judge the work]
It's...

[by the standards of a story.]
is a world.

[We should see it from a traveler's eyes.]
We can't judge it using the standards

of a story, you know.

We should see it from a traveler's eyes.

I think you really understand him.

No.

My understanding is superficial, Mr. Liu.

Ladies and gentlemen, please be seated.

The second half of the forum is about to start.

We should go in.

It's okay. Let's carry on our conversation.

The forum is so boring.

It's a waste of time.

Actually, when I'm reading part three,

I feel that

Murakami...

Human life is essentially

a lonely being

but not an isolated existence.

It'll always be connected

to other lives somewhere.

I think you can cut to the chase.

Cheers.

Nice to meet you.

I'm sorry, Mr. Liu.

I can't stop

whenever I talk about Haruki Murakami.

It's alright.

The only topic I love to talk about is Murakami.

But after talking so much to you,

it has solved my doubt.

Doubt?

I like Lindu Home Furnishing very much.

Although sometimes

I have nothing to buy,

I like hanging around there.

The most amazing thing
is every time I get there,

I'll always think of Norwegian Wood.

How so?

Now I understand

why I have such feelings.

Why?

Because Lindu Home Furnishing Company

is like Norwegian Wood.

It's where everyone tries to reach,

but ends up captivated.

♪Like how the sun shines
through the dark clouds♪

♪Over the bottom of the city♪

♪How many random meetings
can burn into memories?♪

♪Or do they just pop out occasionally?♪

♪Why do we hesitate
when traveling together?♪

♪You're like the sun and also the rain♪

♪The story continues and stops♪

♪The ending glimmers too♪

♪Misunderstandings pull us apart♪

♪Dreams make us expect♪

♪If love can be requited♪

♪I'll forget who I was yesterday♪

♪Then could I make you♪

♪Feel the way I feel♪

♪The sympathy♪

♪Drifts through the tough life♪

♪It's lucky enough to meet each other♪

♪If happiness takes longer, that's fine♪

♪To love anyway♪