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I would be dead if it wasn't for you.

- First time you've killed someone? - Yes.

Why did you take the drug?

I wanted to see my father like I did at the ritual

but I saw my mother.

I found our guy. I'm going to watch the CCTV footage now.

Did you recognize me?

- You're leaving? - Yes, goodnight.

Can I talk to you for a moment, please?

Yeah, sure.

I wanted to talk about Murat.

Sure, go ahead. Is there a problem?

It's not a problem

but you know I massaged him the other day.

I know, I saw you when I came in.

He asked me to do the massage I give Ezo, that's why I did it.

He didn't force you did he? You did it willingly?

Of course. He was very sweet.

He even gave me a raise.

I remember.

He treated me great that day. He never used to compliment me like that.

So what?

I know it's stupid but I feel like

he has feelings for me.

I'm so ashamed to be telling you this, but I do.

You think Murat likes you?

I think so. He called me the Balinese girl.

Sorry, what was your name?

- Zuhal. - Zuhal...

You shouldn't take Murat so seriously.

I'm telling you this as a psychiatrist.

He's going through a tough time.

So don't take him too seriously.

It'll only make you think things that aren't real.

Why did you say that?

Just believe me, OK? Got it?

Maybe, he finds me attractive?

No.

He played with you unintentionally.

Forget about it.

What do I do if he asks for a massage again?

Say “no”, Zuhal.

Have a good evening.

How do you know I was looking for my father's killer?

Cem told us.

The guy who was injured in the operation room.

Cem? The fat guy?

I don't know how he got away!

He came to us and told us everything.

We brought him to you and you killed him, OK?

Nothing else can come from this.

Because there's nothing else.

You're in enough trouble as it is.

We'll get rid of the body.

You walk out of that door and forget it ever happened.

Why did you help me instead of killing me?

We knew your father.

You knew my father?

You guys aren't old enough.

- Who do you think you are? - Calm down.

Can you please sit Murat? I have to ask you something.

Now.

You just killed the man you were after for years.

How do you feel?

I feel nothing.

No relief.

He didn't resist.

I thought he would beg for his life.

Would you have gotten some relief if he had got down on his knees and begged?

Maybe... I'm still in a rage. Nothing has changed.

I'm still angry. Nothing's changed at all.

Whoever you kill...

that rage will never go away.

Are you a psychologist?

I'm a killer.

And I felt just like you the first time.

It wasn't enough.

I was still so angry.

You're a killer, you have no feelings.

- I had killed my father. - Oh!

I got into this business later.

Why did you kill the guy from the other night?

We didn't want him to harm you.

It was a quick decision.

That's why.

We don't know who he is.

Why are you protecting me?

Don't worry about it. Now go.

No one will come after you.

You've got your revenge.

Return to your old life now.

You're valuable to society.

Are you an academic or something?

It's over, Murat. We don't have to talk any longer.

Don't push it. Just go.

I'll find out.

I'll find out who you're working for.

- May I have your key? - You may not.

You can't park here.

Now?

- Yes? - Hello. Can you talk, Murat?

- Yes. - I called about Zuhal.

Could you find someone to replace her?

Why didn't she call me?

Why would she call you at this hour?

She doesn't even know I'm calling.

- Why? - That day...

She got the wrong idea about you after the massage.

- What wrong idea? - Stupid stuff.

She thought you liked her.

And why is this your problem?

Well, I...

She's always with Ezo.

It was a little weird.

I thought you'd like to know.

You want me to fire her?

No, you've got me wrong. I just wanted to...

Don't worry about it, Ceyla.

Let her like me.

I wish all women liked me, Ceyla.

Professor Murat?

Sir? How are you, sir?

This is Emre.

Emre? Who?

My boyfriend.

He's great.

Are you my student too?

I'm an assistant lecturer in the Philosophy Department.

- Good. - You haven't been in class for weeks.

- I was wondering... - I'll be there this week.

- You mean tomorrow? - Tomorrow.

- Yes. - I'll be there. You?

Yes, sir. If you attend, I'll be there.

I'll be there if you will too.

I still can't believe I ran into you here.

Are you alone, sir?

I'm always alone. Always!

- Come here. - What are you doing?

Let's go!

I haven't seen my teacher in weeks.

- Are you in a hurry? - Yes I am.

I have a class tomorrow.

If you're not ready now, don't bother to go at all.

Did anyone ask you?

Emre! Please!

- Let's go! - No!

- What are you doing? Are you crazy? - He is drunk. Can't you see that?

Look at me. He is an old man.

- You should be ashamed! - What are you doing? Are you crazy?

Come on, stop fighting. Have some.

- Yes. - Here you go.

I'll kill you, girl!

I'll kill you!

Let me go!

You're going to be sorry for this! You'll see!

- Taxi! - Neslihan! Neslihan!

You humiliated me, Emre!

The guy was coming on to you.

- Leave me alone, Emre! - What does that mean?

He was whispering things to you.

- I said leave me alone. - I will not! Move! Move!

Move!

He's an old man, whispering in your ear...

Wait for me!

- Neslihan, Neslihan! - Let me go!

I said let me go!

You think you can hit me? Do you?

- Do you? - No!

- Do you? - Let me!

- What are you doing? Stop it! - Don't start me now...

- Don't! - I'll teach you!

What a pity!

What are you doing?

I'm having a bad night.

Who are you?

Stop asking the wrong questions.

You already know who I am.

- Who was that? - He?

My father's murderer.

I killed him a couple of hours ago.

Murderer? I don't want to die! Why did you take me?

You're studying Philosophy. I thought that we could talk.

There are some things in life that I cannot answer.

Look...

Just answer my questions if you want to live.

I don't want to have to force you.

I'm tired enough as it is.

Is this why you came to the club?

- Were you celebrating? - No, I just felt empty, and I went.

If you let me go, I won't tell anyone anything. I promise.

I have a feeling I'm going to hear this phrase a lot from now on.

Why?

I don't get it.

You pulled Neslihan's hair,

and smacked her.

Are you an animal?

- I was just jealous. - Why?

- She was too intimate with you! - How?

You whispered something and she laughed.

And how old is she?

23!

Then she's old enough to make her own decisions.

But what do you do?

You pull her hair, you curse

and you humiliate her. In front of me, no less.

How is she going to look at me in class tomorrow?

She's going to remember this night

even when she's 80 years old. Did she deserve this?

I made a mistake. I'm sorry.

Don't apologize to me, apologize to Neslihan.

I'll do that.

First thing tomorrow, I'll get her some flowers and apologize.

- You have no tomorrow. - What are you going to do to me?

- I'll make a career out of you. - There's something you don't know.

I'm married. I have a wife.

I loved Neslihan.

I couldn't stop myself, but I also love my wife.

Please let me go. She needs me.

Which one?

- Both. - What does your wife do?

- Assistant professor. - Assistant professor...

Neslihan is also a very good student. She has a great future.

Neither of them needs you.

I love them. Look, if you want me...

to leave Neslihan, I will.

I did wrong to her.

I will never see her again, I promise you.

Do you hit your wife, too?

- No! - You've never hit her?

I love my wife.

All I want is her respect.

I respect you.

No!

Good job!

Good job!

Who are you?

We're here to do your cleaning.

Who sent you?

The cleaning company.

Who are you?

The man who killed them.

They told us there would be one body. How are we supposed to take care of two?

Let's call them and have them send two people over, we can't do it.

No need. You girls handle it.

There's a lot of work. We'll never finish in time.

And we only got paid for one body.

I'll pay for the other.

No, it can't be done.

I'll tell you what...

One, two, three.

Come on!

You never saw me here, okay?

Deal.

We never saw you.

Good.

- Have a good night. - You too.

Thanks.

I just got out of work.

I COULDN'T SLEEP.

Konusmak istersen, gelebilirim.

SURE.

- How are you? - Fine.

Come in.

Keep your shoes on. I haven't had a chance to clean yet.

You're cleaning the house?

I know two very capable women if you like.

Thanks, but I don't like strangers in my house.

Anyway, I like doing it myself. It clears my head.

- I couldn't sleep either. - Why not?

I don't know. I had a tough night. Maybe because of that.

Good.

Then tell me why you ran away the other night.

You're right. I'm so sorry for doing that. Really.

I don't want you to apologize. I really want to know where you went.

I really am sorry. I ran to the street when I heard the screams.

Just when I was about to interfere, the gun went off.

Then your chief appeared and I got confused. So I left.

Why did you get confused?

I don't know.

I know there's no explanation.

I should've stayed but I left. I didn't know what to do.

That's your explanation?

Yes.

Do you think any woman

would want to see you again after you pull a stunt like that?

Like what?

- We go out for dinner. - Yes.

Someone beats me to death on the street...

and you run.

I know, I get it.

I wouldn't be with that me if I were you either.

- That you? - I mean, me.

I really did go after you. I did.

But then the gun went off the guy was shot and collapsed.

Chief Dogan came and I got confused.

I really didn't know what to do.

Then?

Then I got in my car went home and went to bed.

I'm not used to stuff like this.

Normal people can't be as calm as policemen.

I thought I was a restrained person but I guess I'm not.

On account of you, Selin...

I've learnt something about myself.

Chief Dogan saved my life.

I would've been dead if it wasn't for him.

You think he saved your life?

What do you mean?

I know I didn't save you.

But how do you know Chief Dogan did?

He shot the guy.

No, he didn't.

What do you mean he didn't? He did.

He fired up in the air.

How did the guy get shot if he fired up in the air?

I don't know.

Ask him yourself.

Are you sure?

I saw it with my own eyes.

He told me he shot him.

He gave the shell to ballistics. He even testified.

Why would he do such a thing?

You should ask him yourself.

Why does he keep on lying? If he didn't shoot the guy, who did?

I'm just here for couple of weeks and things keep on happening to me!

What does he want from me?

Calm down. It's okay. Calm down.

I want to be alone.

I'm so confused. I want to think.

Nowadays everyone needs to be alone.

You can call me anytime you need to.

- Thank you. - Yes.

And he acts like he saved my life!

I ask you!

Hello?

Yes, Dogan.

I missed out on a hot girl because of you!

You had sex with Ceyla thanks to me!

If I miss this girl because of you, I'll kill you.

Idiot.

- Hello? - Chief Inspector Dogan.

Professor Doctor Murat Gunay.

You told Selin that someone else shot the man?

Has she done it already? I thought you'll talk tomorrow.

What is it to you if I shot him or not?

How do you know?

Did you shoot him?

- What is it to you what I did? - Chief...

I had to make up for what I did last night.

She thought you saved her.

So I couldn't miss the opportunity.

What kind of a man are you?

A man who never lies.

- Why did you run away from the scene? - Long story.

Listen to me carefully.

Selin saw me as a man who is afraid to fight last night.

So I couldn't let you be the hero.

- Do you like her? - Do you?

Why else you put on a show like that?

I didn't.

I also have my reasons.

Killers must be happy thanks to you.

They kill someone you take the blame and save them.

- I'll kill you! - Go ahead.

Kill me.

If you could, you'd kill the guy who tried to kill Selin.

- What are those reasons? I'm curious. - What's it to you?

If you want professional help,

I have a very good doctor with me.

She could help you out.

- I'm going to help you out. - Are you threatening me?

Salim!

Salim!

- Sir? - Salim!

Sir? Are you alright?

- No, Salim. - Sir!

You did it again didn't you? Didn't you?

Sir!

You must tell Murat! You must tell Murat, Salim!

Tell him what? What?

What's wrong darling?

I couldn't sleep. Maybe it's because of that.

Something else's the matter.

Tell me what it is.

Forget about me. Will you come to the hospital if I set it up?

I will, but I'm a little afraid.

Why?

What if my face is worse after surgery?

I've gotten used to it like this.

You haven't got used to anything. Don't kid yourself.

Anyway, medicine has advanced.

Advanced where?

All I see is weird looking celebrities after surgery. I see them in the papers.

You'll be fine.

I'll go through with it. I've made up my mind.

But I'm nervous.

Come on, tell me what happened.

I did a very bad thing, Mother.

What?

I have no one else to talk to so I might as well tell you.

I know, all I have is you too. Tell me.

I slept with my boss.

Does he love you?

I don't know.

I don't even know how I feel.

Is he married?

No.

He is single but I've distanced myself from him.

I can never do this again.

You can't stop yourself. You're all grown up.

What has age got to do with it?

It's all about it.

Even if you could, he couldn't.

You're a beautiful woman. He's a single man.

What am I going to do?

Is he a player?

No, he lives alone.

It might not be such a problem if we had met some other way.

But I see him every day. He pays my salary.

I feel bad.

You wouldn't have told me if you did.

I can't condone this behaviour.

But you haven't done anything wrong.

You should do whatever makes you happy.

Aren't you afraid I'll leave you?

I'll be out of here soon. You should make a life for yourself.

Where to?

Right.

You're talking about getting married.

Will I see him today?

You probably will.

I think I'm jealous when it comes to him.

Be careful, sweetie.

Men are unpredictable.

Will he leave it alone?

He will.

I told you not to hurt him.

Why did you hit him?

I couldn't help myself when he attacked Vecdi. I couldn't stop myself.

But I didn't hit him that hard.

- Yeah right. - He hit him with a magazine.

A magazine?

It really didn't hurt that much.

Didn't he ask how you found the guy?

We told him, he was the only hitman left from that period.

He didn't ask, he just believed.

Still, we should be prepared.

He kept on asking who made him do it.

We thought he'd calm down when he killed the guy

but he didn't.

I can't believe Murat.

He couldn't hurt an ant.

What happened to him to make him this way?

He shot the man without hesitation.

And he was still furious.

Vecdi told him something good.

He told him he killed his father and his rage never went away.

He tried to make Murat let this thing to.

- How is your father? - He's fine.

He has started to sell donkey milk online.

This milk is so expensive.

It's like breast milk.

Nothing can be as good as breast milk but

they do say it's healthy.

He has a glass every morning at breakfast.

Get me some.

- Sure. - It's for my grandson.

How much do you want?

He'll send it out today.

- I want five litres. - Sure.

I'll make you a cake

with the rest of the donkey milk.

Sure.

Morning.

Morning darling.

Morning Fusun.

Morning Fusun.

I'm going out with the boy. Are you home?

Yes. Where are you going?

Shopping. I've no medicine left. I have to get some.

OK, darling, be careful.

Don't worry.

We might stop by father's house after.

Don't go without calling.

If you'll go you have to call him.

He could be busy.

OK, Mother. See you.

The Organized Crime Unit found one of Fazil Abdulhadi's contacts.

A businessman called Vecdi Demir.

Well.

Who is he?

He's an importer.

He imports medical material to hospitals.

They are investigating him.

They haven't found anything illegal yet.

He was working with Fazil, that's illegal enough!

Fazil was straight on that date.

They think he got into this shit after he ran from Syria.

They are going to look at the equipment at the fake operation room

to see if it leads to Vecdi at all.

Is he in Istanbul? Where is he?

It seems so. They're looking into it.

Let us know before Organized Crime. Let us see him first.

Sure.

But this time, I'm coming with you.

There's no need. Murat and I will handle it.

Don't you think you've abused my trust as it is.

Fine, you're right.

I'll call you if there are any developments.

Why did you leave the envelopes at my door?

- I'll explain everything. Sit down. - What do you want from me?

File a complaint if you want to.

I don't care.

Just listen to me.

You testified to shooting that man! What is this?

And you acted like you saved my life.

Calm down.

I can't! What do you want from me? What are you after?

I'm trying to explain, Selin!

Are you sick?

- Are you really sick? - Enough!

Sit down if you're going to listen or go and do whatever the hell you want

So the pot's calling the kettle black?

Selin.

Yes, Selin I'm guilty. But I'm not strong.

I made a mistake here. Just like the one you made in Bursa.

I need you to help me. Just like I helped you.

Chief! There's been a murder.

I don't feel well, Mert. Could you go with him.

Sure.

Thank you.

Salim?

- Good morning. - What time is it?

It's nearly eleven.

Can I have a glass of water?

Why?

Why what?

You came home so late again.

- Where were you? - I...

I didn't tell your uncle that you are still using.

You told me you made a deal with yourself...

but I don't even know who that person is that you turn into.

- He told you that? - He said you made a deal.

Why?

I have to take the drug in order to wake Ezo up. I change the dosage every time.

Sir...

All Ezo has done is move her finger

and open her eyes.

What if years go by like this?

It's no small thing, Salim.

She's been in a coma for years.

It's a big thing.

You're sacrificing yourself for Ezo!

Isn't she worth it, Salim?

You're going to lose everything if you continue this. Not just yourself.

How can you make a deal with that monster?

I must remember the other night.

The police girl and I were out.

I have to remember because...

When I woke up, there was a man in the middle of the street.

And I don't remember anything.

Do you remember it now?

He must've written me a note.

You were in so much pain when you came home.

The drug was probably wearing off.

So?

You said “You must tell Murat!”. And then you fainted.

You were saying something but you couldn't finish your sentence.

Really?

I'm sure you did something, sir.

You should stay in today.

Don't see anyone.

I have to see Ezo.

The hospital's very close. We'll go together.

Then we should go straight home.

DON'T TELL SELIN ANYTHING.

You shouldn't see Selin today.

What difference does it make? I won't remember it anyway.

What are you going to do? You're going to take the drug again?

Wake up, sir! That drug is addictive.

And you made a deal with the man. Why didn't he write you a note?

I don't know!

Ceyla called last night. Then I spoke to Selin.

We exchanged texts.

She asked me over to her house.

Inspector Selin...

What have I done?

I'll get breakfast ready.

Can I play for a while, Mom?

Sure, baby.

Yes, Fusun?

Why are you doing this?

Doing what?

Didn't I tell you to leave me alone?

You called me, Fusun!

We won't see each other any more if that's what you want.

I just wanted to see if we had a shot.

But now I understand that we don't.

Then you go your way and I'll go mine.

So it's that easy for you? You go your way and I'll go mine.

I don't understand what you want.

Weren't you the one who told me to leave you alone?

What is it you want now? You went to Thailand to get better.

Is this how you get better?

Why did you go at all if you were just going to continue all this.

You left me, that's fine but didn't you care about your son?

You're questioning if I'm a good mother?

No. But I wish it would have made a difference.

You're still the same person.

Hello?

Wait here. Don't go anywhere.

Don't speak to anyone. I'll be right back.

Okay.

Are you okay, ma'am?

You're not okay. I'm calling security.

Mom?

Mom?

Hello?

It's Ferit.

Hey, kiddo.

- Where's your mother? - My mother is ill.

What? Where are you?

At the mall.

Is your mother there?

She's having an attack.

The paramedics are on their way ma'am.

- Who is speaking? - A woman.

Give the phone to her.

Hello?

I'm security.

Are you her family?

Forget asking questions.

- Did you call an ambulance? - Yes.

Listen to me carefully now.

Tell them to bring her to the Gunay Hospital, okay?

Got it.

I'll tell them it's Gunay Hospital. Don't worry.

Fusun had a panic attack. She's not well. I have to go.

Okay. I'll be there after class. Is she okay?

I don't know.

- How did it go? - We took care of it.

Where's the Chief?

We took the suspect to the courthouse. He won't be back today.

Do you really know Dogan?

How long have you been working together?

Four years now. Why do you ask?

I'm still getting to know him.

He's a calm and straight-forward kind of guy.

How is he with women?

Is he always like this?

- How? - I don't know. A loner?

I don't know if he is a loner or not.

He doesn't talk about that stuff too much. We don't.

Who was his partner that got killed a while back? Utku?

Yes.

He was in a bad state then. He's better now.

You wouldn't have recognized him then. He really is better now.

Utku's mother is his mother now.

Actually, he was going to see her after the courthouse.

That's why I said he wouldn't be back.

Do you have her address?

No, but I can find it.

- Could you? - Sure.

You have serious burns to your face.

Your eye, your cheek... You've got scarring on your ear.

We can do lots to help.

We'll do some procedures.

Then we can do laser operations that don't involve cutting.

- My eye? - There's a serious drift in your eye.

We need to do some treatment. It will be good as new.

- Hello. - Welcome, sir.

Don't get up.

- I'm Murat Gunay. - Nice to meet you.

My daughter told me about you. Thank you so much.

You're welcome.

We should take a look at your vitals.

Then we can set up a date for the first procedure.

Let's go.

After you.

She seems happy.

She's a little nervous.

It's not easy. She'll have a new face soon.

Yes.

I wanted to ask you something.

When do you think we could talk about Ezo?

About Ezo?

Well, I have a class. But I'm free this evening.

You can come to my place.

Sure.

Great.

I'll tell you everything about her.

- Do you believe she's going to wake up? - Of course I do.

- Okay, see you. - Well...

One more thing, Murat.

I did something silly last night.

I know I shouldn't have called you.

What did we talk about? I was a little drunk.

I guessed as much.

It was about the nurse, Zuhal.

What's the issue?

She told me she likes you. You don't remember?

Oh right. That thing.

We'll talk about it later...

It was a mistake calling you. I just wanted to tell you that.

- See you tonight. - OK.

Your shift isn't over Zuhal?

It is. Kudret went to the bathroom. She'll be here soon.

Is there any progress?

She tried to open her eyes last night.

- Anything else? - No, nothing.

You kept your eye on her, didn't you?

- Of course. - Fine, you can leave.

How was the massage?

What massage?

Oh yeah, it still hurts.

It won't get better overnight.

Yes.

Thank you.

You may leave.

You have to try too, Ezo.

If you don't want me lying next to you...

Try a little harder.

- Hi, sir. - Hello.

- How are you, sir? - Fine.

We've missed you, sir.

Go to class.

Sir?

- Are you okay, sir? - I'm fine.

I wanted to apologize for last night, sir.

What for?

I just left you there. I'm really sorry.

I was a little drunk. I'm sorry.

- It's okay. Go to class. - Okay, sir.

I hope I'll see you out again.

- She's awake! - Son?

- How do you feel? - I'm fine.

I spoke to the doctor. He said you had an asthma attack.

You have to stay here tonight.

Try and get some rest. I'm here, don't worry.

Thank you.

Darling?

I'm fine, Mother.

What do you mean fine?

The doctor told me you didn't have your meds with you.

I was out to buy some, I told you.

Why did they bring her here?

I asked them to.

- Fusun? - Dad.

Baby.

- Are you okay? - I'm fine.

Seeing you and her together makes me better.

Good boy!

We were going to come to your place.

I'll see you here. It's okay.

Let her stay here today. I spoke to the doctor.

She'll release tomorrow.

Okay.

Let's leave her alone.

Let her rest.

I'll stay with my daughter.

Don't bother, I'll stay.

Both of you go.

I want Salim to stay.

That's fine. Murat will also be here.

It'll be fine. You go.

It's nothing important. It's happened before.

Don't worry so much.

Take Ferit with you Mother. His stuff is at your house.

Come on, let's go.

Take care, honey.

Thank you.

Sleep. You need to rest. I'm here.

Thank you.

- Why isn't Murat here? - He had class, he'll be here soon.

Is he alright?

Yes, everything is fine.

He's still working on Ezo.

How is she? Still the same?

She's not getting worse.

Can I see Ezo before I leave?

Murat doesn't like anyone going in without his knowledge.

But since you're here, you can see her. This way.

She was such a sweet girl.

I don't understand how she did that to herself.

We don't know if she tried to commit suicide or not.

Where did that come from?

You can wait outside.

Does Murat know about this?

He does. You wait outside with her.

Let's go.

She's been here for years...

And she's still beautiful.

Her late father loved her.

Ezo.

It's Yildiz.

Did you miss me?

She's started reacting a little more.

Murat told me. She moved her finger.

She opened her eyes the other day.

I'll come to get Fusun in the morning.

Don't bother, I'll bring her to you.

I will come, Ferit.

I miss Utku so much.

Who wouldn't miss my baby?

I'm not well.

What is it, son?

I don't know. I don't feel well.

I can't get used to Utku's death.

I lost a child, and you lost a brother.

We can't get used to it.

I'm afraid of doing bad things.

Like I'm heading towards a road I don't know anything about.

Please, stop.

I should pray for you. It'll make you feel better.

Sure.

Do you hate me?

- No. - I hate you.

Are you going to tell me everything?

Who are you?

Who are you?

What am I going to do?

What have I done? What?

What have I done?

I was supposed to do something, but what?

I was going to bury him in the garden.

Am I crazy?

I can't bury him in my own garden.

In the garden. The guy. The garden...

He's so fucking heavy.

Subtitle translation by: Yesim Hisim