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foreign [Music] you look familiar oh yeah I drink here a lot oh my God you are the one who ran in with the nose yeah captain my Bishop if I buy a drink would you tell me the story of how he ended up carrying a nose in a plastic bag sorry I'm drinking alone tonight are you sure [Music] maybe not that's one way to get to know me better I find it is the fastest [Music] hi what are you doing here I saw Warren at the hospital and he said it was a tough day so I brought you lasagna I know you're hot but all we did was hook up I don't need a girlfriend wow okay um it was nice meeting you then [Music] I'm sorry I'm rude Rogan I'm not in the habit of fixing broken people and sales [Music] it's beautiful [Music] I don't understand a word of this go Shine Your Light [Music] was that kiss me yeah I think about dying sues me and I can't sleep when I'm anxious I think about dying and then I can fall asleep I support at all times it's exhausting I'm exhausted who taught you guys forward my father have you considered the possibility that he was wrong [Music] ah could you take some days off can we try to go somewhere I thought you have to work I have some personal days saved up how many uh 100 maybe I don't take days off but but I would like to try yes yeah yes ah you ready yeah yeah just um you don't look ready just had to call the Station no one ever remembers okay okay okay then um all this and some fruity drinks we'll be waiting for you with cool okay okay okay okay [Music] it's a four alarm fire that they're expecting it to get to five they're calling everyone in they will call everyone else they they are going to put out the fire it's okay I'm [Music] I'm the captain I should be there of a five alarm fire is something I'm too far away am I yeah okay Maya you're having a panic attack it's okay it's okay I've got you but um okay okay look at me yeah yeah look at me your eyes only need to be on me no no no no no noise forward no eyes forward Eyes Only on me good breathe yeah hi Captain Bishop um sorry to interrupt uh your mom is here Mom Hi how hi are you one of Maya's fire women no I'm not a firefighter I'm Dr Karina De Luca I was just about to leave mom what are you doing here I I left your father [Music] I came here to apologize for the abuse because I didn't I didn't protect you and and that is a mother's job I'm so sorry what what are you talking about oh yeah your father is abusive [Music] what is this hey oh hi I I know you needed help getting ready for your spaghetti dinner so we helped I didn't ask you to do that I didn't think Dad never laid a hand on us he was tough he could be a jerk he could be mean but that doesn't mean he abused us tough is grounding you for breaking curfew abuse is making you walk home 20 miles from your track meet for coming in second I came in first actually but I didn't eat my own come with me to my next therapy session I beat it the next time yeah I agree you need therapy I'm good Maya denial is a strong force and and the abuser your mom described outside is still I'm not in denial I want a gold medal because of my dad I am the youngest fire captain in Seattle and this station's first female Captain because of my dad I'm not in denial I am pissed [Music] your mind is brilliant and maybe you think you're too smart to be in denial maybe you think you're too smart to have been abused okay I'm not interested in talking he never hit me that's not the only way you abuse somebody Maya psychological abuse is a verbal abuse they are real I don't want to fight with you I don't want to fight either then I think you should go what this is not how you handle a fight my I [Music] I'm here for you I'm not leaving okay okay I'm I'm I'm gonna I need I need to run so I'm gonna I'm gonna go on a run [Music] thank you I thought you left I I almost did but then I thought you might need to I don't need anything except space I can see that you're pushing me away and I want to give you space but give me space I understand that you're going through a lot and I I'm trying not to be mad at you but I just slept with Jack an hour ago so be mad at that hey kiddo hey Dad you should probably wait for me at home your family's falling apart and you're playing fire captain I'm not playing anything I am captain did your mother fill your head with drama is that why you're treating me this way you know Dad I have to go and you have to work raise your voice at me young lady I am in charge and I'm ordering YouTube what did you say you heard me sure hands off of me oh yeah oh you need your big strong men to fight your battles no Captain dad I don't I don't need to win my gold medals for other people unlike you I win them myself oh [Music] I was so stupid everyone saw the truth about my dad but me who in the best relationship I ever had because of him he could apologize [Music] that's too late for that way too late you'd be surprised how far and I'm sorry can get you [Music] Karina what do you want I'm an idiot you're right I was abused my dad was abusive but that is no excuse for what I did to you and I just please please please take me back I love you and I've never said that about anyone before I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry please forgive me oh my God forgive me oh sorry sorry she cheated on me with her ex-boyfriend and then and then you throw it in my face just to hug me and what am I supposed to do now forget that am I supposed to trust you I don't I don't know but I'm okay spending every day trying to convince you to forgive her I'm sorry I'm sorry I just if you love her forgive her I love you Maya [Music] I mean you could come in and visit me at work if my boss is not seeing her husband I'm not gonna see my girlfriend what about just a super short little visit no kissing on the mouth not safe and I suspect impossible and we are just a little curious [Music] hey we had just reached a good place and then the pandemic hit and I get that we're being responsible by not seeing each other but it seems kind of extreme the alternative is quarantining together which is basically moving in together which also seems extreme I hate this I I hate this decision I hate being alone why can't you and my a bit get because you weren't you baby you foreign you're staying apart because Miranda and I are staying apart Ocarina if it were only up to me my wife and I would be braving this thing together we God knows it's a mess of time in all of our lives but what the hell is the point of finding a person if you don't get the weather the storms together look at your girl they're going to humanely remove the animal and transport it to the zoo [Music] are you really really here am I just really tired of both I'm guessing what I miss you move in with me what I know that that we have barely spent three days together since I broke your trust but I am hoping that me asking you to move in with me is a sign that I'm all the way in actually um I came here to ask you the exact same thing I'll be yours if you do mine the nasal swabbing sounds sexy I usually just make a protein shake and drink it on my way [Music] um okay that might be better than sex that sounds like a challenge good morning I woke up the apartment and I looked around at her cheeses and her pastas and all of her wonderful everything and I could feel the rage Building inside of me because I'm so used to having control over an inch of my space and now she's here and it's terrifying I am terrified that I am going to snap at her like him and that she's gonna stop loving me and I'm still working on this one myself Maya but I think being afraid to be like your dad first step [Music] to the shower first okay I'm sorry what is with our kitchen becoming a cheese seller it reminds me of home yeah I know you said that but it is starting Maya my home is really scary right now it's worse in here and in here is really bad um I'm scared for my dad I cannot be there to take care of him and to make sure that he does what he's supposed to so [Music] um it feels good to look up and to be reminded of of the good memories of Italy instead of the constant fear and worry I'm sorry you don't have to be cargo get ready to bring some babies into these terrifying world I did that today you did what I brought a baby into this terrifying world you did I mean brought maybe more like cut tell me everything well first I'm gonna shower and then I will tell you all about it naked hey Karina just checking in uh I hope your your day is less eventful than my night was today is the annual inspection which is the most important day of my captaincy so far and I thought it was tomorrow so I'm not ready I haven't slept or showered or eaten or processed what I witnessed last night and now I'm rambling on your voicemail because I miss you and oh God what if we fail what if I fail that is good I stay on her okay we need to make sure we can see your car at all times okay Karina I am Andrea don't worry look you can can we call your your girlfriend now please Karina are you okay yes we are safe I just got a million texts from Andrew to Lucas saying oh look she's getting out who's getting out okay don't hang up I can't just stay here while Karina okay this inspection defines your role as Captain I'm a first responder I'm gonna respond and if that means it's the last day as the first female Captain then I can live with that I'll get everyone in their classes go freeze uh what's going on what is going on there what's happening help please come on come on [Music] thank you Warren got called for a long downtown yes Karina going anywhere [Music] hey I can't get comfortable anywhere you want to give the bed or the couch another shot too soft you want to scream would that make you feel better The Scream your brother died Karina you're allowed to wake up the neighbors you didn't even die he was murdered scream [Music] [Music] it's okay sorry sorry this is all my fault this is my brother is dead because I'm an idiot Hey Hey Hey listen to me none of this is your fault is it then who am I supposed to play blame me we have to get some of this off of you I will take it blame me I should have gotten to you sooner I should have been there blame me this is not your fault then why is it yours because I let him on that train I did that I give me the guilt okay give me the blame give me the part that stings the most okay let me hold on to it for a little while and when you're feeling a little stronger you can have it all back I promise [Music] Maya I'm not a child I don't need a fire truck scream I can't wait [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Music] so you guys um grew up together and no we're being friends well friends I mean yeah that too but [Music] yeah yeah no I got that one I remember that one yeah hey what's up Karina's sex buddy is visiting oh so this is like a jealousy thing no korean's grieving right and a friend who she used to have some sex with is here to comfort her kind of like you're doing now Korea comes alive with her in ways that I haven't seen in weeks and she's laughing again and eating again and you feel threatened cream she loves you and she's also going to the worst thing I think any of us can imagine okay so this is why I don't deal with feelings because they become other people's problems I am threatened by you and Gabriella but Gabriela is my friend I know it's stupid I'm just telling you the truth my what you and I have is uh wow fantastic hours just hours [Music] but if you if you wanted to keep making your point [Music] sir yeah but get off the phone and pull the power forward thank you letter nineteen eight car 19 two-car motor vehicle crash that's me no no you're my partner and the only person here who likes me oh that's not true Bishop license [Music] Maya we have patience and they are being taken care of you are snapping at everyone and I get being stressed I get if it's even residual grief but I would not be a good girlfriend if I didn't ask [Music] my Visa is expiring and I might have to go back to it what how I don't understand I don't have time to teach you about the the screw that immigration laws of this country I have to get back out okay okay just when next one I can't go to Italy why not because of a pandemic because PD is warning with us because I have a job to do I was just on bereavement it's not like you're going to be gone forever go help her settle in so your suitcase with PPE to help out and just be there for her Karina with everything going on here with the tension with PD and I know you have to stay your whole country is in crisis you can't live and they're such a desperate need it's okay [Music] we'll be okay I'll be back before you know it are you thinking maybe I should just you two are meant to be you 'll get through this you know honestly [Music] until I met you I think a part of me always assumed I'd end up marrying a man really for now I'm I mean I guess I can see that's your dad kind of drilled a sense of my wife is the only way that's probably why I never want to get married my parents made it look so unappealing you don't want to get married oh no I don't believe in it I think that's that vagina is ripped open my baby's head it would make me less interested in sex with women but oddly I imagine it has made you less interested in giving birth though no not really I mean before you said you don't want to get married but you do want to have kids okay you know this through my parents and look at your parents won't be next I I thought we were building a future together oh we are we don't need to be married to do that every moving back to Italy I'm sorry I have to leave if there was any other way there is we could get married I'm not getting married just because of the Visa just because this is not something you do to solve a problem I don't see any other way Maya you didn't even want this until you started getting sad about me leaving we have learned more about each other in the last two hours than we have in our entire relationship I should have known that you don't want to get married in that YouTube wanna have babies I knew it I knew you would break out on my Adventures I mean maybe we're just not right for each other okay so do you want to break up temporarily do you want to get married marriage is what can keep us together exactly it is crazy that the only records that I have to see in Seattle to see my life with you is to send a piece of paper saying that I will never leave you oh you'll still have Gabriella wow I mean maybe she's who you're supposed to be with my stuff maybe we're just not meant to be together forever stop Maya you've said enough please [Music] what were you saying my marriage is not real then get a divorce in two years so what what am I and I have is real and I don't need a piece of paper to tell me that and I don't want to run into a situation that we might regret in a couple of years just because of paperwork so you're willing to lose or instead huh you just you just let her go what am I supposed to do I was awful she was awful maybe you guys are gonna get back together right once your Visa gets renewed Maya marry me I know I'm a stubborn idiot and I don't want to get married just because the government says we have to and I still think marriage was invented to keep women as property but I much rather do something that I don't want to than lose you Karina please please put me now bury me [Music] yes yes [Music] [Music] thank you I understand you wrote your own vows oh my God what I've forgot we were writing our own vows oh my God I'm so excited about it I'm so sorry this is perfect it's okay it's okay listen to yourself clean up the clipboard my Bishop was so excited about something that she forgot I love that I don't know and I choose you I don't need to say anything else we're good then my ambition do you take anything me too [Music] I Now Pronounce You wife and wife [Music] thank you [Music] the captain Bishop has been relieved over duties every night for the last 11 months I have fantasized about putting my wedding dress back on and stormy McAllister's office again [Music] I mean although if you got fired then maybe we could finally start talking about babies [Music] I don't think I can do it kids I mean it's terrifying it's like ripping your heart out and and watching it walk around the world it is like ripping your heart out and watching it walk around the world it's okay Maya I love you and if being married to you means to not have any children I will learn to accept that because I don't want to force you to do anything you don't want to do especially you know something as big as bringing another life into this world but I know you you aren't afraid of anything so when you tell me that you don't want to have kids because you're too terrified I don't believe you I okay what is it can you look I mean what what you don't understand Karina you're a doctor and OB for God's sakes you can still do your job and be pregnant when a firefighter gets pregnant they have to report themselves by day one day one I wouldn't see the inside of a fire truck for nine months do you know what happened to me on duty yesterday I got a high on K2 and passed out what you know there are no pumping breaks in the middle of a call there are no breast milk riches that a firehouse okay lucky for you there are two wombs in this relationship even if you were the one to carry I would still be a new mom and yes they would technically give me parental leave but do you really think that they would promote me back up after that where the hell are my shoes right there you know Warren Miller hmm they can become dads at the drop of a hat and they can enjoy the magic and the spontaneity and the department can the department just congratulates them and gives them a cigar because the system is built for them but it's not me you know I tried I tried I tried okay to wrap my brain around it for you because you got married for me I did not get married for you okay I know you didn't [Music] I love you [Music] can't do it [Music] oh I'm sorry that I don't want what you want I'm sorry that you're not fine and I know me being sorry doesn't make it any better but it helps look I know you have a crappy father but I still think you'll be a wonderful mother I want you I want us to break our family better and I want you to change the way the fire department treats women I yes I ultimately want you to want what I want but I don't want it today or tomorrow I just want it someday I saved a kid today is it no I will be good with him okay and I I like feeling I want to want what you want oh yeah [Music] maybe that's [Music] maybe it is okay yeah yeah it is yes hey um year of shift Friday yes I made the reservation at the Burmese restaurant it doesn't start for half an hour all right I don't have time to guess right now I'm using Jess oh Jack can wait Jack is patient Jack is way less fun you need to stop saying Jack's name while you're naked yeah I'm sorry you want to give me a Spanky all right all right okay I have a woman on my word and I work too today so I can't no [Music] I only have seven so what what should we do [Music] what potty potty okay let's call the bat let's go let's go to the bathroom yep oh God oh my God [Music] oh help she's leaking give her to me hello Bella should we get changed oh God it smells so bad that's right everybody's Focus things [Music] oh now I need to change the socks too look at that yep today was a lot for everyone yeah I wasn't disaster it's a pretty beautiful one it was yeah and yet when there was a child in the building we were all fine when there was a child in my arms in the middle of it all I was fine we kept her finally knew how to keep her fine we can do this if I could do this let's have a baby [Music] it's wearing white I've been thinking this whole time that I need to stick to some plant but plans don't work people die families Fall Apart friends you are supposed to be at work I'm not working for the next two days why because we're making some homemade pork we're making a baby and I want to have all their romance and all the sex that comes with me and there's been so much pain and so much leave I just think we need a little bit of something different and you need a massage yeah I really do should I go oh and I am gonna be you're very sexy massage therapist today prices keep coming [Music] Karina this is what this is so romantic you know I spend my whole adult life bringing babies into the world and then watching them getting rolled away I never get to see how they turn out or or what kind of mothers my patients will be I just I just welcome little one bye-bye have a nice life you want to be the one in Paris we can talk about that I know you're an athlete and you might want to experience no it's you and for the egg we can do IVF No it should be yours [Music] and this speckle I want to have another version of you that I can count the sperm bank code and the but opening next Tuesday so we can get in sooner great yeah you're cramming for Papa boys uh brushing up on protocols just in case that's me uh but I got it uh for mink okay Tuesday see I was listening her career is her baby that's the thing she'll apply for guess she'll break her hands to protect over and over that's the dream she's chasing not me not having a family I come second no I know that's not true just so difficult to finding the right donor doing the insemination well if it's sperm you're stressing around I can give you that I'm just saying I make a lot of it waste a ton of it yeah no I know it's a stupid dinner yeah just kind of came out oh my God no no no you know I just like my pick better besides there's no guarantee that it'll be a genius if we go with yours exactly so what does it actually matter which of the two we pick well it doesn't matter why don't we just go with mine are we back to step one no we're not we're not but I am late for shift and so are you but we will talk about this later I love you I want our donor to be someone we know okay someone we know like you're a brat no no no I really don't need my jeans in there I just want to know more than I know when I'm buying spread from stranger do you have anyone in mind no but we could brainstorm together okay okay I mean there's a lot more to talk about no I know I know and we will but I wanted you to know that it was not all about my wood eating sperm dunk okay we'll talk later [Music] your temporary devotion was well over a year ago and that can't be contributing to your success on the job I have not hanging over your head let's talk Tuesday great I'll see you then [Music] okay there is something I have to tell you [Music] Jack offered offered what his sperm when it was practically a joke it was like oh I have extra if you need some and it took it immediately back like it's a dumb thing to say because it is exactly so Bishop your record is aggressive an Olympian a respected Captain prior to your demotion you've accomplished a lot at a young age so let me ask you this what is your end goal here in the fire department uh fire chief I know I have to work my way up but I am excited to do what it takes to earn that position I like ambition so I appreciate a work ethic like yours and I don't want you to lose sight of that goal despite the fact that I will not be reinstating you as Captain of 19 . I told you last night that that she said no I know but I had already chilled the champagne so I decided we're still celebrating for so many things to celebrate I can't I'm angry and frustrated and I need to throw things and get this out of my system and I can't do that when you are being kind and supportive so please just let me be pissed for a little bit [Music] I still love you and we're still making a baby I just need to get this out first [Music] have you thought about it yep oh about the fact that you are actually entertaining the idea of my ex-boyfriend being our sperm donor okay okay he's the last person I thought I'd want as our sperm donor but we've been looking at options for months and nothing has felt right I've been spending so much time with him because of the clinic and he's a little awkward but he's also kind and humble and smart and hence it whatever do I need to be concerned about YouTube only saying I mean we think about the future and not about the past hey hey are we gonna blackmail somebody out here no we we just wanted to um we we want to uh ask you um for your sperm your sperm well we would like to take you up on your offer to be our donor what she said my my sperm we want this to be someone we know because we do want the donor in the baby's life so I'd be like Uncle Jack yes and they would know who their donor is I mean you have a special bond is is it a yes I think so yes are you sure [Music] hi uh I brought you some uh flowers which now that I think about is kind of just a weird metaphor for planting seed should I yeah yeah [Music] that I am [Music] okay I'm gonna switch to my doctor's voice so we can move past this moment so first please sanitize your hands well and this is the specimen cup in which you would put yeah no I got that okay great we're gonna be in the next bedroom uh preparing generally I do this without an audience right yeah sorry oh whoa the uh the genetic testing app just alerted me it says I have a brother [Music] I'm sorry I I didn't mean for my thing to take over [Music] okay uh well then we don't need to reschedule yeah yeah we're all here we're already uh except the person whose body is happening you're not you and now we're maybe making a baby chickens okay I just don't understand why me having a brother changes things why is that because [Music] I think I'm gonna go no I mean you can if you want to but we still want to do this if you do right right how many times do I need to tell you to avoid your warp Problems by throwing yourself into the baby making him now you do oh my God Karina when are you gonna trust me when I say that I want to do this when our child is going away to college you are not sure you wanted to have kids and you didn't know if you wanted to get married but I'm not questioning every day if you're gonna leave me yeah good guys this is really helping my situation hey sorry you go do your thing we'll do ours okay okay sure then yes awesome fine come on [Music] oh my God what the the Green Card interviews in three weeks oh so many reasons [Laughter] [Music] we've been waiting for hours what's going on it's been 40 minutes [Music] so birth certificate check marriage certificate check you have your passports wait did I need that kidding I'm kidding I'm not kidding to joke with me Maya so we have everything okay we went over with the lawyer like five times we are good hey are you stressed about the interview [Music] everything always happens at once why I know I'll try to look at it yes Karina yes that's me do you own any weapons no are you or have you ever been associated with a terrorist organization no do you plan to commit acts of genocide no do you actually expect into that honestly well I'm just saying if you came here to commit genocide you're not going to tell officer dang it's just so that if you ever do commit genocide and you told us no they could Deport you for lying in your interview right but not for the genocide have you ever elicited the use of child soldiers that's okay I'm sorry I assure you we take this very seriously last one to engage in activities of human trafficking yes to that one definitely not hopefully you've been here for hours I think officer Deng understands that my sense of humor is sarcastic is a government official officer she's kidding Joseph is here I think he's clear Karina do you talk about bombs at the airport this isn't an airport please stop congratulations you have a green card I do we do you remind me of me and my wife the bickering is endless thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you so much thank you thank you regards to the one thank you thanks I want my job back Bishop I know you two are sleeping together I want my job back or I'm going to report you hey this is the least romantic setting well when it's time it's time um should I shower first do you want to shower first I mean I didn't think this through but I don't want to make a baby smelling like Pig sweat okay it's our fifth try the sperm is 700 a unit you are ovulating I'm on shift it's not perfect timing but it is what it is [Music] okay let's get you showered okay let's go shower come on let's do this right okay okay [Music] we gotta go I'm sorry I love you it's okay [Music] um okay you all right I'm fine just need a few more minutes to let this the spring penetrate the egg okay wow I just hope you're not gonna report my wife because Captain America already hates her for no good reason that I can see and if she gets another emotion I am not sure our marriage could survive it no I'm just gonna shower later it's you so much wisdom so much empathy for Becca did not announced for me why is that why am I still being punished for my ambition by you by Ross by Beckett blackmailing the chief for the fire department is not ambition that is the crime you're lucky you still have a job at all [Music] it was an impulse yep an Impulse that didn't go your way now you have to live with it have you heard from my wife oh yeah she's fine they're on their way back uh apparently they found Jack what do you mean they found me something about handcuffs and a tree whatever Jack is dead to me yeah I was on that last week oh groundwork Suits You yes sir you you have no right to be a dick to Maya what is it you're such a small man you feel threatened by her because she's a woman who had your job before you what is it it's basic physics Italy you push me I push you your wife blackmail the chief had no proof or anything and that brings us to today that's not what I'm saying you are not listening to me you blackmailed your boss Maya okay I just need you to be on my side God everyone is against me for the last six months I've been eating crap from everybody please just be on my side for the last six months you've been keeping this from me for the last six months you come home miserable and I don't know why and when I ask you deny that anything is wrong with you and it's been making me crazy and now the truth is out and you are not even the one who told me and you need me to be on your side okay I want my job back is that a crime no but blackmail is a crime and it's not even about your job it's it's about the chaos you're constantly in the middle of chaos it's I don't think you know how to live a normal life it's constantly up and down and up and now you know how impossible you are these days and it's the hormones and I get it and I am patient but now I'm the one that's acting crazy that's really pot Kettle Karina we were happy and you created chaos we were making a baby I had just gotten my green card we happiness and you need it to wretch it you need to look into that you need to do it I need to what to fix it you I can't I can't live like that I can't make a baby with that like oh wait with that yes we do like that Karina you can be pregnant right now yes I could be and that's why you need to get help for us right now [Music] I am sorry by the way yeah for abandoning us after committing to be our donor you should feel sorry about that Ben is a strong no that's the accurate word yeah no you're right he does the bullet yeah so he needs help yeah that was clear when we found him drunk under a tree handcuffed to Eva vazquez's bed I thought it was your friend he was and then he left I am sorry Jack is struggling but he ditched us that's kind of cool I mean we have each other's bags do we not I'm dealing with my own problems right now except you're not really dealing with them I am in my own way okay have you started looking for therapist I'm gonna go get cleaned up no no me or no I'm sorry I haven't done everything on your timeline Karina I'm living in my own personal health and my co-workers are now gossiping actually I think my boss hates me and treats me worse than I was treated as a probate and now my wife can't have my back because she has suddenly decided that I am unstable so no I haven't researched therapists because I've been kind of busy with all of that [Music] ah [Music] [Music] I might be pregnant yay I don't even know how I feel about this anymore okay I'm sorry you don't know if you want to be pregnant you've been trying so hard for so long I know we have okay well why don't you take a test what if it's positive what if it is I mean how would you feel I don't know [Music] I don't know it sounds like you're feeling out of control maybe this would help you feel like you're doing something so what are you hoping for Maya has mental health issues that's what I think the thing that happens when you're in a relationship with somebody with mental health issues is that you don't matter well mental illnesses don't make you inherently selfish but I don't know it is selfish if Maya is refusing to do anything about it it shouldn't be like that but it is like that right now I'm so in love with her but I want her back the way she was I want to aspect The Way We Were and so I'm waiting but it's hard because I want to matter [Music] what does it say okay you know hold on just don't don't look just just say it what do you want no second guesses just what do you want I want a positive I I want to pause it there I want a baby I want to be a mom but I want my wife to be here with me I want her to be committed and involved I want to do this alone okay cool well like you said it's probably too early anyway but now you know what you want oh I'll start Karina is your hair red yeah courtesy of Beckett I've shampooed four times now but apparently he used food coloring oh yeah that's me that gets soaked my last clean pair of clothes and this is the freshest smelling thing that I have you smell like old cheese yeah thanks yeah all cheese hilarious um if I don't laugh I'll cry so why are you here in the pink scrubs the clinic isn't until tomorrow I volunteered to help with open house and this is my Halloween costume woman who's hopeful for things to go back the way they were got it Maya my uh work today team good work seriously you're so focused on proving you're the big man around here you don't know how to be a good leader you know Bishop's worth five shifts in a row right that's 120 hours with barely any rest she's killing herself to prove she deserves her spot on this team I am fine Louise we saved that family Maya your wife might be pregnant you could be someone's mom right now and you're not pulling Cowboy crap like you got a death wish you were off ship right now I find out you work even another ship before your next regular schedule one I will send you back to the academy are we clear yes sir are you okay yeah I'm just tired they're seeing I'm gonna go shower and then I'm gonna I'm gonna come home shouldn't I shouldn't work uh like this this and it's not safe for the others so yes let me know you should sleep in bed at home with me yeah yeah exactly what I need [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Music] what are you doing in the guest bedroom do you need something do you remember the first night we hooked up I remember everything about that night I remember the smell of your hair and I remember the flowers is there a point here and there she is that jerk that tried to push me away the following morning [Music] and look how far we've come now foreign [Music] lavender flowers it's I love you and whatever we're going through we'll get through it together because our love story is beautiful and I don't want to lose it I don't want to lose us [Music] I missed you [Music] [Music] I am so happy that you are still here how's it call it was almost really awful and really devastating and then it wasn't kind of like us did you take a pregnancy test no I wouldn't do that without you good so what's wrong I still need you to get help [Music] my love I think that growing up with your dad you developed some control issues and I feel like you're using the truth in a way that makes it impossible for me to argue I don't want to argue anymore okay I want you to understand that I'm helping myself in a way that works for me talking doesn't work for me okay I'm working through my anger and my pain and my way and if that makes you angry if that hurts you then you should work on that your way [Music] where are you going oh heart run I took a pregnancy test the other day what I'm sorry I had to know I need to think I did I'm telling you now I'm not pregnant I believe you took a pregnancy test without Mrs the party of reacting to I am reacting to all of them no you're not you're reacting to the part that applies to you you're reacting to the part that you can be offended by I am not pregnant Maya did you hear that I did and it how are you Karina how are you feeling do you need anything is there anything that I can do for you what should we do next all these are normal things that you can say to your wife right now the normal thing is doing a test together oh my God okay I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm listen I'm just in shock okay you seemed so okay I thought I thought it worked okay you seemed so pregnant how did I seem so pregnant I don't know mood swings and and snacking and symptoms symptoms of being pregnant those are symptoms of being a human being Maya okay you know what I'm going to work Bailey's the reproductive Care Clinic is opening today and I can actually make a difference there [Music] foreign [Music] elevated and she's not having a heart attack so I'm just trying to figure out what she may have done that may have caused it she's been working out a lot lately I worked out my entire life no more than usual you sure it's wrapped up I'm certain I'm okay okay I promise I just overdid it all right we will get this sorted out we will put you on continuous fluids and keep an eye on your CK markers in the meantime try to get some rest okay thank you yeah thank you are you really not going to get me discharged by me now I don't need to be here I'm just a little dehydrated oh you've been doing too much I'm fine there was a call and they're a man down okay so I need to get back to work okay so can you just get these things off of me I'm here you're in no shape to go back anywhere let alone go back to work and I'm telling you you're not fine you need help you need stop telling me what I need okay you don't know what I need now let me go back to work or I will go on my own am I good to be discharged Maya Dr Altman and I have some concerns about your condition and about the events that have led to your collapse it'll be best for you to stay in the hospital well I'm not staying so you can forget about that if you're not going to stay on your own we'll place you on a 72 hours haul you're serious you're 51.50 yes if you try to walk out that door and do anything even remotely strenuous you could die no I'm I'm fine I'm fine I feel fine okay let me go home we can figure this out you know you can hire me you can help me I am not home you're not going home I can't help you there I've tried but you don't let me so this is me helping you no no no no no no wait you know I can't do this I am perfectly competent and capable person of making my own decisions the person wouldn't try to leave the hospital against medical supply so yeah Maya I can do this and I'm doing it no Maya I'm serious if you're sure have you put you in restraints please don't make this harder than it needs to be wow you left me no choice all right this is good this isn't support this isn't love when your brother died you could barely get off the freaking kitchen floor you know what I did I let you figure out your crap on your own I didn't call psych and have you committed okay that is love that is support so no this is not helping me I want you to lie back look at your heart rate music I just I can't believe you would do this to me after all money is gonna take it from here oh the legs you'll go to get your way [Music] if you walk if you walk out that door we're done do you hear me you walk out that door we are done I lose you either way Bella I'd rather lose you and have you be alive no Karina Karina how could you do this to me no Karina thank you your wife had to 51.50 you to get you the medical care you needed and your employers are waiting for me to determine if it's safe to let you go back to work do you still hope to get back to work for the fire department [Music] okay what am I drawing a timeline what oh you're an Olympian not only that you won the gold on a sprained ankle yep okay make a timeline of your Olympic win every relevant moment leading up to it that's impossible how am I supposed to remember every moment the ones that matter will come to you start with the first time you ever had the thought I want to win what does this say you can't read it I can't read it but I'd like you to read it it says three years old my cousin's track meets it's the first thought you had of winning the first one I can remember because your cousin won no because you lost and I saw his face who's he my dad I saw his face when she lost you know my ankle hurts I'm gonna get some ice wait let me move toward that pain I don't know what that means but my ankle hurts they ran a race on a sprained ankle and one gold you can sit with pain Maya just put your hand on it [Music] it's okay Maya let it out [Music] [Laughter] you once told me that you think about dying so that you can rest that's because three-year-old Maya can't rest she's too afraid that if she does she's not lovable am I for whatever it's worth I'm in awe of the three-year-old that you were she is worthy of Your Love and your care can you picture her try to see her [Music] I love you no matter what you are lovable even when you lose okay is it beautiful work today there's more to do and we will work together once a week for the next few months at least but I think you can ease back into death duty if your medical team blesses it [Music] can absolutely do whatever you want to do [Music] it's left in the last two weeks [Music] and if you want my advice I do take care of yourself first work on yourself first see if you can rest a little first but I love her [Music] I love it when they learn [Music] see you next week bye thank you [Music] hi Rich Karina please leave a message hey it's me [Music] I'm just here to pick up a few things I can use a hotel shampoo anymore it's awful [Music] okay you can always come home there's a shampoo [Music] I miss you I left you a voicemail yes I got it [Music] did you listen to it yeah I know I made mistakes and I know I scared you I'm sorry I love you I'll be better you said that I mean it I need more time seeing you like that in a hospital bed what you did to yourself I can just jump right back into this with you like I didn't spend the greater part of my year begging you to get help [Music] happy for you I am but this is just another thing you did to keep your job [Music] does your husband know you're trying to recruit me away from station you are an OB yeah I run a Reproductive Rights clinic this is a no-brainer okay so that's a no then we'll understand ah come in hi oh I hope I'm not interrupting uh I brought you something special it's lasagna okay it's not as good as yours but I hope you like it you can just storm in here with lasagna Maya you can't I can't so I did because I love you and now I'm moving [Music] what eat the lasagna no just um think about what I said okay I'll bought these some more later I give up my hours at station 19. right now they are the only connection I have with Maya well she really seems to be trying to connect with you now ah she told me to leave that's already she was she was one who said we were over here I don't believe for one second that you and Maya are over you and Maya will get through this oh if you want to get through it you okay yeah suddenly my stomach feels kind of funny oh [Music] no that is not right Miranda what I heard you were sick I am I brought some fluids to help make you feel better if you just open the door I asked you for space I need space yeah I understand that [Music] but we're married and I intend to stay married I'm I'm going I'm gonna be cold around like to decide but I'm not I'm not you know you nearly poisoned me [Music] Karina Karina it's so cold [Music] aren't you supposed to be work I am at work non-stop vomiting can be serious I am a paramedic preventing a catastrophe like catastrophe that you literally played into Arizona how do you mess up a lasagna I don't know I thought I did everything right [Music] paper coming thank you for letting me in [Music] you have to go say Maya no you could be dehydrated you could be sicker than we think I don't what I am afraid that if I walk out that door I don't know when I'll see you again you will you know I'm gonna check in in a few hours and let you know I wonder [Music] [Music] pretty Bishop several doctors were hit by a car outside the Reproductive Rights clinic at Grace loan Memorial Hospital requesting any available in cars to the scene oh God what did they say hey hey bishop both hands on your rope what did they say what did they say hey take a breath okay you know as much as I do right now stay focused just um for today if you could just find out what's happening my adult listen to me all right I will find out as much as I can but right now you have to focus okay right now you are part of a team do you hear me fine breathe you see that one today okay so what if what if what if she got what is she what if she got hit by a car and I'm stuck here and I can't get to her oh my God oh my God my Karina's gonna be okay you don't know that right now you are a first responder all right you are not a wife you are not a daughter you are not an Olympian we are here to save lives there is nothing you can do over there in this moment do you copy okay okay let's keep going let's keep going you're okay I have a patient at six centimeters so yeah you have to go I have to go [Music] thank you for going [Music] hey thank you for staying it was good to feel safe with you yeah it was it was good wasn't it ah so we slept in the same room last night it was nice but we shouldn't let it be something more than that of course of course we were just sleeping in the same room thank you for understanding [Music] do this again uh is it okay if we talk later see how the day goes later yes great okay bye Maya hey I am glad you're here I was gonna call you but you're here which um is even better because I had a whole day to think I know I seemed disappointed earlier and I was but I understand something now we never finished our foundation and I made things worse by trying to build this whole huge amazing structure on this Foundation That Couldn't support it yeah but Karina I want to fix it I want to fix it too I want to be with you a lot a lot a lot and then every time I'm near you I just want to let gravity pull me back to you but I need to know that this Foundation you're talking about is real I need you to win me back slowly Creator Luca will you go on a date with me and they told me you were here um I'm here for our first date oh right I am so glad that we're finally getting to do this it's um it's Karen right delinka um bright I'm just gonna give me one sec sorry oh this is a first date yeah yeah we're taking it slow rebuilding the foundation nice I like it it's weird as hell but I like it okay okay I'll be there as soon as I can just keep reading uh who's on eight car duty tonight me and Warren okay come with me quick hi Karina hey thanks for coming I uh seem to have gotten myself in a bit of a pickle here I thought about how you told me that night that we went out for drinks that moving around can really help so I took a walk so dispatch called the vending machine company and they're estimating that it'll be several hours before they can get somebody out here with the key oh is she she gonna be okay she's gonna be okay Pam can you lie back for me okay guys dilated on my Facebook babies on the way how much longer look we're trying to think we can but I'm worried about that arm she's losing blood flow okay even so I think we need to prepare for the possibility that we're gonna have to deliver here yeah let me get the pry bar while you keep working on that arm so you you know this woman you you had drinks together she's a patient and a friend I know all your friends right now Doc yeah [Music] I know how strong you are I know how much you want this baby you can do this because you have to [Music] I got it [Music] [Music] all right all right you were amazing to me so Pam is Pam is a friend a new friend I thought doctors weren't supposed to fraternize with patience are you questioning my professional integrity [Music] can I take you out again Maybe [Music] call me I I thought it was going to be a slow night but baby swipe nobody and now I'm exhausted okay you know I want this day to be whatever you want it to be so I can just drop you off at your hotel and you can get some sleep if you want no no no no no no no no I just you know I want to put my feet up and and have a drink what about junk spot Joe's you know this is the first place we've been right yes because the first time I saw you was when you brought in the nose I was there very cool nice to see you two in here where can I get you I'll take a bloody Mary and she'll have a white wine oh my God it's them them yeah there was a big Bachelorette group in here last night bar hopping and it looks like only three still stands right from here oh yeah another round no you're cut off oh no you are good oh thank you yeah I thought you'd never asked me the dance we're gonna do come on ladies I could not have a bruised eye and a broken nose on my wedding day Lucy you'll walk down the eye or your husband is gonna see you not your makeup not your dress no your bruises it's all just a little scary I remember the first time I saw my wife at our wedding for a few seconds everything stopped nothing else existed it was just me and her against the world no one knows what comes next but that's what is so special about marriage finding that person that you want to share it with the UPS the Downs all of it wait you two are married to each other oh shut up first your pregnant patient is stuck in a vending machine then bridezilla and her maidens why can't we get through a first date I mean what Sassy has to be over I have clothes at the apartment and I could use a nice cot shower oh yes the apartment of course yeah let's go yeah yeah uh-huh yeah foreign [Music] [Music] Warren had a tough call hey are you okay okay was today too much should we have waited it's not about the taxes I can move back in here I didn't I didn't ask I don't know you want me to and I wish I could but being back in here oh I feel so painful because for months I was in this battle alone you I wasn't the person you run to I was the person you run from I can't I'm sorry for everything I put you through it wasn't fair I'm sorry that I didn't listen to you when you tried to help me I know that the version of us that is happy and late and lovely died in that hospital that day [Music] but I'm willing to put in the work to rebuild us to make us stronger and better because I know from the first time I saw you in that bar [Music] you are the person that [Music] hey Maya told me about the matter of butter it's a huge deal right congratulations no no it's not a huge dealer so no congratulations then what about YouTube I know living with Maya sorry to feel just like living with my father and I've learned not to come second to chaos she seems pretty peaceful to me she didn't see Diane regularly so right it doesn't mean that I'm moving back in though this is not a checklist and I'm not a very Ward I need to make sure her priorities have evolved and she won't hurt herself again if when things don't go the way she wants I need proof that she won't go back her old ways so 19 if any remaining Lieutenant wants to be considered for captain step forward have a good shift you wanted to prove quite well why what I'm sorry Chief but uh Karina wants proof that Bishop is doing better and I think you can give it to her well your wife just turned down the opportunity to be considered the captain of 90. no no no no no there is nothing she wants more than her Captain's tea bag because there's something she wants more I have your proof hey hey I'm going home I know and um coming with you you coming with me you turn down the opportunity to become a captain yeah [Music] and I'm coming home from Mina forget better or worse for Reacher or poorer I [Music] I mean I'll put some clothes on so I can take them off of you when I get home [Music] can't believe you don't have a dress for the ball you've known about this for months hey there was a time where I didn't think I would be accompanying so I didn't bother getting one what about your wedding outfit good thing we saved that thing um [Music] it was so hard being around you and not being able to pull my hands on and thank you [Music] I've always wanted three then we'd be outnumbered so that's a no okay um I have another confession to make um should I be sitting there for this um okay so since you've been doing a lot of work on prioritizing our relationship I wanted to do a little bit of work two and I started researching IVF doctors and I've narrowed it down to the okay okay what do it yeah yes yes let's do it yes yes we're never gonna get to this ball are we oh no we have to go Ben is getting an award we have to spark come on we're gonna write it and there's food there's food there's food everyone no just one more no one more time foreign [Music]