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Billy Billy and be ready always to answer anyone that asks you the reason of the hope within you

the hope within you

open the letter what letter

open it please?

Dear J

Do you still miss me

you know you could make me so happy

and you could make me so mad

Especially that last night everything's ended the way they did and

I had to drive off and drive off and drive off

Jameson on line one

James

James You brought this on yourself?

You're the one who fell in love with her and Now she is gone.

You can't change that.

Maybe You should have been more direct

after all, she never did exactly come around to our point of view did she

help who was scared

of course we know about the letter

you haven't read the letter haven't read the letter?

resumes.

See the morning paper. Here's the headline.

Evangelist leads escape from mental institution.

Turns out fire and brimstone evangelist James Jamison was actually a patient at the facility.

Evangelist at headquarters is quoted saying

this is just Jamison's newest missionary venture.

So, he's infiltrating the nuthouse to rescue souls.

is making me dizzy.

Turns out he committed himself after he lost his girlfriend in a car crash.

Rumor has it he actually managed to get his bursary to quit

and enter the priesthood.

Now there's a new rookie lady doctor on his case

Good morning staples

Doctor Frolic

Davy Davy

Rudy broadline

onshore hallo

no time for fun nightly session

James How did you get in here

where did you get that jacket?

We have a session doc

James You can't just let yourself into my office without my permission

you didn't

tell dubious about the breakout Did you

dubious

evening Dr. Donovan

That's what I said Dr dubious

James How did you get in here

I keep confidential files in here

where's my name tag

Did you do something with my ID

you know Doc you're putting yourself under way too much pressure

buckle me up in the back

how do you expect to lead a mass exodus with that on?

What would convince you

I said what would convince you Your Honor

objection.

Burn it

missed the spot

Dr. frolic.

I walk you up

So you still like us after six weeks.

Director. Is there something

your last session with the fanatic? If you're looking for

James I think he's in his library.

Library. Oh, the room we gave him for his books.

You're making progress with that.

In a way, then again,

he still won't open his letter.

htat girlfriend of his must have been some charm.

He he won't open up to me about it.

Did Dr. Sparrow leave anything in his notes about her?

The more I read Dr. sparrows notes,

the more I get the feeling the patient was doing most of the counseling.

Do you know the AR fanatic was responsible for his final meltdown.

The pyromania incident

did Sparrow really become a priest after that?

Better be careful you might be next.

Goodnight, night.

Doctor Frolic You know if you need anything, anything at all

you know where I am?

Dear J

Do you still miss me?

James maybe if you open it

you really will be able to get out

I said what would convince you?

So would you like to tell me

more about the letters page wrote You

and her last letter?

Why haven't you read it?

The Fighter doc.

See the day

and remember how young and beautiful I was

Did you see this photo of Jamison's dancer girlfriend?

Where was she when I was looking to get hitched?

I mean, what would an evangelist and ballerina dancer have in common?

Where would they bump into each other?

I bet he was handing out tracks in front of her dance

No wonder she locked you up. page. I admitted myself.

How else was I supposed to cope when you turn down my offer?

What if I needed more than what you were offering?

What else was there?

Well, from the looks of it, you

don't even have enough for yourself.

What are you talking about?

Jay maybe what you wanted for us was never really about us at all.

Maybe it was just about you and your big ego

masquerading behind your budding career

be always ready to give an answer of the hope

within you.

So the guy was born into a prominent family of atheists

and he loves inheritance because he became an evangelist

then his girlfriend dies No wonder he's having a faith crisis

to get to the next day

be ready always dancer anyone that asks you the reason of the hope within you

stop it

and you shall know the truth and the truth shall set you free.

I think one of the greatest examples I've ever seen it that was a few year agoo

stopped stop where it doesn't end

I don't know where it ends.

It ends when you read what I wrote you

morning staples doctor Frolic

attorney himself and that's where I met him in prison.

And yeah, he was living so

let you carry those

helps my therapy

in the truth free

will tell that to beautiful strong

Do you still talking to let alone imaginary.

Be ready always ready to

Doctor Donovan to section A code 1 Doctor Donovan to Section A

you want me to I will

you want me to do you really want me to

sing for the biggest game?

What is going on here?

Everything is under control.

It is not bad been we checked for matches.

You

give this to the judge

my prosecuting attorney

James,

my defense attorney

James, let's get this shit

Dr. Froliq the Scott, your patient where he belongs?

Versus judge,

prosecutor

Your Honor, prosecution charges Mr. James Jamison with corrupting the staff

and organizing a mass escape of our inmate patients,

defense. Your Honor.

My client refuses to defend himself I move we postpone this trial and just

tell me how Jamison pleads

not guilty, Your Honor.

Not guilty again. How many times we have to go through with this

Oh, all right. Bring in the plaintiff.

Page you Mrs.

Prosecutor.

Miss Melvindale

Do you recognize the accused

was sitting right over there?

Okay, could you tell us how he tried

to get you involved in his breakout plan?

Well, he told me that that if I didn't cooperate that

how I was going to live in

that ain't the worst of it? I mean, soon after I started having these nightmares

about me burning alive and forever.

I just I can't take it anymore.

And naturally you hold Jameson responsible?

You bet I do.

Thank you, Mrs. Melva. no further questions.

I'm afraid I don't understand this trial.

The AV I know hasn't spoken a word since I started here.

That doesn't mean she belongs here.

Where else would she go?

Where do you go at the end of the day doc

hate it when you call me Doc. I have a name you know, the one on my ID tag.

Name is m. Froliq. My name is Dr. Froliq.

I have a thing about names you know. Now Froliq

What kind of name is that?

It is a family name has to come

from someplace. Are you not curious?

All names have means.

For example, my name means so planter

to supplant to you serve. to counterfeit.

So Doc, what's your name? Your first name

to you James I am Dr. Froliq

So you get to use my first name but

I don't get to use yours.

Mary? How about Martha

Maude?

Mr. Navodaya?

Could you tell us what happened after the shocking incident with your wife?

Well, when he comes home from the post office day the attack

she's quite upset as you can imagine,

and I am going to examine the scene of the crime.

And what did you find?

I found a sign like folks use when the protest sign

could we have Prosecution Exhibit eight?

Is that the Son Mr. Melvindale?

Yes, sir. That's my son.

Could you read? Course I can read alert my AB dings when

I was Would you read it? For us today Oh no.

Yes sir. Sorry, sir. At their sign says

Be worthy coming. Judge commence.

Judgment be word the common judgment.

And don't forget the flip side board the mothership.

The Martians decode the content of Jamison's on open escape plan.

Objection, none of us has any idea what's inside that envelope.

No further question.

Davey, we're not quite finished.

Jimmy son clearly makes him out to be one of the cooks

thinks we're gonna get to go by.

And if you ask me that talk of his is responsable

Jimmy somebody's get a Dr.

James.

James

is the latest on our evangelists friend.

Apparently, there's this out of control. Letter copying frenzy.

Get this. The dead girlfriend wrote James a letter a day

when she was alive a letter.

I'm not talking about email.

And now our pal Jamison's got the whole mental hospital copy them out by hand.

You can't make this stuff up.

We'll be right back

so how is my favorite doctor?

Fine, why?

You seem a little on edge.

How's our fanatic?

You really want to know

he's it's this imaginary trial of his

it's like he's trying to I don't know what, why.

But he's still got everybody copying his letters.

Why? Why don't I just go show you

a demo on elevator.

And if we are not on it on Mr. Spock point.

May I

thank you.

I don't know Jay, it seems pretty arrogant of you

to claim your reality as the only absolute.

Like there's only one elevator and if I'm not on it,

I'm not going up.

A letter from his dead girlfriend.

Explain.

I have files full of them.

All written in different handwriting's with slightly altered wordings.

I hope that everybody is forging good letters today.

Now think of it escapist idea.

This is what we do

so we whisper the escape plan into the air of our neighbor.

And so it goes along and deleted to get them all scrambled up.

Good now thuhmbles go with the judge.

Your Honor. This is a charade. Thumbles has a speech impediment.

Just do the best you can Thumbles. Okay,

It is Okay. How's your V skipping neglect so great salvation

Hello, Polly.

This is one whacked out guy. Somehow I find James quite rational

in his own way.

There's a very fine line between that kind of rationality and fanaticism.

Don't let this guy hypnotize you.

James isn't dangerous. He's.

He's brilliant.

You know, he has a photographic memory and,

and you've seen the way he helps the others.

He's just in an emotional pit.

And I think I can get him out. We'll do

your best doctor. Just remember where I can ship him.

If he gets out of hand.

Oh

TBA goes on me I see your audio oh god

and there's no more escape i guess today

dear Mom, guess what? Your daughter's met somebody?

Okay, so I'm always meeting somebody but

I have a feeling that this is different.

J isn't like the others and he's definitely not like Uncle Len.

He's really brave about standing up for what he believes.

And he's just a friend.

We talk a lot and sometimes I write him letters

that's all talking and writing and splashing around in the park fountain

What's all this

your mom gave me your stuff

my private letters

she gave you this too

she gave it back to me

it was mine remember

dear Jay, thanks for taking me to them my videos for Halloween.

I didn't expect you to actually show up considering you don't do Halloween

that's where I stopped

that's where we stopped in mid sentence.

Super J stuck in the phone booth

that's what this costume is really all about, wasn't it?

You swooping in to save me

you know you didn't have to solve all my problems to get me to fall for you super J

smart did you

and why did you?

who is it are you coming?

I'm kind of busy right now. Jameson.

Come on. You gotta come

you know it's not part of my job description.

Well, I have Halloween to

trick or treat

little early for Halloween party isn't it?

I Guess

so do you like it?

Look, I told everyone we are on our way.

You did?

Okay, I'll go

but only if you tell me what it is with you and Halloween. Oh, I

could tell her J Oh super J please save me from the evil professor.

All right.

All right then.

What do we miss?

Let's see there Is he forcing us to go today?

Matthew, Mark, Luke, John,

not a gospel is again

come on Jay just once

What is it with you and dancing? It's a

party J Come on.

Or you'd rather take me to church what's wrong with that?

What's wrong with it?

So you rather chase after a few pathetic moments at some party

then figure out your eternal destiny.

Oh, so now I'm pathetic

I didn't mean you were pathetic.

No, I must be at least half pathetic since I'm not always thinking of my eternal destiny

page.

Why wouldn't you want to be with me forever?

Forever is a very long time

are you here for the morale booster.

Here to dance. See you later doc.

Excuse me

what's wrong?

I am remembering a little more than I want to right now.

Talk to me this memory might hold the key. Listen,

it was that maniac. He just couldn't keep his hands off.

What he had no right.

James wait.

James

Can I tell you what happened at a party?

Mr. James was so Peasy arguing about his gospel

that he did notice me follow his girlfriend into the garden.

Oh, uh, yeah. I'm sure the court would like to hear how's the froliq on the I

investigated startling new evidence about the Messiah's secret love giant

as revealed in his letter.

Do you know what the name page means?

Youthful woman which is what she was.

and always will be.

And then there's your name, Doc.

Let's see. Maggie.

Mabel.

Mildred,

Moira No,

no, no.

You know, in some

primitive cultures, they believe

if you know someone's name,

you have power over their soul.

Got your problem, Doc?

Can we get back to your trial?

Sure we can. I'm curious about that.

How do I fit into this reality of yours?

Well If you really want to know how it works,

what I can show you how?

Give me your hand what?

Because you're the shrink biologist. I can't have any ideas.

Okay, so, Plan B is for me to imagine my try how loud

except for your part.

You make that up?

James, I'm not exactly known for being creative.

Back to plan a.

Plan B is fine.

Alright.

Why am I thinking this is going to be the most unusual therapy ever?

Let's see.

Philosopher Hume to the stand

philosopher Hume. What is your field of expertise?

A professional skeptic? What of it?

Could you explain your skepticism?

See here, we cannot allow ourselves to believe

in anything that fails to confirm the tried and true experience.

For example, the kind of miracle

James won't find in his still an open letter.

So you don't believe in miracles?

No.

Could you tell me what this is?

It's an apple prosecutor.

What do you think it is?

So let's see. What would happen if I did.

That? What just happened?

What we expected gravity naturally.

Is this how miracles operate?

They do not why not?

For example, what is a more probable explanation.

But Jamison Messiah walked on water?

Or that he stepped where certain well placed stones were located just beneath the surface

to make it look like he was walking on water.

So what do you think of Jamison's belief

n the miraculous resurrection?

Resurrection, his hope of raising from the dead

are about as great as his chance of converting me.

Thank you, philosopher.

So, why did you choose Donovan as your prosecutor?

Why do you call him dubious?

Because he can't be trusted?

Do you mean prosecutor dubious or Dr. Donovan?

I don't trust either one of them.

Do you know what Donovan stands for?

What does it mean?

Donovan. It has Celtic origins.

And it means world ruler.

Do. Do you know the ruler of this world is Doc.

Dr. Donovan from director of the Institute to ruler of the world.

It's quite a promotion, James.

Anyway. You see the danger?

Well, if we're in that kind of danger,

maybe we should get back to your trial.

Counsel for the defense Are you ready to cross examine?

Me?

No. You do it.

Excuse me, miss. What did you say your first name was?

Do you want the judge to hold you in contempt of court?

So, Mr. philosopher Hume

Do you think my clients faith discourages critical thinking?

If his faith were worth anything at all?

You'd think critically about opening his letter

changes. Page.

I'm sorry, J most of the time when I sign you as as proud man was interested in fighting

these intellectual wrestling matches where

he could slam everybody down with his superior argument.

Do I have to prove them to be true?

I do. Do I? James,

do you have any further questions?

I don't think we do now.

So they couldn't convince you.

Even though I was right.

Yes, I'm sure we're all very sorry for the defeat of our enemy.

Defeat No.

Finally, Jameson.

Mr. Hume, why don't the historical records convince you that my Messiah rose from the dead? What's this got

to do with his dead girlfriend?

And so the question Mr. Hume,

because I can always find a more likely explanation.

But what if the resurrection happened yesterday?

Would you believe your most trusted friend if he told you he had seen it?

None of my friends would put their faith in such Blarney.

Hypothetically. Hypothetically, you could have been a victim of a prank.

A prank. What if he showed you photographs?

pictures can be forged? How about if an angel appeared in hallucination?

Would you believe it? If you saw the risen man yourself?

No. How about if you touch the nail marks in his hands and feet

then? No.

What would convince you?

I said what would convince you Your Honor?

Objection sustained?

Watch it. Jameson.

Yes, it is a miracle anybody should have risen from the grave.

And it is a miracle that anybody should believe it.

You refuse to believe that He rose from the dead?

Yes, but you can't deny that some believe it?

Yeah, there all bloody insane.

And millions go on believing him

even without miracles. Why?

You don't answer that. Look.

I wouldn't believe it with the greatest eyewitness testimony.

The real one that is that you still believe in?

Here. Mr. Q. Allah, you're crucify Christ

Jemison. I'd rather be damned to hell.

And let him tell me what to do.

Order.

Mr. Hume

what will happen when I let go of this apple?

I don't know. Maybe the same as the last time and every time

if he hit the ground.

So it was caught, but that constitutes human intervention.

So why can't you accept the possibility of divine intervention?

Ready to give an answer.

How are you doing today, James?

I'll be filling in for Dr. frolic.

I'm sure they'll be okay with you.

It seems like you're putting yourself through some sort of trial.

Could you tell me about it?

And these people in your trial Professor bolt maniac?

philosopher Hume. Are they real to you?

Says you run across the professor at some kind of party or was it a real party?

Is his real name bold maniac.

Bold maniac. Life dates 1884 to 1976.

So when you met him that would have made you what?

Three years old.

I've met him in books.

And what's real about him?

Yes he was a maniac.

Where's Dr. Froliq?

Jameson You seem like you've had some education.

But you're sick. You understand that?

You're imagining things you've been imagining long before you ever came here.

Are you aware that some of the world's best paid theologians

question whether your Messiah ever existed?

Here and here

I don't know how you expect me to conduct a session

like this, the Talmud

the historian Josephus Tacitus

almost half a dozen ancient sources

confirming the historicity of a man

your theologians claim never existed

not to mention the archaeological evidence

so what does all this tell you really?

That someone living 1000s of years ago did God knows what

until some myth maker comes along and takes dramatic license?

Do you really think this is going to bring your girlfriend back

I almost forgot why I came

which is if you don't get a new attitude in the next 24 hours,

I'm shipping you upstate.

Right you looking for the doctor, she's still on vacation.

You talk to her right?

What does she think of me?

She wants one that allowed her you could care so much about somebody

who 1000s of years ago.

That's because he's still alive.

I'll explain it to her when she gets back.

Staples. You

wouldn't happen to know her first name would you?

Someone put books in your bucket?

It's my library

miracles by CS Lewis.

They're all CS lewis. Where did you get these?

You gave me my first one. Don't you remember?

Staples. I remember everything. I remember too much

to know. CS Lewis was an interesting man wasn't he

a complete atheist, who converted.

Then near the end of his life, he lost someone close to him and

he had a he had a break down

the defense calls its next witness.

Mr. Lewis

you meet a lot of people in your line of work here, right?

I do.

Are any of them crazy?

Not as many as you'd think.

What if you met someone who claimed to be divine

to be God?

And said he would prove it by rising from the dead.

Objection. What is the relevance of this line of questioning? Mr. Jameson,

Your Honor,

approach the bench.

Can't you find a better way to fight your demons?

Mr. Jameson? If you don't mind my asking,

why exactly. Do you have Mr. Lewis here

so go ahead then.

Mr. Lewis, how would you suggest we go about evaluating a man who claims to be divine

there are three possibilities?

Which are

he'd be a liar, a lunatic, or he'd be God.

Explain.

Let's just say it's claimed to be God was false.

Then you have two possibilities left,

either he knew he was false, or he didn't.

If he knows it, he's a liar. If he doesn't. He's a lunatic.

So you wouldn't recommend building a cathedral in his honor?

No. Would you recommend praying to him?

Mr. Jameson, a man who's only a man,

but says otherwise, would either be a lunatic on a level with somebody who says he's up

a poached egg, or he'd be aligned.

No further questions.

Cross Examination

What about a fourth option, Mr. Lewis,

that the man isn't divine, that he's just a very wise moral teacher

who decided to play the God card to get people to listen,

Mr. Prosecutor, if I intentionally deceived you by telling you

I could rise from the dead would you call me moral?

If I deceived you, unintentionally, would you call me wise?

Let's cut to the chase. Did Mr. Jamison's Messiah ever claimed to be God?

Did he ever say I am God?

He performed miracles.

He forgave sins only God can forgive.

He accepted worship

the people of his day know exactly what that meant.

And has Mr. Jameson consider

the consequences if he's wrong?

Objection. Because if it's not true, you'll never see

that dead girlfriend of yours again. Will you?

So doc how was the honeymoon.

Chance

between work and school and more work over the last I don't know how many years i

i haven't exactly had time for romance.

Well, if you gave a guy a number,

or even a name, Myrtle,

Massey, Medusa.

my private life is off limits.

Why? Listen,

Dr. Donovan is going to finish your sessions.

dubious. He's going to shut me off to the bottom Ilana. If you don't do something.

We don't do that anymore. It's just that he.

We decided it might be best.

When we've made such progress, I mean, come on. Doc.

Don't you have rules about not quitting?

Alright, wait. I've been saving this

find the exact metal.

Okay, so 118

Verse eight, 118 BSafe.

Look, if you count the chapters before Psalm 118, verse eight from the very beginning,

it adds up to exactly 594 chapters. And then after it,

if you count to the end of the book.

We have exactly the same number. Again, 594

and these two numbers add up to what?

What 11 Ada, the exact same number as the middle verse of the whole thing

Psalm 118 Verse a coincidence?

I think not.

No other religious writing does this.

Look only an infinite mind existing outside of space and time could have.

This is a document written and assembled over a 2000 year period.

Come on, read chapter 118 Verse 18,

Jameson please, okay, I'll read it.

It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence

in man.

Okay, so if you're not into that, then there's the Hebrew codes

missing. It could all mean something.

I just don't really think I'm mystical enough to get it.

It's like, you already have to believe in this before it can convince you

Donovan has already signed your transfer papers.

So my time's up, and you're not getting paid to treat me like a human being anymore.

So forget me. Good. Forget me and leave me like you did last time.

Go ahead page.

What did you just call me?

Doc? Like a coach a dog?

Coach, doc

I think it's time you left

quitting early

staples

what would you do?

I mean, you've been here a while.

I know he's not crazy. He's

he's got some guilt issues. He has an overactive imaginations

a little overzealous. Maybe the two of you are going about this the wrong way?

Well, it's a little late to do anything about it now.

But I'm listening.

It's not so much about the evidence in those books.

What's it about? It's more about his witness,

his witness. So which one because he had so many witnesses riding around the courtroom?

I mean, his testimony?

Has he ever told you how He himself came to believe?

I didn't think to ask.

Maybe I'm not a very good shrink.

Especially when it comes to religion.

It's not about religion.

It's about relationships.

What's that smile in your face? About?

What do you know about religion? And relationships?

Just watch and see how they hold up on the fire.

And what does that mean? The

truth is, you can draw life and death.

Life has to come from life.

You can't counterfeit that.

What James knows about God,

he has to apply to people.

So here's my letter.

The one you need to read.

Let's open it.

I'm asking the questions now.

When did I write the still on open letter?

Where did you find it?

In your car.

Somehow on touch by the fire

down the road from my place

after our last talk.

Tell me what side of the road was a car on

Thus is mater which side it was on? It might matter a lot.

Where was I heading?

away from my house?

J what side of the road was the car on? I don't know.

On the other side, from where I was parked?

Yes. On the other side. So what way was I driving without letter

back back towards

towards my house.

So I was coming back to your place, right?

Look, you already know all this.

The only new information you're going to get is in that letter.

So let's explore your doubts.

doubts.

I don't have any doubts.

Everyone has doubts

You're trying to trap me?

Doesn't your religion challenge you to put your faith to the test?

It's the only one that does.

So why are you so afraid of putting it under the microscope?

I'm not afraid of anything.

Except for the fact that you are the pure irrepressible evangelists

are being punished

for falling in love with a non believer

which makes you liked

$9

That's not the worst of it is it?

The worst of it is is that your religion

killed that sweet little girlfriend of yours?

I've heard enough

if you could just sign here

nevermind I'll sign it for you

still afraid to open it?

You get away from me? Or you really don't

want that?

Why wouldn't I

Busy you really wouldn't be alone wouldn't you

James look at me

and tell me what you think I am

doubt you represent doubt

and I know what you're doing.

So you better watch it or I'll expose you.

Is that why you keep replaying this trial in your head

over and over again?

Go ahead and say it

I've wasted a few precious days on earth that Paige and I would have had together see?

I'm not afraid to admit it

Then prove it once and for all. How

trade places with me trade places.

play devil's advocate, devil's advocate

How many times do I have to say it?

Yeah, there's one thing I know about you

you've never refused a challenge

so let's make it worth your while

win my case for me

and you'll never have to worry about this letter again.

What do you have to lose?

Problem solved.

I cannot go on like this can I

not like this you can

trade places with me.

play devil's advocate.

Staples. What if what the prophets and apostles wrote about the resurrection?

What if it was a lie?

If they made it up, how do you explain the empty tomb?

Maybe it was a cover up.

James can you really believe that attempt to hoaxed and die for what they knew was false.

Maybe they die for a lie they desperately wanted

to believe in.

James, the disciples were convinced against their wills.

The reason they expected an afterlife was because they saw the master alive

after they saw him dead.

Maybe they just wanted to be heroes with gospels

bearing the name.

Now they refuse to be treated like celebrities.

Instead, all but one of them were brutally murdered and beware harassed,

beaten, tortured, stone thrown to the light even crucified.

Listen to me. Something made them willing to lay down their lives.

Something as drastic as their leader coming back from the grave

with the promise that they too will rise from the dead.

rise from the dead.

Rise from the dead All right

maybe the Messiah didn't die at all

maybe he just think

the swan theory

didn't a soldier thruster spear into the body before taking it down from the cross.

Do you remember what it was that flowed from the spear wound?

It was blood

blood and water

water h2o

modern medicine tells us that a dead man's blood

separates into its constituent parts

into what looks like blood and water to an uninformed observer.

Meaning what exactly

you mean he really died on a cross

and three days later when he came back?

It was because

he got revved up from the dead.

luck

What are you doing here?

I found it found what

the missing part gentleness and respect that's what

I just realized how I could look it up

what up your ending? What ending

your motto? Ready

to give an answer

the whole thing

with gentleness and respect. Yes.

You keep leaving off the ending doc I

James when Are you finally going to be able to say it

and mean it and live it all of it

why those words with gentleness and respect

living for whome

How can I tell her now

she's gone

and she left without ever making a commitment

a commitment to what James? To me

to Him and who made you the judge of that

she was gonna break

your engagement and how can you be sure of that?

Plaintive letter.

James. If you want to love somebody,

you're going to have to risk some uncertainty.

Maybe even some hurt

read your letter and walk out of this place.

Come back to a world full of people

real people who love you

and want to share their lives with you

no matter what the cost

you open it James You know I can't open up for you.

I cannot either

by the way, I was curious about the nickname H gave you

you know J

Do you know what J means?

It means to rejoice

and I checked on the meaning of my name

Monique

advisor

counselor

James Donovan didn't take me off your case. I

I took myself off

I was starting to lose objectivity.

How do you know what I've been doing this past week?

Looking up that passage?

Well, yes, among other things

I've been thinking off the record.

I thought I might give you some advice.

As a friend

James J.

Off all the letters Paige wrote when she was alive?

How many how many did you answer?

I practically saw her every day.

I didn't think I needed to

maybe you weren't ready to answer her then.

But maybe you are now

don't you think it's time to say goodbye to the past?

dear page you know, I'm not very good at this.

I never was. And now I'm not even sure why I'm writing this.

But I want you to know that.

I'm sorry. I really am.

James

can't open it.

You can't or you won't.

You never give up.

You never let up?

Why wouldn't you just let me work things through for myself.

To meet him my guidance.

What I needed most from you was the courtesy of letting me think it through for myself.

But your answers were always

not yet. J not yet.

There has to come a final time when your answer is either yes or no.

Not yet. It's not good enough.

How do you know about how I felt?

Every time I share my faith?

You didn't share? You harassed?

Sure you were so rational and at times so patronizingly Nice, which only made it worse.

Could that make it worse? Listen, Jay, all it made me think about was the bloody crusades,

the Inquisition, the witch hunts, brutal conquest of the New World?

That is hardly fair.

I'm not finished. What about all those decent, honest people

that have never heard of your Messiah?

How can an all powerful God let bad things happen to them?

And to me

and to you, page.

Don't tell me what you always did,

that we'll get our answers in heaven where everything is fair and good.

Because things don't feel fine now.

And what you really want is to call God to descend

Oh why God Why did you take away this man's fiancee

to test him

they sacked me

what kind of god frightens people

I'm talking to you James

How could you defend that being like that

I don't know how but there will be answers

there have to be

let's face it

you're just spoken as the rest of us

nice day

I mentioned marriage

and you said you should write a letter

I never forget

I thought

you were leaving me

didn't realize

how soon you'd go

and now

I don't want to die

At least I was ready

were you Jay

Are you really

page a golden

no you let go of me

I'm not your savior

I'm not

open the letter

when I wrote to you before my accident

open it please

It's time to say goodbye to the past

All right, throw it all away

and don't ever think of me again

because I'm going home for good

page?

Jesus

dear James

Believe it or not, after you started praying for me,

I actually read that evidence book.

And now, finally, I know how to answer your proposal.

And I'm telling you the only way I know how.

Okay, so here are the words I read from another one of your books.

Words I've made my own.

Wherever you go, I'll go

and wherever you live I live also.

Your people, shall be my people

and your God