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Kamikaze is a fictional story about loss, grief and rediscovery.

If you are dealing with mental health issues

or experiencing suicidal feelings,

speak to someone you trust or contact a helpline.

Consuelo...

I think you already know this...

but I'll say it anyway.

If I hadn't met you I would have found another way.

I'm really sorry that I cheated you. I am.

Seo-Jun, I'm sorry you had to bump into me when I tried not to be me.

ChavoXX,

I like to think you were not too scared when you died

because you know the scene so well...

but really I think death takes us by surprise.

Whether life is worth living depends on whether you are in a party mood.

Sometimes you just want to stay in bed.

Other times you really want to go out.

I've made sure I'm not coming to the party.

And you can't do anything about it, Bo.

Constance, I know I have treated you badly.

I hope you can forgive me.

I'm aware that you love me, and that you're only doing your best.

I thought I was different than all those people who say they want to die

but don't actually want to die.

But I'm just better at fooling myself.

Krzysztof, I should have let you into my life.

And you, my shrimp.

I can sense your presence.

And I am happy that we are two.

We didn't give up.

Mum, dad, Tom.

I know that I said

you must sort things out yourselves, but I need you.

So if you can, intervene.

Help me.

Help me.

I don't want to die.

I don't want to.

I don't want to.

I don't want to.

- Hello, hello, my friend. - Hello.

Shoes, sunglasses. Hats. How much?

150. Good quality. 150.

- I give you 50. - No. 50, no. 100.

- Okay, 100. - Yeah.

Thank you.

Come, please.

- We don't have a lot of time. - Yes, we have to hurry.

Here?

- I'll adjust it right away. - Great. Thank you.

This is a great place.

Help!

Here!

An eclipse happens

when the moon is equidistant between the Earth and the sun.

The diameter of the sun is 400 times that of the moon.

But the distance is also 400 times greater.

Seen from Earth the sun and the moon

appear to be approximately the same size.

That the moon can block out the sun is a cosmic coincidence.

It was my stroke of luck.

One day I will explain it all to you.

About the eclipse.

And the hat that blew off.

And that the moon doesn't really block out the sun.

It just seems that way down here from Earth.

A cosmic coincidence.

Miss?

Everything is normal.

It's a girl.

I'll tell you about everything I know.

The things I understand.

But also what I'm never going to understand.

Because it can't be explained.

Things just happen.

What's that?

It's the inside of me.

Of my stomach.

I'm pregnant.

Who's the father?

I don't know.

But I'm not sure I want to know,

because...

this little thing...

and you...

You are the only ones who matter to me.

Okay.

Thank you.

- You're not hurt? You're okay? - I'm okay.

- You're faking your condition. - I'm okay.

This is where it happened. Exactly one year ago today.

And I'm here with your father.

Listen. The frog.

Butterfly.

When one day you are old enough to watch this video,

and old enough to question everything and therefore ask

why it says "pancake syrup" on my forehead.

Or why you have Korean eyes. If you do.

We're almost there.

Or why you were born.

My answer will be that it's the same as with most big things in life.

Unplanned.

And in the big scheme of things... A complete coincidence.

This is where it all happened.

But first, when you're born,

I'll help you with the most basic necessities in life.

How to put one leg in front of the other

and how to form words with your mouth.

The rest we'll work out together.

How to live your life.

Because we're starting over again.

And this...

...is just the beginning.